I am a
Beijing drifter. I love my girlfriend. I rent a better house. The monthly rent is five thousand and six hundred, and I pay
four thousand.
I didn’t expect to see my girlfriend walking into the hotel with a middle-aged man on her arm.
My young and beautiful girlfriend has never dressed as beautifully as she does now in my memory. The man on
her arm looks very rich.
As for me, at this moment, I am a delivery boy.
These days, I come and go in the wind and rain, my face is tanned, and my hands are as rough as bark.
But this is all for her.
Hiding behind the corner, I cried silently. My
name is Xiong Tieming, and I am the most ordinary and inconspicuous man in the crowd. When I
was in junior college, I took part in volunteer activities and met a girl. She is the same age as
me. She is a student of a second-year college in Beijing. Her name is Pan Ainuan. The name is very warm, and so is the person.
But to tell you the truth, when I first noticed her, I was really “attracted by her appearance.”.
Her skin is white and her figure is too good. The place that should be round is round, and the place that should be thin is
thin. The appearance is also good-looking, and it is very sweet and has affinity.
If you can have a daughter with her, the child will be very cute. After the
activity, Xiao Nuan and I added WeChat to each other. With my relentless pursuit,
she finally became my girlfriend.
I am from Poyang, Jiangxi, and Xiao Nuan is also a southerner. In the days when we were just together,
there were endless topics between me and Xiao Nuan.
At that time, Xiao Nuan was busy writing his graduation thesis. I told her that we would move
in together as soon as she graduated.
We can rent one bedroom and one living room, or a large room. It’s enough for two people.
I say.
Xiao Nuan was so excited that her face turned red. “Great! Then I can decorate our home
.”
Listening to her say “we” and looking at her tender face, my heart was tingling.
This may be the feeling of happiness. On the eve of
graduation, I began to send my resume and look for a job crazily. As a
junior college student, I was wronged in the job market. Most of the resumes sent out have no response.
To be honest, before that, I had no obvious feelings about the problem of poor education. But I ran into a wall many times, and the shame and self-reproach in my heart accumulated more and more.
I began to regret why I didn’t work harder before the college entrance examination, and even hated my parents, why I didn’t have the ability and money to “help” me get the chance to go to college.
However, as soon as the latter thought came out, it was extinguished by another layer of self-reproach deeper in my heart.
When I think of my parents who are diligent and live the most ordinary rural life, and think of their sunburned and deeply wrinkled faces, I tell myself that I am not qualified to blame them. In the
dark days, it is not that there is no job willing to accept me.
But most of them are unpaid positions such as insurance sales and real estate agents. I didn’t accept it.
The first reason is that I am not interested in sales. The second reason is that I want to make Xiao Nuan feel more secure. If I can find a job in drought and flood, I will have no worries when I enter the society.
Fortunately, during that difficult time, I was accompanied by Xiao Nuan. I was thinking of her, and she was thinking of me. When
my resume fell into the sea, she encouraged me, “Bear, you must believe in yourself.”. You are so clever and able to endure hardship that you will stand out sooner or later. When he
said these words, Xiao Nuan’s tone was beyond doubt.
Her firmness made me, a man who is 1.8 meters tall, want to cry.
She not only encouraged me in words, but also did her best to take care of me in life. Every morning in those days, I would run around with the milk she bought for me and start the day.
Xiao Nuan makes me warm. In this world, there are still people who believe in me and appreciate me.
Without her, I don’t know if I would have stayed in Beijing.
Fortunately, most things in the world are like this-as long as we persist, there will always be a turn for the better. A week after
graduation, I received an interview invitation from a well-known Internet company. Although the post is grass-roots customer service, but the salary is still OK, the base salary is 3800 yuan.
This number may not seem like much to you. But for me, a junior college graduate with no academic qualifications and no working experience, it is already very good.
What’s more, this company is a well-known platform, and going to work can add luster to my resume.
By the grace of God, the interview went well. On the night of receiving the offer, I took Xiao Nuan to have a meal with Xiao Da Dong in Qiaofufang Grassland. I have passed Qiaofufang Grassland many times
before, but I have never entered the mall. According to the local students, it is close to the embassy district, which is a famous high-level place in Beijing, with ostentation and extravagance.
I felt that I was too rustic and had no money, so I didn’t even have the courage to go in.
But it’s different now. I
have Xiao Nuan by my side.
Although we are still very poor, Xiao Nuan’s company gives me more confidence when facing the world.
Sitting in Xiao Da Dong’s restaurant, I told Xiao Nuan that I had heard that “Da Dong” was very good. I didn’t say the second half of the sentence.
Xiao Nuan understood my overtones.
She smiled thoughtfully and said, “Next time we’ll eat” Da Dong “instead of” Xiao Da Dong. “.
We both know that “Xiao Da Dong” is a cheaper version of “Da Dong.”. Before I came here, I checked with her that the per capita consumption of Xiao Da Dong is about half of that of Da Dong Restaurant, which is very suitable for us who are short of money to satisfy our cravings.
Of course, I spent nearly 400 yuan even if I ate Xiao Da Dong. I told her not to worry about money, and I would treat her today.
Xiao Nuan has a bright smile.
Looking at a beautiful girl like her, dressed beautifully, sitting in a spacious and bright restaurant, enjoying delicious food without distraction.. This makes me happier than eating, drinking and playing by myself.
I can’t help but think, making money, making money is really the most important thing!
With money, I can exchange it for more stability and happiness for Xiao Nuan.
I want to always see her relaxed and happy expression.
My luck is actually getting better. Just one year after I
entered the company to work as a customer service, I met a noble person.
That day, I received a complaint from users that there was a problem with our software.
I contacted the relevant person in charge on the company’s corporate WeChat. But the colleague did not reply to the message
, and the user who complained here was very angry and kept urging me to solve it quickly.
Helplessly, I had to temporarily hang up the customer service program and go directly to my colleagues to explain the situation. The
two work areas are so far apart that it takes me 10 minutes to come and go. On the way back, I passed
the covered bridge between the work areas and saw a man standing in front of the window making a phone call.
The man spoke loudly and quickly. In the few seconds
I passed behind him, I heard exactly what he was saying.
Old Tan, can you take your children’s work seriously? I have said several times that I
want a young and smart person who has worked as a customer service officer, and I can give him a position as a senior commissioner
. What kind of candidates are you pushing for me?
I know. The manager in charge of recruitment in the human resources department of our company is surnamed Tan.
The man was apparently blaming Manger Tan for not meeting his recruitment needs. M
anger Tan’s position in the company is not low. And the tone of the man’s phone call to him was like a lesson to his grandson. After
returning to the workstation, I first appeased the customer who complained bravely, then immediately opened the enterprise WeChat and looked at the information of the middle-level employees in the company structure chart.
Compared with the head photo, sure enough, the arrogant man just now was really a middle-level leader.
It’s Song Chao, the head of the operation department.
My heart was pounding. Because the recruitment requirements that Song Chao told Manger Tan about are all right with me, aren’t they?
Worked as a customer service post, young and smart.
More importantly, Song Chao just said that he could be given the post of High Commissioner.
I have heard that the monthly salary of the senior operation commissioner is between 8000 and 10000 yuan. This is only the basic salary. If the performance is good, the year-end bonus is also very generous-according to legend, the operation department staff can get up to six months’salary year-end bonus.
These are all things that I, a small customer service, can see and touch. But fate let me meet the difficult customer today and the colleague who did not reply to the message
.
Could it be that the ultimate goal is to let me meet Song Chao and hear him on the phone?
To tell me, now there is an opportunity in front of me, do you want to fight for it?
Looking at Song Chao’s head portrait on the enterprise WeChat, my heart is like boiling a pot of water, almost boiling
. It took
me three seconds to calm down. Looking around, convinced that no one was paying
attention to me, I clicked on Song Chao’s head portrait.
The Enterprise WeChat dialog pops up in front of me. With my
hands trembling slightly, I typed a line in the dialog box:
“Teacher Song, do you have a headcount over there now?”
Headcount, directly translated into Chinese, is called “head count,” which means “quota
” in the company.
I asked Song Chao directly whether he would recruit people there.
I didn’t want to come right out and say that I overheard him on the phone and explain how I knew
he was looking for someone.
And I guess he won’t ask in that much detail.
In this short year of working life, I have realized a truth: work, as long as there is a result, no one will ask the process. What
happened next surprised me.
After getting Song Chao’s affirmative reply, I went home in the evening, sorted out a resume as quickly as possible and sent it to him.
The next day, Song Chao asked me to meet him in his office. He was about thirty-four or thirty-five years old, with a good face and a serious attitude. But fortunately, none of his questions baffled me.
Call it a job transfer interview, I guess. After
chatting, Song Chao nodded and said directly that he thought I was very suitable for operation, and he would personally go to the Human Resources Department to mention my transfer.
I cried out in my heart, “Great!”
On that day, I took a half-day leave and left work early. Instead of going home directly, I went to the vegetable market near my home and bought six hairy crabs, as well as other meat and vegetables.
I want to go home and cook a table of delicious food, and wait for Xiao Nuan to come back from work to celebrate.
Yes, one year after I graduated, Xiao Nuan also graduated. I am a three-year junior college student, one year less than her undergraduate. Compared
with me, Xiao Nuan, as a second-year student, is much easier to find a job than a junior college student like me.
She is a liberal arts student. There were three companies that sent her offers, and finally, she chose a home decoration company to do new media operations. The daily work is probably to write enterprise micro-signal articles, micro-blog copywriting and so on.
When I cooked a table of dishes and looked forward to her home like the stars and the moon, I was surprised to see that Xiao Nuan drooped her head as soon as she entered the door.
