We had tortured each other for nearly a decade, and he came to the city with one lover after another, and I held most of his family, and we held each other’s graves, and no one was weaker.
But today I’m going to divorce him because I’m dying.
One.
It took me a long time to find out what was going on.
“Where are you?”
“What’s the matter with you?” We’re husband and wife, but even the right to ask each other where they’re going is considered a violation.
“Come back,” I knocked on the table and said, “We’re divorced. I’m sorry.
I’ve used it too many times, mostly just to meet his side of the story.
He’s right.
I waited two days, he didn’t come back.
I looked at the diagnosis that marked the end of my life, and I didn’t want to waste any more of my time, carrying my bag out.
There’s another way to find a year. I’ve been trying.
“Ooh! * I knocked a little bit on the door in front of me * * a little girl *
“Miss Lin…” Her eyes were full of horror, like I could tear her apart through the door.
I turned my eyes and said to her, “Hey, I’m going to get a divorce from him for the first year of my life, and I’m going to give you the best of my lovers, and when we get divorced, maybe you’ll be a wife.” I’m sorry.
The girl with her eyes red, “Miss Lin, I didn’t think of it…”
I’m sorry to interrupt her, but don’t make me sick. If he doesn’t come home tomorrow, I’ll open your door and smash your house. You think you can keep me out of this? I’m sorry.
How can I be patient if I don’t ask her to turn around and I can see him tonight if I’m not surprised?
When the night came, he burst into my presence.
“Did I tell you to stop looking for Josh? I’m sorry.
I slowly poured a glass of wine and looked at him and said, “What? I’ll go. What can you do to me? I’m sorry.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about. Joe’s heart is good enough for us, and you won’t divorce me and you won’t let me live with you? I’m sorry.
“Do you want everyone to be alone like you?” I’m sorry.
Bang! I broke my cup.
He’s right. I’m alone. That’s why he’s been holding on to him for years, knowing whether we’ve had no feelings or won’t divorce.
“Yeah, I’m in hell. How can you go to heaven? “I looked at him with my head on my back, and I didn’t rebut it.
What’s the point of seeing us all these years when we’re tired?
I refilled a glass of wine in front of him and put the divorce papers in front of him, “Sign, even if I go to hell, I don’t want to see you in hell again. I’m sorry.
“We’ve seen each other before, and don’t blame me when we die! I’m sorry.
I looked at him through a glass wall, and he was still pretty, with his big eyes, his nose, his lips.
God is so unfair that some people are as handsome as a day.
“What do you want? * He’s staring at me. *
I laughed, “I just want this house, everything else. I’ll give up all our common assets. Can’t you see? I’m sorry.
Maybe I wanted too much in the past, and now all of a sudden, something’s wrong with him.
This house is our wedding house, and although I can’t sell it for a long time, I really don’t want other women to live with him.
And even if it wasn’t worth anything, it would be fine to buy a new cemetery, a new place to live, a place to live, a place to live, an empty place to go, and an easy place to go.
And so the year went by and said, “I’ll have my lawyer redraw the house to you, and I’ll give you another $10 million, and we’ll clear it. I’m sorry.
I pick the frown, he’s generous and buys us 10 years of love with this million-dollar ease.
“Your lawyer? My lawyer, if you don’t trust your lawyer, I do? “Look, I’m not going to talk to him, even for a moment when I’m ready to set him free.
And I let it down and I slowed down and I said, “No, I agree. I’m sorry.
He goes outside with the letter of agreement, “Tomorrow, my assistant will deliver the letter of agreement. You better sign it right away. I’m sorry.
He waited too long for this day, and I think he’s going to have to wake up his lawyers all night to discuss whether or not I set him up.
I shrugged my shoulders, whatever, as soon as possible.
He’s still looking at me, and he’s giving me more, “I hope you don’t live in C City anymore, and we should all have a life, right? I’m sorry.
And yet the heart could not resist the bitterness of the water, and We pushed him out of the door, and there was no light in his eyes.
Two.
The assistant of the division was well paid, and when he handed me the letter of agreement in his hand he respectfully called me “Mr. Lin.” I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
I’ve known all over the company that Joe’s heart gave him a big hand to love, and that he’s interesting, and I’ve really put Joe’s heart in the company for the sake of disgust.
But soon after, she went home and started to divorce me.
I’ve never been to the company again, and very few people will call me Mr. Lin, and the young man is the only one in front.
I opened the protocol and signed it on the last night, “Mr. Lin, you can read it again. I’m sorry.
“No, there’s nothing to see. I’m sorry.
I smiled and handed him the letter of agreement: “Tell your chief, the Civil Administration, one month later, he should not be late. I’m sorry.
Don’t waste my last time.
“Yes. “Young people are being politely excused, we left before and after.
I don’t want to stay in City C, I don’t want to stay here, I want to go home.
All the way to my destination without hindrance, I stood on the land of Green City.
I haven’t been back in almost five years.
I went to the cemetery, “Dad and Dad, Grandma and Grandpa, I came to see you. I’m sorry.
You’re right, I’m alone.
I sat down in front of the tombstone, and my parents had a car accident when I was young, and my grandparents passed away after college, and I buried them very close, and I thought it would be convenient to worship.
“I bought myself a piece around here, one of which I missed you a little bit, and the other of which I thought it was nice. I’m sorry.
I haven’t sat too long, the early winter weather is starting to get cold, and there’s little snowflake coming down and I feel a little cold feet.
“All right, I’ll be back. I’ll see you soon. I’ll have to tell you what this son of a bitch has done all these years. I’m sorry.
