Have you ever chased your wife (husband) to the crematorium, and finally you can’t get it back? I thought he and I had a two-way secret love, but after I had the courage to express my love, I realized that he liked my roommate Xiaobai. I
used to think Xiaobai was the third wheel, but in fact, I was the third wheel. I
have always been slow and do not take the initiative, the only time in my life to express my love, unexpectedly made such a big mistake. In the
Christmas campus, the air is lively and ambiguous, but all the surprises and touches have nothing to do with me.
I walked slowly to the dormitory, not daring to look at my cell phone again, as if nothing had happened as long as I didn’t look at it. He
did not rashly express his love, nor was he rejected.
But it’s no use. His words attack my nerves all the time.
Thank you for liking me, but I.. I have someone I like.
You know her. She’s with you every day.
I looked at these words, from unbelievable to thunderous.
However, they have always looked very strange, have never spoken ah? Every time
he sat next to me in class, every time he chatted and played games, he only invited me. For a whole year, he never mentioned my roommate in front of me? Isn’t the only intersection between
them is me?
What went wrong?
I couldn’t figure it out, so I walked downstairs to the dormitory and waited for a long time before I pretended to go upstairs as if nothing had happened.
My body was so weak that when I opened the door, I wanted to squeeze a smile, but I couldn’t.
Jiang Nan, why did you take so long to buy a bottle of water?
You don’t know what you’re missing! My roommate yuanyuan grabbed me with an excited expression.
When I looked inside, Xiao Bai turned his head and shouted anxiously, “yuanyuan!” But it was too late. yuanyuan, unaware of our embarrassment, danced and shouted, “The handsome boy in Class Two has expressed his love to Xiaobai!”! I’ll go. It’s hidden too deeply. I didn’t see it at all before! Handsome guy?
“I looked at Xiaobai and asked calmly,” Huang Jianchuan?
Xiao Bai blushed, clenched his cell phone and bit his lip like a child who had made a mistake.
Although I know the answer, I still feel sad. After a
moment, I chuckled and rushed over to slap her on the shoulder. “Hello!”! What’s that look on your face?
Did you reply to her?
Confess, confess, our dormitory finally has one who can get rid of the single! As if relieved, Xiaobai couldn’t stop raising the corners of his mouth and asked me cautiously, “Should I promise him?”?
“That’s a handsome guy. What do you have to hesitate about? The other dormitories are all single and invite the whole dormitory to dinner. I’ve been greedy for a long time. This time I can finally eat once. You can do it, Xiaobai!” Xiao Bai smiled demurely and muttered, “I thought you liked him before.” “Bullshit, he’s not my type at all!” Then, then I replied to him.
Hurry back. Don’t keep people waiting too long. I thought you didn’t like it.
I stood beside her and saw with my own eyes that she replied to the message, pulling her face and laughing, and singing for her with yuanyuan. After
going to bed, the whole person is like a deflated balloon, soft and exhausted.
I cover in the quilt, from the lower abdomen to the heart, all seem to be oppressed by heavy weights, blocked and painful.
Want to cry, but afraid of being discovered, endure and endure, and finally failed to hold back, a pumping to cry silently.
yuanyuan went to bed and asked in a low voice, “Jiang Nan, what’s wrong with you?”?
I tried to take a big breath and replied with a smile, “I’m watching a new video of a certain fantasy. Damn, it’s so funny. Go and watch it..” I don’t seem to be able to get over it.
I comforted myself all night, but I couldn’t pretend that nothing had happened.
The next day, I didn’t wait for Xiaobai to get up and go to class together as before. I pretended to be anxious and went out alone. After eating a few mouthfuls of
breakfast, he took his bag into the classroom. With only a few minutes to go before
class, the classroom was almost full of people. I found an empty seat with two seats left and habitually put a book beside it to occupy the seat for Xiaobai.
I just put it down and suddenly remembered what happened last night.
