I handcuffed him myself when the mission was over.
He looked up and asked me.
“Have you ever loved me?”
I laughed, and I leaned on his face.
“None. I’m sorry.
“Eat your food, my dear. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
As a result, the next day, the man who gathered half of the city’s police force and ambushed him for six months.
It’s getting worse.
One.
Chen’s run away.
When I heard that, I didn’t even get my first degree clearance.
The vehicle that was transporting the prisoners to the eastern shelter was bombed, killing nine police officers and wounding one.
This man gathered half the city’s police force and ambushed a man for six months.
He didn’t even sit on the bench in jail, and he ran away.
The remains of the smoke on the ground have not yet been erased, and I look at the black marks and the tattoos.
Even worse.
Based on analysis by colleagues in the Bureau.
I was an undercover cop with him for two years.
Not only played with his feelings, but also stabbed him in the back of the most critical juncture.
By which he will be requited,
I will be his number one revenge.
Two.
“Sir, you don’t look happy. I’m sorry.
…no one’s first-class work will be happy.
During the twenty-seventh hour of Chen’s escape from prison, 15 drones, nearly half of the dog’s strength, and a full-line, cordon-blocked carpet search, have still not found his half trail.
The men left the following handwriting with the blood of the officers before leaving:
I’ll recover my rose.
I’ll take back my roses.
The rose means who…
A group of police officers in the conference room was looking at me.
“Even if you look at me like that. I’m sorry.
I shrugged my arms.
“I can only prove Chen’s love brain. I’m sorry.
Otherwise, he could not have asked me the stupid question of whether I had loved him.
Of course I’ve never been in love. I’m tired of working.
3
In the police car, my colleague Lee gave me the tablet.
“We traced Chan’s cell phone to Chen’s prison and used it at this location. I’m sorry.
I looked down and looked at the picture in the tablet.
“Yes, where you used to live together. I’m sorry.
After a relationship was established, I did live with Chen for a while.
And walk in the door, and look at the couple’s slippers as if everything had not changed.
It’s just ash in the ashtray in the middle of the tea table, obviously fresh.
“The test results of the smoker’s mouth have come out. Indeed, they are of Chen’s mother,
And Lee went into the bedroom and he laughed.
“You’ve got a lot of nerve to get in here in a few hours after you got out of jail. I’m sorry.
There’s a lot of police taking pictures and taking testimony, and I’m a little confused.
This is the first house I’ve ever lived in with Chen Bian, and he’s the first drug boss I’ve had an undercover contact with.
4
After graduation from the academy, I was assigned to work as an undercover near Chen Bian.
There’s no reason, because I look like a student, with the clearest eyes, but the best of the graduates of the same period.
At that time, Chen was not yet the leader of the largest drug trafficking organization in Washington.
He’s just a second in command, but he’s too young for us to notice.
If you want a pot, the best way is to bury it slowly.
I was hiding as a cashier in his little convenience store downstairs.
Every night at about 11:12, he goes downstairs to buy a pack of cigarettes.
He was blind and in a black assault suit.
When I first met him, I was surprised that he had a wonderful face, even though he was a young and well-known drug dealer.
The skin was almost white, and the five officials showed a slight indecency.
I talked to him for half a month in order not to panic.
I guess that means he buys cigarettes every day, so he smokes less.
He raised his brows, the lightness of his eyes on me, the softness of his voice.
Then I used the opportunity to talk to him every day.
In fact, after all these days, I always thought that the iron trees were going to be plattered by me, but Chen didn’t feel at all.
But fortunately, my comrades speeded me up.
It was a small blow to the chain of drug trafficking, and although it did not hurt the very foundation of that large tissue, it was sufficient to destroy some of its little claws.
Among the targets were the gangs in Chen Bian.
It was on purpose to let Chen Bian die so I could “save” him in that dump.
When he was found, he was covered in blood, and the red stains on his cold and white skin were almost transparent.
That’s it. I didn’t leave my guard when I saw you.
I acted with due diligence as a frightened convenience store clerk and took him back to my house after he told me not to go to the hospital.
After that, he lived at my house.
All of this was carefully arranged, with the location of his bedroom, the towels that I accidentally slipped out of the bathroom, and the physical contact that I had with the dressing.
I made myself lively and tried to make him laugh.
Make curry into the shape of a little bear, and make a nice bow.
The key is to be alone and to be alone in a room, and this man has endured for most of the month.
