“Get off me when you’ve had enough!” Zhou Yue pulled me drunk onto
the sofa.
I lay down, squinting and blindfolded, unable to see his handsome eyebrows.
I only knew that he seemed to be red-eyed. He bent down and put his hands on both sides of me. He gnashed his teeth
and said,
“Lin Chengcheng, I’m not your spare tire!” On the day of breaking up
with Gu Heng, the rain was as heavy as the day
a girl asked her father for money. After more than half an hour of rain
on the roadside, Zhou Yue appeared.
I don’t know why he came here, I just thought, it’s good that it’s raining, otherwise if he
saw himself crying, he would laugh at me again. Just as I was about to say hello to him in a relaxed way, he pulled me into the car with a cold face,
threw a towel on me, and said coldly, “Didn’t I just get dumped and cry like
this?”
Wiping his face, I turned to look at his cold side face and quibbled, “Who’s crying
?”? This is rain!
He snorted and did not speak again. He looked ahead intently. The car was driving very steadily.
I held my breath and didn’t want to talk to him, so I turned my head and looked out of the window.
Soon I arrived at the place where he lived. After driving the car to the underground garage, he closed the door with a
“bang” and pulled me out without any movement. Pulling
all the way to his house.
As soon as he came in, he threw some clothes to me and pushed me to the bathroom: “Go to take a shower.”
I walked into the bathroom with clean clothes in my arms and closed the door with a bang.
The heart is aggrieved and sad, after turning on the shower, warm water rushed on the body, I squatted
against the wall crying in a low voice, mixed with the sound of water.
Before he could cry for a while, he heard the door of the bathroom being banged. Chou Yue’s voice came through the
door: “Lin Cheng-cheng, don’t cry in there. If you don’t come out in three minutes, I’ll break
in.”
Zhou Yue is so annoying! He dried himself quickly, put on his clothes, opened the door and went out. He didn’t see him.
After a few steps, he saw him skillfully cutting vegetables in the kitchen.
I was in a trance for a moment. Zhou Yue could cook this skill, as if it was because of me
. Still very sad
after all, I silently walked up behind him and looked at him, thinking for a long time and whispering
: “Zhou Yue..” Can you give him a call for me?
Gu Heng doesn’t answer my phone. Zhou Yue is his roommate. He always answers Zhou Yue’s phone. As soon as
the voice fell, I saw his hand cutting carrots, and then continued to cut them
until they were cut into small pieces and scattered into the rice cooker.
From beginning to end, he didn’t say a word. When
everything was done, he turned to look at me and chuckled, “Why?” When I heard this
, I blinked and choked. “Chou Yue, I beg you.”
As if exasperated, he was also red-eyed. He dragged me out of the kitchen and propped himself up against the wall
with one hand. He lowered his head slightly and said,
“Lin Chengcheng, you have to make it clear that Gu Heng is my rival in love with Zhou Yue. Why should I
help you contact him?” Tears fell from the corners
of my eyes, and I turned my face sideways and refused to speak.
A year ago, the day Zhou Yue expressed his love to me, I not only refused him, but also took a fancy to his roommate, Gu Heng, who helped
him decorate the scene.
Seeing me crying all the time, he scratched his short hair irritably, took out his cell phone, pressed it a few times and stuffed it into my hand. He turned around and went to the balcony, leaving only one sentence: “You just rely on me to like you.”. On the
phone, Gu Heng didn’t say much, but finally left a sentence: “Orange, I’m sorry.”
Then there is a busy signal. Holding my mobile phone,
I lowered my hand and looked up to see Zhou Yue leaning on the opposite sofa at an unknown time.
His eyes fell lightly on me and he said, “Have you given up?” He wiped his tears
at random, gave him his cell phone when he passed by, leaned back on the sofa and did not speak, and his tears could not stop flowing down. Chou Yue’s voice came to
my ears: “Lin Cheng-cheng, you’re crying in front of me because of another man. Don’t let me coax you!”
About ten minutes later, I fell asleep and heard Zhou Yue ask me to eat in a daze. My eyelids were too heavy to open and I had no strength to speak. In my
sleep, I felt someone touch my forehead and grumpily say “***!” He picked me up. The moment I
was put on the bed, I was startled. I opened my eyes and subconsciously asked, “Didn’t you say you wouldn’t coax me?”
He moved his hands lightly and uttered the words, “I owe you from a previous life!” Then I lost consciousness and had a serious illness.
But under Zhou Yue’s care, I not only came back to life with full blood, but also found a job. One night
a month later, because Zhou Yue had to work overtime, he asked me to take a taxi to go
back first. After entering the community, I shook the key in my hand and sent a message
to Zhou Yue, saying that I was home.
At the moment when the news was sent out, I stopped, stepped back and looked sideways
. There was a man sitting askew beside the green belt between the
two buildings.
Under the dim street lamp, I recognized the man at a glance, Gu Heng.
After thinking about it for a long time, I walked over, and before I got close, I smelled a strong smell of alcohol
. I
leaned over and patted him on the shoulder, but didn’t move. I crouched down and called out to him, “Gu Heng?” Only
then did I see his frowning brows clearly. After asking him for a long time, he mumbled out two
words: “Stomach pain.”
Then he leaned over as if he had lost his strength. I was stunned for a moment. I shook my fingers and decided
to take him to a nearby hospital. In the middle of the night, the
hospital was very deserted. When the doctor washed his stomach, Zhou Yue called.
I subconsciously lied to him that I had met a friend and would go back in half an hour. As soon as he hung up the phone, the doctor came out and scolded him, “Do you drink so much when you have stomach trouble?”? Little
girl, try to persuade your boyfriend.
Then he left without waiting for my reaction. I went into the ward and looked at Gu Heng, who was half asleep, and covered
him with a quilt, ready to leave.
When I turned around, he grabbed my wrist and I turned back.
His face was still pale and his voice was hoarse. “Thank you.”
Clenching my fingers, I pulled out my wrist and tried to keep my mood calm: “Give me your cell phone, I’ll call for
you.” She came here.
“No, you go back.” On the way
back, I suddenly recalled last Christmas, which was about the same
time.
Gu Heng left me alone on the road because of his ex-girlfriend. After walking in the snow for a long time
, he turned around and saw Zhou Yue. Twenty-four years of
childhood, my feelings for Zhou Yue are very complicated. I envy his excellence,
envy his willfulness, and thank him for his company.
Only like, I have never thought about it, so, when he confessed to me, I first
panicked, and then wanted to escape, so, in a variety of emotions, I fell in love
with Gu Heng, a person who is very similar to Zhou Yue, but not so similar. When I
got home, I found Zhou Yue sitting on the sofa all the time. I was slightly surprised: “Haven’t
you slept yet?”
