His brother has always hated to kill me.
He said to me, “When I come to the land, I will be sent to the land and to my relatives.”
And the day when my brother choked on my jaw, he said, “You will not go anywhere but by my side.” I’m sorry.
One.
The world knows I am not the son of the late emperor.
When I was eight years old, my father was killed by nine clans on charges of treason. More than 300 people were killed by the Kang family overnight, and only me and my mother survived.
My mother entered the palace to be the princess of the late Emperor, the first of whom was in love with the house and the Wu, because I had half of my mother’s blood and looked at me and gave me the seal of a princess.
No one in the palace could see me and my mother, and they all say that my mother is afraid of death and not of the woman.
In the eyes of these people, when my father is dead, my mother should have followed her.
I always thought my mother had no choice but to keep me alive.
But I learned later that I was wrong.
Before my father married me, my mother had a crush on him, but my mother couldn’t enter the Orient Palace, and then my father cut off my beard.
There’s a rumor in the palace that my father was a traitor and that my mother gave it to the late Emperor.
He’s never given up on my mother’s birth, but only my mother’s wife is in his backyard.
My mother wanted to have fresh fruit in the cold winter, and my father could go to the mountains a few miles from the city to get it.
Even though I’m the only girl in the entire Constabulary, my father didn’t show any dissatisfaction.
My people say that my father will hold me in his arms, with a red face, when he does not give birth to a son, and that he will argue with them: “Is it not for a son to inherit his family?” We’d rather do the same. I’m sorry.
Why would my mother betray my father?
But I was afraid of my mother, and I couldn’t ask my mother if she killed my father.
I’m glad to hear about my mother’s pregnancy. I can have another brother or sister, and we’re the closest family in the world.
But I’m afraid she’ll be bullied like me when she’s born.
I’m too young to protect her.
Two.
Before the Emperor brought me and my mother into the palace, there would have been a bunch of hyenas in the palace, and many of them would have fallen on their knees.
The Prince is the Queen’s tummy.
I was embarrassed in the palace, and the princesses loved to mock me.
My sister pityed my father when I was a little girl, and the only mother ignored me. She told me, “Don’t look at all the Queens, but only the Queen is the true master of this palace. His Royal Highness is a good friend. I’m sorry.
The grandmother crouched in front of me to deal with the bruises on her hand: “If the Crown Prince were to protect you, you would never have to be bullied again.” I’m sorry.
“We princesses are so beautiful, the Prince will love it. I’m sorry.
I just came into the palace and didn’t understand anything. I just didn’t want to be bullied again, I didn’t want to get hurt any more. I just thought that maybe I could find a shelter for my unborn brother and sister.
So I listened to the Sister to please Xiaoxi.
But the Sister was wrong, and Xiao Zhu was not a good match, and he was no different from the other princes who bullied me, and he was even worse than them.
We called him his brother after him as a dog’s ointment, and Xiao Zhu threw me to the ground, and he looked at me, loathing: “Who is your brother? You are but a sinner’s son.” I’m sorry.
Then I turned from the sinner’s son to the wild.
To please him, I will give him a piece of pastry from the emperor.
I’m not gonna touch it.
But I snagged the pastry all the way to the ground, and he crushed it in front of my face and threw out a roll. I’m sorry.
I didn’t dare cry in front of him with my tears, but I went home at night to cry in the presence of my sister: “Sama Willow, I do not want to please the Prince.” I’m sorry.
Sister Liu exclaimed: “What will you do for the future, if you do not please the Prince?” I’m sorry.
I’ve been trying to win down a year in the dust, perhaps I’m a real pain in the ass, and I’m not feeling any better.
The last time I was in the South Library, I almost lost my life, and I never dared to come to him again.
4
My father was a martial artsman, and his greatest wish in his life was that I should be able to read and read, and that I would be as well-versed as any other daughter in the capital.
Unfortunately, when my father was here, I was tired of reading, and I was sleepy when I started teaching books.
Now that Dad’s gone, I’m finally willing to learn the most boring things I ever saw.
The South Library is the courtyard of the Royal Princess of the Palace, and I’ve been able to study with them since I’ve been here before.
I was always the last one to go to the library, and that day I finished my work at the South Library as usual before I was ready to go back.
It’s late in the autumn, and it’s cold in the rain, but it’s good for me to leave in the morning with an umbrella.
When I left the South Library, I saw Xiao Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhu Zhi, sheltering from the rain.
Xiao Zhu doesn’t normally attend classes in the South Library. He is the Prince, and only one is taught by the Prince.
And when I saw him suddenly, I was afraid, and there was no one around, and I feared that he would strike me, and that he would freeze colder eyes and words than rain.
But after a moment of hesitation, I went forth and gave him my umbrella: “By brother, I have an umbrella.” I’m sorry.
Because Sister Willow says I can live in this palace only if I ask for him, and because he is a prince and a future emperor.
He said that it was by the eyes of a wise man that the world would be at peace, without fear. Even if Shaw had struck me, I would have wished he would have become a king of all people.
I guess Ming can’t get sick in the rain. But I don’t care if I get sick in the rain and nobody cares.
I dared not to look down at Shaw, but to send the umbrella to him, with my head down, with care: “Your brother, the umbrella is for you.” I’m sorry.
Shaw is looking at me, and I can feel the horror of my head even if I don’t see it, and I’m starting to get scared and my hand to him is starting to tremble.
He hasn’t answered for a long time. He’s starting to get sour in my hand.
If I had known that looking up at him would have given rise to a beating, I wouldn’t have looked up if my hands had broken.
No, I shouldn’t have done that in the first place.
I don’t even know where I got mad at Shaw, but he fell on his face before I could even see his face.
I rolled in the mud, and I didn’t wake up from the dizziness of this slap, and he came up with a face on me, and he choked my neck and scolded me and my mother, “You’re just like your mother.” I’m sorry.
I can’t breathe. I think I’m gonna die here.
But I’m not dead. The eunuchs after Xiaoxiu came and pulled him off.
“Go away, do you want to die with her? I’m sorry.
The eunuchs came to me silently, and I crawled in the mud.
