Lately, I always felt like there was another person in the house.
We’re not sure if he’s human, but he must be a blouse.
The hair I lost in the bathroom, the hair of my dog’s hair, it’s all cleaned up after I fell asleep.
I didn’t realize it at first, but I thought the room was a little off.
Then it became clear that it was so clean…
I moved here to be cheap.
It’s cheap, but there’s an invisible tenant.
One.
A few months ago, the company was founded.
The head of the pig clearly touched me.
At night, a message was sent suggesting that I should sit in his room.
I turned around and I hung up on the company nails.
However, the company did not deal with him, and I resigned, unfortunately, and have not found a family.
The wallets were drying up and I had to change to a cheap place.
That’s right here, 1,200 a month.
The agent told me before coming in that it was a rental room in two separate rooms.
It’s cheap in Beijing, two or three thousand singles.
But there’s no break in the living room.
The broker explained: “Young girl, there is no need to leave, the main tenant has gone on business and will not return for three or five months. Don’t worry, you’re the only one who’s gonna use the joint, the kitchen, the bathroom. I’m sorry.
Now I know why I did it, and I look at the locked door of the Lord, and I wonder about it.
After I went to sleep, the door squeaked, opened a stitch, a thing in white sheets floated out, lying silently in front of my nostrils, making sure that I fell asleep and picked up a broom, a rag, and started cleaning up the hair of the dog and my hair…
Oh, my God, this is ridiculous!
Two.
Anyway, I was afraid to live in this house, and I told the agent I was going to withdraw the rent.
He said that it would be fine to move, but that he would bet three or five thousand dollars at one and not a penny.
A cent? Then I’ll have to sleep in the bridge!
I’m in a hurry. He’s in a hurry.
“Little girl, don’t talk nonsense, talk about proof. I’m sorry.
“Okay, evidence, right? You wait, I have to find this ghost. I’m sorry.
There’s a ghost in the world called the poor.
I’m a poor man. I’m a poor man for $5,000.
3
When I got back, I took a nap.
At night, the bathroom light was deliberately kept and put to sleep.
I lay on my side, staring at the door of the Lord.
“Pop!” I’m sorry.
Early in the morning, I heard a noise like someone broke the insurance from inside.
“We love our country with the glorious tradition of our revolutionaries…”
I’m so bold, I feel my phone at the main door and my hands shake like a sieve.
But I waited a long time and nothing came out.
But there’s something going on in there, like rain.
I will rise from the bed, and go to the Lord’s bed, and try to hear.
I’m not aware of it. My ears are on the door.
It’s not the rain, it’s the keyboard!
I knocked on the door, and it stopped.
There’s something in there!
I can’t help but hold the doorknob and screw it.
It’s open!
I turned on the light and found that this was the bedroom that boys wanted.
By the bed, it’s a big desk and a human engineering chair.
On the table, with fancy computers and a bunch of outsides.
across the bed, it’s a closet full of comic books and hands-on.
It’s all, whole, clean.
No, it’s been so long. It can’t be so clean!
Also, why is the computer screen on, half-screen with Word documents, half-screen with comic strips?
My heart goes up and down with the cursor…
Look, Word wrote a comic story outline.
I reached out a finger and knocked on the space key.
All of a sudden, the keyboard’s beating!
On the screen, there was a line of words…
“Are you a ghost?” I’m sorry.
Is this asking me?
I had to hold my breath…
At that point, the chair moved softly, like a transparent man standing up from the chair…
“Ah! A ghost! I’m sorry.
I screamed, fly fast out of this house.
4
I’m making bees sit till morning.
It’s sour and it’s inflammating.
I thought I had to go to the agency, but I forgot to record the evidence last night.
On the way back, meet the morning mom.
I went up and asked them if anything had happened to my building.
“There’s a guy who came by an ambulance in the middle of the night to send him away, and there’s an infarction. Hey! Ha!
A mother kicked her leg one hundred and eighty times and continued to sell me sports.
I’m the one in the house.
You can’t rent a house that just died?
I went back to the main bedroom and looked for word records on the computer.
As a result, a txt diary was found on the desktop, dated today, by the ghost of the boy.
I open it and it says:
“April 12, Journal
“Recently, I think there’s another person in the house…
“There’s no reason to be in the room.
“There’s always a girl’s hair in the bathroom sewer.
“I clean up every day, and every day I get…
“There must be ghosts in this room!
“I spent the last two years at home, sleeping during the day, painting at night, living at a regular rhythm.
“Now, it takes a lot of time to pack those hairs and hairs, and it’s already spoiling my life.