I was stunned for a moment and took the book back. The next moment, a tall boy sat down without warning.
I’m not breathing.
Huang Jianchuan?
Still sitting with me. What’s wrong with him? In the two seconds when
I was in a daze, Huang Chien-chuan had already taken out the book, smiled, and greeted me with a free expression: “Good morning, have you eaten?”?
He took out a sandwich from his bag and waved it in front of me.
Ill.
If it was in a TV show, I would have said good morning back to him as if nothing had happened.
But I do not have such a broad mind, nor do I wish him happiness with a smile.
Excuse me, excuse me.
I picked up my bag, picked up my book, and walked to the last row of seats. After
sitting down, I found that the person next to me was Huang Jianchuan’s roommate.
This man, Jin Bochen, has been the first in his grade since he entered school. Like Huang Jianchuan, he is a school basketball player. If it were not for the thin glasses, he might look better than Huang Jianchuan.
There are a lot of girls who like him, and I have saved a few pictures of him as a permanent guest on the wall.
However, as his name suggests, he is indifferent to the world, and has never heard of his girlfriend, nor has he had any gossip.
I didn’t talk to him. I only saw him go back to the dormitory with Huang Jianchuan.
Not very well.
But he actually talked to me. Aren’t
you going to sit with Huang Chien-chuan?
I would get the wrong idea, thinking that I had taken someone else’s place, and get up awkwardly, “Oh, I’m sorry, is there anyone else here?”?
“He pressed the book I was about to take away and said lightly,” No, sit down. Huang Chien-chuan, who was
sitting in the front row, suddenly looked back, and when he looked at me, his eyes were a little complicated.
I turned my head away from him and gave Jin a big smile. “Thank you.”.
“” It’s okay.
He pulled back his hand and opened the book. After a few minutes of
class, Xiaobai hurried into the classroom and sat next to Huang Jianchuan as a matter of course.
If I remember correctly, this should be the first time that the two of them have sat together.
I stared at the teacher and forced myself not to think about them, but after a while, the teacher’s mouth opened and closed, but all I heard was a buzzing sound, and my mind involuntarily thought of Huang Jianchuan.
I have known Huang Jianchuan for a long time. Shortly after
entering the school, he and I were assigned to a group of lines when we participated in the interview of the drama club. At that time, I was not divided. Huang Jianchuan laughed for a long time. He laughed enough and patiently corrected me.
He said, Drink milk.
“I said,” Drink Liu Lai.
Cow, Niu cow.
Liu, Liu Liu.
It’s the cow, not Liu.
“I was in a hurry.” I’m talking about Liu. Liu is coming! ” He raised his forehead and smiled for a long time, then said, “I feel that if I follow you, I will lose my future.”.
I have always felt that my Mandarin is quite standard, and it is not pleasant to be exposed by him in this way.
But he’s right. It’s just my future that’s at stake.
I was brushed off because my Mandarin was not standard, while Huang Jianchuan stayed without any suspense.
We were in the same major, and we often had big classes together, but before that interview, we were strangers to each other. One day after
the interview, I sat in the penultimate row in a big class. When Huang Jianchuan came in, there were still many seats, but when he saw me, he sat in the last row with several roommates.
Right behind me.
He poked me on the back and asked me on the desk with a good gesture, “I see you again. What’s your name?”?
His appearance at that time was soft and cute, and there was a great contrast with his flamboyant appearance when he was walking, which made my heart itch.
I leaned back in my seat and turned my head slightly. “My name is Jiang Nan,” I said.
“He nodded, smiled and said,” Nice name.
I actually knew his name at that time, because from the time of military training, the name of Huang Jianchuan had already spread among girls.
But I didn’t want to seem like I was paying attention to him before, so I asked, “What about you?”?
