The pregnant man’s got a problem.
I was 18 and my dad disappeared.
Later, I found a pregnancy test in his room.
Diagnosis: 6 weeks +.
Patient name: Song Sun.
My dad’s name is Song Sun.
One.
Eighteen-year-old bar mitzvah this day.
Mom and Dad had a birthday with me.
Mom was extremely excited, with a smile on her face, a green light in her eyes and two red lips shaking.
“I’m so happy that you’re finally an adult!
“You can inherit your father’s clothes! I’m sorry.
That’s a stupid thing to say. My dad’s just a regular company employee. What can I inherit?
What kind of rich man is our home? Waiting for me to inherit the billions?
I turned my head to see Dad, but I found him dead.
He looked at me with mercy, without seeing the good-looking old-fashioned, and without wishing me a birthday.
Yes, mercy.
I’ve been thinking about it, and I’ve stopped.
As usual, the family had a nice dinner and shared a delicious cake.
“Go take a shower.” I’m sorry.
In this tone, full of impatience.
I envy them so much.
I watched her tongue slid across the lips.
It’s like my fault I saw a letter belonging to an animal.
The air conditioner’s running a little low, and I’ve got a creep.
“I’ll stay with Song Yang. “Daddy grabbed my arm dead and wouldn’t move.
It’s like that bathroom, what a purgatory.
Until my arm was caught in pain, and my father was nervous, and I comforted him, “It’s okay, Dad, I’m just taking a shower, and I’m not going to disappear. I’m sorry.
I did, but he disappeared.
He was taken to the bathroom with his mother’s hand and never showed up again.
Two.
Maybe a little wine. I went back to my room and fell asleep.
Half-dreaming, listening to the sound of “screech” outside the door, or “screeching.”
It’s like a branch with a broken hand.
Then I thought back, maybe bones.
Chew it in that bathroom.
Wake up, it’s the next day at noon.
“Your father is in a hurry, so take you to Tokushima for your birthday.” I’m sorry.
When she looked at me, she didn’t just look soft, it was more urgent.
I can’t say no.
I know “Tokushima”, a remote island on the east coast, where she came from.
Ever since she married my dad.
I’ve never been there either.
3
Mom was always strong, like my dad didn’t want to take a bath and she took him in one hand.
I don’t know where she got that strong.
I’ve been afraid to fight her since I was a kid, and this time, of course.
But I’ve always had a problem with Dad’s business trip.
Since my eighteenth birthday, Mom’s behavior has become a little weird.
She was once lazy and slowly swallowing, and suddenly, as if she had eaten a keg of gunpowder, she could not bear to do anything.
While she was out packing, I snuck into her room with Dad.
He used to travel in a suitcase, lying quietly in the corner, and in a closet, with no shortage of clothes.
Something’s wrong! He can’t be on a business trip!
Dad told me before that he had a place where he hid money from his private room, a corner of the closet. The cupboard was off and there was something to hide.
I was staring at the door of the room and touching that corner carefully.
There’s something! Take a look, it’s a black-skin diary.
There’s a blank in it, only one page in the middle says, “Son!” Watch your mother! Stay away from the water! I’m sorry.
Scrubs, it can be seen that he was very anxious and frightened.
Watch out for Mom? What do you mean?
Outside the door was a long question from my mother: “Do you have it?”
I was just about to close my diary and sneak back into my room. And then, suddenly, a piece of paper fell in the book.
I’m curious to pick it up, it’s a pregnancy test!
Inspection time: Eighteen years ago.
Is it true that after my mother was pregnant with me, my father had a special collection to remember?
Patient name: Song Sun.
Huh? That’s my dad’s name. I rubbed my eyes and confirmed them again.
Wait, is that my dad?
But he’s a man!
4
Do you think one day you’ll wonder who gave birth to you?
It’s me now, that’s it.
It’s just the way I see it. It shakes my mind.
Dad told me to watch out for Mom! My mom… it seems like there’s a real problem, and I don’t like the way she looks at me.
She’s not my sweet, sweet mother anymore.
Tomorrow, we’re leaving for Tokushima.
I suddenly remembered what my father said: “Be far from water.” I’m sorry.
Tokushima, it’s Sea Island what should I do?
Lieting on the bed, he couldn’t sleep, and the night winds outside the window covered the curtains with a cold, but it was summer.
I picked up my phone and I didn’t know who to tell about the weirdness of the family. Grandma and Grandpa died long ago.
Mom and Dad don’t have brothers and sisters, and the members of our family are so simple.
I think I’m gonna come to God, get up and drink the glass.
Look down! There was a beautiful face in the cup, and she was staring at me with a smile and a terrible look.
“Why aren’t you sleeping?” I’m getting up early tomorrow. I’m sorry.
That voice came out of the cup.
I threw away my glass and spilled water and ran to the door.
“What’s going on? Are you trying to escape? I’m sorry.
I was so scared, I turned my head and looked at my mother in a yellow hammock, leaning on the couch and smiling and staring at me.
The face that just appeared in the glass, that sound, just like her.
Mom swayed to my bed and sat down.
“Baby, why don’t you sleep? Don’t be afraid, Mom’s watching over you. I’m sorry.
I’m scared with you.
When I was little, I was envied when I heard my classmate’s mom would sing them lullaby.
Because my mom won’t.
From childhood to age, she was gentle to me, but also alienated.
At one point, I suspected that I was not her own son, but Dad always told me, “Mother is this person. She loves you. Don’t blame her. I’m sorry.
Tonight, she said she’d watch me sleep.
A guardian or a monitor?
5
This night, I was seriously insomnia.
