My mother asked me to go on a blind date with a man who had bullied me on campus. “He gave me 18.8 w betrothal gifts. Don’t hold grudges.” After the
meeting, he pretended to say, “I really like you.”
I put my rice bowl upside down on his head. “Get out!”
I eat quietly with my head down.
My mother suddenly gave me a piece of meat, and her voice was unusually gentle. “Eat more, I’ve lost weight recently.”
「…… OK
“I’ll ask for leave from the supermarket tomorrow afternoon, and I’ll introduce you to someone. You two know each other, Song yuan-kai from high school. Do you remember?”
Song yuankai.
I shivered uncontrollably and looked up at her in shock. “Mom, he..”
My mother interrupted me and picked up her cell phone to draw a picture of Song yuankai.
“His family runs a factory. If you follow him, you’ll be the boss’s wife in the factory. Isn’t that better than a supermarket cashier?”. The
picture was handed to me.
My mother’s words became a pale deaf ear in an instant.
All the pictures are overwhelming. The pain of the burning
arm, the water poured from the head, the slap in the face again and again.
He laughed shamelessly, and the people around him booed unscrupulously.
“Take it easy, brother Kai..”
“Don’t scare people..”
「……」
I covered my ears and broke out in a cold sweat. Stop it!
“I’m talking to you. Why are you shouting for no reason?”
My mother tore off my hand.
I gasped and stiffened. “Mom, have you forgotten what Sung yuan-kai did to me before?”
Quiet.
「…… Mom, remember, isn’t that in the past? They apologized and gave the money. What else do you want?
How to get there.
He made an affectation of apology.
And then he bullied me even more.
Slap me in the face and throw a piece of money.
“You can go and tell your mother. In the end, just give me the money, right?”
I closed my eyes tremblingly. “It was you who wanted to take the money to avoid trouble, but I can’t get through this..” Can’t
get through, can’t get through! How can there be so much! He said he did it because he liked you. You don’t have any missing arms or legs, so the money is already the greatest sincerity!
I am usually well-behaved and docile, almost submissive.
This time, I really don’t want to.
I grabbed my mother’s hand and said, “Mom, I can have a blind date with anyone you want, but not Song yuan-kai.” “In our small county, the one who can give the most betrothal gifts is his family,”
she said coldly.
“Your father is paralyzed in bed. Kangkang is still young. We need money. You can only go on a blind date with him unless you want me to die.”
She got up from the table, went back to the house and slammed the door.
I cleared the table numbly and took the dishes into the kitchen to wash.
Kangkang is my brother, and he has been making trouble.
With a squirt gun, he kept watering around me.
I was upset and reminded him a few times.
“Stop playing, my sister is washing the dishes.”
“If you play again, your sister’s clothes will be wet.”
「……」
But he wouldn’t listen.
The water is still coming to me.
Even aimed at my eye water.
“Kill you! Kill you!”
I was so fascinated by the water that I couldn’t open my eyes at all. I reminded him loudly again, “Kangkang!”! Stop playing! The water shooting
at me finally stopped. As soon as
I opened my eyes, I saw him throw a bowl at me from the stove.
Mom said, you’re a woman, and after you get married, this family is all mine. You’re my babysitter now, so why should you be mean to me?
The porcelain bowl hit me in the face.
The right side of my cheek hurts.
Feeling blood flowing out of my nose, I raised my hand and wiped it.
The palm is bright red.
Seeing the bleeding, Kangkang turned and ran.
The floor was wet with the water he had just spilled, and he slipped and fell to the ground.
He began to cry, opening his mouth and shouting, “Mom, Cen Ruonan hit me!”
The door opened and my mother came running in a hurry.
When he saw Hsiao-kang lying on the ground, he quickly picked him up and said anxiously, “What’s the matter?”
He pointed at me and opened his mouth. “I said this house would be mine from now on, and she pushed me. Mom, kick her out!”.
The child’s disgust was undisguised and direct.
I can’t tell where it hurts at the moment.
“Mom, I didn’t..”
She interrupted me again.
Rubbing Kangkang’s head and gently coaxing him, his eyes were full of indifference when he looked at me.
“You’re a girl, and you’re going to get married. Everything in the house is healthy. What’s wrong with that?”
“The elder sister doesn’t know how to give in to her younger brother.”
“Raise an ingrate who is not ripe.”
……
I squatted down slowly and tried to pick up the broken tiles on the ground.
The tile was sharp and cut the finger. He
lowered his head and the blood from his nose flowed down again.
Mixed with blood dripping from a cut finger. Dazzled into a small pool of harsh red
on the ground.
I watched numbly.
But I don’t feel any pain.
Before Kangkang was born, I used to be the apple of my parents’ eyes.
But occasionally I hear them behind my back. Why am I not a boy.
So he named me Cen Ruonan.
Because the father has asthenospermia, the probability of conceiving a child is very small.
But they still haven’t given up the idea of having another boy, and they are still trying to find ways to try to conceive another one.
Finally, they got what they wanted and gave birth to Kangkang.
And then I was left out in the cold. The
complete change happened in the third year of high school.
Dad had a car accident because of drunk driving, and he suffered from high paraplegia.
In order to treat his illness, the family spent most of their savings, sold a spacious house, and moved to the present old and small.
Mom’s attitude towards me is completely bad.
It happened that my admission notice came down.
In the days of being bullied by Song yuankai, I still clenched my teeth and studied.
Finally, I went to a good university.
I happily showed the admission notice to my mother.
She took it with an expressionless face and tore it up in front of me.
“What kind of university do you want to go to at this time?” If
you leave, who will take care of your father? Who will take care of Kangkang? Where did you get the money for your education?
“Mom..” I begged her, “I can borrow money to pay my tuition, and I can earn my own living expenses on a part-time basis. I will often come back to take care of my dad.”
She coldly took away all my household registration books and ID cards.