He thought for a moment, grinned and said, My name is Jin Bochen. Of course
I know that he is not Jin Bochen, because this name is as famous as Huang Jianchuan. As soon as
he finished, Jin Po-chen, who had been looking at his cell phone, raised his head and kicked him. “What are you doing?”?
“Just kidding!” Huang Chien-chuan dodged for a moment, then leaned over again, bending his eyes and laughing, “My name is Huang Chien-chuan.”. When the
bell rang, I turned to listen to the lecture, filled with joy. In the days that
followed, he would sit around me, consciously or unconsciously, pulling my hair if he was close, or tearing a small paper ball the size of a fingernail and throwing it to me.
Most of the time, even if we can’t sit together, we often pass through several rows of classmates and suddenly look at each other.
I had a good impression on him from the beginning, and then I liked him so much that I had pink bubbles in my heart when I thought of him, and I looked forward to the big class every day.
I believe he feels the same way about me. For example, when he sees an empty seat next to me, he will naturally sit down, give me a candy during the break, and invite me to watch him play basketball and rehearse plays.
I thought sweet love was going to be my turn, so even a person like me, who would not take the initiative once in ten thousand years, would skip classes to watch him play basketball, and would hold up a support card for him that he had always felt dead.
Nevertheless, our relationship is still ambiguous, and there is no substantive progress. The day before
Christmas, I saw Huang Jianchuan change his signature: “If you take the initiative, we will have a story.”.
My heart was completely disrupted at that moment.
Speculation, joy, nervousness.
I thought he was talking about me, so on Christmas night, I had the courage to express my love to him.
As a result, his signature was actually to cheer himself up and make himself brave enough to express his love to Xiaobai. I
burst into laughter like thunder.
When I calmed down, the past dribs and drabs gradually changed, and the truth hidden under the gauze revealed its original edges and corners.
Huang Jianchuan never liked me.
He will sit next to me just because Xiao Bai is with me.
He would give me candy just because he wanted to give it to Xiaobai, and he would frolic with me just to get Xiaobai’s attention.
He would invite me to basketball games and plays, just because I would call Xiaobai every time.
From the beginning to the end, I flattered myself.
Jiang Nan?
Jiang Nan?
I woke up with a start. As soon as I looked up, the teacher was staring at me. I quickly stood up.
He pushed his glasses and asked, “Please tell us what the induction effect is.”?
“Inductive effect..” My face turned red, and the teacher noticed my embarrassment and said with a slight smile, “You can read.”.
But on which page?
I looked down at the book, not knowing where to look, and the eyes of the students around me almost suffocated me.
Just as I was sweating profusely and did not know where to turn, Jin Bochen next to me suddenly coughed lightly, turned the page and put his pen on a line of words.
I looked at the page number and the position of the pen, tried to turn the book, and really found the answer in the position he marked. With a sigh of relief,
I repeated the original text and sat down with relief.
Thank you.
I looked at Jin Po-chen and whispered thanks.
He smiled and said in a low voice, “Listen carefully.”. After the
four classes, there was an experimental class. Huang Jianchuan and I had made an appointment at the same time. This time, even if I wanted to avoid them, I couldn’t avoid them.
Fortunately, the grouping is also free. If I arrive at the lab later, someone else will take my place.
I walked slowly and arrived at the end of class. As soon as I entered the laboratory, I saw that Huang Jianchuan had occupied a seat for me with his own bag. When he
saw me, he opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something. Without waiting for him to speak, I averted my eyes and looked at the last row. There was still a seat next to
Jin Bochen. Without thinking about it, I ran over.
Huang Jianchuan watched me run past him, his hands frozen on the bag he was just about to pick up, his face still a little confused, as if he did not expect that I would not want to sit with him.
Soon someone else came in, and he had to pick up his bag and let the others sit down. After
looking at his cell phone for a long time, Xiao Bai raised his head and said to the classmate in surprise, “I’m sorry, there’s someone here..” She has a seat.