I don’t know why my life is so sad and why I still want to live.
But I couldn’t get away with it, and then two steps back.
He did not strangle me this time, but he would drag me to the pool and press me hard in the water.
The cold has been forgotten at the moment of death, and I even think the water in that pool is warm.
I began to see white light before my eyes, and I felt as if my father had reached out to me with his hands. He said, “Nining, go with him when it was too bitter.” I’m sorry.
But my dad didn’t take me away. I was pulled out of the pool.
The man has a gentle eye, a kind eye, and he is naked, a monk.
“Why do you have to do that? “The monks are frowned on to the squawk.
It was only at this point that Xiao Xiaoxio woke up, and he could’ve scared me into the hands of Monk when he cleaned me.
The monk’s body was warm, and his hands on my back were warm. He said, “Don’t be afraid of the little princess. Your Highness has gone away.” I’m sorry.
I dared to cry when it was confirmed that Shaw had left, and I cried with my hands in the clothes of my monk.
I knew Shaw hated me before, but today I realized he really hated me so much that he wanted to kill me.
I cried with my mouth open, almost choked by rain.
Monk will stand above my head.
Death is a terrible thing for me at the age of eight, and it reminds me of Sister Willow’s instruction in asking me to bow down.
I was in the arms of a monk, and told this stranger of my sins: “Everyone hates me, and they want me dead.” I’m sorry.
And the monk comforted me, saying, “Someone hates you, and others like you. In this there is one, and there is one, and there is none, and the other is destroyed. I’m sorry.
I’ve read a lot of books for a year, but I don’t understand what a monk says.
I asked him, “Do I live if so many people hate me? I’m sorry.
And the monk smiled softly, as if I had seen the radiant flame behind him.
“The princess’s hands are clean and clean. If she wants to live, she can live. I’m sorry.
I looked down at my own hands and I didn’t understand why monks said I was muddy and clean.
But he convinced me of his unsettling heart, like a spring wind and a smile. On the edge of life or death, I remember the monk’s words in my heart, and I told myself that I was clean and clean and that I should live better than any of them.
5
I was sick a long time after the rain, so everyone knew that Xiao Zhuo had almost killed the tow bottle that Li had brought into the palace, but everyone chose to remain silent.
My mother knew about it, but she didn’t come to see me, and she didn’t send anyone from her palace to give me some medicine.
Sister Willow comforted me that my mother had her reasons, but I didn’t believe it.
No one in the palace knows that Princess Li has been the first Emperor since she entered the palace but she has never been anywhere else.
She can fight the queen for love, and she can’t even look at me.
I don’t talk about it, but I’m whispering hate to my mother.
I’m beginning to wonder if my father was killed by my mother and the late Emperor, as they say.
I no longer look forward to the birth of a baby in my mother ‘ s belly, because I no longer consider her to be my loved ones in my heart, and I even imagined viciously that I would take her down on the way to my mother ‘ s walk and kill the child in her belly.
I suddenly heard a thick bell coming out of the walls when the idea came out.
I asked Sister Willow, “What is this noise?” She said, “There’s a Nanjing temple on the hill not far from the south wall, and our Lebanese master came from the Nanjing Temple.” I’m sorry.
“The last time I saved you was the Buddha of Naming Temple.” I’m sorry.
As a thief, the grandmother looked around, and no one was attached to me: “If the governor is silent, the Buddha will be our next national teacher.” I’m sorry.
Oh, that monk was a Buddha.
I suddenly thought of the misgivings I had in my heart. What was that bell saying to me?
With this in mind, my heart can’t wait to get faster. I’m ashamed to look down and not look south.
In the night, I turned over the bed, and I couldn’t sleep, and when Sister Willow fell asleep, I ran away.
The southern wall is not just a high wall, but a tower above it.
I went up the stairs step by step, standing on the stairs by the night breeze, and passed over the shadow of my mother-in-law’s tree, and saw a little light in the Nan Ming Temple.
And the heart under the chest was beating, and I bowed myself in the direction of the Southing Temple, and I repented to my god in my heart, and I swear to my God that I would have been clean and clean in my life, so that I would not have borne the salvation of Buddha.
Unfortunately, I did blaspheme the gods.
Six.
After that night, I didn’t have any more thoughts about the baby in my mother’s belly, but the kid didn’t last.
I heard my mother fell on the walk, and the kid was gone for over seven months.
When I heard the news, I didn’t know that I felt sorry for the child who had not been born and that my mother had worked so hard for so many months and had nothing left.
I know my mother loves the emperor, and she looks at him differently than she used to look at my father.
My mother wanted to give birth to this child for the late Emperor, because the child was not only the fruit of their love but also the strength of her position in the harem.
There’s a rumor in the palace that Xiao Xiao Zhu moved on my mother’s walk, that I believed it.
I’ve seen how vicious his heart is, and I know how much he hates me and my mother, but I can’t do anything.
My mother came to see me on the third day after the baby.
It’s been over a year since she came to see me.
I’m glad to run to her. I think my mother still has mine.
I was so happy to see my mother that I didn’t notice her face was blue and I looked in my eyes with resentment.
It wasn’t my mother’s warm arms, it was her heartless slaps.
I was slammed on the floor and I looked at her with my face on my face: “Mom!” I’m sorry.
“Why did you save Shaw? Did you know he killed my kid? My mother came up like a madman and grabbed my skirt and asked me, “Are you jealous of me having another baby?” Did you kill him with Shaw? I’m sorry.
I see tears in my eyes and my mother’s loathsome looks start to blur.
Long ago, I did save Shaw, when I went through Lake Bebo to hear the sound of a boom in the lake, and I heard the sound of it, just as I saw him struggling in the lake.
I was afraid, even if I struggled in the water, and was already drowning in the lake, and I just tried to run, but I heard the sound of Xiao Zhu calling for help.
His voice sounds so pathetic, it’s not the same as the one that cursed me.
I pressured my fear, or jumped in the water and dragged him to shore.
My father taught me when I was a kid, and my mother was so angry after my father taught me how to do it.
After dragging Shaw to shore, he fell to the shore without the strength to speak.
