On the night of the
graduation farewell dinner, he hugged his new girlfriend, the campus beauty, and everyone around him was heckling
, asking him to introduce a partner to my childhood sweetheart.
He glanced at me sitting in the corner and said to his group of friends, “She’s a big
fool with a face that people owe her money. Who wants her?”.
I shrank myself into the shadows, afraid that others would see my suppressed tears.
Ugly women are not qualified to cry, which is the first
lesson I learned when I became a childhood sweetheart with him. When I met
Zhong Shan, I was just nine years old.
My parents came to this city because of job transfer, and my family and his family became neighbors. When
my mother took me to know him, I stood behind her timidly and looked at the
beautiful and arrogant boy in front of me. He
wanted to get close to him and instinctively felt dangerous.
Finally, trembling, I reached out my hand and handed him the peach-flavored lollipop that I was reluctant to eat. He knocked the lollipop away and shouted to his mother, “I don’t want to play with this big fool!”
This was the first name he gave me, and I seldom heard him call my name for more than ten years.
He never called me well, always gave me all kinds of humorous names, and before I was completely silent, he would pretend to be angry and call my name and order me to do all kinds of things for him. And I always fall for it.
With my father’s height, when other girls were small and delicate sparrows, I had become the conspicuous and clumsy owl in the sparrow group.
And because I transferred to another school with my parents, I stayed one more grade.
Girls grow up earlier than boys, and I’m always the one who looks the most abrupt in a group of children.
But my height didn’t protect me. The girl who
looks silent, cowardly and so abrupt is naturally like a sandbag.
But when I was blocked by a group of boys and girls in the school toilet and they poured coke on my head, Zhong Shan rushed in.
I had never seen him like that before. He was like a crazy little beast with red eyes. He beat him up, including the girls. On the way
home, I wept silently behind him, my wet hair lying on my scalp, sticky and disgusting.
Chung Shan stopped, turned around, and looked up at me. “Don’t cry. Ugly women are not qualified to cry. Don’t you know that?”
I covered my mouth.
It was probably because of this “life-saving grace” that I developed the same kind of nostalgia for Zhong Shan that a young bird has for its mother. Before I
realized what I liked, I was already full of his shadow. Over
the years, when he dated girls, I booked restaurants for him; when he took his sister skiing, I booked venues for him; even when he went to open a room with the campus beauty, I paid the deposit. When I was introduced
to others, he would always put his arm around my shoulder and say, “This is my best friend of more than ten years, Guan Ju.”
He has already grown taller than me, a head taller. My height of 176cm can also look up at his chin line and sharp and beautiful eyebrows.
But at this point I can only try to straighten my back and smile at people and say, “Yes, I’ve known him for more than ten years.”
I have liked him for more than ten years. Zhong Shan and
I both stayed at the local university. On the first day of school, I helped him pack his luggage before returning to his dormitory to start tidying up.
When someone pushed the door and came in, I looked up and saw that it was his campus beauty girlfriend.
Zhong Shan never said that his girlfriend also went to the same university with us, and he seldom even said anything about her. I thought the campus beauty would automatically update to the next one after a period of time, just like his previous girlfriends.
Unexpectedly, they went to the same university, so does this mean that he is going to settle down with her? Before
I could think about it, the campus beauty’s cell phone rang suddenly. When she picked up the phone, she had a sweet face and spoke in a coquettish tone, with the unique tenderness of a southern girl.
I realized that the opposite was Zhong Shan.
As if I had seen some secret, I turned over my clothes in a panic, and then pretended to go to wash my clothes and pushed the door out. The moment I
closed the door, I heard the voice of Zhong Shan on the opposite side of the phone, between deep and clear, because across the mobile phone, it was more sexy, the sexy of young people.
He said, “Shall I take you to dinner?”
Then he chuckled. I have stayed outside the door.
I have never heard him speak to his girlfriend in this tone. Those girlfriends in
his past, either like me, took care of his mood from beginning to end,
or the young lady’s temper must have been completely broken down with him in the end. At this moment,
I realized very clearly that he was serious.
“He’s serious, Guan Ju.” I said to myself. There was a sudden spasm in my
heart, like an electric shock, and colic filled my chest
.
I crouched down and buried my head in my knees. It’s not that I haven’t considered giving him up in the
past so many years. Before
he became the sea king, one summer, he fell
in love with a girl for the first time, or secretly.
He would silently put her favorite drink in her drawer and bring her breakfast,
which was wrapped in her clothes for fear of getting cold. And that’s what I did to
him in the past. For the first time,
I said to myself, put him down.
But I can’t. Since I was brought out of the toilet by him when I was nine years old, it seemed
to be my instinctive reaction to look at him and care about him. He is like a drug I have relied on for more than ten years. The withdrawal reaction is too
painful for me to quit.
But the girl named Ye Chu finally refused him.
She strode in, put his gift on his desk, and said to him, “Being nice to someone for no
reason makes you lose yourself.”. Take care of yourself. When
she said that, she looked at me. When
I returned to the dormitory, the campus beauty was making up.
She saw me in the mirror and smiled at me. I was a little nervous and nodded to her
.
In the past, Zhong Shan’s girlfriend had only two attitudes towards me, either ignoring or hostile
.
The first time I saw such a kind attitude, I couldn’t get used to it.
However, I don’t have to curl up like a snail to reduce the sense of existence.
I hope we can get along normally in the future, I think.
The campus beauty had already begun to arrange her hair, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw her gather up her hair and tie it into
a ball head. The more I look at it, the more I feel something is wrong.
She looks like a person.
Who is it?
I remember the way she tied up her hair, very much like Ye Chu in those days.
I suddenly want to laugh.
It turned out that I had not been alone for more than ten years.
I, the school beauty and Zhong Shan were assigned to a class-Fashion Design Class 01. The senior student of the
student union saw my previous homework and wanted me to help her design the clothes for hosting the New Year party
. In
class, when I was typing, the campus beauty came around.
She looked at my design and said cleverly, “What a beautiful dress! Did you
design it yourself?”
I did not speak, nodded, as a response to her.
The campus beauty touched the dress and suddenly smiled at me. She said sweetly, “Would you like to make a dress for me
, too?”? I’m worried that I can’t find the clothes for the New Year’s Party. It doesn’t have to
be particularly complicated. If you’re so good, you’ll be able to do it quickly! Zhong Shan heard her voice and raised his eyelids to look here. Seeing this,
the campus beauty took his arm and said coquettishly, “Brother Shan also wants to see me in a dress
, doesn’t he?”
