15. Prosperity
Longevity.
I can’t help it. We’re in love.
On the night before the wedding, I discovered the secret of my boyfriend.
He sent out a single circle of friends.
“If you change your mind, the bride can change. I’m sorry.
The time was the day of our official love.
He’s his high school girl, ten years as a straight brother.
I found him at their bachelor party with that circle.
And he said with his eyebrows, and he was restless: “Improper.” No wonder nobody loves you. I’m sorry.
One.
In the fourth year of love, my work and that of Qinan stabilized and began to get married.
The night before the wedding, he was called off by a phone.
“It’s common practice abroad to have a bachelor party on the night before the wedding. I’m sorry.
There’s a familiar woman on the phone, “Come on, Qinan, the old place, we’ve got a seat ready, we’re not drunk tonight! I’m sorry.
It’s Ho Chill.
“You…”
I just said one word and I was interrupted by Qinan. “I have a lot of classmates. I haven’t seen you in a while. I’m sorry.
I slit my lips, and it was agreed.
He’s been in a bad mood these days because of the company.
I think he’s going to meet his old friends and relax.
However, I wonder if it’s too soon.
Before leaving, Qinan went back to the bedroom to pick up something and left his phone on the tea table.
I hesitated for a while to pick it up.
Qinan has a habit of deleting chat records, and the circle of friends hasn’t published a few.
So I cut it down a few times and soon saw the two rings of friends he sent out four years ago.
A picture of me and him was when he agreed to my confession and declared that he had a girlfriend.
And the other one…
“If you change your mind, the bride can change. I’m sorry.
I’ve never seen this circle of friends, with tremors of fingers to open the visible range.
That’s a phrase that can only be seen in the evening.
And she’s down there without hesitation.
Two.
It was six months ago.
In the process of meeting with parents, Qinnan went out to pick up a phone call and came back and he wrinkled and said he was going out.
“What is it?”
He went back and forth, “You don’t understand what’s going on in the company. I’m sorry.
The speech was filled with a certain irritation and blame.
It’s like saying these two words to me, and it’s taking him time.
I stayed where I was. I had a stiff face.
It’s like I’m embarrassed, and he’s having a hard time smiling. I’m sorry.
After that, he won’t return his head.
This state of him makes me feel a little familiar.
After sending the parents, I called him many times before someone picked them up.
I’m sorry I just came here, I lost my phone, I didn’t have any cash, but I remember Qinan’s phone. I’m sorry.
I held my cell phone in my head and asked, “What about Qinan?” I’m sorry.
“He ordered for me, said he wouldn’t find me again, so I’d take my phone. I’m sorry.
She said, “What’s wrong with you? I’m sorry.
And at that moment I was a little obstinate and I did not know how to answer.
She speaks natural and intimacy as if she were Qinan’s real girlfriend.
When I drove to Ho Chien’s restaurant, I saw her sitting by the window.
She’s eating noodles and playing with Qinan’s phone.
And Qinan drew a tissue and naturally wiped out the soup from her mouth.
But I remember that I took a call from Qinan when he went to the bathroom.
When he came out, he saw that I was holding his cell phone, and immediately seized it, and his voice was harsh: “I have a strong sense of personal boundaries, and I want you to respect my privacy. I’m sorry.
Zhou Liu!
When I saw you waved, I sat down and apologized and said, “I’m sorry, I just heard from Qinan that your parents had a meeting today to discuss the marriage, and that’s how I got him out.”
I looked down, silenced to right.
Are you mad at me?
So, when you get married, I’ll make it up to you. I’m sorry.
Zhou will not be angry. I’m sorry.
Then suddenly Qinan opened his mouth, and said, “You are in a hurry, and she has a small share. I’m sorry.
I didn’t say anything.
I didn’t ask Qinan until I returned to the hotel and came home: “Have you asked me to deal with my parents alone? I’m sorry.
And he went to the study, and he said, “Don’t get angry with me, who is embarrassing you, and you know it.” I’m sorry.
It’s like a sharp knife in the chest and it hurts so hard that I can’t talk.
Yes, my parents were very popular at the table, first with a mouth and then with an uncle and aunt to arrange work for my brother.
Turning back, Qinnan saw me stand there pale, paused for a few seconds.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean that. I’m sorry.
He softly said, “You know, this is my best friend. She’s in this city with no one but me. I’m sorry.
“Qinan, I told you about my family. I’m sorry.
I take a deep breath and close my eyes.
“I don’t want the bride price, and my brother’s job doesn’t need you. I won’t bother you if you say you don’t like me. I’m sorry.
Even with my eyes closed, I can feel the tears coming out of my eyes uncontrollably.
“I really like you and want to marry you. I’m sorry.