“I found you a job as a cashier at a supermarket to earn some money to support your family. It’s also convenient to be close to home and take care of your father and brother. In two years, when you’re old enough, I’ll find you a man with a high bride price to marry.” I
have just graduated from high school for two years, and I am 20 years old this year.
At the legal age for marriage.
So she couldn’t wait to find someone with a high betrothal gift to marry me.
Even if the other party is Song yuankai.
I closed my eyes and stopped remembering.
The pillow was wet. Four o’clock
in the morning.
Still not sleepy.
I can’t remember how long I haven’t had a good sleep. I haven’t slept
all night.
The next day, I was on the night shift, but I still had to get up early, make breakfast, turn Dad over, feed him and change the dressing.
Mom took my brother to school. When I
went out, she reminded me, “Remember to go to Chun Kee and have dinner with yuan Kai in the evening.”
My body stiffened for a moment. OK
At the appointed time, I didn’t go to dinner, nor did I go home. Spent the night
in the Internet bar. Night shift as usual
the next day.
But just before four o’clock in the afternoon, my mother suddenly came angrily to the cash register and grabbed me.
“I’ve grown up. I didn’t eat yesterday, and I didn’t come home. Now I’m coming home with me right now!”. The people coming in and out of the
supermarket all looked askance. Holding back the pain,
I reminded her, “Mom..” I’ll talk about it when I get off work. There are a lot of people here.
“Think I can’t cure you if you use work as a shield?”
She let go of me, went to the door of the supermarket and sat down on the ground, wailing at the top of her voice,
“It’s not up to the mother to grow up. It’s just to arrange for her to go on a blind date. She won’t go home, and her mother won’t recognize her.”. As a mother, I want her to marry a good family. Isn’t that for her own good?
The aunts stopped and surrounded her.
She continued to cry, “I didn’t go on a blind date, and I became an unfilial daughter in Shiliba Street.”. The supermarket manager came out to deal with the bad
influence.
My mother said that as long as I was willing to go home with her, she would not make trouble at the door.
The manager asked me to ask for leave to go home with my mother and come back to work the next day. When she
went home, she bought a lot of vegetables. It’s twice as much
as usual, and it’s all good dishes that you don’t want to eat at ordinary times.
She even cooks it herself.
Let me go back to my room and clean myself up.
I have a bad feeling. Around
seven o’clock, the doorbell rang.
My mother called me to open the door in a hurry.
“Cen Ruonan, long time no see.” Song yuankai stood at the door.
His gaze lingered on me, and finally it was fixed on my upper body, smiling ambiguously,
“a lot fuller again.”
My blood seems to be frozen all over.
The scene gradually merges with a scene from high school. In the
classroom, clean up. The
bucket was filled with black water that had just washed the cloth.
Song yuankai picked it up, lifted it to my head, and poured it from head to head.
I’m soaked to the skin. The short-sleeved school uniform in
summer is instantly transparent and becomes close-fitting, showing the waist curve.
Because he wanted to hide his breasts, which were more plump than those of other students, he bought a much wider school uniform, which had no effect in this moment.
Song yuankai whistled at me obscenely and said ugly words.
The others burst into laughter.
I was so embarrassed.
The first time, I plucked up my courage and slapped him. “Get out of here!”
***.. Don’t be so ***ing shameless! Kick me
hard in the stomach.
I squatted down in pain.
He came straight at me with an obscene laugh.
……
“Won’t you invite me in?” His words brought me back to reality.
“I’m here on a blind date with you today.”
His smile was as dirty as ever.
I stood stiffly in the same place. There was a strong smell of blood in
his mouth. I don’t know when I bit the blood in my
mouth.
Clenched fists, nails also deep into the palm, pinched the palm full of blood.
Even though I was already trembling uncontrollably, I held on, forcing myself to say in a dry voice,
“Get out.”
There was no slap in my face as there was at that time.
He leaned close to me, and the smell of tobacco and alcohol carried some bad memories that made my hair stand on end.
“It’s still the same.”
“But your mother almost got down on her knees to invite me here today. Are you sure you want to kick me out?”
“She also said that there was only so little space in the small county town, and everyone knew that you were dirty and couldn’t get married, so it was only appropriate to marry me.”
I turned pale, and the rush of memories made me want to retch.
No.. We didn’t have sex at all that night!
Who believes you? Who told you to call the police? Cen Ruonan, if you provoke me, I have the ability to make you suffer for the rest of your life.
Get out! I want you out of here! I covered my ears and shouted. When
my mother heard it inside, she rushed out of the kitchen and slapped me on the back.
“What nonsense!”! It’s not easy for yuan Kai to get here. Hurry up and invite him in!
I clung to my last hope. “Mom, don’t let him in, okay?”
“Come in and sit down, yuan Kai. It’s all home-cooked food today. I don’t know if it’s to your taste.”
My mother ignored me directly and pulled Song yuankai into the house from outside the door. The moment
he stepped into the room, the last thread in my body broke.
Song yuankai was already seated at the table.
My mother picked up food for him enthusiastically.
Kangkang had just received a red envelope from him, and now he had changed his usual appearance as a bully and called him brother cleverly.
They are happy.
I was forced to sit next to Song yuankai.
Mom grinned from ear to ear. “Look how predestined you are. It’s rare that yuan-kai has been in love with our Ruonan ever since high school. It’s the only thing he’s ever been in love with.”
Sung yuan-kai put on an affectionate performance and put some food in my bowl.
“I didn’t know better before, and I did something bad to Ruonan. Fortunately, my aunt didn’t care, and gave me a chance to continue to get along with Ruonan.”
“It’s normal to have a little friction between children. It’s all over. Eat, eat more.”
I lowered my eyes and looked at the dishes in my bowl with the chopsticks he had eaten, holding back the tumult in my stomach. Pick up
the bowl. The
bowl and rice were placed upside down on his head.
“Disgusting.”
Song yuankai’s face is ugly.