For countless nights, men stare at me with their dark and inexplicable eyes.
Although the captain has repeatedly warned me to stay calm, I wonder if I’ve been exposed on several occasions when I look at him with my chin.
Until one day, I went home a few times in a row because of the docking.
That day, the lights were off.
I went home to take off my shoes and tried to shout his name.
There was no response, and while I was touching the switch on the living room light, the back of the neck was lightly touched.
Between the electron pebbles, I had the urge to turn my back and throw the man over his shoulder.
Chen’s position is holding me in the dark.
My body is probably stiff, and every inch of a man’s breath falls on my earbone, and it’s the touch of a stranger, and every factor in me calls for resistance.
Actually, when I set foot on this road, I knew I had only one goal.
In the dark, I relax my body.
His kiss fell on the side of my neck, dazzling and nuanced.
I don’t know.
I’m going to play a stupid woman and look at him with the most naive and greenest eyes.
Even if the relationship is established, Chen Bian is not very talkative and is very vigilant to me.
Of course it’s not enough. Chen’s not sure what I did for him.
What he likes, what he doesn’t like, the way he treats different things, or the eyebrow that rises after I’ve eaten, or the dress that I wears which he consciously prys.
I remember carefully and carefully the extent to which I went through it every night.
Finally, he smiled when I ate noodles and took the sauce to my mouth, and rubbed my head when I slept on the couch alone late at night waiting for him to come home.
When he was crouching in front of me, he looked up and asked me why I wasn’t sleeping, and I knew, first step, I won.
But that alone is not enough.
I didn’t plan for Chen’s future. I’m just a girlfriend he can break up with at any time.
He won’t tell me where he’s trading or what he’s really selling.
But soon, my chance came.
I was targeted by Chen’s rival group.
They kidnapped me the next day on my way to the market.
It’s also very simple to see me as Chen’s lover and threaten him with me.
I was tied to a chair and I was shot with a camera.
Those who sat across from me told me everything about Chen and told me that my intimate lover was in fact a drug dealer, and told me how hard Chen was and how bad he was.
My brain is moving fast, and it can neither be too calm nor complete as a waste.
It’s about building a firm, decisive, oh yes, and a woman with a whole heart for Chen’s sake.
Eleven hours after I was kidnapped, Chen Bian finally appeared in the factory where I was abducted.
He was born to be black, and then I realized that he was a devil who was attached to sin.
My hands and feet were tied and my eyes were full of tears, and I was close to my lover the other day.
This is a simple and one-sided look at me.
“Conditions. I’m sorry.
The man’s voice is clear and he doesn’t have much.
“You three suppliers, 50 pounds of new. I’m sorry.
Put it in the back of my head.
Half an hour, a laugh from Chen’s mother.
“You think she’s worth so much? I’m sorry.
Men look at me at the end and turn away.
I was staring at him almost in the shape of the night.
My life was supposed to be there that day.
But who knows, the barrel against the back of my head moved behind Chen Bian.
Watch out! I’m sorry.
The moment the man shot, I had already pushed down the man who shot, but the bullet was sorely embedded in my arm because it hit him in a hurry.
I was shot a long time ago, but I was wearing bulletproof vests.
The severe pain left my mind blank and the people around me were sifted.
It is true that Chen Bo-hyun could not have come alone and that he had hidden a lot of fire behind him.
The pain on my face doesn’t look like it.
When I saw him, I ran over and held him crying.
He was obviously held by me for a second.
After the meeting, I felt his hand gently rubbing my hair.
“Why, I abandoned you and saved me, huh? I’m sorry.
What I think is, before the bullet is loaded, it’ll probably be scanned by the fire behind you.
And the thing is…
“Abuse yourself to protect you. I’m sorry.
In the dark, he hears his soft tone.
“Do you mind if I do what I do? I’m sorry.
I shook my head.
I’m thinking about it.
Chen, one day,
I’ll make you the brightest medal on my shoulder.
5
“What do you think? I’m sorry.
I was pulled back by a cigarette hand.
It’s been a long time since I smelled smoke.
A lot of colleagues like to smoke when they think about it.
He never smoked in front of me.
I couldn’t have smoked in front of him to make a good girl.
“You’ll have to back off on the second line after you’ve taken the first grade.” I’m sorry.
I sat on the steps of the stairs with Lee, and he covered his hair and looked at the reports and asked me.
