Do you have any of those abusive wife-hunting crematoria novels? – Yes.
Three months after the break-up, the ex-boyfriend suddenly called, “Why don’t you take me home? I’m sorry.
I was soaking my eyes and I was sore and I cried out to him.
And suddenly the laughter appeared in the microphone, and he couldn’t breathe: “You tiger, I’m fucking taking a chance.” I’m sorry.
And We cried out: “Call me to anything, and look after the field, if only you could come with me.” I’m sorry.
Quiet at the end of the microphone…
“Fuck, who’s Kuno?”
One.
I broke up for three months and I got sick again.
It’s been a long time since that dream came to me again.
The dark and handsome man in the dream kissed me to do the closest thing and put a gun in my waist.
He said he loved me in pain and then pulled the trigger with his eyes red.
There was no bullet in the gun.
And my dagger cut his neck without hesitation.
In the dream, the man died, with a smile on his face and a smile that made me take him home.
My heart was filled with great sorrow and I was asphyxiated.
It is absurd to say that this dream has tormented me for three years, and that heart-to-heart pain in the dream has tormented me after I woke up and has plunged me into the pain of losing my loved one.
That’s why I went to a shrink. I said I fell in love with someone I dreamed of.
The man’s name is Kuno.
After neither hypnotics nor sleeping pills had helped, the doctor suggested that I should be in love and see if I could “get out of love” and if not, it would be good to “get out.”
That’s when Jiangdong showed up.
He looks exactly like my dream man.
Two.
And I thought that he was a dreamer.
The same eyebrows, the same sound, even the radians with their mouths ticking.
In the bar, he leaned in the corner blindfold, pulled my horn and asked if I could take him home.
That look, like an absence.
I thought my Kuno had finally come out of his dream.
I took him home and kept him on the couch all night.
But when he opened his eyes to my sad eyes, he was so happy.
“It didn’t happen, it was a disappointment.” I’m sorry.
“The next time I pull down, I won’t sleep so fast.” I’m sorry.
Even if he was unreasonable, my sense of destiny brought me together with dignity.
At first I loved him so much.
I’ll ask him in the evening of the sunset if he won’t leave me.
At some wake-up call, he caressed his neck, confirming that he could sleep peacefully without wounds.
And We returned to him, in all our dreams, the misdeeds of Kono, and gave him unlimited indulgence.
And clean up the mess he has caused without complaint.
While he was in the hospital, he was kept in his clothes and feared that a blinking man would disappear like a dream.
He would look at me from time to time and say, “Why didn’t he meet me earlier?”
I didn’t know what he meant until Valentine’s Day.
3
I’ve always had a low profile, and suddenly Jiangdong went out with me with an abnormally high profile.
High-class restaurant. He came with a bouquet.
Lazy paces, burning eyes attracted many women, and even people took out their mobile phones.
He took a peek at the eyes and laughed at his lips: “Look good!” I’m sorry.
Says he leans over my lips with a long kiss.
I heard something in the chest that was going to spill.
He asked the man for a photo and sent it to the circle of friends.
I think he’s finally going to take it seriously.
After all this, however, he was somewhat distracted and faced with my joy and discomfort, he had a swipe of me and opened his cell phone from time to time.
It was not until he received the “A” phone call that he suddenly stood up to the waistboard and looked out the window without looking.
We left him busy, but he hung up his phone and laughed at me.
“Today is all that matters. I’m sorry.
He said to feed me with food.
He probably didn’t even realize it.
And then you pick up a napkin and you wipe my mouth, and my mouth is not dirty.
It’s a bad premonition.
Indeed, after a series of intimacy moves, the phone went up in a crazy way.
Again and again.
Jiangdong smiled and pretended to say that the company had something to go first.
I smiled and told him to hurry back, and he looked at me in a complex manner, he hesitated for a few seconds to turn around and leave.
I’m walking down the street, and I see a pretty girl downstairs.
That’s exactly the angle that put me and Jiangdong in the restaurant.
One thought inspired me to fight a cold war:
Jiangdong’s high-profile date is not for the girl.
I don’t know.
Jiangdong ran away, but slowed down when he approached the girl called Lingeo, making an impatience appearance.
He says he’s on a date, let Ringo have something to say.
Ringo had a sad look and asked him why he ruined himself.
She said, ‘Even if I do not agree to be your girlfriend, you can’t just mess with yourself. Do you deserve someone who cares?’ I’m sorry.
Jiangdong was silent for two seconds.
His silence was like a sentence to me that I was indeed the random man.
And he will hear nothing but his anger:
“How do you know I can’t really love her? I’m sorry.
“Do you not know what love is like?” I’m sorry.
Says, a collar that rips up Jiangdong and kisses up.
A deep-hearted kiss, Jiangdong standing there.
In a moment, the song was pulled out: “This is what moves the heart.
