3. Silent trials

3. Silent trials

Silent trial

A week ago, Zhang Zhuol, who proposed to me, kidnapped me and put a syringe with potassium cyanide on my neck, and went crazy: “I want you dead! I’m sorry.

A week ago, Zhang Zhuol, who proposed to me, kidnapped me and put a syringe with potassium cyanide on my neck, and went crazy: “I want you dead! I’m sorry.

One.

Zhang Chul and I only got married yesterday, and today we’re waiting for a formal meeting between our parents and we’re both locals.

After a war, everything had been arranged for the afternoon, when Zhang Chul suddenly offered to take me to meet his sister.

When he said the two words “sister,” he looked very, very serious, or very, very emotional, which made me somewhat uncomfortable.

I frowned and asked him, “Are you not an only child? I’m sorry.

Zhang Cheol noded, “Not my sister. I’m sorry.

I’ve read all this nonsense, and all I can think about is the “sister’s talk” in the son of a bitch’s mouth, and I’d be sick to death if Zhang Cheol were to get me a “sister.”

Zhang Chul went on to say, “It’s my dad’s sister. I’m sorry.

He’s a reorganised family, and it seems to me that this sister, to be precise, is the stepdaughter, whose heart I hanged down half.

“We’re getting engaged. We should go worship her. I’m sorry.

I put my heart back in my stomach. I can’t help it. My girlfriend’s had a hard time.

But Zhang Chul has seen in his eyes many inexhaustible emotions, sorrow, passion and pain.

My heart is as discomfort as the fire of the stars on the prairie, and it shines in the darkness of the night, and it becomes dense.

I really don’t have to do anything with someone who’s already dead, and I’m just pretending to see nothing. I’m sorry.

I am simply saying that the pain in the eyes of Chul Zhang is rapidly multiplying, like the black clouds that run over the city and roaring, and it takes a long time to calm down.

I don’t have to deal with someone who’s dead, but I’m sick of it.

And when I stood in front of this sister’s grave, and saw the smileful picture on her tablet, and saw the new and dying bouquets, it reached its height.

My sister’s name is late, two peach eyes, two pear vortexes, and smiles sweet and cute, a girl who’ll love you when you look at the past.

If you ignore my five-point-long.

I’m a double!

The flood in my heart began to overflow, but I thought that I was an educated man who couldn’t throw up in front of the dead, so I couldn’t bear to throw up.

It took me a while to finish my phone call before Zhang Chul finally remembered their great brotherhood.

He held my hand with tears, a dead wife’s face, and I ran away from him, and I said, “Sir, I’m just coming to see you with your brother, and I don’t think I’ll come again. I don’t think you’ll welcome me either. I’m sorry.

After I turn around, Zhang Zhuol is making a fool of me, listening to me and being angry, “How can you say that it’s so lonely being here late and alone that we should visit her often? I’m sorry.

I turned my head and tried to be calm, “You can visit her often. You can stay here. It’s none of my business. I’m sorry.

Zhang Chul is holding my wrist so hard, “What are you doing now?” We’re meeting this afternoon. You’re breaking up now? Why are you so ignorant? I’m sorry.

“Do you understand? “I tried to pull back my wrists, and I couldn’t even shake them a few times, and I let him rip my wrists out, and I said, “I used to know too much, and I couldn’t find the evidence, so I was accused of making a scene. I like roses, but you never gave me a proposal. I like it. I love it. You’re looking for a late-night double! Too bad she’s still pregnant with someone else’s child. I’m sorry.

Two.

That’s right. I always felt familiar with the face of Ding night. He was said to be still pregnant.

Why do I remember so well, because she jumped from my building.

Seven years ago, I went to a university in the field, and the winter break was coming to an end, and the next day I was going back to school, and at night I was walking downstairs with Shaukang, and I suddenly heard the sound of a twilight, and one fell straight from the top floor, and the whole earth shook, and when I came back, a man lay next to a ten-metre flower garden, covered in blood.

I was in his arms, and I looked in his arms.

She was bleeding, she was convulsing, her eyes were wide open and she was staring straight at me, and the bitterness in her eyes came to me with blood, and I was scared and I woke up.

I went back to school the next day and had a month of nightmares.

Zhang Chul was out of my mind and said, “Shut up and get killed later. She’s so good, so good.” I’m sorry.

He was in a state of madness, pulling me over and over and over and over, and I couldn’t get out of it, and my eyes were red and my heart was starting to get scared.

Zhang Chul keeps pulling me back, “You’ll apologize to her later and later! She’s a…

He was punched in the temple before he finished talking, and several steps back.

I was wearing high heels, and he almost pulled me to the ground, but I looked back at him like I found the main heart. I’m sorry.

The eyes of Shaukang fell on my blue wrist, and I could feel his eyes burning in the air, and I could say, “Wait a minute! I’m sorry.

