What are the conditions under which girls are completely disappointed with boys?
What are the conditions under which girls are completely disappointed with boys?
A boring fairy bought an LV bag and his boyfriend wanted me to retire.
“Smoke, tens of thousands of dollars, just to buy your vanity? I’m sorry.
“How many dishes does your mother have to wash, how many cars does your father have to charge in order to make tens of thousands of dollars?” I’m sorry.
I’ve been sore at him.
After he scolded me, and I didn’t speak, he threw out the second sentence, “This is not married. I’m sorry.
And then I fell on the door.
I regret it.
He’s right. My mom and dad don’t get paid very well. That’s over a million dollars.
I’m sitting in the living room staring at the door and wondering why I’m lost.
One.
I’m 27 years old, and I’m a regular workman.
$800,000 a month, two dollars a month, plus a year-end prize, and 150,000 a year.
At the end of last year, my family introduced me to a blind date.
His name is Yangchuan. He’s a software man. He’s a grown man.
The two elders met twice and we finalized the marriage.
I want to buy more than 10,000 square metres of house in the suburbs, not just 50,000 and a square metre in the City of Finance, but more than one square metre.
I’ve been saving money for the down payment.
Until then, I had no idea about luxury goods, not even the brand.
Until one day I carried over a hundred bags to meet clients.
“You LV is the limit of this year. I can’t take it. Where did you buy it? I’m sorry.
“Ah, peddling.” I was asked a little bit.
She smiled a little stiff, but didn’t embarrass me at the scene.
I went to the bathroom, I went to the bathroom and I checked out the phone, and I found out that the LV was for over 30,000…
“Save me, how can we be so good at business? I’m sorry.
“Yeah, I almost laughed. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
The conversation outside the door made me look red.
I don’t know how long it took me to open the door and the whole hand was sweaty.
Later, I accidentally mentioned to Yanggawa that I wanted to buy an LV bag.
“You know how expensive a bag is to buy a square metre of a house. I’m sorry.
I’ve been thinking about it for a long time, and I can’t do it dozens of times.
Finally, two months’ salary was saved, and he bit his teeth and bought himself an introductory bag on his birthday.
Small, $12,500, just enough to put down an iPhone13.
Two.
Thinking about it, the phone suddenly rings…
It’s my mom.
I have a bad feeling.
“You come back. I’m sorry.
A short sentence leaves me numb to my feet.
I drove and rushed back to my parents’ old neighborhood.
As soon as I got home, I saw my father, my mother, his father, his mother, and him, two family members, sitting there, and everyone’s face written about my trial.
“Why buy such expensive bags? “My mother hates iron and steel.
“My family, if I may say so, the smoke is just going out to play with business, and I’ll buy tens of thousands of bags. I’m sorry.
“We can’t afford to pay for it. I’m sorry.
“Aunt, if she doesn’t talk to me today about buying tens of thousands of bags, then if she gets married, she will spend hundreds of thousands of dollars without telling me…”
Everyone.
And I stood there, squeezing the horns of my clothes, and my heart was as dead as ashes.
I’m just buying a bag, not killing someone…
Why are you embarrassing me in front of my parents?
The nose is sore, the tears turn in my eyes and I walk to Yanggawa.
“You bought the trim in the safe second, you know the password. I’m sorry.
“Aunty, I was an AA during our relationship, and there was no economic dispute. I’m sorry.
“What do you mean? Yangkawa stood up unbelievably and looked at me.
“Don’t you want to get divorced? I’m sorry.
I’ll go after that.
3
A few days later, I couldn’t figure it out.
So an anonymous post was published, “What’s wrong with me for buying an LV bag, a boyfriend breaking up with me?” I’m sorry.
The next day, the fire broke out.
One of the students transferred the post to the high school classmates QQQ Group.
When I saw it, I almost had a heart attack.
“What’s wrong with a bag for more than $10,000? I’m sorry.
“You girls are brainwashed by consumerism, and that’s worth over 10,000.” It’s not easy for us boys to make money. I’m sorry.
The two sides engaged in combat and killed inexorably.
I’m afraid to shrink like I’m roasted on a hot pot.
And so I did not reveal that I had written the post, but I said, “The girl said, “The bag was bought at her own expense. I’m sorry.
And the next second, a line pops up in the group…
“So why are you looking for a boyfriend in a trash can? I’m sorry.
I’m blinded.
Because this is Qin Xu, my ex-boyfriend.
Did he examine the subject? I’m not talking about me. I’m talking about the post!
Qin Xu!
“The billionaires have blown up. I’m sorry.
“Where does the Qin classmate develop, single?”
I don’t know.
The subject went to Qin Xu, and everyone fought for his best friend.
Qin Xu didn’t talk anymore.
Qin Xu has returned. “My best friend Lynne trusted me personally.
“Oh, you added him?”
“plus, he passed! She seems excited.
It’s not surprising that I didn’t tell anyone about my relationship with Qin Xu.
Even though the post is anonymous, I still think Qin Xu meant something to me.
“Yeah, he told me about you! I’m sorry.
I was quiet for a second. I’m sorry.
“I said you’re getting married. I got stuck, and I went back to “Oh.” I’m sorry.
I returned the message, I sat in front of the window for a while and then I deleted the chat.
4
The next day I came home and I found a change of shoes at the door.
Yanggawa was here.
I went to the safe, and the accident was that the “three gold” didn’t take it.
Turn around and find the LV bag I bought and it’s gone.
It’s right here.
“My mom had a birthday on the weekend, remember to wear that red dress, and my mom liked it. I’m sorry.
I looked down on my face.
Whenever I wear a dress, I see if people like it.
I haven’t heard back from him.
After a while, his mother sent it to me.
I got nervous and sat up and watched.
“Kawakawa says you’re going to give me my birthday this weekend, and you’re going to the expensive farm. Kawakawa said you’re the one who gave the bag back. What’s with the money?”
One buzz, one string in my head is broken.
Like a drowning cat, I struggled to breathe, fell to the bottom of the sea, the whole world rotated, and finally returned to the quiet of death.
I’ve actually thought about breaking up more than once.
When he recommended 8000 for me to save 7000 a month.
When he asked me to take the subway and save the gas for a house.
When he asked me to return my rented house and move in with him to save the rent…
But every time, my mother told me, “It’s not cheating. Gambling is a matter of these principles. Both men must get along.” I’m sorry.
But this time.
I don’t want to.
No crying, no ripping, I just sent him a message in peace.
“Let’s break up. I’m sorry.
And then the cell phone goes silent.
5
Then Yangchuan didn’t come to me.
It was also unexpected.
He was so proud that I broke up with him twice. I don’t think he’d come to me.
I have to pick the time to think about it.
The days are on schedule.
The next day I found out I broke up with Lynne and came to my house with me.
“Congratulations, reborn! She hugged me as soon as she saw me.
It’s as if I’ve won five million instead of having sex with men.
“Your high school back table is really cold. “We lay on the sofa, half of the movie, and she suddenly came.
“Ah?” I reacted to her and realized she was talking about Qin Xu.
“Leave him a message, a century later, and it feels like only my grandson can burn me back. I’m sorry.
She ate chips and threw up.
I couldn’t help but laugh.
That’s what Qin Xu is.
“I can’t tell if you’re angry and you don’t hear me. How do I know how much I miss you?
“It’s not enough to listen to you on the phone. I want you to say my name in my ear. Smoke. I miss you.
“Did you cast a spell on me? Why do I think you’re going crazy every day? I’m sorry.
He’s always at the end of the phone, and he’s just saying nice and sweet things.
He was so obsessed with me when I was 18 and nine years old.
Now that sounds like a trick for a girl.
Back to God…
“Then you go after him.” I took a sentence.
“No, he’s busy. He’s a doctor, I hear. I’m sorry.
Is he a doctor?
Something incredible.
“Look, he was number one, we were the first, but his father was in the top 100, and now he’s a billion-dollar doctor, and he’s at the top of his life, and we’re struggling at the bottom of our society to cry…”
I watched her complain, funny and heartbroken.
“Then find a rich generation to change your destiny. I smiled at her.
“Come on, I’d like to, but he’s got someone he likes. You look at his personality signature — far away from her. Isn’t that someone you like? I’m sorry.
“Oh. “I was stunned for a second, and he had someone he liked, and it seemed normal.
I just can’t help feeling a little sour.
We’re going to the movies.
When she saw the man and the woman pulling the light, she came up and asked me mysteriously: “The breakup is broken up, you are not pregnant.” I’m sorry.
I have three black lines on my forehead.
“None. “I didn’t have anything with him.” I’m sorry.
“How?”
I took a breath, “I don’t know, it’s probably my problem. He kissed me and I resisted. I’m sorry.
“and he doesn’t live on my side, often working overtime…”
“Men can’t find time if they want to. “Did you have a prenup? I’m sorry.
“Do it. I thought about it, it was done in the last two weeks, and my results were fine, and I didn’t ask him, “It’s none of my business. I’m sorry.
“Yes, too. Lynne looked at me and said nothing.
The next day she bought me breakfast and sent me a message.
“Good smokes, weddings, hotels and his Yangchuan. The sky falls and the sisters carry you!”
I can’t help but feel her tears when I see this message with my hand on the right milk.
She’s probably the only one on my side who supports my break-up.
Six.
The next day, when I had lunch at noon, I was carrying a packaged “three gold” and some of Yangchuan’s stuff I had at my house, and I ordered a courier from the same town.
It’s not half an hour. He called.
I was eating in the cafeteria with my colleagues, and I accidentally pressed the speaker.
“Have you thought about it? He is still too proud to speak on the phone.
“How can you be so reckless? Can’t you tell?
“What good is it to you if you’re gonna get married soon?
“Then tell your mother, don’t be such a bitch! I’m sorry.
I’m eating, I’m looking at my colleagues with compassion, I’m ashamed to look red.
In a panic, I cut off the phone.
I never knew that he, who was gentle and gentle, would say such terrible things.
It also makes me more sure that breaking up is the right choice.
Friday afternoon, I called my dad. My dad didn’t answer.
I called my mom again.
My mom gave me a hard time, finally at the hospital.
“What happened? My heart is sunk.
“Hey, your dad didn’t want me to tell you. It’s not old age. I’m sorry.
I rushed to the hospital.
My dad was a little embolism. He was in the hospital the previous year with a heart support.
When I got here, my dad laughed like nothing.
“It’s all right. I’m in pain, I’m taking my pills and I can even go up to the eighth floor. My father vowed to come out of bed and show me.
“You lie down!” I was in a hurry. It’s only been two years. How can it happen again? I’m sorry.
“Emergency doctor says it’s too hot for your dad to be in the sun for too long. My mother’s eyes are wet.
My heart is stinging.
“Dad, stop it. “I’ll call your team leader and resign later.” I’m sorry.
“I don’t have to. Dad can still do it. I’m sorry.
“You don’t want to die? I couldn’t bear to yell at him.
“Your dad doesn’t do it. How do you get your multimillion down payment? My mom blames me for yelling at my dad.
“Well… what are you telling the kids about this? My dad went to talk about my mom again.
I opened my mouth, I didn’t say a word, but the tears came out first, and I went back to wipe my tears, and I said, “No house. I’m sorry.
“Why?”
“No reason, I don’t want to buy it. I’m sorry.
I sat by my bed and helped my dad cut apples.
I didn’t dare tell them I broke up and didn’t get married at this time. I was afraid my father’s heart could not bear it.
I’m not very good at this.
My parents were old enough to have me when I was 35.
They have retired for two years and have a combined pension of over 10,000, a house and health insurance.
At this age, my father was supposed to play chess with the mayor of the district, and my mother was supposed to dance with the mayor of the district, but now they’re still working hard and hard for my down payment.
I suddenly don’t understand.
So-called investment value of the house, emptying out six individual wallets where it means.
7
Apples cut in half, Yanggawa is here.
See him, I shake my hand and cut myself in the mouth.
“Uncle, are you all right?” He looks like he didn’t have a briefcase.
“All right. “My dad’s laughing and swinging.
