When I got the pregnancy report, I thought about how to surprise him all night, and he was kissing his white moon on the couch I bought.
When I died with the child in my belly, he softly wiped the woman’s tears, “Don’t cry, it’s bad for the child. I’m sorry.
One.
I was in a car accident on my way home on Jiang-ray’s birthday and died instantly.
My soul floats above and wants to see the last side of the river.
I just saw Jiang-ray bring his white moon-light Chen to our home.
In the dark light, Chen’s face was red, as if he was drunk and had no bones hanging over the river.
“A photo, a picture…”
The river held her waist steady, helped her with her tumultuous hair and patiently responded.
It’s only in her presence that she will have such tenderness.
Seeing this scene, even when prepared, my heart was stinged.
Ever since the news of Chen Yu’s divorce, Jiang-ray has been distracted by the fact that the number of homecomings has become less and less and less.
I found out that Chen Yue’s company went bankrupt and fled with money.
After the divorce, Chen Yu found herself pregnant, and the debt collectors came to her every day and scared her to almost abort several times.
These days, she was accompanied by the hospital.
I had a fight with Jiang-ray because he wanted to take Chan-Yo home.
“The parents of Chen Yuen once financed me, and I couldn’t have helped her. I’m sorry.
My eyebrow is red, “Is it just because of this? I’m sorry.
Jiang-ray was silent for a moment and suddenly the smoke was extinguished, “I said I would marry you. I’m sorry.
“Sioan, what are you worried about? I’m sorry.
What am I worried about?
It’s clear to him, but he pretends not to know.
I suddenly lost my temper that night and broke up with him for the first time.
It’s getting worse.
“You know what you were saying? I’m sorry.
I was shivering around my body, and the big shadow had come up and he almost gnawed my lips with a button to rip off his shirt.
“Sio Ann, never break up with me. I’m sorry.
The cold-water gushing, the hot air rolled through the neck and the face was blurred.
“It’s only for a while, and when the police find her ex-husband, I’ll send her back. I’m sorry.
He put his earlids on me, “I can’t do it with her.” I’m sorry.
I’m in a struggle, I’m breathing and I’m facing threats with my eyes closed.
“To make me agree, unless I die. I’m sorry.
Then I really died.
Jiang-ray really brought Chen Yoon back.
Two.
I watched Jiang-ray put a drunk Chen-Yu on the couch and wiped her face with a hot towel.
“You’re pregnant, you shouldn’t drink so much. I’m sorry.
He was quiet and gentle, as if she had been rebukeed that year.
Chen Yung didn’t know if he heard it, but he was dazzling and shouting headaches.
When the river fell silently, she was lifted up, her long fingers were placed on her forehead, and her abdomen were slightly pressed, from the forehead to the ear, and the temple.
It’s a lovely scene, and it’s kind of strangling my heart for seconds and waking up.
There was a moment of twitch.
At that time, when he had graduated from university and her grandmother had died, his parents had forced him to marry because of his family’s circumstances.
I survived the half-year of darkness with the river.
Six months later, he promised me his confession.
Later, he decided to start a business and often went out for a drink.
That’s how I wipe his face, make him a drink and soup and take care of him all night.
The next day, I had my eyes blue and I was exhausted, and the river must have looked at me for a long time, groaning, and laid me on his lap and massaged me.
I’m flattered, I’m flattered by the force, and I’m so comfortable with it.
“You’re not allowed to push it anymore, okay? I’m sorry.
I regret it.
I was just about to say something about it, and I heard the riverlight on top of my head laughing, “Okay. I’m sorry.
What he said was, okay.
But.
Yeah, well, how can she be someone else?
I was only suddenly an exception to the river, and she was always his favorite.
3
I suddenly felt like I should get out of here.
Can’t even look at Jiang-ray and give it to Chen-Yo. Kissing?
Even…
When I think about it, it’s like a ants line on my back, and I sit around and run to the door.
However, when the door was touched, a ripple of pain came along, even more painful than when a car accident broke down from a cliff.
I couldn’t scream, and I was dragged back.
After a few attempts, I was pale, sweated and wet, and finally realized something.
I can’t leave this room.
Or I can’t leave the river.
Hey, lose all strength.
I kept looking at them.
Jiang-ray has finished the massage with Chen Yui and is leaving with one hand around his neck.
Yuen Chen opened his eyes.
The two of them are in opposition.
“Do you still like me? The blogger says:
“I hate you. I’m sorry.
Chan Yue’s face is white.
His palm fell on her side of the face, his finger was run over in an inch, his groaning,
“But I’ve never forgotten you. I’m sorry.
I sarcasticly hit the lips.
Chen’s eyes are so full of smiles, it’s like suddenly something comes up.
“What about Sue Ann? How do you feel about her? I’m sorry.
And the river shone and moved its lips, but it did not speak.
The atmosphere suddenly calmed down.
Chen Yue’s face changed slightly and the look of the inquiry fell on him.
The next second, she slightly raised her neck and kissed his lips.
It was clear that Jiang-ray had a stiff body, but it was only for a moment, when he turned his back and took her to her lap with his finger on her back, deepening the kiss.