Speaking of three or two steps across, pulling Zhang Cheol’s collar, punching her in the face, “Don’t you know she fucking hurts?” She’s a little bit of a pain in the ass, and you bastard! I’m sorry.

Zhang Chul finally saw someone in his fist, and suddenly he got angry, “How dare you come here? How dare you come here! You murderer is not worthy to come here!” I’m sorry.

I came all the way up here trying to pull Shaukang away. I’m sorry.

Zhang Cheol ignored me, and was as mad as a madman, with his fist on his neck.

Look at this, I panic. Zhang Chul is a doctor who knows where to do something that would cause fatal harm, and I don’t want to say that I’m going to die and hug his arm, but he’s just a weak student, with no strength, and he’s being dragged by me. Cho-kang grabbed the opportunity to lift his knee on his stomach and kicked him to one side.

“Stop it!” I’m sorry.

I frowned and looked at him, and looked at him, like I was suddenly filled with anger, loosed my hands and turned to smoke.

3

After all this, I slowly calmed down and took Zhang Cheol up. “This is the way the parents must have seen each other today. Let’s all go home and calm down. Zhang Cheol, I don’t want you to miss your sister, but you can’t take me as your replacement, you’re an adult and nobody can leave. I’m sorry.

I thought it was cool, but Zhang ignored my words completely, with his stomach covered, his eyes red, and pointed to Shaukang and asked me, “What is your relationship with him?” I’m sorry.

When he asked me, I remembered what he said about the murderer. I’m sorry.

“What a misunderstanding!” and I can feel him standing next to him, and I can feel him shaking a little because of his anger. “How could he jump with his stomach at night if he didn’t take responsibility? He died late, but he’s fine! Even the news is down, the Internet is all over the place, and it’s all over the place, saying she doesn’t take care of herself, she doesn’t love herself, and the real culprits get away with it. I’m sorry.

I’m standing there. How can Shaukang be the kind of girl who gets pregnant and doesn’t take responsibility? Even though he was a child, he was a regular customer in police stations…

Yeah, he’s so bad, he’s not responsible.

I don’t believe it emotionally, but I can’t argue it rationally.

And I came to him with a heavy step, as though he was still puking in smoke rings, as if he had listened to others’ stories, and then came to me, and turned out the smoke, waved his hands and spread it, and laughed.

It’s just a small move, and I’m used to it, but I’m still sour and he can’t be a bad guy.

When my parents were little, he would take me away, and he would take my hand, and I fell in the river and he wouldn’t swim to save it, and I had an epilepsy in front of me, and the first thing was to wipe my tears.

He’s better than anyone.

Although we rarely see each and every time we see him, either with strange hair or with a lot of fighting car injuries, it’s just me, and it’s embarrassing and internal, and sometimes it’s red.

He was always in my heart like the sun, warm and bright.

I hesitated for a long time and I couldn’t believe it. I’m sorry.

He stopped laughing and looked carefully at me, and he rarely approached me in such a way, mostly by running away.

He looked at me for a long time, and I couldn’t spare half the emotional changes, and my thoughts became clearer in his eyes.

Why did Ding choose to jump off my building tonight? Why are you staring at me before you die?

It’s all clear. I’m still struggling.

4

I feel like he’s given me a sentence. “I’m tired of that woman, and I want to get married. Think you can squeeze me when you’re pregnant? Funny! I’m sorry.

I tried to slap him like that, even though I didn’t like it late, because Zhang Zhuol had me as a double, but I should not have been so downplayed, at least not by him!

I had a tremor in my teeth, and it was so cold in my blood that my tears were dripping down, I couldn’t say it. It’s a human life! You…”

And before I had finished, he put me in his arms, then stretched his legs out of my side, and groaned. I turned my back and saw Zhang Cheol lying on the ground, with his mouth covered in blood and smouldering eyes staring at us, as they had seven years ago.

I let go of his hand, came out of his arms, took Zhang Cheol, took out a tissue and tried to wipe the blood out of his mouth, and I snuck out of his mind.

It’s true that Zhao Hong’s eyes have changed a bit as I move, and then I light a cigarette, spit on a pipe, and say something worse than a knife. Not yet…”

The rest of his words were slowly silenced in my frozen eyes, and he dazzled and threw his cigarette butt and walked away.

He’s a very long man, and he’s just walking alone in this cold autumn, and there’s always something going on.

All of a sudden, I was so upset that I wanted to catch up and tell him that I didn’t look at him like that because I was protecting Zhang Cheol. I was just afraid to see him so bad.

But I didn’t. I had some complaints about him.

I held Zhang Cheol cold and he was colder and more obscenity than I was, “We’re done. I’m never going to be with a man like you. I’ve never forgotten anything. I’m sorry.

“Okay, I got it. Sorry about the evening. “I know it’s no use to say any more sorry, and I owe you what you need me to do, and I have absolutely nothing to say.” I’m sorry.

