(Finished)
1
“I can’t believe you’re a double, too.”
I lay on the imperial concubine’s couch and said lazily to Song Ce’an.
Song Ce’an’s face was suddenly blacker than charcoal, and his hand holding the teacup shrank sharply.
He crushed the teacup with his bare hands, and the blood in his palm dripped down in the tea, and the white cotton-padded
robe was red.
He looked at me and said coldly, “So?”? Do you think that I’m going to give
you the book of separation?
I shrugged my shoulders. “If you don’t give it, you don’t give it. You look for your confidante, and
I look for my white moonlight. How about we don’t interfere with each other?”
Song Ce’an stared at me as if to poke a blood hole in my body. I thought for a moment and then said, “Don’t worry, we’re still a loving couple. Anyang Palace
won’t be turned into a prairie by the two of us!”
Sung Tse-an laughed angrily. “Lin Ching-luan, I look down on you!” When he
finished, he shook his sleeve and smashed the door out.
I sniff, get angry, get angry, smash what door? Good yellow rosewood, very expensive
, okay?
My marriage to Song Ce’an started a year ago.
A year ago, I insisted on losing my hair and becoming a nun.
My parents tried to persuade me to no avail, so they grounded me and let people watch me day and night, so that I would not be allowed to step out of Lin
Fu.
Like the story in the book, Gu Changqing saved me. We fell in love at first sight. I have
always been bold and unrestrained. It is not surprising for me to have a private life.
But Gu Changqing is not, he is elegant childe, but unfortunately, his home is not in Changan.
He said, “Ah Luan, wait for me for half a year, and I’ll marry you in half a year.”
I waited.
Half a year later, Gu Changqing came, but the bride was not me. He married Princess Changning and became the
emperor’s son-in-law. My heart is dead.
That night, I was so drunk that I lay on the table with a dagger in my hand
.
Mother rushed in, gave me a slap in the face, and loved me, hugged me, accompanied me all
night.
The next day, when I woke up, there was no one else beside me. I waited for a while, but I didn’t see the
girl come in to dress me up.
I took out the heavy letters in the drawer, all written by Gu Changqing.
Originally, two fall in love, will eventually become strangers.
I found a pair of scissors I had hidden under the bed and wanted to cut the letter.
“Miss!”
Peony came in with breakfast. She only saw me with scissors, but never saw me with a
letter in my hand.
She exclaimed, and I was so frightened that I shook my hand. The hand holding the scissors was too
strong. I crossed the letter and cut off a large strand of my shoulder-length hair.
The peony cried like a dead parent.
“Miss, no matter how sad you are, you can’t get over it and become a monk!” When did I want to become a monk?
But no matter how I explain, no one in the whole house will believe me.
They all felt that I was too sad to become a monk for Gu Changqing!
I’m grounded, thanks to that dead girl.
Shaoyao looked at me pitifully. “Don’t be sad, young lady. Gu Changqing can
fail you and marry the princess. You can also be cruel and marry Prince An and be his aunt!”
An Xiao Wang Ye, Song Ce An, the emperor’s own brother, 22 years old, young and promising. Why didn’t I think of it when
I patted my head?
But the little prince can’t marry. He’s sick. Disgusting convulsions
near a woman.
A month later, I was taken to the palace banquet by my father. I met the rumored Prince An
, and my whole body was like being drunk on the head.
An Xiaowangye and Gu Changqing look exactly the same. The
only difference is that An Xiaowangye has a lachrymal mole under his left eye, which is a little more evil and romantic than Gu Changqing of Haoyue Qingfeng
. I froze in place, fixed at him for a long time, for a moment, I almost felt that
the person in front of me was Gu Changqing.
But Gu Changqing’s eyes never had such a cold light, and he was always warm and warm
.
He would not wear such black clothes, but low-key with dark lines, only in the light
of the place, only to see the flow of ripples.
He is not like the people in front of him, who are not to be offended, and his lofty posture is like a God looking
down on all living beings. How similar
they are, yet so different.
I should be sad.
But the first thought that came to my mind was, can’t you get close
to a woman? You’re throwing up. Why don’t you throw up? It’s okay if you
don’t throw up. Show me if you have a twitch.
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“Miss Lin?”
To be honest, An Xiaowangye’s voice is the best I have ever heard. The so-called magnetism is
just so so.
What’s more, he is a man. He has a temperament between a teenager and a mature man.
His eyes looked at me so clearly, and under the deep whirlpool, there was a complex
light.
Obviously two people look exactly the same, but obviously an Xiao Wang Ye is better.
But how does he know about me?
“My son-in-law is here. Won’t Miss Lin go and see?”
His voice was full of banter, and it was obvious that he already knew my old love with Gu Changqing.
I was choked by him. With a black face, I said, “Little prince, Changning’s son-in-law looks
so much like you. Is he your long-lost brother?”? Would you like me to help you recognize your
relatives? “
My mother only gave birth to me, and she let you down!” I can’t
talk anymore.
I saluted and was about to return to the banquet. When I passed by Prince An, he said faintly,
“Lin Qingluan, are you going back to see their love?”? Don’t you feel like an eyesore? It’s
an eyesore. I’m just the daughter of a minister. I can’t just walk away. “Maybe I can help you,” said Prince
An with a chuckle.
I silently rolled my eyes and said, “All right, I’ll thank Lord An
first.” When I finished, I shook off my sleeve, leaving an Xiao Wang Ye with a very handsome figure.
The next day, when I was still sleeping, I was pulled up by the peony.
I heard in a daze that I was married.
And the object of marriage is An Xiaowangye. What does it say on the
imperial edict.
Said that I was the only woman that an Xiaowangye did not reject, so I must marry him!
Shit! If I had
known when I saw him, I would have vomited, nauseated and convulsed. He didn’t
disgust me. I disgusted him, okay?
Three months later, I married into the Prince of Anyang and became Princess of Anyang. On
the wedding night, I didn’t wait for the groom.
It’s not that I want to wait for him, but I don’t wait for him. I have nothing to do. Peony won’t let me
sleep.
The next day, I was woken up by the peony.
She put her arms around me and burst into tears. “Miss, why is your life so bitter?” Is it a hard life to stay alone in an empty room? I wish he would not come.
This is my sincere words.
Shaoyao put up with it again and again, but couldn’t hold it back. “You’ve gone too far, sir,” she said angrily. “On the
wedding night, you were left alone in an empty room, but you brought Princess Changning back.”
“Princess Changning is his niece. What’s so strange about him bringing her back?” I don
‘t think so.
“Miss, Princess Changning wasn’t the emperor’s own daughter at all. She
was picked up by the emperor on his way to the south. Concubine Lan was born prematurely, and the baby didn’t survive. The emperor
was afraid that she would be sad, so he took Princess Changning in his arms.”
The peony was heard from the mouth of the housekeeper Mammy.
“What’s more, my son-in-law spent three days and nights kneeling in the Chengen Hall just to marry Princess
Changning, but the emperor refused.”
I’ve heard about it.
But at that time, it was said that because he wanted to leave Chang’an to go to the frontier, the emperor
loved him dearly and did not agree.
I’m not sad, but I feel bad in my heart. People in
Chang’an said that the eyes of the daughter of the Lin family were very
similar to those of Princess Changning. I finally want to understand, that day and Song Ce’an met for the first time, he stared at my eyes,
the deep meaning behind the light of the fundus.
It turned out that helping me was a fake.
Not exclusive is also false.
The double is real.
Gu Changqing married your beloved, so do you want to marry his beloved?
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“Go and see.”
I took off my half-covered red veil and went out. As soon as
I stepped out of the threshold, I saw Song Ce’an coming in a hurry with Princess Changning in his arms. His
eyes met, and he seemed a little surprised, but then he looked plain and cool. “You go back to your room first
.”
He finished and carried Princess Changning into the next room.
Was it supposed to be carried into the wedding room? Song Ce’an and
I arranged the wedding room in his room, and he should have forgotten my existence. “Well,”
I said thoughtfully, “you don’t have to go to so much trouble. You go into this room and I’ll move
.” When I finished, Song Ce settled down and gave me a complicated look.
My heart said, “Why do you look at me like that?”?
You and I know, I have someone else in my heart, do you still expect me to be jealous of you,
what do you think?
“Peony, go!” I am very generous, I do not admit, I want to take the opportunity to eat
!
