40. Meet him at first sight.
I met him at first sight.
Red and Green: True love doesn’t end
My sister was killed by a psycho.
At the scene of the incident, he said to me openly:
“I didn’t do anything. It was her fault. I’m sick. I can’t go to jail. I’m sorry.
Three days later, I was taken to a psychiatric hospital. I looked at him in the face and I opened my mouth:
“Obviously, I have too!”
College’s on the way. I can’t afford the tuition.
After my parents died, my uncle became my nominal guardian and kept my parents’ property for me.
But he hasn’t paid me for months.
He’s a gambler. I’m going to ask Uncle for money.
But when I first arrived downstairs, there was a “scrambling” in the entire hallway.
I thought something had happened and I took a brick off the floor and went upstairs.
But I was surprised by the scene.
In the house, a couple of big, big-ass men are swinging a stick and smashing things in the house.
Outside the house, a yellow-haired girl leaned against the door frame.
He was wearing a thick smoke make-up on his face, he had no idea what was on his arm, and he had an unburned female cigarette in his mouth.
As if everything in the house had nothing to do with her.
If I remember correctly, I should have called her cousin.
This is my second meeting with her.
First time, at my uncle’s wedding.
She’s not my uncle’s real daughter. She’s my second-rate aunt.
“What, you’re here for money? I’m sorry.
She took a look at me and finally looked at the bricks in my hand.
I threw the bricks on the floor:
“Why don’t you mind?”
She looked at me for nothing and laughed:
“What do I care? Is this my house?
Besides, I opened the door…
“It’s not the first time! I’m sorry.
I walked in with her when the group threw something out of the house.
The house has been a mess.
Look at my face. She looks calm.
It was very skilled to cross the floor to the east and west of the chair, to pull what was scattered on the couch and sit down.
Then, a pack of cigarettes out of his pocket:
“Pressed by shock? I’m sorry.
When I didn’t respond, she pulled the lighter out of her pocket and prepared her own spot.
Don’t smoke, girl! I’m sorry.
I made a conscious statement.
And the look on her face just stopped and put the lighter back.
“They say there’s nothing in the house and it’s just a mess.
“There’s nothing else at home. I’m sorry.
That’s when I knew that my uncle and aunt had recently lost a lot of money in mahjong’s play and ended up on account.
That’s why these people come to the door for trouble in three days.
My heart was like, “Grunts.”
After all, my money is on my uncle. If it’s gone, I’ll lose my college fees.
“Then when do they return?” I asked.
“As they used to, it’s probably early morning, but not necessarily. I’m sorry.
# Gollum #
She’s not finished yet, but her belly screams first.
“I’ll take you to dinner first. I’m sorry.
Look at my uncle’s face and don’t know when to return.
The little girl’s got no money, and it’s dark.
It’s impossible to make a fire and cook.
I propose a sentence.
She looked out the window.
There seems to be some hesitation in the eyes: “It’s dark.” I’m sorry.
I laughed:
“How old are you afraid of the dark? I’m sorry.
I just wanted to walk up to her and hit her in the head.
And she just took a step back, avoiding my hand:
“Let’s order something! I’m sorry.
That day I knew her name.
Wang Yaju, Siu.
I was with Ruth at his uncle’s house until 2:00 in the morning.
She was already asleep on the couch.
When my uncle opened the door and saw me, I could see his face changed.
“What are you doing here? I’m sorry.
Then he pulled me straight to the side and looked like a little bit more.
“I came to get the money. I said,
Uncle Tunton, his face turned into an awkward smile:
“Slub, there’s something going on at Uncle’s house. You saw it.
“The money may not come out in half, but don’t worry, Uncle, I’ve never been broke. I’m sorry.
Then he looked at him sitting on the couch and was asleep.
The eyes have changed:
“She spends the night with you. What did you talk about? I’m sorry.
It’s got a little in it, a little in it.
I shook my head.
Even though we’re the same age, it seems like we both have a huge generational gap.
And his uncle then turned and suddenly asked:
“What do you think of Rui? I’m sorry.
I don’t know why Uncle asked.
And uncle pulled a wrinkled cigarette out of his pocket and lit it.
I wrinkled my brow.
My uncle laughed and took the cigarette back.
“How about two more years, grow up and marry you?
“You two are young, you’re about the same age.
