After
breaking up for many years, I met my ex-boyfriend at a class reunion.
The monitor asked him why he decided to return home after seven years.
He chuckled and said, “Come back and ask for a debt.”
People joked that they were afraid of asking for love debt, and they turned their eyes to me one after another.
My hand under the table tightened, remembering that when I broke up with him, he said he hated
me with red eyes. I agreed to go to the reunion after
making sure that the person would not appear.
But shouldn’t the indifferent man in the elevator still be abroad at the moment?
I have rehearsed the scene of meeting again countless times in my dream. What kind of expression
to say the first words of reunion after a long separation.
But the first time I saw him, I felt a dull pain in my heart, and there was only one word in my mind:
escape. As I stepped back into the elevator, I turned around and walked to the door of the hotel lobby, taking out
my cell phone to tell my friends that I would not go up if I had to work overtime.
“Summer cotton.” There was no joy or anger in the voice behind him.
In the past, he would call me “Mian Mian” before each kiss. When
I made it impossible to read, he pretended to be angry and called me “Xia Xiaomian.”.
He would
call me “Xia Mian” with a straight face when his eyes were red, but he still had to stick to the bottom line.
But it won’t be like this, as if calling a stranger.
I turned and locked eyes with the man in the elevator.
He pressed the door button of the elevator with one hand and looked at me quietly.
In the end, I lost the battle, put my phone back in my bag and got into the elevator. Silence
all the way.
Until my mind went blank and I followed him to the door of the box. The laughter
inside stopped abruptly, and the expressions on everyone’s faces were brilliant.
After all, they all witnessed our high-profile beginning and awkward ending of love.
The squad leader was the first to react, laughing to smooth things over. “Pei Fei and Hsia Mian, you two are late
. You’ll have to be punished later.” As he spoke, he pulled Pei Fei to the seat next to him.
The place was alive again, and no one asked why we were all there at the same time.
Yes, everyone is a social person now.
I sat next to my good friend Cheng Cheng, who winked at me crazily by picking up food for me.
I shook my head.
Pei Fei used to be the man of the hour in the school. He had an ascetic face and good academic performance
. He hooked up a lot of little girls and rushed forward, including me.
It’s just that I finally picked the flower of Kaolin.
His appearance undoubtedly became the focus of the gathering.
The monitor asked him why he decided to return home after seven years and whether he would go or not.
He chuckled and said, “I’ve come back to ask for a debt. I’m not leaving.”
People joked that they were afraid of asking for love debt, and they turned their eyes to me one after another.
He was noncommittal.
I tightened my hand under the table, did not look at him, and did not speak.
The Communist Youth League secretary suddenly told me, “Hsia Mian has been a different person since she graduated. I haven’t seen her for a few years
. She’s a mature and stable lady. She’s no longer the child
she used to be.” I looked up and smiled, accidentally bumping into Pei Fei’s line of sight. There was something in
his eyes that I couldn’t read, which made me feel nervous.
Cheng Cheng saw that my face was not very good and changed the subject with a smile.
After that, I bowed my head and pretended to deal with the food on the plate carefully, avoiding the line of sight in the air
.
The reunion of classmates after seven years ended with a group photo.
Cheng Cheng sat in the car of her boyfriend who came to pick her up and looked at me worriedly.
I declined her offer to take me home and clicked on the taxi app.
Probably because it was Friday night, it showed that there were 149 people in line ahead. With a surge of irritability
in his heart, he took out a lady’s cigarette from his bag and prepared to go to the roadside to smoke one
.
But when he saw another smoker on the side of the road, he was stunned.
Pei Fei? Why hasn’t he left yet? We were stunned when we
saw the cigarettes in each other’s hands. He didn’t smoke
before, and I won’t. With a guilty conscience, I put the cigarette back in my bag and planned to leave.
And the next thing I know, he’s calling, “I’ll drive you.” Neither of us had a drink
tonight, but at the moment I resisted the urge to spend time with him.
“No, I’ve already called a taxi.”
He took a hard puff on his cigarette and put it out in the ashtray on the trash can. “Why do you hate my predecessor so much?” He
asked sarcastically.
Then his face sank, he grabbed my wrist, strode toward his car, put me in the passenger seat
, and slammed the door.
I hung my head, looked at the wrist pinched red, and almost shed tears.
He got into the car without saying a word, and there was only the sound of his heavy breathing in the stagnant air.
This is a sign of his anger.
In the past, when I made him angry, he would not speak like this, but I would always go up shamelessly
, turn into a human pendant, and chatter in his ear, “Pei classmate, Pei baby
, little Pei Pei, don’t be angry, OK?”
At this time, he would pull me off his body, stare at me for a while, then
rub me into his arms and say helplessly, “You.”
I’ll bury myself in his neck and snicker. Then we will have a long kiss.
But seven years later, there was only silence between us.
After a while, a word came in my ear: “I’m sorry.”. Still keeping my head down,
I tried to keep my voice steady. “It doesn’t matter.”.
Look, how polite we are now.
“I’ll take you back. It should be hard to get a taxi now.” “Think of it as the friendship of an old schoolmate,” he said in a more
conciliatory tone.
I leaned over and typed the address into the car’s navigation, then took out my phone to cancel the order and
fastened my seat belt. After
watching me operate all this, he drove the car out. It was so quiet in the
car that I wanted to say something casually, such as asking him how he had been these years
.
But on second thought, who am I to ask.
Just give up, nest in the seat, by looking out of the window, see his profile
projected on the window.
“Still afraid to drive?”
I turned my head sideways and looked at him with some surprise, wondering why he suddenly mentioned it. He stared ahead, as if asking casually, and waited patiently for me to answer.
I smiled bitterly. “Mmm.”
Because of an accident when I was a child, I had a psychological shadow on driving. When he was in
college, he wanted to take me with him to get a driver’s license, but I refused, saying I didn’t dare to
drive. Then he changed the subject and said, “I have you, Pei, and you
will be allowed to pick me up in the future.”
At that time, he smiled happily, “Well, when I have a car, the co-driver will be Hsia
‘s exclusive property.”
But then, we broke up before I got in his passenger seat. After
all these years, how many girls am I the first to sit in his passenger seat?
I laughed at myself in my heart, Xia Mian, Xia Mian, don’t be too greedy. The
abrupt ring of the incoming call pulled me out of my chaotic thoughts. When
I took out my cell phone from my bag and saw the name on the display screen, I looked at Pei Fei
subconsciously.
Then cut off the phone, send a WeChat to the caller: I’m almost home, you sleep first. At the top of
the dialog box, “The other party is typing” is displayed all the time. After a while, the interface
pops up: “I’m waiting for you.”
