I love a man who’s an unmarried man who hates being tied up.
I’ve done my whole life to play with him and not get married, but I didn’t think one day he would pull a nice, quiet girl and tell me he’s going ashore.
One.
I can’t tell how many times this is, the first time I’m sober on the 23rd birthday of Qinlong, and Qinlong seems to be very drunk, and that was a bad experience.
Qin Long always sleeps with me after.
But after today Qin Long sat up and lit a cigarette on the bedside.
I reached out to take the smoke from Qin Lang.
“Don’t smoke in my bedroom. I’m sorry.
I said.
Qin Long’s temper is not so small, but it doesn’t seem like he’s been in front of me.
Thus they take away his smoke, and he will be angry.
But in front of me, he’s always left me alone.
Many have said that, although we have not established a relationship between male and female friends and that Qinlong is more a non-marriageist, I am the only one who can truly enter his heart.
I never dared to look into it, and I was afraid it would be empty again.
I was naked and ready to put out the smoke and throw it in the trash.
“Simplicity. I’m sorry.
Qin Long rarely calls me by my full name in such a heavy tone.
I stopped there and the smoke was burning.
“What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
His eyes were hidden in a dark light and darkened.
“Today is the last time, let’s not meet again. I’m sorry.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
But it’s still smiling.
“What, didn’t serve you? I’m sorry.
“Not really. I’m sorry.
Qin Rying had a few ripples in front of him.
“I’m getting married. I’m sorry.
It hit me in the back of the head like a stubble stick, and I shook my hand, and my cigarette butt fell on my feet, and it gave me the pain of a needle.
“How old is it, a cigarette can burn? I’m sorry.
Qin Long doesn’t look so good.
He came by three or two steps to pick me up and put me on the bed and turned around to my drawer to look for anointed.
I even thought what he said was like a dream.
“Mr. Qin, you’re back on shore? I’m sorry.
Qin Long leaned over and gave me the ointment.
“You’re not an unmarried man? I’m sorry.
He just gave me the ointment, no answer.
“Do you love her?
When Qin Long finished my medicine, he raised his head and he kneeled on his one knee on the floor, in a position like the one I’d hoped for — to propose.
“Love. I’m sorry.
From the string that’s been squeezing, the sound cracks in my head, for a short time, there’s a hole in my brain.
“What a surprise. I’m sorry.
I found my own voice.
“Mr. Qin also says the word “love.” I’m sorry.
After all these years with Qin Long, I’ve trained my heart to fall to the sea, but it’s not as good as it looks.
Qin Long packs things without saying a word.
I look at the feet of the ointment, and I don’t know if it’s too painful, or if it’s good, and I don’t feel anything.
And suddenly I was so sad that I pulled his neck and approached Qinlong and laughed, “I love you too, or else don’t marry her. How about I marry you?” I’m sorry.
Qinlong looked at me like that for half a minute. No sound.
When you talk again, Qinlong’s eyes are cold.
“What do you think? Briefly. I’m sorry.
Long silence, he spoke again.
“We slept for three years, we’ve known each other for ten years, and I want to marry you. I’m sorry.
Look, it’s one thing to know, it’s another to be proven.
Like a loud slap in my face.
The power of my hand is suddenly free.
“I’m kidding you. I’m sorry.
I smiled with my hair.
“There are many men in this world who want to go to shore, and I’m willing to drown in the water. I’m sorry.
The chin was suddenly drawn by Qin Long’s finger, and he looked at me with a narrow eye.
“You’re pretty clean. I’m sorry.
Qin Long came to kiss my lips.
I have some greed for such a short-lived Qin Long.
“Are you sleeping?”
I suddenly stopped asking him.
Qin Long doesn’t seem to like me asking such questions, and the fire in his eyes is going out.
But he answered me.
“No, we’re not married. I don’t touch her. I’m sorry.
Look at that. You’re as sober as Qin Long.
What I am, what she is, clear in his heart, clear in my heart.
Qinlong doesn’t belong to me, nor does Qinlong’s love belong to me.
For the first time in three years, Qin Lang has not stayed.
I don’t know whether it’s a door or a thunder, and it’s magnifying my eardrum, and my nerves are shaking.
It hasn’t rained yet, but I’ve seen it in my eyes.
I’m like a puppet who lost the wire, and I don’t know what to do, but I’m surprised by this — the departure of the Qin Lang — for a long time.
Two.
It’s Lin Ting’s birthday. That’s three days after Qin and I split up.
They’ve been playing together since high school. They’re coming back from abroad.
I knew Qin Long would come.
I miss him so much, I can’t help it.
Even if I could see you, I’d say.
Long time no see of Linting. He seems to be a little more stable now than he was three years ago.
“It’s been a long time since Lin Ting. I’m sorry.