“Just a moment ago, I wrote an outline of the comic book and suddenly heard someone knock on the door.
“I stopped, waited, the door didn’t open, but it felt like a wind came in…
“And then, the blanks on the keyboard jumped.
“I sweated my hands, and I knocked on her…
“Are you a ghost?”
“She didn’t come back to me, but she made a weird scream, scared me to death…”
I have to say, the diary makes me laugh.
I looked through all his journals and found out that he was with me, drawing comics.
Out of curiosity, I found his picture on the computer.
A handsome young man with tall noses and bright eyes, just sad and smiling.
The more I look at him, the better I look.
Ugh! Too bad he’s dead!
His diary about six months ago said, “Is the comic-book website system hanging up, why can’t my comic-books go up?”
Stupid kid, it’s not someone else’s system. You’re the one who’s dead.
However, instead of realizing that he was dead, this guy treated me like a ghost.
Then what am I afraid of him for?
So, I changed my idea of renting off.
In his document, the comment reads:
Don’t type in the middle of the night!
Shut up!
“The ghost sleeps!
If you don’t listen, you’re dead! I’m sorry.
That’s what scares the ghosts.
Not only is the rent cheap, but there’s a good-looking ghost who cleans up dog hair and hair free of charge.
This haunted house, it’s real!
5
I searched his comic book online and found out his name was Lin Jane.
Not a lot of people look at this comic, but I like it. It means a lot.
In his comic book profile, he said that he liked Wang Xiao Bo’s novel “Firing for Two” and drew up a martial arts story with the elements of the novel.
I’ve seen it for a while, but the story stops.
And so I wrote on his comic book board, “Come on! I’m sorry.
In the middle of the night, the computer keyboard was beating again.
He’s really good at it. This time it’s a thin film keyboard attached to it.
He answered my note and said, “Do you think I drew it?” I’m sorry.
“Come on, let’s go faster. I’m sorry.
– “You’re still here. I haven’t figured it out yet…”
Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. I understand that a cartoonist doesn’t have a reader, but does she want a ghost reader?
– “Are you afraid of me?”
– “I was afraid, but a ghost who reads comics, isn’t it a bad ghost?” You’re a girl. You have a dog, right? I’m sorry.
At that point, Alfred walked in with his tail, staring at that empty anthropologist chair and barking like it could see.
In the notes, Lin Jane typed another line.
– “Where are you from?”
— “Is this a check? I’m sorry.
– “I’m sorry, I don’t usually have anybody to talk to, I don’t know what to say…”
“Southers.” I’m sorry.
– “How did your ghost end up here?” I’m sorry.
I can’t talk to anyone. I haven’t talked to anyone for months since I lost my job.
All the anxiety, all the boredom was in my heart, and I put a lot of pain in him:
“Why is it here? That’s a long story.
“When I was a kid, Mom and Dad didn’t like me because I was a girl.
“And when they had a brother, they stopped arguing and became in love.
“I’ve become a man at home.
“When I was in school, I was alone and had no friends, and my only hobby was painting.
“But I don’t study art at home, but I do.
“Becoming a graduate, trying to find a job with comics, came to Beijing.
“It turns out that only a few things can be done.
“So, in the company, too, it becomes a man.
“The direct leader has always harassed me to see me as a bully…
“I can only resign. I can’t get a job.
“In the end, I lost a penny…
“I don’t want to call home because they won’t give it to me.
“I despaired and killed myself in this room. I’m sorry.
I was flying and banging on the keyboard, except for the last sentence, which was the truth.
– “Why are your dogs with you? I’m sorry.
– “About starving after I died. It’s stupid! I’m sorry.
And Ah Fook barked at me twice, as if he knew that I was making it up.
– “I graduated from Central Beauty. If we’d known each other earlier, I might have seen the painting for you. There’s something I don’t understand. This house is my place. It’s never been rented. When did you kill yourself here? I’m sorry.
I lived upstairs. “I’m making it up.
“Is it my home upstairs too? But it’s not clear if there’s anything wrong…
It is hard to understand whether this person, Lin Jian, is a Beijing-based indigenous, has been dislocated, or has graduated from Yang Mei. I’m thinking, the keyboard’s beating again.
What’s your name? My name is Lin Jane. Nice to meet you. I feel a little like us. I’m sorry.
“My name is Wei Xiaoxie, please, I wouldn’t dare to be like you. If I were you, I’d live a lot. I’m sorry.
Six.
After that night, I’m gonna talk to him every day about his life.