I nod my head.
People like us, regardless of the outcome, end up in the dust like sand.
“What do you want to do after you retire? I’m sorry.
English teacher. I’m sorry.
I don’t give a shit. He’s got his eyebrow.
“I feel like I’m quite a teacher…”
I don’t know.
Chen’s not read.
So I taught him English.
Maybe it’s my gift to teach. Maybe he’s smart.
You is my.
It is now possible to declare war with the police in full English.
Yes, I think everything Chen’s doing is declaring war on the police and forcing me out.
He ran back to the place where he lived with me and left a trace of residence.
Just telling me he’ll find me, and I can’t get away with it no matter how many cops protect me.
I don’t know.
“So I don’t think it’s a good way to keep me here. I’m sorry.
In the express hotel, I held my arms and said to Lee-sook, who was standing at my door.
“Chen’s going to get me out. I’m sorry.
He sighs.
“What are you talking about? Whose life is not life? In the last minute, at least none of us wanted to see any of our comrades die. I’m sorry.
He stood up and shot me on the shoulder.
“You can’t be unaware of how sick drug dealers retaliate against undercover. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
The sun outside the window is so big that it falls into a room where the curtains cannot be kept.
That hole, shake and shake.
Yeah, how could I not know.
My father was the head of the Changming City Anti-Drug Unit, and drug dealers abroad offered him a million dollars in reward.
I didn’t graduate from the academy when Uncle found him.
Shouldn’t I thank him for giving his daughter a final lesson?
Because I’ve never seen a body worse than his.
So, no matter what happens after that, there’s no more in me.
My dad always told me it’s hard to get a first-class job with a narc when he’s alive.
So I wanted to take one and show it to him who is in heaven when I was alive.
I don’t know.
Chen’s runaway day three.
The Agency’s profiler again asked me for details of all the criminals in Chen Bao-yang.
I can’t help it. I’ve been in close contact with him, and all my experience will be valuable.
After that time, he slowly showed me his true face for Chen’s sake.
In the meantime, I started to find out that he was actually a very unloved person.
It’s too good for me. Chen’s life hasn’t touched a woman. He hasn’t had a mother or a mother since he was a kid.
He was a child raised by a trafficker, who escaped the fate of being cut off from his tongue to beg on the street because of his sweet mouth and wit.
Perhaps the experience of childhood was basically cruel and painful, so it is estimated that even he does not know how much he desires a gentle and kind soul to love him.
Chen Bian was gifted as a criminal who was decisive, calm, paranoid and cruel.
But as a lover, he was so stupid.
He’s too easy to indulge in one side’s tenderness and impatience to please the person he likes, to pretend he doesn’t care, but in fact, all his thoughts are revealed in his micro-expressions.
So, even emotionally, I’m a half-wieldy, but according to the psychological work done at the police academy, he’s been squeezed, despite the bumps.
The last step was to put a needle in his heart that couldn’t be removed.
If there’s anything deeper than a long-term company.
That is when the heavens and the earth are gone for a long time.
As Chen Bao-hyang slowly climbs up, he will of course be surrounded by some thongs.
Even though my sister-in-law exists, there are many flowers and butterflies left behind.
The most prominent of them is Wan’s.
Wan’s name is probably an art name. A woman’s looks are so bright and different from me. She’s like a silver needle full of venom.
She’s also onto Chen’s sister-in-law.
In fact, she was the biggest drug dealer in the neighborhood.
If she did seduce Chen, it would be a strong union and nothing else for me.
She didn’t even look at me like I was a girl who could easily take down.
And then me and Chen were in a period of emotional retardation.
He was still very good to me, even in love, but he never expressly refused to do so.
At that time, I thought, great.
Master, Master, Third.
I can make him forget me forever.
…that was a cruise ship’s chamber of commerce.
On the face of it are the annual meetings of a listed company, which in fact is a big gathering of drug dealers.
The ship also hides our people, and there is an incipient flow, and I was present as Chen’s lover.
I’m not sure if I’m going to do this.
First, I made a fool of myself at the party, then boldly seduced Chen Bian in front of me.
Chen’s not saying no.
Actually, I knew it. Something’s wrong.
I’m still married to a bunch of people.
Until the evening, I took a shower and walked into his room, and he held his wrist against the door frame.
“Good boy, swear to me you never lied to me. I’m sorry.
In that moment, my whole heart cooled.