Linting should turn back and slowly drop the champagne in his hand, looking like ink.
It’s been a long time. How’s it going? I’m sorry.
Lin Ting is the younger nephew of Qin Long, who is still one year old and who is always with us.
Lin Ting is two months younger than me.
But he never called me anything else but words, and thus Qilong was so ashamed of him.
“Happy. I’m sorry.
I brought him a new champagne.
“The ink actually makes you look good.” I’m sorry.
I’m pretty good with Linden.
Lin-Teng smiled and was covered by sudden noises in the box.
“Damn it, Qinlong! I’m sorry.
“Mr. Qin…”
“Who is this, Qinlong?”
“Fuck, that’s great. I’m sorry.
I’m really stopping on the move.
Look at the door.
He and his people stood there with ten fingers.
I still feel his eyebrows in the end, and if he wasn’t around, I still felt that the night before was just a dream, and I felt Qinlong’s heartbeat and temperature at night.
But…
That’s a girl with a white skin and a beautiful eye. It’s gentle and clean.
When Qinlong’s eyes came in, I was like a jumper, and I closed my eyes and poured a big glass of champagne.
I’m not talking about lights.
“Let me introduce my fiancée, Tanther. I’m sorry.
My heart fell and broke.
Qin Lang and the man he brought sat opposite me and Linting.
Most of them are up.
There’s a lot of Qin Lang’s fiancée that’s beautiful and quiet.
These words don’t fit into my ears, they sound like naked irony, and I try to tell myself nothing, and so I relax.
“Congratulations, Qinlong. I’m sorry.
I was the first to raise a toast to Qin Lang with the eyes of a few friends.
Qin Long looked me in the eye for a moment.
He raised his glass.
“Thank you. I’m sorry.
“It’s short, our friend, two years older than you. I’m sorry.
He said side-by-side to the people around him.
“Simplicity. I’m sorry.
Tanser smiled sweetly.
“I’ve heard a lot about you from Allan, and I’d like to have a chance to see you and ask you to be my bridesmaid. My friends in the city are not too many to dig up from Allan. I’m sorry.
I tried so hard to hold my hand tight on the glass, so I didn’t lose it in front of so many.
I’m looking at Qin Long with a heartache, but it’s still a big deal.
Do you really want me to go?
I pretend to be funny.
“One more time, I’ll be married three times. I’m sorry.
Qinlong didn’t talk.
“Allan.”
Tanther shakes his arm, softs his throat.
Qin Long’s eyes are laughing and looking at me.
“Friends over the years, do me a favor, in short. I’m sorry.
I’m not sure if my high heels are empty or what, but I can’t stand it.
I’m laughing.
“Look, Master Qin begged me and scared me. I’m sorry.
Except for my two informed sisters, the others are laughing.
“All right. I’m sorry.
I looked straight into Qin’s eyes.
“You open your mouth, I go naturally. I’m sorry.
How can I refuse you, Qin Long? I love you so much, as long as you give it to me, whether it’s a knife or a honey.
After three rounds of wine, everyone was happy that Tanser was not only a harmless man, but also a good man and a good man to talk about.
Some people propose a real-faith adventure, and we have a lot of fun.
The first one hit Tanser.
Tanser was a little surprised, and he got stuck in Qin Longway.
“Allan, I really should have bought the lottery today. I’m sorry.
Qin Long touched her head and laughed in his eyes.
“Don’t embarrass my daughter-in-law. I’m sorry.
I had a needle in my heart and watched Qin Long keep her in my arms.
Tanser chose the truth.
“Cerser, have you and Qin Lang gone? I’m sorry.
3
A friend first asked questions.
“Alas…”
Tanser went straight to Qinlong’s, and he was asking questions, and I was the only one.
How do I describe this feeling, scratching my heart, I want to hear, and I’m afraid to hear.
“Was there a face? I’m sorry.
Qin Long laughed over a bottle.
“Do you have it?”
The people around are still hoisting.
“Cerser’s not that easy. I’m sorry.
Qinlong a hammer.
Champagne is out of hand, and the sound of cracks attracts a lot of attention.
One of them, I know it’s Qinlong.
“Look, I can’t even hold a cup to listen to gossip. I’m sorry.
I looked down and picked up the broken glass, and Lyntine reached out and stopped it.
Looking at the blood beads coming out of succession, feeling the pain from the tip of my finger, I feel a little bit of abominable.
“Go ahead and play. I’ll put some words on it. I’m sorry.
Linden pulled me out.
I’m a little bit nervous by the flint, but I can only feel that he’s holding my hand.
“Yo, look at Linting. I’m sorry.
Almost everyone in the house has seen it.
“Linten, just break a little skin. Don’t make a fuss. I’m sorry.