“Why didn’t you tell me earlier? Yangchuan turned to me and asked me.
When I saw him, I felt the fruit knife had its own idea.
“What are you doing here? I’m sorry.
I’m cold, but I’m in the way of my dad’s illness and I don’t want to be in front of him.
“Uncle is sick. Can I not come? I’m sorry.
The way he acts makes me sick.
And he bowed his head and said with the sound that only I and he could hear: “Will you not be angry at your father after the break-up?” I’m sorry.
My heart was filled with anger, but I swallowed it.
“I have something to do with this hospital, and I have a doctor who’s been studying for my heart. Don’t worry auntie. I’m sorry.
“Oh, that’s great, or you can do it. My mother’s eyes are filled with satisfaction with Yanggawa.
I didn’t say anything until after my dad got sick.
Yangchuan is very good at acting in front of my parents, pouring water on my father, searching for all kinds of information, comforting him that he is no big deal, relaxing.
Seeing them in harmony like that, I’m scared.
At night, the expert came.
I was in a very low mood until a familiar voice pierced my eardrum.
I looked up and looked at Qin Xu.
Eight years later, meeting again, me and him for a moment.
How could it be him?
He quickly recovered his calmness over my stress and surprise and took it back to my father’s bed after one second.
Then they said a bunch of my brains were buzzing and I didn’t listen.
The last time I called him about the break-up.
“Can’t it be different? He softened down on the other side of the phone, begging me.
“Can’t. I’m very determined to say, “What are you afraid of, your friends, your blonde eyes are good, you can find any one, and I can find one here. I’m sorry.
“I’m used to you because I like you. You can’t count on you for three days. I’m not without a temper. He was angry.
“I’m not begging you to like me. I smoked my nose, “I’m fed up with exotic love, I want someone to eat with me, teach, watch movies, not air.” I’m sorry.
“Okay… let’s calm down. He’s silent. “Will you please not hack me? I’m sorry.
“Can’t. I’m sorry.
“The phone is black.
“No way. I’m sorry.
“Smoke! You’re…’ he was a little angry and he was a little desperate. Do you really think I need you? I’m sorry.
“I’m afraid my boyfriend is upset. “I threw up a little.
There was a moment of silence over there, and then the sound of breaking things.
Then Qin Xu and I broke up, split up completely, and no further contact.
I lied to him about my boyfriend. I didn’t want to leave him with hope, and I didn’t want to give myself any back.
I don’t want to go across the Pacific to guess who the woman was on his phone or who was afraid of the girl who blocked his mouth when he didn’t get back to me in time.
It’s not funny.
Eight years later, I thought I might be able to cry when I saw him again, but in fact, when time was flat, I was just a little bit, just a little bit.
“The family came to my office. I’m sorry.
I looked back, and he turned around, and left me only a shadow.
I followed it in silence.
Yangchuan stands in the hallway, and he’s like, “Smoking, look, I’m the one who’s gonna have to do this. I’m sorry.
“Don’t come back again. I’m sorry.
“You’re breaking up again? How did you get so stubborn? I’m sorry.
“I’ve always been like this. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Me and him are in a state of embarrassment, and Qin Xu is on the corner.
“Can you go home and fight?” “I have other patients.” I’m sorry.
8
I shut up right now.
It’s embarrassing.
I thought I’d break up with him, find a close boyfriend, have three meals a day and have a sweet life together.
As a result, he saw with his own eyes that my life and feelings were the same.
I followed him to the office.
The anticipated nostalgia did not appear.
Qin Xu, with a heart model, analyses me professionally, talks me out, looks cold.
He really hates me.
“Do you understand?”
“It’s okay. I’m actually a little nervous.
“In any case, I personally suggest that your father do another heart projection, not ignore the potential risks for just two years. I’m sorry.
“All right. I’m sorry.
I’m sitting there, ready to say something to ease the embarrassment.
That’s when a doctor little sister came in.
She looked at me, looked at Qin Xu, smiled so much, “Are there any patients?” I’ll book a hotel. Use your car? I’m sorry.
“Hmm. “There’s not much expression on Yangkawa’s face.
Little sister pulled his drawer, “You wear gloves, I’ll do it myself. I’m sorry.
She came up with a bunch of keys, “Just order the dishes, I know you’re busy, don’t worry. I’m sorry.
She’s out laughing.
This little episode gives me a glimpse.
When she’s gone, I’m feeling a little sour in my heart.
Girlfriend?
“When will you get married? I’m sorry.
We’re talking at the same time.
The air is dead.
Looks like this girlfriend’s 10th.
She’s so gentle, so natural, and so natural.
I wanted to think about my situation and suddenly I didn’t want to lose too bad.
“Being soon. I’ll answer first.
“We’ll buy you a drink. I’m sorry.
He looked at me, and he didn’t look well, “No time. I’m sorry.
I was rejected directly, and I felt nothing but a few words that were not itching, and I consciously withdrew.
On the way back to the ward, I saw the female doctor, who was fine, standing in front of the ward, and the patient kept holding her hand and saying thank you.
Then I heard the nurse say her name was Zhou Zhou Zhou, and she was Qin Xu’s sister abroad.
It does fit to study together, work together.
I went back to the ward.
9
During the following two days, after working late at night, Lin asked me to go to the barbeque after work.
The aisle is narrow and twisted.
I was in the wrong room.
As soon as I walked in, I saw a bunch of strangers staring at me.
I’m embarrassed. It’s good that Lynlyn came by and grabbed me. “Smoking, wrong, this way. I’m sorry.
“Sorry. I’m sorry I just left.
Qin Xu! I’m sorry.
When I heard Lin Lin’s voice and looked at her, I saw Qin Xu sitting in the corner.
He sat there in peace, and the light fell from his head, as if the five officials were more in shape, and the jaw line was smooth, with a weak face and a cold inside and outside.
A male colleague asked.
“Well, high school students! “Lin Lin has come from a familiar, generous introduction.
He didn’t talk, he looked at me.
“Let’s eat together. “Hello, colleagues.
Everyone started moving. Very enthusiastic.
Lin Lin and I had to sit next to each other.
I sat next to him.
I saw Dr. Zhou sitting on the other side of Qin Xu.
She looked at me in the face and laughed, “This is not your patient’s family. Are you a classmate?”
He looked up at me, “Well. I’m sorry.
“Just tell me how you’ve been working so hard lately. I’m sorry.
Zhou Zhou was smiling, but the smile was a little ugly.
I’m a little embarrassed.
I envy Linin’s familiarity, the smoothness of the rosy, and the wanton spilling of a crowd of people, and I am as sensitive as a monster.
“Okay, shut up. Qin Xu looked at them and brought a drink.
Someone gave him a cigarette, and he looked at me with the rest of it, “Fine. I’m sorry.
“No? You didn’t quit? Men like that. “I’m not sure what I’m talking about.
I’ve been smoking it in my heart.
In freshman year, I learned that he learned to smoke, and I was worried that we were fighting.
I cried when I was too young.
He made me sleep all night, promised I’d never smoke again.
Men’s words are not credible.
I don’t see much.
“Not tonight. His voice was shallow and he refused.
Then people started drinking and eating meat.
He pushed my cup forward and prevented it from falling.
And then someone handed me the barbecue string, and the signature was out.
He’s listening to other people talking to him, but he can still reach out to my head while someone brings soup.
He’s really nice, polite and gentlemanly.
Just, no longer belongs to me.
“Smoking, he’s your father’s doctor?” What a coincidence. #Linlin seems so excited #
“It’s amazing. * I laughed and didn’t talk *
We’re all young people, and there’s a proposal for a genuine adventure.
It’s my turn to ask when the first love is.
His fingers were knocking on the table, intentionally or accidentally, waiting for my answer.
“The freshman year. I’m telling you the truth.
I saw a radians in his mouth.
“With whom?” asked again.
I was nervously looking at Qin Xu.
“What’s wrong with girls?” He’s got his head up and he’s like, “I can’t stand it.” I’m sorry.
It’s his turn to win.
“Dr. Qin, how old was your first time? I’m sorry.
“Then you have to make it clear whether it’s on paper or in battle. I’m sorry.
Everybody’s up.
He stares at me for half a day without saying the answer, laughing, “I drink. I’m sorry.
It’s a loss.
“Dr. Qin, you can’t afford it…”
“This situation is either non-existent or too young to say. I’m sorry.
People are laughing again.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
I haven’t seen him in love, let alone anything else. I guess he didn’t say anything in front of me.
How can a man like him not?
“How about I leave my precious first smoke?” I’m sorry.
I was so ashamed of myself, “You’ll never be so serious again, I’ll…”
“Just what?”
“Not to you. I’m sorry.
And he laughed so badly, and he cried, “When will my little princess grow up?”
At the end of the game, everyone turns to drink, my turn, he stops again.
“Let’s stop drinking and get some soy milk. I’m sorry.
“Dr. Qin, I want to be a girl, I want to drink milk. A boy starts skinning.
Qin Xu said, “Go home.” I’m sorry.
The male colleagues stopped talking and drank in silence.
“All right, I can actually. “I took a drink directly.
I’m really okay with all these years of business. I don’t drink.
After drinking, I was impressed and praised for being the best woman.
But he looked at me like he was mad.
“Doctor Qin is too short for you. I’m sorry.
“It’s also a girl. Doctor Zhou hasn’t stopped you from drinking. I’m sorry.
Qin Xu wasn’t angry with anyone but smiled and didn’t talk.
At the end of the day, I went out to the bathroom and I got stopped.
“Stop drinking. * He leans against the wall, and his voice smells like orders. *
“I’m fine. I laughed at him, “I usually drink more with clients than this.” I’m sorry.
“They’re not your clients, neither am I. * He’s staring at me, looks a little grumpy *
“Who knows if there are potential customers? I’m just kidding.
He was suffocating, “You don’t have to do that in front of me. I’m sorry.
After that he turned back to the booth.
What does it matter if I drink?
What’s he mad about?
10
I never talked to him.
After dinner, Lynn and my house were in the opposite direction. She took a cab.
I hit a car and just got in.
“Take a ride?” He held the door and asked.
“I live north. My first reaction was to refuse.
Because I wasn’t happy with him tonight, but I was embarrassed, and Zhou was there, and I didn’t want to be alone with him.
“I live up north, too, and it’s expensive. There’s no need to waste it. He has reason and reason.
Me?
“Dr. Qin said it’s expensive. Does your father agree? I’m sorry.
“Just say if you want to send someone home. I’m sorry.
A group of people are gushing again.
I look at Zhou’s side and the smile is about to collapse.
I don’t understand why these people are so blind. They always joke about me and Qin Xu.
But Qin Xu is also strange. I don’t know what to do.
Finally I pulled the door and took the co-pilot.
Qin Xu smiled, but didn’t say much.
It’s crazy that Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou has come in.
So on the way, only Zhou Zhou kept talking to Qin Xu, and he occasionally answered, and I kept playing with my cell phone when I was a quiet mute.
Lynne sent it.
“Is Qin Xu interested in you? I’m sorry.
Yeah.
Lin’s still giving me evidence that Qin Xu likes me, and I’m scared and my heart’s beating.
Then Zhou Zhou Zhou Zhou Qin Qin Zhu is still out of the car.
I’m more nervous.
I had to get out of the car and he looked at the direction of my house and asked, “He’s not coming to pick you up?”
I’m heavy.
“Absolutely. I said something.
“What’s the matter with you? He said nothing.
I don’t know how to answer, just don’t answer, get out of the car.
I saw Yanggawa in the car.
My heart was tight, I was unconscious to see Qin Xu’s direction, the windows were shaking, and I drove along the road.
OKAY, OKAY.
Yangchuan stood under a bus stop and watched me dead.
“Who’s in the car?” That’s his first sentence.
I think it’s a bit confusing and lazy.
“That’s why you broke up with me? He threw the bag at me.
I didn’t expect him to be so aggressive, he couldn’t hide.
The package of metal pieces hit me on the head, and I fell on the waiting chair at the bus station, and I was in a bit of a hurry.
