How sweet is school love? – What?
I slit my toes and kissed him, and he kept his face shut.
“Just smoked, choked you. I’m sorry.
“Yes. I insist.
He looked at me, he looked at me, and he ended up groaning and kissing me.
The smoke really chokes on me.
He let me go, and he gave me a heart attack.
“I told you not to kiss. I’m sorry.
(concluded)
One.
I’m in love with Jiang Yu, as the world knows.
Just him, don’t know.
On that day, the camera light hit me and Jiang’s face.
That moment, my brain stopped thinking.
In accordance with the rules, the two people who were projected on the big screen by the camera had to kiss.
The whole scene was transformed from a crown-winning cheer to encouraging me to kiss him.
Kiss!
Kiss!
I don’t know.
I looked down and didn’t look at him.
Imagine him kissing me.
Imagine that three years of dark love can finally be achieved.
But the cheers turned into a hush, and he remained indifferent.
“Autumn and Autumn, I’ve always considered you my sister. I’m sorry.
Sister?
Something broke in my heart.
So he and his sister have a good night each day?
You think about your sister every day?
Ask your sister for gifts every holiday?
I don’t know.
“I don’t want to be your sister. I looked at him like I was dead, but he looked away.
At this moment I understand that he doesn’t know what I like, that he just doesn’t like me enough.
I loved him for three years and he loved his goddess for three years.
Two.
My head was down and my tears fell.
He’s got friends all around him, and he tells him to kiss me, kiss me…
“Autumn and Autumn are good, you earn. I’m sorry.
“Give me a kiss. I’m sorry.
“It’s okay to kiss. You see her crying…”
I feel like a poor clown.
Maybe it was so sad, maybe I didn’t want to be laughed at by the whole place, and I did something I couldn’t even imagine myself.
Turn around, jump on the handsome guy next door and kiss the boss.
At that moment, the field started boiling again because of this unexpected reversal.
That minute, I lost my mind.
What happened, all forgotten.
Remember the deafening applause and the minute-to-minute look that put me out.
And it’s very touchy.
“Get up? He’s got a bad tone. I’m scared. “Want to spend the night here?”
“Ah … no.” I couldn’t stand up for a while.
When I felt his anger, I cried and cried and whispered, “Soft legs.” I’m sorry.
“…”like he was pissed off by me, didn’t talk, and took me back to my seat.
Then he kicked the stool in anger.
“You will pay for the stool.” And when he left, he pointed at the stool under his finger.
I only looked at it, saved it, and the stool broke.
“Good. I’m sorry.
I think I’m messing with a big guy.
I’m fucked!
3
I can’t believe I didn’t wait for you.
I followed up and he questioned me.
“When did you hang out with that guy? Kiss him in front of tens of thousands? Are you crazy?”
“He’s a tattoo, a bubble, a fight, a punk, you like that? I’m sorry.
I’m…
I like what he knows, but he always pretends not to know.
“Just think of it as I like it…” I don’t want to be so confused with him anymore, I just want him to go.
I’m afraid I can’t help it.
The face is white.
Just when we had a fight, we came across a bunch of boys.
“Who wants you to like?” I’m sorry.
Me?
One head on the other eye.
The guy I just kissed!
He put his hands in his pocket, bit smoke in his mouth and leaned on his head to the point where I wanted to hide.
I tried to hide behind the river, but it pushed me away: “What was that? I’m sorry.
I’m…
I didn’t think Edo would leave me alone with these boys.
Watching the back of Jiang Yu’s anger, my heart fell to the bottom.
“Do you think it’s time to solve our problems? “A voice above my head pulls back my thoughts.
“I…we know?” I’m shaking.
Just pretend.
I’ve lived in an environment where I’ve lived since I was a child, the people I’ve come into contact with, not the ones who dye their hair, but the ones that dye blue.
I’m sorry. I’m completely out of courage on the field.
“Huh…” He stood there and laughed.
“Forget it, Zhou. You scared the little girl. I’m sorry.
“Yeah, it’s not the first time you’ve been kissed.
“Come on, little sister, he’s been drinking fake wine, leave him alone. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
His brother was probably watching me cry and he told him to let me go.
He took a look at them and they wouldn’t move.
“Forget it? “How can he wipe it?” I’m sorry.
He reached out to the smoke and pointed to his red lips.
Get out of here!
If I’m not mistaken, it’s my 999.
4
I stunned for a second, shaking my hands, pulling out a bag of make-up cotton from my bag.
“This may be needed.” I’m sorry.
“…he will not speak, he will just stare at me, like he will eat me alive.”
“Do it?”
“Aah?”
“You want me to wipe it myself? *He’s speaking the same language, but I’m scared. *
I had to get up there and help him wipe.
I looked up and saw his red lips, his high nose, and that angle was a little blurry.
When I wipe it, all I can think about is the quality of the Q-shot while I kiss him.
Is it an illusion?
I can’t believe I saw his throat moving so hard.
“You want to wipe your mouth? He grabbed my hand at once, he was a little impatient, “Come on, help my brother throw away the smoke. I’m sorry.
He turned around and left without waiting for me.
I heard his brother talking again.
“What are you doing to that little girl? I’m sorry.
“and stuffed smokes to people, and operated like that. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Get out! His voice was ringing, and the group stopped talking and disappeared in my eyes.
I was relieved.
You look down and you realize that your hands are sweating.
5
The next day, my glory was put on the school wall.
Hanging me is an anonymous user who claims to be his girlfriend.
I guess that means I kiss someone’s boyfriend in broad daylight.
I look at waves and waves of comments and my head breaks.
The whole bedroom was shocked and excited about me all night.
“Chou Frog, you dare kiss me too. I’m sorry.
“Ah, it is said that Zhou was so tired that he had a tattoo on his waist, a dozen basketballs showing his back, and the basketball court was crowded. I’m sorry.
“Yeah, the legend is a string of English names of ex-girlfriends. I’m sorry.
“His ex-girlfriend or a foreign girl? I’m sorry.
“No, you can’t take him if you look at him like that. I’m sorry.
“No wonder, it’s not like we don’t have 36E. I’m sorry.
I’m…
Sack.
“Autumn, you were brave yesterday! I’m sorry.
“How does it feel?”
“If I say I forgot, do you believe me? I’m desperate.
“That’s a shame.” I’m sorry.
Huh?
“But his self-proclaimed girlfriend was too quiet to know which one Zhou was working so hard. I’m sorry.
“Yeah, what are you gonna do?”
“Don’t know. I just want to sleep under my head.
“Well, don’t be so depraved. There’s always a way. They comfort me.
“I’m lost, sister. I’m not in the mood for this. “I’m going to cry.
“You and Jiang Yu don’t like you. I’m sorry.
“How can I let you guess if I like a man, you fool. I’m sorry.
“Oh. “I’m a fool.
You think so, too?
I had a pain in the chest when I thought he didn’t kiss me in that situation yesterday and then threw me right there.
Then I fell asleep and woke up till the evening.
When I woke up, my roommate told me that the anonymous girlfriend became an ex.
Break up?
Shit, it’s a big one.
Six.
A little while later, Jiang-sun sent me a message and gave me a list of the comments on the wall.
“You’re good at it, and you’re into a guy with a girlfriend. I’m sorry.
I’ll see.
“Do you know who I like? I’m sorry.
“…” he only sent a series of ellipses.
This symbol completely breaks my last illusion.
Even if he answered, “We are not fit. I’m sorry.
I’m not so sorry.
But the ellipses were there, and they were devoted to me for three years, and they mocked me heartlessly.
After a while, I guess I didn’t have a message. He sent it back.
“Autumn and Autumn, we’re not right. I didn’t let you like Scum. I’m sorry.
I’m completely speechless. Turn off the screen and flush out the bedroom.
When I found Zhou Zhi was at the basketball court.
First I see my friends.
They looked at me, whispered, didn’t guess. They were talking about the white wall.
I walked under my skin, “Is Zhou tired?” I’m sorry.
They stopped talking and pointed at the door, “In it.” I’m sorry.
“Okay, thanks. “I’m numb. I didn’t even think about it.
There’s probably something they want to say behind them, and I’m embarrassed to turn back too early to hear.
Push the door. Nobody. I’ll go in.
Then it’s settled.
He came out of the towel, probably after taking a bath and dripping water on his hair.
My first reaction was to find his legendary tattoo.
“Where do I look?” He took my God back in a moment.
“I’m sorry I…” I struggled for two seconds to reach out to my eyes.
I just realized it was a little too much to appreciate a boy.
“For what? His voice suddenly appeared before me.
I’m…
“That’s not good. I’m getting tighter.
For a moment, all I could think about was the letters under his eight abdomen…
The next second, I felt a little hot in the head, and then the nose came out with a little sticky stuff.
“Sister… you’re bleeding. I’m sorry.
His words woke me up, and I squeezed my nose with my hand, and there was no cover… Nose blood didn’t seem to stop.
“Do you have any paper?” I’m on my head. I’m dying.
“None. He replied with extreme indifference.
And then I threw a white T, “New, used to throw away.” I’m sorry.
“Good. I’m sorry.
7
So five minutes later, his friend was astonished when I was covered with a blooded T-shirt and was walking out of my room with Zhou.
But the next second was a smile.
“Chou Tired, you’re… too fast? I’m sorry.
“Yes, it’s too soon to change. I’m sorry.
“Don’t play basketball, get hurt…”
I don’t know.
I stood there embarrassed to the toes.
“Get out of here, and your mouth will grow? Zhou was tired of hitting them with basketball.
He’s so mean, he scares me, he can’t talk.
After he’s done training the others, he’s leaving.
Go on up there and call him “Zhou Weary.” I’m sorry.
A group of people stopped and never returned, asking, “What else? I’m sorry.
“About me that day you’re just a misunderstanding and I’m very embarrassed to break up with your girlfriend…” I whispered to myself.
Not yet. He said, “Who is it?”
“I don’t know. Last time you met at the bar? I’m sorry.
“No, it’s early. It’s probably the Net Red…”
“I think it’s Yoga little sister. I’m sorry.
“You’re so full of shit! Fuck! Zhou’s tired probably can’t figure out what it is to look at me.
“Well, see, it was a misunderstanding. “You’re going to make it up to me? I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I was in a hurry to nod my head.
“Huh…” And he smiled, and the people around him laughed, “Funny.” I’m sorry.
“Are you going to pay him a girlfriend? He’s a friend.
“Huh? “I lost one. I’m down in my mind.
Jesus Christ, how am I gonna pay for this?
Where am I going to find a living man?
“They’re all women. I’ll see you. I’m sorry.
“I?”
A bunch of people looking at me funny, waiting for me to answer. I’m a little numb, and I’m trying to ask, “Look, can I? I’m sorry.
Huh…
The group laughed even more.
“Come on…” , “I’m tired of taking a look at it, but I’m tired of eating veggies. I’m sorry.
What do you mean?
He put a card out of his hand and stuck it in my hair: “Come on, 208, brother will tell you what it means.”
After that, a group left.
I took the card from my head. It’s a card from a five-star hotel.
Room card?
I’m shocked by the blanks in the brain.
8
Go back to the bedroom.
“Why do you have a boy with a T-shirt and blood? My roommate asked me.
“I’m ashamed to die… and I’m bleeding my nose. “I’m paralyzed on the table and I can’t stand it.
It’s still the first time I’ve seen a man with a nosebleed.
“Damn it? “The roommates are indiscreetly carrying clothes, “Gucci Lovers T-shirt, he let you throw away? I’m sorry.
“It’s still a limited amount. He’s interested in you, isn’t he? I’m sorry.
Me?
“How much does it cost?” I’m surprised.
“At least a few thousand. I’m sorry.
Thousands?
Sack.
I turned around, took my clothes, washed them, dried them up in the canteen, in my pocket, 208.
I told myself on the way, just to return my clothes and go.
As a result, my front foot entered the elevator, and my back foot ran into the river.
The moment we looked at each other, I hid, I felt guilty.
How did you meet him here?
“What are you doing here?” He said first.
I used to look forward to talking to him every day, and now it’s a little annoying.
I looked up at him for days, and I didn’t see him. I’m sorry.
“Take a friend. * He’s too quick to talk and his eyes are running away *
Intuition tells me that his friends are not ordinary friends.
After dozens of seconds of silence, he and I both appeared at the door of 208.
“Who are you looking for?” He asked me.
I panicked…
I was afraid he would know I was looking for Zhou.
I hid my pocket behind me and felt like I couldn’t hide it.
I regret coming.
It’s opening.
We’ll look over at each other.
A girl came out of the door in a white dress.
It’s like crying. It’s a little red.
I’m shaking.
Because the girl is the willow, the goddess of Jiangyu.
I don’t want to know what’s going on in this room. I’ve never seen him like this.
“It’s cold out, put it on. His voice and movement stinged my eyes.
“Too much trouble, thank you. “The willows will fall into the arms of the river and weep.
I waited a few seconds until they got far away and didn’t come back.
Ezu thought of me by surprise, walking 10 meters and looking back at me.
He looked at me with no tenderness, and all that left was blame for not having iron.
And then he left and I stood there and laughed.
It turns out Ezu is here to pick her up.
9
“What’s your name again? Who are you looking for? The sound was ringing and I found someone standing at the door.
I’ve come back and I’m not in the mood: “Is Zhou tired?” I’m sorry.
“Ooh! “He shouted, pushed the door, let me go in, yelled at it, and said, “Another one is not afraid to die…”
I was kind of scared, standing at the door wondering if I wanted to go in.
And finally, think about it, go now and run into Yuzu. Forget it.
I had to go in with my skin.
As soon as they entered, four men surrounded the mahjong table and played mahjong.
And on the couch next to the sofa there was a man who had his hair covering his eyes and showing only tall noses and red lips.
“Weary Zhou Wake up and have another one, be gentle with him and don’t run away crying.” “The boys of the past shot the guy on the couch.
His eyes were opened from the cracks of his hair, and a line was drawn, and he looked at me a little, and I was scared to step back.
He didn’t talk, he closed his eyes and turned his face in a direction.
“He’s drunk. The boy came here to ease the embarrassment, “Don’t mess with him. Come over here. I’m sorry.
Boys give me a seat.
“I’m here to return something. I’m leaving. “I refuse to sit down.
I’ll be right back. Another boy went out with his cell phone.
“I won’t.” I’m stupid.
As a result, the boy came straight to say, “It’s all right to fight and lose.” I’m sorry.
Me?
He’s out.
I don’t think I can watch him for two minutes.