She was talking to him, but her eyes glanced at me.
Zhong Shan moved his eyes back to his drawing and casually said to me, “Help her when you are free
.”
I pinched the material and forced myself to straighten my back, saying, “Sorry, I really don’t have time to help my senior sister
make this dress.”
Zhong Shan Wen Yan looked up at me in surprise.
This must be a strange feeling for him.
According to past experience, this is a trivial matter that he doesn’t have to worry about at all. Just
like he used to tell me to book hotels and venues for him and his girlfriend. He
said casually that I took pains, and he would not ask about the process at all.
But for the first time, I didn’t follow him in such a “little thing.”. The
New Year Party went wrong.
The party was about to begin, but the dress I designed for my senior sister was missing. I took it backstage and stored it in the closet before the
show. The wardrobe is communal and does not have a lock.
But who will take a party dress? I got the answer when the
campus beauty sang the opening song.
The dress that I stayed up three nights to make was put on her body. The
pearl fishtail dress made her figure more graceful, and the
light in the middle of the stage hit her like a little mermaid princess singing.
I’ve seen some boys start whistling in the audience.
My senior sister came to me in a huff. When I was about to explain, the campus beauty came back from the stage
to the backstage. When she saw me, she immediately rushed over, took my hand and said to me, “Guan
Guan, thank you for helping me make clothes. It’s so beautiful.” It’s
all because of you that tonight’s show was so successful.
Senior sister looked at her, and then looked at me, meaning to let me give her an explanation.
I bowed my head and said, It wasn’t me. I didn’t design a dress for her. I made this dress
for my senior sister.
The campus beauty immediately let go of my hand, “Guan Guan, what are you talking about?”? This dress is
obviously what you promised to make for me.
Her best friend chimed in, “Yeah, we heard it in class.”
Zhong Shan just walked into the backstage at this time, should be to pick up the school beauty to go out to the audience. The campus beauty took him by the arm and asked him, “That day in class, Guan Guan promised to help me design clothes
. You heard that, didn’t you?”
Zhong Shan saw the senior sister with a bad complexion and immediately understood what was going on.
I bit my lip and looked at him, expecting him to say a word for me, just a word, a
fact.
He bowed his head and said, “I don’t know.”
I let go of the teeth that clenched my lips.
Sure enough.
He knew very well that the campus beauty was deliberately giving me a blow.
A “buddy” of the opposite sex who has been with her boyfriend for more than 10 years can’t
get over it.
Even a person can see that he has no idea about me at all.
But he liked her, so he tolerated her capriciousness. If you
forgive her, you can only sacrifice me. After the
New Year Party, Zhong Shan’s friends wanted to celebrate the success of the campus beauty, so they also took me with them. At
the dinner table, Zhong Shan never looked at me. I stared at him deliberately, and he avoided my eyes.
But when his friends tried to persuade me to drink, he put his hand in front of me and said with a cold
face, “She has a bad stomach and won’t drink.”
The friends were stupefied, laughing and joking.
I saw the school beauty staring at me coldly.
My face was expressionless, but my heart was filled with mixed emotions. In
this way, every time I want to stay away, he always reveals a trace of quiet
“buddy” care.
And I, like a thirsty traveler in the desert, can’t wait to continue my journey when I see this oasis
ahead.
But the oasis was a mirage. After more than
ten years, I can finally recognize this fact.
I began to deliberately reduce the frequency of information back to Zhong Shan, when he had something to find me, I
was no longer on call, but busy homework, busy activities as an excuse to shirk.
Zhong Shan may be aware of it, perhaps impatient, in short, he gradually did not
contact me.
But I seem to be having a severe withdrawal reaction. I can’t eat, and sometimes I can’t sleep. When
my cell phone rings, I will reflexively take it to see if it is him.
That kind of expectation is and hope is not the mood, up and down, repeatedly tormented me.
Finally, one day, when I rushed out of the dormitory gate, I bumped into a man and fell
to the ground with dizziness and even instant tinnitus. The girl
I bumped into took my arm and asked with concern, “Are you all right?”
I looked up at her.
Ye Chu.
Ye Chu jumped one level, and now she is our senior sister.
I asked her if she still remembered when Chung Shan had a crush on her, and she laughed and said, “I’ve long since forgotten
.”
Then she suddenly asked me, “What about you? Do you still like him?” Startled,
I asked her with a wry smile, “Am I so obvious?”
She nodded. “Anyone who doesn’t know can only say he’s playing dumb.”
I stared blankly at the coffee in front of me and said for a long time, “I have decided to leave him
.”
“Good thing.” She gulped down her coffee. “Start a new life early.”. Speaking of which, are you interested in being a model?
I looked at her in surprise and thought she was joking with me. You can’t be a
model just because you’re tall, can you? It is not without reason that
Zhong Shan said that I had a face that others owed me money.
Since I was a child, my relatives and elders around me have said that I have a “catfish face.” Although my eyes are not small, the whites of my eyes are bigger than my pupils, and anyone who looks at me feels that I am not pleasant. During the
Spring Festival, when other children of relatives smiled, the elders would grab a handful of candy and give it to him. I stood aside silently, and when the candy box was divided to the end, the elders would give me two or three in a hurry. A classmate
once said to me directly, “When I look at you, I think you have depression.”. Can’t you smile more?
I pulled out a smiling face, and she covered her face in an exaggerated way. “Farewell, I’m afraid the milk tea won’t ease my shock.”
Over time, I have only one face, which is expressionless.
Like the people who bullied me when I was a child and the elders who disliked my “catfish face,” my face was expressionless and there was no response. I couldn’t get any feedback on what they said or did.
In this way, they will ignore me. But some words can never be forgotten after hearing them.
So although I have studied art for so many years, I seldom dress myself up.
I’m afraid to face my face.
Ye Chu pulled me directly to her studio without saying a word.
She opened an original design women’s clothing online store with her friends, and is now a new head merchant with hundreds of thousands of fans on
an APP.
Her makeup artist friend worked on my face, and then Ye Chu gave me a new style of the
season to put on.
When I came out of the dressing room, I saw the two girls in front of me shoulder to shoulder. “What about the man I’m looking for?
” Yeh Chu said to her friend with a high face.
Her friend put the lollipop in her mouth and clapped her hands. “Great! Perfect!” Then
I turned and looked at myself in the mirror.
