23. From my heart.
From my heart
Love rises with the wind: with your twilight and four seasons
The day my enemies announced their relationship, I was so excited that I went to Shanghai to tell the good news of Sumubai.
But when I saw his eyes full of mistakes and incredible, I found myself doing wrong.
Emotionally, I don’t think I’m a selfless man, and all I’m doing for him is thinking of a beautiful man.
I didn’t think so.
One.
Sumubba is the perfect man who is recognized in our school.
Every summer, he wears a white short-sleeved school uniform, rides a bicycle, travels like a wind through the school lanes and becomes a beautiful sight for our school.
There were often girls waiting there for a while while he was passing by.
And I’m just an old-fashioned man who really admires this beauty-only lens that can only be seen in a TV show.
When I first saw him, I couldn’t help but drown in his superb skin!
The love of his heart had only come in time to write a few love letters to him, and he had not been able to speak to him in person, and one day, when he passed by, there was already a man in the back seat of his bicycle.
The viewers, instead of excavating, are silent.
Waiting for him to pass, it took a while for everyone to scream.
The willow wears a dress full of sprouts, with the waist of Sumubhi, and sits in the back seat of Sumubhi’s bicycle, with a white leg, and wanders with joy.
The handsome face of Sumuphi also shows a little emotion, happiness, satisfaction and a little shame.
It was the first time that I saw the smile of Zumubba, when he slightly raised his lips and showed one or two white teeth, and in that sun shined.
The other girls who love him because this time, they’re all dead.
After all, Willows are no ordinary people.
She’s an art student, beautiful, long legs and a fine waist, and she’s a rich, decent goddess.
But I didn’t!
I began to have a dark side with the willow, and she became the most eager person in my heart to defeat.
Unfortunately, if you don’t wait for me to do something, you’re in love.
She’s in love with my shitty horse.
Two.
I’m in the park under Jiang Song Qing’s house, and I caught him.
She’s in the art school.
She couldn’t wait to sing with Jiang, but she ate the door shut.
She saw me, not to run away, waved at me all the way, “It’s so good to see you. I’m sorry.
Yeah?
She ran towards me, and I didn’t do anything, and I owed her my body, she stretched out her leg, and she fell, and a dog ate shit.
A couple of kids who played around saw it and laughed.
“You did it on purpose. * She rises up and says nothing but a duel *
That’s what I meant.
I can’t find a reason to fight her.
So we had a fight in the park and in public.
Of course, the results were not too suspenseful.
We are evenly divided.
In the end, I went to the milk and tea shop with two muddled and blue noses.
Almost got people thinking we’re here to blow it up.
“Oh, you like Zumubba?”
Sitting across my face, he said, “What are you fighting with me for? You should thank me. If I don’t leave Somubba, look at me and give me a little bit more attention. I’m sorry.
And when I hear this, my arrogant head descends uncontrollably.
“Let’s make a deal. Tell me the love of the Gang and the joy of Sumubba.” I’m sorry.
It’s exciting when you say that.
Me too!
3
I made a deal with Yoyo Yan and exchanged their school information.
For family reasons, Jiang Songqing abandoned the Professional Sports University and opted for military service.
Tibet? “What college can I go to in Tibet?” I’m sorry.
“You want to follow him to Tibet? I’m sorry.
When Willows returned to their faces, their hands were slapping on the table, and they stood up and resolved, “I can go to their army and be a arts soldier.” I’m sorry.
For a moment, I thought she was so strong, so beautiful and so beautiful. I kind of admired her.
No wonder the iceberg of Sumubba will melt for her.
“Shanghai!” she told me, “Sumurabai said Shanghai is his dream. I’m sorry.
4
Sumubba, as everyone would have expected, took our province ‘ s scientific dollar.
He was given the right to choose from the olive branch which had been thrown out of all the schools.
Me, as usual, is a bit worse than him.
But that’s the difference. I might not be able to go to the same school with him.
But I did not hesitate to abandon my province’s school and choose a school in Shanghai, the closest to Sumubai.
When I arrived in Shanghai, I was thinking about how to approach him.
On the first day of my college, I called him patheticly and said, “I can’t get my luggage up there, can you help me?” I’m sorry.
The next day I went to his school and delivered him fruits as a sign of gratitude.
“This is your girlfriend.” I’m sorry.
“No, no, this is my high school classmate. Her school is nearby. @Sunmubek: #Shumbai has been busy explaining.
I just smiled innocently, “Well, we’re at the same table. I’m sorry.
A couple of guys who looked very active laughed, and I didn’t have a red face, but Sumubai was uncomfortable.
And when I gave you fruits from the sack, I said, “He is not a very good talker, and I ask you to take more care of him.” I’m sorry.
They took fruit, and they went out with great knowledge.
I’m the only one left in that four-person dormitory.
I took an orange from the bag and handed it to him, and he couldn’t, he couldn’t, he couldn’t, I couldn’t, I looked in my face for a second, and I moved it off, and then I reached out and picked it up.
He said, “We have spent three years as classmates, and now we are going to college in one city, and it is right to help one another, and you need not be so careful. I’m sorry.
“If it’s right to help each other, why don’t I buy you some fruit? I asked, “Do you ever want to help me again?” I’m sorry.
“No, no. If you need anything from now on, just call me. I’m sorry.
That’s not the strategy I’ve come up with for someone who doesn’t have a relationship experience, so I’ve read N’s novel, and all of it is the master’s theme.
I can’t believe it. I can’t take away the math that the world is not afraid of.
After the completion of the remedial course, I designed a Sioux Mübbins Plan Book, which is inexhaustiblely fine enough to know what to wear, what to say and what to want to achieve.
And when the peach blossoms of their school opened, I said, “I’ve never seen such a beautiful peach flower, why don’t you hang out with me?” I’m sorry.