I had to sit down hard.
As a result, the boy said it was a half an hour.
I’ll play the cards at the same time, and I’ll end up with only a little chips.
He’s so nervous that he’s sweating.
What should we do?
I just thought I’d look back and look at the sleep, and then I’d put a warm breath in my ear.
A hand with a cigarette came out of my cheek, touched the card in front of me, took one and hit it out.
I was so scared I got my back straight, I turned around and wanted to see who.
Then his lips were put a millimeter away from my lips.
Cho’s tired.
He was staring at me, calm and arrogant, and he didn’t mean anything to avoid.
“…”and two seconds after the confrontation, I lost and I wanted to turn back.
And there was a smoke in his lips, and white smoke covered my face, and choked me.
I’m in a hurry and I’m so ashamed.
10
“Why are you awake? A boy asked him, “Take it away and scare his little sister. I’m sorry.
“That scares me? * He picks his eyebrow towards me and he relaxs his body and he falls back. *
One hand was caught in smoke, and the other hand was naturally placed in the chair behind me.
It’s like hugging me.
How dare you come here? He smiled and asked.
He smiles all over dangerous messages.
I’ll get up.
“I’ll return your clothes. I’m sorry.
“Return your clothes? “A boy starts to laugh, everybody laughs.
“No, I’m not. I’m sorry.
“Don’t be shy. You’re the only one who hasn’t been kicked out. They’re laughing again.
I’m…
I turned around and looked at Zhou, “I’m leaving now. I’m sorry.
“No, you go. This mahjong won’t work. Another boy says:
“He’s awake, you fight. “I pointed my eyes at Zhou Zhi.
“…”has been smoking all along, and it’s not like you’re saying anything.
And when he saw My embarrassment, he looked at me, and he fluttered, and said: Fight! I’m sorry.
“Why?” I don’t understand.
Because he smoked a cigarette, and he fluttered, “No. I’m sorry.
I’m…
“You’re beautiful, sister. The man will be back soon. I’m sorry.
“Yeah, you’ve lost so much, let Zhou give you some guidance. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
“I really have to go… I’m not going back to my bedroom. “I’m going to move on.
“It’s closed. * And I’m tired of saying to me, * * I don’t know what I’m looking at. *
I stopped for a second to pick up the phone and see the time.
Eleven!
When you’re done playing cards, you’re too nervous to see the time.
“Just a little longer, I’ll give you a room next door and rest assured…” They tried to comfort me.
And I looked up to him, and he sat there idle, listening to everyone and making no noise.
It’s like a wolf that’s waiting for it.
I hesitated for a few seconds, as if there was no other way. I had to sit down and get ready to finish this, and I had to open my own room.
Zhou’s staring at me again.
Let’s go!
I even suspected that his eyes had not been removed from me.
“You can’t stop looking at me. * I’m whispering when people touch *
“Hmm? He’s staring at me like he’s waiting for me to say something.
But his eyes were staring at me.
“You look at me like this. I feel like you’re gonna eat me. I keep my voice down and try not to be heard.
“…”and his serious look couldn’t stop smiling, and the next second he returned to it, whispering, “Well, okay? I’m sorry.
Me?
He was so natural that my brain blew up.
Is that what I understand?
I was scared to turn back and never talk to him again.
Eleven.
My hands are shaking in the back.
I can’t even open my eyes.
It’s like I’ve done something big.
“Can we stop fighting?” I whispered.
“One more moment. I’m sorry.
“I’m sleepy. I’m sorry.
I’m really sick of seeing them all.
“Locked? Sleeping?” A boy looks at me, and he looks at Zhou, and he swallows what he wants to say.
“Yes, of course…”
A few boys would like to stand up.
Me! Me!
They seem to have misunderstood something.
“No, you’re mistaken. I’m sorry.
“We understand, we understand…”
I can’t cry.
I went back to see Zhou Ti, and he was still free, and of course it was impossible to explain.
Get out of here! I’m sorry.
“Little line, heavy s light friend. “The men’s clothes don’t come in time for them to go out.”
“When will you call us for the money? A boy doesn’t ask questions.
“When did I play cards and ask for money? Zhou was sitting there laughing.
I’m…
“Chou, no, you’re… we can’t go to other girls. I’m sorry.
“…”he stopped talking, slowly stood up, and before he spoke, a few people went outside.
Pop…
He came to the door gently and leaned on me.
“How much is that? Why don’t I give it to you?
“Well, you give it.” He smiled.
I’m depressed.
“It’s okay. He sounds very patient, and I want to cry.
“Can we split up?” I feel like I’m being cheated.
He stopped talking and ordered himself another cigarette. So the dish…”
Huh?
I understand, but I’ve been asking him about almost every card I play in the back.
“Can you fight? “I am awakened and he intended to let me lose.
And he smiled again: “I fight, and they lose their pants.” I’m sorry.
“Then why don’t you fight yourself! I had to fight!” I was so mad at you.
“Remember your memory! He extinguished the smoke, turned towards me, pulled me out of my hand, and laid me down at the door, and kissed me down.
I scared the head off at the last second.
His kiss stopped on top of my head.
He’s acting unexpectedly, and I don’t know what he’s doing. His heart’s about to explode.
“No kiss?” He smiled and said, “Pick me?”
“No! No! “I’m here tonight to tell you that I’ve been thinking about being your girlfriend all night and you forget that I didn’t. I’m sorry.
“Hmm. He sounds like a reasonable person.
“I’ll give you back my clothes. Can’t that just go away? “I’m so confused.
“You said forget it? “Don’t play with me, I’m impatient. I’m sorry.
“Not playing. I’m gonna cry.
“…” He stopped for a second and finally let me go and took a step back.
I’m finally relieved.
“Don’t play if you can’t play.” He turned to get my bag and delivered it to me.
I reached out and picked it up, and he ripped it out and hit him in the chest.
He’s really tall, so close, so oppressive.
He’s down again.
Scared me to block my mouth.
“I’m not a good person, I’m not a good person, you better stay away from me.” I’m sorry.
I was scared and noded.
“Remember. He put a card in my hair and turned around and went back.
“Don’t let me see you again. I don’t play cabbage. I’m sorry.
I’m…
Don’t tell him. I’m sure I won’t see him again.
I snuck out of the room.
Go to the room where he gave the card and lock the door.
12
The next day I went back to school and I was lying on my bed brushing.
Hands low, willow Weibo.
“I’ll wait for you until you turn back.” I’m sorry.
I stopped looking.
Of course I know who she’s waiting for. It’s her god.
I’ll start with the only comments that are dynamic.
It’s Jiang Su. I’m sorry.
A stupid word, the taste of drowning is spilling out of the screen.
And I withdrew from her home page, and went again to the home page of the only person of interest to Willow.
There is still no personal movement, only a number of events retransmitted.
He’s Zhou.
For the past three years, this is how I humbled my daily tweets between three people.
I was once so excited to find the willows with the gods.
I’ll be happy with you.
And?
I think my youth is exhausted and he doesn’t like me.
Thinking of it here, I turned off the screen and removed the trio’s attention.
Just put down the phone, the bedroom came by an impervious guest, Willow.
And she was wearing a white dress, and she was on high heels, and she was so beautiful, and the first thing she saw was, “You and Zhou are not right for him. I’m sorry.
Me?
I’m a little surprised.
I didn’t think Willow would come to me, even though I’d been with you for three years, she hasn’t spoken to me.
The first time I came to you, I was tired.
That’s ironic.
“I can give it to you. She said it was very straightforward, probably because I didn’t react as she expected, and added, “You like him, don’t you? I’m sorry.
I’m…
“He’s not an object. “I’m a little smug, and I don’t like him either. I’m sorry.
“Don’t like it?” She said, “Don’t like it coming back and going back and forth and down a few of our tweets?” I’m sorry.
For a moment, I was shocked and cold back.
How does she know?
It’s a small number. Every time I do it, it’s perfect.
She threw me a screenshot of her phone, and I fixed it, and I almost died.
I don’t know when I forgot to cut the trumpet, but I can’t believe I gave them a compliment with a large number.
Shit.
“That’s just about me and Jiang. “I used to like Jiang Yu to admit it, but I refused to let her point out so highly.
“I can help you. I’m sorry.
Help? I laughed, “Have you ever thought about his feelings? I’m sorry.
It was the same day that Eyu told me to give him to me.
“I didn’t beg him to like me. “It’s a good idea for Willow.”
“Let’s go. I have nothing to do with Zhou Wei. I don’t want to bullshit her.
I’m not so brazen to trade for someone else’s feelings.
“How can you promise?”
“…” I’m stuck.
What guarantees do you need?
I’m coming down from bed, delivering guests.
Then she stood at the door and cried: “No one is more tired than I, and I beg you not to take it from me.” I’m sorry.
“I did not rob you. “How many times do I have to say it?
I admit that the last two days were close to being tired, and I was wondering why a goddess like Willows like that would like that.
I almost got myself into it. I’m not curious anymore.
“You better do what you say. * She wipes her tears and bites her teeth and looks at me *
Pop…
I closed the door.
13
Why can’t I hide?
I haven’t returned any messages these days.
What am I going to do?
I go to school every day, eat, sleep.
About a week later, in the canteen, when I sat down, Ezu came over and asked me, “Why are you doing this?” I’m sorry.
Ask me straight off.
“What’s wrong with me?” I’ve never seen Jiangsu so angry.
“I said we couldn’t do it. You went to her to get me? She’s crying alone in her bedroom. I’m sorry.
He’s in a hurry. He should be worried.
“She means?” I think I have an answer.
I am saddened by the fact that Jiangyu is not a man who comes to conclusions, and that he is indiscriminately now, simply because he is anxious to be with someone else.
“You know, you know, I like her.” I’m sorry.
“…” My head is blank.
At this moment, I know that I can’t be a lover with Jiang Yu, and now I have no friends.
Three years, I licked him three years, that’s the result.
I’m living like a joke. I don’t give a shit.
“I didn’t… she came to me and said, “I’ll let you go.”
Even though I tried so hard to hide my sorrows, the swallows in the voice betrayed me.
“…”
When I heard my voice, we both stopped.
He looked at me for a long time and for a few seconds he whispered, “Come on, Autumn, help me go upstairs and see her, I’m worried about her.” I’m sorry.
And this moment, he put a needle into my heart and put salt on it.
“…”
I stood up as if I was walking, and he took me to the bedroom.
Just a few steps, I looked up, and I saw Willow standing up on the balcony looking at me.
I’m just a tool.
I’m hit hard by that smile, and I’m losing my strength.
It’s time to meet a crowd.
There were a few people in the crowd who said hello.
I looked up to those peach eyes last week.
He caught a cigarette, took a little look at me and didn’t mean to say hello.
I look down and I feel so embarrassed. I feel so embarrassed every time I see him.
But a few more steps, and a bold thought came out of my head.
Then my body went back in uncontrollably and ran in front of the group.
“Chou’s tired. * I ran towards him and looked up at him *
He stopped looking at me and didn’t move.
And I went crazy, hugged his neck, and I tried to kiss him.
Na Ho’s height is limited and he can’t be kissed.
Let go. “He’s not patient, he’s full of warnings.
“Can I have a relationship? “I had the courage to ask him.
“…”he looked at it with a flash of emotion, looked at it, and warned again, “Let go. I’m sorry.
“If you don’t, I won’t let go. * I don’t know where I got that thick face *
“More strong? Fuck. “He’s so mad he’s gonna hit me.
I’m actually getting a little out of the way.
“Please. I prayed to him. I used him only to retaliate, and I feared that I would be more embarrassed.
“How do I put it?”
There’s more and more people around, and he’s losing patience.
“You kiss me. “I was shaking and prepared to be beaten by him.”
“…” he had a second, “That’s a lot of things. I’m sorry.
Before I heard it, he carried it to the wire network next to the field, raised his hands above his head, and a kiss crushed it down.
Because of his inexperience, he kissed me completely.
Even worse, he’s gone deep and took all my breath.
My brain is blank.
The world is spinning.
14
“Is that enough? “Magnetic sound is in my ear, and I’m getting my mind back.
Enough. I swallowed the saliva.
He looked at me, looked down and kissed me.
Help!
I’ve just relaxed my nerves in a flash.
After a few seconds, he finally let me go.
Look at me, go down, pull my zipper, look for a few seconds, find my make-up, take it out, wipe it off.
When you’re done rubbing it in my hand, you turn around and leave.
Gone?
Bastard.
My heart’s still beating.
There’s a lot of people around. I can’t watch.
“Don’t go?” He walked a few steps and found out I wasn’t following, turned around and looked at me.
I guess I’m a troublemaker.
“Yes. I’m a monkey if I don’t leave, I don’t want to be surrounded.
I ran and followed.
He didn’t hold me, nor did he wait for me, but he went along with his brothers.
Autumn. I’m sorry.
There was a sound from afar.
I know who it is.
I held my fist tight and didn’t want to hear it, but I stopped.
There’s something I have to tell you.
I turned around, “I can’t see her for you. Find someone else.” I’m sorry.
Say that, my heart is relieved by half.
“Autumn and Autumn”… the whole man was like a fool, standing there, looking at me unbelievably.
I wanted to say something, and suddenly my head was tied to a hat that I couldn’t see.
I was surprised that, just trying to figure out what was going on, the back of the neck was being pulled off.
“This tm hasn’t been more than half a minute, so put on a green hat? “The sound above the head is low and the warning is everywhere.
“No, you let me go. “Don’t even think about who it is.
He dragged me away like this, and he died.
“Do you believe me? * He’s got his eyes down and he scares me with a cold back. *
I’m afraid to speak.
So he walked to the school door and he let me go.
15
“Where to?” I whispered.
“Drive, eat. He took out his cell phone dripping.
His brother looked at me while he wanted to talk and stop looking at him.
“Where to eat today?” asked a boy.
“Whatever. Zhou has a bad temper, it’s true.
Ask her. He suddenly threw it at me again. I’m sorry.
I’m…
“Sister-in-law, do you like spicy or not? “Boys are good at looking at me and come and ask me.
“Spicy. I’ll be honest with you.
I’ve been called sister-in-law, and my face is red.
“Do you think you can do this?” “The boys seem to be in some trouble.
“Hmm? Zhou has lit another cigarette.
He smokes so much.
“No, Brother Hung, don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying that I can’t…”
“That’s too much to say. “The eyes of Zhou’s tired are scary.
Afraid he’s normal, his brother’s afraid of him.
Me too.