I covered my lips in a moment, so that my stomach could reach the chest.
“Hang, he left me. Don’t leave me. I don’t want to be alone. “Presently, he breathed and prayed with his lips.
“I know you only have gratitude and guilt for her, and it’s me you really like…”
Chen’s kiss fell on his collarbone, a little paused, reaching out to unbutton his shirt,
The river held her hand.
“No way. I’m sorry.
His voice is cold and his eyes are cold.
The cold came out of him, and it spread, and it gave me the cold of a soul that had no sense of temperature.
He looked at him like he didn’t think he’d be rejected.
I also looked at him, and his uncontrollable heart beats.
Jiang-ray was silent for a while, his eyes were down and he didn’t see the mood, “Yo-Yo, I have a girlfriend now. I’m sorry.
“This is bad for you. I’m sorry.
I’m waiting for you. I’m sorry.
I get it. Smiling.
Jiang-ray means that he and Chen-Yu will not be deviating in substance until we have broken up.
It has nothing to do with his character or with respect for his real girlfriend, who just doesn’t want her to bear any stigma and moral condemnation.
He loved her so much.
Smiling, tears fell.
4
After he fell asleep, he smoked on the balcony.
Long, tall, and almost the same as the night, only the red of the fingertips glitter glitter.
There was hardly any expression on his face, and he had repeated abdomen, which meant that he was very upset at the moment.
We were forced to look at him from a distance not more than two metres.
I’ve spoken to each other with my beloved woman, and I don’t know what’s bothering him.
Oh, we haven’t broken up yet.
Probably because of what just happened.
I think.
Suddenly, his phone rings.
Jiang-ray almost immediately turned on his cell phone, and his dark, dark eyes were on the screen.
The next second, there was a little disappointment in the eyes.
I’m a little ticklish, and I’m looking right behind him.
That’s what’s stopping me.
Jiang-ray opened the interface with my Twitter.
We haven’t been in touch since that big fight.
The last conversation I wrote to him was, “What do you want? I’m sorry.
He was probably too busy that day and probably took care of her at the hospital.
Now, the river’s finger goes down unconsciously, refreshs the message, as if it were going to be sent across the street.
I don’t know how to react.
Shizuku, Jiang-ray has sent a microletter.
“It’s 11:30.” I’m sorry.
I understood his reminder in a moment.
It’s 11:30 p.m. His birthday’s almost over.
I haven’t missed his birthday in five years, and I’ve cooked him a long noodles and made him a celery dumpling girlfriend.
But no more.
I’ll never say it again.
Because I’m dead.
5
Jiangyang stood on the balcony for half an hour, and when he returned to the living room with a chill, his face was already ugly.
He looked at the phone screen for the last two seconds, and he left it on the couch.
I got a bag of celery from the fridge.
He unfrozen the dumplings without an expression, boiled them and sat on the table and ate them first down.
The white smoke is covered in the eyebrows and appears to be colder and farther away.
Seeing him eat the dumplings quietly, I suddenly think about it.
Jiang-ray, probably cares about me.
I’m surprised, again.
Actually, today is not strictly Jiang-ray’s birthday.
Jiang-ray’s real birthday, a week ago.
But five years ago, when Jiang-ray’s grandmother died and Chen-Yu left him, Jiang-ray did not want his birthday.
I proposed to change his birthday to a week later, and every time I shaved my head, it was hot.
I was an orphan, and my birthday was the happiest day of my year in a welfare home.
I just wanted to make him happy.
The first time I helped him on his birthday, I spent months behind my back learning his favorite game, and I was going to spend the night with him, and I fell asleep in his thighs at 2:00.
I woke up with an open eye, an arm on top of my head, a cold eye hook, and a smile and a smile. I’m sorry.
For the second time, I made a large table and cut several fingers, and only long-lived noodles and celery dumplings could eat.
He’s finished, but he’s not saying much.
I’ve always liked to climb up with the pole.
“You have a bad heart, you can lower your blood pressure and heart rate by eating celery, so I can learn to be serious, both in appearance and cooking. I’m sorry.
I was taken care of for a long time. I’m sorry.
I laughed, “Because I like you! I really like you. I’m sorry.
If I don’t go on, I’ll kiss him.
It was the first time I felt him so hot.
Then he rolls to bed.
We were all green that night, exploring each other.
But then, as if he had reached out to himself, he strangled my waist, and dark, dark pupils showed my face full of tears.
And then in the middle of the night, it was silent and fierce.
But it proved to be useful, too, when he was on his third and fourth birthday.
In his mind, the five years of love and friendship left a trace in his heart.
Six.
The sound of Tinker Bell brought back my drift.
It also seems that the river’s radiant, even the spoon fell on the ground.
I fell down and picked it up, and no physical hand went right through the spoon, and I choked.
Then the spoon was picked up by the other hand.
“What are you eating? “The sound of Chen Yue softly sounded inside the house.
I spread out my hands, and look at these hands that are getting blurred, that can’t congregate, and look at Chen Yu’s hands, which are long and clean.
And suddenly a bit humbled.
It’s pretty before I die.