Every time I get to dinner, I don’t leave, and eventually he takes me to dinner in their cafeteria.
For a long time, Su Mu Bai had a girlfriend.
Until one of the heterosexual alumni in Sumubir came to my school and surrounded me.
“What do you want to do to get out of Sumubba?” I’m sorry.
Hey!
I’m so good, so many girls who like him, and I’m just a little challenge.
Besides, I’m a little excited and jumpy.
I’m trying to counter the cliché, and I’m picking up my lips, “Give me a billion.” I’m sorry.
5
Apparently, she was shocked.
Also, angry.
How many boys did she bring? I’m sorry.
I’m going to suffer in the normal course of my life, but it’s too late for Sumubba.
He breathed, and burst into the crowd, and protected me behind him, saying, “Do not oppress her. I’m sorry.
I can enjoy being protected by him.
At the same time, it enjoyed jealousy and anger in the eyes of the Willows: “Soumubba, although her school was good, it was still a little short of us, and now you don’t think that when you’re out of society, you’ll see how much the gap between you is, and I’ll be your next teammate, and I’ll speak with you.” I’m sorry.
“She’s not bad. Zumubbek argued strongly for me.
I thought he’d explain it to me, after all, he was first in China and second in China.
We were on the same platform.
But he didn’t.
He said: She is not my girlfriend, so do not bully her. I’m sorry.
I thought I was about to succeed, and I had written him a great confession, and that sentence destroyed all my efforts these days.
I grew up with courage and suddenly collapsed.
Six.
But I still couldn’t give up, and I decided to try one last time.
The day I graduated, I volunteered to meet Sumubba.
Invite him to dinner.
I ordered wine on purpose.
Wine is so bold.
And in a small room of wine, We seized his wrists, and in the moment of his misgivings, his hands were naturally wrapped around his neck, and I went to kiss his lips with my toes.
He took a step back, and my body leaned forward, and he feared that I would fall, and he would not be too quick to retreat.
I’m awake, I’m drunk, I like you, you know? I’m sorry.
I never dared to say it because, once rejected, I was afraid I would never hold on.
Even when I was drunk, I couldn’t get through to myself.
I’m not sure I’m going to be able to do that.
7
It’s a success.
Jiang Song Qing told me this himself.
First of all, he’s depressed.
Secondly, he was helpless.
And then he cried.
“I lost. I’m a trained man. Why can’t I stand it? I’m sorry.
# Whoo-hoo #
“I feel like my life is over at the beginning. I’m sorry.
“It’s not a woman, is it a woman who can do it? I’m sorry.
I pretended to be confused: “What’s going on?” I’m sorry.
“She seduced me,” he said, “I’m not holding it.” I’m sorry.
We’re: Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.
My heart: Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha.
On that day, the willows set the table, flaunting her victory.
And Jiang Song Qing was happy with a dog that only saw bones, with his mouth on his back.
He said, “In fact, I’m happy because last night I did something that I was so happy.” I’m sorry.
I was so excited to see them, and I felt like I had a blank in my head and bought a plane ticket right away, and that night I arrived in Shanghai.
And at dusk We rang the door of Sumubba, clattering.
“Mu Bai, the Qing Qing and the Willow are well. I’m sorry.
I’m so excited, so happy I can’t hide anymore.
I subconsciously believe that as long as the willows have masters, they will break Su Mu Bai’s obsession.
But I was wrong.
He seems to have suffered a lot.
The color of my face gave me a feeling of “desolation” when I wanted to slap myself in the face and take care of myself, forgetting that it was a huge blow to him.
8
His grief and pain came to me tens of thousands of times at once, and I apologized and said, “Sorry, Mu Bai, are you okay? I’m sorry.
Listening to me, Sumu Bai was caught by surprise and couldn’t understand his words, and he was not touched by smoke and wine.
And he said to me, “Go with me to drink.” I’m sorry.
I think he must have been too sad to say yes.
The excuse is, “If you get drunk, I won’t touch you. Let’s drink at home.” I’m sorry.
So we went to the supermarket to buy wine and vegetables.
He cut the dishes, and I held the spoon, like a couple, and he made a table that went beyond the usual restaurant.
But Sumubbaum didn’t forget the wine he wanted.
“Here’s to you. Thank you for coming to tell me this. I’m sorry.
“I’ll do it, whatever you want. I’m sorry.
“I’ll drink to you again. Thank you for your dedication over the years. I’m sorry.
“I’m dry, you drink orange juice. I’m sorry.
“Why did you leave your family, give up a better school and a better future and come to Shanghai? I’m sorry.
“I don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve it. I’m sorry.
As expected, he was drunk.
He said a lot of nonsense, but his wine was better than mine, but he was unconscious, he didn’t do anything, he didn’t throw up.
I took him into his room.
The moment the door was opened, a bike hanging on the wall was particularly visible.
Rather than being a bicycle, it is a bicycle made up of parts.
It was said that this was his father ‘ s bicycle, which he had torn and brought to Shanghai from his home.
Down there is a desk with a picture of him with his mother.
They were close together, happy and happy.
It’s not hard to see that he used to have a very happy home.
I put him on the bed, and I saw him on the desk, and I put a piece of paper on it, and it said:
If I haven’t seen the light, I can bear the darkness.
If I didn’t feel warm, I could hug the cold.
If I had not enjoyed company, I could overcome loneliness.
I’m really sorry about that.
Emotionally, I don’t think I’m a selfless man, and all I’m doing for him is thinking of a beautiful man.
But at this moment, when my Virgin mother’s heart stomped out, I wanted to be with him, even if he didn’t like me, and even if I did not eventually get his love, I would not want to see him so alone in the darkness and in the cold.
9
I still choose to stay in Shanghai.