She’s only been working for a few days. Why is she like this?
“Baby, what’s wrong with you?” I asked tentatively. Without saying a word,
Xiao Nuan raised his head and looked at me with tears in his big eyes. As if she couldn’t hold it any longer, she cried out and threw herself into my arms. A
table of good food is completely cold.
Xiao Nuan sobbed and told me what had happened to her in the company. There is an old employee in
their company who is a big brother in his forties. Local people, relocated households. The company is small, with a scale of about 100 people. As soon as Xiao Nuan joined the company, he was “targeted” by this big brother.
The eldest brother first asked her directly for WeChat. After being rejected, Big Brother found Xiao Nuan’s WeChat from the work group and applied to add her.
Xiao Nuan is very difficult, but after all, she is a newcomer to the workplace, and feels that it is not good to refuse to add WeChat again and again, so she has to pass the friend application of the other party.
This pass does not matter, the eldest brother began to send her messages day and night, mostly to share their daily life, as well as some middle-aged and old people like pornographic jokes, health passages and so on.
Xiao Nuan put up with it again and again.
Today, after work, she received her eldest brother’s WeChat on the subway home.
“Brother, don’t send it. It’s not good for my boyfriend to see it.” Xiao Nuan could not hold back and spoke directly.
Passed a minute, the eldest brother replied:
“See just in time.”. I just like you and chase you fair and square. Let your boyfriend know earlier. I’m willing to compete with him on an equal footing!
Xiao Nuan said here, took out the mobile phone, opened the WeChat, turned out the big brother’s message interface, and handed the mobile phone to me.
“At first, I thought I could handle it on my own, so I didn’t tell you.” She lowered her head as if she had made some mistake.
I looked down at the WeChat interface, looked at the elder brother’s WeChat name “Heaven and Earth Xiaoyao,” and felt the blood all over my body rush to the top of my head: “Silly X!”
I told Xiao Nuan that as long as she agreed, I would ask this smelly fool out now and beat him severely. “Don’t be angry, don’t be impulsive..” said
Xiao Nuan with a frightened look on her face.
My fists were clenched even tighter, and my fingernails were deeply embedded in my palms: “This kind of rascal bastard must be beaten up before he can wake up!”
Xiao Nuan cried and rushed over to hug me. There was a faint fragrance on her body, the smell of milk bath lotion. The aroma calmed me a little.
“I dare not tell you because I know you have a quick temper.” Xiao Nuan tried to calm down and whispered in my ear, “Don’t do this.” Holding my breath,
I said, “What should I do?”? What man can swallow such anger?
“But if you do hit him, what will you do?” Xiao Nuan couldn’t help shedding tears again, and the salty tears dripped on my cheeks. I have
only one thought in my mind: I love my woman so much. “You don’t have to worry too much,”
she continued. It’s a society ruled by law now. Why don’t I just tell him clearly? What else can he do to me?
She told me that the so-called elder brother did not belong to the same department with her, but was the business of another department. He was not a manual worker, so it was impossible for him to dress her in small shoes. After
saying this, in order to reassure me, Xiao Nuan immediately picked up her cell phone and wrote a message in the dialog box with “Heaven and Earth”: “I’m not interested in you. Please don’t harass me again in the future, or I’ll tell the company and call the police.”
Then, under my gaze, Xiao Nuan did not hesitate to press the send button.
Then she blacklisted Tiandi Xiaoyao.
After all this trouble, she seemed to calm down completely.
Xiao Nuan gathered up her messy hair on her temples, picked up her chopsticks and said to me, “The food is cold. Baby, go and heat it up for me, and then let’s eat quickly.”
She has become so mature and decent that she only breaks down when she can’t help it. When I
took the dish to the kitchen to heat it, I was in a trance.
In fact, it is not that we have not had a rift, nor that we have not had a heart-rending and heart-breaking dispute. At that time, Xiao Nuan was very “sharp,” which hurt me very much.
I remember when we first decided to live together, we spent a lot of time looking for a cheap rental house. After
looking for a long time, a small agency in Tongzhou introduced us to a house. About 40 square meters, the monthly rent is only 2900. Calculate the price of cabbage.
But why is it so cheap?
I always feel that there is something wrong, on the phone with the intermediary to see the house first, and then decide whether to rent or not. But Xiao Nuan was more anxious than I was, and I settled down immediately. The rent is so cheap that it is really too tempting for us. I had just graduated
at that time. I used to live in student dormitories. I had never rented a house and lacked experience in this field. But Xiao Nuan, I just watched the house video sent by the agent and paid the deposit and the rent for three months. Xiao Nuan is happily ready to embrace a new life. However, as soon as we moved in, I
really noticed something strange. There are one or two small plastic basins in the room, kitchen and toilet of
the house. There are some small black particles in the basin
, which look like potions.
I know. It’s cockroach medicine. The house with
so much cockroach medicine must have suffered from cockroach plague.
I wanted to give up the lease immediately. But it is small agents who introduce houses to us, and if you search on the Internet now
, you can also see a lot of black material about them: not refunding all deposits
, finding fault and threatening tenants, and so on.
Sure enough, when I called the agent, no one answered. The
landlord can’t be contacted. The agency’s business rules are that the landlord
and the tenant are not allowed to contact directly.
I had to bite the bullet and say to Xiao Nuan that I would stay here for one night to see the situation.
I didn’t tell her what I knew from the cockroach medicine. What if all the cockroaches have
been killed? If I say so, it will only add trouble to Xiao Nuan.
Xiao Nuan blinked her big eyes and did not guess the truth at all.
That night, she laid the sheets early and said she wanted to have a “passion” with me in the evening. After a brief tidying
up, Xiao Nuan went into the toilet to take a shower.
I sat on the bed, still a little worried about the cockroach.
After a while, I heard Xiao Nuan screaming in the toilet: “Little Bear!”! Little bear
I rushed over and pushed open the door of the toilet. I saw Xiao Nuan standing there naked, with a shower head in his hand, but his eyes were staring at the corner. There is a pile of cockroaches
in the corner, big and small, dark brown, with shiny carapaces. Without saying
a word, I took out the insecticide from the luggage I had not had time to open and pack, and sprayed it on the cockroach pile.
Xiao Nuan had already jumped into the room.
That night, Xiao Nuan and I had the most intense quarrel since we fell in love.
I blamed her. If she hadn’t urged me to book a house, we wouldn’t have rented this cockroach house.
Xiao Nuan is more angry.
Hsiung Tie-ming, do you understand what this is all about in the final analysis? It’s because you’re poor, okay! If you have money, we can go to Chaoyang, to Haidian, rent a hardcover set! There are no cockroaches in that nice house! Why should I come to Tongzhou with you to live in this shabby room? Not to save money! Now you’re blaming me. Do you have a conscience?
Hearing what she said, my heart was cold. Is it my fault that
I am poor? I have worked very hard to do part-time jobs and find jobs. But the reality is very cruel. I was born
to be the most ordinary person, and I can’t change that.
Can’t she see my efforts? After
listening to her words, I never talked to her again until the next morning.
I heard the alarm clock ring, sat up sleepily, and saw Xiao Nuan sitting beside me motionless
.
I leaned over to take a closer look at her. A pair of eyes on the
little face had swollen into two peaches.
“I’m sorry, Bear.” “I shouldn’t have said those things,” she said in an offended tone.
I sighed.
Actually, she didn’t say anything wrong.
And, for the vast majority of the time, she has been giving me support. Again, during the time when I couldn’t find
a job, I couldn’t carry it without her.
So, I don’t really blame her.
Husband and wife have no overnight enmity! You little fool. I smiled and held her in my arms.
She buried her face in my chest and cried in a low voice.
This little Nuan, who has given “Heaven and Earth Free and Easy” a determined WeChat, is no longer the impatient and willful little girl of the past
.
It’s only been a year. She’s really grown up and matured.
I’m glad.
However, I can’t explain why, that night after Xiao Nuan fell asleep, I used her finger
to unlock her mobile phone.
Maybe Xiao Nuan is too calm. This is very inconsistent with my past understanding of her, which makes me feel a kind of indescribable uneasiness in my heart
. When I opened the
WeChat, I clicked on the “Heaven and Earth Free” message box and looked through it carefully.
Indeed, all the news is right with what Xiao Nuan said.
I’m completely relieved. At that moment, I felt quite shameless. Just as I was about to lock
the screen of my mobile phone, my eyes caught a glimpse of a group
chat on the top of Tiandi Xiaoyao. The name of
the group chat is “Gossip Sisters.”.
The preview box shows that the last message in the group was sent
by “Su Ke” at 23:03.
I know Su Ke. She is Xiao Nuan’s college classmate. “That is,
you have to spend more money if you go out to live on your own,” she wrote. My
intuition tells me that what they are talking about may have something to do with me. I open this group. First, I saw Xiao Nuan talking about things with his middle-aged male colleague,
and then I said, “I’m very excited.” Xiaoxiong’s anger is so terrible that I don’t want to stay with him
anymore. Later, I sent a WeChat to my brother, telling him not to look for me again, and the little bear calmed down
.
“Big Brother”.. It’s not “the pervert” or “the rascal”?
Xiao Nuan’s name for “Heaven and Earth are free and easy” makes me feel uncomfortable.
Su Ke and Xu Xiaomei, another girl in the group, are all persuading Xiao Nuan. When I read their
advice, I felt even worse. “Brother Xiong is too sensitive,”
said Hsu Hsiao-mei. “He thinks too much!”
Su Ke went on to say, “This kind of thing is actually quite normal. If no one is chasing you, it means you are not
attractive!”
