We broke up after six years of
love.
It’s ridiculous. At one o’clock in the middle of the night, my boyfriend suddenly sent me a link to a post on Zhihu:
“Did you write this?” After
a moment’s silence, I replied with one word: “Yes.”.
He seemed relieved at last: “Let’s break up.”
I wanted to be “nice” to him, at least to leave with some dignity.
But his fingers trembled violently on the screen, his tears wiped and flowed, and he could not type a
word.
The title of the post was “When did you realize that the other person didn’t love you?”.
When is it? It was
probably a rainstorm last Monday evening. He sent me a red envelope and asked me to take a taxi. Then he drove
to the other side of the city to pick up Qu Xinyao. I waited in line for an hour in front of the convenience store to get a taxi. When I got
home wet, I saw a picture of Qu Xinyao in the circle of friends. The
warm yellow light, and the soft eyebrows and eyes under the light:
“Thank you, classmate Lin, for taking me home and inviting you to drink ginger cola.”
At that moment, my world collapsed. After
a sleepless night, at daybreak, I finally wiped away my tears and told Lin Ke, “If you want to break up
, you can say it in front of me.”
After all, when we were together, he expressed his love to me face to face.
I went to high school with Lin Ke and Qu Xinyao. As long as
I was with Lin Ke, Qu Xinyao had an unrequited love for him. In the summer vacation after the
college entrance examination, Lin Ke refused Qu Xinyao’s confession and then expressed
his love to me.
Throughout the university period, the entanglement between the three of us was a topic of great interest
to the students.
At that time, Lin Ke and I had been in different places, but Qu Xinyao was in the same university with him. In order to give me enough sense of security,
Lin Ke would report to me
every time he met Qu Xinyao. Zhizhi, I met Qu Xinyao on my way to the library today. She asked me if I wanted to have lunch
with her, but I said no.
“It was only when I got there this weekend that I discovered that Qu Hsin-yao was also there, but I didn
‘t spend any time alone with her during the whole trip. Please rest assured, Meng Chih.” While
I complained that he was unnecessary, I couldn’t help but feel very
relieved because of his behavior. When exactly did the
situation change? It started
about half a year ago.
Half a year ago, Qu Xinyao moved to our city, and because of the intersection
of work, she began to contact Lin Ke frequently.
At first, I didn’t think it was anything.
Until that meal together, Lin Ke, in front of me, naturally picked up a piece of shrimp
slippery egg, picked out the chives inside, and put them on Qu Xinyao’s plate.
I froze and my breath stagnated for a moment.
Finally, it was Qu Xinyao who reacted first.
She ate the piece of shrimp and egg and thanked him gracefully: “Thank you, Mr. Lin.”
She is so magnanimous that I can’t say anything more. After returning home, Lin Ke also explained to me that before the company’s dinner, Qu Xinyao said that she would nausea eating
chives, so he helped her pick them by the way.
He hugged me from behind and rubbed his lips intimately against my ear.
“After all, she is also my first party, and I can’t offend her.”. Chih-chih, can you be considerate
?
I lowered my eyes for a long time before I answered softly.
But a few days later, I accidentally saw a message
from his good brother Yu
Hao on Lin Ke’s cell phone: At least Qu Xinyao is a girl. She has liked you for so many years. She has paid
silently and never abandoned you. And now I’ve come to work with you. Don’t
let them down. It was a long time before
Lin Ke replied, “I know.”
I took a screenshot of the message and put it in front of Lin Ke.
He was silent for a long time before he rubbed his eyebrows and said to me helplessly, “Chih-chih, don’t
think too much. Qu Hsin-yao and I are innocent.” There is fatigue in the
eyes that can not be covered.
In recent months, he has been busy with a big contract, the person in charge of the partner is Qu
Xinyao, a little more contact is also understandable. But the girl’s intuition tells me that the relationship
between him and Qu Xinyao is by no means as simple as a simple partnership.
In fact, to be fair, Qu Xinyao has been more dazzling than me since high school. Although
her grades are not as good as mine, she is good-looking, lively and bold.
When the school held a basketball match, in the final, our class’s opponent secretly made small moves and
tripped Lin Ke, causing him to break his knee skin, ligament injury, and unable to play again. By the time
I was silently helping Lin Ke treat the wound, Qu Xinyao had already rushed
up with the cheerleading ball and stared at the boy who tripped Lin Ke: “You fouled, you’re off!”! How can
you play like this? Is it dirty? Later,
she dared to express her love to Lin Ke and chased him for six years without hesitation.
If she is not prying my corner, even I want to praise her for her frankness and loveliness.
Chih-chih, if I had had a situation with Qu Hsin-yao, it would have happened long ago. We’ve been together for six
years. Can you at least give me a little credit? In
Lin Ke’s eyes, there was already a vague boredom.
At that moment, I found myself so powerless-
pretending not to know, just watching him step by step quietly to Qu Xinyao.
But pointing it out directly will only push him further.
Forward and backward, for me, it’s a dead end. Two days later, Lin Ke came back from a business trip.
He didn’t even inform me, but came back silently, packed his things, and
asked the moving company to carry them away.
If I hadn’t come back from work early and seen him, I’m afraid he would have
left my world without a sound.
Seeing me, Lin Ke was obviously a little surprised, and a trace of embarrassment flashed across his face. Holding back my heartache,
I walked over and said calmly, “Would you like a cup of coffee?”
“Meng Zhi, let’s break up.” After
drinking coffee, Lin Ke said this sentence in front of me. I gasped
for breath. I gripped the palm of my hand and looked up at him. “Why?”
“As you wrote yourself, I don’t love you anymore.”
He took a deep breath, and there was a faint resistance in his voice. “Let’s have a good reunion and a good separation.”.
And that post, you can delete it.
Like someone sprinkled a handful of steel balls in my heart, the cold and hard pain rolled over the apex of my heart.
I looked at him and pulled the corners of my lips with difficulty. “Why did you delete it?”
Lin Ke paused, and when he spoke again, there was a kind of earnest meaning in his voice. “Meng Chih, after all, you’re a girl, and besides, Hsin Yao and you are classmates. What good does it do you to make this kind of thing
known to everyone?”
Meng Zhi, Xin Yao, close and distant at a glance. My
heart tingled and my fingertips trembled. I couldn’t help but scoff: “She’s not
afraid of being a mistress, but what am I afraid of?”
“Meng Chi!”
Lin Ke suddenly stood up and looked at me with anger and disappointment in his eyes. “When did you
become like this?” The
door was slammed in my face. In the
empty room, I bit my wrist and cried silently. When I was
in college, there was a time when I was overwhelmed by full courses and scientific research experiments
. I was depressed every day and had a bad cold.
As a result, one evening, when I came out of the laboratory building, I saw Lin Ke standing
under the street lamp opposite.
He stood tall and straight like a tree, and the yellow light stretched his shadow
very long. The first time he
saw me, he opened his arms with a smile and let me throw myself into his arms.
For the next few days, Lin Ke stayed with me. Accompany me to attend classes and experiments, accompany me to take medicine, and wait for my cold to recover before
reluctantly leaving. There are many
such things.
I have been with Lin Ke for so long that it has become a habit.