I was so young to drag a 13-year-old man ashore and almost lost his life.
But I can’t stop. I’m afraid when Shaw comes back, he’ll hit me and smother me in the water.
I didn’t even get my shoes on, and I ran away with them.
But I didn’t know except me and Shaw knew that he hated me even more because he knew I had saved him.
I suddenly realized that my mother pushed Shaw into the water.
If I had known I would have killed my mother’s baby, would I have saved him?
If you don’t save me, will my hands still be clean?
But when Xiao Xiao was saved, my mother’s child was killed, and she said I was also the killer of her child.
“If it wasn’t for you, Shaw would have died, my child would have been born, he would have become a prince, and he would have become the emperor of the Lebanese. I’m sorry.
My mother was driven away from me by the maid who came after me, but she struggled to rush towards me: “You killed my son, and I will not spare you.” I’m sorry.
I wanted to explain, but I didn’t know how to say it, “Mom, I didn’t, I didn’t mean to hurt…”
“Don’t call me mother, you son of a bitch, until I’m done with my mother’s hand.” I’m sorry.
I looked at my mother with my face and I couldn’t believe it.
But I don’t. There’s only clear hate in my mother’s eyes.
I see. No wonder my mother never liked me.
7
My mother never heard the good news in her arms again because of the physical damage caused by that birth.
After five years of a winter snowbath, my mother will say that my mother died of disease, “My mother has been in poor health since she was a child, and don’t be so sad, Princess.” I’m sorry.
When I heard the news, I was sweeping the snow under the southern wall, weeping over the snow and breaking a small hole of the size of my finger.
I didn’t really feel so bad about having a mother in the palace all these years.
It’s just that I’m still in the dark, probably because I know that after my mother’s gone, I’m really alone in this world.
In February of the following year, the Emperor followed my mother because of his grief.
The Emperor is dead. The New Emperor is on the throne.
I asked him to add my name.
When I was 13 years old, I was able to walk out of that palace for six years, as I wished, albeit briefly.
8
In the palace, the people said that the days of the temple ‘ s clean-up were hard and they were reluctant to come.
But for me, the day of cleaning at the Nan Ming Temple was the most free and happy time I had since my father died.
Despite the fact that Le Dynasty was born out of the Nanjing Temple, the Buddhist Gate of the Nanjing Temple was heavy and did not touch a little of the secular breath.
There is no difference between men. My name is Monk Masters. They call me God.
At Nan Ling Temple, I finally have to see my savior Qing Yuan again.
The temples call him Buddha.
Qingyuan is different from what I remember, and he’s a lot taller, and he always has a light smile on his face, and it’s even more extraordinary than before.
He was the most severe of those who worked in the temple, and We saw him at night with a light and a no-speaker, and We heard him in the morning, when the fog remained.
I never thought to disturb his work, and the boldest thing I ever did to Qing Yuan was to look him up in the crowd in early school.
One day I found a rabbit stunned on a stake in the mountains behind the Nan Sing Temple, and I saw the rabbit crashing straight at the stake, and I found it funny and sad.
Stupid rabbit.
“Be a red-burned rabbit. “I suddenly heard a sound behind me, and I knew who it was without going back.
I’m so tense, I’m thinking about what to say. Should I call him Master Qing Yuan or should I call him Buddha?
Call him Buddha. That’s what they call him.
I was just about to turn around, and I didn’t think that Kiyomoto would come to me first: “You don’t like spicy food, you bake it, and it smells good.” I’m sorry.
Seeing me as a fool, Kiyomoto touched the rabbit in my arms, and his clear eyes laughed, and asked me, “How about you share my rabbit leg? I’m sorry.
“I didn’t want to eat it. I’ll explain.
“Well, I know it knocked itself out in front of you, and it must have made you happy. I’m sorry.
“The temple cannot kill and the monks cannot eat meat.” I’m sorry.
“We baked in the back, not in the temple. Qingyuan has a pixie of dust in his body, and his words are extremely contrary to his image: “The monks were unable to eat meat because they had not been able to do it, and I had completed it, even if it had been intoxicated, and the Buddha had left it in his heart. I’m sorry.
I had a long stand-off with Qing Yuan, and he tried so hard to persuade me to roast the rabbit, and I refused to give it to him in my arms, and in the end I couldn’t help but sigh: “It’s just that when it falls in front of you, it’s willing to give it to you, and if you don’t want to eat it, you’ll have to let the rabbit down. I’m sorry.
After that I met Qing Yuan from time to time in the post-Namin Temple, and sometimes I saw him sitting on the rocks of the rear, and I was able to speak with him at last.
I asked him why he was sitting in the back of the hill and Qing Yuan said he was waiting for rabbits who were willing to give themselves to him.
He was sometimes seen fishing by the creek, with a wooden hook on the line and no bait.
Qingwon smiled at me and said, “The fish that I want to eat, even without bait, will be hooked.” I’m sorry.
Even so, I never saw him eat meat.
“Do you really want to eat meat? I’m sorry.
And Qingwon laughed, and he looked at the white clouds that flowed through the sky, and he looked at the flying birds in the woods, and he looked at me, and said, “The clouds will turn into rain and leave the sky, and the birds will be free of the wind that chases them all their lives, and I want to eat meat and I want it to work.” I’m sorry.
His tone of speech is peaceful without any distinction, and he hears little or nothing.
But at that moment I felt like he was alone, and we were the white clouds that wanted to leave the sky and the birds that wanted to escape the wind.
9
In the second year of his reign, the people of the world grew richer and, at least in the capital, few displaced persons had been seen.
Qing Yuan once told me that Xiao Zhengxi is a rare man, who has both the ambition of the emperor and the ability to organize with it.
“It is for the benefit of all the people of the world that a man of understanding shall be given.” I’m sorry.
When Kiyomoto said that, it suddenly appeared to me that my mother was hysterical when she lost her child.
I know better than anyone what Shaw was like, but I have not refuted Qing Yuan, because I cannot deny that he was indeed a good emperor, and that he never treated me and my mother as his people.
“You’ll be a good nationalist too. I smiled and said to Qing Yuan.