I’ve been thinking about how I got back, and I have to say something else.
But he told me to swear.
Swear.
So there’s no evidence, and it’s likely that Wan’er’s whispering to make him suspect I’m undercover.
He himself, too.
This is a time not to be too eager or completely calm.
“I never lied to you. I’m sorry.
I recited his vows.
He let go of my hand.
Chen’s mother and I…
I wanted to hold his wrist and he threw it away.
“I’m not lying to you…”
My voice is shaking.
“Good boy, go back to your room. I’m sorry.
He softened his tone, but his words were beyond question.
I didn’t leave, and I went to hook his finger, and he pushed me, and I looked at him.
“Wu Yee is right, you may be a very good actress. I’m sorry.
At night, men look straight at me in black.
I couldn’t believe it.
“You’d rather believe her than believe me? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
He’s the only one left behind.
And I awakened my tears and gathered them in the next second.
Chen’s still smelling a little bit, and I don’t think it’s really Wing who changed his mind, but it’s his natural seventh sense.
This thing, however perfect I am, could be exposed.
Once the seeds are planted, no one knows when they will grow into a tree.
So, you need a potion.
Thanks to Wan, she’s set the best stage for me.
Six.
I’ve been telling Chen that I’m afraid of water.
As a matter of fact, I was the winner of the school swim team.
I didn’t think I’d buried a pen a long time ago that could be used today.
Another police comrade on board was undercover and disguised as a crew member.
He told me that the top side of the plywood was actually fully monitored by the camera.
According to the ship’s route, there is an island 900 metres away.
The sea wind isn’t so big tonight.
At two or three in the morning, the plywood was empty.
I’m standing where I thought I was, and I’m adjusting to where the camera is best shot.
The sea wind raised my white skirt and I edited text to Chen Bian.
“I know, I’m not smart and I’m not capable of her, but this is it.”
“Can you prove I never lied to you? I’m sorry.
I jumped into the sea.
I don’t know.
To prove his innocence and love for him by death can be amplified indefinitely in the case of a person without love.
That night, I used a compass, a luminous sports tablet to touch the island.
How did you wait on the beach for your colleagues to respond, during which I was almost pecked to death by unknown birds?
Let’s not go over it. This is definitely a dangerous experience to write a novel.
At the end of the day, I was picked up by my colleagues with a rubber boat and then hid on the small island of the fishing village from the other side.
In the meantime, I think I know Chen’s crazy looking for me.
Even if the video tape is a complete record of how I jumped into the sea in order to prove his innocence.
He still doesn’t want to believe I’m dead.
No one has ever seen him panic like that, deploying countless fishing boats to search for my tracks.
I have been slowly feeding myself because of what happened to the sea that day.
On the day he found me, I sat on a small bench in a fisherman’s house, with the braids leaning aside and looking down at the sunset.
I calculated that he looked at me that my side was absolutely sad and lethal.
I gave so much, of course it was good, and he almost fell to me and held me so tight.
Man, that’s how it is.
They like to give anything to them, and they don’t care about women.
I feel like I’m about to be dragged into Chen’s body.
He opened his mouth, softened himself and softly told him with a little dumb voice.
“Chen, you can give up on me. I’m sorry.
“I’m fine. I’m sorry.
“If you like her, give me up. I’m sorry.
“Just, you can…”
“You can tell me yourself that you don’t want me…”
I felt his body flat.
His fingers touched my hair. Unlike that, Chen was in love.
Can’t leave me, now it’s him.
I put my chin in his neck.
If it was a gamble to jump into the ocean, then now.
I won the bet.
Six.
“Where do you think Chen’s going after he’s gone?” I’m sorry.
“He’s a madman. How can I understand a crazy man’s idea? I’m sorry.
In the office, the fan hurried.
The police officers in the house were almost burnt when the windows leaked into the room.
No news, no movement, evaporation.
But everyone knew with the greatest certainty that he would appear again, and he was never the one to stop.
“Are the families of Xiaojiang taken care of? I’m sorry.
“As a known undercover agent, we do not rule out the possibility that Chen will spread revenge on those who are related to her.” I’m sorry.
Lee recoded all the data and squeezed his eyes on me.
Yes, after all, Chen is someone who knows who I am.
So now my family is closely protected by the police.
If there’s no surprise…
But today my right eyelid has been jumping.
I don’t really believe in this kind of thing, but most of the old people in the Bureau do.