“Your money, it’ll be a bride price. I’m sorry.
I know, Uncle is serious.
My new aunt always thought it was a burden to have such a big daughter, and my uncle was ready to have another son.
Uncle’s ridiculous idea, I just rejected it.
But, I know, I think my money’s a little too.
I couldn’t help it, and the next day I was at a place far away from home, looking for a day-end job at a milk and tea shop and starting to save on college tuition.
Until the night after a week, I came home from work.
I can’t believe Rui is sitting on my couch.
It was accompanied by a varnished cartoon suitcase.
The smell of smoke in the house…
That day, I almost thought I was a thief.
He came in with a stick hidden in a water tank near his door.
When I saw Rui’s first second, I stunned:
“What are you doing here? I’m sorry.
“and my mother fought and ran away. I’m sorry.
I just remembered that when I first saw her, I gave her a key to my house.
Say anything you can come to my house.
“Uncle. Do they know? I asked a question.
“No, they don’t care about me. Maybe my mom thinks she’s missing a burden wherever I die. I’m sorry.
Yes…
It’s just the attitude between them…
But eventually I called my uncle, and I heard.
But I just got through to the phone, so I’m going to brief you on the situation.
My uncle was excited:
“Ju’s staying at your place. That’s nice.
“On the summer break, two people got warmer. I’m busy with your aunt. She’s just in your hands.
“You see, your parents have been gone for years, and the house is cold and clear.
I just lost my voice and I hung up.
I was speechless for a minute or two.
When I turned back, Jun didn’t know when he was standing behind me.
“Can’t I go somewhere else?” I’m sorry.
After that, the key I gave her was on the table.
Towed the suitcase, ready to leave the door.
I was too busy stopping her this evening, a girl, where she could go.
But my uncle was right.
It’s been a long time since my house…
I’ve made a deal with Rui, but there’s only one…
Smoking…
I hate the smell of smoke.
I looked at her and threw myself into a trash can with a bottle of a simple ashtray.
By the end of the night, when she had taken a shower and came out of the bathroom, she wrapped herself in a draconian bag.
I stopped.
The fumigations were gone, and the tattoos on the hands appeared to be fine and had been washed off half.
Apart from that yellow hair, which is still slightly obscurantist, the appearance and morning are completely different and more like the girl next door.
“What are you looking at? Never seen a pretty girl? I’m sorry.
She looked me in the eye and said something.
Physically, it’s an honest step backwards.
I sat on the couch and laughed:
“I’m just wondering why you dress up like that in the daytime. I’m sorry.
“It’s none of your business. I’m sorry.
She returned to me and then copied the cell phone from the table and ran straight back to the bedroom.
I heard the bedroom door lock.
When I shook my head and was ready to go back to her room, her bedroom door was opened:
“Hey, do you have a light in the house, I don’t like black. I’m sorry.
Indeed, the arrival of Ruh has caused some smoke in the house.
This girl, she’s in the heart of a nuance that doesn’t fit her face.
I’ve been replaced by her dinner every night.
The rooms that had not been cleaned for a long time were also cleaned up.
That day, as always, I worked in a milk and tea shop to earn my tuition.
But as we were nearing work, the sky turned, and the sky became dark.
Because of the milk and tea shop, it’s far from my house and I don’t have an umbrella.
I’m going to wait in the store for the rain.
I sent a message to Zhu and put his cell phone in my pocket and kept working.
It was thought that the rain would stop very quickly during the rainy season and the storm.
But it’s raining all the time. When the shop is ready to close, the rain is still raining outside.
I can’t help it. I’ll take out my phone and I’ll take a cab to the subway.
But it was then that Zhu sent me a tweet:
Can you come back soon?
And then I saw a dozen phone calls, all of them from Rui.
For work reasons, I set my cell phone to silence, and I didn’t get any.
I called back right away, but no one answered.
I realized it wasn’t right. I had a cab on the side of the road and I went home.
I’ve been calling Rui’s number.
Ten minutes later, the phone was finally connected, and there was a cry coming from Rue:
“Where are you I’m afraid Why aren’t you back?”
When I came home, the rain was still on.
All the lights are on.
Rui was hiding in the corner of the room, and a bed was wrapped in itself.
“I’m back. What’s wrong?”
