Yezhi was my stepfather’s son.
He hated me, bullied me and blinded one of my eyes.
I went crazy to call the police, and my mom slapped me and stopped me.
Ten years after the wedding night.
I fell from the top floor in front of Yezzi and my mother.
I saw my mother’s scared face.
More interestingly.
Ipki wanted to die with me.
One.
Getting married to Yeh, everyone thought I used his guilt to force him to give me a result.
I wonder if he thought so.
That’s why he disappeared all night the night after the engagement.
I sat on the bed all night, thinking all night.
At dawn, I packed and went to my best friend a thousand kilometres away.
On the third day of my best friend’s house, Ipki found me.
I opened the door, and he was standing at the door, and he was calm, and he used to say, “Are we done? Come home with me.” I’m sorry.
It’s almost winter, and the autumn wind is already a little stutter, and he’s wearing thin pants and he doesn’t seem to feel cold.
I think it’s a bad tone, and he added, ” Aunty’s worried about you. I’m sorry.
His aunt is my mother and his stepmother.
He used to hate us the most.
We’re reorganising the family, and he hates my mother and treats her like a little girl who’s spoiling his parents’ feelings.
Same, he hates me.
To what extent?
My left eye was blinded by him.
It’s ridiculous to say that, in that context, we’re together.
Two.
I looked at him and didn’t talk.
One minute and a second later, his eyebrow wrings and his lips.
This is a precursor to the exhaustion of his patience.
Until Yinji heard something and walked out and grabbed my shoulder with skill and nature, “She didn’t want to go back to that house. I’m sorry.
As soon as I saw her, I was a little dark.
Yank is my best friend.
But Yip did not like her because he suspected her of being of a sexual orientation.
But it’s true that Yin has been with a boyfriend.
He’s been up and down two times, and he’s in a good mood, and he smiles, “We’ll get married in July, and we’ll be there. I’m sorry.
“You knew she’d do it?” I’m sorry.
Yep held my wrist and pulled me out of her arms a little bit cold, “Don’t touch anyone’s wife. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry.
He went into the house and packed my belongings into a box.
My mother called me at this time and told me to follow Yeh back.
Before the elevator door closes, I’m happy to swing at the Ip, “I’ll be back soon, and I’ll be able to stay with Nono, welcome me?” I’m sorry.
Ip held my hand tight and the irritation in my eyes was spilling out.
3
Back home, it’s getting dark.
Just after the bath, I was carried by the leaves to the floating window, and my finger was held on my waist, and it tickled me if I didn’t even go up.
I tried to stop it, but he grabbed my hand.
“It’s been a long time. I’m sorry.
When he looked down and kissed me, I threw up on him.
The vomit dirty his shirt and mixed the smell of gastric acid digestion.
He’s back, he’s a little ugly.
For many years, I feared him instinctively, and I overtook my back.
He took his shirt off, took a deep breath and asked me, “What’s wrong? Are you sick? I’m sorry.
I’m sorry, “I’ve been sick these days. I’m sorry.
He was naked on top and, as a result of his good fitness habits, his muscle lines were fluid, with clear barriers to his chest under the dark light.
The lush turned on the light, the room was bright.
“I’m going to take a bath. He says:
The sound is a little cold.
I nod my head.
Anyone who is treated like this is in a bad mood.
I don’t think I’ll ever be kissed again.
I couldn’t help but laugh and bring a glass of water to the kitchen.
After more than 10 minutes, Yep came out of the bathroom, and he seemed to have adjusted his emotions and went into the kitchen to porridge for me.
A few years ago, I wouldn’t believe he’d be worried about my body cooking himself.
4
How bad can a 15-year-old Yipz be?
The day I first met him, he hugged my mother and I, the skinny, tall and clean boy, under the banner of his father, and said, “Welcome to aunt and sister. I’m sorry.
He was in a good disguise until his father went out because of temporary problems and my mother went into the kitchen.
He was lying on the sofa and he had a video message to his classmates, and he said, “The little girl is so fucking ugly. I’m sorry.
He turned his phone over to me and asked me, “Isn’t it? I’m sorry.
I’m in a hurry and I hear the guy across the phone laughs even more, “Yeah, it’s ugly, you’re bad luck. I’m sorry.
“I thought I’d be nice to her if she was pretty. “It seems that this is no longer necessary. I’m sorry.
I was all red, and there was a moment of shame and panic in my heart, and I had to stand down and hide from him.
Mom told me to listen, be good and be polite so uncle would like me.
But she didn’t tell me what to do with being bullied.
Yeltsin’s got a deal.
When I transferred to his school, I was subjected to various sanctions and reprisals against the little girls.
I was hoping to help my mother, but she was just crying, “Why can’t you get along with Ip? I’m sorry.
Yeltsy brought congee to the table, leaned over and touched my face, bending his lips, “How can he look at me like this? Too touched? I’m sorry.
Those things, he seems to have forgotten.
At night, I woke up at that particular time.
Look at the sleeping leaves, I’m in the light of a little light, and I feel like I’m in the bathroom.
And when he came out he found him at the door, and he was tired of his eyes.
“Why are you awake?”
I asked.
He’s quiet and gentle, “I’m afraid you’ll wrestle, come and see.” I’m sorry.
He came to hold my hand, “Go back to sleep. I’m sorry.
He knows I have bad eyesight, especially at night.
All these years I’ve been so nice to my mom that I’ve got a temper and a problem with my eyes, and I’d be happy if I didn’t mind.
But my eyes, clearly, were blinded with a laser pen.
5
I don’t understand people who hate me so much.
I can’t believe I’m interested.
When I was 14, my left eye was permanently blind.
But everyone is on the side of the killer.
I rose up from the ground and took the scissors and went to the Yeltsin, “If I don’t call the police, pay me for his eyes.” I’m sorry.
I don’t understand how unfair this is.
They didn’t want me to call the police, and I went to the police station secretly, and instead they accused me of being wrong and lying to children of having fooled the police.
I can’t take him to jail.
I just have to pierce one of his eyes.
But my mother burst into my face and stretched out her hand to take my scissors, and it was a little more intense than when she learned that my eyes were blinded by leaves.
I don’t know. I thought Yip was her own.
“Nono, don’t do anything wrong…” She tried to grab my arm in a panic.
My original family is not happy.
My father was drunk and beat my mom.
If I stop, he’ll fight with me.
Then they got divorced and my mom got rid of him.
The day she got out of the Civil Affairs Bureau, she started crying and hugged me and said she would never get married again, and we’d both live together.
She has to work hard, protect me, not let me suffer.
I want her to be happy.
I hope she doesn’t have to work so hard.
So when she remarried, I didn’t stop.
I naively thought I could have a home now.
A normal and tall father and a gentle and friendly brother.
And now.
My good mother stood in front of me and tried to protect my killer.
Yeh stood still and looked at me with a cold look.
Like looking at a crazy clown.
He said, “It’s only been a few seconds, how do I know she’ll be blind? I’m sorry.
And when it crashes to the extreme, people calm down.
