The day I
got the admission notice, I blacklisted all the people in the address book group. The name of the
group is “Spare Tire”.
Well, when I was 18 years old, I had never been in love, and my time and energy were spent on textbooks, but on learning to deal with and push and pull with spare tires.
And learn how to marry a rich man.
This story is based on a true experience. The author records this “extremely wrong” story, hoping to warn men and women in the new era not to imitate. When I was a
freshman, I was walking by the lake with my rich second-generation boyfriend. He was three years older than me, but he blushed at my words. He was so angry that he pinched my face and gnashed his teeth at me: “Miaomiao, how many boyfriends have you had?”.
Not once. Do you believe it? I raised my eyes to look at him, slowly and leisurely, with my little finger scratching his hand. I said frankly and affectionately, “Huang Hao, I’ve been waiting for you for so many years.”
I’m honest-the backup guys are just using it for practice, and my past love history is blank.
Who told young boys to like to be the first conqueror of virgin land? Huang Hao is no exception
.
Huang Hao was moved by my words, pulled me into his arms, held my face, closed his eyes
and kissed me deeply, promising to be good to me all his life.
He is the boyfriend I tried so hard to get, and the so-called “scum man” who cheated on me and broke
up with me a year later.
But he didn’t know that I was the
only one in control of the relationship from the beginning to the end. Even
his derailment was carefully arranged by me after I fell in love with someone else.
Second
, when I was a child, my mother always told me that women could be poor, but they must be beautiful. Of course
, they should not only have skin, but also have brains and ambition.
My mother is an ambitious woman. From an early age, she forced me to study hard and
be admitted to a famous school.
To go to a famous school is not to be a white-collar worker, but to climb up to a rich man.
In her view, the cruel society, the solidified class is a relay race, those who
run fast grandparents, parents, but also to win a better starting line for future generations-the best schools in the
country, but also gathered the richest people with background and status in the country. Only
the lowest women fantasize about meeting love in a nightclub.
I’m different. She gave me a customized battlefield in the best university in China. The
students in the school dress almost the same, and the richer they are, the more low-key they are. Plus we live and eat together. Therefore, when I just entered school, there is only one criterion for screening the rich second generation-
looking at hobbies. The more money the
hobby burns, the less money the family is bound to have.
And what I have to do is to blend into the circle that has the hobby of burning money. Actually, it’s very easy. Just mix with the club.
My first goal was Huang Hao, who was the president of the photography agency at that time.
The first time I saw Huang Hao was at the entrance interview of the Photography Association. I wore an off-the-shoulder jacket specially, and my newly washed hair was long and draped around my waist to create a pure desire. The interview place is in the classroom of the photography club. He and several brothers, as interviewers, will ask the new person a few questions. When people ask me, I answer fluently and smile. But when it was his turn, I pretended to be nervous and couldn’t help getting stuck. The message of
“You are different” was so obvious that several brothers could not help teasing Huang Hao: “Brother Hao, are you too fierce when you stare at others?
Huang Hao raised his eyebrows, his eyes a little innocent, and asked me, “Am I very fierce?” I just blinked and tilted my head to look at him, but I didn’t answer.
It made him shift his eyes uncomfortably first. At the end of the
interview, he stood in the center and talked to everyone. When it was over, I deliberately lagged
behind. When the freshmen left one after another, I held my notebook and asked him questions. The notes neatly
recorded every word he said, and I hung my head close, just washed my
long hair, dripping wet, emitting the fragrance of grapefruit on my face-
I spent a night turning over all his micro-blogs. He even found his Zhihu account
and saw that he had mentioned that his favorite fruit was grapefruit. And, in the
question and answer he participated in, the most irresistible temptation of the opposite sex is the fragrance of girls’ hair
.
I prescribe the right medicine.
Freshmen have their own aura, and seniors are always full of curiosity about school girls. So at that
time, even if my means can only play the effect of 70 points, the new buff will give me
20 points. When I
left, I specifically told him, Elder Martial Brother Huang Hao, my name is Sun Miao. You must remember
.
Like the meaning of expression is straightforward and eager, smart boys should know the next
step:
Sure enough, I woke up the next day, I saw Huang Hao sent a friend application.
Things couldn’t be better. I almost jumped out of bed and screamed, and my response
to the friend request was to
hang out and not pass.
Three
pairs of men, I think the most effective solution should be: a candy and a stick.
Women’s initiative can appease men’s vanity, but any satisfaction can only be moderate. Once he has tasted the sweetness, he should be starved.
Who told them to love chasing naturally? Running away after provocation is the biggest seduction.
Huang Hao’s friend application was not approved by me. On the third day, I received a notice from the secretary of the photography department, asking to participate in the first club activity.
The activity is to go to the Summer Palace to take photos. I dressed up again, wearing the most popular JK uniform, a short jacket with a pleated skirt, white stockings showing absolute territory, and a double ponytail. Clearly is the sweet younger sister dresses up, but I do not carry the micro list, but carries the huge incomparable long gun cannon.
After all, contrast can create surprise.
This kind of dress is mixed in a group of boys, which is bound to become the focus. The only one who is a little indifferent to me is Huang Hao.
I looked at him several times, but he didn’t want to look at me. At that time, I thought he was sulking and just wanted to add another fire. He even started playing with other boys in front of him. After
taking pictures, it is time for members to communicate. As the president, he should in principle give advice to the new members one by one. When Huang Hao came to me, I quickly handed him the camera and let him see all kinds of parameters.
He did not move, but looked at me with probing eyes, and after a while, there was
a sarcastic smile on his face.
？！
What’s going on? Shouldn’t you be jealous?!
This look makes me a little nervous. I had to lower my head and pretend to operate the camera as if nothing had happened.
The camera belonged to the club, so I learned to use it. However, I accidentally pressed the wrong place, and the screen
suddenly jumped to the preview of all the photos. In addition to a few scenes
, the rest of the picture was all Huang Hao.