Sometimes we watch a movie with this computer.
In cultural entertainment, he and I kind of fit together across class.
His new comics never got on. I was his only reader.
That is why he cares about my assessment.
And I’m worried that one day he’ll find himself dead.
During that time, I went to a number of interviews, none of which passed.
I went to a small, demanding firm to train because I was in a hurry to make money.
It’s a terrible job, but the boss seems to be eating me, and you’re gonna do it and you’re not gonna do it.
I’ve been turning around for a week, and I don’t come home until twelve o’clock a day, and I fall asleep in bed.
It finally took me a weekend to find out I’ve been hanging out with Lin for days.
Saturday night, I went into the main bedroom and saw the word file of the comic book outline open.
The cursor was flashing for a long time, but he didn’t write a word.
Suddenly, he cut out and wrote on a blank document:
“Wei Xiaoxie, have you left? I haven’t heard from you in a week, but Alfred still seems to be living here… and I’ve got a lot of rhythm and a few days of comics. I think I might like you a little.
“I might like it a little bit.
“I may be a little…
“I may…”
“I…”
Lin Jian doesn’t know. I’m watching him delete that word.
“I think you’re born.”
I’d like to answer him, but I’m holding my hand on the keyboard and I’m late.
7
It seems that this young man has planned something for me.
That’s why he had to go to the movies together.
But it’s possible in the movies, but in reality, who’s going to have a love that doesn’t work out?
I can’t touch it, I can’t touch it.
The next day he’ll be reborn, and I’ll be left alone to remember.
We don’t want to be so sad!
Forget it. Just pretend you didn’t see it.
Later, I just responded to him in a note.
I falsely claimed that I had been registered with the RRA on these days and had been in remission reserve service and had left soon.
It’s a good lie to kill the little flames in his heart.
– “Oh, that’s good. Do you know when?” I’m sorry.
– “I don’t know, line up, one week, one month.” I’m sorry.
For a long time, he didn’t answer. He must have missed me.
I get nervous. What if he tells me now?
Fortunately, he didn’t. The keyboard jumped. He asked:
– “What kind of place is the RRT? I’m sorry.
“Have you seen the movie Next Station, Heaven?” It’s like that in the movies. I’m sorry.
– “I remember that film where everyone can only leave the most memorable moment of their lives, take pictures and take them to heaven. If it were you, what memories would you bring? I’m sorry.
I can’t think of any memoirs.
– “I didn’t expect that. When I was a kid, I was expecting my parents to take me out to play, but they only took my brother. I like going out, but I don’t like going alone. Maybe it’ll be a memory for me to have someone to hang out with. I’m sorry.
“A man has one’s own. I’m sorry.
“I know, but I just don’t like it, coming to Beijing for three years, so the palace, the Great Wall, Tiananmen, the nest… I haven’t been to any of these places. I don’t want to go alone. I’m sorry.
“Well, can you put a picture of you on my computer?” I don’t know what you look like. I’m sorry.
I told him to wait. I looked for a picture the next day. I fixed it.
At night, however, the bastard did not give any assessment of my picture.
It took me three hours to pick out a picture of a pixel-like-soft.
I hate it!
8
On Monday, the company temporarily arranged for me to travel to Hangzhou to see the booths and to issue leaflets.
I immediately went back, gave Afoto to the pet store and left a message on the computer to Lin Jane.
– “I’m going to training at the RTL, and I have a question for you before I leave. When I get back, answer that question properly, or I’ll get you in trouble! I’m sorry.
It’s been holding up all night.
On the same day, the car moved to Hangzhou, followed by a three-day comic show.
I’m a little distracted at the fun show.
After the Comics, I went home to the computer and forgot all about Alfred.
First read his comic book, no update?
I don’t have the energy anymore, do I?
Then I lit Lin Jane’s diary, and at first glance, it was a big problem.
May 8th.
“Today, something strange happened…
“Someway, there’s no one out there.
“I haven’t been out in two years, and I don’t like to go out.
“But the day before yesterday, I was painting Wei Xiaoxie, and I called them: a photo of a tourist.
“I’ve drawn several, but the background is where everyone loves it.
“I want to take her to a place I love to go – the Grassfield Art Village.
“It’s not far from my house, there’s an A+ cafe, and the owner collects a lot of strange furniture, which is interesting.
“I haven’t been there in three or four years, and I don’t know what it’s become, so I wanted to see it.
“But when I left, I found out there was no one left.
“The convenience store is empty, the road is empty, and the vehicles on the road are empty.”
