How terrible is the dark side of humanity?
How terrible is the dark side of humanity?
Dust, I’m pretty, rich, good, I’m the goddess in the eyes of my classmates, but no one knows I have a note number in my phone.
Ten times a month, I get text messages like “Baby, Old Place, Remember to wear JK student skirt.”
I’ve always been afraid to be discovered, but I didn’t think I was someone else’s pawn.
My name is Summer Condensant, sophomores, with their fine looks and excellent academic performance, became a recognized school flower, and I have a lawn ticket, just like him.
“Baby, old place 403, remember to wear black silk and jk student skirts, hey. I’m sorry.
I was taking notes in class, pulling my cell phone out of the drawer, looking down at it, it was a note 10086 text message, and I looked like shit.
Finger flipping through the information logs, clicking and deleting.
I turned down his lunch invitation and explained that I was going to the infirmary with a cold.
After all these words, I can’t help but breathe and look out the window.
Everyone has multiple faces, and I am a high-cold goddess in school, but out there I am just a man who suffers for his life.
I know what I’m doing isn’t logical, but life doesn’t give me a choice.
I quietly snuck out of the classroom from the back door and returned to the dormitories to take out the black box hidden at the deepest depth of the bed.
At the entrance to the school, I stopped a taxi and gave the name of a hotel 10 kilometres away.
I was in the car and brushed my cell phone, and Moor came to the hotel door in half an hour.
Don’t ask me why I chose so far. If I’d seen it, it’d be a dead end.
I went into the hotel and knocked on the door to room 403, and the door was open by a bald fat man wearing a towel.
He’s my “fundant” Wu Kong.
I can’t afford to look at his greasy and obnoxious face.
“How many times do you say, don’t send me messages during class time! I’m sorry.
“It happens the company isn’t busy, or there’s no time to fund you. I’m sorry.
He said, and invited me into the room.
At 6:00 p.m., I walked out of the hotel.
That’s when I looked at the phone, and I saw the news of the man’s ticket 99+, and I felt guilty about the fact that he just fell asleep.
My man’s name is Li Yi.
He is a school weed of countless girls in school, but he does not have a watery flower, but because of the poor conditions of his family, he has always been honest.
And he’s gentle with me.
However, the spiritual love without bread makes me very tired.
I know I don’t deserve him, but I really like him.
Then I transferred the $6,000 that Wu just gave to her mother to give her a good look at her father.
And We stand still, looking at the white moon in the sky.
I can’t help but shake my head, there are so many ways to make money, but I chose the fastest.
Deng!
I felt the cell phone message vibrating, my eyes opened, and Wu smiled and invited me to go shopping later, making me feel even more guilty.
She’s still so nice to me!
She thought I was her best friend, but I took her man’s ticket and even got to her father.
In freshman year, Wu smiled and often told me that she liked Li Yi, who was with us.
But she was shy, so she used to drag me to see Li Yi, but I didn’t think I would confess to me later.
And I like this honest boy, and I’ve been in trouble for a long time.
I was afraid that Wu would stop laughing at herself, but she laughed that the best friend would not be separated for a man, and I was moved at one time.
So I was with Li Yi.
Wu smiles often share secrets with me, so I know her father, Wu, is the boss of the listed company and she is a low-profile rich woman.
Then Wu invited us to dinner and added
At first I didn’t take it seriously until the beginning of the semester there was a bad news.
My father, a peddler who had a fight with a client for selling, was broken by two of his ribs, severely damaged pelvis and ran away!
I can’t get enough of the daily medical expenses and all that.
I wanted to make money on a part-time job, but what would a sophomore find a part-time job, a governess or a waitress?
The hard work of two or three thousand a month is not enough to pay one tenth of the monthly cost of nutrition, and I even wanted to sell kidneys at one time.
And then Wu just contacted me and wanted to ask me to see a movie.
Of course I know what the big boss is thinking! But a string of figures on the hospital’s consumption bill leaves me no choice.
I’ve been the target of Wu Kong’s “financing”.
We talked about him giving me 60,000 a month and I saw him ten times.
Well, it’s kind of hardworking.
Sixty thousand! I can’t earn a full-time job for a year, but I can do it for a month.
02
I came to the place where Wu smiled, and I waited a little while to see Wu smiled in a pair of ponytails in a Lolita dress.
I can’t believe I’d be as cute as her if I had kids later.
She fed me the cookies and grabbed my arm.
“Where did we go at noon? I’m sorry.
“What do you want to eat?”
But instead of answering my question, she took a step back.
“Huh? Starring, why do you smell like a man’s smoke? I’m sorry.
I was in a panic and smelled my clothes, and the unconscious thought Wu just liked smoking.
“Perhaps it was stuck in a cab, yes! It was stuck in a cab. It smelled like smoke! I’m sick of it. I’m sorry.
I’m relieved if Wu smiles and says he’s gonna give me a perfume.
I can’t imagine what would happen if she knew all that, so I hope I kept it from her.
I held hands with Wu Smiley for two hours at the mall, she went to the bathroom, and I picked up the handbag and sat in the rest area.
It’s my birthday to laugh next month.
When I was thinking with pain, the vibrations in the bag broke my mind.
I took out my phone and found out it was Wu laughing.
I looked at the content of the message with curiosity, and then I was in a coma.
“Baby, tomorrow night at the same place, I’ve got some excitement! I’m sorry.
This familiar tone! It’s familiar!
I got my phone in place.
No way! Is that him?
No, no, I must have thought too much!
I can’t accept that, but I’m familiar with that tone.
I carefully put my phone back in my bag, and I didn’t say much.
After a few minutes, we went shopping like nothing happened.
A little while later, she took out her phone and looked me in the eye.
When I didn’t react, she turned her body away a little bit and started to operate the phone.
I can’t see the contents of her phone, but the sequence and distance of the finger slide, I know she’s deleting the message!
Is it true?
Otherwise, why would she delete the message?
But I was lucky enough to believe that Wu was not like that!
I went back to the dorm with Wu laughing, lying on my bed with Lee Yi on the phone porridge while still thinking about the message.
Until the next morning I woke up, and I didn’t sleep.
And Wu smiles with serious makeup.
“You’re going on a date? I’m sorry.
“Don’t you let me look at you and the men and me every day? All right, I’m going!”
I don’t know if it’s like I imagined…
I hope not.
I sat in the dormitory and followed her secretly with a mask.
When she stopped a cab, I rushed to stop one and let the driver follow the car in front.
The familiar route makes my heart heavier.
Not quite. Twenty minutes later, I saw the hotel, and I left the car in the corner not far away.
Watching Wu smiles and smiles, he takes the keys upstairs at the hotel reception.
I took out my phone and sent Wu a message asking where he was.
Every second I wait after the message is sent.
Deng!
“What, miss me? Unfortunately I’m busy at the company today. I’m sorry.
I’m relieved.
I’ve thought too much, and I’m ashamed of myself.
Maybe, really, I’m paranoid.
But when I dropped my phone and was about to take a cab, a familiar BMW x 7 stopped at the hotel entrance.
I watched the bald man from the car cut his heart.
Bastard! Demon! Disgusting!
It’s his daughter. How dare he!
I’ve lost my mind. I don’t even know how to get back to my dorm.
03
When it was over 9:00 p.m., I looked at Wu and laughed, and I came back, and I was so tired, I was on the table.
I don’t know what to say.
And what am I supposed to say about her?
I can only pretend I don’t know about this. It’s normal.
I have to find out about them!