Those dark eyes were staring at me, and I ignored my discomfort, and I closed my eyes and adjusted my breath.
I didn’t realize I was really asleep, but I seemed to have a lot of nightmares.
I’m waking up in a shaking, like I’m above a wave.
Open your eyes, it’s a strange environment, with the stench of seafood around its nose.
This is a small space, with several nets on the wall, and strange tools with sharp hooks.
I sat up with surprise, and through the little window in front of me, I saw a sea of vision.
Yeah, I’m on a fishing boat.
“I’ll be home soon, Yin and Yang. I heard Mom again.
She’s wearing a Bohemia-style dress, with a beach cap on her head, a beautiful red lips.
I held my head in pain and complained, “It’s not that I’m going to fly, how did I suddenly get to the sea?” I’m sorry.
Mom brought me a bowl of soup, and the black one couldn’t see what it was, and he started throwing up.
“You’re out of your mind, son. We’re already down. We’re all out of water. I’m sorry.
But I don’t remember at all.
It’s a blank how to get on the plane, how to get there.
She’s still in peace, looking at the medicine bowl in my hand and watching me drink.
When her body disappeared completely in the cabin, I jumped to the window, slit her throat and threw out the medicine.
Dad said, watch out for Mom!
It’s been so weird these past two days that I can’t do it again.
At the end of the day, I suddenly found that the black medicine had become red.
The color of blood.
Six.
Quick, shake off, the boat stopped.
I got off the boat with my mom’s calling.
The curtains are drawn from an island near the desert, where the head can be seen at first sight, and the broken cabins are standing on the open ground, forming a village.
The dry sand is full of marine litter, dead fish and shrimp.
There’s even a giant whale that has been emptyed.
Yeah, whale.
Around the island is the black and stinking sea, and the waves are full of smell.
What about the island? I’m afraid it’s the desert island.
“Welcome home, Yang. “Standing in a bad environment, Mom was still smiling.
I couldn’t believe it. Mom, is this Tokushima? I’m sorry.
Mom noded, held my hand and headed towards the group that was not far from the beach.
“Yeah, this is Mom’s hometown, Tokushima, like it? I’m sorry.
I’m surprised I opened my eyes.
Older women, even with wrinkles, can see the marks of a beautiful woman. The young ones are beautiful, and their skirts float.
I’ve lived 18 years, and I’ve never been in love, and I’ve only learned to study.
I’m a little blushing in the face of so many beautiful women.
“I’d like to introduce you to my mother, your grandmother, and the chief of our village. These are my sisters, your aunts, your aunts. I’m sorry.
The first time I saw you, I said hello.
“Here’s your cousin, Sea Double. “Mom focused on a young girl and pulled me in front of her.”
Two cousins are very pretty, wearing a red dress, ink, red lips, eyes like magnets, staring at me.
“Hello, cousin. “I bow my head in an attempt to avoid this burning sight.
Are all the girls in Tokushima so passionate?
“Hello, cousin Song Yang. “The two sides of the sea took a step forward, hugged me, without a lace, and I felt uncomfortable.
And when she was whispering in her ear, she caused me to sweat, and she said, “It’s good to see you again. I’m sorry.
I swear, I’ve never seen her before. It’s definitely the first time!
7
Me and Mom, we’re living down here on this shitty, weird island.
Strangely, the big island can’t see a man.
Every house has a cabin, and there’s a lot of small rooms in it, which is not much different from what we are in town.
I took my clothes and went to the so-called “chamber” and suddenly I heard the girl’s magic voice: “What are you doing, cousin of the sun?” I’m sorry.
Turn your head, it’s the sea.
“Well, cousin, where’s your bathroom? I want to go take a bath. I looked for a half day and I didn’t see the bathroom.
The look on both sides of the sea is cold in a few minutes: “You’re the only one who, well, with your city, has no water to bathe you or drink enough. Look what’s contaminated out there.” I’m sorry.
I was astonished by this accusation: “So do you not bathe in the summer?” I’m sorry.
She looked at me strangely: “We haven’t washed for years. I’m sorry.
She added, “However, I’m very watery and I can’t stand it, so I’m going to take all these marine garbage and take a swim in the deep sea. I’m sorry.
“Only, it’s getting dirty. She was sarcastic.
I was dying to go back to my room, and she pulled me back, and she handed me a bowl, which was familiar when I was in the cabin.
“Drink. Her tone is beyond question, as strong as my mother’s.
I wrinkled my head and looked at the medicine, and I couldn’t help but ask, “I’m not sick. Why drink this?” I’m sorry.
“You see, we’re in a bad place to be afraid of you. Drink up. Don’t get contagious. I’m sorry.
She took a step forward, squeezed my jaw and poured me down.
She’s strong, I’m a 185 big boy! There’s no resistance!
This is definitely not the smell of medicine, like blood! I’ve had duck blood.
I was forced to swallow, my stomach fell into the sea, and I looked in my eyes before I fell down and threw up.
With desire.
8
I can’t take a bath, I can’t have enough water, I can’t eat harder than a stone, and I drink that strange drug every day.
The whole island smells of stinky rotting.
Most importantly, there’s no network.
I lost contact with the outside world.
Ever since I returned to Tokushima, my mother has come home early and late.
I made up my mind and asked her to borrow her cell phone: “Mom, let me borrow your cell phone for a meeting. I’ll see what the new generation said. I’m sorry.
Yes, I’ve just finished my exams. I’m doing well.
My mother looked at me deeply and smiled with regret: “Hey, we have bad signals here in Tokushima, and so does my phone.” I’m sorry.
I don’t know anyone else. I can’t trust them.
This day, after the whole family went out again, I went out to hang out.
