I am the imperial concubine who has just been relegated to the cold palace.
He is the emperor who has just issued a hysterical decree. I sat on my
knees, my face burning with pain, and my stomach throbbing with pain. The cold sweat on
my head finally made him panic. He asked me if I was all right with a cold face. Before I could open my mouth, his eyes were black. Before I lost
consciousness, I knew that he began to shout at the top of his lungs again, this time not to scold me, but to shout for people to call the doctor. Snow on the
temples 1 I had a miscarriage.
After sobering up, I learned the news, red eyes, with the most vicious tone told him, this is what you deserve! You don’t deserve children! He did not speak with a cold face and waved his hand to let someone move the food and clothing of my Tongyun Palace into the cold palace.
The cold palace is probably unable to withstand this sudden luxury, a drizzle, the southeast corner collapsed.
He ordered me to move back to Tongyun Palace, but I interrupted the order by hitting him with a vase with a white face.
My hands were soft and weak, and the vase fell straight to the ground, and the broken porcelain scratched my face.
He rushed over and slapped me in the face.
You live to this day with this face. Where did you get the courage to hurt it?
！ He brushed his sleeve and knocked over the tonic I had not yet drunk. He gnashed his teeth and asked someone to call him a doctor.
Call the Imperial Physician and look at the wound on my face.
He was afraid that it would leave a scar.
I am an imperial concubine who has just been relegated to the cold palace.
Three years ago, I went to Beijing to dance with a group of dancers. When
the foreign countries came to pay tribute, I was frightened when I danced. I was afraid that I would lose my life if I was not careful.
Fortunately, everything went well, and at the end of the dance, we all got a very generous reward.
Out of the hall, I happily took my sister Tang Yao’s hand and said that we could have a good rest for a while.
But as soon as the voice fell, a little eunuch with a low head ran over and told me if the girl could show her face and meet a noble person. Tang Yao
beside him smiled and asked where the noble was.
The little eunuch turned to me and said to me, “Mr. Liyun wants to see you.”.
I looked at Tang Yao at a loss, but Tang Yao frowned and said that her sister was really lucky.
Li Yun brewed a cup of tea lightly and said to me with a smile on his lips, “You are like an old friend of mine.”. The teacup
he handed me was exquisite and small, and the posture of drinking tea was casual and aristocratic.
I stared at the cup of tea with trepidation, unable to start.
He said that I looked like his old friend, but what I looked like was only the skin, and what I carried with me was the dust in my bones.
I’m just a dancer, and this sudden likeness is unknown.
Li Yun said, would you like to leave with me.
I told him that I was born in the dust, and I was afraid that I would humiliate the old friend of the noble.
The implication is that I don’t want to.
But Li Yun only used three golden leaves to block my way back to the opera and dance troupe.
He said, you see, your original place of residence is not as worthy of attachment as you think.
He said, come with me, and you will be reborn.
I am really reborn.
I have changed from a prostitute to a lady who can’t be seen even if she is a socialite.
My metamorphosis took Li Yun three years. It
also took me three years to know that the old friend Li Yun said was his twin sister.
Liyun’s younger sister, named Jinhe, is the only daughter of their Nangong grandchildren. Li Yun said only one word
about me and Jinhe.
You are like her, like eight points, and nine points are enough for makeup. When
he said this, there was a warm light in his eyes, and in the noble spirit of nature, there was finally a trace of human fireworks.
Only when the golden crane is mentioned, he will not be so superior. After
that sentence, he never mentioned Jinhe directly again, but invited the best teacher to teach me singing and dancing, and later taught me piano, chess, calligraphy and painting. The cost of
my food and clothing is not inferior to any socialite’s daughter. After three years of
such pampering, I almost forgot that I was born in the dust, and I believed that I was a lady raised by Jinshan Chalcedony.
Sometimes I wonder where my sister, who is very similar to me, has gone.
Every time I asked about this, Li Yun just poured me tea and asked me what I had learned recently.
5 Li Yun, Li Yun.
His name always makes me feel indifferent to the dust, and he is more like his name. In front of
him, his casual action, a look, can make me feel that I am in the dust, must look up to him.
Liyun said, next month, Princess Qingyun’s birthday, you go with me. When he
said this, Li Yun was concentrating on studying a pharmacopoeia and grinding some medicinal materials from time to time.
I saw that his expression was so focused that I couldn’t help wondering if he was hearing voices just now.
Li Yun turned over a page of the pharmacopoeia, slightly frowned, and kept silent for a long time before adding the medicine blindly.
He said, now you should ask Uncle Wu to help you prepare the clothes for the palace banquet.
I paused, promised, and left. Before
going out, I couldn’t help looking back, Li Yun was still in that posture, his expression was indifferent, and there was no sadness or joy in his eyes. The light from the
window slipped in and scattered on him, leaving a yellow halo on his knife-carved side face.
Childe matchless, probably he is like this.
As for the emperor, I met him at a palace banquet. It’s not the first time
I met him. I met him three years ago.
At that time, I went to Beijing to perform with other dancers in the troupe.
He was sitting at the top, spinning his teacup, cold and distant. After meeting him for the
first time, I met Li Yun. Since then, my fate has been turned upside down. From a prostitute, I have become a noble girl in a famous family. The second time
I saw him was at his sister’s birthday party. After three rounds of
drinking, he personally sent Princess Qingyun with a sword dance.
At this time, he looked young and looked at the princess in the eyes, which was the spoiling of his brother and sister.
It’s just that after his sword dance, the sword stopped at the tip of my nose.
“Brocade Crane?”?
I was shocked by the emotions in his eyes, and I knew he had mistaken me for someone else.
A pair of bony hands clamped the edge of the sword, pushed it away, and another hand took me into a broad chest.
I looked up in surprise and saw the gentle side face of Li Yun.
Your Majesty is drunk and has mistaken you for someone else?
Brother Liyun, who is she?
The 95 Supreme stared at me, and his eyes seemed to be trying to make a hole in me.
And Princess Qingyun, also unrelenting, pulled the sleeve of Liyun and asked who I was.
7 Who am I?
Li Yun looked down at me and opened his thin lips. “This is Nangong Tongsu, my..” Cousin. When
I heard that he had put his surname before my name, I couldn’t help but be startled, and the word “cousin” gave me mixed feelings. I saluted the two men
according to the courtesy I had learned by heart in the past three years.
So it’s my cousin. My cousin can call me Qingyun. As soon as
Princess Qingyun’s tone changed from her previous aggressiveness, she stepped forward and took my hand, and her words were somewhat flattering.
Qingyun.
The emperor made a deep noise to one side, interrupting Qingyun’s impolite behavior.
He stared at me with a pair of faint eyes, which made my back chill. With a tight hand on my
shoulder, I was brought to a crooked body, and my center of gravity fell unsteadily into the arms of Li Yun.
Tong Su, but you’re not feeling well?
Li Yun’s voice was mixed with worry. I looked up at his bottomless eyes and nodded gently.
I just drank two glasses of wine, and now I feel a little dizzy. There was a sudden burst of applause at the
banquet. I looked back and saw that the emperor had thrown his sword to the courtier beside him and returned to his seat. A burst of timely applause from
all the nobles gave the emperor face.
Qingyun also looked back at Liyun to leave step by step.
I, on the other hand, seem to be forgotten in the corner. There was a stretch between
Li Yun’s eyebrows, as if he had won a battle.
Eat some of this to sober up.
He handed me a dish of plum, and between the words, it seemed that there was spoiling. At the end of the
banquet, I was called by Li Yun to go to the same carriage.
On the bus, Li Yun closed his eyes to rest, and I sat quietly aside, silent. After
a long time, Li Yun said, “Tong Su, I can’t keep you.”.
I didn’t understand what he meant. It wasn’t until I got out of the carriage and saw the father-in-law holding the imperial edict that I realized what Li Yun meant when he said, “I can’t stay.”.
The imperial edict said that Princess Qingyun and I felt like old friends at first sight, and I was summoned to the palace to accompany her.
Princess Qingyun lives in the princess mansion, but the imperial edict wants me to enter the palace.
I looked at Li Yun at a loss, but Li Yun had already saluted to the ground like everyone else.
He knelt on the ground without sorrow or joy on his face, and the indifference in his eyes was sobering. My hesitation was just a moment like that.
I have not seen the princess, nor have I seen the emperor.
