In the fifth year of dating a boyfriend, I suddenly wanted to get married.
But I know he doesn’t love me.
If it wasn’t for my first hot blood, my death, my own natural pursuit, maybe we wouldn’t be together.
I was snorting, spitting out my mouth, staring at myself in the mirror, touching a wrinkle that didn’t come out of nowhere, and putting a lot of eye cream on it.
The face of the adhesive protein can’t hold back years of violence.
A message was sent in the afternoon: “No waiting for me at night.”
I was upset to cook noodles, feed cats and play games in bed.
It took my eyes to look at the time. It’s 10:00, but I haven’t returned yet.
I was bored and turned on his ex-girlfriend’s tweet.
It’s like a habit that I’ve been repeating it for five years, to look into someone’s life if anything happens.
Her ex-girlfriend’s name is Shidoon.
It’s been too long since I’ve seen her. She seems to have returned home and has just updated her dynamics today.
Only two sun expressions, one selfie, a sweet smile, two nice pear vortex.
There’s another one on the table.
I lighted the big picture and saw the familiar hand.
It was wearing the watch I bought him.
That’s Xuan.
(i)
It’s my ex-girlfriend who got paid behind my back today.
I’m going forward, and I’m going back about a month ago.
I just snapped inside.
I look back on what happened during the month.
I don’t know how many times he’s dating an old man behind my back.
I called him.
“Hello” didn’t ring long, and the cold sound was over the phone.
“Where are you?”
There was a moment of pause over there, or I didn’t think I’d ever call him and ask the question so bluntly.
Downstairs, right now. I’m sorry.
“Okay, I’ll wait for you.”
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
Not cold, not hot, he always does.
I don’t like to drink warm water, either it’s imported, it’s cold, it’s hot, it’s like I hate myself who hasn’t seen the reality.
I suddenly get tired of this life.
I didn’t say anything, he didn’t explain anything.
As always, I held him from behind.
I’m calm to ask.
I felt a moment of stiffness in his back.
“Hmm. He replied.
“You’ve seen it, haven’t you?”
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“Why didn’t you tell me?”
For a long time I heard nothing but sighs.
Of course I do. This silent sighs is an answer to me.
I’m just a man with nothing to say to me.
I turned around and suddenly my eyes were dry, I couldn’t help it, and I cried into my pillow.
When he woke up the next day, he was gone.
Looking at the empty room, all of a sudden I think it’s kind of boring.
I thought I could go on like nothing happened, but I found out I couldn’t.
I could have put up with someone else in my boyfriend’s heart, pretending to be stupid, thinking that time was bound to make people forget something.
But I can’t stand myself.
He doesn’t love me.
I asked my best friend Kitty and his boyfriend to help me pack.
There’s all my stuff. I don’t know how I can buy so many little things, stuffed up in every corner of the house.
I didn’t get any news all day.
Just.
When I was leaving, I put the key at the door and looked at the house again.
Cats are around me.
I’m not my cat anyway. I’m sorry.
Finally closed the door.
Gigi says I can’t think of a tree to hang.
I say I’m in the nest, and now I have to know the reality and give way.
In order to celebrate my good single life, Kitty called a group of sisters to celebrate.
It’s probably too long since everyone’s been celebrating, and we’ve been fighting and drinking, and we’ve been together so late, and we’ve both been drinking.
After the show, everyone who had a boyfriend and a husband were taken away, just me and Kitty.
“We’re still friends.” I’m sorry.
I leaned on Kitty’s shoulder and remembered my first meeting with Xu Zhan.
It was the first time I saw him, when he was the senior of two of us, who was in charge of the reception of our freshmen, because I certainly was handsome and had a good academic achievement, and I was a superficial dog.
At the dinner table of the freshmen’s party, I went to him foolishly to drink, and in the sound of everyone’s fun, I drank three cups in a row, then ran away in red, and waited until the party was over, and I tried to pick up some letters, but I saw Shizuku, a beautiful, very obnoxious sister, who walked away with his hand, but I fell.
In my head, my phone rings.
It’s him.
I’m hanging up.
Again.
I’ll hang up.
Then he sent a message:
“Where are you?”
I didn’t reply.
Answer me. I’m sorry.
There’s another call.
I got it.
“Where are you?”
My drink was half sober, and then it reciprocated.
“Well, let’s break up. I’m sorry.
He didn’t say anything, and suddenly he said:
“Where are you?”
“Let’s break up, I’ve moved out, tired. I’m sorry.
“Tell me where you are. He seems a little angry.
“What does it matter where I am?” I’m sorry.
“Tell me. I feel like I’m challenging his limits, but what does it matter?
“Are you coming? There’s nothing you can do. I’m laughing.
“I don’t love you anymore. I replied:
Then I hung up.
Kitty’s boyfriend came to pick us up.
Go home and wake up.
I know he doesn’t love me, but he has feelings for someone who’s been around for years, even a cat.