It’s like a small fishing village with an amazing look of women on the sandy road, all over the door.
I was as shocked as I was when I broke into my daughter’s country.
They look at me like I’m not feeling well, and they play, they play, they play, they’re excited, they’re horny, they’re hateful.
“You can’t go in here. Two middle-aged women with long sticks stopped me in front of an aging earth hill.
I know the hook on the front end of their stick, and I’ve seen it in the cabin.
“Yo, interested? “The aunt with the mole in her eyebrow asked me with a stick.
Another sister-in-law with short hair also answered: “Ha ha ha ha, this thing, killing blood, is a good tool.” Have you heard the watermelon? Pow — that’s it, man’s belly opens, and then you can take out what’s inside.”
They’re like normal city girls, describing how the weather is today and where to go for tea.
Aunt Mae saw me pale and was so anxious to interrupt her: “I’m joking with you, Song Yang, this is a tool for killing fish, we live by the sea.” I’m sorry.
I looked up at her.
I didn’t say my name. How did she know?
Come on, let’s go! “The aunt with short hair waved a stick and drove me away.
I noded my head and walked back.
After a journey, when they were not paying attention, I turned and went up from the other side of the sea.
This dirt mountain, there must be secrets.
9
I’ve been walking for a long time, and there are no other guards on the road.
Maybe they think it’s Tokushima, their territory, it’s reassuring.
On earth hills, in the depths of the aging jungle, which is evaporated, a huge wooden house has emerged, almost as high as the two-storey house.
At the right door, there were two more indigenous women patrolling with long sticks.
I was careful to avoid them and took the cover of a leaf and hid under a window on the first floor.
The windows are still raw paper, and there’s talk in them.
“This is not a good shipment. Should the people who went out bring new ones back? * An old voice. *
“Mom, you think everyone is as fast as I am. * A familiar voice * * This seems to be my mother * The other one, my grandmother!
“There is no other way, and the environment is getting worse and more people are dying, and they must have a new life. Grandma again sighs.
“Don’t worry, Yin and Yang have been drinking pills, and soon they will be passed on, so they can go with both…”
“Yeah, Mom, don’t worry, they’ve been waiting for him. I’m sorry.
By the way, sister, you’ve been locked down for so long. What about your son’s inheritance?” my mom asked.
No, no, no, no.
It’s too much information. I’m turning my head and digesting.
Not long ago, their voices disappeared, and I scratched my cheeks, and I was so curious to lick my finger.
The window paper was accidentally punctured and a single eye was put up.
Nobody.
Look at the front door, no one!
Good shot!
10
I snuck into the cabin, nothing, empty.
Not far, up the stairs.
But from under my feet, there was a weak conversation.
There’s a basement! I’m walking down the steps, holding my breath, walking down.
“Come on, you two. These dead men, they’re all out of the sea and they’re going to clean up. Grandma ordered two doormen.
“Shuss.” Eat for us! Two women are dying.
“The body eats, too. Grandma laughed, but she did not blame them.
Two women laughed and lifted the first corpse.
Listen, I’m getting ready to come up.
I speeded up my feet. It’s a stone house down there! Squeeze in the middle! It’s like the urban grid.
Before they came by, I was looking at the nearest stone house.
The door’s open. Maybe they just came by and forgot.
I hid in.
When their voices were completely gone, I took a breath.
Turn around and see a man in the house who can no longer be called a man.
He was thinner and softly lying on cold rock.
The wrists and ankles each bear a scar with a deep visible bone.
The clothes were worn to him in pieces, and the skin was exposed, full of cross-tangled scars, new and old.
Hair’s like straw, like crazy.
The whole house was covered in blood.
If it hadn’t been for him, I would have thought he was dead.
“Kill me…” He grabbed my pants.
Eleven.
“Do you believe men can have children? “The madman asked me.
His words were like a thunderbolt, deafening, and I felt the truth about Dad’s disappearance.
When I look pale, the madman laughs like blood: “I tell you a secret…
“The women of Tokushima are monsters. They can give birth to men. Ha-ha-ha-ha. Please kill me. Please. I’m sorry.
I’m beginning to get clear in my head, and I’m starting to get in touch with everything. I crouched down, staring at crazy people, trying to find out the last truth.
“What are they? I’m sorry.
Long hair covers one of the eyes of a madman, and I can only see his dirty face, and my hate over his face.
“Do you know the God of the East Shogun?” He turned these women into monsters. I’m sorry.
12
East Shoes.
First time I heard.
“Tokuchi I know, this is the island now. But I don’t know what a god to the east sea is. I’m sorry.
How can there be God in this world?
“You don’t believe me?
“They are followers of the East Shoes.” They’re crazy! They’re demons! She lied to me, married me, gave birth to a child! Feed my blood to the seed! Ask me if I love her! I’m sorry.
He’s completely mad, crying and laughing.
It may have been too long since anyone talked to him, and he had a strong narration.
I found a comfortable position and sat on the floor and listened to him.
From his inverted words, I drew the context.
It’s a creepy story.
He really had a baby.
13 – Li Xian
I’m Li Jin.
From childhood living in a happy and prosperous family, and then, by accident, my father was killed, and my mother inherited the family business and raised me.
After college, I met a sweet, beautiful girl named Winter.
She volunteered to approach me, to pursue me, to plunge me into the swamp of love and to believe in her well-woven lies.
Full work, bright life, enviable love.
I thought my life was almost perfect.
Winter and I entered the house of marriage with many blessings from family and friends.
She leaned in my arms and laughed shyly: “Among, I finally married you.” I’m sorry.
That was my happiest day.
But a week after the wedding, winter changed.