Ye Chu’s clothes are obviously not sweet and lovely style, but all black, Gothic design
, but the collarbone, waist and other key everywhere is scheming. The girl in the
mirror has a cold white complexion, a slight glance at her long and narrow eyes, and a cold
, but seductive sense of desire. I’ve never seen myself like this.
Yeh Chu defines his own original style as “the style of being a man with a feeling for the world.”.
I couldn’t help rolling my eyes.
But this expression was captured by her, and she forced me to give her another look.
She called to her friend to look at me in an exaggerated way. “How is it? Do you have a feeling?”
Her friend was even more exaggerating, yelling at me, “Sister, hold on, just turn it over when the photographer comes
.”.
Just as they were making noise, someone tapped on the door of the studio.
The makeup artist exulted and said, “Here we are.”
She pulled the door open and a boy came in.
A pair of clean dog eyes, fair complexion, clean and soft, smiling eyes make
people feel like spring breeze in April.
He greeted them cleverly, looked around, and finally settled on me
and held out his hand. “Hello, my name is Lin Chih-chou.”
Ye Chu pulled him over and introduced him to me, “My brother Lin Zhizhou is today’s photographer.”. Don’t mention
it. If you have anything to say, just mention it. He’s going to make you tired. Tell me. The makeup artist’s sister covered her mouth and smiled beside her, but Ye Chu did not find any ambiguity
in her words.
But Lin Zhizhou blushed, glanced at me and quickly turned his eyes away, smiling sheepishly
to stop his sister.
I found that he had small tiger teeth when he smiled.
Lin Zhizhou doesn’t look as old as me, but the photos he takes are similar to those taken by the photography
department at the same level in our school, and his style is not like other photographers. Photographers generally encourage
models, and they will actively encourage you to smile a little more, or turn your head at what angle
and in what position.
I am afraid of this kind of encouragement, there will be a sense of pressure that can not meet the expectations of others.
Zhong Shan was once fascinated by photography for a while. I asked him to help me take pictures of my life
for the competition. He took a few pictures, put down his camera and said to me, “Can you take pictures?”? Who
would pose with such a stiff expression in a photograph?
Finally, I picked out one of these waste films and pasted it on my resume.
Sure enough, I was eliminated.
Lin Zhizhou let me do whatever I want.
It’s really casual. He doesn’t care what position he
poses.
With what expression, he did not ask.
He asked me to imagine my most comfortable scene, or the expression I wanted to show at the moment.
Only when I am a little frightened and hesitant, I will look at me from behind the camera, and a pair of dog eyes will show me a gentle smile. At that moment,
I actually thought of the Samoyed I had raised when I was a child, and then I relaxed for no reason. After
taking the photo, Ye Chu began to drive people away. “Sister,” wailed
Lin Chih-chou, “when you unload the mill and kill the donkey, you will give the donkey a drink of water.”
Then he looked at me again, showing his little tiger teeth, as if there were stars in his eyes. “Sister, I took pictures for you all afternoon. Won’t you buy me something to drink?”
When Yeh Chu hit him, he said, “Guan Guan is a few months older than you. How dare you call her sister!”.
I looked at the sweat on his forehead and felt guilty about taking advantage of the child for free, so I quickly ordered milk tea.
Before leaving, Yeh Chu and her sister, the makeup artist, were having a heated discussion about the photos and had no time to care about us. Lin Chih-chou suddenly leaned close to my ear and said, “Guan Guan ordered my favorite chilled mango sago cream with pomelo. I’m so happy.”. Thank you, Guan Guan.
My milk tea almost choked out, hurriedly pulled a step away, waved his hand and said no, but his face was red.
Originally thought that Lin Zhizhou was just a temporary able-bodied man, but later every shooting was him.
I asked him why he came every time. Didn’t he have classes. He smiled like a Samoyed angel and looked at me. “Sister Chu has extra money to make here.” As if satisfied with this temporary job.
I am very confused, Ye Chuming does not give him a penny, what does he earn?
Later, I found that Lin Zhizhou did this job, not only can not earn money, but also pay for it. Every time he comes, he will bring a lot of snacks, and every time there will be something I like to eat.
One day, during the interval of shooting, we hid on the roof to enjoy the cool. I swallowed a piece of sticky rice chicken. It was so hot that I couldn’t help opening my mouth and exhaling.
Lin Chih-chou suddenly reached out to me and wiped the sticky rice grains from my mouth with a tissue. He took the tissue back and laughed at me, “Guan Guan looks like a little kid.”
I blushed a little and pretended to be angry. “Am I older than you?”
Lin Chih-chou nodded his head as he peeled the lotus leaves from the glutinous rice chicken for me. “Well, well,” he chimed in unobtrusively, “Guan Guan is my sister.”
Then he blew and held the glutinous rice chicken to my mouth. “Could the little sister Guan Guan not burn herself again?”
I quickly picked up the piece of glutinous rice chicken. Brother, you are so good at it.
A friend of mine once told me that the best stage of love is ambiguity.
You come and I go, with the tacit understanding of honey.
I don’t understand.
Because in my limited twenty years, I have been revolving around Zhong Shan. My initial
understanding and imagination of love seems to be the back of Zhong Shan.
And the pattern of getting along is that I keep being nice to him, hoping that one day he will look back
at me. In
my feelings, which can not be called love at all, there is only patience, only bruises
and chaos.
And now, this friend of mine is telling me how I feel, and I finally understand. After
knowing Lin Zhizhou, I knew that a boy’s heart could be so careful.
I thought I had been trained carefully enough by Zhong Shan, but Lin Zhizhou, who could be
keenly aware of the change
in my temper before I realized that I was coming to my period, prepared warm baby and jujube ginger tea before I began to feel uncomfortable. He also adjusted the shooting plan at
the first time. At this time
last month, I was still suffering from the discomfort of my menstrual period. I helped Zhong Shan and the campus
beauty wait in line for two hours to buy the very popular milk tea. In fact, it is tolerable, hold on, this afternoon’s shooting can also get through.
But people are like this, when they have nothing, they can be strong enough to resist everything. After a
little care, it becomes fragile.
I stuck to the warm baby prepared by Lin Zhizhou, covered with the blanket he put on, and was about to start drinking
tea when my cell phone rang.
It’s Zhong Shan.
I pressed the call button and did not speak. There was silence for a few seconds. Zhong Shan’s voice rang out
and asked me, “Why don’t you speak?”
I didn’t answer.
He spoke again, and I could imagine his impatient expression on the other end of the phone.
“If it’s about the last orientation meeting, I can..”
I opened my mouth and interrupted him, “Zhong Shan has passed.”.