Nobody cares how I feel.
Nobody cares about my future, what my life will be like.
All struggles, roaring and weeping have become meaningless under the contempt of adults and the deliberate defence of the perpetrators.
Yeh-hyun did not apologize to me until the end.
I was taken away from my cell phone and computer and kept in my room without being allowed to communicate with the outside world.
It’s a name that keeps me safe from the outside world.
Every night my mother indoctrinates me how hard she is and how good Ipchi’s father is to her.
She said that Ip was young and ignorant of the consequences, and that she would forgive him.
She also said Yeh’s father had promised her that no matter how much it cost to fix my eyes, I’m still young and there’ll be a way.
The doctor had made it so clear that she was still lying to herself.
Seeing as I don’t have the salt, my mom kind of collapsed, “If you hate Mom, go kiss your dad.” I’m sorry.
Again.
Ever since I was a kid, I’m afraid of being abandoned.
My mom knows this.
When I was a kid, I cried, and my mom was upset when she said she didn’t want me, even if my face was red.
I was silent and I looked up and laughed at her, “I know, my eyes will be fine. I’m sorry.
“Thank you, Uncle Ye. I’m sorry.
I can finally leave my room and go to school.
No one was bullying me at school.
Everyone’s looking at me funny. Nobody comes near me.
Oh, I’m gonna stick a scissors in the blind.
So they’re all afraid of me.
For a long time, I looked calm and good.
As if the reality had been accepted.
Until that day, my colleague came to my house and accidentally saw an autopsy on the nightstand. I thought you said your dream was to be a surgeon, right? Because your grandmother had failed. She loved you the most. I’m sorry.
I shake my head and put the model in the drawer.
She was suddenly aware of what, and there was some embarrassment and sympathy in her eyes.
A man with only one eye can’t be a surgeon.
I stood at the door for a while and sat on the couch in the living room.
I turn on the TV, turn on the volume, then bend over and bury my face in my knee.
My mother took a nap in the room, and I didn’t make a sound, I cried silently, my chest was hurting and the whole body was shaking.
Yip looked at me without knowing when to stand beside me.
I didn’t pay attention to him. I cried and fell asleep on the couch.
Wake up, he’s still here.
Yeh was quiet for a while, “You slept long, my dad and your mom went out on a date. I’m sorry.
I got up on the couch and didn’t talk.
And he said, “Are you hungry? I’ll make you some noodles in the kitchen. I’m sorry.
Yip’s turned fast.
As if he had truly become a gentle and kind brother, at home and in school, who cared for me.
Even on the day of the examination, I missed my time at the examination because of a prank phone call.
I said the roof is so windy, I’m losing my mind.
It’s a good thing everybody’s on their high exams today. I don’t fall down and I don’t kill anybody.
I was just kidding.
Didn’t think he really believed it.
He didn’t tell anyone about this.
Even if he missed the exam, his father beat the shit out of him.
After my left eye was blind, I lost it for a while, and my grades fell.
Yeh had a year of training for me and helped me get into the same college as him.
After that, he asked me if I would be his girlfriend.
Mom’s happy about that.
She told me Ip had changed and he’d be nice to me.
Yeh’s father agreed with us, saying that his conscience would be better.
Everyone forgave Yeh for me.
Everyone is explaining to him that it is an unintentional thing, a simple thing, and that it can be magnanimous and compensatory.
As long as I can forget, everything can be wiped out and everything will be better.
Six.
I saw two red bars on the trial paper and my head buzzed.
The reason for the recent physical anomalies has finally become clear.
When did this happen?
Ooh.
A month ago, Masuo was transferred to the province for business, and I couldn’t leave her. Two people talked and got drunk.
It was Yip who picked me up.
When I was conscious, I was in the bathroom.
The shirts on the Yeltsin are wet and I’m not dressed.
When I woke up the next day, the pain of my head after a hangover led me to think that the pain in my body was just from a drunk.
Now remember what we should do.
And Yip didn’t do anything.
I feel a flat belly, and I can’t imagine a little life in it.
This idea has plunged me into a panic.
It’s the same fear as when I learned I was getting engaged.
I was the first to tell you about the pregnancy.
“What do I do?” I whispered, “I’m pregnant with a child, but I don’t want to be born.” I’m sorry.
That’s weird. I thought I loved him.
“Nono, this is your child, you bleed. I’m sorry.
“The best time for an abortion is in 70 days, and you have a month to think about whether or not to let Yeh be his father. I’m sorry.
“I support any decision you make. I’m sorry.
“If you don’t want Yip to raise him, let me. I’m sorry.
“Let’s be his mother together, take good care of him and raise him. I’m sorry.
“You can do it abroad. I earn enough to feed you. I’m sorry.
Listen to her and her gentle tone, and again, I’ve been calmed down.
It’s okay.
There’s garb.
There she is.
7
Two months to marriage.
Yez and some friends gathered in peace, and took me with them.
After all these years, I couldn’t get into his circle, and I had to sit alone and play with his cell phone.
And I can feel that these friends of his, although apparently kind to me, don’t really look at me.
When I came out of the bathroom, I heard them talking.
“You’re so good, how can you let that half-blind fool put you in jail? I’m sorry.
“Is it because of the accident as a child? I’m sorry.
Ip opened his mouth, “Shut up. I’m sorry.
“Don’t talk about it. Qi was a minor, but he didn’t want to hear it.” * A luminous and gentle voice of a woman came in with a taste of peace *
Oh, it’s her.
Shen Sheng.
I remember this girl.
She had a healthy and beautiful eye, smiling like a bending moon teeth, through a little bit of a smile.
Ipki probably liked her eyes, too, so when she spoke, she always looked at her.
I’ve been standing behind the wall for a long time, and I haven’t been waiting for Yip’s answer.
So I walked over.
Yech hears noise and looks back at me.
I found him laughing.
He never smiled, but he smiled very softly.
You see.
So he thought it was unintentional.
When she passed by Shen Sheng, her sweet scent touched my memory.
Nobai 1942, fragrance.
It’s been a regular smell on Ipz in recent times.
And I remember he never used perfume, and he never sprayed it.
Shen Sheng blinked at them, stood up and gave me pineapple martini on the table with a smile. This is the sign of the house. I ordered it for you. I’m sorry.
I’m allergic to pineapple, abdominal pain, rashes, I know.
But he was just watching, not stopping.
Did he forget, or was he afraid of Shen Hak’s embarrassment?
4
Once again, it protected me.
She came back a few days ago.
We came straight to grab my waist and sat with me in the sofa. “We were allergic to pineapple. I’m sorry.
The air was quiet, and the eyes of the leaf fell on her, and her eyebrow rose.
“Sorry, I don’t know. “Sun summer smiles.”
“What’s that? The boy next to her whispered.
I didn’t say anything. I watched him for a while.
Boys are a little awkward, leaving the beginning behind.
There’s gibberish in there and I’m all loose.
She’s carrying a bowl of cocoa sponge cake and eating it while talking to me about the strange clients she met while she was on a business trip.