I went to Dingping’s to interview the “Administrative Assistant” position.
The boss dumped me to Somubba, “Let her beat you up. Oh, yeah, she doesn’t live anywhere. I’m sorry.
Sumubba looked at me and looked at the boss and asked, “Why?” I’m sorry.
The boss, sitting in the office chair, owed him, and took my resume and handed it to him, “She is your hometown.” I’m sorry.
Out of the boss’s office, Sumubba looked at me for a long time, and he looked as if he was trying to kill me, and he said, “Your room, I did not move.” I’m sorry.
Of course I know it’s okay to move and move.
Ouch!
I’m so grown-up. What the hell was I thinking?
Shame!
Since then, we have worked together, worked together and worked together.
In the eyes of the outsiders, we are a pair created by heaven.
The women colleagues around me, though gruesome, are more grateful, and at least I have verified that Zumubé’s orientation is fine.
After all, what they’re most worried about is a return accident between the boss and the gods, and the gods and the rich and the cheeky.
10
In the summer of our 24th year of age, our relationship had reached 100,000 points of agreement.
We’ve done most of what other couples would do, except without intimate physical contact.
We even had a kitten in our busy work.
After taking on numerous criminal cases, Sumuboubha suddenly tried to steal from his colleagues a civil case of `branching’.
The owner of the house was the owner of a cat, and to thank him he sent him a kitten.
We named him Little Pearl.
It’s naughty. We both bathe it. We mess up the bathroom.
Su Mu Bai’s hands carry his tiny body, like a new baby, and I carefully wipe its feathers with a dry towel.
It’s hard to dry out. It can’t wait to play, jumps out of Somubba’s hand and accidentally grabs its claws in my face.
The sharp claws of the cat, stabbing me like a needle in my face, and it hurts for a while, and it makes me scream ” Ouch.”
Sumubhi was in a hurry to find iodine to sterilize me, and he was wearing a cotton sticky on my face, “Unfortunately, there was no bleeding, otherwise he had to go to the hospital to get a vaccine. I’m sorry.
And he asked me with his face, “How can we punish the little pearls? How can it hurt you? I’m sorry.
Pearly: I’m just a cat. I don’t know anything!
He was so close to Us that I could almost hear his breath and smell the light fragrance of his body, and I looked at his tiny wrinkled throat, and came out of my heart with a sudden impulse.
I couldn’t help but kiss his cheek.
That’s more than that. I pushed him straight on the couch.
What are you doing?
“Do what I always wanted to do. I’m sorry.
“Are you out of your mind?”
Yes, I think I am.
I looked at him with love, and suddenly I went up to the boss, “Who’s got your heart? Now I’m moaning you.” I’m sorry.
“Move my body?” “My words seem to be stimulating to Sumuba, and he pulls my arm, flips my arms, and puts me on the couch.
The sense of usurpation, the vagueness of the atmosphere, the healthy and strong body, made me feel the power of masculinity.
For a while, I just felt like my heart was pounding, and I wanted to break my skin and jump out of my body.
Inside, quiet as a chicken.
The sound of the door banged, the image of Sumubai disappeared in front of me.
Eleven.
Hey!
I’m a jerk.
We pushed him away at the door.
Maybe to avoid embarrassment, he left the house.
It took me a long time to figure it out.
I don’t know how this happened.
I’ve adjusted my emotions for a long time and I’ve recovered.
Sneaking to get the resources of the family and then looking forward to coming back later, so I can spend some time at school.
As if it were a man whom I admired, he did not fail me, and did not see for three days.
The company doesn’t see anyone. The family doesn’t even have a phone?
This is crazy.
I didn’t have to rush it. Did I scare you off by my “heavy CEO”?
12
On the fourth day, finally, he contacted me and sent me a text saying, “I bought a house. I’m sorry.
I’m so confused, I’m so confused that I can’t figure out what to do.
Isn’t that too much to pay for?
I called him in a hurry. Unfortunately, he didn’t answer the text.
Fortunately, the boss called me to tell me he was at the company.
I rushed to the company, and I saw Sumubhi downstairs, and the woman who disappeared for a long time in our lives.
13
Willows are more mature than they were a few years ago.
She’s in a professional dress, with a high ponytail, and she’s a strong woman who walks with Somubba.
They didn’t seem to be very happy when I came close, and they heard Su Mu Bai say, “I’m not my girlfriend.” I’m sorry.
Over the years, I have thought about giving up, but never about giving up.
This moment, dead.
He died completely.
I will never forget that when he said that to the Willows, the sense of fragmentation in my heart, the darkness of the day and the shaking of the mountains, could never describe my emotional collapse.
I never thought I’d hear that again.
Thank you so much.
14
I called my boss quickly to resign, and he was shocked and sorry, even groaning, and finally said, “Do you want to see the rest of the company?” I can’t let you quit. I can’t find an employee like you. I’m sorry.
I gave up on Zumubé.
The company is fine, Shanghai is fine. What else is worth living with?
I am afraid that after meeting with Zumubé, I cannot help but believe that, in order to put an end to any change, it is essential that it be completely broken and that I move with determination.
So, I left my cell phone card, which showed that I never wanted to contact him again.
At the same time, I left him a line: I love you too much, too much, and I don’t want to live like this anymore.
15
I’m going home.
Dad’s eyes are bent.
“The boy is getting married and you’re back. I’m so happy. I’m sorry.
Jiang Song Qing heard that I was coming back and couldn’t wait to tell me the good news that he was getting married.
He was excited to ask, “When will you marry Sumubba?” I’m sorry.
I dragged him into a big row, after all, it’s hard for a man to digest the pain of falling in love.
Finally, there is no need to take into account the image, and finally there is no need to take into account the view of Somu Bai.