I went to Rue and shot the covers on her. She felt as if she had been scared, with the whole body shrunk and then screamed.
I was surprised by the call of Rui, and I stepped back on a bottle.
The pills are scattered.
Mappelin?
I was stunned. How did she get that?
But I didn’t go into it.
I slowly walked into Rui’s face and lifted the covers over her.
She’s like a frightened deer, crumbling around the corner.
Hands on their knees, with their heads down, their bodies shaking and their faces filled with fear.
I reached out and touched her head:
“Son, it’s okay. I’m home. It’s okay. I’m sorry.
When I touched her head, I clearly felt her body shaking.
She raised her head slowly and looked at me with tears on her face.
Suddenly I grabbed my hand and bit it hard.
Then I held my arm and cried:
“Why didn’t you answer my phone? Why did you come back so late?
“I’ve called you so many times, I’ve sent you tweets, you won’t answer, you won’t answer me…
“I’m really scared, you know I’m scared…
“I’m afraid you won’t come back, I won’t come back…”
She choked and spoke a lot.
Look at Rue’s face, my heart, a little sour, and some blame.
I held her gently in my left hand and slapped her back.
I’m sorry.
“I’m sorry, brother’s wrong, brother’s wrong, don’t be afraid, brother won’t leave you alone at night…”
For a long time, the little girl seemed to be crying.
I gently carried her to the bed, covered her up, and suddenly she pulled my hand.
She spoke softly:
Brother, can you stay by my bed tonight? I’m sorry.
This is Rue. This is my brother for the first time.
Another article has been added to the three chapters of our law.
I had to go home early in the rain.
The next day, I called my uncle and asked him about her medication.
And my uncle, too, is obstinate and ignorant.
It’s just that the kid may have had some kind of shock as a child, and that, together with the time of rebellion, my aunt took her to the hospital a few times and brought back some medicine.
Listen, my uncle was playing mahjong, and after that he hung up.
I’m not asking anymore.
In the afternoon, I resigned from work at the milk and tea shop, which was far away from home, and found a job as a tutor in the drawing room near the home.
“Do you know how to paint?”
Ruthie saw me move out of my house with paint and pencils and asked.
I nod my head.
I’m also an art student, and I’ve been learning to paint for years.
“Can you teach me? I used to like painting. I’m sorry.
I saw Rui’s eyes with light.
“Yes! I’m sorry.
I started sitting down, drawing on paper with pencils, teaching her how to draw straight lines, what’s lined up, what’s in perspective.
She learned fast.
Until I got a call from the studio teacher and asked me to set up the studio.
So I let her paint herself on the drawing paper.
Two hours later, before dark, I came home from the studio.
Rui’s still drawing.
I saw what she painted.
A little girl in red, dancing in the sun.
It’s just that the girl doesn’t have five officials on her face and paints it in black.
And the surrounding background is completely dyed with red dye.
The sun is also black…
Two days later, it was her birthday.
After she made her wish to blow out the candles, I came out with a present for her.
A little milk dog and a nightlight with my photo.
I meant to say that my picture was printed and she could be with her at night when she turned on the light. It’s also the work of the evil-doers.
And then I got this thing and I couldn’t see it.
“Well, Rue, you can’t just put it on your bed and make it a town house. I’m sorry.
Hand it to her when I’m embarrassed.
When I picked up my nightlight, Rui, who was still playing with the puppy, he stunned for a few seconds and laughed:
Brother, what do you think? I’m sorry.
And I drew from my mouth: “If you do not like it, give it back to me.” I’m sorry.
I reached out to get it, and she held the nightlight in her arms:
“It’s for someone else. Where’s the reason? You’ll be black for the rest of your life. I’m sorry.
After that, he ran back to his room and plugged the nightlight.
Then there was a weird music coming out of the nightlight.
Happy birthday to you…
The weather in Shanghai is strange, and the typhoon is warning.
As it turned dark, I took a leave with the studio teacher and got home early.
But strangely, Rui is not home.
Picking up the phone, I called her two times, but no one answered.
“Where’s the little girl? I’m sorry.
I do.
Usually, she doesn’t go out much.
I wasn’t thinking much. Until more than half an hour later, her phone was still offline.
And the whole sky has become completely dark, as if there was a storm going down.
I’m starting to panic.
I called my uncle. He’s still playing mahjong.