Yeh suddenly said, “The band stops, we should go back. I’m sorry.
I look up right in his eyes.
“Go back now? Didn’t we agree to go to a play together? Shen Xiang looked at the clock on the wall and said, “It’s almost time. I’m sorry.
Ip snarled for two seconds, “Let’s go. I’m sorry.
The phone was ringing, and she softly squeezed my face, “You wait downstairs, I’ll get a call from the balcony. I’m sorry.
“Good. I’m sorry.
We’re on the second floor, the stairs to the bar are narrow and steep, and the sight is dark.
My left eye is blind, my vision is restricted, so be careful.
Shen Sheng walked behind me and screamed, and she almost fell and grabbed the rail.
“Look out! # Ip-Silence #
He was standing under me, and the first reaction was to hold Shen Sheng’s arm.
“All right?” He asked.
Shen Hae-hee’s head is shaking, “I’m sorry to step on it. I’m sorry.
Ipki finally remembered me.
Maybe he noticed that I didn’t look too good. He twisted his brow and cared. “What happened to you? I’m sorry.
I moved my hand off the abdomen, and I said, “Nothing. I’m sorry.
He held my hand and looked me in the left eye, “Here’s the dark, follow me.” I’m sorry.
I drew my hand, “No, I can see it. I’m sorry.
He was staring at me like he was looking at me.
I bypassed him and went down first.
Not too often, Yen has followed.
I’m trying to get home on the pretext that I’m not feeling well.
“I’ll take Nono back.” I’m sorry.
Yep looked at her for a few seconds and looked at me. It was a bit displeasure.
“Chi, it’s too late. Ha-Jing wanted to see the play. I’m sorry.
“Let’s go, let’s go, let’s go. I’m sorry.
And the loaves of the lips, and he hesitated.
Several friends continued to press.
“Go home and send me a message. He told me.
I laughed, “Okay. I’m sorry.
Yezhi, how can you be the father of my child?
5
On the way.
Take me to her house.
She pushed me in the elevator with care, looking at my belly with some curiosity, “Really? I’m sorry.
I nod my head. “It’s been five weeks. I’m sorry.
She took a breath and slowly put her hand on my belly, “Good, Nono, it’s your baby. I’m sorry.
I bow my head and my hand over her.
Honestly, I’ve never felt anything about pregnancy.
But the moment I almost fell down the stairs, I had a hard heart and a low consciousness that protected my stomach.
Even though I haven’t decided if I want to keep him.
I have migraine headaches. It’s been a long time. I don’t know if it’s the words of Yeh’s friend tonight, or whether his attitude towards Shen Shen Sheng has upset me, and the left temple and the cheeks have begun to swollen again.
Gaming put my head on her leg and rubbed it for me.
Her fingers seem to be magical, and they’re just a little wiping me out.
“Don’t go. Let’s sleep tonight. I’m sorry.
The cell phone seemed to ring a few times, and it was taken up and looked, and it fell off without an expression.
She took me to my bed, covered me up, kissed me in the face, “Well, go to bed, I’ll take a shower. I’m sorry.
After a while, she got into the bed and put her body around me with water.
A girl’s body is soft, and she has a unique scent.
I remember seeing her for the first time on a traffic block, she was working for a child injured in a car accident.
The young boy was comforted with warm words when his hands were full of blood and his head was sweaty and his neck was flaccid because of his nerves.
I had a thought in my head.
It’s really a pretty girl.
So brave, so tough and so gentle.
I wish I could be like her.
Six.
I was woken up by an argument.
“You’re fucking sick. Come to my house in the morning and I’ll sue you for disturbing people. @Ambassah: I’m sorry.
“I don’t bullshit you. Where is she? * It’s the voice of the Yeltsy, low, impatient. *
Soon after, my blanket was lifted and the cool air came in.
And I opened my eyes blindly, and in the curtains was the ugly face of the leaves.
He didn’t stop, he picked me up and walked out.
What are you saying? “Do you know that you don’t talk to your friends anymore?” Can’t you see what they’re doing to Nono? Leave her alone to go to some play by herself… slow the fuck down!
Yip took me all the way to the underground parking lot, opened the co-pilot’s door and put me in there, so he took a few breaths at the door, and he kept staring at me. Why don’t you answer it?”
My head woke up and I remembered for a few seconds, “I fell asleep. I’m sorry.
He was even more angry, “Who let you sleep with her in a bed? We’re getting married! I’m sorry.
“Yehz, she’s a girl. I’m sorry.
“Is she a normal girl?” I’m sorry.
“She had a sister who died in the water when she was a child, and she was very upset, so she took special care of me. I smiled at him, “She treats me like a sister. Didn’t you go to the play with your sister last night? I’m sorry.
“We went in a group.” Besides, the tickets have been booked, and you won’t go. I’m sorry.
A group of people?
Yip, you know what you’re thinking.
7
Today is the day for a wedding dress.
I’ve been waiting a long time for the Starbucks meeting downstairs, and I’ve been getting bored and thinking about waiting in his office.
The doors of the office are half-open, and there is a shadow.
Shen Hae-jin again.
She raised her hands in front of her eyes and turned her lips.
I’m familiar with a bit of a finger.
Look carefully, it was my wedding ring.
I’m stationed outside the door.
Look at her. I look forward to this wedding more than I do.
“Why don’t you try my wedding dress? I’m sorry.
Shen Hae-hyun was so upset, he took off the ring, “I’m sorry, I just thought the ring was so beautiful I couldn’t help it…”
I turned my head, “Is that man really so good? Good thing you know he’s getting married. I’m sorry.
If it’s for Yip’s money, as far as I know, Shen Hae-jin’s family is good.
When Shen Hak was in the air, his eyes became firm.
Can’t see. I’m sorry.
I couldn’t help but laugh, “Yeah, I can’t see. I’m sorry.
I thought, if she’d seen a 16-year-old Yeh, would she have said that?
If she’s been through what I’ve been through, can she still make a treasure out of her?
At 2:15, the Yehz meeting is over.
He walked into the office and saw us all having an accident on his face. I’m sorry.
Shen Hak put the ring back in the box in a serenity, laughing at him, “You’re here before you say a word.” You’re careless. The wedding ring is just on the table, but it’s beautiful. I’m sorry.
Yeh kept his hand on the bag, and he said, “It’s okay, no one else is allowed in my office. I’m sorry.
As soon as it came out, Shen Hae-jae had nothing to be embarrassed about.
It seems she is not listed.
Yep turned his head at me, smiled, “I can’t wait to try the dress.” Let’s go. I’m sorry.
I laughed and whispered, “I didn’t. I’m sorry.
“That’s what I can’t wait. He held my hand, he squeezed it a little, he said to Shen Hae-jin, “Let’s go first. I’m sorry.
Shen Sheng looked at our hand and smiled a little bit, “Okay. I’m sorry.
On the way, I mean, “She seems familiar with your office. I’m sorry.
Yeh’s tone is not so bad, “For the time being, the office was redecorated, she was the designer. I’m sorry.