Qing Yuan accepted my praise with no ultimatum, and he has always been an open man and never a liar.
People like him don’t really fit in the dazzling hall.
And Qingwon asked me what I wanted to do later, and I said, “I want to walk in the world unbridled, I want to see the desert in my father’s mouth, and I want to see if the South Sea really has a Mount of Exhaustion.” I’m sorry.
Qing Yuan has a flash of pity on his face after hearing me.
“As long as your heart is free, it is not bound by the flesh. I’m sorry.
I laughed, I couldn’t.
Rumours have been heard all over the world that the Lebanese masters have come to know, and I wonder if Qing Yuan knows my fate.
And the forest wind of the mountains shall be filled with snow, and the clouds shall wander, and the moon shall roll with the wind.
I followed Qingwon, and when he was behind me, my shadow was whispering: Do you know that you have been made a god by the mortals behind you?
10
On the day before I returned to the palace, I heard with me a woman who had come to Nanjin Temple to pray for good, and fled in a whisper.
I kept their plans in my heart through a thin wall.
Late in the night, I packed my bags and escaped from Nam Ling Temple.
And when I came down, my heart was beating as thunder, and the sound was deafening, and I feared that it would awaken others.
There was a rain, and there was a slip in the mudslides beneath my feet, but I jumped as if I had stepped on the clouds.
The path in the woods is dark and long, and a little light at the exit from the foot of the mountain is where I’m running, and I’m pushing myself to run faster and faster.
It is always easy to ignore obvious issues when there is hope, for example, that I do not realize how light is so bright beneath the mountains.
And I did not think that when I was looking forward to seeing the sun again, it would be the face of Xiao Shih when I came down.
The light in my eyes was a fire of light.
I was standing there, and I forgot to put it away.
When Shaw saw me, he realized what happened.
I was held back on my knees as an assassin by the guards of Xiao Zhu, who held me by my jaw.
Want to run?
The childishness of his youth has faded away from him, and he is not angry with himself when he looks cold in his eyes, and he has a obstinate emperor.
And when I was a child, there was a fear of depression, and that fear grew with age.
I was afraid my legs were soft at the moment I was exposed to the look of Shaw, and my tears fell from my face.
The tears fell on the hands of Xiao Zhu, and he swung his eyebrow and threw his hand away, and he was even sick of looking at me, and he commanded the guard to bring me back to the palace.
I don’t know why he won’t let me go when he hates me.
Eleven.
I went back to this gorgeous cage.
Sister Willow knew that I had failed the moment she met me, and she comforted me: “The princess is still young and has a chance.” I’m sorry.
I’m 14 years old and only seven years ago was my father really alive.
Sister, why do you think my mother took me to the palace? I can’t help but ask.
I’ve been asking Sister Willow since the day I knew my mother hated me and my father.
“The princess is the daughter of the princess. I’m sorry.
“Doesn’t you want to? I looked up at the roof of the palace, and I said, “Because I didn’t want to, I would be confined to this palace forever.”
Besides, my mother and I both know she doesn’t want me.
She and the late Emperor were just afraid of the words of the press.
Sister Willow was about to say something, and heard it coming out.
I’m embarrassed, and I live in the middle of the palace. I don’t know who’s coming this late.
Sister went out and I heard a heavy noise in the inner house.
Sister? “I tried to scream, but no response.
I’ve always been the only one in the palace, and I can’t help myself.
It was dark out there, and in order to save money, there was no light in the garden, and I saw a shadow standing opposite me in the night.
“Who are you?” The man was tall and clearly not a nun.
Waiting for my reaction. The shadows have come to me, and a strong smell of wine has entered my nasal cavity, and I’m so blind.
A man is in danger with many survival instincts, and I knew who he was as soon as he was close.
“What are you running for? * I’m just trying to run and I’m being held back.
He’s got a big hand, and I feel like I’m about to have his arm snapped.
“King, brother. “The sound of fear that makes me talk is also tremors.
He was obviously drunk, and he bended over to my face: “Why do I run when I see you?” I’m sorry.
When I didn’t talk, Shaw shot me in the face, “Say something! I’m sorry.
He’s probably drunk and his hands aren’t heavy, and my face is burning.
“Royal, brother, you’re drunk. I’ll send you back. I’m sorry.
As if he didn’t hear me, he wiped the tears on my face.
I did not know when my hand was loosed, and I rose up from the ground in the moment he was out of his mind and ran to the inner house.
I’m afraid to scream. I’m dead by anyone in the palace.
Shaw pushed me to the ground, and it seemed like I was back when I wanted to run.
The pain on my stomach caused me to bow to the ground, and when Shaw kicked me in the second foot, I felt almost breathing.
Brother, I was wrong. “I took care of my head with my hands: “I know it wrong, Kang Ning knows it wrong. Brother, stop fighting. I’m sorry.
I thought he was angry at me because of my escape from Nan Ming Temple, and I was whispering my voice and asking for forgiveness.
“You’re a fox like your mother. @Shaw-sun-sun-sun-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shou-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-sun-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-sun-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-sun-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-shu-si-shu-sun-shu-s-shu-s-shu-si-sun-shu-s-shu-s-si-shu-si-si-shu-s-shu-s-s-s-s-s-shus-s-s-s-s-s-s-s-
“Did she teach you to seduce me? I’m sorry.
My skin looks like it’s going out of my body. It hurts. It hurts.
I still want to explain something, but I don’t have the strength to speak anymore.
Go ahead, you won’t feel pain.
Unfortunately, I’m still awake.
And Xiao Zhu threw me like clay upon the earth, and looked down at me: “You are the best liar like your mother, and your mother used to ask for mercy when your father was here.” I’m sorry.
“KANG Ning, I will not be as stupid as my father, and I will not fall for you. I’m sorry.
“KANG Ning, I will send you to a foreign country and to your relatives. I’m sorry.
I heard a little hope for survival.
I’m starting to look to myself and to the day of my life.
12
The year 14 to 15 was the darkest time of my life.
Xiao Zhu began to enter and enter my bedroom frequently that night after he was drunk, and he did not hide the eyes and ears of the others.