Well, it’s like having a cat.
However, I do not want to go on like this, to ask for a feeling that results will not be forthcoming, to please a person who does not love me, and to give the heart to a dog.
Five years, if I’m going to wave more, I’m not going to waste so much time on him, I’m going to have a baby.
Yeah, why live for him?
I’m Shaw. I have to live for myself.
The hangover wakes up with headaches, and I turn on my phone, and I see only one uncalled call, and one tweet:
“Stop it, come back. I’m sorry.
That’s what’s coming. It’s as brief as ever.
I moved out. He thought I was messing with him.
I remember many times in the past, and every time I had a fight, he wouldn’t come to me.
Because he knows I’ll be back in one day.
If it’s over three days, he’ll send me a message and I think he’s soft, and I’ll go back.
But it’s different. My patience is exhausted.
I thought I’d get married like this the other day, and I’d like to settle down after all.
But I didn’t think it would work until I read it back.
For the next few decades, can I really give and ask for a marriage without a response?
After the wash, I went to work as usual.
Recently, I started working on a new field, working late and too busy to see my cell phone.
By the time we get ready for work, it’s 9:00.
Surprisingly, I saw it downstairs.
Of course I know he’s here on purpose, but my company is not in his direction.
It’s kind of like the sun coming out of the west.
“Shu-soon, come back. He looked at me and he was serious.
For a moment, I felt like I saw what he saw.
Where’s Shizhong? Aren’t you with me?” I’m happy, like I’m greeting a friend.
“I have nothing to do with her. I’m sorry.
“Oh. I’m sorry.
I don’t seem to care either.
“Behave yourself. Stop it. I’m sorry.
He still thinks I’m messing with him.
And suddenly I smiled, and I took him very seriously, saying, “Well, I’m not playing, I’m serious this time. I can’t stand it. I don’t want to be with you, believe me or not. I want to find my own happiness.” I’m sorry.
It’s pretty bloody.
“You still love me. “It’s probably light.
“Of course, I love you, after all, I love you for nine years, so I want to be decent, if you can, but this is the last time. I’m sorry.
(ii)
Yes, he left without bothering me.
I know, he’s gambling, bet I’ll go back.
And I re-opened Shizuku’s microblog with only one heart.
Her tweets were a string of symbols in English and French that would not have been found without a deliberate search.
Of course, I can’t remember. Every time I rely on regular visits to find her.
It’s boring, I’ve deleted my interview record from my regular visits.
I’ll never open it again.
I know I’m curious to see how long I’ve been seeing someone, and every time I’ve had a fight with Xu, I’m going to check on her, see if they’re getting back together.
Kitty said I was insecure.
After graduating from college, he went abroad and dumped Xu, when I was a senior and young, surrounded by him for two years with the courage to fear death and lose, shushing warmth, cooking and washing in his rented room, like a snail girl, and finally managed to catch him after I graduated from college and moved in with him.
When we were together, he probably told me that he was cold and would not give me much.
Looking at that handsome face, I gave him my word that I didn’t want much.
I remember the first time I was scared.
I’m as straight as a brave warrior.
We spent the toughest days in that rental house together, and I graduated for the third year and maybe the fifth year, and we bought the house that he now lives in.
Every floor brick in it, every bowl, I chose.
I was so excited to hold him all night when I moved into the new room.
I thought I’d be the lady in the house.
It’s important that I thought we’d keep going like this.
Where did it start wrong?
He said “meetings are busy” after I got sick.
Or did he yell at me after I almost lost the cat?
From every time I asked him to watch a movie with me,
Or every time you go out for dinner?
Or did you even bother to explain to me when you went to see Shizu?
I can’t remember. Isn’t that normal?
It’s so strange that tears came out of my head, but I didn’t want to cry.
I chose it. There’s no reason to regret it.
Think of it as youth feeding dogs.
I saw it again the next day at work.
That’s funny. We were together for five years and he didn’t give me one.
I have nothing to say to him.
“Shouting. “He called me, but he disappeared for a few days, and I felt as if he had lost it.
I stopped in front of him.
“Just say what I think is clear enough. “I looked up at him, and that was my eyebrow for nine years.
“When will you be back?”
I’m laughing.
“You’ve never done this before when I left. What happened this time? I’m sorry.
“Sau, I was wrong. You come back. I’m sorry.
I am sure that he must have made a great deal of determination in saying this, and he has always been proud and never lost before me.
I didn’t answer. Straight through him.
The hand was pulled and hit in his arms the next second.
Hold tight.
“Well, if you let me go, I have to go to work. You’re going crazy. “I’m whispering.
“No one else. His voice is on my head, it’s light.
“It’s none of my business. I broke up with you. “I can’t move when I’m in his arms.
“No, I only met her once. I was wrong. I’m sorry.