Zhou Jie and I, even if I had been guilty, now I owe you. I’ve had eyes. I see clearly today that you haven’t liked me. I’ve seen your biggest emotional movements since I was married to you. So far, I’ve seen you today, you’ve been hiding so much, but you can’t hide your sorrow and disappointment from him. You said I never remembered your preference, but did you care? I even feel like you’re relieved with this, like you’re completely relieved! I’m sorry.

“Yes, you’re right!” I can’t look back because I’m crying and I have to walk forward. “I’m 28, I’m getting married, my mom likes you, and I don’t think you’re bad enough. I think that’s enough. I’m sorry. Don’t write it on him. I’m sorry.

5

I walked in tears and felt wrong for the first time, starting with his fight and his desire to smoke, and my mother told me not to talk to him, and I listened to him, and I had to look down on the window every day and shouted at him and a bunch of friends, squeezing my eyes through my window, and passing some snacks that my mother had not allowed me to eat.

The first time he brought his little girlfriend through my window, I lost the sugar sluice he handed over, and then he went to high school, and every time the girls brought back were different, and the window that I closed never opened again, it seemed like we were lost in time.

The night Ding jumped off the stairs, we hadn’t seen him for many years, and I walked with him in the neighborhood for a long time, and I knew how to talk, and I didn’t know how to do it, and suddenly I thought of the dumplings, and he was rushing to buy them, but he didn’t break out of the block, and the body was in the middle of the road.

Later, I occasionally sent him a message, and there was no reply, and he just called me today.

Years and years are such a pig-killing knife that I’ve carved into my heart of a teenager.

It’s nothing. I try to comfort myself. It’s okay.

But the more I think about it, the more it hurts, from the wrist to the heart to the ankle, nothing hurts.

There was no vehicle near it, and I walked out of the cemetery in a deep, shallow foot, and some self-absorptioned ankles were already overburdened, as if the pain was on the ankle, and the heart was spared.

Finally, my heels were completely broken, and my ankles swung, and my heart swung, like the last straw to crush the camel, and I sat on the side of my teeth, swung with blue wrists, and my eyes were all bruised and bruised, but the more I tried to get over it, the harder I felt, the more I cried, the more I cried in my arms.

Suddenly, the sharp brakes were ringing, the door was thrown up, and I looked up in red, and Shao Hong was lying down, with his frown on his head, and he died. “What, so sad that he broke up with that son of a bitch? I’m sorry.

I struggled to stand up and pushed him, and the phrase didn’t turn around and went forward, but I didn’t care that it would become a cripple.

I’ve been struggling twice, I’ve not struggled, I’m dying, and I’m saying, “I hate you, I hate you!” I’m sorry.

He breathed, low, “Well, yes, every time you met me, it wasn’t a good thing, the last night you ran into him, this time messing up your engagement. I’m sorry.

“Why don’t you take responsibility for the night?” I’m sorry.

He looked at me and said, “Don’t think too much. I’m sorry.

Six.

He threw the bruises on the co-driver into the back seat, put me on the co-driver, fastened my seatbelt, and directly guided the nearest hospital.

The two of them were silent, and my tears were like a broken line, and my cries were intermittent, and my hands were constantly covered with tears.

I didn’t want to be so polite, but I haven’t been so upset for years.

Teary message to my mother that today’s meeting was cancelled.

My mom went straight to the phone, and she blew it up. “How come Zhou-yi cancelled it? Did you do something wrong? Zhang Chul is a great kid. You’re 28 years old, not a little girl. I’m sorry.

“Mom, no, it’s not…” I’m just choked and can’t talk.

Shaukang put his phone on. ” Aunt, it’s me. I’m sorry.

I can’t hear anything. It took him a while to say, “Well, I know. I’m sorry.

I hung up and handed me my phone and said, “Go to the hospital first. I’m sorry.

There’s no more, and since I got in the car, I’ve clearly felt his sudden coldness, but it’s nothing. We haven’t seen him for seven years, and it’s just a familiar stranger, even if it’s normal to come across one day and pretend not to know him.

I thought so, the tears were rubbing.

When the light was red, he snapped and looked straight at the sidewalk and said, “Hey, don’t cry. It hurts. I’m sorry.

And then he came up with the seatbelt, bit me on the lips, and he said, “You gotta find someone who loves you, get married, live a life, be happy, you know? I’m sorry.

When the car started again, he kept his eyes on the front and drove smoothly.

I slit my lips and looked at his side face, “Why don’t you look at me? I’m sorry.

He did not reply and never looked at me again from the hospital to the house.

When he took me into his house, my mother was already frozen in the three-volts, and her voice was cold and stiff, “It’s hard enough for her to be in trouble, you haven’t been back for so many years and your parents miss you.” I’m sorry.

“Good. He nodded, “Doctor said she’d better not walk lately,” he looked down at me and said, “Take care of yourself.” I’m sorry.

I remember the last time he disappeared like this, and I felt bad, and I kept my hands tight. I’m sorry.

My mother looked at me so badly, I watched the shadow of his silence leaving, and I kept saying, “Don’t you dare leave me! I’m sorry.