I nod my head, “Oh. I’m sorry.
Shen Sheng is a designer, so her scarf can be hanging with his coat, and her lipstick can be placed next to his pen.
A picture of me and Yeh on the table is also a view.
What else?
My sight fell on his left hand.
Yip is not very long to start a business because he was tired of driving a car accident.
A broken arm plus a concussion is not serious, but also spent a half month in a yard.
The time I was there was boring, watching the video on the Internet and learning to knit a tradable bead bracelet with red rope.
He was taken away by a leaf when it was done, and he appeared to have been wearing it on his wrist for years.
Now, that slightly tacky and cheap red rope is missing.
Instead, it was a very valuable Lange.
8
The dress is beautiful.
And the low white veil, and the long and complex skirts pouring down, as if they were purified flowers. I’m tied to my waist and my skin is draped under the light.
The leaves looked into my eyes, and they opened their eyes.
When he came home, he brought me to the gates and kissed me with some urgency.
Scattered, cold, warm.
I remember when I was 18 and I found my missing underwear under his pillow.
It was the first time I ever confronted him with his desires.
At that time, my first feeling wasn’t disgusting, it wasn’t shame and anger.
It’s intense confusion.
Look at my empty left eye, and see how he has aroused interest in me.
Every time a leaf kisses me, I think;
What thoughts and thoughts do I have on this face, this face, which I have on my body.
Faced with my life that he destroyed with his own hands, I can’t believe I’m dying.
I can’t help but think of it here, and I can’t help but push him away.
Good thing there’s nothing in my stomach. It’s just vomit.
“What’s wrong with you?” I’m sorry.
I’m breathing, sweating, not answering.
He was angry and fell on the door.
I’ve been standing there for so long.
The cell phone in the pocket buzzed and called back my mind.
It’s tan.
She seems to be in a good mood and her voice is clear, “I miss you baby, how are you?” Are you still pregnant? I’m sorry.
“Good. I’m a little confused, dumb, “I feel like I don’t want to get rid of him.” I’m sorry.
“I know you’ve always liked kids, and it’s good to keep him, and I support any choice you make. Nono, he’s your child and mine. I’m sorry.
Once again, I was comforted and warmed up. I’m sorry.
“I’ve been so busy lately I haven’t had time for you. When the work is over, I’ll take you to Bali to see the sea and blow the wind. “Take our baby. I’m sorry.
I bend my lips, “Okay, I’ll wait for you. I’m sorry.
Hanging up the phone, which was already backloged in the chest, eased much.
These two words of the future are no longer in my eyes in the shadows and the shadows.
Because.
I’ll never be alone again.
I’ve got pigment and baby.
9
I thought Yip would not come back tonight.
Two hours later, a message was received from him.
– There’s a light show at the beach tonight. I’ve got a nice room in Hilton.
This is his way of peace.
It’s surprising that the nature of the Yips, in such a short period of time, can put down their self-esteem and compromise, and in turn make me feel better.
I looked at the phone for a while and I said, “Okay.”
It’s been a month.
After tonight, I should have the answer.
On the way.
The night winds are blowing through my side of my face through the window, and the weather is a little hot, and the clouds are thick, and they are a precursor to the storm.
The weather forecast is off again.
Sporadic rain clicked on the glass, and I looked at the time and wanted to get to the hotel before it rained.
Unfortunately, the car crashed on the high bridge, and I bit my teeth, used inertia to park it in an emergency parking belt and opened a double flash to warn other vehicles.
I did not dare to remain in the car. I stepped out of the car and stood by the fence. I called the rescue phone and immediately called Yeh.
There was no answer to the call.
No response was received.
Yip, what are you doing?
The rain is getting worse, I can’t open my eyes, and I’m all wet and cold.
A car came through, and I got a little bit nervous.
The tummy child also felt my nervousness, the pain of the spasm, and I bended a little and held it in my hand.
It’s too dangerous here.
Besides my condition, I can’t rain too long.
I rubbed my phone screen on my body, covered the rain with my arm, and then I called in the face.
It’s coming through soon.
Hello? “The voice of the pigments is a bit tired.
I put the rain on my face and briefly described the situation.
“Be safe, I’ll be right there. So there’s a little friction, and you’re getting dressed, “About ten minutes, you wait for me. I’m sorry.
I said, “It’s raining, slow down, I’ll be fine. I’m sorry.
“Good. I’m sorry.
She’s worried I’m scared and she’s been talking to me on the phone.
“I’m almost there. She was so relieved, “What if you get a cold? Especially when you’re still pregnant with a bang! I’m sorry.
Her voice stopped.
This was accompanied by violent collisions.
The call’s off.
There’s a moment of blanks in my head.
The rain, the asphalting, the cold wind crushing my body, and I can’t hear anything in my ear.
The footsteps do not move forward on their own, but rush.
I tried to call Yank again.
Over and over.
There’s always no answer.
The abdominal abrasions, the slowness of the heart, was about to stop.
At this point, Yeh’s phone was plugged in.
I caught it like a life-saving straw, and it was loud and dumb. I’m sorry.
The first thing, “I just heard from you. You on the bridge? I’ll get you. I’m sorry.
“I can’t get through the phone, she just tried to pick me up, but there was a car accident… I’m so worried about what happened to her, can you come over now…’ I’m so confused.
Yeh was silent for a moment and said, “I’m on my way to pick you up, and I’ll be right there. You’ll be safe, you’ll stand by the fence and don’t go anywhere. I’m sorry.
And We stopped, and the end of the road was not in the rain.
“…good. I’m sorry.
After a while, I got a call, “Are you a friend of the owner? She’s in a car accident and she’s being taken to the hospital at xx, please. I’m sorry.
Yep’s here.
He opened the door and walked towards me.
The rain wets my eyes, my eyes are blurry and I feel like I have lost consciousness, standing alone on the high bridge of the traffic.
“Take me to the hospital. I looked up at him, and I looked up, and I was so calm, and I said, I’m sorry.
10
I don’t understand.
He was talking to me more than 10 minutes ago, comforting me, planning our future…
Why is she lying in a cold operating bed now?
I’ve contacted the family. They won’t come. I signed the protocol.
I’m a little ludicrous outside the operating room.
As if my soul remained on that road, standing between countless traffics, slamming and crushing.
I don’t know why Shen Hae-jin is here.
“I’m sorry…”
Why would she say sorry to me?
I don’t have time to think.
Ip held my arm, “I’ll get you changed. You’re all wet. I’m sorry.
He said, “Cunno, you’ve been shaking. I’m sorry.
I can’t feel the cold.
I said to his eyes, “Why didn’t you answer the phone? I’m sorry.
“If you answer the phone, won’t it happen if Yan-sung didn’t rush to pick me up? I’m sorry.
“If only I hadn’t woke her up. I’m sorry.
“I did this to her. I’m sorry.
I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
Interesting.
He said the same thing as Shen Hae-jin.
I took a little breath, strutted my head, crouched down.
The pain in the lower abdomen fell like a little snake, struggling in my abdominal cavity and painfully.