“If I hadn’t gone far, I would have gotten lost, as if there were countless roads ahead of me.
“I was so scared I had to run home, what the hell is going on…”
His diary describes the world after death, right?
A world without people…
I thought I’d click on the computer’s “high-shot tourist photo” folder.
It’s a painting he drew for me.
In those paintings, I went with him to the palace, the Great Wall, Tiananmen Gate, the nest…
We’re in the most common spot, and we’ve got the most common pair of scissors…
It’s like I’ve actually been out there with him.
We laughed so loud, so heartless…
That’s why he asked for my picture!
All of a sudden, I feel like my heart is emptied.
Why, the sunset outside the window sucks?
Damn, how can I tell him the truth?
9
I sat in front of the computer until late night.
I think he should get up. Just type him and ask him:
– “Are you there?”
He’ll answer me soon.
“You know who I met outside today? Wang Xiaobao! I asked him to sign!
Why is he so excited? Feels like the haze in the diary is emptied.
Isn’t it a long time ago?
Does he already know? I’m in a bit of a complicated mood.
“I have something to tell you…”
“You don’t have to tell me, Mr. Wang told me I’m dead, right?
I wrote a book that day, and I suddenly had a pain in my chest, and I called my mother.
Then I passed out and woke up and it was okay. Not really. I’m dead, right? I’m sorry.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have kept it from you.” I’m sorry.
– “It’s all right. I just thought you had a lot of guts! I’ll take it with me? I’m sorry.
– “You’ve got a lot of balls. I wasn’t afraid when I was a ghost. I’m sorry.
10
Although he did not show grief in the words, I can feel that he became depressed.
For a long time he stopped updating comics. Sometimes I knock on the keyboard and he doesn’t answer me.
Sometimes I look at the pictures of the tourists, hoping they’re real.
However, whatever the ghost of both of us, it’s a luxury to go out in the sunshine together.
For some reason, it made me lose my mind.
I made a little mistake at work, and I got fired.
The reason for this is that the internship period is not competent.
Late in the night, personal effects were taken from the workstation and left the company.
I didn’t take a cab back because I couldn’t use the company’s car.
But when I got to the subway station, it stopped.
When I walked out of the subway, a driver asked me, “Where are we going? Little girl, where are you going?”
“Kyowan Home, can it be cheaper?” I’m sorry.
I know he’s a black car driver. He just wants to save money.
And he gave a very cheap price.
I got in the car, leaned on the window, looked at the city’s night view.
The high-rises of the far-off towers were brilliant and the near-disturbed.
I thought I’d never find a new job and go home.
In Beijing for more than three years, no friends, no love…
The only one who can talk is a dead man.
I remember the line that Lin Jane deleted…
I remember the painting Lin Jane drew for me.
I realized it was him I couldn’t wait to leave Beijing.
Eleven.
There was a little rain outside the window, and the city neon was stunned.
I fell asleep.
“Hey, wake up, wake up! I’m sorry.
The one who wakes me up is Lin Jian, in front of me, living.
He’s a better-looking man than in the picture, a boy with longer eyelashes than mine…
“Wake up, this black car driver doesn’t know where he’s taking you. It’s almost legal. I’m sorry.
“I’m awake. * I’m confused to say, look forward.*
No, there’s no one in the driver’s seat. The wheel seems to be being held by someone who’s transparent.
Am I still dreaming, or am I in a dream that brings me to the world after death? So you can’t see the living?
At the moment, the vehicle had passed through the town of Kyowang, but had not stopped and went in the same direction.
This black car driver must be trying to get away with it.
I remember some terrible social news about drivers killing female passengers!
“I don’t know how to wake up…”
My voice is shaking and scared. And then Lin put his hand on my shoulder to appease me.
I’ll see if I can scare him.
Immediately thereafter, he climbed from my side to the front seat, opened the front door and proceeded to climb to the top of the car.
He stepped on his window to the roof of the car, went to the front windshield, hung upside down, made a ghost look and shouted to the driver with a horrible sound: “Stop the car!” Don’t hurt my friend! Stop the car!
His voice is sharp!
Then the car stopped and Lin was thrown out of inertia and flew so far…
I even got off and ran to help him up.
“The driver must have seen me. I’m sorry.
Lin Jian looked at me and laughed with his wounded waist.
“Are you okay?”
“It’s all right. Wake up. Your body’s still sleeping in the car. I’m sorry.
12
“I don’t want to wake up now. Will you walk with me? I said:
“Of course. I’m sorry.
In the rain, the lamp forms a yellow light…
I walked side by side with Lin Jane, with the most subtle, slowest pace.
