For 28 years, the profiter was always a brother and I was always a payer.
Not until I cut my ties, I got a blood cancer notification.
Save yourself? Forget it.
It’s too bad to start again.
I’m beginning to enjoy my life.
Those families who have been sucking my blood have suddenly repented.
My mother, who forced me to drop out of school when I was 16, cried and begged me not to drink.
He beat my father and turned himself in to the Public Security Bureau, asking me not to give up my life for hatred.
And my blood and blood, my little brother, who sold all his valuables to buy me his life.
One.
“Girls, blood cancer. I’m sorry.
“You’ve been bleeding, you’ve been sick lately, and you’ve been in pain. I’m sorry.
“It’s late, there’s a chance of healing, at least a million dollars. But I don’t know. Everything depends on the treatment. I’m sorry.
“We have a well-known blood cancer specialist, and it’s not easy to rank, and we suggest that you come for treatment as soon as possible, and even if you can’t cure it, it’ll be longer. I’m sorry.
The doctor seems to have seen a lot of people alive and dead, and only kept me informed.
Blood… cancer?
Unsurprisingly, I didn’t cry.
I heard myself calmly asking, “Why did I have this disease?” I’m sorry.
“There are many causes of blood cancer, and besides genetic, physical and chemical causes. For example, radiation such as long-term exposure to benzene and organic solvents containing benzene…”
What else did the doctor say? I didn’t hear.
Because I already know.
“Benzene and organic solvents containing benzene…”
I smiled, and in the sound of the doctor’s advice, I was walking my body out of the hospital.
A million dollars.
It’s only possible to heal.
I know doctors tend to comfort patients, and I’m sure I’ll have to wait even for treatment.
Besides, where did I get the money?
Now…
I read text messages on eye-bank balances, and I don’t think I can afford a bottle of medicine.
It’s just a blue sky, but now it looks gray.
The sound of pancakes and fruit on the street seems to be close, but I can’t hear anything.
The cell phone in the pocket stopped vibrating.
I picked it up. Twenty-three phone calls, all alone.
My mom.
I don’t even have to answer it.
Money, for my brother.
I hung up on the phone and walked up to Aunt Pancake and smiled.
” Aunt, I want a luxurious pancakes. I’m sorry.
“Well, girl, can you finish?”
I can’t finish it.
I took pancakes and I ate them with my mouth open.
It tastes so good.
When I was a kid and my parents were on the run, my brother always got a giant pancakes.
It’s too big for his palms.
And I look forward to looking at the pancakes, and I’m greedy.
Twenty-eight years old, I should enjoy my life.
The phone rings again, I bite another bite and I answer the phone.
“You’re going to die! It’s been so long! I’m sorry.
“Get your ass back here. Your brother wants to buy a computer. Take him. I’m sorry.
After that, the phone was hung up.
Like this, too much has happened.
Paying school fees, travelling, buying mobile phones, buying games…
Even if he talks about a girlfriend, I pay for a present.
I have resisted, but they always have ways to achieve their goals.
I was forced by that bloodline and I didn’t choose to tear my face apart.
It’s just…
Talk to someone who’s dying.
It’s better to have two more pancakes.
Mmm, it smells good.
Two.
I bought a few bottles of painkillers and I went home.
I have to say, this three-room, two-bedroom house I don’t have my own bedroom.
Because the first day I moved out, my bedroom became my brother’s electric room.
I turned around and finally found my groceries in the corner of the balcony.
I went out and bought a weed bag at the commissary downstairs, and I packed a few of my things.
It takes time to come back and get it.
Time is life!
I’m so flat, but my mom thinks I’m angry.
“You little bitch, you come back here and buy Lin Yang’s computer. I’m sorry.
I’m funny. I don’t even have a thousand bucks in my pocket.
“I have no time, no money. I’m sorry.
That was true, but she clearly did not believe it.
“Where the hell did you go with all that money? I’m sorry.
“You don’t have time. Are you in a hurry to be born? I’m sorry.
As usual, I’ll argue with them, I’ll let my brother out to make money, and I’ll say no more.
And this time, I just smiled nod.
“Yes, in time for the birth. I’m sorry.
“Mom, I’m sick. Can I have a million dollars back? I’m sorry.
I purposely provoked her.
Sure.
“Sickness cost a million dollars? Lin Tsi, you’ve learned to lie! A million dollars. Do you see your life? I’m sorry.
I nod my head and just walk away.
3
Once upon a time, I was afraid I was sick.
But now I’m really face-to-face with Shinigami.
