How does it feel to be home for over three years?
After graduating from the Qinghua Department of Physics, he spent three years at home. I haven’t broken down yet, my mom broke down, crying every day and asking, “Do you want Mom to die?”
That’s right, your suffocating motherly love. I don’t want to put up with it for a second.
It was only a short month since Wang Xiao Jie-fung graduated from the Faculty of Physics at Qinghua University and he gave up his job. He then kept his door almost open every day, without seeing anyone, playing games in his room. Three years later, he was proved: “This man is dead.” I’m sorry.
This man, who has been a good, good, good-looking man since he was a child, is inexplicably wasted. His cousin, who specializes in psychology, said that this was a late period of rebellion. When re-emergence is re-emerged by a repressed rebellion, it will erupt more intensely than at that age.
The most painful of all is probably Wang Xiaojie’s mother. In countless nights, she was completely insomniad by his son’s depravity, smashed his door, cried and screamed: “Do you want your mother to die? I’m sorry.
Neighbors used to cry at this late night.
But he doesn’t seem to have a face, never answer, just sittin’ around playing computer games and lying around playing mobile games, and Wang Xiaojie knows that he’s suffering worse than his mother.
When he plays games for over 12 hours, when his teammates are left behind, and when he’s done nothing, and all the game assignments are done, he’s had a lot of fun, and he’s had a lot of pain every second. Deep down, he still has the desire to succeed. When the old classmates knew about him and greeted him, he knew that there was happiness there. He’s hard to sleep, insomnia like his mother. On those nights, she jumped on his door and shouted, and from time to time she spoke in pain, and while those words were like sharp knives, Wang Xiaojie listened to every word. He did not have to cover his ears to try to isolate those languages, which were already engraved in his heart.
Wang Xiaojie does not earn a penny. It’s impossible to move out of this house, and he doesn’t even bother to think about it. He wanted to die. Is death the best answer for Mom? Can you tell him what he thinks?
But he knew that even if he killed himself, his mother would be happier.
So he lives every day.
His cousin introduced him.
My cousin is studying in psychology and is an excellent girl. Wang Xiaojie was much better than her. For example, when she can only get over 70 in her national math competition, Wang Xiaojie gets third.
The same day, my cousin came to his room and told her to interview the old teacher and meet Principal Chiang while she was doing her dissertation. She had an interesting idea to open a “adult kindergarten”. She said, ” As long as there was one student, she had to set it up.
Somehow, hearing that name alone, Wang Xiaojie’s heart trembled. He dropped his phone and listened to my cousin. She said that every miserable adult could become a child there. Starting with the children in kindergarten, they relive their childhood.
Wang Xiaojie’s eyes are starting to shine and he decided to go. Wang Xiaojie is used to lying when he wants something from his mother. Since he was a kid, he’s been making things up: “Customs’ institute hires interns, pays no money and pays tuition, but it’s good to stay at the institute. I’m sorry.
Mom heard Wang Xiaojie finally stopped dying and was going out to study and work, and even “probably to work at the Institute” and cried so badly. But my cousin said, “The problem is with my aunt, and it’s about to happen sooner or later.” I’m sorry.
“You don’t understand, now be honest, I can go. I’m sorry.
After Wang Xiaojie “lost,” my cousin spoke to his mother many times, but she hated it. My cousin’s point is no more than true.
Wang Xiaojie would never be her fault. He’s got his father’s bad blood. She complains frequently that her son inherited his father ‘ s stupidity and that her husband ran away before his son passed the examination, and that she only considers him dead. Since then, she has been a widow, suffering more and suffering, and it has not been easy for a person to develop a son. But what can we do about it? He’s too old to press his neck at the desk.
When Wang Xiaojie left the house on the first day, she wanted to drive him there as usual — just like the one-month interview where his mother drove him around in a car — and wanted his mother to be “guardian” for whatever he had been doing for over 20 years. He used a killer’s ring: “You give me another ride and I’m not going to work.” “Mom’s scared and afraid to say one more word.”