I was a little embarrassed, pulling him back.
“It’s bleeding. Come with me. I’m sorry.
I struggled, but I was dragged away.
When I passed by Qinlong, I saw Qinlong, too, and somehow the eyes were cold.
When I looked again, I only saw him stretching out his hand on Tanser’s hair.
Maybe it’s alcohol? I guess.
Linting dragged me out, went straight to the front desk, took a medical case and he left me alone to treat the wound.
“You don’t really have to be surprised. Just a little blood. I’m sorry.
“Have you had a good three years? Words? I’m sorry.
The Court stopped moving and suddenly looked up to me.
I don’t know how to answer that, just laugh.
“What’s so bad about eating and drinking? But you don’t eat raw food in foreign countries.
“You can’t fool me, word. I’m sorry.
The short words of Lyntine give me a breath.
Yes, I didn’t ask Lin Ting so much from him.
As far as these people are concerned, Lin Ting knows I love Qin Lang most.
“You can’t hide anything from me. I’m sorry.
Dean Lintin’s hand is in the medical box.
“Let’s go back. I’m sorry.
I’m a little oblivious.
“I know you’ve been in pain for years, and you don’t have to pretend to be strong in front of me when my uncle was in love, and you held me for days and you cried? I’m sorry.
The gestures of consolation and grief that Lin Ting has taken to my head are too blatant.
My nose was a little sour.
“Cry, it’s better to cry. I’m sorry.
Lyntine’s warm hands beat me on the back, the sour, sad, painful things that I’ve been crushing so hard… out of my nest.
I let my tears flow a little more.
For a few minutes, my emotions gradually receded and suddenly a familiar voice was heard.
“Allan, here they are. I’m sorry.
I looked up and looked at Qinlong like I had done something wrong.
Qin Long just looked at me and grunted.
“Go back when you’re done. Everyone’s waiting. I’m sorry.
I sat up straight and pulled away from Linden, but my eyes were sorely pierced by the hands on Tanser’s waist.
“Hey, Allan, why don’t you just leave us alone? I’m sorry.
“I’m sorry to disturb you. I’m sorry.
Is this a misunderstanding between me and Lin Ting? Yeah, well, I wouldn’t be mistaken, but actually I’m too familiar with Lin Ting. He’s like my brother.
Qinlong’s face is still not good, and I looked at Tanther and walked away.
When I went back to the box with Linting, the brothers of Linting got up and that was the best game with Linting.
“Yo, the Aten and the brief came back just to make them take a big risk and kiss. I’m sorry.
I stopped.
I looked up at Linting.
Don’t mind them. I’m sorry.
Lin Ting said it was over.
The game goes on, I didn’t expect the next round to go to me.
It’s even worse.
“A kiss. A kiss. I’m sorry.
“A kiss. I’m sorry.
I’m a little overwhelmed, but I still want to see Qin Long’s reaction.
Do you think he’ll react?
He didn’t.
He’s whispering to Tanser, and they’re so happy and they can’t hear what’s happening around them.
I staggered my eyes and moved my eyes to the forest court, which also looked at me.
There’s a growing noise around, and the next moment I and Lin Ting look back like we had an appointment.
I don’t know who pushed us behind our backs, but my lips and those of Lyntine were so unforeseeable.
It boiled.
I don’t feel anything, but I’m looking at Wooden’s ears red.
What a kid, I think.
“Allan, you’re hurting me. I’m sorry.
The sound of the laughter of Shaunther should have dazzled in the boiling of the voice, but somehow it came into my ear.
I thought the party was boring, and it took me a while to get out of here. Lin Ting was the host. I heard from him.
“I’m sorry, words, my friend is a little light. I’m sorry.
“All right. I’m sorry.
I quickly edited back a few words.
“One of us and the other. I’m sorry.
Walking to the corner of the stairs, a big hand suddenly pulled me over.
I’m talking about the top, and I’m just looking at this guy.
Before I spoke, I drew my hand out of Qinlong’s hand and remembered his and Tanser’s entourage.
Qin Long seems not to be satisfied with my actions.
“How many times have I slept without seeing you? Why? I’m sorry.
Qin Lang’s words were suddenly appearing in my mind.
Yeah, she’s not a random girl. She’s clean.
It doesn’t matter how many times I slept.
My heart is strangling and my eyes are red, and I say, “What do you think I am these years?” I’m sorry.
Qin Long seemed a little obnoxious and loosed my hand, and the lips were a sarcasm of the stars.
“What do you think you are? I’m sorry.
I’m glad to see you. I’m sorry.
Pop! I’m sorry.
I beat Qin Long’s hand still shaking.
Nor did Qin Long seem to have thought that he would turn his head and stare at me.