I kind of hate that when I hear his voice now, I still reflexively want to
explain and even apologize.
I took a deep breath and said, “You’d better not contact me again.” There was silence on the other end of the
phone, and then he said, “Wait for me on the basketball
court after the public class in the afternoon.”
I thought he would just get off the phone, but he added, “I want to talk to you
.” Before I knew it, he hung up the phone.
Lin Chih-chou came over and looked at my expression. Worried, he stretched out his hand and pressed it against my
forehead. “Do you have a fever?” He asked doubtfully.
As if he was worried about the test, he took off his hand and put it on his forehead. I was a little nervous
, so I stepped back and avoided his eyes. “No fever, nothing.” Upset
, I ignored Lin Zhizhou’s expression.
14
in the evening, basketball court.
I sat on the steps and watched the back of Zhong Shan playing alone not far away.
His movements are not so much training as venting. After making a three-point
shot, he finished and came to me with the ball.
I pulled away from him.
He frowned and said impatiently, “What are you hiding from?” Then he sat beside me and held out his hand to me habitually
–
I realized that he was asking for water.
In the past, every time he finished playing, he took the water and towel
I had prepared for him from me, but this time I was obviously not prepared.
I really forgot. Angry,
he lifted up his basketball shirt to wipe the sweat off his face, sat beside me, and began to ask me, “Why haven’t I been in touch for so long?”? Why didn’t you answer the phone?
I took a deep breath and asked him directly, “What do you want to say to me?”
Zhong Shan slowed down when he heard this. He wiped the sweat from his neck, put down his basketball shirt, and asked me slowly, “Have you met Ye Chu?”
I looked up at him.
I felt that all my previous upset and anxiety were like a complete joke.
In the past, I could be his wingman, his tool man with his sister, but now-
Ye Chu can’t.
Ye Chu is my friend.
It was already six o’clock in the afternoon, and the dusk was all over the playground. I stood up and looked at Zhong Shan’s side face, which was still beautiful and arrogant.
But I’m starting to think it’s not so beautiful.
When I walked up to Zhong Shan, he looked up at me. I looked him straight in the eye and said, “Zhong Shan, do you know I’ve always liked you?”? “Since I was nine years old.”
He froze.
In the past, when he frowned, I would feel uneasy, and when he looked cold, I would feel uncomfortable. But now, I looked at
his frozen expression, but my heart flashed a trace of refreshing.
Zhong Shan, you have to understand that I have been good to you for so many years, nothing else, just
because I like you.
You’re just relying on me to like you.
“But now I’m not going to like you.”
I didn’t stop and stepped down the steps directly, but his right hand was suddenly held by him.
Zhong Shan stood up. His body blocked the setting sun. I couldn’t see his expression clearly. I only heard
him say, “You are my best friend.”. If that’s what you think, we.. You
can try.
I really laughed.
I found myself making a bigger mistake.
I thought I was the only one who was sad when I was a licking dog for more than ten years, but I didn’t expect that
my kindness to him for more than ten years had turned him into an idiot.
I was wondering if I should
wake up their son with a slap for Uncle Zhong and Aunt Zhao, who were very good to me, but I didn’t expect someone to realize what I wanted.
Just when we were deadlocked, a man came from the side and directly punched Zhong Shan until he fell on the steps.
I looked up and saw Lin Zhizhou clenching his teeth and saying nothing.
I have never seen Lin Zhizhou show such a look. The dog’s eyes, which had always been warm and warm in my
memory, were now as cold as ice. He stood in front of me and said to Zhong Shan, “If you want to contact my sister, you can ask for her phone number by yourself.”. What is looking for Guan Guan?
My heart tightened, and he heard it from the beginning? After
that, when I told him that I liked Zhong Shan, didn’t he hear it clearly?
Zhong Shan wiped the blood from the corners of his mouth. He stood up and took two steps forward. He stared at Lin Zhizhou and asked me, “Are you with this boy?”? Is it because of him?
Because of him, you didn’t answer my phone, did you? Lin Zhizhou and
I haven’t been together yet, but I don’t want to explain this to Zhong Shan at all.
Just then, my head was warm, and Lin Zhizhou had pressed my head on his shoulder, showing a tight embrace.
I heard him say to Zhong Shan, “I don’t care how long or how many years she has been in love with you, now she is in love with me.”. I’ll supply her with whatever you took in the past. You’d better get out as far as you can.
I was buried in the shoulder socket of Lin Zhizhou. When he said this, the Adam’s apple trembled in my ear, and the tremor spread from my auricle to my heart like an electric current.
My eyes seem to be wet.
At this moment, in the coffee shop, a girl is drinking coffee with a calm face. A boy sat opposite her, his head leaning forward, his dog’s eyes pitiful, and he didn’t write a hug on his face.
Lin Chih-chou carefully observed my face. “Guan Guan, I’m sorry. I said it without authorization in a hurry.” You and I are in love. You won’t blame me?
I don’t talk.
Lin Zhizhou was even more anxious. He stretched his hands forward, trying to touch me but not daring to reach out. I seemed to see a Samoyed who was trying to steal food and had scruples.
I drink coffee in silence.
Lin Chih-chou looked at me with an unshakable expression. He withdrew his hand, bowed his head, and said, “It’s my fault.”. Then I won’t bother you anymore, Guan Guan.
I finished my last sip of coffee, wiped my mouth with a tissue, and said slowly to my Samoyed classmate, who was holding his head, “Why, do you want to fall out and become Chen Shih-mei?”
Lin Zhizhou looked up in an instant, opened his dog’s eyes wide, and rushed over the table to me in the next second.
I pushed him. “Watch the cup!” Lin Chih-chou held me in his arms regardless and said in my ear, “It was Kuan Kuan who took the initiative
. Kuan Kuan is responsible for me.”
I smirked him on the head.
Until he returned to the house rented by Lin Zhizhou, he still clung to me like a koala and followed me step
by step.
I said, “It’s very hot.”
Lin Zhizhou took a small step back, and his hands were still wrapped around my waist.
Entangled, it changes the taste.
Lin Chih-chou has a pair of particularly good-looking hands, and even Yeh Chu, who has always focused on attacking his younger brother,
praised him for having a pair of artist’s hands.
The knuckles are white and slender, and there is a small
mole near the wrist joint in the right hand. At the moment, it is more and more seductive against the fine beads of sweat.
And now, these seductive hands are hovering around my waist, gently, like
the most affectionate pianist playing a symphony.