Xiao Nuan said, “I wanted to move out and calm down first, but I thought about
it.”. Too much trouble!
Then there was Su Ke’s saying, “That is, you have to spend more money to go out and live by yourself.” After
that, Xiao Nuan did not speak again.
Look at the time. After talking to her girlfriends, she came back to me and made out with me
. There is a basis for
Su Ke to say this. Now I and Xiao Nuan live in a house with a monthly rent
of 5600. I take 4000, and Xiao Nuan only pays 1600 a month. Of course, this is not what Xiao Nuan
advocated, but what I proposed on my own initiative. I
am a man, and I am the one that this girl has to rely on for a lifetime, so I should pay more. I am willing. In the
past year, my monthly salary was 3800 yuan. The monthly rent of 4000 yuan was beyond my affordability.
But before I graduated, I did a part-time job to save a sum of money, and even after I worked as a customer service, I would use my rest time to earn some extra money. I scraped together, and finally I could pay the rent on my salary and savings.
The reason for renting this very expensive house is not only to find a good location for me and Xiao Nuan to go to work separately, but also more or less related to the “cockroach house incident.”.
I want to rent a better room.
Because I don’t want my woman to be wronged any more, and I don’t want to hear those hurtful words from her.
I cherish my feelings with Xiao Nuan, as I cherish my own life.
So, when I saw these messages in the group of little warm girlfriends, I was very disappointed.
But the next second, I immediately reminded myself: “Hsiung Tie-ming, you have to think clearly. You and Pan Ai-nuan are grasshoppers on the same rope.” The foundation of
our love is actually a symbiotic relationship. It is impossible to disintegrate easily because of a few gossip and some ideas.
In the prosperous and cruel metropolis, it is very difficult for ordinary men and women like us to survive without relying on each other. That being the case, why be too critical of each other? No
one is perfect. Xiao Nuan’s kindness and concern for me in the low period of my life are always
in my mind and never forgotten.
Therefore, although she did hurt me, I will not have an opinion of her, let alone
give up our feelings, give up our common expectations for the future.
Now I only blame myself for doing such a boring thing as peeking at her mobile phone.
As long as you don’t see it, it doesn’t happen-this is the attitude that mature men and women should have in the face
of suspicion in love.
I quietly locked the phone, charged it again, and then carefully lay back beside Xiao
Nuan. The
familiar smell of milk shower gel made my tense nerves relax.
I hugged my woman from behind and fell asleep.
Soon after, my love with Xiao Nuan came to a special test.
At that time, the Qingming Festival holiday was just around the corner. I have already thought about taking Xiao Nuan back to my
hometown to play during the holidays.
My home province is famous for its rapeseed flowers in spring. Last spring, Xiao Nuan said she wanted to go to my hometown to see rape flowers. But at that time, my customer service
work had just become a full member for a short time, and I thought, I’d better stabilize my work first, and then plan to
go out to play.
I was particularly impressed. When Xiao Nuan heard my reply, there was a trace of unhappiness on his face.
But she was a very sensible girl after all, so she didn’t insist any more.
This year, I must take her to play.
I asked Song Chao for an extra day off early, one day before the start of the Qingming holiday. After the
holiday was approved, I immediately called Xiao Nuan. As soon as the
phone rang, she hung up. She
must have something to do in the company, and it is not convenient for her to answer the phone. So I sent her another
WeChat.
“Baby, let’s go to see the sea of rape flowers on Tomb Sweeping Day!”
After a while, Xiao Nuan replied to me, “Huh?”? Fine. When will you go?
I said, I asked for the day before the festival, let her also ask, we set out one day earlier.
I also said that I would like to take her to see the place where I grew up, where there are beautiful lakes and
rape flowers, spring is the best time to go, she will like it very much. When the time comes, the two of us can
relax.
Passed a little while again, small warm replies: “Good, you book a hotel first.” I was stunned when I
saw this sentence.
Only then did I realize that I had overlooked an important issue.
Take Xiao Nuan back to her hometown. Would you like to take her to my house to meet my parents?
To be honest, I just wanted to take her to play at first, and I didn’t think about it. It was really my fault that I was too careless. I only wanted to please my wife, but I didn’t think about anything else.
I immediately saw the two dark faces of my father and mother, the deep wrinkles carved by knives and axes.
I feel sorry for them. In fact, my mother called me the day before yesterday and asked me when I would be free to go home. She said that my dad missed me, and that he kept calling out “my little boy” in his dreams at night.
I am the only child of my parents. When I was a kid, I would run all over the mountains and fields, and my parents would chase after me and shout, “Good boy, stop.”. They both have a good temper and seldom hit me.
Now that the old man is old, he is more concerned about face. Every time my mother calls me, he won’t come to talk to me. Unless my mother pretended to lose her temper, he would come over and say a few words.
When I think of my father, my heart is so sour.
But the small warm this subconscious reply, the manner as if is very clear: lives the hotel, the meaning does not want to go to my family to live.
In other words, I don’t want to see my parents. Facing the computer screen, I don’t know how to reply to Xiao Nuan.
Perhaps I had been silent for too long when Xiao Nuan sent me another WeChat:
“How about I book a hotel?” Of course
I didn’t let Xiao Nuan order it. All the expenses of this trip will be borne by me.
Sitting on the plane, Xiao Nuan fastened his seat belt and leaned back with satisfaction. “Thank you
, Brother Bear.” She teased me, “Thank you for inviting your sister out to play.”
“Don’t mention it, sister.” I followed her words to tease her. “The place we’re going to is
my brother’s land, so of course I want to be the host.”
The plane flew across the sky.
I didn’t have the nerve to tell Xiao Nuan that this was the first time I had taken a plane in my life.
In the past, when I went back to my hometown, I didn’t even take the high-speed rail, but the authentic green train.
If I had the money, I would buy myself a hard sleeper ticket. But most of the time
, I don’t want to spend this money, and I can sit in a hard seat. I
am a young man with a good waist and a stiff back, but I can stand
the fatigue of such a journey.
But if you take your girlfriend out to play, you can’t let her suffer like this.
Not to mention the hard seat, even the soft sleeper, I don’t want her to sit. There is no airport in my hometown. I took Xiao Nuan by plane, first from Beijing to Shangrao
City, and then by bus to Poyang County.
When I told her about the transfer on the plane, Xiao Nuan’s face was a little ugly.
It’s so much trouble. Is there no other flower sea of rape to go to? Do you have to go to your hometown?
She said. I
don’t know why, but I always feel that she has been holding this sentence for a long time.
“I don’t know.” I answered.
In fact, how could I not know. Wuyuan, another county
belonging to Shangrao, has probably the most famous rape flower sea in the country
, much more famous than Poyang.
But I want to go home and have a look, and I don’t want to change my destination to Wuyuan.
Xiao Nuan curled her lips and said nothing more. After
many setbacks, we arrived in Poyang. The hotel I booked is a homestay.
As soon as he heard that it was a guesthouse, Xiao Nuan frowned again.
“Will the guesthouse work? Will it be unclean?” She asked me.
But when we arrived at the guesthouse, Xiao Nuan’s eyes lit up.
This is an antique building, black tiles and white walls, antique, very southern style. Entering the gate is a garden, through which residents can see the three-storey building behind them when they enter the backyard. The building is a classical garden with modern design, and there is an elevator inside. The rooms are clean.
Xiao Nuan entered the room, saw the exquisite interior decoration, could not help but praise repeatedly, and then left himself on the spacious double bed.
“Oh, how comfortable!” She closed her eyes and sighed. After
a short rest, we came to the sea of rape flowers. This is a golden world, with a golden color stretching out of sight.
This golden color is very pure and almost spotless, which is totally different from the concept of “gold everywhere” in Beijing.
I was shocked by this strange idea.
“Bear, don’t be in a daze. Come and take a picture of me!” When I was in a trance, Xiao Nuan had already got into the sea of flowers. The pole of the plant was high, covering most of her body. She walked in the sea of flowers, and from a distance, she seemed to appear and disappear.
Then she stopped and turned to greet me.
Xiao Nuan, wearing a wide-brimmed straw hat, stood in the sea of flowers, raised his delicate face and waved his arms excitedly to me.
She’s beautiful.
So many flowers are not as beautiful as her alone. At this time, the Qingming holiday has not officially begun, and there are not many visitors in Huahai. I looked around and
saw Poyang Lake not far away.
“Mom, Dad.” I said silently in my heart, “If you can meet my beautiful
girlfriend, you will be very happy.”
It’s a pity.
Unfortunately, I didn’t have the courage to put forward my idea directly to Xiao Nuan.
My family lives in the town, even in the town is not rich, my family’s conditions are
relatively poor. When
my father was in his forties, he went out to work. He broke his leg on the construction site. Without proper treatment
, he fell ill and is still limping.
My mother is an uneducated housewife. After my father was injured, besides farming and planting fruit
trees, she did some small business in the market of our town. Most of the time, they sell vegetables, and sometimes
they also sell some miscellaneous brands of daily necessities, food and drinks.
Even though it was not easy, my parents supported me to go to college. Although it is a junior college, it is proud enough for
them.
His family has been pure farmers for generations. This is the first time that there is a college student in the family.
Thinking of this, my vision is blurred. Tears almost fell down.
Xiao Nuan has already run away in the sea of flowers.
Fortunately, she did not see my embarrassment at the moment. In the afterglow of the setting sun, only the lake ripples with the wind, as if responding to me and
soothing the injustice in my heart.
We spent two days in Poyang. On the last day of the holiday, it’s time to set foot on the return journey.
Before I left, out of some subtle psychology, I quietly transferred ten thousand yuan to
my mother’s bank card lying on the big bed of the guesthouse. As soon as
I transferred the money, my mother called. “Baby.” She called me,
“What do you want?”