I sometimes think that a man is really mean, and when you were passionate about him, he seemed mean to you, you were mean to him, and he came up to you.
“You take me to the company. I’m sorry.
Honestly, I didn’t have any fluctuations in his statement.
I just didn’t want to be late at this hour.
We’ve gone without a word.
I used to talk to him about all kinds of shit, but now, I’m not in the mood.
I told Kitty about this.
He said that men simply did not appreciate it, that if I forgave him now, he would soon be back to the way he was, and that he was so determined to leave without having to eat back.
Then she whispered to me that the son of her cousin’s second aunt’s daughter had recently returned to our city and had just been single and of good quality to take me to meet.
“You know, I’m not going to introduce you to something of a bad quality. I’m sorry.
I believed her and left in a colleague’s car after work.
It’s not like we’re going to meet again.
I’m curious what role this relative and brother who haven’t listened to in 800 years.
He wears a simple T-shirt, clean hair, a doll face looks like a sunshine boy, very clear.
I just sat down and he started introducing himself:
Hello, I’m Shen Yee. I’m sorry.
After all, for the first time in such a formal relationship, I was a little bit embarrassed to introduce myself.
According to Shen Yee, he had only recently completed his work after he had actually returned to the province.
“Thou shalt feel the full moon of the homeland.” I’m having fun.
“It is. I’m sorry.
It was nice talking to him. I thought it would be a hell of a show. It was weird.
After dinner, she offered to go to a movie.
I don’t remember the last time I went to the cinema.
It’s a new comedy movie that I’ve recently shown, and I smiled like a fool in the cinema.
This is the happiest day I’ve had in days.
So when he offered to send me home, I didn’t refuse.
Of course, what I didn’t think was that maybe he was downstairs again.
(iii)
When I see the people next to me, it’s obvious.
I’m not really going to explain anything.
Turn around and let Shen Yee go first, probably thinking it’s my personal business to leave without asking.
“Who is he?” I’d like to take my hand and ask.
“No one, just a blind date. I earned his hand off.
“Just a few days? You can’t wait to find someone else? “I can hear his tone is a little angry.”
I couldn’t help but say, “Well, I really don’t know what you’re doing right now. I’m pretty clear. We broke up. Don’t think that I’m mad at you. I just want to start a new life. I want to meet new friends, that’s all. I’m sorry.
“Why?”
“No reason, perhaps, I’m tired and I can’t afford it. I’m sorry.
“You want to get married? If you want, we’ll get it tomorrow. @Ambassah: I’m sorry.
I thought it was ridiculous.
Xu Zran pulled me and put his hands around my shoulder and said to me:
“That day I was asked to eat, I was afraid you’d think too much, so I didn’t tell you that I had nothing to do with her. I’m sorry.
I took his hand.
“I know. I’m sorry.
“You know? We were nothing, and I admit that I didn’t answer you that night because I thought it was a small thing that we would argue for half a day. It’s hard to see how much can be explained in a single breath.
But I have no fluctuations.
“So do you think I’m gonna flip the old bill? I’m sorry.
And We said to him, “You were wrong; perhaps I broke up with you not because I read about you, but because you did not love me.” I’m sorry.
Just look at me.
“You don’t love me. Even after five years, you ask yourself, have you ever been concerned about me? What do you know besides knowing how long my aunt is coming? I’m sorry.
“You know how many sisters I have? You don’t know because you never come to our party. You know what I like most? You know what my favorite book is? You know what star I like? I’m sorry.
“Do I have to go on?” I’m sorry.
I turned out the only photo between us in my wallet and tore it in front of him.
“Five years, we’ve only got one photo, that’s all. I’m sorry.
I’m going up.
I don’t know what he’s thinking.
I just think that the whole thing is going to be all right.
For a long time, I haven’t seen anything.
And I’ve spoken to him about what happened between me and Zhuran, and I’ve spoken to him with great affection. Don’t waste time on me, after all, forget that it takes time.
It was just that he was very generous to say to me that he did not have many friends here, just as I was a new friend, and for that reason I was happy to take him to our sister’s party.
Kiki also used to say in my ears that she could think about it, and that she would not forget old people without opening a new relationship.
I snagged it.
Because when I was with Xu, he told me that Shizuku was the love of his life and that even with me she would have a place in her heart.
I was so generous that I was afraid he would dump me for the next second, that it was mine and what I was worried about.
I’ve asked why he left the country. She always wanted to do it.
As to why leaving the country had to break up, I never told me that, with that question in mind, I had been watching her.
I remember the first time we bought a house, and to celebrate, he got so drunk that day, he jumped in my arms and said:
“I finally have everything. I’m sorry.
I figured out what he meant.
It’s just that I’m so happy I can’t think so much.
It’s true that after a few years of college, they’ve been on their own in this city, doing their job in every way they can, and they’re all over the world.
A rare young talent.
In the eyes of an outsider, I took advantage of him.