“You’re crazy!” I’m so angry.
“I’m crazy because you’re breaking up, and I’m calming down for a few days, and I can’t figure out why you broke up with me, and you found your next home and kicked me out. I’m sorry.
“He’s my classmate. He’s got a girlfriend. We’ll catch a ride. You’re unbelievable. I’m sorry.
“You didn’t lie to me?”
Blood fell from my forehead.
He panicked.
“Smoking, did it hit you? I was wrong. I’m sorry.
“You’re right. I was wrong. I was blind. I’m sorry.
It hurts and it scares me. I go straight home.
He’s running too.
I didn’t give him a chance to press the elevator fast, go upstairs, enter the door, lock back.
He probably didn’t expect me to lock it back, react for seconds outside the door, start taping.
I went to the bedroom to call for help.
It’s just Lynn.
But Lin Lin is just a girl, and I’m afraid Yangchuan’s rushing to do anything, and finally he hasn’t told Lin Lin.
He started calling me again.
“Don’t ask me to look for a relationship with your father. I’ll make a cow for your family.
“You think you’re the only woman in the world? I’m telling you, I wouldn’t have to do it if it wasn’t for the wedding.
“Your father is still a liability, except for me.
“I’ve heard that your class is the best in the countdown. Look what you’ve done without me, you’ll be even worse!
“I’ll give you five more minutes and if you don’t open the door, we’re done, I swear to God! Still fucking used to you?”
I was shaking.
It’s like I’ve been punched with a blunt instrument, my dignity, my pride, torn down and trampled by him.
I’ll call the police! I’m sorry.
My hands were shaking to remove his conversation directly and, in a panic, to delete all contact details from him and his family and friends.
The last man crouched on the foot of the bed and shed tears.
The phone was suddenly vibrating and it was a local strange number.
After a while, I answered the phone.
“Hello. “I didn’t think I had a cry in my mouth.
“Your lipstick fell on…” Qin Xu said in half, “What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
“Nothing. I tried to stop my tears. Help me throw it away. I’m sorry.
I hung up after that.
Eleven.
I don’t know when Yangkawa left or when I cried until I fell asleep.
The next morning, I woke up on my mom’s phone.
It’s like having a nightmare, dizziness, disgustingness, incompetence.
My mom said Dad had another heart attack last night, and the operation was early at 10:00 this morning.
I didn’t have time to be sad and covered my eyes with dust.
I couldn’t take care of it. I was in a hurry to get dressed, and I almost tripped when I opened the door.
Yangchuan?
He’s all paralyzed on the ground, his hair glows, his face is black and his eyebags are falling to his chin… and he looks desolate and angry.
He sat here all night?
I’m shocked.
But more is disgusting and fear.
“Smoking. I’m sorry.
I didn’t say anything, I didn’t even give him a face, I closed the door, I just went around him and went straight to the elevator.
But at the last minute of the elevator, he kept his hand out of the way and came in.
“Last night… it was my urge because you didn’t open the door or answer the phone, and I was going crazy. He took a deep breath and said, “I’m losing my mind. I’m sorry.
Huh. I suddenly wanted to laugh.
“It’s insane to return my bag without my consent?” When you gave your mom your birthday with the refund, it looked like you had a lot of intelligence. I’m sorry.
“What are you going to do to forgive me?” Can I get you down on your knees?”
He kneeled directly in the elevator and held my leg.
I can’t stand it.
“Give me your phone. * I’m not angry, I’m quiet.
“Smoke, will you forgive me? He gave me his phone with joy.
I took his phone and dialed his mother’s video.
“A smoke, Yangchuan, how can you two be together in the morning? “I’m not sure what I’m talking about.”
I pointed the camera directly at Yangchuan, who was on his knees, and said, “Please, keep an eye on your son, he’ll come after me and I’ll put him in jail. I’m sorry.
Yangchuan! What are you doing on your knees? Get up, you’re mad at Mom! “It’s just that his mother’s roar is on the phone.
“Mom…” Yangkawa was shocked.
I threw my phone at him and my head was gone.
Pull the door, I’ll gas it, the car’s out.
12
By the time I got to the hospital, the surgery had already begun.
“Why are you wearing a mask?” my mother asked.
“I’ve got a cold. I’m afraid it’ll spread to you.”
It was a night of crying last night, and I was sitting on the floor and I fell cold this morning.
My mom told me about the doctor, and then she said,
“You go ahead and get some medicine. I’ll stay here. The cold can’t be ignored, so don’t drag yourself down. I’m sorry.
“It’s okay, I’m not going. I’m sorry.
I’ve just had a fight with Yanggawa, and I’m losing my mind.
I talked to my mom. She just got one.
I have a strange feeling.
I saw my mom’s face and my heart sank.
“What happened between you and Yangchuan? I’m sorry.
I knew that the man in Yangchuan, who made me give in to 10 million ways, used my parents, and he tried so hard.
It’s over. I’ve given up on it.
It’s good to know, so I don’t feel so bad.
“Shared? My mom looked at me so hard, “What’s the big deal?” Do you think marriage is a child’s play?”
“It’s because we don’t play marriage. I took a deep breath, “I won’t live well with him, I’ll die.” I’m sorry.
My mom took a look at me, and she was so mad at me.
“Families come in. One voice interrupted us.
I looked up at Qin Xu’s eyes, and he stood at the door, and he didn’t know how long.
He heard it again.
Let him see my failed love. I’d really like to find a place to go in.
I stood up and went to the observation room next to the operating room with my mom.
I’m in the air.
“Doctor, thank you. Our old man is counting on you. Qin Xu is grateful to my mother.
He looked at me with concern, and he saw a little emotion.
“Don’t worry, it’s our duty as doctors. I’m sorry.
My mom and I are going out for a while.
One second I told the doctor I thanked her, and as soon as I turned around, I said, “I disagree with the break-up!” I’m sorry.
I’m heavy.
Because I saw Qin Xu close the door and heard it again.
In front of him, I was down again.
“You don’t agree, then you go over there with him. I’m sorry.
This is the first time in my life that I’ve fought against my mother.
My mom’s got a mouth open, and she’s so angry.
“How can you say that? I’m sorry.
I guess I never spoke to my mom. She turned and cried.
She cried and I panicked.
I had to go down there and wipe her tears.
“You never yelled at me. “My mother is so miserable.
“I didn’t yell at you. I’m sorry.
I can’t stop crying. She’s just the way she was. She’s having trouble with me.
I’m suffocating, “I’m talking to you, you’re not listening. I’m sorry.
“We used to be like this, we went shopping together, we tried clothes together, I told you everything, but now you won’t listen. I’m sorry.
“Can this be compared to that? It’s your life. * My mother’s tears are on her face *
“If you live with my dad, and you’re unhappy, will you be with him? I asked her.
Actually, don’t look at my mom as she’s always tough and arbitrary.
My dad’s all for her.
“What’s wrong with Yangchuan?” Why can’t you take it? I’m sorry.
“Because of the three differences. I’m sorry.
“I don’t know what you young people look like. My mom’s still mad, “Don’t tell your dad, the hotel’s booked, the wedding’s fixed, the relatives and friends are invited, what do you want me to tell them? I’m sorry.
“Your dad’s gonna be pissed off. I’m sorry.
I’m not talking.
That’s where I hesitated, but I didn’t want to spend the day like this.
“When my dad’s ready. I’m sorry.
“You…” My mom can’t help it. She’s just upset.
13
The surgery went well.
After the operation, Qin Xu came to check the house.
“Good recovery, heart rate, blood oxygen, normal diet, not too irritating, or normal out-of-the-bed activity, without intense exercise. I’m sorry.
“Dr. Qin, you’re such a good man. “My mom says so.”
“It’s my job. Qin Xu just left and looked at me, and his head was twisted.
“What’s wrong? He asked me, “What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
He hasn’t looked at me since he got into the ward. I thought he didn’t want anything to do with me.
“A little. I’m telling the truth.
I’m already dizzy, and I’m completely willy.
“What’s wrong?” My dad asked.
“She has a cold. “My mother said to reach out and touch my forehead, “Oh, it’s hot. I’m sorry.
“Then go get a number and get some medicine. My dad started worrying about me from the operating table.
“What’s the number, isn’t there a doctor here, Dr. Qin? Would you take a look at my daughter? My mother was so busy laughing.
Qin Xu stood there and looked at me not talking.
“Mom, he’s a cardiologist. He can’t see anything. I go to the clinic. I’m sorry.
I explained to my mom that I didn’t want to embarrass him.
“Oh, I see. You go to the clinic. My mom pushed me.
“Come here. Qin Xu’s face is still light, “I’ll show you, don’t bother. I’m sorry.
“Dr. Qin, thank you. Qin Xu has been busy with me.
I had to go with him to his office.
“Sit wherever you want, I’ll change. ”He dropped this and went to the dressing room.
I sat on his bench and looked around.
His desk is full of all kinds of information, pens, and all kinds of colors.
He’s changed so much, it’s hard to imagine that he was the scum in high school.
When he dropped out of the United States in the middle of his senior year, I didn’t know what happened. The only thing I could contact was his QQ.
I sent him the wrong message for freshman year. I’m sorry.
I couldn’t get back when I found him. Guess he didn’t have to use the QQ.
And then, half a month later, he answered me.
“What’s wrong?”
I didn’t log in much at the time.
A day later, he asked, “What’s the dumb? I’m sorry.
In the next few days, he sent a few more messages.
“To die or to live, say something? I’m sorry.
“Happy me?”
“Don’t you think you don’t talk, I don’t know what you saw? I’m sorry.
“Smoking, you’re so annoying, you talk. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
When I checked in a month later, I found out that he had sent me a month of messages intermittently.
And the last one is, “Do you believe me, I’ll come back for you this weekend?” I’m sorry.
I was surprised to see it, and I explained it to him in a grotesque mood.
“I’m sorry I didn’t use QQ for a month, but the message was wrong. I’m sorry.
A few seconds later, I saw his side show, “I’m entering…”
After about a minute, he finally sent a message.
“Oh. I’m sorry.
One word for a minute?
And then we talked all night on QQQ, and he said very little, basically I did.
When I got to college, everything wasn’t so familiar. I felt alone, but I felt like I couldn’t stop talking to him.
He seems to have a lot of time to listen to my little fart in military training.
Every time I told him, “I went to the bath.” I’m sorry.
He goes back, “Oh. I’m sorry.
Until one day I told him that I was going to take a bath, and he said, “When you have finished, I’m sorry.
We said, ‘Do you have anything else?’ I’m sorry.
“You want to talk to me? I’m sorry.
“It’s late. Why don’t you talk to someone else?”
“Who am I looking for?”
“Other classmates, your friends, don’t you get tired of listening to me? I’m sorry.
“Smoke, are you stupid or are you pretending?”
What do you mean?
“I get up every day at 6 a.m. to talk to you for a month. I’m sorry.
I saw the word “choo-hoo” and my heart was beating up.
It’s not that I don’t feel it, it’s just that I’m too young to break that piece of paper, and it’s so scary to be moving.
I’m embarrassed to come back and take a shower with a big heartbeat.
After the bath, the heart beats.
And I was in the nest, and I saw the message from him: “Give you one night’s thought, and tell me the answer at this time tomorrow, and don’t hang me.” I’m sorry.
So I couldn’t sleep all night.
And the next night, I thought I had thought it through enough to have the courage to send him a message: “Then ask me now.” I’m sorry.
“Be my girlfriend? My little princess. I’m sorry.
“Good. I’m sorry.
14
I’m thinking of God…
There was a wind in the window and the door in the dressing room was blown.
I hear voices, condition reflection to see.
I saw him naked on the top of his eyes and I didn’t know where to put them.
“Close the door for me? His cold voice came.
I stand up, “Okay. I’m sorry.
A few steps went to the dressing room door, closing the door, but I was already dizzy, up too hard, I couldn’t stand it, I wanted to hold the door frame, but I felt a warm hand.
“Don’t move. “Magnetic voice coming from my ears, I’m so confused, “Don’t scratch. I’m sorry.