Soon, my cursing of my brother spread in this Quadripartite palace.
The Queen Mother, who had never heard of me before, began to call me from place to place.
I can feel the Queen Mother’s heart hating me, and now the hate is on me.
When she pulled up my chin, she exceeded a long fingertip. In my face, I can see blood in my face.
“You’ve always been undisciplined, but in the name of a princess, how can you be so rude? The Queen Mother untied me and raised the tea table and dialed it: “Since now, you will study the rules in the palace of Kikuen.” I’m sorry.
And since then We have moved from my remote palace into the palace of Liku.
The queen is too gentle for me.
Every day I follow the lessons of the Sisters, and the Sisters are commanded by the Queen, and I am particularly hard to teach, and I hit my hand with a board.
But that’s not much better than the punches and punches that Xiao Xiao Shu hit me.
I was even grateful to the Queen Mother, and although she was meant to torture me, I was able to get out of this for a while.
I thought I’d be safe in the palace, but Shaw was crazy and he didn’t let anyone, including the Queen Mother.
The moment when I saw Xiao Zhu in my bedroom, I became even more desperate than fear.
At this moment, I understand deeply that I cannot escape as long as I remain in this palace.
When I stood at the door in a panic, he waved at me and called me over like a dog.
I dare not resist, and I fear to go to a depression.
I haven’t had any experience in the face of Shaw for years.
He was a real madman, and I resisted him, and I pretended to be submissive in order to please him, and the first thing I said was that Xiao Zhu would suddenly scold me as a fox, asking me why I should seduce him.
One step away from him, and Xiao Zhu extended his hand and dragged me into his arms.
He asked me, “Why are you so good today? I’m sorry.
I was thinking about what to say, but Shaw didn’t wait for my answer, and he kept asking me, “Are you used to being here after my mother?” I’m sorry.
“Hmm. “And I responded with a whisper, and turned my back, and left him a little.”
I don’t know when my relationship began to become distorted, but I’m still a princess of the Lebanese, and I’m in a private relationship that makes me sick.
He’s always insulting me and calling me a fox and making all kinds of bad things up.
Xiao Xiao Zhu looked cold in the face of my running away, and I shrunk my head and reminded him: “My brother, this is the palace of Quil. I’m sorry.
“Do you know why your mother let you live in the palace? Because she’s with her people in the court, she’s relieved I’m messing with the court. I’m sorry.
Shaw whispered in my ear.
I hold my hands tight, let my fingernails fit in the flesh, and I put pain in my stomach.
13
I met Qing Yuan again at Yinkun Palace after Naming Temple.
He is still as busy as the moon and as pine and snow to me.
The night I ran away from Nan Ming Temple, Shaw went to pick up Buddha.
He’s sick, and Shaw asked Buddha to go to Nam Ling Temple himself.
Qing Yuan is temporarily living in the Nam Ling Temple, which is the home of the Emperor of Nam Ling Temple.
The Queen Mother loves the Buddha, and occasionally invites Qing Yuan to speak to her at the palace.
When he came to the palace, We looked at him only behind the red wall, and did not dare to turn to him.
Suddenly I heard the cold sound behind me and I was scared.
“I always thought Ning Ning was the coward, and I never thought I was wrong about you. “You’ve got a lot of nerve and even the Buddha wants it.” I’m sorry.
I can’t help it. Shaw is crazy. I’m not afraid he’s going to insult me, but I don’t want to be involved.
There is no one behind this, and I suddenly have a bold thought.
I pretended to run, so I was caught in the middle.
I held it in my hand while he didn’t pay attention to pulling out his head.
The hand of Xiao Zhu Zhu quenched my neck and smiled at me: “Is there not enough for me? Now you want to get close to the Buddha? I’m sorry.
His hands were tightened a little, and I looked at him, while he did not look at his hands and used all his strength to stab him in the neck.
My desperate attack was easily stopped by Xiaoxiu, and he looked beyond his trust at my hand and looked at me again, “You want to kill me?” You’re going to kill me for a monk?”
I don’t understand, I don’t want to understand.
What’s wrong with me wanting to kill him?
It is only a pity that I broke my vows to God when I was young.
14
I didn’t succeed in killing Shaw. I thought I’d be killed by him.
But Shaw is crazy. Crazy people always think differently.
And not only did he not kill me, but he also gave me the proclamation and the house nearest to his bed, and he gave me the jewels, and the garments, and brought to me all the precious things that were rare in the world.
Shaw doesn’t yell at me anymore, he smiles at me, but I always think he’s got a knife in him and he’s trying to trick me.
And the eunuchs in the Decoration and in the House are the greatest of the harems, and I shall awaken not even the bereavements to lift myself up, and the next moment of the opening of my eyes, I shall come up to them.
I had to clean my own raccoon yesterday, and I was left in a crowd to serve today, which left me extremely uncomfortable.
Shaw made me a soup of my own, and although I was certain that poison had been put in the soup, I had to drink it with my head on my mouth under the look of Shaw’s water.
It’s not good, but it’s clean.
I’m even more confused about what Shaw would like to do, and I’m careful about his every move, like the bird of the bow, and I’m worried about what he’s thinking at night.
I was put in his arms under my back to Xiao Zhu, and I was brought back to breathe calmly, and I was standing still, and I looked at the ears of the bed from dark until dawn.
And one night, I strangled my feet for too long and kicked him in a tremor, and I watched him with fear. I thought he would beat me with rage, and I didn’t think that he would rub my twitch for me after waking up, and he would make me sleep.
I broke his favorite dyke, and when Shaw got up I thought he was mad at me, and I immediately took my head back.
I didn’t know he was just crouching at my feet to clean up the slags: “Don’t move and hurt his feet.” I’m sorry.
Even Sister Willow said, “Your Majesty is well with the princess, and the princess finally has no more suffering. I’m sorry.
But I have little joy in my heart, and the fact that the people who have been living in violence are suddenly treated with the gentleness of the murderer, as if the muggers were fed a meal before their heads were cut off, will only exacerbate my panic.
15
Shaw tried to make me happy. He took me to the court’s autumn hunting.