I eat meat, I drink drinks, I say the cheesy words, “Who’s your best man? Introduce me. I’m sorry.
A glass of white wine and a glass of glass on the table. Almost 10 years of light, and it’s time for the rocks to warm up. I’m sorry.
“Tink, give me any door. I’m sorry.
“I’m going to rip off Sumubba alive. I’m sorry.
In the end, I’m both a little out of my mind.
“Do I regret that it will be too late?” I don’t want to get married. I thought I was with Willow, so you could do it. I’m sorry.
And I went a little mad, and dragged his hand, and cried out, “Glory, give back the willows like smoke to Somubba, so that he may not be alone.” I’m sorry.
Forget it. I went into my bedroom together.
16
I went back home with Jiang Song, and I went into the house, and I slept with him, as I was very young.
I got up early in the morning and felt my body completely uncontrollably, and cried out, “No, no, no.” I’m sorry.
The truth is, it is not.
As soon as he changed his image to me, he smoked and frowned his eyebrows, and looked sad.
“You mustn’t take this seriously, as I said last night, as if the smoke were pregnant, and we’re only married, and she wants you to be a bridesmaid. I’m sorry.
17
I’ll be the bridesmaid for Willow.
They had a wonderful wedding.
And, very exciting.
Hot search.
Over the past two years, there have been few achievements in the entertainment business, although the fact that Blacks always say she is a resource man does not prevent her from becoming more famous.
She’s getting married, booming is normal.
The most exciting thing is that her ex-boyfriend is here.
When the moderator asked the bride whether she wanted to marry the groom, the Sumubba suit was worn out, and he walked into the banquet hall silently, but he continued to arouse excitement.
After all, he is a man of great honor and, moreover, a prominent member of the legal profession.
After all, it’s famous in China.
With the hand of the Zhong Zhong Jiang, the past was greeted in great measure. “Mubai, I’m so glad you could come. I’m sorry.
Jiang Songqing probably didn’t want to ruin his wedding, but only to meet him and laugh and say, “Have you come to bless us?” I’m sorry.
Su Mu Bai noded his head and said, “Sorry…”
And he said it in vain, and he made the people turn away, and then he made his laugh, saying, “I am late, and wish you a hundred years of good fortune, and have a good son.” I’m sorry.
My eyes were on him for almost 10 years.
I know his smile, rare.
It’s even rare to laugh so comfortably.
18
Zumubha’s back home.
He was told that he had abandoned his opportunity to be a partner in the law firm and had left his post with determination.
For that reason, the boss specifically called me, saying, “You can’t be ungrateful. I was touched by your obsession with Sumuba, not only for your work, but also for your pursuit of love. I gave you the opportunity to be with Sumubai day and night. How can you take Sumubhi away? I’m sorry.
“He didn’t do it for me. I’m sorry.
“If you go, he goes.” “The boss is pissed off, “It’s not for you, is it for ghosts?” I’m sorry.
Then he said, “Come back! I’ll give you a raise, Somubbaum’s gone. My company’s half short. I’m sorry.
Besides, Willow is always a big customer. I’m sorry.
“It’s not for me.” I’m sorry.
But in this defense, I’m not very good at it.
After all, I can’t get rid of Sumu in the daytime.
“What are you doing? I’m sorry.
“What you used to do, what I do now. I’m sorry.
Once upon a time, I was afraid to look into his eyes, even more so.
And such a tender look is a diversion.
“So, you think if you hook up with me, I’ll go with you? I’m sorry.
And We were gentle and considerate before him.
Listen to me. The lawyer, Mr. Su, who was in the courtroom, was silent, and he was silent for a long time, saying, “I did not drive you, so you cannot drive me away. I’m sorry.
19
A lot of people came to talk to me.
“Well, I’d love for him to be my son-in-law, or I could let you out for years?” I’m sorry.
And Jiang Songqing came to ask, “Isn’t this the one you always liked? You’re not making me happy, are you? I’m going to be a dad soon. I’m sorry.
I love someone when it’s a heart.
When I resist someone, I have a heart.
I did not reject his heart at this time for the purpose of abusing him.
He’s right. I’m looking for a man who loves me with all his heart.
Soumubhi probably understood my resolve, and took the resolve that he had argued in court, “Give me a chance, I love you. I’m sorry.
It’s not easy to say these words.
For a moment, I felt like I was going down.
But I refused.
Because, I think for years, I’ve done nothing but love him, and I feel like I’ve lost a lot.
So I put all my thoughts into the examination, hoping to get back to my original path as soon as possible.
20
At the age of 25, I became an ordinary civil servant of the Judicial Service.
Sumubba, too.
When I was 27, Jiang Xiao Bai was three.
His father’s been stationed in the army for years, and his mother’s been shooting in the theater.
However, he was a happy child left behind.
His grandparents took good care of him, and I took good care of him with Sumubba.
Retirees now have plenty of programmes, but civil servants like us feel like nothing.
But, Van, at home, White is our business.
Oh, forget to say.
Su Mu Bai bought the house next to my house.
And the name “Chang Xiao Bai” was given to him.
When he told me, I frowned so hard that I could kill a fly. I’m sorry.
“That’s what I’m gonna call it, and I’m gonna remind you that this is what you did. I’m sorry.
I’m shocked.
What does it matter to me?
And he said, “When you have a child with Zumubé, I’ll give you this name.” I’m sorry.
I don’t want it!
“Godmother, Godfather. White’s favorite in public places, shouting like that.
Then I’m going to explain to you that I’m the mother of the child, the father of the child, and we’re not one.
And every time I explained it, Zumubba felt helpless, except that, after being helpless, he did as usual, and then shook his head and said, “This is the recompense.” I’m sorry.
21
28 years old.
We have worked well and smoothly.