I rang my clothes and turned away from the cemetery.
It’s time to leave school. I went to Qing City High School, where I stopped.
Children in school uniforms had smiles on their faces, and vacations during school hours were the happiest thing, even on weekends.
I’ve been standing at the door for a long time and I’m going to take my feet to school.
“Hey, what do you do? “The master at the school stopped me, and I said in a hurry, “The teacher is looking for his parents, and I’m in a hurry. I’m sorry.
I may have a red eye, or I may have a good acting, but I’m in.
I’ve had a long, slow breath at school.
Some students were cleaning their brooms, and naughty boys threw a snowball in the arms of a girl and were picked up by a girl and chased by a broomstick.
And I smiled at them as if I could see the young of me and the young of the year.
I swayed to the school building, found a third and fifth class in memory, and there was no one on the first floor. I pulled the lock, and the door opened.
I went into the classroom step by step as if I could capture old memories through old breaths.
And We counted, and sat in my place at that time, and buried its head in its arms.
One, two, three, that’s the best thing I’ve ever done in school. On the count of three, you’ll see it coming.
And I looked up, and the bright-faced teenager stood at my table, and he reached out with his hand. I’m sorry.
The brightest sunset of the day fell on him, like a golden light.
One, two, three. I opened my eyes and my dreams were shattered.
I took my breath out of my mind and walked out.
Before I left, I turned back for the last time, in a quiet room, and the young lady who looked up laughed and put his hands on the young man’s hand.
Blinking like a bubble.
I can’t go back.
3
I spent a month in Green City, and the winter in Green City came faster, and I felt a little warm as I set foot on the land of City C.
“What’s taking you so long?” You don’t look so good.
I was lazy, and I had a yawn, and he walked in for nothing.
“What, you’re divorced and you have a lover. “I’m upset when Joe’s heart is standing behind him, and it’s stinging.
“You speak nicely, José is not feeling well today. I’m taking her to the hospital. I’m sorry.
I covered my hand, and I got more upset, “Yo, yeah, you take her first. I’ll wait. I’m sorry.
“Come on, don’t get upset. I’m sorry.
I’m standing right where I am, “Do you still force me? Aren’t you ashamed of the public? I’m sorry.
The heart began to cry behind him, whispering, “Don’t fight, don’t fight. I’m sorry.
I’m sick of my chest, “You’re not so bad at me, I’ll take it from you right now, either you knock me out, or you fuck off! I’m sorry.
He looked like a pig’s liver and looked at me like a pig.
I was so depressed, I thought about it, I bought a baseball bat, and I took my time, and I drove to Joe’s place.
I’ve got a lockmaker and a property.
“Who is the head of this house?”
“Mr. Sun. I’m sorry.
I smiled and showed my marriage certificate, “This is our joint property, please open the door for me. I’m sorry.
Master Li opened the door and I sent them off to walk in.
I’d like to take a picture with her, but I don’t laugh.
After graduation, our division was very busy, so there was little phototaping, first back-to-back, then separate rooms, and then we separated, and I realized that we had broken up, because the division started taking different women back to his place.
I went around, and I broke a jade plaster, which my grandmother loved before she died, and I bought it for her. Who knew things would be different, she couldn’t survive the winter.
I said I couldn’t find it. I’ve been picked up for his lover.
I didn’t hesitate to make my stick sound loud, and soon I smashed up the house’s setup.
If it’s too hard, it’s “blacking” and it’s starting to get liquid drops on the ground, and I’m turning my head off and rubbing my blood.
“Lin! Water!”
“Uh! “Don’t call me by my name, I’m gonna throw up.” I’m sorry.
“Tomorrow, I’ll see you at the Civil Administration.” I’m sorry.
That’s what I’m talking about. I don’t want to keep this marriage for a day.
“I’ve put up with you for so long! My nose started bleeding again, and I turned my head upside down.
“What’s wrong with you? I’ve got a lot of work going on, and I’m just a little bit out of it.
“I set you on fire with your little lover. I put a baseball bat on my shoulder and I said, “I’ve been holding you for a long time, and I’ve got to get a divorce. You take your side and I’ll never see you again.” I’m sorry.
In the next life…
It hurts, it hurts.
With the last lessons learned coming on the second day of the year, we didn’t say anything about signing it right away, and we finally got the divorce.
I don’t want to hear a word of it from my department.
I saw his back long ago, and suddenly thought of a long winter night, he put warm water bags in my hand, and said, “Go, baby, go first, I’ll watch you go.” I’m sorry.
So warm hands, so hot eyes, so many winter nights, it’s not cold.
Pour a huff, I wipe my tears and get in the car leaving C.
We should never see each other again.
4
I’m in a hospital and I’m starting to get less serious treatment.
“18 Bed! Why are you sneaking out again? “I’m a little trainee nurse who’s very young, who’s working very well, who’s training very well and who doesn’t give a damn.”
I’ve been taught to keep my shoulders tied, “You don’t want to be treated! I’m sorry.
I turned my eyeballs and said, “I think it’s too cold. Really, can you get me a little hot water bag?” I’m sorry.
The little girl is sure to judge my words, but she’s still getting a nice warm hand.
“Don’t steal any more needles! * She bends over and says, “Doesn’t it hurt? I’m sorry.
I looked into her eyes with some nasal acid, and for a long time no one had asked me whether I was in pain, and those who cared about me were long gone.
“No pain, no pain, no hard work for Nurse Chow. I’m sorry.
It’s a fake, but for half a month, my hands have been slashed, and I can’t sleep at night, so I’m walking around with a squirt.