Now I can cook a good table and play games without any effort to get through customs, but now I can’t even touch it.
“What kind of dumpling is this? It smells weird. Chen Yuen brought another spoon and slowly mixed the dumplings in the river’s bowl.
“Celery.” I’m sorry.
Chen Yeung doesn’t care much about the place, looks up and looks at the river, “Why does Ann say it’s your birthday? I’m sorry.
It’s just a little bit.
Chen Yung smiled, “Your phone was on the couch, I looked at your chat records. I’m sorry.
And then I added, “I didn’t think your lock code had changed, 0802, the day we first met. I’m sorry.
I can’t see the mood in his eyes.
The heart still hurts a little.
Once upon a time I asked Jiang to replace the lock code with the day we were together, he refused.
Turns out it was because of her.
“Answer my question. Why did Sue Ann say it was your birthday? I’m sorry.
I’m just staring at Chan.
I was promised that it was a secret between me and him. He would not tell me anything.
“On that day, five years ago, a lot of bad things happened, and she said she’d delayed my birthday for a week, and she’d changed it for me. I’m sorry.
The familiar sound is always low and cold.
I bit the tip of my tongue, and the sweetness came up, and I ran across.
Suddenly there’s something to laugh about.
Chen Yui was silent for a moment, “She’s really good for you. I’m sorry.
“She made this dumpling too? For your birthday? I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“You put me to sleep for this? To keep her promise? I’m sorry.
Jiang-ray didn’t answer.
The atmosphere has fallen into silence.
Chen Yuffy threw a dumpling and suddenly said, “I want to eat. I’m sorry.
“No way! I screamed out loud.
No one can hear me.
I reached out to grab her spoon.
I can’t.
The river looked in the eye, squeezed her wrist, whispered a warning, “Chen Yu. I’m sorry.
“I want to eat.” I’m sorry.
I’ll spend every birthday with you. I’m sorry.
She made him choose.
After some time, he slowly loosed his hand.
Chan Yue ate the dumplings.
I watched the tears spill through my eyes.
It’s like a knife after a knife to cut the heart, and it’s like a bloodbath.
It’s not just dumplings.
It’s not just dumplings.
These days, I floated around the walls and looked at them indifferent, as if I had lost everything.
But it wasn’t my fault, and after what happened that day, Jiang-sang’s attitude towards Chen-Yu was much colder.
In addition to playing a game, he and Yung-Yo had little intimacy and even deliberately avoided her touch.
One day, Chen Yeung suddenly asked, “Where’s Sue Ann?” I’m sorry.
Jiang Jinton was quiet, “I had a fight the other day and applied for a business trip. I’m sorry.
Chen Yung laughed, “We haven’t been in touch for days, maybe they’ve wanted to break up with you. I’m sorry.
“No way. I’m sorry.
He said that he was unconsciously taking out his cell phone, looking at me and his chat interface, and that there was a small amount of anxiety and agitation in his eyebrow.
Oh, he doesn’t know I’m dead.
I suddenly became curious, and he knew the reaction.
7
The next day, Jiang-ray received the ring I sent him.
– He gave me a wedding ring.
A month ago, Jiang-ray and I went to dinner.
At half, the man sitting across the street suddenly stood up and pulled out his ring without warning, kneeling on his one knee.
He’s in his suit, he’s handsome, he’s dressed up, and his fingerbone is white because of his stress.
And the people around him were groaning, and he was laughing, and his eyes were burning at me, “And Anne, marry me.” I’m sorry.
I cried red eyes, shivered out my hand and let him put his ring on his finger.
That night I held his head in my zeal and watched his head shake around with that broken light.
I am an orphan and after adoption by the foster parents, they have a son in the following year.
A few years later, they made up an excuse to send me back.
What excuse? Likes to steal.
– If you’re hungry enough to steal the rest of your brother’s chicken leg.
That’s probably why he lost his school fare when he went to school.
Later, I was adopted by a non-rich couple.
They were good to me, but I was careful, I kept my dues, I grew old, and I could eat only half a bowl.
When I finally opened my heart, they died in a car accident, on their way to my parents’ meeting.
I went back to welfare.
No one will ever adopt me again.
My name is Sue Ann, but I’ve never settled down.
I really want to have a real family.
Now, Jiang-ray proposed to me.
I thought I finally had a family.
But.
Chan Yoon is back.
She’s having a bad time, and the first person to think about is not her parents, but hers.
And my boyfriend, fiancé, did his best to help her, even to take her home.
After that, I applied to the company for a business trip to Hangzhou.
I’ve been thinking for a week and I’ve sent the wedding ring.
– I’m breaking up with him.
That’s today, the ring you received.
The moment he saw the ring, his face sank as if it was dripping water, and his eyes were like a layered ice.
He keeps sending me messages, calling, asking me what I mean.
The smoke was sipping, and his five generals were getting colder, and the agitation in his eyebrow was almost spilling out.
There’s always a message that can’t be reached.
It wasn’t until I knew how many cigarettes had been smoked and there was no cigarette case.
Sue Ann, are you really leaving me? I’m sorry.
Yes.
I’ve left, completely and completely.
You can finally get along with her.