I just felt that my heart, which had been covered by scars for more than ten years, was numb and crisp, as if something
was going to break out and overflow the whole chest.
This was not enough. Lin Zhizhou put his hand on my eyes and whispered in my ear,
“Guan Guan is so beautiful.”
I covered my eyes. Guan Guan is the most beautiful girl. I like you very much.
“Stop talking..”
I blushed and put my hand over his mouth.
Lin Zhizhou pressed my hand and looked at me with curved eyebrows.
Just when the atmosphere of the whole room was slowly indescribable, Lin Zhizhou suddenly stopped.
Come down.
I opened my eyes and looked at him. “What’s wrong?”
His face was full of embarrassment. “Not that.”
“Poof!” I couldn’t help laughing. The
atmosphere was interrupted, and I looked around to see his room, giving some frustrated Samoyed
time to recover. When I
got to the bookshelf, I was attracted by a certificate. I know that
this photo contest is held by a certain fashion magazine, which is specifically aimed at young photographers
. It is fairly well-known in the industry, and the contestants who won the gold medal are also big V with a certain degree
of influence. They will not waste their
talents on the assembly line of e-commerce at all.
I think Lin Zhizhou must have a secret from me. When I pressed him, he dilly-dally turned out a picture from his mobile phone album and showed it to me
-it was a waste picture that I was eliminated from the competition that year.
I looked at him in puzzlement.
That was the only game I ever got up the nerve to play in my first two decades.
At that time, Zhong Shan’s girlfriend came and went, I was depressed to the extreme, desperately trying
to find their own shining point, I did not know how to sign up for a model contest.
As I said before, the photo that Zhong Shan took for me was brushed down in the audition stage without
any accident.
And this picture is now lying quietly in Lin Zhizhou’s photo album, and he even built a folder for
it.
Lin Zhizhou revealed the truth to me.
It turned out that at that time, he had just started and was practicing portraits, but he always felt that the photos
he took were almost nothing, until he saw my photos.
In his words, he was attracted by the girl’s inexplicable sense of story.
I thought the girl could walk forward, but she was screened out in the audition
.
It was not until Ye Chu came to him with my photo that he, who had never taken e-commerce work, immediately
responded.
“Do you think this is an act of God, Guan Guan?” A Samoyed proudly wagged his tail at me for praise. When I returned to the studio
the next day, I told the whole thing to Ye Chu and Xiao Li Jie (the makeup artist’s sister), including the dress incident at the New Year party. After hearing this,
Sister Li rolled up her sleeves and shouted to teach Zhong Shan and the campus beauty a lesson for me. With a cold face
, Yeh Chu said, “Some people’s faces really need to be hit, but we have to find a good way.” Then she handed me an entry form.
The school’s annual design exhibition.
She looked into my eyes, just as she had looked straight into Zhong Shan’s words to me that summer, and her tone was still as firm as ever, “Guan Ju, there are still some obstacles that you have to overcome by yourself.”.
Do you dare?
I was finally able to look her in the eye and nod.
I have to say that Ye Chu is really a ruthless person. She used my original pearl fishtail skirt in the design of the competition. But she changed the white to black, and the graceful fish tail to the flowing hem of the ancient Greek Ionic style.
I followed her train of thought to make the second revision, cut off the lace and other elements mercilessly, unified with a more concise and neat line design, waist began to do slits, to ensure that walking with wind, both handsome and sexy. Designers, Ye Chu and Guan Ju.
Model, of course, myself.
When I tried on this dress and came out, Little Pear’s exaggerated tone was even worse than before. She held out her hand to
me, “Guan Guan looks like a vampire princess coming out of a medieval castle.”.
Beautiful, handsome, broken legs. Give it to Ji Hui ~ “
Ye Chu and Lin Zhizhou knocked off her hand at the same time.”. The night of the
design exhibition. The number of the
campus beauty was in the front, and I sneered when she came out.
Perhaps she also knew that the pearl fishtail dress matched her sweet temperament very well. In this
dress, she did not make any modifications to the overall style, but added a belt
around the waist and a shawl behind her.
But the effect is that the pure little mermaid princess has changed into a young
woman dressed in cumbersome beautiful clothes. It’s my
turn to play.
I took several deep breaths, my fingertips trembled slightly, Ye Chu and Lin Zhizhou held
my hands separately, and I finally calmed down.
Walking on the exhibition stand, my heart, which had just calmed down, became restless again.
I’ve never been looked at like this before. Such respect, admiration, without neglect and rejection. The audience was silent for a few seconds and then
cheered,
probably because the style of the dress was too different. The voice of a classmate in the
front row said, “Who is this model?”? From our school?
“It should be. Don’t all the contestants have to be from this school?”
A classmate recognized me. “God, this is not the big fool in our class..” The man next to
him poked him, and he quickly changed his tune: “It’s Kuan Ju from our class!” The campus beauty
sitting in the first row suddenly turned her face around, and Zhong Shan looked at
me in disbelief.
I read surprise, shock, and some emotions
in his eyes that I couldn’t understand.
He had never looked at me with such complicated eyes.
I walked across the room with an expressionless face. Whistles began to ring from both sides of the
booth, and even two other roommates in my dormitory joined in the fun.
“Sister Guan Guan, give me a chance.”
Someone had already recognized this dress. “It looks
like the one Zhou Xiaohan was wearing just now.” Oh, yes, Zhou Xiaohan is the name of the campus beauty. The people who ate melons arranged by
Ye Chu began to popularize the truth of science. The crowd showed their faces.
Look at the eyes of the campus beauty more contemptuous, Zhong Shan as the original witness is also involved. Back to the backstage
after the show, Lin Zhizhou was waiting for me at the waiting area. As soon as I stepped down, I was hugged by
him.
I wondered, “What’s wrong?”
Lin Chih-chou’s frustrated voice came from my shoulder socket. “Guan Guan is so beautiful. What
should I do?”? I don’t want them to look at you at all. You are mine alone. I
couldn’t help laughing, and while I was coaxing Samoyed, Chung Shan came backstage and
said, “Guan Guan, shall we talk?”
Lin Zhizhou raised his head from my shoulder with a brush, and his eyes shot straight at Zhong
Shan in an instant.
Chung Shan did not retreat at all. He looked directly at me. I didn’t understand before. Guan Guan,
I don’t want to give up.
Zhong Shan is missing and no one can be contacted.
Even Uncle Zhong and Aunt Zhao called me on my mobile phone, and their tone was anxious. When
I moved out of the dormitory, the campus beauty came to me and pressed me: “Where
on earth has Chung Shan gone?”