My mom went straight to the door and sat in front of me, “Jolly, you better tell me what’s going on today! I’m sorry.

I held my wrist, “Mom, Zhang Cheol’s sister is late at night. I’m sorry.

After my mother was shocked, she changed her face and said, “What does that have to do with you? I’m sorry.

“So you know about Ding’s night! “Why didn’t you tell me? I’m sorry.

“I know you’re in love with Shaukang, and I’m watching him grow up. I’m so sorry. I’m sorry.

“He wouldn’t do that. There must be some misunderstanding! “I’m going to go back and forth between faith and disbelief, and finally I’m going to say, “It’s over, Mom, it’s over. I’m sorry.

“What happened? The girl was at the door before you took leave. He never denied it. It was a life. I’m sorry.

“I’m gonna ask him,” and I’m gonna stand up, and I’m gonna ask him. I’m sorry.

My mother slapped her in the face, and she said, “You’ll wake up and you won’t see him again from today. I’m sorry.

“Mom, he only has his dead sister! I’m sorry.

“What are you doing with a dead man? I’m sorry.

7

My mother’s hand wasn’t so strong, but she did calm me down, completely calm me down, and these things should not be mixed up. It’s impossible for me and Zhang Chul. I don’t want my husband to remember a dead man for the rest of my life. Most importantly, I don’t have him in my heart. When he and Zhukang are standing before me at the same time, I’m going to lose him for nothing compared to Zhukang. I can’t imagine the need for a union like this.

As for Shaukang, he must have hidden something. I guess it doesn’t make any sense, but it’s a hunch. It must be.

When I woke up the next day, my mother smiled and pushed the door in, “Are you awake? Get up, Zhang Chul’s been waiting in the living room for a long time, get dressed, wash up, don’t be mean and tell me what happened yesterday. I’m sorry.

As soon as I opened the door, Zhang Zhuol stood up from the sofa, smiling better than my mother, and with a lot of apologies: “Ii, yesterday I was too impulsive to talk to you about that shit. I apologize. It’s your favorite mouth red. I’m sorry.

I didn’t move at the door. I’m sorry.

He seemed to be insatiable, “But I’m really sorry that we’ve been having such a long time, Ii, and I want it back. I’m sorry.

I went straight to the bathroom, I couldn’t give him a single look, no one could wake up a sleeping man, and I would try to make up for Zhang Cheol, even though I felt guilty about it.

When I was washing, my mother stood at the door and said, “Who hasn’t made a mistake in my life? How can you be so cruel, you look like Chang Chul, you’re here at 6:00 in the morning? I’m sorry.

I spit on my mouth and ask my mom, “Why do you have to marry me?” I’m sorry.

“Who doesn’t get married in his life? I’m sorry.

“A lot of people get married. I don’t want to! I’m sorry.

“How come Zhang Chul’s such a good boy is so good, you have to think about that downstairs! I’m sorry.

My mom said it was too urgent, I didn’t even have time to keep my voice down. I looked out through the door, and Zhang Cheol’s smile was a moment of stiffness, even a meanness.

I didn’t listen to my mother, I completely ignored Zhang Chul, went straight back to my room, opened the window and came out and shouted, “Wan Shaukang!” Wang Shaukang!”

My mother’s face was so drenched that the window would close and I blocked it. I cried for half a day and there was no movement downstairs.

I bit my lips for a while and cried downstairs: “Did you kiss me yesterday? Will you explain?” I’m sorry.

I can feel that the ladies downstairs are boiling, and the neighbors for more than a decade, who’s got a birthmark on their son’s ass, and I’m talking like a bomb, just popping the whole building’s neighbor’s gossip.

My mom’s totally pissed off. One finger almost poked my head off. I’m sorry.

“I don’t want to get married, I don’t want to be stupid for the rest of my life, I don’t want to see the people I love who like me getting away from me, and I want to fight for myself, and I’ll recognize everything! I’m sorry.

I’ll tell Chang Chul, “Are you sure you want to apologize again? I’m sorry.

“Yes” smiled as if nothing had just happened, but the more that smile looked like a face over his face, “I really liked you and wanted to save you. I’m sorry.

I looked at Zhang Cheol for a long time, and I didn’t even look at him that long when we were in love, and the more I looked at him, the more I was upset, “What do you want to do, come at me.” I’m sorry.

He’s still smiling, like a cloud in the fog. I just want you back. I’m sorry.

8

Before the two of us ended, our door was knocked off.

I’m going to open the door with a big smile, and if he doesn’t come, she’ll kill him.

As I knew, Shaukang was standing at the door with a girl with a big makeup in her arms, and I could feel my smile on my face.

He started laughing at me, laughing at me, and he didn’t care, “You son of a bitch, I’m joking with you. How can you be serious? Let me introduce you to your sister-in-law! I’m sorry.

What’s this? I just stood in the living room and said I had to fight. That’s what I did.