I reply softly, even if he can’t hear.
Suddenly I thought of something.
I was a very determined man, and since I had returned the ring to him, I had decided to break up.
I try to remember, I feel like I’ve forgotten something important.
8
I found that it took longer for the river to walk away.
At night, he worked in the library, brought coffee with Chen Yue’s sweetness, and he didn’t look up and came out.
“Ann, it’s too late for you to rest. I’m sorry.
Chen Ying looked at him.
He also stopped, and he whispered “sorry” and then rubbed his hand in his eyebrow as if he was trying to hide something.
Next, he seemed to have gone out of his mind and kept staring at that page of the programme without turning over or paying attention to the ugly face of Chen.
The following day, Chen Yue went to Jiang-ray’s bedroom to clean the room.
I don’t know if it was a test or an accident, but she took out what belonged to me and broke up Lego with him.
When he saw her, he was like, “Don’t move. I’m sorry.
Then he threw away her hand, one by one, and remixed it with a great deal of attention.
How long has he been fighting for?
In the company of Chen Yuen, it is always the same.
Seeing the sunflowers I planted on the balcony, watching the clothes I bought him in the closet, watching the little goldfish I raised in the fish tank.
Even talking to Chen Yuen, hearing her unwitting “An” word, he would suddenly freeze.
I was in the middle of the air and I watched Chen Yuen’s face get worse and worse.
Not just Chen Yu, I realized that.
— Jiang-ray seems to be slowly seeing his mind.
I looked at the man on the couch who I loved all my life.
He seems to be a little drunk, frowning his eyebrows, and he has a red flash on his face.
He’s on the phone with his friend, Ho.
“Do you want Sue Ann or Chan Yuen? I’m sorry.
He was silent for a moment, “Sioan broke up with me. I’m sorry.
“So it’s her?”
He’s wrinkled.
There seems to be a guess, “The heart is small and love can only be given to one.” Go find Sue Ann. I’m sorry.
Jiang-ray didn’t talk, his head down and his finger was squeezing the proposed ring.
Good time.
“Good. I’m sorry.
I looked at him in silence.
Maybe I’d be happy to see it before.
But now I’m dead.
I’m dead.
It’s like an ant drilling into my heart, getting deeper, getting more irritating, and I can’t breathe.
9
He told him to take Chen Yu to her parents, he agreed and bought a ticket to my place of business.
On that day, it appeared that he was going to talk to Yuo Chen about the matter and, as soon as he returned home, he came out with soup.
Chen Yue has never eaten fireworks, but today he cooks himself a very good dinner and has made special arrangements for fresh celery.
“It was my bad day that forced you to choose. I was just too scared to lose you. I’m sorry.
“I didn’t want to marry, but my mother threatened me with suicide. I’m sorry.
“The five years I married, I didn’t think of you all day. I’m sorry.
She’s wearing my apron, and she looks down on the river.
Tears come out, red on the tails, as if a layer of liquefies were dyed.
“I know you have her in your heart now, but I can wait for you. I’m sorry.
“Don’t drive me away. I’m sorry.
She surrounded his waist, her face was buried in his chest, she grabbed his clothes carefully, and the sound of her opening was heartbreaking.
“At least, stay with me for a while. I’ll go when she gets back. Okay? I’m sorry.
Jiang-ray didn’t talk.
But he didn’t push her away.
He groaned her, softly dryed her tears, and said, “Stop crying, it’s bad for the kids. I’m sorry.
He’s still soft.
Passive pain spreads out of my heart, and a strong ulterior motive is pouring into my body.
It’s the love of someone who will be disappointed again and again.
Over the past five years, I have exhausted all my passion and all my heart to be good to him, and I have barely left a place in his heart.
But she just cried and he compromised.
10
After learning that she’s going to stay a little longer, why do you look so complicated? I’m sorry.
“I’m just friends with Chen Yue. I’m sorry.
Jiangyang stood so straight that there was no change in his face: “When he came back, Chen Yu had left. I’m sorry.
“She won’t know. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry.
I looked at all of this faceless, and I looked forward to seeing him after I was dead.
In these days, Jiang-Yo was with Chen as promised, they did not have any deviant behaviour, and the pattern of living together was indeed like a friend.
And I’ve been trying to remember what I forgot and why I came back for his birthday.
There is a feeling in the meditation that when I remember this, my soul will no longer be bound by the river, and I will be truly relieved.
But every time I remember, my head burst into pain.
While I was depressed, Jiang-Yo went to the mall with Chen-Yo, just when he saw the baby items, and Chen-Yo-Hyun dragged him in.
Chan Yoon took a princess dress and smiled on his lips.
“I wish I had a daughter in my belly so I could buy her all kinds of beautiful dresses. I’m sorry.
“Do you like your son or your daughter? The blogger says:
“Girl it. I’m sorry.
The mouths of the river were slightly raised and the sight fell on the baby’s supplies.
The sun shines, and his dark pupils pour out a few light waves and look a little soft, “Sou Ann likes it. I’m sorry.
Then I added, “I like what she gives birth. I’m sorry.
I’m standing there.