He stood up and looked up at his wristwatch. “Fifteen minutes have passed since you said half an
hour.”
Then he leaned over to me and frowned. “Have you been drinking?”
I felt guilty for a while: “No, I didn’t drink, yes …” My friend drank it. Just as
he was about to speak, the cell phone on the tea table rang, and the caller ID was Qiao Yu, his
direct senior sister, who was now in the same company with him.
Seeing the familiar name, I deliberately ignored the strange feeling in my heart.
After tidying up, I lay in bed, but I couldn’t sleep.
Why insomnia? I can’t say clearly.
I finally fell asleep, but I had a dream all night, about Zhou Yue’s dream. In the
second year of junior high school, I had my first period, and it was all over my pants.
At that time, it was PE class. I just felt a pain in my lower abdomen. I sat aside and didn’t want to move, watching
other people play.
Zhou Yue was keenly aware that something was wrong with me. After helping me up, he was slightly stunned. He simply
took off his school uniform and wrapped it around me. He picked me up and ran to the infirmary. Later, every time I think of what happened at that time, I am so embarrassed that I want to dig a hole in
the ground.
The next morning, I was woken up by a pain in my lower abdomen. I was startled and ran to the bathroom. Sure
enough, my period came. I haven’t met Gu Heng since
that day, but I also know that he lives in the building next
door. On the day of
Zhou Yue’s overtime work, his other roommate just came to deliver something to him. After pouring a glass of water
for his roommate, he held the glass in his hand as if he had endured it for a long time and finally couldn’t help
it. “You..” he asked. Are you with Chou Yueh?
I shook my head. “No, I’m just staying here for a while.”
Later, he seemed to sigh and said a lot of things in a complicated tone.
For example, the night I refused Zhou Yue, he stayed alone in the playground all night. When
I confirmed the relationship with Gu Heng, he was drunk and unconscious, holding the trash can and crying. When
Gu Heng and I were together but entangled with his ex-girlfriend, he had a fight with Gu Heng. When
Gu Heng wanted to break up with me, he was still. Go to beg Gu Heng.
If I really pursue it, it seems that after I was with Gu Heng, Zhou Yue began to change.
He no longer appeared around me often, and no longer talked endlessly every time he met me
. Zhang Yang’s temper seems to have been restrained overnight.
I used to wonder if his transformation was because of me, but every time I thought about it, I
would subconsciously start to escape. At noon
on Tuesday, as soon as I got off work, Gu Heng appeared. He said he would invite me to dinner and thank
me for sending him to the hospital that day. In the
dining room, his first words were, “Me and her..” Not getting back together.
I didn’t quite understand what he meant. Holding the spoon in my hand, I turned my face sideways and looked at the pedestrians coming and going
outside the window. “Yes,” he replied
lightly.
For a long time, he spoke again: “Are you with Chou Yue?”
I frowned and felt a little uncomfortable. “Why should he be involved
in what happened between you and me?”
As if he didn’t see my dissatisfaction, he once again mentioned Chou Yue: “You and he haven’t been together for more than 20 years
, and in the future..” Not really, is it?
It was not until Gu Heng pulled my WeChat out of the blacklist and sent me an insignificant
message that I recalled the meaning of his words that day.
Looking at the messages, I really don’t know what to reply.
Gu Heng this person, I may have never really understood, that short love, is not
enough for me to know him. So when he appeared in front of me again and again, I didn’t think it
was just a coincidence.
I thought of a question I saw a long time ago:
“What is the psychology when you see your ex-boyfriend turn back?”
I just feel that the only trace of unwillingness in my heart has disappeared. The mobile phone on the
desk rang again, reminding me that WeChat had come in.
“Are you free on the weekend?” It’s from Gu Heng.
I still haven’t replied to his message. When I went back with Zhou Yue
in the evening, I found him standing downstairs in the community.
He stopped us and said he wanted to talk to me, but it was Zhou Yue who looked at him. “It’s not safe at night,
” Chou said directly.
“I’m asking Orange.” Gu Heng turned his eyes to me.
At the same time, Zhou Yue turned his face sideways and looked at me.
“Next time.” At the moment of
passing by, Gu Heng suddenly called out my name and said, “Thank you for taking me to the hospital that
night.” Suddenly, my heart a panic, the first time to look at Zhou Yue, he frowned, but
did not say anything.
I understand, even if Gu Heng did not say which day, Zhou Yue he should also know. I
know I lied to him.
But he didn’t mention later that I had cheated on him.
Before Qixi Festival, Zhou Yue worked overtime more and more frequently, until one night, he was sent back by his colleagues in a drunken state
.
Opening the door, the smell of alcohol came to my face. In my
memory, I haven’t seen
him drunk except when I heard his roommate say that he had been drunk until he was unconscious. After helping
the man onto the sofa, his colleague was about to leave. Before he left, he suddenly said
, “Chou Yue drank and went to the hospital before, er..” Sister-in-law, pay attention later. “
Sister-in-law?”?
Hospital?
I stopped him subconsciously and said, “Wait, why did he drink into the hospital?”? And why do you
call me sister-in-law?
The colleague scratched his head and said, “When he first joined the company, he worked very hard. It’s a common
thing to go to the hospital. In the last six months, he’s much better. Well, that..” Zhou, Zhou Yue said he had a future
girlfriend at home, didn’t he? I thought this was between you.. Taste.. I Thank you! After tidying up
for him, I couldn’t move him to the bed with my strength,
so I covered him with a quilt. After squatting
quietly for a while, he got up to go to bed when he suddenly grabbed my hand and opened
his eyes.
“Are you really not willing to give me a chance?”
Before I could react, he fell asleep again, breathing very
clearly in the silent night.
I didn’t think clearly about my feelings for him, so I was glad that he was drunk.
Unfortunately, although he didn’t mention it again, it made me so obsessed that I couldn’t concentrate on
anything. In this way,
I stayed up until the day of Tanabata. Ten minutes
before 6:30, I received a message
from Zhou Yue:
Come directly to the No.7 Milk Tea Shop on Huanyin Road after work.
He did not say what it was, inexplicably, I seemed to guess, and a certain
consciousness in my mind gradually became clear. As soon as the
time came, I immediately left with my bag. As soon as I left the company gate, I received a phone call from Gu Heng. He said he wanted to talk to me.
I refused him without thinking, but as soon as I hung up the phone, he appeared outside the company.
“Ten minutes. I only want ten minutes.” The broken hair was scattered in front of his forehead, and there was a plea in his eyes.
He pulled me to a venue where the Tanabata Festival was being held, and as soon as he opened his mouth, he mentioned the matter of getting back together.
I felt helpless and looked at him seriously: “It is true that you once liked her, and it is also true that I once liked you, and it is also true that I don’t like you now.”