I lived in a rather unique hall, Jinhe Hall, and the daily cost of food and clothing was twice as much as in Nangong’s house.
I couldn’t find the princess, and I didn’t know when I would go back. My life was idle and boring. The maid of
the Jinhe Palace told me that I could say what I wanted.
I was really bored, so I told her if she could help me find a piano.
The maid nodded, and the next day I got up and went out. The hall was full of lutes, which made me think I was dreaming.
The maid of honor said, this is your majesty’s mind, if the girl likes, can all stay.
I was frightened, but I picked a medium piano on my face, and left the rest.
10 Your Majesty. The third time
I saw him was in the bath of the Hall of Brocade and Harmony.
He leaned against the bath and squinted at me from head to toe.
I gasped, endured and endured, and swallowed the scream in my throat.
Then I wrapped my light gauze clothes tightly and turned to go out.
But I do not know when the door set up two thick servant son, burly appearance, let me consciously stand on my feet.
I’m not a fool. I know what the man in the bath is thinking, so I go back the way I came.
Back?
His black hair was combed and hung idly in his ears.
I stood on the edge of the bath and watched him close his eyes and let the maid feed the grapes.
I did not speak, he waved his hand, and several ladies withdrew in an orderly manner.
All of a sudden, the bathroom was steaming, and I was alone with him. In the
mist, a hand climbed up my foot. The
world was turned upside down, and I was pulled into the water by a strange force before I could break free.
When I steadied myself, I found myself sitting on him.
Tong Su..?
His hair was wet by the pool water and snaked to his face and neck. His face, which had always been gloomy, was somewhat strange, which made people feel that it was too beautiful at the same time.
He said, your name is Tong Su.
11 How did he find you? What terms did he
give you?
His cool hand groped my cheek, as if trying to recall something along the contours of my features. There was a critical look between his
eyebrows, and the strength of his hand, which pinched my chin, betrayed his emotions.
It’s dangerous.
He’s dangerous. Who is the “he”
he is talking about? I can see the person who is indifferent to the dust in my heart, but it has nothing to do with me.
I shook my head, looked him in the eye and told him, “I don’t know what Your Majesty is talking about.”. Who are
you?
I am Tong Su.
I didn’t lie to him. I’m Tong Su.
Nangong was given to me by Li Yunguan, who gave me Jinshan Chalcedony and gave me a surname with a huge background.
I am like dust, and it is enough for me to live so happily in this life.
As for what Liyun wants to do, it’s not my concern.
I am like dust, how can I understand the mind of a rock.
Perhaps my eyes were too sincere, he looked at me for a long time, and finally released the hand that held my chin.
I couldn’t help exhaling and realized that I was so nervous that I forgot to breathe.
The water was warm and comfortable, and I sat uncomfortably in his arms.
If he doesn’t move, I dare not move. After
sitting there for a long time, I felt my legs begin to harden somewhere under my legs. I couldn’t help biting my mouth and looking up at him. Only when I saw his chin, I heard him say, “Whatever he gives you, I’ll give you five times, ten times, a hundred times.”.
Either die or stay with me.
“” You.. Choose for yourself. There is nothing wrong with
12 people being afraid of death.
Besides, I don’t have to die.
Because I am afraid of death, I have become a nameless person, but I love the six palaces. I am the one who
stands on the cusp of the storm. If
the foundation is unstable, you will know whether it is cold or warm.
With no one to depend on, I can only pray for the protection of the emperor.
I pandered to the emperor in every way, and finally slowly changed the taste.
People will be bored, and they will be spoiled and arrogant.
The emperor’s taste is really unbearable. He likes riding and shooting, studying swordsmanship, and the only thing that is quiet is good tea.
The so-called pet crown six palaces is nothing more than that he likes to take me with him when he does all this. My fingers, which I
used to embroidery, were worn out of cocoons by arrows; he disliked my ten years of drama and dance skills, but I couldn’t hold up my soft armor; he disliked my slender body, but I couldn’t carry my sword. But he was a different man in bed, and he seemed to love my soft body very much.
I’m not stupid. It’s true that he spoils me, but why he spoils me is a question.
For me, it’s a matter of life and death. The problem of
life and death was solved by his concubine before I solved it.
Women’s jealousy is the most terrible, especially spoiled women.
Before me, the brocade imperial concubine was the only woman favored by the emperor. The first time
I saw her, I knew she was a poor person.
I have a good resemblance to her, and she has a good resemblance to me.
Why is she like me?
Because I am more like Jinhe than she is.
I’m a fake, and she’s a mutilated fake.
It looks like I won, but it’s not.
I was nameless, and in the middle of winter, the eunuch in her palace pulled his hair and threw him into the water.
Had it not been for the fact that Li Yun was called into the palace by the Empress Dowager, I would have died. When I woke up
again, I learned that I had made a promise.
And Liyun is about to marry Princess Qingyun.
I looked at my hands with thin cocoons and the scene of Li Yun going into the water to save me in my head.
Li Yun said, can you not do something dangerous against her face.
Misfortune may be known only by misfortune.
I fell into the cold winter, a serious illness, the emperor’s love has become worried about gains and losses.
I know he doesn’t want to touch my face, but I don’t know why, he just doesn’t want to touch me again.
Jin Guifei was only punished for thinking, and when she finished thinking, she began to make things more difficult for me.
I put up with it again and again until that night, the emperor sent someone to give me a knife. The little eunuch who
sent the sword sent word word by word, and the emperor said that the sword had been opened and could be used. I know it in my
heart.
Half a month later, Jin Guifei fell into the water and drowned.
The harem was full of false sighs, but the emperor pinched my chin and told me, “Asu, you are not clean.”.
I broke away from his imprisonment, looked into his eyes and told him that I needed your majesty, so I couldn’t do it clean.
He seemed dull for a moment, but for the first time the corners of his eyes and the tips of his eyebrows showed signs of melting.
Another half month, I became Tong Fei.
The emperor is a clingy man inside.
He won’t say it, but he needs to put me under his nose.
I know he needs to see my face.
I became the second imperial concubine.
But the face is not reliable, if it is used, I will still follow in the footsteps of the imperial concubine.
But what should I do. Thinking
so, I took off my bedclothes and went down to the soup pool. In the
water mist transpiration, the back sticks to a chest.
I winced and looked back to find it was him.
Your Majesty always likes to break into the bathroom.
“He buried his head in my neck, bit my neck, and said vaguely,” I will go wherever I want.
Then I felt the kiss slowly change, and his hand pinched my waist and turned me over, facing him. With a cry of
pain, he stopped with a slight gasp, and I showed him the thin cocoon in the palm of his hand, which had been soaked in water and turned white.
He held my hand in both hands for a long time, and finally said hoarsely, “You are not suitable for this.”.
I didn’t understand, but I was soon robbed of my sanity by his onslaught.
He never asked me to practice riding and shooting again, but he always took me with him when he was riding and shooting.
At first, he was riding and shooting, and I was sitting and watching. After a
long time, he sat and chatted with me. A little
longer, it turned into riding and shooting from time to time, and soaking in the soup pool with me on weekdays.
Su, why are you so lazy.
I kissed his eyes, played with his hair, and avoided answering what he said. Tired of
being harassed by my hair, he picked me up with a calm face and threw me into the pool.
I held my breath at the bottom of the pool, but soon he would come down and catch me again.
I complained about him with red eyes. He touched my head and said, “Ah Su, why are you so weak?”.
I will tell him, because I need Your Majesty.
At this time, his gentleness is not because of my face, but really belongs to me.
He said, Su, you have to understand that I need you, too.
I’m right here, but Soo, I need you to stay with me. The
thin cocoon on the palm of his hand slowly faded, and he finally found out that what I was best at was dancing.
I think he likes it.
But he pressed against my temples and asked me, “Ah Su, can you learn the sword dance?”. The sincerity in
his eyes was too hot, and there was a string in his heart that was gently stirred.
It wasn’t right, but I did it anyway. I couldn’t lift the
iron sword, so he replaced it with a wooden sword.
The soft armor was too heavy, and finally he changed me into a narrow sleeve suit.
The moon sinks in the southwest, and there are insects singing in summer.
I should dance beautifully, but he has a complicated look.
He should like it, but there is reluctance in his eyes, but it is amazing.
He called my name, hesitating again and again, as if the word “Asu” were hard to say.