I was stunned and blushed.
Well, yeah, I’ve been taking pictures of him all morning in order to follow up with him.
But I never thought it would be exposed now.
It was an accident, and I was really embarrassed.
Huang Hao was also stunned, and the sarcastic smile on his face froze there, turning into consternation, and then
into shyness. I have been talking to other boys
all morning, seemingly not paying attention to him, but the
boys who take pictures all believe that
the lens is the most honest eye of a person-the person I am thinking of is only
him. The
two men stared at the camera for ten seconds.
I took a deep breath before I dared to glance at him secretly. I saw that his lips were very tight, and the blush at the root of his ears was only half gone. He turned back to the original interface with a cold and skillful face, and then pointed me out with a straight face.
When he finished talking to me, my face was still burning, and I looked dull and silly. Huang Hao glanced at me and said coldly, “Cell phone.”
I took it out obediently.
He grabbed it with a calm face, then entered his number, threw it back into my arms, pushed my head, and ordered, “Go back and add me.”
Oh. Silly,
I rubbed the place where his finger had poked, knowing in my heart that I had succeeded more than half.
About not adding his WeChat at the first time, I later made a special call to explain that it was because there were too many new students in school, so I didn’t see his friend application.
At that time, Huang Hao only gave a faint hum. Passed a little while to just add slowly: “Oh, at that time, I still think you and I play push and pull?”? Still wondering if the little girl is a little out of her mind?
Hearing this, my cat’s tail was about to explode at that time, and I was in a panic about how to argue. Fortunately, he then sighed: “But you are so stupid that even people who take pictures secretly can be caught
at the scene …” Only then did
I realize that he was teasing me. He reacted quickly and quickly became wronged.
“Elder Martial Brother, you misunderstood that I was very scheming?”? This accusation is very serious for girls. I
want compensation! Confused,
he did not expect this turn of events: “What are you trying to make up for?”
I tilted my head, and a sweet voice kissed his ear from the other end of the phone:
“Just, make it up to you …” Say good night to me for a month, will you?
He smiled, his voice soft, and did not refuse.
Then a lot of things are logical. Huang Hao sends me WeChat every day and calls me ten minutes before
going to bed to say good night. And the call time also increases
unconsciously.
He is a junior. He is a native of Beijing. He graduated from the High School Affiliated to Renmin University of China. He is much ahead of me in both knowledge and vision
.
And all I can control him is the knife on the head of the color.
He is good to me. His family is well off. He owns a duplex in the Third Ring Road of Beijing. On weekends, his
parents would ask the driver to pick him up. I noticed the car model and searched it quietly. It was about one
million.
This string of seven digits is warmer than his hug and more exciting than his kiss
.
And we did have some great times. Unfortunately, God soon poured cold water on me. Only then did
I realize that the end I believed in was only the first step in the Long March.
Not to mention that Huang Hao just wants to talk about a girlfriend casually, he may not have a long-term plan. More importantly, the growing experience and rank told me that
if I wanted to change my class, a family like Huang Hao, a little rich, was only qualified to be my pedal
. After three months of dating, I met Chen Er in the sweet past of passionate love.
Huang Hao called him Er Shen. Huang Hao and I walked hand in hand
that day, and a particularly good-looking boy came to us. Just as I couldn’t help taking one more look, I saw Huang Hao stop and say hello to him with some surprise: “God!”
Chen Er smiled at us, glanced at my face, and then looked at Huang Hao. “Brother Hao.”
Eyes turn, pass by, but I can feel that this God is very unusual.
Sure enough, the next second, Huang Hao raised his chin and looked at Chen Er’s back, which seemed to be shining, and exclaimed in a tone of adoration that he had never had before:
“God is called the favored son of heaven.”. Compared to him, we are all ordinary people.
Four
Huang Hao’s words are like a dark cloud, covering the pink bubbles floating in my world.
I suddenly wake up: reading, on the P big, try my best, and finally in order to associate with a boy from an ordinary family? Is that what
I call promising?
I’m not willing to get up.
On that sleepless night, I turned on the computer in the dormitory, pursed my lips tightly and stared at Chen Er’s micro-blog homepage.
Chen Er is the president of the Mountaineering Club. He is a senior this year, majoring in finance. Gentle, the temperament is very cold. The skin is white, the eyebrows can be directly artists, the typical little girl’s dream lover looks. Such a man knows with his feet that there are a lot of people chasing him. Later,
I learned that the mountaineering club in our school was very famous, and those who could make a name for themselves in the mountaineering club were all young talents who were either rich or noble. Blame me for my naivety before-a girl who really knows the business will never look for a rich second generation in a photography club, but know how to go to a mountaineering club to climb a high branch.
But Chen Er should have a girlfriend. Xiao Qianqian is the goddess of Guanghua School of Management. It is said that they are white, rich and beautiful people born in the families of high-ranking officials, and ghosts can see that they are a natural couple. Yes
, life is not a Mary Sue novel, I am not the heroine, and Xiao Qianqian is not a vicious woman.
If I were him, I would only choose a well-matched girlfriend. I turned off the computer soberly and dejectedly to persuade myself not to be wishful thinking.
But that night, I dreamed of Chen Er, and I dreamed that I really became Cinderella in the novel
and married the prince as I wished. It was a weekend to see Chen Er
again. Huang Hao took me to climb the mountain in the suburbs of Beijing early in the morning.
I said yes listlessly, just dressed up in a hurry, and didn’t even make up. When he yawned
at the school gate and saw several people standing beside an SUV, he woke up
on the spot-
what? Where is Chen Er?!
So I climbed the mountain with Chen Er?!
I immediately gave Huang Hao an angry look and complained anxiously in a low voice, “Why didn’t you say there was someone else
?”? So I can dress up.