But I’m more angry than Qinlong and I’m almost asphyxiated.
“You have no heart, Qin Long. “I almost pulled these words out of my chest, and I was bleeding.
Qin Long looks at me in my face and smiles.
“What good are you?” I’m just here to tell you, don’t put your hands on the woods, and the gunman comes into the house. I’m sorry.
It’s like a hand rips out my heart, and it’s like it’s like it’s like it’s like it’s like it’s like it’s like it’s like it’s like it’s like it’s just a hand.
That’s it. Get out of here. I’m sorry.
Qin Long’s words are too damaging.
He was so gentle and cruel.
And I never had a chance to fight him.
I walked around Qin Lang on high heels, panicking, and then I stopped walking down the stairs.
I turn back and look at this man whom I so dearly love, and say to him, “By the day when you and your innocent and white father, Qin Long, all I want is for you to remember me, and at any time.” I’m sorry.
I can’t see what Qin Long’s face is, but I can’t see what he’s looking at.
“You look too high on yourself, in short. I’m sorry.
4
I haven’t seen Qin Lang since that day.
I think we’ve broken our faces. It’s probably over.
Until one afternoon I suddenly received a message from Qin Lang.
My heart was pounding, and I thought it was a good word.
When I looked back at the phone page, I thought I was ridiculous, and I felt happy at the first moment because I could see him.
But I didn’t think it was Tanther in the coffee shop.
My heart scrambled hard.
“This is your key. I’m sorry.
Tanther breaks the silence.
I’m a little overwhelmed to know what to say.
“I know your relationship with Qinlong. I heard you in the stairwell that day. I’m sorry.
I took a deep breath and I looked up to Tanser.
“We’ve broken, don’t worry. I’m sorry.
“I know. I’m sorry.
Tanser was not as soft as he was that day.
“This key was given to me by Allan, and he asked me to give it back to you instead of looking for you himself. I just hope you don’t have any more delusions. I’m sorry.
I tightened the key in my palms and stabbed it in pain, but it didn’t hurt much.
Qin Lang put me in such a situation.
And they are not ashamed, and they persist, and Tanser is adorned to me, and he is anointed.
I can’t say a word like that.
Tanser took a sip of coffee and laughed.
“It is clear to men from the beginning that there is no point in marrying a woman who is out there playing or marrying her. I’m sorry.
“She’s not entwined, you’d better go back and watch the Qin Lang instead. I’m sorry.
I looked up and found Linden standing at our table.
“What are you doing here?”
I’m not done yet. Lin Ting took my hand.
“Just mind your own people, and don’t let me know you’re coming after her again, or even if Qin has you, I have a thousand ways to keep you out of Qin’s house. I’m sorry.
Tanser didn’t look so good. He fell on the table.
Lin Ting left her and took my hand out of the cafe.
“What are you doing here? I’m sorry.
The forestry court seems to be more angry than I am, just moving forward.
I stopped and pulled him hard so I pulled him back.
“You don’t have to live in this atmosphere. I’m sorry.
I squeezed out a smile.
“I’m fine. I’m sorry.
Lin Ting stopped talking.
“I’m really okay. I’m okay. I’m really, I’m just… I’m just…”
Words…
My tears were groaned in the forest.
I’m trying to control it, but I can’t stop it. It’s like a wild horse, a bead that’s broken, like my love for Qinlong.
I grabbed my own clothes.
And his head was full of bed, and when Qin Long’s back and forth, he said, “Simply, be with me, and be with me.”
And then my heart went up and down.
The beginnings of Qinlong and I were miserable.
Three years ago, Qin Long had a girlfriend and I had a fight with Qin Qin Qin Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian Qian
I was going abroad with Lin Ting, but the night before, Qin was drunk and dragged me to bed. I cried and I said you already have a girlfriend.
Qin Long called and broke up.
That’s what I’ve never seen before. It’s as if he’s going to break.
I screamed at me, but he succeeded.
I think my biggest mistake is to get him. Let him start this mess for three years.
It was the first time that Qin Lang asked me to stay with him.
The next morning I was sitting in a hotel bed in a mess and wearing clothes.
His break-up girlfriend broke in and cried and asked Qin Long why he broke up with her.
She pointed at me naked and covered with kiss marks and asked if Qinlong loved me.
I’ll always remember.
A moment ago, I was born of old resolve and old resolve.
The next moment Qinlong’s “no love” turned my resolve into a joke.
What did he say?
I don’t love you and I don’t love her.
Only the girl who was also abandoned cried out to me.
I slap myself back.
But the word “sorry” is like “sorry.”
I hate myself, I can’t say no to Qin Lang, I hate myself for saying the word he spoke to me as a golden rule, and I hate that even so, I still won’t get a love from Qin Lang.
It’s with me and never again in front of Qin.
