I found a disgusting thing in the car the other day.
I soon remembered that last night my car was driven away by my boyfriend and came back late.
That day, I drove to the airport to pick up Chen Xu’s mother.
Chen Xu was my college classmate.
Two months ago, he was drunk at midnight and called me.
Tell me, “Let’s stay at your place, okay? I’m sorry.
He broke up and got kicked out by a live-in girlfriend.
And I have my own house in Shenzhen, two rooms in one room, which would allow him to make a transition before he finds it.
I said yes, then you make a transition.
He doesn’t know, I like him for six years.
We became roommates because we were living together, in a strange atmosphere, getting stronger.
I can’t believe that I’m really a couple.
That day his mother suddenly said she was coming to Shenzhen.
He was busy, so I ran the risk of being called by A to help get his mom.
When his mother saw me, she laughed, “You’re Zhang Ya?” I’m sorry.
I stung, because Zhang Ya, is Chen Xu’s ex-girlfriend’s name.
01
“My name is Yuen, aunty, Jong Yuen. I’m sorry.
Aunty said, “I thought it was Zhang Ya. Isn’t she Chen Xu’s girlfriend?” I’m sorry.
Chen Xu told me he didn’t tell his mother about me.
What he said was, “Let’s talk about being forced to marry again. Let’s talk about it. I’m sorry.
And so I couldn’t explain, and I couldn’t help but say, “They were together in college. I’m sorry.
But Auntie said, “Is Zhang Ya pretty?” I’m sorry.
I nod, “Yeah, she looks good. I’m sorry.
“Do you have a picture of her?” she asked.
I turned on my cell phone, pulled up a circle of friends and handed it to Aunt Backseat.
“Yo, like a star,” aunt lamented, “that’s a gift for my son. I’m sorry.
After that, she began to lament the luminous pictures in the circle of friends.
And I, too, started to be distracted.
Yeah, Zhang Ya has always been a school girl. One trip, two or three boys.
I’m doing better than her.
Cooking, e.g. sending him an electric earpiece, e.g. when he said his mother was coming to Shenzhen, he invited their mother and son to live with me first.
“And don’t tell my mom it’s your house. Before coming here, Chen Xu reminded me.
“Why?” I asked.
“I don’t want my mother to know that I live in someone else’s house and not pay my rent. I’m sorry.
He had a nice smile.
But the word “other” is like a fist, pressing on my heart, and I can’t breathe.
Don’t worry. I’m sorry.
I smiled at him.
“Is this in front of the car?
Auntie’s words put me back into reality.
In the mirror, I saw her hand over a little doll with a high thumb.
How did this happen in my car?
I didn’t buy the car, and only my colleagues took a short ride. It’s even more impossible for them to leave this in the car.
All of a sudden, I remember this car, Chen Xu drove last night.
He said to go out with his friends and come back after midnight.
This thing can only be his.
He and another man…
I can’t breathe for seconds.
It’s good to be on the road at this time.
I’ve made a decision.
With two fingers, grab the duck and put it under the windshield. After that, I never touched the wheel with those two fingers.
02
I actually got into the car this morning and I smelled a little sticky.
It’s just that most of the daisies in my car are covered up.
I thought it was just the tide, but now I understand…
But Chen Xu, aren’t you with me?
I can’t even think about it. I’m driving. I’m afraid it’s too dangerous.
The car’s parked in the garage. Aunty’s giving it back.
I picked up my phone and I looked at Zhang Ya’s latest circle of friends.
That’s two tight hands.
On a wrist, wearing a Cartier watch.
I gave it to Chen Xu last week.
03
In fact, I thought I and Chen Xu had made it right.
The moment he broke up, he couldn’t do anything.
So one day, I was worried about my work, and I said, “Go out with me. I’m sorry.
He’s complaining. You’re the boss of the business. I don’t have time for this.
I couldn’t help but use the weekend to invite him on my own.
When he went to the sea, he had a good time, and the tide went straight into the sea, and then came out a few metres away and waved at me.
I don’t want to go down.
And he came up again, and he held me all over the place, and he ran me back into the sea.
It’s cold, but it’s warm where it’s in contact with his skin.
In the water, he asked me if I’d ever kissed underwater.
I shake my head.
He said, “Inhale!”
Then push me in the water.
He kissed me under the water with strong salt and softness.
That night, in his bathrobe, he knocked on the door of my hotel and attacked my bed.
I said, “Now, am I your girlfriend? I’m sorry.
He said, “Isn’t that just one thing? I’m sorry.
I said, “I want to hear that. I’m sorry.
He hesitated for a long time and finally said, “I’ll think about it, okay? I’m sorry.