Here comes the car. He’s the first to pull out the back seat and let me sit on it.
I won’t hesitate. I’m afraid of being attacked.
He also sat in.
The space in the car was closed, and for a few seconds it smelled like smoke.
I went quietly to open the window and he was staring at me.
“Doesn’t smell good? He leaned his hand against the window and came to see me with the light.
“Good. I don’t know him well, I can’t just say it.
“Fear me?” He asked again.
I don’t have anything to say.
“It’s useless. He yelled at me.
Then he aimed at a garbage can on the side of the road and took out the smoke in his hand.
“You threw it away…” I couldn’t stand it.
“Well, don’t get used to it?
“Not really. “I whispered.
Although his tone was calm, I heard the sense of oppression.
“I’m just like this, bad, incompetent, whatever you want, sorry, impossible. He looks like he’s hanging. I can’t argue.
In fact, I don’t care.
I’m just a hothead.
Zhou’s famous girlfriend changed fast and had a good time.
Not more than three months are said to have elapsed.
Of course I can’t be the one who breaks the record.
Neither do I.
I’m just forcing myself not to think about Jiangyu, not between Willow and Jiangyu.
I don’t think I’d be more than two weeks and he dumped me.
That’s good.
“I’m not trying to change you. Just be yourself. “I took my attitude right.
He’d better dump me sooner.
“Well, pretty talkative. He smiled at me, “So why do you want to have a relationship with me three times?” I’m sorry.
I’m…
Can I say, is it always revenge?
Obviously not.
“Just…” And my brain spins so fast, I think about something nice, I think about it for half a day, I can’t think of any good, and I say, “You’re so handsome. I’m sorry.
“…”he was staring at me, he couldn’t bear to laugh.
“Don’t expect me, I can’t listen to you, I can do whatever you want, and don’t wear a green hat out there all day.” I’m sorry.
Get out of here!
I’m surprised.
“What happens when you wear it? “I’m such a bitch.
“…”he didn’t answer me, he just returned to one of my killer eyes.
I’ll never talk again.
16
It’s a hot pot for dinner.
Very spicy.
It’s my dish.
He couldn’t eat spicy when he was with Eku, and I spent every day with him eating sauerkraut and making me suspect.
Today I finally ate my heart’s hot pot, and I cried so well.
They thought I was spicy.
“Sister-in-law, I was wrong. I should have ordered the pot. I’m sorry.
“You can’t do anything that simple. You can’t do shit. I’m sorry.
“Getting your sister mad, you should…”
I don’t know.
A group of people started yelling at the orderrs.
“No, no, no. I cried because I liked eating too much. I’m sorry.
“…” A bunch of people are stupid.
“Why are you crying? They asked me.
I don’t know.
“Silent. “I’ve never spoken too much, and I’ve put a belly in front of me.
“You don’t eat?” I look at my belly and spit.
But Zhou’s been drinking with his brother for almost one night.
“Let’s eat enough. He didn’t take a good look at me.
I don’t know where to piss him off.
We had to eat silently.
After dinner, I was killed and they asked me where I was going next.
“I went to the library. I’m happy to wipe my mouth.
“Yo, this time you’ve got a schoolboy. A boy smiled and said,
“I’ve changed my taste, and I’ve been bubbled. I’m sorry.
A group of people started joking again.
I’m getting a little blushy.
“Shut up if you say enough. “I’m tired of being angry.
“What about you? I’m changing the subject.
“The bar. I’m sorry.
“A bar? I looked around and got a little drunk, and I said, “What else? I’m sorry.
“Hey, sister-in-law, don’t worry, Zhou’s drunk and nobody can drink him. I’m sorry.
I’m…
I was just asking.
“Then I’ll take a cab back to school. Have fun. “I can’t go to a bar. I haven’t been there in my life.
In my mind, bad people go, I can’t accept it.
In retrospect, Zhou had said he was not a good man.
I don’t know what to say.
“What’s going on, Rufu? “The boys are asking Zhou’s comments.
Zhou was tired of the smoke and had his cell phone in the car. I’m sorry.
“You’re not with us?” I’m sorry.
“Something. @Ambassah: #Jan25 #Libya
“What do you want? I’m sorry.
“Yeah, you’re not going to have fun with us. I’m sorry.
“Brother Ti… or we wait for you. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
A group of people quit.
Right now, my car’s here.
“I’m going first. I waved at them.
They couldn’t take care of me. Tell me goodbye.
“Can’t I have something of my own?” * * * I’m tired of staring at them. *
“I’ll take a ride.” I’m sorry.
Get out of here!
Not only his brothers, I’m stupid.
But I didn’t dare. I had to go back inside and give him a seat.
“You” outside the window of the car, his brother was complaining that the car was flying out.
And I sat there, and I poked, and he didn’t mean to send me.
That’s not true for couples on campus. Girls’ bedrooms are full of boyfriends sending their girlfriends back.
The two of them hugged together.
The image of him holding my head and kissing me again this afternoon.
My heart beats in the car as if I could hear it.
17
In a nervous mood, we finally got to school.
I got out of the car and watched him come and I got nervous.
Again?
I turned him down. Is he upset?
I don’t know. He’s too strong. I thought he was gonna kiss me.
But I’m his girlfriend, and he needs it. I can’t say no.
I thought a lot of things, and when he got close to me, I just closed my eyes.
And then I waited for seconds, and I didn’t feel what I thought, and my eyes were a line.
I looked up and saw him looking at me.
“That’s what he’s been thinking in the car?” He smiled and asked me.
“Aah no. I’m going to get back to normal.
“That makes Jean…” his eyes point to the road next to his finger.
Me?
So I blocked his way?
I thought he was gonna kiss me, and then…
Shame on you.
“Good. “I’m going to get out of his way.”
He put his hands in his pocket and walked in front of me.
When I walked two steps to think of something, I stopped him: “Chou is tired. I’m sorry.
His back stopped there, not moving.
I ran up there and took out my phone, “I’ll add you one.”
If it were AA, he’d be ashamed and wouldn’t want my money.
“Hmm. “This time, he’s so surprised, he’s got his cell phone so I can clean it up.
He said, “Let’s go.” * * * In the night *
I’ve got my cell phone and I’ve seen the name “tired.”
The head looks like a black cartoon, standard slag.
I shake my head and don’t know what I’m thinking.
Then I went to the library, sat down, picked up my phone, thought about it, or I sent him a message.
“I’m at the library. Thank you for your meal. * With a lovely face *
It’s like peace.
I thought that a man who was tired of such things would not heed my childish sense of rituals, and he said, “Okay.” I’m sorry.
Put the phone down and I’ll start with the English word.
I’m preparing Tofu in three months.
I’m going abroad next semester.
Just because I’ve been hesitant.
Well now, I have no reason to stay.
18
After school, I’ll pack up and go back to the bedroom.
Through the woods downstairs in the bedroom, many lovers are hugging and eating.
I suddenly thought of someone who had to stand there for seconds.
Go back to the bedroom, wash up and find a message on the phone.
Tired?
Or a voice.
I’m a little curious how he gives me a voice.
Without headphones, the cell phone had to be put to the ear and the sound was loud.
It’s probably in a bar or something, and the music’s a little deafening.
I couldn’t hear anything, so I had to put the sound to the maximum, and I said, “Well, I’ll let you kiss next time. I’m sorry.
Whoo!
I’m really starting to freak out.
It’s not just me, because the sound is like outing, and the whole bedroom is in shock.
The air suffocated for a moment, followed by a laughter.
“Autumn, who is this? I’m sorry.
“Before weary, I am dead.” I’m sorry.
“Are you two moving so fast? Why is he so good?”
I don’t know.
A bunch of sisters in the bedroom is making my already fucked-up brain worse.
Really, it’s dead.
“He’s drunk and he’s lying. I turned off my cell phone, and my hands were sweating.
“He doesn’t really like you, does he?” I’m sorry.
“How?” I whispered.
“What do you think? They’re just playboys. I’m sorry.
“Yeah, he’s got plenty of girlfriends to play with. I’m sorry.
“Yes, Autumn, don’t believe it. I’m sorry.
“He can play like that, he’s so handsome, he doesn’t have to. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
“I… of course I know. I always knew that.
I’ve been watching a lot of things since I knew that the Willow Man was tired.
He’s a school figure.
– Because he’s handsome.
Two because of his scum.
Ten stories about him, ten bad ones.
Who fights today, who cries tomorrow… He’s got two words all over him, dangerous.
I didn’t understand how a schoolgirl like Yoo-Yu and Zhou Yi were all the same.
Of course I don’t get it now.
Forget it.
I went to wash, lay in bed, tried to back the English word, and his voice was echoing in my head.
He must have left at night thinking I was kissing.
Shit.
If he’s not here, he’ll make me look ashamed.
I took my pillow over my head and wanted to stop thinking about it.
It’s 12 o’clock, finally asleep.
19
The next morning, no class.
I was going to the library, and my roommate asked me, “You don’t bring breakfast to Zhou?” I’m sorry.
Me?
“He’s not even at school, and he didn’t ask me to take it. I’m sorry.
“You’re so incompetent. He’s got breakfast downstairs every morning. I’m sorry.
Yeah?
After a few seconds, I went to buy him breakfast and went downstairs.
“Are you awake? Can you come down? I sent him a message.
Apparently, no response.
I looked at the time. It’s 9:00. I can’t get a good seat in the library.
I shouldn’t have bought it for him, threw it and wasted it.
I gave him a voice call hard-headed.
It’s still a long time to connect.
“Hello? “The first time I called him, I was embarrassed.
“Hmm. He sounds confused.
I think I woke him up.
“I bought you breakfast. Can you come down and grab it? “I’m not asking, I’m actually ready to throw it away.
“Don’t eat. He’s getting impatient.
Whoo!
He refused quite simply, I don’t know what to say.
“The stomach is sick without breakfast. All right, I think I’m getting bored and ready to go.
There was no sound over there, and after a few seconds, “Are you a pain in the ass?” I’m sorry.
“That I’m hanging up. “I’ll give you breakfast and I’ll hit the wall.
“Well, throw it away, don’t buy it for me later. He told me peacefully.
I’m…
I’m so emotional.
“It’s a shame to throw it away. I’ll bring it to my senior. “I’m serious. The library meets my senior. He always asks for my food.
One more breakfast won’t last.
“All right, Chen Chow, you’re not listening to me? He’s a bit serious.
“What? I’m a little confused.
What does he mean, he scares me again?
“…” he yelled on the phone, I didn’t hear him, and later he said, “Stand still. I’m sorry.
I’m surprised he’s coming down again.
I hung up on the phone and I was standing downstairs waiting for him.
All the boys who pass by look at me.
I’m embarrassed to back off.
Suddenly I got slapped in the head and I turned around.
Zhou Weary! “What are you hitting me for?” I’m sorry.
“You woke me up early in the morning and brought me this? * He’s a little pale with a broken head on his head and he’s looking at me. *
Is it an illusion? I think he’s a hairy lion.
“Here, throw it away if you don’t like it. I gave it to him, and I couldn’t look at him again.
And he took breakfast and laughed, “Don’t buy it, really buy it, wait for my brother to live with you, save the steps.” I’m sorry.
Living together?
I was shocked, no, scared.
“No, we can’t live together, we’re still…” I was so scared I couldn’t read.
“Do you really want to live together? He looked at me funny.
Is he kidding me?
“No!” I counter.
Absolutely not.
How could I…
“I’m going to the library. “I think he’s the only one who’ll make me feel like I’m still far away.
“Sunday brother buys you dinner. He waved at me, “Good student.” I’m sorry.
“We’ll see about that. I ran away.
20
He’s really good.
I sat in the library for half an hour to calm down.
Just calmed down and picked up the phone, and turned into a friend’s circle officer who declared a relationship with Willow.
The following section is full of congratulations.
“Congratulations.” I’m sorry.
After the review, the leading actress of the public announcement sat opposite me.
Willow.
He came to me, and that was the point.
“You’re with him? He agrees? She suppressed her anger and asked me.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
It’s ironic that she didn’t come to me to flaunt the river, but to start with Zhou.
“He didn’t agree, you ask him. But it doesn’t seem to concern you. I’m sorry.
“You…” she’s a little shaky and slow, “So what? He’s the one who won’t refuse. Not more than a week. I’m sorry.
“That’s none of my business. I didn’t want to be with Zhou Li.
Revenge, love for a short time. That’s what I wanted to do.
“Chun, I advise you not to play. I grew up with Zhou Yi, and I know him too well, and now he’s just looking for his girlfriend to get back from me.
“I’m the only one in his heart, you know?
“You think you’re more unique than those girls. He’ll be different to you? Don’t be silly. It’ll be worse when you break up. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
I was shocked to hear what she said.
I always thought the willows were in love with Zhou, and I didn’t think they were talking, but they broke up, and there was a lot of twists in the middle.
She makes me feel like I’m the third person to break them up.
It’s kind of boring.
“Let’s break up. I opened the book, and I didn’t want to hear her say, “You’re not with Edo anymore. You came to ask me about Zhou’s trouble. I’m sorry.
“Whoever says that I am with Jiang, I am just as tired as Zhou. She was proud.
For a moment, I was really surprised by her thoughts and sweating.
Where did she get her confidence?
“Do you know about Ezu? I was whispering to her.
“Huh, does it matter? He always knew I liked Zhou and I rejected him. He had to like me. I’m sorry.
Get out of here!
I’m really going to explode.
How can there be such a girl in the world?
What’s wrong with Jiangyu?
I’ve loved the boy God for three years, and she’s been playing this way?
“He’s true to you. You shouldn’t lie to him. I don’t know what to say anymore, I just feel sad.
She asked me back.
I’m so angry I can’t talk.
“Chou Chen, let’s see who plays and who comes to the end. You must be tired of me. I can’t guarantee you. I’m sorry.
“You’re sick. It’s none of my business. “I picked up the book and left, and I didn’t want to talk to him.
And behind her comes her laughter.
21
As soon as I got to the stairwell, I came across a river with two cups of milk tea.
It’s a narrow path.
Autumn. When I turned around, he called me.
“Hmm. I had to stop and say hello to him.
He came up and put the milk on his hand back.
It’s supposed to be for Willows, not for me.
Thinking about it, I feel a little funny.
I used to buy him milk tea.
“You’re not going to study? What’s going on?” He asked me, “The tone is as gentle as ever.”
I bowed my head, and I was embarrassed: “Well, something’s going on. I’m sorry.
“Good. He moved a little to the side and gave me a way out.
