My childhood sweetheart is no match for heaven, and I really can’t stand it! Especially when I am the green plum I can’t love.
I, Tian Meishi, crossed over and became a seemingly cannon fodder but actually a supporting role. I looked good and had money, but my heart was covered with lard, so I hanged myself on the crooked neck tree of the male protagonist.
This is a man and a woman in the library to get the same book, and then the chance of a sweet pet article together.
According to the general routine of time travel, a well-dressed and rich woman should turn up her nose at a man who ignores me. It’s better to say that I’m too good-looking for you. Doesn’t money smell good?
But. The fact is that through the past, like the original owner, I fell in love with the male protagonist Jiang Mu at first sight. In
the original plot, my family was a nouveau riche, and the man was from a scholarly family. My grandfather and his grandfather met in the countryside, and later had a “revolutionary friendship,” so we were forced to make a vow when we were still fertilized eggs:
the same sex would continue to develop “revolutionary friendship,” and the opposite sex would get engaged.
When I was seven years old, my father hit the big luck and made a fortune, so my family moved to the villa opposite the man’s house, and I began my 14-year career as a man’s follower.
Because I am a female partner, everyone knows that my fate is to be rejected.
It was not until the man was a senior and I was a junior that the woman appeared. The woman was a freshman in the same major as the man. When she went to the library to borrow a book, she and the man took the same one. My hands touched each other, and I felt numb all over
. I became the catalyst of their relationship. Finally, at the wedding of the century, I went abroad to study. The author, who had no conscience, seemed to think that I was too successful, so he made my family bankrupt with a stroke of his pen.
Use four words to describe my ending-losing both people and money! I scolded in my heart for a long time after I
learned that I had worn this article “Time has a good man”, until I went out for a walk and met Jiang Mu, the man who lived across the street! Before I came here
, I had been single for 25 years. As an orphan, I always felt that I had seen through the world of mortals and could become a monk by shaving my head, but I didn’t expect to “break the precepts” by wearing a book!
It turned out that there was really a feeling in the world that was so rude, wanton, and without any reason, just at a glance, just at a glance, he lived in my heart.
I wish I could build a room with two bedrooms and one living room in my heart and leave him alone.
I don’t care about other people’s feelings, but now they haven’t met, I think I can! Now I have been here for two months, and the summer vacation is over in a twinkling of an eye. I am a junior and Jiang Mu is a
senior. The woman will meet Jiang Mu by chance two months after the freshmen enter the school.
I still have two months.
In the past two months, I collected the out-of-print records of his favorite band, went to his company
, bought gifts for his employees, and never said anything about the original owner’s forced marriage
. It was not easy for him to change a little about me.
Now, I looked at the classroom where he had his morning class today, which was very close to where I had my class,
so I made a sandwich and planned to give it to him. I arrived at school in a luxury car
with a refrigerator. Because of the tight
parking space next to the school and the inability of strange vehicles to get in, I got off a long way away, and the remaining hundreds of meters were carried by my
own legs. When I
saw Jiang Mu, my heart was like a flower, and I couldn’t remember
anything except laughing.
“Here, Jiang Mu, breakfast.”
Jiang Mu seemed to have something on her mind. She frowned and said, “No, I’ve already eaten.”
Having said that, I couldn’t force it. I silently withdrew my hand and chatted
casually as I walked: “Are you still going to the company today?”
Jiang Mu stopped and looked down at me. I looked up at his delicate jaw line, a
little puzzled.
Mingming was fine yesterday. Did something else happen to his family after I left? In my puzzled eyes, Jiang Mu gave a sneer, and Dan Feng’s eyes were full of gloom
. “Tien Mei-shih, I thought you had really changed.”
Jiang Mu sneered, “Last night when you were talking to the old man in the study, he
came to urge you to get married.”. Tien Mei-shih, I thought you’d really changed.
I still looked at him seriously, frowning slightly because of his words: “Jiang Mu,
I like you.”. It’s my fault to disturb your life in the wrong way before. I know sorry
doesn’t work, so I’m changing it. Believe it or not, the old man and I just
chatted for a while last night.
He squinted at me slightly, and the good-looking Danfeng’s eyes were full of scrutiny.
I let him see, anyway, there will be no loss of meat.
Besides, I’m so good-looking. Maybe one day he will fall in love with me.
At last he didn’t say anything. The bell rang and he went straight into the classroom.
I looked at his back, stayed, and went to the classroom in front of me. There are many kinds of love in
this world, and falling in love with someone who doesn’t like you is the most
bitter one.
But I still want to try.
Even if it doesn’t work. When I passed Jiang Mu’s classroom after class, he had already left. I curled my lips and
went downstairs slowly.
Oh, I forgot to mention that the author is a stepmother. She forgot to give me love and
my friends.
In fact, the original body before is not bad, after all, this is a sweet article, is a little rude, can not see
other little girls more than a look at Jiang Mu.
In fact, I am afraid that Jiang Mu will take a fancy to someone else.
I sighed and thought about going to his house tonight to talk to the old man. When I
finally finished the afternoon class, I immediately called the driver and asked him to
pick me up. When I saw Jiang Mu
again, it was in his bedroom. The old man had to push me in.
This is the first time I entered his bedroom, the decoration style of the room is the same as his character,
mainly black and white, cold and cool.
Jiang Mu’s company is doing game development, he also likes to play games, when I entered the
door, he was sitting on the ground against the bed, holding the controller to play games.
When I came in, he just looked up at me and went on playing games.
“This is a good game.” I have nothing to say, and I want to break the embarrassment. Un
expectedly, Jiang Mu actually answered. Perhaps it was my sincerity in the morning that finally moved him
. He stared at the display screen intently: “Have you ever played?”
What a coincidence! I actually played this game, and I played it well, so I answered with a smile, “You really can’t beat me.” On the
display screen came a hint of victory. Jiang Mu picked up another game controller and handed it to me. He raised his eyebrows and said, “Try it?”
I hooked my lips and sat cross-legged beside him. “Don’t make excuses if you lose!”
I don’t know if I look good when I smile, but he stared at me for a while before turning around and pressing the next round.
Jiang Mu’s operation is very good. I haven’t met such a conscientious teammate for a long time.
Therefore I accidentally had fun. After winning three games in a
row, I smiled and said, “Call Dad!”
But I soon realized where I was, turned my head resentfully and pressed the next game silently. There was a low laugh in
Jiang Mu’s throat. In the middle of the game, he said to me, “I shouldn’t have been like that in the morning without asking.”. Sorry I
don’t know if it’s the emotion of the original owner, but I have an impulse to cry.
My eyes were red with tears, but I said to him with a smile, “Jiang Mu, I made it clear to the old man that you should not wrong me like this in the future, OK?”? I don’t know how many times I can insist on being wronged by you. I’m also afraid that I won’t be able to hold on. It is impossible for the original owner to speak so calmly with Jiang Mu, so he may not be
used to it. After a long silence, he opened his thin lips and said, “Good.” Does
that mean he’s starting to accept me? This thought flashed
through my mind like a bunch of fireworks.
Then he handed me the handle, which I had put aside, with a smile on his face: “
One more round!”
“Come as soon as you come. If you lose, treat me to a big meal!”
“Then you must be ready to treat.”
I raised my eyebrows and pressed the start button again. “It’s
not very impressive to say a slogan like that after losing three games.”
His laughter was low, but because he was close, I could feel his shaking shoulders. The
night enveloped this huge city, the insects of late summer sounded in the wall outside the window,
the person I like is around, I think he will like me, I have to be patient
, I have to wait.
But I really didn’t expect that to happen later.
Surprises always come sooner than surprises. For half a month
in a row, I maintained a good relationship with Jiang Mu. I often went to his company to see
him. Because it was only in the initial stage, there were only a few close friends and a few small employees in his company.
The place is not big, every time a few people get together to eat, I feel very lively.