Peony this girl is afraid that I can eat too much, Song Ce’an caught my indecent image, not with my
bridal chamber, so only prepared a light for me. Bra
ised elbows, pig’s feet in soy sauce, braised ribs, crispy chicken, seven-treasure gourd duck, shrimp dumplings, egg
rolls, milk cakes, all of them?
I was about to leave with my skirt in my hand when Sung Tse-an said, “Go back to your room.”
I looked at him vaguely, and glanced at her in his arms. “I don’t really like
playing with three people!”
Song Ce’an: “… …”
Anyang Wangfu kitchen is much bigger than Lin Fu, and the cook is also excellent.
When I had eaten and drunk enough, I suddenly remembered that Song Ce’an had not given me a yard
for the wedding candles today.
“Shaoyao, shall we go out for a walk?” Peony a face of reluctance, and Xu is afraid I go back to be stimulated by the two people, nodded agreed
.
I took the peony out of the door of the Anyang Mansion, and a man came up to me. He grabbed
my hand and asked nervously, “Where is the princess?”
I was stunned and looked at him in a daze.
“Chang Qing?”
I heard my voice was hoarse.
Ku Chang-ching seemed to have come to his senses. He let go of my hand, stepped back, and
said respectfully, “Auntie Huang.”
“So it’s the emperor’s son-in-law.” I said with a smile.
Gu Changqing took a deep look at me and asked, “Why was
Aunt Huang alone outside on her wedding night?”? Your uncle should be worried.
I said to myself that I should worry about your wife.
But on the tip of my tongue, “Why?”
Gu Changqing abandoned me, married someone else, did not give me a reason, before today, I
did not ask him.
“Don’t love, don’t like!” Gu Changqing said in a faint voice. Originally, such a gentle voice, can also say such sharp words.
Like a sharp blade, it pierces my heart.
If you don’t like it, you should say it earlier? Do you want me to be a joke?
I raised my chin and said, “What a coincidence! Me, too. It’s a pity you said it first.”
Losers don’t lose.
Gu Changqing looked up at me and said, “I’ll go in with Aunt Huang!”
“That’s all right.” I smiled softly and walked over, but at the next moment, I raised my hand and slapped him hard
.
My hands are hurting.
Gu Changqing was staggered by me and took a step back.
I asked, “Am I good-looking or Princess Changning?” The way
Gu Changqing looked at me, he must have thought I was crazy.
I said, “Keep your eyes wide open. I look good. I’m the brightest moon in Chang’an.
You don’t deserve it!”
I finished, pulling the peony, turned and disappeared into the night, without looking back. Shaoyao and
I went to the best restaurant in Chang’an and asked for a room. Peony is rare without a mother-in-law. If I want to eat, she will buy it for me. If I want to tell a joke
, she will not think I am not reserved. If I want to drink, she will accompany me to drink.
As a result, she fell down first.
I laughed, took off the red wedding dress and covered her, carried a pot of wine, climbed out of the window
and sat under the eaves. Drink
to the moon!
“*** Ku Chang-ching! The next one will be even better, and the next one will be even better!”
I can’t remember how much wine I drank, more than day Gu Changqing married Princess Changning.
When I woke up, I had a headache and a pain in my body.
I was shocked to find that I slept with Song Ce’an!
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“What are you looking for?” Song Ce’an’s fundus was somewhat gloomy.
I squatted on the floor and looked under the bed. “Let me see if we slept together last night or if the four of us slept
together.”
Then I heard the sound of Song Ce’an grinding his teeth.
Maybe Song Ce’an was taken by me. From that day on, he often came to my yard
to see me, and occasionally made some snacks for me personally. We get along well except that we sometimes hurt each other. Whatever
I want, he will give me. People in the
house also respect me very much.
Moreover, Song Ce’an is not only delicious, but also delicious in his cooking.
But every time I finish his cooking, it’s his turn to eat me.
Song Ce’an would stop at the most critical moment every time and ask me who he was.
I don’t mind if you treat me as a princess of Changning. Do you mind a piece of wool.
So I kicked him out of bed.
Song Ce’an was probably kicked by me. He summoned the imperial physician on the same day and refused to let me get
close to him.
I waited outside his house for a while and went to the kitchen with a good conscience. When I came back
, I brought him a chicken leg that I couldn’t finish.
But when I went in, I saw Princess Changning lying beside Song Ce’an’s bed, her eyes crying into
pears.
I stared at it carefully for a while. Where are our eyes?
The world is blind. “Lin..” “Auntie Huang.” “Am I disturbing you?” Asked Princess Changning? I’m leaving now
.
“No, no.” With one hand, I helped Princess Changning back to Sung’s bedside and
said with a smile, “Just talk for as long as you like.” The kind you
‘d better chat with in bed.
God knows, Song Ce’an is torturing people in bed.
I turned to go, and behind me came the cool voice of Song Ce’an.
“Lin Ching-luan!”
He seemed to be so angry that his eyes were red.
I saw his hands holding the quilt, and the joints turned white. Do you
think I have insulted his white moonlight?
I said to Princess Changning, “I’m sorry, Princess. I made a mistake just now. It’s up to you
. I’ll let Shaoyao stay outside. If you need her, you can call her.”
The peony is my person, by the peony to you two look at, you rest assured?
Alas, I am really a plain and sweet princess.
I said and turned away.
Song Ce’an fell off the bed. The
fall was so loud that I felt pain when I heard it.
Changning princess urgent, hurriedly to help Song Ce’an, Changning princess pampered, weak chicken
strength, where to help move.
I turned around and grabbed Song Ce’an, and in the consternation of Song Ce’an and Princess Changning, I pushed him
back to bed.
“Where did it hurt?” I leaned over to see.
Song Ce’an’s face was blacker, and it rained sullenly. He clapped my hand in disgust, and
his breathing was unstable. It seemed that he would be dizzy at any time.
I touched my nose resentfully. “Then take good care of yourself.”
I’m leaving. I’m afraid if I stay any longer, I’ll be a widow. After
that day, Song Ce’an ignored me, and the door of the room was not for me to enter.
Blame me for making him lose face in front of the white moonlight.
Finally, the little girl of peony said that the man had to be coaxed.
All right, for the sake of his delicious cooking.
Peony gave me advice, to catch a person’s heart, first of all to catch his stomach, although
I do not want to catch Song Ce’an’s heart, but the reason is right. In line with the sincerity of twelve points, I drove away all the cooks in the kitchen, made four dishes and one
soup, and brought them to Song Ce’an.
Sung Tse-an still refused to see me. I kicked the door open and saw him staring at me
. I laughed twice. “I just cooked it, but it’s not good
when it’s cold.”
Sung Tse-an gave me a strange look. “Did you do it yourself?”
“Yes.”
Make amends, though I don’t know what I’m guilty of.
Sung Tse-an’s face looked much better. When I put the dish on the table, he said, “Come and
give me a hand.”
“All right.”
I went over there quickly, with chopsticks, but Sung Tse-an didn’t take it. He looked at
me lazily and said, “My hands hurt.”
Hey, what’s so hard about that.
“Open your mouth.”
I put a piece of braised pork in brown sauce into his mouth. Song Ce’an’s face was quite normal
at first. When he ate the braised pork in brown sauce I made, his eyes suddenly turned red again.
I’m confused. This is moved on?
There’s hope.
Hey, feed hard.
Song Ce’an said not to eat I also feed, I get along with him for a long time, which can not know
his stomach, eat so little, can be full is strange.
I fed him four dishes and one soup. I
guess I really ate too much, and I always felt that Song Ce’an would spit it out in the next moment.
“Song..”
“Ew..”
Song Ce’an got up and strode out. I looked at him vomiting outside, and my heart was very complicated
.
Song Ce’an is seriously ill and can’t get up. When the
imperial physician arrived, he examined Sung Tse-an, and his face turned white with fear. “Wang Yeh, food
is about mutual promotion and restriction. Who cooked it?”? This is to poison you!
I bit my lip and silently moved small steps to slip out.
Song Ce’an ignored me again and again. I sat on the swing, sighed the 334th time, and said decisively, “Shaoyao, go to
drink.”
Mingyue Tower.
I ordered a big table of delicious food for myself, and when I moved my chopsticks, I suddenly remembered Song Ce’an’s
pale face in the house.
To be honest, I have a bad conscience.