“It’s nothing.” As I talked to her, I looked at Xiao Nuan’s back.
Xiao Nuan had just taken a bath and was blowing her long hair in front of the mirror. The hair dryer was very noisy, I
think, and she couldn’t hear what I was saying.
“It’s all right. Why did you transfer money to me?” My mom sounded a
little reproachful.
“Oh, you keep the flowers when I give you the money.”
“Well, I’ll save it for you, and you can use it later.” When my mother finished, someone seemed to call her on the other side of the phone
. She hung up the phone in a hurry.
“Who’s calling?” I hung up the phone and Xiao Nuan came to ask me.
My mother. He asked me if I would go home recently. I said that on purpose. I want to see
how Xiao Nuan reacts. Sure enough, her face changed.
“Do you feel a little bad if we come here and you don’t go home?” She said
such a sentence.
“Kind of.” I nodded.
I still wonder if she’ll change her mind in the end.
Xiao Nuan lowered his head and did not speak, as if he were thinking carefully about something. I felt much more comfortable when I
saw her embarrassed.
I thought, sure enough, I have a problem. I was too dishonest to say anything, and I took Xiao Nuan
‘s reaction for granted, so I misunderstood her.
If I asked Xiao Nuan directly if she would like to see my parents, maybe she would agree.
Now she is so embarrassed, which shows that she cares about this matter very much, and also shows that she really cares about
me. As
I was thinking about it, Xiao Nuan raised his head and could not tell what expression was on his face.
“Why don’t I go back to Beijing by myself today, and you go home to see your parents?”
She said carefully.
I admit that in that moment, my heart broke a big chunk.
I didn’t expect to wait for a long time until she responded like this. It turns out that my worst thoughts are the closest to the truth.
Looking at the delicate girl in front of me, I felt like a stranger for the first time.
“Pan Ai Nuan.”
I called her name in a voice so deep that I felt strange.
I’ve always been gentle with her. And Xiao Nuan knew that once I called her by name, I was
really angry.
“Tell me the truth, have you never wanted to see my parents?” I asked Xiao Nuan.
Her face turned red, and she held her breath for a long time before she said, “I think it’s too soon.”
“I was right, wasn’t I?” I sneer.
We were deadlocked in silence.
My heart is already cold. Not wanting to meet my parents means that Xiao Nuan did not
want to marry me and become my wife.
It turns out that these years are just my wishful thinking? It’s just that I want to build a family with her
unilaterally?
Then what am I in her heart? Is it just a “play” object?
Or is it just a piece of floating
wood that she was holding when she was wandering in Beijing? I want to ask her if that’s the case.
But I really can’t say it.
But Xiao Nuan broke the deadlock first. So what if
it is? I don’t want to see your parents until we get married. Is that a problem
? She calmed down and spoke slowly.
This skillful look is the same as that day when he blacklisted his male colleagues.
But I didn’t expect her to treat me like this and say such a thing. What makes me feel
more terrible is that I don’t know how to refute her.
Intellectually, she’s absolutely right. In reason, Xiao Nuan has a reason not to go home
with me to see his parents. I am not qualified to criticize Xiao Nuan on this issue, and I still have this self-knowledge
.
In this way, I held my breath and set foot on the return journey with Xiao Nuan.
Because I only bought a ticket from Nanchang to Beijing, Xiao Nuan and I had to go to Nanchang
from Poyang first, and then fly from Changbei Airport to Beijing. The most convenient way to go to Nanchang
from Poyang County is by bus. Every day, there are 19 trains
from Poyang to Nanchang, each of which takes two and a half hours on the road.
Poyang is not a big place. I just hit the probability of 1 & # x2F; 19.
In the waiting room of the passenger station, I saw a familiar face.
Through the pillar in the waiting room, I peeked at this man, and after two or three glances, I was sure that he was my childhood friend and classmate Lei Yayun. Lei Yayun and
I have been classmates in primary school and junior high school. Later, I continued to study in high school. Lei Yayun stopped studying early. I heard that he went to Guangdong to work. When I went home for the Spring Festival
last year, my mother told me that Lei Yayun had made a lot of money in Guangdong and had asked a local woman in Zhanjiang to be his wife, and he had given hundreds of thousands of betrothal gifts.
Speaking of this matter, my mother was a little worried at that time, saying that if I wanted a wife in the future, the family really couldn’t afford the betrothal gift.
“Mom, don’t worry about that.” I said, “The girls in Beijing are very independent, so they don’t have to ask for betrothal gifts.”
My parents laughed at me for being silly, saying that I didn’t even have a girlfriend. How could I talk about marriage? She also said that even if the girl herself did not want it, the girl’s family would mention it.
I didn’t speak, I just smiled. At that time, I had been in love with Xiao Nuan for some time, but I felt that the time was not ripe and I had not told my parents.
I don’t think Xiao Nuan is the kind of girl who asks for a betrothal gift. Of course, I will never treat her badly, and I will certainly do my best to give her a “betrothal gift” so that she can marry me in style. But she certainly won’t open her mouth to me. The reason why
I think so is not only because I know that Xiao Nuan is not a person who dislikes the poor and loves the rich, but also because Xiao Nuan’s family is a well-off family in the second-tier cities in the south.
Her father is a doctor and her mother is a teacher. This kind of family can be regarded as the “middle class” in a small town, and it is the kind of family that is well-educated and has quality. I believe that this kind of family
will not force a poor son-in-law to pay the bride price, nor will they say, “If you can’t pay the bride price, don’t marry my daughter.”. Everything
is based on the fact that I think Xiao Nuan wants to marry me and will marry me. The appearance of
Lei Yayun awakened my memory which seemed to have nothing to do with him.
It also makes my heart hurt.
I subconsciously want to avoid Lei Yayun. Not only because he is doing better than me now, but also because the whole Lei family is very familiar with my parents.
If Xiao Nuan and I were discovered by Lei Yayun, he would probably tell his parents about our return to Poyang immediately. In a
small town, news travels faster than a mouse. Once Ray’s parents know, my parents will know soon. They will be very sad if
their son does not enter the house.
I might as well pretend not to see my childhood friend.
But fate loves to play tricks on people. There are many people in the passenger station, and most of the waiting seats are occupied. Xiao Nuan saw a woman looking around and expected her to get up and leave her seat, so she kept staring at her.
Sure enough, when the radio announced that a bus bound for Pingxiang was about to leave, the woman hurriedly stood up and rushed to the entrance. At that time, I had just finished relieving myself and came out of the men’s toilet. In order to avoid Lei Yayun as much as possible, I slightly bypassed some people and walked towards Xiao Nuan. Seeing me, Xiao Nuan immediately shouted,
“Xiong Tieming, there’s a seat here!”
When I heard her calling my name, I cried out in my heart, “It’s over.”.
Before I could answer her, a hand clapped me heavily on the shoulder.
I sighed, then turned my head and put on a surprised and happy smile in half a second.
“It’s you!” Lei Yayun and
I said at the same time.
He was really surprised, and I was really happy.
We exchanged a few pleasantries.
I soon learned that Lei Yayun and we were going to Nanchang on the same train.
Xiao Nuan saw that I had not passed for a long time, so he ran over.
“What’s the matter?” She came to me and took my hand habitually.
So it was hard to avoid a face-to-face encounter with Lei Yayun.
Lei Yayun looked up and down at Xiao Nuan, whose bold and ambiguous eyes made me very uncomfortable. “Oh, who is this, your wife?” He asked me with some excitement.
Xiao Nuan also looked at Lei Yayun and frowned slightly. Lei Yayun looked back and forth at Xiao Nuan
.
I nodded to Lei Yayun and did not speak. There was a trace of disgust on
Xiao Nuan’s face, but he immediately put on a polite smile.
She asked me, “Is this your friend?” As soon as
I opened my mouth, Lei Yayun answered for me: “We are good friends
who grew up together.”
Xiao Nuan smiled and looked at Lei Yayun with a look
that was not so obvious but clearly observed by me.
She should have noticed that Lei Yayun was wearing fake Adidas sportswear and fake coconut
shoes.
Although I don’t know much about famous brands, this outfit is so fake that it’s hard to
ignore its inferiority.
From my girlfriend’s eyes, I read a kind of contempt.
This makes my feelings extremely complicated.
I knew clearly that the object of her contempt was Lei Yayun, but there was a sense of shame that she was implicated in being despised
. It took me a long time to realize that this was because Lei Yayun represented my origin
, the “place” where I was born and raised.
Although I, Xiong Tieming, have been in Beijing for many years.
Although I am a formal employee in a well-known enterprise, I have a young and beautiful girlfriend who has
studied in Beijing.
But all of these can not erase the background of my origin.
My “background” is Lei Yayun and his blatantly fake nametags, my
poor parents, and the not-so-glamorous villages and towns behind the sea of rape flowers.
I have to say that I hate
Xiao Nuan more than Lei Yayun who suddenly appeared and disturbed everything.
Her expression made me feel ashamed and even more angry.
I have an impulse. I wanted to grab her wrist and ask her why she despised me,
why she despised my origin?
But I held back.
I’m not so crazy and out of control. I tried several times to cut off my conversation with Lei Yayun
amid unfocused pleasantries. But they all
failed.
My childhood friend is full of curiosity about my present life, asking endless questions. Finally, as I expected, I couldn’t stop him from dialing the phone and telling his parents the news
of my return to Poyang.
After hanging up the phone, Lei Yayun told me excitedly that his parents said they would call my parents
and congratulate them on their beautiful daughter-in-law.
“Haven’t your parents seen her yet?” With an eager look on his face, he said, “Or have you just come from home
?”