The first reaction was to pull back his hand, but he held it back.
“What’s so bad about being anaemic? I’m sorry.
“A little. I’m sorry.
He took me back to my seat, dressed myself, walked to the office door and closed the door.
Huh?
Turns out the wind blew the door to the office. He shuts me down.
Well…
He came back and sat quietly at the desk and handed me a thermometer.
“To measure body temperature first. I’m sorry.
I’m going around to put the thermometer in.
“Take off the mask, let me see. * He’s got a flashlight, he’s got me on my head, he’s looking at my throat. *
“38.5 degrees, low fever. He looked at the thermometer and took out the listener, “It might be necessary to lift up the clothes.” I’m sorry.
I’m all over it.
If I were another doctor, I’d be up in the open, but after all, he was my ex-boyfriend, and I was really embarrassed.
We talked to him for two months and we didn’t actually see each other, much less anything else, except for the video.
“Not through the clothes?” I whispered.
I’m a doctor. He looked at me seriously.
I understand. He’s saying I suspect his professional conduct.
I had to bite my teeth and pull my clothes up.
Because it’s spring, I’m wearing a sweater with a thin T-shirt.
When he came in with a stethoscope, I got a goose bump.
He’s a doctor, but he’s the one I like.
We used to say something on the phone that was heartbreaking.
“Smoking, eating, and growing. I’m sorry.
“They say girls smell nice and soft, it must be nice to hold them. I’m sorry.
“I’m sure I can bear it, but if it were you, it would be hard to say…”
I’m guilty. How can I think of this in my head?
I put my face on the other side, and I didn’t dare to look at him, and I was afraid that he might hear my beating.
He listened carefully for over a minute.
“A little inflammation. He took out the stethoscope, and he looked so cooler than I did, “I’ll give you some medicine, you buy it at the pharmacy.” I’m sorry.
“Oh, good.”
I’m glad that my face is red because of the fever.
Or it’s really embarrassing to die.
He wrote it on a piece of paper and handed it to me.
“Thank you, I’ll go out first. I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
He started writing his medical records and ignored me.
It’s true that the body is in the eyes of a doctor.
Cold!
I walked out, I saw a word on the list that didn’t know much, and I pushed him in.
“Here’s a word…”
I didn’t finish my speech until I saw how he stood up, leaned in the window, blew the wind.
Listen to my voice, he’s turning back, and he’s in a different mood.
I walked over and showed him.
“Pneumonia. When he opened his mouth, I found his voice dumb.
I’m a little weird and I don’t think much.
She came to the door and met Zhou Zhou, and she smiled at me, and she walked towards Qin Xu.
“Dr. Qin, what’s wrong with your face?” Her voice broke over the office.
Is Qin Xu blushing? Thinking of the scene, my face gets redder.
I speeded up and ran.
15
A few days later, Qin Xue hid from me.
I don’t understand why.
Maybe he’s embarrassed, maybe he still hates me, after all I said I broke up.
“Doctor Qin is really good to your father, has never seen such a careful doctor, has nothing to do with anything, speaks cold every day, but has considered everything. Every time I come, my mother talks to me.
“He cares about you, asks if you’ve taken your medicine, asks if you have a cold. I’m sorry.
“Oh. * Ask me, don’t ask directly, or avoid me *
Yangchuan doesn’t bother me because I hacked him and he texted my mother every day.
My mother naturally talks in my ear every day, and I blacked Yangchuan directly on her phone.
My mom looked at me, and she was like, “Come on, you’re old, Mom can’t control you, think about your own way. Yangkawa was really nice to you…”
I hear something funny.
If she knows, she’s a good man. Send it to me.
“Mom, it’s impossible for me and him. I’ll die with him. I’m sorry.
I don’t think I’m going to be able to live with what Yangchuan said. I don’t want them to be embarrassed.
“How is that impossible? “What did my mother suddenly think, “Tell Mom honestly, do you like someone else? I’m sorry.
I’ve been feeling a little bit more shocked.
“What are you thinking? * I’m wearing a smile to cover my heart *
“Yeah, I wouldn’t have done it for you. I’m sorry.
My mom groaned into the ward.
I was standing there for a while, and I was just leaving and I saw Qin Xu as soon as I turned around.
The heart panics.
Qin, Dr. Qin.
“Hmm. He’s in a good mood. “Your dad’s out tomorrow. I’m sorry.
“Yes. I’m sorry.
“Is the cold better?”
“Okay, thanks.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
He looked at me, stopped talking and ended up in the next room with his medical records.
I don’t know if he heard, or if he heard, or if he heard…
Aware of what I was thinking, I scolded myself in my heart.
She’s got a girlfriend. She’s a girl. What am I thinking?
Come home at night and Lin Lin has come to my house again.
Listen to me about Yangchuan. She’s pissed off.
“The Pussin Man, he’s down! I’m sorry.
“I thought he was just self-righteous. I can’t see it. I can’t believe that a man who’s serious can say that. I’m sorry.
“You’re right to break up with him, and don’t tell your parents he’s too hurtful to trust him. I’m sorry.
I laughed when I watched her raise her fists, and I couldn’t stand to step on Yanggawa.
I think my friendship with Lynne over the years is probably due to our personality.
I hate Yangchuan like that, but I can’t say it.
Every time a fight was fought, he was made to cry.
“I’ve been lately…” and she came to my ear in a mysterious way. I’m sorry.
My heart snapped.
“Who is it?”
“Senior in high school. She said she was full of faces and laughed.
Sergeant? “I remember, the one with glasses and no rest for lunch?
Qin Xu introduced it. “Linlyn smiles and says,
I’m even more shocked.
I thought Lin said he was after Qin Xu
“He’s so mundane, he’s so red, I didn’t like cold-faced men, but he’s cute and abstinence and he loves it. I’m sorry.
She looks happy. I can’t imagine how two people so different could get together.
“Then don’t bully people. I’m sorry.
“You can’t bully him! I’m sorry.
We talked and laughed.
She sleeps with me at night.
“Smoking, what do you think of Qin Xu? She suddenly asked me.
“How about what?”
“I don’t know if it’s a delusion. I always thought he liked you a little bit. I’m sorry.
“It’s like that day we met for barbecue, and he looked out for you, and his eyes were not blind. I’m sorry.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
“You know what? I added him for a while.
I was silent for a few seconds, and I sneezed, “Linlyn, he won’t like me. I’m sorry.
“What do you mean you don’t like? It’s like you’ve talked about it.”
“Well, I did.
“What? I’m sorry.
16
So that night, me and Lynne talked until 3:00 in the morning.
We told her about my love with Qin Xu.
“You’re so mean, you didn’t even tell me I was going after him the other day. I’m sorry.
“I’m long gone with him. Break up with me, he hates me. And his sister-in-law, most of whom is his girlfriend, is avoiding me at the hospital. There’s nothing going on. I’m not going to tell anyone. I’m sorry.
“Who says hiding from you means he hates you? “If he does put it down, he won’t hide from you.”
“I really didn’t think you’d talk to him. I’m just stinging your ass.
“Did you say he liked you in high school? I’m sorry.
“No way. I’m sorry.
And then we talked, and Lynne finally fell asleep.
And I couldn’t sleep.
High school memories came out crazy, and I seem to be back eight years ago.
Then Qin Xu sat behind me.
He goes to bed in class, is sober, is a typical problem student.
As the head of the team, the most annoying thing I do every day is to collect my work and always press him, but he never writes.
One day I finally woke him up.
Can we make a bet?
“What’s the bet?” He looked me in the face with a mess of hair.
“Let’s do our homework, see who writes fast, and the losers are punished. I’m sorry.
“Oh? What punishment?” He smiles and laughs.
“Just punish a bottle of Wang Chai. I’m losing my temper.
“Okay. I’m sorry.
I didn’t expect him to be so happy.
Thinking that the problem of non-working was solved.
But…
“Are you finished?”
When I was doing my homework, he stabbed me in the back and asked me.
It’s finished. I showed him the book.
“Oh, I lost again. “He looked sad, took out a bottle from the drawer, handed it to me and fell asleep again.
Then every day, he loses, never wins, even if I put the water.
“Lieutenant, no homework today? I’m sorry.
See, the problem student is a pain in the ass. I’m not playing anymore. He reminds me.
“Forget it, you’ll lose your living expenses later. I’m sorry.
“Yeah. He pointed to his drawer, “It’s all changed.” I’m sorry.
I looked there.
Dude, there’s no book. There’s a drawer for Wang.
He’s hopeless.
I don’t know.
And then I fell asleep.
I had a dream.
In the dream, I went back to high school, and he was wearing a school uniform, standing in front of the classroom, laughing at me in the morning light, while I was wearing a work uniform.
He said, “How are you, my little princess?” I’m sorry.
When I woke up, I found my pillow wet.
17
The next day I picked up my dad and got out.
I thought I’d tell him when he was better.
The last time Qin Xu visited the house, he ordered a large part of it.
My mom’s done listening, holding his hand for thanks.
“Dr. Qin, you really are the most caring doctor I’ve ever met, and I hear you’re still single, and I don’t know which girl has been able to marry you for years. I’m sorry.
I just listened, and I stayed. She has a girlfriend.
” Aunty overrated. He doesn’t have any face.
“Seriously, Dr. Qin, my cousin’s cousin’s cousin’s daughter is also a doctor.
My mom is crazy. I’m sitting next to her, embarrassed for her.
“Mom, people…” I poked my mother’s arm, “A girlfriend. I’m sorry.
“Ah?” My mother’s face is embarrassing.
And he looked at me, and he shook his head, “No. I’m sorry.
No. I kind of felt hit in the face.
“Dr. Qin, I can add you.
Qin Xu looks at me and doesn’t talk.
I can see why.
“Mom, I’ve got your phone on Qin’s office. Just call. I’ll say it quickly.
“I see. I thought you kids were used to it.
“Yes. “He suddenly came up with a line, and then touched his cell phone out of the white box, and pulled out a two-dimensional code.
“Dr. Qin, you are such a good man. “My mother was on the lookout, rushing me, “Come on. I’m sorry.
I’m just stupid.
But he’s got his cell phone out. I can’t say it without saying it.
I had to put it on my head.
His.
My first reaction is this is a couple’s head, right?
Looks like he and Zhou Zhou Zhou are just confused.
I’m in a bad mood and I’m sore and I’m not talking.
“Smoking, why haven’t you seen Yangchuan these days? My dad suddenly asked.
My mom stopped talking and finally looked at me.
“He’s…” and my heart’s about to say, “He’s busy. I’m sorry.
“Well, young people are right to do business. My father’s language is very long.
I’m not answering.
“It’s time to sign out of the hospital. Qin Xu’s mobile phone was taken back and the mood was rare.
“Good. I looked at him in silence, but he didn’t look at me, and turned away.
Why are you so angry?
My dad went out of bed to make his own things.
He looked like he was still alive and said he could still do it.
“Smoke, don’t worry, Dad’s own body knows it. I’m sorry.
“Just know. I’m sorry.
I don’t know what I’m thinking. My legs are on his own.
I went to see Qin Xu.
Several rounds were made at the door of his office and it was not clear how to speak later.
“What can I do for you? A cold sound floats down from above.
It’s Qin Xu.
“Well, a little. When I looked up, I saw him in a white coat and followed a bunch of intern doctors. I’m sorry.
“Mrs. Qin, don’t you want to lecture us about our 306 patient? The trainee came out.
He looked at me and turned to the students and said, “Go and see, I’ll be there in a moment.” I’m sorry.
“Oh oh. I’m sorry.
A group of interns, you know the expression that I understand, and everyone who walks by me is curious and I’m a little uncomfortable.
“Let’s go. Qin Xu said seriously, the intern stepped up and went away.
It seems that he is in a bad mood today.
“Come in. He opened the door and went in first.
“Good. I’ll follow in.
“Lock the door. I’m sorry.
“Aah? Okay. I went back to lock the door.
“Go ahead. He sits across from me and he’s all low-pressure.
“I want to ask you a favor. I’m sorry.
He didn’t talk, he just looked at me.