“We’re all friends. Besides, you look good even if you don’t dress up.” Huang Hao lowered his head and smiled gently at
me, and his fingers hooked my hair. With an intimate
gesture, I felt uncomfortable and stole a glance at Chen Er.
But his eyes stayed on Huang Hao’s fingers and my hair, and he smiled meaningfully
.
The next second, he looked away, opened the door, sat in the passenger seat and whispered
, “We’re all here. Let’s go.”
Xiao Qianqian, they are in the other car. Arriving ten minutes later
than us, I first saw a Mercedes Benz G, then saw a long-legged beauty jumping out of the driver’s seat, and suddenly stirred lemonade on her chest-
I knew Xiao Qianqian’s picture was beautiful, but I didn’t think I was more beautiful. Good
temperament, especially the way he speaks, gentle to death. That station is the goddess. Later,
I learned that in Huang Hao’s dormitory, as long as Xiao Qianqian was mentioned, all the boys looked forward to it. Even if someone’s circle of friends is praised by Xiao Qianqian, they all want to take screenshots to brag.
I have to admit that she is definitely not the vicious and bossy female companion in the novel.
She was the real heroine of the novel. She smiled at me generously, held my hand intimately and said to me, “Miao Miao, right?”? My name is Xiao Qianqian.
In front of her, I feel inferior and want to shrink into the cracks in the ground.
I didn’t get good grades in school and had few friends. During my freshman year, I spent most of my time and energy looking for a rich boyfriend. Inspire to be a vassal. And the only reason I’m standing here today is because I’m Huang Hao’s new girlfriend.
Xiao Qianqian is the center of the topic everywhere, and everyone is around her. Talk to her, tease her, ask her what she thinks. Even if the stars around the moon, she will be in the gap of a few words, unconsciously looking for Chen Er’s eyes, after looking at each other, she will close the corners of her mouth, and then continue the topic with others. While I tried to join in the conversation, I couldn’t help but secretly record the tone and tone of Xiao Qianqian
‘s voice with my mobile phone.
A person’s birth can be seen from her speech. I can’t have her birth
, but I can imitate her speech.
As if a little closer to her, can also be a little closer to that kind of life, also from Chen Er, a
little closer.
It was at this time that I noticed a line of sight-
Chen Er.
I froze and saw him looking at me with a half-smile. Suddenly he took out his cell phone and pointed to the “recording” icon on the
screen.
He found out I was recording?!
My face is burning with a brush. But he turned his eyes again as if nothing had happened. I was absent-minded
until I came home that day.
Huang Hao didn’t notice anything strange about me. I said goodbye to him in a hurry and immediately
buried my head in the quilt when I returned to the dormitory. My heart was pounding in
my ears, and only then did I have the courage to carefully recall the conversation Chen Er had with me today when he was setting up the tent, as if
he had deliberately avoided the crowd:
“I found that you spent more
time looking at Qianqian than you did at your boyfriend.” He suddenly leaned close to my ear and started the conversation. Only then did I realize that we were the only two people around me. I couldn’t help straightening my back and pinching the cloth
of the tent. I lowered my eyes and didn’t look at him. “You’re so stingy. Your girlfriend won’t let anyone
see you.”
“She’s not my girlfriend.” After a pause, he lowered his voice to a breathy tone and whispered
, “I don’t like her like this.”. What I like is.. Yes..
He suddenly stopped talking.
And my ears are red.
I dare not follow his words.
I only knew that his eyes rested on my right ear, which was almost red and ripe. When I
couldn’t bear it any more, he suddenly reached out and took off my right earring. He put it in the palm of his hand and looked at it for a
moment. He got up and left a sentence: “Did Huang Hao give it to you?”? I like. Confiscated.
……
The heart is still beating. Ears still linger on the temperature of his fingertips. It was stuffy in the
quilt.
My trembling hand touched my empty right ear.
Remembering that during the day, Xiao Qianqian asked me why I didn’t have an earring. I panicked
and explained that I had lost it carelessly. When
everyone began to tease Huang Hao about the poor quality of the earrings he bought, I quietly aimed at Chen Er,
only to see his eyes shining with hot and dim light. At that time, I was still simple and did not understand human nature.
It is believed that all people’s imagination and understanding of love are the same: requiring loyalty
, purity and eternity, and liking excellence, sunshine and progress.
But later I learned that the more people have and experience, loyalty, purity and
eternity can no longer arouse any interest in him.
Even though Chen Er is only 22 years old, what really interests him is
only excitement and taboos. What
Wu Chen
Er did aroused my imagination.
He gave me the illusion that things that could only be realized in dreams suddenly had the possibility of being reached in real
life.
Maybe the overbearing president in the novel really falls in love with me?
I was tempted and began to want more. Ambition and desire expand little by little.
And he never talked to me again.
Every night, I can’t help searching all the information of Chen Er, hoping to find
a chance to see him again.
He is like a key that can open the door to my desires, my future and everything I have
.
Chen Er’s class schedule, the study room he often goes to, and the weekly activity time of the mountaineering club can all be found on the BBS.
He has too many fans, and there are always girls from inside and outside the economics department and even from the school next door.
Unfortunately, it seems that they have never learned and used the theory of economics: information asymmetry can make profits, and information that is fully familiar to everyone is of no value.
That is to say, only the most difficult information is the treasure.
So I began to dig out the places that Chen Er might often go but was not known from other angles, such as his friend’s public comments, micro-blog and Zhihu, and finally found Chen Er’s reply under one of his roommate’s micro-blogs last year.
Chen Er replied, “Ha ha, that’s awesome.”
The location is a maid coffee shop half an hour away from the school subway.
As the name implies, waiters are dressed in maid clothes to meet the reasonable fantasies and requirements of otaku.
So, Chen Er likes this thing? After searching the
Internet, I found that the shop was recruiting part-time waiters, because it was far away from the school and it was almost impossible to meet acquaintances.