“So, if I don’t agree to be with you, you can’t just mess yourself up. I’m sorry.
4
At that moment I hid behind the pillars, and cried without a voice.
It was only then that I knew that I was not destined in meditation; I was only the one whom he found to stimulate the forest.
He hated the Ringo swinging around, and he came to me randomly.
He picked me up at the bar and said I’d spend more time in private like this.
He’d bet I’d pick him up at the bar, and I’d really pick him up…
And I was behind the pillars, as a peep, watching them, from violent quarrels, to hugging and kissing.
They’re like a man and a woman, and I’m just an ash.
Heart-to-heart pain, I decided to break up.
I wonder if it’s a delusion that the suffocation that has been suffocating to the chest for three years is much less.
That’s probably what doctors call “cancel.”
When Jiangdong didn’t come back that night, I looked through his circle and the photo of Su Eun-ai was gone.
Meet again a few days later.
And when he came, he held me down and kissed me as he had never met again.
He’s closed his eyes, like a fine smell.
I think he’s supposed to have any of the songs in the kiss that says “soldiers and horses.”
And We pushed him away, and he turned his eyes away in panic, and there was a false heart and a blur.
And the pain in the heart spreads.
This time I’m sure the suffocation of my heart is really going away.
It does not seem to me that he used me before, nor do I treat him as a cure.
5
In the period that followed, my connivance with Jiangdong became more fearless.
He was so cold and hot to me that he was so mad at me when he needed me, and once he had fulfilled his purpose of stimulating the forest song, he fell on me again.
It wasn’t until Ringo got away from him again that he remembered me as a tool.
And all this We pretended only that We had no knowledge, and that We were a faithful follower of His own.
And his friends know that I’m a protégé who comes in and says I’m licking a dog and sometimes forgets to hide from me.
Then Jiangdong was only symbolically keeping them quiet.
When he constantly tried my bottom line, he found that my tolerance was no more than respect for me.
And I was born to suffer the pain of being betrayed and playing games, and in the process I was able to stop.
It is clear to me that every time Jiangdong’s face on the field showed me a small point in my love for him.
That dream was rare.
There is little suffocation in the chest.
And We are saying farewell to Jiangdong and Toshino in this despicable manner.
Six.
I think I’m almost there.
I dreamt again that night of going to Kuno and saying goodbye to me like I felt something.
He said, “Have you forgotten me for a long time, Nancy?
“If it makes you happy, I’ll be fine. I’m sorry.
In the dream, his shadow grew further away, and the blood that I drew with my dagger was still on his neck.
I woke up in tears, and my heart was sore I couldn’t breathe, that I called Jiangdong.
He said it was a coincidence that he was looking for me.
He said his car broke down on the country road and let me pick him up.
I didn’t hesitate to go out.
It’s not until he finds out that he’s going to pick up sick forest songs.
Before I opened my mouth, he pre-empted me so that I would not distort their mutual concern.
He chose to sit on my co-driver and left Lin song alone in the back seat, not knowing whether to avoid it in front of me or to continue to stimulate the song.
Unfortunately, the vehicle had just hit a rural road and hit it with a lost tractor.
I think of the back of the dream of Gono’s departure, and I’m so scared that I can’t control the wheel.
Jiangdong is safe.
I was blinded by airbags and stuck in the cab.
I heard the screams of Jiangdong tearing his heart apart.
He’s shouting the forest song.
At that moment, it became clear to me that the suffocation on the chest was about to disappear completely and that the cessation was immediately successful.
But when I woke up in the hospital, Jiangdong and I broke up.
And he looked at the bandage of my forehead bleeding, and he shuddered, and he said, “Why are you serious?” I’m sorry.
I was so scared, I cried and begged him, “Yes, but can we wait? * When I’m done *
“And We have caused the people around us to whisper, and We are humbled.
Jiangdong’s eyes were sore that he finally held his fist and fled.
7
I knew he was afraid, and I saved him with my life, and he could not bear it.
But is he afraid of trampling on people’s hearts?
It’s probably not that I’m afraid, it’s Lin Song who got hurt, and he wants to fight for himself with all his heart.
Anyway, for whatever reason, I’m breaking up when it’s about to succeed.
I’ve spent three months in fear of the rock falling again.
And yet it came.
After that dream again, I woke up.
I put myself on the bed, shaking and lit a cigarette.
Smog spreads, it’s a familiar smell in a dream, but it hurts more and more.
That’s when Jiangdong called, like a life-saving straw.
This is the first time that the government has been able to make a difference.
“The bar’s all broken up. I’m sorry.
That sound, exactly like in a dream.
I was soaking wet, and I was crying out for him.
I heard a big laugh coming out of the microphone, and a lot of people laughed.
It’s just that the lowness and frustrations have disappeared, and Jiangdong’s smiles have been overwhelming:
“You’re a fucking tiger. I’m trying to be honest! I’m sorry.