Then I was going to leave. I just turned around and walked a few steps. Suddenly there was chaos behind me. I looked back and saw that a large advertising rack had fallen down and hit a group of people.
Gu Heng was among them, and because of my good luck, I just left that place and survived.
However, the wound in front of his shoulder made me sink down and take out my cell phone to send a message to Zhou Yue. After I sent
him to the hospital, I still didn’t get a reply. While calling him, I ran around to get the list. He didn’t answer any of the
outgoing calls.
When I threw the medicine to Gu Heng and was ready to leave, it was already more than ten o’clock. He stopped me and asked me if I was going to find Zhou Yue.
I didn’t look back. I just replied with a “yes” and pushed the door out.
The 40-minute journey dragged into more than hour because of taxi and traffic jam.
Arriving at the appointed place, it was still twenty minutes away from twelve o’clock. There were
very few people on the road. This Tanabata Festival was almost over.
Pushing open the door of the shop, it was still the familiar sound of bells and welcome.
Looking around, I saw a man sitting in the corner, breathing steadily, laughing and walking
up to him: “Chou Yue.” The
smile froze, and it was a completely strange face.
That night, I sat in the milk tea shop all night, but never received a message
or a phone call from Zhou Yue. When he asked for leave
the next day, Zhou Yue had already gone to work.
I slept for a while, ate something casually at noon, and took a taxi to his company.
I want to explain to him face to face.
By memory, I soon found the floor where he was.
Not far away, I saw him holding a teacup, I do not know what
to say to the opposite girl, the girl suddenly laughed, reached out and hit him. He bent slightly and pretended to be in pain, but his eyebrows and eyes were smiling.
At that moment, it seemed to coincide with him in high school, a little annoying, but not so annoying
.
Such a scene, I have experienced countless times, every time he was angry when he was beaten, he
would show a look of serious injury.
But now, standing in front of him, let him do this kind of behavior of the girl, is Qiao Yu.
A night’s time, but his whole person’s aura seems to have changed, changed back to
the original publicity and wanton, as if everything is in the eyes, and as if nothing is in the
eyes. The distance between
me and him seems to be getting bigger.
It was Qiao Yu who saw me first, and I looked carefully at his turning line of sight.
Without a trace of surprise, the smile at the corners of the mouth did not converge.
I walked over rather awkwardly.
You and Orange.. Are we together? Qiao Yu’s curious eyes flowed between me and him
.
His heart suddenly tightened, and his hand holding the paper cup tightened. Chou Yue’s careless
words came to his ear:
“No way, senior sister, I grew up with Chengcheng, and I always thought she was my sister
.” “Oh?”? So I still have a chance? She made a teasing remark and left.
Zhou Yue asked me what I had come here for.
“I went last night..”
“Then it looks like we missed it.” He chuckled, took out his phone and pressed it a few times,
and then my phone rang. What did you
miss?
His words made me uneasy for no reason, and I heard him say, “I called a taxi for you, and the license plate has just been issued to
you. Go back!”
Long fingers held the porcelain cup at will, and then he turned away. As I
looked at his tall figure, I felt flustered and blurted
out “Chou Yue.”.
When he turned around and looked at me doubtfully, I was stunned for a moment and said dryly
, “Thank you.” When I
got home, I sat on the sofa for a long time, uncontrollably recalling
the dribs and drabs of the past, and for the first time I had this idea:
Did he like me for many years? And not just from the year he confessed.
On Saturday, Zhou Yue said he was going to help Qiao Yu move. At first, I didn’t care. It was not until I
went to help that I found out that he had moved into our community. Coincidentally, he was on the same
floor with Gu Heng. More coincidentally, we were about to go to dinner when we met Gu Heng who had just gone out.
He was stunned for a moment, and then said he would invite us to dinner. I was about to refuse when I heard
Chou Yue chuckle: “There’s no need to invite three people just to invite one. Senior sister, let’s
go and eat.”
Apart from the few months I spent with Gu Heng, it was the first time that Gu Heng asked me out, but Zhou Yue
did not stop him in his presence. I
can’t describe how I felt at that time, as if my heart had slowed down.
That day, I did not eat, because my colleague suddenly called me and said that he urgently needed a document
, and I went back to send him the document. When
Zhou Yue came back, he brought me a dumpling. Lying on the tea table,
I had no appetite at all. For a long time, I turned my face sideways and looked at him sitting on the sofa
listening to the news. I asked, “Chou Yue, you..” Do you still like me?
He just leaned back on the sofa, holding the remote control in one hand, and looked at me with low eyebrows:
“Lin Chengcheng, do you think I am a robot?”? Ten years of love can be taken away, can’t
it? How long is
ten years?
A junior high school, a high school, and a whole university?
It turned out that he had liked me for so long in the years I didn’t know. Zhou Yue said that he still liked me, but he didn’t want to continue to like me.
Later, when he picked me up after work every day, Qiao Yu was always sitting in the co-pilot’s seat.
I slowly found that, comparatively speaking, he and Qiao Yu had more topics. Sometimes,
on the whole way, I couldn’t get a word in edgewise, because I didn’t know
what they were talking about.
Because of some emotions that I couldn’t control and couldn’t figure out, I told Zhou Yue not to pick me
up. He didn’t ask the reason and agreed directly.
I didn’t expect that he didn’t hesitate a little. As soon as I got out of the taxi and walked to the gate of the community
that day, I was stopped by Gu Heng.
Not surprisingly, I still want to get back together. There was a sudden sound of trumpets
behind him.
It was Zhou Yue. In the co-driver’s seat, it was still Qiao Yu. She waved to me with a smile.
The car slid smoothly past me, and Zhou Yue never looked this way from beginning to end.
Lin Chengcheng, did you see that? He doesn’t like you anymore!
I clenched my cell phone and looked up at his familiar eyes and eyebrows. “Gu Heng,
listen carefully. I don’t like you either.” When he returned home, Zhou Yue was washing vegetables in the kitchen.
I put down my things and leaned over the kitchen door. He has something to do with me.
Thinking for a long time, I did not say that Gu Heng was looking for me to get back together. The movement in
his hands did not stop, and he faintly spat out a “hmm.”. The words
lingering on my lips were finally swallowed by me.
About to eat, Qiao Yu came, Zhou Yue said he asked Qiao Yu to eat together.
Reflected in the bottom of my heart, it is indescribable sadness, so. I went back to my room after cooking
in two or three times. When he came out
again, Qiao Yu had already left and Zhou Yue was washing the dishes.
I walked up behind him, trying to say the words that had been repeated for a long time in my heart.
I stammered, “Zhou Yue, I, I seem to..” I like you..