When the gates of memory were opened, my head was broken, and countless images came out of a frozen wild horse.
No matter how long it took, I was on the ground.
Cry and laugh and cry.
I shivered my hand on the belly.
I remember.
The reason I came back for Jiang’s birthday is because I wanted to give each other another chance.
I’m pregnant.
After receiving the medical report, I thought of one night and decided to talk to Jiangzhi.
On the day before his birthday, I drove over all night.
I’m going to give this to him as a birthday present.
In the car, I touched my stomach while I imagined what the look of the news was.
Will you laugh?
I don’t think so. He’s always the one with the bruised face, and he’s at the top of his lips, and he looks at me, “Sou Ann, I’m really happy you’re pregnant. I’m sorry.
Will you look forward to this child as much as I do?
Should be.
The night he proposed, he breathed in my ear, he breathed warmly, “Sou Ann, we’ll have a baby after we get married. I’m sorry.
“I always knew you wanted a lot of family. I’m sorry.
Yeah, I want a lot of family.
Jiang-ray knows me so well.
Thinking about it, I laughed.
The driver saw it in the rear-view mirror and asked me why I laughed.
I didn’t answer, I just smiled to keep him focused on driving, after all, it was raining and it was safe.
The journey was boring, and I was able to stop myself from sending a direct message to Jiang-ray and brushing up Twitter.
And then I found someone watching me.
It’s Chan Yoon.
I opened up Chen Yui Weibo.
I found out she sent photos of Jiang’s photo.
From her microblogging photos, I saw how Jiang-ray watched her pregnancy in the hospital all day, and saw how the two men rekindled.
Just like a couple of newlyweds with kids.
“The needle hurts, but with you around, I’m not afraid. I’m sorry.
– The map is a calm side of the river, and two hands in hand.
“Turn around, or you’re the best for me. I’m sorry.
– It’s a guacamole of puritanic gland bowing for her.
“You fell asleep by the bed last night, and I kissed you, and I knew you weren’t sleeping. I’m sorry.
This microblogging, no pictures.
But Jiang-ray gave her a compliment.
I was staring at the screen, my heart was so tight, I just felt blood pouring into the brain.
How many dirty things do people want to see in their lives?
I don’t want to see it anymore.
Then God didn’t really show me anymore.
By the edge of the cliff, a red heavy truck suddenly lost control and ran straight into it, and we rolled off the cliff with a human car, which exploded.
I went there with anticipation and joy.
But he died with despair and hatred.
Strong stimuli make me lose this part of my memory for a while, and the bitterness of my soul leaves me with the river.
I didn’t leave him because I loved him.
I hate him.
I died with the baby.
What are you doing?
He’s taking care of others and taking care of their children.
Perhaps it was something that was felt, and the river, which was talking to her, suddenly wrinkled, and the unconscious looked around and found nothing.
And then his phone rings.
The voice of Ho’s tremor came from the end of the phone, “Jang-ray, let me tell you something. Don’t get excited. I’m sorry.
“I had a brother who was a traffic cop, and there was a serious traffic accident on his side, and all the passengers and drivers were killed, and the identity of a pregnant woman was not identified until today. I’m sorry.
“The pregnant woman, Sue Ann. I’m sorry.
Eleven.
I’ve thought about it a million times about how I’ll react after I die.
Now I finally see it.
The man was just laughing at his moonlight, hearing the news, for a moment, frowning, “Don’t joke about it. I’m sorry.
“It’s true…”
“Oh, don’t joke about it. I’m sorry.
“A week ago, her taxi crashed into a truck, and an explosion occurred after she fell off a cliff, and the police did not receive a report of the disappearance of the pregnant woman’s family for a full week, as there was only a small amount of body parts.”
It’s like you can’t go on.
“It took a whole week before the police passed the DNA match to identify Sue Ann…”
The face of the river is gradually changing, and the whole man is as if he were a wooden sculptor.
“You know what? I’m sorry.
“She’s been missing for a week. Haven’t you been looking for her? I’m sorry.
And with the voice of Ho Ho’s voice, the face of the river has become bloodless, and the lips are shivering.
“No way, no way you’re lying to me. I’m sorry.
He looked at him with concern and held his hand gently.
The phone calls have been closed, and it doesn’t sound like sarcasm or sarcasm. I’m sorry.
The air was quiet for seconds.
“You’ve been with her for a week. I’m sorry.
It was almost instantaneous, with Chen ‘ s hands, red eyes and face, like a child who had done something wrong.
“Her body is now stored in a funeral home and the police have informed her family to claim it. You can come over later. I’m sorry.
He was silent for a long time.
“She has no family but you. I’m sorry.
The river was standing in the ground, strangling a few points in its large body, and then crawling down, strangling, and saying,
“No way, no way…”
He seems to say only that.
He won’t believe I’m dead.
I watched the scene with indifference and joy.
When I recovered my memory, I felt clearly the hatred for him and almost swallowed me up.
But when revenge is over, there is endless fatigue and sorrow in the heart.
Love and hate are so exhausting.
I’m tired of living and dying.
12
I didn’t disappear immediately after I recovered my memory.