For example, if you eat something you like before you make a big decision, it’s called the machine.
This morning, my breakfast tasted like shit.
I’m sitting in my seat and I’m sitting behind my back when I’m done with this job, and I’ve even figured out where I’m going to go for my annual vacation.
The door of the conference room was hurriedly pushed by a police officer.
And when his eyes fell upon me, my heart jumped.
Officer Jiang, something’s happened to your nephew. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
“It was found at 9:00 this morning at the market. I’m sorry.
I sat in the car and listened to the police officer’s report.
“The arms, wrists, and legs, all with needles, were initially tested for one-time, repeated injections of large quantities of heroin. I’m sorry.
“At present, he is being taken to the First People’s Hospital to be rescued in the operating room. I’m sorry.
“…”
Chen’s revenge is coming.
I opened my mouth and found myself unable to speak.
It’s buzzing in my head, telling me to calm down, calm down, what I want to ask is…
“Didn’t you arrange for the Commissioner’s protection? Why would this happen? I’m sorry.
Lee Seok asked for me.
“The kid’s in third grade. He’s about to take a high test. I’m sorry.
“His mother said that there was no way to delay his studies so that police officers and escorts were arranged on the way to and from school. I’m sorry.
“I didn’t know it was still…”
I don’t know.
I remember, I promised that kid Ha Zhi Hao that when he got into 985, I’d buy him a new computer.
But now he’s in the operating room, I’m outside.
My cousin’s crying, pushing my eardrum over and over.
There’s a note in the evidence bag.
In Ha Zhi Ho’s pocket was a message from Chen Bian.
The words of Chen were not good-looking, but he had a scorned edge.
It says:
“Don’t not love me. I’m sorry.
7
“Don’t you fucking understand now? I’m sorry.
In the yard outside the hospital, that’s the first time I’ve been talking to Lee.
Chen’s goal is clear, I’m the one who won’t come out and he won’t be caught and his revenge will continue! I’m sorry.
“Why don’t you let me out and show him? I’m sorry.
He didn’t talk. His feet were full of butts.
“Just now, my nephew was introduced into the operating room. I’m sorry.
I always felt calm enough, but then my voice was still shaking.
“His mother cried like that, never blamed me. I’m sorry.
“She said she could blame a lot of people, except me. I’m sorry.
“What can I do? Her son is because of me! I’m sorry.
“I’ll die, I’ll pay her son for her life, not enough…”
A man doesn’t always need an opportunity to vent.
I haven’t been depressed for too long.
It took a long time to find the palm on the shoulder.
“Good work, Jiang. I’m sorry.
Lee Zhiu laughed and shot me on the shoulder.
Being a colleague for so long is enough for me to understand.
Let’s go.
I don’t know.
The reason why Chen Bian escaped was because we misled the information at his disposal.
He miscalculated his firepower and the remnants of it.
There must have been something that wasn’t completely removed, a line buried deep beneath the ground, which we ignored.
Now the plan is simple, since Chen’s so committed to me.
I’ll draw him out.
Just didn’t wait for us to set up the plan. This guy came to us.
At 3:00 a.m., the Bureau received an anonymous e-mail.
When I was tied up, blindfolded, unable to move, I was taken to an abandoned plant in the eastern suburbs.
Otherwise, five bombs hidden in the center of the city were detonated.
I don’t know.
This behaviour has caused the old director to jump out of the nest and get up early.
Meeting overnight.
I will indeed be bound to Chen’s designated place.
However, that area will be surrounded by nearly 10 armoured vehicles, with 100 police officers.
The drones patrol 24 hours a day, 24 hours a day, wiretaps, signal locators, and are installed inside my clothes.
One word, if Chen Bian comes.
Then he won’t come back.
I don’t know.
“Are you afraid?”
The deployment was almost complete when Lee Seok took the black cloth in my eyes.
The closure will not be very close to me because Chen Bian also demands that no police be present within a hundred miles.
In other words, I’m going to be blindfolded, and I don’t know how long I’m staying in a dark factory.
I shook my head, and since I was a kid, I was afraid of the dark.
My eyes were blindfolded, and I felt Lee took care of my hair.
And he was near to me, solemnly speaking in my ears.
“Don’t worry, I’ll bring Chen to justice. I’m sorry.
“Then go to the new cafeteria north of town and have a bite. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
9:03 p.m.