“Bye. “I greeted him, and I didn’t turn my head down.
“We can still be best friends?” I’m sorry.
I’m gonna be there.
I’ve got a lot of grotesque in my heart.
I didn’t answer him. I left.
Can you be good friends?
I’m a mess.
For the last three years, I’ve been hanging out with Jiang Yu.
He’s Ben Suk-suk. I’ve been working with him.
He was kind and patient.
I always thought it would be nice to marry a boy like him.
Just, we have no destiny.
“Sister-in-law. @Georg: I’ve been waiting for you.
I’ll reflect on them.
He stood out in the crowd, wearing a vest and showing strong arms.
As soon as I looked at him, he saw me, but he didn’t stop too much to play.
It’s his brother who’s coming to me.
I stopped and said hello.
“Yes, I’m mad, I can’t sleep in the morning. I’m sorry.
Whoo!
I couldn’t sleep because I woke you up.
I’m guilty.
“It’s good to play. You can exercise. Go on. I am not in the mood to lick people.
“Sister-in-law, we’re so thirsty, why don’t you buy us some mineral water? * He’s a big boy who’s about eight feet away *
I’ve lost my head.
“What brand should I drink?” I can’t say no.
They’re all sweaty and they look tired.
“Hey, hey, whatever.” Boy smiles.
As soon as it was finished, a basketball hit.
“Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I’m sorry.
I got scared and took a few steps back.
And then he came straight at me, and he looked down at me, and he said, “What did he let you do?” I’m sorry.
“Buy water. “Why did he hit him?
So mean.
I didn’t give him a green hat. He’s got his own brother?
“You said yes? I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“Who’s your boyfriend, I don’t know. He’s obviously a little angry.
Of course he didn’t like me because he was jealous.
He’s macho, like he’s possessive, strong.
“It’s just water. I’m gonna buy a box. You can drink it. I’ll explain.
“Wasn’t it stupid to buy a box, have money, or just run for someone else?” He looked at me.
I was in a bad mood when I couldn’t stand it when I faced his sudden anger.
So I set my head down and I was ready to leave, “I won’t buy it, I’ll go first.” I’m sorry.
“Come back. “I just walked two steps and he called me back.
What do you want?
“What?” I asked him.
“Viral, orange, frozen. He said a string and told me, “Just one bottle. I’m sorry.
Me?
He told me to buy him water.
It’s so offensive.
“Can I buy you a single bottle of pulse and a mineral water?” I whispered to him.
And he turned his back on me and said, “Who wants you to mind your own business?” I’m sorry.
“You… why are you so mean? I’ll buy you a bottle. He’s always so mean.
I turned to the commissary.
On the way back with the pulse, he was scolded several times and handed the water over to him.
His brothers looked at me and bought only one bottle and talked about it.
And he bore the water, and he leaned on his head and poured it down.
“Don’t fight. After drinking, he dumped a sentence.
22
Where are you going? I’m sorry.
“Yes, early for dinner. I’m sorry.
“We’ve just played hard, the ball’s on your own, and you’re leaving. I’m sorry.
Zhou was sweating his towels and staring at them: “Who told me last time that I had a hole?” I’m sorry.
“Does the rock melt?”
“Yes, that’s it.”
“Doesn’t you want to go last time?” I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
“That’s so much nonsense. * Come and look at me * I’m sorry.
“Huh? “Why do you ask me, “No. I’m sorry.
They skip classes all day, play around, have plenty of time.
I didn’t.
I’ve got three months to study.
And I’m not going to hang out with them, a bunch of guys, just me.
He’s staring at me, “What, it’s embarrassing to hang out with people like me?” I’m sorry.
That’s not what it means! I’m in a hurry to explain.
“Then don’t talk to me. Talk to a schoolboy. Well, he’s really upset.
“I’m… I’m studying. There’s no time. My explanation is a bit pale. Forget it. I’m sorry.
I compromised.
“Don’t talk to me. He threw the basketball away.
I’m…
Why are you so angry?
“Sister-in-law, he’s so temperamental, don’t talk to him. I’m sorry.
“Yeah, we’re used to it. I’m sorry.
“Sister-in-law, go to the bedroom and bring some clothes. It might take a night. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
His brother came over to ease the embarrassment.
I’m sure you’ll live outside.
But I’m still confused.
Looking at his angry back, I decided to go.
Either way, it’s okay. There’s no need for two people to get together.
Then his brother added me.
I packed one or two of them and went downstairs.
I got into a cab and Zhou was there.
A little awkward.
I didn’t know what to say on the way, I couldn’t look at him, so I kept quiet.
He’s not busy, he’s been sending messages in the car, and a lot of people.
If I’m not mistaken, the heads are mostly girls.
He sent him a long paragraph, and he looked at it, and he said, “Oh.” I’m sorry.
Huh?
He’s a piece of shit.
I whispered his name.
“Hmm. * He’s down on his head and he doesn’t look at me *
Can you close the window? I’m a little cold. “It’s windy on the way and I really didn’t think it was so cold.
“The car’s boring. He dropped his phone and finally looked up at me, “Cool is next to me.” I’m sorry.
I’m…
How I’m next to him.
“Isn’t it cold next to you? I’m so speechless.
He took a picture of his place and laughed at me: “Love can’t come.” I’m sorry.
Is this a step for each other?
I was embarrassed to think he was mad at me on the way.
He gave it all to the steps. I had to sit down.
“Is it cold?”
“Cool. I’m sorry.
He’s full of shit. Can he get warm next to him?
Where’s the cold?
“Hands, heads. I’m sorry.
And the next second, he pulled up my hand and put it in his clothes, naturally, and asked me, “Is it cold?” I’m sorry.
“That’s not good. My hands are trying to shrink back.
Help, his roommate and the driver are still in front, and it’s weird that I’m in the back with him.
How about this? He held me in his arms.
Zhou Weary! I was shocked to warn him.
“Well, why don’t you scream louder, and what do people think we’re doing behind him…” He’s a jerk.
“What are you talking about? “I’m in a hurry.
“I’m not afraid, I just didn’t do it. I’m a bit of a loser. I’m sorry.
“You…” I can’t say anything about him.
Fortunately, his roommate seemed asleep in front.
“Sleep on me, call you when you get there. “He stopped teasing me and kept playing with his cell phone.
I’m a little sleepy.
And I don’t care about him anymore.
It was warmer by him, and I leaned my head on his shoulder.
“It’s not light. #He whispered #
Me! Me!
He hates me?
He just looked up and tried to talk to him, and because of that, he almost hit him on the lips.
My heart’s beating again.
And he stopped and looked at me unsuspecting.
I can’t watch my heart beat faster, I can’t see it.
“Look at me.” Want a kiss?”
My head blew up.
He is so reckless, whatever he wishes, and dares to say anything.
I was afraid that he would kiss me and bury his face in his clothes, with little hope in his heart.
He didn’t react.
And I looked at him, and he was focusing on the game.
Me?
Okay, I’m better off playing. What am I looking forward to?
“Sleep, and watch.” But he came with a cold sentence while he had not looked at me.
Now I’m really asleep.
23
When we got there, there was a wind.
It’s not that short, I can’t even cover my knees, I’m all red.
I feel sorry for Zhou.
But he looked down an inch and wrinkled his head: “What is wrong with you?
He smiled and I felt dangerous.
I’m…
“I usually wear it like this. I’m gonna cry.
What’s wrong with a girl in a dress?
“That’s the way to seduce your love brother? * He suddenly took his coat off and tied it on my waist *
“You don’t have to say that. He’s really annoying.
“I know it’s ugly, and I put it up every day. * He yelled at me for no reason.
I don’t know what to say at a time.
Am I too obvious? Why does he even know?
He probably knows I’m using him, so he’s always mad at me.
Maybe this trip is the last time he’s with him.
Go back, he’ll tell me to break up.
Thinking about it, my heart suddenly lets go.
It’s okay.
I’m not talking anymore.
Then I followed him quietly.
It’s so dark inside, even with a light, it’s scary.
I couldn’t get a sightseeing on my way, so I was afraid I’d get lost.
Then I took a call from my mom. I really lost it.
My mom’s voice was intermittent because of the bad signals in the cave, and I went to a big place, and I answered the phone, and people were gone.
I go in, I walk, I walk, I get fewer.
My heart’s starting to panic.
The walls of the cave are luminous, especially like a ghost.
I’ll get Zhou’s voice phone.
As a result, the signal is not good, and each time it’s disconnected or it’s not available at all.
Blame myself for watching too many ghost pieces, and now my head is buzzing.
“Chou Weary, I’ll wait for you at the gate.” I’m sorry.
I sent him a message, but there was a red exclamation sign, no signal.
After sending the message, there was no tourist around.
I’m totally fucked up.
I started to speed up the crossing through memory, and then I remembered something, and I went further and further away.
My heart’s beating is starting to accelerate and the steps beneath my feet are not stopping.
“Zhou Weary, I feel lost. I have no hope in sending this message.
Because none of the last messages were sent.
I walked for a few minutes because I was too scared, and I slipped, and I went straight to the ground and threw a dog into shit.
I was lying on a pebble and I was scared.
Get up and find your knees sore, it’s probably bleeding.
I sat on a rock, looking around alone, feeling useless.
You can’t chase a man for three years, and he’s always the one who dares to try and fall in love.
Emotions erupted at that moment.
I couldn’t help crying.
“Why are you crying? “As a matter of time, a voice was raised.
24
The feeling of familiarity makes me feel like I’ve found the straw.
I looked up and looked at his face with tears, thinking that he had lost me, even more.
“I can’t find you. * I can’t talk *
“…” he was probably surprised by my crying face, and it took me a long time to reach out and rub my head, and “I went to the bathroom, and you were gone. I’m sorry.
“Huh?” To the bathroom?
“It’s my fault. I should have known you wouldn’t mind. “He started to sigh.
I’m not talking.
“Now go, or you’ll sit here for a while. He asked me.
“Wait for a moment. I explained, “When I cry for a while, they’ll see me. It’s embarrassing. I’m sorry.
Oh, my God.
He looked around and sat next to me.
“Go ahead, cry. He calmly asked me, “I’m not good to you?” I’m sorry.
I’ve been thinking a little bit about how he’s always hitting the worst.
“No, I’m a little scared. I’m avoiding the heavy weight.
“A man in his twenties will cry because he’s lost in the scenery. He looked straight at me.
“Then don’t say anything. I whispered.
“Hmm. He kept looking at me, “Let’s not talk, let’s not talk. I’m sorry.
“What did I say…”
“Chou Chen, I am such a man, I speak and do things in such a way that you don’t bend, you can bear it, we can go on, we can’t take it…”
“I can’t take it … what will happen?” I whispered, “Will it break up? Like many of your predecessors? I’m sorry.
He’s staring at me.
I know I’m probably breaking up with him.
I laughed.
“You think I’m stupid, I’ve liked a boy for three years and I’ve been willing to do everything for him.
“Beware of this friendship, I was asked why I did not speak directly, why not let him know.
“I’m not stupid. I’m just not sure he likes me as much as I like him. I’m afraid I can’t even make friends after I confess.
“I was going to confess that day, well, he knew all my thoughts, and then me and he can’t even be friends now.
“We’re not the same people, you’re direct, you can’t stand the way I am. Have you thought, you’re direct because you have capital, because those girls like you? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
He was quiet for a moment, like he was angry, and he got up and left.
Walking a few steps back to me, he said, “Who’s playing?” I’m sorry.
“I’m not playing with you. I was kind of scared, “I wanted to be with you from the beginning, it was just your way, it hurt me, didn’t you? I’m sorry.
“…”he couldn’t talk, and suddenly he picked me up.
I was scared enough.
His kiss was crushed before he returned.
Strong and hecticly took my breath.
I reached out to him.
But he turned away from me, so he tightened me up, and he attacked me: “Shut up.” I’m sorry.
I’m speechless.
“…” kissed for a while, he groaned and pulled my neck out.
I was shocked and he went along with the kiss.
My heart is beating so fast, the whole thing is floating in the air, and I can’t push him away.
The world fell with him.
And when he kissed him, he finally let me go: “Do I hate you?” I’m sorry.
“No, I know. “I’ve been completely captured by him. Don’t ask me questions. I’m not thinking straight.
“…he touched my head gently and put me in his chest, “Listen. I’m sorry.
And my ears were set on his chest, and there was a loud and powerful bang.
25
I’m stupid.
In this cave, only our breaths and our heartbeats are echoing.
It’s a lie not to move.
Later, we both stayed calm for a while before moving out.
He naturally pulled me. He was the only one I ever saw.
“Be careful. He’ll remind me where there are steps.
It’s not gentle, but it warms my heart.
He saw my knee crack and didn’t propose to carry me.
I’m still a little disappointed. It’s not exactly the same as novels.
“What do you think?” He saw me and asked me.
“Ah… nothing. “I scolded myself for what I thought every day.
He stopped and whispered in my ear, “Not without you.” I can’t be too close to you now…”
Why? “It turns out I’m a bitch.”
Because he looked at me with his bitterness: “I am a man who has kissed for so long do you not understand or pretend not to understand?” I’m sorry.
“I see. “I’m ashamed of my cheeks and I won’t look at him again.
“If I don’t go by myself, leave me alone. I’m really thinking about him.
“Touch it, not yet. He smiled at me.
“All right. “I’m in the red and he’s pulling me out.
And then I knew that the cave had a security exit sign and I forgot everything.
And when we went out to meet his brother, they started to get up again.
“You and your sister-in-law spent 30 minutes in there. What are you doing? I’m sorry.
“Guess what? How can we be so weak? I’m sorry.
“Sister-in-law is blushing. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
These people are so full of shit.
I’m really ashamed of myself.
“What, you know? Do you have a girlfriend? Shut up. I’m sorry.
Zhou was tired of covering my head with his caps and staring back at those who watched.
That’s the clarification?
I think it’s getting darker.
Sack.
Before dinner, Zhou had suddenly asked me to go first with his brother. He had a problem.
“Can’t I come with you?” I whispered to him.
Because I’m a little shy, and I can’t stand it when I’m with his brother and they’re up again.
“You better not go. He took a glimpse of me.
“Why? “I’m not giving up, I’m just too shy.
“…” he stopped talking, and he ended up sighing, “Let’s go. I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
I followed him happy. He said he was going to buy something.
I went to the supermarket with him.
Buy me something to eat?
He’s so nice!
He’s so sweet!
Until he stood in front of the cashier, staring at the neat little box, asking me, “What tastes like, I’m really stupid.”