Although it was funny that he had just flown out, he was as handsome as a hero in the movies.
He was protecting me, and I was never protected like this.
At this point, an unmanned motorcycle was wiped from me…
And then he took me in his arms.
I looked up, only a few centimeters away from his face…
I feel him shaking…
Is this just a dream?
His ears were red and he said, “Stand aside, danger…”
“I like you too! Actually, I liked you a little bit when I saw you paint me a photo of a high-level tourist. I’m sorry.
That’s from my heart.
Quiet…
Long silence…
The rain falls on my skin, it’s cold and cold, and I feel like I’m going to evaporate.
My heart is beating faster and waiting for his response.
“You say, like, what do you mean? He asked.
“That day, you wrote in your file that you liked me, and I saw it.”
“Ah, so, uh, would you like to be my girlfriend? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
“I do. I’m sorry.
I woke up with a huge truck horn.
I was in the car, leaning against the window…
Is everything just a dream?
Next thing I know, the car was parked by the side of the road.
And the chauffeur of the black car sat on the ground and watched with fear the windshield,
And I went to him, and he cried, “Ah, girl, I was wrong. I shouldn’t have misread, so that your friend would leave me alone.” I’m sorry.
Looks like Lin Jian was just here…
And I saw him in my dream.
I rushed away from the black car driver and stopped a taxi to come home.
13
I came home and typed a typography on his computer:
– “I just dreamed of you. I’m sorry.
– “That’s not a dream. I was at home, and then suddenly I appeared in the car you were in. You dreamed of me, and my ghost came to you…”
– “Oh!”
I had a deer in my heart, remembering every detail that just happened under the dark light.
– “You promised me. Still counting? I’m sorry.
– “Hmm. I’m sorry.
I’ve only returned one word, but in my heart, it’s over!
14
Being in love with a ghost is a strange thing.
Especially an invisible ghost…
You need to work hard to feel the feeling of being together, and we can share a song, and we can sleep on bed sheets.
Just, can’t touch each other.
I tried to dream about him again, but the dream wasn’t easy to control.
One day he came up with a way to get us together for a candlelight dinner.
We have marked the hair of Afr so that we know that our hands are on our hands.
All of a sudden, Alfred barked at me in an empty chair and ran into the main bedroom…
And We looked at him there with great affection, and when the keyboards in the Lord’s bedroom sounded.
What’s going on?
I rushed in to see what he hit on the screen and he said:
“I see Alfred! I’m sorry.
– “Really?”
The old man always said dogs can see things that are invisible.
“You take Alfred in, I might see you in his eyes! I’m sorry.
After he said it, I didn’t think I’d even hug Alfred.
I saw him in the eyes of Alfred.
He said he saw me too!
It’s just a reflection, but it makes this unattainable lover more real.
Usually, he’ll teach me to paint…
After all, it’s a science class. With his help, I’ve made a lot of progress.
I finally found a job with a new one.
I’m keeping my rent, and I can finally live with Lin Jane.
He helped me a lot. Sometimes I wonder what I can do for him.
15
I went to his mother’s.
He mentioned earlier that he and his mother had not spoken for six months.
I can feel him, too.
I thought when I was a mom, I had something to tell him, and I wanted to bring it to him.
But after the visit, I realized I was wrong.
Lin Jian’s mother had another family and had a child, his half-brother.
This guy’s a big, fat, fat guy, and he’s been staring at me with no good intentions.
Aunty, he’s a teacher. He’s a cool, rigid impression.
She brought me water, and she said, “Lin is more selfish and has no friends, and you’re the only one to greet after what happened to him.” I’m sorry.
“Aunt, he’s a nice guy, a lot of kids like him. I’m sorry.
I lied to defend Lin Jane…
“Oh, yeah?” Aunt doesn’t believe me, so she’ll look at me again. Don’t remember anything?”
Her eyes were as if the teacher was questioning the cheating students.
I said, “Yes, Aunt, I’ve never been here before. I’m really sorry I was in the field on the day of Lin’s funeral. I’m sorry.
“The funeral… what funeral? Are you wrong?”
She put up glasses, staring at me, wrinkled her head.
What’s wrong with me?
“Aunt Lin, didn’t he have a heart attack…” I slowed down and tried the tunnel.
“Yeah, he’s still in the hospital. I’m sorry.
In the hospital?
So he’s alive, right?
I almost jumped up, but I kept saying to myself, “Don’t get too excited.”
When you get the best news in the world, you’ll be afraid of everything.