Apart from the fact that the soul has become transparent, I am still confined to the river, just a little bit wider from his sphere of activity.
I followed him to the funeral home.
This man, who has always been so angry, is now standing by the door so stiff that he can’t even approach.
The staff members in there lamented, “It’s been hard to find so many burnt remains, and the bodies are all comprehensible. Well, I heard it was a pregnant woman. I’m sorry.
“No, the wrist joints and the finger joints were badly curved, and they were trying to protect their children. I’m sorry.
The river looks pale and shaky, and if it doesn’t hold the wall, it’s like it’s going down in the next second.
The staff saw the photo: “Is it the family? Come here. I’m sorry.
The river’s moving slowly.
They’re gone too. He’s the only one left in the room.
High shadows blocked the light on the head, with his back tied straight, his fist overstretched, and his nails fell into the skin without knowing.
He looked at my body covered in white cloth and started talking to himself.
“On my way here, I suddenly remembered something I never told you. I’m sorry.
It’s a little twitchy, but it’s not very high, as usual.
“We were all small then. One day I went downstairs to buy something, and a little boy played and took the change from a blind grandmother’s bowl. And suddenly you burst over and tore with him. You’re so skinny, you’re holding his hand so hard, the last kid can’t take it, you’re giving a dollar in your hand. I’m sorry.
“I’ve heard them say before that you’re an orphan and you like to steal. I’m sorry.
“But then your hair was in disarray, and your lips were bruised, and you breathed on the ground, and stood up and put the money in the bowl of the blind grandmother, and left in peace.” I’m sorry.
“In this scene, Grandma the Blind can’t see, the little boy won’t say it, but I see it. I’m sorry.
“I couldn’t help but look at you after this, and then someone in my class falsely accused you of stealing the money, and my first reaction was to stand up and speak for you. I’m sorry.
“I think I’ll never forget that moment of light in your eyes. I’m sorry.
“And then your eyes fell on me, and my eyes were blushing, and you looked at me. I’m sorry.
“In those years, you stood by me at the School of Excellence Awards, you delivered me water when you played basketball, I won the sprinting competition, you congratulated me with the laughter of flowers, and you won with me in the team of the O number. I’m sorry.
“And then, Chen Yue appeared. I’m sorry.
He stopped, put his hands on his face, and it seemed like something was coming out of his fingers.
“Ann, I started watching you, and you fell in love with me. Why would I like someone else? I’m sorry.
I looked at him in silence, and thought that there was no more in him, and that there was still a delicate pain in my heart.
Yeah.
Why?
I knew him first. Why are we here?
I wasn’t a lively man.
But in front of Jiang-ray, I always let myself do my best to him like a little sun.
I’ve never been so gentle to anyone, and I won’t be so gentle to anyone.
“Sou Ann, the moment I proposed to you, I wanted to be with you forever. I’m sorry.
“Sou Ann, you listen to me. I’m sorry.
“Just talk to me, okay? I’m sorry.
Sue Ann. I’m sorry.
“Ann. Ann. I’m sorry.
“…wife. I’m sorry.
He screamed over and over again.
No one responded to him.
He began to be agitated, even agitated, and his lips were white, and he cried out my name in one voice until his voice was dumb, until he could not speak.
“You said you’d never leave me…”
His voice was lost, his hemorrhoids were squeezed from the bottom of his throat, his shoulders were shaking, his eyes were covered in blood, as if he was a desperate beast with no way out of his head, and he seemed to be horrified and pathetic.
I looked quietly at this sad man.
Maybe it wasn’t until this moment that he realized that I was dead.
13
When I got my urn, Jiang Zhong locked himself in his room.
I feel the soul is getting weaker and tired of sleeping on the ground.
In the middle, I heard Chen Yung-Yu taping the door, and the sound was full of tears.
“Hang, it’s been three days. I’m begging you to eat, okay? I’m sorry.
“You can’t do this to yourself even if she’s gone. I’m sorry.
“She’d be upset if she knew. I’m sorry.
And We woke up from the faintness of our sleep, rubbing our eyes, and looked down at the closed door.
So it’s been three days?
An hour later, Ho Chi came over.
He simply and violently kicked out the door, and the smell of smoke and the smell of alcohol came out of it.
Eyeful light came into the room and covered the men on the ground.
He was surrounded by a pile of cigarettes, a bottle of wine, and my urn.
He’s bowing his head and quietly fighting Lego.
– The Lego I didn’t finish with.
It was only a few days later that the river looked thin, and the chin was covered in a black and blue bush, and its eyelids fell into it.
“Ah-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha.
When he heard the noise, he looked at it, like an old, unpaved device, with red blood in his eyes. I’m sorry.
He seems to be starting to snuggle and whisper, “Ann comes back and you’ll be upset. I’m sorry.
Chan Yue’s face is white.
Then he turned his head up, and his eyebrow splattered with panic, and he turned away from Chen’s words,
“This is my home and Anne. You have no right to be here. I’m sorry.
He looked at him as if he could not believe that he would say such a thing to her.
It seems a little impatient, “Get out of here. I’m sorry.
When he didn’t move, Chen ran away crying.
It doesn’t seem to care that the river continues to work with no expression.