And five days later, Wu just sent me another message to see him.
I’ve come to the old place and it’s the bald and greasy guy that makes me sick, but this time he makes me sicker.
Just came into the room and Wu just said he was cold and wanted to get warm.
Don’t rush! You’re sweaty today. Take a shower. I’m sorry.
Wu just saw me, noding and went to the bathroom.
I took the opportunity to turn on his phone and try to find out what he was threatening to laugh at.
Because every time he used his phone, he didn’t guard me, I knew his lock code.
I unlocked the code.
However, that shocking record pierced my heart.
You sure have a way to make her promise? She looks pretty tough.
She’s just a bitch and I’m gonna rob a man. I promise I’ll let you take her in less than a week, but you can’t get tired of it.
That’s impossible! I miss you tonight!
They’re not even real fathers and daughters, they’re just so-called father-daughter relationships, and they’re just playing that fancy “playing role”!
I even saw her viciously planned to hurt my father and then planned to ruin my reputation at school!
I’m all over the place, trying to strangle both of them!
Wu smile! How can you be so mean!
I slowly looked at yesterday’s news, and they were talking about Sunday’s plans.
They’re going to have Wu meet me at home and then they’re laughing and pretending that my daughter’s coming home suddenly, and I’m going to be in a panic! The rich people really play.
I’m so angry after I read it!
My self-esteem is not as good as a dog in your eyes!
I filmed their chat records on my cell phone and put them back where they were when the water in the bathroom stopped.
When Wu came out, he was all over me, and he didn’t notice anything.
I can’t help but hold on to this fat pig because I have a better and worse plan.
The time has quickly ended, but this time I did not leave immediately, but I made a request.
“My father’s condition in the hospital is serious. He needs half a million dollars. I’m sorry.
“No problem, I said as long as you’re okay, money’s not a problem, but next time I ask, you can’t refuse! I’m sorry.
“Good. I’m sorry.
When he saw me say yes, he passed the bank transfer with great pleasure.
When I saw the bank’s news, I was sure that when my plan was implemented, Wu would hate to kill me, so I had to get the money for the follow-up.
When I got the money, I turned my head and stayed with this animal. I was afraid I’d throw up.
I did not go back to the dormitory immediately after leaving the hotel because my plan required some equipment.
04
I took a taxi to the e-City, went straight to the electronic camera store, and bought several high-resolution Internet microcams for $30,000.
Look at the camera in my hand, I’m laughing.
I’ll make you laugh!
I know ordinary students like me who want to take revenge on the owner of a listed company are crazy.
But just as I fear that I will be known for my hard work and learning, they fear that their relationship will be known.
From the previous reports, I knew that Go would ask me to his house as planned.
As long as I’m at his house and I get a chance to install a camera, my plan is half complete.
I hid the camera in my pocket and went back to the dorm.
Wu smiles and sits at the table and paints a comprehensive video.
“What have you been up to?”
I’m laughing in my heart. What did I do? Don’t you know?
“I didn’t do anything. I was bored and went to the mall! I’m sorry.
Why didn’t you call me? I’m sorry.
I’m sick of hearing her like that. How did I ever find such a person so cute?
An 18-year-old who pretends to be a child every day.
It’s a big deal.
In order for the dog and the dog to get their dues, I had to continue to play with her as a girlfriend.
I’m glad I’m ready to pick up the black duck from the school entrance.
Look what this is. I’m sorry.
She jumped up and hugged me.
“Whoa! You’re my best friend! I’m sorry.
“I’ve just come back sweaty, don’t stick it on me! I’m sorry.
I put up with the boom in my stomach and pushed her away and hid the bag in the dirty coat.
Back in the dorm, the bitch was still staring at the Korean choreography.
I didn’t pay attention to her. Lie on the bed, pull the curtain.
I started searching on my cell phone where the microcam was hidden.
Through a few days of collection, I wrote down all the hidden corners of the ground.
On Saturday night, Wu Congo sent me a message.
“Baby! Come to my house tomorrow. It’s more exciting! I’m sorry.
I’m gonna laugh, and then it’s gonna get more exciting, so you can’t take it.
I’m still pretending to react as usual, so I’m holding on.
“No, what if I smile back? I’m sorry.
“No, I took her away, and you forgot what you promised me? I’m sorry.
“Just this once!”
“Hey, hey, no problem! I’m sorry.
Wu just gave me a colored face bag, which made me sick to delete the chat.
It seems to be to ease my concerns, and Wu smiles about tomorrow’s trip.
“Gross, I’m going to the Student Department tomorrow. I’ll be back at 8-9 p.m. I’m sorry.
“Good. I’m sorry.
Well, that’s a coincidence. If I don’t know what’s going on, maybe I’ll be lucky, and now I just want her to die.
05
When I woke up the next day, Wu laughed and was already out of the dorm.
Very professional. Oscar owes her a little gold man.
But I can get ready.
At 1:30 p.m., I came to Wu Kong’s house, as promised, to see this magnificent villa.
Why can an animal like him live in a villa and drive a limo? You don’t deserve it.
If God doesn’t punish him, let me punish him!
“I’m here!”
I just sent a message to Wu.
“Hey, hey! I’ll pick you up when you’ve been waiting! I’m sorry.
Not two minutes. Wu just opened the door.
As soon as we met, Wu was excited to pick me up and I took a step back.
“It’s easy to be seen here. Let’s go first! I’m sorry.
Wu just touched his bald head. I’m sorry.
After Wu just led the way, I was one step behind him and took a look at the furniture in the house.
Just a few minutes into the living room, I found four hidden corners.
But now’s not the time, because I found out the villa had closed-circuit cameras.
“What about these cameras? I’m sorry.
“Oh, these cameras! Don’t be afraid!
Wu just said he was afraid I wouldn’t believe him.
I can’t help but think about it. How dare they set up cameras at home?
Look at me. Wu just closed the door and looked at me.
“Now it’s ready!”
I was silent for a while and noded my head.
I opened the package when he was dressed.
Thirty minutes later, Wu just got dressed and sat on the couch and smoked his cell phone.
I sat by and packed my clothes, because Wu smiled and suddenly came back as planned, and I had only one chance.
Three minutes later, the sound of footsteps was heard outside the lobby door, and I immediately pretended to be panicking to hold up clothes with micro-cams and looked at the door in a panic.
Wu was just excited to see me panic, but he had to softly comfort me because of my plan.
“It’s okay. I’ll see who it is. You hide in the room first! The rooms here are basically connected, don’t be afraid! I’m sorry.
It’s a shame they don’t want to be actors!
I turned to the first floor of the room, and in a few moments I heard the laughs and the voice of Wu Kong and the footsteps that I feared I would not hear.
I quickly installed the microcam in the hidden corner of the room and, after I had finished, Wu smiled and slowly twisted the room handle.
I’m afraid they’re laughing at me at the door.
But I’d like to see who’s the real clown in the end.
I opened the door to the next room without panic and continued to install microcams.
So I went through all the rooms in a game where Wu and Wu laughed and laughed.
Then they seemed to have had enough fun, and Wu laughed and left the villa.
06
Wu just came to me and touched my thigh.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t think I’d come out of nowhere with a smile. I let her go! Let’s go on.”
Oh, I can’t stay!
“No way! I’m leaving now! I’m sorry.
Wu just saw my firmness and reluctantly let me go.
When I left the villa, I pretended to leave in a cab, and then came back in a circle, hiding in the green belt woods and staring at the door of the villa.
In my judgment, he is not satisfied with me and will definitely make Wu laugh “overwork.”