It’s probably starting with my parents taking all my money to buy Lin Yang’s house.
I’m not going to heal.
Blood cancer cures the money and the bone marrow.
I don’t have any money, I don’t want to use Lin Yang’s bone marrow, and I’m afraid I’m gonna mess up my way back.
I’ve never had a good life, but I’ve always been nice to others.
But I’d like to spend a little time and enjoy the life I’m about to miss.
But it takes money to enjoy your last life.
I went back to the office and found my boss.
I’m doing a job that nobody wants to do for dinner and money.
As a result, large quantities of formaldehyde are forced to be inhaled on a daily basis.
That’s why I got blood cancer.
I’ve got a thousand bucks left in my card and I’ve got the boss.
I passed the diagnosis.
The boss kept quiet and paid me $200,000.
“It’s a little of the company’s heart. Lin Tsi, your illness has nothing to do with the company…”
I know what he means.
The money is not just compensation, it’s also for the silence.
Not much, but I don’t have much time to talk to him.
Separation was effected on the same day.
I took the money, and for the first time I went to over a hundred hair salons per capita.
Got yourself a fun haircut.
After all, start over.
Buys a few beautiful clothes and some cosmetics that were already in sight, but that were never available.
It took two days to figure out what I wanted to do before I died.
Find a new place to live and clean up.
First stop before death, bar.
It took me three hours to learn from the video before I finished my first makeup.
I’m a little curious about the scenes of the red wine and the green paper.
I’m not very good at a drink, I sit in the corner.
The music was deafening, but men and women had fun.
This unbridled youth has made me feel better.
Turns out the lives of others are like this.
I’ve been through it.
Not a moment later, a man came by shaking his glass.
“Beautiful, come alone?”
I can’t understand the man with the cynicism on his face, but he saw it in a star’s voice.
I wanted to hide, but I remembered why I came to the bar.
Experience different lives.
I laughed, and the guy on the scholar’s TV ran into him.
And he gave him the strength to drink the glass of wine.
“Beautiful, I’ve had it all. Don’t be ashamed. I’m sorry.
He held on to my drink and pushed it.
I looked at the little bubbles coming out of the bottom of the cup, and I did.
Even though there’s no tomorrow, not bad men.
But I don’t want to be confused.
But without my refusal, the glass in my hand was taken by a skeletal hand.
“Go away. I’m sorry.
I laughed when I saw the man leaving in haste.
“Why the bad guys? I’m sorry.
And it was only in the dim light that I discovered that the eyes of the man came to me, a kind of indifference to the world, and an incomprehensible bar.
“You want to take the initiative? I’m sorry.
I shake my head.
It’s not like you’re taking the initiative, but…
“There’s a drink tonight.” I’m sorry.
I ordered a new bottle of wine and learned to drink.
It’s not good, but I’m so happy.
It’s only five degrees of alcohol, and I just threw up in the bathroom.
The bathroom attendant thought I was drunk and taught me, “It’s almost time for the little girl to go home, and it’s too late for the family!” I’m sorry.
And I nodded my head, and I said in my mouth, “Aunt, I have no family. I’m sorry.
And auntie was stunned, and looked at me with compassion: “How painful is it for you to drink less, drink more and throw up.” I’m sorry.
I laughed and said yes.
But is it really because you’re drunk?
Who cares?
Get out of the bathroom. I didn’t think the man was gone.
He whispered, “It’s not safe for a girl to drink so much alone. I’m sorry.
Girls, girls again.
I’ve heard the most about girls in my life.
I looked at him and said, “It’s not safe for girls to drink and boys to be safe.” I’m sorry.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean that.” I’m sorry.
It’s very sincere, and I just disappeared.
I waved, “I’m fine, go. I’m sorry.
“Your face is pale, your lips are not colored, it looks bad. We should check the hospital. I’m sorry.
For such a moment, my faint head seemed to be awake for a moment.
I didn’t know it was a strange man who gave me last-minute care.
“Really?”
I took the exit red to make one.
“Perhaps when you just washed your mouth, you accidentally erased your lipstick. And now?”
“It’s just a cover-up. I’m sorry.
“That’s enough. I’m sorry.
When I threw lipstick in my bag, I saw the contact “Lin Young” jumping on my phone screen.
I didn’t answer, but I laughed at the man and said, “Thank you for your concern. Goodbye. I’m sorry.
“But I don’t think I’m coming here again, and I’m gone. I’m sorry.
Time is limited and cannot be wasted in the same place.
I waved goodbye.
Until I got out of the bar, the sight was on me.