I asked him, does your majesty like concubines?
He said, yes.
I asked again, what kind of love is that?
He hugged me and said that he liked it because it was suitable. The wedding date of
Princess Qingyun and Liyun is set in March. When
I saw Li Yun again, it was a palace banquet.
Qingyun sat cleverly beside him, and he sat indifferently, occasionally looking down at Qingyun.
I sat beside the emperor and saw him raise his glass to me from afar. My heart twisted, and I felt a little sad. The wine cup in
my hand was taken away by the emperor. I looked up, and the emperor left me only a cold side face.
Li Yun didn’t seem to think that the emperor would block the wine for me. There was a momentary stiffness in
his usual indifferent expression.
I suddenly remembered that I had stood beside him, and that he was in front of me as His Majesty is now.
Maybe I have some feelings, and I am distracted.
A robe fell on my shoulder, pulling my thoughts back. I looked up at the deep eyes and heard the deep voice say, “You’re not good at drinking. If you don’t feel well, go back.”.
“I said,” My concubine is all right.
He gave a hum, and his eyes flashed with tenderness I had never seen before. In the eighth month after
I became Concubine Tong, Qingyun married Liyun. When I saw him
again, he had become the emperor’s son-in-law.
Qingyun seems to be quiet a lot, no longer as pestering Liyun as before marriage.
The emperor asked me, what kind of person is Liyun?
I didn’t want to think about what his deep meaning was, but I honestly stopped the thrush and told him with a straight face, “Li Yun’s son is like a jade, and there is no one like him.”.
“He was stupefied and asked me,” How can I compare with him? I knew
in my heart that I had said the wrong thing, so I went up to him and hugged him, saying, Your Majesty is both civil and military, a dragon among men, worthy of the name.
“He clasped my waist and said in a low voice,” I want to compare with him. You answer.
Your Majesty is the husband, and he is the elder brother. What do
you call me?
My heart sank. He was the queen’s husband, and I was only his concubine.
But looking at his long, narrow, deep eyes, my mind flashed: “Husband.”.
Su, I like your ambition.
20 He likes my ambition.
But I can’t just be ambitious. The
strength of the harem was complicated. General Ping Rong won many battles in the northwest, and his own sister rose rapidly in the harem.
Some people are happy, some people are sad.
For example, the emperor gave the jade beads he had promised me to the sister of General Ping Rong, the good imperial concubine.
She’s happy, I’m sad.
A bead was nothing, but she snatched it from my hand.
She asked him to give it, and he gave it.
I completely forgot that the bead had been promised to me.
I didn’t mention it to him again, but he took the silks and satins himself and came to coax me with a pleasant face.
I looked at his face and told him, “a good concubine, like my concubines, has a duty to spread branches and leaves for the royal family.”.
Your Majesty is not at fault for sharing the rain and dew.
He leaned on the bed and held me in his arms. “Su, are you such a person?”? When
he looked at me, there was a playful smile in his eyes, but deep in that smile was the heart of the emperor that I could not understand. If you can’t
understand it, don’t understand it. Sometimes lies are really unnecessary. Sometimes the truth is the most useful.
I frowned and told him, “I want to lock up your majesty, so that your majesty will be my own.”. Stunned for a moment,
he stuck his finger into my hair and smoothed it in the direction of the hair.
Su, do you understand me.
21 Do I understand him?
I probably understand.
So I took care of a few things and turned the tonic of the good imperial concubine into the soup of avoiding the son.
He knew it, and he was probably happy. He looked at me sadly
that day, and his tone was rather strange. “I don’t have a child yet. Do you want me to die?”?
I looked at him with some surprise, wondering if this was the person who helped me when I was stuck in the hospital?
Why do you start to pretend to be stupid? What’s with
this man-eating look?
Su, I want to have a child.
His face suddenly changed.
I looked into his eyes, and he looked at me carefully, and his hands carefully described the outline of my facial features.
The heart is stuffy and painful, I should not expect too many illusory things, there is no power to be real.
So my eyes were clear and I told him word by word, “The son depends on the mother. I can’t protect my child.”.
I’m just me, Tong Su.
Not Tong Fei, nor Nangong Jinhe’s stand-in.
He touched my head and told me, “If I say you can, you can.”.
22. Power is a good thing. If he says a word, I will be on an equal footing with the good imperial concubine. He
even wrote me into the genealogy of the Nangong family thoroughly.
I completely became the cousin of Nangong Liyun. When I saw Li Yun
this time, I was dancing.
His Majesty was sitting in the arbor, with a dish of peeled grapes under his hand, and he was removing the seeds for me one by one.
I teased him, “Your Majesty treats my concubines like this to destroy my concubines.”.
“He raised his eyebrows.” You’re bolder than me, and you’re afraid of this?
I snatched a grape from his hand with a charming smile, and when I turned around, I was looking at the slightly stupefied eyes of Shangli Yun.
I looked at Li Yun with a straight face and saluted me. Then I heard the man behind me say, “I’ll come to see you later.”. After
Your Majesty wrote me into the genealogy of the Nangong family, I shared honor with the Nangong family. If
I get into trouble in the future, the Nangong family is also inseparable. Li Yun entered the palace
today, which is probably what he meant. I
just don’t understand why he treats me like this. Is it just because of my face?
Fandai decoration, nine points is enough.
Li Yun’s words were like a spell around my ears.
I think that this nine-point similarity is really the strange reliance of my life, and also the reliance of my dignitaries. After
the emperor had left, Li Yun said, “You have had a good life.”.
I poured him a cup of tea and told him, Thank you for your kindness.
If he hadn’t given me three years to change, if he hadn’t brought me to the emperor, this splashing wealth would have nothing to do with me. I
am a contented person. I have lived like this, and I have already died without regret.
Li Yun asked me, “Are you happy?”?
I looked at the cup of tea in front of Li Yun, and the green tea was filled with fragrance. Of
course I’m happy. Tong Su will never forget his roots. It’s a blessing for eight lifetimes to be where he is today.
I heard my faint voice and looked up to find him looking at me heavily: “Tong Su, you are a wise man.”.
“I shook my head.” Childe is wrong. Asu is just an ordinary person.
Tong Su, he.. Where on earth is good?
I took one of the grapes out of the glass cup and put it in my mouth. I couldn’t help smiling at the corners of my mouth. Maybe he allowed me to be ambitious, and he could see through my ambition. There was a trace of doubt in
Li Yun’s indifferent expression, but he was soon infected with a touch of injury. When
I was surprised, he suddenly said, “She likes him, too.”.
I didn’t understand, but he suddenly got up and left, and his indifferent figure showed a sense of discomfiture.
She is Jinhe.
I should have known.
24 Jinhe. When I
lived in Nangong Mansion, I only heard about Jinhe all the time.
I had never understood it deliberately, but I vaguely felt that my sister, who was very similar to me, must have done something great.
I looked in the mirror and felt that my face was so lucky that I had completely transformed from a dancer into a noble girl. What did
your brother say to you today? The coquettish face reflected in the
mirror was Your Majesty. In the
bronze mirror, he took off his crown of hair and attached himself to my sideburns. His long hair was lingering, and he looked very affectionate.
I smiled and said, “My brother just told me to be careful in my words and deeds and serve your majesty well.”. He clasped a hand on the
back of his neck and pinched it one by one.
Asu is very clever. Asu, you must always be clever.
I leaned into his arms and broke the hand that was kneading the back of my neck.
Asu is stupid. Your Majesty, don’t dislike him.
“25” One hundred thousand iron troops under the command of General Velveteen are walking on the ground in the northwest. When
Your Majesty spoke to me, there was a trace of loneliness in his eyes.
It looks like a king’s fear of a courtier with great achievements, but my intuition is not so simple.
His lonely things are like dusty vases, which are still fragile and delicate, although they are covered with dust.
It’s me. I can’t touch it.
So I listened to him quietly.
He said, “Ah Su, I like you just right.”.
I smiled at him and he held me in his arms.
I know I’m successful and a perfect replacement. Will
not let him forget her, but also can do what she can not do.
26 He spoils me, and cannot help spoiling me.
He probably didn’t want to be perfunctory, but every time he saw her, he would bring a lot of things to coax me.
I don’t really care that much. What
I care about seems to have changed from the power at the beginning to the purpose that drives him to do so.