“Sister-in-law, you and Brother Mu..” It was Liu Gen who
spoke, because he usually talked too much, and everyone really wanted “Liu Gen to be pure
,” so they gave him this nickname.
Liu Gen’s facial expression gradually became “wretched,” and his smile became extremely lascivious. Who knows what
he thought of that was not suitable for children.
I rolled up their company’s advertising page and knocked him on the head: “Shut up!”! Let Jiang
Mu hear you call me sister-in-law, and all my previous efforts will be wasted!
In the aggrieved eyes of the six, I lowered my voice, “That..” Call in private.
Liu Gen laughed a few times and said, “That’s right!” Several boys
around him also laughed like barbells.
Jiang Mu had just finished his work and came out. He seemed to have done a good job. His eyes were full of laughter.
“What’s the matter, so happy?”
I opened the still warm fish soup and said, “It’s all right. They wish me to get you soon
!”
Jiang Mu was already used to my daily teasing. He didn’t say anything but took the fish soup. “Thank you.”
Thank you. I quickly waved my hand and said, “It’s all right. The old man likes to drink, too. You just came by the way.”
Jiang Mu lifted his face from the soup bowl. The air conditioner was on in the room, and the heat was in front of his eyes
. He looked at me with a light in his eyes? By the way?
This man is so damn sweet!
This quiet life lasted for 21 days. In the middle of the
22nd day, I went to the library to look for Jiang Mu and found a girl in a white
skirt beside him.
Round face, almond eyes, curved eyebrows, small mouth, looks soft, just look at the appearance, you can imagine
such a girl, the voice must be very sweet.
This is the female customer.
If Jiang Mu really likes this type, then I really have no chance. I am long and flamboyant,
with big waves, like to wear bright lipstick, long and thin eyes, especially when
squinting, I am a big sister who is not easy to bully.
I am very satisfied with my appearance, the only thing I am not satisfied with is the name
-Jiang Mu, Gu Xi, Tian Meishi, these three names do not look like the same
novel!
Looking at my name, I should have appeared in an article describing my life in the countryside in the 1970s. I became
the shrewish daughter of the village director. She was beautiful and could not work.
But! Did the heroine appear early? Maybe my arrival changed the story line? Anyway, all the articles I read before said
so. I didn’t have time to think about it. I just wanted to beat the Mandarin duck with a stick.
Oh, no. They are not Mandarin ducks.
I do not love others, but now I still have the right to pursue!
I sat opposite them, and no one paid any attention to me. Just as
I was about to say hello, Jiang Mu looked up at me and said, “You can go to dinner. We
still have something to discuss.”
We? What an intimate word.
I swallowed the bitterness in my heart and whispered, “It’s all right. I’ll wait for you.”
Jiang Mu did not say anything more, but Gu Xi looked up at me several times, but I did not
talk to her.
I remember that the woman was the top science scholar in the province. She seemed to have a talent for computers. Anyway, I couldn’t understand what they were
talking about. Unconsciously, she fell asleep on the table. When I
woke up, Gu Xi was sitting beside me, and Jiang Mu didn’t know where to go.
Just as I was about to call and ask, Ku Xi spoke in a voice as
sweet as I thought: “Just now we discussed a bug, and Ah Mu went back to the company. Let me
tell my senior sister to go back first.” It’s us
again, and Ah Mu, and tell me? Is the heroine broken? Then
I thought, how can a woman who can marry the Chosen One be a silly
white sweet? Jiang Mu is not an overlord.
So I asked disdainfully, “Ah Mu?”? Are you very familiar with my brother Jiang Mu?
In the first few years of acquaintance, the original body is indeed called Jiang Mu brother.
“Ah Mu and I have known each other for two years. We used
to be net friends. I came here for his exam.” I can’t accept
this moment! This There is no such plot!
They should get married after drinking. Of course, they also
liked each other a little at that time. The woman was pregnant without accident, so the following things
were logical.
I couldn’t be confused. I wanted to be steady. I stood up and looked down at Gu Xi. I said, “So what?
We’ve known each other for fourteen years. That’s not enough.”
Then I turned around and left without stopping.
Although my posture is sufficient and the surface is not exposed, I always feel that something
is out of control.
Later, I still had dinner with Jiang Mu, but with Gu Xi. The friends and employees of Jiang Mu Company also like Gu Xi very much. They often discuss some very professional
things, and I can’t get a word in edgewise.
I can bring meals for everyone, and so can Gu Xi, but Gu Xi can talk to them about his career, and I
can only watch them dryly. I
would rather be told directly that I have no chance than be so powerless.
Look, they are laughing again, but I can’t understand what they are laughing at. Sitting next to me,
Liu Gen handed me a cup of coffee that Jiang Mu had bought. “What’s the matter
with you, sister-in-law?”
I looked at the crowd around Jiang Mu and Gu Xi, looked down at the coffee
in my hand, and shook my head.
Liu Gen seemed to want to say something else, but Jiang Mu walked over with a steady step. “Tien Mei-shih
, the old man asked you to go to dinner tonight, but I can’t go back. Please tell him for me.”
I stared at his smiling eyes, and my heart said that they were really beautiful when they smiled.
“OK, drive safely.”
Jiang Mu left with Gu Xi.
I really want to rush up and ask: She is a freshman, is she so powerful? These employees around
you have studied for so many years. Why did you take her there?
But I can’t. I can only think in my heart. Who let others have the aura of a woman, and the business can be done as soon as the eyes of the opposite boss
are bright?
And I have no position, because this love is unfair from the beginning, because I have never been qualified to question.
I went to Jiang Mu’s house alone.
Jiangfu company is very busy, only the old man and Jiangmu at home, his mother does not like me, but because of the old man’s face is not good to say anything, just no good face on the right.
In fact, I am not bad. I can go to the same university with Jiang Mu. I am not stupid.
I don’t know why the author made me so stupid. I remember when I was a child, Jiang Mu liked me very much. She led me to Jiang Mu and said: This is Jiang Mu’s brother. Jiang Mu’s brother will protect Tian Tian at school in the future.
May really be the original owner before too annoying, do not know how to advance and retreat, always let the old man forced Jiang Mu and himself together, for which the Jiang family quarreled a lot.
Perhaps it was in a quarrel that Jiang Mu began to get bored.
I suddenly felt that maybe Jiang Mu didn’t hate the original owner so much, maybe he just didn’t want to be engaged. But I still have no way to know-because the author is too stingy on the female partner, no one knows what the female partner has experienced, after all, the author only needs a bad person, the bad person can not be washed out.
“Miss Tian, why doesn’t that smelly boy Jiang Mu come back?” The old man’s rich voice interrupted my train of thought. “Oh, Grandpa,” I said with a smile
as I helped the old man pick up food with serving chopsticks, “he’s starting a business. The company is extremely busy. Is it possible that in your eyes I am so ignorant?
The old man looked at me staring and acting like a spoiled child. He laughed and patted me on the back of my hand. “We Tian Yatou are the most sensible!”! Ha-ha
In a sense, the meal was very good, the old man was fooled by me, I also showed him a bracelet that Jiang Mu gave me, so that the old man could rest assured of our feelings, and Jiang Mu did not speak in a strange way.
But the old man did not know that this bracelet was not given to me by Jiang Mu. I took him shopping and asked him for it. I also bought him a wristwatch. The bracelet is not expensive, but I wear it every day. The wristwatch is very nice, but he doesn’t seem to like it. When I
got home, Tian’s parents were waiting for me on the sofa.
As soon as she saw me push the door and come in, Mother Tian immediately came over with a plate of cherries. “Tian Tian, I tell you, the cherries my mother bought today are very fresh. Your father doesn’t like fruit, so he ate a lot.”. If I don’t stop him, I’ll finish him!
Father Tien snorted childishly, “I’m sure I’m thinking about my baby girl!”