But before he had finished speaking, he turned around, his long fingers covered with a little foam, and looked down
at me
with a half-smile? Lin Chengcheng, I don’t seem to have told you that I don’t have to be you
.
I think I was rejected.
Unlike when he was rejected when he expressed his love to Gu Heng, at that time, the more frustrated he was, the more brave he was. But now, I just want to find a place where no one is, stay quietly for a while, let some stuffy
heart breathe, slow down. Think about it
carefully, in the past days, Zhou Yue has been around me, now, he suddenly
stopped, I just feel so quiet.
I suddenly remembered the day of Tanabata. If I had arrived earlier that night, would it
not be like this.
That night, I had already thought about it. He expressed his love, and I agreed.
I didn’t know how to face Zhou Yue, so I went directly to the park
next to the community after work and prepared to go back later.
I do not know how long, Gu Heng appeared, his hands in his pockets, looking down at me
sitting on the park chair.
I was a little helpless and did not speak.
He crouched down and held my shoulder. “Orange, shall we start over?”
I felt very uncomfortable, and my mind was very confused. I wanted to break away, and kept stressing, “I don’t like
you anymore, Gu Heng, I don’t like you anymore!”
“It doesn’t matter. If you liked me at the beginning, you will like me again.”
“I won’t. I only liked you because you looked like him.” The moment I
shouted out, I was surprised myself. He let go of my shoulder and frowned. “What did you say?” He asked.
For Gu Heng, I really liked him.
Now, I really don’t like it.
He looks like Zhou Yue, but his aura is different. Zhou Yue is outgoing, while he is introverted
.
Zhou Yue’s wanton temper is what I’m afraid of. It’s too warm.
But then, everyone changed.
Without much explanation, I turned around and walked to the neighborhood. The moment the
elevator opened, I saw Zhou Yue holding Qiao Yu against the wall. The impact of
that scene was so strong that Qiao Yu called me several times before I slowly
reacted.
Qiao Yu said that Zhou Yue was drunk for her. After helping
him into the house, Qiao Yu explained a few words and went back first.
I packed up for him, squatted beside him, looked at his sleeping face, a pain in the heart, inexplicably
shed a few tears.
Originally do not know how to face him, now this is quite good, especially remember that day he
was drunk, took my hand and asked: really do not want to give a chance? Wiping away the tears from my eyes, I slowly grasped his hand and whispered, “I’m willing to give it now
. Is it too late?”
Then he still felt uncomfortable. Holding his finger, he leaned over the sofa and sobbed,
“Chou Yue, I don’t like Gu Heng anymore. I don’t like him anymore.”
I don’t want to be with him anymore. Zhou Yue. I want to be with you.. The fingers in his
hands were suddenly pulled away, and his low voice came to his ears:
“Then why should I wait for you in the same place?”
This time, he was sober.
A few days later, he went on a business trip with Qiao Yu, and I didn’t receive his message until I got home from work.
“I’ve been on a business trip with Qiao Yu for a few days, and I’m already on my way.”
I read this sentence over and over several times, retyped the words in the dialog box one
after another, and finally sent a message:
“Bon voyage.” In the days of
Zhou Yue’s absence, I went through it step by step as usual, except occasionally
staring at the empty room in a daze, everything was normal. WeChat dialog box was opened by me countless times, a sentence over and over again
, but not once sent out.
I don’t know how Zhou Yue and I got to where we are today. It seems that as long as he stops
, the distance between us is widening. In the early morning of
the weekend, I saw Gu
Heng standing there in the distance before I entered the corridor with my things.
He took a box in his hand, as if he had been waiting for me for a long time. When I came near, he handed it to
me and said with a smile, “Happy birthday!” Startled,
I didn’t answer. I lowered my head slightly. “Gu Heng, what
‘s the point of doing this?” “There’s no point,”
he said with a wry smile. “I just want to give you a birthday present.” I haven’t been
with him for a long time, and it just doesn’t cover my birthday, so it seems that
this is the first time he has given me a birthday gift.
I pushed down the elevator and went in, saying to him, “Go back.”
He suddenly put his hand on the elevator door and looked at me stubbornly. “At the beginning, you chased
me for six months.” Now, shall I come after you? Outside the
elevator, he was dressed in casual clothes, his broken hair drooped in front of his forehead, and his eyes were full of entreaties, which
I had never seen before.
Or maybe he had begged like that in front of another girl. I pulled my lips, looked him in the eye, and said, “No, according to what you
said, I have to chase Zhou Yue for ten years again.” As soon as
the voice fell, a familiar figure appeared at the corner of the corridor. A well-
cut iron-gray suit with a navy blue tie, holding the suitcase
lightly in one hand and putting the other in the pocket.
Zhou Yue smiled at me and said lightly, “There’s no need to chase. I’m with Qiao Yu
.”
It was the worst birthday I ever had, so much so that every birthday after that, I
can think of the feeling that my heart is suddenly empty.
I do not know how to go back, the whole person is still a little confused, after entering the door, I grabbed Zhou
Yue’s hand.
He turned around, and I looked at him and said, “You’re lying to me.”
Slowly pulling out his hand, he bent slightly and chuckled, “I never joke
about my feelings.”
When I froze, he took two steps and then turned around. “That’s right, happy birthday!”
Loosing the things in my hands, I ran out like running away. When
Zhou Yue called, it was already evening, and I sat in the milk tea shop all
day. His words kept echoing in his mind: “There’s no need to chase, I’m with Qiao Yu
.”
Finally, it turns into a sharp blade and goes deep into the heart. When I broke up
with Gu Heng, I was sad, thinking that I must find him to make it clear, but now,
I feel a pain in my heart, so painful that I can hardly bear it, I have to find something to suppress the
pain.
Chou Yue said on the phone, “Lin Cheng-cheng, I’ve found a new house for you, and you can move in a few days
.”
See? He’s gonna kick me out of his world. I wandered
outside for a long time before I went back, but the man who would always wait for me in the living room
no matter how late I came back disappeared.
Lying in bed, my head is a little dizzy, and the memories of the past decades are constantly surging.
My heart was so tight that it was hard for me to breathe. I
didn’t know what to do, so I ran to the living room and dug out a bottle of red wine and took a big drink. It
shouldn’t hurt when you’re drunk.
But I had never drunk before, and I drank a big mouthful, and I didn’t eat anything all day, and
my stomach cramped, and I stumbled into the bathroom to vomit, but I couldn’t vomit anything. There was a lot of
noise. Zhou Yue stood outside the door in his pajamas and asked me what I was doing. My brain is very hot, a little dizzy, but I still have some of my own consciousness. After waving my hand
at him, I threw myself unsteadily on the sofa and mumbled
, “It’s all right.” I didn’t hear him speak for
a long time, so I buried my face on the sofa and cried secretly.