After that, he came up and tried to kiss me.
And I’m dead with my lips shut, even though he’s in his arms, so at least it’s not really a kiss.
“All right, all right, all right.” He said.
“Just forget it! * I’m a hard-mouthed, but in that moment, I’m happy *
“No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.”
And then he came up and I closed my eyes.
It was the happiest moment I’ve had in years.
I’m so happy, I don’t know if he’s real or not.
04
“I’ll work late tonight, and I’ll be back later. You take care of my mom for me. I’m sorry.
Chen Xu’s
I wanted to ask him a lot of questions, but the phone was set up and hung up again.
I’d like to lie to myself. It’s not Chen Xu’s. It has nothing to do with Chen Xu’s picture.
But I can’t believe it myself.
There were times I wanted to cry, but Chen Xu’s mom was still around, and I had to bear it.
Bite your teeth, put your fingernails in the flesh, hold on.
I thought, just for tonight, I must hear Chen Xu’s answer.
I’m not curious if he’s with Zhang Ya again.
I wonder, after all these years, what am I to him?
What am I?
05
I took Auntie to the house.
She looked around and said the house was too small, we were home, in two rooms and 90 flats. Your house is at most 70.
I mean, it’s only 65, the first-line house is too expensive, so the house is smaller.
Aunt pointed at her, “So I’ll sleep in that room?” I’m sorry.
I smiled, ” Aunt, that’s my house. I’m sorry.
“Ah?” She looked at me up and down. “You live with my son? I’m sorry.
And I noded, “Yeah, we’re roommates, and besides, there’s a bathroom, and there’s nothing to delay. I’m sorry.
“Can’t you stop? Is the washing machine working together? Does the living room kitchen work together? Can you two be alone? When she said that, she didn’t say it in a violent manner, but she laughed with a little bit of it, and said, “You live with Chen Xu, do you know Zhang Ya?” I’m sorry.
“I don’t know…” I said, “I don’t know.”
“Look, if she knows, can she wait? I’m sorry.
I’m dying to say that this house is small, but it’s made by myself.
And your son just borrowed it, and I didn’t even pay him a cent for the rent.
And now, I’m her girlfriend!
But when I thought of it, I immediately responded. I invited Chen Xu, and my aunt invited.
I promised to save his face in front of his mother and not cause him any more trouble.
It was all agreed.
Okay, I’ll take it.
Auntie Chen, it’s going to be late tonight, or I’ll help you clean up and I’ll invite you out for dinner. I’m sorry.
Auntie was suffocating and noded and finally stopped talking about “I delayed her son.”
I invited auntie to a restaurant that Chen Xu loved.
But I had no idea that Chen Xu, who was working late tonight, was sitting with Zhang Ya, not far from the door.
06
When I came in, I wanted to drag my aunt away.
It was Chen Xu who lied with his predecessor. But it was me who was ashamed and tried to escape.
But auntie has found her son.
She walked over there without asking her son why he didn’t pick up the plane, and the first thing she said, “This little girl, is it Zhang Ya?” I’m sorry.
Zhang Ya, get up, “Hello auntie. I’m sorry.
“It’s a beautiful girl,” she lamented, “As my daughter-in-law.” I’m sorry.
Auntie looked back at me and said, “Why didn’t you tell me you were here early? I’m sorry.
I was standing there, and my heart was filled with the pain of seeing Chen Xue Zhangya sitting together, and I didn’t know how to answer Auntie.
And Zhang Yah suddenly said, “We, we, didn’t want to surprise you. I’m sorry.
When she said that, she took Chen Xu’s hand.
Eyes, look at me.
07
That dinner, I only sat for 10 minutes, and I left.
Before I left, I drank three glasses of wine.
Out the door, I started crying.
That’s when my phone went off.
Particularly incontrovertible is the fact that I am still expecting Chen Xu’s call.
The cell phone was picked up and found to be the director of A. Li Muyun.
That’s the one who’s so demanding of our company.
I adjusted my emotions for a while, and I picked it up.
As usual, he has little words, no tone, yes.
He said, “Redo it. I’m sorry.
I said, “Mr. Li, it’s a bit urgent today, but we’re staff…”
He said, “Tonight. I’m sorry.
I said, “But now it’s 7:00.”
He said, “Stop if you can’t. I’m sorry.
I stopped.
And suddenly, an unnamed fire came forth.
“I’m done! I yelled with alcohol and scared everyone on the street, “Get the fuck out! I’m sorry.
I hung up after that.
Hang up the phone and I regret it.
That was a good voice, after all, I haven’t yelled much since I was born.
But why should I yell at Lee Muyun?
Lee Muyun.
The director of the listed company, our richest gold lord.