After talking to me about a few places that Rue used to go before, he hung up.
I went out with an umbrella, looked all over my uncle’s place, and there was no sign of her.
Boom!
With a thunderbolt, the rain was pouring.
At that moment, my heart trembled.
Ruth, where are you?
I’ve made countless calls to Zhu and still no answer.
When I looked at the phone and hesitated for a while, I set up a phone:
Uncle Hu, I’m Xiao Qiao. There’s something very urgent I need to trouble you…
I rushed to the police station.
I saw Ruth sitting in the consulting room, with his head down.
The policewoman standing next to me gave a presentation:
It is possible that Zhou and others were in a fight and that the police called the police and took them to the police station for an investigation.
No big deal happened. Another little girl was taken away by her parents soon.
And it’s Rue’s turn, no matter what the police ask, not to say a word.
If I hadn’t asked someone to find this place, they wouldn’t know what to do.
With the consent of the police, I entered the counselling room directly.
In the dark consultation room, the body of the entire person was convulsed together with fear on his face.
I walked in front of Rui, held her slowly.
“Lu, be good, it’s me, I’ll take you home…”
I can obviously feel her body shaking.
She fell in my arms and cried:
I didn’t mean to cause you any trouble.
“She called me first, saying I had a father or a mother, and that I was a wild animal…
I took Rue home.
She sat on the couch, low-headed, as if she had done something wrong to prepare for my reprimand.
Looking at the bruises on her arms and legs, I turned and took out the medicine kit from the room.
Iodine was started on a cotton sticker and carefully wiped her wounds.
And then I heard her whispering:
Brother, I’m sorry, you’re not gonna yell at me! I’m sorry.
I smiled and rubbed her head with my hands.
“Son of a bitch, I’ll see you later.
“You have a brother and me.
“I can’t. Let Wang Cai bite her…”
Wang Cai, the little milk dog I brought back.
Two months, that was quick.
Soon, by the beginning of September, I’m going to school.
My school is in Hangzhou. I need a train.
On that day, Rui dyed his hair black again.
I smiled at her face:
“Just to read a book, it’s not like I’m not going back.
“When I finish my training, I’ll be back on vacation. I’m sorry.
Rui didn’t talk, looked up at me, and he was quiet for a while.
It seemed like he had the courage to ask a question.
“Do you like me? I’m sorry.
I’m a little timid.
And Jun thought I didn’t get it.
“Not just like that.
“Wait until you graduate from college you will marry me?” I’m sorry.
My uncle used to “joke” and ask me again.
I’m silent.
She’s my cousin, and I don’t know how to break this mustard, even if it’s not blood.
I’ve always treated her like a sister…
Although I don’t know what she’s been through.
But once on Rui, it was like weeds without sunlight at the end of the road.
Now there’s hope for flowers, and I don’t want them to be flowers.
“I am…”
It’s been a long time since I’ve been silent, and I want to talk, but I don’t know what to say.
Rui interrupted my words.
I saw a little red in her eyes, but she was calm:
“Brother, I know the answer. I’m sorry.
So we looked at each other for 10 minutes at the station entrance.
Before she came in, she called me:
Can I have a hug?
I noded my head and held her in my arms.
Suddenly she kissed me in the face.
In the car, I got her tweets for me.
It’s a funny face bag and there’s one thing:
Brother, that was my first kiss…
I broke my promise.
For more than a year, because the school was so busy and I had to work part-time to earn my living, it was almost impossible to go home.
My contact with Rui is also limited to the Internet.
Over time, it has become less and less.
Until that day, near the winter break, I went back to the dormitory on a part-time basis and she called me.
But it wasn’t her.
“Are you Wang Yaju’s boyfriend, I’m her roommate, she’s having a problem…”
I bought a ticket to Shanghai the same day and I went to her school.
After she graduated from high school, she did not perform very well in the baccalaureate and attended a vocational school in Shanghai.
When I saw her, the scene in front of me stopped me.
He had bruises on his face and bruises on his arm.
Keep your head down and look scared.
When she saw me, it seemed like she couldn’t stop her emotions and cried directly.
“Son, I’m sorry I’m late. I’m sorry.
I put my arms in my arms:
“Tell me what happened, okay! I’m sorry.
The man was a class counselor for Rui, a man who was good at lecturing.