Apart from the fact that Song Ce’an doesn’t like me, he is really a peerless man.
Sometimes my mouth is a little damaged and my temper is a little cold, but I am not treated badly.
I asked Shaoyao to order some light snacks and buy a food box, intending to go back and eat with Song
Ce’an.
Peony has a pair of eyes that my silly girl has finally grown up, which makes me want to kill her.
Bright moon floor hands and feet are very quick, very quickly to send up the food, peony also came back, I wipe
the newly bought food box.
“Light Luan?”
I turned to see that it was Gu Changqing.
He came in and took a look at the dish, and his eyes showed a sad and helpless
look. “Light Luan.” “You’re married, I’m married,” says Ku Chang-ching. “It’s impossible to go back
. I used to like these dishes, but now I don’t like them very much.” Only then did
I realize that several of the dishes I ordered for Song Ce’an were Gu Changqing’s favorites.
Heaven and earth conscience, I don’t think of you at all, okay?
Completely Song Ce’an also likes to eat.
I miss you so much that I ordered these dishes.
I was just about to say something when I heard a thump. I looked up and saw Sung Tse-an standing
outside.
He is much better, but his face is still pale.
He had a bag of snacks in his hand and looked at me with cool eyes.
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“Uncle Huang.” Gu Changqing didn’t seem to expect to see Song Ce’an here. He glanced at
me unexpectedly and said, “So Uncle Huang and Aunt Huang have an appointment. I thought..”
“Think what?” Song Ce’an asked. Neither of the
two men spoke.
The atmosphere is a little weird.
The peony made eyes at me again and again, and it was almost cross-eyed. My silly girl. Oh, I’m not stupid? How can
I not know that this kind of story is bound to be misunderstood, ah, at this time I should pull
Song Ce’an to explain, no, I actually point to you, meet Gu Changqing is
an accident.
But Song Ce’an won’t care at all, okay?
They are at daggers drawn for Princess Changning.
“Song..”
Shaoyao suddenly pinched me, and I was forced to break up. Shaoyao said, “Miss, haven’t you been nauseous these
days?”? Are you feeling any better?
I saw Gu Changqing’s face turned white in an instant.
Song Ce’an’s expression is unpredictable.
I opened my mouth and didn’t explain it.
Peony warned me with his eyes that if you dare to talk nonsense, I will not accompany you to pry the kitchen door to steal food in the middle
of the night.
Alright.
Anyway, I don’t want to have any entanglement with Gu Changqing. He misunderstood him. I don’t care.
As for Song Ce’an, explain it slowly behind closed doors. Song Ce’an and I went back. Maybe the carriage was too comfortable, or maybe I was a little
tired these days. I fell asleep in the carriage.
When I opened my eyes, I found that I was lying on the bed of Song Ce’an. He was sitting beside me and peony
was looking at me excitedly.
“Miss, you are pregnant.”
My mind was empty, and it took me a long time to realize it.
“You’re not happy?” Song Ce’an stared at me for a moment and asked.
“No.” I said, is some did not react to come over, after all, is their own children, ah
, in addition to family and peony, he and I are the closest.
To be honest, I’m actually looking forward to it.
I smiled and said to the peony, “I’m hungry.”
“Young lady, you’ve already had them prepared for you. They’re all your
favorites, and I’m afraid you’ll wake up hungry.” Paeonia suffruticosa road.
I answered, but Song Ce’an was very sweet.
Perhaps because of the child, or perhaps just woke up, my thoughts suddenly crooked, loved by Song
Ce’an, what is the feeling?
After I got pregnant, I made up with Song Ce’an. He doesn’t go to court every day, but he really has a lot of things to do. Of course, I do my duty as a princess
and help him deal with the affairs of the house, so I won’t interfere with anything else.
But since I was pregnant, he didn’t let me take care of it. He just let me rest every day.
I am speechless and look at the sky, and the grass is going to grow on my head, okay? It will blossom and bear fruit
in a few days.
Fortunately, Song Ce’an still has a little conscience. He comes to see me every day, cooks for me, buys
me food, and collects all kinds of fashionable gadgets for me.
Oh, he even wanted to hire a troupe for me, but I really don’t like to go to the theatre. I
like to read books.
I was looking at it secretly in the Lin Mansion, but Niang’s book was not serious and wouldn’t let me see it.
Song Ce’an didn’t let me read it for too long, saying that it would hurt my eyes. He read it to me. The book came out of
his mouth, and his ears were pregnant. At the end of reading, I was often distracted and
didn’t know what to write. After I was
pregnant, I was so delicate. Not to mention
vomiting in the dark, but also picky eaters, it is very tortuous, even peony has been my
face thin circle.
I don’t feel much better myself, and I will try my best to endure it.
Unexpectedly, Song Ce’an moved directly into my room to sleep and built a bed opposite me. He can wake up when
I have a little movement at night. Sometimes he fed me water, sometimes he pinched my feet, sometimes he cooked me a bowl of noodles,
sometimes I couldn’t sleep, so he told me stories, and the next day I woke up
in his arms.
Those two months were the most carefree days I had, and I almost forgot about Gu
Changqing.
But one day, he came.
To be precise, he made an appointment with me, and he knew I didn’t see him, so he took advantage of the peony to go out to buy
plums for me and detained her.
Mingyue Tower.
Gu Changqing looked at me with a slightly bulging lower abdomen, and a touch of sadness passed through his eyes.
He said, “Qingluan, Changning is pregnant, but the baby is not mine!”
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“Yo!” “Congratulations! Happy to be a father!” I laughed gloatingly.
“She is pregnant with Sung Tse-an’s child.”
I don’t know how I got back to the palace that day.
It is said in the book that it is sure to rain when you are sad.
I also want to rain, preferably a rainstorm, but the sun is hot and warm, there is no sign of
overcast. My heart aches. My heart aches to death.
I don’t understand why I feel this way.
Obviously, Song Ce’an’s heart has always been Princess Changning.
Mingming, the person in my heart has always been Gu Changqing.
But how did it change? When did I
start to think of Gu Changqing less and less, and I didn’t even care about him at all
. When will
it start? I will wait for Song Ce’an to come back and have dinner with me.
I will look forward to what gift he will bring me?
I would expect that when he read the book to me, he would feel that the story was cliche, but helpless
.
I went home like a wandering soul and sat in front of the window all afternoon.
Shaoyao was frightened. “Miss, don’t listen to your son-in-law’s nonsense. He may have made a mistake
.”
In the peony heart, Gu Changqing negative me, he is a complete bastard, he is not
worthy of trust.
“I know.” So, I’m waiting for him to come back.
But today, Song Ce’an didn’t come back.
“Miss, please have something to eat first.” Paeonia suffruticosa road.
I nodded. I don’t eat much. I don’t eat much.
The peony had people clean up the bowls and chopsticks, and when she came in and saw me still sitting under the windowsill, she asked tentatively
, “Miss, are you..” Have you fallen in love with your son-in-law?
I was stunned.
Do I like Song Ce’an?
I don’t know.
I just feel that my heart is empty and uncomfortable.
I waited until the next morning before Song Ce’an came back. The moment I
saw him, my whole person seemed to have strength. At that moment, I clearly
understood that Song Ce’an occupied most of my life these days.
“Why are your eyes so red?” “Didn’t you sleep well last night?” Asks Sung Tse-an. It
‘s not that I didn’t sleep well, but that I didn’t sleep at all. “Where were you last night?” Song Ce’an and
I will not interfere with each other, will not ask each other, I married so
long, or the first time to ask him where he is going.
Sung Tse-an was obviously surprised. “I have business to attend to,” he said.
Is it business, or to accompany Princess Changning? Are you hungry
? I’ll make you something to eat.
I grabbed Song Ce’an’s arm and pulled him back. My strength was not light. Song Ce’an
was pulled by me and almost jumped on me.
“What’s the matter?”
I want to take a chance.
Not just for the kids, but for myself.
I said anxiously, “Song Ce’an, Gu Changqing came to me, and he said that Princess Changning was pregnant..”
“Auntie Huang?”
My words were interrupted, and I looked at Princess Changning standing in the doorway, wearing a pink skirt, and I couldn’t say the rest
of my words.
She came in, saluted me, and said, “Aunt Huang, from today on, I will live with you
.” Something was breaking in
my heart. I stared at Song Ce’an in a daze. I thought that my
face must be very ugly, because my facial expression was frozen. “What do you mean by living
here?”