I sighed silently in my heart and did not reply again. “Boyfriend?” Pei Fei asked out of the blue.
I tried to find some marks on his face, but he seemed to be just asking.
“No.” After a pause
, I added, “I’m single.”
I expected him to take advantage of the opportunity to talk about his recent relationship, and even wanted to ask him, “What about you
?”.
But he didn’t say anything, and the shame came over him later.
For the rest of the journey, we didn’t speak again.
I’m not sure if he is angry.
Until he sent me to the gate of the community, I got out of the car and thanked him, but he didn’t even want to give me a look
and drove away directly.
I’m sure he’s angry, but what is he angry about?
Opening the door, the man sitting on the sofa stood up on crutches.
By bending down to change my shoes, I dodged his gaze. “Didn’t I let you sleep first?”
“Have you seen Pei Fei?” The tone is gloomy, and there is a sense of wind and rain.
I closed the shoe cabinet irritably, straightened up and looked at him. He softened his expression, shook his cell phone and explained, “Cheng Cheng has posted a group photo in his moments
.” The
tension relaxed, and I walked around him to the bedroom, saying feebly, “I
didn’t know he was going to be there.”
He suddenly grabbed me by the wrist with emotion. “Did he send you back?”? Did he return to China
to get back together with you? Mian Mian, you promised me and my parents that you would not be with him
! You know I have something for you.
“Brother!” I was crying, afraid to interrupt what he was about to say, and begging
. “I’m not your brother. We’re not related by blood
,”
he murmured.
I put my fingernails into my palms and tried to suppress the trembling. “Brother, I’m tired, and you should go to bed early
.”
Say that finish, no longer look at the reaction of the people behind him, into the room locked the bedroom door.
Leaning against the door, listening to the people in the living room, he went back to his room on crutches. The crash of
the crutches on the floor reminded me again and again who I owed.
On Monday, I was late for work for a long time.
As soon as I got to the workstation and lay down, before I could catch my breath, the big leader came over and knocked on my desk. “Group Leader Xia, this is the new Director Pei. You can report directly to him in the future.”
Director Pei? My heart is excited. I don’t think so. With a professional smile on
his face, he got up to greet the new director.
But the moment I saw his face, my outstretched hand stopped in the air.
Blurt out: Can I resign?
Pei Fei frowned and looked at me. The scene was a little awkward for a moment.
I came to my senses and looked at the reaction of the people around me.
It can be expected that in the next small groups, I’m afraid there will be many versions of “I failed
to ascend, and I don’t agree with the new director.”.
The big leader’s face is a little uncomfortable, but he can’t say anything. “Group leader Hsia likes to joke
. You and Director Pei are still at the same university. Did you know each other before?”
“I don’t know!” I denied it with some anxiety.
Pei Fei’s face was completely black.
I had no choice but to stretch out my hand and say, “Hello, Director Pei. I’m Xia Mian. Please give me more
advice later.”
Pei Fei reluctantly shook hands with me and answered coldly, “Group Leader Xia.”. Before the big leader left, he told me to support the work of the new director and win the project of the Shanghai partner
as soon as possible.
I originally wanted the team member Miaomiao, a lively girl, to take Pei Fei to familiarize herself with the company environment
.
But the next second, Pei Fei asked me to take him by name on the grounds of work and business exchanges.
I had no choice but to bite the bullet and lead the Buddha to various departments for a stroll, accompanied by
explanations. Except for an occasional “um” or two,
he kept a cold face the whole time. When it was
over, he called me into his office and gave me a private lecture.
The main idea is that I hope I can be businesslike, and don’t resign and lose
my temper because of old things.
You can pretend you didn’t know each other before, as I wish.
Then he kicked me out of the office impatiently.
Ah, here. What can
I say. After work
in the evening, I called my friend Cheng Cheng and told him what happened today. After hearing this,
Cheng Cheng guessed on the other end of the phone, “Mian Mian, did Pei Fei go to your
company on purpose?”? What a coincidence. First it was a reunion, and now it’s the same company.
The big leader said that he hired Pei Fei from abroad with a high salary. Besides, after we broke up
, we never contacted each other again, and he. He should not be happy to see me. It’s really
just a coincidence. I pretended to be relaxed. There was a moment of silence
on the phone.
After a while, Cheng Cheng said cautiously, “Mian Mian, so why
did you two break up?”? Everyone was surprised
when things suddenly broke down when everything was fine.
Yeah. Why did you break up.
I took a deep breath. “It’s all over.” After
a pause, he asked, “Cheng Cheng, don’t tell
my brother about Pei Fei working in our company.”
…… More than
a week has passed. The relationship between Pei Fei and
me was not as awkward as expected.
Because the work is too busy.
The Shanghai partner is reluctant to sign a new contract with us. For this reason, we had an internal meeting, and we had several versions of the plan, which were called back by the other side for various reasons
.
Today, the whole team has to work overtime to re-plan plan. The
meeting is in the back, and everyone’s brain is about to explode.
Pei Fei said he would go out to smoke a cigarette to sober up, and Miaomiao went to help everyone get takeout.
When she came back, she had a bag of peaches in her hand, saying that a colleague brought them from his hometown and
gave them to everyone to taste. When
she handed peaches to Pei Fei’s seat, I said, “Director
Pei is allergic to peaches.”
The meeting room was eerily quiet.
Everyone turned to look at me, and Miaomiao asked directly, “Sister Mian Mian,
how do you know that Director Pei is allergic to peach hair?”
What is more terrible is that the man who had gone out to smoke did not know when to come back.
Pei Fei leaned lazily against the door of the meeting room, staring at me with a half-smile. His tone was ambiguous
. “Yes, how did Group Leader Xia know I was allergic to peach hair?”
Under the gaze of the crowd, the heat spread from the ears to the whole body. Of course
I know he’s allergic to peach hair.
He loves to eat peaches, but he is allergic to peach hair, and when he meets a little, he will itch. When we were together, every time I washed the peaches and peeled them for
him.
Sometimes I would pretend to be melancholy, “Pei, what would you do if you left me?”
At such times, he would put his forehead against my shoulder, rubbing against it and softening his voice.
“So, don’t ever leave me, Xia.”
Until I couldn’t help laughing, and he would lean over and give me a peach kiss.
But now, in the face of people’s doubts, I can’t open my mouth.
Fortunately, however, Pei Fei soon became serious and turned the topic to his work. “I
just made a phone call with my partner in Shanghai. Tomorrow, Group Leader Xia and I will go to Shanghai
on a business trip and talk to them face to face.”
“Huh?” My eyes widened and my whole body showed resistance.
“Group leader Xia has been following up this project for the longest time, and he knows the project and the partners best.