I really want to smash his big face with an old punch.
But I didn’t.
My mind is in a mess and I don’t know what to do next.
Take Xiao Nuan to go back and see my parents?
But she has made it clear that she doesn’t want to go. Because she didn’t know whether to marry
me or not.
Just leave?
But the news released by Lei’s family will certainly make my parents unable to raise their heads.
In the rural society that pays attention to kinship, people can’t understand why the only son of a family
who takes his girlfriend back to his hometown can’t go home to see his parents
.
People will either accuse the son of being unfilial, or even whisper about whether
there is something wrong with the parents. “My own son doesn’t even enter the house when he goes back to his hometown.”. Just when I was in a dilemma, Xiao Nuan suddenly pulled my arm.
I looked at her subconsciously.
She quickly crouched on the ground.
“I can’t, Bear. My stomach hurts again.” Her expression is very painful.
It’s like real.
And the word “again” in her lines is the most obvious hint to me.
“Let’s hurry to Nanchang, the big hospital..”
Perhaps afraid that I did not understand, Xiao Nuan gave a clearer message.
I got it. Up to now, her excuse is really the best one.
At the moment, I also do not care about the uncomfortable, do not care about the grievance, do not care to ask Xiao Nuan any words.
I just want to run away quickly, according to Xiao Nuan’s meaning, get rid of this annoying childhood, get
rid of my parents’possible doubts and expectations.
I’m used to following Xiao Nuan’s temperament. Once I received her “instructions”, I would
follow them naturally.
This has almost become the inertia of my life.
I turned to Lei Yayun with an apologetic look on my face. “I forgot to tell you that my girlfriend has a terrible stomachache. I’m going to take her to Nanchang to see
a doctor.”
Lei Yayun looked at Xiao Nuan and then at me. I don’t know if he really believed me
, but in any case, the meeting ended with Lei Yayun helping me get on the bus,
the three of us arriving in Nanchang by bus, and finally saying goodbye at the hospital gate.
Watching Lei Yayun’s figure fade away and finally disappear, I breathed a sigh of relief.
Then I looked back and saw Xiao Nuan, who was standing behind me and had completely “recovered” as usual,
looking at me with meaningful eyes.
“Let’s go, don’t waste time.” “Get to the airport
,” she said, with one hand on the box lever. With
that, she pulled the box without looking back and went to a
taxi parked on the roadside in front of the hospital. When
we returned to Beijing that day, it was already eleven o’clock at night.
Entering the door of the cabin, Pan Ainuan and I were very tired.
I dropped my luggage and immediately went into the bathroom and began to take a shower. I need to wake up
. After
taking a bath, I dried off quickly. Pan Ainuan had already changed into the cardigan and living
clothes she wore at home and leaned on the bed. She should be waiting for me to finish washing, and then she will go to wash.
I didn’t give her the chance. I rushed to her and tore off her clothes. She froze for a moment and then pandered to me.
But we didn’t expect that she almost cried that time. I kissed her forehead and soothed
her, but I didn’t stop. When it
was over, she lay straight on the bed, motionless.
I was so confused that I lit a cigarette. I haven’t smoked for a long time, and I almost forgot
how to smoke.
I said, Xiao Nuan, I’m sorry.
Although I apologized, I couldn’t tell if there was any real hatred for
her in the rough action just now. It was a
long time before she turned her head slightly to me.
“Hold a grudge, don’t you?” She said. I can’t see her face clearly
without turning on the light. But I
could hear the sarcasm and impatience in her tone.
She understands my feelings. She knew that her refusal to go home with me to meet my parents had
hurt my sensitive heart.
But she wouldn’t explain it too much.
That in itself says it all. I sighed deeply, and after a second I said, “Little Nuan, do you
dislike me? Do you think I’m from the countryside and don’t deserve you?” After
holding back for so long, I finally asked this question. In the
dark room, Xiao Nuan was silent.
After a long time, she suddenly said, Of course I know that Wuyuan belongs to Shangrao, and rape flowers
are more famous than Poyang. I also know why you insist on taking me back to your hometown.
Your mind is not on the rape flowers. I’m not that numb, and I’m not that
stupid. It’s just that you can’t force me to do what I don’t want to do.
These words, which she said softly, were as common as talking about other people’s affairs.
But for me, these words of understatement seem to cut a few knives in my heart.
Originally, she knew, she understood.
She understands everything.
Her actions represent her choice.
She can accompany me back to my hometown, comfort me to a certain extent, and not erase all
my hopes. But she would also refuse to walk through my door and
meet my parents according to her own mind.
This is her compromise and persistence.
This is my girlfriend who looks weak but is full of ideas. I don’t
know why, but I turned on my phone and pulled out a picture from the album.
It was a group photo of my parents sitting in my yard. I took it for them when I went back for the Spring Festival last time.
“Look, this is my father.” The face of an old farmer in
his fifties, with thick black skin and deep gullies.
He squinted and sat on a small bench in the shabby yard. In the sun.
I pointed to my mother in the picture. “This is my mother.”
I swiped the screen of my mobile phone again. The next picture I found was my mother and my yellow dog standing under a grapefruit tree.
“Do you see this grapefruit?” Pointing to a grapefruit that had fallen to the ground in the photo, I said to Pan Ainuan, This kind of grapefruit has a very thick skin, a very small flesh, and an astringent taste. It doesn’t taste good. It’s inedible.
Do you know, Pan Ainuan. This kind of broken yard, and this kind of useless broken grapefruit, they represent my life in the past nearly 20 years, and represent the place where I come from. I come from a family with no money to repair the broken house. This family is like a grapefruit that is not good to eat. It bears a lot of fruit and makes a lot of efforts, but it is useless. In the end, people who leave this house are only worthy of wearing the fake nametags that my childhood friend wore.
I kept talking.
Before I knew it, my tears flowed uncontrollably from my eyes. In the darkness, I felt Pan Ainuan looking at me quietly.
This is my life. You can look down on me, you can look down on these things. If
you dislike me, I can leave you. Finally, I said to her. It almost took all my strength to
say these words.
I can’t face myself in such a mess.
“Misfortunes never come singly.” That’s the right word. My relationship went wrong, and my career
began to play tricks on me. After the conflict
with Xiao Nuan, both she and I had a tacit understanding of “pretending to be deaf
and dumb.”.
No one said anything about moving out or living apart. Couples who drift
north have to pay a high price if they want to “live apart.”.
The price, specifically, is real money.
So, although Pan Ainuan and I are in a cold war, we still live together. But
we have also reached another tacit understanding-both of us can work overtime and try
not to go home early. When I got home, I slept on each side of the big double bed. It
‘s funny to say that I worked overtime desperately, but the work didn’t favor me. After working in the operation department for more than a month, I heard that Song Chao had offended
the CEO. At that time, I naively thought that Song Chao had strong working ability and good character,
even if he offended the top management.
Who knows, Song Chao left his job less than a week after I heard the news.
When I saw him coming from the direction of the human resources department
with a piece of paper, which should be a resignation certificate, I just felt a panic in my heart.
I have been in the operation department for a short time. In the eyes of some of my colleagues, I was transferred by Sung Chao,
which was almost equivalent to being his “direct descendant.”. But they did not know that Song Chao’s appreciation of me
was entirely accidental.
Apart from the job transfer, Song Chao did not give me any other help or resources
. I was really wronged by
this “lineal line.”.
Although I have not been in the workplace for a long time, I have heard others say before that the most feared thing for grass-roots
employees is that the leaders stand in the wrong line. Sometimes, this can lead to a department
being “tied up”.
Because new leaders always want to use the people they bring or promote
themselves. Instead of accepting all the people left behind by the
former leader. Before
Song Chao left, I wanted to invite him to dinner and ask him if he had time at the WeChat.
He replied to me, “I won’t eat any more. See you later.”. Bear, you are good, and you will develop better in the future.
This sentence is neither salty nor light, but it makes me feel even more uneasy.
Because it’s not like an auspicious blessing.
In the end, I had the worst result. On Monday, a week after
Song Chao’s departure, as soon as I arrived at the company, HR came to me and said he wanted to talk to me alone.
My heart suddenly pulled up. Even if I don’t understand it, I know it’s not a good sign.
Sure enough, HR came up to find fault with me, saying that I had not punched in several times this month and was suspected of absenteeism. “I just forgot to punch in,” I argued. “The surveillance cameras at the entrance of the company should all have records of me going to work.”
HR smiled. “The gate monitoring has been broken for months.”
I feel cold all over.
This is obviously trying to play hooligans with me.
HR went on to say, “I know you haven’t been transferred for a long time, and you may not be able to adapt to this new position.”. Now you have two choices. One is to go back to the customer service department and continue to do customer service. The second is voluntary resignation. It took
me a long time to squeeze out a sneer. That is to say, I don’t want to lose money.
In the end, I didn’t accept the two ways given by HR.
I chose to resign.
I know very well in my heart. If I go back to work in the customer service department, I will not only face the financial dilemma of cutting my salary in half, but also my career will suffer a serious setback. The
resume will show that I first did customer service, then did senior operations for less than two months, and then went back to customer service. If I go out to apply for a job in the future, the employer will certainly think that I am not competent for the operation work, so I will be “returned” to the customer service department.
Besides, if my salary is cut in half, it will make my situation more difficult.
I have to bear the rent of 4000 yuan a month. Once my salary returns to 3800 yuan, it will be a problem for me to live in a house next quarter.
Besides, I was really vaguely worried that if I was poorer, Xiao Nuan would not leave me. On the night of my
resignation, I came home. It’s already ten o’clock, and Xiao Nuan Hasn’t come back yet. Recently, she got home later than me.