Cen Ruonan! Have you lost your mind? My mother growled at me.
“You made your mother angry, and you bullied your brother.” Kang Kang threw pieces of bones from the table at me, and finally he even picked up a plate of sticky braised pork in brown sauce and poured it on me. “Bad woman, leave my house.”
I sat expressionless.
A meal was not well eaten.
After Sung yuan-kai simply packed up and came out, my mother repeatedly apologized to him, “I’m sorry, yuan-kai, Nannan has had a strange temper recently, so..”
Sung yuan-kai smiles. “It doesn’t matter, Auntie. She’s probably still angry with me. I understand.”
Then my mother scolded me and forced me to send him downstairs. In the
old neighborhood, the road is very dark.
I turned to go back.
Sung yuan-kai suddenly pulled me aside, raised his hand and slapped me in the face.
“Put the rice on my head. Who gave you the face?”
The right side of his face is hot and his ears are ringing.
I called him, “a beast in human skin.”
A brute? Now that I’ve scolded you, I can’t let you down.
He ripped open my shirt. The blood flowed back all over
my body in an instant, and the buzzing sound in my ears turned into a noisy noise. Memories that
I deliberately hide, break through the ground.
“Brother Kai, can you do it or not?”
“Everyone is watching. Don’t drop the ball.”
「……」
Many people gathered around, watching, laughing, and heckling.
My bridesmaid dress was torn to pieces and my skirt was lifted.
Song yuankai lies on my body.
The pants are half down.
……
Let go of me.. Let go of me!
I pushed Song yuankai away with all my strength and ran home regardless.
Mom is cleaning up.
I was in a trance for a moment, as if I had returned to the days before Kangkang was born.
At that time, my parents really loved me, and I was distressed for a long time when I had a little wound.
“Mom..” I felt wronged and hugged her. “Sung yuan-kai just bullied me.”
Looking at me in scantily clad clothes, my mother’s eyes finally showed distress.
“I thought he had really changed, but I didn’t expect that he would still be such a bully. Tomorrow my mother will go and tell him clearly that we won’t talk about this marriage!”.
I was ecstatic, and I thought, no matter what, Mom loved me after all.
……
But these are just my extravagant hopes, the reality is that I was pushed away coldly.
My mother just glanced at my naked body and said,
“Now that we’re talking about marriage, sooner or later you’ll have to sleep in the same bed. He touched you to cultivate feelings, not to mention bullying.”
I bowed my head in disappointment.
Originally, love my mother, only stay in memory.
“But I didn’t want to. He forced me.”
She was angry. “What do you want to do? Call the police like you did then?”? Isn’t that enough of a shame?
“Everyone in Shiliba Street knows that you ruined your cousin’s wedding, and that you were violated by yuan Kai at your cousin’s wedding. Are you satisfied?!”
I almost ruined my cousin’s wedding.
In the first year after graduating from high school, my cousin got married and asked me to be a bridesmaid.
My brother-in-law is also from our county.
I just didn’t expect that Song yuankai was his best man. I
was trying to avoid him.
But later in the game, he came straight over and threw me on the sofa. The other girls in
the bridesmaid party wanted to come over and help, but were stopped by the groomsmen.
“It’s just for fun. Don’t take it seriously.”
“The two of them have been together since high school, and now they’re back together. What’s your hurry?”
No one came up to help.
I struggled in despair, and then I went straight to the point. Kick at his vital parts as
hard as you can.
I don’t remember how many times I hit it.
Finally, Song yuankai fell to the ground, covered his crotch and rolled painfully. A pool of water slowly appeared
on the ground.
Song yuankai was kicked to urinary incontinence by me.
Everyone looks at me in a weird way.
I put on my clothes silently and waited for my mother.
My mother came to see this and gave me a slap. “Look what you’ve done!”
“It’s Sung yuan-kai’s fault!” I was stunned, and the tears I had just wiped away fell down again.
My mother, however, didn’t want to talk to me. She turned around and apologized to her cousin and brother-in-law, as well as to his family.
“She’s not sensible. I’m sorry. I’ll take her back. I’ll pay for yuan Kai’s medical expenses.”. Eat and drink well.
I insisted that it wasn’t my fault.
But they still look at me reproachfully.
Song yuankai was sent to the hospital, and the wedding went on as usual.
Heard that Song yuankai’s examination results came out, that part is swollen, later observation and treatment, to ensure that it does not affect the future reproductive function.
The next day, I went to the police station to call the police.
That I was molested in public.
Then a lot of people came to the police station.
My cousin’s parents, my brother-in-law and his family, Song yuankai and his family, and my mother.
“Comrade policeman, they’re just getting married. It’s not a big deal. We’ll settle it in private.”
“And the two of them know each other. It’s normal for young people to fight with each other.”
“We yuan-kai are still lying in the hospital, and we don’t know if we’ll be able to give birth to a child. If we want to sue, I’ll sue her first!”. In
a small county town, the police can’t do anything about it.
Especially when it comes to neighborhood affairs, we should not get involved if we can.
He just let us figure it out for ourselves.
So Sung yuan-kai’s family asked my mother, “What do you think of Ruonan’s mother?”
My mother felt humiliated.
“It was supposed to be a happy event, but it ended up like this. I’m sorry. I’ll take her back first, and let it go.”
Later, the incident became a joke and spread among the neighbors.
And the more it spreads, the more ridiculous it is.
In their words, I have had sex with Song yuankai.
There was a time when my mother didn’t want to go out for fear that others would talk about her behind her back.
To make matters worse, my cousin’s first child after marriage was accidentally aborted.
They all said that it was because I made trouble at the wedding and hurt other people’s lifeblood that my cousin’s reincarnated child could not be kept.
This is retribution.
Later, my cousin’s family broke off relations with my family. From then on,
I had another title in my mother’s mouth, the star of mourning. None
of this makes me sad.
What I’m really sad about is that Song yuankai was cured.