Do you have any questions about going with me?” Pei Fei looked straight at me in a completely businesslike
tone.
No.. That’s all right I lost my arrogance in an instant.
We, alone, go to Shanghai. It’s a big
problem!
4. Sitting on the high-speed rail to Shanghai, the client regretted it.
That means I have to spend more than four hours with Pei Fei.
Last night, after announcing the business trip, he announced the end of the meeting and stared at me to book tickets.
I was going to book a flight, but he insisted that he was airsick.
Director Pei, when I was in college, I remember you always flew home on holidays.
Besides, your international flight has passed, and you will be dizzy for more than two hours?
But dare I refute it?
I wouldn’t dare.
So, at this moment, on the high-speed rail, next to an elite man in a suit and leather shoes who closed his eyes and rested,
sat a woman with a ferocious face playing mobile games.
That woman is me.
I am playing this game called “Monument Valley 2”, a puzzle game, the painting style is very
good.
The reason why the face is ferocious, because I am stuck in a checkpoint, has been almost half an hour
, life and death can not pass.
Just as my patience was about to run out, my ears warmed up, and a sentence came from Youyou, “There’s
one more rotation of the geometric layout, and the path will be connected.” No, you just talk. Why are you so close.
And didn’t your mother tell you not to watch people playing games.
I turned around and looked at him angrily. I threw the phone into his hand. “You helped me
pass.”
Seeing his face stupefied, I suddenly realized that our relationship
was no longer the same as before. I
used to be like this when I played games. I still loved to play. If I couldn’t beat others, I would call him. If I couldn’t pass a
certain checkpoint, I would call him.
He doesn’t like to play games, but he is very good at playing games casually. I sum it up as a talent type.
At that time, “Monument Valley” just came out, I was fascinated, set a flag, do not
go out of the dormitory.
But in the last stage, I was stuck for a whole night, and I was wronged to send him a voice message for
comfort.
But he didn’t reply to me for a long time.
Just as I was thinking that he was brewing with other leprechauns at the moment, and was about to take the final
step.
He replied to me, “Come down.”
I didn’t react at first, but the next second I shot out of the dormitory with a giggle and ran downstairs
. I saw him waiting under the street lamp in front of the dormitory building.
Although I thought my idea was very naive,
at that moment, I really felt that he was the hero who stepped on the colorful clouds to pick me up.
Ignoring the surprised eyes of others, I shouted and rushed into his arms, asking knowingly, “What are you
doing here?”
Then
he took me to play games under the street lamp. The last pass was passed in
two or three times.
I looked up at him with my eyes shining and my face adoring.
He glanced at me and cleared his throat. “First time, regular operation.”
I love his Versailles spirit.
Capricorn’s strong mentality, I would like to give him on the spot.
But now, on the high-speed rail, I don’t have the idea of him.
Instead, he said “sorry” and scrambled to get his cell phone back, slanting
his head for a second and pretending to be asleep.
Enduring the burning sight on the left, which was hard to ignore, I actually fell asleep. When I woke up again, I was pushed awake by him. I
was really in a daze, so when I opened my eyes and saw him, I thought I was still in a dream, and I said softly to him
, “What are you doing? I’m sleepy.”
But he didn’t come and hug me like he did in his dream.
I suddenly came to my senses and stumbled. Have you arrived at the station?
He stared at me for a long time, until we were the only two left in the carriage, and then he got up and went out
.
I followed him, chagrined. There is a strange atmosphere between
me and him. We decided to go to the hotel to check in
before meeting our partner.
But when he arrived at the hotel to choose a room, Pei Fei made a strange request.
Check-in is naturally done by my subordinates.
Pei Fei is busy typing on his mobile phone. He should be communicating with his partner.
According to the company’s travel standards, the room type of the director is better than that of the group
leader.
The rooms are of different standards and on different floors.
So when the front desk confirmed to me that one room was on the 12th floor and one on the 7th floor, I didn’t feel anything wrong.
Instead, Pei Fei suddenly came over and asked to change his room to the opposite side of my room.
I whispered, “Director Pei, according to the company’s regulations, your room standard is better than mine, so you don’t have to go out of your way..” Before
I could finish, he interrupted me in a businesslike tone, saying, “Group leader Xia thinks too much. The same floor is convenient for communication and revision of the plan, saving time.”. And I couldn’t spend more money on the company to upgrade to Xia’s room type, so I had to lower my room type standard to make do with it.
Hiss, there is connotation to.
I took the room card from the front desk and went upstairs with Pei Fei.
The mobile phone comes the news vibration, the WeChat which Cheng Cheng sends, inside is a link.
Click is a social news, but also on the micro-blog hot search, said a girl went on a business trip to other places, when staying in a hotel, was forcibly dragged after being followed by a strange man. Had it not been for the female customers in the next room who heard the girl’s call for help and came forward to rescue her, the girl would not have known where she would be dragged.
[Cheng]: Mian Mian, look at the news just pushed. It’s so terrible. I remember that you always have to go on business trips to other places in your work, so you must pay attention to safety later!
[Me]: I’m on a business trip in Shanghai now, and I just arrived at the hotel. Wry smile.jpg [Cheng]: Huh? Are there any other colleagues together?
I looked up at Pei Fei in front of me and typed slowly.
[Me]: He.. Also in.
[Cheng]: No.. Just you and him, right?
[Me]: Yeah.
[Cheng]:!!!! What’s the matter with you two? Is this rhythm
going to be..
Then the next second, it showed that she had withdrawn the message.
[Cheng]: Pay attention to safety anyway. By the way, when you were in college, you always wanted to
go to Disney. It’s tomorrow Saturday. Why don’t you take this opportunity to have a good time and
relax. Hey hey, by the way, help me buy the new peripheral ~
[Me]: I think the last sentence is your real intention.
[Cheng]: Oh, Mian Mian is the best. When you return to Beijing, I will invite you to eat hot pot, order your favorite
small crisp meat, and order two plates!
I was amused, and for the sake of the little crisp meat, I replied, “I know.”.
Put away the mobile phone, only to find that the elevator did not know when to stop.
Pei Fei stood outside the elevator, pressing the door button and waiting for me quietly. At that moment, I wanted to ask him if he had seen the news, so he decided to change rooms temporarily
.
But he felt that the speculation itself was very self-sentimental.
Finally I just said “sorry” and hurried out of the elevator.
The hallways are thickly carpeted, and there is almost no sound when stepping on them.
“Who were you talking to just now? You laughed so happily at the end.” When he reached the door of the room, Pei
Fei slowed down and suddenly opened his mouth.
“Huh?”? Oh, it’s Cheng Cheng. I took out my room card and swiped it into the room.
But the man behind him also came in.