Yeah, working with the best-looking A.
All right, one night, the boyfriend’s gone, the money’s gone.
I immersed in huge self-incriminations, without a cab, walking slowly through dozens of blocks and walking down the stairs.
Then I met Lee Muyun downstairs.
08
His car was stuck at the door of the building, and he couldn’t escape.
I’ve had a few deep breaths around the corner, and that’s why I’m here.
“Mr. Li? What a coincidence. Plan! I’ve told my colleagues to get there, and I’ll be there by 10:00 p.m. And just now I’ve had a little drink so…”
Suddenly he took out a whole bunch of daisies and pushed them in front of me.
I was surprised, “For me? I’m sorry.
“Well, the company’s gift to the co-workers, and I was passing by, and I gave it to you. * He’s standing there. *
“How did your company know I liked daisies? I’m sorry.
He shrugged his shoulder and didn’t answer me.
“Anyway, thanks. I picked up the flower, “Do you want to go up and have a seat?” I’m sorry.
“Want to go. I’m sorry.
I waited, I thought this man was very kind.
But he came back and took a very fine bottle of wine from his car. In your hand, “It’s good, but can you drink it again? I’m sorry.
I look at him and I think that much of his behaviour today is inexplicable.
But well, I don’t hate him.
And I do want to drink.
“So the flowers are just a cover. You came here to drink with me, didn’t you? I’m sorry.
He said, “Yeah.
“Then go upstairs,” I said, “Well, the boyfriend’s not here. I’m sorry.
“Aah?”
“ex-boyfriend. I’m sorry.
09
That’s good. I’m drunk.
Start talking crazy.
It’s true that the wine and the wine are gone.
10
“So you know what your problem is? I poured half a glass of pure whiskey with a big tongue and questioned Lee Muyun.
“You say. I’m sorry.
“You’re too cold! Every day with an obnoxious face! I’m sorry.
“You drank too much. I’m sorry.
I didn’t! Leave me alone!
Eleven.
“My boyfriend, my boyfriend and his ex, in my car, did that.”
“You can’t drink this one anymore…”
“Do it, I found it! I’m sorry.
“Come and put the cup down…”
“and let me pick up his mother, who still hates my place! Fuck all three! I’m sorry.
“Don’t say anything about her…”
“So what am I?
Don’t drink mine! I’m sorry.
“S Hiccup…”
12
“So I don’t want him. I’m sorry.
“…”
“I don’t want him. I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“Li Goo-hoon, I’m with you, I don’t want him. I’m sorry.
After that, I groaned and heard an engine go off.
I’ll forget everything.
13
The next day, I was on my phone.
It’s the assistant.
She asked me, “Are you drunk yesterday? I’m sorry.
“How do you know?”
“Li Gauming said. I’m sorry.
“Who?”
“He said the plan was over, and asked me to thank you two for something that happened last night. I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong?”
“Mom Lee Goo-hoon, I wish I had something to do with him! I’m busy with the boss cow! I’m sorry.
Hang up. I’ll be right there.
He goes back, “I can’t tell, you’re pretty strong. I’m sorry.
Me? Live?
In what way?
“Mr. Li, it would be better if you were clear. I’m sorry.
And then he had an expression, “You got a clip? I’m sorry.
I remember that. I yelled at Chen Xu last night.
Scolded.
They kicked their mother and their son out of the house.
14
After drinking high that night, Chen Xu and his mother came back.
Lee Muyun went to open the door.
As soon as the door opened, Chen saw Lee Muyun standing there, and the first sentence was “Yo, there’s a boyfriend.” I’m sorry.
Li Muyun stopped and said, “You’re mistaken. I’m sorry.
“Do you drink here all night? What happens to us when we’re noisy?”
” Aunt, this is my first time here. Lee Goo-hoon explains:
“How many times do you want? I remind you that you share the rent, don’t treat the living room as your own! I’m sorry.
“Sorry aunt, I’ll be gone soon. I’m sorry.
Li Muyun said he was going back to pack.
But then I went to the door and grabbed him.
“Go what?” I said, “You live here tonight.” I’m sorry.
“Shuss…” Chen’s mom took a breath.
Her eyes were sewn, and her tone became sharp, “If you want to sleep together, don’t share it with our family.” I’m sorry.
“Well, you and Chen Xu, don’t stay here tonight. I’m sorry.
“Chen Xu, introduce you to my boyfriend Li Muyun. “Li Muyun, this is my ex-boyfriend Chen Xu. I’m sorry.
“What do you mean? I’m sorry.
I said, “Aunt, what exactly do you mean by asking your son, but now I mean, you girls, you can’t live in my house. I’m sorry.