When the Qinlong was cynical, I was cynical, and the Qinlong wave was in vain, and I saw everything.
As long as I’m colder than Qinlong, is he afraid?
But today, the story is repeated and I am told to leave Qin Lang alone.
I’m gonna die.
Qin Long belongs to her, to her, to her, to me.
You see, three more years, me and Qin Lang, and we’re still strangers.
I just chilled out my heart.
5
Autumn weather seems too cold.
I cried out there for a long time, and Lin Ting sent me home, and I fell asleep, and I felt cold and hot, and in my dreams, I and Qin Lang had a little bit of a relationship.
And for a moment, all those obstinate and laughter turned into a sharp knife with a back-stabbing knife, piercing my ribs without mercy, penetrating my heart, suffocating to my suffocation and sitting all sweaty.
There’s a familiar smell next to me and I’m turning my head.
He sat by my bed in the moon and threw up smoke rings after smoke.
I don’t know how he got in.
In the moonlight, I saw Qin Lang’s face with a colour.
“Wake up? I’m sorry.
Qin Long’s voice is immersed in nicotine, some dumb.
I didn’t do anything. I just looked at him quietly.
“It was Lin Ting. I’m sorry.
If he smiles, he says.
“The boy grew up and fled to America three years ago, and now he dares to fight me. I’m sorry.
I still haven’t answered Qin Lang.
“You just dreamt my name and told me to let you go. I’m sorry.
Qin Long’s lips are smiling and his fingers are wiping out the smoke.
“Linten also said that I bullied you, that he liked you so much, and it hurt. I’m sorry.
Men still laugh.
“You know, he liked you three years ago, but if he hadn’t seen us in a bed, he wouldn’t have gone to America all night, and now he’s back and he’ll be able to back you up. I’m sorry.
The blankets on my chest were wet by the tears that were dripping down, and so I watched Qin Long’s eyes become blurry, so I choked and choked.
The people next to me laughed instead, reaching out to shed tears on my face.
The temperature on his hands is as gentle as the way he talks to me, but I can’t feel a little warmth. “You see, you cry like this and think I’m bullying you? I’m sorry.
And We looked upon him, and he was near, and his eye was smitten, and his face was clear, but he was too cold.
“But it was you who wanted to love me, in short. I’m sorry.
Then suddenly the tone of Qinlong changed, and there was no gentleness, and my dream came true, and he thrust his blade into my chest.
I can’t help but cry.
I’m dying to grab his messy collar and make the last struggle before I die.
“Why are you doing this to me? I’m sorry.
“I just love you. Am I guilty? Why? Why are you doing this to me? I’m sorry.
“Because you love me. I’m sorry.
Qin Long Yun smiles softly.
“You shouldn’t love me, in short, you shouldn’t mess with me again and again. I’m sorry.
“From the beginning of my memory, my father took different people to his house every day, and my mother went out to play until morning. You never should have loved me. I’m sorry.
“Don’t let me leave you alone. You should have left me after that night three years ago. You had to stay with me. I’m sorry.
I have lost my voice, but he will not cease to wipe my tears softly.
“You love me too much, but I have nothing but love, and you ask me to love, it’s better to kill me, and my parents say they love me, and everyone they take back is using love as an excuse, but love is nothing but false. I’m sorry.
I can’t hold his clothes any tighter, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe, I can’t breathe.
“But I love you, but I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, love is not nothing, no…”
I’m speechless, but Qin Long has no face and no room for movement.
“I admit I’m attracted to you, but I’ll never love you. In short, you think I love you. It’s just a dream. I’m sorry.
I tore it up so hard, and I threw my hand away.
In the end, my hand was forced out of Qinlong’s shirt.
Like he was born to tear my heart out, and a fast empty hole came in, and every nerve I had was beating.
Qin Long is gone.
I fell out of my bed, and I climbed up naked and ran after Qinlong, stinging the bottom of the mud, and Qinlong stomped on his noble shoes, walking forward.
“I love you, I love you, Chilong I love you, I love you”
“Kinlong, I love you I love you”
“Kin Long I love you…”
In the middle of the night, when I was cold, I was not tired, but I wanted to hurry, and I was able to catch him, even if he didn’t want anything, but I wanted him to fall with me.
After a hundred meters, I’m only one step away, and I’m going to catch Qinlong.
But I fell.
He saw him step by step, without stopping at all.
It’s like being pulled out of my last breath and suddenly I’m soft and I can’t cry, but I still don’t know the limits of the sound belt, and I’m sobbing with the word “love,” and I’m not going to stop, like I’m going to cry at the end of this feeling.
A few steps away, Qin Lang stopped.
He did not turn back, but the moonlight made his side even more cold and indifferent, and his voice entered my warm eardrum along with the cold of the stinging night of October.