Time in the dark is always hard to wear, and I’m still tied up.
To be honest, besides the pain in my body, it is difficult for me to stay awake at all times.
The knot I’m fighting is a living knot that looks dead, and I wish I could do something to get it.
It’s only a minute and a second past, and it’s still quiet.
This reminds me that, for the first time, I was tied up and waiting for him.
He doesn’t look too much, does he?
He’s not playing us, is he?
In fact, before that, we conceived the way Chen Bian took me.
But I never thought of this.
Direct and brutal attacks.
I don’t know.
The first bomb exploded in the forest on the eastern suburbs.
A moment of bang struck my ears.
Then the bullets and the screams came from a distance.
The man didn’t want to sneak me back, it was the practice of bandits.
Maybe even…
This is not the firepower a fugitive should have.
When I realized it, I loosed my wrist.
Too late.
I can’t get my wrists out of the air when I hear the sound of twig.
I want to reach for something.
But the consciousness is getting unconscious.
When he fell, the curtain covered his eyes fell.
I saw a pair of shoes in front of me.
The last thing I think about is…
I was wrong.
This is not at all what a drug dealer should have.
He’s still got something to hide from me.
He’s scarier than I thought.
8
I’m staring at the moist ceiling.
It rained in the windowsill, as if it were an ordinary fall evening.
The old TV in the next room is still ringing, I’m lying in bed.
I can’t move even if nothing’s holding me back.
I think it’s because it didn’t work.
The clothes have been changed and the bug and locator must have been removed.
We turned our eyes, but they were heavy.
I don’t know.
Twenty minutes after I woke up in this room, someone came to the bedside.
“It’s been a long time. I’m sorry.
The man is still good for black, like a lonely pine standing in the snow.
Chen Bian.
It’s been a while.
Last time I saw you, I put handcuffs on you.
“Good boy. I’m sorry.
I can’t move.
And when I see his slightly happy face, I should know what happens when I piss off a drug dealer.
The needle was on my big arm, and I looked at the man and slowly pumped it into me.
This is the first time.
After the fight, he took care of my hair, and the kiss fell on my lips.
“Good boy, you’re not good at all. I’m sorry.
9
Here’s my first conversation with Chen Bian after I recovered my ability to speak.
“What did you give me? I’m sorry.
Heroin. I’m sorry.
“Don’t worry, very little dosage. I’m sorry.
“…”
“Did my comrades die much? I’m sorry.
“No, it’s my side that’s got a lot of casualties. I’m sorry.
“…”
“How many guns do you have? How many drugs do you know? If you’re wanted, can you still supply? I’m sorry.
He laughed.
“Good boy, do you think I’ll tell you everything I’ve told you? I’m sorry.
His fingerbone, against my cheek.
Men can smell cedar when they’re close to me.
“My dear police lady. I’m sorry.
“Love you, my misfortune, or yours? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
My actions are confined to this room.
Looking out through the window, you can see a large tree with a tulip and a wall that belongs to the old neighborhood.
It is impossible to cry out for help, because Chen Bok-hyun has been able to live here in a trance.
It is highly likely that the entire building, and even the subdistrict, is an entire drug-trafficking business.
I’m still missing something.
I don’t know.
Men come back to this room every night.
And every time he came, he brought me something he thought would please me.
except that he did not know that all that was before Us had been created to accommodate him.
When he injected me the second time, I almost immediately thought of suicide.
I’m going to go to the bathroom and throw up in the dark.
I saw the reflection in the mirror on the washstand.
The red eyes, the pale skin, and the shivering lips.
I don’t want to die.
Even on your knees.
Even if I live.
I don’t want to die either.
I don’t know.
The time between injections is starting to get shorter, and I know what he’s going to do to me.
When one night I rolled over in bed, the man pushed the door.
“Do you want this?”
He leaned and looked at me.
Please. I’m sorry.
He’s got something I couldn’t hide from.
Now, my salvation.
I know that thing stuck in my arms, and I lost all my pain, and I watched him dead.
Once again, tell yourself.
To live, not die.
It’s only when I nod my head that men pick up their lips with satisfaction.
He put me on the bed, with his own eyes, and kissed me to the collarbone.
He’s satisfied.
He knew that after that I would never leave him.
10
Chen Bo-hyun did not know where to take the false testimony.
It’s two red books, stamps, pictures.
Marriage certificate, me and him.