I am very helpless.
In the past, when I was around him, everyone ignored me.
Now I don’t go near him anymore, and everyone comes to me. Before
Zhong Shan disappeared, she only left a message for the campus beauty to break up, and there was no more news.
After all, it was the son of Uncle Zhong and Aunt Zhao. Even my parents came to ask me what was going on. I couldn’t completely stop asking.
I asked all the people who knew Zhong Shan, but there was still no news.
At this time, it was summer vacation, and the dormitory building of the school was only open to junior and senior students, so I had to go home. It was already evening when
I got home, and there was a man sitting in the flower bed downstairs, the travel-stained Zhong Shan. When
he saw me coming, he immediately stood up, ran up to me, and unfolded his right hand to me-a necklace of dzi beads.
I finally know where he went all this time.
Guan Guan, when you were in high school, you said that the place you wanted to go most was Shangri-La, and you wanted to have a string of dzi beads made by lovers for each other.
I knew you wouldn’t agree if I invited you directly now, so I brought you the dzi beads first. There are also Xizangan snacks. I remember an uncle who was on a business trip brought them back. You seem to like them very much. I stopped him from rummaging for something.
To tell you the truth, now I realize that in the past years, I didn’t have no
influence on Zhong Shan.
His good behavior towards people comes from what I have done to him. At that time,
I thought it was because of his character that he was intermittently indifferent
to me and did not respond to my flattery. Now it seems that it is not that he would not, but
that he did not want to at that time.
He’s starting to think now.
But I don’t want it.
“Zhong Shan, give up.” I said to him in the cold moonlight.
As I once said to myself.
I underestimated Zhong Shan’s stubbornness. Early
the next morning, I was dragged out of bed by my mother.
Zhong Shan came to my house with a series of Xizangan specialties he carried back.
My parents are somewhat incredible, after all, in their impression, Zhong Shan has always been
such an unapproachable, silent and arrogant teenager. Uncle Zhong and Aunt Zhao also went to the door. There was a neighbor’s child holding a school wine, and the two adults
were ready to go together. I
was too lazy to wash my hair, so I sat on the table with my messy hair and watched
the adults talking and laughing in boredom.
Zhong Shan stared at me from the opposite side. During
the dinner, my parents talked with Uncle Chung and Aunt Chao about our childhood. Aunt
Chao wiped away the tears of laughter and said, “It was so funny at that time. After
the two children quarreled, they stuck together one after the other.”. Alas, I’ve always wanted Guan Guan to be our daughter-in-law
.
Mom and Dad laughed out loud.
Zhong Shan straightened his back.
I laughed awkwardly to one side. When
I got home, there was another uninvited guest downstairs.
Lin Chih-chou smiled like an angel and waved to me. Then he came to my parents
and very naturally took the things in their hands. “Hello, uncle and aunt. My name is Lin
Chih-chou. I’m Kuan Kuan’s boyfriend.”
Mom and Dad opened their mouths wide in surprise. “Oh, OK, hello.”
Zhong Shan clenched his fist in the back.
Mom and Dad looked at me as if they knew something. The atmosphere of
our family has always been open-minded, Rao is so, always silent daughter suddenly brought back so many peach blossoms, their hearts are still a little unbearable.
My father talked to me alone once, but he still respected my opinion. After all, I am an adult, and he believed that I could solve it properly. When I
came out, my mother’s laughter came from the living room.
Lin Zhizhou is accompanying her to watch the 8 o’clock TV series. He is really accompanying her, not playing with her mobile phone beside her. He also participates in the discussion of the plot from time to time, which makes my mother smile.
My mother asked him, “Did Guan Guan bully you?”
Lin Chih-chou smiled shyly. “Auntie, what are you talking about? Guan Guan is very nice to me. Sometimes I worry that I’m not good enough for her.”
Then he gave me a gentle smile.
I made an appointment with Zhong Shan alone to talk about it in the park in the middle of the street where we always went when we were young. It was here when I was
nine years old that I gingerly handed him my favorite peach lollipop, and he retorted that I was a big fool. It was
also later that I was rescued from the toilet by him. When I passed by here on my way home, he said to me, “Ugly women have no right to cry.” I followed him
step by step for more than ten years, and I could understand his every expression and every state clearly and clearly.
I know, now, he is just not reconciled.
“Do you remember when I was in junior high school, there was a little boy waiting for me here every day, and you pushed him into the sandpit and asked him if he was a pervert?” Sitting on the swing in the evening breeze, I looked at Zhong Shan, who was standing in front of me. I didn’t know until later that he had a crush on me. In fact, you also know, right? You’re just not reconciled.
Zhong Shan wanted to come up and hug me. I stepped back, got off the swing, and pulled away from him.
He pursed his lips, remained silent for a few seconds, and then said, “Guan Guan, don’t judge my feelings at will.”.
At that time I came to you to ask Yeh Chu, not because I wanted to pursue her again, but because I wanted to get rid of some of the knots in my heart that year. These days, I think a lot, understand a lot of things, but also think clearly about their feelings. In the past you pay all, I will double back to you, learn to be good to you, learn to respond to you.
“I hope that the person around me is still you.”
Maybe. But it doesn’t matter. I looked at the lights in the distance and said slowly, “I feel fine now.”. For the first time in my life, I felt that I could shine, instead of following others silently and never being seen.
And these are the things I never got in those years when I was by your side. Ye Chu is right. Being nice to a person for no reason will make people lose themselves. I will also give you the same.
I walked slowly to the exit of the park.
Zhong Shan called my name behind him, with a faint sob in his throat. “Guan Guan, can you not go?” I turned around and for the first time showed him a calm smile without any grievance and depression-
Zhong Shan, you should grow up.
Lin Zhizhou walked anxiously around the flower bed downstairs. When he saw me coming back, he immediately sat down without any expression on his face.
I teased him, “Waiting for me?” Instead of looking at me,
he looked at the night sky. No, I came to see.. Look at the moon! He pointed to the sky. “The moonlight is so beautiful tonight.”
I smiled meaningfully and nodded approvingly. “Yes, the moonlight is really beautiful tonight.”
He understood.
Wei Qiqu turned his head and clung to him and hugged me. “I thought-” I touched his head. Lin Zhizhou, who looked optimistic, was actually a sensitive
Satsuma brother.
Lin Chih-chou turned his head and said, “Guan Guan, um..” As he
was about to speak, he was caught off guard by my kiss.