I’m down.
There’s something flowing out.
Looks like blood.
There’s too much blood going on. I don’t look right.
Yezhi noticed something. “What’s wrong with you? I’m sorry.
The body is empty and the soul empty.
And I looked up at the leaves and said, “I had a miscarriage.” I’m sorry.
For the first time I saw such a complex look in the face of a leaf.
After everything.
Very confused.
I was carried to the gynaecology and gynaecology, to the doctor’s lips, to the slightly panicful face of the summer, to the smell of disinfectant water in the air, to the cold, wet legs, and to hear about the clean palace surgery.
And the pale face of the leaf.
He looked down at me, and his eyes were filled with something called grief and sadness, “Why didn’t you tell me you were pregnant? I’m sorry.
There’s nothing to tell then.
You’re no longer worthy.
They were taken to the moment when they were lying on the operating bed, opening their legs.
My heart has been sore.
The pain I can’t describe spread all over me.
The same day I lost my baby.
If she wakes up and finds out, it’ll be hard, right?
Eleven.
I didn’t hit the anesthesia.
The sense of the whole process is extremely clear.
The choice was not to be pain-free because it was possible to get out of bed immediately after the operation, while the use of anaesthesia required a two-hour bed rest.
I can’t wait two hours.
Yezzi’s holding me. His hands are colder than mine. I’m sorry.
I said, “Is the surgery over? I’m sorry.
Yip’s breath is still a moment, noding.
I was so tight, I looked at him with hope, “How is she? I’m sorry.
Yep staggered my eyes, and he adjusted his emotions and looked at me again, “It should wake up soon. I’m sorry.
He lied.
Yang was put in intensive care.
The doctor stated that she was in a coma when she was hit in the car accident with a severe blow to the head, a skull hemorrhage and a brain and nerve damage.
Add a broken leg, a lung fracture and a critical condition.
Not even a doctor is sure when she’ll wake up.
The eyes hurt. The whole body hurts.
But no tears.
“You go lie down, there’s me. I’m sorry.
“Cenno, will you listen to me? I’m sorry.
I don’t know how many times I’ve heard it.
He finally couldn’t bear to see it red, “You stand here till dawn and she won’t wake up. I’m sorry.
And when it is a question, it is a cry.
My life begins with a sense of shame, and it really has colour.
I don’t have friends, I don’t have lovers, I don’t have a home, I’m married to someone else, I’m not the only one left.
But then I got friends, loved ones, someone to talk to and depend on.
I’m the only one.
“Ipz, the child is gone. I’m sorry.
Ip squeezed my hand, my throat swung, “We’ll have it again…”
I interrupted him.
“She says she looks forward to this child. I’m sorry.
“If it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t have left the child. I’m sorry.
“Are you saying that this is a sign that Yanchong is leaving me? I’m sorry.
12
The father of Yinji arrived late.
After she was in a coma for six months.
He’s not here for fear of his daughter’s safety.
Instead, he wanted to say to the hospital that he would give up his treatment.
“I’ve heard from the doctor that she’s been hit by a car accident, and now she’s hung by a device, and she’ll probably turn into a vegetable and never wake up. I’m sorry.
“How can we pay for all the money we spend in a day?” I’m sorry.
“And besides, the people who live must live, and not be dragged by her forever. I’m sorry.
Speaking of which, it’s about the heritage of the platinum.
I have many similarities with Yin.
Like what.
We all have an irresponsible father.
Even worse, her father often molested her while she was a young girl, and she escaped from the house without her help. When he reached full age, the man often harassed her and asked her for money under various pretexts.
“I’ll pay for it. Don’t worry about it. Besides, she’s not a vegetable, and the doctor hasn’t pronounced her brain dead, and you don’t have the right to decide for her. “I’m shaking.
And now, this animal is pointing so hard at my nose that the spitting star is almost squirting in my face, “We are her father and I am not entitled to it.” Who are you, an outsider? I’m sorry.
“She’s already cut off from you, remember? You signed the money you took. I’m sorry.
“You shut up! He slaps me in the face and bites my teeth, and he says, “I’ve asked, it’s not legal! It’s up to me whether she’s dead or alive. I’m sorry.
My head was swollen and my ears were buzzing, and those around him stopped him before he could hurry.
Calm down, I called the lawyer, and the other one arrived in a hurry.
Upon enquiry, the agreement to break up the filiation did not have legal effect.
But Yin has drawn up a will, and if all her unexpected property is mine, including a series of insurances that she bought, all of which are mine.
She took away her mother-in-law, who was very sick and died, and was in a state of uncertainty, so she made her will early at a very young age.
In black and white, the garlanding father was angry, scolded me loudly and even tried to come up and hit me again.
After he was driven away, I fell on the ground.
It’s been full of tears.
You protected me so many times.
This time, I’ll protect you.
I don’t know.
I pray in the darkness to the gods, who have not believed for many years.
As when I was 14, I prayed for my eyes to heal.
But my eyes didn’t get better.
Is it me or is it not enough?
If you can.
And We shall give her the light for the rest of our lives, and she shall be safe.
13
It’s been a month, and Yin has not woken up.
Notifications of illness were made twice.
Doctors are getting less hopeful.
I feel like I’m in a thick, sticky mud, and I’m in a mess, and I can’t see it.
Monday was a bedside visit day, and I never left the hospital.
I never thought I’d see Shen Hae-jin again here.
She’s with her, of course.
“I’ve been feeling guilty for the last few days, and if I hadn’t let you have my birthday with me and sang in Mini ktv that night, you’d have missed Cheononor’s phone, maybe her girlfriend wouldn’t have been in a car accident to pick her up. The two were standing at the corner of the stairs, with a little tremor in the tails.
I see.
Turns out on the rainy night, when I was shivering in the rain,
He was happy to live for Shen Shen Sheung, to watch her laugh, to watch her laugh, to play childish games with her once indignant.
I can’t see his face.
He was silent for a few seconds, and he said, “No one expected this to happen. I’m sorry.
What a familiar conversation.
Was it an accident again?
I can’t help but laugh at my lips.
I looked down.
It’s my mom.
“Mom knows that your friend had an accident and understands your grief, but you’ve not been married for much longer, and you’ve got to live with it. Your friend’s got a doctor and a nurse looking after him. She’s here to talk to me about, “It’s been a long time since I’ve been looking at the company and running the wedding and going to the hospital. I’m sorry.
If my mom hadn’t warned me, I’d almost forgotten.
It’s my wedding with Yip.
My mom’s voice made two people next to the stairs notice my presence.
Yip’s face has changed so fast.
And he took my hand, and perhaps the apathy in my eyes stinged him, and left him in a state of panic, and open his mouth, without a sound.
“You don’t want to marry me, do you? I ask calmly.
“Nono, what did you say? On the other side of the phone, my mom seemed a little confused, “Are you talking to her?” How could he not want to marry you? You’ve been together all these years…
Ip couldn’t help but feel my hand.
That’s when the hospital phone came in, and I got in a tremor.