He had a half-day discussion with his cousin, who was in favour of telling his mother where to go and what to do, because she was the cause of the problem. Wang Xiaojie knows his mother better, to be honest, it’s impossible. It was a long debate and my cousin gave up: let’s get out of this mess.
So Wang Xiaojie became the first little friend of the Adult Kindergarten.
The second little friend is a freelance girl. She likes princess dolls, always writing with a computer, never talking to Wang Xiaojie. This environment is particularly comfortable for Wang Xiaojie, who has never had friends. Since then, more and more children have come, and Wang Xiaojie has not spoken to them on his own initiative, and certainly no one has made friends with him. Every day he comes home from school, he talks nonsense about his mother and makes up his story of “internship at the Institute”. Perhaps for ordinary people, living like this is schizophrenic, but Wang Xiaojie is not afraid. He’s been here all his life.
Until one day, the kindergarten came to a woman who seemed to be a weak little friend. When she entered the classroom, she attracted Wang Xiaojie’s attention. When she went to Wang Xiaojie’s favorite family area, he saw that she was most comfortable there. She was so skilled in “housework” and so gentle in hugging the doll and, more importantly, she seemed more nervous and scared than Wang Xiaojie.
The timid are always afraid of the strong, but when they encounter someone weaker than themselves, they have the courage. Wang Xiaojie said to Xu Qi, “Can I play with you?” I’m sorry. Since then, Xu Xian has become Wang Xiaojie’s first friend.
He’s thinking about where he likes Hsu. She’s a full-time mom, like her own mom. She treated her daughter very harshly, just like her mother. The only difference is that she knew she was wrong, came here, changed. One day, Xiao Jie said to Xu Qi, “The child pees in his pants!” “The baby’s not afraid, it’s okay to pee!” I’m sorry.
And suddenly she jumped out of her little friend’s game, and said, “My dollar wets my pants when I was a child, and I yelled at her every time, and I didn’t understand why she couldn’t even pee. I’m sorry.
“Do you regret it?” He asks.
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
Wang Xiaojie seemed to have seen his mother 20 years ago, trying to learn and correct, longing to be a gentle new mother.
When he came home, he said to his mother, “Don’t you remember, I peed my pants when I was a kid? I’m sorry.
“Why don’t you remember? “Mom is surprised Wang Xiaojie can remember that long ago. “To train you to use the toilet, I broke the ruler. My pants are wet and I have to wash them. I’m sorry.
Wang Xiaojie hasn’t peed in his pants in over 20 years, but he still feels that Mom is angry. “You didn’t do it for me, you just didn’t want to wash your pants. Hit me because I had to wash my pants. Even the ruler broke. I’m sorry.
Wang Xiaojie said with no expression.
“What do you mean by that? How much have I paid for you all these years? I can’t even go to class. I can’t even watch a movie. I’m sorry.
“No one asked you to do this. Wang Xiaojie said:
“You’re… you’re really not having any conscience right now. I was the only one at home watching you. You know what they say? Say I’m the greatest mother in the world! I’m sorry.
“Of course I remember. Wang Xiaojie laughed: “Because you didn’t go, you used this to say me every day. I was good at it, but you weren’t satisfied with it, because I didn’t deserve your sacrifice. I’m sorry.
“It’s what it is, it’s what it pays! Shouldn’t I be mad if I paid for it? I’m sorry.
“What kind of return is appropriate? I’ve taken Qinghua as you wish. Is that enough for you? You said to me, “Don’t be flattered, come back and talk again and again in Qinghua.” I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong with strict requirements? Aren’t you supposed to be in Qinghua? There’s no more moms like me who care about their kids. What’s so great about you? You’ve been unemployed for three years, you’ve fallen, and that’s how you repay me! After three years of bringing up the tears, my mother shed tears.
Again. Wang Xiaojie thinks without face. Every time my mother was upset, she had to mention all kinds of “bad” in his life. Now, of course, there’s another one: “Let’s make her laugh for three years.”