If I didn’t have this face, all of this would probably be gone.
This is a knot in one’s heart, a knot in one’s heart that cannot be untied.
I was depressed and fell ill at the beginning of autumn. It was
diagnosed that I was pregnant.
I’m pregnant. I have a baby with him. The
news reached his ears within a quarter of an hour.
He came running to see me, panting slightly in his court clothes.
He stood in the doorway, his eyes slightly red, looking at me, and his eyes were filled with emotions that I could not understand.
I smiled at him, and tears suddenly came to my eyes as I smiled.
He held me and patted me on the back without making a sound.
I really want to know. What kind of person is in
his heart.
Can let him such a person, so so never forget.
Some thoughts cannot be moved, for example, it was a light rain that day.
I stood at the door and watched the continuous autumn rain outside. I
saw him running towards me in the rain, and behind him was a string of eunuchs trotting with umbrellas. It’s so cold
here, and you’re just standing here?
！」 The rain on his hair and face is real, the temperature of his palm is real, and his words are real.
The sound of Asu was also true.
I felt relieved. Didn’t he still have me in his heart?
Although at first it was because I looked like her, now I am the one he holds in his hands.
I suddenly felt comfortable.
There is nothing you can’t get through, only you can’t go back.
My body was getting better day by day, but it was soon destroyed by the discomfort of pregnancy. I can’t eat
anything, and I want to vomit. Lying limply in the bedroom
all day, feeling weak.
The doctor said that when the month was bigger, it would not be so uncomfortable.
I waited and waited until all the leaves of the acacia trees in the palace had fallen, and then I could eat whatever I wanted.
I touched my slightly bulging stomach and heard the maid tell me that General Ping Rong had returned to Beijing.
Heard that the general this year but more than twenty years old, but not childish on the battlefield, under hundreds of fighters, attack all. I didn’t go to the palace banquet
to welcome General Ping Rong. The person
sitting beside your majesty is the good imperial concubine. At the end of the banquet that
day, the emperor came to me in a hurry, but soon after sitting down, he was called away by the people of the good imperial concubine.
He walked up to me with a guilty look on his face and said, “Ah Su, you should understand me.”.
I nodded and raised my hand to straighten his collar.
He opened his mouth and nothing came out. As
I watched him leave, there were no waves in my heart, no sadness and no disappointment.
From the day I entered the palace, I knew what I would experience, but occasionally I looked forward to whether I would be different.
Perhaps I looked a little lonely, and the maid who had been beside me began to say something to divert my mind.
I looked at the quaint little maid of honor in a funny way and told me the news she had heard from the palace banquet.
She said that at the palace banquet today, there was a sunspot woman who danced with a good sword.
“The maidservant has seen the empress perform a sword dance, and the empress’s sword is much more beautiful than hers!” My heart suddenly beat wildly and I felt dizzy in front of my eyes.
An idea popped into my head and I can’t get it out of my head. It was like a broken string in
my head, and the thought was like a nightmare that broke me. There was no basis for
this idea, it was all my imagination, but I was still in a panic, and finally my eyes were black.
In the end, I couldn’t hold on and alerted the hospital. The people in the
hospital were so frightened by my sudden miscarriage that they couldn’t sleep all night.
After daybreak, I finally regained consciousness.
The Imperial Physician said that the body bone was too poor, the fetal appearance was unstable, and he had been relying on tonic to warm up. I knew that
my body was weak, but I didn’t expect that the one in my stomach was so fragile. I
don’t dare to think too much. I stay at home all day and take good care of the fetus.
But the Imperial Physician said that it was impossible not to walk.
So I picked the good weather to go out, occasionally the emperor would follow, but I was silent a lot, do not want to deliberately cater to his preferences.
He just thought I was too nervous about the child, and there was no superfluous words. The
days were dull, and the only wave was the news that Princess Qingyun was pregnant.
I haven’t thought of Li Yun for a long time. The last time I saw him, I saw him in the queen mother. He stood beside the princess with an indifferent expression. What is
the empress thinking?
The little maid of honor opened a food box and put out a lot of candied fruits, saying that your majesty had heard that I was in Imperial Garden and had asked someone to send me over. She asked me to sit a little longer and not to stay in the temple.
I can imagine that when he said this, his eyelids should not have left the memorial, the corners of his mouth could not help but smile, pinched a red melon seeds into his mouth.
I’m probably more than just a stand-in for him.
It allows him to take a break from his busy schedule and care about the trivial things about me.
I stared at the table full of food in a trance, and suddenly there was a noise. Before I could see what was going on, I was thrown to the ground by a strong force.
I only had time to tell that it was a big cat that pushed me down, and all I could do was to protect my stomach.
The scene was so chaotic that the screams of the ladies around me, the howls of the cats, and the cries of the eunuchs who caught the mad cat all rushed into my ears and made me dizzy. In the
panic, I was vigorously lifted up, and the man wrapped his waist in a few clever positions, and flashed to a safe place. I couldn’t help trembling as I
protected my stomach, but when I saw the face of the man who saved me, I felt the air almost frozen, and I almost turned into a stiff wood.
That was the first time I saw Jinhe.
She was dressed in black, her long hair was only tied up with a black tie, and there was no femininity in her dress.
Had it not been for her figure, I’m afraid I would have thought she was the son of an official in the capital.
I was thrown into confusion by her belt wrapped in one hand, and I was crushed by her face.
Almost identical facial features, but anyone can see that these are two completely different people.
But she didn’t seem to notice me, and when I stood firm, she loosened my waist and ran out lightly.
She grabbed the stick from the eunuch’s hand, took a tricky angle and threw it out. The big cat, which more than a dozen people could not touch, fell down from the rockery.
Seeing the cat fall to the ground, she reached out and caught it in her arms.
I saw her twist her eyebrows and throw the cat to the eunuch. Who raised
this evil beast?
Have the heart to raise but not the ability to train?
Still prefer to release the disaster?
I wanted to go over and thank her, but as soon as I lifted my feet, my body went limp and I fell into the arms of the maid of honor. Before I lost
consciousness, I saw her running towards me.
A good imperial concubine is not an ordinary imperial concubine. Before she
left the cabinet, what she carried was a lady who had been raised by the general.
But in the end is the door, her preferences, always different from ordinary daughters.
She likes birds of prey. In
her palace, there were several people flying in the sky and running on the ground, who could hurt people. Before
I entered the palace, a leopard cat in her palace blinded the eyes of a palace maid, and the queen mother ordered her to send all the fierce pets away.
But she relied on the majesty of the general’s office, still kept in the palace.
Later, his majesty expressed his dislike for her, and she was restrained and sent away all the fierce pets, leaving only a half-big leopard cat to keep. It was the leopard cat that had grown up that was mad and hurt me Imperial Garden
that day. The good
imperial concubine knelt down in my bedroom and begged me to your majesty to keep the life of the leopard cat.
His Majesty glanced at me, and there was something in his eyes that I could not read.
He said, you decide.
Then he left the bedroom to me and the good imperial concubine.
The good imperial concubine was silent for a long time before she spoke slowly. “Ah Yan is usually very good. He didn’t mean to hurt you.”.
Sister, can you cut him some slack?
I did not speak, but she remained on her knees.
At this time, the little maid of honor pushed the door and came in with a tonic, reminding me that I must drink it while it was hot.
I nodded, and the little maid of honor was very sensible and retreated without squinting. Concu
bine Liang added, “Ah Yan was raised by me. I really can’t give him up.”.
Sister, shall I send it out of the palace? Never see it again
in my life, just to keep it alive. There was a hope in
her eyes that could not be ignored, and she could see that she really cared about the leopard cat.
But the look in His Majesty’s eyes before he left made me feel uneasy.
I took the medicine and gulped it down. The
medicine is a little hot, which makes my tongue a little painful. After
that pain, the bitter taste spread in my mouth, which made me frown.
I don’t know how to say this, but I did get a fetal gas because of the cat.
So I asked, “Do you really want to never see it again?”?
“She said,” As long as it lives well, I would like to see it all my life.
Beg his sister to spare his life.
“I was puzzled and said,” It’s just a beast. Why are you so desperate to put down your airs and save it?
“I think it’s worth it,” she said.
“I said,” OK, but it’s up to me to decide where it goes.
34. The good imperial concubine failed to save the leopard cat.
Because my first child with Your Majesty is gone. She and I were the only two people in the bedroom
that day. I suddenly had a miscarriage, and she was unable to defend herself.