But nobody knows that I’ve always been in this relationship.
I was afraid he’d leave me, after all. He was my first love in the real sense.
I’ve been waiting for two years from love at first sight until he broke up with Shizu.
It took two more years to become his girlfriend.
Then together for five years.
From 18 to 27, my youth was him.
I’m asking Kitty sometimes.
Boys are really touched by girls.
Gigi’s boyfriend said he wouldn’t mind riding a donkey if it happened to be empty.
He was beaten up by Qiki after that.
But it doesn’t seem unreasonable.
I thought about my life with Xu Zhang, living together for five years, and he didn’t even give me a chance to spend my birthday with me, and I’m thankful for my trip.
What sustains me for so many years, besides love, is discomfort.
Those who do not want to get their hands on me are just like that, and I do not want my contributions to be unresponsive.
I do not want my youth to be left behind by my wrong choice.
I know how hard it is for a person to face his or her own misery and to admit his or her mistakes.
But now I’m at peace with myself.
So after a month, I agreed to Shen Yee’s offer to try.
I’m afraid after five years of beating me I’m not interested in new feelings.
But Shen Yee, like the sun lit my closed door.
He’ll set up the restaurant when he eats.
He’ll make a good plan when he’s away.
He’ll know that I’m careful and he’ll comfort me.
I think it’s going to be a lot easier with him.
Yeah, just stretching and relaxing.
He can laugh at him without fear of anger.
You don’t have to hide your emotions from him.
But I know that, at our age, no one can easily deliver their feelings and hearts.
But we’re all willing to try.
I just didn’t think I’d meet again.
It feels like we haven’t seen each other in a long time.
He’s changed.
Skinny, plumb, no old sarcasm and cool.
I went home alone that day.
He leaned on the car and smoked.
I remember he never smoked, even when he was paid.
He knows I don’t like the smell of smoke.
So when he saw me, he put out the fire.
“Long time no see. I laughed at him like an old friend met.
He brought me a thick book from the car.
“What is this? I’m sorry.
I didn’t answer.
“Look at it. I’m sorry.
It’s no big deal to think about.
That’s a photo of our home school and the first time we met at the restaurant.
With what he bought me.
Here’s the month of the year, and then a line, this is my first meeting.
Turn back. I’ve got a picture of him playing basketball.
I’ve got a picture of me asking him for tea.
There’s the first restaurant we’ve identified for dinner.
There we go for a walk in the streets at night.
A thick manual, a lot of memories between us.
My tears fell off.
Then he was held in his arms.
(iv)
I reached out and pushed him when his kiss was about to fall.
I’m very touched.
I also had no idea that he would go back to many places where we were together on these days without meeting.
If it had been before, I would have been happy to fly.
I used to think that if one day I left, I wouldn’t be able to live.
Crying for him to get back together, or die in front of his house.
But I had a better time without him.
Even Kitty said I was a few pounds fatter than before.
I wonder sometimes if I’m too gentle.
Don’t I love him? Why else would I want to be in a new relationship so soon?
I finally found out because I’m used to being mean to me.
So I’m used to having fun for myself when he’s not around.
I asked him a joke before why I promised to be my boyfriend.
He said that since there were no girlfriends that were annoying, people were asked, questioned, introduced and affected the mood.
So he chose me out of fear of trouble.
I believe that if it wasn’t for me, he would have chosen others.
By the time I graduated, I had been working for two years, and his industry was demanding very high data, so he always had to ask for a high standard, not to make mistakes on his own, but in return, of course, he was promoted very quickly and his pay was doubling.
Of course I feel sorry for him. I think he’s working really hard.
But he only told me he wanted to have his own home as soon as possible.
I thought that was our common home.
So, sweetly don’t want him to worry about me.
Never text him at work.
Don’t bother him while he’s working overtime.
Every effort was made to prepare him while he was not working overtime.
Get the house organized.
But I’m also a girl, and I want a sweet love, and I want a boyfriend.
So I pushed him away.
“Sorry, I already have a boyfriend. “I put my hand on my tears and tried to control my emotions.
And he took me in his arms again: “I do not want you to go, Shao, I cannot leave you.” I’m sorry.
I broke out of his arms again.
“But I don’t love you anymore. I said light, no emotion.
“I don’t believe it. “There is an incredible look on his face.
“Five years, how can you not love? He asked me.
I laughed, “Yeah, five years, why don’t you love me?” I’m sorry.
“I love you, Shaw. I’m used to you. You’re not here. I’m sorry.
Speaking of cats, I feel sicker.
Because this cat was raised with him, and after he left the country, the cat was left with him, but I was always looking after it.
I remember once, and the only time, I put a tow in the cat and took him out for a walk.
But when I closed the door, the cat went crazy and suddenly broke out of my hand and ran to the stairwell.
I was scared.
I ran down the 20th floor and I didn’t see it.
I sat down in the lobby on the first floor and sent a message in tremors.