He suddenly grabbed my arm and pulled me to sit up. He looked at
me with displeasure. “Lin Chengcheng, what are you doing?” The tone of
his voice pulled up my grievance buried in the bottom of my heart, and I lowered my head
and wept silently.
Seeing that I did not speak, he sat beside me for a long time and said with self-mockery,
“You know the kind of …” Sleepless all night, unable to control the memory of the past, it
is not easy to fall asleep, but soon suddenly woke up, subconsciously picked up the phone.
I wanted to send a message, but I didn’t finish before I remembered that I had lost it. Do you feel that way?
His voice grew hoarse. With tears in my eyes, I turned to him and saw that his eyes were slightly red and
his lips were slightly hooked. “Oh, no, I’ve never had it, so how can I call it lost?” The fingers
hanging on the outside of the sofa were slightly cool and numb, and the head became more and more dizzy.
I couldn’t think about a long paragraph of his words, but I felt that the more he said, the more
my heart hurt, like being torn open and then slowly retracted.
“Sorry.” I opened my mouth and could only say these three words feebly.
“Lin Chengcheng, I’m only nice to you because I like you. Since you couldn’t respond at the beginning, let’s stop here.” He said and stood up to leave.
I stood up in a panic, but he fell on the sofa because my head was dizzy. Clutching
his clothes, I looked him in the eye and asked, “Are you really..” Do you like her?
He pinched my wrist and pulled me away. “I can’t give her all my love right now, but I will give her absolute loyalty, Lin.”
“Don’t say it.” I interrupted him by covering my ears. I squatted beside the sofa and wept. I raised my face and asked, “What if I don’t want to?”
I know my behavior is wrong, I also know that I do not let go of the appearance must be very ugly, but I really do not want, I do not want him to leave.
Zhou Yue took a few tissues and handed them to me, then pulled me up and stood face to face with him.
He stepped back, raised his eyebrows and asked, “Lin Chengcheng, no matter how much I liked you at the beginning, I never thought of getting involved with you and him. Now you..” Do you want to be an interloper? The fingers
holding the tissue suddenly tightened, and I looked at him and felt so miserable for the first time.
Zhou Yue found me a house in the neighborhood next door, and Qiao Yu came to help me on the day of moving. It is said that even friends will not be able to do after breaking up. Even if Zhou Yue and I have not been together
, we may not be able to do friends. The
moral and emotional tear makes me very painful. When
they left, I lay on the door and laughed to say goodbye, watching Zhou Yue’s hand gently
put on the back of Qiao Yu’s head, this familiar action almost forced me to tears.
My brain seems to be stuffed with cotton, and I become dull to everything.
As a result, I forgot to bring my coat to work the next day. As a
result, he woke up with a fever at night.
I staggered to find the antipyretic and took it.
Warm water into the mouth feel a little cold, the mobile phone shows the time is 2:23, the whole city
is still sleeping.
Leaning on the bed, I lost sleep and watched the time go by.
Those memories buried in the deepest place rush out crazily at night. Zhou Yue took me to buy a popsicle in
elementary school, he carried me to the clinic in junior high school, then
told me to write a love letter in high school, and finally stayed at the sports meeting in college. In the sports meeting of
freshman year, under the instigation of the monitor, I took part in the women’s 3000 meters. On the day of the
race, even though the whole playground was ringing repeatedly, “Don’t run.” Zhou Yue still stubbornly followed me and accompanied me to finish the three thousand meters.
Later, I was the first to reach the finish line, but I turned around and lost his figure. I felt a sudden panic in my
heart, and before I could call his name, the alarm rang suddenly, and I was
awakened.
It’s half past six.
The body is sticky sweat, into the bathroom, standing in front of the mirror, I can see that my face is full
of dry tears.
Days will not stop because of these trifles, Gu Heng did not come to me again.
If breaking up with Gu Heng made me make a lot of noise, then Zhou Yue’s girlfriend
directly made me lose all my strength. No interest in
doing anything, no taste in eating, no strength in limbs, lying in
bed but unable to sleep, as long as I close my eyes, I feel trapped in a strange black
hole, feeling boundless despair. A knife should have been stabbed in the
heart, otherwise how could it hurt so much? From inside to
outside, the pain needs to be relieved by breathing.
Consciousness still exists, and the body seems not to be its own.
As long as I think that he has a girlfriend and will marry and have children with her in the future, I think
that he will slowly leave my world until the whole person disappears in my life.
The heart keeps falling, falling, but never touching the bottom. I’m not a rational person, but I’ve never been so flustered, but now I don’t know
what to do.
Later, the pain became more and more acute. I don’t know when it will be better, and I don’t
know if it will be better. During the weekend
, Zhou Yue came. At that time, I had been lying by the window in a daze for a long time. I wiped my
tears and opened the door to see him.
He said that his mother had sent some handmade food and asked him to send some to me. Holding the door in one hand,
I looked up slightly at his handsome eyebrows and eyes, and tears
flowed out uncontrollably. He
took what was in his hand and quickly turned his face sideways to avoid his sight and said, “Thank you.
Go back.” Instead of leaving,
he gave me a bowl of noodles. It took
me all my strength to crack a smile: “Thank you.”
The noodles were still a little hot, and the heat made me cry again, so I lowered my head and blew
slowly.
“Eat well and don’t let your mother worry.” He pulled out his chair and sat down opposite me. The hand
holding the chopsticks trembled a little, and for a long time, I said “hmm” in a nasal voice. His
bony fingers rested on the table and he did not speak again.
I tried to control my emotions and hold back my tears for a long time. Then I slowly raised my head, looked at him, and said again in a steady voice, “That night, I went.” On the night of
Chinese Valentine’s Day, I went there.
He slanted his head slightly and stared at my face with a pair of deep eyes. “I told you, we missed it.” My
lower lip was bitten by me. I didn’t dare to open my mouth again. I was afraid that I would cry when I opened my mouth. I lowered my head and continued to eat noodles. I went
that night, and that night, I wanted to be with him.
Finally, I ate with tears streaming down my face and said sorry to him with sobs.
“Feelings are never importuned. You don’t have to say sorry.” He took some tissues and put them in front of me.
I held the bowl and shook my head: “I’m sorry, I didn’t find out I liked you in time, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have squandered your love, I’m sorry, I was late that night, I’m sorry..” Zhou Yue, I’m sorry..
My throat was so sore that I couldn’t speak. I finally broke down and cried. I tried to reach out and grab his hand, but I stopped in the middle. There were voices in my head. It was inappropriate to do so. I didn’t know what to do.
He turned his face to the side, pressed his lips tightly, and after a while turned his head to look at me. His eyes were a little red, his fingers moved slightly, and he smiled. Lin Cheng-cheng, I’m with Qiao Yu.