I don’t care. I’m on the phone. I’m sorry.
“Why aren’t you renting a house? Where have you been? If you don’t buy a computer with me, give me $10,000. I’m sorry.
The wind blew through, and I swayed and tried to walk straight.
“I don’t have any money. I’m sorry.
“You’re so greedy! You’re going to marry someone. You’re going to get paid cheaply! Why did you leave the money? I’m sorry.
I looked at the stars in my eyes, and they looked good.
I said, “Let’s keep them happy.” I’m sorry.
It’s probably a loudspeaker on the other side, and my mom goes, “You’re a bad girl!” If you don’t pay me, I’ll go to your company and say you’re a bad-for-nothing! I’m sorry.
“Go on, it’s not the first time. I’m sorry.
I don’t even want my life.
Before I hung up on the phone, I smiled, saying, “Hold on if you want to fight, or you’ll have nowhere to go.” I’m sorry.
After all, when I die, it’s too late for them to yell.
We can’t go to the capital and ask for money.
Think of that scene, I’m gonna have to bend over.
It could have been too long, it could have been painkillers gone off, and eventually it had a pain.
4
Actually, I could have paid for it.
But since I graduated three years ago, they’ve been asking me for money like a blood bug.
At first, they gave less, and later they grew more appetite.
Finally, I couldn’t stand it, and when I was ready to give the last one, I completely broke up, my mother suddenly fell ill.
They said it was because I gave you too little money, my family was under stress, my mother was alive and ill.
I gave it all to the past.
I learned later that it was not the stress of the family, but that Lin Yang wanted to study abroad.
I’m in the staff dorm, eating the cheapest bunted noodles, and Lin Yang is in a hotel abroad, having a party with friends.
I was sick and hospitalized, and my family didn’t say a word of condolence.
The family flew to pick him up from abroad.
Finally, I picked a three-member family and said I’d cut them off.
But it turns out I’m thinking too much.
I can’t get rid of them.
“I’ve given birth to you and abandoned my parents if you can? I should have drowned you! I’m sorry.
It’s probably too much. He slapped me hard.
I’ve been ringing my ear for a week.
And then Lin Yang talked about a girlfriend and they started buying him a house.
I’m gonna have to pay for this because my older sister’s like a mother.
I almost laughed.
When I was 16 years old, I was forced to drop out of school and had to study on a scholarship and teacher-funded basis, on my own, to wash dishes for the restaurant every night until early morning.
My brother didn’t say a word of consolation.
Tell me about my sister at this time?
Ridiculous.
That time I learned to be smart, I bit myself to death and said I had no money.
However, after I fell asleep, Lin Yang stole my phone and found my balance.
A week later, they borrowed more than a million in my name from the micro-credit company.
I didn’t know that until the debtor came to me.
I don’t even have any money left to buy buns.
And then, to make money for dinner, I got cancer.
5
“The bar” in the report board.
And then the other line of “Majong” comes out.
I got the only friend I ever had and asked her to set me up.
It’s nothing else, it’s just to feel how attractive Mahjong is.
When I was five, my mom locked me in the house all day just to fuck other aunts.
I don’t know.
I had an appointment and I left in a hurry.
In his face, a couple of bloody flowers were twitched.
The warm blood flowed through my nose, and I looked at the reds in my face and laughed.
It’s still coming.
I just hope we don’t get halfway out and scare the others.
I gnawed a painkiller with skill, swallowed it without need of water, and then left the door.
I was the last one at the Mahjong Palace.
“A little move, here!”
My name’s Lindy.
But my friend Chen Wing Wing felt the name was unfair to me and just called me a trick.
I turned around laughing.
I didn’t expect to see another man who looked familiar, in addition to Chen Wan.
It’s the bar for me to see the man.
“The sun rises from the west? I don’t work late at weekends, and I’m about to play mahjong? You’re doing fine. Don’t just know work, don’t know life.”
“You’ve lost weight. Have you eaten recently? I’m sorry.
The mahjong cards were washed with euphemism and skill.
I laughed and said, “Weight loss.” I’m sorry.
To prevent her from asking more questions, I quickly changed the subject: “They are…”
“I almost forgot. Zhou Jun, Shen Shen, the two owners of our company, when you asked me to set up mahjong, he heard, and brought Zhou. I’m sorry.
I nodded and didn’t care to learn the way my mother remembers and started to touch the cards.
Everything’s fine.
It’s just that I’m not very good at it, and somehow I’m a little blurry, and I’ve been defrauded three times.