But he immediately turned the tables, rubbed me into his arms, and swept
around unceremoniously inside and outside. When I opened my
eyes breathlessly, I saw him showing a defiant
face in a corner.
Zhong Shan stood in the shadow in the distance, unable to see the expression on his face.
I rolled my eyes, stood up and called to him, “Hey, Samoyed, do you want to go home when the walking time
is over?”
“Yes!”!
“Oh, Guan Guan, wait for me!”
(End)
Fanwai 1: Six years later, at 11 o’clock in the
evening, Guan Ju returned home.
As soon as I got home, when I was changing my shoes in the hallway, I was hugged by a Samoyed from behind
. “Teacher Kuan, you let people stay alone in an empty room.”. Purr
Kuan Ju struggled to change his shoes under the “drag” of this Samoyed, and the small pear vortex at the corners of his mouth deepened, but he still had to “hit” him with his mouth. “What’s wrong? Is Teacher Kuan’s program not good?
A certain Samoyed hurriedly raised his hands to prove his identity as a die-hard fan. “No, no. Teacher Kuan’s program is particularly good. Teacher Kuan is so beautiful, so good at commenting, and so professional.”
The smile at the corners of Kuan’s mouth deepened, and he pinched Lin Zhizhou’s cheek.
From the university, Guan Ju and Ye Chu often partner to participate in activities, Ye Chu as a designer, and Guan Ju is a model, from the small magazine competition, bit by bit accumulated influence in the industry. In
six years, the two also founded their own women’s wear brand. Up to now, the brand has become a little famous, and Guan Ju, in addition to his own business, occasionally receives invitations from some fashion programs.
Unexpectedly, originally just a small test of the water to Guan Ju made a name for himself, and now various platforms related programs will come to the door, these months, she is really busy.
Guan Ju reflected on himself and really neglected to care about his own Samoyed.
She patted Lin Chih-chou on the head and said, “I’ll definitely spare some time to go to your solo exhibition next month, okay?”
Lin Chih-chou still wouldn’t let go of his hands holding her. “No, I need to make up for it now.”
“So?” Guan Ju looked at the aggrieved but cunningly conditional Lin Zhizhou.
“Will Guan Guan call me brother?”
…… After a few seconds of
silence, Kuan Ju silently said, “Lin Chih-chou, what strange questions have you seen on the Internet?”
Guan Ju’s voice was not loud, but Lin Zhizhou was so frightened that he immediately let go of his hands. “Guan Ju, this is not a strange question. The boy really wants to hear his girlfriend call him brother.”. Oh, don’t hit me. Twelve o’clock
at night.
Lin Zhizhou is working hard to pack the luggage for Guan Ju’s business trip.
While tidying up in the heart: the evil program group, why should the recording date schedule so tense, really treat people as tool people, what should they do when they are tired and sick?
He pricked up his ears, heard the sound of water in the bathroom stop, quickly sealed the half of the suitcase that had been packed, and then pretended to be careless and perfunctory.
Guan Ju went back to the bedroom while wiping his hair, and what he saw was the silhouette of Lin Zhizhou with his mouth flat and silently tidying up.
Guan Ju looked at the man, his face casual, but his hands were still carefully packed according to the types of vitamins, labeled, and then carefully placed in the interlayer-
she thought of the long six years before. When they were ridiculed by their predecessors when
they first entered the industry, when they were forced to give up the quota they had won by their own strength, when their brands were maliciously reported by their competitors..
From the age of twenty, all the dark moments in her life, she is no longer a lonely person, there is such a person to accompany her, and spend with her. In
the past six years, she also witnessed her classmate Lin Zhizhou, step by step close to his ideal, accumulated bit by bit, and became a young photographic artist who can hold a solo exhibition today.
They are all trying to be each other’s light.
She put her arms around him from behind, resting her head on his shoulder, and whispered in his ear, “Brother Zhouzhou, it’s a good thing it’s you, it’s a good thing you’re here.”
Then she saw that the ears of the man who, an hour before, had been clamouring to be called brother were red.
Lin Zhizhou turned around and stood up face to face with Guan Ju in his arms, letting Guan Ju put his hands around the back of his neck.
Two people’s foreheads touch each other, Lin Zhizhou blinks the moist eyes to look at Guan Ju, obviously he is taller than her, obviously is overlooking, Guan Ju still has the illusion that Samoyed is staring at her.
The Samoyed students wagged their tails and said, “So Guan Guan will listen to brother Zhouzhou tonight, okay?” At the moment before turning off the light, Mr. Guan really felt that Samoyed was really stuffy
. In the
counseling room, the counselor asked him, “I think there seems to be a great regret and remorse behind the feeling
you just said.”. Can you tell me the most regrettable thing in
your life so far? When the
plane took off, it brought a moment of tinnitus, and then gradually stabilized.
Zhong Shan opened the shade and saw the grand and dazzling sun above the clouds.
He thought, is it a pity? It seems that what he regrets in his
life is not one thing, but a person and a period of time. The
first time I saw Guan Ju, he was still a little kid who was not afraid of heaven and earth. The children of the same age I have seen
before are all small, especially girls, wearing beautiful
little skirts, circling around him like a little thrush raised by Grandpa.
Guan Ju was a head taller than him, and when he first saw her, he felt as if he had seen an alien
.
But only she will not leave him.
Children’s attention comes and goes quickly. Today you have a fresh toy and we
play with you. Tomorrow he brings a lot of snacks and we get together.
The Zhong family is very strict with their children. Zhong Shan doesn’t always have many new things to give to others. People praise him for his good looks, but they don’t surround him every day.
Only Guan Ju would bring his toys from home and reach out to him when he was down, just like she handed him a peach-flavored lollipop for the first time.
She said to him, “It doesn’t matter. I’ll give you my toy and we’ll play.”
Childhood passed in a hurry. The hormones of
adolescence were like restless spring scenery. He saw many female classmates in the same grade hiding in the distance, watching him whispering, but not daring to approach. There were even senior students in the class who were directly waiting for him to play on the court and show him good will.
Perhaps his vanity had been satisfied, he listened to the noise around him, and without even seeing what the schoolmate looked like, he answered carelessly, “Good.”
Out of the corner of his eye, he glanced at Guan Ju, who was holding water and towels for him, and seemed to be stunned. Somehow, he was a little afraid to see her eyes at the moment. He hurriedly took the water and left the basketball court with his senior sister in his arms.