He suddenly pulled away, and I realized that there was such a big blank
in my life that no one could fill it except him.
The sudden breakup left me depressed for days. My best friend in
high school, Tu Ling, came to me and asked, “Did you break up with Lin Ke?”
「…… What’s wrong?
“Did you know that Qu Hsin-yao posted on her WeChat Moments?”
I was slightly stunned, clicked on the circle of friends, and what came into view was a particularly intimate group
photo. By the bright
lights of the Yangtze River, Qu Xinyao held a large bunch of roses and leaned
on Lin Ke’s shoulder with a bright smile.
Lin Ke, holding two cups of unfinished milk tea in his hand, looked at her with an unconcealed
fervent preference.
“Reunion is the beginning of romance.” Lin Ke immediately commented: “Thank you for never giving up on
me in the past six years.”
My mind went blank, my ears buzzed, and tears welled up almost instantaneously
. In the
dim line of sight, I suddenly saw that the comments section was full of blessings, mixed with
a tone word that looked very inappropriate.
He yuan: Tut.
A momentary trance.
That comment, maverick, out of place, just like He yuan. In
high school, He yuan was almost the most noticeable one in our class.
In addition to his outstanding appearance, his personality is also very casual. He seldom listens to the teacher in class and dares to quarrel with the math
teacher face to face.
It happened that his grades were very good, and he even played exceptionally in the college entrance examination and went to Peking University.
And.
In fact, at the beginning, the person I liked was He yuan. After
the college entrance examination, I dared to write a love letter to He yuan, and soon received
his reply.
“I’m sorry, Meng Chih. I’ve never had that kind of idea about you. Let’s just be ordinary
friends.”
He yuan’s words are very clear, I gave up my heart, no more delusions-even if some
of the ambiguous fragments, let me illusion, he also had a heart to me.
Just during that time, Lin Ke expressed his love to me.
He even helped me deliver my luggage before I went to my school to report.
My bedroom was on the fifth floor, and Lin Ke had run up and down more than ten times, so tired that he was sweating profusely, but he
still didn’t care:
“Chih-chih, think about what else you want to buy. I’ll just help you carry it upstairs.”
At that time, the sunlight was just right, and it fell into his pupils through the leaves, shining brightly.
I looked at his slightly sweaty hair and his heart beat faster and faster, so I took a tissue and
stood on tiptoe to wipe the sweat from his forehead.
Then he leaned close to his ear and whispered, “I promise.”
I agreed to Lin Ke’s confession. On the day of
graduation ceremony, he came all the way to see me. When he accompanied me to take pictures on the lawn
in his bachelor’s gown, there were two alumni taking wedding photos beside him. Lin Ke and
I watched quietly for a while. Suddenly he turned his head and looked at me. “Chih-chih, when we get married, why don’t we go back to your school and take a group of pictures
like this?”
I nodded my head heavily.
I didn’t expect that we would end up like this. When I came to my
senses, I noticed that in addition to He yuan’s “Tut,” there was another line of Tu Ling
‘s “Oh” in the comments section.
Probably these two comments are too dazzling, after a while, Qu Xinyao directly deleted the circle
of friends.
But Lin Ke broke up with me and was with her, which became an unspoken
fact for all his classmates. It took me
a long time to tell my parents about breaking up with Lin Ke.
Maybe I heard the reluctance in my tone on the phone. The next morning, my mother
came directly. I’ve lost a lot of weight in the
past half month. When she saw me, my mother’s eyes turned red. She reached out and held me
in her arms. She said sadly,
“Chih-chih, how did this happen?”
“Mom, Lin Ke likes someone else. He doesn’t want me anymore.” In front of my mother, my tense
mood for many days finally broke down, and I threw myself into her arms and cried for a long time.
Finally, my mother told me to go home and relax. With only half a month to go before the Spring Festival, I simply asked for annual leave with the company and went back to my hometown with my mother
. Half a month
at home, every day I open my eyes and have a cooked meal. After dinner, I can go out for a walk holding my
parents’hands. I deliberately empty myself and don’t think about anything. The hurt that
Lin Ke brought to me seems to be healing slowly.
However, just a few days before the Spring Festival, Du Ling suddenly came to my house to find me and said that this year’s class
reunion would be held in the afternoon of the day after tomorrow.
“I heard that Ho yuan will come back from Beijing this year, and he will come too.” Tu Ling sighs, “If
it weren’t for Lin Ke and Qu Hsin-yao, I’d have to meet this legendary king.
I don’t know what he’s become.”
“Then let’s go together.”
Du Ling looked at me in surprise. “Aren’t you afraid to see those two?”
“People who cheat are not afraid. What am I afraid of?”
Du Ling was obviously excited, and she was eager to choose clothes and lipstick for me, so that I
must press Qu Xinyao on that day.
But on the day of the reunion, I went there without makeup.
Qu Xinyao is better looking than me, so why should I ask for trouble. After
pushing the door and entering the box, I noticed He yuan in the corner almost immediately.
Strangely, even though I haven’t seen him for six years, I can still recognize him at a glance.
Compared with high school, his facial features are more neat and tough now.
His eyebrows were cold, his nose was high, his thin lips were slightly pursed, and he stared intently at the switch in his hand
.
Hearing the noise, he raised his eyes and looked at the door.
His eyes stopped on my face, and then he raised his eyebrows as a greeting. Du Ling and
I were assigned to a table with He yuan, and there were two empty seats for Lin Ke and Qu
Xinyao.
It was not until all the dishes were served that the two men came late.
I found that I overestimated myself.
From the moment Lin Ke took Qu Xinyao’s hand and entered the door, my heart seemed to be grasped by a
huge force, and the severe pain spread to my fingertips, which I covered up with my fist.
I watched them come. He
watched Lin Ke thoughtfully help Qu Xinyao pull out her chair and hang up her coat.
Looking at Qu Xinyao’s delicate makeup, her eyes are full of undisguised happiness and satisfaction. In the midst of the hubbub of several boys headed by Yu Hao, she looked at me without any evasion and
curled the corners of her mouth:
“Hi, Meng Zhi, long time no see.”
I never thought she could be so magnanimous.
It seems that she is not the one who deliberately ignores my existence, relentlessly pursues Lin Ke for six years, and is even willing
to be a mistress. “
I haven’t seen you for a long time. I haven’t congratulated you yet. After
six years, your dream has finally come true.”
“How do you talk?” Before
Qu Hsin-yao could speak, Yu Hao stood up and said,
“Hsin-yao is brave enough to pursue true love. Do you think she’s just like you coy little girls
?” As he said
this, he gave me a particularly pointed look.
I pulled my lips and felt that the scene was absurd and ridiculous.
I know that he and Qu Xinyao have a good relationship since high school, because Qu Xinyao used to love
but not, so he also has a lot of opinions about me. Once
, when I was ill in hospital, Lin Ke took a few days off to take care of me.
Yu Hao called directly and asked me if I knew Lin Ke would have an exam next month. When you’re with him, you’re always dragging him down. Meng Chih,
how can a person like you compare with Hsin Yao?
When I came to my senses from my memory, Lin Ke was already sitting beside Qu Xinyao. After pouring
her orange juice, he asked her in a low voice what she wanted to eat, and then helped to pick up the food.