And when the oranges matured, Su Mubai suddenly held me in his arms and said: “Present me, give me a home.” I’m sorry.
That makes me a little defensive.
I didn’t carry it.
After all that’s happened, my heart still hurts him.
I still can’t see him sad.
Once upon a time, the warm and burning love, in a long, long life, has turned into other emotions, hidden in our flesh and blood, and the trend is that we are all together.
22
A month later, we had a wedding.
Not big, but sweet.
They left their jobs behind, and came back as bridesmaids of honor.
Friends, classmates, colleagues from Shanghai have also arrived.
The boss looked at me, and he didn’t even say a word of blessing.
Especially for me, his hostility is great.
He thinks I broke his right and left hand.
But he gave me a gift, “I’ve done everything I could, and I’ll bet no one’s more than I am.” I’m sorry.
He’s so serious, he’s making me nervous. I’m a civil servant, I can’t take it, or I’ll take a bribe. I’m sorry.
“Beautiful of you. The boss sent me a video, “Silently, don’t show it to Zumubwe.” I’m sorry.
When I turned on the video, I thought, “What’s the secret? I’m sorry.
As a result, it was a video of a conversation between Sumubba and Willow a few years ago, and I was able to hear it very carefully, although it was not very clear.
In the video, Su Mu Bai suddenly got angry: “I’m not my girlfriend. She’s my wife and I’m about to propose to her, so please don’t say anything to discredit her. I’m sorry.
I wrinkled, and the boss looked at my face and asked, “Enough! I wonder how you two healthy people live like mutes. If you don’t ask, he won’t tell me. He’s a fast-thinking, emotional idiot in court, and he doesn’t understand why you suddenly left. As wise as I was, I knew the problem was here at the beginning, which I had to do to get it. I’m sorry.
The boss smiled with a sense of accomplishment, saying, “That’s it, you two are not going to be able to say it.” I’m sorry.
23
We were brave on wedding night.
After all, love has to speak out.
The next day, my father went to the cemetery with me to worship my mother with me and the three generations of Jiang Xiao Bai family.
24
That night, the willows cried me out like smoke.
I don’t understand. Why would she bother me?
Even if it wasn’t for the wedding night, it’d be worth a fortune to us.
“What do you have to say tonight? You have to meet and say?”
“Is your pen name RY?” I’m sorry.
“I’m not a writer. Where’s the pen name?” I’m sorry.
The voice just fell. I realized something was wrong.
“This is your enemy, the light in the heart of Sumubba.” I’m sorry.
“You all deserve it. I’m sorry.
I picked up all those letters I wrote to Zumubian in high school.
‘Cause he thinks I’m the one who wrote it. I’m sorry.
“I’m so stupid. How come I haven’t figured out all these years? I’m sorry.
“If I hadn’t seen the name on your mother’s tombstone, I’d be afraid I wouldn’t have solved the mystery the day I died. I’m sorry.
My mother’s name is Qin.
I miss my mother and I think it’s a good idea to use the name “do what you want”, so I took the initials of these two words as a pen.
Who would have thought that the letters were written as a willow?
“You’re such a fucking bitch, you write love letters in electronic form?” I’m sorry.
“You’ve ruined yourself, you’ve ruined Somubba, you’ve ruined me. I’m sorry.
“Do you know how painful my heart was when he took these letters and said, “You are my light”? I’m sorry.
And the willow shall be filled with sorrow and anger: “I will cast him out in full light. He will extinguish the light in my heart, and I will extinguish his light.” I’m sorry.
25
“Sorry, like a cigarette. I’m sorry.
The voice of Sumubai came from behind and I clearly felt his voice wet.
“I always thought…”
“Shut your mouth. “How does it feel to be beaten by yourself?” So, what’s it like to be tough on yourself all these years? I’m sorry.
She groaned her breath, and her hand covered her eyes with tears, and she said, “I know you, it’s so bad.” I’m sorry.
Then he said, “Today it is a joyful day. I’m sorry.
She turned around and ran into a big hug.
After all these years, I was a tool. I’m sorry.
“What are you doing here? “When did you get here?” I’m sorry.
“Come when you scold me in pain,” he asked, “You can do it!” I forgot, you’re an art student, you’re an actor, you’re looking for me to sharpen your acting? I’m sorry.
“Honey, no, I…”
“Don’t touch me, divorce!” I’m sorry.
“Jang Songqing, you son of a bitch, I gave up the North for you and followed you to Tibet for you…”
When Jiang Song Qing left, he cried out to his back: “Don’t think I don’t know. You like Kang. I’m sorry.
Jiang Song turned around and said, “Don’t blow your blood.” I’m sorry.
“Yes, indeed! If you want to divorce, you get divorced, and I’ll go after you again, and I’ll die.” I’m sorry.
“What did you say?”
Jiang Song Qing is coming.
I was in a hurry to pull, but Su Mu Bai was holding me back.
I’m sure no one’s going to fight.
Later they left in a row.
I looked up at Somubba, and I said, “What should we do?” I’m sorry.
And he didn’t answer, just a little kiss on my forehead, “Girl, other people’s business, let’s not get mixed up.” I’m sorry.
I took those letters, and I said, “You didn’t know they weren’t written, so you gave up everything to come back after me? I’m sorry.
He looked at me for a few seconds and said in my ear: “This is my light in darkness, but you are my indispensable oxygen. I’m sorry.
Those letters are love letters, but the substance is not to be used as a confession, but rather to fear that Zoumubé will not survive after losing his only loved ones, and the content of the letters is so much consolation and encouragement.
I was afraid he would recognize my handwriting and use it deliberately in electronic form.
I don’t know if he saw it or not, but I didn’t think he was the same for a while.
He asked me, “How does it feel to be defeated?” I’m sorry.