“Pei, Director Pei, you, your room is on the opposite side.” I pointed out the door
rather flustered.
Pei Fei looked at me with some disgust. “What are you thinking about? The partner has made a new demand at the last minute
. Let’s hurry up and improve the plan.”. Then I’ll go back to my room and put my
luggage away.
With that, he walked around me to the house.
If there is a crack in the ground at this moment, I will drill into it.
I moved slowly into the room with a red face and a dead heart. But they already took out their computers and went to work in a second. “Are you a snail?
Come here quickly. This place needs to be changed again.”
Pei Fei is a person who is determined to do one thing and will certainly do it well. He has
the arrogance and persistence of God’s favored son. For the
next few hours, there was only the sound of keyboard tapping in the room, occasionally mixed
with the whispered conversation between the two men.
When Pei Fei answered the phone, his face was not very good.
“They changed the time and said they would have dinner in the evening.”
I knew it, so I called the front desk of the hotel and asked them to help me buy some antialcoholic drugs
.
Pei Fei looked at me with some puzzlement.
I sighed. “You’ll see in the evening.”
Sure enough, at the dinner party in the evening, the other party began to persuade him to drink as soon as he came up, without mentioning the matter of cooperation
at all.
Pei Fei wanted to show the new version of the plan to the other party several times.
They were all pushed back by the other side. “General Manager Pei, let’s eat first. After dinner, let’s talk slowly
.”
Gradually, Pei Fei’s face cooled down. I hurried out to smooth things over and raised my glass to toast.
Ignoring Pei Fei’s line of sight, I said a set of scene words in my mouth, trying to warm up the atmosphere
again.
After I drank the third glass of wine, Pei Fei found a reason to take me out of the box
temporarily and pulled my wrist all the way to the small balcony at the end of the corridor. Angrily,
he asked in a low voice, “What are you doing?”? They’ve made it clear that they don’t want to
talk about it.
“Maybe you didn’t know much about it when you were abroad, but business cooperation
at home is mostly like this. It’s almost impossible to talk about it without a meal or a drink.”
So, you also agree with this so-called wine table culture. In the previous project, you also
talked about it through drinking at the wine table? Hsia Mian, didn’t you hate these hypocritical
tricks the most before? How can you become like this now?
His tone was too cold and aggressive.
My eyes are sour and my heart is gradually silent.
Slowly, he looked up at him and said in a dumb voice, “I don’t agree with the culture of the wine table, and I even
hate it very much, but this is how this circle plays, and this is part of the job.”.
You have your pride, but I’m just a worker trying to make a living. Am I wrong? There was only a whirring river breeze between
us, and neither of us spoke again.
After a while, Pei Fei said softly, “Go back.” I followed him and went back to the box.
As soon as he entered the door, Pei Fei smiled and said he was sorry, saying that it was just a matter of the company, so
we went out to deal with it temporarily.
Then he picked up the glass on the table and drank it directly to make amends.
Next, the two sides exchanged cups on the wine table and talked happily.
I always knew that as long as Pei Fei wanted to do something, he would do it well.
Just, the other side toasts my wine, was blocked by Pei Fei in the past, drank for me. After
eating and drinking, the other party finally looked at our plan and said that there was no problem and
that the contract process could start next week.
This project is here, even if it is done, Pei Fei and I looked at each other, secretly relieved
. Pei Fei drank a lot of wine
tonight, but he looked very sober, and when he finally negotiated
with his partners, his logical expression was very clear. I
thought he wasn’t drunk, and I was surprised at his capacity for liquor.
But as soon as the partner left, his drunkenness gradually came up, and his eyes were blurred.
I took out the antialcoholic medicine prepared in advance from my bag, let him drink it with mineral water, and
then took a taxi back to the hotel. The wind blew off some alcohol
on the road. After he got off the car, his steps were steady. I saw him walk straight into the elevator.
Standing at the door of the room, I took out my cell phone and asked him what time he would book the high-speed rail ticket tomorrow, and I was ready to book it for him now.
He leaned against the corridor wall and said lazily, “It’s better to go back in the morning to finish the work. What time do you want to come back?”
That.. I have to stay another day tomorrow, so I won’t go back to Beijing with Director Pei. I said with some embarrassment.
He straightened up and stared at me. “Why do you want to stay another day? Isn’t the project already finished?”
I smiled shyly. “Something personal.”
A personal matter? Who are you going to see? He took a few steps towards me, faintly emitting low pressure.
I don’t know if it was because of my old habits, or because I had been drinking, and I was subconsciously afraid. “I was just planning to go to Disney, and Cheng Cheng asked me to help her buy accessories.”
When he heard this, he relaxed and said, “I’ve never been to Disney, and I really want to go there.”
“If Director Pei has time later, he can find friends to play with him.” With an embarrassed but polite smile, I showed him tomorrow’s train schedule on the screen of my mobile phone. “So, what time is the high-speed rail for you?” But instead of answering my question, he stared at me and said softly,
“I have plenty of time tomorrow, but I just returned to China and I don’t have any friends.”
Help! Why do I have the illusion that he is acting like a spoiled child for comfort.
That.. Will Director Pei go to Disneyland with me tomorrow? I think I
should be crazy to invite him.
“Yes!” His eyes lit up immediately.
I ..
It wasn’t until we went back to our rooms that I brushed my teeth and washed, wondering whether he was drunk
or not.
The next morning, as soon as I opened the door, Pei Fei came out of the opposite room.
We looked at each other and felt something strange, but we couldn’t say.
Went down to the front desk to get a room, had breakfast, and took a taxi to Disney.
When I got to the gate of the park and watched people coming and going, I finally understood
why I felt strange in the morning. I
‘ve never seen anyone go to Disney in business clothes like us.
So we took a taxi to the nearest shopping mall, and on the recommendation of the shopping guide, we changed
into casual clothes. When Pei Fei came out of the fitting room, my eyes lit up.
I understand what the handsome white T “tearing man” on the Internet refers to. In
a trance, I seem to see his appearance in college again.
When Pei Fei saw me staring at him, he felt uncomfortable and touched his nose. “Don’t I look good dressed
like this?”
I came to my senses and said, “It’s very nice.”
After a lot of trouble, when we entered the park, there was a
long queue for almost every game.
Disneyland has a magical atmosphere that can make people forget the bad
things in reality for a while.
Here, everyone is a child.
We played the project I always wanted to play and went to take
pictures with my favorite Chichi Titi. During the
float parade, I shouted Qiqi’s name and even pulled Pei Fei’s arm
excitedly, asking him to shout with me.
So Qiqi will come and interact with us.