Qinan’s face was a little distracted, and his finger was rubbing away my tears.
“Remember what I said before? In this world, I will never leave you. I’m sorry.
I bit my lips: “What is the evening?” I’m sorry.
He’s down.
“I’m just a friend. If you need me, don’t blame her. I’m sorry.
I’m not really surprised.
It’s not the first time he’s protected me.
3
The first time I saw Ho Chien was after I fell in love with Qinnan.
I was going to stay at school because I had a big fight with my parents, and he asked me to go home with him.
The next day, we were on our way to Qinan’s high school reunion.
“Our class has a good relationship. We have to get together once a holiday. I’m sorry.
Qinnan said he pushed the box door.
When I saw the flower, I saw it coming and jumped into Qinan-Wi.
“Asshole! Come and see Daddy!”
Qinan pulled a man from himself and introduced me to her: “No big, no small, this is my girlfriend.” I’m sorry.
It’s repulsive, but it’s all intimacy.
And the girl stood firm on her shoulder and looked at me, paused for a few seconds, and laughed, and reached out with her hand: “Hello, my name is Ho, and I am with Qinan for three years. I’m sorry.
She’s wearing pony tails, white T-shirts and pants, and she can’t talk about it.
Throughout the party, she spared no effort to show me how close she and Qinan were.
“You hurt your leg in the basketball game, and I did it for you. I’m sorry.
Qinnan smiled, saying, “Don’t talk, my lady, we wouldn’t have been able to fight you!” I’m sorry.
“Hey! I’m sorry.
“How can you talk?” Next time, you won’t be helped! I’m sorry.
“No need for you, my girlfriend will help me. I’m sorry.
It seemed like Ho Chien realized that I was sitting next to her, and she came up with a glass: “Sorry, Sister Zhou, we’re close, we’re used to it. I’m sorry.
She’s half as old as me and she calls me after a bite.
I didn’t have time to talk to them. “You’re kidding me. You and Qinan were off the last hit in high school. I’m sorry.
When I was stunned, I saw Qinan’s face in cold, and the cup was on the table. I’m sorry.
I went to the bathroom and came back with only a few people left.
Qinan and Ho Chien sat in the corner and didn’t notice me.
And We heard it said, “We agreed that if we were to marry each other until we were 35 years old, Now that you have a girlfriend, I’m relieved. I’m sorry.
Qinnan looked into her eyes and said, “So, do you really mind?” I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“You’re going to be happy.” I’m sorry.
After I left, I hesitated to ask Qinan.
And he held my hand, and he whispered, “As young and close, he was just joking.” I’m sorry.
I put up with the sourness of my heart, breathed deep and slowly, and said, “But he said, you are the last one…”
I can’t say those two words.
“He’s drunk and he talks, and you’re drunk! I’m sorry.
Qinan suddenly raised his voice and spoke harshly. I was scared. He tried to pull his hand back.
“I’ve known her so long, and if it was possible, I’d be with her. I’m sorry.
He walked over my shoulder and looked at me, “But now that you’re the one who’s in love with me, that should prove my feelings. I’m sorry.
4
He then went abroad to do exchange studies and stayed there to study.
After graduation, we stayed in the city and, thanks to our great working ability, Qinan was promoted, and I increased my salary several times.
After learning about my family, he’s getting better and better.
But when everything stabilized, when we started to get married, we returned home again.
From the first day she came back, she began to enter my life with Qinnan.
One night, in the middle of the night, I started a low fever and Qinan found me some medicine.
When I was going to sleep, I suddenly called Qinnan! I can’t get a car. Help me! I’m sorry.
And when I held the hot water cup before I could open my mouth, Qinan said: “The medicine has been taken, go to sleep, I will go out.” I’m sorry.
He left me with a fever without hesitation.
Like many times before.
So I hesitated.
Or we could just get married for a second.
Qinan noticed my hesitation, so, on my 25th birthday, he planned a grand proposal.
He even called some of his best associates to witness the ceremony.
And he took out his diamond ring in front of my finger, and his voice was low and soft: “The Willow, I know that you have been hard before. I really want you to be happy. I’m sorry.
He also said: I know you have misunderstood me, but Qinan is true to you. I’m sorry.
The guy next to you is full of shit.
“This time, the proposing leader of Qin planned it for days! I’m sorry.
“I took a leave of absence from the company to witness his love. I’m sorry.
Promise him! Promise him!
“I am…”
I had a moment of confusion.
I chased him for two years, and I fell in love for four years, and I waited too long for this day to open my mouth and find myself late in saying the next thing.
Without waiting for an answer, Qinan looked at me and took a sarcastic plea: “The Willow.” I’m sorry.