“Can you tell my dad seriously that he can’t work, he can’t do heavy work, and I don’t want him to work, but he’s stubborn, you’re a doctor, you’re a doctor, he’s supposed to listen…”
“I didn’t ask you to lie, I just didn’t want my dad to work. I’m sorry.
I explained to him.
“You know I’m a doctor. “What makes you think I’d set a precedent for you?” I’m sorry.
My heart sank.
It’s a little awkward, I kind of want to go.
But when I think of my dad’s body, I’m still hard-headed and I keep talking.
Qin Xu. I said, “Can you help me for our old classmates? I’m sorry.
“Old classmate?” He smiled, “What else? I’m sorry.
And?
I’m talking about my voice.
I thought he forgot, and he remembered, and also, revenge.
“We’ve been together for a short time, can you…”
I said those words hard enough, and the whole man was roasted on fire.
“You remember? Don’t you forget everything? He’s laughing and interrupting me.
I think I’d better go.
Result –
“Yes. * He said two words in cold blood *
Again?
“Thank you, then. I’m sorry.
This guy is a lot faster than a book.
He’s down, he’s got a medical history, he’s got a scrawny handwriting, he can see it, he’s a little upset.
He ignores me and I stand up and go.
“What did you just call me? * And he’s got his voice behind him *
I turn around, “Qin Wuk?”
“Hmm. He looked at me, and he looked at me, and he looked at me, “Eight years, I haven’t heard of it. I’m sorry.
“I’ve heard it on the phone a million times, for the first time ever. * And he sighs, “and that’s all *
I stand still.
Because I saw his eyes red.
I was sore at him, I didn’t even think about it, I tried to get away.
18
Later, my father resigned on the advice of a doctor, and my mother resigned on my advice because my father needed care.
The company has undergone significant personnel changes.
The leader transferred me to the next city for business.
The bonus will be higher, plus food, car and accommodation allowances, and in general the salary will double.
In fact, the leader tried to transfer me, but soon after Yangchuan and I had settled down, the two families planned the wedding and said that they were going to have children, and they didn’t agree that I was going anywhere.
“It’s a man’s business for a girl to be safe. I’m sorry.
The leadership asked me to think about it one more night, and I actually have the answer.
The schedule is in two weeks.
As a result, the next day the leader told me that the schedule of work was moving ahead and leaving tomorrow.
I’m a little caught up. I have to go back and talk to Mom and Dad.
At night, I went to my parents’ house and asked to cook.
I learned to cook a few dishes, but I failed.
The cola chicken wings are gone.
The lassed potatoes became an unknown mass.
The stench is not ripe.
But my dad ate good.
“The smokes grow and cook. I’m sorry.
My father ate the fried chicken wings and said, “I like the smell of a little bit of charred. I’m sorry.
“It’s the smell of a girl growing up. I’m sorry.
I saw the smile on his face, the sour nose, and the work.
“I’ll do it for you all the time. “I got him a broken chicken wings.
“A daughter will marry. Your father will never enjoy it. “My mom was joking.
“I don’t want to marry. I’ll stay with you forever. I’m sorry.
“What nonsense?” My mom looked at me.
My dad clearly saw something, and he dropped his chopsticks, “Come on, what’s wrong? I’m sorry.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
“I broke up with Yangchuan for a month and a half. The company arranged for me to work in the next city. I looked at my dad, “I’m leaving tomorrow.” I’m sorry.
My dad didn’t say anything. Just looking at me.
“His parents also know that the wedding is over, that the hotel is back, that the wedding is over, and that the down payment will not be recovered. I’m telling the truth.
He’s carrying low air pressure.
“We’ve been giving you anything you want since you were a kid, college, major, final job, everything. Did we spoil you? You’re not even talking to your parents about the big thing? I’m sorry.
“Did you break up when I was in the hospital? I’m sorry.
He was so angry at the table.
I was scared to take a breath.
My mom looked at my dad, and she looked at me again, and she couldn’t stop.
The atmosphere was embarrassing and suffocating.
I watched my dad get all red-faced, and I think he’s getting sick again, and he’s sweating on his forehead.
I’m in a hurry.
“Dad, don’t be angry, you have a bad heart…”
“Can I not be angry?”
He must be very disappointed in me.
Just think about it. I can’t help but cry.
“Dad, do I have to get married?” I asked him.
“What did you say?”
I stood on my head, stubbornly, and kept my tears from falling.
“I have to buy a house, have a baby, empty my family’s savings and put myself in it all the time? Winning a bet would be a busy life for a family to succeed; losing a bet, maybe a divorce, maybe a kid wouldn’t have to spend the rest of his life in remorse?
“I thought I was working, I could support myself, I could support you, and you’re retired, and we can travel on weekends and I can spend more time with you.
“But if you want me to get married, I won’t let my day and night go by, I won’t let my work go on, I’ll make money, I’ll look at his face, I’ll buy his mother’s face, and I’ll have to go through the family’s consent.
“I really think every day that I’m working hard, trying to live, for what?
“But every day I haven’t figured it out yet, and I have to get caught in the subway, the bus station, the red and green light… A hasty day after day, like a mule, blindfolded and blinded, is only lured by a beautiful blueprint painted by men, who turn around without fatigue.
“So, I don’t understand, do I have to get married to get so-called happiness, or do I just have to shut up so that people don’t say, “Look at how old she’s still married, there’s something wrong?”
“So, do I have to get married? I’m sorry.
My mother listened to me, and she was shocked.
My dad’s always staring at me, he’s so heavy.
After a long time, he finally groaned and stood up.
“Father wants you to marry, not for anyone! “It’s Mom and Dad who can’t stay with you forever.” I’m sorry.
After that, he dragged himself to the room and walked slowly.
My mom was in a hurry to go up to the drawer and get my dad some medicine.
I stood there and lost my grip.
A dinner broke out.
I stayed there all night.
The next morning, I woke up in the bathroom and saw my father, dressed up and sitting on the couch.
“Dad. I’m sorry.
“I heard your mother say you’re going to work next door today? I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“It’s only 6:00. Are you sleeping?” He asked me.
“No sleep. I’m sorry.
“Then come sit down. He took a picture of where he was.
I went over, sat down and waited for him to speak.
19
But no.
My dad talked to me about my childhood.
Words are full of love and pride.
For half an hour he had a smile on his face.
“Let’s break up. Wedding, hotel, relatives. I’m sorry.
I looked at my dad, “I thought you’d ask me why. I’m sorry.
In fact, I’ve made it up for many reasons, and I’ve tried to say it in the most peaceful way possible.
But he stopped asking me.
“Daddy was so angry yesterday, he didn’t sleep all night.
“Think about how my smoke became like this.
“It all came to mind when you were young and proud of your father, first time you got a little red flower, first time you got a first in class, first time you got a speech, first time you worked part-time to buy your father a blisters…
“You never let Dad down, but Dad never asked you, do you like it?
“So, Dad’s sitting at the door early this morning, and when you wake up, I just want to ask you if you don’t like it, we’re not getting married. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
My dad looked at me and my lips were shaking and talking.
“Come on, Dad’s not as vulnerable as you think. You don’t have to be strong in front of me. I’m sorry.
When I heard my father say that, I cried in his arms.
“I don’t want to get married. I just don’t like him. I’m sorry.
“When I think about seeing him, I feel hopeless. I’m sorry.
I told my dad everything I’ve suffered.
My dad shot me in the back.
He’s quiet, he’s heavy.
And finally, he sighs, “It’s Dad who’s wrong. I’m sorry.
Dad was wrong.
Dirt, low sound, over and over again in my ear.
Speaking of which, he turned back and wiped his tears.
“Eat first, Dad. I’m sorry.
“Good. I’m sorry.
When my mom got up, she only saw me sitting in the living room eating.
Look at my eyes swollen. She came over, “What’s going on? I’m sorry.
“None. I’m sorry.
“No. Where’s your dad? I’m sorry.
My mom was in a hurry to change her shoes and went out looking for my dad.
At 10:00 a.m. I sat at the airport with my suitcase.
No one sent me.
I regret that I told my father this morning about Yangchuan’s crimes.
I don’t know what my dad did. I was worried.
Half an hour before the plane took off, my dad called me and he said he was coming, let me wait for him.
I’m a little surprised.
I turned around and saw my dad come over.
He was stopped by security officers, who stood outside the fence and delivered a package to the inspectors.
“Please examine my daughter. I’m sorry.
The package passed security and handed it to me.
I opened a bag, LV.
“Do you like it? Dad didn’t buy it. The salesman says it’s the latest for a young girl. I’m sorry.
“Dad, you went out this morning to buy this? I can’t believe it.
“You go out to work, carry a better bag, and don’t let anyone look down. I’m sorry.
“This is expensive…”
“Someone else has, and I have to smoke. I’m sorry.
My dad dropped that off and rushed me to the plane.
I would also like to say something, and he turned around and waved at me, leaving me with only one, not a big back.
I looked in the bag, pink, and I laughed.
My dad still treats me like a princess and buys pink.
It’s just a smile, and it’s blurry.
I’m so sorry about my dad, how he couldn’t use his phone, how did he make an appointment at the LV door, wait, and buy me this bag before I got on the plane?
I’m 27 years old, but in his mind, I’m still that little girl, and he’s doing everything he can to bring me what I like.
I remember that.
“You can always trust your parents. I’m sorry.
He will always, unconditionally, be on your side, perhaps temporarily he will not understand you, but his heart has never wavered.
20
After coming to city B, I was busy, too busy to forget Yanggawa brought me the pain.
I’m so busy thinking about Qin Xu, I’m just smiling.
But no matter what, I remember sending it to my parents every night.
Even if it’s just simple and simple.
“It’s a little late today. Good night. I’m sorry.
They’ll sleep better.
One day, my dad called me and told me that my mom went to Yangchuan’s parents.
“What’s her son like? I’m glad your mom didn’t send him in.
“How dare you take the money from your bag and take it for his mother?
“The money mom got you back, the down payment for the hotel and the wedding deposit, and they’re all out. I’m sorry.
My mom was on the phone like she ate explosives and was shaking.
“Mom, there’s no need to make yourself so angry. I was shocked. I always thought my mother was looking for Yanggawa.
And then, when we were having a party, my mom counted better than anyone.
“It’s not a matter of how much money, that son of a bitch, who dares to bully you, she’s not a good person, he can’t take a penny. I’m sorry.
Listen, my mom’s scolding. It’s funny, it’s good.
“Come on, you can do whatever you want. Listen to you. I’m sorry.
“His mother’s been kissing him lately. She’s a disgrace, and she wants to kill others. My mom took a pat on the chest, and she said, “Your mother, I’ve told him all about the bad things he did in the couple, and I see who’s blind. I’m sorry.
“Oh, that’s not necessary. I’m sorry.
“It’s not necessary. I just can’t breathe. I’m sorry.
I comforted my mother for a while, and she let go, and she said, “Yeah, I can’t do it for that kind of guy. I’m sorry.
More?
“That’s right, I went to the hospital with your father that day, and the doctor asked about you. I’m sorry.
“Ask what? I’m sorry.
“I asked you why you didn’t come. I told you you were going to another city. “He’s really nice and concerned about our family.” I’m sorry.
“Oh. I have some emotions in my heart.
I haven’t talked to him since Qin Xu.
Talk about something, like there’s no need for contact.
Besides, we’re still so far away, we don’t have to.
“I hear he’s still single…”
“Mom, I kind of hung up. I’m sorry.
I’m gonna talk to my mom and I’m gonna die.
Scared.
21
Six months later, Lin said it was hard for me to make friends here alone and come and watch the concert with me.
“You go with your boyfriend. What am I doing? I’m sorry.
“He’s not your favorite? I’m sorry.
“My favorite, but I don’t want to be a light bulb. I’m sorry.
“What’s with the light bulbs? We’re sitting next to each other. What’s the point? He doesn’t like them. I’m sorry.
I finally went to Linlyn’s soft and hard bubbles, together with the stress of the recent surge in workload.