We laughed happily, as if the seven years of separation had never existed. In the evening, after buying the surroundings explained by Cheng Cheng, we walked slowly along the stream of people in the direction
of the castle, waiting to see the fireworks show. There were a lot of
people bumping around to find a good place to watch.
Originally, we were walking side by side, but gradually, Pei Fei walked diagonally behind me, half-embracing
me. When the
first fireworks burst in the sky, I looked up and let out an exclamation with the crowd.
Subconsciously backward half a step, so really crashed into the arms of Pei Fei. None of
us felt anything wrong, as if it should be so.
I watched the most beautiful fireworks show I had ever seen in my life in his arms. On the way
back to the hotel, I still pulled Pei Fei to talk about which projects were the most
interesting today and how amazing the fireworks were.
Pei Fei looked at me with a smile all the time and occasionally expressed his opinion.
Just like when we were in college, we walked around the playground hand in hand every night after dinner. I was still excitedly talking to him about Disney
until I got back to the hotel room floor
.
Standing in the corridor, I said good night to him and prepared to go back to my room to rest.
He suddenly grabbed me and asked, “Mian Mian, I’m very happy today. How about you?” “Very happy!” I said with a smile.
Then, then we.. He was hesitating about something. Only then did
I realize that there was something wrong with the atmosphere now.
The atmosphere is a little hot.
He was about to say something when the phone in my bag vibrated. When I
took it out, the screen showed that it was my brother.
I suddenly got cold and pressed the phone subconsciously.
But the next second, my brother sent a WeChat: “Mian Mian, my leg is very painful, now in the hospital
.”. I’m so scared. Is this leg going to fail completely?
I booked the fastest flight back to Beijing. Sitting in the waiting hall in the
early morning, I kept recalling the scene in the hotel in my mind. When I
saw my brother WeChat, my hands were shaking and I was in a complete panic. “Sorry, I have something to do at
home. I have to fly back to Beijing tonight.” “I’ll go back with you, Mian Mian,”
said Pei Fei soothingly.
But what did I say. I said, “No, Director Pei, have a good rest.”
He called me “Mian Mian,” and I called him “Director Pei.”.
Pei Fei seemed to suddenly lose his strength and let go of my hand.
I didn’t even see the expression on his face, so I hurried back to my room to pack my
luggage.
Seven years later, I left him again. At 4
A. m., I rushed to the hospital and asked the nurse on duty about my brother
.
The nurse said that after the examination of my brother’s leg, no recurrence symptoms were found, and no new problems were found
.
But because my brother has been calmly crying pain, said to be hospitalized, the doctor had no choice but to give
him some painkillers.
My brother lied to me.
At that moment, I was not angry, I was not angry, I just felt tired.
Standing at the door of the ward, I suddenly wanted to run away.
But I pushed the door and went in, and the people inside did not sleep. When
my brother saw me, his face showed joy. “Mian Mian, you’re here.” I stood one meter away from the hospital bed and said wearily, “Brother, I went to ask the nurse about your
condition.” There
was an unnatural look in his eyes. He stopped smiling and looked straight at me. “So
?”
“So why lie to me?”
He actually laughed, “Mian Mian, you lied to me first.”. Did Pei Fei go to work
in your company? Are you two the only ones going to Shanghai on business this time?
Looking at the shock on my face, he said coldly with a gloomy face, “Mian Mian, have you
forgotten that I have your colleague’s WeChat?”. Since you came back from the last reunion, you have been acting a little
abnormal. You are in a daze from time to time and work overtime frequently. This time you went to Shanghai on a business trip, I asked your colleagues
casually, and I knew who your colleagues were. But that doesn’t matter. It’s enough for you
to come back.
He patted his leg, as if casually, as if emphasizing, “Mian Mian, you are mine.”
This sentence is like a magic spell. After
that night, I got into a one-sided cold war with my brother.
And Pei Fei and I, when we meet in the company, will have normal work exchanges.
But we both chose not to talk about what happened in Shanghai that night.
It’s like we didn’t actually go to Disney together.
And without that long-lost hug. Once again, we returned to the most familiar relationship of strangers.
……
On Saturday afternoon, Cheng Cheng said he would come to my house to get Disney’s surroundings, and then go to eat
hot pot together in the evening. As soon as
she entered the room, she shouted that she was wearing too much clothes.
Cheng Cheng always has a kind of magic, she is like a small sun, let the people around feel
warm and lively.
I smiled and asked her to go to my bedroom closet and find a cool T-shirt to change into. “Why haven’t you seen your brother?”
She asks as she rushes to the bedroom.
I sat on the sofa in the living room, sorting out the accessories I bought for her, and returned to the bedroom, saying, “He
has a friend who came to Beijing and won’t be back for the weekend.”
But Cheng Cheng’s clothes have been changed for a long time, and they haven’t come out for almost 10 minutes.
I walked doubtfully to the bedroom, pushed open the door, and saw Cheng Cheng sitting motionless on the ground
with his head down. At
her feet lay a T-shirt from our university, holding a piece of paper in her hand.
That’s my diagnosis of moderate depression.
Alas, I sighed in my heart and walked over to her, joking, “It’s a pity that we Cheng Cheng
don’t want to be detectives. You can turn out the T-shirt at the bottom of the wardrobe.”. But the hotpot we ate today didn’t have a discount for college students.
Cheng Cheng raised his head and looked at me with tears on his face. He burst into tears. “Mian
Mian, when did you get sick? Why didn’t you tell me?”
It seems that today’s hot pot and small crisp meat can not be eaten.
I sat down next to her, held her in my arms, patted her on the back, and waited
for her to calm down. The sobs in
my arms gradually ceased. I stared at the medical certificate in Cheng Cheng’s hand for a long
time. Then I touched her head and whispered, “Cheng Cheng, let me tell you one of
my secrets.”
I’m an orphan, an abandoned baby, to be exact.
My adoptive parents drove from Chengdu to Liangshan for a self-driving tour. While climbing a mountain, they picked
me up.
Perhaps because I was so hungry, I cried so much that they found me deep in the grass
. When I
found me, I had no note, no token, so I was wrapped in a ragged
dress and thrown in the grass.
They looked at me so pitifully, and at that time my brother had always wanted a sister
, and at the first sight of me, he rushed to embrace me. So my foster parents decided to keep me.
My adoptive father asked someone to put me into their registered permanent residence.
In this way, I had my first home.
If it wasn’t for them, I would have died at that time.
And I didn’t know this until I was in the second grade of primary school.
The cause was that I quarreled with a little boy in my class. As a child, what I said was not important
.
He should have learned from his parents’ daily gossip that I was not born to my parents.
So when I couldn’t fight, I was so angry that I was called a wild child that no one wanted, and my
parents picked me up.