“Is this the family of Yanshu? She’s not very happy right now. Please hurry…”
That’s a sign of my feeling.
Yan has been notified twice of his illness.
This is the third time.
14
The vision is dark.
It’s spinning.
I can’t breathe.
I turned, I took a walk, and I swayed and fell.
I don’t seem as strong as I thought.
I passed out.
I tried so hard to stay up until I woke up and wanted to be on her side.
I fell when she needed me most.
Wake up again. It’s familiar.
I’m not in the hospital, it’s home.
I was taken home.
I went out of bed, and it was not until the moment my feet touched the ground that I realized that my legs were weak, and I almost fell to the ground.
I opened the door and wanted to leave.
Ip’s got me. He’s got a tight, tight arms. Can you see how skinny you are now? You’re gonna die. I’m sorry.
I’m just asking him, “How’s that? Is she all right?”
He didn’t answer.
I asked again, “She’s okay, right? I’m sorry.
Yeh-huh, “She’s okay, she’s saved. I’ll see her when you’re well. I’m sorry.
I shook my head, and the leaves were deaf, and I was forced to remain in my house.
Once again, I was taken away from my cell phone and computer and everything I could contact the outside world.
It’s like a masked ban.
Yip dropped his job, and he didn’t even go to the company and stood by me.
He cooks for me, I have no appetite, I have no appetite, I have no appetite, I have no hope for a long time, and then he looks at me and says, “When you are well, I will take you to Asa.” I’m sorry.
Because of that, I started eating.
He took a bath for me, and his finger touched me because of my skinny spine, and his eyes were dark.
“For a woman, you torture yourself like this. I’m sorry.
“Nono, it was supposed to be our wedding day. I’m sorry.
“But your health is so bad, I’m afraid you can’t hold it. I’m sorry.
“When you recover, you’ll be replenished. I’m sorry.
I don’t say that.
He wrapped me up in a towel and took me to bed.
And then down, kissing my eyelids, nostrils, shoulders and collarbones, “You blame me, right? I’m sorry, that’s not gonna happen again.”
I let him move.
I can’t get my interest from anyone or anything other than bragging.
The leaves were silent, and a necklace was put on my neck a moment later. “The rope of the trans-shipment beads was worn out, and I turned it into a necklace. I’m sorry.
“Cunno, everything’s gonna be okay. I’m sorry.
Maybe I’m aging to the point where I can’t even see Ip.
He called my mom.
And told her about my miscarriage.
When she saw me, she was half-eyed.
“How can you make yourself look like this… how sad it is to see your mother like this? You’re young, you’re healthy, you’ll have children again. I’m sorry.
“I know you mind the girl, and I talked to her, and she promised not to come looking for Yip, which means she won’t be seeing again. I’m sorry.
“Nono, you’re so good. Listen to your mother. I’m sorry.
She spoke in a plea.
When I was little, my mom told me that Dad wouldn’t hit us if I was good.
But even after my first exam, my father would still beat my mother and beat me.
Then my mother told me that thanks to my gratitude, Uncle Ip took care of our mother and my son, so that I could go to college, graduate school and treat her.
Without Uncle Ye’s protection, we may still be stuck with my father, and my mother has not worked for years, and it’s a problem to feed herself, not to mention to me.
Uncle Ye is our mother and son, and I respect him.
So even with Yip, I am my benefactor.
So, no matter how much Ipz did to me, she could have tolerated and asked me to.
This day.
I got an interesting message.
My mom got pregnant when she was 45.
She and Yip’s father had their own children.
16
Yip is getting busy again.
Leave early and come home late at night.
Late at night he lay on my side and I smelled the familiar sweet smell.
He said he’d never see Shen Hae-jin again.
He lied.
I found a chance to sneak out and hitchhike to the hospital.
But he was told that the Quran had passed away half a month ago.
I’m standing there for a while.
Until Yip finds me.
He looked pale when he realized I knew everything.
I was taken back.
Burn all night, sweaty.
She was gone that night.
So my hunch is true.
Sorry…
It took me so long to know.
I was so sick.
The memories of those days were blurry, only knowing that there were people around me and my hand was caught and held. I heard my mother’s voice, and the voice of Yeh, worried and blamed.
Get well after.
It’s almost wedding day.
Yip asked me a symbolic question.
I didn’t talk.
He took it as a yes.
17
There’s a lot of blessing on the phone.
My former classmates, relatives, and friends of Yezhi congratulated us on our wedding.
My migraine is back.
I put a bunch of lilies on the nightstand, which made my nerves sour, I threw them in the trash and threw them out of the room.
I can’t smell too strong, it’ll trigger my headache.
That’s why you never spray perfume in front of me, and you never smoke.
Oh, nobody cares anymore.
Gamma is dead.
18
I’ve been getting sleepy lately.
I get up and I sleep all the time.
There is less and less time to wake up every day, and even memory is not clear.
I didn’t know how to wake up this night.
And unlike before, the body is light and conscious.
It’s like a wind could take me away.
“Nono, what are you doing standing there? Danger… Come here. I’m sorry.
It’s my mom’s voice.
She seems nervous and anxious.
I turned around and wanted to see what she was afraid of.
You’re swaying under your feet like you can’t stand.
My mom screamed, covered her mouth, and saw something terrible.
She’s standing next to her, and Izzy.
He’s in a state of panic, staring at me, trying to make himself look cool.
I looked at him for a moment and whispered, “The house is so boring, I have a headache, I want to come up and blow. I’m sorry.
He had a tremor in his throat, “Well, is it better now? I’m sorry.
I nod and shake my head.
Yip’s eyes are so bright.
As if countless stars fell into his eyes.
I remember that snowy night 10 years ago, Yezhi and a few of his classmates stuck me in an alley, poking me with a laser pen.
Some propose to look after my eyes with it.
I can’t escape, I can’t escape, I can’t escape, I can’t escape.
They pulled my arm up quickly, forced me to raise my head and held my eyelids open.
In the bad laughs, I see the horns of the leaf snuggling.
I couldn’t even talk in time. He pointed the laser pen to my eye.
I’ve been screaming for ten seconds, and my eyeballs are bloated, and I’ve been crying for a while.
Maybe my reaction was too intense and quiet around.
Ip’s skeptical opening, “Crenault? I’m sorry.
I strangled on the floor and cried with my face.
There’s talk going on around here.
“Is she sick?”
Blind?
The word blind touched my nerves and scared me more than I’d ever seen.
Leave her alone. Shall we go?
Yehzton went, “um.”
After that, everyone explained on behalf of Ip. He didn’t mean it.
But before that, I clearly heard him talking to his friends.
“My Lord says this thing blinds the eyes of several people. Boys say, “Then your cheap sister, you hate her. I’m sorry.
Ip laughed, “Okay. I’m sorry.
He knows the consequences.
He did it again.
I’ve always wanted to ask him.
“Do I really hate it so much?”
“Is it really that bad? I’m sorry.
“Let you insult me in front of so many people and destroy me. I’m sorry.
I really asked the exit.