“Why?”
We said, “This house is mine.” I’m sorry.
“Yours?”
We said: Yes, I bought it. Your son Chen Xu was kicked two months ago by Zhang Ya, and couldn’t afford a hotel. I’m sorry.
Chen’s mother is a little confused.
“Do you ask him?” And I laughed, “He told you he made $340,000 a month, but he just got fired by the boss, and I can borrow money every month! He also told you that he was going to start a business by reading books every night. He also told you he was a friend in Shenzhen and he had only one friend! I’m the only one who’s lazy and poor, and he’s…
Chen Xu called out a voice.
“What’s your name? I yelled too.
“Bong Xiaoyu!”
He grabbed my arm, he pushed his finger, and he was embedded like a hook.
“Stop it! I’m sorry.
He’s low.
That moment, I was really afraid he was out of control.
But for the next moment, a snap.
Pop!
It was Li Muyunli who struck Chen Xu’s hand.
“What are you doing? Chen Xu is a little stunned.
And Li Goose took a step forward and stopped me.
He’s half taller than Chen Xu and looks at Chen Xu like that. I’m sorry.
“No, I…” Chen Xu just wanted to explain.
“He said you can’t stay here tonight. I’m sorry.
Lee Muyun doesn’t sound very loud, but it’s under pressure.
Chen Xu’s words were choked back and he didn’t say a word.
“Then I… my luggage is still in there! “My mother suddenly screamed.
Lee Muyun returned, took Chen’s suitcase and stuffed it into Chen Xu’s arms, “Your things will be packed tomorrow. I’m sorry.
“You…”
“If you don’t leave, I’ll be fine. I’m sorry.
15
After closing the door, Chen’s mother wanted to hang out, but it seemed that Chen Xula had left soon.
After everything was quiet, Li Muyun walked back to the couch and asked me, “Are you okay? I’m sorry.
He’s okay without asking.
Ask, my nose is sour.
I said it’s okay. I’ll get rid of someone. What can I do for you?
Then I sat on the couch and started eating.
I said I’ve been drinking and I haven’t eaten.
I said I’m sorry, Mr. Li. You’ve been here for the first time.
I said, don’t wait, eat, I’m almost out! Don’t look like it’s made in a small workshop nearby, but it tastes so good!
And then I ate hard, and I ate big.
But, you know, it’s so salty, it tastes so bad.
But I didn’t stop. I just stuck it in my mouth.
Because I can’t help but think about what happened.
I want to see Chen Wuk and Zhang Ying come together over the years, and I want to see Chen Wuk’s movement over the years, and I want to hear back from them.
Think of me for two months, a vision of the future.
What am I?
All these years, what am I?
“He’s not worth it. “Li suddenly said,
A soft, whispering phrase.
It hurts like a knife in my chest.
I stood there and couldn’t react to the pain of nothing.
But he said it again.
“You did nothing wrong. He wasn’t worth it. I’m sorry.
I can’t swallow what’s in my mouth anymore.
That’s when I realized that my face was full of tears.
But I didn’t cry until this moment.
Let’s cry.
16
After that day, Chen Xu seemed to have disappeared in my world.
And Li Muyun was deliberately isolated from the world.
All the work was done by the company’s employees, and I wouldn’t have had any communication with him if I had participated in important meetings.
Until once, in the tea room of their company, I bended over to get a cup of coffee, and when I got up, I found him there.
We have nothing to say.
A few seconds later, he smiled.
And I said, “Your company’s coffee is good.” I’m sorry.
And he said, “Can we have dinner tonight? I’m sorry.
I struggled so hard that I finally said, “I have a game tonight.” I’m sorry.
He stunned.
Adults, of course, will not continue to ask, “What about tomorrow? What about the day after tomorrow? I’m sorry.
Because, “There’s a game tonight,” it’s a rejection.
After that, I left in a hurry.
Yes, I’m sealing myself.
These days, I’ve been reaching out to new clients and developing new projects.
Because once the work is done and I’m home, I’ll do nothing, just hide on the couch.
Trapped in a kind of… small, but ubiquitous grief.
It’s not about Chen Xu, it’s about regret and waste many years.
And Li Muyun made me feel that he could save me.
But I refuse that kind of relief.
Because I’m worried, what if this Lee Muyun who came to rescue me is another Chen Xu?
Instead of being hurt again, it seems, sad and lonely, safer.
17
The night I met in the tea room, I did participate in a game.
My ex-boss Liang, divorce bureau.
Liang is in his thirties. He’s a rich generation. He’s a good friend.
Tell me the game will get tonight.
“To celebrate the renewal of single life. I’m sorry.
But it was weird that day that he invited eight friends, four couples.