Why listen to this? Wang Xiaojie went back to the house and locked the door.
Once the door was locked, it seemed as if he had returned to three years of despair but with strange hope. This room is his cave, and he’s hiding here like some kind of animal who’s been chased all his life. Even though the winter is coming, there’s always something to eat, but it’s better to starve to death than to get eaten out.
At this time of despair, Xu Xuan called.
“What are you doing? I’m sorry.
A simple greeting among friends has revived Wang Xiaojie from despair. He asked him, “Did you eat? Come out for a while? My daughter is staying with a friend today. I’m sorry.
Hsu said she wanted to go to the trampoline and watch the kids have fun in it and she wants to play. But I need someone to go with her, to give her the courage. Two men went to the trampoline. Wang Xiaojie sits in the corner of the trampoline, watching Xu Quan jump in it, and is happy and rises up and joins Xu Zheng’s madness. Dancing for an hour, Wang Xiaojie thought: being with a friend is too happy. It would be nice to never be alone again.
“What are you going to do? “When we’re done, two beautiful adults are going to have frozen yogurt.” I’m sorry.
“What for? I’ve never been better. “I’m sorry.
“I’ll be your best friend if you can’t find a boyfriend, okay? I’m sorry.
“Of course. You’re my best friend. “He smiles sweetly, like a little boy.
“Will you listen to what happened when I was a kid? I’m sorry.
Every person who enters an adult kindergarten has his or her own story and problems. Wang Xiaojie looks like a nice, handsome, smart and steady 25-year-old young man who should be at the best of times in life. You should work, you should love, you should have so many friends. He didn’t.
“My mother read a book when she was pregnant that said that if she had not raised her child to the best of humanity, it would have been an incompetent parent. When I was three years old, I was four years old, I studied English, and I was in primary school, and I read books that were world famous. From an early age, I’ve been in a variety of O-number competitions, English competitions, speaking competitions, and I’ve never seen anyone before. I’ve been playing hockey since I was a kid. I’m sorry.
“I can’t tell. He smiled and said, “I can’t play hockey no matter how hard I try.” I hate hockey and sports. But my mom says boys have to learn these things.
“I took the science test in our province, and I studied in the Department of Qinghua Physics. After college, my mother sold her home house and shop and moved home to Beijing to accompany me to college. There were so many people in college that my mom asked me to be president. Wang Xiaojie smiles, “How can it be?” I’m sorry.
God, you’re amazing! – Even if you’re not the student president, you’re too good.”
Wang Xiao Jie’s praise of Xu Zheng is not sufficient: “I went to a couple of interviews after graduation, one of which was my favorite, to sell mother and child magazines. I loved that magazine. Every little article was warm and gentle. I’m sure those people are kind people too. And guess what?”
“Mother disagrees” can be guessed with her toes.
“I suddenly felt that there was no point in living. So what about work? So what? Another child will live like me. I’m sorry.
“…I’ve seen some successful people’s interviews, and their parents are very, very harsh, and they’ll be very grateful to their parents for what they did when they were young. I’m sorry.
“These things, my mom’s been showing me since she was a kid. She told me repeatedly that you would thank me later. Then I wondered why those people looked so good. Why am I the only one so miserable?”
Wang Xiaojie stopped talking, he was staring at the table and he stopped talking and waited for him.
“It’s probably because I’m not them. I haven’t lived their lives. I can’t see whether they’ve heard a word about it when they failed, or whether they’ve heard a word about you when they succeeded, whether they’ve been kissed when they had a fever, or whether they’ve heard Mom’s encouragement when they wanted a friend. I’m sorry.
This is extremely sad, but Wang Xiaojie’s face is so cold. When he looked up at the teat, he saw tears in her eyes.
Suddenly a thought broke into Wang Xiaojie’s head. If Xu Chong were the mother of her child, she would never let the child live like this again.
Wang Xiaojie has studied all his life. Examinations, competitions, take first. Not even friends, let alone girlfriends. After three years in the room, he finally had the opportunity to read the story of love, who knew it but couldn’t understand it. Why do you get nervous when you see a woman? Why do you always want to be with someone else? What’s more strange is why it hurts so much.