The expression on the front of the leaf is condensed, twilight, distraught looking at me, unable to speak.
“Nono, will you come here first? “Mother’s in her chest, begging, “You don’t want to marry Yee Chi, Mom won’t make you…”
And We shall remember that tomorrow is the day when I and I shall be married.
Why?
For everyone, I thought I could forget what he did to me.
Why does everyone think I’ll forgive?
Everyone thinks Ipz was good to me, but my life wasn’t supposed to be that way.
I shouldn’t have been depressed, I shouldn’t have been blind.
Ever.
I’m trying to trick myself into falling in love with Yip.
I could fall in love with him, like I did when I was young, have hurt, misunderstandings and frustrations, but we would end up together.
Those who had been tortured seemed to have been worth it, and all the abuses could be offset by a line that he loved you, and even hatred became romantic attachments when suffering and sin came under a filter called love.
But I can’t think of myself as the woman in the show.
His love can’t make up for what I’ve lost.
I’m still hurt and still miserable.
Mom seems to want to run at me, being pulled by Yeh.
The roof is so windy.
I can’t hear myself.
“Mom, you used to say that if it wasn’t for me, you’d have divorced Dad. I’m sorry.
“If it hadn’t been for me, you could have had a better future. I’m sorry.
“So I often thought that if I hadn’t appeared, Mom wouldn’t be so sad. I’m sorry.
Thinking of something, I smiled peacefully.
“You and Uncle Ye have new children. I’m sorry.
“He won’t make you angry or make you so upset. I’m sorry.
“Mom, if there’s another life, stop being my mother. I’m sorry.
Mom’s tears came out, “Nono, Mama’s wrong Come here, Mommy’s no one’s gonna want you.”
The face of the leaf is gray.
He’s step by step towards me.
“If you want to jump, I’ll come with you. I’m sorry.
I don’t understand what he’s saying.
I just don’t want to hang around all day and sleep all day.
Just wanted to get some air, see tonight’s night, touch the city’s wind.
I just wanted to say it.
Really, really.
I missed you.
I had a hard time living without you.
It’s like a canoe floating alone in the sea, losing what it wants to protect and carry.
Before the fall.
I saw the leaves rushing towards me, trying to catch me, desperate.
Sorry.
I’m too dizzy to stand.
I didn’t mean to fall.
So pigment, don’t get angry.
Don’t blame me.
I tried.
(concluded)
# Ip #
When I was 15, my parents divorced.
Shortly after, my mom committed suicide and my dad brought back a woman.
She’s got a daughter one year younger than me, called Lennon.
She was careful to please me, to please me.
Same as her mother.
It bores me.
I’ve come up with a lot of ways to bully her, and she starts to get angry and resist, even if it doesn’t bring good results. Gradually, she seems to have become weak and let us tear down her workbooks, and she looks silent and does not speak out against the teachers about our crimes.
It only makes me worse.
Son of a bitch.
You deserve it.
I always thought it was her mother’s appearance, causing my family to fall apart, my mother to fall down, to commit suicide.
I hate her.
Not even a good thing to bring her daughter.
Later.
My mom betrayed my dad first.
After many years of old love, she was persuaded to abandon her husband and her son, to receive the money she had received from her divorce, and the man abandoned her again, and my mother chose to commit suicide in despair.
It had nothing to do with her mother or her.
By the time I realized it, I had ruined the girl.
“This thing’s scary. How dare you put it on the bed. I thought you said your dream was to be a surgeon, right? Because your grandmother had failed. She loved you the most. I’m sorry.
I was outside the door.
Kano is silent.
Seems like nothing.
After her classmates left, she slid on the couch and cried.
Weak shoulders can’t shake, wept, wept, wept, I’m strangled with my heart, tremors, pain.
The day of chaos, the hegemonic, the display of hatred indiscriminately, has not envisaged the consequences.
I suddenly realized that I destroyed the future and dreams of a girl and her health.
It’s like I’m in a heavy shackle and I can’t breathe.
From that day on, I began to look at her uncontrollably.
Watch her move and guess her mood.
I think I’m gonna do her a good job so I don’t get so tortured.
It’s been a long time, and it’s getting into something else.
I became insensitive to her joy.
She might even be drawn by her emotions, which would affect my feelings.
I began to look at her lips, light powder, and at first glance the five officials looked light, but looked at them with a different nuance.
I lied the other day. She wasn’t ugly.
I can even smell the unique sweetness of her, and it gives me a heart beating.
I want to know if someone else is like me.
So it seemed unwitting to ask her if she had recently sprayed perfume and smelled her nose.
No, I think it’s okay. I don’t smell anything.
That smell, only I can smell it.
In the name of guilt, the complex emotions became a seed that was buried in my heart, and the beginning of adolescence gradually took over my heart.
Runno is always light.
I think she hates me, but she even hates me.
I sometimes think of that day when she picked up scissors and ran at me and asked me to pay her one eye out in a fierce and desperate way.
At that moment, there was a shock in my chest.
Not anymore.
After that day, she did not display that bitter hatred.
She was advised by everyone.
Mom loved you very much.
So take her seriously and don’t ruin her hard-won life.
Be understanding, be grateful, be kind to adults.
It was as if all of us could succeed if she gave her orders and listened.
One year after the high examination, her mother had detected thyroid cancer.
She told him about my parents.
“He hates me, and it’s Mom who really owes you. I’m sorry.
“It’s a misunderstanding. He’s really trying to fix it. I’ve seen everything he’s done for two years. I’m sorry.
“Mother’s illness depends on your Uncle Ye, and your studies depend on your Uncle Ye. He’s really hard. I’m sorry.
“Only if you’re all right, Mother can feel comfortable. I’m sorry.
“You must always remember that we are a family. I’m sorry.
I watched in cold sight what they had done and enjoyed with security the compromise and submission of Quinno.
That is why it was only when she saw it from her perspective after her death that it was a total abuse in the name of love.
I killed Keno myself.
In a decade, step by step, killed her.
It’s only with that woman that she’s got something in her eye.
I wish she had more friends, but that woman was nothing like a woman.
She’s safe with nothing.
The girl, whom I was careful to guard, was taken with her by the air, jumped, glideed and engaged in all kinds of extreme sports.
She’s happy to see life as a child.
The day I decided to propose, everything was ready, and I asked her out, and she broke.
The reason for this is that there was an accident when you climbed in the field.
A broken leg and arm. That woman likes to play, sooner or later.
The heartached eyes were red, and she was taken care of in the hospital for two months after the saddle.
Since then, they have rarely made dangerous challenges but have become more intimate.
Her early years of work were too long for stomach disease, and she insisted on helping her with her maintenance.
She gets up early in the morning to make her a variety of groceries for her company to oversee her drinking and regular diet.
She’s never been so sweet to me.
The father followed her and asked for alimony.
You’ve been in trouble and you’ve been living in our house.
This is half a month.
I’ve always had the will to wear Zenou’s waist, and I’ve got itchy, but I can’t help it.
On the day of the engagement, Yin said she and I had a bet.