“Chang-ning and Ku Chang-ching have left, and she has come to stay at your house for a few days.”
“Just for a while?” I asked.
Sung Tse-an nodded. “For now.”
I sneered, trying not to let off steam. “Sung Tse-an, I have a few words I
‘d like to say to you alone.”
Princess Changning winked. “Then I’ll go out first.” When the
door was closed, I asked, “Did you stay with Princess Changning last night?
”
“Yes.”
“Ku Chang-ching said that the child she was carrying was yours.”
I stared into his eyes, and I felt clearly that at that moment, I wished
he had said no.
But he didn’t answer.
Is it the default? My tears suddenly fell down.
I thought, to marry him, I just need to be a good princess, but
one thing, who first moved, who will be defeated.
I think I’m a joke myself.
“What did you want to say, Qingluan?”
“Congratulations!”
I was suddenly glad that Princess Changning came in and interrupted what I had not said.
I want to ask, is Princess Changning pregnant with your child? If not, I forget Gu Changqing
, you also try to forget Princess Changning, we are good together, OK?
“Sung Tse-an, let’s divorce.”
Song Ce’an raised his eyes and looked straight at me. All the light in his eyes darkened. His voice
was as cold as if it had been quenched in the ice and snow.
“Or what?” I turned my head and asked, “Do you still want to enjoy the blessings of the people
of Qi?” There are not a few families with three wives and four concubines in
the capital, but my father has only married my mother
all his life. I have been envious of my future husband since I was a child. If I don’t have Song Ce’an in my heart, it doesn’t matter how many people he marries or how many concubines he takes. I
don’t care.
But I.. I can’t accept it.
Song Ce’an looked at me for a long time. “Are you jealous, Qingluan?” He suddenly asked.
I was poked at the center of the matter, but it was such an embarrassing scene.
I suddenly laughed, “What’s wrong?”? Aren’t you afraid that if you wear the identity
of Princess Changning’s uncle and don’t have the cover of my real princess, the world will discover your nondescript
love?
“It’s a pity. Do you think I’m such a loser?”
“I promise you everything except divorce.” In
the end, Song Ce’an and I broke up on bad terms.
No matter how I stimulate him, even the words are very ugly, when I am too radical, I just point
at Princess Changning’s nose and scold her shameless, but he just refuses to give me and leave the book.
Peony heard everything outside.
Maybe it’s beyond her age. She doesn’t know what to do, and she doesn’t know
what to advise me to do.
She just held my hand, tears like rain, “Miss, don’t be sad
, you still have me.” “Why are you crying?” I wiped away her tears. “If he doesn’t give me the book of divorce, can’t
I give it to him?”
Peony’s eyes lit up. “That’s right.”
“Back to the Lin Mansion.”
“Miss.” Shaoyao’s face was full of grievance. “You are not allowed to step out of the courtyard
, and he has sent someone to guard it.”
Song Ce’an!
I gritted my teeth and said, “You find a dog hole and go back to the Lin Mansion to find my parents and ask them to come and pick
me up.”
“Good.”
The peony came back in the evening.
She was covered in blood and her eyes were swollen from crying. Startled,
I hurried over. “What happened?”
“Miss.” The peony threw itself into my arms and burst into tears. “The master and the lady are gone
.”
My mind was blank, and I was confused. “They say that the Lin Mansion had an affair with the former court and was plotting against the law. The Lin Mansion was raided, and it was my son-in-law who personally
led people there. The master ran into the wall, and my wife committed suicide. We have no home.”
At this moment, I was so numb and stiff that I didn’t know what to do.
When I came to my senses, I rushed out, and the peony hurried to follow.
At the gate of the courtyard, I was stopped. What do
I care? Song Ce’an just banned my feet, but did not say to my life, I
threatened my life, the guards had to let me out.
I found a horse in the stables of Wangfu. It belonged to Song Ce’an. His horse was the best and ran
fast. It’s funny to
say that Song Ce’an taught me how to ride a horse.
Song Ce’an is a good master, and he didn’t let me fall once.
I rode to Lin Fu and saw a raging fire. There were many bodyguards at the gate of the
Lin Mansion. Song Ce’an, Princess Changning, and Gu Changqing were all
standing outside. When they heard the sound of hooves, they turned around one after another.
They may be surprised, but I’m not looking at them. I don’t have time to care about them.
I dismounted and rushed into the house.
I threw myself at the raging fire like a moth to a flame, but there were the people closest to
me. “Lin Ching-luan!” Song Ce’an, frightened, rushed up and clung to me. I
couldn’t get it off, so I lowered my head and bit him in the arm.
I just wanted him to let me go. I was not polite at all. There was a smell of blood between my lips and teeth.
But Song Ce’an didn’t let go of my hand at all.
“Don’t go in, don’t look.” He whispered in my ear.
I struggled so hard that I lost my strength.
“Auntie Huang.” Princess Changning came over and looked at me with pity. “Don’t worry
. You’re Princess Anyang. You’re no longer from the Lin family. The charges
against Master Lin and Lady Lin have nothing to do with you.”
“Changning.” Song Ce’an gave her a warning look.
Changning didn’t speak.
“You let go of me.” I said to Song Cean.
Song Ce’an didn’t respond.
“Don’t worry, I haven’t avenged myself. How could I take things too hard?” I said in a cold voice.
Sung’s body stiffened and he slowly released me. “Where are my parents?” I asked in a cold voice.
Song Ce’an did not speak. Princess Changning wanted to say something, but Gu Changqing pulled her sleeve.
I see.
They are in the Lin Mansion. They are buried in the fire.
It turns out that people are so sad that they can’t cry at all.
I knelt in front of the gate of Lin Fu and watched the guards running back and forth, carrying
buckets in their hands, trying to put out the fire.
I found it extremely ironic: “If you’ve already burned it, why bother?” Can my parents come back when the
fire is out?
The fire burned for a whole day and night. I knelt for a whole day and night. Song Ce’an seemed to know that he could not persuade
me, nor did he persuade me. He just silently knelt beside me.
I didn’t even look at him, thinking that this would wash away the fact
that he was the murderer?
But why did Gu Changqing kneel?
Look at them one by one, what kind of people do I like? When the
fire was extinguished, I said to Shaoyao, “Help me up.”
The girl came after me and accompanied me all the time. Peony answered, Song Ce An hand faster than peony, I did not look at him, toward the peony hand,
but in the next moment, a black eyes, fell down. When
I woke up, the first thing I saw was Song Ce’an. He didn’t know how long he had been guarding me.
His eyes were bloodshot and his chin was covered with green stubble. This is the first time
I’ve seen him in such a mess.
“Light Luan.” Song Ce’an leaned over and said softly, “You have a sign of miscarriage. You need to
rest.”
“Why?”
Song Ce’an knew what I was asking, and he sat on the edge of the bed, his voice indescribably tired.
“The Lin Mansion involved the former Dynasty.”
“The former Dynasty?” I
remember when I was a child, I heard that there were orphans of the former Dynasty who were still alive, and there was a lot of hubbub. Later
, no one was caught, so nothing was done.
At that time, I was curious and wanted to ask about the past, but my parents, who had always been gentle, scolded me severely
and told me not to say a word in advance. How could
such cautious people like them have anything to do with the former Dynasty? But when Sung Tse-an heard me say two words, he grabbed my hand and earnestly told me,
“Don’t say a word about the past.”
“If you are afraid that I will get you into trouble, you can give me a letter of divorce.”
Song Ce’an looked at me for a moment and said, “I won’t give you a letter of divorce. You will always be the princess of Anyang
.”
I just feel funny.
Qingluan, do you believe me? Song Ce’an asked.
I didn’t answer. I didn’t want to talk to him.
Sung Tse-an smiles bitterly. “You just have to remember one thing. No matter what time it is, don
‘t give up on yourself.” He went out
before he finished speaking and called the peony to come in and wait on me.
This girl has lost weight again. Where are
Mom and Dad? What about Lin Fu?
“Don’t worry, miss. The master and his wife’s funeral affairs have been settled. When you feel better
, the maidservant will take you to visit them.” Who dares to do the funeral for parents
at this time.