If I turned him down right now, he’d be in a lot of trouble, wouldn’t he?
Moreover, from childhood to age, countless compromises at home have been retreating, schools have remained invisible, and countless fragments have been flashing through their minds.
So eventually, I promised him.
I want a man who loves me with all his heart.
And then I thought that man would be Qinan.
“Girl, your phone’s been ringing. I’m sorry.
The taxi driver’s warning turned me back on my head before I saw the words on the screen.
– What’s going on?
This is Qinan’s note to her.
Bite your lips, I still pick up the phone.
“Is my phone at home? I’m sorry.
I responded to that, and I pressured my heart into feeling, “Do I send it to you?” I’m sorry.
“No, you leave it there. I’ll get it later. I’m sorry.
The phone was hung up, the car was parked in front of the bar very soon, and I made up my mind, looking for the car number from the chat.
Under the dark lights, a familiar figure suddenly entered the sight.
Ho Chien is standing in front of a man who is big and has no idea what to say, and a man who reaches out has to touch her face.
Qinnan took a step forward and pulled her behind her back: “Do you dare touch her?” I’m sorry.
“Who the fuck are you?” Mind your own business! I’m sorry.
Qinan said, “I’m her boyfriend. I’m sorry.
5
Qinan. I’m sorry.
He looked back and saw me standing not far and his face changed.
What should I say?
Astonishment, panic, anger, and several emotions were woven into his face and eventually faded into an ancient calm.
“What are you doing here so late? I’m sorry.
“Did I tell you not to touch my phone? I’m sorry.
“Yeah, but I did. I’m sorry.
I showed a smile worse than crying, “If I don’t come over, I can’t see it, you’re in front of someone else, calling yourself her boyfriend. I’m sorry.
I stretched out my finger behind him and she seemed scared and hid behind Qinnan.
“I’m sorry, Zhou Liu, but the person who wanted to trouble me, Qinan just wanted to help me out. I’m sorry.
I looked at her.
That beautiful face, the expression of regret.
She’s always been as generous, as she was before, and as good as I am.
The string of reason in my head was broken, and I opened the circle of friends in Qinan and turned it over four years ago.
“If you two are innocent, tell me, what is this? I’m sorry.
Qinan looked at me, spat his lips, and he took it seriously.
“I am…”
He seems to be trying to explain, but only one word was interrupted by Qinan.
He looked at me, and his eyebrow was locked: “We’re getting married tomorrow. What’s the point of you taking care of four years ago? I’m sorry.
“There’s no wonder nobody loves you. I’m sorry.
The sudden pain almost swallowed me up.
Qinnan’s face softened when he saw me like this: “Let’s talk about it, please don’t make a scene. I’m sorry.
I realized something was wrong, and his classmates were all around.
I became a paranoid person in Ho Chiu’s speech, spying on his boyfriend’s phone the night before the wedding, and specializing in old money.
They were all friends brought here for three more years and immediately stood by her side.
“You don’t have to talk to Zhou Yoo. They’re going to get you soon. I’m sorry.
Qinnan whispered, “Shut up. I’m sorry.
I squeezed my heart hard, trying to keep myself calm, but the sound was still shivering with an unstoppable tremor: I’m sorry.
“If you love each other so much, tomorrow’s wedding venue will be given to you.”
I put my phone on the bar and I turned around and left.
Qinnan came after me and took me in his arms.
“I didn’t mean that, Willow. I’m sorry.
His voice stopped, and the music was holding me in my ear, and he was confused.
“It was just a joke. I was close to him, but it was the past. And when I think of things about the future, I think of people, only you. Only you are in my plan for the rest of my life. I’m sorry.
“I said the wrong thing. You yell at me and give me a slap. But don’t deny my feelings for you. Don’t leave me, okay? I’m sorry.
In a dark bar.
He held me very, very tight.
Like I liked him that day.
I fell off the edge of the steep slope because the ground was wet, and Qinan’s eyes were holding me.
I’m actually skinny, but in any case, I’m an adult.
So he kept me alive for quite a few hours, until the first classmates returned and saved us.
Qinan’s arm was slightly dislocated because of me.
I felt guilty, and he comforted me, “It’s okay, that’s who will save you.” I’m sorry.
No, no.
When I was a kid, my brother and I fell down the river, and my parents were in a hurry to save him, and I was in a coma when I was picked up by a lifeguard.
I always thought that nobody in the world would love me.
Qinan is the only exception.
So even if we’ve been together for so long, there’s no such thing as a hot relationship with each other.
He has always been gentle to me.
It doesn’t matter.
There’s someone who loves me and who plans me into his future. It’s hard to be valuable.
Qinan. I’m sorry.