Rue, your personality is introverted.
The lack of security, as well as the family, is also due to the extreme lack of love of a girl.
It was his target.
At first, it was normal to take her to the library, tutor her studies and give her an active interest in her life.
According to Mr. Ru: It’s like a brother.
He gradually gained his trust.
But today, the man shouted out the information he needed to collect from him.
But on the way, suddenly he started to say something about love.
While talking about it, he even forced her into his arms and wanted to kiss her.
The man slapped him in the face, and so did his injuries.
“It’s too irresponsible to be your boyfriend.”
“I haven’t seen her for so long, I haven’t seen her on the phone.
“You’re a special caremaker because of her!” I’m sorry.
Listen to my roommate, my heart is like a needle. Wretched, angry, countless. Emotions are intertwined.
I can’t wait to slap myself.
If for more than a year I could look at her, talk to her, care about her, and she wouldn’t be hurt by such a man.
I’ll be right back. Thank you. I’m sorry.
I took a picture of that man and I turned around and left.
I picked an iron bar in the school pile.
Dog, I can’t change that.
I went all over the school, found this man by the pond.
Another girl.
I remember the last thing this man said before I did it:
“Oh, girl, isn’t that just fun? I’m sorry.
I was seized by anger.
One, two…
I don’t know how many times I hit him with an iron bar.
For a moment, I even wanted to smash him to death.
Until I heard Rui’s voice:
Don’t hit me again
But I couldn’t control my anger at all and I didn’t stop.
Until I was thrown down on the ground by a few men.
This time, I was picked up from the police station.
With her and Uncle Hu.
He was a cop who dealt with my parents’ accident. He took care of me since he was a kid.
“Two broken ribs, multiple grafts on the soft tissue, you son of a bitch. I couldn’t protect you if that little bastard had his own shit. I’m sorry.
After that, he looked around me and pulled me aside and whispered:
“How are you doing?
“What is your relationship to this little girl?”
And then a few days later, I took Jun and took care of everything.
Then took her home and looked after her body.
Things seem like a circle.
When I don’t work part-time on weekends, I’ll go back from school to Shanghai and see her.
And she’ll come to my house for a long vacation.
Everything seems to be back in the past and nothing happened.
Until I was three and a half years old.
At that time, I had returned from Hangzhou to Shanghai to begin my internship.
Ruth, I’ve been living in my house.
That day, as usual, after work, I went to Uncle Lee’s hospital for an annual check-up.
When the results came out and I was leaving, Uncle Lee called me to his office.
“The little girl still living with you? I’m sorry.
I nod my head. He knows Rui.
“What do you think? I’m sorry.
He asked me that.
“Do you like her? I mean, lovers like. I’m sorry.
I’m silent.
I don’t know exactly what my feelings for Rui are.
From the beginning, I was just her brother.
But now?
And I can’t find out what kind of a role I’m playing.
“I don’t advise you about anything. You’re the only one who knows better.
“You’re a grown-up, and there are things you have to think about.
“If you make up your mind, it’s two people now.
“Think about the last time and think about yourself.”
Back home, Uncle Lee, it’s hard for me to calm down.
Maybe he’s right.
My relationship with Ru is still in a state of slump.
If one more step forward, I’m afraid it’s going to get deep.
I knocked on Rui’s bedroom door:
“Can I talk to you for a second? I’m sorry.
That night, I took Rui to Starbucks downstairs.
She seems to have something on her mind, walking slowly.
She chose a very strong position.
When I brought back the good coffee, she was looking to her left, wondering what she was looking at, and she was a little nervous.
“What’s wrong? I sat down and laughed.
She doesn’t seem to respond.
“Lu. *I called her name again, and she’s back:
“No… nothing. I’m sorry.
We had coffee, we were silent for a while.
“I have something to do.”
“Lou, listen to me first…”
And then We, in some discomfort, interrupted Rui’s speech.
“I think we both need to get things right.
“I’m your brother, and I’ve always treated you like a sister.
“I hope one day you find the one you love and love. Then I’ll marry you with all my heart…”
That day I said a lot.
The tone is more serious, too.
By the way, I’d like to take this slightly embarrassing scene back and add:
“Don’t worry, I’m still your brother. I’m sorry.
“Ooh! I’m sorry.