Tian Mu was also unconvinced. “Can you be as careful as I am?”? I went shopping today and bought a little skirt for my daughter, which is very beautiful! I don’t think that model looks as good as our daughter!
They started from a poor couple. After Tian’s father made his fortune, he did not abandon his former wife. Instead, they became more and more affectionate.
But may be a hard life too long, Tian Ma is not willing to spend money, occasionally I buy her a thousand scarves, she is distressed for a long time.
But she wants to give me all the good things. I used to be an orphan and had no relatives since I could remember. During this time, I felt the sudden
affection, as if I had stolen happiness.
It turns out that Mom and Dad feel like this. Great
I am their old daughter. They are almost sixty years old now, but they still often “compete for favor” in front of me
. In the original novel, the original owner threw himself on Jiang Mu, and it was not until the family went
bankrupt and his father grew old overnight that he repented.
I am now occupying other people’s bodies, and I must be filial to them. With
this in mind, I took Tian Mu by the arm and ate a cherry. “Mmm, how
sweet!” The
accident happened suddenly, and then I kept thinking that if there was a moonlight
box, I would go back to that day and tell myself not to turn on the speakerphone.
Since this month, Jiang Mu has been meeting clients, leaving early and returning late every day, I can only
rush to his door to bring him breakfast. The way
he looked at me was no longer so cold. I felt that as long as I liked a person, I must
have a premonition. I also had a premonition. I felt that Jiang Mu was slowly accepting me.
He also said that he would accompany me on my birthday this year.
My birthday is Lunar New Year’s Eve. I have never looked forward to winter and the New Year so much.
At this moment, I am beating the old man’s back on the weekend.
My grandfather went early, and he treated me as his own granddaughter from childhood to adulthood. Whether I like Jiang Mu or not, I will be filial to him.
“Girl, that smelly boy’s birthday is coming. You can prepare for this birthday party. Do you have any confidence?”
I drew my fingers across my temples and said, “Yes, sir!”
Buzz, buzz. The cell phone
I put on the tea table rang. I thought it was six. I thought it was the same as before. He came to tell me that Jiang Mu didn’t go home at night or had a dinner party and asked me to pick it up. So he reached out and turned on the speakerphone and continued to beat the old man’s back.
Six anxious voices came from the cell phone: “Sister-in-law, you come quickly!”! Brother Mu drank too much, and the door of the box where he and Gu Xi were in was locked from the inside, so we couldn’t open it! My
hands thumped my back. I was in a daze. I blinked a little in a daze. My heart seemed to be being eaten by ten thousand ants. It took me a long time to find my voice. “That, Grandpa, I’ll go first.”
The old man stood up on crutches. “Girl, I’ll go with you!”! This brat really doesn’t take my words to heart! My Chiang family couldn’t have had such a premarital affair!
I was stubborn, but the old man finally got on the bus and went to the address sent by Liugen.
I looked out of the window absentmindedly, and the old man patted me on the back of my hand. “Girl, don’t worry. Grandpa is in charge of you.” Before
I could answer, a violent impact hit me, and I subconsciously rushed to protect the old man. A second before the
coma, I held my eyelids and realized that the old man had bent down to protect me in his arms. After
a moment of dizziness, I lost consciousness. When I woke up
again, I was in the hospital, and a piece of the windshield went straight into my left arm, and now it’s been treated, and my arm is wrapped in gauze.
I tugged at the nurse who was changing my transfusion bottle and asked in a hoarse voice, “What happened to the old man who came with me?”
The nurse hung up the transfusion bottle. Perhaps it was because she had seen too much life and death, and there was not much sadness in her voice. “It’s the rescue. You have a good rest.”
I pulled out the injured needle and stumbled out in the nurse’s rebuke. When I arrived at the emergency room, Jiang Mu was sitting on a chair beside the wall, with his arms on his knees, his back hunched and his hands covering his face.
I have never seen Jiang Mu like this.
He should be in high spirits, how can he do that. When
I walked over, Gu Xi stood in front of me. She shouted angrily at me, “Tian Meishi, what have you done?”
“Are you with Jiang Mu?” Gu Xi’s eyes twinkled, and I sneered, “What are you talking about here?”
I ignored her, because I was taller than her. I crossed her shoulder and looked at Jiang
Mu with his head hanging down.
Gu Xi gave me a push, but I didn’t notice and staggered back a few steps.
I raised my hand, not knowing what I wanted to grab, and finally sat in a corner
with my hands around my knees. The
bright light hit me through a potted plant one person high, reflecting a mottled.
I feel very, very cold.
I don’t know how long it took for the lights to go out in the operating room, and the doctor came out and said, “Who is the family
?”
Jiang Mu immediately stepped forward, and the doctor said something I had only heard in a bloody drama.
He shook his head and said, “We did our best.”
At this time, I saw Jiang Mu, his beautiful eyes were so clear that he was not half
drunk.
Six.. Lied to me..
I married Jiang Mu. That day he came out of the operating room and said as if he was going to eat me, “I will
marry you.”
I don’t think it’s like getting married. I think it’s like killing someone.
Out of the old man, the Jiang family more and more do not like me, but fortunately I have to go to school,
will not hang around in front of them all day. It was
also after that operation that I never saw Liugen again. I heard that he had resigned and
was going to the United States for further study.
I explained to Jiang Mu that I used to watch TV and thought there was a misunderstanding between the characters because
there was no explanation or the explanation was not clear.
But then I realized that it was useless to explain it clearly.
He doesn’t believe it.
And he’s right. I’m wrong, too. I shouldn’t have let the old man go with me. The old man
‘s poor health is not a matter of a day or two. To say the least, even if I go to catch adultery
, I shouldn’t involve the old man. I
‘m confused.
Day by day, a few students around me said that I had changed and did not like to
laugh.
I just shook my head and said I was a little uncomfortable. In
the twinkling of an eye, we arrived at the Lunar New Year’s Eve. Both sides of the family did not have a good New Year because of the old man.
I went to Jiang’s house and walked into Jiang Mu
‘s room in Jiang Mu’s sarcastic and disgusted eyes.
Jiang Fu knew the whole story and didn’t say anything, but Jiang Mu and Jiang Mu hated
me more and more. I knew it must be in the old man’s last words, so they just looked at me coldly
and did nothing else.
That day, I waited in Jiang Mu’s room for a long time. I watched the sunset glow fade into the night
, and then the fireworks burst on the black curtain. I remembered that Jiang Mu said he would celebrate my
birthday. I remembered that he smiled at me that day.
He has a small tiger tooth, obviously looks sharp, but when he smiles, he looks like the spring
breeze in April, and he is a little cute.
I recall, as if just a moment, I saw the horizon of the fish belly white.
Ah, it’s been all night.
I know that as a woman in the new era, I shouldn’t pursue love like this. It’s all up to
me. Just let it go.
I want to, but I can’t. People who have not experienced it can not understand it, just
say how simple it is to give up.
What’s more, whether it’s love or hate, Jiang Mu and I are already entangled. Sitting beside
his bed for a day, my legs were numb and I couldn’t use my strength. I rubbed my legs
slowly and held the bed to stand up. Then downstairs I saw Jiang Mu and Gu Xi who were having dinner with Jiang Ma, and I
paused when I went downstairs.
“Jiang Mu, mother, good morning.”
Nobody talks to me.
I stood in the living room for a moment, and as if I had a sudden reaction, I lifted my feet and walked out
.
I stood between the two villas and looked up at the gray
sky because there were too many fireworks.
How did it become like this.
In the twinkling of an eye, half a year later, Jiang Mu graduated, Jiang’s father supported his career, and his company
was flourishing.
I am also preparing for the internship, the original owner and I are both English majors, Tian’s father and mother have not
read much, they want me to be a teacher, so I am preparing for the examination of teaching qualifications. Another month passed
in a flash, and I seldom went back to my own home.