“How about a little trick? Ha ha ha ha, three times in a row is rare. Zhou Jun is joking.
And I laughed, “Well, I guess it’s getting worse, and I’m going back with a pair of glasses, and I’m going to make sure I’m clean and clean.” I’m sorry.
Speaking of which, I wanted to push again, and Shen was suddenly reminding me.
“Take a good look and push again. Don’t cheat this time. I’m sorry.
The two chicks next to him were nodding like rice.
I hesitated for a moment to look at it with my eyes and push it.
Whoo! I’m sorry.
Three people staring at my cards.
Zhou Jun and Zhou Wing Wing were so excited to slap their hands and the country was flying.
“That’s crazy. You’re out! I’m sorry.
“Alas! Fifty dollars each.” I’m sorry.
I learned to laugh with them.
“Go on! Go on! I’m sorry.
The next second, the familiar heat hits again.
I consciously looked up and blocked my nose.
But my white short sleeve was still dirty with blood.
“No way. Winning won a nosebleed? I’m sorry.
Zhou Jun gave me paper while he was joking.
I covered my nose, and my mouth was just smiling, and I said, “Come on, let’s go. I’m sorry.
It’s just Shen, staring at me.
But I don’t want to talk to him.
Six.
After the game, I laughed and said I’d do it.
Quietly surprised.
“Is today’s sun coming out west?” Our little tricks are beginning to enjoy life. I’m sorry.
And I smiled and said, “Of course, it’s so beautiful.” I’m sorry.
It’s all blood cancer. It’ll be nothing if you don’t enjoy it.
We’ve been looking for a big set.
After living for more than 20 years, I tried to escape the house for the first 18 years and spent the following years working hard to earn money.
It’s my first time drinking with three or two friends.
I just sat back after the order and Lin Yang called me again.
I ignored it and threw it in my bag.
But I underestimated his insistence that the vibration was endless, and it really affected the mood.
I picked up my phone and walked out a few steps.
“Lin Young, can I help you?”
I don’t sound like a stranger.
The other side of the phone didn’t bring in the good things I thought it was.
“Sister, your voice has been drinking. Where are you? You’re renting the house. You quit your job?”
And I said, “Well, I don’t work, I don’t have money for you.” I’m sorry.
After that, I want to hang up.
“I’m not here to collect the money.” Sis, are you sick? Did you go to the hospital?”
I took a step.
“Sister, I see your medical history. Where are you? Shall we go to the hospital? I’m sorry.
A medical file?
I found one in my bag.
Looks like they left it at their house when they packed.
But it doesn’t matter anymore.
If you don’t go to the hospital, you’ll lose it.
“I’m fine. It’s better if you don’t find me. I don’t care.
To the hospital? How can I enjoy the rest of my life?
I just hung up on the phone and I put my phone on.
Turning back, I saw Shen Lin looking at me in a complicated way.
“Who just called? I’m sorry.
“Market phones.” I’m not stupid.
Shen Pengton did not believe, and asked: “What are you avoiding?” I’m sorry.
I looked down on him.
He said, “Your heart is clear, and your stubbornness is like Me when I was one.” I’m sorry.
I pretended I didn’t understand, and I asked, “So did you get an insurance phone? I’m sorry.
He picks out the frown and follows my words, “Well. So you don’t look so good. Do you want one? I’m sorry.
We pretended to be angry: “Isn’t this the day when the base is white? Do you curse me?”
7
When everyone finished their meal, at my request, they played with me two kings.
I didn’t understand the whole thing, but they took me away and won two.
And then I was exhausted.
But I’m really happy.
It’s like playing with friends.
After that, Zhou Jun left in a taxi.
And when I was about to withdraw, Shen Qi said to me, “Where is your home? I will send you.” I’m sorry.
I turned my head, and I said, “No, go back early. I’m sorry.
But he insisted that I ended up being helpless.
“I didn’t want to go home. I wanted to see sunrise on Mount Everest. I’m sorry.
One of the remaining plans is to watch the sunrise.
It’s 2:00 in the morning. I’ll be there today.
Shen was laughing, “Let me go with you.” I’m sorry.
I watched him with suspicion.
He said, “I often go to know that there is a few corners where the sunrise is beautiful. I’m sorry.
I’m a little moved.
Get in the car. I want to look at the sky.
But soon I fell asleep.
Day by day, my body getting tired.
8
In the slumber, I have a feeling that my soul is sinking and is about to fall into darkness forever.
I will not resist and let myself enter an infinite abyss.
But not long ago, I heard people shouting from a faraway place, “A little move, a little move…”
Who’s calling me?