Her boyfriend Tang Yang bought us a lot of snacks, he bought us fluorescent sticks, and he gave us a pack of clothes.
“Long time no see. “Tang Yang sat next to Lin Lin, looked up, said hello to me, and seemed shy.
“Long time no see. I smiled and responded.
“Smoke, what’s your taste, tomato or cucumber? “Lin Lin is pointing at chips in Tang Yang’s arms.
cucumber bar. I’m sorry.
Tang Yang heard me and consciously tore the chips to me and opened Lin’s bottle cover.
I look at this scene and say I don’t envy it.
There is now one person working every day, one person eating, one person doing a play at home on weekends, no one talking, and solitude is amplified.
Money is really double, and so is loneliness.
The concert’s about to start. Tang Yang says he has a friend coming.
Me and Lynne are a little surprised.
“My friend’s company got tickets. He said he was coming. The blogger says:
“Oh, which friend?” Lynne asked with curiosity.
It didn’t wait for an answer, the stage lights went up, and the whole scene boiled.
Lynne pulled me up and said the name of Ethan over and over again.
The whole concert was so high, me and Lynne were exhausted, but they were screaming, screaming…
Live off two lunatics.
In comparison, Tang Yang is sitting around with snacks and watching us as a subway old man.
“You be gentle, your voice is dumb. He held his eyes and watched Lynn with a little concern.
“No way! “Lin Lin is a voice to him.
In the second half, he sang “The Far From Her.”
The whole scene suddenly quieted down.
I think of Qin Xu without warning.
Because of his.
Remember his lover’s face.
I feel sad.
Is he with Dr. Chow?
And those who were white-clothed were grown up, and there was no youth, no youth, no youth.
He’s got a new man he likes, he uses a couple’s head, and eventually the girl he likes has a new story.
He’ll love her and marry and have children.
It’s just that it’s not me.
I remember when I was in high school, I had a good relationship with him.
‘Cause he always loses to me, buys me Wang.
I later found out that he never ate breakfast and suspected he was broke.
So I went to the canteen in the morning to eat some rice buns and I went to the commissary to bring him a bread and put it on his desk.
What do you mean? He looked at my bread and asked me.
“This bread is good. I love it. I knew he was hungry and dying, so it was more euphemism.
“And then what? You like what I like? He looked at me with pride.
I took a look at him and I started to sigh at him.
See, you’ve lost your money and you’re so stubborn.
No way, who made my mother’s heart overflow.
“You try. * I tore up the bread, I tore a little bit, I smiled and passed it to his mouth. *
He looked down at the bread and looked at me, and he opened his mouth.
I shoved him in.
He chewed twice and his face was a little bit weird, and he said, “It’s okay. I’m sorry.
I don’t have any money to eat.
So I tore him up a little bit.
He ate again.
We gave him bread to eat for himself, but he did not reach out to pick it up.
“Take it yourself. “I whispered to him.
He was staring at me and he said, “The hands hurt. I’m sorry.
Huh?
“Basketball, wounded. He’s so natural, he doesn’t look like a liar.
“Oh. “What can I do? I’ll just have to feed him a little bit of my scalp.
“Shu, you early morning show your love. I’m sorry.
Jealous? You’re gonna break your basketball handle, too. I’m sorry.
“Lieutenant, I’m hurt, I’m hungry, I want to eat. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
A group of young boys who normally learn to sleep early and sleep like pigs suddenly get up.
My face is so red.
“Shut the fuck up. Qin Xu, with his book, is going to smash people.
They shut up, but my heart can’t breathe anymore.
I put the bread on his table and turned around and I couldn’t talk.
The gossip of high school is rapidly spreading.
They’ve been kidding me ever since.
“You won the basketball game, don’t you? I’m sorry.
“Your family’s fighting again, and you’re handsome. I’m sorry.
“Your family is being stopped by the girls next door. You’re in danger. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Every time I hear it, I’m ashamed of it.
In class, he poked my back with his finger, and I didn’t turn back.
“No bets with me? Team leader. He dragged me to the tune.
“No, no. I’m sorry.
“No more bread for me?”
“No, no. I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong with you? “He took it seriously.”
“Don’t talk to me. They’re watching. I’m sorry.
In the youthful years of understanding and in the face of the jokes that you have made, I am upset, and I have about a little joy.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
22
I’m not talking to Qin Xu anymore.
But I look forward to talking to him.
For half a month, I felt like I was going to explode.
Mid-term grades are down and the class teacher found me.
I heard you were in early love with Qin Xu? I’m sorry.
“None. I’m scared.
“Better not. You’re a good student. How can you hang out with him? I’m sorry.
“His father runs a company, he doesn’t study, he can’t eat his family’s money for three years, and you, do you have any money? I’m sorry.
“And the girls have to know what to do. I’m sorry.
I was trained by the class teacher, and when I walked out of the office, I bit my teeth and didn’t cry.
Back in his seat, he pulled my hair with his hands, and suddenly I couldn’t stand it.
Why would the teacher call me that?
I blame myself. Why didn’t I get the test this time?
And him. I’m like this. Why would he bully me?
The more I want to get down on the table, the more I’m gonna cry for a math lesson.
“Why are you crying?
‘Cause I don’t do my homework? Can I do it?
“Can I write the papers too?
“Who’s bullying you? Say something? I’m sorry.
I didn’t even talk to him.
After class, I went to the teacher’s place.
“Do I have to go?” He’s in a bad mood, pulling my desk, not letting me move.
“I won’t bother you anymore.
“I don’t talk to you anymore.
“Don’t worry about your studies, okay? I’m sorry.
His voice was low and he begged me.
I have no soft heart.
How could I be so soft when the teacher said I wasn’t ashamed?
In the end, I changed seats stubbornly.
“Don’t you want to change seats? * He’s so angry, he picks up my desk, goes straight out, bangs, puts it in a new place * I’m sorry.
He dropped the table and went to get me the bench.
My writings were spilled.
He turned his head and walked and kicked the door.
The whole class was scared to speak.
Then a classmate came to help me collect the books on the ground.
I cried so badly.
Everyone thinks I was bullied by Qin Xu.
I’m the only one who knows that Qin Xu and I are having a complete breakdown.
He left school the other day.
His roommate said he had gone mad all day in his bedroom and everything was smashed.
I’ve heard a lot about it, but I’m still calm on the surface and I’m just doing my own work.
When I was young, I thought I’d take the next exam, and I’d stop saying that as long as I was in school.
He was subsequently taken back by his parents.
After a while, he went back to school.
Every day after coming, you sleep.
No one in the class makes jokes about me and him anymore.
In order to avoid him, I never entered the front door, because he sat in the last place.
It was only when the teacher asked the questions of the classmates around him that I dared to peek at him.
Every time I see him staring at me, it’s filled with hate I don’t understand.
I’ll never look again.
Before he dropped out of school, I sent the papers, and he was asleep, but when he passed by, he grabbed my hand under the papers.
I was scared to take my hand back, and he grabbed it.
He raised his head and asked me, “Why should students not talk to you?” I’m sorry.
I’m in a hurry to be seen. I’m sorry.
He looked at me for seconds and suddenly there was no light.
He let go of my hand and went straight out of the classroom.
Later, he never came back.
Then, when his seat was empty and everything was moved, I knew he had dropped out.
He dropped out.
I didn’t hear a word about that physics lesson.
I’ve been thinking a lot.
His name was on the final draft.
When I came back, I tore down the draft paper and threw it in the trash.
23
“Smoking, why are you crying?” The voice of Lynn.
I was pulled back to reality.
I have thousands of emotions in my heart, but I don’t know what to say.
It’s probably because memories are too green and beautiful.
Or perhaps the end of the story is the end.
And finally…
“He sings too touching. I smiled and pointed at Chen Qi-thou on the table.
I was afraid she’d laugh at me.
“I think this ticket is too valuable! #Linlyn said hold me and started crying #
Tang Yang’s face is giving us paper towels.
At the end of the concert, we walked out of the hall and thought about his friend.
“He said his ticket was in the back, he didn’t follow us, he came late, he didn’t come to say hello. Then there was an emergency and he left early. I’m sorry.
“Oh. I’m sorry.
Then the three of us went to the big rows, and then we forgot all about his friend’s episode.
“Don’t you have a single handsome man in your unit? I’m sorry.
“At a height of 1 metre or more, with abdominal muscles, it can’t be too bad. I’m sorry.
Lynne drank a little wine, and he started giving me something to drink.
“That’s just me. But I already have you. I’m sorry.
“Tang Yang, I’m not asking you to cut my sister. Let’s go home and love her.” “Linlyn is a little speechless.
I’m even more speechless. What did I do wrong to eat dog food here?
He thought about it, and he said, “I do have one, but it’s not our unit, 188 centimetres. I’m sorry.
“Forget it. “I’m swaying.
I’ve just had a failed relationship, and I’m in deep shit.
“You take Lin Lin to the house, I’ll go first. * I’m ready to go. *
24
I hit a car.
On the way back, my head was against the window and my head was empty.
I didn’t look at my phone all night, and I took it out one by one.
At the end of the day, I saw the cartoon girl lying in bed.
It may be that late at night people are particularly vulnerable.
I suddenly wanted to light that dialogue and tell him I didn’t really hate him in high school.
And I don’t really think that poor people deserve to talk to good students.
I’m just too old to understand, too emotional, too scared, so I’m lost.
When the university fell in love with him, when I was talking about high school, I didn’t dare tell him it was my fault and I didn’t want to admit it.
But after all these years, on this quiet night, I suddenly wanted to tell him.
I don’t need to get back together, I wish I could get rid of the misunderstandings, even if we don’t be friends and we’re strangers.
I’ve had the courage to write a long sentence, to delete or to modify it.
And finally, it was confirmed that the driver came with a brake, and I suddenly fell in front of me, and my hands slipped… and the text that just hit was gone.
I looked at the blank input box and it was so good and funny.
I can’t even remember the final version, just give it up.
Just, he’s got someone to like.
What’s so important about those misunderstandings?
It’s over.
We’ve all grown up, and the knots that we used to think we couldn’t get past have gotten over it.
And just as I was going to close the screen, the dialogue box jumped.
“What’s up?”
It’s Qin Xu.
I’m a little surprised.
It’s probably too long since I’ve been there to see it coming.
“All right. I’m sorry.
“It’s okay to enter so long? Go ahead. I’m sorry.
He saw it.
“If I say wrong, do you believe me? I’m sorry.
“Sniffy, an excuse that was used eight years ago. I’m sorry.
I’ve got a little twitch in my heart.
How does he know?
I admit, I did it on purpose.
Because he wasn’t in the high school class, and one day he was brought in, he never looked at me in the class, and he started staring at the class.
After a month, he didn’t say a word.
I doubt his number’s working long ago. That’s why I sent that one. I’m sorry.
I’ve thought of my way back anyway. I can say I made a mistake.
But for the next half month, I watched him every day, and he didn’t come back to me, and I began to wonder about my life.
I ended up feeling humiliated, and I just unloaded QQQ.
I don’t know.
At this point, I look at the dialogue box and I don’t speak, and I’m really embarrassed that my heart is broken.
I don’t know what to do with a game.
I ended up saying, “Not in person.” I’m sorry.
And then he returns a string of “…”
“Where?” he asked me.
“Travel on. I gave up the struggle.
“How long till home?” he asks.
“10 minutes, why do you ask? I’m sorry.
He never returned me.
I thought he was busy, and the doctor wasn’t always able to return the information, so I didn’t care.
When I get out of the cab, go to the neighborhood.
As I passed the bus stop, I saw a tall figure far away, and the shadow of the station blocked his face, and he stood on the bus stop and played his cell phone.
That’s the point, waiting for your girlfriend.
I didn’t think much of it. I walked down there and the sleeves were pulled off.
I look back…
Qin Xu?
I was shocked to say that.
“Why are you so late?” He talks first.
“We went to the concert. I’m surprised I don’t know what to say, and I’m adding, “It’s Chen Zhou. I’m sorry.
“Oh, how nice?” He started walking with me.