Ten minutes later, Wu smiled and walked gently towards the villa.
I laughed, but I didn’t think they were so positive. I just put it on, and I gave me the material.
I’m going to go online and turn on the software to control the camera.
In a moment, the scene in the villa appeared.
After Wu laughed in, two people started laughing.
I don’t have to guess. They’re laughing at me like a clown for their entertainment.
My anger is burning madly!
Then Wu just started, and I taped them on my cell phone, and I watched each of them work hard, and I got a good picture.
Now that my plan has been done in half, it is still hard to get back at them and needs an excellent opportunity.
Soon, Wu smiled and his birthday was his best chance.
On previous scales, Wu Gang would facilitate business transactions by inviting company cadres and partner business gatherings on the basis of Wu’s birthday.
When they’re almost done, I’ll take a cab back to school.
Upon return to the dormitory, Wu smiled and returned to the dormitory for not an hour.
I was excited to come up and grab my waist.
“The condensation star, we haven’t seen you in 16 hours and 35 minutes. I missed you. Did you miss me?”
I smiled, “Of course I do! I can’t even eat. I’m sorry.
It’s true, it’s just that you can’t eat it and start with me as soon as you get back.
“What’s so urgent about seeing you at my house? I’m sorry.
Students? It’s you! It looks like it.
I put up with anger and responded.
“I, I did come to see you, I wanted to see you, but I thought of you going to the event and I left! I’m sorry.
I look at her mouth and laughs, and I think I’m very happy with my reaction.
Oh, I guess I’m just an idiot in her heart to the extent that she can control a puppet.
When she was so pleased, I offered to attend her birthday party a month later, and she promised me without hesitation.
“You’ll have to choose your gift.” I wouldn’t have let you go. I’m sorry.
I can assure you it’s the best gift.
That’s a gift you’ll never forget in your life.
This month, in order not to panic, I accepted the request of Wu Kong, as usual.
I’ve been watching their chat records for as long as I could.
I even saw Wu laugh when I was near the birthday party and asked Wu to make me work hard at the birthday party!
I cried.
Even worse, she secretly invited Li Yi to let me know my bad side.
Is that how you hate me?
I can’t live, I can’t die!
But you promised me I would.
Even I saw Wu’s plan to laugh, to destroy my ridiculous self-esteem first, and in the end, to leave Wu at his mercy, even those disgusting acts.
I had a little bit of it.
All I see now is anger.
After 30 minutes, I packed my clothes and was ready to leave the hotel.
“In three days, it’s a happy birthday party, you remember the last JK uniform. I’m sorry.
“No way! What if someone laughs and finds out?”
I’m sure the first reaction rejected.
And Wu just swept my body.
“The last time you transferred the money, you promised. But I can give you another 100,000 this time. I’m sorry.
I pretended to hesitate for a few minutes.
“200,000. I’m sorry.
“All right. I’m sorry.
Wu just promised to be very happy, as if money could solve things, and he wouldn’t call it anything.
I promised, I took the money and I left.
I’ve got three days to plan.
I bought a printer on my own, and I printed 200 copies of the laughter and the disgusting chat records and their wonderful images.
I went to the gift shop to buy 200 beautiful gift boxes for A4 paper, after all, if I just send out the A4 paper, I’m afraid it’ll stop before a few.
I personally packed them in one piece.
Wu smiles! Three more days!
Enjoy your last birthday!
07
I went back to the dorm and was dragged by Wu to the mall to buy a dress.
I have patiently chosen her to wear a different dress, and I have made a serious assessment of each.
The higher the high, the worse the fall, the more I’m gonna let Wu laugh and show everyone the real face!
So I chose my dress more carefully than Wu smiles, and he was happy to kiss me.
“The star is my best friend! I’m sorry.
I’ve had a chill and I’ve had enough to cut off the place where Wu smiles and kisses.
“Of course, as your best friend, I’m going to make you shine in the eyes of the crowd! I’m sorry.
“Mmm-hmm! Thank you for the condensation!”
We picked out a blue-and-white dress for three hours, and we picked out a little dress with flashes.
The happier Wu smiles, the more excited I am, the more we all look forward to that day.
And then on Sunday, at 7:00 a.m., Wu smiled at her first circle of friends, a circle of people with pictures of her make-up, with a line saying, “This is a beautiful day!” So happy!”
Look at her Versailles circle. I can’t help but throw up.
Wu smiled and she sent me one after the circle of friends.
“Condens, party on the third floor of the Pomley Hotel. I’m sorry.
I’m getting the driver to take the gift box with me.
“I’m preparing your birthday present! Don’t worry, I won’t be late! I’m sorry.
I’ll wait for your gift! I’m sorry.
“Mmm-hmm, promise you’ll never forget! I’m sorry.
She returned a kiss.
Disgusting!
After an hour, I came to the hotel with 200 gift boxes and gave them to the hotel manager.
Tell him it’s a little present for the birthday party, and it must be delivered to all the guests at the beginning of the party! Open the wrapper when the hero comes in.
The manager was also aware of the importance of the party’s main character to Ng Kong and had vowed to do so.
I watched his commanding officer carefully leave his gift box in a room and leave the hotel in peace.
At 10:00, Wu just sent me a message.
“Baby, are you here? The party is about to start. Why didn’t I see you? I’m sorry.
I bought tickets and got on the train.
“I’m almost there, I’m in traffic!”
“Then you’ll come straight up, come inside, and we’ll have a little fun before the party starts.” I’m sorry.
Go fuck your mother! Bastard!
After 30 minutes, Wu laughed and started pushing me.
“Condens! Why haven’t you come? I’ve been waiting for you! The party’s almost started! I’m sorry.
Soon! It’ll be a few minutes! I’m sorry.
After more than 20 minutes, Wu smiled and sent another message.
“Gorgeous, the party’s starting. I’m going to be there. Just come right in! Hurry up!”
“Here we are, going upstairs!”
She had a happy look back.
Oh, your punishment has arrived.
She sent out another circle of friends, a photo of a luxurious party, with “Yah!” There are so many people who are nervous every year! “It’s not like I’m going to be able to do this.”
Bitch, enjoy your last minute!
I looked at the time a little bit past, 11:10, 2 minutes, 3.
I’m sure Wu smiles and starts to call me on my phone, and at the same time
I can’t see the scene, but I can imagine that Wu smiles in the light, holding his hand with all eyes open, slowly coming out of platform T.
At the same time, my gift was given to everyone by the manager, all of whom opened the wrappings and looked inside at the screenshots of Wu Kong and Wu’s smiles and looked at the dogs and the men on the stage with different eyes.
I can’t help but think about it.
A few minutes later, young men across the train suddenly shouted.
“Whoa! Look at the news. The boss of a listed company has a birthday party for her daughter in a hotel, and she’s been given a big picture! I’m sorry.
“No, the boss is still unmarried, and the so-called daughter is just the lover he’s raised!” I’m sorry.
“This man is an animal! I’m sorry.
I was curious to hear the news.
The news map was in the hotel lobby, and the greasy Wu laughed and sat on the floor.
I’m sure that’s a great look for a mosaic.
“Look at the latest! The partner of the listed company, who started to dislodge, and the shareholders, who sold their shares madly. I’m sorry.
“The boss has already jumped out of the building, and in 10 minutes he’s gone from a billion to a negative. It’s me and me! I’m sorry.
I heard a scream in the car! I feel like I’m feeling better.
I’m sure it’ll never be forgotten.
I’m so relieved!