“I’ll get another bag of chips. “I turned around for a second and ran to the snack section, and my heart was beating to the throat.
What’s wrong with him?
How could he buy…?
He said I better not go and let me stay with his brother just so I don’t feel so embarrassed.
I’m really dead.
In the snack section, it took half a day for me to get out and see that he had paid for me at the door.
My heart keeps beating so fast.
I couldn’t look at him all the way.
Even more afraid to talk to him.
Thank God he didn’t talk to me.
26
At dinner, I was so upset.
Zhou’s tired like he’s all right. He still drinks and eats, and he talks about his brother.
It’s a persistent crime. It’s a good psychological condition.
I scolded him, and I gnawed him.
His brother gave him another drink and my eyelids jumped.
“You … drink less. I pulled his sleeve.
“Hmm? He turned his face to see me.
What can I say?
I can tell you what he wants to do to me after drinking.
“That’s where we’re going. “Don’t worry, I won’t get drunk.” I’m sorry.
“I watch the news, a lot of drunks, dying. “I reminded him kindly.
He smiled. He seemed like he laughed lately.
He smiled with two shallow pear vortex, which was confusing.
He looked down at me, and took advantage of it.
I’m…
Damn, there are so many people.
My face is red.
“No, Zhou. I’m gonna cry, “You watch the impact. I’m sorry.
“Good boy. “Don’t worry, I won’t drink after this little cup.” I’m sorry.
All right, I’m going to lower my head and play with my phone.
Is he a leprechaun, whether he smiles at me or is mean to me, and all the love that comes out of his eyes.
I’m getting a heart attack.
“You’re really not a human being. Get us out of here. The dog’s stuffed in tons. I’m sorry.
“Yeah, I haven’t eaten so much dog food in my life. I’m sorry.
“We’re so cheap, we eat from beginning to end. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
His brother’s startling again.
But he was not shy at all, nor modest at all, and he said, “Take it,” and he took everyone back.
I had dinner and went back to my place.
In the middle of nowhere, his brother went back to his room to sleep without having to play a game or anything.
“Do you go first or should I go first? Zhou was tired of smoking, pointed to the bathroom, and asked me, “Or together?” I’m sorry.
Together?
I’m really freaking out.
“Chou’s tired. “I stopped him.
“Hmm? I’m sorry.
“We were in love less than a week ago. I’m sorry.
“Hmm? I’m sorry.
Huh? Am I not clear enough?
I was forced to say, “Shall we open two rooms?” I’m sorry.
He stunned for a few seconds and laughed, “Two? I’ve been poor lately, I’m broke. I’m sorry.
No money?
I was really shocked by his statement.
You’ve got no money?
If I do, I’m stupid.
“I don’t know how your old girlfriend got along, and I hope you respect me, and I can’t accept…”
“How long can you take it? One month? Two months? Don’t tell me about six months?” He’s a little in a hurry.
“A year. I’m shaking to say both words.
He looked at me with shock and took a deep breath: “I really want to curse.” I’m sorry.
Me?
“Forget it, hold me, hold me, you find another one. He has some complaints.
“You… don’t get mad. I tried to comfort him.
And he looked at me, and he said, “I blame myself, and I have found myself a man of purity.” I’m sorry.
Whoo!
He’s got a temper again.
I can see he’s agitated and smoking.
27
Last smoke out, let me through.
“Come here, I won’t eat you. I’m sorry.
“I fear you will hit me.” He really looks like a grumpy lion.
“Strike you I” he took a break and said, “Come here, give me a kiss.” I’m sorry.
“Aah?” I’m a little shaky.
“Don’t give a shit about it. You think I’m out of town?” He was staring at me.
I think about it, and he has some sense.
It’s too much not to kiss.
And We walked in slow motion, and he was not near, and he became impatient, and pulled me in his arms, and he crushed down with his open kiss.
Deep down, he’s dumb and he’s ripping my waist, “Is it okay? Baby.” I’m sorry.
Baby?
I’m all fucked up.
Finally, “No. I’m sorry.
He had to do it, whispering, “Fuck.” I’m sorry.
Kiss me again.
He finally let me go and finally went to his brother’s room.
“Call me if anything happens. Before he left, he told me, “I’m on 24 hours. I’m sorry.
“Good. I’ll drop him off at the door.
“What’s the matter? I’m sorry.
Pop…
I ran into the door.
Listen, he’s gone, and I thought it was funny.
After washing, I lay down, thinking of the magical day, and my mouth couldn’t keep up.
I’m finally in love.
Zhou Zhou was more gentle to me than anyone, even though he was a bit mean and angry.
I’ve been blessed by the consequences.
As for the others, good and bad, it’s none of my business. I can’t afford it.
I can’t really pretend to like someone.
It seems that the obsession in the heart has disappeared.
28
Tour’s over, back to school.
I’m still in the library every day, and I’m tired in the bar.
Sometimes I think it’s amazing that I’m with someone else.
Every day he sent me to the library door, and he left.
I finished my study at night and he came to pick me up in the bedroom.
“Chou’s tired. He took me step by step on the way back to my bedroom.
“Hmm? I’m sorry.
“Don’t you feel tired running around and picking me up in your bedroom every day? “I went to the library for three hours, and he went to the bar for three hours, running back and forth.
I told him not to come and pick me up, but he said that the school had been a little rough lately.
“I’m tired. He’s groaning.
“You don’t have to go to the bar. I tried to ask him.
I don’t know if he’ll be angry.
After all, when we first started together, we said, “Don’t interfere, don’t want to change each other.”
He didn’t react, but he asked me, “Where am I going?” I’m sorry.
Where to?
That’s a good question.
I don’t know.
He doesn’t learn all day, except bars and nightclubs. I don’t really know where he’s going.
“Chou Ti, do you have a place to go? I held his hand and asked him, “Do you want to go to a country like this?” I’m sorry.
“…”he stopped and his face became serious.
He finally let go of my hand, went to the hidden flower field, sat down and touched a cigarette.
It’s a little chilly, and I don’t know if I’m wrong.
I was careful to go down and see his eyes.
“Are you angry? I’m sorry.
“None. He’s avoiding my eyes.
And at that moment I felt that he had something on his mind.
He is not a boy who doesn’t care about anything like he seems, but he does not want to show his other side.
“I’m your girlfriend. You can tell me if you’re unhappy. I wanted to make him happy, “Of course you don’t want to say it, and I’ll wait for the day you’ll share with me.” I’m sorry.
“There’s nothing to say. He hesitated for a while and finally eased down and reached out and touched my head.
“Well, I’ll sit with you. I sat by him and looked at him in peace.
“When I was little, I wanted to go to England. He suddenly said something.
“English? Really?” I’m so excited about it, because I’m going to study in England.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“Why?”
‘Cause I heard my mom went to England. He smiled and said,
Even though he said it calmly, I felt a bit sad.
What do you mean?
“It doesn’t mean anything, ran off with another man, went to England, never came back. I’m sorry.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
But I thought Zhou’s mother was young and beautiful and often appeared in the papers.
“You know, that pretty woman is my stepmother. He smiled, “How could I be 10 years older than me? I’m sorry.
I realized that.
He was so rebellious that he was involved with his family.
I have never thought of a male who is so open and fearing the heavens and the earth, and one day there is a man who fears to mention.
There are also wounds deep inside him that cannot be removed.
I don’t know why I suddenly thought of the English names on his waist, and an idea flashed through my mind.
I dared to ask him, “Is it about your mother? I’m sorry.
“…” he was obviously shocked by my thoughts and couldn’t speak for half a day.
“Or is it your mother’s name? I’m going to ask again to test my guess.
He avoided my eyes: “Thought too much. I’m sorry.
He said that he had a lot to think about and more to confirm my guess.
He’s been missing his mom, so he took her name to the most secret place.
After I figured it out, there was an emotion in my heart.
Rumours were terrible, that it was his foreign girlfriend, and he never clarified that he preferred to be misunderstood rather than to be told his secrets.
“Chou is tired, don’t smoke. “I don’t want to break him, he doesn’t want to tell me that I’m willing to keep him secret.
“What do you care?” He returns to his usual tone.
That’s what I like about the boy who’s never gonna be taller.
“I don’t care about you. “Don’t kiss me next time. I’m sorry.
“I’m lazy. I’m sorry.
“You said that. I’m getting up and going.
He pulled him in and kissed him.
Well, it’s him, rude.
When I went back to my bedroom, I kept a secret that I couldn’t sleep at night.
There’s only one crazy idea inside. I want him to go to England.
29
The next day, Zhou and his roommate sent me to the library door.
“Chou’s tired. “I whispered to him.
“Hmm? He put his hands in his pocket and stood there.
I looked at his roommate and found it difficult to say something.
Say something. He looked at me funny.
I went to him and whispered, “Can you stay with me at the library for a while?” I’m sorry.
“…he picked his eyebrow at me, “What do you want? I’m sorry.
I’m…
“Nothing! “When I think about you, I want to look at you, so I can learn. I’m sorry.
“…”and he dazzled for a moment, and he laughed, and he looked down in my ear, and he said, “I’m going, and you’re not going to study. I’m sorry.
It stimulates me to hallucinate a spirit.
I’m a little out of line.
He reached out and rubbed my hair and greeted his brother again.
I’m in a hurry.
“Chou’s tired. “I grabbed his finger.
His fingers are so cold.
He’s stuck in his body, looking down at my hand, laughing, “Don’t study if you want to stick with me, brother doesn’t go to the library.” I’m sorry.
“But I don’t have time for this. I have to take the word. I hold him, “Just one time with me?”
“I went to the library. Did you make my brother laugh at me for a year? And he began to groan, and he said, “It’s over for you, one day I’m looking for something.” I’m sorry.
He ended up with me at the library.
His brother was naturally shocked to say nothing.
When I got into the library, I had some regrets because the girls around looked at him, not only looking but also taking pictures.
“Now you’re satisfied? He took a comic book, and he didn’t smile at me, he looked around and shrugged his shoulders.
“You leave them alone. “I’m in the dark.
In fact, I am concerned that the problem of getting tired of the library has been spreading in schools.
He just started reading comics and playing games.
Then I handed him the Tofu file and asked him to study with me.
“Chou Chen, are you playing with me?” He looked at the learning materials, and was unloved.
“I’m not playing with you. “I’m going to study in England next semester, and if you don’t sit with me, I’m going to waste my studies because I miss you too much. I’m sorry.
“…”he’s been waking up all day, “You’re going to England? I’m sorry.
“Well, that’s why I’ve been studying Tofu. I’m sorry.
“You’re the schoolboy, I’m the scum, you’re the brain, you break up, you find one over there, I can’t stay. * He yelled at me with his anger.
“But I don’t want to break up. I’m sorry.
“Don’t go. He threw it at me. He had to go.
30
As expected, the next day, Zhou Jigil went to the library for his girlfriend.
“Come on, Autumn, come back for a trip, you’re killing the prodigal son. I’m sorry.
“It’s crazy what you gave him. I’m sorry.
“Yeah, the guy who fights is going to the library for love. Help, that’s good. I’m sorry.
“Are you two… are you…? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
As soon as I got back to my bedroom, I was tortured by my sisters.
“None. “I’m impressed. They’re full of shit.
“He’s so weak?”
“I’ve only known him for two weeks. I’m sorry.
“As opposed to him, you can guard against all the foxes around him. I’m sorry.
I’m…
I’m not talking anymore.
I didn’t think about it. I thought he’d dump me soon.
So I’m clear with him.
But now I ask myself, will you?
I’m starting to hesitate.
He was a little angry about my trip to England, and he hasn’t sent me a message since last night.
“Are you going to the library today? Can we sit next to you and see the handsome? My roommate asked me.
“Where’d you get that handsome guy?” I’m speechless.
Zhou’s tired! How about we volunteer for dog food? I’m sorry.
I kept my head down, I had a fight with him, he wouldn’t come. I’m sorry.
“Why is it only a couple of days before you fight?” I’m sorry.
I had to repeat my trip to England.
Listen, they say I have no brains.
“This relationship is unstable, so you say you’re leaving. Who wants to play with you?” I’m sorry.
“What are we going to do?” I’m really not experienced in that.
“You have to make him fall in love with you, and you don’t have to mention it. He has to follow you. I’m sorry.
The roommates were so eager to give me the skills of love. I could hear it.
Because of my pride, he didn’t contact me, I still didn’t.
I wait every day for his phone calls, messages, until he’s tired.
I even thought he might really get tired of me.
On a trip, kiss me, say like me.
It’s a vague impulse.
I had to go to the library and get busy without thinking.
31
On Friday night, I finished reading at the library and on my way back to the bedroom, waiting for his call.
That moment, I was surprised.
I tried to scream, “Chou is tired.” I’m sorry.
There’s no sound over there.
Pop…
Hang up on my phone.
Me?
Why didn’t you say anything?
I had to call back.
It took a long time to get picked up.
I have a bad feeling about this.
“Chou’s tired. I whispered at him.
“Chang Chow?” is a woman’s voice.
At that moment, I was in a bit of a mess.
If I’m not mistaken, the voice is Willow.
“I look for Zhou,
“He’s been drinking. He’s drunk. It’s not convenient. She said something that made me feel bad.
It sounds like a bar or something.
So why are you hanging out with Willows again, or have I been ignoring them for days because of other girls?
“Where is it, I’ll find him. * I bite my lips, and there’s vinegar in my heart *
“It’s too late. The bedroom is closing. He doesn’t want you out. I’m sorry.
“Don’t you worry, tell me where it is. I’m sorry.
“What if you’re here?” She said to me, “Do you think you and he are in the same world?” I’m sorry.
“..” I’m just saying.
“Chou Chen, leave him alone. He hasn’t mentioned your name all night. I’m sorry.
I was struck by her.
I hung up on the phone, and I sat down at the flower table under the dorm, thinking about what happened.
It’s not true not to be sad.
But did Zhou Yi and I share the same world?
I asked myself more than once.
The answer is, no.
There is too much gap between me and him.
I’m having a headache when I think of these problems.
I’ll do it anyway.
32
It’s my first time in a bar.
When I came through the noisy crowd to their K-seat, I’d been down half.
Is this his world?
There was alcohol, smoke, music and exposed girls in all colours.
I’m a little shocked.
Of course, he’s not much better off seeing my face.
I saw him sitting next to his brother, Willow and several other girls sitting further away.
He doesn’t look drunk.
But not necessarily. He’s a good drinker. He can’t tell if he’s drunk or not.