I was staring at his hand between my waist and his voice was shaking, “I can’t believe you. I’m sorry.
He stuck to my body a little stiff.
Then take out the cell phone and light up the circle of friends in front of me: “If you do not like it, will I delete it now?”
“and tomorrow’s wedding, so you won’t be here. I’m sorry.
And his speech was near in prayer.
I ended up being soft again.
Six.
I didn’t sleep for hours this night.
When the sky was blindfolded, they were called up and put on wedding dress and makeup.
Everything went well.
Qinan’s classmates have not seen anything more.
So my unsettled heart, relax a little.
At the wedding, my father, who hasn’t had a good face for more than 20 years, made a stiff smile: “Your brother’s down payment is good. You must not turn away from him. I’m sorry.
“What do you mean? I’m sorry.
He refused to answer.
He put my hand in Qinan’s hand.
The music was ringing, and in the loud and loud voice of blessing, the curator passed over and made the projection screen.
According to the process, a short video of me and Qinan are going to be there for a few minutes.
I haven’t done anything romantic with him, and I almost turned the album upside down for two minutes.
And yet on the screen, suddenly, the picture is dark.
In the dark corner of KTV, Qinan was confined between his arms and looked down at her: “Why not consider me? I’m sorry.
And what happened in the morning was a kiss on his lips: “I’d like to go out to the outside world and look. I’m sorry.
As soon as the scene turned, Qinan was driving, and he was shot with his hand.
“You come to me in the middle of the night. Won’t Zhou Liu be angry? I’m sorry.
The Qinan language is ablaze: “There is nothing more important than your security. I’m sorry.
Finally, last night at the bar.
“Happy wedding.” I’m sorry.
And Qinnan was staring at her in the eyes, and his eyes were sore: “What can be happy?” I’m sorry.
“Don’t you like Zhou Liu? I’m sorry.
“Not you. It’s all the same. It’s all the same. I’m sorry.
Video’s off.
Full of silence.
I suddenly remembered last night, before I left the bar, when I had a bottle of wine, and I shook my hand drunk, and it’s okay that I couldn’t go to the scene and I prepared a new wedding for you, and you’ll love it.
Turns out this was her gift.
It’s like a huge tsunami, and there’s a cold deep in the bone marrow that freezes my veins an inch.
Every second after the video is over, it’s been too long for me.
“… willows. I’m sorry.
Qinan only had two words to spit out, and suddenly the door of the banquet hall was pushed.
Ho Chien came in with a big rose in a nice tug dress and had a red vertigo on his face.
She stopped under the stage and looked at him.
Their eyes are covered with tears, but their lips are raised.
She lifts the ring in her hand: “When you came here yesterday, you brought the ring seven years ago. I know what you mean. I’m sorry.
Qinan, the world outside, I’ve seen enough. I don’t have to wait until I’m 35. I’m sorry.
“Now I’ll take you away and leave with me. I’m sorry.
7
Before she came, she must have had a lot of wine, and her eyes were a little drunk.
And Qinan around me, the whole thing is frozen.
So he stares at the silver ring in the hands of Hokkai, as if it were swallowed up by memories.
And he said, “You said, freedom is more important than I.” I’m sorry.
“I made a mistake, Qinan. I can’t watch you marry someone else, and then there’s no chance between us. I’m sorry.
“Remember what you said? You said that the bride could change at any time, if I wanted to. I’m sorry.
Qinan didn’t answer immediately.
He turned his head and looked at me, and he saw me standing by, and there was an apology.
“Willow, I’ll make it up to you. I’m sorry.
He whispered and quickly explained to me, “A girl, in front of so many former classmates, I can’t make her look so humiliating. I assure you this is the last time. I’m sorry.
And when he had said it, he would not wait for me to react, and he looked again at it: Yes. I’m sorry.
The crowd is raging.
I’ve seen a lot of emotional differences.
Surprise, sympathy, contempt.
And there was another saying in my ear, which was clearly said: “It’s so sad, if you get robbed, you won’t even look at her.” I’m sorry.
At that moment, it became clear to me that there was a fire in my heart that had been blown out and lit, and it was finally completely extinguished, and it could never shine again.
“But…”
I don’t want to hear it anymore. It’s not really necessary.
Qinan. I’m sorry.
I whispered behind him, “This marriage is not married. I’m sorry.
“and I don’t need your compensation. I’ll spit it out if I look at you again. I’m sorry.
After that, I turned around and walked away with my skirt.
Willow! I’m sorry.
Qinan called me behind me, but I didn’t look back, I just went outside.
But as soon as I got to the door, my parents stopped me.
My mother grabbed my wrist, she downped my voice and said, “Are you crazy?” Your relatives and friends are here. What’s going on? I’m sorry.