It’s 5:30. Wake up.
I’m dying. What time does it matter to me?
“…get up and watch sunrise, don’t you want to see sunrise…”
What sunrise?
Oh… the sunrise…
Together, I feel like I stopped falling.
Slowly, the world began to light up…
I opened my eyes and looked around.
I’m asleep.
I tried to move, and I finally took control of my body.
That’s when I found out I had an overcoat on me.
“Sunrise, look. I’m sorry.
“Good. I’m sorry.
The moment I drove the door, I was shaken by the scene.
It’s only when the sun comes out of the sea, it’s already red.
The sea wind is salty, and I’ve snorted through my face, and I’ve taken a breath with greed.
This is the first time I’ve seen sunrise. I’d like to see it a few more times.
But as far as I’m concerned.
I don’t think I’ve had much time.
This is probably the only time.
Shen is pointing at a beach far away and asking, “Do you want to catch the sea?” I’m sorry.
Get to sea! And one of my plans.
But…
I looked at my bare hands and said, “Handless.” I’m sorry.
Shen Qi didn’t know where to get the little shovels and buckets.
My eyes were bright and I gave him a big thumb.
When we get to the beach, it’s morning.
I took off my shoes and walked slowly by the sea.
There’s also a bit of cold water that’s freezing and itchy when it covers its feet.
“There are crabs here! I’m sorry.
I caught a hole and started digging, and Shen saw me throw it slowly and dug it up with my bare hands.
And a few minutes later, I looked at a little hole, and I was like, “The crabs are too small this season…”
“You want to eat, you have to wait until September. Shen Lin says:
September? It’s been six months. I can’t wait.
I smiled and said, “Well, forget it, it’s no fun to come to the same place twice. I’m sorry.
“I’ll put some sand back for a souvenir. Let’s go back. I’m sorry.
After that, I was so excited to pick up some sand, I found no place to put it, and I finally put it in my pocket, and I didn’t care about the new dress.
I look very open.
There’s nothing to worry about.
When I finished, I found Shen’s eyebrow locked, and the face was so close.
Some of the things I said, “What’s wrong?” You want sand too?”
“You’re bleeding again. I’m sorry.
I swung my hand, it was really red.
Why don’t I feel the nosebleed this time?
“Fire and fire.”
“Shall I show you to the hospital? I’m sorry.
“I haven’t slept well, I’ve got a lot to do You don’t think a cold can kill you. I’m sorry.
I clapd my hands and said, “Go home, I want to sleep.” I’m sorry.
It’s been too long. I feel like my painkiller’s working. It’s starting to hurt.
“…good. I’m sorry.
Downstairs, I waved away Shen Lin.
When I went upstairs, I was about to open the door, and suddenly I was called, “Toi!” I’m sorry.
I look back.
The three members of the family were sitting in the hallway, holding a bag in their arms.
How did they find this place?
9
I said hi and didn’t ask why they were here. Open the door and want to go into the house.
My mother took my hand and asked, “We waited all night for you and you didn’t come back, where did you spend the night?” I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong with you?” I’m sorry.
My mother’s eyes are red: “Thi, I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
I don’t care what she says: “Oh, I know. I’m sorry.
I was stopped again when I entered the house.
“What are you doing?” I’m sorry.
Beating my father, who never was soft, holding his fist and his voice stinging.
“Dad knows you’re sick. Be good. Go home with Dad. I’m sorry.
That’s when I realized why they came.
I turned to Lin Yang, who had never spoken, “What about you?” Let’s talk. I’m sorry.
Lin Yang handed me a card.
“I’m sorry, I didn’t know anything before I sold the house and showed you the disease. Sister, I’m begging you.
I looked at that card and suddenly wanted to whistle.
Too bad I won’t.
I threw myself at it, and the bank jumped several times on the steps.
“What’s wrong with you?” I’m sorry.
My brother suddenly cried.
“Sister, I know you’re angry, but you can’t make fun of your life. We’re wrong. You can yell at me, but it can’t be like that.”
This family is at the door. I can’t even get inside.
The neighbor of the door had already heard the door open and watched.
I’m starting to feel like I’m shaking, and there’s a blood rush in my chest.
I look up, I fear, and my nose bleeds, and it destroys the image of my maiden.
“You guys have fun too. And when you suck my blood and force me to earn my life, none of you cares for me. I’m sorry.
“How come no one cares about me when I beg you not to hit me? I’m sorry.
“I don’t need it. You just came. I’m afraid no one will be able to squeeze. I’m sorry.