At that time, I didn’t know the truth. Of course, I couldn’t stand what he said about me, so I rushed to fight directly
.
In the end, both of us were called parents.
I remember when my parents and brother came. When I
learned what the child had said, my parents’ eyes turned red, and my brother
rushed to beat him.
In the end, both sides apologized anyway. My parents told me the truth that night.
They said that although I was not my own, we
were a family from the day we entered our household registration.
My brother shook his fist and said that if anyone dared to bully me and talk
nonsense in the future, he would beat him. When I
first learned the truth, I was a little confused, but I soon got used to it.
Because I can feel that I really get their full love.
In this way, I grew up happily all the way to the second day of junior high school.
That summer vacation, there was an accident.
At that time, my brother had just got his driver’s license and was not very skilled.
So Dad has been worried about giving him the car to drive alone.
One day, while my father was taking a nap, he secretly took the car keys and said he would take me for a ride
.
I followed him out of the door excitedly, and it was really pleasant all the way, shouting that I would
learn to drive in the future. When we
got to a quiet road, my brother saw how happy I was and suddenly said, “Mian
Mian, I’ll teach you how to drive now.”
I was a little scared at first and didn’t dare to say yes. My brother said, “It’s all right. There won’t be any cars passing by on this road. Besides, he’s still
here.”.
And then I was really in the driver’s seat.
And then.
A car suddenly rushed from the intersection, and it was heading for the front of my car.
But my brother finally grabbed the steering wheel and blocked it for me.
My brother’s right leg was left with sequelae after the accident, and he had to rely on crutches
all his life.
I knelt in front of my brother’s hospital bed, crying out of breath, thinking that I had hurt him.
My elder brother touched my head and said with a smile, “My elder brother should protect my younger sister
.” Once again,
I was saved by their love.
Later, I went to Beijing to go to college and met Pei Fei. I had a crush on him and was with him
.
At that time, I felt that I was the luckiest person, with family love and lover love.
Although my brother has forbidden me to fall in love since I was in high school. He
even sent me to the university to report and emphasized it before he left. But I thought he was just an overprotective brother to his sister.
He thought that when his relationship with Pei Fei was more stable, he would go home and tell them. The days
with Pei Fei were the happiest time for me. In the same space
with him, even if we do our own things, I will feel very relieved.
We even planned our future and planned to work together in Beijing after graduation.
I will have a small home for me and Pei Fei, and I will go to the end
of my life with him.
So when I came home the Spring Festival my senior year, I announced my love affairs
and future plans on the New Year’s Eve dinner table, and happily showed them pictures of me and Pei Fei.
But they were eerily silent.
At that dinner table, my brother expressed his love for me. It is
not the brother’s love for his sister, but the man’s love for his woman.
He said he didn’t know when his feelings for me changed.
He said that he had already confessed to his parents, and my parents agreed to tell me when I graduated from
college.
He said I was his and I couldn’t be with other men.
At that moment, shock, fear, confusion and confusion came together. My body began to tremble uncontrollably, and I looked for help at my parents
who had not spoken all the way.
I hope they tell me that my brother is just joking with me.
But they didn’t.
My parents called me into the bedroom alone and talked to me for a long time. They
talked about their feelings when they picked me up for the first time, about the car accident, and about our
family’s relationship over the years.
Said they were shocked at first and disagreed.
But my brother let them beat and scold, kneeling on the ground and begging them.
Finally, my parents said evasively that this time their family was sorry for me.
“Their family”, “me”.
I was cut out of the category of family.
At that moment, I suddenly miss Pei Fei.
I cried and knelt on the ground and told my parents over and over again how good Pei Fei was and how much I liked
him. We would take care of my brother together.
I am grateful to my brother for saving me and giving me love.
But a brother is just a brother, and I know that very well. So I didn’t relent. The
negotiations reached an impasse, and finally my mother relented and said she would go to persuade my brother again.
My brother was silent and did not say anything. That night,
however
, he swallowed a handful of sleeping pills.
We don’t even know when he bought the medicine.
Fortunately, it was found in time and finally saved.
My brother is lying in the ward and has not yet regained consciousness.
My parents knelt outside the ward and begged me to break up with Pei Fei.
I don’t know what to do. I don’t understand how a good family can suddenly be like this
.
On New Year’s Eve, the hospital was quiet, and the sound of fireworks in the distant sky could be heard faintly. The cell phone in
my pocket vibrated. I knew it was Pei Fei. He said he would be the first
to say Happy New Year to me.
“Happy New Year, Mian Mian!” Pei Fei’s gentle and spoiled voice came from the other end of the phone.
I opened my mouth, unable to speak. Finally, under the pleading eyes of my parents, I said, “Pei Fei, let’s break up
.” On the night of
returning to school, Pei Fei squatted downstairs in the dormitory, and I went down to see him.
He was much more haggard, and his eyes were bloodshot, with humility and begging.
I’ve never seen him like this.
At that moment, I wanted to tell him that we would not break up.
But suddenly, in my mind, my brother woke up and saw my first words:
“Mian Mian, you owe me this.”
So I went to Pei Fei and put out the light in my favorite boy’s eyes.
He said he hated me. After
graduation, Pei Fei went to Melbourne, while I stayed in Beijing to work. After
I broke up with Pei Fei, I didn’t promise to be with my brother. I couldn’t do it.
We were careful to maintain a superficial balance.
I began to dream frequently. In the
dream, I was stuck in a swamp, struggling silently, trying to call for help.
There was another me, just standing by, watching coldly, without sorrow or joy. I seem to have lost my sense of many things. Repeating that dream
every night.
A year later, I was diagnosed with moderate depression.
Five years later, my parents died of illness.
Seven years later, I met Pei Fei again.
The setting sun fell on the bedroom floor through the floor-to-ceiling windows.
Cheng Cheng cried several times in the middle. Instead,
I was calm all the way, as if I were telling someone else’s story.
In the evening, Cheng Cheng stayed with me.
Lying on the bed, she grabbed my hand with red eyes and said over and over that she hoped I could live for
myself and be happy.
I coaxed her and whispered “yes.”.
…… The
new week is coming, and the contract with the Shanghai partner has been formally signed. As soon as
the big leader was happy, he waved his big hand and approved the League building fund for our department. The young people in the group voted enthusiastically to play the project.
Finally, I decided to play the go-kart with the highest number of votes.
Pei Fei looked at me worriedly and wanted to propose something else.
I smiled at him, indicating that I was okay.
A group of people came to the karting venue.
Pei Fei walked beside me and asked again as if he was worried. “Is it really all right
?”? You don’t have to play.
I put on my helmet and said to him with a smile, “Always try to break through.” You
can’t be afraid of hands and feet all your life because of a car accident.