Busy and considerate, just like he used to be to me. In the
gap, Qu Xinyao raised her head and gave me a look.
Showing off, complacent, even with a little provocation.
She did it on purpose.
Tu Ling also saw it. She stood up and walked over
with a glass full of wine. “Qu Hsin-yao, I propose a toast to you. After all, it hasn’t been easy for you these six years.”. Other people’s boyfriends
aren’t easy to pry, are they?
Qu Hsin-yao sat motionless, but raised her head with a smile.
“I don’t understand what you’re saying.”. Lin Ke and I only confirmed
our relationship after he broke up with Meng Chih-chih, didn’t we?
Lin Ke reached for the glass of wine, looked up and drank it down. Then he frowned and looked at me
. “Meng Zhi, I’ve already said that.”. It has nothing to do with Xinyao that I broke up with you, but I have no feelings for
you. If you’re in a mood, you’re coming at me. Why are you always targeting Hsin-yao? At last year’s class reunion, he took my hand and announced to everyone, “Chi-Chi
and I will get engaged next year, and everyone will come!”
Now, in front of everyone, he said to me, “I have no feelings for you. You come at
me.” The
lively dinner suddenly quieted down, and countless eyes looked at me in the light and in the dark,
fixed on my face.
The light was bright, and I sat there embarrassed, with a sharp pain and bitterness in my heart, and my
eyes were so hot that I almost shed tears. Suddenly, in the
silence, there was the sound of a chair dragging.
It turned out to be He yuan.
He stood up, slipped the switch in his hand into the pocket of his sweater, and stretched himself
: “It’s so stuffy. I’m going out to get some air.” After a few steps
toward the door, he stopped and turned his head lazily. “Together?” It took me a
few seconds to realize that he had said this to me. He quickly stood up and followed
me. Go out
of the box and walk along the corridor to the end, which is the roof.
It was completely dark, except for the warm
light of the antique glass lamp on the wall. He yuan suddenly stopped, I was not careful, nearly hit his back.
He reached into his pocket and took out a cigarette case. Suddenly, as if remembering something, he turned his head
and said, “You still can’t smell the smoke?”
「…… Uh
I answered softly and watched him put the cigarette back and say to me, “It’s all
right. Cry if you want to. There’s no one else here.”
This sentence became the last straw to overwhelm my emotions.
Tears welled up in an instant. I crouched down and cried, thinking that just now during the dinner,
Qu Xinyao opened her eyes and lied. Lin Ke would rather lie than defend Qu Xinyao, belittling
me so badly.
The most important thing is that all this is clearly seen by He yuan at the same table. I haven’t seen him for
six years, and the first time I met him again, I was in such a mess in front of him.
He yuan did not speak again, but when I was tired of crying and sobbing, he handed me a
tissue and suddenly said,
“Actually, I found that post.”
I was stunned.
“Although anonymous, I still see the shadow of
our school in that background description.” “What’s more, when you recalled the past, you mentioned the acacia tree. Except for you,
no other girl went to the acacia tree to do her exam paper every PE class.”
He yuan even remembered this thing. In the
third year of senior high school, I did exercises under the acacia tree in every physical education class. In fact, it was because it
was the nearest to the basketball court and I could clearly see several boys playing basketball.
I was watching He yuan, but I didn’t know what was going on. Later, there were rumors in the class that
I was sitting there to watch Lin Ke play.
In one class, I did a set of math problems while watching the ball game. As a result, I was fascinated when
I calculated the final problem, and I didn’t notice when the basketball hit me. After a
bang, Ho yuan strode over and crouched down to look at me anxiously. “Meng
Chih-chih, are you all right?” Holding my dizzy head,
I raised my eyes and shook my head as I looked at his forelock
, which was slightly wet with sweat, and the worried look in his eyes, which were always casual. My
classmates call me Meng Zhi, and the girls who have a good relationship call me Zhi Zhi.
Only He yuan will call me Meng Zhizhi.
“You’re 24 years old. How come you still have such a soft temper?”
He yuan’s beautiful voice pulled me out of my memory:
“If I were you, since I spent so much time writing the post, when they showed it, I posted the link directly
in the comments.” I sniffed and said nothing.
Perhaps seeing that I didn’t reply, he suddenly added a hint of mockery to his tone: “You’re not still
reluctant to give up, are you?”
The words made my nose sour and tears almost fell down. He yuan,
who had been standing, suddenly squatted down and moved forward a little, looking at
my eyes in a very close place.
His pupils were a clear light brown, and I don’t know if it was an illusion, but I
saw a hint of panic in them.
But how is that possible?
He yuan is such an unruly person, dare to quarrel with the teacher face to face, how can he panic in
front of me.
“I don’t send it because I feel ashamed..” I sobbed and said, “I don’t
want everyone to think that I can’t do anything better than Qu Hsin-yao. I don’t even have the courage to confront her
. I just dare to post on the Internet in silence.”
This is the most secret thought in my heart.
It’s childish and ridiculous.
When he said it, he was ready to laugh at me.
But I waited for a moment, waiting for a hand that fell on the top of my hair. The joints are clear and the touch is warm and cool.
He yuan patted me twice on the top of my head, as if he were comforting a child. Then he withdrew
his hand and put it back in his pocket.
“Nothing is better than Qu Hsin-yao.”? Do you think too much of her, or do you think too little of yourself
? Or is it just because Lin Ke chose her?
I was slightly stupefied, got up, stood in front of him with my head down, and said nothing more.
He yuan was silent for a moment, but when he spoke again, there was a hint of gnashing of teeth in his voice
:
“Meng Chih-chih, you said you had a thousand choices, and you chose this thing.”
I don’t know why he said that.
At the beginning, it was he who refused me first.
I have a soft temper, just as I dared to sit on the side of the court and watch He yuan play
silently, I like it and dare not say it easily. The bravest thing I
ever did was probably to write a letter of confession to He yuan and ask the team
‘s classmates to pass it on to him.
Unexpectedly, he refused so simply and thoroughly. Thinking of this, I could not help feeling a little angry in my voice: “If I don’t choose him, will I choose
you?”
He yuan narrowed his eyes. Suddenly he lowered his head slightly and leaned close to me.
“What’s wrong with choosing me?”? Am I not as good as your cheating ex-boyfriend? There was sarcasm in
his tone again, and my eyes were sour, and I turned away, ignoring this somewhat ambiguous
gesture.
He yuan didn’t catch up. The light
on my face changed from dim to bright, and I stood at the door of the box, slowing down for a long time
to make my expression look as calm as possible.
However, when I was about to push the door and go in, the door suddenly opened from the inside.
Lin Ke stood in the doorway, his eyes fixed on my face for a moment, and when he fell behind me, his look
suddenly became a little ugly.
I turned my head, only to find that he yuan did not know when to follow up.
Moments later, Lin Ke suddenly opened his mouth:
“I said that He yuan had been fine in Beijing for six years, and this year he suddenly came back.” Meng
Zhi, have you already hooked up? Who are you to condemn me?
His eyes were cold, and there were a lot of dark emotions in them. Only His words accused me of a false charge, so that I did not bother to guess
his thoughts, but felt a surge of anger from the bottom of my heart.