I’m finally getting back at this dog and dog! It’s not like I’m dead.
He who insults, he who persists!
Case number YX11vw71Vz
Killing hearts is playing a game these days, a game of survival.
I see that in the end people are sometimes more vicious than beasts.
What is this game, a simple end-of-life game with zombies and others?
Case 1
I went to a server yesterday, where I finished a search, took a lot of cans of tuna, peas, beef, some tools, and a baseball bat, and I was going to find a place to live.
At that time, suddenly, a group of zombies was heard out there, one man shouted, and there was no one.
I went out and looked at a black man in gray clothes who was being chased by a bunch of zombies, and I went up with a baseball bat and beat him.
We had a little chat after they killed the zombies.
It became clear that the server had very little material and that there were so many people who had basically been searched for it, without any food.
So we decided to find a place to build.
On the way, I told this man that I had 4,5 cans on me, and he was acting weird, but he didn’t say anything.
On the way he always asked me to split him two cans, and I gave him one.
And then I passed by a huge warehouse, where there were a lot of zombies, and I was alone with a baseball bat, and there were more than 10 zombies, and the kid was watching, and I called him to help.
When he came over, he was either looking at the zombies, looking straight at my head, or a baseball bat.
I was on the floor with a stick, and the zombies almost surrounded me, but I ran fast.
But this man came up again and hit me with a wolf tooth stick.
My left hand was fractured, my right hand was torn and my groin was injured.
I’m in a hurry to yell, don’t hit me, I’ve got all the cans on me. I’ve got 5 or 6 cans hidden. I’ll find them if you don’t kill me.
The kid stopped, and we ran to a safe house.
I asked him why I was hit, and the man was not talking, and I took care of the wound, and he asked me when I was going to find a can.
I said go now and I’ll take him to my house.
When I came to my house, I came to the toilet, and I said, look, the can is here.
The kid asked me where I was, and I said in the toilet cabinet, and when he searched, I pulled out the hammer.
He fell right on his head and I hit a couple of hammers on his leg.
The kid ran through the window and I flipped out. I think he broke his leg.
I laughed at him and asked him not to. He convinced me not to kill me.
I shouted, “The zombies in the vicinity came, a group of zombies chased him crazy, he couldn’t run, he was bitten alive and he was eaten.
After I played with the server, I met a team.
There’s three of us in this team, and at first we had a very good conversation.
Let’s explore, kill zombies, and decide to build a family together, but then I found out it wasn’t right.
The notebook was in that game, basically nothing.
Then I went out to explore, but when I saw some zombie bodies at the door, I went to remove them, fearing that they would contaminate the environment and make others sick.
When I heard them talking, I told him to do some work and then I killed him.
When I heard it, the cold sweat came down, and this server added a M.D. that could eat human meat, and one could break out 14 steaks, about three people for three days.
I left, and I walked out through a flat, and I didn’t see a zombie on the ground, and the zombie bit me in the leg, and I looked at the bar, and I bit him.
The game almost died of its bites, and I smiled in my heart and gave all my valuables (e.g. cans, tools, medical supplies) to the toilet where a villa existed.
I marked the map with a pencil, and I went back.
When I got back, I pretended I didn’t know anything, used their resources crazy enough to play until the third day, and they finally killed me with an axe.
I started to break up the meat after cutting it, and I watched my body roasted.
A group of people laughed and said my meat was delicious.
I waited for them to eat, and I laughed, and I told them.
CNND, I’m bit. Eat.
A couple of them got angry and scolded, and one of them was a six-grade cook, a six-grade carpenter, and had to practice for 7 or 8 days every day.
I ruined it all, ha ha.
And then I met two more people who started out passionately with me.
Tell me they had a home, and I followed them, and when I went, it was weird.
It’s a 3-story floor where there’s no zombie, but I can hear some weird noises, and I’m going around and I don’t find anything.
Later, the two men asked me to go to the top of the building and plant it, and I went.
Upstairs, there were 4,5 zombies on the roof, all wearing backpacks and bulletproof vests, and I wanted to open the door and run back, but I found the door had been reinforced with a wooden plank.
The server, the zombies are running, and a few zombies are going to kill me soon.
I climbed down the roof and ran off.
I didn’t figure out what they were trying to do with me. I could still work.
They may have been the same people who had been bitten and didn’t want to be killed, so they tricked the living to go to the roof and feed the zombies.
Later, when they left the house, I broke a hole in the wall with a baseball bat, went in and took all the valuables, went upstairs and killed the zombies, and burned the evil place.
It’s almost a series. Think about writing a few dozen seasons later.
It’s called destruction.
First season of destruction
The wine made the cloves my mother gave birth to two children without knowing.
When I knew about this, the whole thing was a mess.
She went to her room and saw that she was breastfeeding, and the sun hit her.
Gentle and incredible.
And my three-year-old boyfriend was smiling at the baby.
As if they were the family.
I didn’t know until later that they were really family.
One.
I’ve never seen my mother’s face so loving.
As I remember, she looked at me with contempt, contempt and indifference.
Looks like a worthless piece of junk.
I used to think that she was just a little apathy and didn’t like kids.
It wasn’t until this moment that I finally collapsed to accept it. She just didn’t like me.
Because I’m her daughter and the rapist.
I was born with sin.
Even if I tried to get the first of the more schools, I wouldn’t be able to wash out the disgustingness of my bones.
My mother told me that.
When I got first in my sixth grade final exam, I called her.
Hang up the phone, my heart is cold.
The prize in his hand can no longer be held, dropped on the ground, blown by the wind and floated into the garbage.
I couldn’t help it any longer.
If you don’t love me, why bring me to this world?
I went on a hunger strike for two days, and I didn’t want to eat any more, no matter what my grandmother told me.
At night, Grandma called Mom and asked her to persuade me.
I’ll stand up and listen, and I’ll just wait for one word, and I’ll ruin my body.
Then I hung up the phone.
I couldn’t take it anymore. I ran out on my feet.
The village is that big. Where am I going?
Grandma found me, deeply lamented and told me the truth.
My mother was a beauty in her village when she was young.
But beauty brings flowers and blades.
One day, as she walked the night, she was violated by a drunk man.
Although he finally went in, the damage to his mother was irreparable.
A few months later, when Mom found out she was pregnant, it was too late.
Because of the size of the month, the hospital did not induce the birth, she jumped across the river, took an abortion pill, and couldn’t shake me inside.
Maybe from this moment on, she totally hates me.
Out of the full moon, she threw me to Grandma and went away.
Those kids threw stones at me and called me a little bastard.
Only I don’t know.
I asked Grandma, “Do you like me? I’m sorry.
And she did not speak, but touched my head, and she saw a clear mercy.
My tears came down, and my grandmother didn’t like me, and she felt sorry for me and couldn’t bear to see a life starve to death.
In her eyes, I was no different from the stray dogs she fed her.
Two.
Knowing the truth, I stopped wondering why my mom didn’t love me.
Since I was born out of her reach, I tried to keep my presence in the light.
I’m trying, I’m trying to make her ignore me, pay attention to me, admit I’m her daughter.
I took the best college in her city.
The other day, I was so excited to have the letter of admission and knocked on her door.
She opened the door and frowned me and asked me if I could help.
The strangeness and vigilance in her eyes deeply stabbed me, and she didn’t recognize me.
I yelled, Mom.
Her face changed from an instant to an aversion, and she closed the door and said, “I’m not your mother. You’re mistaken.”
I grabbed the door and lived with the power to close the door, and I was sweating.