So when I play in the bar, I can only play with Liang.
And then he got high, and he started drinking with my cup, and he started hanging around me, and he held me when he won.
I had to go to the bathroom to think about the early programme.
At this point, I’m instinctively open.
Subconsciously, the first person to look for is Li Muyun.
Me.
The phone was picked up in an instant.
But there’s nothing there.
“What are you doing? “I’m softly asking, try to make my voice sound normal.
“You drank. “He’s learned it in a second.
“Yeah. I’m sorry.
“and clients?”
“and the former boss. I’m sorry.
“The ex-boss?
“Oh, no, no. I’m sorry.
I don’t know why it was so panicky.
It took me a long time to understand.
That’s a kind of care not to disappoint.
“Don’t worry, I’m good at drinking. I added:
“I’ll pick you up. He says:
He heard what I said.
Yeah, in the middle of the night. What’s a phone call for?
Nothing but what I need from you.
“No, no. I said:
It was a subconscious refusal, but I knew he would ignore my refusal.
“Well, tell me where. I’m sorry.
That phone call, we both have a very restraining tone.
But we should all be aware that that is a prelude to a further relationship.
“Well, I’ll send you a location later…”
But I hung up on the phone, and when I was getting ready to position, my hand was caught.
It’s the ex-boss.
Let’s go! I’m sorry.
Then he grabbed my phone and looked at the screen.
“Who’s this?
18
“Not a current boyfriend. I’m sorry.
“That’s good, that’s good. He said he still didn’t return my phone.
I want to take it, but he’s taller than me, and I can’t reach it.
“I love you.” He said. I’m sorry.
I stopped.
Mr. Liang, are you serious?
“Of course it’s serious. Look at the game today. It’s for you. I’m sorry.
I smiled, “Mr. Liang, this joke is a little big. I’m sorry.
“I am now single and I can pursue my happiness. Actually, I’ve been at my company since before…
I broke him with my hand, “Mr. Liang, you’re drunk. I’m sorry.
“I’m not drunk. Listen to me. If you follow me, you don’t have to do anything. I’m sorry.
Mr. Liang…
“You don’t have to work, you don’t have to cook, you don’t have to wash your clothes, you can live in my houses…”
I raised the volume, and he finally stopped.
“Mr. Leung, I know what you mean, but what’s the matter? “As a matter of time, I couldn’t stand it. I’m sorry.
After that, I spread out, “Just give me my phone back. I’m sorry.
He looked at me for a few seconds.
“Don’t you like to celebrate? And he said, “Hold your face, right? I’m sorry.
I didn’t expect his attitude to get so fast and a little disgusted.
I stretch my hand and repeat, “Give me my phone! I’m sorry.
“Give me a kiss and I’ll give it back. I’m sorry.
I’m suffocating, “You keep it. I’m sorry.
After that, I turn around and I’m leaving.
But suddenly my wrist was caught, and then I was dragged straight into his arms.
Then he started kissing me.
The smell of wine, the smell of smoke, and the ruckus.
I pushed two times and found nothing to do with it.
But the next moment, I can’t believe I hear you.
19
Li Muyun’s big body appeared behind Liang.
At that point, he was pulling the beam’s ears and drawing half a circle with his long, long arms, and threw the beam back.
Liang took a few steps back and finally fell on the wall.
And he’s turning around.
“Who the fuck are you?”
He shouts, he moves his right hand, he runs towards Lee Muyun.
Catch.
Pop!
One click, echo across the hall.
Liang’s got his face covered.
Li Muyun took my phone out of the other hand and gave it to me.
Liang didn’t resist, but he was just like that, crouching in the corner and crying.
20
“It’s disgusting! I’m slapping my leg, “It’s disgusting! I’m sorry.
“Where’s Mr. Liang? I did have an interest in me when I was in his company. But seriously refused. I’m sorry.
“Who knows how long it took! Don’t do this again.”
I thought I said Lee Muyun was driving.
“So you’re angry? I’m sorry.
It was only then that I realized that he had not spoken and asked him carefully.
He still doesn’t speak.
“Hey! Lee Ko Cold, you don’t have to. I’m sorry.
Then suddenly, he had a brake on his foot.
“No?”
I said, “Not at all. I’m sorry.
He said, “In the middle of the night, drinking with a group of people he didn’t know, being robbed by middle-aged uncle, kissing, no?” I’m sorry.
I’m speechless, but he’s getting worse.
“If I don’t pass, you’ll have two more bottles of wine, and you’ll have some more illegal drugs, and you’ll regret it if you don’t make it to the motel! What does that mean?”
He asked, “What else do you want to do? I’m sorry.