I was about to refute Lin Ke, but He yuan spoke before me.
Why, if you do the garbage of cheating, it depends on everyone? Don’t worry, I came
back because of the job transfer, and as for tonight. That’s called acting bravely.
He put one hand in the pocket of his overalls, and the other hand reached over and turned over the back
of my neck, and I realized that the collar of my sweater had been folded in.
When it was done, he said to me lazily, “All right, go in.”
From the beginning to the end, he never looked at Lin Ke directly.
Du Ling said he was bking, and he was right.
I nodded gently and was about to cross Lin Ke to enter the door when he suddenly reached out and clasped my wrist tightly
.
“Let go!”
I subconsciously forced away, the result of the next second, a faint sweet fragrance suddenly floated over
.
When I came to my senses, I found that it was Qu Xinyao.
She looked at Lin Ke, then at me, and frowned gently. “Meng Zhi, you and Lin Ke have broken up. Why are you still pestering him
?” The
tone sounded just as righteous as it had been countless times before. At the end of my patience,
I stepped back, stared at the two men, and gritted my teeth and cursed,
“You are so shameless!”
It’s obvious that you have no sense of shame. You went after Lin Ke before we broke up
. Now that I have broken up with Lin Ke, what
position do you stand when you come to question me? Do you think I’ll be like you, with no moral boundaries?
Lin Ke and Qu Xinyao looked at me in astonishment, unable to speak for a long time.
Probably because I used to be silent and tolerant in the past, they felt that I would never fight back, so I
became more and more unscrupulous.
But at this moment, standing beside me, He yuan seemed to accumulate a little bit of
courage to support me, so that I finally expressed the emotions in my heart. It
suddenly occurred to me that before the college entrance examination, I went with He yuan to take the independent entrance
examination of F University. When I came out of the
interview, my face was very ugly, and a boy next to me taunted me,
saying that I was sure I couldn’t record it.
He yuan was looking down at a book, but when he heard this, he suddenly raised his head and looked at him.
“Even if she can’t record it, you can.”? You take yourself a little too seriously. His words gave me the courage to fight back.
I raised my eyes and looked at the boy.
“Is Chen Tse from Class 37, Senior High School?”? If I remember correctly, your written test score
seems to be the last one. Is that why you want everyone to have a bad interview
?
Chen Ze’s face turned livid. Later, when the
interview was over, we walked back together, and when we reached the corner of the stairs, Ho yuan
suddenly raised his hand and rubbed it on the top of my hair:
“It looks like it’s silent, and it’s really good at finding pain points when it comes to people.”
Memory comes back to life.
I didn’t want to see Lin Ke’s expression any more, so I pushed them into the private room, took my coat from the coat
rack beside me, and walked to the door as I put it on.
Tu Ling caught up with me and walked outside the door with me, but when she saw He yuan, she took the initiative to step back
: “He, I suddenly remembered that I have something to do. Are you free later?”? Can you send Chi-chi
home?
He yuan nodded casually: “Yes.”
“Well, I’ll trouble you.” She poked me in the back. “Go, Chi-Chi. I’ll see
you some other time.”
It was not until I sat in He yuan’s car for a long time that the violent emotions in my heart slowly subsided
.
He reached out to turn on the air conditioner, put one hand on the steering wheel, and turned his head to ask me, “Address?”
I gave my home address.
He yuan answered casually, then suddenly leaned over and reached out to pull
out the seat belt from my other side. “Buckle it up.” As
he lowered his head, the soft ends of his hair swept across my cheek, slightly itchy to the touch.
A faint aroma of cedar wafted into my breath.
My face suddenly turned red quickly.
As I buckled my seat belt sideways, I lowered my head and said in some confusion, “I
can do it myself.”
He yuan started the car and chuckled, “I’m afraid you won’t be able to find it.” On the way
back, there was a light snow outside the window, and the cold gray ground was wet and soon
covered with a thin layer of white. He yuan parked his car downstairs in my house. A cold breeze poured in. I stood on the ground
carefully and turned to thank He yuan:
“Thank you..” He Tongxue. As
he stood by the car, the smile in his eyes suddenly faded: “Hello, classmate?”
“Meng Chih-chih, I’ve never seen you so polite.” There was a street lamp behind
him, the light was dim, it was late at night, it was snowing
, and the green belt of the community had withered. In
this scene, only He yuan, who stood two steps away from me,
jumped out with bright vitality.
I immediately thought of the third year of senior high school, before the winter vacation, it snowed for several days in a row, so in the physical education class on Friday
, the teacher simply let us move freely.
Everyone had a snowball fight with childlike innocence.
He yuan’s character has always been untamed, and no one dares to provoke him.
But Du Ling and I had a good time, and all of a sudden I stopped, and a ball of snow hit
him heavily on the head.
Realizing that something was wrong, I turned around and ran. Unfortunately, I was short and short-legged. As soon as I ran two
steps, I was grabbed by He yuan, who was chasing me.
Seeing that he was about to hit the snowball, I quickly covered my head and said loudly, “I have a cold
!” The snowball suddenly stopped in the air, and countless emotions surged and silenced
in the bright eyes behind it.
He casually dropped the lump of snow, reaching over with his cool fingertips and rubbing a small
piece of snow off the tip of my nose: “Keep warm.” With
that, he loosened my hat and turned away.
“Hurry up, or you’ll catch a cold again.”
He yuan’s slightly hoarse voice sounded and suddenly pulled me back to reality.
I looked up at him and realized that even after six years, the emotional
complexity of his temperament was still fascinating.
If.
If the original ambiguity is not my illusion, he finally agreed to my confession.
If the person who accompanied me through six years of youth was not Lin Ke, but He yuan. Will the outcome be different
now?
“It’s too cold. Would you like to go up and have
a cup of tea?” The New Year
is coming, my parents went back to my grandmother’s house to get preserved meat sausage today, because it was too late, they
simply stayed there.
So, I’m the only one left at home tonight. He yuan sat on the sofa and stared down at the glass in his hand for three seconds. Then he looked up
and said, “Tea?”
That.. There’s no hot water at home. I’m boiling it. Drink some red wine first to quench
your thirst.
What a poor excuse.
I admit that I was too nervous to drink some wine to relax and then have
the next conversation with He yuan.
Sure enough, He yuan sneered, as if he had seen through my idea, but he still
looked up and drank most of the glass of red wine.
I sat across from him, sipping red wine from my glass and pondering
where to start.
Catch up?
After all, me and him. I haven’t seen you for six years.
Thinking of this, I took a deep breath and asked him, “Why did you come back
from Beijing this year?”
“The company set up a branch here, and there was a more suitable position for me, so I came back
.” After a slight pause,
he added, “And …”
And what? He didn’t finish.
I plucked up my courage and asked, “Is that really the only reason?”
“Or what?” As if he had heard some funny question, he sat up straight and curled
his lips. “Meng Chih, in your opinion, what
else can I do?”
He called me Meng Zhi unexpectedly.
I suddenly thought of the letter of rejection that left no room, and I felt sad again.