I was, on the one hand, thinking of divorce relief, on the other hand, I was afraid that Jiang Mu would throw a divorce agreement
in my face.
I sat in the library, puffed out a foul breath and laughed at myself. In the past, when I read novels, people like me now were the most annoying, suffocating and
disliked.
But now that I have become a person in the play, I feel very helpless.
Perhaps it is true that only those who love but can not live can understand it.
Buzz, buzz. The vibration of the
mobile phone interrupted my sad spring and autumn.
I walked quickly out of the library’s study room before answering the phone.
“Hey, Mom, what’s up?” Come
back! Your father.. Your father is dying!
I stood in the corridor outside the study room, in this autumn with a trace of heat,
I actually felt like I was in the ice water in the cold winter months, cold to the bone. By the time
I got to the hospital, he was gone.
Cerebral thrombosis, quite sudden, fell to the ground and never got up.
I just had a father, I haven’t earned money to honor him, why did he leave?
Tian’s mother was lying on the edge of the bed, holding Tian’s father’s hand tightly, muttering, “You said you would take me
on a honeymoon trip. You bastard, you’ve been lying to me since you were young.”
I collapsed at the door of the ward, clenching my fists and pinching my nails into the flesh of my palms. Is it because I’m here that I’m like this?
In addition to being unruly and vicious, the author is always stingy with the female partner’s language. I don’t know what happened to the original Tian
‘s father and mother. Is it the same ending?
I looked at the empty and cold corridor in front of me, and no one gave me an answer. The
funeral was rushed because the bankruptcy in the original plot still happened.
I didn’t even have the money to buy a cemetery, so I and Tian Ma moved into a small house of 60
square meters that Tian Dad had bought before he made his fortune, in an old neighborhood near the outskirts of the city.
I watched Tian Ma holding the ashes box and muttering in her mouth. I know
she’s sad, and I want to cry, but I can’t. I can’t fall down when I cry.
I didn’t go to see Jiang Mu, and we never saw each other again after Tian’s father’s funeral.
In his eyes, I am a murderer, and this book does not seem to be a bloody drama, he
did not suppress my company, it is indeed poor employment, too much deficit, plus no Tian
Dad in the middle of the operation, can not be bankrupt.
I worked in the restaurant while preparing for the teaching and graduation.
Tian Ma’s mental state is also slowly getting better.
Tian Ma said she still had some jewelry and asked me to sell it for money. She plans to open a small shop,
around is also idle, before the family has no money, everything has been done, she said she
is not afraid of hardship.
I could only nod and say yes, and it would be good to distract her. When the
store opened, my interview for teaching qualifications was over, and there was still more than a month to go before the New Year, and I had to start preparing my graduation thesis. The business of the milk tea
shop is pretty good. I have nothing to do except my thesis in my senior year. I have received several good offers for my resume.
The milk tea shop is next to several high schools. Boys who come to buy milk tea often take pictures of me secretly. Occasionally, a few of them dare to ask me for contact information.
I would smile and show them the bracelet on my hand, saying that my husband gave it to me.
They said I lied to them. People wear rings when they get married.
I was stunned and thought they were right.
I finally accepted an offer from an English teaching institution. I had to work on Saturdays and overtime was common, but the salary was much higher than that of public schools.
I wanted to quickly save money to buy a cemetery for Tian’s father. He used to lie in a rocking chair in front of the door in the sun when he didn’t go to the company, like an old man who had retired early. There were hundreds of thousands of stereos beside him. He shook his head and listened to cross talk.
I thought I must buy him a sunny place. Good places cost money, so I have to make money quickly.
Occasionally, when marking papers, I will stare at the bracelet in a daze. We haven’t seen each other for almost a year, and I will graduate in a month. Occasionally, I also feel that I do not live up to expectations, how can others cross, even if they become
cannon fodder can also counterattack, to me here a good sweet pet article let me engage in Chengdu white-collar
struggle.
Oh, yeah. Sweet pet text is the male and female main sweet, it’s none of my business!
Of course, there are two kinds of sweet pet articles, one is sweet from the protagonist to the supporting role, and the other is that the author
only lets the male and female protagonists be fragrant alone, makes the supporting role miserable, and then tells the reader
that this is life.
Bullshit!
But I can’t do anything but swear and say a few words.
The graduation defense went smoothly. After all, I graduated from this major in my last life. I got an excellent thesis
and took graduation photos. The teacher advised me to go to graduate school. I thought about the
balance on my salary card and finally shook my head.
Maybe I am a little too miserable, God or the author can not bear to see, so my
work is quite smooth, after becoming a full member, the salary has also increased a little.
However, I’m still struggling with the divorce.
And so it went for another two months.
I have been deliberately not to inquire about the news of Jiang Mu, but he took the initiative to appear in front
of me. To be precise
, it was him in the TV interview.
I was handing a glass of lemonade to a little girl when I turned around and saw an interview with the financial channel on the small TV in the shop.
It seems that the theme is “promising youth”. The girls who drank
in the shop all looked at Jiang Mu in the video, and I couldn’t help looking at him.
He is a little thinner, because it is too hard to start a business, but the edges and corners of his face are clearer, my favorite pair of Danfeng eyes are on the high bridge of his nose, and his well-cut black suit is also very suitable for him.
I rarely see him in a suit. Most of the time he wears a plain shirt and T-shirt. He looks good in a suit. His legs are thin and long, and he is very capable. What is different
from the past is that Gu Xi is sitting beside him, and she has changed a lot. She is not the fresh girl in a light skirt, but the workplace beauty in a Burgundy business suit. With
makeup, her facial features are not so weak. The clothes have some of my style, and it seems that the taste of dressing has improved a lot.
They’re a good match. I can’t lie to myself.
“Tian Tian, are you all right?”
I shook my head. “Mom, don’t worry, I’m fine.” Turn around and continue to make drinks for the next guest. I acted normally until I went back to my room in the evening and found out the video of the interview
, which was not long, more than 20 minutes in total.
I watched it carefully from the beginning to the end, and then dragged the progress bar back.
Finally, he curled up on the small bed, biting the back of his hand and sobbing.
Tian Ma has cancer, advanced gastric cancer.
Is this the life of a woman?
But I don’t have time to complain.
Doctors say that many symptoms of early gastric cancer are not typical, and most people are already in the late stage or in the advanced stage when
they are found.
I sold the milk tea shop and gave Tian Ma chemotherapy.
In fact, chemotherapy is infusion, but the infusion is very toxic chemotherapy drugs. On the one hand, it can
kill cancer cells, on the other hand, it can bring harm to normal human cells.
Kill one thousand enemies and lose eight hundred.
But without chemotherapy, the tumor will spread more and more.
I sat on the crowded bus, thinking about how to raise more money, I heard that some imported
drugs are better, but many imported drugs can not be reimbursed by medical insurance, so.. It’s still
money.
Alas, why is it so hard to wear clothes? If someone else doesn’t have a golden finger or counterattack from childhood, is it difficult to come here to tell me that life is very hard? That’s not necessary. I’ve had a deep understanding of it before. Think about
it this way, would I have lived in a book before, unconsciously in front of a female partner or even cannon fodder?
Thinking of this, I lowered my eyes and sneered.
At this time, the mobile phone screen lights up, and a push appears-the rest of life is very short, don’t let the regret be too long.
Looking at this headline, I cried like a dog in everyone’s puzzled eyes.
But cry to cry, go to work as usual. That’s the way
life is.
The leader said there was a chance to go on a business trip for about two months, and the salary doubled. I agreed without asking where to go.
Work is very urgent, the next day will fly over, before I left, I sat beside the hospital bed, looking at what to eat and vomit what Tian Mu, nose sour, but in the end did not shed tears in front of her.
“Mom, I have to go on a business trip for work. You can rest assured that you can live here. I have hired a nurse for you. If you miss me, you can call me on the video. If I’m working, I’ll call you back when I’m free.”