I laughed, but it was clear that my heart was absent.
When she got back to the house, she walked into the bedroom and closed the door.
The next night, when I came home, Rui had moved away.
She left me a note:
“Big brother, I’m close to the final exam, and I think it’s better for everyone at school to study together. I’ll come back for you after the summer.
That night, I swung backwards and stayed up all night.
I didn’t think Ruth would just leave.
I was thinking, wasn’t it, the first day I said a little bit more.
I had planned to go to school the next day to see her and ease the relationship.
But the plan will not keep up.
I was taken out by the leader to meet with clients and drank a lot of wine.
When I came home drunk, I fell on the bed and was unconscious.
That night, it rained all night.
When I woke up the next day, my head broke and picked up my phone.
It was discovered that six or seven of them did not call.
It’s all Rui’s.
Time, it’s after 11:00.
There’s a message she gave me.
The sound was intermittent, and I could hear the rain, and she was crying with tremors.
Brother, are you asleep?
Brother I’m so scared
My head was awake and I called back.
A few seconds later, the phone was connected, but at the end of the phone, it was a man’s voice:
“Hello, this is the City Public Security Bureau…”
I didn’t think that it was the last two words that Rui left behind.
Uncle Hu accompanied me to the police station.
As soon as they pulled the freezer, my whole body collapsed.
It’s Ruth.
He was naked and lying in the freezer in peace.
There are many bruises on your body.
I’m breathing in my mouth and it’s ringing in my head.
I’m shaking my body out of my body and my cell phone out.
I’m gonna put out the voice I left for me:
“Uncle Hu, I have proof that someone killed Rui, that someone killed her…
“I know, man, we’ve got him…
That day, I lost my girl…
It was not until that moment that I knew how painful it was for those who lost their loved ones.
And that day, I knew the history of Ruhu…
Uncle Hu gave me a note saying he found it in a rag.
And I shiverly opened, and inside was her diary.
2017.1.8
It’s raining again today. I really hate rain nights.
Close your eyes. It was a nightmare six years ago.
If I wanted to die or not, there would be no more pain.
2017.2.28
My mom was married. She met that man at the card table.
It doesn’t matter. They don’t care about me anyway.
Go to my dad sooner.
I don’t know.
2017.7.6
I think I’m my cousin.
Looks like he’s wearing dirt, rags, travel shoes, just like my dad.
I don’t know what to tell him.
2017.7.13
I had a fight with my mother, and I didn’t know what to think. I ran away and ran to that cousin. This single man’s life is really boring. He hates smoking.
2017.7.16
It’s this weather again, and today it’s finally over. But today he hasn’t answered a lot of calls, and he has to set my phone up as a special reminder. But he touched my head and hugged me. Why don’t I fight it. It’s like the first male creature to do this to me after my dad.
2017.7.19
This is gonna kill me. Who’s gonna print their own picture on the nightlight? You’re Degas, need the light. Forget it. For his sake, the girl has been forced to accept it.
One stake, one piece, everything that happened between me and her was written down by her.
I endured tears, a page turned over.
Until the latest pages.
2021.3.24
I heard he’s out. Why can he be released? Why?
2021.3.29
I saw him. I was absolutely right. Why did he come back? It was no coincidence.
2021.4.3
I saw him again. Should I call the police? Why would he follow me? Should I talk to my brother about this?
2021.4.5
I moved out of my brother’s house and I didn’t tell him about it. The dorm is empty. What should I do? Go back to my mom? She’s probably still playing mahjong right now.
The diary ends here.
My body is shaking.
It’s my fault. It’s all my fault. If I had noticed something wrong about her earlier, if I hadn’t said it so seriously, if I hadn’t drank that drink, if I hadn’t missed her phone call…
But if I didn’t, I would have killed Rui.
I woke up naked, looking at Uncle Hu, and every word came out of my throat.
Who’s that man? What does he have to do with Jun’s death?
Ten years ago, what happened…
I’ve never thought about it.
Ten years ago, it was the same thunderstorm night.
Rui was attacked.
The person who assaulted her was a colleague of her biological father.
The father, who knew about the news, took the knife and ran out, but had an accident on the road and never returned.
I can’t imagine such a dark day in my age.
I can’t even imagine how she’ll survive every day.
She’s seen as a disaster in her mother’s face.