Only Nurse Cho was present at the nurse ‘ s station and was crying.
I hit her on the table, “What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
“Shh! She looked around and nobody asked me, “Why don’t you sleep? I’m sorry.
I said, “I can’t sleep, I’m running away.” I’m sorry.
She looked at my face and touched my forehead and wondered, “Is it painful?” I’m sorry.
I was going to say no, the ghost’s bad. I nodded.
She waved at me, and I opened the nurse’s door to her, and I ate a big piece of sweet, tedious bread, and I watched with her 5 a bunch of dog-blooded dramas, and she used a big bag of paper towels, and she didn’t rush me back to the room until the day was covered.
I told her, “Wait for me to watch. I remember this story. You can’t peek! I’m sorry.
Cho smiled and said, “Come on, go back to bed! I’m sorry.
After I watched three late-night TV shows with Cho, one night I got a phone call from a senior.
“Where are you?”
I pick the frown, “What’s it to you? I’m sorry.
I don’t get to ask when I’m married.
He was obviously choked by me and hung up on my phone, and I was in a good mood and ransacked into a blacklist.
Cho was waiting for me to watch TV, whispering, “It’s you, family.” I’m sorry.
I waved, “I have no family. My family is dead. I’m sorry.
Cho pointed to his cell phone and said, “What about him?” I’m sorry.
I looked at the screen and thought, “He?” He’s an asshole. I’m sorry.
Disgusting people!
But a phone call, which did nothing to my life, kept me sleeping during the day, in therapy, in the evenings, so I went to watch a TV show with Nurse Cho on duty.
But the pain in the ass didn’t just show up, and a week later I got a strange text message.
“You took me black? I’m sorry.
I pulled this number.
The man who made some money over the years, and he didn’t know who he used to be, and I fell asleep once, and he woke up on the phone.
Oh, forget, he was a young master.
“Hey! I can’t even keep my eyes open.
“Why aren’t you home? “The voice of the year is coming through the microphone.”
I’m a little impatient, but I’m a little impatient to ask, “What can I do for you?” I’m sorry.
“The money hit your card? I’m sorry.
“Whoever it is, why are you calling? I’m sorry.
Don’t hang up!
I took the microphone a little closer, and I said, “Tell me what you want to do. I’m sorry.
“Why aren’t you home? He started talking about the car again, and I asked, “Where are you at? I’m sorry.
“I’m telling you to get out of this house. I’ll hang up the middleman and I’ll have someone to see the house sometime. I’m sorry.
“You’re selling? How high is he? “You’re selling this house? I’m sorry.
I kept my heart down and said, “No, no, no, no. Shut up and get out of here. I’m sorry.
“Where are you? He sounds a bit serious.
“It’s none of your business! “I lost patience and immediately hung up, pulled away, deleted a dragon, and then couldn’t sleep.”
Open your eyes until dawn.
Ten million times in my heart.
5
Whether or not to be taken to treatment by Nurse Cho, it is inevitable that in their home country they will meet their relatives.
“Pippo”? * I’m the best friend I ever had in high school * I’m sorry.
It’s old-fashioned. It’s old-fashioned.
I had a little time to leave the house.
I picked the hot pot.
“How are you? The children ask carefully.
And I laughed, “Well, there’s plenty of money, but there won’t be a long life. I’m sorry.
Her hands were shaking and she looked at me.
I focused my attention on putting a piece of meat in my mouth before I found her in tears.
“Hey, you, what’s wrong with you? * I just pulled two pieces of paper out of her to wipe her tears, and I got a little busy. *
“What disease?”
I waved, “No cure, it’s okay, it’s not gonna die.” I’m sorry.
I looked out the window and said, “I want to die in the clear, and winter is still too cold. I’m sorry.
“Are you and Seo-wan still so close? I’m sorry.
Turning to Seo-woo, her eyes were dim and whispered.
I didn’t persuade her. Not everyone wants to understand that life is alive and happy.
“Can I ask you something? I asked her with my feet.
“You say. I’m sorry.
“Don’t tell anyone you met me. If you’re free, you can visit me more. I’m sorry.
Maybe the cold wind blew her eyes red, “Well. I’m sorry.
“Don’t you know?”
“Well, we’re divorced, he doesn’t need to know. I’m sorry.
The children no longer speak, and we look forward in silence.
When I was in school, I was a very emotional couple, and I was a kid who was chasing a scoundrel.
The north wind whistles, even though it has had good times, and it’s not even there.
Returning to the ward because of the irregular diet that was seized by the nurse Zhou, I listened and said I would never do it again.
She didn’t back down, she took a pusher to cut my hair, and I stood by.
We argued for two days.
“Just to go out for a meal, so you can’t go anymore? Why cut your hair? I’m sorry.
Nurse Cho reasoned with me, “You have to start chemotherapy, it’ll lose your hair. We’ll cut it better. I’m sorry.
I was thinking, “Is it okay not to do chemo?” I’m sorry.
Nurse Cho was angry, and I laughed at her, “Okay, okay, I’ll think about it. I’m sorry.
She’s going to say something to me.
Who are you looking for?
He just looked at me like he wanted to see something in my face.
“For me, Nurse Cho will let my hair go to work. I’m sorry.
She frowned and looked at the man and looked at me and whispered, “Call me if anything happened.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t say no until I sent her out.
Turning to the year, I asked him, “Don’t you want to spend New Year’s Day with Joe? I’m sorry.
On Valentine’s Day, Christmas, New Year’s Day, Joe’s heart always had all kinds of reasons to call it a year, and for some time I even hated festivals, which made me look even more… lonely.