Your majesty was so angry that he lowered the position of the good imperial concubine again and again. When he was only one step away from execution, General Velveteen returned the military power to your majesty. On the night when the
military power was returned to His Majesty, the good imperial concubine was tied to a chair and watched the leopard cat being beaten to death.
His Majesty held me in his arms and comforted me, saying, “Ah Su is not sad. There will be children again.”. In fact,
I didn’t listen. I still don’t understand why everything was so sudden that day.
I told Liang Fei that I would send the leopard cat away with my own hands.
My intention was to see her frightened expression and to frighten her.
But when she was worried, the earth-shaking colic made me lose consciousness completely. I
thought I just hurt the fetal gas, but I didn’t think that the leopard cat really wanted my child’s life.
I didn’t know what to do. I just let your majesty hold me and wept silently.
I don’t think I’m a sentimental person, and I don’t pay much attention to this child, and I’m not even ready to be a mother.
But when the child really left, I couldn’t help crying.
His Majesty said, “Look at me, Asu.”.
I looked at him, but my vision was soon blurred by tears, and I couldn’t see clearly.
He said, “Don’t be sad, there will be more.”. I
didn’t make a sound, but I broke away from his embrace and shrank into a ball.
It was the second time I saw Jinhe. Her long hair was still tied up high. She was dressed in black, but she gave people a clean feeling in the middle.
She sat on the railing of Imperial Garden lotus pond, teasing a little maid of honor with a lotus pod, with an evil smile on her face.
I followed the medical supervision of the Imperial Physician and rested for several months, and these days I was finally able to go out to breathe.
The little maid of honor said that the empress had stayed in the palace for too long and had not seen the sun for a long time, and her face was really pale.
I listened to her and touched my face unconsciously.
In the distance, I saw the golden crane give the lotus to the little maid of honor, clapped his hands and jumped down from the railing, just opposite my line of sight.
She was stupefied, after all, she came to me, as if she was struggling with how to salute. After
I saw her struggling, she held her fists with me perfunctorily.
I do not know how to return a responsibility, see her not awkward, do not do the funny appearance of the etiquette in the palace, I can not help but draw a smile.
The little maid of honor immediately sighed, “The empress is smiling. She has been worried to death these months.”.
I glared at her, and the little maid shrank her neck and retreated.
I thanked Jinhe for rescuing me a few months ago.
But Jinhe waved his hand and said he couldn’t stand it. She
didn’t mean anything else. She just said she couldn’t stand it. The way
she looked at me was not jealous, not angry, but full of pity and guilt.
I understood for a moment why she looked at me like that.
She may not like the emperor as much as Liyun said.
I invited her to sit in my Hall of Brocade and Harmony. When she arrived, she seemed to be stunned for a moment.
She said, “You live here?”?
“I nodded and said softly,” This place is not as grand as other temples, but it is unique.
“She did not speak. After a long time, she said softly,” This is a good place.
Then he turned around in the temple on his own.
I looked at her back and didn’t know what to think in my head.
I once fantasized about what the real golden crane looked like. What
is it about beauty that he can’t forget to this day.
I even wondered if Jinhe was dead.
But she didn’t. She didn’t look as beautiful as I had imagined. She didn’t even look like a daughter from the Nangong family who had been scholarly for generations. What
she carried all over her body was the cleanliness that the whole imperial city did not have, a kind of appearance that I could not acquire in any case.
Thinking of this, I suddenly felt a little ashamed of myself.
I consider myself a successful substitute, thinking that Jinhe is also a noble daughter raised by Jinshan Chalcedony, and I have successfully replaced her.
But not at all.
Had it not been for this face, I would have racked my brains again, and he would probably not have looked at me.
The golden crane is half a head higher than me, and its figure is bigger than me.
She carried the cup with her left hand, and then I found out that she was used to using her left hand.
Perhaps my eyes were too obvious, she shook her right hand freely and told me, “My right hand is useless, and now I am left-handed.”.
I was immediately curious, but without waiting for me to think about how to ask, a man rushed in outside the door.
Yes, Your Majesty. Unconsciously,
I stood up and stared at him, forgetting to salute.
On the contrary, the brocade crane saluted him in a well-behaved manner, without squinting, and without a trace of expression on his face. What are
you doing here?
The emperor’s voice was a little cold. He did not look at me, but looked down at the golden crane still saluting on the ground.
I told him softly that I had asked her to come.
But he didn’t seem to hear, or rather, he didn’t want to hear.
He stared stubbornly at the golden crane, and his eyes were full of emotions.
I did not speak again, saluted him and left the brocade and the temple to the two of them.
But just a few steps out, he was pulled by a hand.
I looked back and saw Jinhe’s eyes, which were almost the same as mine.
She said, I’m the one who should go.
Then she walked away lightly. After
a long time, he stood beside me.
He didn’t speak, and neither did I. I don’t know how long I
stood. I was a little tired. I turned around and left, but he pulled me.
Su, you are a wise man.
I didn’t look back, but I nodded.
He let go of his hand and left without seeing me with my back to him. I
am a wise man, and I know a lot of things without tearing my face.
He never promised me anything, and where did I get the courage to complain for myself.
I saw Li Yun again.
It was the centenarian feast of Princess Qingyun and her children.
Li Yun’s baby was born long ago, but I just had a miscarriage at that time, so no one told me.
I don’t know what to give, but I always give gifts.
I collected all the things I had prepared for my unlucky child and packed a big box to send to Princess Qingyun.
But after tidying up, I felt that this was a centenarian banquet, and my gifts were not very auspicious. I
simply asked the little maid of honor to pick out a set of complicated jewelry from the private storehouse and sent it over, while I claimed that I was in the palace.
But I was called to the full moon banquet by the emperor.
He dotes on Qingyun, and as Liyun’s “cousin,” I have to go.
Even if he is the emperor, also want to personally come to the door to give Qingyun this face.
So I met Li Yun again.
He socialized indifferently in the crowd, and the guests in the hall made his eyebrows slightly frown.
He doesn’t like crowds.
I went through the motions with the emperor and found a place to take a break.
Li Yun did not know when to sneak to my side.
You have lost a lot of weight.
He opened his mouth like that, and I didn’t know how to answer him. After a
while, I just nodded. Then he asked, “Do you hate me?”?
“” Why did you say that?
“He sighed.” Su, you should have guessed.
“I nodded and said,” I won’t hate you.
39 The emperor thought I was clever, and so did Li Yun.
But where there are any born wise people, but from the beginning I know, if not because of this face, Liyun would not waste time on me at all.
I am too lazy to guess the purpose of the ritual cloud, and I am too lazy to compete with the love in the emperor’s heart.
I grew up in a dance troupe, and it was not easy for me to grow up alive.
When I was alive, I was greedy for pleasure and lived in the present.
However, I was probably suddenly soaked in the honey pot, and I became greedy.
His heart and eyes were full of the appearance of the golden crane, which was enviable, and his eyes were put on me day and night.
The play is charming and fascinating.
Li Yun said, you are like her, but not like her.
It can make people remember her, but it won’t make people mistake her.
I took a sip of tea and nodded gently.
This is probably the reason why Your Majesty kept me around. After
a cup of tea, Li Yun suddenly got up. I looked at him in puzzlement. He seemed to understand my doubts.
He said, “Take a cup of tea to be my son Liyun. At this time, he is the emperor’s son-in-law.”.
Looking at his back, I felt a little more sad out of thin air.
It seems that no one has ever asked him how he is. I
used to look up to him, and then he was in my eyes, and it was blasphemy to hit him.
Now, but feel that the childe, such as jade, covered with dust.
I saw the child of Liyun Tongqingyun, a pink and tender girl. Between
her eyebrows and eyes, there is the shadow of a cloud of courtesy, and her mouth and nose are charming like a princess. She is a blessed child, and she has picked up the good growth of her parents.
I said, Your Majesty, do you think the child looks like a princess when she smiles.
I liked that child so much that I couldn’t bear to put it down. I held it for the emperor to see. His frown, which had been cold to the outside world, loosened for a moment.
I know he likes this kid.
Thinking about it, I felt sour in my heart.
Perhaps I did not control the expression, the princess hurried forward to praise my unique hairpin today, trying to open up the topic.