“Isn’t I supposed to run?” I’m sorry.
My mother, who was stunned, said, “There must have been some misunderstanding. I think the Qin people are fine. You didn’t catch him, did you? I’m sorry.
And We looked at her, and We were half-width, and suddenly We laughed.
“Mom, are you really my mom? Why did you give birth to me when you hated me so much? I’m sorry.
She looked into my empty eyes and couldn’t say anything.
Until my father spoke harshly: “You shall not marry, neither shall you. You apologize to Qin later, a girl with a big heart and a human face. I’m sorry.
A strong stomach sickness came up, and I bent down, and I got sick.
One more second here, I’ll spit it out.
My mom softened her tone again.
Zhou Liu, we have worked hard to raise you so much that you will not think for yourself, but for us to be parents. You’re too old to leave Qin. Can you find someone better? I’m sorry.
Speaking, the door was pushed again.
Qinnan walked out and saw that I was still standing here, and it seemed a little relieved.
Willow, listen to me.
“And explain what? I’m sorry.
I looked at him, “The process of the wedding, the last time you were right, and you confirmed the video. Qinan, it’s my fault I’ve been chasing you for two years, but if you hate me so much, why do you have this wedding? I’m sorry.
Qinan was all frozen: “I didn’t.” I’m sorry.
“Don’t talk nonsense!”
And my father was standing next to him, and he laughed at Qinan, “You say, little Qin, we go in and greet our relatives and friends.” I’m sorry.
Before he left, he looked at me with warning.
When they met their parents that day, they put down Qinan’s courtesies before me.
I suddenly had a guess.
Qinan. I’m sorry.
I looked at him, “Did you give my parents the bride price behind my back? I’m sorry.
“Yes. But Willow, that’s because I really want to marry you. I’m sorry.
Qinan reached out and seemed to hold my hand, “It’s really an accident today, and it’s impossible for me and Yuen to come to this day. I said that just because she had always been a very important person and I didn’t want to embarrass her. I’m sorry.
“But I will not marry her. I just want to marry you. I’m sorry.
I want to cry and laugh.
My parents want a bride price, and my brother wants a down payment.
It’s a matter of face.
Qinan wants what?
What about me, a commodity to be sold.
My parents offered, and Qinan paid, that’s all.
I don’t want anything. I don’t want anything.
8
Don’t touch me!
I step back and say, “You’re dirty, you’re dirty, Qinan! I’m sorry.
His eyes dazzled.
I don’t care about him. I’ve decided to push the door back in.
The first table below is a friend of Qinan’s.
He is sitting there at this moment in his wedding dress, with his eyes red and his mouth full of consolation.
“Don’t be sad, Qinan’s due to you. It’s a wedding, after all. His parents are with his family. I’m sorry.
“Did not he say he liked me for 10 years? I want him to prove, in front of everyone, that I am more important than Zhou Willow, or why would he prove to me his intentions? I’m sorry.
“How about I cut you a good video?” I’m sorry.
“It’s good, I’ll say hi to my dad one day, and their department has recently lost a editor. I’m sorry.
She came from the stars to the moon without any setback.
Even if you ask someone else, you have to hurt me.
I smiled, and then I walked, and when the others didn’t react, I took the red oil on the table and fell on her skirt.
“What are you doing? I’m sorry.
Zhou Yoo screamed and stood up in panic to put on his skirts, but the red oil had infiltrated and made it worse.
Zhou Liu, are you sick? I’m sorry.
Qinnan chose me in front of so many people, and if I were you, you’d have come home with no face. I’m sorry.
I looked at her in peace: “Why should I be self-righteous?” I’m sorry.
“Who are three?” You know, I knew Qinan a lot earlier than you. When you didn’t see him, Qinan told me! You’re just picking up what I don’t want and he’ll leave you and choose me whenever I say so. I’m sorry.
“In this relationship, you’re the girl, okay? I’m sorry.
I didn’t want to fight her again. I just took up a drink cup on the table and hit her again on the chest.
Orange orange juice pours out and makes her more coarse.
Zhou Liu!
Until Qinan and my parents came and stopped me.
Zhou Liu, are you crazy? I’m sorry.
Yeah, I’m crazy.
Be careful, be careful, be patient and live for 25 years.
It’s only when you realize that you’re crazy to be happy.
My dad slapped me hard and hit me again, but Qinan stopped me.
“Uncle, don’t get mad. I’ll talk to Willow. I’m sorry.
He looked down at me, and there was a pain in his eyes. “Come on, I’ll make it up to you. I’m sorry.
“Did you not see her bullying me? I’m sorry.
When Qinnan closed his eyes and opened them, a rag was added to his eyes.