“Hey! It’s hard for me too! I’m a victim, okay? I’m…
I want to keep going, but I can’t stop looking at his face.
“Why are you laughing?” he asked.
“Li Goo-ming, when did you say so much? I’m sorry.
He couldn’t answer, just under my eyes, quickly blushing.
Looks like he didn’t talk, so I went on drinking, and I approached his face, and I said, “Lee, you like me, right? I’m sorry.
21
“Yeah. I’m sorry.
“Whoa, you promised. I’m sorry.
“Being in love? I’m sorry.
“Huh…” Then I have to think about it. What are you doing driving so fast? This is my house!
“Today, to my house.”
22
Lee Muyun’s home is beautiful.
There are landing windows that see the street view, there are wool carpets that lie straight up, there are HifI sound that surrounds the charming blues, and there are warm yellow lights that restore the sun.
In that light, his side face, his body, his smile, all seemed warm.
He showered first, and when he came out, his hair was wet, and the cleavage of his pecs appeared in the neck of his bathrobe and his skin was bright.
I suddenly remembered the Greek statue I saw that year.
The second floor of St. Petersburg’s Winter Palace, a man who returns to his head, a woman who is a woman.
It was two unrelated statues, and it was on both sides of the corridor, and I made up many stories.
I was laughing at my own thoughts.
Why is he laughing?
I said one thing about art.
He said don’t think about it. Go take a shower.
I said wash it and I’m sober and I won’t dare to do anything.
I walked up to him, and he looked beautiful, and I wore his coat, and I hung it between my waist, and I imagined I was the Greek statue.
And then he raised his feet and kissed up.
He took me in his arms, his heart beats fast, but he moved softly, he held me warm.
He caressed my hair, slowly, like a wounded cat.
Like saying, I won’t make you sad anymore.
It’s “safe” right?
I’ve never felt safe in my feelings.
23
The next morning, we had a meeting with Lee Muyun’s company.
I was in Lee Muyun’s car.
I was wondering if I’d come to their company to avoid it.
But when he got out of the parking lot, he grabbed my hand and went to the elevator.
I’m so warm.
But finally it came out gently.
I said, “Li Gore’s not cool with us. I’m sorry.
He said, “As for it.” I’m sorry.
I said, “Let’s take a break, after all, I want to keep making money from your company.” I’m sorry.
But he grabbed my hand again and said, “Come to the company and let go. I’m sorry.
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The week after that, me and Lee Goldfinger started dating a lot.
Watching horror movies in private cinemas, he was embarrassed to close his eyes and had to stare at the screen and keep talking to me.
I’m afraid I said so much?
He said no way!
At this point, the camera just gave a ghost close-up, and the sound burst.
He really didn’t hide, just staring at the screen and crushing the coke in his hand…
There was also a chicken soup. The store owner has two recommendations. He wants both.
I’ve had a stomachache.
And that day, for the first time, I saw his abdominal black under the high cold.
He had to tell me a joke!
It’s a terrible thing to say, but I can’t help but laugh and my stomach hurts.
And then he laughed.
I followed him and he ran away.
He took two steps and started laughing again because of the abdominal abdominal pain.
And so we got into a vicious circle of laughing, and I hit him, and my stomach ache, and then we laughed.
We’re going to the beach.
And Chen Xu went to the beach.
Lee Muyun didn’t hold me in the waves, nor kissed me underwater.
Just booked an empty beach in advance and sat with me in a chair to watch the sunset.
He asked me, “Here, you’ve been here before? I’m sorry.
I said, “Yeah. I’m sorry.
He laughed, “I knew it. I’m sorry.
I looked at him and wanted to explain to him that I didn’t come here with him because I missed the past.
But he reached out and stopped me.
“You don’t have to explain. I’m not trying to cover your memories with my romance. I’m sorry.
The waves are thin, the winds are cold.
“Lin Xiaobai, I just wanted to tell you, being with me might be nice. I’m sorry.
His pretty eyes, like night stars.
Our lips, slow and close.
Suddenly, my phone rings.
He sat back in the recital, and I was a little upset and picked up his cell phone and found out that it was Chen Xu.
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“Not home?” Chen Xu.
“Where am I?”
“Oh, how about with the Lee? I’m sorry.
“It’s none of your business. I’m sorry.
He suddenly smiled.
“I broke up with Zhang Ya, I mentioned. “Because I want to start over with you.” I’m sorry.
His voice suffocated.
“Let’s start over, I beg you,” he said.
“But we’re done. I’m sorry.
“I beg you, Yuma, give me a chance, I beg you. I’m sorry.
I knew I couldn’t talk to him anymore, so I hung up and blocked his number.