I gritted my teeth, made an excuse to Huang Hao casually, and decided to apply for the job. Everything went well, but the only bad thing was that I went there to work for a whole month, and I didn’t even
see Chen Er’s hair.
Only then did I discover that it was not enough to rely solely on theory. All the successful people in the world
needed 1% of luck.
When I almost gave up, finally, one day, a familiar
face came to the shop.
Chen Er!
I almost couldn’t believe my eyes.
He seemed a little surprised at the moment he saw me, quickly came to his senses, said hello to the boss
, and then stopped looking at me.
That’s all?
I was a little disappointed, but I couldn’t let go of my posture and go straight to him. I had to bow my head
and work.
After a while, a pair of brogues came near. Staring at my head for a long time,
finally, the familiar low tone:
“Does Huang Hao know?”
I kept moving my hands, telling myself not to panic. When I finished my psychological building, I finally
looked up. I didn’t know where the courage came from. I tilted my head and asked, “Do you want him
to know?”. He asked this from Huang Hao’s friend’s point of view to tease me to work in the maid shop, but
unexpectedly, I pulled him into an accomplice.
He took two steps closer, kicked
my shoes lightly on his toes, and bowed his head and asked, “Miaomiao, is that what he calls you?”? Miaomiao, what
time are you here every week?
He went straight to the point.
“Every Tuesday and Thursday.” I simply raised my head, and as soon as I looked at each other, I did not know why
, as if I had been bewitched, I blurted out: “I am here, can I wait for you?”
He curled the corners of his mouth and laughed:
“Tut.”. One, three, five, seven accompany Huang Hao, two and four belong to me. Is that my understanding?
His face is burning!
I didn’t expect him to say that. I thought he was going to satirize my skittishness. With
great embarrassment, I was about to open my mouth to refute it when I saw Chen Er pinch me in the face,
close to me, and say a few words in my ear in an ambiguous and low voice:
“Share.”. I like
「……」
I froze in place. Only then did
I realize Chen Er’s perversion. The face of an angel, the hobby of the devil. But I tried to gather up my surprise and panic, and tried to pretend that I had seen the
big scene before. I tried to continue with my lips, “Then I, I will wait for you on Thursday.”
He was so amused by me that he laughed twice and left.
My heart was pounding, as if it was hitting my chest with every stroke. I looked at
his back in a panic, unable to describe my feelings: happy, surprised, glad, afraid, worried
.. It’s incredibly complicated and messy.
I took a deep breath, wiped away the guilt of Huang Hao, buried my head in a rag and wiped
away the ashes on the dining table, as if I was struggling to wash away the plaque of my soul
.
And the plaque of Chen Er’s soul must be more serious than mine. Only later did
I understand a little bit of his eyes when he pulled my earrings away while climbing the mountain, aggression
and curiosity, and longing for taboos in his mind.
Only then did I discover that the so-called stimulation of cheating was the greatest emotional value
I could bring to Chen Er.
He was fed up with those pure, excellent and sunny girls. He had been the favored son of heaven for too long
. Chen Er liked the darkness, the temptation of damp and invisible light.
He also saw at a glance that I was by no means a magnanimous and optimistic Xiao Qianqian without secrets. I
am a girl who likes to record secretly. I am ambitious and
have no bottom line. My heart is covered with dark moss that can’t see the light.
And he likes moss.
His habit is also very special: every time he comes, he will treat me as nothing, sitting alone in a private room drinking tea, and not calling people.
And after a while, he would suddenly appear from behind me, from gently blowing into my ear, to suddenly wrapping his arms around my waist, holding my chin like a lover, and asking,
“Huh?”? Did Huang Hao ever do this to you?
Or:
“Do you like me for you or him for you?”
…… The
hot breath sprayed at the back of my neck.
And these words, in fact, do not need my answer, I slowly found that as long as you keep shy, keep, worry and guilt, and then suppress joy and impulse.. In short, all the reactions in line with the “cheating” scene can make him get into the play and full of interest.
He likes me more and more. The longer you’re stuck with me. Holding
me in his arms, he sighed, “Miaomiao, I wish I could be with you every day.”
Most of the time I am very clear in my heart, but sometimes, I can’t help getting into the play. The maids in the
shop were wearing clogs, but he liked me to take off my slippers, remove my socks, step barefoot on the floor of the private room, and order me to run around the private room until my feet were covered with dust.
Then he would sit me down in front of him, and he would cup my ankles and admire the soles of my feet with a
little intoxicated expression.
He said that the most beautiful part of a woman is her feet, and he especially likes the way a woman’s feet look when they are
dirty.
Broken beauty is a tragedy, and Chen Er loves all tragedies.
The most exciting time was when we were in his private room, he rubbed my feet with his fingers, and
suddenly there were several voices outside-
Chen Er’s friends, the group of people who climbed the mountain together last time!
My scalp immediately tingled and subconsciously pulled back my feet to avoid it. But
Chen Er exerted himself in his hands.
We are only separated from the outside by a thin sliding door, and as long as the people outside approach
, pull the door open, and everything is exposed, then I will lose my reputation. I was more
worried than ever. My heart was weak, and I trembled with fear. But I didn’t notice that Chen Er had already
come over and pressed his hand against my ear
. “Miaomiao, are you afraid?”
The tone was so fast that I noticed his eyes-green with excitement. Suddenly there was only one thought left in
my mind: Don’t spoil his fun. Breathing unsteadily, I looked at him as firmly as I could and shook my head slowly.
It was at that moment that Chen smiled, yanked open the sliding door, and greeted the group of people outside
: “Hi.”
I almost jumped out of my seat.
The gap was not big, revealing Chen Er’s face, my skirt and my calf in
white stockings.
The foot is charming.