The aunt pushed the two men in, and she said, “Ye-il, I apologize to you, you know, the kid never learned to be a good kid.” “Wasn’t you a demon? You’ve ruined our family. It’s already a joke for the neighbors! I’m sorry.

The girl looks impatient, “Wan Shaukang, why don’t you ask your mother’s permission to marry?” I’m sorry.

My aunt, holding my hand on the couch, sheds tears, my eyes on Shaukang, sweeps and sweeps. I knew him once I was born. He knew me, and I didn’t know him. He wanted to do something about the story, so I turned away.

I held on to her hand, “You don’t like this girl. What do you think of me as your daughter-in-law? I’m sorry.

Aunt Wang looked at my mother and didn’t dare to speak.

“Look what my mother is doing, it’s okay if you don’t cooperate with me. I’m sorry.

In a moment, everyone was shocked by what I said about my shame, and Shaukang was a step forward, and he looked like shit. You…”

He’s not finished yet, and suddenly he starts convulsing and falls straight to the ground, all spasming.

The girl panicked and ran away screaming.

I rushed into the kitchen and took a chopstick and made him bite into his mouth, and started stripping him of his clothes, as much as possible, to keep him free.

He’s been sick to me many times, and I think I know how to deal with it, but after all, it’s not professional, and I have to die and drag Zhang Chul. I’m sorry.

Aunt Wang’s tears were full of tears and my mother had washed downstairs to call Uncle Wang.

Zhang Cheol put him down and asked me before he did, “Ii, can you give me another chance? I’m sorry.

I couldn’t help but nod my head.

He stopped his convulsions before he ran upstairs, and he kicked him in the face, and he was breathing, and he said, “It’s not dead! I’m sorry.

I was too busy keeping Shao’s health in my arms to understand why my biological father was so cold.

In the end, it was with my eyes and my strong demands that Uncle Wang refused to take us to the hospital.

According to the doctor, his epilepsy was very serious, his medication was no longer effective and there was a fatal risk in every case.

I was sitting in front of his bed, and Uncle Wang had left with my mother alone, and her hand was on my shoulder with a warm force, and I wanted to cry. “Mom, how did you say he’s been through all these years? Why are uncles and aunts so cold? I really loved him. Yesterday, I knew about the night, and I didn’t know why he was like this, but I was cut to pieces like I was killed. I’m sorry.

“You all said he was bad, but if he was a bad man, why would he hide from me and seek a strange man as a shield? He knew his condition and didn’t want to slow me down.” I’m sorry.

“In fact, God didn’t give me a short time, since I was born, but I was too slow, I took it for granted, and now I’ve lost it to understand what I had before. I’m sorry.

“Mom, there’s a line between fiction and reality, good and bad, and he’s like this, even if he was bad, it’s not fake. I’m sorry.

I said a lot from time to time, and for the first time my mother had not refuted me, and she had no way of accusing a man who was dying at any time, and she was still a child she had seen growing up.

9

When Shaukang woke up, he completely ignored me and left the hospital without a word, and when I knew it, he was told that he had left.

He’s been in Shanghai for years, rarely back.

I looked at the empty bed and thought for a long time, and I resigned the same day.

God gave me a long time, but there’s really not much left.

I bought a ticket, and my mom was groaning when I packed, and I knew she was trying to stop me, but she couldn’t.

Zhang Chul asked me to meet. I thought about it, and I agreed that if I were to go, I’d have to answer everything I’ve done before.

By the time I got to the cafe, he had ordered coffee and still had a smile on his face, which seemed vague and elusive.

I was so sincere when I took up two cups of coffee, and I was feeling tired for a long time, a little relaxed, and I said, “Chang Chul, I know you have a lot of hatred that you can’t let go, but his body, you should know, I’m not asking you for forgiveness, I just want you to get out. I’m sorry.

Zhang Chul went to the wrong end of his head and did not take my words, but asked: “Will you go to him?” I’m sorry.

I was like, “How do you know? I’m sorry.

He smiled, “Guess, but you don’t have to go. I’m sorry.

“Why?” I feel a little sleepy.

‘Cause I’ll get him back. I’m sorry.

And suddenly his voice was round as a ghost, and I lost consciousness in that sentence.

When I woke up, I found myself tied to a chair, surrounded by empty long-term bottles, used plastic pipes, covered with dust, as if a long-term disused clinic.

“Wake up? The sound of Zhang Chussa’s mute, and I turned my head, and I found that he was setting out needles, and the needle at the end of the plastic tube was stuck to my back, but the pump was not opened.

It’s not far from the wall, there’s a picture of night and night, and there’s a thick plume down there.

“What do you want? Are you crazy? Do you know it’s against the law? * My heart is beating wildly, my legs are soft. *

I am well aware that Zhang Chul’s mentality could no longer be judged by normal people when I appeared here.

“I’m crazy? No, I’m normal. It’s Wang Shaukang who’s crazy. I’m sorry.