I walked through it with a hard head, and his brother gave it a very interesting place.
“What are you doing here?” He smiled and asked me.
This is also the first sentence we have said in a few days.
“They say you’re drunk. “I was blinded by him.
If I say I’m here because of Willow’s phone call, will he laugh at me and be jealous?
“Drink, you bring me back?” He asked.
I’m…
“I can’t lift it!” I’m serious.
“Not drunk. He reached out and rubbed my head, and he said, “Idiot.” I’m sorry.
“This place isn’t for you. Don’t come again. “He looked at my clothes and kept picking up a drink and drinking again.
I was stabbed by his words.
Is he talking about the big difference between me and him again?
I bite my lips, I don’t speak.
And as soon as he was about to drink, We reached out and took his drink, and put it to the side of the mouth, and leaned on his head, and drank it all.
After I finished, I didn’t know the wine was so hot, it was a little smokey. I turned around and I said, “Is it right now?” I’m sorry.
“…” He’s holding up.
Not only him, but also his brother, including the Willows.
“Sister-in-law, drink some water, it’s spicy. “Someone brought me water.
I had to pick it up and drink a little.
Everyone here knows I’m in conflict with Zhou.
It’s a little awkward.
“Chou, I’m not right. Someone else is right, okay? “I couldn’t stand to kill him.
“…”he stares at me, wrinkles and doesn’t speak.
My tears fell off that moment.
I don’t know if I’ve been drinking or not, but I feel like I’m ashamed and I want to go.
Just one step, someone pulled him back.
I fell into someone’s arms.
“Let’s be clear. He whispered to me.
“Don’t want to say it. It’s bad to be surrounded.
Especially his brothers.
“Well, I don’t want to say now, I’ll find you a place to talk. He’s obviously a little angry too.
He stood up and took me in his arms, without any attention, and went outside.
I’ve been gone for a while. I’m getting a little hot in my head.
The whole person is starting to get dizzy.
Then he took me to the hotel.
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“What’s going on tonight?” He put me on the couch at the hotel, sitting across from me, waiting for my explanation.
“Nothing. I don’t want him to see it. I don’t think you and I are right for you. I’m sorry.
“What other girls, don’t be here with me like that. He looked at me seriously.
“I don’t know, your ex-girlfriend, ex-girlfriend, so many I can’t count. I’m sorry.
“…he looked at me and stopped talking, and came over and sat next to me, and, “Well, what else? Speak up. I’m sorry.
“I had a girlfriend before you, I admit it.
“I love to go to the bar. You didn’t know that.
“If you can’t take it, don’t chase it. You got it. Now you’re making fun of me? I’m sorry.
What are you after?
He seems so pathetic.
I took a moment, he sat next to me, and I felt so stressed.
The pompous flames are half out.
“So you hang out with your ex. What am I? I looked up and asked him.
“Tm, which ex-girlfriend? He’s a little impatient.
“The Willows. “I’ll just give up.”
“…”he made a second, and the next second he laughed, and I laughed like I was wrong.
He raised his hand and tried to touch my head, and I ran away.
He didn’t come near, he just touched a smoke and smiled at me, “What’s wrong with being jealous?” I’m sorry.
I’m not. I’m refuting.
Who’s jealous?
“No?” He was carrying a cigarette, standing up and pouring me a glass of white water. I’m sorry.
“You…” Listen to him. My face is red.
“Is he allergic?” He stares at my face, reaching out and touching.
“No, it’s a little hot. “I was really hot, so I had to reach out and slap myself.
“Who wants you to drink?” He stares at me, “Have some hot water.” I’m sorry.
“Oh. Fine, I’m not drunk. I knew he wanted to talk to me.
He watched me drink a glass of water and put it aside, staring at me, “I’m fine with her.” I’m sorry.
“Who?” I pretended I didn’t understand.
“Bullety. He reached out and pinched my neck.
I was scared and he had cold hands.
“I didn’t give a shit about her. He explains very briefly.
“You ignored her and she answered your phone? I’m whispering.
“I don’t know. He remembered something, picked up his phone and turned it over, and showed it to me. I’m sorry.
I’m not talking anymore.
I guess I knew it was possible that Yogi took his phone while he wasn’t paying attention, but how did two people give her a chance to get it?
I don’t believe it.
“I’m going to the bathroom. I don’t have a cell phone. He seemed to know what I was thinking, to be blunt.
“Oh. I see.
“Oh what? “What did she tell you? You’re in a hurry. I’m sorry.
“Just say you’re drunk. *I’m snorting, but now I’m thinking *
I didn’t believe it. I didn’t believe it.
Now I’m embarrassed to say it.
“Well, then?” He put out the smoke and listened very patiently.
“And then I was afraid that you would be too drunk to take care of you and I started making it up with my own heart.”
“Hmm. “And suddenly he leaned his head over me, and leaned on my shoulder, and took care of me. I’m sorry.
I’m…
His head was crushed with a vibrator, and my heart beats unchallenged: “You are not drunk!” I’m sorry.
“Hmm. “Now he’s drunk. I’m sorry.
Me?
He’s such an actor, he was cold and mean, and he’s so hard on me.
“Drink and lie down. “I was careful to take his head and try to escape, and I was a little dizzy. I’m sorry.
It’s true.
It’s been a while since I’ve been drinking.
“Dizziness”? He looked up, “Well I barely took care of you. I’m sorry.
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“Don’t you take care of it, you go out, I’m going to bed. I pushed him.
He’s pulling it off the couch.
“I don’t think you’re too sick to take care of me. “His lips came up almost to my face and said this.
“It’s the duty of a boyfriend to take care of you.” I’m sorry.
Payback?
He really thinks I’m 3 years old.
I’m sorry I didn’t raise my guard, but now I’m in.
“Chou’s tired. I whispered his name.
“Hmm. He answered me, he kissed my lips, and looked up at me, and he said, “A few days without seeing, little things are funny.” I’m sorry.
Me! Me!
He came out of the blue, and almost turned me away.
“Chou, be reasonable. “I reminded him kindly.
“Well, it’s been three days, you tell me what reason is? He kissed again on my lips.
That’s scary.
I’m so nervous I can’t breathe and my heart’s beating out of control.
“Think you promised me. * I’m not afraid to die as a reminder, a mad hint *
He stopped talking and looked at me with his eyes, and he said, “I killed someone in my last life and I’m going to be tortured by you. I’m sorry.
Huh? This…
“What are you nervous about? Just kiss! *He took my hand against my ten fingers, and yelled at me with his heart.
“Oh. He’s really mean.
It’s so sweet to do something sweet.
“Chou, would you stop being so mean to me? I asked him quietly.
He didn’t come to look at me, but he just took a breath of tenderness, “Okay, be good, baby.” I’m sorry.
I’m…
When I didn’t react, he kissed, he reached out and grabbed me in the back of the neck, and he scared me to turn my mouth…
And when he kissed him for a while, he let me go, and breathed: “I knew her when I was a child. I didn’t mean that to her, and don’t think about her later. I’m sorry.
I was kissed by him. What’s he telling me?
“Oh. I looked at him with my eyes, but I was ashamed.
He smiled at me and pushed him away, “No kiss.” I’m sorry.
I’m…
“Oh. I’m a little demented.
He took a coat over my head and wouldn’t let me look at him, “You want me dead every day. I’m sorry.
I didn’t say anything. Listen to him.
After a while, he came back and lifted me off the couch: “Drink water.” I’m sorry.
He poured me another hot water.
“Don’t drink later. He lets me drink water while he looks at the room, “You sleep on the bed, I sleep on the couch. I’m sorry.
“Don’t worry, I’m not such a monster. I’m not gonna do anything to you. I’m sorry.
“Oh…” I’m a little dizzy and I can’t think.
“You go wash up, I’ll wait outside for you. Call me if you need me. He said he’d go to the bathroom and try the temperature and he’d have me washed.
And I went to the bathroom dazed and dazed, and he followed me and closed the door, and he asked, “Can you alone?” I’ll help you out…
“No need!” I quickly refused.
“Don’t believe me? I’ll help you. I’ll do it myself. He looked at me badly.
“No, I believe you. I looked at him carefully.
And this boy before him, even though he had made the outside obstinate, he treated me with care and tenderness.
The hearts of men are fleshy, and I am not a fool, but of course he is a good man and believes in him.
When I was done washing and lying in bed, he went in.
Well washed, he went down on the couch, laid down for a while and thought of something, and came towards me.
I’ll pretend to sleep.
“Sleep early, good night. He kissed me on the forehead.
“Chou’s tired. I’m filled with him right now.
“Hmm? * He’s sitting by the bed waiting for me to talk *
“Let’s get in love. I have the courage to say what I think.
He looked at me.
As if I wanted the moon in the sky.
“You’re fine, I’m fine, if you can…” I did something like a big decision, “I want to stay with you. I’m sorry.
“…”and he stunned the gods for a moment, “Why suddenly?” I’m sorry.
“I know that your girlfriend hasn’t had more than three months, and I don’t want to be like them. I’m sorry.
“…he can’t help but laugh, “What’s a little head? I’m sorry.
“You believe that I’ve changed dozens of girlfriends?” I’m sorry.
“Ah! Isn’t it?” I’m a little confused.
“It’s your head. “Don’t think. I’m sorry.
“I don’t think, but you don’t talk to me for a few days and I’ll…”
“I’m afraid to interrupt your studies. He’s groaning.
“The excuse for you…”
“It’s me I’m making you feel insecure. “He extends his hand and continues to appease me.
I thought today I heard the Willows say I wasn’t right for him, and I said, “I like you so much. I’m sorry.
“…”he was completely held back for half a day, and finally said, “Idiot.” I’m sorry.
And we were silent for a while, and he turned off the light, and he sat by my bed and asked me, “What do you like about me? I’m not a good person.” I’m sorry.
I’m…
“Whoever says no, I’d like to talk to you” and something really shames me.
“Chun, I can’t promise you anything. He took a deep breath.
“I don’t want you to promise anything. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Then two people were silent.
I hesitated for a long time, or did I whisper, “Will you wait for me when I have decided to go to England?” I’m sorry.
I think I’m ashamed of myself.
Why should he wait for me?
He’s not someone else. He’s so proud. There’s all kinds of girls around him.
He sat down on the floor for a few seconds and said, “Chang, what happens next, nobody knows.” I’m sorry.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
Well, he didn’t want to.
“Oh…” I didn’t say anything.
Then tears came down from my eye.
He reached out to my face, tried to kiss me and went to sleep, and stopped at the moment he touched my tears.
“Why are you crying?” He whispered to me.
I didn’t cry. I ran away.
“…” and he’s in the end groaning, “that he can’t leave me? You love me so much? I’m sorry.
“No…” I whispered.
“As long as you don’t sleep, you can’t think. He leaned over my forehead, kissed me, covered me up, turned around to the couch.
I didn’t think much of it, but I went to sleep.
35
The next day, he took me back to school and went back to the bedroom.
He said he didn’t even eat lunch.
He’s not asleep. What are you doing?
I was in the bedroom, thinking about what I said to him last night, which was a crazy confession.
I’m ashamed of myself.
I’m too bold to say anything.
What a shame to see.
At dinner tonight, he didn’t come to me, I didn’t go to him, and I sent little information.
At most when he asked me if I had eaten, I said two words: “Eat.” I’m sorry.
Don’t ask. Ask is shy.
I can’t see him.
“Not for lunch, not for dinner with me. His message just came to the classroom.
“No, I’m rushing to class. I returned a message that he was upset and said, “I want to see you too. I’m sorry.
It seems a little warmer.
After a while, he didn’t reply. I thought he was out.
As a result, half of the session, his message came.
“Where do you take classes?”
Huh?
“The classroom. I lied to him.
“room number. I’m sorry.
I’m…
I really don’t trust me.
“408. I’m sorry.
There’s no news.
He’s like Cha-Sang!
I’m so sorry for what happened last night that I didn’t notice the changing atmosphere in the classroom.
Autumn and Autumn… someone called me.
“Hmm? * I look back and see my roommate *
I followed her eyes, and I thought I looked at myself.
Zhou Ti!
He was wearing a black coat, leaning at the door of the classroom, and saw me as I looked up and blinked at me.
My heart was like a blow, the world was gone.
It’s just that people around it are stinging and the whole classroom is boiling.
“Are you from this class? “The professor who stood at the podium watched with doubt as he stood in front of the door, causing much trouble.
“Not really. He answered very simply.
“Then please don’t stand here and influence the class. I’m sorry.
It’s over.
My heart is holding him tight. Give him a signal. Get out.
He didn’t listen at all.
“Show your girlfriend a lesson.” I’m sorry.
Me! Me!
After that, the entire classroom blew up.
The “…” professor’s face was also a bit black and white.
My face is so red that I can’t see anyone.
“…the love teacher is in favor of learning and making progress, and it’s not good for a couple to skip school for love. “Go sit down and don’t interfere with class discipline.” I’m sorry.
“Thank you. “He’s got a face and he’s not beating me.
Every step closer, my heart beats a little faster, and in the end, the whole person is numb.
He kindly opened my roommate and sat next to me.
After a few minutes, the classroom finally returned to calm and I was afraid to look at him.
He picks up my book and looks at it like it’s fake, and under the table he takes my hand and puts it on his leg.
“Chou’s tired. I’d like to pull my hand back in fear of being seen.
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“Hmm. He ignores me.
“Hands. I remind you again.
He said he was still reading, and he didn’t look at me.
I don’t struggle anymore.
If you don’t want people around you to notice, you have to write him a note.
“What are you doing here? I’ll hand him the draft.
And he looked at it, and his eyes laughed, and he took the pen, and he wrote on it, “It was boring, and he came. I’m sorry.
Boring?
“Don’t come again next time. “I’ve been sweating all over my body by his random actions.
He looked at my writing on the draft, and he looked at me, “Well.” I’m sorry.
His eyes are so scary.
And I said, “This is embarrassing for me, and everyone is looking at me, and I don’t want to be surrounded. I’m sorry.
He’s just a little lightened, picks up the pen and slowly writes, “Okay. I’m sorry.
After a while, I felt the temperature on his left hand, and for the first time I felt that love could be so sweet.
It’s like the world doesn’t exist. He’s the only one holding me.
After a while, I picked up a pen, I was in the corner of the draft paper, and I slowly wrote, “I want to be carried by you.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t hand it to him.
But he didn’t know when he would come.
After several seconds, he wrote, “Is Tofu a good test? I’m sorry.