“Would you like to come in?” Chen Er raised his eyebrows and made an invitation.
I stopped breathing, and there was a buzz in my head, thinking he was serious.
Fortunately, the people outside the door knew Chen Er’s temper and only said hello and
left laughing and laughing. The
door closed again.
When their footsteps disappeared, Chen Er lowered his eyes and laughed at me
: “Shaking like a sieve.”. Still not afraid? As
he spoke, he stood up and patted me on the head as if I were a small animal.
“Yes, there was Huang Hao in the group outside the door just now.”
Every Tuesday and Thursday, I work at the maid’s cafe.
It is also the day when I absolutely don’t want to think of Huang Hao.
As long as you don’t think of it, you won’t feel guilty, and you can still March firmly to the rich and powerful family.
But Chen Er’s words easily broke all my self-deception.
Later, I received a WeChat from Huang Hao with complaints and ingratiation: “Miaomiao, you have ignored me these days
.”. I was dragged to the maid cafe by my friends. Hey, is
someone jealous?
I didn’t reply.
That night, I held the text message and couldn’t sleep because of the guilt.
I remember discussing this topic with Chen Er, and his point was that if you still
feel guilty, you are a good person. It is impossible for a
truly bad person to feel guilty.
The reason is very crooked, but I decided to accept it.
But I want more. A woman in love is always greedy. Besides, I covet not only
people, but also his family. It
was only after I became more familiar with Chen Er that I gathered the information from a few words: Chen Er’s father should be a big shot, and has business and real
estate in Hong Kong, Macao, and Taiwan. On weekdays, his parents mainly live in Taiwan.
But he also bought a car and a house for him in Zhongguancun, where land is expensive.
And if I want to have a future with him, I have to solve Huang Hao first.
Huang Hao clearly felt my alienation, and then he tried to save it, but it didn’t
work.
We see each other less and less, and once he even sent me an email: text messages
are not returned, people can not be found, I do not know what you are busy with recently, if you want to break up,
why not just say it?
I was silent for a long time, but I still didn’t know how to answer. The
great sense of guilt was still there, and after thinking about it for a few days, I made a decision to eliminate
it:
I wanted Huang Hao to have an affair.
Yes, since I cheated, it’s only fair that he has a chance to cheat.
And as long as he succeeds in cheating, it’s logical to break up.
It sounds strange, but it’s easier to do than you think.
The first thing to do is to find a candidate for him: Huang Hao’s Weibo photos are always reprinted by the official account of the school, so there are many fans, and there are
always a few familiar ID messages praising and asking about the shooting. After a year of
dating, most people around me know about my relationship with Huang Hao. As a result, girls with small
ninety-nine will also look at my micro-blog by the way.
Among them, the girl who digs the corner most brazenly is called S.
In order to get close to her, I specially found a wechat number of male gender to add S’s WeChat
.
S to the strange boy’s guard heart is not high, after all, good-looking, to WeChat is a common
thing.
I patiently chatted with her for a few days, and sure enough, she got her mind out-she sent me a
good man card and confessed that she was attacking a male God with a girlfriend.
I laughed and asked, “Well, do you want me to help you?”
“So kind?” She doesn’t believe it. The beauty of
adults. Of course, I hope you will give up if you fail, so that I can have a chance.
She burst out laughing. After that, he would really ask me some tips about poaching. The key
to poaching is to “take advantage of the situation.”. I don’t know about
other people, but I could have created this for her: “emptiness.”
I started to make a mountain out of a molehill, quarreling with Huang Hao, forgetting his birthday, refusing to meet him, and cold violence for no reason.
And after every quarrel, I would immediately remind the girl, “Would you like to talk to Huang Hao?”
I made the wounding sword, and she made the Jieyuhua.
S is actually very smart, but also very good, small fox-like eyes, the head has maintained a typical white, rich and beautiful, well protected innocence. The
plan also went much more smoothly than expected:
Huang Hao went from ignoring S’s love at the beginning to hinting to me that “quite a lot of girls have been flirting with me recently.” Later, he unilaterally reduced his good night to me every night.
And S told me that every night, she would chat with Huang Hao until very late.
It turns out that the difficulty of pushing away an excellent boy is far less than catching up with him.
Only half a month later, Huang Hao said to me,
“Miaomiao, let’s break up.”. Sorry, I’m in love with someone else.
At the same time, another wechat account popped up S’s most exciting sentence: “Ah, ah, ah, I succeeded!”! Get rid of the single smoothly!!
I still remember how I felt at the beginning, and if I had to describe it, it was a kind of overwhelming “relief.”. He wanted to breathe long sigh of relief, but he was punched in the chest.
congratulations. Congratulations to that girl, too. With a wooden face, I quickly knocked back
.
Pretending to be free from a relationship peacefully.
“No, I should congratulate you.” Huang Hao replied in a second. My
chest tightened and I asked knowingly, “What?”
He has already blacklisted me.
I remember that it was an early autumn evening, I was sitting alone on a chair
by the campus lake, pursed my lips, put my mobile phone into my pocket, and suddenly I couldn’t suppress the
great loss in my heart.
I understood the loss as loneliness. The setting sun fell on the lake. I held my chin
in my hands and looked absently at the poor lotus flowers withered on the lake.
It’s like watching a love abandoned by summer.
Just then, with a little sunlight, I saw another pair of
familiar faces coming hand in hand:
Chen Er and Xiao Qianqian. The news that
I broke up with Huang Hao soon spread in their small circle. Huang Hao brought his new
girlfriend to the party again-a man is more fickle than he imagined. Of course, I didn’t have time to sigh. To my horror, Chen Er never appeared in the maid
cafe again.
I tried to find him and meet him, but the way he looked at me was no longer as eager as it used to be,
leaving only indifference.
I remembered the way he and Xiao Qianqian walked side by side that day. Gods and goddesses bring
their own light.