It doesn’t hurt to be with Xu. Wang Xiaojie asked himself: Have I fallen in love with Xu? How do you get in love with Xu?
The idea just moved, and Mom seemed to feel it. When she came home from school the next day, she asked if there were any good girls at the Institute.
“There is. Wang Xiaojie Zan, reply.
“How’s it going?”
“I don’t know, I thought she was good. I’m sorry.
“You ask. Well, does she look good? How’s the skin? I’m sorry.
… these Wang Xiaojie really haven’t noticed. And he said, “It’s probably good, and her daughter is pretty clean.” I’m sorry.
“Girl? I’m sorry.
“Yeah, with an ex-husband’s daughter. I’m sorry.
“The divorced woman? How old are you? The girl in my mother’s mouth turned into a woman.
“What’s wrong? If that’s the case, can’t I marry her? Wang Xiaojie already knows no more. He accidentally broke his neck.
“Are you crazy? Mom taught you to stay away from people when you were little. Why can’t you understand anything? I’m sorry.
Wang Xiaojie suddenly remembered having a good friend as a child. She’s a wild kid who climbs trees. The teacher went up to the tree without seeing her in the kindergarten. Wang was particularly fond of playing with her, but instead of a few days, she went to a teacher and to a girl’s parents, and said, “Such a child has no schooling, stay away from our son. The parents soon emigrated with their children.
She then asked why he didn’t have a friend on the hockey team. Wang Xiaojie didn’t dare to laugh, but he already laughed 10 times. How do the “good” and “good” boys on the hockey team laugh at him, crowd him out, even if they say to their mother, she’ll think he’s got a problem.
Finally, it’s Xue’s turn, finally 25 years later his only friend. Wang Xiaojie suddenly felt scared. Mom’s crazy is the only thing he knows best about going to Shige to say, “You stay away from my son.”
Wang Xiaojie regretted it, asked if there were any good girls, what’s wrong with saying it’s all male?
Next, it’s the 11th. It ended three years of life in a dead house, which was the height of Wang Xiaojie’s “re-emergence”, who, while not willing to do so, was too afraid of trouble and had to follow his parents around with relatives. When the grandmother’s relatives came together, their mother immediately dragged their cousins and asked, “What’s going on? I’m sorry.
Wong Xiaojie almost went crazy, but my cousin pulled him over. She held Wang Xiaojie’s wrist tight as if she had calmed him and prepared him.
Aunt, let me tell you the truth. Wang Xiaojie is not going to work as an intern at the Institute, but is going to a psychiatric facility. I’m sorry.
…the cousin’s irresponsibility, but strangely, probably because Wang Xiaojie is so angry at this moment. He doesn’t think it’s bad. He’d better be mad at Mom.
“What’s the psychological problem? I’m sorry.
Wang Xiaojie stares at her mother and says, “The psychological problems of the original family.” I’m sorry.
It took Mom a while to react and her eyes were red. “What’s the problem with the original family? It’s normal, but some of the money is for you. I haven’t said anything about you. You’re talking about us? What do we owe you? I’m sorry.
“I love, I respect, I apologize. Wang Xiaojie’s eyes have become red. His heart is raging with intense pain and anger and he is working hard to contain himself from collapse.
“This is the result of your treatment? What the hell are you doing here? Oh, I see. There’s only one divorced woman, isn’t there? I’m sorry.
“She’s not a divorced woman. She’s a good person. She’s my only friend. The only friends left after you took all your friends from me. Yeah, that’s the result of my treatment, because I can finally say that to you. I’m sorry.
There were a lot of relatives in the room who listened to their quarrels and came in quiet. My mother’s tears flowed like waterfalls: “I raised you for nothing.” I’ve been waiting my whole life for you to grow up and thank me for me. She was so sad, she cried and fell on the sofa, “You’re so harsh when you were a kid. Poor mother and father, Xiao Jie, my son! When you were a kid, you worked hard. You were sick and shivering. You thought Mom wasn’t sad? Mom is worse than you! More painful than you! But why do you keep trying? Don’t you understand? I’m sorry.