“In short, as far as I’m concerned, the world is full of obscurity, love and sin, so don’t waste your energy, I don’t want to sin, I don’t want to go to hell. I’m sorry.
I suddenly feel like I have lost all other senses, but only those who see the distance of the eyes become blurred.
He continued to step on my body without hesitation or mercy.
And it came together as a point, a point too small to be small, and then I fell into darkness.
We’re hysterical, healed, and in the end, we’re all ugly, lonely ghosts.
Six.
I can’t remember what happened that day.
Wake up again, it’s Lyntine by my bedside.
The sun came through the gap between the curtains, and I felt the world was silent.
The only thing that reminds me is that it is not hell or the earth.
It was like three days ago, when I remembered Qin Long, and when he said that love and sin were the same way, I felt funny and laughed.
The Court woke up.
Words…
His voice was dumb and weary, and We had no excess of heart to grieve him.
“When will Qin Long get married? I’m sorry.
I laughed at him.
Lin Ting is set to stay where he is, looking at me.
And I kept laughing, and I couldn’t help it, even though my lips were ripping my heart.
“When?”
“A month later. I’m sorry.
A month later, I had a little surgery, and my body was still dead, but I drew a very fine make-up for this love funeral, oh, no.
I can’t give Qin Long a face, I think.
I don’t know if he’s happy, or if he’s leaving me, and I think he’s indescribably handsome today.
I want to put his eyebrows in my head, but it’s useless.
I came to Qinlong with a smile and champagne as usual.
This reminds me of the same occasion when I first met Qin Long, where my friends dragged him over to a birthday party, where Qin Long raised his glass and said, “Hello, in short, happy birthday.”
Who knows if he would have come to my birthday party?
And now I’m a drinker.
“Hello, Qin Long. Happy wedding. I’m sorry.
I said.
Qin Lang smiles quite frankly.
It’s like we didn’t spend all day and night, like we didn’t do everything we could to split up, like we just stayed at my first birthday party.
He and I had a cup, but he didn’t say a word.
Hear his voice again, that’s what I want.
I’d love to, too, Chilong.
I think in my heart.
I was also uninvited and unswerving, willing or even willing to be with you whenever you need me.
I would.
Because I love you, Qinlong.
The bells are ringing, the applause in the hall is thundering.
The wind and the moon ended in the laughter of guests.
But Qin Long, I still want to say that I never said anything.
Though the world is confused, love is the salvation of sin.
Quantified
I fall in love with someone, I owe one, and I never have a chance to make up for it.
Qinlong.
I had a dream the night of the wedding.
I dreamt of a little kid, pink, cute, calling my dad.
You know I don’t need kids.
But in my dream, I couldn’t help holding her little hand, hugging her and kissing her.
Dreams awake, I’m sweaty.
That’s why Tanser put his arm around my neck.
I got up on the balcony and lit a cigarette.
I suddenly thought of the brief.
Suddenly I felt overwhelmed when I realized it.
Shouldn’t, I guess.
I felt nothing while she was gone. That’s all.
I was awake, and I kept thinking about it.
It’s 2:00 in the morning.
In the end, the memory will be filled with a glass today and say, “Happy wedding.”
She said hello, Qin Long. Happy wedding.
And when I remembered the first time I saw the brief, she stood in a crowd of glamorous faces, but I first noticed her in a red dress.
Red hot, but I hate it. I hate it hot.
I saw my father and the secretary with my own eyes, and he told me that they were just love.
Love? Hot?
Isn’t that ridiculous?
I was brought by her friends that day, but I hated the fact that her clothes were so tight, I held her face, and I said, “Hello, in short, happy birthday.”
I thought it was over, and I didn’t think it was just the beginning.
She said the same thing to me today. I didn’t, I didn’t know how.
Thank you?
I don’t know why, I said no.
“What do you think?”
The sudden sound broke my mind.
Tanser grabbed me from the back, and I hit the ash of my finger.
Then he took her to the bed.
I need to prove something.
After being thrown into the bed, Tanser came up with his hand and I kissed her neck with my eyes closed.
“Allan. I’m sorry.
She’s a little beeper.
It was like a hammer pounding on my nerves, and I stopped and the Kurasar climbed from her.
“Sleep first. I’m sorry.
I left the door with a few words for Tanser.
Shouldn’t, I guess.
I’ve got a bit of tremors in my hands, a few points up, and I’ve had a long breath of nicotine swimming from the nose to the lungs.
Don’t take it so seriously, Kiran, I told myself.
It’s normal to sleep for three years.
I didn’t touch Tanser, and my family pushed me to get married, and she and I were just a matchmaking tool.
Everything you need, everything you play, everything you say.