I feel like I’ve been poured cold water.
The feeling of suffocation on the chest has suddenly decreased.
After three months, the ACD became effective again.
So he tasted the sound of the swallows: “Assure me, if you come with me.” I’m sorry.
“I don’t know what to say.” I’m playing a fucking game. Don’t stop. I’m sorry.
Indeed, the suffocation is getting weaker.
I got up and put out the smoke.
“Tell me where you are, Kuno. Let me see you again. I’m sorry.
Quiet at the end of the microphone…
A moment later.
“Fuck, who’s Kuno?”
With a shout from Jiangdong, whispers were heard over the microphone.
“Shit, isn’t she a dog licker? Why do you call him another man? I’m sorry.
“Do you think you’re the one who promised to pick you up?” I’m sorry.
Jiangdong lost his face and said, “Don’t think that I can fool me by making up someone, and I’ll send you the address. It’s only half an hour. I’m sorry.
I drove out of the car at the address from Jiangdong.
The suffocation is not as strong as it was at first, but it still makes me feel so bad when it’s on the chest.
I know that Jiangdong’s lost face is going to double it back with me later.
The better it will be for me if he crosses the score, and perhaps this abuse will be the last potion of restraint.
If it fails, it means that Jiangdong has developed resistance as a “cautionary” drug.
I should get changed.
5
In the bar, it’s amazing.
Most people want to see the show.
To see how Jiangdong humiliates the dog with the wrong name.
When I came in, they were watching the clock.
“Oh, shit, it’s not more than half an hour. That’s the light. Brother Tung is awesome. I’m sorry.
“Are women so shallow these days? Are they really just looking at their faces? How can she lick her? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Jiangdong still leans in the dark corner and the shadow covers half of his face, more like three points to Gono.
The moment of sight, like drowning sorrow, came up.
Maybe he didn’t feel the red eye cheering up Jiangdong, and he started laughing at me.
Then he took the wine and poured it all over three cups, and said, “Drink it, I will forgive you.” I’m sorry.
His face was in the light.
It’s as if Kuno came out of the dream.
I don’t know why he came back to me again, did he make a scene with Lin?
But it doesn’t matter. It’s important this time, the suffocation almost disappears.
The smile of my mouth prompts me to laugh:
“Oh, my God. Are you happy with that? Do you want to teach a lesson sometime? You’re too good at this! I’m sorry.
It’s mean, but it doesn’t affect my feelings.
And I took up the cup, and I drank it.
“Cheers one, to myself, to me, to me, and not to give up! I’m sorry.
And a boo-boom with a whisper of sarcasm: “Damn it, you skank! He who is called to go forth! I’m sorry.
Jiangdong let his friends sneer at me, instead of talking to me, but instead of talking to me, he put on his tongue a few points of satisfaction.
I took a deep breath, and I felt the big stone in my chest.
So he took the second cup and looked straight to Jiangdong.
“The second, to Jiangdong. To Jiangdong, who has no respect for me. I’m sorry.
This time, the whisper became a loud laugh:
“Damn it, Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha, that’s a good one. I’ll start with a number. Don’t throw it, brother. I’m sorry.
He wrinkled his eyebrow and looked down on him who spoke.
But I’m still allowed to finish my second drink.
Unprecedented ease of heart, complete ease, as never dreamt of visitation.
Some top.
I smiled and my feet floated.
I took Jiangdong’s hand and looked at it.
His tiger was smooth and smooth and certainly never held a gun.
Turn around, a shallow scar on the little arm.
Too shallow.
Feels wrong.
Kuno’s got to be deeper.
It’s too loud around. It’s like I’m being too casual. Mojiang Dong is crazy.
It was also rare for Jiangdong to exalt me, and he softly appeased me.
He said, “You are drunk, Nancy. Don’t worry. We shall now go home.” I’m sorry.
Speaking of which, he got up to help me.
And I held him down, staring at his open neck.
Last time I checked, I was reborn.
And in the sight of the people, lo! We slowly opened the neck of Jiangdong.
Yeah, there’s no mole on the collarbone.
And there’s no sign of the lasers…
Jiangdong took a breath of air and his voice was dumb:
“Nancy, not here…”
In the whistle, I was open.
Jiangdong is not a tourist.
He’s done the best he can, too, as a “cautionary” drug, and then I don’t get it.
I jumped out, and I got my third drink.
Jiangdong finally showed up and raised his hand to stop me.
“You can’t drink anymore, you’re drunk…”
I was surprised to see my eyes when I was drunk.
I was laughing at him.
“This third cup shall be used to pay tribute to thee and to thee for a short time.” I’m sorry.
The glass is tilted and the wine is slowly spilling at the foot of Jiangdong.
“Jeandong, you’re acting very well, but it’s not my Gono! I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