And my uncle just wants another son.
At a time when she needed the most care, no one had to heal her wounds.
Thus, only yellow hair, tattoos and smoke makeup, which appear to be the face of a young girl with a bad period of rebellion, conceals the weakest pain in her heart.
I had a chance.
I really have a chance to get her out of the dark.
Again, twice.
I keep slapping myself.
But whenever I can seize an opportunity, even once, there will be time for it.
“Sweet, wake up. I’m sorry.
Uncle Hu grabbed my hand and yelled at me:
“What good is it that you can’t come back? I’m sorry.
I bit my lips and looked up at Uncle Hu:
“That’s why he got him out of prison.
“And this time, he killed Rui, didn’t he?”
He noded his head:
“Exactly, it was discharged. I’m sorry.
It’s really funny.
A piece of shit, a monster, didn’t stay in jail long.
The reason for this is that it is a mental problem and that it was transferred directly to a psychiatric institution for detention.
Moreover, there is an opportunity for him to see the sun again.
“Is it possible to do whatever it takes to commit a mental crime? I asked Uncle Hu.
“Major look, it’s not the onset. Ten years ago, it didn’t happen on our side. We’re working on the file.
“As for this one, to be honest, it’s a little tricky, not to be very straightforward. I’m sorry.
Following the discovery of the animal, Zhou reported to the police.
The police were quick to find the guy. But what he said was that he wanted to apologize for the mistakes he had made.
It’s just, I don’t know how to face Ruth.
There was no way to establish a case without physical harm, and finally he was only lectured.
“So he chose another night of thunderstorms? I’m sorry.
I’m laughing.
“Hmm! Uncle Hu noded, “This time, his story is the same. In addition, a judicial psychiatric assessment was applied for. I’m sorry.
“Can I see him?”
Uncle Hu refused.
However, after some silence, he said:
“In two days, we’ll take him to the crime scene…”
Two days later, I saw this piece of shit.
It’s dreary, it doesn’t fix.
When the police took him off, he was smiling.
At that moment, I couldn’t contain the anger in my heart, and I ran into him, and I said,
“Why, why didn’t you let her go? Why did you make her so miserable? I’m sorry.
And he’s acting scared.
Seems like I’m freaking out.
“I didn’t do anything, I didn’t do anything. She was hit by a car. I just wanted to apologize for what happened a decade ago. It’s none of my business. She ran out on her own. I’m sorry.
I got dragged out by the police.
I said to you with all my energy, “Don’t get excited, we’ll give the families of the victims an answer.
When the identification was over, it was ready to be taken back to the police station.
The man who walked past me deliberately.
The voice is low, but it’s loud:
“I’m sick. They can’t judge me! I’m sorry.
Look away at the police car and the crowd.
My eyes are getting darker.
Sick, isn’t it?
I pulled out my phone and called:
Uncle Lee, I have something to ask you…
White walls.
It’s a daily schedule on the wall.
The rooms opened on both sides, with a bed, and from time to time, some people wearing a sick uniform and a white coat walked through the corridor.
This is the hospital, but unlike the general hospital, every door here is fenced.
Here, it’s a mental hospital.
I saw that animal’s room closed.
It’s in the middle of the yard.
Differentiated from other wards.
Transparent glass gives room to room. All the glass is fenced.
No windows, single room. The beast is lying on the bed restless.
I saw his name Lin Chi Fei.
I knocked on his glass.
When he looks at me, I can clearly see the wonders in his eyes.
I laughed, and I opened my mouth:
“You’re not insane? I’m sorry.
Unfortunately, it’s thicker glass. He can’t hear me.
This is my story.
I’ve been in this hospital for eight years.
Like Ru, I have PTSD, post-traumatic stress disorder, a very serious one.
I saw with my own eyes the death of my parents.
A truck driver, in order to pick up smoke from the cab, caused the vehicle to reverse its course.
Hit my dad’s car.
We, the three of us, were going out to the playground.
Our car was thrown into the lake, sank, and my mom and dad used all their last energy to keep me alive.
I was rescued by the fishman who came along, but my dad and my mom never woke up.
Since that day, I’ve lived almost every day to blame myself.
If it wasn’t for me to go to the playground, if it wasn’t for me that my parents were alive, it would be them.