No matter how I escape, I can’t change the fact that he and Qiao Yu are together, just as no matter how I apologize, I can’t change the fact that I have hurt him.
Tears kept falling down, I nodded vigorously: “I know, I know, you and Qiao Yu together, I … …” I’m not trying to get in your way, I’m just.. I
I’m just too uncomfortable. My heart hurts too much. I don’t know how to relieve it.
He took a deep breath, picked up a tissue and bent slightly to wipe my eyes carefully. “It hurts, doesn’t it?”? Maybe time will smooth it out. The tears
he wiped away almost came out again because of this sentence.
I don’t know how deep the wound is, but it probably won’t heal. The knife is invisible, and the pain is real.
Before he left, he told me to have a good meal.
I rushed out of the door and called to him, trying to catch the last glimmer of hope: “Chou Yue, did you want to.. that night?”
“Lin Cheng Cheng.” He put his windbreaker on his forearm and stood outside the elevator and turned to look at me. It doesn’t matter. After
he left, I spent the night on the sofa, and the best way I could think of was to stop crossing paths with him. So on the day of the Mid-Autumn Festival, I didn’t go back with him. I asked for leave
and went home the day before.
The next day, I learned from my mother that he had something to do temporarily and would not come back.
I said “Oh” in a daze.
But the man who said he would not come back was met by me when I went downstairs to take out the garbage at night.
He was dressed in casual clothes, his face was tired, but he was very patient to reply to the person on the other side of the phone
.
I tightened my hand with the garbage bag, stood up subconsciously and watched him hang up the phone.
“Take out the trash?” He asked, his head slightly lowered, his voice a little hoarse.
I nodded, opened my mouth, and said, “You go up first.”
However, when I threw the classified garbage into the trash can and came back after
walking around the community, Zhou Yue was still standing in front of the elevator.
Knowing there was no escape, I walked over to him and, somewhat embarrassed, asked, “Is
the elevator broken?” With one hand on the suitcase and the other pressing the elevator button,
he said blandly, “It’s not broken.
I’m waiting for you.”
My heart suddenly shrank, bringing up a burst of pain. I pulled my lips and said, pretending to be relaxed,
“I won’t need it next time.” The habit of waiting for me to get on the elevator together probably started in elementary school. Lying in bed
at night, when I was still thinking about whether I had shown any emotions that I shouldn’t have shown
in front of Zhou Yue, I brushed Qiao Yu’s circle of friends WeChat.
Simple pictures and texts.
The picture is a hand-in-hand photo.
The text is: look back suddenly.
Instantly depressed, I turned off my cell phone, my head seemed to be stuffed with a ball of cotton,
unable to think, can only keep recalling the circle of friends just now.
In all senses, Zhou Yue and I have never held hands. Put
your wrists on your closed eyes and let your tears soak, um. The heart is still very
painful, looming.
The next day, when I was holding ice cubes on my eyes, my mother suddenly asked me to send a box of moon cakes to Zhou
Yue’s house. After
standing helplessly in front of the mirror for a long time of psychological construction, I picked up the box of moon cakes
and knocked on his door. It was Zhou Yue’s mother who
opened the door. Before I could say anything, she pulled me
in enthusiastically. While washing his hands,
he shouted, “Chou Yue, the orange is coming.” Almost as soon as the words fell, he took two steps with his toothbrush in his mouth and said hello. After
his mother muttered discontentedly, she asked me to wait for Zhou Yue here. She had something to go
out. Holding the teacup,
I was really restless.
Fortunately, Zhou Yue soon came out with a glass of water and pajamas, his hair still a little
messy.
I immediately stood up and said, “That..” My mother asked me to deliver the moon cakes, so I, I’ll go
back first.
He nodded and sat casually on the sofa.
At the moment I put my hand on the doorknob, I lowered my head and shook it. I turned around and walked to his side
again. I hesitated for a moment before I said,
“I know from my mother that they and my uncle and aunt misunderstood that we were together.
You..” Tell them clearly.
He held the cup in his hand and looked up at me. His voice was still a little hoarse. “Good.”
My heart relaxed, and the corners of my eyes turned sour. I blinked and said, “Thank
you.”
“Thank me?”
I clenched my fingers at my side, tried to keep my voice steady, and nodded heavily. “Well, thank you for liking me and being with me all the time. You are so good to me.
You are so excellent. You deserve better.” With a sore throat, I paused and turned my face
sideways to hold back the tears.
“I used to see you as a competitor, but I was so bad that I never beat
you. No matter what I did, I was always a little bit behind you..” I reached out to wipe away my tears.
“Zhou Yue, I’m sorry I didn’t realize I liked you earlier.”
Still unable to control my sobs, I saw him staring straight ahead and not speaking. I lowered
my head and watched the tears fall down. The words “Chou Yue, I like you” were never uttered
.
I know that the inopportune love will become his trouble. After coughing
lightly, I steadied myself and finally said, “Bless you and Qiao Yu.” Then I
turned to open the door.
As soon as he opened the door, he chuckled, “You beat
me at blessing each other.” The calendar on the
desk was turned over one by one, and finally stayed on November 18
. After
counting the days, Zhou Yue and I haven’t been in touch for about two
months since we came back from the Mid-Autumn Festival.
Although I am not an ex, it can be said that as a qualified childhood friend, I have tried my best not to disturb.
I finally realized what he had said. I can’t sleep
all night, and when I fall asleep, I suddenly wake up, and I suddenly remember that I can’t send the message. When the
design project is successful, I want to share the joy, but I will hang up one second before the phone is dialed. When the design draft that has been
revised countless times fails, the idea of asking him for help will be pinched out as soon as it sprouts.
I don’t know if I’m doing well or not. I can only keep controlling my feelings.
Looking back, my whole heart seemed numb, my response to pain was no longer so sensitive, and at the same time. Also lost the ability to like people. Today
next month is Zhou Yue’s birthday. I used to prepare gifts one month in advance.
On the other hand, I really had a bad birthday this year, and it was the only birthday that I didn’t receive his gift. It was really bad.
Just as I was looking through the window and wondering if it was appropriate to give a gift and whether it was appropriate to give a gift now, I saw Qiao Yu.
She was accompanied by a tall and thin boy. The boy was holding hands with her. Surprised at the same time,
I subconsciously avoided her line of sight and walked aside.
This scene makes me extremely uncomfortable, but I can’t say what mood it is.
Because of this matter, I finally stopped losing sleep again. What is
her relationship with that boy? Isn’t
she with Zhou Yue?
Does Zhou Yue know? Should I tell Zhou Yue if I
don’t know? What position should
I take to tell Zhou Yue?