She didn’t think I’d stop her with my hands, so she didn’t spare any effort.
Soon, my hands will swell up.
I put up with the pain and stood still with her.
Finally, she fell and let me into her house.
Her room was neatly packed, and she seemed to live well.
She brought me a medical kit, put me on ice, watched her head down and treated me.
Is that what it feels like to be cared for?
But she just wrapped me up and let me out.
My tears can’t help but fall, “Mom, for years, don’t you want me? I’m sorry.
At one point, I felt like I was the kid with the medal, except this time I had a college admission letter.
She wrinkled her head as if I was saying something against her.
After all these years, all I want is her word of certainty, a gentle touch, a loving look.
But she was mean to me and even thought that I was in the same room as her, and that was an insult to her.
“Gua, you’re not a baby who’s hungry. Be fun. Let’s go. I’m sorry.
I couldn’t stop my tears, and I kept pouring, “Where were you when I was crying? I’m sorry.
“So you came here today to ask me for alimony? Yes, I’ll give it to you.
I haven’t responded yet, and she threw a card in my face, “Take it and go away and don’t let me see you again.” I’m sorry.
“No, that’s not what I mean.”
I wanted to say something, but looking at her impatience face didn’t say anything.
Pick up the take-in letter and go.
My name’s Gua, and my grandmother’s last name.
She really hates me and doesn’t even want to give me her last name.
I look at the lights in the big cities, a sense of loneliness that spreads from the bottom of my feet to my heart. It’s not a small village, and I have no grandmother’s lamp waiting for me.
In high school, I went to see my biological father.
In our local prison.
He’s a rapist who everyone shouts, but I’m still a little curious about my biological father.
This may be human nature.
I sat across from him, picked up the microphone, “I’m your daughter. I’m sorry.
His face was scarred and he looked even more scary when he wrinkled.
“I only have one son. I’m sorry.
I squeezed the microphone, and the other hand squeezed on my clothes.
“is… you and Yang Min’s daughter. I’m sorry.
He heard my mom’s name, and his face suddenly became funny.
“The Yang Min bitch left me a seed.” I’m sorry.
Bitch…
Plant…
One short sentence, a deep pit in my heart.
I can’t believe I’m looking at him.
I thought, after all these years, he would have a little confession to his mother.
Even if he had a little, I thought it was worth it.
Even if he had a little, I thought I was born less dirty.
But, no.
His face, his face, his face, his face, his eyes, his eyes, his eyes, his eyes, his eyes, his eyes.
My stomach fell into the sea in an instant, and then I survived.
“She gave birth to me and left, and thought I was a bastard. I’m sorry.
“I’m not a bastard! I’m sorry.
“Come on, leave me alone. Just come back when I’m old and I need someone to serve. I’m sorry.
When he threw the microphone, he left.
I was standing at the door of the prison, just like I am now.
It’s like I’ll never get what I want.
It’s going to be another extreme.
I went to school and lived the same day as a regular college student.
And have a boyfriend.
He and I were in the same place, except he moved away when he was very young.
He’s very sweet, very caring.
I thought my missing affection would be made up for his love, unfortunately, no.
I was jealous of him when he looked confident and watched his social life.
I feel like a rat in a gutter, trying to escape from a dark and dirty environment and living in the sun all day.
But the closer we get to warm rabbits, the more rats feel they don’t deserve a bright life.
Rats are afraid, afraid that one day, this warmth will burn their cold skin.
I’ve been in love with Chen Gang for two years, from junior year to senior year, and he’s got a boyfriend.
Other roommates envy me for having a “twenty-four” boyfriend, and when I hear this, I have to shake my head and laugh.
The more he loves me, the more I can’t tell him everything about me.
Tell those who love themselves that the person you love was born because of a crime, that the rapist is still in prison, and that the aggressor feels that her daughter is the stain of her life.
What did I tell him?
It’s cruel. It’s cruel for both of us.
Chen likes to look into my eyes, and he says that my eyes are deeply depressed and that people want to explore.
I want to die in secret until I can’t be hidden again.
But life never meant to spare me once.
It’s like it’s never gonna get tired of clowns. It’s always a rope of fate, and I can’t keep it.
I was in class when Grandma called me.
She said that my mother had been in a car accident, that she had been contacted by the hospital, that she was too old to come, that she asked me to take care of her for two days.
In the face of old sickness and death, it seems that all the problems are left behind.
By the time I arrived at the hospital, the operation had been completed, the man had been released from danger, but his leg had broken and he needed to be hospitalized.
Sleeping mother in bed, making me strange.
She’s just an ordinary mother.
That afternoon, I was so greedy to watch her fall asleep as to make up for all the time I’ve missed.
This is the case for all, for those who love to show weakness, for those who hate to put up thorns, even if they are already bleeding.
I think this time I’ll take care of my mother and ease our rigid relationship.
But she didn’t give me the chance.
She threw everything she could get on me, staring at me like I was a sinner.
It wasn’t me who made her look like this.
After an ordinary midday, everything that was suppressed in my heart finally broke out.
I put my cooking on the table and I rocked the bed to make her comfortable.
But she closed her eyes, didn’t eat and didn’t talk.
I picked up the spoon and I blew the soup to her mouth.
And as soon as the spoon touched her lips, she turned her hand over the food, and We shunned it, and cast it.
My heart was filled with sorrow, shame, and I wiped a piece of soup on my face.
“What are you doing? You’re a patient. I’m your daughter. Why don’t you just take care of me? I’m sorry.
She laughed, “I’m a patient, not a dead man. You ran away from all the nurses I hired, left to take care of me. Do you want to disgust me or do you want to disgust yourself? I’m sorry.
I rubbed my face, “I can take care of you here without a nurse. I’m sorry.
She smiled, but her mouth was full of evil, “Gua, I repeat, I was forced to give birth to you, not your mother. I’m sorry.
“Why do you take care of me when I have not raised you?” I’m sorry.
I know what you want, but I can’t afford it. I’m sorry.
I’d like to say something else, but I see Chen Jiang in the light.
Why is he here?
He was staring at me, and he couldn’t help himself.
It’s like this is the first time that this is happening.
He found everything I wanted to hide, when I was the worst.
I couldn’t help it any longer. I ran out under cover.
Chen Gang called me back, but how could I stop?
Tears fall down, and the road ahead is not clear.
The stinging brakes were ringing, and I was pulled by Chen Jiang and both fell on the floor.
He’s protecting me. “Gua, you’re killing me! I’m sorry.
When I calm down, I told Chen Jiang everything.
Then wait for his trial.
Maybe today is the first day of our breakup.
Who knows, he held me gently as if he was holding something he valued.
He said, “Gua, man is not born evil, but evil is the matter, not the human.”
I returned him and cried.
It’s good that I didn’t lose him.
He found it because my roommate told me he thought I was in the hospital, and I didn’t answer the phone and came in a room.
Finally found me.
I watched the silent phone and over 20 uncalled phone calls, shaking my head.
After that day, one more person took care of my mother, Chen Jiang.
He promised to stay with me and wait for my mother’s return.
Maybe Chen is really lucky.
Since Chen Jiang was with me, my mother stopped being angry and did not cooperate with me in taking care of her and eating.
Although she was still quiet to me, I was pleased to see her cooperating with the treatment.
When Grandma came, she saw me at peace with her and she had a happy smile.
Since when?
My mom and Chen Jiang are getting closer.
Maybe after my mom got out of the hospital, to take care of her, I lived in her second bedroom, and Chen Jiang came to visit us.