“You’re lying! I don’t want to contradict him.

“I’m talking nonsense?” And he laughed, “What do you think this is? I’m sorry.

He took out his cell phone, opened the photo album, lit a video of a night-night violation, during which she fell asleep and was not sure whether she had been drunk or drugged.

A man lying on her face, blinded by his face, did something that was very clear, bad, and groaned.

I’ve been watching the whole video on his head, as if the drowning man had suddenly been pulled out of the deep sea, and I can’t breathe any more of the stones in my heart.

But Chang Chul is still mad, “You know what this is? Six years ago, I went to court to sue Wang Xiaokang, but the court did not take the case for lack of evidence. I’m not supposed to hate him. Shouldn’t I get back at him? I couldn’t find him before. I won’t let him go again! I’m sorry.

And We stood up to the dust that had fallen down, and looked up at him, and said, “He was not the one in the video, and he had no birthmark on his back. I’m sorry.

“No way! Zhang Cheol slid back and forth and looked at it four or five times. Maybe he managed to get rid of it. You lied to me! You lied to me!” He said, “Hold your hand and give me a slap, and I was strong, and I felt a bloodthirsty smell full of my mouth.”

I can feel the fluid coming out of my mouth, but I’d say he didn’t say it seven years ago, and now I’d say, I want to tell everyone, “What do we have on him when we were kids? Zhang Chul, you hate the wrong person! I’m sorry.

“Why doesn’t he deny it? It’s you, it’s you! It must be! I’m sorry.

My heart sank to the bottom of the valley, and he was in an abnormal state, trapped in his own mind, afraid to admit the truth.

10

I’d like to say something else, but I haven’t been able to open my mouth yet.

He’s sweating and he’s still breathing. The sights were swept around the house, and when it was set on me, the pupils were dazzled and their eyes were exposed.

I was like, “How did you get here so fast? I’m sorry.

Zhang Chul smiles so much, “Of course he didn’t leave.” I’m sorry.

Zhao Chong wasn’t in the mood to talk to him. Zhang Zhuol had a needle in my neck before he tried to get up there, “I suggest you calm down. I’m sorry.

“What do you want? I’m sorry.

Zhang Chul looked up at the dirty table next to Shaukang, “Drink the water.” I’m sorry.

I fought like hell. “Chang Cheol, I told you the guy in the video wasn’t him, not him! He hasn’t touched the night. You let him go! I’m sorry.

Zhang Chul grabbed my hair, “I don’t believe you, you lied to me, you lied to me!” I’m sorry.

“Now, drink that glass of water! I’m sorry.

“No, I can’t drink!” I was dragged back by Chang Cheol, and my headaches were almost unconscious, and I had a hard time spitting out a few words.

Zhang Cheol hates him. Who knows what he put in the water!

And Zhang Chul heard me, and threw his hand at me again, and before he fell on my face, he heard Zhu Chong shout, “I drink! Do not touch her.”

He took the glass and drank the water.

Zhang Chul was successful, laughing funny, “Don’t worry, it’s just a little anaemic, it’s just your mobility. I’m sorry.

Then he fell in my ear and said with the voice that all three of us could hear, “But I didn’t think he could do that for you, and I thought, if he didn’t care about you, I’d let you go, but if he had you in his heart, you’d have to die! “He’s got a little shiver with his hand holding the syringe too hard, and he’s killing my love, and I want him to feel like he’s dying all the time!” I’m sorry.

I’m happy that everything is still a chance, as long as it’s not poison.

I looked at Zhang Cheol as a mercy: “What if we both die and the killer who killed Ding Night is still at large? I’m sorry.

After that, I wouldn’t even give him a chance to rebut it, and I said to him, “Do you have anything to do with Ding’s late tummy?” I’m sorry.

“No!” He couldn’t miss his eyes, as if his heart was hanging on the tip of the needle, and said: “It’s not mine, it’s Lin. It’s Lin who raped her while she was drunk. Zhang Chul. Your parents knew that Lin was the only son of the chairman of the company your father worked for. Why didn’t your father take care of her? Why did you move from director to general manager? I’m sorry.

Eleven.

Don’t say Zhang Chul. I didn’t even know there was so much behind.

Zhang Chul can’t believe it, swinging the needle, “You’re full of shit! You’re full of shit! My dad couldn’t have done that. That’s his daughter! My daughter!”

Shaukang took the opportunity and tried to rush up, but he fell on the ground and got up half a day later.

When he fell, he woke up Zhang Chul and said, “Why don’t you protect her when you’re in love with you later?” Besides, why should I trust you? You haven’t denied it all these years. Now it’s late! I’m sorry.

Having heard these words for the first time, Shao Hong came in so long, he looked at me, and he said, “I don’t deny it, it’s not necessary, no one believed me at that time. My mother said, “I’m alive to drag her down. My father said, “This family can live only if I die.” He said, “Here, he smiled at me, and even Zhou told me not to contact you again.” I’m sorry.