“If you could have done this earlier…” what’s so sudden?
The way the river looked white, the fingers were shaking, and the wood fell on the ground.
He looked at that building, and there was pain and grief in his pupils.
“I had a big fight with her the other day, and I told her to bring her home. I’m sorry.
“If it hadn’t been for this, she wouldn’t have applied for a trip, nor would she…”
“The day of her accident, she was on her way back. Give me your birthday. I’m sorry.
“She wanted to give me the news of her pregnancy as a birthday present. I’m sorry.
“And what was I doing? I’m sorry.
I took Chan Yoo home while she was gone. I’m sorry.
He took a deep breath and started fighting high again, but his fingers were shaking and he threw one off.
“Ho, I regret it. I really regret it. I’m sorry.
He stood up and looked at him in silence.
“They say that those who fail in their true faith will be punished one day. I’m sorry.
“But at the cost of her death, isn’t she pathetic? I’m sorry.
I can’t say a word.
It’s a long breath.
“You make it like this, she won’t be happy. Jiang-ray, you have to go on living. I’m sorry.
14
A few days later, Jiang-ray insisted on giving me a funeral.
The sky is covered in heavy rain, it’s all gray and the whole city seems to be in the dark.
Without an umbrella, Jiangzha stood silently in front of the tombstone and looked at my black and white photograph on it.
The tombstone is marked by the dead wife Sue Ann.
One after the other on my gravestone.
After the funeral, the river was standing still, and the rain shrouded along his hair, leaving a water mark on his pale cheek.
He brought an umbrella. Give it to him.
“You know your heart is bad? Any cold can induce an infection. Do you have to fight your body? I’m sorry.
The river threw its umbrella away without an expression, “Then get sick and die.” I’m sorry.
After that day, it became a major disease.
It was a small cold, but he never took the medicine, caused the infection and stayed in the hospital for six months.
At night, the ward was quiet.
The darkness of the darkness outside the window, with a very light, very confused voice, says:
“Ann, why didn’t you come to my dream once? I’m sorry.
“You used to say take care of my heart. Now I’m making it sick. Why don’t you come back and see me? I’m sorry.
It was only when he was discharged from hospital that he became ill and was re-infected by alcohol.
He’s looking at him, and he slaps him, “If you want to die, I might as well slap him.” I’m sorry.
“On the contrary, when you do those disgusting things, I’d like to slap you for Sue Ann. I’m sorry.
“He’s dead. Who are you going to show him? Self-motion?”
“I’m telling you, if your grandmother wasn’t nice to me, I wouldn’t mind if I looked at you. I’m sorry.
“If Sue Ann sees these self-righteous behaviors of you, he’ll be sick, understand?”
Jiang looks pale and looks at him.
It is not known whether Jiang-soon heard what he said, but after that day he did not perish or spoil his body.
He went to work in peace and continued to live in peace.
But I always thought he was weird.
At night, he would smoke on the balcony, and the smoke would be blurry, but it would only add solitude to his body.
After smoking, he’ll go to the fridge and take out the dumplings.
There’s not much left of the dumplings. There’s probably a dozen left, and Jiang-ray cooks a few meals a day.
Before he went to sleep, he looked quietly at my urn box and said, “Good night. I’m sorry.
I find myself no longer having to follow the river at all times, and I’m always dazed and confused and sleeping in my room every day.
He seems to be busy at work these days, always late.
I don’t know what he’s up to until Ho’s calling him.
“What do you mean you’re transferring all the shares of the company to me? I’m sorry.
He answered calmly, “Just wanted a break. I’m sorry.
“I heard you donated a lot of money to the orphanage?
“You think I’m atonement.” I’m sorry.
Ho was silent for a second.
“The former husband of Chen Yuen came back for her somehow, and they had an argument. Chen Yuen was pushed and aborted. His ex-husband went to the police station to turn himself in, and Chen Yuen is in a coma at the hospital and is told that he is in bad health and may not be able to bear a child. I’m sorry.
Jiang-Yang’s face was always blank, as if it didn’t make him feel any better. I’m sorry.
A few days later, Jiang Zhong returned from work and went to the balcony as usual to smoke.
When he came back to see the last dumplings left in the fridge, he blinked and laughed.
Easier, more relaxed, more like a happy smile.
I wrinkled.
Instead of eating dumplings, he went to the mall alone.
He went to the mother-and-child area, asked the buyer carefully and patiently, bought some baby supplies and went downstairs to aunty to buy a lot of roses.
The aunty smiles when she pays.
“Your girlfriend loves to come here and buy flowers. By the way, it’s been a while since I saw her. Where’d she go? I’m sorry.
She just stood still for a while, “She went on a business trip. I’m sorry.
Aunt Nod, “The flowers aren’t so fresh at night, you come tomorrow, I’ll give them to you.”
“No auntie. “I’m going on a business trip tonight.” I’m sorry.
Aunty, hold your lips, “I know, miss your girlfriend. I’m sorry.
“Hmm. “I miss her. I’m sorry.
“Really, really miss her. I’m sorry.
Returning home, Jiangzhi was sitting at the table, eating the last dumplings in peace and drinking the soup clean.