As if to light up the sunset.
When he stood in the sun, he became a sunflower again, and would not look at the moss in the
corner again. Only then did
I realize that all my attraction to him
, even after all this time and dedication of body and love, was just that little forbidden pleasure.
Now, this sense of taboo has disappeared, as if the clock had struck twelve o’clock, and I was Cinderella
being beaten back to my original shape.
I don’t believe it.
I destroyed my first love with my own hands, and I will never be willing to be a fool who lost his wife and lost his army
. Once again,
I blocked Chen Er, this time in the school library. Few people come to the foreign language newspapers and periodicals library on the second floor of the
school library at ordinary times. He
also mentioned before that he would read here every Wednesday afternoon. When I saw him, he was looking through a foreign magazine in front of the last bookshelf,
looking up at me, and his eyes were obviously impatient.
Indifference reminds me, “I have an appointment with Xiao Qianqian.” But
I made light of it and laughed magnanimously, “I know.”. That’s
why I find it interesting.
He was stupefied. Something unexpected. I
thought I would pester him, cry, make trouble and hang myself.
Of course not.
I walked into him with my head tilted, lowered my voice, stood on tiptoe to his earlobe, and treated him in his
best way:
“Chen Er, you and Xiao Qianqian are together.”. I want to steal you from her. This is so exciting
.
These words were my carefully prepared lines and tone, straightforward and offensive, and his first reaction
was to frown.
But I firmly believe that the devil will only be attracted by the devil.
Romances and comedies don’t work for Chen Er. The most unbearable thing for
this man is the taboo of heavy cult tablets.
Sure enough, my words aroused Chen Er’s interest. After his consternation, he raised a meaningful smile at the corners of his mouth, turned his head sideways and grabbed my wrist
, and pinched my lips with the other hand. Rubbing
his fingers, he said in a dangerous tone, “How dare you say that again?”
Just then his cell phone vibrated, and it was Xiao Qianqian.
He glanced at me, released me, and picked up the phone in a low voice. “Hello.”
Xiao Qianqian’s bright voice came from the other end of the receiver: “I’m at the door. Where
are you?”
Chen Er was about to speak when I suddenly leaned over and hugged his waist, stood on tiptoe, bit
his Adam’s apple lightly, and provoked him
with a breathy voice: “Don’t answer.”. How long do you think she’ll be able to find us?
Chen Er froze in place. The door of the
archive was gently pushed open, Xiao Qianqian’s footsteps were getting closer and closer, but Chen Er never
pushed me open.
On the one hand, he was worried that the noise was too big for Xiao Qianqian to see.
On the other hand, my intuition tells me it’s because he doesn’t want to push away.
His posture in front of the bookshelf is like a sunflower in the sun.
And I know that on the back of the sunflower, there is eternal darkness and devastation. He can’t refuse such a game.
I am insatiable, and my hands are no longer quiet. At the end of his patience,
he pressed the microphone and kissed it with gnashing teeth.
「…… What’s going on? Where the hell are you? Hello? Xiao Qianqian tried to be patient
.
But the soft voice seemed to entertain him. A whisper between
lips and teeth, a taboo game.
His arm around my waist tightened, deepening the angry kiss. It
was not until Chen Er had kissed enough that he picked up the microphone and said to the other end, “Oh, the signal
was not good just now.” Then he calmly looked around and talked to him.
Xiao Qianqian’s pace and voice gradually approached. I broke off his hand around my waist and turned to
run away, but he grabbed me again. I saw him scratch my palm, move the corners of his mouth
, and make a mouth shape at me:
“Goblin.”
I turned my head sideways and winked at him, leaving a very low voice: “Have a good date.”. Don’t
think about me.
Then turned around and ran away. The light of the library shone through the old screen window on the bookshelf, and after a few
steps from the other bookshelf, I saw Xiao Qianqian.
She was stunned.
I curled the corners of my mouth and greeted
her in a voice that Chen Er could hear. “Hello, Elder Martial Sister.” The purpose of
my coming this time has been achieved, but it is to prove my value and attraction
to him.
The goddess-like Xiao Qianqian should indeed be a natural couple for Chen Er. She is smart, decent
and honest.
It’s a pity that she can never really capture Chen Er’s heart. After all,
there is only one way to attract a man with a low bottom line-no bottom line
than him.
But I can. After the
seven
library incident, Chen Er finally thoroughly discovered my good.
I got a ticket for myself by going beyond the bottom line. In his words, I had a perverted feeling that I was better than blue, so he began
to dote on me as a “plastic talent.”.
He began to come to me when he was free, sent me WeChat, asked me to have dinner, and patiently taught me all
kinds of things:
watching movies, watching plays, listening to music. Imbued me with all
his tastes.
As the two men brazenly approached, he no longer avoided taking
me with him wherever he went. He
even took me to travel and bought me clothes and gifts when we went shopping together.
The handwriting is so exaggerated that it is frightening. It doesn’t seem to be short of money at all. Only then did
I know that his father was a Hong Kong star surnamed Chen (now retired to the second line
), who bought a house in Beijing in 1995 and 1996 after he became popular in Hong Kong and Taiwan in his early years.
Yes, it’s not buying a house, it’s buying a house. At that time, the house price in Beijing was so low that it was hard to imagine.
At that time, the stars were tired of buying luxury houses in Hong Kong and Taiwan, so they began to invest in buying houses in Beijing and Shanghai without money
.
I became obsessed with showing off my bag, shoes and lipstick on social networking sites, that is
, showing off my wealth in a straightforward way.
I know it’s annoying. But I can’t help it. You don’t know if you can understand
this mentality?
That is, whenever you suddenly experience a life that you have never experienced before, a great sense of satisfaction and accomplishment will force you to announce to the world what you have just unlocked. The body, which was
quickly enveloped by wealth, was greedy in every move, like a hungry beggar.