But I heard a message from the servant, and the gift from General Ping Rong also came.
Ping Rong general and others are not the same, only I heard, I think this person in my Dynasty, is my Dynasty a hundred years of luck.
So he succeeded in getting everyone in the room to move for him except the emperor.
It was the first time I saw Shen Tingyi, the general of Pingrong.
A very tall, thin but not a trace of thin man, obviously more than twenty years old, but with the vicissitudes of thirty years old.
I thought the general of Ping Rong, should be a burly man, this look, really surprised me.
But what surprised me more was not his appearance, but the brocade crane in women’s clothes behind him.
Can let comparable to your son’s brocade crane into women’s clothes, and can be called a bird, I have seen Shen Tingyi, can no longer think of the second person can do it.
Couple Tiancheng, a word suddenly appeared in my mind, as if something was connected in my mind.
Shen Tingyi saluted, accompanied by Jinhe.
I looked up at the emperor, and the hand in my sleeve could not help clenching, but I did not want him to have an indifferent expression on his face, as if he were indifferent.
Looks like an outsider.
However, he is not the only one who seems to be an outsider. After returning
from the Princess Mansion, the emperor stayed in the soup pool of my Jinhe Palace.
He said, “Ah Su, what’s wrong with me?”? Is
this asking me why Jinhe doesn’t love him?
Then he held his breath and dived into the water. I went into the water to kiss him and pried open his mouth with the tip of my tongue.
Finally, he held my waist and sent me out of the water, with anger in his eyes.
Do you want to suffocate? My
long hair was soaked with water and clung tightly to my body. It looked like ink, dividing my body into strange fragments.
He suddenly hugged me and said, “I’m sorry, Su.”.
His big palm gently rubbed the back of my head, and his cheek was next to mine.
Su, I’m sorry.
I let him hold me, wondering where the words came from.
Am I sorry that he doesn’t love me, or am I sorry that he treats me as a substitute for the golden crane?
But is there a difference?
I hugged him back, and the feeling of physical dependence gave me some luck in my heart.
Fortunately, he kept me by his side and did not push me away because of the people he loved.
I suddenly feel so poor, I do not know when, my wish has become so simple.
Stay with him, see him, touch him.
Me? It didn’t seem like that at first.
Your Majesty has never had any children, not even a princess.
The former court began to persuade him to draft and fill the six palaces.
He said, Ah Su, I really don’t want to do this.
He doesn’t want to, doesn’t want to draft. The exhaustion in
his eyes almost overflowed, and he was really tired of the draft.
I held him in my arms and told him, “Your Majesty, but you need a child, and the world needs a child.”.
His body suddenly stiffened and he hugged me tightly.
He said, “Su, I want to have a child with you.”. I
don’t know what’s going on in my heart, but it hurts so gently.
Gently pain, not heavy, but continuous, as if there is no stop. After
Shen Tingyi returned the military power, he did not do anything for a long time.
I don’t understand why Your Majesty was so afraid of him before.
Shen Tingyi doesn’t look like an ambitious man.
Until, Shen Tingyi asked for a marriage.
Shen Tingyi asked for a decree to marry him with Nangong Jinhe.
That day, the emperor drove everyone away and smashed all the things that could be smashed in the bedroom. When
I arrived, there was only a room full of wolves.
I looked around and found him sitting on the edge of the bed decadently. I walked over gently, but he drove me away.
He grabbed a pillow at hand and knocked me off my feet.
I lost my footing and almost touched the flower shelf on the side.
Perhaps it was my cry of pain that brought him to his senses, and he rushed over and looked at me over and over again.
Finally he took me in his arms and said sorry again and again.
I was suddenly very aggrieved, and for the first time I almost broke down and cried in front of him.
I heard myself asking him out of breath, “Your Majesty asks me what’s wrong with me, but Asu also wants to ask Your Majesty what’s wrong with Asu?”?
Yeah, what’s wrong with me.
I am not a wooden man, and I will be wronged.
All the grievances and jealousies, because you don’t care, all become worthless.
I didn’t want to embarrass myself too much, so I kept silent.
But why are you making such a mess of yourself?
！ I put you on the top of my heart, but you are humble to the dust.
Your Majesty, what is wrong with me?
He held my face in his hands, wiped my tears, and finally said, “I’m sorry, Su.”. The fourth time
I saw Jinhe was after the hundred-day banquet of Princess Qingyun’s children.
She said to me, “Tongsu, help me.”.
Shen Tingyi wanted to marry her, so he asked for a marriage decree.
I do not understand, why must give marriage, Jinhe told me, because of Shen Tingyi and her identity. The forces behind the
two people are complicated, although they can naturally get married, but Shen Tingyi has many political enemies in the court, and they will inevitably be used by interested people after they get married.
If you get married, you can live a peaceful life.
When Jinhe said this, there was a kind of vicissitudes on his face that I could not describe.
She was older than me, and as far as the eye could see, there were very few unmarried girls of her age. “I don’t like it here,”
she said. “I want to go back to the northwest with Shen Tingyi.
Tongsu, help me.
I don’t know how to help her. Instead, I think I should hate her. I am like this because of her.
Because of her, there is no place for me in his world.
But I just can’t hate it. I
even think she is cleaner than too many people.
So, I agreed to help her.
Shen Tingyi’s request for marriage eventually fell into the sea, and what he got was only a decree. He was
ordered to return to the northwest to continue guarding the frontier.
Knowing this news, I couldn’t help sighing in my heart that Jinhe really knew the emperor.
At that time, Jinhe frowned and looked bored. “He won’t let me go, but Ah Yi doesn’t believe it. So, Tong Su, please help me.”.
Jinhe didn’t believe that Shen Tingyi’s request would be successful, so he asked me to help her.
I wanted her to leave, and I didn’t want her to stay here, so I promised to help her.
I told the emperor that I wanted to leave the palace and go to Anguo Temple.
Want to pray for the unborn child, want to ask for another child. He froze for a moment and nodded in agreement.
But he said, “I’m sorry, Soo.”.
47 For the first time I left without saying goodbye to him.
I didn’t want to hear any more of his apologies, so I left without looking back.
But after I left the palace, I was afraid again.
I am afraid that things will really be like what Jinhe said, after Shen Tingyi’s departure, the emperor will force her into the palace.
I’m so scared.
I want to go back to him immediately, watch him and never leave him.
However, as if in a fit of pique, I know that there is little hope, but I am still looking forward to it, expecting that he is not like that in Jinhe’s mouth.
I don’t know who I’m mad at.
I am in Anguo Temple, waiting and waiting.
Wait until the news of Jinhe. “Help me and enter the palace for me,”
said Jinhe.
Brother will take care of you. After all,
he wanted to take advantage of Shen Tingyi’s return to the northwest to let Jinhe enter the palace.
I prayed for so many days and nights in Anguo Temple, but I failed after all. On the eve
of Jinhe entering the palace, Liyun brought me back to Nangong Mansion where I had lived for three years.
That night, Jinhe came to say goodbye to me alone.
She said, “Tong Su, I will never forget your kindness in my life.”.
She hugged me and said a lot of sorry.
But I shook my head and told her, “You’re going to have a good life with Shen Tingyi, and you’re going to have a lot of children and grandchildren.”.
“She said,” Tong Su, I’m sorry.
I shook my head and told her that it was almost dawn and you should go quickly.
She folded her fists and smiled at me, then rolled over and mounted her horse, her figure hidden in the night.
She asked me to help her because I was like her.
But I don’t blame her, because she is more magnanimous than anyone else.
In other words, I borrowed the courage of Jinhe to do something that Tongsu would not do.
I suddenly thought with some frustration that I probably envied her to the bone.
I never thought that returning to Nangongfu again would be in such a way.
I changed into Jinhe’s clothes and carefully decorated myself into her appearance. In the
corner of the eye and the tip of the eyebrow, I imitated the behavior of the golden crane in a strange way.
Li Yun stood under the porch and asked me, “Tong Su, are you really going?”?
I looked at him, and for the first time I didn’t pose like a “lady” in front of him. I smiled happily and told him, “That’s my husband, and this is.. Going home.
That year, I was caught by him at the birthday party of Princess Qingyun.
He issued an imperial edict to honor me to this day.
Now. I’m just proud of myself and I want to marry him again. I don’t know
whether Jinhe is successful or not. All
I know is, I failed.