The doctor said that he could have a normal baby in the future.
I was thinking.
If he can go wrong in his next life, I will go to prison.
……
I arranged my clothes and walked back to the room in silence. Before I
closed the door, I thought about it and made up my mind to say to her outside, “I won’t marry her. If you want to marry her, marry yourself.” With
that, I closed the door as quickly as I could.
The door was thumped by my mother’s hand.
Accompanied by her unbearable abuse.
“Raising an animal and selling it is worth more than you!”
“You’re a money-loser, let you marry a rich man and still think I can’t hurt you!”
「……」 With
my back against the door, my body seemed to have been drained of all strength and slid down the door. The vibration of the
door panel, the ugly abuse.
They all turned into invisible hands and pinched my heart tightly. Out of breath
.
I crawled to the bedside table and took the blade from the drawer. Every time the
heart contracts painfully, a scratch appears on the arm. The
bright red blood seeped out. Pain in the
arm can bring a person to consciousness briefly.
Tears and blood dripped down.
I told myself.
Ronon, you don’t owe anyone.
Ronon, don’t listen to her anymore.
Ronon, you belong to yourself. It will be fine when the
day breaks. There was little movement
outside the door.
I leaned against the bed and didn’t know when I fell asleep. When I went to the supermarket in the
afternoon, Xiaoyu kindly reminded me,
“Your mother just came here to make trouble again. It’s very fierce. Why don’t you go to my place to live tonight?”
I work late today, but I still get up early and go out.
However, this time, I did not prepare breakfast for the whole family, nor did I turn over, feed and give medicine to Dad.
Instead, he went to the hospital and hung up the psychological department. My mother came here in a rage
because a “nanny” didn’t do what she was supposed to do.
I shook my head. “Thank you. I’m going home tonight.”
Xiaoyu is about the same age as me, and he also came to work here after graduating from high school.
But unlike me, she didn’t go to college.
Xiaoyu chewed gum in her mouth and blew a bubble.
“You good children are always bullied by your mother because you have a strong sense of morality.”. So what if she’s your mother? You’ve been thinking about this blood relationship, thinking about giving to the family. Does she treat you like a daughter?
I pursed my lips and lowered my eyes. “I know.”
Before Xiaoyu left, she still asked me uneasily,
“Are you really not coming to my house at night?”? I think your mother is really angry. There’s no one in my house anyway.
I still shake my head.
She yawned. “All right, it’s up to you. You can call me if you need.”. You’re good at learning. I’m good at dealing with this kind of mother. At
10 P. m., the supermarket closes for work.
I packed up and left the supermarket to go home.
On the way home, I have done a good job of psychological construction to meet the storm at home.
I got home at about half past ten. Unexpectedly
, there was a table of rice on the table.
It’s rich and warm.
My mother came out of the kitchen wearing an apron and carrying a pot of soup.
She saw me with a gentle smile. “It’s just right to be back. Are you hungry?”? Sit down and eat.
I’m confused. My mother has never cooked
since Kangkang was born.
All the housework falls on me. Mingming went to the supermarket to scold me so aggressively
this morning, and now she. What
the hell are you doing?
She even filled my bowl herself and greeted me with a gentle smile. “What are you waiting for? Come and eat.”
I sat down at the table. Smiling,
she gave me a piece of sweet and sour short ribs.
“I remember when you were a kid, you liked this dish best. Mom hasn’t made it for you for a long time. Try it. Has the taste changed?”
I looked at the sweet and sour short ribs in the bowl.
This is what I loved to eat when I was a child.
But she forgot, and then I once made sweet and sour short ribs, and Kangkang choked because he gobbled them up and accidentally swallowed the bones. After I was
sent to the hospital, my mother beat me up directly. She
said that I almost killed her baby son because of my appetite.
I haven’t made sweet and sour short ribs since.
I don’t like it either.
…… “I don’t like it anymore,” I said without any emotion as I scraped aside
her sweet and sour short ribs.
Her expression was a little embarrassed.
“Then eat this. Fresh hairy crabs. Mom will peel them for you.”
“I’m allergic to seafood.”
Hairy crabs are Kangkang’s favorite food.
She was even more embarrassed. “When I ate some vegetables, the vendor said they were home-grown and didn’t use pesticides.”
I simply put down my chopsticks. “I’m not hungry.” Anxious,
she snapped at me, “What do you want?”? I’ve already cooked for you myself, so why should you be angry?
I said calmly, “I want you to give me my ID card and I want to leave here.”. I don’t want to marry Sung yuan-kai. I want to abandon this family
all day long! If you grow up and your wings are hard, you will dislike this family as a burden, right? Don’t forget who raised you! I
lowered my eyes.
Just when I thought she was going to continue to explode, she suddenly said softly,
“Mom knows she’s wrong, so I made this midnight snack for you tonight. If you’re not hungry, at least finish the soup, OK?”
“Don’t waste your mother’s heart. I’ve been cooking this soup for a long time.”
She went into the room and took out my ID card, which she had been hiding.
“Take a sip of soup. Mom will feel better.”. I’ll give you my ID card and you can go anywhere you want. The soup in the
bowl bottomed out.
I reached out to her. “You said you would give it to me.” She had a strange look
in her eyes, and finally came over and took me to the sofa and sat down. “I’ll watch TV with my mother for a while.”
As soon as I opened it, it was the cartoon that Kangkang liked to watch.
She tuned a TV play about parents’ short stories, which she liked, but I didn’t like.
I didn’t want to see it, but she held my hand tightly. What I felt
now was not warmth, but my first thought was that there were more cocoons in my palm than hers.
Because I do all the housework at home. She is the one who
doesn’t touch the spring water.
Later, my head gradually got dizzy. It
is different from the tiredness of sleepiness.
It’s out of control, trying to wake up and not being able to do it.
“What did you do..”
In a daze, I saw Song yuankai coming out of Kangkang’s room.
My mother stood up with a smile.