Maybe Chen Jiang was looking for an internship at my mother’s company, and Chen Jiang was working for my mother.
A little bit of time has passed, and my mom and I have been able to communicate regularly, and I know that there is no less than Chen Jiang.
He seems to be the lubricant of my mother’s relationship, anyway.
When my mom gets down there, Chen and I move out of her house.
That’s when Chen Jiang came back to me slowly.
Sometimes the phone calls are unaccepted.
His explanation was that his work was too busy, because he was an intern who could not afford to let go.
Look at the red blood in his eyes, and I can’t let it go.
The longer I get involved, the more I rely on Chen Jiang.
If you embrace the sun, how can you let it disappear?
That’s it. Chen Jiang works well at the firm. I’m preparing a post-graduate exam at school.
I thought my life was out of fate’s swamp and I could clean up a new life.
Until my grandmother called again.
She said my mom had a girl.
When I heard the news, I drew water next to the self-made water heater and hung up the phone for a long time, and the glass was full and flowing.
I went to the hospital crazy. There was only one voice in my head.
No way. How is that possible?
She had been subjected to something like that, and she had never come out of her life and was extremely sick of physical contact with men.
How is it possible to have a child now?
I ran in my breath, and I saw a very strange and harmonious scene.
Nice mom, happy boyfriend.
I’m just saying, “Chen Jiang, what are you doing here? I’m sorry.
My mother’s face turned from the sky.
It’s like it’s back to the beginning, and I’m still in her eyes that should disappear.
Chen Jiang smiled and said, “I sent her to Yang Min, she’s due to give birth, and she’s not paying much attention to her body. I’m sorry.
Because my attention was on my mother and the kid, and I didn’t notice anything wrong with Chen Jiang.
Looking at that little child and her gentle mother, I don’t know why my tears just fell.
I just feel unfair, really unfair.
Why am I the child of the rapist? Why was I born with sin? I don’t know. Why does my presence seem superfluous to her?
And the boy was clean in her eyes, so she was gentle, so the love in her eyes was pure.
That’s what she should be like as a mother.
I finally saw what she was supposed to have, not to me.
I don’t know what to do. Should I congratulate you? Congratulations, dear son.
But a mouth becomes a question.
“Who owns this child? I’m sorry.
My mother didn’t answer, but Chen Jiang came to me, “Ya, don’t ask. I’m sorry.
I’m mad at Chen Gang. What should I ask?
Who’s this bastard’s?
Or is that the wild man?
Chen Jiang seems to know what I’m going to say and has pulled me all the way out of the hospital building.
“Gua, I know what you’re thinking, but that’s your mother! All she wants to do is to be free and you don’t have the right to question her. I’m sorry.
Chen’s wrinkled, as if it was all my fault.
“Chen Jiang, it’s like the first time I’ve seen you lose your temper. I’m sorry.
Chen Jiang heard me say that, and held me in his arms, “Gua, I don’t blame you, I just don’t want your relationship to be rigid anymore. I’m sorry.
“It’s been hard for you to ease your relationship, and I don’t want you to lose everything you’ve done. I’m sorry.
Yeah, I’m jealous, scared, but I can’t change anything.
It is only a fact that can be accepted.
Just this once, I don’t want to take care of her anymore.
Seeing her eyes for her second child, naked love.
I can’t stand it.
Chen Jiang comforted me and said he’d find someone to take care of my mother. I don’t have to worry about that.
If I don’t want to come, he can stay here for me.
When Chen Jiang said that to me, I was deeply grateful to him, because I had to prepare for the exam, and I was so tired.
Say goodbye to Chen Jiang and I’ll go back to school.
Walking on the road, I always felt like someone was following me, looking back, nobody.
I’ll pick up the speed, turn around, and I’ll see the gate.
However, the man also stepped up, covered my mouth and dragged me into the corner.
I’m so scared that I can get rid of him.
“Don’t move. Look, I’m your old man. I’m sorry.
For a moment, my blood was frozen.
Is he out?
He saw me wait and not struggle, and he let me go.
I was so calm, “How did you find me?” I’m sorry.
He lit a cigarette, threw it all over my face, and I coughed.
“Go back to that little place where the birds don’t shit, and we’ll know where the golden phoenix that flew out a few years ago is now. I’m sorry.
“That’s good, Gua. A rat in a ditch can turn into a phoenix. I’m sorry.
It’s like he’s looking at something valuable and makes me want to vomit.
Why? Why does he see the sun again?
He took my collar with him. “Gua, don’t look at me like a wolf. I’m your father, not your enemy. I’m sorry.
“What do you want? I’m sorry.
“What do I want to do? I’m just trying to find my own son and daughter for a living. I’m sorry.
Shame on you.
He’s so ugly.
Wait.
I looked up, “Your son is here? I’m sorry.
He nods his head. “He’s got a great hideout. I haven’t found him yet. Forget it. I’m sorry.
I said I had no money.
And when he did not believe, he took my bag and scattered it.
There was no money except for sporadic items.
And he put his hand up, and he slaps me, and he says, “Call me 2,000 bucks this week, or I’ll tell everyone about your identity.” I’m sorry.
“Look what you’ll do! I’m sorry.
After that, he left.
I looked at what was scattered on the ground, and my face was sore and my tears came down.
I’d like to call Chen Jiang and hear his voice. It’s too dark for me to drown.
The cell phone was turned on in tremors and the number of Chen Jiang was dialed over and over again.
No answer, no answer.
I played one after the other until my phone was dead.
It’s like the whole world’s been bullying me since I was born.
(In the meantime)
“Don’t you take her call?”
“Don’t answer now. I’ll find a reason to go back. I’m sorry.
“You take care of it. I don’t want her to find out yet. I’m sorry.
“I know. Just give me the baby. I’m sorry.
The next day I woke up and my face was swollen.
Leave to stay in the dormitories only.
I’m finally getting a little warmer at the bottom of Chen Jiang’s story.
He said he fell asleep yesterday and didn’t hear my phone call.
And ask me what happened.
I closed my eyes and turned off my phone, and yesterday I was so emotional, I didn’t think about it, I just wanted a simple consolation.
Now, I’m going to think about how to get 2,000 bucks in a week.
My school fees are earned during my summer work, my living expenses are earned part-time, my grandmother is too old to spend her pension.
The 2000 dollar gave him was a stopgap measure to calm his emotions.
It’s a long-term solution to this problem.
But his son in this city, maybe I could use that.
But I don’t know how much he feels about his son, but maybe not much about a rapist.
I daren’t bet I’ll just wait and see.
After a while, Grandma came and I took her to my mother’s place.
On the way, Grandma was so sad.
Grandma, aren’t you happy?
She stopped and laughed, “Ya, Grandma hasn’t done anything bad in her life. I’m sorry.
Speaking of which, her eyes are red.
“But my child has not kept my heart quiet for a moment, she has been too bitter, her life too bitter. I’m sorry.
Grandma was suffocated and said, “She was a strong man since she was a child, and even when that happened, she stood up. That day, in the rain, she walked 20 miles alone to the police station to report herself. I’m sorry.
“Ya, Grandma knew that she didn’t like you and you suffered a lot, but for Grandma’s sake, would you forgive her this time? I’m sorry.
Grandma was old enough to look at her hair, and I cried and noded.
I thought it was my mother who said nothing about the baby, and Grandma asked me to forgive her, and then I knew that I had been flirting with myself, that everyone was lying to me, that someone was lying to me, that someone was lying to me, that someone was lying to me.