Then I get used to it, and I think it’s good to be alone, and he’s coming back.
“What’s your trick again?”
It hurts even when you get used to a sharp knife.
I cried, “Yes, this is my new way. Don’t be deceived, go away.” I’m sorry.
“You’re coming with me. * He’s going to come after me, and I’m afraid he’ll take a few steps *
“I’m so sorry, you let me go! “I made it worse to shake off his hand.
“What are you doing here?”
He let go of my hand two steps back, “You can’t take more money from me under the pretext of being sick, you know we’re divorced! I’m sorry.
My little mouth in the air just felt that the blood in my heart was starting to go out of circulation.
I don’t even want to say a word to him, but I’m going to rip him out, “Go, go, take your two bucks and go to your little lover and disappear from my sight! I’m sorry.
The last sentence, I almost yelled at the exit, bit my teeth in the collar, closed the door and walked out.
Six.
Nurse Cho opened the door with some concern, “Are you okay? I’m sorry.
I said, “Can’t you use a bad word without a drop?” I’m sorry.
“Oh, no. I’m sorry.
“…and I’m fine. I’m sorry.
I haven’t been here since that year, and I’ve had another week.
It’s always come to me, even though we can’t even say a few words and fear that one might touch each other’s pains, but it’s all good.
I always wanted her to smuggle me some “spam” food, but she always took it away by being found by Nurse Cho.
I don’t have words to choke.
In the new year, closer to the day, Nurse Cho whispered to me, “The weather is getting colder.” I’m sorry.
I smiled, “La Zachi, freeze to death.” I’m sorry.
I’d have to go back to the ward on time if I’d stayed out of the air.
Turning around too hard, banging on a man, and I was dazzling, and I apologized. I’m sorry.
I’d go forward with my forehead around him, but it was pulled back.
“Windwood! I’d like to slap him if the weather wasn’t too cold and lazy.
“What are you doing? I looked at him with no fear.
He didn’t look like he was the last time. He had a grotesque face.
“What? It’s only a few days since we got divorced. Little lover dumped you?”
And I mocked him in a strange way, and it was strange that he, instead of refuting me, stood straight at me.
I had a chill and he walked in the house.
“Smally. I’m sorry.
I’m a smart-ass bullet three meters away. I’m sorry.
It’s been a long time since I’ve been called that. It’s a strange language.
“Why didn’t you tell me you were sick?” I’m sorry.
I was thinking, “What does it have to do with you? I’m sorry.
We are all silent.
“We have at least a couple. I’m sorry.
I looked at him and said, “No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. The last thing I’d regret in my life was having a relationship with you. I’m sorry.
I threw my head off, but he didn’t. He just followed me.
I don’t know if it’s the reason I’m not sleeping at night, but I can’t see if the calendar’s on duty today, too.
When the door was opened, it was shocked by the convulsion on the left bench.
It’s a man’s face.
I kicked him in the head, “What are you doing here? I’m sorry.
He didn’t get upset when he woke up. He just asked me, “What are you going to do?” What’s wrong with you?”
And I said with no good breath, “I am comfortable wherever you disappear before me.” I’m sorry.
And he touched his face with his hand, and said: I will not go, but I found you. I’m sorry.
“What for?”
He doesn’t talk. I don’t want to stand up and talk to him.
“Come on, or I’ll report you using public resources! I’m sorry.
Leave one thing behind, I rushed over to see a TV show with Nurse Cho.
When Nurse Cho approached me on the way to the commercial, “The man stood at your door for a long time today, just couldn’t see it coming. I’m sorry.
I think I left him when I was sleeping this afternoon, and who knew he was back?
“Leave him alone and leave in a while. I’m sorry.
Home warmth, the company’s evaporating, and I’m just saying that I’m not going to spend too much time thinking about myself.
“He asked us to adjust your medical records…”
I’m not talking.
“I didn’t give it to him, but someone else might. He said he was your husband. I’m sorry.
I was in a hurry, “It’s a misunderstanding. It’s a clarification! We were ex-husbands!
“I don’t know if he came to me to care about me or to want me to share his wealth. I’m sorry.
Nurse Cho was on guard, looking behind me, “What are you doing? I’m sorry.
I almost got a heart attack when I turned around. I’m sorry.
“Not for money. I’m sorry.
I looked up to the ceiling and said, “What else can I do? I’m sorry.
I had to drag him back to his room and sit on his bed and talk to him.
7
“You win, okay?”
“What do you need me to do? How much do I owe you? How much do you need?”
He put my hand in the blanket, held it out, and laughed at me. I’m sorry.
“Don’t do this.” I’m swinging at him, “Well, you just write the contract of assignment and I’ll sign it, and you get the fuck out of here, okay? I’m sorry.
You’ve been biting your teeth and staring at me. I’m sorry.
I said, “Sorry, that could be before you.” I’m sorry.
Swords and tears in the sky.
“I’m not dead yet. Are you crying about rats so soon? * I swung my hand in front of him, and my heart got darker *
I’m sorry. Don’t scare me. “It’s been a year since my eyes were red and my hands were reaching out to my fingers.
After all these years, he knew how to make me soft.
But when he gets mad at me in school, just sits in front of me and picks up my fingers, and he slows his voice and says, “Little girl, don’t be angry with me, little girl, don’t be angry with me. I love little girl, okay? I’m sorry.
Fuck off! “I got so angry I kicked his ass.
I’m sick of him pretending to be 18 years old to cheer me up every time I forgive him with those eyes that hurt me when I was 18.