Huang Chien-chuan interrupted her and glanced back at me, feeling lost for no reason. She’s in the back. It’s all right. We don’t have to worry about her.
Xiao Bai looked back at me and asked in a low voice, Jiang Nan! What are you doing back there?
I whispered back, “I don’t want to be a third wheel!” Xiao Bai’s face turned red, but Huang Chien-chuan, who seemed to be very impatient, said in a low voice, “Don’t worry about her.”.
The teacher had already opened the sign-in code, and if Xiaobai wanted to say anything more, he was blocked back.
This time, the experiment needed to avoid light. After the equipment was assembled, the teacher turned off the light. The window
less room suddenly became invisible, and the eyes adapted for a while before they could barely see anything with the light from the instrument.
Huang Jianchuan and Xiaobai were very close, lying on the edge of the table, playing with the instruments carefully.
I suddenly feel that they are a good match, a handsome sunshine, a beautiful and gentle, like me, love to dream, every day only know how to read sand fiction girls, only in the idol drama will be the protagonist.
Jiang Nan.
Jin Bochen’s voice suddenly sounded in my ears. I was startled. I turned my head suddenly and almost bumped into him.
I’ll adjust the instrument, and you watch here, okay?
“” Uh-huh.
I nodded sharply, took a deep breath, leaned over the table and watched, forcing myself to stop looking at them.
A minute later, a hand waved in front of my eyes.
Jiang Nan.
“” Huh?
I turned my head blankly. Jin Po-chen was looking at me. His glasses reflected a faint blue light, which stood out in the dim environment.
Ah, I’m looking at them again! Excuse me! I’m not feeling well today.. As I apologized, I lowered my head in embarrassment and looked at the lenses. “It’s all right,” Jin said lightly. “I’ve already adjusted it.
All right, all right, thanks for your hard work.
I smiled guiltily, wondering if I should do something to ease the embarrassment.
Suddenly, Jin took one look at Huang Jianchuan, who was still adjusting the instrument, and asked in a low voice, “What’s wrong with you and him?”?
I took one look at Huang Chien-chuan in the faint light, and my mood sank again. I shook my head gently.
“” Oh.
He sat down facing Huang Jianchuan, looked at him for a moment, turned his head slightly to me, and asked, Is he with your roommate?
“” Mmm.
“I replied lightly and asked him,” Aren’t you his roommate?
You don’t know?
I don’t know. He won’t tell me about this kind of thing.
He spoke lightly, as if it were common for them to hide things from each other.
I was surprised for a moment, thought about it, and thought it was reasonable. Although
Huang Jianchuan and Jin Bochen are in the same class and dormitory, because their conditions are too close, they compete in many aspects and can be regarded as enemies and friends.
So even as a roommate, Huang Jianchuan did not tell him about his love.
But that’s to be expected.
Jin suddenly smiled at me. He did say he liked your roommate very much, but at that time, I didn’t take it seriously. When did
he say that? Didn’t he tell you
a long time ago?
My heart suddenly shrank, as if it had been gripped by an invisible hand.
He.. I never said that.
“” Oh, then he hid it very deeply. I thought you had a good relationship and would tell you.
He really liked Xiaobai from a long time ago. Everyone knew that I was the only one who was kept in the dark.
Then why did you hang me for so long? Huang Jianchuan, are you ***ing sick! Jin Bochen’s words set off a thousand waves in my mind. I stared at Huang Jianchuan, who was turning on his cell phone to read the instructions. For the first time, I wanted to rush up and slap him in the face.
As if he had sensed it, he suddenly looked up and stared at me.
Moments later, he looked away and looked at Jin Po-chen. “Are you ready?”?
Jin Po-chen leaned lazily against the table and said with a shallow smile, It’s already been adjusted. You’re a little slow.
Huang Chien-chuan smiled, shook his head, and said, Well, you won this time.
Because of Jin Bochen, the experiment of our group was finished very quickly. I benefited from him and finished the class so early for the first time.