He doesn’t want to be with me. He’ll be there soon.
I sat down the stairs all night, and at dawn, I saw Runo driving away.
She’s actually looking for Yanchong.
I knew that woman was so important to her that I’d rather have had an accident that night.
Cano may not hate me so much.
Maybe she’ll miss me after I die.
Maybe she’s still alive.
Live with the baby.
That night.
I was angry with her for her resistance to me day after day, and I was not happy.
Calm down, I’ll set the best viewing position and invite her to the light show.
I want to talk in the atmosphere.
To ease the relationship.
Shen Hae-jin taught me that.
I don’t know how I’m going to face him, but I’m doing it.
Shen Hak’s face is white.
She said she liked me.
I liked it a long time ago.
I was unconscious.
I’m not a fool.
It’s impossible to say that she’s completely invisible.
But in my eyes, it’s just a little girl’s new impulse and a child, and it won’t be long to know who to replace.
“I’m getting married. Don’t say that again. I said:
“…do you know whether it’s guilt or love? She asked me.
I laughed, “What difference does it make? I’m sorry.
“Of course there is.” She looked at me, and she wanted to say something.
I shake my head, “I want to see her happy, whether out of guilt or love. I’m sorry.
Shen Ha Jian was sitting there, and I was going to get up and leave.
She said it was her birthday and hoped that I would stay with her and not bother me again.
It’s on the streets of Mini ktv.
A song doesn’t take long.
I saw her for a while, agreed.
Shen Hae-jin has beautiful eyes.
Bright, clear.
You look like her when you smile.
But my Lennon rarely smiles.
If she hadn’t met me, she’d be like Shen Hae-jin now.
Peace is soft, but self-confidence is high in their own profession.
If her left eye wasn’t blind.
She could have taken a knife and been a doctor.
I admit my connivance.
I often think about it when I’m with Shen Sheng.
If it didn’t hurt her at first.
No, no, no.
Is she gonna trust me and laugh at me like Shen Hae-jin?
She’s like a Quino who hasn’t been broken.
I promised.
Shen Sheng bought beer and flowers on the street.
Singing and crying.
I didn’t make a sound or move.
When you return to the car and charge your cell phone, you discover the telephone number.
So many unconnected calls.
It was she who called over and over and over and over again.
That’s what I regret most.
Gamma is dead.
I’m afraid to tell her.
I thought I’d keep it a little longer until her body was better.
I got into a lot of trouble with the company and the money chain.
I was busy at that time, and I neglected to take care of Quino.
One afternoon I got drunk and sat on the riverside bench.
It was only when she woke up that Shen Sheng was sitting on my side.
She fixed my collar, “You speak, I’ll help you.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t say anything. I picked up my coat and left.
Geno knew exactly.
She ran to the hospital without me.
The moment I found her, I had a cold tip, and I had a feeling.
The last light in her eyes went out.
Kano is dead.
Falling from the top floor and dying.
Her mother ran to the edge of the roof, the mute called her name and passed out.
I hold her, and there’s nothing left to hear.
“Do I really hate it so much?”
“Is it really that bad? I’m sorry.
“Let you insult me in front of so many people and destroy me. I’m sorry.
She hated me until she died.
She never forgave me.
On the eighth day after Leno left, her mother had an abortion.
My father had cheated a year ago, and she had hoped to keep him with her children, but now the children are gone and the words are gone.
The doctor had warned her that she was a very old mother and suffered from thyroid cancer and that, despite good control over the years, she was still unfit for pregnancy.
At the same time, he declared himself pregnant and my father moved out to live with her.
Jeano’s mother has become demented and often looks at the rooms he used to live in.
After the funeral, I showed her the photos taken by the police at the scene of the death of Jeano.
She just looked at me and screamed and pushed me out of bed.
I lift her up and take her back to bed. “You’ll be alone. Take care of yourself. I’m sorry.
She looked at me, shivering on her lips, “What do you mean you don’t mind me?” I’m sorry.
I didn’t talk. I just put the picture on the nightstand.
Fanno’s mother picked up the photo and put it on her chest, mumbling, “She’s always been a good kid, and her father beat me up, and she was standing in front of me, and she was beaten with nosebleeds. I cried all day, and she cooked me like a grown-up. She said that when she grew up, she had to protect her mother. I’m sorry.
“But that day, before she died, she said she didn’t want to be my daughter anymore. I’m sorry.
Her tears came out and she cried, and she said, “She must hate me. Her eyes are blind, I’m not in charge, her children are gone, and I’m pregnant with her late father. Does she think I don’t want her?
She was staring at me with blood all over her eyes. “You said you’d dance with her. Why aren’t you dead? Go to hell! You blinded her! You should have stayed with her. I’m sorry.
She took a pillow and a glass lamp and threw it at me.
Pop.
The ground is crushed.
She’s right.
We’re all sinners.
Before I left, I heard Kano’s mother wept, “I thought you could be born again to your mother, and I thought it was you, but she didn’t stay.” I’m sorry.
Back home, I swallowed a pill.
Ethylbutol.
There’s chlorocin.
I’ll pay you back what I owe you.
How long?
Almost.
This time, I won’t break my promise.
I don’t know.
I got a call from Shen Hae-jin.
There’s so much noise over there that she’s a little lost in her voice, “Do I never compare to a dead man in your heart?” I’m sorry.
“She can do it for you and I can do it for you. I’m sorry.
“If I danced once, would you love me? I’m sorry.
I was silent for a moment, “Never this option. I’m sorry.
“That night Quinno jumped, and I wanted to dance with her. I’m sorry.
“But if you say so, I won’t. I’m sorry.
Shen Hae-jae, don’t be so reckless, especially in front of someone who doesn’t care about you. I’m sorry.
I was wrong.
She’s never the same as Chengno.
She’s not gonna rob, let alone be so stupid.
But I hurt her over and over and over and over again for my own ridiculous obsession.
She must have been so disappointed that she was pregnant with my baby.
Look at me let another girl get close.
Look at me looking for what she lost on another girl.
Look me in the eyes of another girl.
She doesn’t know that she’s giving me that little attention, and I’m so excited.
And every night after, when I think of those details, I don’t regret it.
Everything I deserve.
It’s a murmur, and then it’s a low screech, “I don’t know what you’re talking about. You don’t believe me? I’ll wait ten minutes, and if you don’t come I’ll jump.”
I hung up.
For the last time, the chloroquine drops in the eye.
My eyeballs are in severe pain, I can’t see anything, I can’t see the color, and there are only tiny white strips on the horizon that keep flashing.
Turns out she was so hurt and so scared.
It’s the fifth month of the drug.
I’m suffering from severe visual neurosis.
With memory and touch, I put a rope in the neck.
One second before I lost consciousness, I kept the trans-shipment bead in my hands.
It’s the only thing she left behind that belongs to me.
It’s so late, I finally understand.
I’ve been waiting for her to say she loves me and she’s been waiting for my apology. Register number: YXX1DpBajP0sO6QePjDcPdPz
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