Tian’s mother smiled tenderly. She held my hand and her voice trembled slightly. “It was my mother’s fault that made Tian Tian suffer.” At that moment, the tears did not have any brewing, the brush fell down, I held Tian Ma
‘s hand and shook my head. I
cried not because I couldn’t stand it, but because someone once told me
from childhood to adulthood that you had suffered. Tian’s mother told me a lot
that day. She said that my name was given by my grandfather. It was originally called
“Tian Cuisine.” She hoped that I could eat well all my life.
Later, I decided to use the word “beautiful ten” in the hope that I would be perfect.
Tian Ma also told some interesting stories about my childhood. She said that I often fought with boys
in the village, liked to climb trees, and my clothes were always dirty. It was not
until our family entered the city that I slowly became more quiet.
She’s not really talking about me, she’s talking about the original owner. But I’m still listening.
She said that if she had known that one day it would be like this, she would never let her grandfather marry any baby
, or even move here.
But ah, life is hard to buy early know. If it happens, it happens. The marks and scars
are there. If you don’t think or move, it’s still there.
Some things are destined not to be erased by time. The city on
my business trip is in the south. In the cold early spring, I wrapped my down jacket tightly, which was a little special among the beautiful girls with bare legs and wearing
windbreakers.
But I don’t know why, I’m more afraid of the cold recently.
As night fell, the sun took away the last trace of warmth left in the world. I held the
hot coffee in my hands, shrank my neck and sipped it. There seems to be no difference between
day and night in this city that never sleeps, and there is even more fireworks
at night.
I stood in the hustle and bustle of the crowd, exhaling a white breath, I said
to myself in my heart-there is hope to live.
In fact, I also want to see what my ending is?
What’s the point of me coming here? The work on
business trips is not so busy, and I live a nine-to-five life.
Occasionally, I would take out the video or the magazine on the inside of the suitcase and look at the
man named Jiang Mu.
There is a feeling of chasing stars-a feeling of being out of reach.
Then he sneered and went to sleep. On the day I
received the notice from the hospital, I had just finished class when a mixed-race
boy from the English class next door blocked me and asked me to be his girlfriend under the watchful eyes of the students.
Before I could say no, I got a call from the hospital. Tian Ma committed suicide. The teaching materials in
his arms fell to the ground, and the voices around him quieted down in an instant.
“What’s the matter?” The mixed-race boy asked me.
I opened my mouth and finally said sorry and ran out of the crowd. When I
arrived at the airport, four hours after the latest flight, I bought a ticket and sat in
a chair waiting, bent over, arms on my knees, covering my face and crying silently.
Suddenly, I saw a tissue in front of me through my fingers, and looked up at the
hybrid with chestnut curly hair.
“Stop crying.”
I took the tissue dully and thanked him.
He sat next to me and waved the ticket in his hand. “I was right behind you, but you didn’t notice
me.” I
‘m not stupid. I know he likes me, and he’s more serious
than boys who usually confess. But I don’t want to delay him, so I wipe away my tears and say with a straight face, “I’m married
. You go back.”
He smiled, not seeming to take it seriously. “I heard.”
“It’s wrong to get involved in someone else’s feelings.” My tone is very light, not blame,
just helpless.
He turned to look at me with bright brown eyes. “Are you sure you two have feelings?”
I thought about it and squinted at him. “Are you investigating me?”
He shook his head helplessly. “Teacher, there’s no need to investigate. Just look at your state and you’ll know that the marriage is coming to an end.”
I was stunned at first, then I laughed in a muffled voice, and even my shoulders began to shake.
Yeah, it’s over, it’s over.. On the
plane, I met an acquaintance, Liu Gen.
He, too, seemed surprised to meet me. I just glanced at him and said, “Excuse me.”
Until the plane took off, Liu Gen was restless, and finally he confessed to me what had happened that year.
He liked Gu Xi, and they were childhood sweethearts, but they pretended not to know each other in front of Jiang Mu for only one reason-Gu Xi was going to cheat me with six roots at that time.
It was Xiaoxi’s birthday, and I told Brother Mu that I would prepare a surprise for Xiaoxi, so that he could hold Xiaoxi in the box and not be discovered. Then call you again, and when you open the door and go in, Xiaoxi pretends to be drunk and hugs Brother Mu. In this way, with your temper, you will certainly get angry. Brother Mu will turn more and more to her. I was very calm when I listened, which was similar to what I thought. I had only one question. I looked into
Liu Gen’s eyes and asked, “Is it Gu Xi’s idea?”
An affirmative sentence.
Six hesitated for a few seconds and nodded gently. The mixed-race boy on the
side, no, I already know his name, his name is Lin. Before I
worried, he unbuckled his seat belt from the seat beside me and punched me six times. I stopped him before I was stopped by
the stewardess.
I pressed Lin’s shoulder and turned to Liu Gen and said softly, “a good human
life..” We are all at fault.. When she
arrived at the hospital, Tian Ma had already left. The doctor said that she wanted to take a bath, but she wouldn’t let anyone follow
her. When she was found, she was leaning against the wall of the shower room, with a big
cut on her wrist, and her hospital gown was dyed red.
I saw her for the last time in the morgue, and arranged it like Tian’s father’s funeral. It was so
calm.
Lin Kui put his hands on my shoulders. “Can you cry for a while? Don’t do that. I’m afraid
.”
I shook my head and tried to reply that I was all right, but I couldn’t make a sound. When I was really holding the box of ashes, I cried out wantonly. There were many people like me crying in the funeral
home.
No one laughs at anyone.
Today, we have all lost very, very important people.
Tian Ma left me a letter-
Tian Tian, mother’s good daughter, don’t be sad, mother went to find father. He
didn’t know how to eat well when he was young. I had to watch him. Mom was very happy when she left
, and don’t be sad. Mom will always love you.
I burned the letter after reading it, and some things will be engraved in my mind.
Tian Ma did not have chemotherapy after I left, and the money in her bank card was not touched. I used the money
to buy a double cemetery.
This is the best I can find, facing the sun, and I heard from the agent that Feng Shui
is very good.
I’m not superstitious, but I still listened to the agency for a long time. When
I returned home, Lin Kui insisted on following me. I stared at the tips of his shoes, and his voice was a little hoarse from crying
. “Your clothes are almost worth my salary for a year. Stop making trouble and go back
.”
I watched him lift his feet and take another step forward. He put his hands on the side of my face and let me look up
at him. Between his eyebrows, he seemed to have a sad look. “Tien Mei-shih, I’m here. Don’t drive me away.” I looked at that pair of bright eyes, as if I had seen it somewhere.
Ah, yes, it’s the way I used to look at Jiang Mu.
I know I can’t persuade him to leave.
Lin Kui has an excellent appearance. If I had seen such a boy, I would never forget him.
I don’t know when he met me or why he likes me.
But I’m too tired to dig any deeper.
I let Linton sleep in my room, and I didn’t come back very often, and there was no defense between men
and women. I slept in Tian Ma’s house.
I held the photo of the three of us when Tian’s father was still alive and arched in the shape of a shrimp
on the bed.
I have no tears, just listening to the wind outside the window, feel the bottom of my heart also broke a
big hole, has been filled with cold wind.
I still go to work normally, but at night when no one is there, I will stare out of the window for
a long time.
Until one day, when I came home from work, there was a strange
man sitting on the sofa besides Lin.
“Your friend?” Before Lin could speak, the man in a suit stood up and walked toward me. “Hello, Ms. Tian. I’m
Mr. Jiang Mu’s lawyer. You’ve been separated for more than two years. Mr. Jiang Mu is going to sue
for divorce.”. Of course, we can also settle it privately. You can put forward the terms. As long as they are reasonable
, Mr. Jiang will do his best to meet them. As I
listened to this long passage, I was in a trance. It took me a long time to come to my senses.
Marriage?