“Or do you think I came back from Beijing because of you?” The
deep voice came into my ears, but it was like a thunderbolt, and my reason was blown to pieces by this
sentence. Under the catalysis of
alcohol, I pounced on him, grabbed the collar of his sweater and approached his
face. The smell of alcohol spread between
breathing.
“How can you call me Meng Chih..”
I said with some grievance and went up to kiss him.
He yuan did not push me away, but closed his eyes. I
have known him for nine years, and it seems to be the first time I have seen him so docile. Originally, I wanted to drink some wine, and when I relaxed, I would talk to He yuan about what
had happened before.
But I overestimated my capacity for liquor.
In the end, I almost completely lost my ability to think. I grabbed him by the collar and cried
,
“You didn’t push me away, which means you like me, too, don’t you?”? In that case, why
did you refuse my confession in the first place?
He yuan frowned. “What confession?”
After that, I don’t remember at all.
When I opened my eyes, it was the next morning.
He was in the quilt, wearing only a thin undershirt. After a few seconds of
delay, the memory of last night before the fragment slowly returned to my mind. My
heart trembled and I felt that things were not good.
Sure enough, when I packed up my mood and went to the living room, I saw He yuan sitting on the sofa
, looking down at his mobile phone.
He was still wearing the sweater he had worn last night, but it was a little wrinkled, and there were still some unknown traces of dried liquid on his chest
.
Hearing the noise, he looked up. I saw with sharp eyes that there was a tooth mark on his chin, and his legs were so weak that he could hardly stand.
“Do you remember what happened last night?” He put his cell
phone in his pocket and raised his eyebrows to look at me. “Meng Chih-chih, it’s all right. I haven’t seen you for six years.
I’ve grown a lot bolder.”
“I..”
I hemmed and hawed, unable to speak for a moment.
But strangely, the mood was not as flustered as originally imagined.
He yuan doesn’t look angry.
This means that although things went wrong in the middle, the result was not much different
from what I expected.
Thinking of this, I plucked up my courage and raised my eyes to look at him again: “I know that I
will be responsible for you.”
He yuan was stunned for a moment, and his mood seemed to have improved a lot. He looked at me with his chin propped up.
“How are you going to be responsible?”
I was silent for a while, and then I asked tentatively,
“If you were single now, could I chase you?” What
answered me was the action of He yuan suddenly getting up. Startled,
I watched him walk up to me and look down at me slightly, with mixed emotions in his
eyes. He said, “Yes.”
I took out the toast slices from the refrigerator, had a simple breakfast with He yuan, and
then sent him downstairs.
“My parents will be back soon. I’ll ask you out after the New Year.”
I waved to He yuan and pointed to his hoodie. Go back and change your clothes
first. Not long after
He yuan’s car left, my parents came back.
They were carrying bags of sausages preserved meat and were surprised
to see me standing downstairs. “Chih-chih, I didn’t contact you with your father. Why did you come downstairs to wait?” Feeling guilty,
I quickly took two bags from their hands and said, “I’m afraid your things are too heavy
to carry, so I want to come down and meet you.” While lamenting that I was too sensible,
my mother scolded Lin Ke, saying that he must
not have been very good to me before.
At this point, she immediately stopped, as if she knew she had made a slip of the tongue, and looked at
me with some guilt.
I shook my head. “Mom, I’m fine.”
It’s really nothing. Because I found that after last night, the attachment
to Lin Ke for six years and the pain of his derailment with Qu Xinyao faded away quickly.
Instead, I deliberately forgot for six years and then surged up again, the heart of He
yuan.
Two days later, Du Ling came to me again and asked me if I knew that after the party, Qu
Xinyao and Lin Ke had a quarrel.
“Qu Hsin-yao said that Lin Ke still had you in his heart, but Lin Ke didn’t immediately deny it, and she was even more angry
.” “Sure enough,” scoffs Tu Ling, “I’m a mistress, and I’m afraid the garbage
will be picked up by others.”
I didn’t speak.
She asked me again, “By the way, didn’t bking send you home that night?”? Did you chat again later
?
「…… No.
Actually, there is.
After I said I wanted to chase He yuan, I began to rack my brains to find a topic to chat with him.
He replied to me in a timely manner, and even heard that I had a cold, and came downstairs
to give me a medicine.
Those memories left behind six years ago are being recovered little by little. Tu Ling sighed with some regret: “Actually, if you could be with He yuan, it would be
fine. He would stay at home and develop in the future.”. And, honestly, ever since high
school, I thought you were a better match for bking. There are so many girls in our class, and
he’s only special to you.
“Unfortunately, it was Lin Ke who confessed his love to you after graduation, but he didn’t do anything about it.” I didn’t even tell Du Ling that I wrote a letter of confession
to He yuan.
So she didn’t know that He yuan had rejected me.
Thinking of this matter, I felt a little uncomfortable and quickly changed the subject. On the morning of the first day of the
Lunar New Year, after I said Happy New Year to He yuan, he replied
, “Happy New Year, Meng Chih-chih.”
Since the next day was Valentine’s Day, I plucked up the courage to ask him out:
Are you free tomorrow? There’s a New Year’s movie that’s not bad. Can we go out and watch a movie
together?
After a while, Ho yuan replied, “I have something to do tomorrow. I’ll make an appointment another day.”
My mood fell to the bottom.
What’s up?
Visiting relatives, or.. Go out with another girl?
Soon, I knew what was wrong with him. Because at lunch, my mother suddenly mentioned to me about the blind date.
The son of your aunt Wu’s neighbor is very promising. He has been with you for one year. At
the beginning, he studied in Peking University. Originally he was going to settle down in Beijing, and his parents went with
him, but at the end of the year he was transferred to another job, and suddenly he came back.
“I was so busy studying in college that I never fell in love..”
The more I heard, the more familiar I became. I couldn’t help but interrupt my mother and ask, “What’s his name?”
“I think his name is Ho yuan.”
I froze in the same place, and my mood became terrible.
My mother didn’t notice it, and she was still talking to me about the advantages of He yuan.
In the end, she asked me cautiously,
“Well, why don’t we meet first and have a meal to get to know each other?”? I happen to have time
tomorrow, and it will be a good day.
I was silent for a moment, then gritted my teeth and said, “Yes.”
The next day, I dressed up and rushed to the scene in a threatening manner.
As a result, as soon as I entered the door, I was looking at the eyes of He yuan.
Calm, free and easy, even with a relaxed smile. I walked over, sat down across from him, looked him in the eye and asked, “Do you know who
I am?”
He yuan laughed. “Meng Chih-chih, are you stupid?” Holding back the bitterness in my heart,
I asked him,
“Since you promised me to chase you that day, why did you come on a blind date today?”? It doesn
‘t matter, I can be one of your many choices, right?
In the end, there was a faint cry in my voice.
I can accept that He yuan doesn’t like me and refuses me, but I can’t accept that he just takes me as a spare tire while chatting
with me enthusiastically.
Listen to me so ask, he yuan’s expression more than a rare trace of helplessness.
He sighed and asked me, “Since you said you wanted to pursue me, why
did you come on a blind date today?”
“It’s because I know it’s you!”
“So am I.”
He stretched out his hand, took my hand gently on the table, and repeated, “Meng Zhi!” I’m just like you,
Chi.