“Is that him?” “It’s all done by my son-in-law.” “You’ve been in a coma for three days and two nights,” said Shaoyao. “Apart from attending to the funeral affairs of the master
and his wife, my son-in-law has been staying by your side all the time. He never leaves you. He doesn’t eat or drink
.”
I really don’t understand Song Ce’an.
He can take people to copy Lin Fu with one foot, why is he so good to me with the other foot?
“Yes, Princess Changning has moved out.” “You fainted that day,” said Shaoyao. “My
son-in-law brought you back. Princess Changning wanted to come and see you, but he didn’t let her. They seemed to
have had a quarrel.”
“Besides, General Ku came to see you several times, but Wang Yeh didn’t let him in.”
“And who is General Ku?”
“Gu Changqing.” Peony’s nose turned sour. “Prince Ku was an orphan of the Ku family. He was a great contributor to the founding of the country by
Emperor Xinyuan. As soon as his identity was revealed, the emperor was grateful for his grandfather’s kindness to Dazhao
and made him a general.”
I know Emperor Xinyuan.
The former Dynasty was destroyed in the hands of Emperor Xinyuan.
Emperor Xinyuan was a member of the royal family of the former Dynasty. He was an official in the court. At that time, there was also a general Gu, who was brave
and skillful in fighting. Emperor Xinyuan’s sister married the general Gu.
Later, when Emperor Xinyuan rebelled, General Gu followed him all the time. However, I heard that General Gu was plotted against, and the couple both died in the hands of the former royal family. General
Gu had a son whose whereabouts were unknown.
So Ku Chang-ching also detested the former court? In the case of the Lin Mansion, there was also his
handwriting, wasn’t there?
Shaoyao shook her head. “The maidservant doesn’t know.”
I closed my eyes. Has the
Lin Fu case been decided? What is the relationship between the Lin Mansion and the former court?
“My son-in-law has blocked the news, and no one in the house has said anything.”
“Help me up.”
I’m going to see Song Cean.
Song Ce’an was in the study. When I got to the door, I heard him coughing. I pushed the door and went in. I saw
red blood on his veil.
He was a little surprised. He took up his veil without any trace. He got up and came to help me. “Why are you here
?”
“What did the Dali Temple condemn?”
“Conspiracy.” “What is the evidence?”
“In the Lin Mansion, I found some old things belonging to the royal family of the former Dynasty.” Song Ce’an turned to look at the desktop. There is a box on the
table.
I went over and opened the box. Inside were some hairpins and jade pendants. “Isn’t this my mother’s
box?”
I have seen once, like very much, but Niang does not give her, saying that when the time is ripe, then give
her, unfortunately, there is no chance.
But so what? Do you want so many people’s lives
just because of these?
“I’ll take you back.”
I didn’t say no.
The next few days, Song Ce’an seems to suddenly idle down, he accompanied me all day, I
also want to open.
Without Anyang Wangfu, I am nothing, and I can’t get revenge.
Besides, Shaoyao is loyal. She is my only relative. I can’t involve her.
Days seem to go back to the past, I am still the princess of Anyang, Song Ce’an will come to accompany
me every day. Only at night he lay beside me, several times, I can not help but take out the dagger, in the
end, but helpless to put down.
On this day, Shaoyao accompanied me to hold a memorial ceremony.
On my way there, I met the carriage of Princess Changning. When I came back
from worshipping my parents, I met Gu Changqing again. I can’t
tell you how impatient I am.
“Are you all right, Qingluan?”
“Thanks to General Gu, I am very well.”
“I’m sorry about Lin Fu.”
I glanced at him. “Are you really going to apologize to me?”
“Yes.” Gu Changqing said.
“Then commit suicide and go underground to make amends with my parents.” I finished and got into the carriage.
Suddenly, a frightened horse rushed over and came towards me. The horse was so fast that
I couldn’t avoid it at all. Gu Changqing was startled and was about to embrace me.
I dislike to death, but in the next moment, fall into a familiar embrace.
“Are you all right?” It’s Song Ce’an.
Song Ce’an glanced at Gu Changqing and took me back to the palace.
His face is a little ugly.
Ever since I lost my parents, I don’t care about a lot of things. “You look
like I did something shameful with Ku Chang-ching.”
Lin Ching-luan, would you feel comfortable saying that yourself? Why should you hurt others and yourself?
I sneered, “I hurt you?”? Sung Tse-an, you’re not going to say you like
me in the next sentence, are you?
“What if I say yes?” Song Ce’an looked at me with fixed eyes. The light in
his eyes was so deep that for a moment, I felt that he should love me
deeply.
Sung Tse-an, isn’t it enough to play for so long? Didn’t you marry me because
I looked a little similar to Princess Changning? In your heart, I’m just a
substitute. Will you fall in love with a substitute?
Song Ce’an’s face was really ugly.
“I didn’t think so. You’re a double, too.”
I lay on the imperial concubine’s couch and said lazily to Song Ce’an.
Song Ce’an’s face was suddenly blacker than charcoal, and his hand holding the teacup shrank sharply. He crushed the teacup with his bare hands, and the blood in his palm dripped down in the tea, and the white cotton-padded
robe was red.
He looked at me and said coldly, “So?”? Do you think that I’m going to give
you the book of separation?
I shrugged my shoulders. “If you don’t give it, you don’t give it. You look for your confidante, and
I look for my white moonlight. How about we don’t interfere with each other?”
Song Ce’an stared at me as if to poke a blood hole in my body.
I thought for a moment and then said, “Don’t worry, we’re still a loving couple. Anyang Palace
won’t be turned into a prairie by the two of us!”
Sung Tse-an laughed angrily. “Lin Ching-luan, I look down on you!” When he
finished, he shook his sleeve and smashed the door out.
I sniff, get angry, get angry, smash what door? Good yellow rosewood, very expensive
, okay? After
that, Song Ce’an didn’t come to me for a long time.
Until half a month later, he came, and he came with a book.
I took the peony and got into the carriage to leave the capital. The peony is holding the box and counting the silver. It was given by Song Ce’an. He can give it if he likes. I don
‘t care.
After all, I’m not doing nothing these days. Although
I am usually quite out of tune, I am probably born with a different sense of smell from ordinary people
.
In those days, I asked Shaoyao to inquire about Lin Fu quietly.
I never thought that I was not the biological daughter of my parents.
It can be said that it was my existence that killed my parents.
I am an orphan of the former Dynasty.
I was suspicious at first, but I found the
letter that had not been found by the Dali Temple in the Lin Mansion.
At the beginning, my mother had been pursued all the time. She took me alone. There was nothing she could do
, so she entrusted me out.
My mother did not hide my identity, and my parents did not reject
me because of my identity. I
used to think that when Dynasties changed, it would be the people who would suffer.
But if you don’t stick the knife in yourself, you won’t know the pain.
I don’t want to change the Dynasty. I just want revenge. Blood for blood.
So, I’m secretly recruiting. It’s funny to
say that the silver was given by Song Ce’an. He never treated
me badly in food and clothing. With the dowry, I saved a lot.
“Miss.” Peony gasped, “Thirty million taels of gold, aunt..” Is Little Lord
An so rich?
I frowned. Is the break-up fee so generous? Isn’t
he afraid that Princess Changning will make trouble with him? I
don’t know why, but I’m a little restless. The baby in
my belly has been six months old. The baby has always been very good. Today, somehow
, it is not quiet. Shaoyao and
I went to an inn to stay overnight.
We ordered and sat in the lobby. Did you
hear? Prince An has rebelled. He failed in his attempt to assassinate the emperor and has been sent to prison. It is said that
he is going to be beheaded.
“How could Lord An suddenly rebel?”
“You don’t know that Princess Changning is a fake. She was the daughter of Lin Ching-shan
, a rebellious minister, who was lost a few months ago. By coincidence, she was picked up by the emperor. An Xiaowang was angry and became a beauty.”
Shaoyao ate the steamed stuffed bun as if it were biting the enemy. “It serves you right,” she said indignantly.
“Let’s go back!”
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When I returned to the city, I could still see the traces of turmoil in the city.
Many bodyguards are searching the remaining party members of Anyang Wangfu. Before I
left, I let the peony buy a small yard, temporarily settled in it, I gathered
all my people, ready to strike at any time.
Peony is so excited these days that he sharpens his kitchen knife in the yard when he is free.