She seemed so gentle, but her eyes were no longer clear, and when I looked at me, I couldn’t help but say it.
She got angry and started to like being in the tub. I thought it was just a change in her personality, not a doubt.
Until that day I went to the hospital and the doctor said, “Mr. Li, you are pregnant. I’m sorry.
My worldview has collapsed.
People want skin, men get pregnant, they say it’s embarrassing. I’ve changed a few private hospitals, and the answer is the same.
I’m surprised.
Winter was so happy, she was so crazy, she was hugging me and crying and laughing: “I’m sorry, will you forgive me?” We have our own kids. Are you happy? I’m sorry.
I spent a lot of time with her and her fake snakes trying and investigating, and I found out her secret that she was a monster.
What is a woman who can get a man pregnant, not a monster?
Or maybe she wasn’t even the little winter I first met, a demon, hallucinating.
It’s just my guess.
As always, she said, “I love you. I’m sorry.
She loved me, so she imprisoned me.
“Ambassil, we are enemies of the world, you have wronged me first, so let you taste the pain of women. I’m sorry.
I threw up my blood. The pain of a woman? I don’t know what she’s talking about! Disgusting woman!
She even continued to do so.
“You’re having my baby. Are you happy? It’s a rare experience for men. I’m sorry.
Ha-ha-ha-ha!
Am I crazy or is she crazy?
I want to run away.
I’m looking for the police.
But the sea and winter were so great that I couldn’t escape her and me. As long as there’s water, she can get there fast.
Big city, thousands of underground tunnels. How could there be no water? Even if I pick up a cup and want a drink, she’ll show up.
Once, when she didn’t notice, I managed to get out and she found me before she reached the crossroads.
I tried to abort.
It’s like I’m in my belly.
I tried to kill myself and she threatened me with my mom.
I can’t… I really can’t, as a man, become a monster’s taboo.
I can’t escape, I can’t kill her. She’s too strong.
For my mother’s sake, I can’t stand it.
In the end, like a woman, I worked hard to give birth to this kind of child in October.
We grew up healthy, our lives were smooth, and everything looked the same.
Eighteen years, like a day, I live in sea and winter.
Until the 18th birthday of the bastard.
The winter brought us back to Tokushima and locked me in here.
And that son of a bitch is locked up in a rock house not far from here.
“As long as his son drinks your blood, he will drink for forty-nine days, he will be able to complete his inheritance and become a pure Tojo. When he marries a woman of the Tung Hau, he gives birth to his best offspring.
“Thank the Lord of the Sea for his kindness, which gave us an opportunity to avenge our hatred and to pass on to our generation. I’m sorry.
She said it was the gods who helped them.
And when I see my eyes of shock and anger, the sea and winter rise upon me and tell me: “What if I let you and my son go secretly, as long as you say you love me?” I’m sorry.
She tried to threaten me again.
I laughed, “How could I fall in love with a demon?” I’m sorry.
She broke my arms and legs and tried to destroy my dignity as a man, causing me pain.
“I don’t love you.” I hate you! I’m sorry.
So she tortured me and forced me.
No, no, no, no.
Look at her. She’s so red. I’m so happy.
The mother of the sea winter, the so-called chief of the East Hau clan, seems to have put up with it and brought me blood.
Every day, again and again, with my blood, to feed that bastard.
It hurts… it hurts more than having a baby.
Is he dead and free?
14
Li Qing lay on the ground like an old man who died of oil.
I remember his story, cold hands.
It’s my aunt.
So, from time to time, Li is my younger uncle.
It was a cold in my heart, and it was hard for Haiti, and I threw up in the wall.
Turns out, the so-called drugs I drink every day are really blood.
That’s my dad’s blood.
My dad, maybe something’s happened.
So Li Qin went on his side to see me cry, and he said, “Are you the second generation?” I’m sorry.
The father is the first generation and the child born to the father and to the woman of Tokushima is the second generation.
I nod my head.
“Now that you’re in Tokushima, your father, probably dead.
“You know what? The god of the East Sea gave the women a great strength, water management, a beautiful appearance, and a man’s ability to bear children, of course he wanted. I’m sorry.
I was shaking my teeth and I said, “What is the demand?” I’m sorry.
“Man’s life! The men who gave birth to their children were sacrificed to the gods of the sea, or to water.
“We just fished a little shrimp, we drained some garbage into the sea, we said we polluted the sea, we pissed off the sea god, we said it was God’s punishment.
“Isn’t that what shrimp is born for? Isn’t a woman born of a child? They’re trying to turn the world upside down! I’m sorry.
I listened to him in silence and restrained the urge to punch him.
And when the head of a madman did not come out, he looked at me with his head and looked at me with a scary smile: “I guess your father disappeared in a place of water, right? I’m sorry.
Yes, the bathroom. I’m heavy on the head.
On the night of the birthday, there was a chew in the bathroom, not a dream.
“How do you know this? I’m sorry.
Li Zheng smiled: “As Winter said, she did not intend to sacrifice me to prove her love for me. As long as I love her and stay with her, she’ll take me away. I’m sorry.
His voice was just down, and there were footsteps outside the stone house.
Getting closer.
Finally, stopped at our stonehouse door.
Lee and I stopped breathing and the door was quiet.
“Song Yang. I’m sorry.
After a long time, the outsider called out my name, it was Mom.
I held on to the tremors, took a deep breath, slowly turned around and opened the door.
It’s a dark green, like a snake’s pupil, with a strange flame.
My mother looked me in cold blood, with the eyes, with the magic, and the pain of my nerves.
I passed out.
15
And when I woke up again, I looked at the sea and the bright face.