I gave her face on the outside. She handled the house. We had a deal.
Ashore?
How do you like fish and shrimp?
I smoked a box of cigarettes this evening, and I went back to bed and slept in my sleep when it was unknown.
Again, it was a week later when I remembered that I was watching Tanther’s dress, and she chose a red fish tail skirt.
“Not good-looking, changed. “I’m cold-faced.
Tanser’s a little restless, “What’s wrong, Allan?”
“You don’t look good. I’m sorry.
I’ve lit a cigarette, and I’ve been getting more and more addicted, and somehow I can’t control myself.
“But I feel good…”
“I said no good-looking. I’m sorry.
I was suddenly so restless, as if something had been entangled in my chest, so depressed.
Squeeze the smoke, it’s my fifth.
Tanther changed his dress, but I got more and more upset until I drove down to the shortshouse.
I’ve been in that house a thousand times in three years, not once with the lights on.
But today it’s in the dark, without any light.
I smiled silently and smoked a cigarette and turned around as if I had heard my voice and hiss, and I looked back and found the light empty, and only my own shadow took it long.
Honestly, I do miss her.
I looked up at the dark window and laughed even more.
What the hell is this?
I’m married, she won’t have any more problems with me, and she’s got it all figured out.
It’s because I can continue to play outside, but I don’t want to be in touch with the brief.
It’s just a fucking friend, I think.
It’s not important.
There’s a couple of big and small parties in the circle, and I haven’t seen any more short sentences.
I told her to roll, she’s pretty clean.
Sometimes I think of the short words, and more and more recently.
When I found out I couldn’t even hold on to the simple words, I realized that something was wrong.
I continue to deny, to doubt and then to deny and then to doubt until I am unable to deny again.
I miss her.
It’s the rules of the circle.
But when I came out of the brevity again, I sincerely suspected myself of being nothing.
But I just wanted to see her, and I wanted to see if this growing emptiness and thoughts, this feeling of gravitation, has been on the rise or the past.
The door was knocked three times, and nobody answered.
After several times, the neighbor across the street opened the door.
“No one’s been living here for a month. I’m sorry.
I snapped my eyes and my voice was tight.
“What did you say?”
“No one lives here, a little girl. I’m sorry.
The door went up in my ear, and I licked the back teeth, and I felt my heart sunk to the bottom, and then an infamous anger dipped into my limbs.
Well, that’s very kind of you, briefly.
I’ve asked all the friends I like around, and no one knows the tracks.
I finally found Linting.
Peter Linden packed his things in his villa.
And We were reminded, and the rush of the hearts and the panic began to subside.
“You sent the brief? What, ready to fly? I’m sorry.
Lin Ting smiled and looked up and asked me.
“What’s it to you? I’m sorry.
It is true that I have nothing to do with it, but I just feel like I can’t get it out of my head.
This is the second time I’ve done this with Linting.
Last time was before the wedding.
Lin Ting asked me why I let Tanser insult the brief.
I laughed.
What did I say?
“What does it have to do with me?”
The Buddha says it’s the cause, and it’s the result.
I’ve had a lot of color on Linting’s face.
It’s okay that Lin Ting won’t tell me where she is, I think, where she’s going. I just follow her, I always find her. If I want to find her, she can appear before me.
I turned back before I left, and Lin Ting looked pale and was a loser I had never seen.
I didn’t know why.
I just wanted to remember a long time ago.
Three years ago, when I was talking about my girlfriend, I had a lot of fun.
This farce ended without a problem, and I became the winner.
But when she came to say good-bye, I was as irritated as never before.
She’s still out there, I think.
People who give you a good hand don’t make a big deal out of it.
Then I’d rather have her, and I’d have to think of myself sometimes.
She screamed at her, but I couldn’t get out of control until I felt like there was no reason to do it.
Even broke up with a girlfriend once.
She thinks I’m drunk, and I only think I’m drunk, no matter what happens.
In brief, he surrendered.
She fell asleep, and We opened her eyes in the night.
That shouldn’t be the case, Qinlong.
On the moonlight, I took her red cheeks.
That’s nothing.
I made the poor kiss her on the forehead.
And when the lips touched her on the forehead, We ran away as if it had been electrocuted, and lo! We were averse to it.
Love is the most false thing.
As I do now, it’s disgusting and dirty.
And I told myself in my heart that she was nothing but an ass who was chasing you behind your back. You see, it’s not like he’s trying to get away with it.
There is no real love in this world, but the false desire for possession and flesh of humanity.
I said that the next morning.
I turned my back on her, but I felt her heart split.
In a nutshell, I think, this is an inexhaustible start, unexpectedly, and you should get it and stop it in time.
I don’t want to be confused.
But she didn’t.
Look, this woman is too bad.