The more I say it, the less I say it, the more I say it. Isn’t it nice to have a gift for the Cheonghua Math Faculty? Why are you pushing on me? I’m sorry.
My mother cried, “Oh, Tweedy, why do you hate us all, but you can’t stop and you’ll die if you don’t.”
I can’t help but feel the pain, and I can’t help but say, “Why would I go around the corner if I’m being squeezed to death by you? I’m sorry.
I don’t understand, really don’t understand.
The three members of this family are out of what dump?
Unfortunately, for me, it’s unconscionable to treat me now!
Death doesn’t kill people. It’s a little too much.
“Mom was wrong, really wrong. Mom, please, live. Mom will never ask you for money again.”
I had a hard fight.
Who believes that?
But I’ve been thinking of revenge.
“If you don’t steal a million dollars for my brother, if I asked Mom you for money, I might be cured. But now I’m late.”
And when I said that, I was so excited.
Although death is my choice, it is also my revenge that can upset their conscience for days.
As I was sure, as soon as I had finished my speech, I saw these three men strangling.
It comes at random as a greater cry, and as they grieved and repented.
I’m suddenly a little bored, and this revenge doesn’t seem happy.
I don’t want to continue here.
After all, if they faint here, they’ll find the key from my bag and enter my house.
I don’t faint. I can’t get through these three.
Think about it, I’ll just turn around and get in the elevator without their attention.
I’m on the fifth floor. I don’t stay in the middle. I’ll be there soon.
But when I walked out, I suddenly had a soft and weak leg and almost fell, but I was held by a big hand.
I look up, surprised.
Shen is still here?
“A thief at home? I’m sorry.
“Not as bad as thieves. I don’t care, “Take me to a pharmacy? I’d like to buy some common medicine. I’m sorry.
Painkillers are common, no problem.
Shen didn’t say no, but when we got in the car, the family stopped in front of the car.
That’s my good mom.
And Lin Yeung was banging on his window and looking like he was so funny.
I watched Shen Ying laugh too much.
“What do you mean, you’re so mean? It’s about to be completely lost before they get anxious. It’s hard to see them for me in life. I’m sorry.
I applaud.
10
They’ve been lying down, and I’m a little annoyed. Shen’s pressing the window to warn them, “If you don’t leave, I’ll call the police and tell them you touched the china on purpose…”
It’s not over. My mom’s all over me.
I can’t stop it.
“Honey, listen, go home with your parents. I’m sorry.
“Let’s not give up leukemia, okay? I’m sorry.
“Sir, please, help us persuade Ti…”
I’m sure she’s looking back at me.
It’s always been an aberration of the eyes, with a little bit of shock.
Taki, we still have a million more to cure…
“Please, don’t mess with me, okay? This million won’t cure me. It’ll only keep me alive for a few days.
“Is there not enough money? We can borrow…
“No, I’ll give it back. It’s been a bad life. I think it’s time to change. Have you ever played with kings? If you die, you’ll come back to life, okay? I’m sorry.
My dad suddenly pulled my mom away and he said to me, “Daddy, you’re the wrong dad. I’ve heard that domestic violence is against the law. Dad turned himself in and gave you a hard time. I’m sorry.
The 50-year-old dad suddenly got his head down.
I thought I’d be moved, but there was nothing inside me.
I turned my head to Shen, and said, “Will you take me away?” I’m sorry.
Shen Noding, two horns were pressed with his eyebrow locked and the door opened.
Lin Yang threw the card in the car at that moment.
I heard him shouting in the back: “Sir, I know you don’t want to see us. Don’t give up on yourself! I’m sorry.
The car was just driving.
I don’t know where Shen is going to take me, let alone where else I can go.
Or I’ll find a place to die in peace.
I’m looking at myself. Shen’s got a brake.
“I knew you were not well. I’m sorry.
I wanted to smile.
But he looked at himself in the mirror, his face and his lips were pale.
Shen Siu’s voice is soft: “How about I take you to the hospital?” I’m sorry.
I shook my head, and I said, “Labour is not a good match, and I really don’t want to live.” I’m sorry.
His hand held the steering wheel hard and his fingertips slightly white.
I thought, “If I want to live, I won’t live long.” The treatment is too painful. I think the last time is happy. Shen, I’m your friend, so you respect my choice, okay? I’m sorry.
“I want to play everything I want to play, and finally I want to say goodbye to the world with dignity. I’m sorry.
I don’t think I’m gonna make it.
Before I fell into the dark again, I heard the voice of Shen Lin: “Okay. I’m sorry.