He held me in his arms, and then he laughed.
“You’ll probably never agree to marry me. I’m sorry.
“So, nothing, I’ll do it for both of us first. I’m sorry.
My eyes move towards the glass, where they reflect me and him.
Sometimes I think it’s just like that.
Sometimes he wants to get his death back. I’m dead. He’ll probably suffer for a while.
But not.
I’m not that vulnerable.
I don’t know.
Chen’s sleeping with me every night.
I guess he didn’t even think I’d follow him so unexpectedly.
He started to let me have some free exercise.
It was raining.
He took me off with an umbrella, and I went down the stairs with a heavy weight and fell on the floor.
He held me up for a long time.
He said he was so sorry.
He knew he made me this way.
But if he wanted to control me, he had to.
I don’t know.
Maybe I’m too good for Chen’s son.
However, he remains very vigilant in any way that I can reach out to the outside world.
That day, he went to the downstairs stand for breakfast.
The cold air came early this year, and I shrunk my neck.
This stall… probably had something to do with Chen.
I ate two noodles and I couldn’t eat, and I pushed myself in front of him.
He groaned and rubbed my head.
“You at least ate your eggs. I’m sorry.
“Don’t like it. I’m sorry.
I escaped his palm.
“You used to love it. I’m sorry.
“That was a lie. I’m sorry.
“…”
He didn’t overeat the rest of my face.
And We put in my pockets, and looked at the smoke in the pot, and fell by chance in the morning and winter fog.
I don’t know.
Chen’s been trying to make me happy.
He brought back a video game.
It’s a double-player game that compares fire under the line.
Two players are needed to cooperate, and every time I come here, I always fail.
“So did Officer Jiang. I’m sorry.
The eyes of those around them are crooked, like a melted cedar.
I wasn’t even looking at him.
“I can’t keep flattering you. I’m sorry.
“…”
And he put his handle aside, and touched my face, and put me on his couch.
And We saw it from his dark eyes, as a ghost of nothing.
His kiss fell in my eyebrow.
“That’s it. Let’s go. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Chen likes to hold me to sleep.
This is not actually a scientific way to sleep.
And to be honest, holding his arm long will be numb.
I listened to everyone breathing evenly, and my back hand slowly touched his pillow.
He then sat on him and put the barrel of the gun he had put on the pillow to his forehead.
Pull the trigger.
…no movement.
“No bullets. I’m sorry.
“You won’t feel it? I’m sorry.
In the dark, men look straight at me.
He’s got a finger, moochy across the barrel.
…I slowly dropped my hand.
As a front-line narc, you should know if there’s any bullets in the gun.
But I don’t know.
I really can’t feel it out.
Eleven.
My action was limited to the small courtyard on that side.
Amazing.
The woman who appears to be a daily bean baker is in fact a good cook.
And the old man who’s been drinking out of the yard, he’s got all the supply points in his head.
I always thought Chen was alone.
In fact, when he was undercover, he left his eye on me.
Auntie and uncle seem to have a child.
It’s always quiet. Once school is over, you play basketball alone in the yard.
That day, I stood under the porch and watched him split the ham and intestinal into a few minutes to feed the hungry cat downstairs.
I’m looking at him. He stares at me.
“Look at this shit!”
“…”
I put my back on the side of my coat.
I’ll be in the yard as soon as I can.
And Chen’s side, though he’s always been gentle to me, was a bit spoiled.
But he learned to be smart this time.
I didn’t get any useful information in my soft-and-paste ads.
The needle’s eye began to show traces of a small ulcer.
While the drug police are the ones who know best not to touch drugs for the rest of their lives, undercover agents are still the most vulnerable to its contamination.
I have tried to make my day-to-day life more optimistic, but the negative mood is still like a thick wire to me.
I don’t know.
The first time in the fall, there was such a big wind.
I just mentioned that when I was a kid, I was swinging a swing in the compound, and Chen asked someone to make one for me.
The sky’s distant light descended into the twilight, and We sat on it and counted its reflections.
Most of the time, I do.
If you want to stay awake, you have to let yourself think over and over.
But what I used to do is I can do this at a fast pace, and now it’s half a day to multiply by ten digits.
My toes pointed to the ground and I heard my name called.
I didn’t respond.
Until I saw him rushing into the courtyard.
Seeing me for a second, my eyes were full of anxiety.
“Where have you been?”
I was held tight by him.