Sung yuan-kai handed her a few bulging envelopes and said, “This is 50,000 yuan. I’ll give you the rest of the betrothal gift when it’s done.”
“Well, well, Ronon is yours for the night.”
I was angry from the bottom of my heart.
It turns out that all the strange things tonight are just to sell me to Song yuankai!
I want to bite the two people in front of me to pieces.
But my body is out of control, and there is no place to exert force.
I was carried to the car and lay on a strange bed.
……
I shouted desperately. Song yuankai
on my body, shaking, blurred, ferocious.
Fortunately, my strength is gradually recovering.
I began to struggle so hard that I finally bit his ear.
Like a ferocious wolf.
No matter how he hits me, kicks me.
I won’t let go.
His ear oozed blood and was almost bitten off by me. Finally, he released me and covered his bleeding ear with a painful face.
I took the opportunity to run out.
There is no place to go, so I can only go all the way to Xiaoyu’s house.
When Xiaoyu saw me like this, she was startled. “What are you doing?!”
I didn’t have the strength to open my mouth and fell headlong at her door. When
I woke up, it was already dawn.
Xiaoyu left me a message,
“I’m in the whole class these days, and I’ve replaced your class. You should have a good rest first.”. For breakfast, I bought Steamed Small Meat Dumpling in Basket and soy milk and put them on the table. When they were cold, I heated them myself before eating.
I lay on the bed and looked at the dazzling white ceiling. Peace of
mind.
I thought that after last night, I would be completely devastated.
But suffering did not bring me down after all.
It became armor, enveloping my vulnerability and timidity.
I was torn to grow up, and cut off the last thought of that home in the blood dripping.
A bowl of chicken soup, I was sold like an animal. There is nothing to miss in
that home.
I got up, went into the bathroom to take a shower, and went out to the salon.
“Cut your hair short.” I say.
The hairdresser quips, “Cut off 3,000 threads of worry?”
I didn’t answer.
Hair falls to the ground. All things in
the past are like yesterday’s death; all things in the future are like today’s life.
I’m going to find Xiaoyu. When she
saw me, she whistled frivolously, “Beauty, will you have a midnight snack tonight?”
I told her not to be poor.
She pinched my chin and looked from side to side.
“How beautiful it looks now. Who doesn’t like this little face? Before, the whole person was lifeless.”
Seeing that I was in good shape, she asked, “What happened last night?”
I’m not going to involve Xiaoyu at present, so I didn’t tell her the details.
He just said, “What Li Hsiu-lien did.”
Xiaoyu’s face was ugly. What did she do again? Do you need help
“Not for the time being. When I need you, I’ll ask.”
Some things, to face their own, can really come out.
Whether it’s that family or Song yuankai.
Owe me. I’ll get it myself.
I went home as usual.
This weekend, Cen Ningkang doesn’t have to go to school.
Li Xiulian is drying clothes on the balcony, and Cen Ningkang is playing alone in the living room.
He saw me come back and fired at me with his toy gun, which contained round yellow plastic bullets.
“Piu piu piu, shoot the wicked woman.”
I squinted, went straight over and grabbed his gun, threw it on the ground and trampled it.
He burst into tears and ran out of the balcony to hold Li’s thigh and complain, “Mom, Cen Ruonan broke my gun!”
Li Xiulian looked at me with a guilty conscience and said nothing.
“Be good, baby, you can rest for a while. Let me finish drying my clothes and go to watch TV for a while.” I’m sitting on the sofa at the
moment.
Cen Ningkang came in angrily, far away from me, holding his breath and watching TV there.
And then I got bored.
Started jumping on the couch.
People came to me, pointed at me, and said, “Get down and ride for me.”
When he was a child, he always liked to let people ride for him.
Li Xiulian’s waist was not good, but he cried again if she didn’t give him a ride.
So Li Xiulian asked me to be a horse for him to ride.
He crawled round and round the living room. I can’t spoil him
now.
I pointed to the rocking horse not far away. “If you want to ride it, ride it. Don’t bother me.”
I want you to ride for me! I want it!
He suddenly lost his temper and dragged me to climb up my neck.
I bent over directly.
His center of gravity was unstable, and he fell straight to the ground with a wobble. I broke my
front tooth. There’s blood coming out of
his mouth.
He cried loudly. Attract
Li Xiulian’s attention.
When she saw that my son’s mouth was full of blood, she slapped me in the face and said, “What do you think of my brother?”
I grabbed her wrist coldly. “It was he who wanted to climb on me first. He deserved to fall down.” How can you say that you
deserve it! You’re trying to kill him!
She picked up the hanger on the tea table with her other hand and hit me again.
I grabbed it directly and hit Cen Ningkang directly.
“If you don’t teach your son a lesson, I’ll teach you one.” How many times did you
just want to hit me? Five times? Ten times?
“Ten times, then.”
I used a hanger to pump it on Cen Ningkang’s ass.
He cried loudly.
My mother was also shouting beside me.
“God damn you, the star of mourning, you’re coming back to do evil!”
Stop it, you stop it! Kangkang is going to be broken by you! She carried
him out of the door and went to a small clinic.
When he came back, Cen Ningkang had a shiny Ultraman in his hand.
He made a triumphant face at me. “Mom says we’ll kick you out tomorrow!”
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However, there is no.
Li Xiulian is not willing to let me go as a free nanny for the time being.
She is going to play Mahjong today, so she asked me to take Cen Ningkang at home.
Cen Ningkang could not stay and shouted to go to the park to play.
I didn’t want to talk to him.
But I think there are many children over there.
After thinking about it, I decided to go.
The bear child will be treated by the bear child. The recreational facilities in the
park have all been occupied by children.
Cen Ningkang wanted to play on the swing, so he bossed me around and asked me to drive him away.
“Get rid of him!”! I’m going to play on the swing!
I gave him a knife with a cold eye. “Do you want to be whipped?”