In the palace, he remained undisguised of his love for me, and he took me wherever he was, and he turned a blind eye to what was hidden from the court.
There’s a huge prairie in the palace, and there’s a horse ride. I’m jealous.
My father was a martial artsman, and he taught me how to ride horses when I was a kid.
I was looking forward to it, and he grabbed me from behind. I’m sorry.
I don’t know how to ride a horse. If I nod my head, I’ll be riding with you. But I don’t want to show people how close I am to Shaw, no matter how special he may be to me, and I’m as bad as my daughter who is a princess, and as bad as an Israeli fox.
“If you are too many, we can go back to the mountains, where there is an open land, and no one will go.” “Silent lips in my ear say,
In my eyes, the man of Xiao Zhu Zhu is very good at disguise, even though he has already seen the most vicious of the insides of him, but I am compelled by him occasionally, when he returns to the skins of the gentle and juicy.
Shaw has a very enchanting face, and when he looks at you softly, his heart beats.
Perhaps that is why I often find myself confused as if my past was a nightmare.
I don’t know.
As Xiao Qi, there is no one else in the later mountains.
It’s really good that Shaw carried me two laps in Wiritzema, that the wind seemed to be stronger, that it passed through my ears, that the scenes were moving behind me.
Although my legs were soft when I got off the horse.
I leaned in the shadow of Xiao Zhu, and asked him clearly for the first time, and asked him to teach me how to ride.
Of course he won’t say no. He’s even happy.
The horse is a horse of Xiao Zhu Qi, very tall, and I was afraid to sit straight on my first horse.
Xiao Zhou Zhi will hold my horse in front. “Ninning, look in front. I’ll be fine. I’m sorry.
I learned very slowly, and Shaw didn’t show any impatience.
After overcoming a man’s immediate fear, I was able to take a few steps on my own.
I bit my teeth and I cried out with a rope: “Drive.” I’m sorry.
The horse had been holding on for a long time and finally ran away, and I began to enjoy the joy of the horse’s backs, in fear from the beginning.
And Xiao Zhu looked at me without looking, but my eyes looked at the rear of the mountain.
If you run from us, you’ll be stopped by the guards and run by the mountains.
As soon as I made my decision, I tightened my horse’s head and headed down the hill before Shaw didn’t respond.
Xiao Qi-shu reacted and yelled at my name, and I couldn’t hear it. I kept my body on the back of a horse, trying to make the horse run faster.
“Hide. I’m sorry.
It was a gift to myself at the age of 15 and to my wife.
16
Unfortunately, this gift has died.
Xiao Qi-Shu came up with a horse and I learned how to ride.
When he read the book, he said that “who knows the tigers, he’s leaning towards the tigers” was a feat, and I didn’t know that I could not escape but that I was still trying to live with the word “strong.”
I always felt that I was wrong, Mr. Wu Song, who turned his mouth in favour of Tiger Mountain, eventually killed the tiger, but I escaped so many times without success once.
I was driven to the cliff by Shaw, but it was cruel to let him jump with me.
When I pulled off the horse, I fell and jumped off the horse and jumped on the edge of the cliff before Shaw came down. The bottom of the cliff was a hurried river.
But Shaw didn’t even give me the chance to live. He didn’t want his life to come and hold me, and caught the stake on the cliff as he was about to fall.
After the guards who came back to rescue us both, Xiao Qi raised my skirt and roared: “Gang Ning, what do you want from me? Am I not good enough for you? You’d rather die than be with me, wouldn’t you? I’m sorry.
Man is truly strange, because he is the one who is truly like this, and I am not used to seeing his tender eyes and listening to his quietness.
“Why are you running?” I’m sorry.
I don’t have the strength to do it. I look like a swan and I feel funny: I don’t belong in that golden cell. Isn’t it crazy that I would run away?
Why run away, because I don’t want to live in fear, to be imprisoned for the rest of my life, and because of Xiaoxi’s rebellion?
He said that I would be sent to a foreign country and to my relatives, but he sent his sister to a foreign country a short while ago.
He broke the last illusion that I could leave the palace.
I asked Xiao Xiao Zhu, “Didn’t you say I’ll be there when I’m there? I’m sorry.
And Xiao Zhu Zhu Zhi Zhi Zhi Zhu put me in my arms and smiled and kissed me on the forehead: “How can I give you to others if I have lied to you, my preference is so good? I’m sorry.
I was taken to the palace because of my mother’s “disappearance” and now I am unable to leave because of Shaw’s “disappearance”.
16
Autumn hunting ended in haste and I was returned to the palace by the depression.
And on the day when Xiao Zhizu came to give me his life, and when he kissed me, I turned my head and hid, and this was a complete provocation to him.
Xiao Zheng Zhu gnawed up on my jaw obstinately. You’re not going anywhere but by my side. I’m sorry.
Then I was imprisoned by him in the Psalms and the House, and he kept me close to him, and kept me from walking out of my bedroom.
Then, at night, We heard the noises of the outside world, and in the mouth of the palace We heard three words.
I suddenly had a bad feeling that I had an intuitive feeling what a lunatic like Shaw would do.
As I wanted to go outside, the door of the bedroom was slammed from the face.
When I saw Xiao Zhu, I went to him and said, “What have you done to him?” I’m sorry.
And Xiao Zhu knows who I say, and he whispers his dark face: “You want to know what I have done? Go, and I will show you myself.” I’m sorry.
He grabbed my hand with his laughter and dragged me out.
As soon as I came out, I saw smoke rolling in the sky, burning in the direction of the South.
I thought Shaw was going to take me to the South. I didn’t think he would take me to the South Wall.
“Come on, let’s see what happens to the Buddha you’re thinking. I’m sorry.
Xiao Zhengxi dragged my head behind me, forcing me to look in the direction of Naming House. Your Buddha is already ashes. I’m sorry.
My lips moved for half a day.
I want to shout, I want to cry, but there’s no sound in my throat.
What’s wrong with Kiyomoto?
Shaw turned me in the direction of the Nanjin Temple, which is also a fire.
I cried out loud.
This is the first time I’ve ever called his name.