“Yah, cousin, are you awake?” She’s surprised, holding my hand, moaning, like an ascendant.
I’m a man, she’s a woman.
She seemed so happy for me, but she was a little overzealous.
I smelled the sea smell on her, I put my hands out, I put my hands out, and I put my hands out, “Cousin, where’s my mother?” I’m sorry.
She looked at me carefully, and looked at me with concern, and told me, “Song Yang, don’t run away again, and Auntie Autumn is angry.” I’m sorry.
It’s true that everything was a dream before I fainted.
It’s true what Li Xin said.
These days, I’ve been taken care of by both the sea and the sea. She seems to have some strange feelings for me.
I asked, “What is this?” I’m sorry.
A cold hand covering my mouth doesn’t smell good.
“Don’t talk nonsense! They’ll kill you! It’s our secret! I’m sorry.
I’m even more certain that Li Xian is true.
It’s a shame to use girls, but I have no other choice.
“Am I also your child’s goods? I’m sorry.
She stood up and pushed the bowl to me, “Drink it or you’ll suffer again when Aunt Autumn comes.” I’m sorry.
I looked deep into the bowl, of course not. And, angryly, knocked over the bowl.
It’s the sound of boom.
There’s thick blood all over the place.
My mom’s here.
I was strangled by my own mother and carried from the wooden bed.
My mother’s eyes are greener, and she reveals a cold cold, and her lips are soft and full of air.
“Song Yang, am I too used to you? I’m sorry.
16
I remember when I was having trouble breathing.
My body is a lot worse than my peers, and I get sick all the time, and Dad drops off all the work and stays up all night.
My dad is different from Li.
He loves me.
Although he gave birth to me as a man, he never treated me as a disgrace.
And my mom, she’s just a routine.
She looked at me and Daddy, and smiled so softly: “What a good son you have.” I’m sorry.
At that time, I was always wondering, why is she so weird?
“Look again, I’ll eat you again. Snips– “She ferociously licked her lips and scared me to cry.
I didn’t get it then. I’m a good son of my father. Aren’t I a good son of my mother?
I’m her own son. Why does she always reveal hostility to me?
Maybe, in my mom’s eyes, she’s just like Li, I’m just an animal.
“Daddy, Mom doesn’t like me? * I’m holding my tears in my arms *
My father held a little me, touched my head, and said, “Mother loves you too, but we’re sorry for them…”
I’m sure I heard the words “we’re sorry for them” from Dad’s mouth when I was five years old.
Because I’m sorry, I have to pay for my life.
As now, she strangled me and lifted me up.
My head has reached the ceiling made of wood.
I can’t breathe, my head’s low on oxygen.
“Autumn Autumn! Auntie Chow! Song Yang didn’t mean it! He drinks every day. Leave him alone.”
Mother looked down at her, and there was something incredible in her tone, and it was a bit harsh: “Two, you really liked him.” I’m sorry.
“Autumn-Autumn, please leave him alone. I promise I will look after him later. He will be good.” I’m sorry.
I’m saved.
Mother laid me down, and she threw 185 of me to the bed like a piece of rag, with no respect for her voice: “You Song family, it’s disgusting. Your grandfather, your father, you, you’re a hypocrite, you’re a part of it. I’m sorry.
I looked up and looked at her dead.
Hit me, trample me, don’t insult my dad.
But I wasn’t stupid enough to go straight to her and bite her.
17
I’m locked up in my room and my mother delivers me medicine every day.
One meal a day, make sure you don’t starve.
I was told at the door of my room that, “Customs, don’t turn your back on Auntie Autumn, if you insist on 49 days of medicine and marry me, you’re free to go wherever you want!” I can take you home too! I’m sorry.
And I cried out, lying on a firm plank bed: “The sea and the sea, you are my cousin, and the next of kin shall not be married.” I’m sorry.
“But we don’t watch this here. Outside the door, the voice of both sides of the sea is low.
I strangled my lips to death, and said nothing more.
I hate Tokushima.
I hate my mom.
Disgusting the sea.
What a dump! I’m a big man! I finally realized how Li Xin wanted to die.
And those outside the door continued to advise me, “Song Yang, I am the purest blood of my generation, and you are with me.” As long as you drink your medicine, you can produce the purest offspring. I’m sorry.
What time is it? And the purest offspring, this feudal mess!
I want to find my dad or avenge him.
I want to leave alive.
I don’t know.
So I started to be a good boy.
Every day, she was so sick that she drank blood in her mother’s burning eyes.
Dad’ll understand, won’t he? Sorry…
I ate those fish-shit shrimps, and I had to refuel.
After drinking blood every day, I found myself getting weaker. There must be something in there to prevent me from running away.
My skin’s getting white and soft, and it makes me sick!
I started to lose my extra hair, like a shelled egg, and I was scared!
Even harder to say, my breasts are rising…
I’m a man!
I thought about Li’s story, about the pregnancy test in Dad’s diary.
In black and white, it says clearly:
“The name of the patient: Song Sun. I’m sorry.
“The Sex of the Patient: Men. I’m sorry.
“The medical test: pregnancy 6 weeks +. I’m sorry.
Dad’s pregnancy coincided with my presence in the world.
So, I really, really, was my dad born.
18
The day and the night alternately, and the days of torment.
I drank 49 days of blood.
That day, Mom opened the door and came in a bunch of women who were busy in my room.
Look at those acts, they seem to be setting up.
The essence of human aesthetics may be the same: the red silk is full, and they act more than they paint and say to me what I don’t understand.
Maybe it’s a blessing. Maybe it’s a curse. Who knows?
I’m in the corner, I’m not strong enough to watch them.
“You’re getting married tonight, my son. “Mommy is complex, touching my head.