He probably remembered that he had been beaten by the clothes rack yesterday, and he was honest in an instant.
But the nature of the bear child does not change. In order to sit on the swing,
he walked over with great strength, taking advantage of the gap between the little fat pier on the swing and wiping his sweat, he stretched out his
hand and pushed the little fat pier straight off the swing.
The little fat man fell to the ground and cried loudly.
Cen Ningkang did not realize the seriousness of the matter, only know that he finally grabbed the swing, happily climbed up the swing to play. The parents of
Xiao Pangdun heard the cry and rushed over, listening to their children crying and telling the whole story intermittently.
The parents immediately shouted, “Whose wild child is this?”
I reported my home address in detail, “Li Xiulian, 402, 4th floor, Unit 3.”
The little chubby parent is also a powerful character.
“Wait, I’ll take my Junjun to check. If there’s any problem later, I’ll never let your family go!” Xiaopangdun is
also a bear child who refuses to admit defeat.
While his mother was talking to me, he ran straight to Cen Ningkang, who was still swinging. He pushed him off the swing with
one hand.
Little Chubby has great strength.
Cen Ningkang’s body is light, and along the force of the swing forward, people fly directly forward. In front of the
swing is a green belt made of stones.
Cen Ningkang hit straight up, his head on the stone, and blood gushed out.
……
Cen Ningkang was sent to the emergency room.
Li Xiulian paced anxiously outside.
Her tears had dried up and her eyes were red and swollen.
She was so anxious that she had to find someone to vent.
So he walked straight up to me and pulled my hair. “I told you to watch Kangkang. Is that how you see it?”
I pulled her hands away and pushed her to the ground.
She watched her hair get messed up and fall to the ground like a madman.
I said in a cold voice, “Don’t go crazy with me.”
“It’s you who didn’t teach your child well and raised him to be lawless. Not everyone has to give in to him.”
Probably accustomed to my usual submissive appearance, Li Xiulian sat on the ground in a daze when she saw me breaking out now.
Then she went on to say,
“Come on, look, someone is going to beat his own mother to death, come on!” She had no spectators outside the
rescue room, and the noise only attracted nurses.
“Family member, this is a hospital. Please keep quiet.”
Li Xiulian was forced to shut up. When the door of the
emergency room opened, the nurse said that Cen Ningkang needed blood transfusion and asked our two family members to prepare for it.
I was also taken to the blood room.
But at the time of the blood test, I was type A. The
lying father, Li Xiulian and Cen Ningkang, are both type B.
Two type B parents, no matter what, can’t give birth to a type a child.
I’m not their biological child.
I thought I would be surprised, or show a little bit of sadness.
After all, the family that has lived together for 20 years is not my real family.
But I feel somehow relieved at the moment.
I thought they might really treat me as a daughter before Cen Ningkang, so I tolerated and conceded.
I’ve always thought that blood is thicker than water, and no matter what, they are my biological parents.
But now it seems that we don’t even have the last layer of relationship.
I don’t have to worry about anything anymore.
Li Xiulian did not give any explanation for this, and now she only wants to save her baby son.
I did not make trouble with Liu Xiulian in the blood drawing room, but calmly walked out of the blood drawing room.
Cen Ningkang came out of the emergency room, but he was still unconscious.
Doctors say the situation is not very optimistic, intracranial hemorrhage may lead to disturbance of consciousness, leading to hemiplegia and aphasia.
After sobering up, Cen Ningkang was hit in both cases.
Right hemiplegia plus aphasia.
Became disabled.
Li Xiulian almost cried herself blind. During the month
when Cen Ningkang was hospitalized for recovery, I searched every corner of my home. I
didn’t find my ID card, nor did I find the household register.
In the past two years, I have tried to reissue my ID card at the police station, but I suffer from the lack of a household registration book.
I have also tried to reissue the household registration book secretly, but I have to provide all kinds of certificates, such as street opening, community opening and so on.
Li Xiulian was familiar with the staff of the community, and those staff directly told her that I wanted to issue a certificate.
Then, Li Xiulian said to them,
“Our household registration book is not lost, and neither is her ID card.”. She was deceived by other men and wanted to run away with others. That man was not a good thing, so I put these two things away. I did it for her own good.
After that, no matter what I said, the community workers did not give me a certificate. He
also tried to persuade me not to be cheated by that man.
……
I can only go to the free blood collection point of the public security organ to register the information first, and then compare the blood collection, hoping to find my biological parents through the powerful information base.
But there is no news yet.
Cen Ningkang was discharged from hospital and returned home.
With hemiplegia and aphasia, he could no longer be a bear child and could only sit quietly on the sofa watching TV.
I asked Li Xiulian directly for her ID card. “That day we agreed to give me my ID card.”
After taking care of Kangkang for a month, Li Xiulian became haggard and thin.
She roared, “You know you’re not our own, and you want to run away, don’t you?”
I tell you, you can take your ID card and leave, but if you find your biological parents later, you can also get a new registered permanent residence! Unless you give me 300,000 yuan to offset the cost of supporting you all these years!
Completely broke up, Li Xiulian simply tore her face, the lion opened his mouth.
I clenched my fist and looked at him coldly. “Go back on your word.”. Once there was a scene between mother and daughter, don’t go too far.
She doesn’t care about the worthless mother-daughter friendship. “Unless you give me 300,000 yuan, nothing else!”
I slammed the door in anger and left.
Go back to Xiaoyu’s house. I
didn’t hide it from her any more. I told her everything about Li Xiulian asking for money.
Xiaoyu was so angry that she pounded the table.
This kind of insatiable person should be killed by a car when he goes out! How much money do you have on you? I’ll lend you the rest. After graduating from
high school, Li Xiulian has been putting away my ID card and household registration book, so now, I don’t even have a bank card of my own. The wages
I have worked for these years are directly transferred to Li Xiulian’s salary card.
She only occasionally gives me one or two hundred yuan in cash as pocket money when she is in a good mood. I
usually save it for a rainy day.