I saw Lee Muyun looking at me, and I said, “There’s a nice seafood block.
He laughed, “Of course. I’m sorry.
Tasty and Li Muyun’s lame joke, quickly made me forget the phone.
But when I left work the next day, when I returned to my home alone, I found that Chen Xu was waiting there.
The face is so sad.
“I’ll wait for you. I’m sorry.
Says he lit a knife.
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I instinctively wanted to run, but soon I realized he didn’t want to use that knife against me.
Because he put that blade on his wrist.
“I’m really sorry about this. I understand now that you’re the one who loves me the most. I’m sorry.
He said he was starting to shake. The blade shakes, and it looks like it’s going to break at any moment.
I said, “Calm down. I’m sorry.
“Sam, I know it’s wrong. How are we doing? No, I’ll be nice to you. I’ll be nice to you. I’m sorry.
His voice was silent, but he was fierce, fragile and fanatical.
I’ve never seen him look so crazy.
I’m scared, I want to scream for help, I want to call the police, I want Lee Muyun to be with me.
“Okay? He asked me.
“Put your knife down, Chen Xu, let’s…”
“Can I ask you something? Questioned aloud, the knife slashed blood on his wrist.
Chen Xu…
“I’ll die in front of your house! I’m sorry.
Then he shouted, and the knife was raised, and then he cut it in the wrist.
At that moment, I instinctively went up and held his hand with a knife.
Chen Xu!
And We turned all that fear into rage.
“You’ll die if you want to! I’m sorry.
Suddenly, his movements stopped.
All over the body, just like that. Just turn your head on me.
I only saw it now. His eyes are red.
“Do you really want me to die? * He’s got a weird smile, * “With a new girl, I’m not even gonna die? Bitch! I’m sorry.
He’s got a big right hand.
The knife broke through my two hands and drew a bloodline straight down in front of my eyes.
A few seconds later, I felt the pain on my cheek.
I instinctively poached.
Wet, hot.
Spread out and the whole palm is red.
And the glazing glass in the stairwell right at the moment is my face.
The face of being scarred.
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I screamed.
Howling with all your power.
And Chen Xu, when did he drop the knife and walk away?
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The memories that follow are not continuous.
I heard the sound of the ambulance, and I saw the lights in the hospital corridor grazed over my head and felt the anesthesia of the drug.
And then the dream.
In the dream, a fog.
And behold, a lean, strong hand seized me.
“Nama, let’s get out of here. He softly said, “I’ll take you out. I’m sorry.
Fog, show him his good looks and face.
But I broke his hand and pushed him out.
I don’t want to see him.
At least he can’t see me now.
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Wake up, Lee Muyun by my bed.
I woke up, sat up and asked me if I was thirsty, hungry or not and if I was not feeling well.
If I didn’t answer, he ran out of the hall and called the doctor.
After that, he stayed at my house, helped me cook, helped me pack the house, helped me cut the fruit.
He always held my hand and spoke softly.
He told me that Chen Xu had been arrested the first time he had called the police, and that the confession to the police was that Zhang Yada had a fight with his girlfriend that day and went to the bar.
And old friends of mine, took some pills.
This is all the excesses that have followed.
He told me that the company was running well and assured me that my assistant had handled the existing project well and that he would help himself from time to time.
He told me that he had found a good plastic surgeon to ensure that after several sessions, 70 per cent of the scars on his face had disappeared.
The most he said was I’m sorry.
He said, “I’m sorry, I couldn’t protect you. I’m sorry.
“But anyway, I like you. I’m sorry.
“I love it. I love it…”
And these days, I’ve never talked to him.
Until a week later. That afternoon, the sun was fine.
I said, “Let’s break up. I’m sorry.
He even laughed.
He said, “Can you talk?”
I said, “Li Muyun, I’m breaking up with you. I’m sorry.
He said, “And?”
I don’t know how to answer him.
His voice was calm and unsettling, as if I had just said “break up”, but it was just the tone of a common couple arguing.
I said, “Why?” Lee Muyun, I’m common, not smart enough, not beautiful enough…”
I want to say the word “disfigured.”
But these two words, even if you think about them, are already so painful that I can’t breathe.
But he said, “But I like you. I’m sorry.
Enough! “Do you think it’s funny? I’m sorry.
I don’t know why I’m angry.
Maybe I was just trying to get rid of him.
“What good do you like me for?” I don’t like you. Can’t you see? “I’m yelling.
Li Muyun was overwhelmed by my curse and tried to speak but did not speak.
I couldn’t bear to look at him again, so I left.
You go, you go now!
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I haven’t seen Lee Muyun since.
A month later, I took the bandage off.