“There’s no shadow of you in the hallway. I’m sorry.
“I thought you were gone. I’m sorry.
Men smell thin tobacco.
Amid the cold of autumn.
“I fear losing you. I’m sorry.
The fabric of the windcoat rubbed on my cheek.
I don’t want to waste my energy pushing him away.
So he lets me get inside him.
“Don’t go. I’m sorry.
“Please, don’t go. I’m sorry.
“…”
It’s verbs. It’s like a cry.
I look up and I stare at the fall of the leaves.
The sun is long gone.
There’s only darkness in my heart.
I don’t know.
I was dragged into the room by Chen’s hands.
When Chen Bian held me in his arms, sometimes there was confusion in my head.
The nephews in the hospital, Li Shu, whose legs had been blown up, the sea that used to swell, and the father who was not so decent when he left.
They all stand before me, and there are those who accuse me, and there are others who comfort me.
My dad pushed me, and I walked.
He said, girl, go ahead.
Don’t look back.
I don’t know.
This time, Chen Bo-yan pushed a box of needles right in front of me.
He held my head.
“I’m going away for a while, and if it works, we’ll go abroad. I’m sorry.
“Let’s start over, shall we? I’m sorry.
Okay.
Good shit.
I don’t know.
The day he left,
I leaned on the door frame, looking at him.
The twilight outside the window allowed the man to melt into a twilight, and the cruel sunset split his figure.
I can’t stand anymore and put my body weight on a wall.
Finally, watch him get into that black car.
The sight fell in two barrels of plastic boxes hidden by the wall.
12
I called Chen.
Counting time, he should take off.
On the phone, my voice was crying.
“Chen, I’m really sorry. I’m sorry.
“I’m itching. I can’t help it. I’m sorry.
“Why don’t you come back, it’s my birthday, and you come back. I’m sorry.
“I’m alone, I’m scared…”
He almost squeezed me and told me not to cry.
I heard him on the phone. He was on the plane.
But for only a few seconds, he softened his voice to appease me.
Tell him he’ll be right back.
I don’t know.
I hung up the phone, picked up the gas by the door and poured it on the floor.
The smell of snivelling almost devoured my senses.
I finally grabbed him the second he pushed the door open.
He stunned for a moment.
And then, softly.
“Absolutely. I’m sorry.
He lifts his hand, rubs my hair.
I don’t think we’re standing in the middle of gas.
Like I didn’t see the lighter in my hand.
“Good boy, where’s the gas?”
“The son of the aunt in the building next door, I turned him. I’m sorry.
“Don’t worry, he’s gone. He knows more than I do. I’m sorry.
“He will take the police to your hideout. I’m sorry.
“As for you, Chen Bian…”
“I was afraid you’d run away again, so this time…”
“I’ll take you away. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
The lighter fell in my hand and I looked at the flame.
It’s weak and it’s flat.
Just like Chen’s feelings for me.
You know I must be cheating on him.
It’s possible you can’t leave this time.
He came back as soon as I cried, and he was so desperate to capture my love.
This child, who lived in darkness since he was a child, was not defeated by the only light he wanted.
Unfortunately, the light is fake.
It’s the last moment, and the flames are in our clothes.
He’s still stuck to that question, gently, gently asking me.
“Did you consider me your lover for even a moment, huh?”
I touched his face and laughed.
“Chen Bian, you idiot. I’m sorry.
“My love…”
“It has always been this country. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
“I see. I’m sorry.
And until the last moment, I shall be protected from the fire.
He coughed, sounded in my ear.
Bad women. I’m sorry.
“But I have loved you all along. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Finally, that flame devoured us.
Before you go, it seems like you met my dad who stood not far from me.
Dad.
Sure.
It’s hard to live with the first prize.
13
In the mega-drug case of Changming City.
Nearly 500 kilograms of drugs were seized and nearly 100 suspects were arrested.
Of these, 16 officers were killed.
Add one.
An anti-narcotic fighter, who was in deep-seated with drug traffickers, uncovered a great deal of information, while at the same time sacrificing himself in order to hold back the leaders of the drug syndicates.
Additional Order of Honour.
I don’t know.
Lee, when he packed her belongings, turned over the ticket she had in her locker.
On November 28, a flight to Sanya.
It was ordered the day after Chen’s arrest.
The little girl is always on annual leave.
Great.
It’s really time off.
Long, long time off.
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I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