I’m tired of myself, always soft.
“I’ll be outside the door, if you miss me, just call me.” I’m sorry.
Get out! One more second, I can cry.
Why don’t you miss him? But I can’t think of another 18-year-old.
28-year-old, I’m afraid not.
Nurse Cho is coming home for the New Year, and she says, “Take your medicine, take your fluid!” No needles, no running. I’m sorry.
I followed her and I said, “Take your medicine, take your fluid! No needles, no running. I’m sorry.
Nurse Chow was very pleased, and I was lying on the stage and I asked her, “Can we get more painkillers? I’m sorry.
The nurse of Zhou shook her head and approached her, saying, “If you do not let him in, it will be New Year.” I’m sorry.
I said no because he was at the door and it was hard to think.
It hurts more.
On this 30th day, I don’t care if I’m out of my room, and then I go back to my room and watch the TV.
The firecrackers out there were banging, and I was standing by the window and rubbing.
“Ooh. I’m sorry.
“Happy New Year, Siam. * I’ve been blinking at my eyes for years, with a smile in my mouth and a cake in his eyes in the night only candles on the cake. *
“Sigh, make a wish. * He pushed the cake in front of me *
I’m holding the door still, and I’m looking at him in a very complicated way, “You’re so boring. I’m sorry.
I blew out the candle two years ago on New Year’s Eve, and I said that I wanted you to be alone with me, that you came back, and then at 11 p.m. you said you were leaving, that there were big projects, that partners were only New Year’s! You gotta go work overtime. I’m sorry.
“What overtime? I heard her say she was scared and she wanted you to stay with her. I’m sorry.
And I put my hands against my chest, and said, “In the night of your absence, I spent a year alone, feeling that the winter was too cold for the New Year, and from that day I would not look forward to the New Year. I’m sorry.
You forget, I haven’t. I’ve longed for New Year’s.
I don’t have a new year either.
My hands are shaking, like they’re trying to cover up. I’m tired of listening.
“I know it wasn’t then that she was pregnant, that you were there for her, that I regretted most, that you didn’t see it, that you could change your mind, that you might be able to make a New Year’s wish now. I’m sorry.
“I want to live to be 100 years old. Can you do that for me? I’m sorry.
I closed the door in the back of my hand, and I didn’t know if it hit him in the face and smashed his face.
8
The children came to me and looked out of the door and said, “Is it a year outside of the house?” I’m sorry.
And I corrected her with my words, “No, it’s annoying.” I’m sorry.
“Really? I’m sorry.
“Cut it. Nurse Cho is too busy. Don’t take her time. Take my place. I’m sorry.
The boy said goodbye to my hair.
I looked in the mirror and I thought, “What a patient.
I can’t get anywhere at first because of the pain.
I asked Nurse Zhou to find me a helper. I said, “For those who work hard, I have money.” I’m sorry.
Nurse Zhou told me to get me a nurse the next day and was stopped before he came in.
“I’ll take care of you. He’s very light and he’s very tough.
I don’t want to talk, or I’m gonna squeal out and say, “Get out! I’m sorry.
“I’ve heard it too many times. I’m immune. I’m sorry.
I’ve got a lot worse, and I’ve forgotten that I’m the one who’s born to fight me.
When it took a second, I threw everything away and let him roll.
He was lying in front of me and he said, “How about we go back to C City for treatment?” I’m sorry.
I turned my head and asked him, “Do you understand what “late” is? I’m sorry.
And I don’t want to go back to City C, where there were so many memories I hated.
“How? There’s going to be some improvement. I’m sorry.
I threw his hand away and said, “What good is better?” My family’s underground. I went to join them. Why do you keep me from reuniting? I’m sorry.
“We are family, don’t you remember? I’m sorry.
“Let’s make a movie tomorrow. It’s time for you to heal. We’re divorced! I’ll give you a banner so you can remember, right? I’m sorry.
I took a deep breath and said, “Are you particularly fond of this sick girl? The girl you liked at first was your assistant. She got sick and hung up at the hospital, and then Jocey ran for three days. I’m sorry.
And I realized, “Yeah, you like sick women. I’m sorry.
He was pale and he was shaking his head.
“It’s a strange thing to do, but you should see it. I’m sorry.
I’m sick of him now, “I’m warning you, don’t stop me from looking for a nurse, and I’m not leaving you my money tomorrow! I took it out of the window and I wouldn’t give it to you! I’m sorry.
“Whatever.” I’m sorry.
He’s tearing my back, and I’m sickening, and he’s throwing up everything at night.
I didn’t stop my nurse from coming in, except he sometimes helped me with the nurse I asked to work with, and I kept my eyes closed for his strange hobby.
As long as it’s not in front of me.
On the night of New Year’s Eve, sister-in-law asked for leave, and I’m happy to accept it, after all, my grandson’s milk.
There’s fireworks out there, and I look out against the window.
“Little twig, cold by the window. I’m sorry.
I turned around, and he’s been here for over a month, sleeping out on the bench.
And nurse Zhou drove him away at first, and then whispered to me, “He always warmed you while you were asleep. I was embarrassed to drive him away.” I’m sorry.
“We’re going for a walk? I’m sorry.
The New Year’s Eve is different, when I was young, the skyscraper sneaked out of the house, held my hand behind the school in the snack street and bought me something to eat with his money.
He’s got a big family, and he’s always sneaking out of all kinds of parties and showing up like a little prince in a little suit.
I look forward to this day in a year.
I used to ask him, “What if your family doesn’t agree with us?” I’m sorry.