I’m surprised at that.
Look up to him unbelievably.
And he looked at me with evil eyes, and picked his eyebrows at me, waiting for my answer.
I took the paper and looked at the words he wrote, “Is Tofu a good test?”
“It’s hard, but can I help you? I’m sorry.
“Can I say no?” I’m sorry.
I saw him writing here, and I just flew up to the bottom of my heart.
Then he wrote on it another sentence: “Fine, lest you cry.” I’m sorry.
Me?
He agreed?
I was touched by a mess, and he looked at me and smiled at me and said, “Smug.” I’m sorry.
Since then, there have been rumours of fatigue in schools.
“The sun is coming out of the west, and Zhou is learning. I’m sorry.
“What kind of ecstasy soup did Zhou get poured by his girlfriend?” I’m sorry.
“The prodigal son is on his way to pure love. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Every time I see this, I feel a little tired.
“Whatever people say. “It’s always the same thing every time I get tired of it.
“How did you do that? Nothing affects you? I asked him.
“They’re not mine. Why should I care? He asked me back.
He always said I was stupid.
Stupid enough to believe rumors, stupid enough to care about gossip.
From this week’s tired day-time truancy to night-time classes and evening libraries.
He’s got a good base. He’s smart. He’s faster than I am.
They all say that Zhou has to go to England.
Actually, I know it’s his mother’s.
He said he ran away with someone when he was 10.
After that, he started to rebel.
It’s just that he’s rebelling while he’s studying.
“When I was a kid, I fought during the day, I studied at night, and I thought I was bad, so I asked my parents and my mom would come back.
“My dad’s busy. He hasn’t been to a parent’s meeting. I’m sorry.
I listened to him every night on the way back to my bedroom.
Can’t hear a trace of grief.
I’m surprised.
“Is your mother back? I stopped to ask him.
He simply put out the smoke in his hand and left his voice: “No.” I’m sorry.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
“Why do you study at night? I’m sorry.
He was asked, “Plan B.” I’m sorry.
I waited, and I whispered, “Why don’t the bad students take their grades quietly because they’re afraid your mother doesn’t like them?” I’m sorry.
He didn’t answer yes or no.
His silence makes me so sad.
I looked at him at this moment and wanted to give him everything he wanted.
“Chou’s tired. * I hold his hand * I’m sorry.
Ugh…
He looked at me, he couldn’t stand it, he laughed.
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“What kind of family? How? He asked me, “Want to marry me?” I’m sorry.
“No, it’s not…” I’m crazy to realize what I’m saying without shame.
I just wanted to treat him like a relative, to be good to him. I swear I never thought of that level.
“I just want to be nice to you. I’ll give you whatever you want. I’m in a hurry to explain.
“Oh. * He looked down at the indistinguishable couple under the dormitory and whispered in my ear, “What I want is always clear, when will you give it to me?” I’m sorry.
I’m…
He says I’m blushing right now.
Zhou Weary! *And I whispered, and I couldn’t blame him, so I took my bag and ran away.*
He didn’t say anything.
As soon as I looked back, I saw him standing there, watching me laugh, and I hesitated for a few seconds, and I ran upstairs.
He’s just, he’s always teasing me, making me blush.
Actually, I know he’s not just teasing me.
We’ve been with him for three months, we’ve been kissing a lot, but it’s all the last step.
His respect for me is real, I think.
Every time I can even feel that I’m not stupid I just pretend I don’t know.
My heart’s still beating.
I lay in bed at night, thinking about it, and I couldn’t sleep.
I’m asking myself, will you?
I found out my answer was yes.
I like him, I want to give him everything.
I trusted him, too, for a lifetime.
I’m just a little scared of what I don’t know.
Finally, I sent him a message.
“Let’s go live outside the day we finish the Tofu. I’m sorry.
It took a long time to come back.
“Okay. I’m sorry.
I looked at the two words on the screen as if everything had been settled.
Expectations begin to grow sweet and long.
38
The Tofu exam is approaching.
I don’t really know.
His man doesn’t say anything.
I have faith in him instead.
It was only these days that he always had a phone call, he always read books and went out and called and didn’t come back.
I don’t care.
I never thought he’d come back before he went to the exam and took a call.
I don’t know. I know it’s been six months.
The day he finished the exam, he said he had something to do, he went home, and I looked forward to going out for a long time.
In the second half of the month, he suddenly started to chill out on me.
How cold is it? I sent a message that he would either return in a few hours or not.
I called him, always in the phone.
At first, I thought he was just going through his studies too long, and then he was relaxed, lazy and careless.
Until…
“Autumn and Autumn, how come you haven’t gone out with Zhou Yin lately? I’m sorry.
“He’s home. I explained.
“Go home? I met him on the street yesterday. I’m sorry.
I’m frozen.
Everybody stop talking.
After a while, the roommate whispered to me, “Autumn and Autumn, you should pay attention to the girl who’s around. I’m sorry.
“Okay, I got it. I said, stand up and go to the laundry.
I picked up the phone, called him, waited a few seconds, actually I was scolding myself.
Scolding me to be careful and not trust him.
I don’t believe he’ll betray me.
He’s so good to me and changed so much for me.
I didn’t see it all by myself. I saw his change.
If he didn’t really love me, he wouldn’t have wanted to change for me.
One thing flashed through my mind, and I even wanted to hang up and wait for him to call me.
As a result, the telephone was connected.
“Chou’s tired. “I called his name as usual.
“Hmm. He’s still making noise.
I can even imagine them drinking again in a bar.
“Are you at the bar? Are you back? I’m sorry.
“Hmm. * He whispered softly, it’s no different than usual. *
“…”and I did, and I got the courage, “Can I come to you? I’m sorry.
He’s quiet for a while, “Don’t come.” I’m sorry.
“Why? In a moment, I felt a bit frustrated.
He’s back. If he doesn’t come to me, why don’t I go to him?
“Not convenient. He made a minor comment.
I can’t believe my ears.
“What’s wrong?”
“Hold up. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
He hung up before I finished.
My brain just snapped.
The fool knows something’s wrong.
I called him back.
There’s no answer.
I panicked.
He sent him many messages, asking questions, humbled, angry, convulsed, and he never returned to me.
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“Chou, what do you mean, if you want to break up, you say, you don’t have to do this. “I was so anxious to send him this message.
He went back to me and said, “Okay. I’m sorry.
That moment, my world collapsed.
I sent him another message asking why he suddenly became like this, why he broke up with me and never returned to me.
He and I began the cold war, which was, to be precise, my unilateral one.
My roommate saw my red eyes every day and probably found out about our breakup.
They persuaded me.
“He’s a scum. He’s not worth it. I’m sorry.
“A few months and he’s really not human. We all thought he was better, and then he got worse. I’m sorry.
“Autumn and Autumn, don’t cry for him. That’s not worth it. I’m sorry.
“You’re leaving the country anyway. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
The roommates comforted me with their mouths, but I was not given any comfort.
And on the day when the results of Tofu came to pass, We found out our scores, as we had hoped.
I couldn’t bear it. I checked his scores, and it showed a lack of success.
I stopped.
My heart began to shake his trust.
I rushed downstairs to find him.
This is the first time I’ve come to him since we broke up.
It was about an hour before he walked down the stairs and saw me, and his face was so impatient.
I looked at this face, this face I thought about day and night, and suddenly I wanted to tell him I missed him, but I couldn’t say.
“What’s the matter?” He’s got a smoke and he’s got a bad tone.
“Tofu has come out. “I look at him like a poor thing, and I want to see in his eyes a little love for me, but I don’t.”
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“You missed your exam? “I suppressed many of my questions and asked him slowly.
“Well, then?”
He’s still him. Nothing’s changed. It’s really cold.
“Chou, you said you were going to England with me. Are you kidding me? I smiled and asked him how ugly the smile was, and I was the only one who knew it. I’m sorry.
“Whatever you want. That’s all he has. There’s no explanation.
I’ve been thinking about it, and the glaciers are falling.
“So you lied to me about being with me? I’m sorry.
“I didn’t say it. You said it. He smiled and answered.
That smile really hurt me.
I’m tired of my nose and crying.
I thought my tears were gone, and he could still make me cry.
“Don’t cry. I hear you’re doing well in Tofu. Go to England. He did not come to comfort me, standing a metre away from me, looking at me in silence, “Don’t come to me, we’re so together.” I’m sorry.
What’s going on?
I can’t stop crying.
“Chou, you bastard, you’re not going to England with me. How could you? I cried and questioned him.
“I’m an asshole. I changed my mind. * He sighs, he comes and pulls my hat up and covers my head. *
“Go back, don’t ever touch an asshole like me again. After that, he picked up my phone and put his phone in my phone.
“I’m tired of what I did wrong. Tell me I can change. Don’t do this.” * He’s leaving, I’m holding his hand, crying.*
And he broke his hand and breathed in deep breath: “You did well, and you were only a little less fortunate and met me. I’m sorry.
“I’m going up. After that, he also put on his coat and went upstairs.
I was crouching on the earth, weeping.
Finally, I was sent back by the passing river.
“Don’t cry. Ezu pulled me up and sent me down to the dorm and called my roommate.
“He broke up with me. I cried and told him.
“I know, but sooner or later. “You’re not the only one who broke up.” I’m sorry.
I’m confused by his words.
But I couldn’t think because I cried.
The roommate picked me up.
You’ll watch over me and comfort me, and I won’t hear anything.
Enough crying, I’m lying in bed, my phone rings.
And We took it in retrospect, and opened it in haste, but it was the river.
He sent me a picture.
It’s Yoo Qing’s circle of friends.
The time is 2 p.m. I just left from the dorm downstairs.
Zhou has been the lead man.
I can’t cry at this moment.
Souls are taken away.
So they’re together.
So all this had already been revealed to me, but I lied to myself.
I thought Zhou was tired of telling me that he had nothing to do with Willows, that he didn’t mean anything to her, but he broke up with someone else in an hour.
Funny?
Ridiculous.
I’m like a clown, silly to believe him, to believe every word he says.
And he was just teasing me.
40
A love that hurt me so much that I didn’t even think I’d ever love anyone again.
A few months later, I went to England.
Jiangyu also went to England.
That made me a little surprised.
You know that Jiang-gu never intended to come to England.
“It was a man who wanted to stay at home, and now there’s no reason. He laughed.
I heard him say that the people of the past were far apart.
It’s been so long since I thought about it, it’s gonna be a little uncomfortable, but it doesn’t hurt.
“Did you ever regret it?” Jiangzu asked me.
“What do you regret?” I smiled and answered.
“Regrets the fact that that game went to kiss the bastard next door? He handed me a bottle of soda.
I put it in, and I watched the white gulls flying by the sea, and I couldn’t think.
“You don’t kiss me? I was going to confess to you at that game. I laughed at him.
I’m a little impressed by myself. I can’t believe I’m making this up as a joke.
I also didn’t think that one day, I and Jiang had met in a different country, and that it was also a loss of love and a feeling of sympathy.
“If I say I was scared of you, do you believe me? He was also joking.
“Come on, I don’t look like your goddess. I scared you to say I’m your sister. “I’m givin’ him.
After that, both of us are in silence.
Every soul has its own heart.
But it feels good.
I’m not a friend, I’m not a lover, I’m an alumni at best.
“I don’t regret it. And suddenly I said, “He’s not that bad. I’m sorry.
I bowed my head, and I tried to wipe out the clouds of my heart.
“Maybe he was nice to me before, so I had a filter for him, even if it wasn’t very decent. I’m sorry.
I laughed.
“And you? I asked him again, “Do you regret waiting for her all these years and being with her again? I’m sorry.
He fell into a brief silence.
“Repent anything. He laughed too.
A little bit of the bread in his hand was thrown into the air, and for a moment several gulls came and ate in the air.
“I’m obsessed with her. I’m not in love with her. I’m not going away.
“Even when I fell in love with her later, I didn’t even hold her hand.
“I knew she was just using me to piss off, and I was happy with her.
“I’m no better than you. I’m sorry.
After he said it, we both smiled.
Smiling, the seagulls around them were scared to the sky.
Laughed for a while and suddenly he stopped to see me.
“She broke up with me. She didn’t like me. “He broke up with you, don’t you think? I’m sorry.
I’m still laughing, and I’m laughing, and I’m like, “Isn’t it necessary for me and him? I’m sorry.
“He likes you. I’m sorry.
I’m not talking. I’m just making fun of myself.
I don’t know what he’s saying to me.
I don’t believe anyone who says he likes me now.
“I didn’t happen to meet you in the dormitory that day. “Chou tired of calling me and telling me that you cried so badly downstairs that I could take care of you.” I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
I got a buzz in my head. It’s blank.
“He may think that I’ve broken up with Willows and I’ll find you well and come back to you, so let me take care of you, he’s funny…”
I stand still.
It’s crazy.
“Autumn and Autumn, I’m not an asshole like him, and if I liked you, I wouldn’t take advantage of it. I’m sorry.
“Do you like me? I was so relaxed to joke with him.
“…and he stopped, and it took him a long time to say, “I still feel…”
“It’s better to be friends. I laughed at him and interrupted him.
Actually, I can’t listen.
I don’t want to fall in love with anyone right now.
41
Then he returned to the rented house.
I think about what Jiang Yu said during the day, and the more I can’t sleep, the more I turn on my computer and start looking for tired news online.
The day I broke up with him, I deleted all his friends, all his pictures.
I can’t get any more from him.
I’m on my microblog.
It’s been almost a year since I’ve been logged in. I haven’t been logged in since Willow found out I’m watching three people.
At one point, there are new people of interest.
I light the new attention, the mouse’s hand freezes.
Chow?
When is he?
I called him on his home page, and he’s still not moving, but he’s just showing off at football.
I’m a little shaky.
Does he care about coincidence?
He couldn’t have known it was me.
In fact, from the moment he found out he was watching me, my heart beats picked up.
I wanted to find some clues on Twitter, and I went back to his watch list.
It turns out he’s following the British reality, the British weather forecast…
Get out of here!
My heart’s pounding in the air.
I’m scared to stop breathing.
After a few minutes, I still thought it would be a coincidence.
I did an impulsive thing by sending him a private letter with a trumpet.
“Chou’s tired. I’m sorry if I sent it.
It’s not too sudden.
After 10 months, is he still with Willow?
Or have you changed your girlfriend?
There’s no answer.
I even thought he might have slipped and accidentally looked at me.
But what about the tweets about Britain?
So I waited for hours, and I finally gave up and fell asleep.