I smiled with joy and dreams full of abysses.
Eleven.
Shen Lin asked me if I had any wishes.
And I’m like, “Well, there’s a lot of them, you know, you want to put flowers, you want to camp, you want to look at the grasslands, you want to look at the desert, and you think about Christmas with a present from Santa Claus.” I’m sorry.
I laughed and looked forward to it, but I was ready to be rejected.
And he said: I shall go with you. I’m sorry.
I said, “No, why don’t you run the company? I’m sorry.
“All right, boss is free. I’m sorry.
“So, Mr. Shen led the way. I’m sorry.
After I die, give him this million as compensation.
I’m happy to have made this decision and wait for him to arrange.
It’s easy to put flowers in, but maybe I have a bad artistic talent and feel like a dog’s tail.
It’s very beautiful and very powerful.
I’m so jealous.
When he was camping, he chose an open area in the suburbs.
The urban environment is bad, the galaxy is not visible, but there are plenty of stars, and I’m satisfied.
The prairie is big, but I used to think that the kids there were riding to school and learning to shoot arrows.
It’s not until there. It’s all a serious city.
Hi, I’m ignorant.
I tried to jump on a horse, but I just climbed up and walked two steps, and I got sore.
“Shen, I don’t want to ride anymore. Horse stinks. “I’m lying with my eyes open.
Shen Yi was speechless, and then he spent more than an hour before me, learning to ride, and began running.
Then we turned to the desert.
Maybe the camels were stable or they were in good health that day.
I was riding a camel for 10 minutes.
“The camel doesn’t stink?” Shem laughs at me.
“What’s that smell? It’s the smell of money. It’s not a bad thing to say that.
In addition to this, Shen had taken me to look at the murals in London and to see the landscape in the Nine Caves.
It’s beautiful, but I’m getting soberer and shorter.
He always said, “I fell asleep.”
One time in the middle, I seemed to sleep for a long time.
As if someone was in the middle.
When I woke up, I was asleep in the car.
As if I only slept for a few minutes.
It’s just Shen Shen’s a little tired, his eyes are red, and the smoke is heavy in the car.
12
When I went back to my city, I was at peace.
Feels like a centenarian.
I didn’t contact the family.
I haven’t answered any of the calls they gave me these days, and there’s no need for any more contact.
Shen sent me back to the rental house.
I’m not strong enough to walk.
When Shen Li bought a wheelchair, I laughed and said it was as nice as the throne.
He pushed me before I recorded the list of things.
I’ve got some yellow hands, I’ve got a pen, I’m serious about it.
“Ah, there’s only a hot pot and Santa. I’m sorry.
“It’s only May now, Santa can’t wait. Let’s go eat a hot pot tomorrow. I’m sorry.
As soon as I clap my hands, I plan straight.
“I’ll make arrangements. I’m sorry.
“Okay…”
My nose bleeds again.
“Buy some more red dates tomorrow, and I feel like I’m going to be anemic. I’m sorry.
I rubbed it and started asking again.
These two months of unconditional subservience by Shen Zhen have made me confident and have learned to ask some of the people around me.
I’m lucky I’m gonna die or I’ll be able to give birth.
It’s like I’m in a coma again.
I don’t know.
I was awakened by the smell of a hot pot.
Open my eyes again, I find myself in a strange place, not far away with a huge table full of hot pots of food.
“Wake up? I’m sorry.
I turn my head, it’s Shen.
I’m a little upset: “You eat the hot pot behind my back. I’m sorry.
“It was me who cooked the hot pot for two days and waited for you to wake up. I’m sorry.
I’m relieved.
He changed a new one up and then bended over and picked me up.
“Mr. Shen, can you estimate how much I weigh? I’m sorry.
“Well… 75 pounds? You’re worth 20 pounds of pork.
“Hey, hey, that’s too much! I’m sorry.
13
I feel like I’m in a good mood today.
I’m happy, but I didn’t tell Shen.
It’s hot. It hurts and it makes me happy.
But I insist on eating every one of them.
“Sham, why don’t we have a drink? I’m sorry.
Shen Lin has been silent for a long time. I’m sorry.
I took a few sips, I was choked, and I put it back on the table.
“Throw me out for a walk. I want to see the sun. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
It’s the evening, the sun is not glamorous, and it’s very comfortable.
We didn’t talk, we watched our parents with their children in the neighborhood.
It’s a wonderful childhood. It’s a life I haven’t enjoyed.
It’s been a long time since I felt like I was ever tired.
I said, “Do you like me? I’m sorry.