And when he smiled, he took hold of him, and said, “So let us flee, as we are now.” I’m sorry.
It was true that the chief wanted him to marry a better girl than an orphan who had no family.
And he refused, and took me out of the city at some night.
I’ll always remember lying in his arms on that bumpy train that year, “I don’t have a family anymore, si. I’m sorry.
He held me in his arms and said, “We have a new home! I’ll be your family!”
That year he held my warm hands and he was so excited like a heart to come out of his throat, I always remembered.
The vows are heard, and now things are wrong.
How can we get to the point where we’ve done so much for each other?
I don’t understand, I don’t think about it anymore.
“I want to eat that. “I’m pointing at a roasted intestine to the year of the year.”
He’s got a face.
I’m gonna go ahead and get it myself.
“All right, just buy it for you. You stand here and wait for me. I’m sorry.
I took a bite with satisfaction and found myself in my youth.
And then he ordered the year to buy me sugar scallops, fishballs, ice bowls.
If I can’t get it myself, I’ll make me an artificial support for my hard years.
He’s just saying.
“Shut up! I looked at him and said, “If you want me to blame you, go back.” I’m sorry.
“Sweetie, eat less. * He’s a little stingy, I look at the past and see only his tiny red eyes. *
“Why are you crying? Are you here to see when I die? “I’m suffocating his breath and walking away.”
“I’m the one who said the wrong thing. “Let’s eat some more.” I’m sorry.
Don’t eat! “I’m not happy, and I can’t make him happy.
“It’s not good for my health. Do you want me to die? I’m sorry.
You want to eat rice? The one in the back street. I’m sorry.
It’s a store we used to go to every year. I love her stuff.
It may be the temptation of food, or it may be the back of a young student, more likely … it is the look of a year in a suit with a low head that coincides with a moment at a time in a given year.
I nod my head.
9
The rice store changed its boss, the old boss was a fat big brother, now a young couple.
Look more friendly, but I still want my old brother.
The food tastes different. It’s a lot of innovation.
I didn’t take a few bites, I didn’t move chopsticks too much.
And when the bill was settled, the young couple stopped and said, “Can we ask if it tastes like food?” I don’t think you guys ate much. I’m sorry.
I waved, “No, no, no.”
Just like old.
Food too, man too.
Change is just change, not last.
As we walk back together, and the sky begins to set up fireworks, I look at the face of the year and think that the loved ones still have privileges.
Make a wish. I’m sorry.
I’m standing there sucking my nose at him, “Come on. I’m sorry.
And the scurry bowed down, and drew close to my cheeks, and he looked at me and said: If heaven could hear, I would wish to return to the past. I’m sorry.
And I said to him, “God heard it and said to you, “The wish is not working.” I’m sorry.
God can’t hear me, because I’ve made 10,000 promises.
No clock in the opposite direction, no past.
It was so nice today that I opened my mouth and said, “I didn’t throw it away. I’m sorry.
The mouth of the year goes down.
“You asked her to be my assistant, and I’m really angry, but you’re the one with no face, and the kid’s not in shape. I’m sorry.
The more I talk, the less I let him in.
“You’re so dirty! I’m sorry.
I closed the door to hope it would kill him.
Soon I won’t be able to get out of bed, and the doctor asked me if I wanted an operation to say that there was some risk but if it worked, I could live for months.
That’s not what I said. I translated it.
I said no, I said yes.
I laughed at him and said, “You don’t count. You’re not entitled to sign my medical notice. I’m sorry.
He’s crying again. I don’t want to see it.
“We’re all right now. I’m sorry.
He can’t make a decision for me. Nobody in the world can make a decision for me.
I never let him in, he slept in the chair outside the door for a long time, and Nurse Cho came to persuade me not to let him in.
“You’re on my side! I’m sorry.
Nurse Zhou smiled and said, “Yes, but didn’t you cover him in secret?” I’m sorry.
I’ll lose the city first.
I wouldn’t let him in, and I said to Nurse Cho, “It’s the only thing I can hold on to.” I’m sorry.
At the end of life, there is hope that you can be more worthy of yourself.
I can’t forgive him. That makes me ashamed of myself.
You can’t get in, you start sending me flowers.
I love white roses. He books me a big bouquet of day.
And I laughed to the children for half a day, saying, “Bring me this flower when you come to the grave. I don’t like the ass. I’m sorry.
It’s a child’s school.
He changed the pink roses the second day of the year. I thought so.
It’s the enemy!
But I didn’t say anything. Pink roses are my heart.
I can’t sleep well in the middle of the night, and I can always see a blurry shadow sitting in front of my bed.
I wondered whether I was weak enough or if my lost family came to pick me up.
Until the man held my hand and opened his mouth, “Sigh, I was wrong. I’m sorry.
Oh, it’s the year.
The tears of the year and the temperature of his hands are not the same, but the cold people have hot body temperature.
I closed my eyes and went back to sleep.
Tell him I’m too tired to sleep.
He came to my bed day after day, and said, “What is it?”
“You don’t want me. I’m sorry.
Well, no.
“You’ve lost so much weight. I’m sorry.
Well, sick.
“Do you forgive me? I’ve let everyone else go, and I’ll go home on time and I’ll tell you every day that I love you, just like before. I’m sorry.
My nose is sore, my eyes are open, “Do you know that I’ve been trying on you? I’m sorry.
He’s quiet down.
“Sigh, I was wrong. I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong with you?” It’s just that I’m tired of looking for new people, but it’s just that I feel a little upset that someone who’s been around suddenly is gone, and then I feel guilty that she’s dying soon. I’m sorry.