……
There are so many questions that almost fill my whole spare time.
Intellectually, I can tell myself that no matter what, it’s none of my business.
But emotionally, it is constantly reminded that this is related to Zhou Yue.
People’s hearts cannot be controlled.
Fortunately, before I was about to compromise my feelings, Qiao Yu contacted me, and she was waiting for me directly
downstairs in our company. At that time, it was the end of November, and she wore a coffee windbreaker, with her long hair slightly curled behind
her, which was simple and temperamental. When she saw
me, she was still smiling. In the
restaurant, she naturally ordered my favorite flavor.
I’m a little surprised that I’m not familiar enough with her to let her know my preferences
.
“You saw it the other day!” She pushed the cup in front of me and was straightforward.
In an instant, I knew why she came to me.
See her generous appearance, but it seems that I am narrow, perhaps that boy is
just her. Where’s my brother? Or what relatives? When I
think about it, I suddenly feel a little embarrassed.
“I thought you would tell Chou Yue, but I never heard Chou Yue mention it. I guess
you didn’t tell him.” She suddenly laughed as she spoke.
I said in a low voice, “Right?”
“It was my boyfriend that you saw the other day.” The
hand poking the ball stopped, and I suddenly looked up at her.
Qiao Yu said without a care, “Chou Yue likes you so much, how can I like
him?”
Seemingly seeing what I was thinking, she chuckled, “Don’t worry, he didn’t lie to you. I did spend time with him. Of course, he didn’t mess with me. He’s my boy..” He’s back.
Qiao Yu said that it was she who proposed to be with Zhou Yue. What
she thought at that time was that since Zhou Yue had people who loved but could not, and she also had people who loved but could not, it would be better to borrow each other to forget that person.
But the result is.. In just a few weeks, under the unconscious influence of Zhou Yue, she knew almost all my preferences. After she had finished,
I asked in puzzlement, “Love but can’t?”
The answer was, “Lin Chengcheng, you need to find out whether you really like Chou Yue or whether you don’t want him to be with another girl. To be fair, you should be fair to him.”
Before she left, she took out a bag of familiar candy and put it in front of me. “The person I like is much better than Chou Yue,” she said with a proud smile.
Gently tear open the packaging bag, it is still sour to want to shed tears of lemon flavor.
The phone repeated countless times between unlocking and locking the screen, and my eyes were a little sour. I don’t understand why it’s so hard to believe that I like Zhou Yue? How can
I prove that I am sad and painful, not because I am unwilling to be with other girls, but because. Because by the time I realized I liked him, he had already given up? Like him, just because he is Zhou Yue. The consequence of
restraint is that they dare not say what they like easily, for fear that their likes
are not precious enough.
I began to doubt myself, is not even like Zhou Yue this behavior, I do not
deserve? There were some problems with the plan
on Friday night, and after it was handled, it was already past nine o’clock. When I
went downstairs, I found it was drizzling outside.
I called a taxi and devilishly reported the address where Zhou Yue lived.
Later, I did not go in, but stood by the roadside, looking at the lit study, until my fingers
were numb with cold, and then walked back along the road.
The next afternoon, I received a phone call from Zhou Yue’s mother. She cried on the
phone, saying that Zhou Yue’s cell phone had been
unanswered since last night, which would never happen in the past, and asked me if I could contact Zhou
Yue last week.
I picked up the key and went out. I went to his house
as fast as I could, and when I was about to give up, he opened
the door.
So far, it was the first time I had seen him so weak, extremely pale, frowning, and wearing beige pajamas.
Seeing that it was me, he did not speak, but turned around and sat down on the sofa, holding his forehead with one hand.
I changed my shoes and went to his side. “Chou Yue, you’re sick. Let’s go to the hospital.”
“I’m fine.” The opening voice was extremely hoarse.
Seeing that he was about to faint, I called his mother back first, and then asked him to go to the hospital again.
He still refused and lay down on the sofa.
I was so angry that my heart was throbbing, but I had no choice but to take the quilt out of his room and cover it on him, but he was too hot to cover it.
Holding the quilt hand tightened, I suddenly remembered myself, is not a sick person, will be like this. After
feeding him antipyretics, he still had no tendency to improve, but I called 120. At about two o’clock in the
night, he woke up, and I fell asleep on the edge of the bed, and when he moved, I was awakened.
Just as I was about to ask him how he was, I found that he was half-open, not fully awake, and soon fell asleep again. I sat in my chair, unable to fall asleep again. In the dim light, the shadows of his eyelashes were reflected under
his eyelids.
I lowered my head and gently put my hand on his hand, but when his knuckles moved slightly, I immediately withdrew my
hand.
The doctor said that he had a severe fever and needed to be hospitalized for another night. I met Gu Heng when I
went back to get him a change of clothes. He was
wearing sports clothes and his forehead was full of sweat. He should have come back from running in the morning.
Seeing me, he frowned and asked me what had happened, looking down at my
feet.
“Uh..” Chou Yue was ill, and I left in such a hurry that I forgot to change my shoes. I carried the bag
and looked at the slippers on my feet, a little embarrassed.
He turned to me with a self-deprecating smile and said, “Didn’t you have breakfast? Let’s go together
. Just in time to bring him one.”
Because of the last sentence, I said yes. I
was still worried about Zhou Yue, and I had no appetite, so I drank a bowl of porridge casually.
Gu Heng peeled the boiled egg and said, “Lin Chengcheng, do you hate me?”
I couldn’t understand why he asked. I shook my head. “Why should I hate you?”
“Because I left you for her.” He lowered his voice and didn’t look at me. I carefully packed the porridge I bought for Zhou Yue. You just don’t like me. Why
should I hate you? I don’t like you either. Do you hate me? When they
went out together, he put his hands in his pockets and turned sideways with his head slightly lowered. “You were so straightforward when you were
chasing me.” As
I looked for the taxi, I gave him a strange look, and finally, in the
sound of a whistle, I heard the second half of his sentence.
Now.. How careful you are! When he
arrived at the hospital, Zhou Yuegang woke up and sent messages on his mobile phone, which should be a matter of
work.
I opened the porridge: “Yes …” Shall we eat first? The moment the
words fell, I suddenly remembered Gu Heng’s words before, I am now. How careful
you are!
I don’t seem to know.. How to get along with Zhou Yue.
He took the porridge and said, “Thank you.”
All day long, we didn’t say a few words, and our hearts were like being soaked in water, so heavy
that we couldn’t breathe.
Later, I asked the question that had been bothering me.
Why.. You didn’t answer my phone that night? It was only when I thought he wouldn’t answer that I heard his hoarse voice: “Lin Chengcheng,
how long have I been waiting for you?”