It’s just that since then she’s changed someone.
I think this man is so familiar that he’s slowly turning her into a different kind of cocoon.
Then I realized it was me.
For the past three years, she’s become more like me, cold-hearted, ruthless.
Even when I asked for an end, she whispered that she would rather drown in the sea, and that there were people who wanted to go down.
I didn’t think it was funny then.
I can’t help but think of the one who used to be alive and greedy.
Can’t go on like this, I think.
But she loves me so much, I think.
Then I knew what was ridiculous.
Lin Ting left the country before he gave me a gift.
The words on that piece of paper are so close, but I can see only two of them.
Abortion.
I can’t say much, I just feel the inch of blood in my body, the rigidity of my spine, the loss of temperature, and the sharp and suffocating pain of my 3 inches in my chest.
All the nerve endings in my body are spasms.
How dare she.
Those infamous pains are all transformed into the fury of a single moment.
I have to question her in person, I think.
I sent someone to check out Linting’s whereabouts and flew all night to Philadelphia.
It’s a hundred years of heavy rain in Philadelphia.
We were all wet by the time we arrived at the House of Wooden.
I’ve been searching the house madly for a short breath, but I can’t even see it.
I sunk to the bottom with my heart and I grabbed Linting’s collar and forced him to ask.
The forestry court looked at me with a cold eye and asked me, without a trace, what my madness was.
“Isn’t she with you? I’m sorry.
I asked.
“Where did you hide her?”
Lyntine laughed instead.
Your eyes are red.
I lost my strength in his red eyes.
No way.
How can a short story escape my world without a word?
Not even half a trace.
She didn’t tell anyone, didn’t she?
“I’ll always find her. I’m sorry.
I spoke to Lyntine hard.
It’s not supposed to be, she never is.
She was so afraid of cold people, so cold in October, so she chased me hundreds of metres by her feet, fell down and said something. She loved me so much, she seemed like I was the only one in the world, and she cried as if I had lost everything.
She said she’d marry me.
She kept saying she loved me.
She loved me so much.
So love me.
She loves me so much.
I was standing in the rain, and suddenly I fell on the floor like I lost my strength.
The rain is pouring down cold, and it is too late for me to be scalding in a nervous state because of the man I miss.
And then I had a serious illness.
I’ve always seen the short words in my dreams of cold and hot.
And she stood up, and went to the east, and said, “I love you, and sometimes she hated me, and then she laughed, and she cried and cried, and all of it became a scene, and asked me why I did this to her, and whether she was guilty.
I woke up from the dream.
Half past 2:00.
And the night that is silent stouteth forth my heart’s beating, and falleth alone.
It is as if my heart had been flattened, and my heart had been razed, and it had been set aside, and it had been turned into a worthless piece of garbage.
It hurts so much.
Abandoned, so painful.
She was also abandoned without mercy or mercy.
No wonder she doesn’t want me anymore.
How do we measure love? Look at the pain after separation.
It’s painful but still eager to focus on it.
So it’s sin and love.
The heavens and the earth will not find them, and the time will not pass.
Seeing the short words again, it’s Linting’s birthday three years later.
I pushed the door of the 1982 box, sitting in the middle, looking at me, and at that moment I was going to jump out of my chest and my blood was screaming and my voice was squealing before I opened.
“Mr. Qin, long time no see. I’m sorry.
The sound of water came and I was helpless, but my heart sunk.
Not too flat.
“This is my love. I’m sorry.
She smiled at you about the people around, not Linting, but another Sven.
I’m like a stick.
The memories and bitterness of those nights that have been in vain for three years have sprung towards me, almost devouring me and drowning me alive.
She has a new family.
I was overwhelmed by endless loneliness and pain, and I wanted to drag her into this abominable hell, but I saw her smiling on her face with ease and gleaming, and in that moment I threw away my armor and turned back into sand.
The smile was too bright and warm, as we had seen in the first place, and she was in the middle of the dance floor, smiling at me, and she said, “Hello, Kirilong, I am a short word. I’m sorry.
I was supposed to live in hell, and someone dragged me into the earth and took me to the red and dust moon, and I should have been content, but I thought she went to hell with me. I hurt a man and killed him with my own hands. I made the biggest mistake of my life without a chance to make amends.
I put myself in hell again.
End
According to Linting, Qin Long was divorced and never married and had no children.
He said he was looking for me for a long time and he said he loved me.
He asked me if I was willing, if I was happy, if I felt revenge.
I’m just smiling.
I love Qin Long’s daily efforts to spare no room for them, and I’m happy to return.
The Buddha says that all that is between them is false.
If you love vanity, sin, sourness and bitterness, and have no experience but to sing a song, festivities, love and sin, and then the sun will fade away.
Author: Dukang
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