But out of the Bureau, no one wins.
When my mother opened the door, she was wearing a pyjamas with a visible milk stain on them.
I’m not looking at this.
Grandma said it was she who brought me up with a little rice congee, when my mother left and the conditions were so bad that she could not afford milk powder.
I’m still afraid to buy a lot of milk, and I’m only going to buy two packs of it, which is a luxury to me.
My mother was happy to see her and took her child to her.
Says her name is Yang Kessine.
My mother’s last name was something I couldn’t expect.
But it’s her heart, right?
They were happy, so I sat quietly on the couch and drank water.
Suddenly, the door opened, it was Chen Jiang.
The door was locked. Why did he have my mom’s keys? And he’s talking about a bag full of kids’ stuff.
The worst part is, he’s wearing slippers.
And the look on his face that I was clearly wrong.
I just sent him a message saying he was busy shopping for my mom’s kids.
For a moment, my heart sank to the bottom of the valley.
I have a very bad feeling about this.
I didn’t say anything, so my mom explained to me, “It’s Chen who’s trouble to buy me something. I’m sorry.
I looked at them with my cold eyes and downed all the emotions and stopped saying a word.
I ran out of the door with my bag until Grandma was resting.
Too suffocating.
That environment, that living together, is not what I always wanted.
It’s like… it’s like Chen Jiang is about to be taken away.
Chen’s breathing and he’s following me and holding me from behind.
“Ya, I was wrong. It’s my fault. I’m too busy. I’m sorry.
He’s been apologizing to me, and I’m finally soft, turning around and hugging him.
“Chen Jiang, I’m not mad at you. I know you’ve been looking after my mother for me. I’m sorry.
“But for a moment, I felt like you were about to be taken away. I’m sorry.
Chen Jiang stopped touching my hair for a moment, “No, you’re thinking too much. I’m sorry.
Chen Jiang just sent me to school, and I got a call from that guy.
Chen Jiang saw my nervousness, “Who?”
I shake my head, “Nothing, harassing the phone. I’m sorry.
I told Chen Jiang to go back to the company and watch his car disappear at the corner.
“What’s the hurry? I’m sorry.
“I have to keep an eye on my bag. I can’t shut my mouth if I run away. I’m sorry.
“It will be for you. I’m sorry.
I hung up after that.
I tried hard enough for 2,000 bucks and turned him over, but he didn’t take it, so I had to send it to him.
And sent me the address.
I had to take a cab. It was an old factory.
I thought I’d be all right after I gave him the money. I turned around and I looked back and four or five men blocked my way.
I’ll take out the wolf spray in the bag right away.
“What do you want? I’m sorry.
“Sweetheart, don’t be afraid. Give me these guys a good time. You look like a flower. I’m sorry.
It turns out he’s always had this idea.
I step back with a wolf spray, and the other hand goes to the phone.
But I can’t find it. I can’t find it anywhere.
He smiled and took his phone out of his pocket, and said, “Don’t look. I’ll save it for you for a while. I’m sorry.
He stole it when I gave him the money!
I’m so scared. With a wolf spray, it’s a mess.
But what good is it?
Such resistance will only fuel their animal nature.
I was tripped for a second and thought of my mom.
She wasn’t like I was now.
Shame, pain, despair… hate the whole world to die.
My clothes were torn and I cried and begged them to be useless, and I was slapped.
One ear was ringing, but I could still hear the disgusting words, “Stand down, you’ll never get a good price. I’m sorry.
I hate it. I regret it. I shouldn’t have shown up in front of him.
I was wrong. I shouldn’t have been born. I shouldn’t have survived.
I close my eyes, give up my struggle, it’s useless, all my efforts are useless, it’s only going to get deeper and deeper.
When a dirty hand was about to touch me, the door was suddenly opened.
Dad! Let her go!”
Who is it?
“Dad, I did what you said. I beg you, let her go. I’m sorry.
Like… like Chen Jiang’s voice.
But what does he mean?
Who’s he calling dad?
Even if he was begging, my people didn’t stop.
He pushed everyone away and held me in his arms.
It’s really Chen Jiang.
He touched my face with pity, and his tears hit me in the face and covered his coat with my naked body.
“I’m sorry, Ya, I’m sorry I’m sorry”
I can’t think of anything.
Don’t touch her! If you touch her again, I’ll call the police! I’m sorry.
Chen Jiang was kicked on the ground, “You little son of a bitch! It’s useless! I’m sorry.
When I fainted, I felt like they were gone.
Chen Jiang is dead and hugging me, “It’s okay, it’s okay, Ya, it’s okay…”
I lost consciousness in Chen Jiang’s apology.
When I woke up, I was in the hospital bed.
Chen Jiang is watching me.
Lie down in bed.
I remember having a drink, but suddenly I got sick and fell on my bed.
“Ya! I’m sorry.
Chen Jiang woke up, “Don’t move. You have a slight concussion. Don’t get up. I’m sorry.
It’s so weak, it’s a concussion.
I looked at Chen and looked at him like I knew him for the first time.
He’s in my eyes and he’s in deep panic.
I tried to stay calm and keep my voice down, “So we’re brothers and sisters, right? I’m sorry.
“Ya, I’m sorry…”
Apologize. Apologize. I’ve heard enough!
I hit the bed hard, and I was like, “Answer me! I’m sorry.
Chen Jiang down his head, full of desolation, “Yes…”
“But I was adopted, we were not related to blood…”
I close my eyes so hard I can scream.
Can he erase everything he’s done to me without blood?
I can’t!
Tears could not stop, and they fell on their pillows.
“So… for three years, you never touched me, you never kissed me, you just hugged me, held hands. I thought… I always thought you loved me so much… that we were such a disgusting relationship. I’m sorry.
Chen’s eyes are red, “Gua, you can hit me. You can yell at me. I won’t let you say our relationship is disgusting! I’m sorry.
I looked at him, “No, it’s not. Don’t you think it’s disgusting? Our relationship, you’re disgusting! I’m sorry.
“I always thought I was the mouse in the ditch. You were my light. No, no, no, no! You’re just like me. You’re a disgusting thing in a ditch. I’m sorry.
Pop! I’m sorry.
Chen Jiang slapped me.
Pain gives me an instant blank.
He was crying, shaking, “Gua, we’re not, we’re not like that.”
He wanted to say something, but his lips were thin and he ended up saying nothing and sitting on the stool with his head.
I looked at the ceiling of white flowers and thought about my brief and ridiculous life.
The daughter of the rapist, who likes his brother, the mother hates it, and the father wants to make himself a skin trade for his life…
How pathetic.
How ridiculous.
No one really loves me, and no one treats me like I’m a man with blood and flesh who can be angry and painful.
It’s just a mess.
After a long time, I finally calmed down.
“You said you listened to him. What did he want you to do? I’m sorry.
I looked at Chen Jiang and said, “If you want me to forgive you, tell me everything. I’m sorry.
He looked at me in the eyes of deep pain and strife and undetectable fear.
What has he been through?
Finally Chen Gang held my hand and told me everything.
The father was imprisoned and, as family members, they also suffered from much gossip.
In particular, Chen Jiang, when he was a child, was thrown by little children and said he was the son of an animal.
His mother eventually moved away from the place because she couldn’t stand the shock and the tip of the village.
However, after his release, Chen Ping found his mother and son.
That night, it was Chan Gang’s night.
A violent father, an unconscious mother lying on the ground, and all that mess.