“No, I’m not! At 18 years old and 28 years old, you’re crying like you’re crying.
“You don’t love me long ago. Don’t be such a liar. I’m sorry.
I stood up and said, “Even if I get better now and go home with you, you’ll soon get tired of this life. You just love to find something new. If we live together, five years, ten years, you’ll forget it, or another young girl will come to us.” I’m sorry.
“I won’t…” He’s too small to hear me.
“You’ll bring them back to me and ask me if I want a divorce? They say they fear you, they say they feel sorry for you, they say they leave me alone, they say they are pregnant and you have an abortion, and you automatically blame me for taking me into the role of the villain. I’m sorry.
“Little Plum…”
I interrupted him, “It’s okay, it’s really okay. I never wanted to tie you up, because I was afraid you couldn’t see your heart. How can you take guilt as love? I’m sorry.
He cried like an abandoned puppy.
He held my waist and wept my clothes, and he kept saying, “I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you…”
“The liar. I’m sorry.
I’ve seen a man love me. Why is he still trying to trick me?
I looked up and thought I’d never shed a tear for my age, not a drop.
10
I haven’t had much time to wake up, and every time I open my eyes, I put a bunch of pink roses on my head.
I don’t refuse to go to my ward again, but I don’t look at him anymore.
I feel guilty when Nurse Cho comes to give me a needle, and I think I’m sorry for the young boy, who’s just going to leave.
I squeezed her hand, “Here’s a present for you. I’m sorry.
“What? I’m sorry.
“You don’t cry, tell you.” I’m sorry.
“Who cried? I didn’t! I’m sorry.
I’m laughing. I can’t tell you this until I’m dead.
You wipe my body every year, and I’m not struggling to just stare at him. I’m sorry.
He asked me, “What do you think I look like? I’ll fix it.” I’m sorry.
I shook my head and said, “Stop, you can’t go back to 18. I’m sorry.
I said, I’m still a clean young man.
You know, you’ve been laughing for years and you’ve been covering me.
“You don’t like me anymore because I’m not 18 anymore? I’m sorry.
I’m curious, but he didn’t answer the question. He cried to me on his back, and his back was shaking like he was going to faint the next second.
In the evening, he touched my cheeks with my fluid pipe and said, “It’s beautiful, it’s beautiful.” I’m sorry.
Liar, then why love others.
I stopped talking to him and fell asleep.
After asking Nurse Cho for more painkillers for the first time, the weather finally warmed for a short time.
After a big snowstorm.
The boy came to me with fruit, and I asked her, “Can you take me out for a walk? The weather looks good outside.” I’m sorry.
She looked around, “What about the year?”
I said, “Go buy flowers. I’m sorry.
The kid smiled or put a thick coat on me and pushed me out the door.
I saw Nurse Cho when I was passing through the nurse’s station, and I was laughing at her, and she was crying down.
I’ll get me another coat and wait for her.
“The TV show isn’t over yet! Nurse Cho said with her eyes red.
I laughed, “300 Episode! I’ve watched it with you. I’m sorry.
“There are two more. I’m sorry.
She’s telling me she wants me back.
“You see the two remaining episodes, you must read them. I’m sorry.
I’m telling her I’m going to the New World.
I guess I know, I’m called back to the light.
What else would Nurse Chow say? I said to her, “Son Cho, be happy.” I’m sorry.
So kind, live the rest of your life.
The boy pushed me down the stairs and I stopped her in a warm sun.
The sun warms the first spring, and I lazily ask, “You told me I was here? I’m sorry.
The children went to school and bended over and asked me, “Would you like some water? I’m sorry.
I laughed, “It’s okay, it’s okay. I’m sorry.
“Suwan is getting married. I’m sorry.
She’s not silent this time, “Well. I’m sorry.
“What do you think?”
Her eyes were moving so far, it was like a wind blowing, “I don’t know. I’m sorry.
I nod my head. I didn’t say anything.
Po, I suddenly said her name.
The boy’s eyes were red.
“Bo, do you remember what we wanted when we went to school? I’m sorry.
“We love sweets when we want to be bakers and make the best sweets to make everyone happy.” I’m sorry.
What a simple wish.
Children’s thoughts are raised by their mothers alone, and people like them always love each other, and we try to get close to each other.
The snow of a cold night melts with warm sunlight, the hottest light of my life.
“Pippa! Pip! Pip!
I turned around, and I saw my name in the window with a bunch of pink roses, and he was in a hurry, half of his body was out of the window, and I looked at him from a distance and thought, that’s all. That’s all. That’s all.
“Shall we go back? The children are trying to push me away.
And We stretched out our hand against her and laughed, and said, “Bo, this is a punishment for you to tell the Quran secretly.” I’m sorry.
I want you to send me away alone.
The tears of the children came out and I raised my hand to wipe them out.
“Bo, look, what I want to see most is this scene. I’m sorry.
And I pointed at the year of the division, and said, “He cared for me, took care of me, and feared me, because he was so sweaty that he could not find me.” I’m sorry.
“From the first time I met a division until today, it’s half my life. I leaned back to make myself comfortable.
Half the time.
“The good and the bad are all from him, the truest emotions, the worst words, the hardest to put aside. I’m sorry.
I closed my eyes and my voice cried, “Boo, how are we planted on a man?” I’m sorry.
How can we forget the first dream, the simplest wish, the easiest joy?
“Bo,” I put out my hand to pull her wrist, whispering, “Bo, I want us to live in fairy tales, and if there is a setback, someone will come to save us.” I’m sorry.