Everything is so natural, so naturally I’m embarrassed if I stop.
“It’s nice. I’m telling the truth.
“What are you doing here? I asked the question. “How do you know I live here? I’m sorry.
“I asked Lynn. “My aunt’s house is in the neighborhood.” I’m sorry.
I’ve seen it. It’s the rich neighborhood around here.
It’s just a coincidence.
“Huh? So you were passing by? “I looked, even more surprised.
“Or else, what do you think I’m doing here? I’m sorry.
Think I’m waiting for you?
Can I say that?
I stung my own little fire.
“That’s not true. I’m just saying. “Then why don’t you go back? I’m sorry.
“Eat too much, walk a walk.” And his face calmed.
“Oh. I’m sorry.
I see.
“You live alone?” He means my neighborhood.
“Hmm. I said, “The company rented it.” I’m sorry.
“Oh. I’m sorry.
We stopped talking. He sent me downstairs and stood still.
I’m a little embarrassed.
Does he want to go up for a cup of tea?
“Want to go up for a drink?” I asked him.
He looked at me, and suddenly he smiled. I’m sorry.
“I don’t have any tea. I usually drink white water. I’m embarrassed to explain.
“Are you stupid? He stretches his hand and pulls my hair, may feel too vague, and takes his hand back, “Go up. I’m sorry.
He looked up at my floor, and he said, “Next time. I’m sorry.
“Oh. I’m sorry.
I waved goodbye to him.
He stood there and looked at me, and he didn’t talk, and he looked at me.
Go home, I’m lying in bed, playing with my phone.
Suddenly I saw a little red dot around his head.
I can’t believe he actually sent a circle of friends in the curious place.
“It’s beautiful, she’s beautiful. I’m sorry.
The concert’s light map with a map of Chen Qi.
I’m scared to sit out of bed.
He went to the concert?
I’m a little excited to think about it.
I didn’t even ask him what he was doing here.
And he was at the bus stop.
Did you just send her back?
No wonder I just asked him upstairs for water and he refused.
The more I tried to suffocate, the better I did, the more I turned off my phone and slept under cover.
25
I woke up the next morning and I saw him send it to me.
“Just give it a good one, don’t send it.
I’m surprised.
“Congratulations. “It’s hard to say.
He’s out of line.
“Congratulations for what?”
I look at his news and I’m even more angry and I don’t want to lose face.
“Congratulations on the beauty of your arms. Good luck to you. I’m sorry.
He hasn’t sent a message in a long time.
I guess I’m laughing at me, and he’s got it.
I’m so mad at you.
“I’ll take her place, thank you. I’m sorry.
“You’re welcome. I’m sorry.
Early in the morning, my mood was ruined.
I stopped talking to him.
After working late at night, there was a heavy rain outside, and I didn’t have an umbrella, and I hesitated to get out of the car and run home in the rain, and I saw Qin Xu again.
I thought I had eyes.
After all, he can’t be in my neighborhood again.
“Do you want an umbrella? * He’s got a black umbrella, he’s got a mouth on my head. *
“Thank you. “You haven’t returned to A City?” Don’t tell me you’re looking for your aunt again. I’m sorry.
“No more aunts this time. He smiled, he tried to come to me, whispered, “Look for my aunt. I’m sorry.
I said, “What?”
He sent me all the way to the elevator. It was raining and my heart was beating so fast.
“I’ve given it to you. You’re not sending me back? * He looked at me and smiled like shit *
“How I send, I don’t have an umbrella. I’m sorry.
“We’ll send it tomorrow. I’m sorry.
He’s so childish.
I went upstairs and I sent it to him.
“I know. I’m sorry.
“You live on the 10th floor? I’m sorry.
“How do you know? I’m sorry.
“The floor lights are on. I’m sorry.
My heart jumped.
I ran to the window, and I saw him holding an umbrella, standing in the rain, looking at me.
He hung up his cell phone to signal me to answer the phone.
And then his phone came…
“Why aren’t you gone?” I asked him.
“Wait a minute, smoke a cigarette. I’m sorry.
“Oh. I’m a little depressed, “Smoking again.” I’m sorry.
“Don’t like me smoking? I’m sorry.
I didn’t say anything.
“Why do you care about me? * He’s got a bit of a punk in his mouth and he’s asking me. *
I don’t think this has anything to do with me.
I’d really like to ask him what it means to wait for me, to send me, to be afraid to ask, to get the answer to the disappointment would be embarrassing, so I wouldn’t ask.
“I didn’t mean to mind you. I’m sorry.
“Let’s go. He’s got some emotions, smoked out, he’s got an umbrella.
At night I lay in bed, brushed my circle of friends, and he gave me another circle of friends.
“Wait for her. The map is a picture of a rainy night.
I still see the bus stop at my door.
And the time of publication is 1930.
But when I met him at night, it was already 9:00.
He waited an hour and a half?
Think of it, my heart starts to jump.
I was just trying to tell Lynne about this shock, and then I thought he didn’t say it was me, and if it was someone else, I’d be too emotional.
He hesitated for a long time and ended up in a calm mood before calling Lynn.
I’m so confused.
After hearing the silence for a while, she said, “When did he send a circle of friends?” I didn’t see it. I’m sorry.
Yesterday, today. I’m sorry.
“No, I can’t see. “He’s the only one you can see.” I’m sorry.
“Aah…”
“I say, he’s after you. You see you’re single, he’s single, he’s remembering you, you just go from him. I’m sorry.
“Where is he single? I told you, Dr. Chow. I’m sorry.
“It’s obvious he doesn’t like her. Do you like her when she looks at you? Men are short, you’re stupid who likes the Pacific. I’m sorry.
I couldn’t sleep much longer, listening to Lynn.
Qin Xu is after me?
I’ve got a lot on my mind, a lot of realism. More importantly, I’m not sure what he means to me.
Maybe there’s a little bit of a backlash, maybe it’s just obstinate, irresponsible to get people to move, and then to go.
After a failed relationship, I never dared to start.
It’s been a long night.
26
The third day, he’s back.
Wait for me in the old place.
“Who are we looking at today?”
“Look who you don’t know? He asked me back.
I stopped talking.
We’ll go to the neighborhood side by side.
He’s more generous than me.
He was talking to me all the time about some interesting things that happened when he was studying abroad.
I listened in peace and sometimes asked questions. He was like a friend who had known me for a long time and told me every detail.
“I really want to take you to a place where you live abroad. He looked down at me.
“What are you taking me for? “I avoided his eyes.
I’m worried about the intimacy.
“It’s nothing, and I thought every place I went, if you were there, you’d take pictures of the blue sea, see the flying seabirds, feed them, see the wild animals, and be scared to scream if you were there. I’m sorry.
I’ll stay there.
I can’t believe I’m so scared that I want to hide.
And I did, “Here we are. I’m sorry.
I mean the elevator. I didn’t say goodbye.
He caught his hand.
An electrical current that ran out of my fingertips all over me.
“You let go. * I’m placing my voice down on him. *
And he stood there with the stripes, just pulling me.
When I have to struggle, he’s light, and I fall into his arms.
My condition was to push him away and he smiled.
“What a soft hand. I’m sorry.
“You! “What are you doing?” I’m sorry.
“Nothing. He’s still pulling me, “Just for a moment. I’m sorry.
“We… what is this? I’m sorry.
“You win. * He’s all he’s got *
My heart beats so fast that I’m going out of my chest.
“You…”
“Present, Qin Xu, 27 years old, doctor, having a relationship, is single, likes basketball, likes games, doesn’t like sweets. Remember? He smiled at me.
“Why are you telling me this? I’m sorry.
“Renewed. I’m sorry.
He pulled me to the elevator.
Pressed the floor and didn’t go out.
He still wants to go to my house?
What did he do to me?
I’m going crazy!
I’ve been thinking about how to say no and how to get myself out of here.
He took me to the door, looked down, and I was so nervous I thought he was gonna kiss me.
And then he stood up, reached out and touched my head, and sighs, “Today he smoked. I’m sorry.
My heart beats faster.
Until he was gone, my heart remained uneasy.
27
I called to tell Lynne she was more excited than I was.
“He must be trying to kiss you. God, he’s so hot. I’m sorry.
“But he didn’t say he liked me. “I spit on her, but my face is red.
After a long night, I decided to ask him clearly when I saw him tomorrow.
I’ve been insomnia for days.
And the next day, he didn’t come.
I waited half an hour at the bus stop. He didn’t come, he didn’t send me a message.
I feel like I’ve been played and I’m so depressed.
Back home, there’s no spirit to do.
Washed up. His.
“There’s an operation tonight, a little bit delayed. I’m sorry.
I see.
I thought I’d get back to you the second before, and I couldn’t care less.
But right now, I’m going back to a “Oh.” I’m sorry.
It’s a real hit on the face.
Waiting for me?
“How? I said, “I can’t wait for you. I’m sorry.
“And who am I? I’m waiting for you.
“Qin Xu, I think we should keep our distance.
“Too close, easily misunderstood, not good for anyone. I’m sorry.
I’ve got a hot head. I’ve had a couple of rounds.
He called directly.
Whisper a few seconds, I’ll take it.
“What? “I’m sorry to ask him.
He didn’t get mad, he laughed at the phone.
“Open the door. I’m sorry.
Open the door?
“Don’t worry, I’ll just take a look. He said, “One day of surgery, one day of standing, I can’t do anything to you. I’m sorry.
This guy!
I didn’t think about that.
I opened the door.
As soon as he came in, he lay down on my couch and he was tired.
“You’ve been working here lately? I’m curious.
“is to come and study for two months. “If anyone wants me to stay, I can’t work here. I’m sorry.
“Oh. I’m sorry.
I made him a cup of tea.
As a master, I think there is some courtesy.
He stood up, drank my tea and talked to me about a lot of things.
And I started to relax and talk to him about high school.
“Why were you so angry when you changed seats in high school? I asked him.
“I think you betrayed me. * He looked at me with a little *
“A different seat is a betrayal?” It’s too serious. I’m sorry.
“You’re better off with someone else. I’m sorry.
Me?
“When did I get married in high school? I asked him back.
“Drink my Wang, smile at me every day and buy me breakfast. I’m sorry.
I’ve got three black lines on my forehead.
“I didn’t think that at all. Is it easy for me to do my homework?”
“Receiving work”? Don’t you like me?”
“Of course not. I’m sorry.
He didn’t look well in a moment.
I suddenly realized that he might have liked me from that time on and that I liked him.
The atmosphere has become awkward.
“I’m going first. He stood up.
“Oh, let’s go?”
I’m tired. “He turned back and stopped, and finally he pulled the door out.
Shit!
He’s so insolent.
28
For the next few days, he was almost busy and didn’t come for me at night.
I don’t have time to talk to him.
Because me and Lynne are on their own.
The trip was arranged a long time ago.
We drove all the way to Ganz, to the northwest, to Conding, the New Door Bridge…
We’ve had a great time.
The mountain has poor signals, and it is almost always in the hotel at night to receive information from outside.
“How are you and Qin Xu? “Linlyn asked me.
“No, it’s kind of vague, but I don’t know how to say it. I’m sorry.
“Do you like him? I’m sorry.
I’m silent. Do I like him?
I think I still like it.
Even when I broke up with him, I dreamt of him sometimes.
I don’t get it.
Maybe it was because he was my first love, or maybe he was too young and beautiful, and he was the boy who happened to be there.
Because of him, my youth is complete.
Now life, it’s all in order, and that youth always heals me when I’m sad, bored, depressed.
So how can I forget?
“I like not to eat. I laughed bitterly.
Now like, leaving the matter, like talking on paper, we don’t do uncertain things when we’re adults.
“Hey… you’re on the axis. “Linlyn has never been able to stand me like this.
She just keeps coming straight to me.
Go back to your cell phone at night and see Qin Xufa.
He asked me why I wasn’t home.
I told him I was out on a trip.
He asked me to take more pictures.
I’ve also been very generous in sharing his view.
He always said nice.
There are no words but good-looking.
He didn’t say he missed me, he didn’t care too much about what we were doing today, just like a routine greeting, and he fell asleep.