My tears are pouring down, and my heart is squeezing, “What are you listening to?” Don’t you hate listening to them? What are you now? I’m sorry.

“But they’re right, I’m the best dead. Nobody cares about me. I really thought I’d die in Shanghai alone. I’m sorry.

“You fucking fart! * I’ve been crying, I’ve been * I’m sorry.

“I remember, I remember every one of them,” he said, “You said you were afraid, you had nightmares every day, you asked me if I could sing to you when I was a kid, you said you wanted to eat candy, but the school mountain never tasted good at home, you said you wanted me, could you come and see me, and finally you asked me if I would never talk to you again?” I’ve been trying to sneak up on you many times, but I can’t. You’ve been in my hands since I was a kid. How can you mess with me? I’m sorry.

“I’m happy to be with you. Do you know that when I think of you leaving your home, alone, in a strange city, ready to wake up every time I have no knowledge of being in love, I’m in pain.” I’m sorry.

“It’s okay, it’s over. Don’t cry. It hurts. He said, “I’m like I’m in a giant hand, full of limbs and pain.

All right, all right! Zhang Chul is clapping and laughing is completely twisted. “Wing Shaukang, I’d like to see you’re really so loyal and just saying. I’m sorry.

I’m sharp, “What do you want? I’m sorry.

He picks up his mouth and slowly squirms his pump, “Do you see this thing?” As soon as I open it, the flimlin in the bag will slowly flow into Zhou Yi’s body, not much, only 60 milligrams, enough to kill. I’m sorry.

Shaukang was busy saying, “Don’t hurt her, I’ll do anything!” I’m sorry.

Zhang Cheol seems to be very satisfied with his good intentions, and says, “I don’t really want you to do anything. Let’s exchange it for 20 milligrams of potassium cyanide in a syringe, and the FFL in a bag, which happens to be 180 milligrams, so I’ll let her go. I’m sorry.

“Yes! “I’m afraid he might turn back.” But I always thought it wasn’t that simple.

Kneel on your knees!

12

As he has done, he kneels straight on his knees and kneels before bowing down for a long time, rising up and kneeling again.

All his moves were like a one-size-fits-all slow, and I had a hunch there was something wrong, but he turned his back on me and I couldn’t see anything.

“Oh, how touching! Zhang Cheol is happy.

When he spoke, he was interrupted by Shaukang, “Shut up! I’m sorry.

It’s almost three words biting through the throat and suffocating the pain.

“What, afraid of her heart? Zhang Chul said, “Why didn’t you have that pity on the night?” I’m sorry.

I struggled, but I couldn’t move but to ask Zhang Chul, “What’s wrong with him?” What did you do?”

Zhang Chul turned to me and said with great joy, “I put a dozen nails in the band, each of them so long.” I’m sorry.

He said it was a 10-cm length.

I can’t even think how painful it is to get so many nails in my knee. Stop! Let him go! Let him go! I’m sorry.

Zhang Chul ignored my cry, but Zhang Qianxi spoke with one word.

He is no longer strong enough to say anything superfluous, and I can even feel the pain of every word and smell the blood of wetness.

But Zhang Chul is laughing, “No, that’s not true. If you turn back, there’s no potassium cyanide in Formalin. I’m sorry.

He collected the syringe, opened the diversion tube, and released 20 ml of FF solution.

And Shaukang heard the ticking and ticking of the solution, and did not refute it, but rose again slowly and steadfastly.

As far as I can see, his pants and legs are wet, red liquids are dripping from his legs on his feet, and the voice of Formarin is mixed into a heart-breaking song that stretches every second as long as the last second before drowning.

I did everything I could to get on the floor, crawling on the floor, and Zhang Zhuol grabbed the legs of the chair, and I couldn’t move.

I cried and cried, and my voice was screeching, but I failed to stop him from standing up and kneeling again, and every move he made, like a knife, cut a deep visible bone wound in my heart, but it fell on him.

13

When he kneeled for the 50th time, he said, “Please, can you help her not to cry…”

Zhang Chul seems to lament, “How can I stop her crying for someone she likes?” I’m sorry.

Shaukang didn’t beg him anymore, and he started to talk to me.

“When you were born, I held you in my arms, and suddenly I felt like I was going to protect you all my life. I’m sorry.

“You’ve been in primary school, you’ve been following my ass, calling me Brother Shaukang, and I’ve been holding on to you while I’m holding on to you and looking back from time to time. I’m sorry.

“You’re in high school, I’m in love, I’m in brotherhood, the world is beautiful, you girl! If you don’t want my candy, I’ll buy it for everyone. Every girlfriend buys it, but whoever buys it, it’s sour. It’s like I’ve melted my sugar coat. I’m sorry.

“You went to college, I met her late at night, and she smiled just like you, and she used to eat candy cucumbers with little tongues licking sugar coats, but when she died in front of me, I was thinking of you in a moment of shock. I’m sorry.