He then took a bath, changed his clothes to clean, placed roses and baby supplies on the bed and looked at them for a while.
After all this, he took out a fruit knife from his drawer and a bottle of sleeping pills that he did not know when to put it here.
He turned on the sleeping pills, poured them all out and picked them in his mouth.
I was shaking and staring at him.
The indescribable agitation is raging in the chest with an inch of the skin of the bones, and gradually overwhelms the body.
He tried to kill himself.
And when he took a fruit knife against his wrist, I screamed,
“Why?”
Tink, the fruit knife fell on the floor.
“And Anne…”
Blood beads continue to flow out of his wrists, and the smell of blood spreads.
“As you know, when you die, you see who you want to see. I’m sorry.
“Ann, I miss you…”
I’m very restrained, I’m very cold, and I don’t want to see you at all. I’m sorry.
He stood up with some difficulty, and he took the rose and the dress of the baby that he was wearing, and he took a smile out of his lips.
“This is a gift for you and the children. I’m sorry.
His fingers were groaning in those two clothes, and he was not very comfortable with half his head down.
“I don’t know if it’s a daughter or a son, so I bought both. I’m sorry.
I looked at him cold, “We don’t need it. I’m sorry.
He’s a little stiff, and he’s still looking low, “I know you’re still mad at me. I shouldn’t have fought with you that day. I’m sorry.
“It’s just that when I was young, I loved you. I’m sorry.
“It’s really always been you. I’m sorry.
“He said that those who fail must pay, so I came with you. I’m sorry.
“Ann, I was wrong. Forgive me. I’m sorry.
Every word he says, my heart is as pierced by a needle, and all the more so, the nervousness is completely broken at this moment.
I took a lot of breath and suddenly laughed, “Do you know what the last thing I saw when I was in a car accident? I’m sorry.
The river rises.
I looked him in the eye, and I said, “I saw Chen Yui Weibo. I’m sorry.
It’s so white.
“I saw how you looked after her in the hospital, how you held her hand while she was afraid of needles, how you carefully peeled shrimp for her, how you saw her test you with a kiss, and how you complimented her with microblogging. I’m sorry.
“I died with hate for you. I’m sorry.
“So, Jiang-ray, how dare you let me forgive you. I’m sorry.
The whole face lost blood.
And he touched his lips but could not speak, and there was deep sorrow and regret in his eyes.
Is that painful?
Not enough.
I pulled a very pale smile, and I looked up and I said, “How’s the dumplings with Chan on your birthday?” I’m sorry.
“How do you know?”
His pupils were raised and seemed to be aware of something, and there was a great deal of fear in his eyes.
And We looked in his eyes, and the more he smiled,
‘Cause these days my soul never leaves. It’s not like you’re dying. I’m sorry.
“But I’ve been watching you. I’m sorry.
It was as if the river had been frozen, as if it had been covered with a strong, incomprehensible, deep despair, his lips shivering in a violent state, and his eyes almost bleeding.
“I watched you kiss without a man on the couch I bought, and I watched you eat my celery dumplings, and I watched you tell her our secret, and you used the game I sent you, and you chose her again and again between me and her. I’m sorry.
“I die with my children in pain and despair, and you do not know anything. You hold Chen Yao and plan to break up with me and stay with her. I’m sorry.
And We have lifted all of this in one word, as though it were strangling in our hearts, and their eyes were sorely swollen, and they were blurry.
“So, Jiang-ray, because you’re aware of your heart now, you’re going to kill yourself with hypocrisy to prove what you’re talking about? Why? I’m sorry.
The whole body has been crumbling around its head, with empty eyes, and there are real blood tears in its eyes.
The warm blood follows his nostrils, flowing down his jaws, dripping on the clothes that the two babies were wearing, red red, so hot and desperate.
It’s like he’s suddenly coming back to his eyes, and he’s staring at these two clothes, and his voice is dry and stiff, “The clothes are dirty…”
“The clothes are dirty. I’m sorry.
He tried to wipe, and the blood on his wrist fell on his clothes, and his whole body stood still, shuddered, desperate and sad, and looked up at me, “Ann, the clothes for the baby are dirty…”
I looked at him, and his heart was strangling with a big hand, and it was suffocating and closed my eyes.
“You don’t deserve to kill yourself, you don’t deserve to be with us. I’m sorry.
“You must live and live forever in endless pain. I’m sorry.
The room is so quiet.
Jiangzhi was quiet enough to hear his breath.
I don’t know how long it took him to whisper, “Okay. I’m sorry.
It’s good to hear him. It’s like there’s an invisible shackle going away. My soul is suddenly light.
At the end of consciousness, I seem to have seen the river draw 120.
He took a deep look at me.
“I’ve transferred all my shares to Ho, and I’ll donate the rest of my money to the orphanage, Ann, and I’ll live with nothing for a long time and spend my life atonement.” I’m sorry.
I finally closed my eyes and was ready to go to a new world.
I hope.
In the next life, I can have loving parents, a husband who loves me, respects each other, and beautiful and lovely children.
But don’t let me see Jiang-ray again.
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I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