But the money is only two thousand left now.
For 300000, it must be a drop in the bucket.
Xiaoyu was so worried that she scratched her head. “What should I do? Is she so arrogant?”
I shook my head.
If I was going to give her 300000 yuan, I couldn’t tell her about it.
I have other plans.
“Xiaoyu, you have a lot of connections. Help me find some skilled people who come to collect debts.” If the
soft one is no good, then come to the hard one.
A few ferocious looking big men followed me to Li Xiulian’s house. As soon as
Li Xiulian opened the door, a strong man familiar with the business immediately came forward and tied her up.
What, what are you doing! Cen Ruonan! How dare you find someone to kidnap me!
I looked at her blankly. “I just want my ID card.”
Bah! Impossible! I don’t believe you can really do anything to me today!
“Can’t do anything to you?”
If I can’t do anything to you, then why should I emphasize that I should ask Xiaoyu to help me find a skilled person. Advantages of a skilled debt
collector.
It is to know how to torture people to maximize pain without hurting their lives. People
like Li Xiulian probably won’t last long. Only then did the
strong man hang the blade over her arm and claim to cut it several times.
The blade just touched the skin, and it hasn’t been pulled in yet.
Li Hsiu-lien was so frightened by the strong man’s posture that her face turned white as snow. “Give me a break, I’ll give you, I’ll give you!”.
She asked to let go of her hand so that she could take it easily. There
are so many people, and I’m not afraid that she can do something to make people let her go.
I saw her put her hand into her pants, took out my ID card and threw it in front of me.
No wonder I can’t find my ID card.
It turned out that she had always been close to her body.
Go away, go away! That’s why your real parents sold you, you black bastard! If we hadn’t bought you, you wouldn’t know where to suffer!
Bah! He even dreamed of finding his own parents!
I’m bending down to pick up my ID card. With a loud
bang, Xiaoyu slapped Li Xiulian in the face. “What’s the dog barking?”
Li Xiulian is honest in an instant.
…… After
returning to Xiaoyu’s home, Xiaoyu suddenly took out several bundles of money from her satchel and said, “Here you are.”
I froze for a moment. “Where did you get it?” When I was packing
for you, I searched Li Xiulian’s room and found this bundle of money. I think you should get some compensation for being bullied so badly by that old woman all these years.
“At a rough count, it should be 50,000.”
I turned pale and broke out in a cold sweat.
The 50,000 yuan was given by Song yuankai. Everything that happened
that night, it was like the sea flowing backwards, drowning me in an instant.
I was curled up in pain, covering my ears and shaking.
“Are you all right?” Xiaoyu hugged me and patted me on the back. “It’s all right, it’s all right.”
I passed out.
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It was night when I woke up.
The whole room fell into darkness. The
only faint light came from the sofa.
Xiaoyu is playing mobile phone there.
I woke up, turned on the floor lamp, got up and went into the kitchen, and cooked me a bowl of egg noodles with scallion.
“Get up and eat it while it’s hot. If it’s lumpy later, you won’t be able to eat it. I don’t want to cook another bowl for you.” In the middle of the night, I ate
a bowl of hot soup noodles, and tears fell down for no reason.
In the end, they were routed.
Tears burst.
I vented and cried. It
‘s different from any previous suppressed tears.
This time it was simply catharsis.
Will have been the backlog in the heart, sadness, dissatisfaction, hesitation, all vent out.
Xiaoyu has been accompanying me quietly.
I gradually calmed down.
In the dim light of the warm yellow light, I described word by word how I grew up in that home. The
beginning of love. The snub
that followed.
In the end, he found that he had been bought.
By now, I have no idea what my birth parents look like.
I paused for a moment, saw the 50,000 yuan in the corner, and told him what had happened that night.
“This 50,000 yuan is the money that Li Xiulian sold me to Song yuankai.”
“She drugged me and asked Sung yuan-kai to take me to a hotel, and then he..”
「…… In the end I bit off half of his ear before I had a chance to get out. After listening
, Xiaoyu stood up with an angry look on his face.
I asked her, “Where to?”
“Castrate Sung yuan-kai!”
I grabbed her and lowered my eyes. “No, I’ll do it myself.”
Only by myself can I really let myself out.
I asked Xiaoyu to inquire about Song yuankai.
I heard that he had been in and out of the hospital during this period because his ears were rotten.
Even places such as sensual places and barbecue stalls are rarely visited.
“But it’s strange that you bit him so hard that he almost became an ear, and he didn’t try to find you everywhere to get back at you.”
I looked calm. “He just made up his mind that I had a family and couldn’t leave here, so he wasn’t in a hurry to get back at me.”
Song yuankai is always like this. Keep it
in your heart, and then suddenly stab you.
That’s why he deliberately came to have a blind date with me and disgusted me.
But this time, I’m going to hold the initiative in my hands.
I dug out my high school uniform from the bottom of the box and put it on.
Two years have passed.
Specially bought plus size school uniform is still empty on the body.
I called Sung yuan-kai. “Nine o’clock in the evening, at the back door of the high school. Are you coming?”
Sung yuan-kai sneered, sarcastic and arrogant, “Come on, do you want to miss the past with me?”
I hung up the phone.
……
It’s still summer vacation. The campus is quiet and empty
at night.
The back door was an abandoned rusty iron gate, overgrown with weeds. The wall in
this area is relatively low, and there is no guard to watch, so it is convenient for students who skip classes to climb over the wall and get in and out.
Song yuankai came over with half his ear tied with gauze and a cigarette in his mouth. He looked at me from top to bottom
in the faint moonlight.
Finally, he blew a smoke ring in my face and laughed wickedly, “Are you playing like this?”? cosplay？ Dream of going back to high school?
Yes, it’s beautiful, pure and desirous. To tell you the truth, I really like people like you. ***!
Song yuankai was pushed to the ground by several strong men.