I really regret it.
I didn’t regret it when my mother lost her baby, and I didn’t regret it when Shaw nearly killed me.
I suddenly realized that I had killed Qing Yuan and the monks of Naming Temple. I should not have saved Xiao Zhui, I should not have saved him.
Xiao Zhu was a demon, and he should have drowned in the lake.
When I fell out of my arms, Shaw held me in my arms, and his hands were tied to me, and he whispered in my ear: “Nining, Qing Yuan is dead, stop trying to escape.” He’s dead. Why don’t you stay with me? I’m sorry.
“I’m the Emperor, I’ll make you a queen, and your mother always wanted to be a queen. I’m satisfied with you. I promise you everything. “Ninning, stop running and stay with me as a queen.” I’m sorry.
I don’t understand how a man who kills like a man can sound so innocent when he begs.
He killed Kiyomoto.
17
“Let go of me. I’m sorry.
After a moment of hesitation, Xiao Zheng let go.
I turned to him.
What was in my mind at this moment, and I was wondering why I had to end up like this, having been clean and clean all my life and never done anything wrong?
Didn’t you say that good is good and good and bad?
“Ninning. I’m sorry.
Shaw was scared by my face, and he was careful to call me, and when I was a kid, to call him his brother.
Suddenly I laughed and quickly lifted my hair out of my head, and Xiao Zhu stretched out my hand to stop it.
He thought I was going to kill him, but he didn’t think I’d put my hair in his throat.
“Ninning, Nining, I was wrong. “Shaw looked at me in a panic, and for the first time I saw him in a state of shock.
“Ninning, don’t hurt yourself. I was wrong. I was wrong. I lied to you. I’m sorry.
He’s already panicking.
I step back to the edge of the building, and under the southern wall is a sharp stone that will surely die.
It is only by me that the Lord will be perfect.
I jumped down the southern wall in the eyes of Xiao Qi, and the sharp stones pierced my body, and at that moment I did not feel much pain, but I felt nothing.
I laughed and moved my body in the opposite direction.
Even if I die, I want to die far away from this palace.
Finally, I’m free.
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18
Note
Qingwon.
The Emperor suddenly came to me and asked me if I didn’t want to be a nationalist.
I paused and noded immediately, and said, “Your Majesty, Your Majesty, His Majesty is a wise man. I’m sorry.
My ass does not seem to be in place, and the look on the Emperor’s face is still not good, but I have sat down and discussed with me a perfect plan to get me to take off my hull.
Every generation in the country came from Naming Temple, and in my generation, the authority of the State was far greater than that of the Emperor.
Master is old and he wants to hand over his power to me, but I don’t want to take it.
I just want to be a monk and practice.
So when His Majesty found me, I promised him without hesitation.
There’ll be a fake body of mine in the south-ling temple, and the south-ling temple will disappear after tonight, and there will no longer be a national leader in the country.
When I asked the peasant woman for a bowl of water, and when she was about to go on her way, she asked me: “Where are you from, where are you from?” I’m sorry.
“Amitabha, the monk came from the north and went to the South China Sea to find the Mount of the Elysium. I’m sorry.
I have a good friend, who was a palace girl, who told me there was a mountain of joy above the South Sea.
My good friend was born with a life and a fate, and I figured she’d die in the palace one day.
However, she fled the night before her return to the palace, so that she could stay away from the palace and perhaps change her life and live longer.
She said she was going to look for the desert and to the South China Sea to look for the mountains.
Now I’m as free as she is, so why don’t we go south and find her, and go to the South China Sea with her.
I’m sorry.
One.
The father became more unconscious and openly took his wife and daughter back to the palace.
The sinner’s wife became the princess of the crown six, and the bastard with the blood of the traitor turned into a princess of the Le Dynasty.
The mother was sick on the day she entered the palace, and when I went to see her in her palace, she cried and cried out to her father, and she made her Queen of the Middle Palace faceless.
I don’t think that my father’s father could have taken the weight of the earth to marry his wife, but his affection did not give me half.
I felt that my mother cried and I was so upset that I was going to leave in less than a moment.
When I left, my mother pulled my shirt and scolded my daughter: “The daughter of that bitch is no good. I’m sorry.
I’ve got two words on my lips, and I’m very repulsive of my mother’s words.
I don’t care about fighting with women in the harem, nor do I ever want to use any means against women my father likes, but that doesn’t mean I can accept the presence of a daughter.
Don’t mention how easy I am when the little girl comes after me and calls me brother.
“Who is your brother? How does the low blood in your bones fit me? I’m sorry.
Every time I heard that little girl calling out to my brother, I didn’t have a good face, and then I started sarcasm and insultd her.
I called her a bastard, and the little girl was lying and crying and telling me her name was Kang Ning.
Kang Ning’s favors are so obvious, I am the Prince, and the least of them is someone else’s favors, but no one is like Kang Ning, and when he pleases me, he does me with all his heart.
I know Princess Li is no good to her, and the princess is not as alive as a maid in the palace, and I’ll throw the cake to the dog and shake his head.
Kang Ning was in front of me like a treasure, and I watched her stare at the pastry and snout, and I was angry at her for being a useless thing.
Look at the royal princess in the harem.
I don’t know why I’m so angry at myself. I flipped pastries and crushed my foot like I stepped on her. She was so scared she wanted to cry, but I looked at me and she put her tears back.
I suddenly felt a little regret at that moment, and what I couldn’t see was an unforeseeable groceries for Kang Ning, who had given me the most precious things in her eyes, and I should probably not have broken her heart.
Kang Ning got scared and ran away.
After she left, I put some of the crumbs on the floor in my mouth.
Well, it doesn’t taste that bad.
I regret it even more.
I’ve been acting like I saw a ghost since I was a kid.
Kang Ning is like a sticky ointment.
I still don’t look good to her, but I’m getting used to her being behind me and calling my brother shy.
Oh, that’s sweet.
Two.
But I forgot that Kang Ning was a man of flesh and blood and had the instinct to avoid harm, so he ran away when he realized that I was in danger for her life.
On that day I was trained in my father’s study, and he rarely said to me, but this time he scolded me in front of her in front of my nose.