Because some teaching buildings in the school are very far away from the dormitory area, it often takes about 20 minutes to walk, so many people bought electric cars when they were freshmen. Not including me,
of course, I can’t ride a bike, I can only walk, so I often need to get up half an hour earlier than others in the morning. After the
early class, I did not wait for Xiaobai, but packed up my things and prepared to go back for dinner.
Out of the laboratory building, after a few steps, Jin Bochen came from behind on his bicycle. When he saw me, he slowed down and asked carelessly, “Do you need to take you for a while?”?
“” Oh?
OK.
Sometimes, a person’s mouth is much faster than his brain. When I finished this sentence, I suddenly realized why I wanted to take his car?
By this time, however, Jin Bochen was already waiting for me.
I was wrapped up in a kind of embarrassment that was no less than social death, because I was too embarrassed to tell him that I was just talking fast, so I had to bite the bullet and sit in his back seat.
Go to dinner or go back to the dormitory?
Eat, ah, forget it, go back to the dormitory.
“Jin Po-chen was puzzled for a moment and asked,” Huh?
“I choked up, was silent, and whispered,” It depends on which way you go.
“He started the car and said,” It’s all on the way. Let’s eat first and then go back to the dormitory.
I clung to my back, afraid to speak. The cold wind in
December was unusually cold, and although Jin Bochen was in front of me, my hands and feet soon froze stiff.
I huddled myself up and tried not to expose myself to the wind.
Is it cold?
Jin Bo asked.
I fought back with my teeth. “It’s all right.”.
He smiled and slowed down, and the wind suddenly became much lighter. After sitting opposite each other
in the canteen and eating a meal in silence, he sent me downstairs to the dormitory. When I got out of the car, he waved and turned around and left coolly. When Xiao Bai came back
at noon, he complained, Jiang Nan! Why didn’t you wait for me and run away alone? I smiled helplessly. “I don’t want to be a third wheel.”.
She dropped her bag and sat down in a huff. Taking out her book, she said, I had dinner with Huang Chien-chuan today, and we didn’t say a word. I’m so embarrassed. It’s always like this
at the beginning of a relationship, but it will be fine in the future.
“Don’t leave me again!” “I don’t want to eat dog food. Come on, be brave and not afraid of difficulties!” yuanyuan joined in, gossiping with Xiaobai and asking her how she was today. I breathed a sigh of relief and went to bed to take a nap. For the
next few days, I tried to stay away from them as much as possible.
Huang Jianchuan did not approach me again, but every time he passed in front of him, he could feel his line of sight. On
New Year’s Day, I suddenly received a message from him: “Tonight I invite you to dinner in your dormitory, at 8:30, at the old street entrance. Don’t be late.”.
He didn’t even ask me if I would go. He just told me not to be late. Was he sure I would go?
He can’t see that I’m avoiding him, that I hate him now?
I was full of anger, but I still tried to reply to him in a kind tone: “I won’t come. You can eat.”.
“” Why?
He asked.
Busy. After
a long silence, he said, “Come on, I’m going to book your favorite one. It’s New Year’s Eve after dinner, and all the people in your dormitory will come. You can’t stay alone in the dormitory during the New Year, can you?”?
I really have something to do.
Today is New Year’s Day. We’ll talk about it tomorrow. If you’re too busy, I can help you. Anyway, you must come tonight.
I was worn by him for a long time, and not long after, Xiao Bai also sent a message asking me to go there earlier.
I had no choice but to tell them that I would go there if I finished my work in the evening.
In fact, there is nothing at all, but in order to make myself look really busy, I can only soak in the library all the time, holding my mobile phone and playing Xiaoxiaole. I had dinner at half past
eight, and I didn’t leave until eight.
Small white hair news urged several times, I struggled for a long time, ready to go, the big deal is to eat.