I’m schizophrenic, I’m self-inflicted, and I’m even going to take the birds or the animals out there, take them home, kill them and throw them down the stairs.
Then I was hospitalized and Uncle Lee became my doctor.
That’s eight years. I spent almost the whole childhood in this mental institution.
OKAY, I’M NOT SO LONE AS JUNG.
Uncle Hu, who was in charge of my parents’ case, visited me almost every day since I got into this hospital.
And Uncle Lee, he’s gonna find patients with lighter symptoms to take care of me and teach me.
When I was 15, I went to high school and got out.
Although an annual check-up is to be carried out on a regular and drug-dependent basis, it is also largely common.
I thought I’d never come back to the ward again.
But this time, I volunteered.
That day, Uncle Lee, who received my call, lamented:
“What’s wrong with you?” I’m sorry.
“He destroyed my best memory and my favorite.” I’m sorry.
My words are calm.
I made up my mind when he said, “I’m insane, I can’t go to jail.”
“About three years ago, that time, I almost got sick.
“Now, I feel a little out of control.
“That’s the best place for me too. I’m sorry.
“…”
Uncle Lee is silent.
“I can’t help you much. “I can hear too much in his tone.
“All you have to do is put me in a hospital, and you’re in a sick zone with that bastard. I’m sorry.
Uncle Lee is a doctor, and it is his duty to save death and wounds, without distinction between good and evil.
So, after that, I’ll do it on my own.
After all, I’m a patient!
Eight years in this hospital.
Everything inside is familiar to me.
I took care of everything.
And Uncle Lee, he’s got me a single room.
My eyes looked at the ceiling.
“Ru, wait for me…
“Soon, it’s almost over.
“God, it’s getting dark!”
Boom!
A thunderstorm.
It’s gonna rain.
I’ve climbed up the ventilation in the hospital ceiling.
The old-fashioned hospital, although renovated, has not been replaced with basic facilities.
All the ventilation, it’s connected.
When I was little, I used to hide inside and play hide-and-seek.
With memory, I crawled into that scum’s room.
Although we met during the day.
But he wouldn’t have thought I’d fall from the sky.
When I saw him, he was lying in bed…
He’s sleeping like a psycho.
So far he hasn’t been able to react when I broke through the ventilator and jumped into his room.
And We kicked him with one foot, and threw him over the earth.
He looked at me in the face.
“What, surprised? I said hello to you during the day! I’m sorry.
I laughed and walked to him step by step.
“You… what are you doing? I’m sorry.
He moved his body back and was terrified.
“Huh! Now you know what the law is, don’t you think it’s a little late?
“What’s left of you is a disease. I’m sorry.
“Help me, help me…”
He knows he can’t beat me. He climbed from the ground and ran madly towards the door, screaming.
I sat on the bed and looked at him.
This room is soundproof, it’s almost impossible to make a big noise.
As for surveillance, it would take at least five minutes from their discovery to come here.
Besides, it’s time for shift.
He also seemed to find his help useless, turning around and looking at me:
“What do you want I I’ll give you when I get out of here.
“Not just a woman a woman a woman a plaything, no, no…”
“Really?”
“But you killed my favorite girl and you ruined my light. I’m sorry.
At that moment, I was filled with anger.
I grabbed his clothes and threw him on the floor.
He then picked up the wooden stick that had been removed from the chair and threw it directly under him.
He made a painful cry, but I didn’t stop.
Kill him and avenge Rue.
These two words occupy my mind.
“Who was the first to touch Jun’s hand? I’m sorry.
“What is wrong with your eyes? I’m sorry.
“What do you feel wrong with your hand? I’m sorry.
One, two.
Every time I ask, my stick falls next time.
I don’t know how many times I hit it.
Until I felt that I was covered in blood, that piece of shit, no more noise.
Until I heard the police car.
“Stop, I’ll stop you. I’m sorry.
Bang!
I swayed and sat down on the bed.
In a tremor, a cigarette was pulled out of his pocket and contained in his mouth.
It’s from Rue.
And as if I had seen a man before me.
It’s Ruth.
I laughed:
“Ju, are you here to pick me up? Come on, let’s go home together. I’m sorry.
I met him at first sight, and he returned to…
THE END
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Decomposed faith.
Red and Green: True love doesn’t end
Chaichus, wait!
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I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