Two weeks later, he separated from his senior sister. After
school, he and she still go home together, walk through the street park together, and share the snacks bought by the stalls.
But something is starting to change. It seemed that
he could no longer put his arm around her shoulder as carelessly as before and say, “Dude, buy me an ice cream.” Then wait for her to take off his arm, pretending to be a little disgusted, and quickly run to
the canteen to buy back his favorite flavor. When he
found that the boy in the next class was waiting for her in the street park every day, he felt angry subconsciously
.
But when he finished teaching the boy, he was at a loss, staring at the
swing in the evening breeze, and he asked himself why.
Yeah, why are you like this? The boy who
was beaten was so angry that he spread the news to the school. One of
his friends asked him, “Brother Shan, do you like Guan Ju?”
He immediately stood up and shouted, “She’s my best friend. What the *** are you talking about
?” When I
looked up, I saw Guan Ju sending him notes outside the window.
She pulled up the corners of her mouth and smiled, but it was hard to reach her eyes. Then she put her notes out of the window
and left in silence.
From that day on, he and she never went home together. In
those restless and superficial youth, he sometimes imagined what his other half
would look like in the future. They all
seem to be similar to their friends, beautiful, white, lovely or pure, in
short, they all seem to be based on the most popular stars of their peers. When playing with his classmates, he would occasionally flash a person’s shadow in his heart,
and then he would shake his head and try to shake it off.
She was his buddy from childhood to adulthood and his most important friend.
Yes. That’s it.
It was in this chaos that he met Ye Chu.
Ye Chu has a typical goddess face, but she seldom smiles at others.
Boys compete to send her gifts and love letters, and she won’t reply. These things are stuffed
in the drawer, and she will throw them into the trash can. “What business is it of yours
?” She said, staring coldly at
the taunts about her pride.
At that time, Zhong Shan happened to pass by their class and watched her sit down without changing her color
.
He felt that the girl seemed to be a bit like Guan Ju from some angles.
But she is really different from her, and she is different from many people. For the first time in his life,
he wanted to chase someone.
And then fail? No, it should be called a fiasco.
But this time Ye Chu did not throw the thing into the trash can, but returned it to him. “Being nice to someone for no reason makes you lose yourself,”
she said. Take care of yourself.
She said to him, but looked at Guan Ju.
But in fact, Guan Ju did not know that she had left him a note with only two words on it: garbage. After being rejected by
Ye Chu in such a “humiliating” way, he began to fall into a vindictive vent, falling in love unscrupulously, getting together quickly, and leaving quickly. For many years
afterwards, this way of dealing with feelings seemed to have become a habit of him.
When you fall in love, you always have to separate. He also knew what they valued about themselves, and nothing more than this face. That
‘s it, right? Feelings.
And only Guan Ju will not leave him.
When friends heckled her at the graduation party that year and asked him to introduce her to someone, his first reaction was annoyance. He stared coldly at the friend who took the lead in heckling. What was it to him?
But what he said, like when he was a child, subconsciously denied, subconsciously stung her.
In fact, after saying that, he regretted it. He couldn’t help observing Guan Ju sitting in the shadow of the corner. The light was too dim, and he seemed to
see that she was still silent as usual.
He couldn’t find his way down the stairs, so with a little luck he joined the drinking
party with his friends.
Years later, he dreamed of that moment again, of Guan Ju’s dark expression
in the shadows, and then he suddenly woke up from bed.
He suddenly realized that maybe from that moment on, he had lost her forever.
Whether as a friend who grew up with him, or as a girl who liked
him with her whole youth. The sound of the
plane landing sounded, and Zhong Shan recovered from his memory.
After three years of absence, he finally returned to his familiar hometown. After chatting
with investors about business, the manager who had a good personal relationship with him took out a ticket for an art
photography exhibition and suggested that he go to see it. After all, the photographer
named Xingzhou was a new star in the industry who had been paying attention to it for two years.
The next weekend, Zhong Shan rented a car and went to the exhibition hall.
He did not expect that he would meet Guan Ju again in this way. Not seen for
three years, Guan Ju seems to be in the days he can’t see, stretching and blooming
heartily, growing into today’s shining appearance. Dressed in a simple black dress, she only wore collarbone chains and
earrings from the platinum pearl series, but no one could forget the blend of coldness and charm.
She’s grown up.
Zhong Shan’s hands trembled involuntarily. He collected himself and tried to step forward. What should
he say to her?
I haven’t seen you for ages.
Are you all right
I missed you Can
we get to know each other again? The
complicated thoughts suddenly stopped when she saw the man holding her hand.
Lin Zhizhou.
He unfolded the ticket in his hand and realized that the boat was Lin Zhizhou. Lin Zhizhou on the
stage held Guan Ju’s left hand and interlocked his fingers. Holding the microphone in his other hand,
Lin Chih-chou said to the audience,
Many years ago, I met a girl. Actually, I didn’t meet her, because I only
saw her picture. At that time, I had just entered the industry, and my level was in a mess. I have great doubts about whether I can stick to this
path. But the moment I saw her picture, I felt like I was
suddenly inspired. The picture was very simple, but the moment I met her, I had a feeling that I was about to
start to understand a story. And that’s when I figured out my own way
-to show the story of every individual, every life.
The girl who inspired me was my girlfriend of six years, Kuan Ju. But
today I have one more thing to do. After
saying this, Lin Zhizhou faced Guan Ju, knelt on one knee, and took out the ring
box from his bosom.
The whole audience is boiling. The photographer who recorded the ceremony
under the stage quickly zoomed in and aimed at the male and female protagonists.
Zhong Shan appeared a moment of tinnitus, he could not hear what they said, but the eyes filled with
tears and smiles rushed to Lin Zhizhou’s Guan Ju has explained everything.
He couldn’t remember how he left.
When he came to his senses, he was already at the gate of the exhibition hall, and suddenly there was a
spasm in his heart, like an electric shock, and colic filled his chest.
Zhong Shan crouched down and buried his head in his knees.
He remembered what his mother had said to him when he was a child.
She said that looking for the other half in one’s life is like stepping into a wheat field, hoping
to find the best and most brilliant ear of wheat. But you never know when the ear of wheat that really belongs to you will appear.
Many people think that there are more behind, so they throw away the front.
Others thought there was no hope, so they picked one at random at the entrance and hurried away.
And he finally realized that he had been favored by fate, and that it had already given him the most precious thing when he entered
.
It’s just that he was so childish and stupid at that time that he spoiled her whole heart so wantonly
.
(End of extra chapter)