The next day, I sat in the dark and sat at home.
The more I think about it, the more I think of it, the more I go.
It’s a small town in England, more remote.
I switched cars several times until evening by the white house.
I stood at the door, and I hesitated.
I don’t even know why I’m here, just because Zhou has told me once that his mother lives here.
“How do you know the address? I asked him.
“I found it in my dad’s itinerary. He doesn’t have friends in England. He laughed at me and said:
“Why don’t you go to your mother? I was shocked by his investigative ability.
How can you not find someone’s address?
And he’s so smart.
“I’m afraid she doesn’t recognize me, and she knows me. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
42
I stood here, I looked at the house, and I felt too abrupt.
In what capacity should I meet his mother?
Although, I just wanted to go see his mother for him and see how she was doing.
His mom must be pretty.
I can imagine that she must be as tired and fascinating as ever.
I’d like to see if Zhou’s been tired of thinking about him for so many years, and if the mother who wanted to see him can’t see him, too.
And I thought, if his mother was happy, I’d write to him and reassure him.
If it’s bad, should I tell him again?
Is it a lie or the truth and then he comes and takes his mother back.
Just when I was in a mess, a voice was ringing behind me.
“Didn’t you get lost?” I was surprised to look back at a little girl, holding a dog, looking at me.
She knows Chinese?
My first reaction was this.
“Uh, no. I look down at the little girl and I feel familiar.
Sister, are you Chinese?
“Yes. “I crouched down so I could talk to her.
She’s cute, she’s got big eyes, cherry little lips, she’s like a Barbie doll.
“I like Chinese. My mother is Chinese too. She smiled and talked to me.
I’m surprised, I have a feeling.
And the next moment, a white-haired man came out of the white room and called her, “Kerry, the dog can’t hold it all the time. I’m sorry.
There’s something falling.
“Dad, this sister is Chinese. Can I invite her to play with me? I’m sorry.
She and her father also spoke in Chinese.
Dad didn’t seem so sure she was playing alone with me.
“Daddy, I miss Mom so much I want to talk in Chinese. Please, Dad. I’m sorry.
His father looked helpless, sneezed and came towards me.
He’s tall, he looks nice.
“I’m sorry. Could you go inside and play with her for a while? “He was afraid that I would be worried, and he invited me to speak with him.
“My daughter’s mother is Chinese. He explains.
“Hmm. I looked at him and guessed.
I don’t know if it’s happy or sad to see your tired mother soon.
His mother had her own family, and the man seemed to be more kind, with a beautiful daughter and a loving one.
It’s family harmony.
I’m so sorry.
“Most than six months ago, the mother died in a car accident and her daughter misses her. I’m sorry.
He goes on to explain.
Car accident?
Dead?
I can’t hear anything.
“You mean her mother died? I can’t believe it.
“Yes. He noded his head, groaned, and said, “A little girl, I don’t think she can accept the fact that she’s asleep, so she wants to play with her Chinese partner every day. I’m sorry.
My head is blank.
I don’t know how I followed him into the house, and how I was taken to her mother’s bedroom.
The little girl was happy to see me in there and was happy to take me and share her mother’s little drops.
I’m all floating.
Finally, I couldn’t help but ask, “Do you know that your wife has another child in China? I’m sorry.
I don’t know what Zhou has to say.
He said he was afraid that Mom wouldn’t recognize herself, and that she still knew herself.
But he didn’t think about that cruel way of doing it.
My heart is dripping blood.
“…”and the man clearly stunned, “know, you and him…”
“I’m his friend. I’m sorry.
“…” he sighs, “my wife and son came, and she came here to collect the ashes the day she died. I’m sorry.
I’m freezing.
“When?”
‘2021, September X. I’m sorry.
I thought about the day of the Tofu exam in a reflex.
A day earlier than he said.
So he missed his exam the other day because he came to England to take his mother home?
43
He then talked to me again and asked me to bring greetings to the Chinese family of his wife ‘ s son.
I’m all fucked up.
When I was leaving, the little girl suddenly found a lot of cards in a bunch of books and handed them to me.
“Sister, can you bring it to my brother when you go back? I’m sorry.
Brother?
I picked up the cards, they were portraits of people.
Looks like a young boy.
I’m confused.
The man explained: “My wife lost her memory a long time after she came to the British side, so I didn’t know she had a son in China and she was in therapy.
“It was also last year when she suddenly thought about something, drew these cards, told me she had a son in China, and she called me the day of the accident. She said she remembered. She ordered a flight back to China to find her son, and I was working, and she drove herself to the airport, and she had an accident…”
I’m even more shocked when I hear it.
It took me a long time to ask him, “Why not give it to her son? I’m sorry.
“No chance, he came with his father, took the ashes, left without saying anything.
“They blame me for not taking care of her. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Then I left.
With a bunch of cards, imagine what it’s like to have Zhou’s mom paint them, and what it’s like to rush to the airport…
His mom really forgot him.
But love for him has not diminished.
If his mother had not lost his memory and would not have kept coming back to see him, he would not have broken his heart into despair.
Thinking about it, I’m restless.
I didn’t even go back to my place.
A direct ticket was ordered to return home.
I can’t wait a minute.
In the middle of the night, I was on a plane back home, and I looked at the cards, thinking I was tired and crying.
He knew how sad it was and how sad it was.
But without him, he’ll be sad for the rest of his life, and he didn’t know his mother loved him.
I cried, my eyes were swollen, I couldn’t take care of it, and I ran straight back to school.
I met a lot of people on the way, looking at me, looking at monsters.
But it doesn’t matter anymore.
My classmates told me that Zhou had gone to his father’s firm to train and not to go to school.
I went to his company again.
I was standing in front of the lobby, looking at him in the middle of nowhere, but I never saw him.
I’m scared I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid I’ll miss him.
By the time people were almost gone, I was ready to go to the security officers and ran into a man as soon as I turned around.
“Look for me?” His voice came from above, and I stopped.
“Chou’s tired. I called him and looked around, and I said, “Why can’t I see him?” He was behind me.
“Also stupid, standing behind you for half an hour. He looked at me funny.
When I looked up, I found his hair cut to an inch, and he had the edge of his body hidden in a black suit, and there was no tired shadow.
When I saw him, my tears fell off.
“I’m not stupid, I’m crying, I’m ugly. He reached out and wiped my face.
I found out I couldn’t say anything anymore.
“I’m here. “He stares at me, he leans on his head, and when he looks down, he wakes up, “Let’s go. I’m sorry.
He didn’t ask me why I came to him. He didn’t ask. He took me to the garage.
I didn’t say anything about putting me in the car, wearing a seatbelt and driving the road.
44
On the way, I’m confused.
Just staring at him. I don’t know how to talk about the card in the bag.
Is he happy to see me?
I don’t know.
I was just staring at his side while he was driving.
Look at him.
“How are you there? He asked me peacefully.
“Good. I wonder where to start with him and how to make him more comfortable.
“That’s good. He smiled softly and then he didn’t know what he was thinking.
“There’s paper in it. When the light was red and green, he came side by side and brought me paper in the car.
Suddenly I was too close to him and I was staring at this face.
“Are you single now?” I didn’t ask him why.
“…”and for a moment, he gave me the paper, “Yes. I’m sorry.
We’re silent again.
He broke up with Willow?
Single?
It’s not like him.
You know he’s never short of girls.
I don’t know what I’m expecting.
He asked me, “Do you want to go to my house?” I’m sorry.
I looked at him, and I lost my mind, and suddenly I couldn’t take a word.
“Good. I’m sorry.
So the car drove to his garage.
He led me upstairs, entered the door, brought me slippers, changed it, I stood up, he stood in front of me.
He looked down at my lips and asked me, “Can I kiss?” I’m sorry.
I didn’t talk for a second, I threw the bag at the next second, grabbed his neck and kissed him.
He’s just starting to get a little jumpy, and he’s responding to me with a sense of enthusiasm.
The situation is somewhat uncontrolled.
“Chou, I have something to tell you. * I held his hand and the spirit was pulled back *
“Hmm. He leaned over and looked at me, he couldn’t breathe, and finally he pulled off his tie, “We’ll talk later. I’m sorry.
I’m…
I can’t turn him down.
For the last time, I watched him exhausted and he looked at me.
Look at him, he’s got a red eye. I’m sorry.
“I’m not playing with you. I’m sorry.
He stopped for a while and jumped and kissed me.
“What for? He’s gone and he’s back. Are you leaving this time? He asked me.
“Hmm. I was whispering to him.
“Fuck. He’s just mad at the fur.
“I’ll come back if you leave me alone. I can’t leave you. “I reached out to his head.
“You mentioned breaking up. He was staring at me in cold blood.
“I mentioned it, but you left me. I look at him, and I don’t feel weak.
“…he was speechless, and he was sighing, “Because you women were all the same, going to England and not coming back. I’m sorry.
And he said later, “That’s all I can do. I don’t want to keep you from going to England. I’m sorry.
“No one’s coming back to England. I’m not coming back. I looked at him and hesitated to put it out.
“Come back and make fun of me for two days and then walk away like a dog. * He’s all over his face *
And I saw him like this, soft, turned over and held him.
“I’ll come back for everyone who loves you. I love you. I’ll come back, no matter what. I’m sorry.
He’s not moving.
“We’re fine. We don’t fight, okay? I’m sorry.
He stares at me and looks at it for a while, and he says, “Okay.
“I lost you. He kissed me again.
Then I took him to sleep.
I’m going to sleep for a second.
45
The next day it was midday.
In the middle, I touched the side, nobody, a little panic.
And as soon as he opened his eyes, he sat still on the ground by the bed.
I just wanted to call him. I saw him with those cards.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
Think about how to tell him that.
I fought for a long time, and I got up and out of bed and held him from behind.
“Where did you get that? His voice was cold and strange, and it shook me.
I’m holding.
“British. I’m sorry.
I’m done. Take a deep breath.
“Your mother lives in a house. I’m sorry.
“…”he looked up at me, and he saw emotions.
After a while, he seemed to know something, and threw the card, “So, she remembered me, just didn’t want to come back. He suddenly stood up and laughed.
And I stood up, and I looked at him, and I looked at him, and I looked at him, and I looked at him, and I felt sorry.
“She doesn’t remember. I’m sorry.
“What? “He looked at me with confusion, after a few seconds, and he laughed, and he laughed so bitterly, “No, she’s dead, it doesn’t matter. I’m sorry.
I looked at him, and my lips were shaking, and I wanted to give him a hug.
“She lost her memory, drew these cards when she thought of you, and her memory stayed in your childhood. She didn’t forget you. She just lost her memory. * I’m sorry I lost my tears. *
Who are you kidding? Zhou was so excited, “Chou, I don’t need you to say this! I’m sorry.
I ran to hold him and wept, “I didn’t lie to you. She thought of you. She thought of you in China. She couldn’t wait to drive to the airport. I’m sorry.
At this moment, the man in his arms stopped moving.
The silent air made me more aware of his shock, his grief, and my heart reached out and touched his back.
And he turned back and didn’t talk.
After a while, he said, “What do you want to eat, I’ll do it for you.” I’m sorry.
After that, I broke my hand and went to the kitchen.
I looked at his quiet back, and I couldn’t tell him how sorry I was. I’m sorry.
I went to the kitchen with him.
There’s very little in the kitchen, what he calls cooking, and it’s just cooking egg noodles.
He boiled water, it boiled down to the frying pot, and he was staring at the pot with no sense.
“Chou Tired, the water is running. I’m sorry.
I called him and he didn’t respond.
But he knew it, and it was so quiet that I thought he would cry, and I was worried about how to comfort him.
But I don’t have to do anything. He’s stronger than I thought.
“Chou’s tired. I called him again.
“Well,” he said, “How much can he eat?” I’m sorry.
Enough. I looked at him and I stopped talking.
He’s down there, not very skilled.
“I’ll go downstairs and get a pack of cigarettes.” I’m sorry.
Go and change your shoes.
I went up there and said, “Look, you didn’t smoke yesterday. I thought you quit.” I’m sorry.
“Well, it’s quit. He changed his shoes and looked back at me.
“Wait for me at home.”
“Good. I’m sorry.
Pop, the door’s closed.
I sat in front of the table and couldn’t eat anything.
After a while, he hasn’t come back, and I don’t feel comfortable, changed my shoes and went down to him.
I went to the elevator door, thought of something, and I went back and turned to the stairwell.
As soon as we pushed it, the stairwell was smoked.
He turned his back on me and stood there smoking.
I looked down and saw a frown of smoke.
“Chou’s tired. “I whispered to him.
He turned around and saw me.
“Don’t smoke. “I went over, I took the smoke from him, and held his hand tight.
He looked at me.
I held my toes up and kissed him.
He’s not showing off.
“Don’t kiss. Just smoke.
“Strangling you. I’m sorry.
“Yes. I insist.
He looked at me, he looked at me, and he ended up groaning and kissing me.
The smoke really chokes on me.
He let me go, and he gave me a heart attack.
“I told you not to kiss. I’m sorry.
“Yes. I looked up at him and I said, “I don’t want you to be sad, to see you sad, to break my heart. Will you come with me? Don’t come here by yourself.”
“…”and for a moment, he reached out and touched my head and held me in his arms, “Okay. I’m sorry.
“Chou Tired, I will never leave. I put my face in his arms.
“Good. His voice was a little stingy.
“Chou Tired, let’s get married. “It’s an accident to say that I’ve never been so bold in my life.
But I saw him smoking alone in the building, the lonely and desperate backside, and that’s what I thought.
“…”he’s stiff, he’s been silent for a long time, and he finally spits out a word. I’m sorry.
After that, he came down to kiss me.
I can’t stand it. I’m standing right here.
When I woke up in the middle of the night, I looked at him in the moonlight, and he fell asleep.
I reached for a little bit of his eyebrow, and he slowly spread.
“I love you.” I’m sorry.
The person who fell asleep suddenly opened his eyes: “Me too. I’m sorry.
Me! Me!
“Don’t you sleep, or die? “He took me and put it in his arms.
“Sleep out. I’m afraid to move.
He kissed me on the forehead: “Go to bed early and go to the evidence in the morning.” I’m sorry.
“In the morning?”
“What, want to turn back?”
“No, isn’t it too soon? I’m sorry.
He couldn’t help but kiss him, “No hurry, go abroad, where do I find my wife?” I’m sorry.
I’m…
“All your life, be good. I’m sorry.
“Good. I’m sorry.
The end–
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.