So remind yourself not to be too happy.
When I was out of my mind, my aunt asked me, “Did you just say, “The funeral?” I’m sorry.
“Oh, it’s an misunderstanding, I hear from my classmates that Lin Jane thinks he…” I’m sorry.
“Sensely speaking, he is dead. The doctor told me that he had previously been a vegetable, but that his brain function had deteriorated so fast that it might take days to breathe. I’m sorry.
Auntie’s voice, it’s like talking about an outsider.
I was thinking, would Lin Jian’s soul come back to life?
And she continued to complain, saying, “He would not listen to me, if he did so.” He can do better, I’ll give him a painting, and he won’t be able to go to the beauty club, but after graduation he’ll have to go to some dirty comics.”
I’m scared of her bitter, cold tone!
She’s still thinking about the past!
I interrupted and said, “Did you go to the hospital today?” Can I come with you to see him? I’m sorry.
“Not today. I’m going to the gym with his brother this afternoon. I’m sorry.
“Mom, come on, it’s too late. “The fat guy’s pushing.
I’ll give you the hospital address. I’m sorry.
That’s too impartial, isn’t it?
Now I finally know why he said I was like him when Lin Jane and I first met him.
Probably because I was, like him, a child abandoned by his family.
16
In the hospital, it smells like disinfectant.
Lin Jane lay there, shaved her head, attached to the respirator.
The nurse, sitting in the folding chair next to him, was tired and had a short video.
I hold Lin Jane’s hand, it’s warm.
The invisible, untouchable soul, plus this body, is all he is.
I wish he’d survived this moment.
“Miss, are you his classmate or…? The nurse dropped his phone and asked me.
“I’m his girlfriend. I’m sorry.
“Oh, I’m so sorry… that’s so sad… that there’s so much spirit in it. I’m sorry.
The nurse makes me feel worse.
“You’ll have to visit him more in the next few days. He’s been in the hospital for almost two months, and his family hasn’t been here many times. It’s like in half a month their family’s gonna give up, and then they’ll be gone. I’m sorry.
“Forgo therapy?”
“Yes, the family said they were moving abroad, and the doctor said he died of his brain and had no chance to wake up. I’m sorry.
It’s… I think of that cold face of Mama Lin, and I’m so pissed!
“Please take good care of him these days. I’m sorry.
I said to the nurse, I went to the hospital.
Lin Jian, get your mother back to your body and see for yourself what your mother is like…
17
I came home as fast as I could, banging on the keyboard and finally waking up Lin Jane in broad daylight.
“What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
– “Well, can you change the night drawing? You don’t care about your body, you don’t care about anyone else? I’m sorry.
I was so unreasonable that I spilled my anger on his mother.
“I’m already dead. Do you mind your body? Ha ha. I’m sorry.
– “Stop with me. I’m serious. I’m sorry.
– “Are you angry? What happened? I’m sorry.
I breathed deeply and calmly before I answered him.
“I found you alive today, lying in the hospital, a vegetable. I’m sorry.
“I’m alive. Are you kidding me? I’m sorry.
– “Who’s kidding you, you gotta get back inside yourself, or you’re really dead? I’m sorry.
– “Why?”
Because of your family, you’re going abroad.
I hesitated, didn’t tell him. No one could accept such information.
So I changed my story.
– “Doctor says your body won’t last half a month. I’m sorry.
– “But I don’t know how to get back to myself…”
– “Quest! Hurry! Now!”
18
In the first few days, I spent all my new salaries, hired some masters…
Psychiatry, Fung Shui, the Tarot God…
There’s no one who can count on it.
There’s no progress in that world.
He said that he couldn’t go far, and he had to get lost.
I’ve met Mr. Wang and I can talk to him about literature.
I was so angry, I greeted him, “You’re such a happy old man. Don’t you want to live?”
I’m more anxious than anyone when time is shorter than it is, when he’s in bed.
Look, a week passed.
When I complained to Lin Jian about the priests who came here today, I only studied theology and didn’t know what to do.
He suddenly asked me:
– “How long can we be together if I really can’t get back?” I’m sorry.
When you’re in love, nobody thinks about it!
Now he’s coming up, and I don’t know what to say…
To be honest, apart from the occasional dream of him, I was in love like a widow.
“Why didn’t you come back? I’ve thought about it. If I were to get back inside, I’d probably be a very annoying person! I’m sorry.
– “Don’t be depressed, I’ll be with you if you’re dead or alive, but right now, you better try to keep me alive…”
– “In fact, I went home last night and met my mom. She was dreaming about me. She saw me angry and blamed me. He also told me that they were moving abroad, that I was brain-dead and she decided to give up. You knew about this, didn’t you?