The elite lawyer seemed surprised by my calm reaction. Perhaps in their eyes, I
should be furious and even curse.
Yeah, that’s my character setting.
I’ve been trying for so long, but they still think I’m the same. The prejudice in
people’s minds is really a mountain.
Or maybe the female halo is too strong.
I took the document to compensate me-a house, and five million..
I remember joking with my friends that I would find a rich second generation boyfriend in the future, and then
wait for his mother to throw five million checks in my face to get rich.
Now that I think about it, I look at the agreement and laugh.
The lawyer frowned and said, “Ms. Tian, are you not satisfied with the compensation?”? I advise
you not to be too greedy, after all..
I took the divorce papers and interrupted him. “You go and sign them and I’ll give them to him myself.”
The lawyer seemed to think I would play some tricks and said, “Ms. Tian, I hope you can really think about it. Your marriage with Mr. Jiang has come to an end. Besides..” Miss Ku is already pregnant. Ms.
Tian, Miss Gu..
I threw the document over and smacked it right on his chin, leaving a red mark. “Did Gu Xi ask you to add that last sentence?” The hesitation in the
lawyer’s eyes was fleeting, and he immediately replied, “I am Mr. Jiang’s lawyer.”
I smiled and shook my head. We’ve known each other for more than ten years. He may not have loved me, but he certainly wouldn’t say such a thing. I believe in the way I look at men.
Jiang Mu is not a love brain, perhaps the heroine aura so that he can not see my good, but I still feel that he is not a person who does not distinguish between right and wrong.
The lawyer left and looked at me for a few seconds before he left, as if he thought I was different from the rumors.
Lin sat down next to me and looked at the divorce papers in my hand. “Have you thought about it?”
I fingered Jiang Mu’s signature below. His handwriting was as beautiful as his person. I said feebly, “I haven’t thought about it, but it’s still over.” It was three days after the lawyer left that he
made up his mind to sign. I’ve been carrying the
divorce papers on my back.
I suddenly remembered that one day after our relationship eased, he forgot to
refuel his car because he was too busy, so he went to school with me by bus.
It was an evening when I suddenly remembered the novels and movies I had read over the years and took
out my headphones to listen to music with him.
But somehow, the Internet speed was very slow that day, and I didn’t have the habit of downloading songs. Two
people wore a headset and looked at the screen of their mobile phones in circles.
I was so embarrassed that he suddenly said, “Do you have anything else in your phone?”
So we listened to cross talk all the way.
At that time, he was wearing headphones and looking out of the window. I looked at him. What kind of crosstalk
did you listen to that day? I
thought about it, but I couldn’t remember.
But I remember that it was a live radio, and there was a couple of newlyweds in the audience during the interaction. Those who are
funny say that they will be together for a hundred years, and those who are funny say that they will give birth to a son early. From
the earphone came a sound of laughter, I looked at Jiang Mu like that, and his mouth also
had a smile.
I thought that would be the end of us. I want to take him to see someone’s cross talk show
. Thinking of this, I turned my head and looked at my side. It was a high school student who was taking a nap. He was plugged in
headphones. The screen of his mobile phone showed that he was listening to English.
I opened my handbag, took out the divorce agreement and signed my name.
Our handwriting is very similar. This is the font I learned after copying the handwriting of the original owner,
and it is also the font that the original owner copied the handwriting of Jiang Mu.
I took a taxi to the gate of Jiangmu Community, where I used to live.
I don’t live there anymore. The security guard knows me, but he can’t let me in. I
smiled and said, “Uncle, I won’t go in. Just wait at the door for a while.” I got off work early
today, and when I got here, it was still sunset.
Whether it is the original owner or myself, it seems to be in such a summer
evening to see Jiang Mu.
The rosy sky, the burning clouds stretch for thousands of miles.
What a lovely day to fall in love at first sight.
I waited at the door, in fact, I do not know whether Jiang Mu will come back, but I always feel that
I can see him. Working overtime for a
long time has made my health worse. I didn’t have time to eat dinner today.
I have some hypoglycemia after waiting for so long.
I squatted in the corner and took out a piece of candy from my bag. If no one cares, you should be more careful.
I do not know after a long time, more than a dozen luxury cars in and out, but not Jiang Mu.
The security guard asked me to make a phone call, but I said it was not convenient for him to go to work.
In fact, I called him about the first birthday after I married him, but he
didn’t answer, and I never called again.
At this time, a light came, I squinted, reached out to block in front of me, I saw
Jiang Mu in the car, and. Gu Xi, the co-pilot.
Jiang Mu also saw me, but he did not stop, until after the security booth, the security
uncle seemed to say something to him, he went in and came out soon after.
He was wearing a casual black shirt and black suit pants, one button of his shirt was unbuttoned, and
his sexy Adam’s apple was exposed to the air, just like when I first met him.
I held the wall and stood up slowly. I came after work at the last minute. I didn’t make
up, and I didn’t know whether I looked good or not.
“Long time no see.”
“What are you doing?” The tone of
his answer was as cold
as when I first came here. No, even more indifferent.
I didn’t care. I lowered my head and smiled. Then I looked straight into his eyes. “Jiang
Mu, how did we get to be like this?” I seemed to be asking him, but
I said to myself, “When I was a child, I was obviously very good. When I changed my teeth, my family didn’t allow me to eat candy. You often slipped me a piece secretly. You also said that my parents were for my own good and told me not to make trouble. They said that if I wanted to eat candy, I would come to you.” When
you were in junior high school, I was in the sixth grade, and I didn’t study well, but I wanted to go to your school, so I took the initiative to hire a tutor and study for three hours after school every day. You even offered to teach me, saying that you wanted us to go to the same junior high school, the same high school, and the same university.
“Since when do you feel ashamed to have a follower?”
“And then you get more and more annoyed with me, more and more disgusted with me.”
That’s what I said for the original owner. She should be confused, too. How did the gentle brother Jiang Mu change in those years?
Maybe it’s the halo of the supporting role. Anyway, the original owner will never know. It
‘s funny to say that the halo of a supporting role can turn a talented student from a top university into a silly female companion. Only then did
I realize that tears had flowed into my mouth. Tears blurred my vision. I looked at his hazy face and said, “Actually, I didn’t do anything harmful. Maybe..” I just loved someone who wouldn’t love me.
I seemed to see the corners of Jiang Mu’s mouth move, but when I wiped away my tears, he still looked like a stranger.
I took out the signed divorce agreement and said before handing it to him, “Jiang Mu, I told you a long time ago, don’t wrong me, I won’t be able to stand it..” I don’t know if you’ve been blinded by the aura of a
woman, but sometimes seeing is not necessarily believing.
He took over the divorce papers, and I didn’t care if he was listening or not, he went on to say, “I heard she’s pregnant
. It’s good. We went to the welfare home to do volunteer work in high school. I think you like
children very much.” However, I really can not say the words of blessing, I hope you will be healthy in the future
, it is said that the scourge of a thousand years, you have such a
face that is easy to make people move, I do not know how many little girls have been harmed. A long life should not be a problem.
“We had a very happy start, and I hope to give this happiness a formal farewell.”
I walked past him, and as I brushed my shoulders, I said, “I’m leaving.”
I’m gone, really gone, with this body of joy for you for seventeen years.
At this moment, my heart is like the sea and the mulberry field. In the meantime, all things have grown, dust has been flying
, laughter has been hysterical, and finally turned into a pool of stagnant water, calmly
waiting to dry up. As soon as I got
divorced, I had five million yuan more in my card. I should have squandered it and said to
myself, “Isn’t it good to be a rich woman?”?
But the fact is not, I took my savings in the past two years to travel.
No, my savings are only enough to travel on a budget.
Lin followed me, and the scene I often saw was that I ate a
dry pancake, and he took a steak from a Michelin restaurant wrapped in bread and
ate it as a homemade rou Jia Mo. “Are you sure you won’t eat?”