He saw at a glance who I really was.
But he did not expose me, on the contrary, he let me take the imperial edict of conferring the title of imperial concubine on Jinhe.
His expression was terrible, just like the night when Jin Guifei died. He clamped my chin and stared into my eyes. Do
you think you’re smart? Why are
you working against me?
！」 Why?
！ Why do you have to go against me? Tong Su! You tell me! Scared?
I don’t know. Are you
sad?
I don’t know. In
his towering anger, I was very calm.
It seems that I knew it would be like this a long time ago, and the picture in front of me seems to have been rehearsed countless times in my mind. I don’t know how long I sat on the ground
that night, and when I came to my senses, I found myself so cold. It’s snowing
outside.
I looked at the mess of the bedroom hall, and then looked up at the name of the bedroom, “Jinhe.”.
This plaque, which should have been hung in my bedroom, is now hanging in the place where Jinhe should live.
I suddenly understood how the word “Jinhe” came into being.
Before dawn, I stood in the snow and looked up blankly at the sky. Suddenly, a cloak fell from my body.
When I look back, the person who adds clothes to me is the good imperial concubine.
A good imperial concubine has always acted differently from ordinary people. When everyone in the harem was competing for beauty, she was the only one who could wear black clothes for ten thousand years. After
the cat died, I heard that she wore dark colors all the year round in order to accommodate those raptors who were afraid of bright colors.
She liked those things, so General Ping Rong’s office used her for so many years.
But later she entered the palace and had to restrain her preferences again and again.
Now her only leopard cat is gone, but she is still stubbornly dressed in black clothes, cold and snowy, standing there with a proud face.
I pity her grievance, but I also hate the child whose life is short because of her.
She may be guilty, but she also looks at me with a complicated face.
I don’t understand why she’s here. I’m looking at her. I looked at her in the
distance until she asked me, “The golden crane..” Is it safe?
I nodded and wrapped the cloak tightly. After
a long silence, she added, “I thought you wouldn’t help her.”.
It turned out that she also knew.
Yes, she is the sister of General Ping Rong, and it is normal to know this.
I smiled and said to her, “I’m not helping her, I’m helping myself.”. If
she doesn’t go, he’ll never see me.
Liang Fei probably didn’t expect me to say that, and she was stunned for a moment.
I ignored her and turned to go back.
A gust of wind blew, and snow was blown off the trees in front of the temple. Snowflakes fell on my body. I reached out and patted them. Only
then did I realize that I had dishevelled hair.
I vaguely remembered that last night he seemed so angry that he pinched my chin until it hurt.
A full head of pearls and hairpins probably fell off at that time. “Ah Yan didn’t harm your child,” said the cold voice
behind him, which belonged to the good imperial concubine! We were the only two in the bedroom that day, but I didn’t do anything, you know! I didn’t move, but she continued, “Nangong Tongsu, it’s not that you don’t know, you just don’t want to believe it!” I sat in a daze in the new Hall of Brocade.
It was not until daybreak that the little maid of honor came trembling forward and called me, “Empress..” I asked her, “Your Majesty asked you to send me that bowl of tonic that day, didn’t you?”.
“The little maid of honor was puzzled, and I said,” It was the bowl of medicine the day the child was gone.
“The little maid of honor was suddenly enlightened and said,” Yes, Your Majesty also said that she wanted the empress to drink while it was hot.
I nodded and vomited a mouthful of blood in my throat.
The little maid of honor called me urgently, “Empress!”! I wiped my mouth and told her I was okay.
But she ran out in a hurry and left me sitting alone in the temple.
I broke off my fingers and thought carefully about what is meant by “harmony.” Is there harmony in the morning and in the evening?
Or is it to please the “golden crane”?
He came even faster than Imperial Physician, and when he did, he seemed to be still angry. With an iron face, he asked me, “Have you just sat here all night?”?
！」 I didn’t make a sound, rolled my eyes, sat on the ground and looked up at him.
From my point of view, he was against the light, so I couldn’t open my eyes. Before
I could see it clearly, he picked it up from the ground and threw it on the bed. When
the Imperial Physician came, he felt my pulse timidly. The result was that I was depressed, angry and worried. The liver depression transformed into fire, and the blood was out of control.
Should be nursed back to health, should not be tired, should not be stimulated by the seven emotions.
He said, “Calm down.”.
Then I was about to leave, and suddenly I called out to him.
I asked him, “In Your Majesty’s heart, Asu..” What is it exactly?
“He was stunned. Then he said,” Didn’t you know from the beginning?
Some things are just so unreasonable.
It seems that he is right, and we all know it from the beginning. I
was tempted first, knowing that there were tigers in the mountains, but I wanted to ask for trouble.
He did not punish me for “deceiving the emperor” when I entered the palace for Jinhe. Instead, he put me in the Jinhe Palace and never came back.
I was quietly recuperating in the Jinhe Palace, and the little maid told me how many people he had sent out to look for Jinhe.
I don’t know if everyone is like me, and the days of giving up are wonderful.
When Jinhe came back, I didn’t give up on him.
When Jinhe left, I still didn’t give up on him.
Even after I learned the truth of the child’s death, I still didn’t give up on him.
But on that day, I stood in the Jinhe Hall, watching the winter snow dissipate and the apricot blossoms bloom.
The whole person is like waking up and giving up.
It’s like sleeping and having a big dream. The
little maid of honor said that he had been looking for Jinhe for a winter.
In fact, what I don’t want to know is that I used to be hurt, but now I am bored.
But the little maid of honor still ran around for me to inquire, in her eyes, the body in the harem should be well-informed, so as to prepare for my future restoration.
She was still expecting me to return to favor, and I sighed in my heart that I was not the only fool in the world.
The emperor offered me in this brocade and hall, but never came again, nothing more than self-deception, want me to wear the identity of the brocade crane, give him some comfort.
I became a golden crane.
When I entered the palace in place of Jinhe, he told me, “Since you want to replace her so much, then you can become her completely!” Now that I have completely become an ornament, how can I fall out of favor and return to favor? Just
when I thought that the only thing left between me and the emperor was to face each other across the river, he reappeared beside me.
He asked me, “Where did she go?”?
“I said,” I don’t know.
I knew he didn’t listen to me at all. He just used my mouth to give himself a reason to be paralyzed.
He began to take me to ride and shoot, teach me swordsmanship, and pull me to soak in the soup pool when he was idle.
He also built a new soup pond in the new Brocade Hall. In the steaming mist, he often leaned over me and slipped his hands from my shoulders to my waist, saying, “Asu, you are like a fish.”.
I smiled and turned to satisfy his desire.
I’m still obedient. I just don’t care anymore. I know what I should do, but I stop at what I should do.
I was born in the dust, and that year I went to Beijing to dance, and I was the most enchanting among all the dancers.
Piansheng is devoted to seeking stability, never competing with others, and has been unknown in the opera and dance troupe, and even bullied by others. Looking back
now, I was so stupid at that time.
That day he took me to ride and shoot again, and I looked at the sun hanging high in the sky, and suddenly I was bored.
I didn’t want to go, so I really turned him down.
I lay wearily in the arbor and watched him ride in the hot sun.
I took a sip of the cool syrup of plum that the imperial cook had deliberately planned to keep, and sighed comfortably. For the first time, I felt that I had been riding and shooting with him before, and I was so silly that I could be in a trance. When he came back, the whip was thrown to the eunuch beside him, and then he picked up the herbal tea and drank it.
Asu? When
he called me, I got up and took a veil to wipe his sweat.
If you are not feeling well, you can go back earlier.
I made a promise and said no more.
The world is like this, you do not cry, some people feel that you will never be wronged.
I am tired of accompanying him to shoot and ride, and I am tired of accompanying him to study swordsmanship.
I can’t imagine how I had the patience to do this before. In
those days of patience, how could I swallow so many grievances.
Until that day, he hugged me again and said, “Su, you are so strange recently.”. It
suddenly dawned on me that it was I who did not love.
I look at myself in the mirror, my makeup depends on my preferences, and my clothes depend on my mood.
People say that women are the ones who please themselves, and he says that I am strange, probably because today I am no longer the “noble woman” style of the original “Nangong Tongsu.”.
I smiled at him and couldn’t find the words.
I thought I would live in peace with him like this, but there are always some things that make people angry.
The queen is pregnant.