I didn’t come alone.
These strong men were good at collecting debts that day.
It was Song yuankai who looked down on me, so he didn’t have any precautions.
Of course, these strong men are more than enough to deal with Song yuankai. Song yuankai,
who was pressed to the ground, struggled desperately, cursing in his mouth,
“Damn, Cen Ruonan, I haven’t seen you for a few days!”! I’ve learned to find someone to plot against me!
You let me go right now! Otherwise, as long as I live, you won’t have a good time in this area!
I looked at him pressed to the ground like a mole ant and said in a cold voice,
“Then don’t live.” I
entered the school and came to the classroom where I used to stay in Class 5, Grade 3.
It is also the place where I was tortured by Song yuankai for three years.
I thought, where you start, where you end.
Song yuankai was tied to a chair and his mouth was gagged with a rag.
He hemmed and hawed, his pupils widening as I lit the candle.
Candlelight flickered on my face.
I walked towards him with a calm face.
Do you remember? When there was a power failure in the class, the head teacher gave everyone a candle, and everyone used it for lighting.
“Just you, light it and drop hot wax on my hair, neck and arms.”
“a whole one.”
Wax dripped on his body.
Song yuankai struggled violently and hissed in silence.
The candle burned out.
Song yuankai’s eyes were red with pain.
And, again and again, water poured down from my head. I’m soaking wet, and you deliberately set the air conditioner to the lowest level. The next day, I always had a cold and a fever.
Basin after basin of water poured down from the top of Song yuankai’s head. I turned the
indoor air conditioning to the lowest level.
His body began to shake. A
girl’s body, whether plump or thin, is hers. Why should I be laughed at by you?
I smashed the empty basin in his face.
“What else?”
“a piece of money for a slap?”
I threw the 50 grand straight in his face, “Count how many slaps you can get with that money!”
Crisp applause echoed in the classroom.
Song yuankai’s face gradually became red and swollen.
Because of the force. Blood was oozing from
his bandaged ear.
I don’t know how many times.
Until Xiaoyu, who was always with me, came to stop me. “Stop fighting. The force is mutual. Your hands are swollen.”
I don’t feel any pain.
But when I looked down, my hand was really swollen.
Song yuankai’s face is the same as a pig’s head.
I don’t think it’s worth hurting myself to punish him.
Song yuankai half closed his eyes and collapsed on the stool, lifeless.
Until I pulled out a dagger.
He opened his eyes suddenly, shaking his body violently, and his eyes were full of panic.
“Things could have gone.”
“But on cousin’s wedding day, why did you do that?”
“What I regret most about that day is that I didn’t just kick you out.”
“That’s why what happened back at the hotel.”
I’m not dirty. You are the one who is dirty.
Finally, I took him outside the back door of the school and let him go.
But as fate would have it, maybe I just wanted to give him a hard time. Unexpectedly,
he was really afraid and ran out of the road desperately and desperately.
A big truck came speeding up.
He didn’t have time to stop.
Song yuankai was involved in the car and died on the spot.
Later, I had a high fever and lay at home for three days.
These three days, Xiaoyu has been taking care of me.
Many times when I was awake, I wanted to talk to her for a while, but I always had no strength and fell asleep after a while. When I woke up
this time, I obviously felt much better.
Xiaoyu fell asleep beside the bed.
I moved a little and she woke up.
Subconsciously, he reached out his hand and poked it into my forehead. He breathed a sigh of relief and said, “Finally, I’m back.”
She stretched and said to me, “There is good news and better news. Which do you want to hear?”
“Good news.”
Li Xiulian was sent to a mental hospital. She was short of money, but she didn’t make money on the right path. She gambled with others, and finally lost her house and owed a lot of debts. There is a paralyzed husband and a disabled son at home. She had a nervous breakdown, and she was in a state of panic.
Her mother’s family finally came and sent her to a mental hospital, and her disabled son was taken away to be raised. The paralyzed husband was also picked up by his own younger brother.
“How do you say it? The family is broken, the wife and children are separated.”
I listened quietly.
These people and things seem to be far away from me. I can’t make any waves
in my heart.
“What’s the better news?”
“Yes..” Xiaoyu stood up and went to open the door of the bedroom. “Dang Dang, you registered with the Public Security Bureau for blood collection. The powerful information base has found your biological parents.”
A couple walked into the bedroom with a choked voice saying, “My child, Mom and Dad finally found you.”
I was stunned for a moment, and my eyes were moist in an instant.
Mom
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It turned out that my parents did not sell me, but that I was abducted when I was a child.
They never gave up looking for me.
I wasn’t abandoned by them.
My father runs a company in my hometown, and they want to take me back there. Before I
left, I asked Xiaoyu, “Will you go with me?”
I know Xiaoyu’s family is not good to her.
She is now in a free-range and vagrant state, and one person is full and the whole family is not hungry.
I appreciate her company and help during this period, and I want to help her.
I want her to be better in the future.
But I’m a little worried that she won’t leave.
After all, this is where she was born and raised.
However, without saying a word, Xiaoyu simply packed up her things and said with a smile,
“Let’s go. It’s not easy to have a rich friend. Of course I’m going to try my best.” Before
departure, I went to visit my paralyzed father, and my biological parents also left a sum of money to my father.
In that family, the warmth given by my silent father was not much, but it was precious to me.
Later, I worked hard to review my high school knowledge and took part in the college entrance examination as a social examinee. I was admitted to a good university as I wished, which fulfilled my university dream.
As for Xiaoyu, whose study is equal to punishment, it is impossible for her to review the college entrance examination and enter the full-time undergraduate course.
But in order to improve her academic qualifications, I helped her sign up for the self-taught examination.
Under my coercion and high-intensity supervision and help, Xiaoyu broke through many difficulties and finally obtained the diploma of self-taught undergraduate course, and finally found a good job as an office clerk.
……
Clear away the clouds and finally see the sky.
We will all be better.
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