I still remember the man Tiandi Xiaoyao, who used to cling to Xiao Nuan. So every time I got home first, I would look at the window from time to time.
If Xiao Nuan was sent back by a strange car, I would find out.
But in fact, there is no such thing, Xiao Nuan always takes a taxi back.
This is also because I once told her that I think the online taxi is not as reliable as the regular taxi, and asked her to take a taxi as much as possible.
I feel a little more secure. So I set foot on the road to find a job again. But unlike last time, this operation was carried out quietly behind Xiao Nuan’s back. No one comforted me, no one encouraged me.
The only thing that sustains me is the small home with Xiao Nuan in front of me.
In order not to arouse her suspicion, I still go out to “go to work” as usual every day, and then find a small restaurant, while eating breakfast, I use the computer to send my resume. I use this computer, or the first year of college with the money saved from the work-study program to assemble the notebook, the fan is very noisy.
This persisted for more than half a month. History repeats itself, and I send out my resume without any response.
I can’t sit still. The date of the
next rent payment is approaching. I looked at my bank account, and the balance was a little tight to pay the water and electricity bills.
Sitting in the fly restaurant, I was distracted by the interface of the WeChat, and my hands opened the dialog box with Xiao Nuan.
I looked at myself and typed these words: “Next time you pay the rent, can you help me pay the rent first?” After
typing this line, my pride forced me to delete it immediately. It took me
almost two seconds to make a decision.
I’m going to deliver the takeout.
I may be different from most people around me.
From an Internet company employee who looks very glamorous to a delivery boy, this identity gap is nothing to me.
Because I was originally a rural youth, I lived a hard life from childhood to adulthood.
I have never felt that working in an Internet company is superior to others-except that the salary is higher than that of some traditional industries. Whether it was customer service at the beginning or operations later, my “type of work” was “physical work” from beginning to end, not as lofty as programmers.
Moreover, over the past few years, the Internet has often circulated news such as “unemployed people delivering takeout.”.
The only thing that worries me is the security. At first,
I thought about whether to drive a ride-hailing car to make money. Delivery is delivered by a person riding a motorcycle or a battery car, the so-called “meat wrapped in iron.” Once you need to rush for time, the potential safety hazard is still quite big. If you drive an online car-hailing service, it’s at least “meat wrapped in iron.” It’s safer for people to drive in a car.
But I’m not qualified to drive an online taxi because I don’t have a driver’s license.
In Beijing, the cheapest way to get a motor vehicle driver’s license is four or five thousand yuan. I really can’t afford it. So I never took the exam.
There are not so many restrictions on delivery. Riding a motorcycle is also a test, but I have another choice: riding a battery car. Of course, it must be slower than riding a motorcycle, which will affect income. But in terms of saving money, this is my best choice at the moment. On the morning when I
decided to start the action, I set out a little later than Xiao Nuan. There is a delivery station near
my home. I used to pass by there in the morning, and I often saw the takeaway boys standing in a row and shouting slogans. When I
entered the distribution station, I explained my purpose to the staff and was soon assigned to a master.
The master asked me first, “Do you have a health certificate?”
I nodded.
Get a health certificate in case of emergency, which is what my father reminded me.
He used to go out to work, in addition to working on the construction site, he would also find time to work part-time in restaurants. From the time I came to Beijing to go to college, he advised me to get a health certificate in advance.
Any business may not work, but there will always be business in the restaurant. With a health certificate, you can at least carry the dishes to feed yourself!
My father is always quiet, and that time he said such a long word in one breath. I was originally very disdainful. I went to Beijing to go to college, not to serve dishes
. But looking at the old house with bare walls, I chose to listen to my father.
As a result, it has become my habit to keep a health certificate in my hand within the validity period.
Unexpectedly, it saved me at this critical juncture.
The first day I wore SISU work clothes of a salesman, I had mixed feelings.
I’m kind of smart. After the master told me the process several times, I began to take the first
order. After three or four days of
this, I became more and more comfortable. I
rented a battery car to deliver takeout, and I rented an extra battery specially in order to run for a few more hours.
And Xiao Nuan seems to be unaware of the changes in my life. We talked a little more than before
, but she never asked me if my work was going well.
She seems to be getting better and better. One day, I was in a good mood in the company. I went home early
and cooked four dishes and one soup for me.
I ran a single day, pushed the door into the room, and saw Xiao Nuan sitting at the table,
guarding the five dishes and bowls.
At that time, I subconsciously felt a little guilty because I had something to hide from her.
But Xiao Nuan didn’t see it.
She invited me to dinner and said, “You’ve been very busy recently. You always work overtime. Today we won’t order takeout
. You can try my cooking.” When I heard her say the words takeout, I felt my face was a little hot, so I quickly washed my hands and changed my clothes, and sat down to eat
with her.
We haven’t had dinner and talked together like this for a long time. Xiao Nuan told
me that she has been doing well in the company recently. Her immediate boss, the battalion in the marketing department
The marketing director has just announced that she is three months pregnant.
“When she goes on maternity leave, I might have a chance to get a promotion.” Xiao Nuan can’t
hide his happiness on his face.
“She’s gone. Who’s your immediate superior?” I asked casually as I ate the food.
This was originally a very common question, and when I asked it, I didn’t think about it at all.
I didn’t expect Xiao Nuan’s face to change.
I noticed something strange about her. “What’s wrong?”
Xiao Nuan smiled and shook her head. “I don’t know yet.”
“Then how did you..” I wonder.
Xiao Nuan sighed, “It’s because I don’t know who it will be that I feel a little uneasy
.”. If I were parachuted in with an unreliable caretaker leader, I would have a hard
time.
I nodded.
Looking at the girlfriend who picked up her rice bowl and tried to eat, the cloud of doubt came to my mind again. Pan Ainuan’s reactions, in my opinion, are really suspicious.
I can’t help thinking of the friction and unhappiness with her before.
And the person who makes me feel like a lump in my throat, “Heaven and Earth are free.”. The bad idea of looking
at the small warm mobile phone once again occupied my mind. But that day, Xiao Nuan
didn’t sleep for a long time. I worked hard all day. As soon as I lay down in bed, my eyelids
began to fight. I fell asleep before I could turn over her cell phone. Once
an idea, especially a malicious one, is formed, it is difficult to disappear automatically
.
The next day, I came back early from work and sat at home waiting for Pan Ainuan.
She came home much later today than she did yesterday. She didn’t get home until ten o’clock.
“Little Bear, have you eaten?” That’s the first thing she asked when she saw me. Then
she waved the KFC paper bag in her hand: “I bought two hamburgers. Let’s have one
each.”
I smiled. “No, I already ate.”
I watched her eat a hamburger, I watched her take a shower and come out, and I watched her fall asleep.
When I heard her regular, soft snoring, I knew she was fast asleep.
Like last time, I used Xiao Nuan’s fingerprint to unlock her mobile phone. But unlike last
time, this time I feel no guilt. I’m almost sure she’s hiding something from me. Besides, it must be different from what I
was hiding from her — I was unemployed and delivering takeout.
Otherwise, she will show grievance, not guilt.
With a kind of vengeful frenzy and anger, I looked through her WeChat chat records.
Apart from flirting with male colleagues in a small group of colleagues, there is no trace of chatting with the opposite sex in Xiao Nuan
‘s WeChat.
It looked as if it would prove her innocence.
I took a closer look at the work groups. From chatting with my colleagues, I learned
that Xiao Nuan’s new boss was an “old man” from another department, who temporarily
took over the marketing department where Xiao Nuan worked.
This “old employee” is not only senior, but also a friend of the boss for many years.
In the WeChat group of the marketing department, I saw a group of employees “lining up to welcome” the escrow leader
.
Turning to the end, I saw the head portrait of the “leader.”. It looks familiar.
And the wechat name on the top of the head portrait is even more frightening to me.
Those are three words-old baby.
I click on the head portrait. “Old Baby” is a note given to him by Xiao Nuan. This person’s WeChat
name is none other than “Heaven and Earth are free.”. The hard facts in front of me knocked me down. After I
came to my senses, I repeatedly checked the chat records
of Xiao Nuan and Tiandi Xiaoyao.
Nothing. Xiao Nuan deleted everything cleanly without leaving a word.
My heart is like a heavy stone, sinking and sinking. It hurts me to fall.
No news is the worst news for me. To delete it after reading it is, of course, an act of “dealing with the aftermath” after doing
something guilty.
The more so, the ambiguous relationship between Xiao Nuan and this man, the more
solid in my heart.
I have a special mobile phone for receiving orders, which is an old Android
phone that was eliminated before. The reason why I prepared this machine alone was to cover up my delivery
to Xiao Nuan.
That night, I picked up a midnight delivery order with this broken mobile phone.
Battery cars are moving slowly in the streets of the city. I looked at the empty
streets in the night, and my whole body fell into great confusion. Why on earth
am I doing all this? Abandoned by both a job and a woman
for today? To feel like an idiot? In order to send his girlfriend, who has been in love for many years, to an old man’s bed? After
delivering the bill, I sat silently on the street and took out a box of cigarettes I had just bought from the convenience store.
Recently, I am in a bad mood and very tired, so I smoke more and more. As I
smoked, I thought of what Hsiao Nuan once told me: “Heaven and Earth are free” is not a person in her
department, nor is it human resources.
But business in another sector. How can
such a person become Xiao Nuan’s new boss? How can two people hook up
?
In addition to anger, I feel even more baffled.
I stood up, threw the cigarette butt on the ground and crushed it with my foot.
I made up my mind. Kill the old man like a cigarette butt.