The woman who was unknown from the beginning is pregnant.
The emperor only went to her on the fifteenth day of the first lunar month. On weekdays, she was silent. Even if I occupied the emperor alone, she did nothing.
Such a man at peace with the world is pregnant.
I had no intention, but the emperor regarded this child as extremely important.
I don’t understand why. It’s all children. Why is my child given a bowl of deadly medicine while her child is treated like this.
Hate.
Do not know when, hate has long taken root in the heart. When
I came to my senses, the poison that had taken my child’s life had been sent to the Queen’s Palace by me.
I tried to stop it, but I couldn’t. I sat in the bedroom in fear, looking at the box I had prepared for the child.
There are rattle drums, longevity locks, and many, many small clothes. I knew he would come to get even with me, so I sat down and waited for him.
He’ll probably pinch my chin again.. No, he’ll probably strangle me this time.
I looked at the small bellyband in my hand, and I couldn’t say how sad it was. The bellyband was embroidered with two dragons playing with a pearl, and I embroidered it with my own hands.
At that time, I vomited so much that I couldn’t lift my spirits all day. In order to amuse me, he personally embroidered the beads of the two dragons playing with pearls.
I don’t know when he came. He didn’t make a sound. He just held my face and wiped my tears. He didn’t say a word
about the queen, but looked at me with a complicated face.
Asu.. Look at me.
I waved away his hand and tried to stagger away, but after a few steps I was trapped in his arms. I
don’t know where I got the strength to break away from him and give him a loud slap in the face.
“Get out!” A heart-rending “roll” made everyone kneel on the ground inside and outside the temple.
“Asu..” “Do you know..” The queen did not have a miscarriage, because the queen was too happy, and the bowl of medicine was cooled and thrown away.
However, the last layer of window paper between me and the emperor was broken.
He killed me and his children himself.
I asked him why, and he opened his mouth and couldn’t say anything.
In order to use the good imperial concubine to contain General Ping Rong?
For military power?
For what he calls political trickery?
I was waiting for him to give me an answer, but he didn’t say anything.
As if to make up for it, a reward like running water was sent into my palace, and with pity, the “Jinhe Palace” was changed into the “Tongyun Palace.”. No matter how much
I quarrel with him, he can sleep beside me without saying a word.
What’s more, he became cruel and would vent his desire on me in an almost sadistic way.
He said, “I have said that you will either die or stay with me.”.
His eyes were red and bloodshot, and the corners of his lips were the wounds I had bitten out. In his extremely depressed tone, I knew he was reaching his limit.
But so what? I hate him.
I wish this man would die as far away as possible. I can’t tell why
this hatred is born and why it is growing. I
only know that when I was forced by him, the thoughts in my head were left. Death was too simple, and he could not live well in this life.
He probably loved Jinhe so much that every time he saw me dressed up, he looked sad. The sad look on
his face made me feel happy.
So the more charming I am, the more diametrically opposed I am to what the golden crane looks like.
I thought he was ridiculous. He loved the golden crane in every word and deed, but he was addicted to my face with light makeup.
I do not know why, full of hatred can not vent, watching him struggle pain, as if it is my only relief.
The emperor had no children, so he was finally forced to draft.
It’s just that the new girls are all solved by me one by one.
Some of them “died in an accident” like the imperial concubine Jin in those days, and some of them were openly fed a bowl of soup by me after they went to bed.
He never asked. He even covered for me.
Until the queen died of dystocia, the mother died.
The child came to the world before he was full-term and took his mother’s life in vain, but he did not know whether his weak body could have a life of four seasons.
I sat in the pavilion of Tongyun Palace, feeling the impermanence of the world.
Who would have thought that the queen would suddenly give birth prematurely and die of dystocia. When
he came, his face was livid.
I didn’t know what had happened, so I took two steps to meet him, just in time for his round slap.
Tinnitus, no pain, but I can’t feel the existence of my left face.
He said, “Why are you so vicious?”?
！ She didn’t even have time to look at the child! I looked at him in disbelief and thought it was ridiculous. What does that mean
, Your Majesty?
I was so angry that my voice sounded faintly trembling, and there was a sign of a broken sound on the edge of every word.
Tong Su, what are you doing that I don’t know?
！ Why do you cover up this thing?
！」 My concubine. Cover up?
！ No means no! Compared with your majesty, who is better?
！ Your majesty and how to face, talk to my concubine child?
！」 The fruit bowl on the table was swept down by my sleeve, and melons and fruits splashed and jumped at my and his feet, and finally fell silent.
She never looked at the child. Your majesty can know, my concubine does not want to exchange my life for my child to go to the world. Don’t say that the golden crane is hard to find, it’s your majesty. It’s not worth it! “You’re not worth it!” I returned the slap he gave me, and after I used it hard, my hands were numb and unconscious.
He froze and I turned to leave.
Then, belatedly, he shouted hysterically, “Somebody!”! Put Tong Guifei in the doghouse! “My concubine can’t wait!” I threw my sleeve to go, but he grabbed me and pushed me to the stone table. A sharp pain in
my lower abdomen made me curl up on the ground in an instant, and cold sweat almost covered my forehead in an instant.
I had a vague guess in my mind, but the thought made me sad.
I didn’t have time to say anything more. The scene was out of focus and the darkness engulfed me. The
little maid of honor sobbed and fed me the soup spoonful by spoonful. I laughed at her for crying so ugly.
She wiped her face casually, ignored me and continued to cry.
She’s crying for me, for my second child.
Miscarriage.
It was my second child, and I was caught off guard, and he left me.
I gave a wry smile, thinking that my children were lucky in my life. Instead of coaxing her,
I struggled to get up, drank the bowl of medicine clean, and told her to go out and wash her face and let me be quiet.
The little maid of honor was stupefied and cried even more. Finally, she turned around three times a step and went out with the medicine bowl. When
I was half asleep and half awake, the little eunuch beside the emperor came again and stood outside trembling, asking the little maid to send me a message.
He asked me to move back to Tongyun Palace. A word spoken by the ruler of
a country cannot be recalled.
But he put me into the cold palace, but again and again let me leave this decadent place.
Can’t bear to part with this face?
Hypocritical I was not obedient and fell asleep.
When I woke up, I found that the cold palace had changed.
My Tongyun Palace’s food and clothing were all moved over, while he sat at the table with a cold face.
Seeing me awake, he made a gesture to get up, but for some reason, he stopped three steps away from me.
I took one look at him and turned away from him.
I.. I really don’t know.. “It was an accident!” “Asu..” It was so annoying that I covered my ears with the quilt, but I could still hear him making noise in my room.
So I got up reluctantly and said, “Your Majesty, please go out.”.
“Asu..” “Get out!” It was going to rain. Lightning lit up the house for a moment. Then came the dull sound of thunder.
I suddenly felt that the person in front of me was so strange that I couldn’t remember how I fell in love with him.
The line of sight is blurred by tears, I breathe gently, so that I cry not so embarrassed, but the rain is heavy, the southeast corner of the cold palace leaks.
He glanced up at the roof and said, “Ah Su, don’t make any noise. Let’s go back.”.
This sentence seemed to have divine power, and his words caused an overwhelming amount of grievance to fall on me, crushing me out of breath.
I said, I’m not going, get out of here! He stood still and ordered someone to pack up my things and take me away. I
don’t know where I got the strength to get out of bed and grab things from those people.
A vase with a thin neck was used as a weapon by me. My crying finally interrupted his will. He rushed over and hugged me and grabbed my vase. When
the vase fell to the ground, the sound of breaking made the air quiet for a moment, and the splashing broken porcelain made a blood stain on my left cheek.
Tears ran down, and the tingling was calming, and I heard myself say, “Leave me alone.”.
“” Please.. Leave me alone.. I was tightly imprisoned in his arms, listening to the rain outside the window more and more heavy, the initiation of death, this is the time. The sound of
rain is so comfortable that people want to close their eyes and never open them again.
As if he had discovered my idea, he pinched my cheek with one hand, opened my clenched tongue, and slapped me again.
You live to this day with this face. Where did you get the courage to hurt it?
！」 “How dare you leave!” “How dare you..” The Imperial Physician! Chuan Taiyi –! [End of Text] Fanwai continues to update the true love in Machiavellian in the column: the story of anti-routine ancient saying with deep and unfathomable love. Focus on not getting lost ~