Shen Yi was silent for a long time: “You see that? I’m sorry.
“Well, you wouldn’t have stayed with me for so long. I’m sorry.
I’m not going to ask him why he likes me, but I’m sorry.
“I took advantage of your pleasure and let you stay with me for the last time.”
“I know you promised me you’d give up. Did you take me to a lot of doctors while I was unconscious? I’m sorry.
“I’m not lying to you. Well, isn’t it hopeless? I’m sorry.
“Why don’t you say something, Shen, and you cry?” I’m sorry.
“Yeah, Shen, where’s my Santa? I saw Santa’s clothes in the closet…”
“Let’s go back, Santa will give you a present soon.” I’m sorry.
I shake my head hard, “You’re coming out to me, and I want to show off, so the kids know I have a Santa.”
“…good.”
Shen pushed me to the right place for the sun and went back.
I tried to look back on his back.
Last time.
Since I’m leaving, don’t let him see it.
This is when I… last will.
Quantified
Your Highness,
It’s me. I’m afraid you won’t accept it in person, so it’s in a letter, in Santa’s clothes.
Am I smart?
When I’m burned, tell my parents.
If you can, you suggest they don’t come to see me. It’s the only punishment I have for them. Hey.
Please tell her I’m sorry.
I want to be a free ghost.
Ah, that one is a million-dollar card, and I put it in your drawer in your study, and the will that was given to you was there, so go and collect it.
I took the gift, like.
I’ll come to you in good health.
But I think I can change my name in the next life.
— Lin Ting
I’m sorry.
11 March
I met an interesting girl.
She’s like me that year.
The company is bankrupt, heavily indebted, and I’m the last tossing.
Winning over, losing the roof.
I had a dangerous victory.
From this cause.
13 March
Her name’s Lindy.
She’s pale, and every time I mention her body, there’s something to hide from me, and there’s something to insist on.
It’s no different than when I was desperate.
I couldn’t help but talk to her, and I wanted to help her, like helping me back then.
But I didn’t figure it out. She’s late for blood cancer.
She was determined to die.
And I… felt her heart beating at the same time and chose to help her die.
8 April
She’s getting sick.
On her way to travel, she was more unconscious.
I couldn’t stand it, and I paid a high price to bring in the country’s famous experts for blood cancer.
They had a meeting.
The result … is bad.
I hid it.
17 May
We’re back, but she’s barely sober yet.
She still has two wishes that have not been met.
I stayed by her side, afraid that she would not wake up and that she would die with regret.
30 May
She’s cremated.
That day she said she wanted to see my Christmas present.
I actually have a small gift box, only a love letter and a ring.
I put the gift in Santa’s pocket.
But I took another letter out of my pocket?
When I ran out of nowhere, she sat in that corner, laughing at her mouth and looking at the sun with her eyes closed.
It’s like sleeping.
Her left hand was unnamed and covered with a familiar ring.
1 June
Today is Children’s Day and the day when my fiancée, Lin Zhu, looks to the sea and is completely free.
My life has been desperate twice.
First win, business and money.
Second time… and win.
I like the girl who said she’d marry me.
This diary I’m about to burn to her by the sea.
Let’s hope she doesn’t forget her promise.
Foreign Minister-Lin Yang
I’m Lin Yang, the asshole of my sister.
Indeed, I destroyed my sister.
It’s me, too. She got leukemia.
The idea of son preference seems to be deeply rooted in my family.
My parents haven’t been nice to my sister since I remembered.
I’m an asshole. I can do anything.
Slowly, I called her “sister” from the beginning, to “sister” and then to “Hello”.
I even did it many times.
When I was 10 years old, I stole Mom’s gold necklace and blamed my sister.
That night, I heard my sister’s crying and my parents’ curses from both doors.
That’s it. I don’t think of her as a family anymore.
It was not until I saw her medical records and recalled the past that I realized how unhuman I had done over the years.
When Dad heard about it, he started smoking one by one, and Mom sat on the couch and cried.
I just want to sell the house and treat my sister.
Money isn’t money, it’s nothing in life.
But my sister doesn’t want to.
My mom almost cried out of her eyes and my dad turned himself in.
They told me to have my sister treated.
Unfortunately, I’ll never find my sister again.
She moved.
She went on a trip.
She… gave up her treatment and went to sea.
Even the ashes, we couldn’t even see the other side.
I know that in her life, it’s not without us.
It’s us… sorry for her.
On May 27, 2022, I never had a sister. Case number: YXX1pN4AMBUO5pwDQliJJJJO
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