He also said I don’t deserve to be a prince.
When I left the Royal Library, I had the eyes of a lady who had a tummy that had been lifted up, and suddenly I had a bad feeling for her.
I was depressed the other day when Kang Ning suddenly called me to avoid the rain and she handed me her umbrella.
I should have hated her like her mother, but I knew I didn’t hate her.
I even felt sorry for her, cute.
How did this happen? I asked myself in fear.
At that point, Kang Ning looked up and looked at me, and suddenly I felt that my heart had jumped.
Mother says Kang Ning is a fox like her mother.
She seduced me! She’s a fox just like her mother! She was seduced by Princess Li’s will to take my throne!
At that moment I didn’t know why I was so out of control, and I had a voice in my heart telling me that it had nothing to do with her and that she didn’t care about her.
But that voice was too small.
When Kang Ning was dying in Buddha’s arms, my heart seemed to have been stabbed by something.
Didn’t she just call me brother? Why are you so close to someone else?
Since then, I’ve rarely seen Kang Ning, and I’ve seen her in the palace once in a while, just like a scared rabbit.
Actually, I tried to get her to apologize to her, but I never found a chance.
3
Lady Li’s movement is getting bigger and she’s been hurting me three times.
The woman was clean. I never caught anything, but she never got it.
The only time she got away with it was because I was standing on the bridge and watching the ginger butterflies go away.
I almost drowned in the lake when my wife’s men pushed me in.
Yeah, I almost killed her the last time. It makes sense she didn’t save me.
But why is the heart beating position under the chest so painful? It’s more painful to be blunt, like to be hit hard, than to choke in a lake.
Kang Ning saved my life. She’s a good girl. She’s got nothing in her mother’s heart.
When Kang Ning held me under the water, I held her in my free hands.
But when I got ashore, I couldn’t thank Kang Ning for running away again.
I laughed and I said I deserved it.
Princess Li’s child can’t live, or I’ll never sleep.
I sent the eunuch to protect Kang Ning and said she blamed Kang Ning for the death of the child in her tummy.
I was so angry when I heard the news that I wanted to go to the backyard and kill that woman.
And We commanded her to do something in her soup, and she died unknowingly.
I’ve hesitated to do it before. Princess Li is the only relative in the world. Will she blame me for killing her?
I think it’s bad for Kang-ning anyway.
4
After my accession to the throne, the eunuch who had been assigned to protect Kang Ning said that Kang Ning had asked him to add her name to his list to Nan Ling Temple.
I hesitated for a moment, and she thought the palace was boring, so let her go.
I’m in the middle of nowhere and I can’t afford to fuck her.
I didn’t have to go to Nam Ling Temple to pick up the Buddha in person.
But when I thought I hadn’t seen Kang Ning for a long time, I decided to see her myself.
Before I went up the mountain, I caught Kang Ning at the foot of the hill, and she was terrified at the moment she saw me, and her eyes were full of terror, and an abominability.
She hates me? I can’t tell you what it felt like in that moment. I’m even more scared and scared than Kang Ning.
When she raised her jaw, her tears were warm on her face, but it was as hot as the magma would boil.
For the first time I knew what it was like to be afraid, I was afraid of Kang-ning leaving me, I was afraid of the hatred in her eyes, and I was afraid of her tears.
I sent Kang Ning back to the palace, and I followed her back.
My fellow bodyguard asked me if I wasn’t picking up Buddha?
Buddha? A monk deserves my help?
I drank a lot of wine to go to Kang Ning, and I wanted to say I’m sorry and thank her for saving my life and then I talked to her and told her not to be so afraid of me.
But Kang Ning didn’t listen to me. She wanted to run away when she saw me. She cried and my heart broke.
Don’t run away.
I got out of control again.
5
After she knew what I was thinking about Kang Ning, she took Kang Ning to Kikumiya, and thought it would break my mind about Kang Ning.
Well, she’s still as stupid as ever.
I feel like I’ve got a disease that can’t be diagnosed, and I’ve got to hold her at night to sleep, and I’m sick and I’m restless without her.
I held Kang Ning in the night, but she was too soft and too fragrance, but now is not the time. I have to bear it. I have to wait for her and her day, and I want her to marry me and take her in full by night.
I thought you wanted to be queen.
Well, it’s a bit of a problem for her to be queen, but it’s okay.
I didn’t know she didn’t love me. She loved a monk.
A monk? How can I be as good as a monk?
She tried to kill me for a monk.
I’m not dead, but she’s done with my heart.
Autumn was trying to take her out, but she was running and she would rather die than be with me.
No, no, no, no, no, no, no. I’m going to move.
I planned in advance to send away the monk who was dying, and I lied to her that she was dead and that I had never seen such a desperate look on his face.
She didn’t feel so bad when her mother died!
I begged her not, I kneeled on her knees and said the monk was not dead, but Kang didn’t believe me anymore.
She died, and I watched the man I loved fall down the city floor, and it was full of sharp stones, and I watched the sharp stone pierced the body of Kang Ning, and I watched her climb forward with her torn body.
How did this happen? My ginger… my ginger?
I fell down and tried to find my ginger, and the sharp stones that pierced it pierced my body, and my blood and ginger stuck together.
I wanted to hold Ginger, but it hurt. I couldn’t climb.
How could Kang Ning’s body be so soft and weak that she could climb so far?
I feel like I’ve never really known Kang Ning.
Six.
I was rescued by a doctor.
I’ve never hated these old Piffs in too many hospitals so well.
“Where’s Kang Ning?” I asked.
“The Princess has gone.” I’m sorry.
And then I went crazy, and I wanted to die every day, and I wanted to go to Kang-ning, but without one success, I was always rescued on the brink of death.
This palace is like a cage that keeps me here as if I were dead.
I often hear the sound of ginger in my ear. She’s calling me brother.
It’s weird that I miss Kang Ning every day, but she won’t even dream of it.
I sought to die, but I survived by miracle to almost a hundred years old.
“Ninning, the brother came to you.” I’m sorry.
But I can’t even remember what my Ning looks like.
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I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