I just feel creepy.
The evening came soon, and I touched my ears.
A few women showed up with stretchers and put on my red shirts, which were both happy and weird.
A woman just moved me up there. Have they always been so strong?
I took a look at my muscles that were almost non-existent.
And they beat their drums with joy, and sing the little tunes that I do not understand. They are joyful, yet they grieve and despair.
My eardrum stings, and finally, it bleeds.
Maybe for humans, it’s a sonic attack.
They carried me and headed towards the woodhouse. Yes, I went back to the cabin.
My bride, sea twins, wait for me in the cabin.
Tonight, I and she are going to celebrate the Lord of the Sea and share the evening.
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This is the second time I’ve entered this cabin.
Take a closer look. It’s a beam sculpture with their own culture.
They took me to the center of the first floor, full of women, full of fresh faces.
The walls are straight ahead, with countless medals.
This cabin, it’s like their hall.
The big event of marriage is definitely coming here.
Looks like I got it.
On the front stage, standing on my grandmother, my mother, my aunt, my aunt, and among them a giant statue.
Body fish tails, with three fork in hand, long hair, green eyes, and agility.
I looked at it a little bit, and I lost my hair.
Is this what they believe in?
It’s right in the middle of the stage. There’s no doubt that today’s she’s extraordinary.
She came at me like a butterfly: “Soy-yang! You are so handsome today!”
Several elders on the stage shook their heads and, in the crowd around them, they also made a pointer.
“Oh, the chief is in love! I’m sorry.
“Yeah, how can you make it so big for a man? I’m sorry.
“Shh! The chief is her grandmother. Stop it. I’m sorry.
“Why not?” Have they forgotten what we’ve been through? Forget our blood feud! Shame on you!”
All around me, I’m listening.
I looked at her with my eyes open, and she was always swaying, looking for my praise: “Do you like it?” I’m sorry.
Of course I do.
I squeezed my nails.
This is my only chance.
20
Grandma was wearing a stick, leading all the women and kneeling devoutly to the statue.
First there was a chain of things I couldn’t understand, then finally there was Mandarin.
“Song Yang, the next generation of the noble sea god, who is to be married today, will pass on the will of the sea god, and will continue the blood of the clan, may the Lord protect him!” I’m sorry.
The two sides of the sea saw me standing, pulled me in one hand, and told me to lower their voices and warn me, “Get down on your knees and don’t provoke the Lord of the Sea.” I’m sorry.
I can’t believe there’s a ghost in this world!
All of a sudden, I saw the statue initiate a green fluorescent, and all the women were made to be gods and bowed down.
When the chapel began, I slipped over the statue.
It’s just a hard rock. There’s nothing wrong with it.
Even if it’s not right, it’s a scientific context.
I laughed.
How could there be a god in this world?
21
Tonight’s Dong Hao Island, especially happy.
It seems that my wedding with the sea gave the island a breath of life.
The women of the Dong Hak clan are flexible as snakes, swaying their bodies, bending their sticks and walking through their cabins.
The night is quiet, the moon is high tomorrow and the candles are ripe.
I’m in the new house with the sea, on the second floor.
There was a lot of noise coming from the surrounding rooms, and the second floor was being held by the pregnant men, like the watermelon.
Boom, boom, boom.
One, one, one.
“Pregnate! It’s a good one. It’s a girl! I’m sorry.
“Oh, my God, this is a boy! I’m sorry.
“Okay, there’s so much more. We’re busy tonight. Stop talking! I’m sorry.
Or joy, or despair, or despair, with the weeping of new life.
It’s like they’re crazy. I think I broke into a psychiatric hospital.
Countless sounds like tides rush into my ears and torment my nerves.
I remember that man in the basement, Li Zhen.
“Do you know what it’s like for a man to have a baby? He asked me.
I haven’t been there, shake my head.
He was lying on the ground, laughing at his mouth: “Men have no uterus, have no womb, have been pregnant for 10 months, have dried up their blood, have built a house in their bellies, and are squeezing into their bodies, and they are breaking apart. I’m sorry.
“A woman’s pregnancy is vomiting, so is a man.
“You know what, boy? You can’t go to a hospital, you can’t go to a monster. I can only wait ten months for that disgusting woman to cut my stomach open with her hook.
“The guacamole– you know the sound of a well-known watermelon being touched by a knife and breaking itself? That’s how it feels. I’m sorry.
I felt terrible and asked him, “Does it hurt?” I’m sorry.
“Oh pain, even if the winter quickly heals me with superpower, my heart really hurts.” I’m sorry.
“Can you do me a favor, young man?” Li asked me.
“Kill me. I’m sorry.
22
Red Shadow turned me back into reality.
“Song Yang, I finally married you. “The two faces of the sea are red, sitting in bed with me.
I didn’t move.
She jumped at me.
I looked into her blindfold and gently touched her face.
I have to say, she’s the prettiest woman in Tokushima.
“Customs, it’s not the first time we’ve met, is it? I always feel like I’ve seen you like that. “I kept my voice down and asked her.
My fingertips slipped through her eyebrow, ran over her nose and stopped on her red lips.
And she looked at me, and she looked at me, and she smiled at me: “Of course, I came to you often. I’m sorry.
I’m confused.
She’s dying to explain to me.
“No, now that we’re married, there’s nothing I can’t tell you. We, the Tohoku clan, have received the blessing of the Lord of the Sea and have been extremely effective in water management. But wherever there is water, we can get there fast.
“So, when I was a little girl, I snuck across the sea and went to find her because I miss Auntie Autumn. I saw you by accident, that year, you were seven. I’ve been sneaking around ever since.