Soon, he called.
It’s very rare for him to call me during his working hours, but I’m waiting for the stabbing.
“Why are you so stupid? Are you out of your mind? You lose a cat. Do you know how important this cat is to me? I’m sorry.
I was scolded and cried, and I kept apologizing on the phone.
He left a sentence saying, “Don’t go back if you can’t find the cat. I’m sorry.
I hung up.
I shook hands and called Kitty.
Kitty’s there to comfort me, “Sau, trust me, the cat will find it. Calm down. Come on, now. I’m sorry.
“You’re in need of a lockdown, and the first floor is closed. It’s not too late. If the cat comes down, you go down to the first floor, and if you don’t, you go to the custody and surveillance. I’m sorry.
I calmed down in Kitty’s consolation.
Get up and run to the first floor.
It wasn’t a long time ago, so I saw the cat at the corner of the negative first floor.
I’m relieved.
Then take a photo and see.
He only said one word back.
But then Kitty said that our neighborhood couldn’t even fly out, let alone a cat.
I haven’t taken a cat out since.
I think I’m a very calm person, and I’m losing it because I put too much weight on him, and I know that the cat is important to him, and I’m afraid to offend him and lose him.
But now I want to know how he treated me.
I can’t stand it.
“There will be no result, perhaps, but we shall have no later.” I’m sorry.
“Why not?”
A little out of control and shouted.
“Why? I admit I didn’t care about you before, but we’ve been together for years. I’m sorry.
See, there’s only one of them in the eyes.
He thought I was messing with him last month and wanted me to go back because he thought it was me who was dumped, not him.
In his eyes, I’m not entitled to break up.
“It’s over. I’m sorry.
I turned on the phone and I flipped the album and handed it to him.
That’s a picture of me and Shen Yee out.
I like to record life, and he happens to be, too, and he doesn’t think we’re all going fast together.
“Sorry, I have a boyfriend now, and I care about him, and of course I wish you happiness. I’m sorry.
Who knows what I just said, grab my hand, grab my chin and fall down.
“Pop. I’m sorry.
I slapped him.
Then he said to him, ‘By promise, do not make me hate you. I’m sorry.
He’s all red, let me go.
When I got home, I told Shen Yi what happened.
Shen can’t trust me to live alone and take me back to his house overnight.
“I’ll start by saying, “I only live for a few days. “I hold my hand around my chest and say to Shen Yee.
“Don’t worry, I’m next door. I’m sorry.
“I didn’t know you were not only young, but also pure. I’m sorry.
Who knows how hard it is to pull me over, then round my waist, gently kiss up.
“Men cannot speak pure. He whispered to my lips.
It’s a soft, gentle kiss, like his people.
So it’s not really a living together, but I moved to Shen Yi’s house, where two people lived in one bedroom.
I didn’t think I’d meet again on my way from work.
He couldn’t help but say he pulled me in his car.
I was going to call, but he covered my mouth.
“Shusha, don’t scream.”
“I’m not taking your time. I just want to tell you a story. I’m sorry.
(v)
“Don’t you think you’re funny now, Xue? I’m sorry.
I’m actually very angry.
And I admit that I was a scoundrel in the past, and I thought he was a piece of steel, and that my heart would melt him.
After all these years, love has long been worn out, and all that remains is commitment.
I wouldn’t have seen myself if I hadn’t read it back.
Of course I didn’t wonder not to love me, but I did.
Now, even if it’s impossible for him and Shizu, what does it matter to me?
Put me on the co-drive and put on a security button.
Look at me and say, “Just for a moment, I won’t take you too long. I’m sorry.
I’m really pissed off, but I’m trying to control myself.
I don’t know why he’s so out of control.
“Go ahead. I tried to calm myself down.
We are all decent people, and I do not want to be too rigid.
It’s been a while.
“You may not believe it, I am a very humble man. I’m sorry.
“Huh? I can’t help but wonder.
I don’t think he’d be afraid to love me for all these years, at least because of his low self.
“I was separated from Shizu because she told me when she left the country that I had nothing and that she could not waste her feelings on a man with no future. I’m sorry.
“You think it’s funny? I’m sorry.
“I knew her sophomores because she was first in the game, and she lost me, so she told me that she was going to beat me, and that I was just trying to study my studies, but I came here and met him a lot, and I walked away. She’s an excellent person. I’m sorry.
Having stopped looking at me, I went on to say, “I admit I like her very much. She’s a proud man of self-discipline, and I’ve learned a lot from her, and because of her, I’m making progress. I’m sorry.
“I always thought I’d go with her long enough to graduate, and she said she wanted to look outside. I intend to go with her and prepare, but unfortunately she did not choose me. She said she couldn’t find anything on me. I’m sorry.
To be honest, I’ve never met his ex-girlfriend since that time, in college, just side by side, and I know she’s good, but it’s probably not bad, and they’re pretty good together.