“I learned it when I didn’t know how to treasure it, and since then I’ve become a bad, evil, evil-looking, evil-doing, evil-doing. I dare not come near you.” I’m sorry.

“I’m not only bad, but I’ll die at any moment. Why do I have to drag you into this?” I’m sorry.

“Jiele, I regret too much in my life, and I regret nothing more than to drag you through your life. I’m sorry.

“I’ll take care of you, too. I didn’t do anything. What if I broke you too? I’m sorry.

His voice is already getting lower, as if at any time it would be impossible to sustain it, but only with a little will.

I cried two metres behind him, and I was silent.

The blood that he had seep has been flowing almost to the point of my fingertips, and Zhang Chul fell the last 20 ml of potassium cyanide, as agreed, with his second knee.

He was just trying to untie me, and Quan was holding on to his last words. I’m sorry.

Zhang Chul-chul said, “Why are you doing this? I’m sorry.

And don’t hum, open your mouth, but he can’t make a sound that hurts. He’s frowning, but he’s relaxing, using his mouth. I’m sorry.

When the tone of the conversation just fell, a shot was fired and then a blood mist blew up on Zhang Cheol’s shoulder, a group of policemen came in and the sound of an ambulance and a police car sounded wrongly.

That’s when I found out Zhang Chul had been standing in the dead corner of the room.

As soon as the police untied my rope, I jumped over it, almost all blood in the lower half of Shaukang, and I stayed half an inch away from him, afraid to move and lost my grip.

But he fell in my arms, he held my waist tight, and he shouted, “Eyle! I’m sorry.

But the rest, I can’t say. My tears fell and I held him back.

I know he could’ve drawn Zhang Cheol long ago, but Zhang Cheol had nothing to do with it, and he was afraid to take half a risk.

The emergency doctor temporarily examined the wound and the frown was tight, “This leg is a mess! I’m sorry.

“Live is fine, live is fine! “We are all that we need, two people wept and wept.

Zhang Chul got kicked out of the door and laughed at me before he got in the police car. I’m sorry.

14

I knew what he meant the night he was in the hospital.

The doctor took the results of the examination and told me, with a heavy face, that “the patient ingestions a large amount of dichloride and methyl disulfate. I’m sorry.

Seeing my face, I explained: “The main ingredient of paraquat has exceeded its lethality. I’m sorry.

The water! He didn’t want to do it!

“Death is already foreseeable and very long and painful, and families must be psychologically prepared. I’m sorry.

Destiny, after having had enough sex, will not let us go. Maybe it wasn’t our wish to let us go in the first place.

When I got back to the ward, Shaukang woke up, and I asked, “Are my legs still in pain? Is there anything else uncomfortable?”

He was shaking his head slowly, reaching out his hand and rubbing tears off my eyebrow, “Ei, don’t cry, my heart hurts. I’m sorry.

I rubbed my eyes, and I said, “I’m not crying, you better get better, I’m waiting for you to buy me some candy.” I’m sorry.

He smiled, “Okay. I’m sorry.

Quick and tired sleep over.

On the third day, he began to breathe with a marked lack of progress.

He might have noticed, but he didn’t say anything.

I was lying by my bed, remembering before, and I realized that there were so few moments of our love that I couldn’t even catch it.

Qiu Quantified my hair, and it’s calm, “Ei, it’s time to say goodbye to you. I’m sorry.

“Hmm. * I held his hand tight and squeaked. *

“It’s all said. After his long silence, he groaned: “I can’t leave you, my dear. I’m sorry.

I buried my head by the bed, and my tears were wet and he was afraid to find out.

I just realized I loved him and I’m losing him.

The fifth day, he started coughing blood.

Before the doctor went on the respirator, he said, “Hey, I’ve got sugar cucumbers. You go get them. I want to try them. I’m sorry.

It’s hot, I’ve walked all the way, and I’ve sweated a little.

And it was fast on the side of the mountain, and I accelerated it, but it was still too late to save it before we could go back to the room.

Open the door and hear the doctor say, “Let’s announce the time of death.” I’m sorry.

“On July 16, 2001, at 1:32 p.m., I’m sorry.

The attending saw me, and I’m sorry. “He had an epilepsy. We couldn’t save him. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

And he said, “Well, it’s good for him. I’m sorry.

He did not keep his legs, he broke one day, but he was no longer needed to amputate his limbs, and his organs were irreversibly decayed, and he was alive, leaving him only to suffer.

It is indeed good to avoid such a long and painful process of death.

It is true that at the end of the day, we have said goodbye and I have lost my tears.

But I was caught in the middle of my soul, torn a little bit, and left an empty hole in my chest, blown by the wind of the summer and stinged with cold bones.

The whole world seems to be covered with glass. I can’t even touch the truth.

Quiet, I heard someone call me, “Jee-Jee-Jee! I’m sorry.

I followed the sound of the voice, and only a fat hand was held in the hands of a young man.

(concluded)

I don’t know.

Keep your eyes on the road.