“You don’t know, I’m going to cross the East Sea to see you… after all, our water control is only about a hundred kilometers.
“As opposed to the Sun Monkey, we still have a hard time. I’ll see some fish on the road, but every time I see you, I’m happy.
“Song Yang, I really am to you…”
I don’t care what she says.
No wonder… No wonder, Dad’s diary says, “Be far from water.” I’m sorry.
Be good with the water. I see.
And We rounded up the lips, with her red lips on his fingertips, and smiled, “Thank you, cousin, I am offended.” I’m sorry.
The sea both passed out.
I went out and my pupils looked at the room on the second floor.
Here, it’s like the world’s bug, human purgatory.
A nine-foot man with a big belly, crying on the floor.
Like a fish nearing death on the beach, it is to be slaughtered and chosen.
Blood on the ground.
And his stomach was whiteened, and he was pulled down with a sharp bend.
“No, don’t…” They cry and cry.
“Boom–” Doesn’t matter. It’s just the sound of the tummy and the cry of the baby.
Wake up to sin.
23
The ferry was full of the sea, and various special weapons were pointed at it.
Numerous helicopters circled over the sky and raging.
Within 500 kilometres of water, weapons from the sea floor were placed so that even a fly could not fly out easily.
The well-equipped warriors have surrounded the island.
The searchlights are wide open, and there is no place for evil.
“I can’t believe the pollution of this sea is so great that marine life has changed in the mountains of the west coast in the early years. I’m sorry.
The leaders look at the surrounding environment and lament it.
Yes, there is no sea god in this world.
All of their so-called superpowers are the result of long periods of exposure to marine litter and to toxic seawater radiation.
Comrade Song Yang, good work. “The head of the special department slaps me on my shoulder and exaggerates me.
I’m tearing open my red shirt and smiling with all my heart.
Yeah, I’m part of the special department.
It’s been our S-class job.
I picked it up when I got into the department.
I touched my head, and I wasn’t surprised.
Thanks to the satellite-based locator chip in the ear and the pedicure in the nails, which had a role for the Tung Ha women.
Even my pupils are already equipped with high-tech automatic cameras.
These are all evidence of crimes committed by the Dong Hak.
Actually, from the moment my father was pregnant with me, I was targeted by a special department.
And, of course, the other first generation, the second generation.
But they chose me.
Maybe it’s because I’m good, gentle, smart.
After a visit, a week before my 18th birthday, I was hired by a special department.
Officially become a part of it.
24
I saw a lot of acquaintances being taken out of Tokushima.
First, the women.
They stare at me with their green eyes, and they stare at me with their fury, and they eat my flesh and their blood.
Traitor! I’m sorry.
“We trusted you so much! I’m sorry.
“You are the son of Haiqiu, how can you betray the Dong Hao?” I’m sorry.
“You’ll get your punishment! Song Yang! I’m sorry.
“I knew it! The descendants of those men are disgusting! We should kill them! They should be killed! I’m sorry.
I saw it, too, when I was at the rear of the hill, there were aunts with moles and short hair.
They suddenly broke up and ran towards me with sticks and hooks, despite all kinds of special weapons.
“Song Yang, I knew it. That day in the mountains, I should have opened your belly! I’m sorry.
“Your mother brought you back, and she’s in touch with us. Let’s take care of you a little bit! Do you deserve her?”
“You little man! You bastard! Just like your father! Die!”
I’m not dead. It’s them.
The hole in the eyebrow of a weapon was extremely lethal, and it was targeted specifically at the Dong Hak clan, with one blow to death.
Numerous voices came at me, and I stood up to my waist, and I didn’t move.
It is true that I am bleeding of the Dong Hau, and my mother is a Dong Hao.
But first, I’m a man.
He’s a man of honor.
25
And then it was my grandmother.
The old man I didn’t have much to do with her.
Her skinny face twists at me, and she looks terrible.
After a long time, she laughed: “Som Yang, you want revenge for your father, right? I’m sorry.
The old man pushed away her hand and began to untie her. We turned our heads, though she was an old man.
But she cried out, “Look! Look at my scars! Look at my belly!”
We can’t help but look at the past with curiosity.
It’s like a scar, like a cylindrical, crawling all over her belly. On her shoulder, on her back, all kinds of old wounds.
Chief! The women on the other side are crying.
“This is thanks to the Sons and Lee. Song Yang, understand? Grandma hates me and goes on like a bitch.
“The Songs and the Lees are rich and happy. Of course, the biggest human trafficking organization leader! See? We’re all victims! I’m sorry.
Grandma put out her hand and pointed at the women.
“We are not the so-called people, the survivors, the Avengers!
“How many men have I had, how many children have I had, I forgot, they’ve sold it, ha ha ha ha ha ha…”
The old man’s squeaky voice surrounds me, in words, with blood in his heart.
That’s why I’m staring at them, and I can’t stand it.
26
She was abducted on her way home many years ago, when she was a girl.
She was then taken with many young girls to a deep mountain in the East Shogun Sea.
Some of the girls were abducted and others were trafficked. The biggest is only 35, the smallest, but 10 years old.
There, they lived a terrible life.
They were flogged, taught lessons, domesticated, disobedient, murdered and thrown into the sea to feed fish.
The men of all kinds came to the mountains, and they became the tools for their fun, and the mountains became the golden caves.
When you’re 30 years old, you can’t take care of yourself, you start having a baby.
What? An older woman is at risk? Do they care? Don’t care.
Grandma forgot how many children she had, and she didn’t even have time to see, and the children became commodities for sale.
He was sent to the world for sale.
Bad quality boy, killed directly.