As soon as I closed the book, a message suddenly flashed into my mobile phone. I looked at the note: Jin Bochen, Class 2.
I didn’t expect to receive his message, and my head was empty for a while before I turned on my cell phone and clicked in to see the details.
Jiang Nan, I seem to have left my earphone in your place. Is it convenient for you to help me find it?
“I asked him in wonder,” Huh?
Why is it here?
I don’t know. Maybe it was too dark in the lab that day and I took it by mistake.
I recalled carefully, but I couldn’t remember the details at that time, but it was a good excuse not to go to dinner.
Then I’ll go back to the dormitory and help you find it.
I replied to Jin Bochen, and then told Xiao Bai that I had something to do temporarily and asked her not to wait for me.
Back to the dormitory to look around, really found two headphones, in my bag, do not know how to get in, because the size is very small, mixed with other messy things, I have not found.
I took my things downstairs, and Jin Bochen was already waiting for me. W
earing a hooded sweater over a vest and a pair of overalls on his lower body, he looked cool and well-behaved.
Thank you.
He took the earphone, put it in the charging compartment, and said with a shallow smile, I haven’t used it for days, and I haven’t noticed that the earphone is missing. Didn’t I bother you at this time?
No, I have nothing to do anyway.
“” Hmm?
He seemed a little surprised and asked, “Didn’t you go out with your friends tonight?”?
“I shook my head.” No, I’m just going to watch the New Year’s Eve party in the dormitory and not go out.
No, it’s too lonely to be alone in the dormitory. There’s a garden party at school tonight. It’s very lively. Why don’t we go together?
“” Huh?
No, aren’t you busy?
“He smiled.” What can I do? Let’s go.
I don’t know why, but his smile had a kind of gentle and irresistible power. I hesitated for two seconds and nodded.
Tonight’s school is very busy, not only many official activities organized by the school, but also many outside vendors come in to set up stalls. Jin Bochen and
I, one left and one right, strolled slowly, ate snacks, and we watched the bonfire on the court.
The school built a huge bonfire pool here in the afternoon, and pulled a lot of abandoned tables, chairs and benches to burn.
Because there are so many people, we can only watch from the periphery.
Two people stand together, very close to each other, people who do not know will probably think that we are a pair of young lovers, after all, by the campfire, almost all of them are bored together.
My heart missed a beat for no reason, and I hurried away. I was probably afraid of
Huang Jianchuan. I was afraid that I would be confused in such an atmosphere and regard arrhythmia as love. About ten minutes
before the New Year’s Eve, all the programs were almost over, and the stadium was much quieter. Jin Bochen took out his headphones and put one on me.
I was stunned for a moment, looked up at his face, and almost had an arrhythmia.
Because we were standing on the periphery, although our faces were roasted red, our hands and feet were getting colder and colder. I stood for a while and began to rub my hands a little unbearably.
Are you cold?
He noticed my movements and turned his head to ask me.
I nodded. A little.
“He thought for a moment, turned his body sideways, turned his head and said,” Put your hands under my hat.
I blinked, looked at his hat, and blinked again?
“He smiled and invited.” It’s very warm, believe me.
I wondered if this action was too ambiguous, and just as I was about to say forget it, out of the corner of my eye I suddenly caught two familiar figures.
My breath stagnated for a moment, then I looked at him, smiled, and tucked my hand under his hat.
“Wow, it’s really warm.”.
I sighed, leaning my head closer to him, as if I were leaning on him from certain angles.
The figure was getting closer and closer. It stopped two meters away from us and called out tentatively, “Jiang Nan?”? Jin Po-chen and
I turned our heads at the same time and saw Huang Chien-chuan’s blue and white face. Instead of pulling out my hand,
I kept it in that position and said in surprise, “Eh?”?
Have you finished eating?
“He didn’t reply. He stared at Jin Po-chen in a daze. After a while, he said with a sarcastic smile,” I said, what are you busy with? So I have an appointment. For
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