…… Ah?
Under He yuan’s explanation, I finally understood. He first confirmed with Aunt Wu that the blind date was me before he agreed.
“I asked you out yesterday. Why didn’t you just say so?” It’s a surprise
for you. Besides, since you said you were going to pursue me, it would be more reassuring to go through a clear path in front
of the elders.
He resumed his casual look and handed me
the menu in his hand. “All right, order.”. I’ve already bought the tickets for the movie you mentioned yesterday. We’ll go to see it after
dinner.
I also lost my temper, took over the menu, ordered a few dishes according to my own and memory of He yuan’s taste
, and then concentrated on bowing my head to eat. The cinema where
he bought the ticket is in the business district opposite.
It happened to be during the Chinese New Year and Valentine’s Day, and the shopping mall could be described
as a sea of people. He yuan and
I walked to the door of the cinema side by side. He yuan went to the side to get the tickets. I went to buy popcorn and
coke.
The result just walked to the end of the line, Yu Guang suddenly saw, slanting in the two familiar figures
.
It’s Lin Ke and Qu Xinyao. The next second after
seeing me, Qu Xinyao immediately restrained her smile and turned to look at Lin Ke’s expression
. Lin Ke looked at me and pursed his lips. “Are you alone?”
“What’s it to you?” As soon as
I finished, He yuan took the ticket and came back.
Seeing He yuan, Lin Ke’s expression suddenly became extremely ugly, and his eyes
looking at me became more and more obscure and difficult to distinguish.
He yuan’s eyes swept over them, and without pausing for a moment, he looked back at me: “The tickets are ready
. Let’s go.”
His attitude, as if the two people in front of him were no different from ordinary passers-by,
was not even worth wasting half a look.
I reached for his arm and turned to the ticket gate.
From beginning to end, like He yuan, I never looked at Lin Ke again. In fact, the
film is an ordinary New Year’s love film, in the middle of the rules, the ending is always
love to see the happy reunion, lively, very in line with the atmosphere of the New Year.
However, in the end, when the male and female protagonists embraced and kissed, the atmosphere in the cinema became ambiguous
.
I sat in the last row, looking at the young couple in front of me, a little embarrassed
and a little ready to move. In the tangle, a warm hand reached out and gently covered the back of my hand.
This contact gave me great encouragement. I clasped my fingers with He yuan’s backhand, turned sideways
and whispered, “You lower your head a little.”
And kiss it.
The kiss was brief and passed like a dragonfly skimming the surface of the water, but it was not like that night
when I was completely sober, so when I retreated, my face turned red quickly.
Fortunately, the light in the cinema was dim, and Ho yuan didn’t notice. He just put his forehead against
mine and whispered, “Meng Chih-chih, are you so bold now?”
I pretended to be calm and said, “I said I was going to chase you, so of course I have to take the initiative.” After
watching the movie, He yuan sent me home and said
goodbye to me at the last parking place.
When I went upstairs and looked down at the window, I found that He yuan had not gone. He
stood where he was, leaning against the street lamp, and there was a piece of smoke between his fingers, shining
in the darkening sky.
I suddenly realized that he yuan had always had the habit of smoking.
Just because I have chronic pharyngitis, I cough when I smell smoke, so when he is in front
of me, he seldom pulls out his cigarette case.
Mingming seems to be a casual and casual person, but he is very
careful in this kind of thing. I raised my hand to my chest and felt my heart beating faster.
“Chi Chi.”
My mother’s voice interrupted my thoughts. Turning my head, I realized that she and my father were standing
behind me and asked cautiously,
“How did it feel to meet Xiaohe today?”? Did you have a nice chat?
「…… It’s fine. He just sent me home.
My mother seemed relieved.
“That’s good, that’s good.”. You get along well with Xiaohe. He is also very
attentive to you. Mom thinks that this child is more reliable than Lin Ke.
I listened patiently to her warm chatter, and I couldn’t help thinking about before. During the time when I just broke up with Lin Ke before the
Spring Festival, I haven’t met He yuan again, and
I haven’t picked up my love for him.
Even insomnia every day until very late, because as soon as I close my eyes, the picture of Lin Ke
and Qu Xinyao will emerge in my mind.
The most desperate and helpless time was when my parents accompanied me through it bit by bit.
Thinking of this, I took a deep breath, went over and hugged my mother, buried my face in her shoulder
, and said in a muffled voice,
“I’ll get along well with him. Mom, you don’t have to worry.” After the
New Year holiday, I went back to work.
I work in the provincial capital, and my hometown is in a third-tier town nearest to here. When I
went back, I learned that the branch set up by He yuan’s company was not far away, only
six subway stops away from me. It
‘s probably a coincidence that He yuan rented a house in the neighborhood opposite me.
Because they live close to each other, frequent contact becomes a matter of course.
At first, I took the initiative to invite He yuan to have dinner together after work every day. Later, as long as
I didn’t work overtime, it became a tacit understanding.
That night, near DDL, I stayed up
in the company until eleven o’clock to get off work because I had to keep an eye on revising a plan.
The subway was out of service, and I wanted to take a taxi home, but when I got to the gate of the park and took out my cell phone, I
found that I didn’t know when it was out of power. It was impossible to go back to charge
now, and I stood in the cold night wind at a
loss. It was
also at this time that a familiar black car stopped in front of me. The window rolled
down, revealing He yuan’s face.
He frowned and looked a little cold. “Why did you turn it off?”? Your cell phone is dead
? “Well..” I was too busy changing the plan to pay attention.
I got into the car, rubbed my cheeks with my frozen fingertips, and asked in a low voice, “Why do you want to come and pick me up so late
?”
“Because it’s so late, you haven’t replied to your messages, and your cell phone is still turned off when you call.” As
he started the car, he looked sideways at me:
“Two days ago there was news of a girl being robbed while walking at night. Meng Chih-chih, I don’t
trust you alone.”
I thought devilishly of last year. In
the rainstorm that day, Lin Ke personally drove to pick up Qu Xinyao and let me take
a taxi alone. By the time I was in line, it was already midnight.
In fact, I was very timid. It was too late that day. In addition, I read a lot of social news. I was also
scared to death. On the way home, I was on the WeChat with Du Ling. I didn’t hang up until I got home safely
.
Then I saw Qu Xinyao’s circle of friends.
Even though I have no feelings for Lin Ke now, the sadness at the beginning is real
.
The car stopped at the gate of my neighborhood. After
getting off the bus, I was about to say goodbye to He yuan, but he got off the bus and said he would take me
downstairs. “It’s too late. I’m afraid you’re not safe.”
I walked side by side with him on a dark road, through the green belt, to the downstairs where I lived
.
“In the future, if you work late, just call me and I’ll pick you up.”
“All right, you go up.” He gave me a casual wave. “Go home and rest early
.” When I
got home, I immediately sent a message to He yuan that I had arrived safely, and then put
down my mobile phone to take a bath.
That night, I was not sleepy for a while, so I lay in bed thinking about the past.
I am timid, and he yuan has always known about it. In
high school, people often show movies before evening self-study.
If it was a horror movie, I would be so scared that I would not watch the movie and
run out of the classroom to relax in the corridor.