Outbreak is a kind of humble mentality.
At the beginning, I was very hungry every day, both psychologically and physically.
Even before going out for dinner with Chen Er, he would buy a big bag of junk food at the convenience store downstairs and devour it until the last potato chip was stuffed into his mouth. I can continue to play Bai Fumei calmly and gracefully.
In my roommate’s words, the way I secretly ate junk food in the dormitory looked like the pig in Spirited Away. There is a doomsday carnival in
his eyes.
Yes, for the last twenty years, I’ve been crazily repressing my desires, my feelings. Persistent pursuit of wealth and status.
And now, when I finally got the admission ticket, the moment when the famous brand bags and clothes were held in my arms, I was satisfied.
I don’t know which love is better than money, but it doesn’t matter-Chen Er can give me love as well as money. Looking back
now, this time of being filled up and falling in love was probably the happiest and stupidest time of my life.
In fact, once a smart girl falls in love, she will become the stupidest one in the world.
At that time, I did not think and summarize why he chose me, nor did I think of ways to maintain and extend this relationship. I
even began to fantasize that he could give me marriage-
in the second year of our relationship, that is, when I was a senior and Chen Erbo was a junior, Chen Erbo took me to see his father once. The
meeting took place in another of his urban villas in Beijing, where his father spoke good Mandarin and was benevolent. There are pictures of my parents when they were young hanging everywhere in the house, which is the glory of another era.
He called me “little classmate,” asked me a few questions about my major, talked about my hobbies, and praised me for my spirit when he left.
In front of me, he specifically told Chen Er, “Get along well.”
I’m floating.
In fact, there were many legends about me in school at that time. It is
said that I am the daughter of a wealthy businessman in the south of the Yangtze River and the campus beauty of the college.
Is Chen Er’s real girlfriend, is also worthy of the name of white, rich and beautiful.
I really spent a lot of time playing a real white, rich and beautiful, pretending to have a happy family and growing up without worries about food and clothing.
Of course, there is also a kind of whisper that I ignored, which revealed that I was a poor student who could afford the tuition with a grant, and that I had no moral integrity and bottom line to fly to the branches as a fake phoenix.
So what? I sniff.
Less than 22 years old, when I was the most expensive, I had hundreds of thousands of clothes all over my body. I could even remit money to my family every month. With my help, my mother quickly built a small house.
I take care of everything I’ve got.
I also became a confident and elegant sunflower in the sun, although behind it was a lot of devastation and devastation.
I later learned that the word “loyalty” had never appeared in our relationship. Within two years of establishing a relationship with me, Chen Er was still looking for and welcoming all kinds of stimuli. There are so many clues about
men’s derailment that I was immersed in great joy at the beginning and selectively ignored it. Past love has always been smooth sailing, even Huang Hao was forced to derail under my arrangement.
Chen Er was the first accident, and I later learned that there would be more accidents after that. The truth of
this world is that no matter how many emotional skills a woman has mastered, even if she is a master of flirting, she can never guarantee a man’s loyalty. When I was in my early
20s, I couldn’t accept my boyfriend’s cheating. It was the most painful time for me. Mistakenly believing that I was in a strong position and had nothing to fear, I began to use some stupid tricks:
for example, I hysterically made him swear not to cheat, and even asked him to report his whereabouts 24 hours a day and be suspicious.
Moreover, I began to worry, even eager for quick success and instant benefit to force marriage.
These are things that most smart girls seem to have a big emotional taboo nowadays, and I did almost all of them at that time.
It also caused Chen Er to become more and more indifferent to me. In his words, I became strange and unreasonable.
Always remember why a person is with you. If it’s because of the monetary value you provide, then when you don’t have money, they will leave you. If it’s because of the emotional value you provide, then when you can’t provide, they will leave you. Before
graduation, the emotional value I provided Chen Er was almost zero, and we were indeed on the verge of breaking up.
And the last thing I did, and the stupidest thing, was that I played his father’s idea-
Chen Er’s father’s identity is actually a secret, only a few people know, and I later in order to force the palace to seek a place, in my own micro-blog and circle of friends grandly forwarded an interview with his father. The caption reads:
“My father-in-law is really an excellent person. I want to learn from him!” At that time, I did not know that this state had committed a “rich and powerful” taboo.
Eight,
the more complex the family, the more demanding. There are all kinds of rules, but there is basically only
one consensus:
keep a low profile. In the
gossip news, those high-profile women in Vanity Fair can’t earn
a good end for themselves after all. There is only one result for
me to force Chen Er:
to be broken up. Break up
very resolutely and simply.
I shut myself up in the dormitory and cried for three days and nights, and I was decadent for more than a month. It happened to be the graduation defense at that
time. If I am postponed, I may not be able to get a certificate. My grades in the four years of university
are very average, and my grade point is really ugly, only 3.0,
which is the level of CET-6 (yes, even the top universities have poor students).
To be honest, if I want to find a job with a resume like this, I can only expect my boss to have a little
famous school complex.
But for the sake of my diploma, I had no choice but to brace up and prepare for it. Looking back on that time
now, I feel desolate. The sky seems to be gray. I seem to be placed on the eve of dawn, but the sky will never be bright.
I sit in front of the lamp of the Republic of China in the library every day to read books. The wick is faint and the heart is dark.
My heart aches until it’s numb. The corners of the mouth are always drooping down when they are unconscious, and they sigh unconsciously.
It was the most desperate time for me. Only then did
I realize that after four years of college, I had gone on the road of “fishing for girls.”.
I am used to living with rich people. I am used to being a vassal. I am only willing to suffer from men. All the skills
I have: clothes matching, delicious and expensive restaurants, the most colorful lipstick, flirting skills, golf and red wine equestrian.. It is doomed that I will never be an independent woman who can earn her own living.