I have to learn to change.
However, although my words were very beautiful, when I really sat on it and stepped on the accelerator to drive forward
, the car accident in the summer vacation of the second year of junior high school began to flash in my mind.
My hand on the steering wheel began to tremble slightly, and I wanted to vomit physiologically.
But I stubbornly continued to step on the accelerator and feel the excitement of speed.
When he crossed the next corner, he suddenly lost control and crashed heavily into the fence beside the runway.
Everyone rushed around and helped me out of the car. I smiled and said, “It’s all right
. Fortunately, the protective measures are in place and I’m not hurt.” Pei Fei’s go-kart was the farthest away from me, so when he ran over, he could only be
pushed aside by others. After
making sure that I was really not hurt, he walked out of the runway with a cold face. After
the kart incident, Pei Fei’s attitude towards me became very strange. It
‘s not cold, it’s not warm.
But he always peeked at me from time to time, and then when I looked at him, he took his eyes back. After work on
Friday, he stopped me and handed me a ticket
for Jay Chou’s concert.
I looked at him with some consternation. We’re the only ones left in the
office.
He seemed to have made up his mind, or he seemed to be waiting for a verdict. He looked straight into my
eyes and said softly, “I remember you like Jay Chou, too. Tomorrow night, I’ll wait for you.”
My memory was suddenly pulled back to the first time we went to see Jay Chou’s concert.
When I was a sophomore, Jay Chou came to Beijing to hold a concert.
I knew I was not lucky enough to get a ticket for Zhou Gongju’s popularity.
So I didn’t plan to grab tickets from the beginning, and I planned to see the
photos and videos posted on Weibo, even if I had seen them.
So when Pei Fei suddenly asked me if I wanted to go to Jay Chou’s concert together, I was a little scared.
First, at that time, I was still in the stage of secretly liking him, and I only knew that we liked the same singer when we chatted.
Second, I panicked. I was a person who had a bad idea about him. It was too ambiguous to go to a concert together.
However, I answered with a feeling of joy in my heart, “Yes, yes.” On the night of the
concert, when I saw my friend standing next to him, I realized that I thought too much.
It was a threesome concert, and I was a little short of interest in the first half, in sharp contrast to the people around me who were excited to sing along.
He talked a lot with his friends, and when he got up, he would sing along. He sings very well, which hits the bull’s eye of my voice control. For
most of the concert, I focused on my left ear because he was sitting on my left side.
It was not until the end of the classic fan song request session that I seemed to be aroused and sang along.
He asked me with some amusement, “How come it’s almost over, and you seem to have just realized that you’re watching a concert?”
I smiled sheepishly, thought about it, and leaned over to ask him, “If you were chosen, which song would you choose?” He blurted out, “The unspeakable secret.”
I thought at that time, I must grab the infield tickets in the future, wear the most conspicuous clothes,
shout the loudest, and let Jay Chou see me.
Then I ordered the song “Secret”, no matter whether he was beside
me or not at that time. At the end of the
concert, his friend said goodbye to us at the door. I talked with him
and walked slowly with the crowd in the direction of the subway.
Surrounded by people who had just listened to the concert and discussed excitedly, they were noisy and noisy.
I enjoyed the evening breeze at that moment, and enjoyed the distance
between us at that moment.
Because we couldn’t catch up with the entrance guard time of the dormitory, we decided to go to the movies all night. I can’t remember
exactly what movie I saw.
I was secretly watching him sitting next to me the whole time, thinking about something in my mind.
Until he suddenly leaned over and asked me in my ear, “Do you like me?” My
face turned red. I lowered my head and said, “How do you know
?”
He smiled happily, sat back down, and said quietly but clearly, “What a coincidence! I like you, too
.” And then we were together.
……
So, we both know what that concert tomorrow night means.
When I got home, my brother was still sitting in the living room waiting for me as usual. During
this period of time, I often went straight back to my room when I had a unilateral cold war with him.
But tonight, I walked over and sat on the couch across from him.
He looked at me with some surprise. “Mian Mian?”
I thought about it for a long time, and finally I got up the courage to say, “Brother, I’m going to see a concert
with Pei Fei tomorrow night.”
His face changed. “What if I say no?”
“Brother, you know, it’s no use now.” I’m really calm. I’m really calm.
Silence.
I waited and stood up to go back to my room.
He suddenly said, “If Pei Fei and I were in a car accident at the same time, you could only save one
person, and the other would die. Who would you save?”
I laughed helplessly. “Brother, this situation will not exist. Both of you are very important to
me.” He was a little paranoid and insisted on an answer. “You have to choose one.”
I took a deep breath and watched him say, “Save you, and die with him
.”
The next afternoon, I dug out the university T-shirt from the bottom of the wardrobe and changed it.
Then he carefully painted a student without makeup and went out on time.
At the gate of the Workers’ Stadium, I saw Pei Fei standing quietly in the crowd.
Coincidentally, he also wore our school’s T-shirt.
I snuck up behind him and leaned over to look at him with a smile on my face.
“What a coincidence, Pei.”
Hearing this name, he was stunned at first, and then he rubbed my
head angrily and laughingly, and said in a warm voice, “You.” On the contrary,
I felt a little embarrassed, so I took him by the hand and walked forward. “Check the ticket!” When I
entered the infield, I bumped into Pei Fei’s arm and said with deliberate exaggeration, “Pei is awesome
. Now I can buy an infield ticket.”
Pei Fei watched my performance with some helplessness, and eventually I took him aside. “Yes, isn’t
this to satisfy Xia’s wish to request a song?”
I smiled and looked down to find our seats. At the end of the song request, I was not selected.
But that’s okay.
I have realized the wish I want to realize most.
Also, the song I wanted has changed.
If there is a concert in the future, if I am lucky enough to be drawn.
Then I will order the song “Simple Love”. After the
concert, I followed Pei Fei back to his home.
The next day, we had a lazy Sunday.
In the evening, I wore his shirt and watched the sunset with him on the deck chair on the balcony.
I played with the buttons on his shirt and listened to him talk about what had happened to him abroad in the past few years
.
Gradually I got a little sleepy, but I still thought there was a question I didn’t ask, “So, why
did you decide to come back after seven years?”
He hugged me and looked down at my face.