“Ho, I really liked you a long time ago, even when I saw you take out that ring, I still felt like you’re a girl and you can’t be so embarrassed. I have served you well. I’m sorry.
“But now I’m sure my favorite is Zhou Liu, and you have many loved your friends, but she’s only me. I can’t leave her. I’m sorry.
The words are filled with tears.
Maybe he’s all pretty.
But in my heart, there’s nothing left.
And I looked at Qinan as calmly as I could, and looked at my parents: “The 300,000, you did not pass through my hand, and I did not take part.” I’m sorry.
Qinan seems to know what I’m going to say: “The Willow, I…”
I interrupted him by saying: “In Qinan, we are completely over. I’m sorry.
9
A wedding that eventually turned into a farce.
I don’t know who the good guys taped the video and posted it online.
What was originally meant by a robbery was that the wind was changing after some comment.
“Brothers, inside. The old bride is a big brother, asking the man for a 300,000 bride price for her parents. I’m sorry.
“Now the wedding isn’t over and they’re not going to pay it back. I’m sorry.
The man even blew up my phone number, and my text message and friend’s application were filled with brazen insults.
It’s not as hard as I thought.
From the list of concerns he didn’t have time to turn off, I found the picture of the night.
I’m going straight to Qinan.
“At the end of the day, let her take care of it or I’ll call the police. I’m sorry.
Qinan almost immediately replied to me: “Where are you, Willow? Let’s meet and talk, okay? I’m sorry.
It’s so fresh.
He’s been in love for four years, and he’s barely seconds to get back to me.
I used to euphemisms, when he looked at me like, “It’s not that we have to stick together to prove that we’re feeling well.” I’m sorry.
And now.
I didn’t pay attention to him. He sent a message.
A thousand explanations.
I don’t answer, he won’t stop.
Until the evening, the comment was not deleted, and more and more texts were being used against me.
Why don’t I just turn off my phone and call the police station nearby.
The next day I saw Ho Chiu at the police station.
For the first time in over 20 years, she had survived with the wind, and she had a very ugly look on my face, but, at the request of the police, apologized to me reluctantly, and then her friend deleted the comment and reissued the clarification video.
By the time it was over, it was dark.
Qinan is standing at the door.
In half a month, he lost weight and looked a little pale.
In the clear eyes that I used to be fascinated by.
Seeing me, Qinan walked in and looked into my eyes, “The Willow, I finally saw you.” I’m sorry.
At this moment, I am standing by my side.
But in his eyes, it’s like he can only see me.
“You haven’t answered my calls, you haven’t returned my messages, you haven’t been to the company since you moved away…”
Qinnan looked at me with care, “The Willows, I said, it was the last day, and I’ll give you my heart. I’m sorry.
Qinan!
“Do you think you can stand me?” What is this now? You promised to wait for me forever! I’m sorry.
She’s too naive.
People who have long feelings will not wait forever.
Qinan, for example.
Qinan’s eyes turned to her: “Yo, you find someone online to make a lie and expose her cell phone, and we can’t even do it now.” I’m sorry.
“Friends? Who wants to be your friend?”
What a cold smile. “Did you fool yourself? I’m sorry.
“Who’s friend will give each other a ring and tell him again and again that he’ll kiss him after he’s drunk — do you dare to tell Zhou Yoo what happened to us last Christmas Eve when you came to England for business? I’m sorry.
Qinnan’s face became pale in a moment.
He can’t say anything, his lips move twice, and then he just looks at me in despair.
And I looked down and laughed, and said, “You can’t say such a dirty thing, and you’re really in a group.” I’m sorry.
For a long time, he whispered, “That’s all the past. I didn’t think she’d come to the wedding, and I didn’t know about the video. The best man was a high school classmate and had a good relationship with Ho Chiu, so I promised her to do it. I’m sorry.
“Just give me a chance, we’ll start over, I’ll give you the best of all, okay? I’m sorry.
At the end of the day, his voice was getting lighter and even painful.
He’s been in love for so long, and he’s always faint in front of me, and he’s rarely been so sharp.
I’d probably feel bad about it.
Because I was so fond of him at that time, and I climbed him like a helpless vine, led by him in emotion, humbled in desire that he could give me love that I had never received.
For that reason, I forced myself to ignore his preference for what happened again and again.
He even brainwashed himself as long as he loved me, even if I was not the first, even if I suffered a bit.
But it is not enough.
It can only make it worse.
Qinan. I’m sorry.
And I said, “But I don’t like you anymore. I’m sorry.
“As soon as I saw you, I even thought I was living in the same city as you, I felt disgusting. I’m sorry.
10
I took a week off with the company.
My boss is a five-year-old woman named Don Min.