If it wasn’t for the wild smile in the corner of his eyes, I really thought he wanted to shareshare
!
“Get out!”
Lin happily rolled aside and continued to make another steak of several thousand pieces into a shape that could only
be sold for five yuan. I
was so angry that I turned around and continued to eat the cake.
In the end, I was so angry that I took the remaining half of the cake and stood in front of Lin.
“Is there anyone chasing people like you?”
Lin Kui’s eyes are round, and he hands him “a five-dollar Chinese hamburger.” His voice
is soft and waxy. “Can you catch it like this?”.
I gave a dry cough and turned my eyes to one side.
“Well, hurry up and eat. I’ll go to the airport later. The next stop is New Zealand.” As if he was addicted to playing,
Lin continued to squat down beside me with an innocent face. “You haven’t
answered yet, teacher.”
I glared at him. “I’ll say it again! Don’t call me teacher! I don’t have a student
like you!
Lin Kui winked and snort in my ear. “Don’t you think it’s fun to call me teacher
?” As soon as
I pushed him away, Lin sat down on the ground without paying attention. He looked at me with a confused face, as if accusing me of being cruel to such a beautiful face.
I wrapped up half of the cake and put it in my bag. I patted the dust on my body. I raised my eyebrows and said, “Don’t love me. It’s fruitless.” As if he had not heard
, Linton stretched out his hand to me pitifully, and I pulled him up with a sigh.
“Shall we go back to see our aunts and uncles first?”
I looked at the Appian Way, which had existed for more than two thousand years, and nodded with some sadness. It’s been
two years. It’s time to go back. I slept almost from the time I got on the plane during
the 11-hour flight.
In the past two years, I have run through Western Europe and Northern Europe almost without stopping, and I am really tired.
I don’t know when I began to write travel notes, take photos and post them on the Internet, and gradually more and more fans. Later, some magazines asked me to write articles. Recently, I took a magazine column, and my income should be more. After the
plane landed, Lin woke me up and soon called the car. I slept in the car for a while. When I opened my eyes
again, I had already arrived at the cemetery. Lin Kui was waiting for me outside, and I sat in front of the double tomb and talked one by one.
“Mom and Dad, I’m still not a good teacher, but I’m very happy now. I’ve been to
a lot of places, and it’s good to go out for a walk.”
I’m happy, really.. I just haven’t been filial to you yet.
by the way, do you remember the stray cat I adopted in my senior year? Before
I left, I gave it away, and the new owner sent me a message saying that they had a litter of kittens. I looked at the pictures
, and they were very cute.
“I’m running all over the world now, and there’s a follower named Lin behind me. He talks a lot and
likes to pretend to be pitiful. It’s annoying..” As I said
this, I saw the way
Lin turned to look at me when he was watching the Aurora in Iceland. Behind him was the Aurora all over the sky. The way he looked at me was more gentle than autumn leaves falling into the river
. After
leaving the cemetery, I received the magazine’s contribution fee in a short time, and then took Lin
to eat hot pot.
This is an old shop, very popular, waiting for two tables, I ordered two plates of yellow throat.
“You love yellow throat so much, why don’t you order some?”
“I can’t eat more than three. Don’t speculate on my preferences!”
Lin Kui smirked as he poured me water.
Just as he was trying to say something, a conversation came from the TV on the side. Mr. Jiang, do you know that
you have been very popular on the Internet since the last video of signing a contract with TY was leaked? Netizens all say that you can make your debut directly with your good looks!
“I don’t pay much attention to entertainment news.”
“Then I would like to ask you a question on behalf of netizens. You are worth over 100 million, but why do you always wear this new wristwatch from a few years ago when you attend various
occasions?” The voice of the supporter is very
gossipy.
Hearing this, I turned to look, and it was indeed Jiang Mu.
Just two years no see, his eyebrows more stable, sitting on the sofa, a dark gray
casual suit, shirt collar as usual a button open, with a smile on the corners of his mouth, but
not angry.
As if in a state of nostalgia, he stroked his wristwatch and said more gently than before, “I’m used to
it.” A child at the
next table was shouting to see the bear, and the boss happened to pass by and changed
the channel with a smile.
I turned around just in time to see Lin suddenly looking straight at me. There was a steaming hot pot between
us, and the white gas filled everything. He looked at me for a long
time, and finally lowered his head and put a yellow throat in my plate.
I pressed his hand and asked with a smile, “Nothing?” There was a flicker of confusion in
Lin’s eyes, and he finally said, “No, let’s eat.”
Lin is only one year younger than me, but that doesn’t mean he’s really a puppy. On the contrary, he is very mature, so mature that I slowly become dependent.
I took his hand with my backhand and put my chopsticks between our palms. “You don’t have anything to ask, but I have something to say.”
Without waiting for him to say whether he wanted to hear it or not, I continued, “The next stop is New Zealand, and then I want to go to Quebec, then to Moscow, to Hokkaido, to Bangkok..”
Lin didn’t seem to understand what I was trying to say. He just nodded, “OK, whatever.”
I continued to look at him, clenching my hands a little tighter. “So, would you like to do the strategy with me?”? All the time, all the time.
Lin’s hands trembled slightly. His Adam’s apple rolled and he stared at me. After a long time, he kept nodding: “Yes, yes, yes!”. Smiling,
I let go of his hand, took the chopsticks and pointed to the hot pot. “Now can I eat at ease?”
Lin Kuo nodded, then, as if remembering something, waved to the waiter and said, “Two more plates of yellow throat, thank you.”
Then he looked at me with bright eyes and asked for praise, so I had to follow him and say, “Well, that’s great!”
Then he held out his left hand. “Hand in hand.” I rolled my eyes. “I held out my left hand. Are you going to cook
our hands?”
Lin rolled his eyes, as if he thought I was right. Then he reached out his right hand and took
my left hand. “Then I won’t eat.”
I knocked on the back of his hand with the end of my chopsticks and said, “Be normal!”
Lin Kui felt wronged and touched the back of his hand. “My wife is so fierce.”
I reached out and made a gesture to hit him, and then they both burst out laughing.
Laughter merges with the noise around it and turns into the fireworks of the city, floating over the city
.
Tonight some people laugh, some people cry; some people propose marriage successfully, some people lose their love; some new
lives are born, and many lives are gone..
It seems to be a very ordinary night, but there are many unusual
things happening.
Many years ago, the surprise of seeing Jiang Mu’s eyes has been blurred. In fact, that
time did not go forward, time left in that day, will hide the pain.
And I was carried on by time, and finally I saw the light of the sky. “Diary” of Jiang Mu in
those years (What was Jiang Mu’s little mind thinking
about those years?) [01]
Today, I went downstairs and saw Tian Meishi. She looked at me as if I had met her for the first time. I don’t know
what she was thinking about.
[02]
She didn’t mention the engagement to the old man today. It’s weird.
[03]
The first time I ate a sandwich made by her, it tasted good. But it’s the same for anyone to do
it.
[04]
She was able to buy out-of-print records!
[05]
The employees in the company seem to like her. Lunch is good
today. I don’t know who ordered it.
[06]
She ordered lunch.
[07] For two months, she hasn’t said a word about her engagement. Has it really changed
?
I suddenly remembered that we had a good relationship when we were young.
[08]
After she left the study, the old man began to urge her to marry again. I really shouldn’t have believed her.
[09]
I didn’t pick up the breakfast she sent me today. I ate some in the canteen after the morning class, and suddenly I felt that the sandwich she
made tasted good.
[10]
I don’t like people coming into my room, but when the old man pushed her in, I couldn’t get rid of
her.
Maybe it was a soft mouth to eat people, and I actually took the initiative to talk to them.
I didn’t expect her to play the game so well. No, I can’t lose next time.
Wait, next time.. What
she said today. Very unlike her usual self. Or did I not get to know
her?