Probably seeing that I was about to fall asleep in the next second, he decided to make a long story short: “I just feel that
life is so short, so try not to leave any regrets. If you have someone you want to see, just run and meet him.” After
listening, I changed to a more comfortable position in his arms and fell asleep completely. Before my consciousness disappeared, I was glad
in my heart that you were back. It’s a rare
sunny day. I don’t know which family in the
residential building is watching TV, and the sound is very loud. The voice
of the news broadcast on TV could be heard
far away: Seven years ago today, a passenger plane flying from Beijing to Melbourne encountered extreme bad weather during the flight
and crashed, killing
all the passengers and crew on board. To this day, many families of the victims still go to the scene of the crash to mourn
. The
heavy curtains were drawn tight and there was no light in the room. On
the bedside table, there was an empty sleeping pill bottle, with a few pills
scattered around it. The mobile phone lying quietly beside the
medicine bottle lights up and vibrates from time to time. Several messages popped up on the
screen one after another:
“Mian Mian, I’m Cheng Cheng. The monitor asked me to come and ask you whether you will come to the class reunion for the seventh anniversary
of graduation tomorrow night. He said you haven’t replied to his message.” “We haven’t seen each other for a long time since you returned to Chengdu to work after graduation. I usually
send you messages, but you don’t like to reply. I miss you very much.”
“I sent you the address of the party tomorrow night. You must come.”
……
If this is just a dream.
If I can only meet you again in my dream.
Then I’m willing to indulge in it.
Until death.
[Xia Mian Fanwai]
I saw the news that Pei Fei was going to go abroad in the class group. We haven’t spoken
since that night when he said he hated me. There were no classes in the second semester of my senior
year, which meant that I lost the only chance to see
him openly. Some
people are busy preparing to go abroad, some are busy interviewing for jobs, and some are busy breaking
up. I was going to stay in Beijing to work, but my brother didn’t agree.
They have already found me a job in the system in Chengdu.
So, I became the most idle one.
Every day is to keep opening Pei Fei’s micro-blog and circle of friends.
Trying to get even a little bit of his dynamics out of it.
But his social platform hasn’t been updated for a long time.
He didn’t even come to the class farewell dinner or the graduation ceremony. On
graduation day, my parents and brother came.
They watched me and Cheng Cheng take pictures, hug and say goodbye.
Then he took me to the airport and booked a flight back to Chengdu that night.
I pretended not to be aware of their eagerness and defensiveness to hide.
In fact, they worry too much. I won’t run away.
In the waiting hall, I took out my cell phone and refreshed Pei Fei’s social homepage
as usual.
This time, there is a new dynamic: “I’m leaving.”
The release time is one minute ago, and the positioning shows.. In the same terminal as me! My heart beat faster and I began to check the flight information.
Fortunately, there is only one flight from this terminal to Melbourne
after this time tonight.
I went on to check the boarding gate and calculate the time.
If I run, I can get back before my flight checks in.
I just want to say goodbye to Pei Fei face to face, that’s all.
I pretended to go to the bathroom and waited for two minutes before coming out, hoping to sneak out of sight of my parents along the stream of people for a while
.
But as soon as I came out, I saw my brother on crutches waiting at the entrance outside the bathroom.
I finally failed to find Pei Fei.
If I had known that after that night, we would have said goodbye forever.
Then I will try my best to give him a hug. I didn’t know that Pei Fei’s flight had an accident until I
received the news feed. I know every word in the
news, but I can’t read it together.
It says, everyone on board, no survivors. The number of class group messages is increasing.
I suddenly feel so sleepy. He
turned off his cell phone and went back to his room to sleep. In the
following days, I worked in the system according to my parents’ wishes.
My brother accompanied me to the first day of employment and added the WeChat of all my colleagues.
I work every day step by step-home, two points and one line activities.
Occasionally, on the way to and from work, when I see a plane flying in the sky, I will look up for
a while. It’s okay to work
during the day, but it’s harder at night.
I couldn’t sleep all night.
This is not the way to go. My parents took me to the hospital. I
didn’t expect to be diagnosed with depression.
My mother cried at once.
I asked my dad to take my mom out to calm down.
I told the doctor myself and calmly asked him what medicine he should take.
To be honest, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with me. Doctors like to exaggerate.
After that day, my mother cried when she saw me, and they didn’t dare to let me be
with my brother again. The
days rolled forward like this.
I gradually got better and even went to Shanghai Disneyland
alone with my brother’s permission.
But within five minutes of entering the park, I came out.
I always feel that something is missing. Five years after
graduation, my parents died of illness. On
their deathbed, they both said exactly the same thing as I did.
They said that after so many years, all the things that should be put down have been put down. Can I live a good life with my brother
in the future?
I didn’t answer directly. I just said I would take care of my brother.
Maybe it’s because after mom and dad left, I was the only one left for my brother.
His desire to control me became stronger and stronger.
As long as I was outside, I didn’t answer his phone and return his message in time. He would call my colleagues and friends.
Gradually, they were not very happy to ask me to go out to play together.
I tried to communicate with my brother.
But as soon as I started talking, he would suddenly start talking about his parents’ instructions, the car accident that year
, and his legs.
At this time, I can no longer open my mouth.
He only asked me if I blamed him when he was drunk for a few times.
Do I blame him?
To be honest, I don’t know who to blame.
It seems that everyone has done wrong, but it seems that no one has done wrong. Seven years after
graduation, the monitor suddenly said in the class group that he would hold the seventh anniversary reunion, and
proposed that if the university T-shirt had not been lost, he would try to wear the T-shirt.
Cheng Cheng jumped out and said, “Can beer bellies of the male students still be stuffed into the T-shirt?”? It made
everyone laugh, and the group became lively for a long time. Only then did
I realize that I hadn’t seen Cheng Cheng for a long time. I
‘m going to ask her WeChat after breakfast. If she goes, I’ll go. Remembering that the monitor had just said he wanted to wear a T-shirt, I went into the bedroom wardrobe to look for
it. Pulled
the T-shirt out of the deepest part of the wardrobe.
But he caught a glimpse of a line of small words in the corner of his coat:
“My Mian Mian, be happy.”
I was stunned. It was written by Pei Fei before.
At that time, I made fun of him, saying that when I washed the clothes, the handwriting would be washed out.
He said, “Just wear it once anyway, so don’t wash it.”
After thinking about it, he added, “Even if it’s washed off, it doesn’t matter. I will say in my heart every day
, ‘My Mian Mian, be happy.'”
My vision became blurred and my face itched. He wiped it
with his hand and took it down to see that it was tears.
I suddenly realized that Pei Fei was really gone and I would never have a chance to see him again.
Seven years ago, when I found out he was dead, I didn’t cry.
Seven years later, when I saw the handwriting he left behind, I broke down in tears. In
the past seven years, I have missed him all the time. I don’t know who is watching the TV news, and the sound is very loud.
It’s so noisy.
I closed the curtains and sat on the edge of the bed, staring at the medicine bottle on the bedside table for a
long time.
Finally, I unscrewed the cap.
Thought,
so be it.
(End)
□ Nanyi