She’s not very familiar with me, but she’s in love with me, and I’m unpopular, and she’s in a few invitations to the company for the wedding.
She gave me leave, even for an extra week, and then offered to meet me.
“What happened that day and the video on the Internet, I saw it. I’m sorry.
She’s sitting in the coffee shop downstairs, looking at me in a peaceful manner, “Are you going to stay here and work, or do you want to try something else?” I’m sorry.
I heard what she said, and suddenly there was an intense expectation.
As a matter of fact, Don Min goes on to say: “In order to form a branch in Guangzhou, the company needs a few people who are familiar with their business and who are able to work. The work is bigger and hard, but you will get what you deserve. I’m sorry.
“Whether to go or not, you decide, you don’t have to answer. I’m sorry.
No doubt what she gave me was a great opportunity.
“Why did you choose me? I’m sorry.
She smiled: “Because I’ve had a similar experience to you. I’m sorry.
Zhou Liu, one day you’ll understand that your work and abilities will not betray you, and that the person you love most is you. I’m sorry.
So eventually, I told her I’d go.
After leaving the police station that day, Qinan tried to come back and talk to me.
In front of him, I did not hesitate to dial the alarm.
That night, I wrote a long article in which I made clear what had happened over the years.
And I told you that 300 thousand things I never knew, so I gave them to Qinan and my parents to negotiate.
There’s a lot of people in the comment area who yell at me about my parents’ connivance with the bride price.
I took a general look and turned it off calmly.
When I went to Guangzhou, I changed my phone card and started a new life.
As Tang Min said, the branch is at the start-up stage of everything, and the work is intense and arduous.
That’s good.
Every day, work alone has exhausted me, and there is little left to grieve.
It’s only occasionally that I dream about Qinan.
Four years together, he actually had a good time for me.
For some time, I was hospitalized with a fracture because of the inconvenience of movement and the need to go to the toilet.
Qinan, a man who has a sense of purity, has never complained.
My parents haven’t given me much of a birthday since I was a kid.
Cake made with my own hands, a hard-to-reach car ticket, a new computer I put in a shopping cart for six months — every present, he’s exhausted.
It’s just, people fear comparison.
I’ve been hypnotizing myself with “He’s good to me” so that I’ve been forced to ignore a fact — he would not hesitate to come to her if he chose one in my time and in the evening.
Thank God it’s back.
It’s not too late.
Maybe it’s because last night I dreamt of Qinan, and I woke up and washed up.
But it was only when I came downstairs that I found a familiar figure standing there.
It’s Qinan.
Eleven.
After leaving the city, I heard from my college classmates.
After the events at the wedding, together with my long story, clarified that his company dismissed him for lack of personal morals and bad behaviour.
Qinnan dropped a lot of résumés and didn’t find a job.
Even the father who worked in the system.
The family is a new medium, and the reputation and economic efficiency of the family have fallen significantly after a bad one.
At the end of the day, they had a big fight and they didn’t even make friends.
Ten years have gone by, and they are vulnerable to real interests.
“Willow. I’m sorry.
I wanted to pretend I didn’t see it, but Qinnan called me, “I finally found you. I’m sorry.
I turned my head and looked at him face-to-face: “What do you want me to do? Would you like me to introduce you to a job? I’m sorry.
Qinnan’s head was shaking and his face looked at me with greed: “You’ve been missing for almost three months, and that number didn’t work, even your parents said they couldn’t reach you.” I’m sorry.
“Well, so what do you want? I’m sorry.
I looked down at the time on the phone, “Kinnam, you lost your job because of your character, but I still have to go to work. I’m sorry.
“You still care about me?”
“I just want to watch jokes. I’m sorry.
I don’t give a shit about him and walk straight into the company.
However, it was not until soon after noon that I and my colleagues finished the programme and planned to go out for lunch to find out that he was still downstairs.
It’s almost 40 degrees in Guangzhou, and it’s been tanned all morning, even with white lips.
For the next few days, that’s all.
The weather changed in Guangzhou, and two days in the afternoon, when the storm suddenly started, the pedestrians fled and he was the only one standing in the rain.
After work, he saw me passing by in my backpack, with some hard-earned smile: “The Willow.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t go back.
This near self-absorption, he insisted.
Maybe to touch me, or to touch myself.
But my heart was silent, even a little bit of bitterness.
That night, I worked late until midnight.
It’s a little chilly when you walk out the door.
I’m unconsciously wrapped in my coat.
Walking a few steps, he was dazzled, swayed, and fell on the ground.
A shadow came and held me in time.
In Qinan’s voice, there’s a clear panic: “Willow, what’s wrong with you?” I’m sorry.