I lowered my head, dared not speak again, blinked, and let the tears slowly dissipate.
He said, how long have you been waiting for me?
I realized that he had been waiting for me for a long time, so.. I don’t want to wait any longer. With an uncontrollable pain in my
heart, I stood up and asked the nurse what I needed to pay
attention to.
Out of the ward, tears could not stop falling down, so I had to go to the window to blow the cold wind. He was supposed
to stay another night, but at his strong request, he was discharged from the hospital. When I
got home, I prepared food and medicine for him. After
changing my shoes, I put my hand on the doorknob, turned around and looked at him and shouted, “Chou
Yue..”
He held the glass and looked down at me with deep eyes.
After a while, I suppressed the pain in my heart and said, “Take the medicine well. Don’t let Auntie
worry.”
Is it true that if you are rejected too much, you will become timid? I dare not say I like it easily
. Just a week after I couldn’t get my spirits up, my colleague seemed to hesitate for a long
time before asking me what was wrong. Grasping the blueprint in my hand,
I sighed: “The design draft is always not good.”
She saw at a glance that I was lying. She broke off my body and said solemnly, “Come on, sister,
tell your sister what happened.” Seeing that she was not very reliable,
I covered my face and said vaguely, “I dare not
express my love.” After
a moment of silence, I put down my hand and glanced at her with a thoughtful face.
“Drink, yes, drink!” She spoke with great certainty.
Drink.. Wine?
“Wine strengthens the heart of a coward!” After
work, my colleague said that it is better to hit the sun than to choose a day. Let’s do it today!
So I went to Zhou Yue’s house with my colleagues and red wine.
But in the end, I was afraid and wanted to run away, but my colleagues didn’t allow it.
Later, at the urging of my colleagues, I stood in front of the door and drank several
mouthfuls in a panic.
Then the colleague rang the doorbell quickly and ran to the stairway. I watched Zhou Yue open the door in a daze, and he looked at the red
wine in my hand.
“I..” I subconsciously wanted to say I didn’t drink, but the evidence was on my hands and face.
After a few steps, I felt that the staying power of the red wine came up.
Zhou Yue should have just taken a bath, wearing a bathrobe, with a faint scent.
I carefully placed the bottle on the coffee table, trying to keep myself awake, but I was still
dizzy.
Watching Zhou Yue’s figure turned into several, he always wanted to sleep.
Chagrin just did not control the amount, drink too much.
He poured me a cup of warm water, but I didn’t answer it. I frowned and pushed him down on the sofa
.
Water was shaken out of the glass, and he held the glass slowly on the ground. After pushing
him down.. I didn’t know what to do later. When I saw that he was going to get up, I
was anxious to lie on him and grab his clothes to prevent him from getting up. I
don’t know how long it took me to see his Adam’s apple move up and down, and he said in a hoarse voice,
“If you’ve had enough, get off me!” Then he pulled me
drunk onto the sofa. I took advantage of the opportunity to lie down, squinting my eyes, unable to see his handsome eyebrows, my head was dizzy
, and I simply bit my lips hard to keep myself awake.
He seemed to have red eyes. He bent down and put his hands on my sides. He gnashed his teeth and said,
“Lin Chengcheng, I’m not your spare tire!”
Perhaps it was because of the courage of drinking that I retorted loudly: “I never treated you as a spare
tire!”
The voice was so loud that my eyes were wet in an instant, but I didn’t want to cry in front of him. After a moment of
confrontation, I grabbed his clothes and asked in a choking voice, “Chou Yue,
I..”
According to the recollections of my colleagues, I suddenly came out of Zhou Yue’s house with a very calm look that night and went directly
to the elevator.
She was late and took the next elevator.
When she found me, I was crying in the bathroom of a supermarket downstairs, tearing my heart
out and howling loudly.
Why is it like this? I I didn’t mean to. I didn’t treat him as a spare
tire. Why didn’t he believe that I liked him? I’m in pain, my whole body hurts..
She said that Zhou Yue had been standing outside the bathroom at that time, so powerful that she dared not approach, and
her eyes seemed to be soaked in blood.
She tried to pull me out, but I held the door until I cried myself to sleep. Zhou Yue came in and carried me out, dressed me and sent me home.
Speaking of it, I don’t remember what happened that night. I just
had a dream about Zhou Yue. When I woke up, I found that everything was just a dream. I cried on the bed
for a long time, and my heart hurt. He wiped his face
at random and opened the door to find Zhou Yue sitting on the sofa in the living room. There is porridge and warm water on the
table.
I was stupefied and then lowered my head. He put his hands around his chest and approached me. “Are you afraid of me
?”
Maybe it’s.. Humble, too humble to face, too humble to confess, the fear hidden in my heart
almost broke me down. Break up
with Gu Heng can also be cured after a serious illness, now, I may have no
medicine stone.
He pinched my chin and forced me to look up. His thumb gently scraped the tears on my face. “You
said you had never beaten me since you were a child.” And now? Do you realize that I, Chou
Yueh, have always been a loser in front of you, Lin Cheng-cheng?
Breaking his hand, I shook my head with tears in my eyes and denied: “No, no, Zhou Yue, you
are so excellent and so powerful.”
My throat hurt like a knife, and I was a little incoherent.
Awesome? So what if it’s awesome? You don’t like it yet? “I..” He pressed his index finger gently on my lips and interrupted me: “I used to
want you to say what you like directly, but now …” I think it’s better to express it in
action.
I was a little confused, and countless pictures flashed through my mind, and then. I took
his hand carefully. Stunned,
he took hold of my hand and raised it. He seemed to laugh angrily. “What
are you holding hands for?”? Kiss me!
In my twenty-four years of life, after junior high school, I haven’t even kissed
my parents, let alone the opposite sex, so..
Besides, we’re not together yet.
Finally, he let me wash my face, and I brushed my teeth and washed my face all the way. When I came out
again, not only Zhou Yue disappeared, but also the water and porridge on the table disappeared. Almost
instantly, my whole heart fell down and my hands and feet quickly became cold.
Just now. Is it a hallucination?
I collapsed on the ground, sobbing on my knees.
“Tears are free, but they don’t have to flow out like this.” A familiar voice sounded in my ears
.
I looked up suddenly, and the next moment, I stood up and threw myself on him and kissed him heavily
on the cheek.
As I stepped down, he put his hand directly around my waist and kissed me on the lips. I was so frightened that I didn’t dare to breathe, so I held my breath. After a long time, he let go and said in a hoarse voice, “Are you going to suffocate yourself to death?”
I looked at him for a long time, then my eyes were red and I asked him uneasily, “Who are you?” Have you promised to be with me?
He put out his thumb to wipe the corner of my eye and sneered, “I’ve already lost, don’t you think?”
(End)