“You feel worse than me? Are you sure? I was burning for a week, and my back was sore that you forced me to sit there and brush it because I was afraid that I would infect other children and you were afraid I would miss school. Are you cold? Are you in pain? Are you desperate? Why do you think my only mother did this to me? Did someone insult you? Is someone beating your neck while you’re losing sight of your head? Of course I know why you’re doing this, because you’re having a seizure! You can’t put up with me going against you, you have to go to school, or you can’t take it. That time I fainted, Dad took me back to the hospital because you scolded me for over a decade. Don’t you owe me an apology for the trouble I’ve caused you? I’m sorry.
Wang Xiaojie is shaking and his eyes are as if a fire was burning. Mother sat there crying like a spring, and Wang Xiaojie couldn’t cry.
“What’s going on? “It’s Wang Xiaojie’s grandmother. She’s 70 years old and she’s not well. “Why are you yelling at your mother like that? Aren’t we the best kids? I’m sorry.
“It’s true, I’ve never seen this kid for so many years. I’m not sure I’m going to do it.
“You’re your mother’s life! I can’t do this. It’s so sad to see my mom! “The more the grandmother said, the more her mother cried and broke her heart.
“What’s it got to do with you…” She saw Wang Xiaojie staring straight at her mother, and he said, “It’s starting again. It’s so good. Even if I eat less, you’ll have to cry in front of others and let them teach me. I’m sorry.
“That’s not true. Your heart is made of iron. Apologize? “The grandmother was so angry that he was torn up with his hands.
“Why didn’t my mom apologize? Why should I apologize? What have I done since I was a kid? He turned around and forced her to ask her.
“Bullshit! “And uncle yelled.
“Don’t be so smart, talk to your aunt…” and my cousin is a little scared.
“Mom,” Wang Xiaojie stopped looking at the others, and he only looked at his mother crying: “I would like to talk to you very well. But you have to be reasonable. I’m not going home before you make sense. I’m sorry.
Wang Xiaojie left the grandmother’s house alone. It took me two kilometers to wake up and say I can’t go home, but where? He’s all at home. He doesn’t have a share. He has only one friend.
Yeah, I have a friend.
He called Hsu. “What are you doing?” I’m sorry.
He asked if Xu Xian could stay at her house for a day. It’s too much to understand that Wang Xiao Jie is not familiar with the world, and I can’t believe that Xu Xuan has categorically rejected it: “It is not convenient!” I’m sorry.
Wang Xiaojie, who is angry, feels hurt. He said, “Well, then you’re not my friend anymore!” I’m sorry.
He was tall and cried like a child who had been abandoned by his mother and had argued with his best friend. After crying, there was no one to hold him, comfort him and take him home. He had to find a place to live. There’s only one place in the world where he can go.
“Captain Chiang, can I stay in kindergarten all night?” I’m sorry.
“There’s no bed in kindergarten. Come to my house. “Lieutenant Chiang says:
Wang Xiao Jie found himself starving when he saw the noodles made by Principal Chiang. I didn’t even eat. Principal Chiang ate with him and enjoyed it. “You’re finally out of the house. I’m so glad. I’m sorry.
“Is it fun? Wang Xiaojie was very upset, as if he had broken out of the ropes tied for many years, but was not free. That’s what Principal Chiang said. He’s suddenly calmed down.
“It’s a very important step. You’ll get better and better when you’re out! I’m sorry.
“Thank you for taking me in. I’m sorry.
“I used to take students. I’ll take you in together. I’m sorry.
“Oh, good man. Wang Xiaojie admired him. He was reminded of Xu Zhou, cold and cold, and fell to death. When I think of her, I look down on her face and say, “I’m not friends with Sheng anymore. I’m sorry.
“What happened? I’m sorry.
“I wanted to stay at her house all night, but she turned me down. I’m sorry.