So what? I won’t leave you anyway… you wait, someone’s coming.”
Out there, all of a sudden, people knock.
I looked at it in the eye of a cat, and I saw the middleman and Lin Jane’s brother.
I went back to Lin Jane’s room, but the agent already opened the door.
19
They’re going to drive me away.
Why did you break into the main bedroom?
Lin Jian asked me why I pretended to be Lin Jian?
I can’t even answer.
A simple conversation, I know. Lin’s brother didn’t make him his brother.
Otherwise, he wouldn’t have let the living room out of his mother’s house.
But I have reason to believe that it is still here.
I said, “Here’s the lease. If you kick me out, I’ll call the police. I’m sorry.
They’re looking at me.
But I didn’t think his brother had hired a moving company to move everything.
That’s it. I lost contact with Lin.
Because we can only communicate through that computer.
20
In this room, only Alfred and his hair, my hair and Lin Jane’s computer can cross the world of life and death.
That’s why I know Lin Jane is still in this room.
‘Cause I lost my hair in the bathroom, my Alfred’s hair was still cleaned out every day.
But he won’t see me.
I’ll use Alfred’s fur, put out words, try to communicate with him.
But he didn’t reply to me.
He felt like he wouldn’t see me if there was nothing between us.
Sometimes I see Alfred swinging his tail at the air and I know he’s there.
But he will soon walk back to his room, leaving Alfred at the door with a loss of hope.
I tried to see him again in my dream.
Every day, I think of him as sleeping, but I never see him.
He must be avoiding me!
How could you possibly find someone who’s hiding from you?
21
I went to work as usual and took time to see him at the hospital.
Then he went to his mother, told her everything I knew and begged her not to give up.
But she thinks I’m crazy.
I’ve done my best, I can’t.
Every morning I wake up, I will find tears wet my pillow.
There’s really not much time left. I’m losing him.
One day I passed a bookstore and saw Mr. Wang’s book.
It’s a book he wrote to Mr. Lee. Love like life.
All of a sudden, there’s light!
I think of a way to meet Lin Jane!
I took a vacation, bought a collection of Wang Xiao Bo and watched it day and night.
I can’t dream of you, Mr. Lin.
The other day, I woke up and went to school and fell asleep.
Finally, on the fourth night, I dreamed of Mr. Wang Xiaobo.
He was tall, he had thick lips, and when he smiled, he looked at his teeth.
Little girl, you’ve been reading my book a little bit lately…
In my dream, he was in my room, looking through his book and saying,
“You wrote it well! I’m sorry.
“I won’t deny it, but I see you have another agenda. I’m sorry.
“Well, I’ll be straight with you. Can I ask you a favor? Have you ever seen a ghost in this room? He’s my boyfriend. Do you know where he is? I’m sorry.
“Oh, he just went out, like he was avoiding you. I’m sorry.
“Can you take me to him? I’m sorry.
“Come on, hands up. I’m sorry.
In my dream, I walked out of the room with Wang Xiaobo…
The world outside is still empty.
It’s not as far as it goes, it’s like a kamikaze.
“You stay close to me. Mr. Wang Xiaobo said:
And then I saw Lin Jane in a park.
He sits on the swings and goes on running when he sees me.
Mr. Wang Xiaobo pursued him and grabbed him.
“The girls have found this, how can you escape? Don’t run away. Don’t let yourself regret it, right? I’m sorry.
Lin Jian looked at me and said, “How did you get here? I’m sorry.
“You don’t want to live or what. Tomorrow, they’ll give up your treatment. Why don’t you go back? I’m sorry.
“I can’t find my way to the hospital, and I don’t want to go back. Nobody’s waiting for me. I’m sorry.
“I’m waiting for you, isn’t that enough? I’m sorry.
“Forget it, I’m gonna drag you down…”
I didn’t wait for him to finish. I grabbed him.
I understand him, like those who have never been loved, do not know how to love others.
It’s like I’m always thinking that my parents don’t love me, that they only care about my brother, that when they grow up, no one will love me.
But even so, it doesn’t mean we’re losing the power to love…
I know, I can’t lose him.
He stood there with his hands down and didn’t hold me.
And We said in his ear: Believe me, I did not have the courage to face the world before. But now, my courage and your courage will be enough to deal with this world! I’m sorry.
He raised his hand slowly, hugged me and cried like a child.