And I asked him, “What is it like to fight yourself?” I’m sorry.
In the end, we were all laughing and not answering each other, and the letters that were held in our hands were extremely superfluous, and I asked, “What about that?” I’m sorry.
He said, ‘Take care of your own things. I’m sorry.
I threw it away.
After all, I have manuscripts, and I wrote them in my diary.
My father read my youth like a novel at the end of my exams, day and night, fearing that I would never see him again.
I also wrote a four-word comment after the diary: I’m from my heart.
I think, as smart and wise as Principal Jiang, he probably knew that the diary was something her daughter had purposely shown him.
After all, he didn’t stop his daughter from pursuing love.
Rather, it is like a hill that stands behind me in stout.
26 Su Mu Bai
One.
When did Mom get sick?
I can’t remember.
My deepest memory was that I broke Dad’s bike that year, and I haven’t seen him since.
Slowly, Grandma and Grandpa don’t care about Mom.
And then Grandpa and Grandma died, and we never talked to anyone.
When I lost my parents, my mother was happy and smiled.
She said, “I was afraid, and your grandfather and your grandmother were afraid, lest I should not be able to bury them. Now, don’t be afraid. I’m sorry.
Mom’s an old girl from Grandpa and Grandma.
She often wondered whether they had committed a sin in the last life, had to bear another me, and almost buried their own daughter.
Two.
When I was 13 years old, I got first in school and got a thousand-dollar scholarship.
It was the first time I knew that I could still get money for my grades.
So I took the first test in the city, and I got a full score, and I became a fragrance, and I chose China because they could only give me $30,000 at once.
That’s my mom’s life money.
Principal Jiang promised me that if I wanted to go there, the school would give me 40,000 scholarships and that I would receive scholarships and living allowances every month as long as my grades were maintained.
Then I have nothing to hesitate about.
No wonder people say, “Knowledge is power, knowledge is money,” and I’ll die.
I became China’s schoolboy, school weed.
I started to enjoy being treated.
No one knows what I hide in my handsome face, and no one explores the secrets behind my efforts to learn.
My logic at the time was: learn well = have money = mother’s health = a good future.
But I’m naive.
I can’t buy any more.
Mom left anyway — before I was a man.
I really hate myself. Why don’t you grow so slow and grow up before Mom dies?
So she doesn’t hate Nine Springs.
Before she died, her eyes were filled with fear. She was not afraid of death. She was afraid that she was gone and that her minor son had no one left.
So she took my hand, and she said, “Go to him and find your father Shanghai and Shanghai, where he is.” I’m sorry.
I’ve regretted it so many times. Wouldn’t he leave if I didn’t break Dad’s bike?
And I pray many times, if there are gods in this world, please tell my father that the bike is fixed and come back!
But he never came back.
So I chose Shanghai without hesitation, and I tried all my power to find him, not how much I miss my father, but I just wanted to ask him, “Is it really so tired?
Is it true that “the burden of being dragged on by a sick wife” goes beyond “the burden of the shackles of the family”?
3
When Mom died, my life fell into the abyss, dark and cold.
Those letters are the light that sustains me.
My high school life is my brightest years of life.
Because of my handsome face and my excellent performance, I became the object of an intimate or unloved love for a girl, and became the man of her mouth.
They wrote me love letters, gave me gifts, presented to me in a variety of images, and sought my attention.
But I never cared.
Until one day, a letter was sent to my rental house.
The address is the school.
The pen name is RY.
This is the only letter sent directly to my place of residence. What does that mean?
It means she knows everything about me.
I couldn’t help but open the letter.
Letter, not manuscript, but electronic.
It’s like reading a philosophy book.
Words are so beautiful, so beautiful.
The incentives in words are as warm as the winter.
It’s like a nice cup of tea with taste, and it’s dark, and it’s full of sweets.
One, enough for me to see the light.
One more, it’s the fog on my head.
One letter after the other, and gradually a huge force, pulled me out of the abyss.
I wanted to write her back and I wanted to see her in real life.
I looked for the address of the locker left behind in the letter, when I saw a very beautiful girl standing next to her in a white little flower dress, where the sun was pouring on her, as if she were wearing a golden light.
When she turned back, I recognized her.
It’s the girl I just told me about. Her name is Willow.
How can I describe the moment when my inner ecstasy has never been felt so intensely in love, and I wish to remove my scars immediately and present it to her without reservation, knowing that she will not laugh at me, but will touch me with tenderness and comfort.
4
I’m in love.
With those who love me, with those who thank me.
I thank fate for having met such a wonderful person.
Unfortunately, good times are always short.
When I gave her those letters and thanked her for all that she had done for me, she took away all her love for me.
She suddenly doesn’t like me. She’s in love with a pro.
She was after me, like she was after me.
For her, it was as if I was just a “sign” and a thicker book, the flatest page, and if she had nothing to do with it, she would not have even left a trace.
She’s an artist.
Shortly after the break-up, she went to the exam and left school, and I never saw her at school again.
Once again, many years later, at her wedding — I accidentally hit her.
5
Jiang Yi, my table.
She was with me for the worst time.
She’s a girl with little words, beautiful, quiet, like a beautiful landscape.
Although we are at the same table, we have not actually spoken much, and most of them are topics for discussion.
After I was dumped, she paid special attention to me. At first, I thought it was just because the headmaster was worried I was having problems with the test.
But I was wrong.
People are sensitive.
When you look carefully, you find that people like you, when you talk to you, their eyes glow.
Besides, she gave up her province’s university for me and came thousands of miles to Shanghai.
She didn’t say that, but I knew she was for me.
I should have rejected her in plain language, but I didn’t know why.
Since then, for many years, I’ve been thinking, why don’t I say no to her?