The wounds on the face recovered well, but the scars from the mouth to the eye were still visible.
So I bought a lot of towels, masks, sunglasses.
With these veils, my life seems to be getting back on track.
Or maybe I’ll never get back on track.
Six months later, I suddenly came in and wanted to sort out pictures of my phone.
And I can finally accept that I’m a good person.
But then it turned upside down and suddenly found a video.
It was a long time ago when Mrs. Chen and her son were kicked out of my house.
It’s a very low angle, obviously.
So, when I was fighting, Li Muyun was behind me and kept filming with my phone?
This man…
I’ve seen it for a long time, and it’s so sweet.
After the fighting had subsided, the phone had been flat on the table and recorded on the ceiling, but it had not stopped.
Outside the scene, it was me and Lee Muyun who talked at the time.
But I never seem to remember it in its entirety because I was drunk.
In the accent, I choked, “What am I all these years? I’m sorry.
“He’s not worth it,” Li Muyun said, “You did nothing wrong, he’s not worth it.” I’m sorry.
“Who’s worth it?”
“Why don’t I try?”
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“You’re drunk, Lee Ko Cold? I’m sorry.
“I like you for a long time. I’m sorry.
“No, we just met a little while ago. I’m sorry.
“In 2015, you came to Shenzhen, where you lived in 423 Joo Gwang Village, 803 thousand dollars a month, 25 square metres a single room, only toilets, no kitchen. I’m sorry.
“You, how do you know?”
“At that time, you were probably poor and busy, and every night at 9:00, you started singing in the house, usually until 10:30. I’m sorry.
“Did I sing that long?”
“You have 70 percent of your time to mimic Sun Yin, and 20 percent of your time to mimic Cai Kinya or Morvine, and your favorite song is “Turn Up,” followed by “Don’t trouble me.” I’m sorry.
“So how about I sing? I’m sorry.
“Well, generally, but Sun Yin does. I’m sorry.
“Hey, that’s for sure. Wait, how do you know all this? I’m sorry.
“I live next door, 804.”
“Did I bother you?”
“No, it was hard for me…
“Oh, I see! And suddenly I interrupted Lee Muyun, “so my voice healed you.” I’m sorry.
“Yes. And he smiled, and he said, “Then I made it out of there, and that night I knocked on your door. I’m sorry.
“Really?”
“Yeah, I gave you a little flower, and I said it was just for people. Actually, I wanted to see you. I’m sorry.
“Oh, I remember, but it took me a week to die. I’m sorry.
“It’s okay. Just give it to you. I’m sorry.
I was stunned, and it seemed like he was blushing.
So I clear his voice and ask him, “How was it, when I first met you? I’m sorry.
“No, there was a sunset, the light was good, and you were the best-looking girl in the world. I’m sorry.
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That’s why he likes me.
Turns out he’s real.
But I drove him away.
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Winter’s over.
The cold winds receded, even at night.
That night, I went to that bar again.
In this bar, I called Lee Muyun for the first time and was rescued.
Now remember, that was probably the funniest time of my life.
I’m alone in the corner drinking, a glass, a little bit.
Suddenly it was discovered that the previously noisy bar had become quiet.
Then I heard the piano coming up from the stage.
That’s Sun Yan-seong.
Old song.
Call Meet.
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But the singer is Li Muyun.
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“In the dark, in the evening, outside the window, there’s a man waiting. I’m sorry.
“Look to the left, look to the right. Love comes with a few turns. I’m sorry.
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“I met someone who would have a kind of face, someone I loved, how far away she was in the future. I’m sorry.
“I hear the wind coming from the subway and the sea.” I’m sorry.
“I lined up and took love’s number. I’m sorry.
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“One day, my mystery will be revealed. I’m sorry.
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That night, I asked him, do you always sell your voice here?
He said not to sell anymore.
I said, what’s wrong?
He said it was waiting for you.
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That night, I had another dream on the wool carpet.
In the dream, a fog.
And behold, a lean, strong hand seized me.
“Nama, let’s get out of here. He softly said, “I’ll take you out. I’m sorry.
So I pulled that hand and ran out.
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Fogs out, I wake up.
I heard a knock on the door.
I’m walking through with my eyes and my slippers. Open the door.
He’s a tall, skinny boy of my age.
“Hello, flowers for free.” I’m sorry.
I said, “Don’t. I’m sorry.
He said, “Yes, it’s love.” I’m sorry.
I said, “Not anymore. I’m sorry.
I closed the door.
Think about it and open it again.
He’s still standing there.
I stole a dozen flowers.
I said, “Look how handsome you are. I’m sorry.
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I went to the sunset in front of the window.
The sun’s warm, it’s full of me, daisies.
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