“So I tried so hard to show her my ability, so I didn’t allow myself to make mistakes, I didn’t allow myself to be good enough. I didn’t say no when she came back for a meeting. I had only one thought, and I wanted to prove to her how well I am now, and I wanted to make her regret. I’m sorry.
“But when I did meet, I found out a lot of things didn’t really matter. I just wanted to go home, and I admit I didn’t explain it because I didn’t want to tell you about this. I’m sorry.
“Sau, I love you, and I’m with you, and I know I was selfish enough to use revenge to shield myself to ignore your feelings, but we’ve been together for so many years, and I’ll change, and I want to walk with you. Will you give me another chance? I’m sorry.
“Not willing. I refused without hesitation.
The tears are in their eyes.
“Well, let’s leave each other alone. We’ve all seen each other’s worst side, but I think it’s more important to start a new life, and I don’t want to circle in my memories. I’m sorry.
After I heard a noise in the window, I turned around and found it was Shen Yee.
No hesitation, I opened the door.
I’m sorry.
I jumped off and I said to him, “I really want you to be happy. I’m sorry.
Then he ran to Shen Yee.
“I’ll send you a message when I get off work saying I’m supposed to be in the neighborhood when you get off work. I’m sorry.
I told him everything that happened.
Shen Yee said to me, “As an outsider, I don’t know how to judge him. But I appreciate your sincerity. I’m sorry.
“Go home and eat today, I’ll make it for you. I laughed.
“I’ll do it. I’m better than you. I’m sorry.
And then we went to the supermarket and bought a lot of stuff.
For the first time, I didn’t cook at home, but someone else cooked for me.
Shen Yee said that a girl’s skin was so tender that he couldn’t let me put up with the smell of oil and smoke.
After dinner, we went back to our old movie, True Love.
“It is only at the end of the day that a lover will become a family.” I’m sorry.
That’s a line inside.
Then I looked up to Shen Yee and then a sweet kiss struck me.
Even though it’s over, I feel comfortable.
“I’ve seen you before. Shen Yee suddenly said to me:
No, it’s not like that. I swear I haven’t seen Shen.
But Shen Yi did not continue.
When I asked my questions, I said, “Keep some mystery.” I’m sorry.
I threw a pillow over to him and then we laughed.
I heard the news once again.
Kitty told me.
Right, after that day, I hacked all his contacts, and naturally I didn’t know about him, but I didn’t want to know.
Kitty put a box in front of me and said it was for me.
I opened a look, it was a diamond ring.
I was standing there, and even Qiqi was screaming.
I don’t know what he’s selling.
(vi)
“Oh, yes, it seems terrible. Gigi spoke first.
“When he came to me, the whole person wasn’t very good, very weak. Then he didn’t say anything, gave me this box to give to you, and let me tell you and wish you well. I’m sorry.
This ring I know.
The day before the break-up, we went shopping, and I suddenly came and pulled him to the ring with me.
This is the one I see.
Except he didn’t buy it for me.
And then Kitty came out with an envelope for me.
It’s got two pictures.
And a single one of Ours, that is the day We gave it to me.
I’ve taken a lot of pictures on the wall, and I’ve moved with them.
I don’t know how to leave this.
And there’s the last photo I tore in front of him.
He put the picture back together.
I flipped over and the picture says a line.
“Sau, if you look back, I’m still here. I’m sorry.
Kitty pushed me by my side, “Oh, I didn’t think I’d ever do something so romantic, but don’t be touched, don’t forget you still have the money. I’m sorry.
I returned the box cover to Kitty.
“I’ll take the photo. Give it back. And thank him for me. I’m sorry.
Qiki’s face is a relief.
Kitty may feel like she’s broken up, but all those years of love are on the ground, and I might be moved by his moves.
But not really.
I was moving, but I didn’t want to go back.
I’ve never said too much about it before, and even if it’s a fight, it’s a runaway.
And soon back.
I’m a man who, once decided, can’t change easily.
Now that we’ve decided to say goodbye to the past, there’s no such thing as lingering.
Just like I couldn’t get ten cows back after him, just like I insisted that I could change him.
But it’s too hard to change a person.
I spent five years without success.
When I loved him with infinite passion, all he wanted was to prove to another woman.
All he’s trying to do is show himself.
Does he really love it? He loves the one who can make him look to.
Does he really love me? He loves him who can give me no more than I can give.
He loves himself.
When I talked to Shen Yee about it, he showed understanding.
He said that everyone learned to love in a bump.
But only a two-way payment, whether good or bad, will bear fruit, so that no one will regret it.
He held me in his arms, and told me, “Then let’s find out later. I’m sorry.
Yeah, sure taught me how to grow.
I am grateful to him for teaching me how to love in the future, even if there is no result.
I also thank him for his excellence, which inspires me to progress and grow.