In order not to arouse my girlfriend’s suspicion, I went home immediately after making the decision, tiptoed
off my coat and lay firmly beside her, as if nothing had happened and
I had not found anything.
I must pull out that “Heaven and Earth are free.”. Not only that, but I have to make him
look good.
The next day, I realized that at this point, delivery was
the perfect job for me.
I rode to the vicinity of Xiaonuan Company, found a shady place, got off the car and sat on the steps of the roadside.
In addition to squatting, which is something everyone can do, I can also use the takeaway boy’s unique method of “grabbing the bill.”.
Yesterday, when I was looking through Xiao Nuan’s cell phone, I carefully looked at the circle of friends of Tiandi Xiaoyao. Although he did not send his name, there was a picture of him showing off his son’s exam results in junior high school.
The math paper with a full score of 120 and an actual score of 118 was signed by his parents.
Pang Luyuan. That must be the man’s name.
Pang’s surname is said to be common but not common, and rare but not rare.
I wonder if a middle-aged man in his forties will order takeout for lunch?
Suddenly, the APP pushed me a new order message. As soon as I took a closer look, I found that this one was called “Little Fat Boy Meat and Crab Pot.” This shop’s signature dish is a shrimp and crab double pot. The user
placing the order is displayed as “Mr. Pang”. The shrimp and crab double pot of
“Little Fat Boy Meat and Crab Pot” is a favorite of Xiao Nuan.
Last year, when we were short of money, we made an appointment to eat a little fat boy once a month. Later, although I made more money, my time was occupied by work. I am no longer as leisurely as before, and I have so much time to accompany Xiao Nuan.
Unexpectedly, I can’t accompany, and soon someone else will accompany me.
At that moment, my tears could not stop flowing down. This kind of mood can not be said to be humiliating or sad.
I was almost certain at that moment that this Mr. Pang was Tiandi Xiaoyao, the man who had seduced my girlfriend.
I didn’t hesitate to grab the order.
On the way from the business to the customers, I imagined countless possibilities of meeting Pang Luyuan and Xiao Nuan.
But before I could see them, I got a “customer call.”. I quickly pulled over to the side of the road and took out my broken mobile phone.
It was Pang Luyuan who called through APP. Because of the mobile phone number protection mechanism, I only judged that the person on the other end of the phone was him after I connected the phone. The moment I picked up the phone, my hand trembled uncontrollably.
“Hello!”
It was the voice of a very unfriendly, unkind, middle-aged man.
Do you deliver food? Send me somewhere else! Regardless of whether I had answered him or not, he said to himself, “Send it to the XX Hotel on the opposite XX Road and put it at the front desk.”
I answered simply, “Good.” From the other side of the phone came a woman’s laugh: “What are you doing at noon?”
Although I had already made psychological preparations, I still felt as if I had been struck by lightning.
This is the voice of the most familiar woman in the world besides my mother. It’s a voice I
can’t hear wrong.
It’s Pan Ainuan.
The phone was hung up by Pang Luyuan.
I wiped away my tears. It’s not that I’m weak, it’s just that next, I’m going to speed up
my cycling.
I can’t let tears blur my eyes, affect my vision, and prevent me from rushing to beat up the
dog man and woman.
This is the fastest I’ve ever ridden in my life. At the entrance of the hotel, before I could look around
, I heard the sound of a man and a woman playing loudly not far away.
That woman’s voice, of course, is all too familiar to me.
I threw the car to the side of the road, followed the sound and rushed to the two men.
To my surprise, I almost met Pan Ainuan face to face.
She didn’t recognize me.
She did not recognize that the man in the takeaway uniform, with his helmet pressed down to cover half of his face,
was the man she had shared her bed with for several years. It was as if an invisible fist had hit me hard in the heart.
They came up behind me. I smelled the fragrance of Xiao Nuan’s body, and the tips of my fingers even
touched her skirt. The touch of the skirt is so silky that I can’t tell what kind of fabric it is. The fragrance that
fills my nose is also strange.
Xiao Nuan is the woman I am most familiar with.
But everything about her at the moment is extremely strange to me.
I even think that I
know nothing not only about her outside, but also about her inside at the moment. It took
me three seconds to decide to hide. I don’t know what I was hiding for
, but in retrospect, maybe I had a simple idea at that time.
I want to see the state of Xiao Nuan when she is with this man.
I got my wish and saw Xiao Nuan’s most relaxed expression in the past few years. This happy, comfortable
, smiling face, as if all the troubles in the world have nothing to do with her, is what I have always hoped to
bring to her. Just like the wish
I made silently when we ate Xiao Da Dong together.
So, now I get what I want.
My favorite woman, very happy, very happy.
Although this happiness has nothing to do with me. I watched helplessly as the newly dressed Xiao Nuan walked into the hotel
with Pang Luyuan on his arm. On the front desk table, I quietly put the shrimp and crab pot takeout there.
They picked up the takeout and happily entered the elevator.
That day, I turned off the order system and waited quietly at the door of the hotel. A
few passers-by cast strange glances at me. I smoked and looked at them
. Passers-by immediately deviated from the beginning. It
took more than hour. I know that the lunch break time of Xiaonuan Company is one hour
, and she and Pang Luyuan are already overtime.
Sure enough, it wasn’t long before I saw Xiao Nuan hurrying out of the hotel, tidying his hair as
he walked.
It seems that Pang Luyuan is a leader and can return to the office late. I couldn’t help laughing coldly.
I’ll wait for him here.
About a quarter of an hour later, Pang Luyuan, with his big belly, came out of the gate
slowly.
It’s a weekday afternoon, and there’s no one around. Seeing the right time, I rushed up with an arrow
and grabbed Pang Luyuan by the back of his neck.
Turn around, it’s the man’s big fat face. His face was full of panic. Who are you! What’s wrong with you.. Before he had finished speaking, I punched him in the nose
. Pang Luyuan immediately had a nosebleed.
Hit someone! Murder! The man shouted like killing a pig.
I hurried to get on the bike and walked away.
I thought that even if he told Xiao Nuan about this, the woman would not have thought that it was me who beat the
“delivery man.”.
On that day, I felt a little more comfortable.
I practically hummed and strolled into
the house “after work” in my everyday clothes.
To my surprise, as soon as I entered the house, I saw Xiao Nuan sitting on the edge of the bed, hiding his face and crying. As soon as
she saw me coming back, she stopped talking.
“What’s the matter?” I asked her.
“Nothing, just a bit of a rough day at work.”
She’s trying to hide it. She thinks I don’t know anything.
I don’t want to talk to her. But after lying down that night, she took the rare initiative to
hug me.
I just said to her coldly, “You are tired, go to sleep quickly.” Then he rolled over and
didn’t say another word to her. The next day, I went to squat near Xiaonuan Company.
But this time, I came after work.
I saw Xiao Nuan get on Pang Luyuan’s car with my own eyes. It’s not a good car, but it
‘s a Volvo SUV. I’ve heard my colleagues talk about this kind of car before, and I know it’s only more than 300,000
yuan.
It can be seen that Pang Luyuan is at most a local middle class. Not a particularly rich man.
However, for this kind of person, Xiao Nuan betrayed me.
I rode the battery car far behind the Volvo.
To my surprise, Pang Luyuan sent Xiao Nuan directly to the neighborhood near my home. After Xiao Nuan
said goodbye to the old man, she went to the direction of our neighborhood.
They didn’t go on a date.
Yeah, look at them like this. It’s not a matter of a day or two. I’m afraid I’m
tired of playing.
I clenched my fist.
Volvo starts again. I followed again. Where will
a middle-aged man with a lover go after seeing off his lover? Nine times out of
ten, I will go home to face the yellow-faced woman. Pangluyuan’s Volvo drove slowly into a residential area. The houses in this neighborhood look
a little old, and there is no security guard at the gate. I waited for Pang Luyuan to drive in for a
while before I followed carefully.
I parked the battery car at a corner not far from the gate and was about to continue following Pang
Luyuan.
Someone tapped me on the shoulder.
I subconsciously turned around and got a punch in the face.
This punch hit me hard on the nose. Just like I punched Pang Luyuan a day ago
.
I was caught off guard, got two more slaps, and stumbled and fell to the ground. Of course, the person who
beat me was Pang Luyuan. As
he kicked and punched me, he growled in a low voice, “Who sent you?”? Is it
Lao Fu? Of course
I don’t know any Lao Fu.
But I can’t tell the truth now, because it won’t do me any good.
I was beaten with my head stuffy and tried to protect my face.
Just as I was feeling dizzy and about to pass out, I faintly heard a woman
saying, “Are you ***ing sick? Stop it!” Pang Luyuan really stopped.
I squinted my swollen eyes to see where the female voice came from. Looks like a middle-aged woman.
This is very likely to be Pang Luyuan’s wife.
At that moment, I couldn’t say why, but I rushed over and grabbed the woman by her trouser legs,
crying, “Sister, help me!”
As I cried, the more I cried, the more sad I became. This hurts the heart, six points are false, four points
are true.
I feel sorry for myself.
Even if it is revenge, it should be done in such a cowardly way. I feel like a man in vain
.
The woman quickly pulled me up and turned her face to accuse Pang Luyuan in a harsh voice. There were not many people in the neighborhood
at the moment, and we were in a corner, and almost no one noticed what was happening here
.
Pang Luyuan still refused to give in, clamoring that I was the one who hit him yesterday.
I insisted that I had never seen him before, and that I came to this neighborhood
today just to deliver takeout.
Probably when I beat Pang Luyuan day before, he didn’t see my face clearly. I denied
it so firmly that his arrogance gradually weakened.
Pang Luyuan’s wife Yu Hong wants to take me to the hospital. I was afraid of revealing my true identity when I registered, and was later discovered by Pang Luyuan, so I firmly refused.