My people are asking for information. When
Song Ce’an forced the emperor to abdicate, he stabbed the old emperor with a sword. The old emperor’s life was hanging by a thread.
Of course, the emperor was dying. This kind of news could not be spread. He only
claimed to be frightened.
Moreover, Song Ce’an clearly had a chance to sit on the throne, but the final result was that he was put in
prison, which was really strange.
Now Dazhao, the second prince in charge of the country, the second prince is a complete straw bag, eat, drink and play
first, in the affairs of the country in a mess, fortunately, he is able to listen to the opinion of the temperament, for
a time there is no trouble. That night, I found Changning.
Changning is no longer a high princess, she dressed up as ordinary people, mixed
in the crowd. Her eyes were full of shock when she
saw me.
Lin Ching-luan? Didn’t you leave already? Why did you come back?
I didn’t say a word to her. I just asked my people to take her down and keep an eye on her.
“Lin Ching-luan, Sung Tse-an never loved you, and Ku Chang-ching only used you.
He approached you just to get revenge.”
I still did not speak, the peony cleanly gagged her and locked her in the woodshed
.
Three days later, news came from the palace.
Song Ce’an is going to be beheaded.
Gu Changqing personally supervised the beheading. My people and
I mingled in the crowd, I looked at Song Ce’an in prison clothes, his eyes did
not have the previous light, as if nothing mattered.
I saw Gu Changqing’s intention to kill, and he really wanted to kill Song Ce’an.
“When the time comes, execute!” “Hold on.”
I stepped out of the crowd.
The second prince was excited in an instant. He was going to order me to be arrested, but Gu Changqing didn’t know what he had said in
his ear. He didn’t care about me.
“Why are you back?”
Song Ce’an looked at me in disbelief, and his eyes turned red in an instant, holding back his emotions
.
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“Husband and wife, you’re going to die. I’ll give you a ride.” I said in a faint voice.
“That’s all right.”
For a long time, Song Ce’an whispered.
He smiled, and I saw a little of myself under his eyes.
I took the wine from Shaoyao and walked over. Gu Changqing stopped me and said worriedly,
“Qingluan, don’t go there.”
I glanced at Gu Changqing and went straight over. Gu Changqing knew he couldn’t stop me, so he didn’t
stop me, but the bodyguard got closer. When has
An Xiaowangye ever been in such a mess? Even so, it does not damage his temperament, this person has such ability, no
matter when, is the most eye-catching.
“Song Ce’an, do you have anything to say to me?”
Sung looked steadily at me for a long time, then looked down. “How are you and the baby
?” He asked.
“It’s all good.” I said, “What else? Is there really nothing to say?”
He shook his head gently. “I’m satisfied that you can come and see me off in the afterlife
.” With a sneer,
I met his eyes and said, “Song Ce’an, this is the last time I
ask you. Do you really have nothing to say to me?”? If you
don’t tell me this time, don’t regret it.
Sung Tse-an was stupefied. Complications flashed through his eyes, and finally he just said, “There
‘s nothing more to say.”
“That’s all right.”
I bit my finger, stroked his eyebrows and eyes, and covered the tears under his eyes with blood. “Next life
, you and I don’t want to meet again.”
His face shook with unspeakable grief, but he still nodded, “Good.”
He drank the wine I fed him. I simply stood up and took another bowl of wine, but this time I handed it to Ku Chang-ching.
“General Ku, I’ve met you, and this bowl of wine is my toast to you.”
Gu Changqing didn’t answer.
I laughed. “Is General Ku still afraid that I will poison it?” When I
finished, I took out the silver needle and probed inside. The silver needle had not changed. Ku Chang-ching
took it over and said, “That’s not what I meant.” Then
he raised his head and drank, “Qingluan, I’ll apologize
to you when I finish with Sung Tse-an.”
His eyes are full of guilt, but I don’t care anymore.
I turned around and said in a faint voice, “Unfortunately, you won’t have the chance.” Before
Gu Changqing could react to what had happened, he stumbled and half knelt on the ground
. He looked at me in disbelief.
“Light Luan.” Song Ce’an looked shocked and wanted to get up, but he fell to the ground
feebly.
The second prince was frightened, how could he think, I am not to see off, I came back for
revenge, he did not expect, I actually dare to drug directly.
My soft tendons are all smeared on the edge of the bowl, and a hundred silver needles can’t find them.
“Somebody, grab her!” Unfortunately, where there is still time, the long arrow came in the air, shot in the head of the two princes, he
was scared immediately no sound. Many people poured out of the
people and fought with the guards.
My men have detained the second prince.
To be precise, my talent drew his sword, and the second prince knelt down directly, “Lin..” Lin
Lin. Don’t kill me. I’ll give you whatever you want. The man who killed your parents is my father.
It has nothing to do with me. I don’t know anything.
“Irrelevant?” I sneered, “My father, my mother, my grandfather, my grandmother, my parents
, all died at your hands?”? You have nothing to do with me?
The second prince was scared out of the trill, “You are the father who has been looking for the front.”
I clapped my paw at the second prince and said, “Orphan of the former Dynasty.”
“My father will..”
Will kill me? Or put me in jail? I asked, “Isn’t the old emperor going to die
?”? Are you sure he’s still moving?
Second Prince, “..”
“Do you know what it means to catch the king before catching the thief?”
My people detained the second prince.
This turmoil, no waste of energy, the right time, the right place, the right people, I all accounted for. I took the two princes hostage to make the whole court.
Oh, I also let someone carry the old emperor to the hall, in front of the civil and military officials,
list his charges, stamped his seal, and let the historian write down a
note.
The old emperor seemed to have no idea that he was going to die, leaving such a big stain and being reviled by later
generations. He was angry to death by me.
I know the civil and military officials scold me in their hearts, so what?
Of course, there are people who want to wipe me out. Unfortunately, I move faster than them. There are
several people in the court who follow the former court. They cooperate from inside to outside. All the people in the royal family are controlled
by me.
Who dares to move is to send them to die. I am very busy
these days.
At the beginning, I didn’t let go of any of those who had participated in the Lin Mansion and added insult to injury. I sent them all to be
ghosts.
I do not believe in fate, do not believe in evil, I only believe in myself, owe me, I will pay back!
But there are still three people, and I’m not moving for the time being.
Three days later, I went to see Changning.
She had lost the pride of the past, and her eyes were deeply sunken. Lin Ching-luan, what if you get everything? You still have nothing. Ku
Chang-ching doesn’t love you, and neither does Sung Tse-an. You’ll never be better than me.
“Is it?” “But I’m the last one my parents will protect,” I said lightly.
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Kill but kill the heart.
Changning collapsed.
She shouted, shouted, cursed, smashed things, and did everything she could to vent her emotions.
I let her vent, and when she finished, I asked someone to send me a portrait
of her deep feelings, and the light in her eyes was all dark.
I didn’t kill her.
Sometimes, death is a relief.
I found out, Lin Fu massacre, with her handwriting, how can I let her feel better?
Miss, General Gu.. Gu Changqing wants to see you.
“Bring him.”
Gu Changqing came. He didn’t come to beg me to let him go, nor did he come to confess. He told me
a lot of things.
For example, he has long known that I am an orphan of the former Dynasty, the so-called hero to save the United States, but a deliberate arrangement. What
he wants is revenge.
To be honest, it’s hard to explain that you seek revenge on me and I seek revenge on you.
But there is nothing wrong with my former royal family, because of some people’s prodigal ambition, unprovoked disaster, he Gu Fu betrayed the former royal family, just ended up like this, this is deserved.
“That day the Lin Mansion was ransacked. I did it alone. It had nothing to do with Sung Tse-an.”
“Song Ce’an actually went to save people, but unfortunately, the Prince of Anyang was so popular that he had long been on guard against the old emperor. I joined hands with the old emperor in order to drag him into the water.”
“He knew it was a trap, but he still came. He also knew that as long as he appeared in front of you, he would never be able to wash clean, but he was still duty-bound not to turn back.”
Gu Changqing said a lot, and I heard a lot.
When he finished, he glanced at me, who was completely unresponsive. He was stunned for a moment. “You..” You all know? Then you’re still.. Sung Tse-an was imprisoned.
“I don’t need to explain to you what happened between me and him.” “I finally lost you,” says
Ku Chang-ching, with a sense of desolation in his eyes. “You’re wrong.” I looked at him. “There is only calculation between you and me. How can we talk about possession?”