Hypothetically, I told her I wouldn’t like her anyway, and I think she’d give up on me.
But in essence, I’m not that strong.
Who can reject a good girl who truly loves herself?
I used to think, why don’t I accept her?
But it took me a long time to find out.
Six.
There was a time when everyone at school knew Jiang Zheng was my girlfriend.
Actually, I didn’t deny it.
The fire, which has been suppressed inside me, has gone out of my way, as if I had a moth, as if the river had been the same fire, and I wanted to run towards her.
I’d like to turn this page naturally.
But, no.
Willows – my life’s Krrish.
She lets me know what power is?
I never thought that one day, in a mock court, my ending was written in advance.
The coach told me you had to lose.
Which one of you learned the law, which one of you would want to lose in court?
And the coach said to me, “What is the matter with it, but a mock court?” You lose, you lose nothing, but you make the lady happy, and her father can throw a few projects at the school, and you’re just contributing to the school. I’m sorry.
And he said, “You are young and can compete for victory, but why should you?” I’m sorry.
“Justice is right, but who can give a perfect definition of “fair justice”? Is it fair that she was born rich and that when you changed your destiny through your exams, she had the decision board of destiny? Your parents are incompetent, so you’re cold, her parents and her ancestors are starting a business, so she’s a man. I’m sorry.
I don’t understand.
But I don’t want to lose.
The coach asked me, “It depends on whether you’re willing to lose this time, win your whole life, win this time, lose your whole life. I’m sorry.
His threatening tone can no longer be concealed.
That time, I lost.
I swear, I’m not going to participate in the mock law debate anymore.
But everyone said that I lost deliberately to her because I liked the willows, because I never lost, because I even stuttered after I debated with her. Isn’t that how boys like girls?
That’s fine. She’s still looking for Jiang Yu’s trouble.
What does that have to do with her?
She’s not one of our students. She’s not a law student.
I can only tell Willow that she’s not my girlfriend.
I know Jiang Yi is sad.
7
Actually, it’s fine.
I finally flatly rejected her.
A man like me doesn’t deserve a man like her.
I used to admire other girls, even for a long time.
I am an orphan, abandoned by my father, without a mother.
Even for a better future, I run counter to my principles of being human.
People like that don’t deserve her.
The more I think about it, the more I think I don’t deserve her.
On the day she graduated, she was drunk and I carried her back to my place of residence, and she first confessed to me and I rejected her.
Finally, she left me.
It is only now that I know how important her company has been to me over the years.
But she has left.
I am not worthy of happiness.
8
However, she came back.
She told me that Yoyo and Jiang Songqing were together.
Actually, that page is over.
I’m really grateful for being around me.
That day, my boss could say it was the noble man of my life and speak to me alone.
“You don’t know why I did this? I’m sorry.
I’m silent.
Jiang Zi gave up her dream, gave up her teacher’s career and came to my company as my assistant, and the boss asked me to set her up a house, and she came to me for rent.
The boss took out the phone and shook in front of me.
“You listen carefully. I’m sorry.
A recording was played on the cell phone, and it was Jiang Yi’s voice.
“I like a guy from your company. Without him, I don’t feel like life. I’m sorry.
“I want to stay with him, even if it’s not a wind moon. I’m sorry.
“I’m not a law learner, but I can assure you I’m good enough for this job. I’m sorry.
The boss said with interest, “That’s not a good reason. I’ll give you a minute to convince me. I’m sorry.
In the tape, Jiang Qi lamented.
“If I can’t get a job as an assistant, I’ll get an office girl, and if I can’t get a job for this, I can get a job for your company’s cleaner, and you can’t refuse me unconditionally. I’m sorry.
“No, I’m the boss, and I want to turn you down, and I don’t need any reason. I’m sorry.
“Yes, ” and “heave again,” “but it doesn’t stop me from loving his footsteps.” I’m sorry.
The recording was over, and the boss picked me up and made fun of me, saying, “It seems that we, the lawyers, are not only in a court of law, but also in the field of love. I’m sorry.
That’s what makes me look like.
“If you don’t want to, find an excuse to get rid of her. I have no opinion whatsoever. I’m sorry.
I just smiled and laughed.
No one knows the joy of my heart when she returns to me.
I never drink, but I drank that night.
9
I’ve wanted to confess with Jiang Yi on countless occasions.
Who wants to be in the grief of the past, even insects living in the cold and wet, to know the light, and who is human?
But it’s so hard to do.
Every word comes to the side of the mouth, and it is pressed hard.
I’ve always thought that Kang likes me so much, and I’ve been in love with her for years.
Most importantly, I was lost, and now I have a career.
I thought I had confidence, and I thought I deserved happiness.
I thought that page was really over.
So not yet.
The willows not only took away my first love, but also my passion for love.
So-called snake bites, ten years afraid of well ropes.
It was me, I was passive, but she chased me and dumped me without mercy.
I’m still being passive, and if it’s the same thing, I don’t know how I can handle it.
So I dare not say.
Every time you talk to your mouth, you’re held back.
But we’re already a couple and everyone thinks we’re a couple.
I think that’s good.
There are words that need not be said. We can feel each other.
10
I wanted to buy a house in Shanghai and settle in Shanghai.
One is the big city of Shanghai, which many dream of flowering.
And I haven’t found my father, and even though I’ve done my best, I’m still dead.
In order to raise enough money to buy a house as soon as possible, I, who have been in criminal cases, have also begun to take civil cases, so we have a cat called Pearl.
It’s like our baby.
I really want to have a home.
I often fantasize about the situations in which we live in our own houses, about the lives we get married and have children.
“Do you want to buy this big house in the best part of Shanghai?” I’m sorry.
“I’m a Shanghai native with no ambition. I’m sorry.
Actually, I can.
Only wealth takes time to accumulate.