At this time, he yuan would usually follow me out, leaning against the corridor railings beside me, and immerse
himself in playing hand games.
I asked him why he didn’t go in and watch the movie.
He yuan raised his head and looked at me. His tone seemed very casual: “I’ve seen it before,
so I came out to get some air.” As a result, almost every horror film he made was like this.
At that time, I asked him foolishly, “Do you like horror movies very much?”? How
come you’ve seen every one of them?
Until now, I just realized that at the beginning, I was also very slow
sometimes.
From that day on, He yuan began to pick me up after working overtime every time.
Even a few times, after he sent me downstairs safely, he returned to his company
and continued to work on the project. Only then did
I know that he was sent to the newly established branch, which belongs to the core staff
of the R & D department and is very important, so he is very busy at ordinary times.
But even so, he often replies to my messages in seconds. On the
anniversary day, the company gave us a bonus-two tickets to the
hot spring hotel.
I called He yuan and asked him if he wanted to be together. A few keystrokes came from the other side of the
phone, followed by Ho yuan’s voice with a slight smile
:
“Are you going to soak in the hot springs with me?” I blushed slightly: “Well, I heard that the buffet in the hotel is also very good …”
“All right, let’s get on with the work this time.”
I can feel that the distance between us is getting closer and closer. Those feelings left behind in the long river of time
before are also found bit by bit, and
even become more and more vigorous in the day and night.
He yuan has a charming temperament that makes me very excited, as well as considerate and meticulous
care.
Occasionally, when I mentioned it to my mother, she would say, “You and Hsiao Ho are a good match.”
Only Every time I think of the rejected letter of confession, I still lose
the courage to confess to He yuan again in an instant. When I went out in the
morning, I made an appointment with He yuan to have dinner together after work in the evening.
However, as soon as I got off work, I received a call from a strange number.
“Meng Chih, it’s me, Ho Chih-nien.” It took
me a few seconds to remember that this man was a member of our high school basketball team and lived in the same neighborhood with He yuan
‘s family.
At the beginning, because I got my driver’s license and He yuan was admitted to Peking University, I was very busy, and the time
of the two people was not right. The letter of confession
I gave to He yuan was handed over by him. Later, he also gave me the reply.
“What is it?”
Lin Ke was drunk in a bar and kept saying your name. Can you.. Come here
?
I wanted to refuse, but he said,
“You’d better come here. I have something to say to
you about your confession to He yuan.”
It was so important to me that my heart sank and I took a
taxi and went straight to the address he gave me. On the way
there, I suddenly thought of a question: Didn’t He Zhinian have a
good relationship with He yuan? When did he and Lin Ke become so familiar?
The light was warm and clear. I walked quickly to the corner table and knocked on the table.
Lin Ke raised his hazy drunk eyes and looked at me: “Chih-chih..”
“You’re still with He yuan, aren’t you?”
I took a deep breath. “What does this have to do with you?”? Lin Ke, it was you who cheated on me first.
You’re not qualified to question me.
Then you shouldn’t have chosen He yuan either! When he rejected your confession, did you think he
really liked you? Stunned,
I bent over the table and stared at him, saying, “How do you know He yuan refused my confession?”
He Zhinian pulled me aside, and his voice was full of apologies
: “I’m sorry, Meng Zhi.”. I admit that the letter was never sent to Ho yuan at all, and that Lin Ke wrote all of it, including the’reply. ‘
Like a thunderbolt in a clear sky, it struck me from my mind. My face turned white and I could hardly stand.
When I finished the college entrance examination, my mother said she would take me to meet a best friend for decades. When I met her, I found out that her best friend’s son was Lin Ke. I had a good time with Lin Ke at that time. He told me that he really liked you. He yuan wasn’t here for a few days, so after you gave it to me, Lin Ke found out, and I gave it to him.
Finally, he hesitated for a moment and took out a wrapped box from his backpack behind him:
“Actually, at that time, He yuan’s time was always running into you. I said I wanted to go swimming with you, so before I went to Beijing, he also asked me to give you something.” I don’t need him to tell me what happened
later.
He yuan did not receive my letter of confession, but I thought he had rejected me.
His gift didn’t reach me at all. Some time ago, Ho yuan-lai actually asked me about this. I didn’t tell him the
truth at the time, but after thinking about it, I thought I’d better tell you the truth.
Faced with his face full of guilt, I could neither say cruel words nor forgive.
In the final analysis, I am not brave enough.
Even if I received such a reply, as long as I had the courage to ask He yuan at that time,
the result would be quite different.
Behind me, the drunken Lin Ke was still talking. I put the gift box in my bag and turned
to him.
He suddenly raised his head and asked me with a sneer,
“If you hadn’t always sat by the basketball court and treated my wounds
during the game, would I have misunderstood that you were interested in me?”? You are with He yuan now,
so what is our previous relationship? In the past six years, you have said countless times that you like me.
Are they all false?
I suddenly felt that he and Qu Xinyao were a perfect match.
One is self-righteous, the other is indomitable.
The key is that both of them have no moral bottom line and will never feel that they are wrong.
I picked up the bottle on the table and poured the whole bottle over his head.
“I sat by the basketball court doing exercises to see He yuan, and I treated your wounds because I was a
member of the life committee. From the very beginning, the person I liked was He yuan.” I clenched my teeth to restrain the tremor in my voice. “You stole those six years from He yuan
.”
“Lin Ke, I didn’t like you for a long time. Now that I know the truth, I just feel sick.
Do you understand?”
Lin Ke sat there dripping wet, all in a mess, but did not move.
He looked up at me, and the light in his eyes went out inch by inch, and a little bit
of despair emerged.
I walked away without looking back. On the way
back, I opened the gift box in the taxi and found a
book in it, which was Shunji Iwai’s Love Letter.
Memories flow back at this moment. In
high school, the class let the movie go. When I
saw the ending, I cried and told He yuan, who was sitting beside me, that I
liked Fujii’s introverted and affectionate confession too much.
It turned out that he had heard and remembered, and tried to convey his
heart to me in the same way.
It’s just a mistake. It took me six years to get it.
After getting off the bus, I walked into the neighborhood with the book in my arms and sat on a bench under the street lamp. The night was cold, and I finally stopped suppressing my emotions and buried my face between my knees and burst into
tears.
At this moment, the emotion in my heart is not resentment, nor regret.
It’s just infinitely astringent and sour.
My fantasy has finally been verified, if I had not missed He yuan, if
the person who accompanied me through my youth had always been him, these six years of life would have been completely
different.
I cried silently for a long time, until I heard a familiar
voice: “Meng Chih-chih?”
I looked up.
He yuan stood in front of me, a few steps away, and my
tear-stained face was reflected in his clear pupils.
“What are you crying for?”
His eyes flashed over to the book in my hand, and his voice suddenly stopped. “Is this
book still in your hand?”
I heard a hint in the tone and stared at him.
He yuan came over, reached out and patted me on the top of my hair, and sat beside me.
The night breeze was slightly cool, and the body temperature was passing, and the skin on the back of my hand gradually warmed up. Last time you were drunk and asked me why I refused your confession, I felt a little strange
, because I had never heard your confession. On the contrary, I have the impression that
when I first asked Ho Chih-nien to send you a book, your attitude toward me suddenly became very cold.