“Yes, only calculation.” Gu Changqing laughed sarcastically.
He was taken down.
The next day, the news came that Gu Changqing had committed suicide by taking poison. After I
listened, I just let them deal with it according to the process. Shaoyao was relieved to see that my mood did not fluctuate
too much.
Half a month later, the new emperor ascended the throne.
The new emperor is only thirteen years old.
Perhaps the old emperor had done too much evil, and few of his children had become useful. The only one who had become useful
was put into the cold palace by him. The seven princes were
put into the cold palace with their mother and concubine when they were one year old. They had never seen their father until they were thirteen years old.
He was humiliated and watched his mother die of illness.
I do not deny that I have selfishness, I just want to let the old emperor have no peace in his grave.
Of course, this kid is the only one who can be a big job.
He will be a wise king.
Perhaps I avenged his mother and concubine, or perhaps I brought him out of the dark cold
palace, the child is very dependent on me. When I left the palace, he tugged at my sleeve. His eyes were all red. “Lin Ching-luan, can you
not go?”
I laughed and said, “If I don’t leave, will you support me?”
“Raise.” The young boy’s eyes were firm. “Queen mother, queen, princess, you can choose whatever
you want.”
“Will you give me the throne?” I teased him on purpose.
“Give.” Teenagers are full of sincerity.
I’m still going.
The little boy ran after the carriage and cried so much that I thought I would never see
him again. Obviously, I was in the city, and I wanted to repair Lin Fu.
The next day, the boy directly moved out the people of the Ministry of Rites and asked them to help me repair the Lin
Mansion.
This boy comes to me every three or five times to eat and drink, of course, he did not forget
to bring me my favorite snacks.
Until one day, the boy said mysteriously that he would ask me to go somewhere in the evening,
and that he would send a carriage to pick me up and let me get ready.
I didn’t make it. I’m having a baby.
I was in great pain, and my consciousness was scattered. I saw Song Ce’an. He came in hurriedly and grabbed my hand, his eyes full of anxiety.
I have no time to ask him why he is here and how he got in. After I
gave birth to my son, I was so weak that I fainted.
When I woke up, it was noon the next day, the sun came in from the window, and Song Ce’an fell asleep quietly beside the
bed.
I only moved slightly, and he woke up.
He looked up at me, stunned and ecstatic, and his eyes were full of confusion. “Are you
uncomfortable?”? Are you hungry? Would you like something to eat?
He said a lot of things, but when he saw that I didn’t respond at all, he panicked with the naked eye. “The royal doctor..”
“Sung Tse-an.” I called to him, “Do you remember what I said to you on the execution ground?”
Song Ce’an’s body shook.
“I told you not to regret it.”
Song Ce’an could not speak for a long time, and I ignored him.
Shaoyao brought the baby in. A
small lump, carved with powder and jade.
“Lady, he won’t drink the nurse’s milk.” Peony is very helpless, changed three wet nurses, little childe do not look at a glance.
“I’ll do it.” I held him.
Sung Tse-an looked slightly uncomfortable. “I’ll go out first.”
The little fellow ate and drank enough and slept happily. The peony gave him to the nurse. When she came in, she told me that Song Ce’an had been at the door all the time. I didn’t let him look after the baby. He wanted to see, he wanted to hold, all at his will.
I’m just, like, cold to him.
Song Ce’an came in at noon, together with Song Chengze, Song Chengze is the seven princes, the present emperor.
As soon as they came in, I knew why Song Ce’an, who had not seen me for many months, suddenly appeared when I gave birth to a child.
Originally, Song Chengze in the cold palace life is very difficult, has been Song Ce’an secretly to help him, otherwise, he would have died in the cold palace.
“Well, I’ll go and see the children.” Song Seung-taek slipped away with a guilty conscience. Song Ce’an and I were the only ones left in the
room.
You.. When did you find out? Song Ce’an asked.
He has realized that I already know everything, otherwise Gu Changqing has not been able to do well, where can he go? “Leave me and you, when I leave the city.” I’m not hiding anything. Before
I was pregnant, Song Ce’an asked me to manage Anyang Wangfu. I read the account book. How much silver does Anyang Wangfu
have? What
he gives is all.
I know that he and Changning are innocent.
I know that the child that Chang Ning is carrying is not his.
I also know that he divorced me, but he planned everything for me in private.
I also know that he is not actually involved in the case of Lin Fu, he is to save people.
I know all about it.
But he really does not understand me, if I like a person, even if it is a mountain of fire
, I would like to accompany him to rush together, rather than what he did to hide from me to do everything
.
“Sung Tse-an, you’ll never know how I felt when I mustered up the courage to tell you that I
wanted to have a future with you, but you brought her back and acquiesced that she was pregnant with your child
.” Probably
standing in the summer sun, a basin of ice water was poured on his head, and his limbs and bones were
cold.
“You..” Song Ce’an looked at me in disbelief, and his eyes were full of shock. I don’t have much to say. For that matter, it’s enough.
From that day on, Song Ce’an did not pester me, but he came to me very frequently. At first,
I thought he was supposed to come to me, but when people came to see me, they would not
stay for a long time. They had a good sense of propriety. Instead, they went to see Ah Heng and stayed for a whole day. Sometimes
they slept directly with Ah Heng when they were late.
Heng is our child, Song Heng, whose name is chosen by him, Meiyu Heng, I have no
opinion.
One day, when I woke up, Song Ce’an suddenly came in.
His mood fluctuated and he was restrained, and I seldom saw him.
He looked straight at me, his eyes like a lake of ink, and said, “Qingluan, there’s one
thing I don’t seem to have said to you.”
I have a vague feeling that it is not a good word.
“I love you. I’ve wanted to say that for a long time.”
Song Ce’an. Xinyue me?
I can’t believe it. Although
I know that Chang Ning and he are innocent, the people in his heart are not always long.
Ning? I blurted out, “Didn’t you marry me
because I have the same eyes as Chang Ning?”
Then I regretted it. Why did you talk so fast.
Sung Tse-an, as if he had just realized something, asked me, “Lin Ching-luan, do you really
think I’m the kind of person who can marry anyone and treat her like that?”
Absolutely not. There were a lot of servant girls in
Song Ce’an’s house. After I got married, there was a servant girl who felt that her master
was enlightened and dared to climb the bed. She was given death by him that day.
“I don’t like her.”
“I didn’t think of you as a substitute for her. It was you in the first place.”
“Then you’re still..” In the middle of my speech, I suddenly stopped. I tugged at the quilt and my eyes
flickered. “I’m sleepy. I want to sleep.”
I just woke up. Sung Tse-an obviously didn’t believe my story, but he didn’t expose
me. “I’m at Ah Heng’s,” he said.
I can’t sleep.
I’m in a mess.
Peony came in several times and saw me holding the quilt in a daze.
“Miss, do you still like your son-in-law?” I didn’t answer.
“Miss, follow your heart and don’t leave any regrets for yourself. No matter what
decision you make, the maidservant will support you.”
Don’t you have any regrets?
I don’t know.
Out of the month, I took the baby to worship my parents, Song Ce’an and I went together. On the way
back, Ah Heng giggled in his arms. The man beside me was gentle between
his eyebrows and eyes. I was in a trance. When the
carriage stopped, Song Ce’an took the child down first and then turned to help me.
I hesitated and put my hand on it. “I have something to say to you.”
Sung Tse-an was a little surprised. He nodded and said in a gentle voice, “Good.”
The peony was very clever to carry Ah Heng in, and when she went in, the girl winked at me
.
“Song Ce’an, the letter of divorce you gave me is not correct. It doesn’t have your name on it. You have to supply
me.” I took out the letter of divorce from my bosom and handed it over.
Song Ce’an’s face was a little pale. He lowered his eyes for a long time before he said in a dumb voice, “Yes.”
“Add it now. By the way, you can’t go back on the money you gave me.”
“Don’t go back on your word.” There was no pen
outside, so Sung Tse-an cut his finger and wrote his name on it. I carefully put it away. “What are you going to do in the future?”.
“I don’t know.”
“Whatever plans you have, stay in the capital for a few days. At least we’ll get to know each other. I’m going to get married, and I’ll invite you to my wedding feast.”
Song Ce’an raised his head in a daze. His eyes were scarlet, and his emotions seemed to break out. He held back again. He wanted to say something, but he couldn’t say a word.