Chen Jiang, who had just left school, saw him rushing up and beating Chen Ping, but the child still had the strength to defeat the man’s father.
He was kicked to the side.
Because Chen Ping was too heavy, there was some deviation in the kick position, which was compounded by a delay in treatment.
Chen Jiang has forever lost his right to be a man and he has lost his most important abilities.
Chen Jiang came here and held his head painfully.
“When he came out, he hit my mother two times in three days, and my mother was getting divorced, and he threatened to kill my grandparents. One fight at a time, more serious at a time, and finally, my mom stopped talking and people were numb. I’m sorry.
“This time, all I did was let him release my mother and divorce her. I’m sorry.
I’ve heard it for a long time, and I still don’t know what he’s got to gain by coming near me.
The Chen Gang is awakening, and he has something I cannot understand deep inside.
“He brought me close to you and to your mother. I’m sorry.
I can’t believe it. “Why? Why? There are so many people in this world, why hurt her? I’m sorry.
I couldn’t take my head off, grabbed my pillow and threw it at her.
“Is she not poor enough? Why don’t you let her go? I’m sorry.
“Just hurt one of me. Why do you have to do it again and again and again? I’m sorry.
I’m crying tore my heart apart, sick to vomit.
Why?
There are many beautiful women like my mother. Why is she being violated?
You’ve been hiding so far. Why are you still here?
Isn’t it far enough?
Chen Jiang held me down, “Ya, I’ve restrained, don’t force me. I’m sorry.
I looked him in the eye, and he saw a silent madness.
It scares me.
I’m suddenly creepy, “My mom… my mom’s kid, what does it matter to you?” I’m sorry.
Chen Jiang gave me a blanket, “She thought it was with my child. I’m sorry.
What do you mean?
What do you mean?
Chen Jiang smiled, “I don’t have that power, I’ve always been my dad. I’m sorry.
I’m like a white flower in front of my head.
I can’t help it any longer. I’m sick of it, but there’s nothing in my stomach.
How dare they?
Chen Gang couldn’t keep me down. He called the doctor to give me a sedative.
I fell asleep and had a long dream.
Dreaming that my mom didn’t have that baby, we were getting better and better.
But it’s still empty, it’s still the ceiling of white flowers, it’s still the smell of disinfectant water.
There was no one in the room at the time, and I pulled the needle and walked out of the hospital.
I don’t care if I walk down the road in a sick uniform and a lot of people point at me.
I went to my mom’s door, and I was like the first time I knocked on her door.
She opened the door, saw what I looked like, and she choked.
Side let me in.
I sat quietly on the couch and watched her pour water.
“Mom, can I see my sister? I’m sorry.
“In the children’s room, go. I’m sorry.
I smiled and stood up and went to the children’s room.
I watched her sleep face without any protection, and I put my hands on her soft, soft neck, with a little push.
Her little face went red and purple, and then she cried.
My mom came over and pushed me to the ground. “Gua, you’re crazy! You want to strangle her? I’m sorry.
I looked at her and I was afraid to slap her on the back, and I cried and cried.
What a pity.
Mom.
All that you dislike and love is from the same person.
“Gua, you’re going crazy. Get out! Don’t disgust me in my house. I’m sorry.
I wipe my tears and sit my legs like a child who doesn’t know, “Mom, would you love me if I hadn’t been born in that dirty way?” I’m sorry.
Watch your wings. “Will you?”
She didn’t answer, but she answered everything in the eyes of aversion and indifference.
I’m like a kid who can’t get a toy to destroy, pointing at the baby in her arms, with some bad intentions, “Mom, she’s like me. I’m sorry.
“They’re all the people’s children. I’m sorry.
My mom had a blank on her face, and then she said, “You know? I’m sorry.
She didn’t believe me.
She thinks I’m jealous. She thinks I’m angry with her.
“Mom, I don’t care about you and Chen Jiang, I can give it to you if you want. I’m sorry.
Even if he’s so disgusting, if you like, take it.
“He said to me everything, he, infertile. I’m sorry.
I stood up, and I slowly approached her, “All alone, all alone, all the time, Mom. I’m sorry.
I thought she’d be surprised, angry, hysterical, not at all.
She accepted the fact peacefully.
It took her a long time to talk.
“Gua, me and Chen Jiang, don’t you feel anything? I’m sorry.
I didn’t feel it, but you’re my mother, so take it.
I shake my head.
She laughed, “Well, isn’t all that I’ve done for nothing? I’m sorry.
What do you mean?
“Gua, I hate you so much that every minute I see you in my bones, every second I see your face, I remember the night I’ll never forget. Why don’t you stay away from me? I’m sorry.
“I told you, get lost! Why don’t you get out of here? I’m sorry.
She’s like a bitch and she’s lost the most important quality in the past.
“You think you’re my daughter? No! No! In my mind, you’re the last thing in the world. I’ve run so far. Why did you come after me? You’re like my own plague. I’m sorry.
“As of now, you’re still asking me how I feel about you. Are you stupid? Aren’t you naive?”
Every word of her, and every word of her, fell on me.
“Gua, has anyone ever told you that you’re selfish and stupid? Why am I with Chen Jiang? Because I want you to stay away from me and feel my feelings. Can’t I see Chen’s hooking me up? I know what he’s thinking. I’m just trying to help. I’m sorry.
Her tears were full of tears and she was not aware of them.
To get rid of me, she’s in a big game.
“In the end, I was born like you. I’m sorry.
That’s what she said, light as a sigh.
Look at her scolding, I’m completely blank.
It’s just a joke.
A bloody joke.
She kicked me out, didn’t want to be with me for a minute and a second, torn to pieces, and all the warmth that kept going away.
I thought if she kicked me out, I’d heal myself.
But I just walked downstairs.
She took the baby and fell in front of me.
Blood, blood.
And since then, I’ve been messing around, and I’ve seen my mother’s obnoxious faces in various places.
Until one day I woke up in a meadow.
It’s dark and it’s raining.
I walked on the road without a destination, wondering why I was here.
Until I saw a man carrying a woman into the cornfield.
The woman is still struggling and crying.
It’s a crime.
Crime in rain.
I followed them.
Looking at desperate women on the ground, I can’t help but think of my mother, if I can stop this, can I stop all the suffering?
I jumped on it and strangled the man’s neck.
He scolded me and dumped me on the floor.
It hurts. It looks like it’s all over.
In the balance, there was a big car passing through the road, and I gave him the maximum power to pull him on the road.
He kept beating my elbow like it was breaking.
It’s okay, the car’s coming.
I tore him up together for the big car hug.
I looked at a frightened young girl and I closed my eyes laughing.
But I didn’t leave, I was with the girl, watching her grow up, college, getting married, having kids.
I didn’t think of her name until she was 40 years old.
Yeung Min.
What a nice name.
Yeung Min had a nightmare.
In her dream, she was violated, she gave birth to a child, and she seemed to hate the existence of her child and went away.
But the child came after her, and she did a lot of crazy things to get out of the shadows.
In the end, it ends its life.
She thought it was a nightmare, but today she was taken to the grass.
Same as in the dream.
She thought it was over.
Until a girl showed up, she had the power to take the man with her.
She left with a smile, as easy as she left everything.
Yang Min asked around and didn’t know the name of the girl who saved her life.
Growing up and slowly forgetting a lot.
Forget the nightmare, forget the night, forget the girl.
Sometimes when her daughter calls her “mother”, she snuggles.
It’s like there’s someone who calls her “Mommy” with a little tingling, and there’s so much love in her eyes.
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