I can’t believe he’s smiling again. Wang Xiaojie did not know that she was happy with the progress of Xu Xian, but was hurt: “Why are you laughing? I’m sorry.
“You two are so good. You know her better than I do. It’s all right, good friends don’t make a scene. You need time. I’m sorry.
King Xiaojie sleeps in the principal’s guest room. The guest room was particularly comfortable, and he remembered that many people had lived here. They all got this bed, like themselves, at the most desperate. Wang Xiaojie was particularly tired and lay there as though he had been held by gentle hands, but he could not sleep.
He’s thinking of Xu Qi: Is it true that friends are not in a good mood? It’s normal to have fun. It’s okay. Will it be okay?
He’s thinking about Mom too. It’s not too much to say to Mom when she’s angry. Isn’t Mom really sad? She must be crying alone? Can she make it?
The next day, Wang Xiaoqi saw Xu Qi at school and immediately said, “Don’t come near me, I will not play with you.” I’m sorry.
There was a fight between two men in time. I’m not angry anymore. He wants to understand why Xu Xian rejected him. When they played home together, didn’t they deal with imaginary enemies who came out at night? Of course he should understand that a woman with a child has to lock the door at night and be safe.
“Give you an apple pie. He said, “I made it for you. I’m sorry.
What Wang Xiaojie doesn’t know is that his mother was not alone and she was with her cousin. She’s afraid she can’t think, and she’s afraid of trouble. However, she had to go to work herself, so Wang Xiaojie’s mother spent a day and a half digging up the kindergarten address.
Principal Chiang, who has spent his whole life in early childhood education, has seen countless parents, but for the first time at this age. Of course she’s not afraid, she’s the mother of the child she taught.
“Are you the divorced woman? Wang Xiaojie’s mother was angry with the headmaster of Chiang, who had a cheeky face.
“…I was indeed divorced…”
“You… you’re older than me. Do you have a face? I’m sorry.
Wang Xiaojie heard the sound of familiar roar, stormed out of the classroom and ripped his mother’s hand with a white face: “Go away, I’ll go with you, let’s go outside.” I’m sorry.
“What kind of man is a divorce, and a good son has been corrupted and run away? She struggled in her son’s hand and screeched her head.
Mom wasn’t an uneducated bitch, but when she came out to fight for her son, she always looked like this son of a bitch who didn’t know the law and manners. It’s like she goes to someone’s parents and says, “Your kids don’t have a family, stay away from my son.”
Such outrageous and unjustified screams must have been heard by everyone in the classroom. “I heard you say that a divorced woman may be me…”
Wang Xiaojie’s mother looked at the woman, who was much younger and white, and that seemed to be it. “What do you do? Is my son living with you? I’m sorry.
“Oh, he’s still living in my house…”
“You’re… you’re…” with her infertile imagination, you don’t know what this relationship is, and you can’t say anything. All the little friends in the classroom show their heads, and even the girls who sit and write are carrying dolls.
Who are you? I’m sorry.
“Cousin told you I was in therapy! They’re all here for therapy. I’m sorry.
Everyone in the classroom said hi to Wang Xiaojie’s mother.
With the expression of anger, she turned her back on everyone to see what kind of psychotic veal snake god they were, but they were old, young and old, none of them were decent.
“This is your sister’s treatment? People are sitting around saying bad things about their parents? They’re all heartless, your parents — she’s pointing at all the people who are in groups, saying, “It’s not easy. I’ve given birth to you! I’m sorry.
“Please stop attacking us,” he said, “If you want to know, come with me to the conference room.” I’m sorry.
It’s the first time anyone’s seen Principal Chiang angry. She did not speak like Wang Xiaojie ‘ s mother, and her voice did not rise, but she was surrounded by an inviolable anger.
Wang Xiaojie’s mother looked at Wang Xiaojie and Xu Jin and followed Principal Jiang into the house.
“Don’t eavesdrop…” The kindergarten conference room was specially processed, and there was no sound outside the speech. Xue said to Wang Xiaojie, who was lying on the door.