“Thank you, sister. I still have to take orders, so I won’t go.” I say.
How can I do that.. I mean, how can you take orders when you’re already like this? Yu Hong sighed. She thought about it and went to the community drugstore to buy me some trauma medicine, which she insisted that I accept.
“Do not forget your hearts.” I was determined to add more fire to the red heart. “I’m from the countryside. I have rough skin and thick flesh. This little injury is nothing.”. Brother, don’t be too impulsive in the future. This is not good. Elder sister, please persuade him.
It was these few words that completely made Yu Hong cry.
She took my hand, asked for my cell phone, and resolutely entered her phone number. Then she said to me, “Brother, if you have any difficulties in the future, just come to me.”. This man in my family is unreasonable. He makes trouble for me all day. I solemnly apologize for him. With
that, she actually bowed to me.
I quickly picked her up. I thought to myself, that’s it. Pang Lu-yuan, who was
standing to one side, looked bored and said, “All right, don’t act like you’re acting.”. What a big deal, as for..
Yu Hong raised her head and glared at him. Pang Luyuan dared not speak again.
I looked on coldly. Obviously, this couple is strong in women and weak in men. That is to say, if Yu Hong knew what good things Pang Luyuan had done, he would never let him go
. I don’t need to know more. I just need to grasp one thing: Yu Hong is the “weapon” I can use to retaliate against
Pang Lu-yuan.
Next, I said goodbye to Yu Hong and quickly went back to the delivery staff station to change my work
clothes.
I know that Xiao Nuan has been at home for a long time. I think it’s cool to imagine that she might be restless
at home. It’s really cool. After I went back
that day, Xiao Nuan took the initiative to ask me why I came back. I know.
She doesn’t feel safe.
Even being in a relationship with two men at the same time doesn’t give her a sense of security? Looking at her
haggard face, I wanted to call her a bitch and a bitch. But I didn’t
say anything.
I just touched her face.
A few minutes later, I was on top of her. I felt a twisted pleasure
in my heart.
But in the next moment, I felt deeply sad.
I know very well that I am no longer the same person. I became a man consumed
by hatred.
Things have finally come to an end.
I cut the Gordian knot and carried out the following steps: squatting to Xiao Nuan and Pang Luyuan for a date, calling Yu Hong, and witnessing Yu Hong catching adultery on the spot. In the process of
doing these things, I still hide my identity very well. In Yu Hong’s opinion, this may be just an acquaintance who did not want to be named, who broke the news to her out of good intentions. In the
next few days, Xiao Nuan never went to the company. I don’t know exactly what Yu Hong did, but from my impression of that woman, I guess she probably went to Pang Luyuan and Xiao Nuan’s company to make a scene. Late
one night, I quietly rummaged through Xiao Nuan’s bag and found a resignation certificate in it. The reason for the resignation written on it is that the employee has a major misdeed and a bad influence, and is hereby dismissed.
Xiao Nuan usually works very seriously. The so-called “major misdeed” must have been an extramarital affair with Pang Lu-yuan.
My once beautiful girlfriend now lies in bed every day, crying all day long. Asked what was wrong with her, she did not answer, but kept shaking her head.
Three days later, I said to her coldly:
I don’t think you’re in a good state right now. Why don’t we take a break and calm down for a while?
Xiao Nuan sat up as if he had been electrocuted.
“Hsiung Tie-ming, even you don’t want me?”
“Lian”? Who else doesn’t want you? I asked almost sarcastically. Xiao Nuan suddenly wilted and fell on the bed again.
“Pan Ai-nuan, in fact, I know all about what you’ve done.” I lit a cigarette and smoked it in the bedroom. I never smoked in the room where I slept before. But today is probably the last time I’m in this room.
Tomorrow, I’m moving out of here. I have agreed with the landlord that I will not renew the lease when the house expires at the end of the month.
Of course, Xiao Nuan doesn’t know anything. “What do you mean?”
She deadpanned.
“What do I mean? I don’t need to explain it to you.” I exhaled slowly. “Let’s break up. It’s over.”
Xiao Nuan cried. At first, he just shed tears silently, but later, the more he cried, the more sad he became. He lay on the pillow and refused to get up.
I don’t know why she is crying. For our relationship to end? Or because of her affair with Pang Luyuan?
But why did I want to rush to hold her at this moment.
This is the inertia that my body and soul have developed over the years.
I am used to protecting Xiao Nuan when she is hurt by others, comforting her when she is sad, and making her laugh when she is bored.
I am used to being her support and shelter-although such a me is also very fragile.
So I took a deep breath and told Xiao Nuan whole story.
Her expression grew more and more shocked.
“I’m done.” Finally, I said.
She did not speak for a long time.
Pan Ainuan, do you know? From the time you refused to go back to your hometown with me, I knew that we were going to break up. And that day may not come too late. I said softly, “If you can’t accept who I am, then you can’t accept who I am.”
Xiao Nuan gave a dry laugh.
I hesitated for a long time before I asked a question. If I don’t ask this question, I think I may suffocate to death, and Xiao Nuan will become my lifelong heart knot.
“Can you tell me what you see in that man?”
Finally, I asked her word by word.
Little Nuan was stunned for a second and said, “He’s a local. He has a car and a house, and he doesn’t have any requirements for me. As long as he accompanies him often, he can take me out to play and buy things for me.”. You know, little bear, when I was with him, I often thought of you. At this point, she gave me a deep look. “Do you feel
sick when I say that?”
I nodded.
Looking at her face as soft as before, looking at the big eyes with gentle eyes like water, my
hatred for her is like a weak fist, trying to smash it out, but there
is nothing I can do.
I remember a lot.
Remembering that when we were still at school, we turned around together in the alley and found a
stewed shop, eating and sweating. The night after I
got my job, we had a great time, and
when it was over, she whispered in my ear, “I love you.”
And countless days and nights. We work hard, we laugh at the same
time for happy things, we go back to our own nest and cry after being wronged. Xiao Nuan and
I made up “we.”.
Now this “we” is going to be two people again.
Two lonely and helpless people, two poor people in the vast world.
My tears dripped down and fell on the light-colored sheets. In the moonlight, tears
are like indelible stains, like scars we leave on each other’s hearts. A long time later, when I recalled the last conversation with Xiao Nuan, I realized that I was determined to break up at that time
, not only because I was desperate for her and disappointed
in our love, but also because I remembered the good things we had.
At the same time, I also know that as we “grow up” day by day, as this colorful world
gradually reveals more to us, the beauty of the past will gradually fade away, and in the end it will not be worth
mentioning.
Therefore, it is meaningless to retain and repair.
It also looks like a grapefruit with thick skin and astringent flesh. Our love seems to bear fruit, but in fact there
is no harvest, it is still empty.
Maybe we don’t deserve it. We don’t deserve the result. After
breaking up, I moved out of the small house according to the agreement with the landlord. I don’t want anything in
that house. In order not to leave traces of that love around him
as much as possible.
I left Xiaonuan completely and did not rent a house again.
In fact, I have no reason to stay in this city now. In the last few months before I
left Beijing, I lived and ate at the takeaway workstation. Apart from sleeping
, eating and occasionally going to the formal dormitory to take a bath, at other times, I just
try my best to take orders.
I want to make more money and try to save some money. In the past few years with Xiao Nuan, I earned more and
spent more, but I didn’t have much savings. I can’t allow myself to go home dejectedly.
It was not until I saved a sum of money that I packed my bags and officially set foot on my way home.
The train passed through the countryside of North China and entered the mountains and plains of central China. Gradually, closer and closer to
home.
I’d better go to Shangrao City first, then take a bus to Poyang County, and finally go back to the town. Before I
left, I called my parents. Far away, I saw the two elders waiting for me at the intersection
.
At that moment, I really understood what was meant by “looking forward to it.”.
Only those who really love you will look forward to you.
Sitting in the sun in my shabby old yard, looking at my gray-haired parents who kept looking at me with
loving eyes, I thought I was
right to come back.
I even regret not coming back earlier.
Parents are here, don’t travel far. I’ve been gone too long.
In my busy and impetuous urban life, there is not much time left for thinking about my parents
.
I am so ashamed that I just want to do my best to make up for it, to make them feel at ease, and to make them no longer
remember their distant son. I told my parents that I worked hard and saved a lot of money before I left Beijing.
My mother seemed to want to say something to me, but after a long time, she said, “a few days ago, your aunt Liu
wanted to introduce you to someone, Wang Caihua from the shop in the town. Do you remember?”
She said that she guessed that I would not want to see it, so she refused it for me. Neither
she nor my dad asked me about Xiao Nuan.
I think they should understand when they see me go back to my hometown.
My parents are like earthworms deep in the soil, humble and weak, but very
sensitive to everything around them. That’s what survival has taught them.
And I, their heart, good son, my every move, and the hidden
meaning behind it, I am afraid they can not hide. The thoughtfulness of
my parents makes me want to cry.
“No, Mom, I want to see you.” After a pause, I raised my face and smiled at my mother.
“I remember Wang Tsai-hua!”! Is that the one with long hair who always wears a red dress and loves to chat
?
“Yes, yes, yes, that’s her.” When my mother looked at me, she was puzzled, but
more gratified. We were silent at the same time.
A second later, my mother had a big smile on her face.
I saw tears in my parents’ eyes. I patted my mother on the shoulder and smiled at my father.
It’s gonna be okay. Everything’s gonna be okay.
(End of full text. The story is based on real material, the details are fictional, please do not sit in
the right seat. It is a coincidence if it is the same as the reader’s real experience.
Wanquan Temple Superman