I lay in bed at night, and I was lost.
He probably doesn’t care much about me, or why he’s acting so cold.
“When I come back, I’ll treat you to dinner. I’m sorry.
That’s what he said.
On the day of my return, I thought I’d see him soon, and even the gas door would blow a little hard.
I suddenly realized I still liked him.
It turns out it’s not fair.
The car was halfway down the road, and there was a heavy rain and traffic jam.
It was supposed to be at 6:00, it was at 7:00, and it was stuck on the road.
I’m really gonna cry.
I’ll do it. “Linlyn saw me in a bad mood and thought I was blocked.
I’m the only one who knows. I’m just in a hurry to see him.
In the back, Lynne drove, and suddenly the car broke down.
This is fucked.
Waited for an hour to rescue. The next car is gone. The rescue is not yet here.
Even more dangerous is the indication from the meteorological services that such heavy rains are likely to lead to landslides.
The rescue said the car won’t make it tonight, so let’s find ourselves a place to stay.
If I hang up, me and Lynne will be stupid.
Where are we going to live in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of nowhere?
There’s no other way. I propose to push the car to the front hole, at least we can stay in the car for one night.
The two of us were too weak to get the milk to get the car in. Both of us are completely paralyzed.
“Smoking, I’ve never wanted to swim on my own.” “The strong Lynne couldn’t help but cry in my arms.
“It’s all right, it’s all right. Tomorrow’s all right. I held her to comfort.
“Well, I’m sleepy and I’ll sleep for you. She’s asleep for seconds.
She fell asleep and I was scared.
Because of the electrical failure in the tunnel, we had to light the lights.
There’s only a little light in the dark tunnel, not to mention the horrors.
It wasn’t just her. I was about to crash.
Maybe he’s too scared. I gave Qin Xu-fa.
“I’m so scared. I’m sorry.
Before he waited for us to eat, I told him what happened.
He wanted to help, but he couldn’t help, and he was called to the hospital.
Send this.
And his phone came in for a second.
“Stand in the car, open the window, stay awake, your cell phone, save the electricity, give me a location, hold on. He gave me a brief explanation, and then I heard the car start.
He came home from the hospital?
I wasn’t thinking much, just following his instructions.
I couldn’t hold it back. I was asleep in the car.
I don’t know if it’s been too long and I’ve been woken up by the sound of a car.
I took a look at the phone, it’s all 12 o’clock.
I wish I hadn’t woken up because it was really scary.
Then I got a car, or midnight at 12, which makes me feel terrible.
It could be ghosts or bad people…
In a moment I’ve been thinking about a million hypotheses, each of them enough to kill me.
I shrunk in the car, reached out and rocked Lynn. “Linlyn, wake up. I’m sorry.
“I’m scared. I’m sorry.
She sleeps like hell and can’t wake up.
Suddenly there was a footsteps behind me, and I was so sweaty that I couldn’t look back.
I grabbed a bag and thought I’d smash it later.
And the next second, a familiar voice came…
“Are you still up?”
Qin Xu?
I looked back and saw him.
He stood in front of the light, turned against the light and came towards me.
The fear of the heart of that moment, and the confusion thereof, are all gone, except joy.
It feels like he’s here, I’m saved.
My bad emotional history, my boring life, my lost faith in love… all saved.
“Beautiful. * He came close, smiled and touched my head. * “You don’t sleep until you sleep.” I’m sorry.
I opened my mouth and I was going to say something, and the tears fell first.
He panicked, pulled the door, held me, “Sorry I’m late. I’m sorry.
Then Qin Xu took me and Lin Lin to a nearby hotel in his car.
Says it’s nearby, but it’s been driving for an hour.
“The conditions aren’t so good, so there’s only one hotel like this. Qin Xu gave me the card.
Two rooms.
29
Lynne took the card back to her room, washed it simple and fell asleep.
Qin Xu sent it to me
“Do you have a charge? The phone’s dead. I’m sorry.
“There is. I’m sorry.
I took the charge and knocked on his door.
Actually, I also wanted to thank him.
And as soon as the door opened, I was pulled in.
The door is closed again.
There’s no light in there.
I just wanted to ask you something, but my mouth was blocked.
Feel the touch of warmness, my brain is suddenly blank.
And he brought me up to the door, holding my face, seeking it with impunity.
The world is spinning.
Not for long, he let me go.
“Are you still scared?” He smiled and asked me, “The voice is dumb.”
“No, not afraid anymore. * My heart is pounding on my chest *
“That’s good. I’m sorry.
Qin Xu. * I’ve been there for so long *
“Hmm. He held me and held my hand.
“What did you just mean? I’m sorry.
“Of course I like you. What do you mean? He asked me back.
My face is so red, I’m lucky I didn’t turn on the light, or I’ll die of shame.
“Don’t know. I’m ashamed.
Actually, this is my first kiss with him.
“I don’t know?” He said, “Then try again. I’m sorry.
After that, he kissed me.
My heart’s beating again.
I feel like I’m going to have a heart attack, and I put my hand on him, and he didn’t move.
He finally let me go and kept quiet for a while.
“Now, I’ll ask again, can I be my girlfriend?” I’m sorry.
I’m out of my mind. Can I say that?
But when I think of some real problems, I get confused.
I took a moment to talk to him seriously.
“Do you think we really fit? I’m sorry.
“What?” He pinched my hand.
I’m…
“Your family is rich, but our family is an ordinary family, and I’m 27 years old, not an 18-year-old girl. I’m sorry.
“Anyway, I’m under a lot of pressure. I’m sorry.
He was silent, and it took him a while to say, “My father’s money is his money, not mine.” I’m sorry.
I don’t know what to say.
“In fact, I’ve seen my dad a few times, and since I know things, my life is just my mother. * He’s sighs, he’s holding me, he’s feeling a little low *
“Every time I think of him, I can only read it in a financial newspaper. I’m sorry.
I stopped.
“Your parents are divorced? I’m sorry.
And he had a second, and finally he had a hard time saying, “Yeah. I’m sorry.
What do you mean?
He’s a single-parent child. No wonder high school is so rebellious.
Then he pulled me to chat on the couch.
I heard him talk about the absence of fatherly love in his life and suddenly felt that he was living very differently from what I thought he was and not so bright.
After hearing, I felt nothing but pain.
“You’re pathetic. I’m so sorry for him.
I grew up in the love of my mom and dad, but I’m sorry he couldn’t even see my dad.
I gave him a kiss to comfort him.
He stunned for a moment.
“I also feel that I’m… pretty poor. I’m sorry.
“Well, it’s okay. I’ll take you back to my house. My parents are very nice people. I held his hand to comfort him all night.
Finally, he fell asleep on the couch.
30
Lin Lin also knew I was with Qin Xu.
She said, “Let’s make love, we have to go on our own, preferably in a storm. I’m sorry.
“You two are a couple, and I think I deserve what I’ve been through on the road. I’m sorry.
I’m embarrassed, but I think she’s right.
When my mom called me, she mentioned Yanggawa.
“There was another girlfriend, and there was no money at home, and I heard that I bought a house in the City of Finance and borrowed down payment from a lot of relatives, and that recently the realtor’s money chain was broken, the house was shut down and the bank loan was repaid. I’m sorry.
“The two of you are fighting every day, and his mother has a real face. I’m not the boss. I’m sorry.
I listened to my mother about these things, and I felt like I was a little far away from my life, apart from being a boo.
“He’s still pretty sad. I’m sorry.
“I’m glad you didn’t get married, Mom was afraid, and I heard he had a problem, and it’s hard to have kids in life. I’m sorry.
“Huh? “I thought about the last wedding and asked him the results, he never said it.
It seems…
It’s just that I told my mom not to care about it. It’s someone else’s story. It’s none of my business.
Qin Xu transferred the job to City B.
He and I finally ended our exotic relationship.
He took me to his parents’ house, a beach house.
I’ve prepared two New Year’s gifts.
“What’s the schedule? Is it your mom’s house or your dad’s house today? I’m sorry.
“Whatever. He was a bit vague.
Whatever. What do you mean “whatever”?
I can’t wait to ask you so many questions.
Think about who you’ll see.
Coming out to meet a pretty middle-aged woman.
It looks like his mother because he looks like him.
“Hello auntie. “I cried sweetly.
“Smoking, come on. “She’s so passionately pulling me upstairs.
“I knew you were coming. I bought you a lot of clothes. I’m sorry.
“Ah?” I’m a little confused to ask Qin Xu for help.
He nodded at me.
His mother took me to the second floor, pulled me to my clothes and kept exaggerating me.
“The smoke is beautiful.
“I know that Qin Xu has the best vision.
“Like his father, he likes pretty. I’m sorry.
Huh?
“Thank you. I’m blushing.
She pulled me again and told me a lot about Qin Xu’s childhood.
“When he came back from high school he had a girlfriend and asked his father to add his allowance.
“It didn’t take long for a girl to come back and say that she was dumped and that she played with her feelings.
“We cried for days. I’m sorry.
“Oh, he said that? I’m embarrassed.
“Is that girl you? His mother looked at me with surprise.
I didn’t say anything, but she laughed and leaned.
“No, it’s funny. I’m going downstairs to tell his father! I’m sorry.
“Uncle’s here too? I’m sorry.
“What brings him here? “What did his mother tell you? I’m sorry.
I’m embarrassed and I don’t know what’s going on.
“He says you and Uncle are divorced. I whispered.
She was surprised and laughed even more.
When she asked me, I told Qin Xu.
So half an hour later…
On the table, a middle-aged man with glasses, staring at Qin Xu.
“You heard I’m divorced? I’m sorry.
I’m so embarrassed that Qin Xu doesn’t care.
“It’s divorced.” I’m sorry.
“That’s when you were in kindergarten. You got remarried in elementary school. His father’s face is blue.
“That’s also a divorce. I’m not wrong. I’m sorry.
“Yes, you’re right!” And his father wanted to get mad, to get in my way, and put up with it.
Then I went to the kitchen with his mother and there was a noise outside.
“You go after your girlfriend, you go after your dad, all right? I’m sorry.
“You chased my mother and begged my grandmother to say that you had no parents. I’m sorry.
“You! I’m sorry.
“And I’m just telling the truth, and she didn’t ask me when you left, and that divorce is your stain, and never again. I’m sorry.
“Just, just.”
I’m surprised.
And his mother beat me on the shoulder with comfort, and smiled, and said, “It is nothing, but a thing falls down. He controls his father, and you control him.” I’m sorry.
I’m ashamed to speak.
His mother set me up in the guest room at night, and in the middle of the night he came.
“What are you doing? I’m sorry.
“I was trained today by my father. *And he looked at me so patheticly * I’m sorry.
“How can I comfort you?” I’m staying here.
“Like this! He bowed and kissed me.
I’ve been kissing for a while and I’m dizzy and he doesn’t think it’s enough.
I didn’t wait for my reaction. He took me up and walked into the bedroom with the moonlight.
I don’t think he must have made me do it. Why else would I not?
Later it turns out that even if the wolf is gentler, it is a beast.
But he rejoiced and laughed at me: “My little princess has grown up.” I’m sorry.
It’s over, he’s pulling me.
“Smoke, I like you so much.
“Why do I like you so much?
“Take you, I miss you so much. I’m sorry.
I’m: Thanks, but, fuck off.
I’m exhausted, paralyzed, numb.
“Who said horses don’t turn back? “I’m givin’ him.
“It’s because I was too young to know. I’m sorry.
“I’m insecure. We’re so different. How can you make sure you’re not playing this time? I’m sorry.
“How can I guarantee?” he laughed at me and said, “Or else, give my life to Her Highness?” I’m sorry.
I can’t believe that Dr. Qin, who was serious in the hospital, would have been like this.
Then I fell asleep and I had a dream.
Back in my dream, back in high school, I turned around and saw him smiling at me.
“Have you done your homework? * I looked at him so hard *
It’s finished. He handed me the book.
I brought it here, and I found a note on my homework…
“Always bow to my little princess. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.