“I’m sorry I shouldn’t be avoiding you, but I’d love to see you too. But I’m afraid if I don’t make it, I’ll slow you down! I’m sorry.
Lin Jian Bing said, “Wep and cry.”
Mr. Wang Xiaobo is laughing and not saying…
On the way back, Wang Xiao Bo whispered to me, “You didn’t read my book for nothing. Did you just say something to your boyfriend? I’m sorry.
I laughed and compared a silent gesture to Mr. Wang.
He wrote it, but it’s true.
22
I had a dream with Lin Jane, and when I woke up, he went to the hospital with me.
I’ll take Alfred with me, and he’ll see him.
This is his last chance to get back inside!
When I woke up, Alfred was ready to go, and he jumped with excitement, and he was haunting my invisible Jane Lin.
Come on, Alfred!
I opened the door, took Alfred to the hospital, walked three stops, and we came to the hospital.
Security says the dog can’t go in.
I’m going in, I’m going in, and Alfred is walking around the security guard.
We avoided the elevator, climbed eight floors, and finally arrived on the floor where the Lin Jane Room is.
Pushing out the door to the ward, seeing that Lin Jian’s mother and brother were discussing with the doctor…
I know what they’re doing!
“What are you doing here?” Aunt was staring at me and asking.
“Wait, don’t give up the treatment. Lin Jian will wake up soon! I’m sorry.
And they looked at me like a madman, and then they saw Ahf, as if he were a great enemy.
The nurse came to get Alfred out of here…
I went to the bed and prayed,
Wake up. Wake up, Lin Jian!
But Lin Jian in the hospital bed, there’s no movement!
He’s in that world.
“Little girl, stop it. My son knows best. Stop therapy is a relief for him. I’m sorry.
“Resolved? Why won’t you admit it? Don’t think you’re an elder. Did you ask Lin Jian what he thought? Did you care about him in your heart? Did you know about his comics? I’m sorry.
I yelled at the patients and their families in the same room.
Lin Jian’s mother’s face was naked, and she had a bad face.
“Doctor, let the security guard take this crazy girl away! I’m sorry.
I didn’t wait for the security guard to come.
Then Afr came back, barking at him, and he kicked him.
He’s so strong, I feel like he’s breaking my bones.
“Let her go!”
Very weak, but strong voice.
I looked back and saw Lin Jian woke up.
I’m so happy to cry…
He dragged his body off the bed.
Everyone stopped, and before they could react, they saw him punching his brother in the face.
Lin Jian was swaying, some couldn’t stand it, and I rushed to hold him.
His mother looked at him and cried, and I didn’t know it was a lie…
She went up to hold Lin Jane.
“Mom, did you just try to throw me out again? I’m sorry.
That’s what his mother’s face looks like.
She was ashamed, ran out of the ward and his brother Lin pursued him.
Doctors and nurses have been frightened by the medical miracles in front of them.
After a while, the doctor said, “Mr. Lin, lie down. We’ll have to examine you. I’m sorry.
Lin Jian went back to bed and kept looking at me.
I’m ashamed of myself, my cheeks are burning…
“Hey, who are you?” He said.
“I am your mother! I’m sorry.
I yelled, but there was tears in my eyes, and I turned and he took my hand.
“Don’t go, I’m just kidding. You said to face the world with me. I’m sorry.
I turned my back on him and laughed…
His hands are damp and the hospital still smells of disinfectant!
All of this, this moment that he grabbed my hand, it was even more striking in my mind…
It’s a real touch and taste, and it’s a different feeling to see in a dream.
At that moment, it seemed like there was a warm flow from his hand to my hand…
And I’m just holding his hand even harder…
This is my response.
End
Egg 1:
When Lin Jane got better, the two of us went together to each of the places in the simulators.
I went with him to the palace, the Great Wall, the Tiananmen Gate, the nest…
We’re in the most common spot, and we’ve got the most common pair of scissors…
As in the photo of a high-level tourist, we laugh with impunity and without heart!
Egg 2:
When we look at pictures, journals and all the conversations we left on the computer together.
Lin Jian suddenly asked me, “Did your hair always last so long?” Or is it shorter?”
“My hair’s always so long! I’m sorry.
“No, I cleaned my hair in the bathroom. It’s a lot longer than yours. I’m sorry.
“Hey, don’t scare me! I’m sorry.
I said, hit him with a pillow.
Actually, Lin Jane didn’t scare me.
I didn’t know there was an invisible lonely woman in that room.
But that’s another story.
Submitted by: Wang Yixing Record No. YX11MrE0K1X
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