It was a long time before he said, “Is he good to you?”
“Yes.” I said, “At least he won’t tell me nothing like you.”
“Oh, don’t worry. He treats our son well. He and I are not unreasonable. Ah Heng is still your son. You can come to see him whenever you want.” I added.
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“No.” “You..” said Song Ce’an with difficulty. Take care of yourself.
He didn’t go in. Since I told him I wanted to get married, he seldom came, and even if he did, he just went to see
Ah Heng.
The days flew by, and in a twinkling of an eye it was my wedding day.
I have moved back to Lin Fu.
Lin Fu’s renovation is the same as before, but without parents. Holding
Ah Heng in my arms, I wandered around the yard and was caught by the peony. She said that today was a good
day and she had to dress up well. She pushed me back to the house.
Peony can be perky now, the house saw her up and down to call an aunt, the little girl
is very melancholy, how to promote an official to call her old?
I changed my clothes and sat down by the cradle to tease Ah Heng. Shaoyao rushed in, trembling
with words. “Miss, he’s here.” As soon as
she had finished speaking, a figure flashed in outside the door. His face was full of anxiety. He staggered and rushed over. Two steps away
from me, he stopped again.
It’s Song Ce’an.
Shaoyao took the hint and went out with Ah Heng in her arms.
I looked up at him. “What are you doing here?”
Sung’s facial expression was somewhat unnatural, but in the next moment, he seemed to firm up his inner thoughts:
“Do I still have a chance?” “Marry you!”
I looked at him and said in a faint voice, “What if I say no?” The light in
Song Ce’an’s eyes darkened and he did not speak.
After a while, he looked up at me. His eyes were slightly red, and he seemed very aggrieved and
somewhat helpless. “I don’t want to force you, but I don’t want to let go either.” Before
I could ask, “What do you want?” I heard him say, “I’m not leaving. What if he’s
not good to you?” There was no expression on
my face, but I knew it clearly.
I, Lin Qingluan, can’t let him go, Song Ce’an.
What marriage, all lie to him, I just want to see, I have forced him to this
, he is really able to walk away?
He came back, almost humble, I am distressed badly, but can not get over the heart.
I bit the back of my teeth. “Come here.”
Song Ce’an was a little confused by my attitude, but he still came over.
“Light..” Before
he had finished speaking, I grabbed his arm and pushed forward with my back to him, only to hear
a “bang” and Song Ce’an’s back hit the ground firmly. Sung Tse-an was stunned by my fall, and it took him a long time to come to his senses. He got up and seemed to look into my heart through my
eyes. Suddenly, he laughed. “Did you vent your anger?”.
“No.”
“Then fall again?”
“I can’t fall anymore.”
“That bite?”
His arm is sent to the door, there is no reason not to bite, I really did not show any mercy,
there is a smell of blood between the lips and teeth, he endured, silent. The feeling of unhappiness in
my heart suddenly disappeared. I pushed his arm away. “Save it for later
.”
“Later?” Song Ce’an’s voice trembled, and there was a suppressed light in his eyes. “You..”
“Sung Tse-an, I don’t like to lie to others, but you lied to me first.” I was generous when I
said it, and my eyes were red after I said it, but I was not ashamed at all
.
“Sorry.”
I turned my eyes away and said, “If you don’t come back today, I really don’t want you.” There is an element of
gambling, but it can be blocked. Also, I really don’t like the concealment in the name of love. Do you think you are great
? Or do you think I can’t take it with you? I was ready to be honest
with you, but you didn’t tell me anything.
“It’s easy to beat you. I should let Ah Heng call someone else’s father and make you angry to death.”
Song Ce’an had red eyes and seemed to be trying to suppress something. He came over and tried
to pull my sleeve. Seeing that I didn’t push him away, he pulled me into his arms.
“Sorry.”
My tears fell uncontrollably, as if I wanted to vent all
the grievances of the past days.
Song Ce’an did not stop me, but wiped my tears with heartache. When
I had cried enough, he asked, “Qingluan, will you forgive
me if I read to you for the rest of my life?”
I looked down at his sleeve, wet from my tears, and asked, “When?”
Starting to like me?
I asked this without thinking, but Song Ce’an still understood.
“Three years ago, at the Mid-Autumn Festival banquet, do you still remember
that you went to the wrong toilet?” Of course
I remember. It was so dark that I didn’t see it clearly at all. I rushed in. I saw a
man untying his belt. I said in my heart that if it got out, he would not be scolded to death by his parents, and his reputation
would be gone. I kicked him in. The way
I looked at Song Ce’an changed a little.
Song Ce’an did not know whether to laugh or cry. “I didn’t kick it in, but I was almost kicked by you.” Ahem.
Anyway, at that time, I remembered you. I had someone check it out, and only then did I know that you were Miss Lin Fu
. Later I was sent to the capital, and after I came back, I went to Lin Fu once, but you weren’t
there, and then it was about you and Gu Changqing. He was very disappointed when he
said this.
“Rumor has it that you knelt down for three days and nights to marry Changning. What happened?”
“It was the emperor’s brother who wanted to marry me, but I didn’t agree. I begged him to take back the imperial decree.”
I see.
“You have given me your men, and you are not afraid that I will not come back to save you.”
“That’s worth it.” Song Ce’an Road.
I sighed sadly, “I thought I had a strong appeal, and I succeeded in the
rebellion so quickly. So you planned most of it behind my back.”
“My Qingluan is still very powerful.” “I’m just the icing on the
cake,” Sung said softly.
“You’ve calculated so much, but why didn’t you think of yourself?” “I didn’t think you had me in your heart,” said Sung Tse-an, his pupils darkening slightly.
“I didn’t realize that you had me in your heart.”
“Sung Tse-an, previous marriages don’t count.”
“Whatever you say, it doesn’t count.”
“But you’ve given birth to all my children, and I’m going to marry you again. I’m losing face
.”
“Then I’ll tell the world that it was I, Sung Tse-an, who stalked you to death and wanted to marry you again
. Seeing that I was lonely and helpless, Miss Lin reluctantly agreed to accept me as a poor
man.”
“That’s more like it.”
I looked up at him and smiled. I grabbed his arm and stood on tiptoe slightly. Song Ce’an
seemed to know what I was going to do. He bent down, hugged me at the waist and covered me.
I ended up with him.
He hid it from me, and so did I?
Some things gradually become clear, in fact, he intentionally or unintentionally tested my feelings several times, but
I did not reveal anything, so that when I want to say, it is always inappropriate
. Song Ce’an and
I got married again. He is now the Prince Regent, and I am his Princess Regent. On the
wedding night, he went back to his room very early. We had a drink together. Under the candlelight, the shadowy
light hit him in the face. It was very beautiful.
“Sung Tse-an, could you have pushed me away the other time?” I
asked him with a smile.
What? I got drunk and slept with him? This is bullshit.
Sung Ce-an coughed, his eyes shining brightly. “I can’t push
it away,” he said cheekily. “Why don’t you try again?”
I was crushed under him, and he whispered in my ear, “May I have a heart.”
This happy event lasted until the next day. It was too tiring to be a princess for
him, so I decided to move in with Ah Heng.
One afternoon, when I woke up, I didn’t see Ah Heng. The servant girl said that the boy had gone to his father’s study
again, and the peony had gone to arrest him. When
I got to the study, the study was already tidied up. Before I went out, I caught a glimpse of a stack of paper on the table
with portraits on it.
I went over curiously. The girl in the portrait was smiling. Wasn’t it me?
I looked at them one by one, and they were all me. I climbed over the wall out of the Lin Mansion, I was punished by my father to kneel, I sighed in front of the window
, and I fed the fish by the lotus pond.
I didn’t know I had such a vivid time.
The paper is a little old, except for the small handprint
pressed by a boy who is not sensible, there are no other stains, and it is well preserved.
It turned out that he had loved me for so long before I knew it.
“What are you looking at?” When Sung Tse-an came in from the outside, he caught a glimpse of the painting in my hand and coughed softly
, “I just painted it.”
“Did you draw so much?”
Song Ce’an just laughed and did not speak.
I turned around and put my arms around his waist. “Sung Tse-an, there’s one thing I haven’t told
you.”
“What?”
“You have never been a substitute for anyone else.”
You are you, the only Song Ce’an.