No loans are due to the fact that I don’t want to owe money, and I know it’s not painful to owe money.
The reason for wanting to buy a big house is because I know that Jiang Qian has lost his mother since he was a child, that he was the father and raised her up as a mother. If we’re going to settle here, I have to get ready to bring him in.
I secretly plan my future.
But I didn’t communicate with Jiang Yu.
That day she kissed me.
She said she was moaning my body.
Actually, why don’t I…
How can she trust me so much that she can live with me in a house like this?
Eleven.
On that day, I couldn’t wait to find a real estate agent and try to get the house fixed.
But the company has a big case.
Willows again.
The boss was in a hurry and I was on a business trip, and we were asked not to communicate with the outside world in order to prevent the disclosure of work information.
This goes for three days.
Upon return, the agent told me that the goods were ready and that the contract should be signed immediately, or else the house would be bought.
In such an emergency, I took the time to sign the contract for the house, and I told Jiang Qian first.
Then the boss dragged him to the conference room to talk about working with the willows.
Her family was so superior that she was given a very high platform, and this time their company had a legal problem, which involved a huge amount of money, so we were invited to the past.
After winning, she wanted to make a long contract with us, which was absolutely good for the company.
The boss looked at the way the willows treated me, and he knew that we had a problem, but he kept telling me not to get in trouble with the money.
Willai asked about Jiang Yi.
I feel like she’s been thinking about things back then.
I have rejected many, but rejected her, the most blunt, the least generous.
I even hate her — I hate her for power.
I don’t understand her mind, but I know she’s pissed off because of this, and she knows that today Kang is my assistant and that hostility is even more obvious.
So this time I solemnly warned her not to hurt Jiang Zhen, otherwise I would never spare her.
What is unexpected is that Jiang Yi heard only the first part.
12
I thought I felt dark once.
It was not until Jiang Yu left a note saying that she was tired and she didn’t want to continue that I understood what was called real dark.
I know I’ve missed the best confession time.
I also know that Jiang Zheng is not like me. She has a family and I am a family.
After many reflections, I decided to give up everything in Shanghai and return home.
The process of selling the house wasted some time.
The agent lamented and said to me, “It’s not necessary now, it doesn’t mean it won’t be necessary in the future. I’m sorry that you’ve lost millions for nothing. I’m sorry.
But I don’t think it’s gonna work.
I’m not going back to Shanghai anymore. I’m going where the river is.
13
The boss hates me.
He said that he had been touched by the true feelings of Jiang Zhen and that he had recruited her, and that he had not made me do anything for her.
He analyses the pros and cons.
But I can’t hear you anymore.
He cried out to me, “I didn’t want to tell you, because you were hurt. Did you know that Jiang Qi is getting married?” I’m sorry.
“What? I’m sorry.
He was shaking in front of me with his cell phone, “You see this is her ring of friends, she deleted you, not me. I’m sorry.
Photo from the wedding scene.
“Are you going back? I’m sorry.
“If you’d missed it, why didn’t you just open your mouth? I’m sorry.
“Don’t go. Let’s do something big. I’m sorry.
I gotta go rob.
It’s probably the bravest time I’ve ever had.
Thank God it was a wedding, not her wedding.
Willows married Jiang Songqing.
This is our first meeting since we broke up.
I used to fantasize about seeing you again.
I thought something sad was going to happen, and then again, there was nothing inside me.
14
I’ve started the road against the river.
In court, my moves are a lot.
But emotionally, I have no experience.
I can only follow my experience through the river, one by one.
She takes the civil service, I take the civil service.
She goes to the Department of Justice, and I go to the Department of Justice.
It wasn’t realistic to move to her house, so I bought the house next to her.
Plus, there was Jiang Xiao Bai.
Fortunately, she still likes me and wants to be with me.
15
The next night.
When Yoo Yoo called out and threw those letters in front of her, I felt that everything was wrong.
I never thought that the letters were written by Jiang Yi, and never thought that the one who brought me light was Jiang Yi.
Likewise, I finally understand why you abandoned me in the same year?
When I gave her the letter with the joy and thanks for her comfort and encouragement, she must have hated me.
But none of this matters anymore.
What kind of emotion is better than the company of years?
My love for the river is as bright as a glass of white wine, as if it were light, as if it were strong, as if it were a taste of bitterness, but, in retrospect, it was intoxicating.
15
Later we got married.
We had a baby.
Our daughter, Jiang Sun, grew up with her young white boy, just like Jiang Zhong.
I had a deep conversation with Jiang Songqing.
And when he decided to leave his army to serve as a bodyguard to Yoyo Yan, he said, “If there were any children, I would not be a man, be a woman, be a woman, and follow the veil.” I’m sorry.
“I don’t understand why, in the end, I couldn’t leave her when she used me as a tool. I’m sorry.
He also asked me to teach me the question of how to counter-prospect, which I have learned well.
Not because I have experience, but because I have a lot of information before I do it.
Men chase women, with a three-word secret, 90% will succeed.
He asked me what the secret was, and I took a photo of Kirby’s signature to tell him — thick, dressed and steady.
He’s got a thick, pitiful, emotional face.
The other 10 percent is unsuccessful, poor or ugly.
Otherwise, these three words, can be 100% chased to the goddess. Naturally, on the road of the “wife-hunting crematorium”, Jiang Songqing must have been worse than me, and after all, I’m more intelligent than him.
He was said to have chosen to retire and then served as a bodyguard for Yoyo Yi Yu, who was said to be too handsome and red, and who was said to be …
After all, in a few days, it’s their fancy news, fan-playing, CP-tapping, like chasing 800 super-long TV shows, falling up and down and down and down.
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Author: Seven clouds
Case number: YXX1 Emmayo0FRRJ1ZrTQR1B
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