We seem to have known each other for many years. [11]
People in the company called her sister-in-law, and I stopped her, but it didn’t work.
Let them.
[12]
The fish soup is delicious.
She said mine was in passing, and I retorted casually. The way
she blushed was different from usual.
[13]
The chicken soup is delicious.
[14]
She didn’t come to deliver the meal today. The takeout was terrible.
[15]
Today, I met a girl in the library. She took the same book with me. She was
a net friend I met when I was a sophomore. The world is really small.
But she can still see when she smiles.
[16] Gu Xi’s computer operation is very good, and she has a lot of unrestrained ideas. She said a lot
today.
She came to the library to find me, and she fell asleep before I could speak. I wanted to take her
to eat Sichuan food.
The last game owed her.
[17]
Since she took Gu Xi to dinner with her, she has talked less.
I know she likes me, and I know Gu Xi likes me.
Isn’t that what I want.
I think I should like a girl like Gu Xi, who is smart, generous and has a common
language.
She’s obviously very unruly, isn’t she? But now that I think about it, it seems nothing.
I always feel that there is something wrong.
[18]
I never judge people by their age. Although Gu Xi is a freshman, she is very capable.
However, since the last time she went to see a client with Gu Xi, she hadn’t come to deliver lunch for a long time,
but breakfast was delivered frequently. It’s. Jealous?
[19]
The leaves turned yellow this morning, and autumn came suddenly. When she
went out, she stood on the dead leaves in a Burgundy coat, which was very beautiful. I
said I would spend my birthday with her. It’s been a long time since I spent my
last birthday with her, and it seems to be a single-digit age. She never missed
my birthday.
[20]
The old man is gone.
On her way with her to find me.
She said someone called her and said I was with someone else.
I asked her who called, but she didn’t answer.
Even if there was someone who really said that, it was she who brought Grandpa
.
Why is that? Can’t you just wait for me? Am I so untrustworthy?
[21] I got my license today.
The old man said he wanted me to marry her.
Obviously should hate her, why is there a trace of joy when taking pictures?
[22]
I dare not see her.
It’s a mess.
[23]
Lunar New Year’s Eve, I drank a lot of wine in the company that day, and Gu Xi came to me and asked me not to drink.
Gu Xi asked me if I liked her.
I told Gu Xi to go away.
But in the end, Gu Xi drove me home, and at breakfast, she came down. Her
eyes were so black and blue that she seemed to have waited all night.
I broke my promise. When
she walked out of the door, I wanted to run after her. My mother grabbed me and glanced at Grandpa’s picture
.
[24] I haven’t seen her for a long time.
[25]
She’s avoiding me.
[26]
This is just as well.
[27]
Her father passed away, and her company was not working well. I went to ask my father, and he said it was a
bottomless pit and there was no way to invest. At the
funeral, she was wearing a black dress of a different style, her eyes were red, and when she saw me
, there was a flash of light in her eyes.
[28]
She worked in a Western restaurant and took clients to eat French food, but she changed the way temporarily, and
the clients didn’t know anyway. I heard her talking before I
entered the box.
She speaks English very well.
[29]
She and I are married. Every time I see the marriage certificate, I realize it.
Why didn’t she come to me for help?
……
She’s the one who killed grandpa, but I still miss her.
[30]
She and her aunt opened a milk tea shop called Remembering the World.
[31]
I often send people to their shop to buy coffee, which is not pure at all, but I always think
it tastes good.
She didn’t see me, but I watched her in the car for a long time.
[32]
The driver said that when he went to buy coffee today, a high school student expressed his love to her.
I was stunned.
It seems that when we were in high school, she was so popular.
[33]
She went to work as a teacher in an English institution, and it was very hard. After work, I followed her all the way.
We are.. Couple.
[34]
I heard she got an a on her paper.
I gave my secretary a raise.
[35]
I don’t like to do magazines and I don’t like to do interviews, but companies need exposure.
[36]
Yesterday, after an interview, I suddenly wanted to drink fish soup, but I ended up drinking a lot of wine.
I slept with Gu Xi, and Gu Xi said I had mistaken him for someone else.
I seem to.. Betrayed my marriage.
[37]
It seems that I shouldn’t tie her up anymore.
Divorce. But I don’t want to.
The secretary said I was crying. [38]
Her mother died, too, and I later learned that she had cancer.
I’ve been trapped in my own world for so long, and so much has happened. Will
she be sad and afraid to face this alone?
But I didn’t dare to look for her. I was afraid to see those eyes.
[39]
She came back from a business trip with a man.
[40]
I contacted the agency and paid two-thirds for the plot.
I know how much the milk tea shop sells.
I also know that she will buy the most expensive cemetery in her range.
[41]
Gu Xi is pregnant.
She said she didn’t want money as long as she married me.
My mother likes her very much. But I don’t like it.
Why did you feel moved when you first saw Gu Xi? It’s weird.
[42]
We’re divorced.
Whether it is the old man or Gu Xi, they are all difficult to overcome.
[43]
My mother asked me to take Gu Xi for a prenatal checkup and planned to hold a wedding before she was pregnant.
I suddenly remembered.. I don’t seem to have a wedding with her.
[44]
She was waiting for me at the gate of the neighborhood.
Security said she waited more than six hours.
Her lips are a little white. It’s hypoglycemia. She’s been like this since high school. I don’t know
if she brought sugar.
I can only tell her if she is all right.
I couldn’t look her in the eye.
She talks a lot. I haven’t heard her voice in a long time. Maybe I haven’t drunk water for a long time, and I’m a little hoarse. I don’t know what
she’s talking about, but she seems to be talking about Gu Xi.
I want to say that I don’t like Gu Xi, because I think Gu Xi is her when I am pregnant.
But I can’t open my mouth. We are all people who can’t tolerate sand in our eyes.
Things have happened, and the process is not so important.
She gave me the divorce papers.
She said she wished me a long life.
She doesn’t want me.
[45]
Gu Xi gave birth to a daughter. It was
named by her and my mom.
Liu Gen came back to me and explained what happened that year.
Gu Xi knelt down and begged me not to leave.
I want to say that I will not leave, because I never belonged to her.
But in the end, I just let her go home. [46]
How did this happen? She also asked
this question.
[47]
She went abroad. I hear she’s been to a lot of places.
I heard he was still with the man.
It’s good. It’s safer in a foreign country than alone.
[48]
I’ve been wearing the wristwatch she gave me since she left, and I like it very much. She
‘s always understood my preferences.
[49]
I got used to being interviewed.
Today, the host said that many people on the Internet said I was handsome. I
suddenly remembered that I was on the bus with her that year, and she wanted to play music, but the Internet speed was
not good. We both looked at the circle that kept showing on the phone. She was embarrassed and her cheeks
were flushed.
It’s pretty. Finally, each of us listened to a cross talk with an earphone.
When I closed my eyes to sleep, she said in my ear, “Jiang Mu, you are so beautiful.”.
Later, I went to listen to the crosstalk performance of the two people, and there were no empty seats.
Everyone else is laughing, but I’m crying.
[50]
In the last conversation, she said she loved someone who didn’t love her.
I wanted to say I liked her, but I never had a chance.
[51]
She’s married.
She is very famous on the Internet now, and her travel notes and strategies are very interesting.
But she only sends pictures of scenery, and no one knows what she looks like.
Until one day, a person started her picture. She looks great in the shot of
the man.
I still like to wear red and bright lipstick.
It should be taken by that man. It’s good.
I am also very good. My daughter is very good. I love her very much. She is not like me or Gu Xi. She
loves to laugh very much.
[52]
I’m divorced, and Gu Xi doesn’t want children.
She said she always thought she and I should be together.
I’ve had this idea before, but it’s been gone for a long time. If you think about it
carefully, it seems that there is a pair of invisible hands controlling everything.
[53]
I loved you for years in a time you didn’t know.
[54]
It’s sunny today. I miss you.