Later, when you were with Lin Ke, I felt that this was a very tactful refusal, and it was also quite in line with
your usual character.
“So I went to ask Ho Chih-nien.”
“He didn’t admit it, but I had actually guessed something–for example, did you not have the book
at all?”
I sniffed and nodded gently.
Ho yuan tugged at the corners of his lips and said, “Sure enough.”
The air was quiet for a moment.
He suddenly said, “Actually, I met you once in my junior year.”
I looked at him in astonishment.
There is a competition, and the finals will be held at your university. I followed the teacher
who was leading the team, and I saw you and Lin Ke together at the gate of the gym.
He smiled as he said, “You looked up at him, so intently that you didn’t notice
me and walked across the road.”
“When the competition was over, I didn’t stop and went straight back.” My
heart is sour and I feel very uncomfortable. He yuan suddenly spoke again: “Meng Chih-chih, now that you have received this book, can you
tell me the answer?”
「…… What?
He turned to look at me, his eyes serious and his voice slightly heavy. “After six years, do you still want
to fall in love with me?”
The night wind swept the tiny sound around me and passed by my ears.
I clearly felt that the heartbeat in my chest was getting faster and more intense, just
like beating a drum.
It is more profound than six years ago.
Finally, I gave a serious nod. “Good.”
He yuan smiled, then held my head and kissed me directly.
I told my mother that I was with He yuan.
She was so excited that she said she would invite Aunt Wu, the matchmaker, to dinner and tell He yuan’s mother the
good news.
I heard something was wrong, and after questioning, I learned that during this period of time, she had played several rounds of mahjong with
He yuan’s mother, and also went shopping together, and established a very deep
friendship, hoping that I would be with He yuan, and they would be even closer.
I also told He yuan about it.
He raised his eyebrows and said with a smile, “Next time I go home, I’ll go with you to see Auntie first.”
Later, when I met Du Ling, I also told her.
She looked very excited, cursed Lin Ke in front of me, and began to praise Heyuan: “I said you and bking are the most suitable!”! Let that dog Lin Ke and Qu Hsin-yao go forever!
I smiled faintly. “But I don’t want to make them feel better.”
If he just cheated on Qu Xinyao, maybe according to my usual character, I won’t care too much.
But he intercepted my letter to He yuan.
In the middle of the year, the project that Lin Ke and Qu Xinyao had worked on before, an APP that claimed to help find a soul mate, finally began to be promoted on the shelves.
At the same time, I cancelled the anonymity of the original post, and then sent the link to the classmate group, and the major network disclosure platforms.
An APP whose selling point is to find true love and soul mate, but the person in charge of the project is indomitable, the mistress who has been digging the foot of the wall for six years, and the cheating scum man, how can this reputation be better?
Later, I heard that Qu Xinyao’s company talked to her and sent her to other cities to do marginal projects. Lin Ke was dismissed directly, and the company posted the dismissal announcement on the Internet to
show that the project had nothing to do with Lin Ke.
“There was already a problem with their relationship, but after this incident came to light, Qu Hsin-yao directly proposed breaking
up with them, which was very gratifying.” After sharing the gossip with me,
Tu Ling sighed with emotion: “I always thought that with your character
, I guess this matter would end up with nothing.”. I didn’t expect that you would kill him with a direct hit, a ruthless
man. Bao, tell me honestly, have you been influenced by Ho yuan?
I thought, “Maybe there really is.” Ever
since high school, he’s always been the one to give me courage. It’s the same
now. After
saying goodbye to Tu Ling, I took a look. It was already dark. On my cell phone was a message from He yuan
:
“I’m working overtime tonight. You eat first. Don’t wait for me.” On a whim,
I’m going to send him a meal.
An hour later, I stood at the
gate of Heyuan Company, carrying the small fried yellow beef packed from the Hunan Restaurant downstairs. The girl
at the front desk came over and asked me who I was looking for. I was suddenly a little nervous and raised the lunch box in my hand
:
“That..” I’ve come to bring dinner to Ho yuan. The little girl was suddenly enlightened. She turned around and trotted in, shouting, “Engineer He, your girlfriend
is here to see you!”
Soon, He yuan stood in front of me with a slightly messy hair.
I cleared my throat and whispered,
“You’re so busy today that you haven’t had time for dinner, have you?”? I packed you the stir-fried beef downstairs
.
He stared at me darkly for a moment, then suddenly put his hand around my shoulder. “Go
in and say something.”
In the tea room of their company, I met several colleagues of He yuan.
Everyone greeted me warmly.
“Hi!”
“So you are Zhizhi Berry.”
I froze for a moment and looked at the young man with a bright smile. “What Chi-Chi Berry
?”
He yuan gave him a warning look, but the man ignored it:
“It’s He yuan. When I was in college, many girls in our school expressed their love to him, but he
didn’t agree to any of them.”. I thought there was something wrong with his sexual orientation. As a result, one
time in the lab, he was staring at the screen of his mobile phone and laughing. I looked at it and found that it was a
group chat, and there was a note in it that the person who said “Zhi Zhi Mei Mei” had been talking. Last October, when the company set up a branch office, he was the first to sign up, saying he wanted to come back. Later
I asked him if it was because of Chi-Chih, and he didn’t deny it.
I was stunned.
Last October.. Isn’t that the time when Lin Ke cheated on Qu Xinyao, then broke up with me,
and showed his love to Qu Xinyao in the circle of friends?
“Too many words.”
He yuan said coldly, took me by the hand and led me to a separate small room
:
“I’m going to eat, love dinner, unlike some people who can only order takeout pitifully,
understand?”
The man was so angry that he swore a dirty word.
I felt the warm touch on my hand and secretly looked sideways at He yuan. The corners of
his lips were slightly hooked, and he looked in a good mood.
I couldn’t help being slightly absent.
So. He suddenly came back from Beijing last year. Was it really because of me?
I stayed in He yuan’s company for several hours until late at night, when their work finally
came to an end and they got off work smoothly. There was no one in the park. I took He yuan’s arm and thought in silence
.
His voice suddenly sounded.
“What are you thinking?”
I kicked away the pebble at my feet and said in a muffled voice,
“I thought a proud, free and easy person like you had been rejected by me at first, but then
I heard that I was with Lin Ke, so he wouldn’t have anything to do with me anymore.”
He yuan was silent for a moment.
Yes, I am a very proud and conceited person. If it’s someone else, as long as you refuse me
once, there will be no intersection in the future.
“But because it’s you, I think it’s okay to try again.”
He spoke very slowly and seriously, which made me feel the feelings and strength
contained in his voice.
Just like the flying teenager who noticed me watching on the court beside the acacia tree and made the three-point jump shot
more beautiful.
I sniffed and felt my eyes sour.
He yuan pulled his hand out of his pocket, reached over and hugged me hard.
This embrace is unusually warm, dispelling the chill left on me in early autumn. He whispered in my ear, “Meng Chih-chih, I’ve missed you for six years. I can’t miss
you for the rest of my life.”
The sky is dark, and the stars are shining all over the sky.
I closed my eyes and hugged him back.
“I think so, too.”