Girls of the same quality remain in the mountains and continue their mother’s “profession”. Countless sisters died in that mountain.
Grandma hates it, she hates it, but how can she fight a weak woman over a man who’s so big?
Until one day, there was a strange sound.
“I am God of the East Shogun. Will you sacrifice your soul?” I can avenge you. I’m sorry.
So Grandma made a deal with Sea God.
All the men in the mountains were killed, including the two leaders of Song Lee, my grandfather. And, Li Xian’s father.
With their surviving sisters and their descendants, they came to Dong Hao.
Before listening to this, and for reasons of consequence, the people present are always bragging.
“Som Sun and Li are not innocent, right? Do they know what his father did? Don’t dare. So they deserve one of our pains. I’m sorry.
I got my fist tight, I can’t believe my dad had something to do with this.
So, does he know?
27
Then they were taken out of custody by my great-uncle Hae-summer and my little-uncle.
Song Yang, why are you so mean? They’re so good to you!”
I can’t answer her. There’s no other way.
My sister-in-law didn’t give me a look, but he looked at the other side of the island, the men who had been rescued.
She’s looking for someone, not found.
It’s getting anxious.
And her body was still with the crowd, and her head turned around and asked me, “Where is Li Qian?”
Where’s Li?
Li Jin is dead.
The stretchers were covered with white cloth. One of them was his body.
I remember Li’s last two words.
“Can you do me a favor? “He was lying on the ground, crying and asking me.
“Kill me. I’m sorry.
I didn’t have time to answer him.
I saw the feet that suddenly appeared in the stone house, and people stepped on blood and looked down at the mud on the ground.
Hello, cousin.
“My name is Li Bao. Low, low. I’m sorry.
Looking back, I was suffocating, looking up, looking at a skinny teenager.
He stood straight in the sun, standing in the crowd and smiling at me.
28
And then they were taken out.
Her eyes have lost their magic.
There’s only a little bit of sadness, and there’s a lot of complexity in looking at me.
As she walked through me, she suddenly struggled so madly that she was free of the shackles and hundreds of weapons were directed at her.
She was not afraid at all.
He went straight to me and stood up with a beautiful face and smiled at me, “Honey.” I’m sorry.
For the first time, she called me this, with slyness: “I am not a monster.” I’m sorry.
I slowly nodded my head, tried to reach out and touch her head, and finally put it down.
I saw the tears in her eyes, and I heard her swallowing: “Do you not want to marry me because I am dirty?” But they didn’t touch me…”
“No, no, I’m sorry.” I’m sorry.
That’s when I really understood Grandma and Mom.
If it were not for trafficking, they would have had a happy life.
Indeed, our Song family is sorry for them. But what can I do now?
“It’s the first time you’ve taken the initiative to hold me, and I’m happy.”
“In fact, you don’t have to be afraid. I wouldn’t sacrifice you even if you had a baby. They’re just trying to make you feel the pain of women, Song Yang, I know what I can feel, you’re a good man.
“You’re not like your grandfather, Song Yang.
“I really like you.
“From the age of seven, when you were 18, you loved it for 11 years. I’m sorry.
This time, I finally heard what was left of her.
29
The last one that was taken was my mom, Haiqiu.
She’s still so noble and elegant, even as a prisoner.
Knowing that I was behind the destruction of Tokushima, she was just looking at me.
“Good, grown up, calculated for everyone. I’m sorry.
I don’t hate her anymore. It hurts. I want to pull Mom’s hand.
“I’m sorry, Mom I don’t know I’m going to help you find everyone in the trafficking group and make them subject to the law.
“No, the men who were arrested to give birth to their children are still alive, or their descendants…”
Mom smiled. She laughed. She cried.
“Do you know why only the sea, the sea, and the autumn, the winter, and not the sea, She’s our big sister.
“We don’t really have a family, and we don’t know who’s the kid in that mountain.
“The night she escaped from the mountains, she was ordered by three men to serve, and that year she was 13 years old!
“The gods helped us, and I wanted her to escape, but I found her body. Open your belly, use the hooks that kill fish. I’m sorry.
Her cold green eyes scoured the sea islands.
The whole island is dead.
The heads of the special departments laid down their weapons, took off their hats, pointed their heads at my mother and all the women of Tokushima, and said so with a heavy tone.
“I am sorry that there was, indeed, a human trafficking group, but it’s just that they’re too mysterious and we haven’t been caught. I’m sorry.
“No matter what, we’ve avenged.” I’m sorry.
The Tung Ha women, who had been taken around, also cried.
The leadership of special departments has fallen even lower, and the fighters around them have fallen down, shamed and mourned.
Mom continues to count the counts of crime.
“You’ve never felt the same way in this world. Only if you’ve been through it. I’m sorry.
That’s why we got pregnant.
30
It’s finally over.
Before my mother was taken away, she looked at me and said, “Your father went without pain, and the sea god gave him joy. I’m sorry.
Is there really no pain?
I remember the bone cracks in the bathroom the night of my birthday.
Heartbreak.
The crowd boarded the ship in an orderly fashion, and I fell on the last one.
Two steps up, shot the man in front, whispered:
“Do you really think there’s a sea god? I’m sorry.
“Why not believe?”
“What god in the world, if there was, should not have come out to help them? Take them away from the mountains from the beginning. I’m sorry.
“People are so funny. The people in front smiled at me on their backs, “Not to reflect on people’s problems, but to blame God.”
“Song Yang, so, are you really a good man? I’m sorry.
He looked back and smiled at me.
He had the same face as a wooden statue, the statue of the gods.
I’m standing there.
Case number: YXX1DM9yl3s0D1wX6liZaZm
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