“Isn’t my mom scary?”
“Horse, Horrible.” He was busy.
“Why did she come looking for a divorced woman? I’m sorry.
“I lied to her about my internship at the institute, and she asked me if I had a nice girl, and I told you. I’m sorry.
“I’m good? Really?” He’s happy, didn’t hear that the subject was on the move.
“Of course, you’re gentle, smart, capable and good for others, and you’re especially good for children. I’m sorry.
“Really? Really?” So many things have happened since Xue went to kindergarten. For the first time, a divorce, an ex-husband coming to a kindergarten, and a little change in the way she treated her children, was the first time that someone had ever said that she was very good to the children. She was moved to cry a little.
“Wow, you’d be so happy. Wang Xiaojie said, “But when my mother heard me compliment you, you made me come here to get you. I’m sorry.
“Sniff”? Do you still think we’re in love? I’m sorry.
“She thinks so. Actually, I thought that if you could be my girlfriend, we’d be happy. I’m sorry.
For the first time in life, Wang Xiaojie would not hesitate to say anything. It’s like a game advice. And Xu Qin heard him laugh: “No, we are not friends.” I’m sorry.
Wang Xiaojie listens to her and suddenly there’s a feeling of squirting.
Although he does not know what love is like, he is well aware at the moment that love is not about love. She is only his precious friend.
“I’m afraid she’s coming to you because she thinks you’re my bad friend. Wang Xiaojie honestly said:
“It’s okay, I’m not afraid. I’ll wait here with you. I’m sorry.
After a while, Principal Chiang opened the door and said to Wang Xiaojie, “Come in and talk to Mom.” I’m sorry.
Mother saw Wang Xiaojie close the door and his neck became tight and his eyes were red. Wang Xiaojie knows it’s just them. Mom doesn’t perform anymore, it’s what she really looks like.
“There used to be a mother who drowned her children. When the child was a child who stole needles, she grew up and stole money and was executed. He said that you would hug me again and bite your mother’s meat down a big chunk while you hug. You know why?”
“This story, I’ve heard it a thousand times, Mom. Wang Xiaojie said calmly.
“When you’re a kid, if I let you play and spoil you, you’re not gonna do anything. You should be grateful to me for sending you to Qinghua. Wang Xiaojie, you should thank me! I’m sorry.
“I don’t want to thank you, Mom. He whispered, “I just want to love you. I’m sorry.
Mom stopped.
“I want to learn love from you, I want to see you embrace me and accept me. I want to see you love my friends and love my dad. So I can learn to love others, love a loving girl, love our home, love you. I’m sorry.
Mom’s neck is soft, and she’s staring at this quiet son… – He complained so much that day. She didn’t believe anything. But now he whispers, as if she were listening.
“Mom, you know what? I said you didn’t accept me, and you never did. You think you’re not good enough? So everything you did to me to make me better and more successful was just a show and a cap. I pissed my pants, and I got you into trouble, and you could tell me you’re tired. But you told me that I was an incompetent child, incompetent, incompetent. My cousin told you I had a mental problem. You were wrong about my education. You were scared, right? Feeling scared is okay with Mom. It doesn’t matter what you did wrong. As now, you can tell me: I left home, and you’ll think of me, worried about what I’m meeting out there, rather than sarcasming me for being corrupt and unconscionable. I’m sorry.
My mother looked at my son and said, “I left home for two days. Do you miss me, Mom? I’m sorry.
She finally shed tears. It’s real heart pain, real tears, real pain. For the first time, she heard someone say to her, “It’s okay to be afraid and to do something wrong,” and that’s from being scolded by her, from being incompetent, and not to say anything about a son.
She suddenly felt that she had been in a place of anxiety and anxiety for too many years.
“I have a good son. I’m sorry.
It was the first time in her life that she had made that statement with sincerity. This sentence makes Wang Xiaojie, who sits across the street, cry.
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How does it feel to spend more than three years at home? – Quietly.
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