“But no, Po, no…”
My tears fell down in the palm of my hand, and a bouquet of water rose up, “Bo, who can save us? I’m sorry.
Only we can save ourselves.
“Bo, I want you to be happy, you should have been the happiest! I’m sorry.
We were supposed to be happy.
The child’s lips shivered and tears fell on my hand, and she said, “Don’t go. Don’t go. Don’t go.” I’m sorry.
We’re used to being grown-ups, and we don’t talk like that anymore. The last thing we need to grow up is to talk about children’s fairy tales.
But between life and death, everything can be forgiven.
I watched her cry without the strength to wipe it out.
“Bo, do what you want. “Whatever it is, I want you to do what you really want to do, even if you’re still there to keep your eyes open for a love that doesn’t work.”
“You want to be happy. I’m sorry.
Be happy for me.
“Do you have anything to say to the year when you wake up?
My consciousness began to wrangle, and it was as if my soul had been emptied, and I could only shake my head stiff.
What are you saying?
Enough sweet words when you fall in love, enough words when you are not loved, and so cold words when you die.
What else can I tell him?
I told him everything I could in my life.
Turns out we have nothing to say at the end.
Po, I’m still laughing at her.
“It’s the sun.” I’m sorry.
It’s my favorite, warm skies.
On Yellow Springs, it won’t be cold.
“Pippo! “Someone ran to me with hiss, and I looked up, like a year in the arms with pink roses.
He ran to me like he’d done everything he could.
And then I saw again that spring, when a young man in a white blue school uniform came running in panting, holding in his hand the wild flowers that were hurriedly picked up by the side of the road.
He was ashamed of his face and looked at me and said, “Can I be my girlfriend?” I promise I’ll be good to you! I’m sorry.
I just laughed, and I took the flowers and said to him, “Well, that’s it, you don’t break your promise.” I’m sorry.
Don’t you dare…
You’re breaking my word.
The one said never to drop tears, or drops down in his eyes.
The spring returns to the earth, and I will not sleep.
He’s on his way.
“You don’t want to see me, do you? I’m sorry.
The tombstone is silent and the people in the photograph are just laughing, but I miss the way she stands before me and scolds me.
Even if it’s just a stick to smash the house.
Unfortunately not.
“You’re so mean, you don’t leave me a word. I’m sorry.
I’ll never see you again. Only one grave I’ve already bought.
“Nurse Cho cried so badly that she said she would never watch the last two shows. She promised to watch them together. I’m sorry.
The kid cried so bad, his eyes were swollen.
And We said with that great bouquet of roses, “You gave her all of her money, and your eyes were always better, and Nurse Zhou was a good child, and she said that she was already a healer, and that the money was going to be in the hands of people who were more meaningful and in need of help.” I’m sorry.
You recognize people but you love me.
“The children were separated from Seo-seek, who stayed in front of the small shop she had bought every day without being married. I’m sorry.
I’m sure she didn’t tell me what she said to the boy.
“Why didn’t you come to my dream once? I’m sorry.
I’m still reaching for her cold picture, “Yeah, you should blame me. I’m sorry.
I got myself a bottle of wine, “I blame myself, too. I’m sorry.
“It’s fresh at first, it’s fresh at first. Why can’t you go back? I’m sorry.
“I never wanted to divorce you, but I didn’t want to divorce you, I thought…”
Thought you’d never go.
You’ve been behind me. You’re behind me as long as I look back.
I’m greedy.
“You don’t believe anything I say. It’s okay. I’ll see you if you don’t come to me. I forgot.
“To have a home with you. I’m sorry.
“As soon as you’re gone, there’s really no one else. I’m sorry.
“You must think I’m funny, and I think I’m funny. How come you’ve come to understand what you want? I’m sorry.
“You must have thought it was the boy who told me where you were, right? No, I’m looking for you. I’m sorry.
“I’m looking for you. I’m sorry.
“I’ve been looking for you for a long time, and I’m scared I can’t find you. I’m sorry.
“And then I found you and you were in the hospital. I’m sorry.
“I’d rather you lied to me, yelled at me, hit me, and didn’t want you to be really sick. I’m sorry.
I wipe my tears and say, “You’re probably going to call me a cat crying a rat again. I’m sorry.
I thought about it, “Our house, I bought it back.” I’m sorry.
“It’s a house that has our memories. How can it be sold to someone else? I’m sorry.
“The store in the back street of the school, I took it down. I’m sorry.
“That’s your favorite, and I’ll do it later. I’m sorry.
“You must be scolding me. It’s all right. I dreamt of being scolded. I’m sorry.
I thought of the cakes in the bag with the children’s books.
“I have to give this to you. I almost forgot. She said it was the first time she made it. She said she wanted it for you. I’m sorry.
“I miss you so much, I’m in my dream, okay? I’m sorry.
I look in my eyes and you certainly don’t.
Well, then I’ll find you.
Remark…
The children spent a long time thinking and burying their ashes next to the forest.
“The weather is cold, go home early. @SiuO, who was standing next to her, whispered with an umbrella.
“I thought that the department would go through with it. I’m sorry.
“The memory is too heavy for him to let go.” I’m sorry.
“Why did you do that at first? I’m sorry.
Look down, ’cause I can’t see. I’m sorry.
The children moved around and walked out.
“I’ll take you back to the store. I’m sorry.
“No, my husband is waiting for me. Go back early, it’s cold.” I’m sorry.
It’s too heavy to remember, and who can cut it off?
I can’t see it. Case number: YXX1v6M5zbJsg2pRw9AFPjP1
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