I breathed, barely calmed the breath, and then broke his hand.
“I’m fine. Maybe I didn’t eat at night. A little low blood sugar. I’m sorry.
“I’ll take you to the hospital. I’m sorry.
“Qinan, taking away your self-motion, this late love will only make me sick. I’m sorry.
I looked at him with my face, “My life is full and my work is challenging and I’m satisfied. If you really want to make it easier for me, don’t ever show up again. I’m sorry.
Qinan’s eyes were almost filled with pain and regret, and he looked at me with obvious grief and helplessness.
“Willow, even if I chase you like you did, for two years, will you forgive me? I’m sorry.
And I laughed, “Is this world going to work with your will?” After causing the damage, all you have to do is apologize. Should I forgive you? I’m sorry.
I used to be humbled before him.
Now he’s sharp, he’s probably not used to it, just looking at me.
“Stop harassing me. If you stay downstairs tomorrow, I’ll call the police. I’m sorry.
I left that, and I turned around.
My head fainted slightly, so I walked very slowly.
But every step is firm.
12
I haven’t heard from Qinan for a year.
However, the branch has developed well, the staff has expanded several times, and I have taken the position of small project team leader.
The monthly income is almost three times as high as it was before.
I’m beginning to understand what Tamin said.
I won’t betray myself.
Love for yourself will only grow and never fade.
On that day, the department took a contract of tens of millions of dollars to celebrate a meal at a seafood restaurant nearby.
I’ve had a few drinks, I’m a little dizzy and I’m out on the roof.
The wet and cold wind passes over the cheek, and the cell phone rings, a strange number.
“Hello. I’m sorry.
“Hello?”
I answered and asked, but there was no talk.
I thought someone had made a mistake and I was about to hang up, and the voice of Qinan’s squawking was like, “The Willow.” I’m sorry.
“How do you know my number? I’m sorry.
He laughed as if a man dying wanted to see your last face, even if he didn’t talk to me, they would give me the phone. I’m sorry.
I said, “Is it fun to play this boring game when you’re almost 30?” I’m sorry.
“…”
“Willow, I’m not playing games. I’m sorry.
“I’m not lying to you. I’m real, dying. I’m sorry.
Six months ago, Qinan finally found a decent job, but at the time of his entry on duty he discovered leukemia.
He had a suitable bone marrow, which he had operated on, but had a severe excursive reaction, which had worsened.
“It hurts. It used to be half a month, and it’s getting more frequent. I’m sorry.
“I may not be able to hold on. I want to hear your voice before I die. I’m sorry.
“William, can you see me again? I’m sorry.
I asked him for the address of the hospital.
Before I met him, I was thinking about the possibility that he had tricked me in the past with a charade of bitter meat, and then I went into the room and I confirmed the truth of what he said.
The pain in Qinan’s face and the death of the long-suffering pain cannot be shown.
At the university, he was sort of a school figure, even after we fell in love, and from time to time the schoolgirls sent pictures in white walls asking if he was single.
But now on the bed, he’s going to be a piece of paper, white-faced Qinan, which looks so strange.
“You seem to be doing well now. I’m sorry.
“The world is not so bad for you.” I’m sorry.
I thought about it and asked him, “Why haven’t you come to see you?” I’m sorry.
They’ve been friends for over a decade, after all.
“She’s married. I’m sorry.
I nod my head: “Oh, that’s a good thing to avoid.” I’m sorry.
I sat by his bed for a while, looking at a few wrinkled oranges in the cupboard, saying something that didn’t hurt, and it was silent.
Qinan suddenly said, “I really regret it. I’m sorry.
“Now think about it, it was I who didn’t value it. You’re a really good person. It was only then that I was blinded by my parable, and the more I could leave her, the more I could not leave her. I’m sorry.
“This may be the punishment. I’m sorry.
I was silent for a moment and I stood up: “Don’t think about it, take care of yourself.” I’m sorry.
He sat up in a state of panic and wondered if he was involved in a trauma, and he was in pain, and he looked at me in a panic: “Are you leaving so soon?” I’m sorry.
“I’m here to brief on my job, and I’ll have a meeting at the head office. I’m sorry.
And his eyes faded, and he said, “So you didn’t come all the way back to see me and neither should I have imagined what I had done to hurt you. I’m sorry.
He smiled and his face was so sad.
“Bye, Willow. I’m sorry.
I turned around and walked out of the room.
It smells of disinfectant water in the corridors.
The ground had just been dragged, some of it was wet and I had to slow down in my heels.
The nurse came with me and walked into Qinan’s back ward.
A moment later, he came from the inside to suppress the sound of great pain, almost alarming.
I was unconscious to tighten my hand.
I’m not even going back.
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