I was also trying to combine myself with Shen Yi, and we were all honest with each other, and we agreed to pay each other, to write stories that belonged to both of us.
Yes, I dare not say how much love we both had in the first place, but we are all willing to deliver our hearts again.
Isn’t that brave?
We went a lot of places.
From peri-urban to short-distance travel, to long-distance travel.
Let’s go see a bouquet of grass and listen to the birds.
We can climb mountains to the point of exhaustion and laugh.
In order to look at corals and fish, the burden to the sea floor almost lacks oxygen.
To wait for the stars, it’s cold to put a tent on the top of the mountain.
I even went to the first concert in my life and got excited and yelled.
I’m still trying to glide with Shen Yee.
And when it fell from the height of 10,000 metres, I opened my arms,
Feel the wind whistling in your ears.
That moment, except for shock, didn’t feel anything.
And it turns out that there’s something so wonderful in the world that I’ve never experienced before.
Me and Shen Yee promised to spare themselves time, no matter how busy we are.
A year later, Shen Yee prepared a grand proposal for me.
I didn’t cry, I just looked at him and laughed.
I hope that he and I will feel and witness each other’s experiences in this world.
I feel happy.
Another year later, me and Shen Yee got married.
On our wedding day, I didn’t expect it.
I thought we’d never see each other again.
More than two years have passed and the recollections of the previous events have actually become light.
He said that he had just gone to a wedding at Shizu last year.
He said to me, “Congratulations I finally found my own happiness.”
Shen Yee invited him to sit with other guests.
I’m happy to say, “I do.” I’m sorry.
I’d like to spend the rest of my life with him.
In the afterlight, I saw Xanax.
He looked at me smiling and his face was full of tears.
I saw his lips, seemed to say, goodbye.
End – — –
(Siren)
I never thought one day Shaw would go.
She said I didn’t love her.
Do I really not love her?
If you don’t love her, why does it hurt when you know she’s not coming back?
I haven’t felt this for a long time.
A feeling to rip my soul off.
I saw Shizun, that day, nothing happened.
I was surprised when I got her on the phone.
But then I thought, with her personality, she wouldn’t be embarrassed.
I was nervous when I got to the meeting.
For a moment, I wanted to send a message refusing this meeting.
But it is still customary to open the wi-fi and send the late news to Shaw.
She said I know.
I’d really like her to ask me and have a fight with me so I can stay away from Shizuku.
When I turned off the letter, I suddenly got a little mad at her for her understanding of everything.
As an old friend, I met with Shifu.
She lived well abroad and saw everything she wanted to see.
There’s a steady boyfriend who went home to prepare for their wedding and then stayed.
She said she heard about my achievements and was happy for me.
In that moment, I actually had a bit of a breakdown in my mind.
I’m sick of trying to get back at her for what she did.
We haven’t been in touch since we broke up. I unilaterally cut off everything I could know about her.
Well, it was young and arrogant.
But I’m just a little bit of an experience in her life for Shizu.
And I tortured myself for so long to be faithful.
Back home, Shaw was lying in bed playing games.
She didn’t ask me anything.
I’m suddenly a little bit agitated.
She held me behind her back, and there was no emotion in her voice, and she asked me about my education, but she knew it.
I don’t know what to explain.
When I came back the next day, the house was empty.
Open the door, I thought I was going to the wrong house.
The cat was not happy to sit at the door and scream at me twice.
I ran to the bedroom, clean, and there was nothing to prove that Shaw had lived.
There are only empty white walls left in the living room.
Even her favorite set of dishes.
I sit on the sofa and I’m short-circuited.
I don’t know what I’m gonna do next.
She’s not answering my phone.
I keep playing.
At last she returned to me with more apathy than I thought.
She said we broke up.
I’d like to go out and find her, but I don’t know where she’ll live.
A sense of weakness.
I can’t sleep.
I’m about to feel different this time.
Even if we had a fight before, Shaw didn’t walk away like that.
She didn’t cry, she left my sight.
Nothing left.
I used one night to think about why she left me.
Maybe she’s just messing around.
It’s just this time it’s getting worse.
She’ll definitely come back.
So the next day I went to work with a black eye and came down to her office early.
I wanted to buy some roses.
But I felt a little tacky, so I did it.
I’ve been thinking about how to get her back for a while.
She’s not happy with me anymore.
Was I the one who kept things from her, but there was nothing.
Or are you too busy at work? But she knew it was normal.
I went back to thinking about our first meeting.
It’s a vague memory. If it hadn’t been for Shaw, I’d have forgotten.
She’s a freshman, and she’s only got the impression that when she came to me for a toast, she had a sweet smile.
At that time, I was with Shizuku, so I didn’t pay much attention to her.
She’s actually in my sights, after I broke up with Shizu.
She said she knew that I was in a good company and wanted to study and asked if I could give her the old study material.
Thinking that we’re all in the same profession, it’s no use to me. I promised her.