Roommates have found good jobs, unicorn enterprises, national ministries, the world’s top 500.. Wearing a stiff suit and hanging a work card, he began to struggle and inspire his life.
And me? Well, I’m still looking for the next man.
To be a fishing girl is doomed to be a road of no return without turning back.
Fortunately, I am still young and beautiful, the market is still there, there are several other colleges and the rich second generation of the school next door are very interested in me.
They are stuck in every place where I may appear, trying to chat up me, add my WeChat, chat with me, invite me to dinner, and even give me gifts with great trepidation.
Later, I learned that they were because of Chen Er. What they were really curious about was the striking label of Chen Er’s ex-girlfriend on my body.
From this point of view, my relationship with Chen Er is still glorious.
I am really a person with strong spirit. I know my moral bottom line is very low, but I do pursue everything I want wholeheartedly. The
new pursuer gave me new hope and gave me life. I slowly perked up, adjusted my state, began to dress myself up carefully, and began to strengthen my new persona:
I was no longer the timid leprechaun who offered the bottom line to provide emotional value continuously. Now, I am a well-informed lady.
This time, my goal is simple-to marry myself off. Find an honest and reliable meal ticket for life.
It is a pity that the second generation of small rich people around them can’t do this at all.
Fate taught me another lesson at the age of 22: the second generation of the rich only have the ability to spend money, and they can play. But very few of them have the ability to make money. The rich second generation, who
have no earning power, can only obey their parents in any major choice. If I want to marry into a rich family and spend my husband’s money happily, there is only one way:
the rich generation. The characteristics of the
rich generation are also very distinct, for example, most of them are not young
.
In the face of money, aging is certainly not a big disadvantage. After
experiencing love and losing it, I am somewhat self-abandoned.
At that time, I understood for the first time what my mother once said to me: “a girl
who marries well can be happy all her life.”
And the so-called marry well, in my opinion, is just to marry a rich man who is willing to spoil me
.
And I don’t necessarily need to love him.
So, the question is, where can we find the rich generation?
Premium gym?
A sky-high price club?
Five-star hotel executive lounge? Jiay
uan?
No, these places are too deliberate. The rich second generation are simple, but the rich generation are all people who have worked hard for decades. The young girl who meets here
has a clear purpose, and a little carelessness will be judged as a fishing girl. Naturally, I
met the rich generation and gave them the best first impression. In fact
, I thought about it for a long time before I found out that it was the
Alumni Association. On the eve of
graduation, I almost focused my energy on alumni activities
.
I signed up as a volunteer for the Alumni Association of P University, and joined many alumni groups on my own initiative, and
began to meet alumni in various names. The teachers at the
alumni association were surprised by my enthusiasm, and I invariably responded, “My family
isn’t in a hurry to let me work, and I’m thinking about gap for a year, so I can come to school
for the time being and do what I can.” The more you tell a
lie, the more fluent you are. If you wear expensive clothes for a long time, you will have the courage to lie.
This year coincides with the 120th anniversary of the school, and various alumni activities continue. In this name,
I also got the first-hand information of many alumni, including their names
, contact information, occupation and current residence.
This is a very important piece of information. It took
me about a week to study these materials, from the class of 10 to the class of 78, and I read them all. And try to learn it by heart.
The last time I was so serious, it should be before the college entrance examination. In the process of volunteering,
I chatted with one of the volunteers named Anny.
Anny is my senior sister. She is five years older than me. She is a full-time wife. She is very good-looking. Just had a baby.
Her husband, who married her for the second time, is the founder of a boutique law firm. The two of
them happened to meet at the 115th Anniversary Alumni Association. At the beginning of the
acquaintance, Anny was also a volunteer of the alumni association.
Eyes meet, and we can read each other.
Seeing her is like seeing myself five years later.
“Sister Annie, are you happy?” I couldn’t help asking. In the hustle and bustle of the alumni gathering, well-known entrepreneurs and alumni on the stage took turns to deliver speeches.
She nodded and said of course.
Thinking of something, she took out her cell phone and showed me the family photo on her cell phone screen:
a fat man holding her slender waist in one hand and her newborn son in the other. A happy family of three.
However, the man’s face was carefully pasted with stickers by her to completely cover his face.
Alas, he has put on weight recently, and his face is not good-looking. I agreed with him that I would post his photos on WeChat when he lost weight
. Sister
Annie explained in a hurry.
I nodded politely with a smile on my face.
But from a secular point of view, Annie is indeed happy:
she is renovating her villa in Shunyi, and her biggest hobby every day is to find expensive antique furniture from the medieval market in Gaobeidian
.
She never works a day, and she always has a seven-figure deposit in her personal account.
She must have had a better life than most of the people of her age who are still struggling.
But we don’t talk anymore.
We all know the price behind this so-called glory.
Not free, not independent, no sense of existence and achievement, become attached, lose love,
marry a cash machine for a lifetime. He knows the details of his husband’s flesh and body better
than anyone else, and he burns incense in the
Yonghegong Lama Buddhist Temple on New Year’s Day to pray that his daughter will never look like her father. Maybe I will marry an old and bald man like Sister Annie, and then
comfort myself that this is happiness.
But the choice of adult life is made by oneself, at the moment
of accepting the gift of fate, please know what kind of consideration will be behind it.
I will never, never regret it. At 22, I gritted my teeth and said to myself.
But if I regret it one day, I will admit it. In the auditorium of the
alumni association, the applause was thunderous, and I wore a well-matched dress, which was concave
and elegant, and was most popular with middle-aged men.
Suddenly someone behind me patted me on the shoulder. “Hello, is this Sun Miao?” The voice of a middle-aged man sounded
steadily behind him.
I pursed my lips, turned my face, and smiled sweetly at him, as warmly
as if I were greeting the future. I replied, “Yes, I am!”! Can I help you?
I didn’t even focus on his looks.
Because it doesn’t matter.
(End)