She asked me to meet at the milk and tea shop outside the school.
Say hello to me from afar. Jump like a rabbit.
The ponytails are shaking, very moving.
I didn’t know she meant that to me.
That was the second time I saw her.
And then she’ll come to me with questions about her studies, and she’ll talk to me, and she won’t.
Not very often.
I’ve been busy, and I haven’t answered much.
I heard I rented near the school.
She doesn’t know how to handle my college roommates, who often appear in my life with their help.
We’ll buy water to watch our clothes.
It’s too big to come to my house because of the lack of air conditioning.
I may be slow, but I don’t know what she means to me.
Until she had the courage to confess to me,
The first time she confessed to me was six months after we met, and I turned her down.
Her eyes were red, her tears were tearing.
She asked if I thought she was too young.
I said no. Just trying to work.
I just want to make him regret it.
I thought she was going.
But she disappeared for a while and then came back.
It’s like nothing’s happened.
Sometimes I wonder how long this little girl can last.
And this is two years.
The second time she asked me if I could stay with me as a girlfriend, I agreed.
But I told her, maybe my love isn’t much.
I don’t know how I feel about Shaw.
I don’t think I love her.
But I wanted to see her again.
I’m ambivalent.
I can’t tell anyone how I feel.
But I’m sure she’ll come back, like the many times before.
It’s just that she’s been angry for a long time this time.
And I’m angry that she moved out a few days ago to meet a new man.
She said again I didn’t love her.
In the days when I didn’t go to her, I walked us all the way.
It used to be an ordinary place where one person went and gave birth to a few cents.
I didn’t think I’d remember that clearly.
I went to the milk and tea shop outside our school.
I can’t believe I found something on the wall’s convenience board.
Yeah, she’s always liked that little thing, and she’s been trying to get me to give her a place when she’s working on it.
She said it was an experience.
A lot of things are forgotten, but pictures remind us of what happened.
Happy or sad.
I tore her note off the wall.
It says, “Let only the king’s heart be like mine.”
My eyes are sore in a milk and tea shop.
In her absence, she suffers.
I haven’t slept in a long time. I get up every day and the left is empty.
Especially on weekends, dark rooms, nothing but my breath.
This atmosphere is suffocating.
I remember every weekend, she gets up and makes breakfast, packs herself up and drags me around.
I don’t like to go to crowded places, it’s noisy, so I often refuse her for work.
She may have gotten used to it, but she rarely asked me out.
She has her own circle of friends, and I’m sure it’ll be more fun than going out with me.
But now I feel like I’m wrong.
I went to her with the photo album and she cried.
My heart hurts. I want to hold her in my arms.
I want to make up for what I didn’t do.
But she told me she had a boyfriend.
It’s been more than a month, she’s definitely getting back at me.
But she doesn’t really need me.
I don’t know how I got home.
It’s a mess. It’s full of bottles.
Somehow, I feel like I’m really losing myself this time.
I’m madly trying to comfort myself with a little bit of warm air from the past.
Look at our previous chat like a fool.
I didn’t think the words could only be used to remember.
But she forgot a picture that I gave her on her birthday.
She’s in the study.
Said I’d be happy to see a picture of her as long as I worked hard.
Yeah, she was smiling.
I put my picture in my arms, in a big house, with only tears falling.
I’ve got a gift from Tokichi.
I thought she at least had something to say to me.
She just said thank you.
I finally get it.
I’ve lost her completely.
I know her character, and she would not have been so determined to draw a line with me if it had not been for the utmost resolve.
Just, meet seven years,
Five years in the morning and evening.
Her every move, every smile, has been engraved in my veins.
And I didn’t treasure her.
So I lost her.
I sometimes wonder how I can get a girl to do so much for me.
I deserve it.
Even if I wanted to change for her, to make up for her,
But she already has better people.
Shen Yee, I’ve seen him.
He’s from the next university. We played basketball together.
I hear he’s nice too.
I wouldn’t be sorry if Shaw was doing well.
Thirty years old, I lost the people I loved, and loved the people I loved.
Perhaps God will punish me.
I’ve been hearing from friends for years.
Seeing her happy look was never with me.
When I heard about her marriage, I couldn’t help but feel the pain.
I thought years went by, and I’d get over it.
But those experiences remind me that every day we spend together is not easy to forget.
I didn’t bother her. I worked like a nobody.
I went to Shizu’s wedding and blessed her with happiness.
I went to Shaw’s wedding, and she didn’t invite me.
I’ve got a gift, I’ve come to the scene and I’ve seen her as cute as ever.
Just the groom wasn’t me.
I was happy to see her smile on stage.
It’s just that the eyes are blurry.
Every day after she left, I was recording the sky.
I gave her a wedding present, the whole sky.
A flash of brightness leaves a mark of years.
Goodbye, my love.
Bye, my youth. Case number: YX1114D3LYE
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
