What is
the most hopeless experience of secret love?
I had a crush on him for seven years, and he encouraged his roommate to chase me in order not to be misunderstood by his sweetheart.
He texted me, “My roommate has had a crush on you for two years. You can have a try with him.”.
Later, when I was with his roommate, he came up to me aggressively and asked me with red eyes, “Did you make his box of chocolates yourself?”?
I suddenly remembered that I had told him that the chocolate I made with my own hands was only for him. After
knowing that He Shen’s confession to Lin Manman was rejected, I felt a little lucky. When
He Shen asked me to meet him at the water bar, I specially dressed myself up.
After all, that was my chance to swoop in. Soft music was playing in the
water bar. I stood at the door of the water bar and saw from a distance that He Shen was not alone. Lin Manman was sitting beside him and his roommate Cen Xi was sitting opposite him.
His eyelashes curved into a crescent-shaped arc, the corners of his lips gently raised, his eyes were clear, and he spoke gently to Lin Manman.
My eyes darkened slightly, and my heart sank in an instant. He Shen saw me standing in the doorway. He smiled at me. The pleasure in his eyes was all given by Lin Manman.
I don’t understand. Didn’t Lin Manman refuse him?
Why are they together?
I comforted myself that maybe they were just lovers and couldn’t do it. I still had a chance to become friends.
I walked over, and there was only one seat left next to Cenxi.
I took advantage of the opportunity to sit down next to him, Cen Xi’s face a red, slightly short expression, very stiff.
I looked across at He Shen, smiled naturally, and then asked, “Why did you call me here?”?
His gentle eyes swept over Lin Man-man’s face. Suddenly he put down the coffee in his hand. With his free hand, he clasped Lin Man-man’s hand in the palm of his hand. Then he turned to me and said, I just want you to come over and clarify our relationship with Man-man. You and I have always been friends and buddies, don’t you think?
My eyes swept over their clasped hands, but I saw He Shen move a few times very naturally, and then their handshake posture turned into ten fingers clasped.
They looked at each other as if no one was watching, and their eyebrows and eyes were filled with sweet smiles, just like a pair of young lovers who had just fallen in love.
My heart beat hard, and when I saw that picture, even if I was silly, I understood that they were together. Holding back the sadness in my heart,
I pulled the corners of my mouth with difficulty, and a smile flashed across my face. “Of course,” I said. Out of the corner of my eye,
I glanced at He Shen’s face. His eyelashes were curved, and a clear smile ran through his deep eyes. He pouted at Lin Manman and said triumphantly, Look, I’m not lying to you, am I? Tan Lu and I are really just good friends, good buddies.
Watching him and his sweetheart so emphasize and explain our relationship, watching Lin Manman because of such an explanation, grinning, showing a happy smile, my situation suddenly seems particularly awkward.
I liked He Shen for seven years. He was the light of my whole school days. I never stopped chasing him. But in his eyes, we were just friends.
Looking at their sweet appearance, in a trance, I seemed to hear the sound of my heartbreak. It took me seven years to build the city that only he could walk in, and it collapsed.
The waiter brought me a cup of lemon tea. Cen Xi, who had been sitting beside me in silence, suddenly looked at me with a red face and asked, “I ordered a cup of lemon tea for you. Is this your favorite flavor?”?
I was slightly stupefied for a moment and looked at him in puzzlement. How did he know I liked lemon tea? Although
I know Cen Xi is He Shen’s roommate, we are not very familiar with each other, but in my impression, every time I meet Cen Xi, he blushes a little, his expression and movements are particularly cramped and nervous.
I once teased Cen Xi in front of He Shen. I said to him, “Your roommate, Cen Xi, is obviously tall and big, but how can he always blush and be shy? It’s so cute.”.
He Shen just smiled carelessly and said, “What do you care about him? Do you like him?”? Do you
want me to introduce you?
I waved my hand at once, and soon turned to another subject.
He smiled deeply, obviously I was sitting opposite him, but in his deep eyes, the reflection was not my shadow.
He took a teasing look at Cen Xi and said to me, “Cen Xi has asked me a lot about your preferences.” With that, He Shen raised his eyebrows at me, and I immediately understood what he meant.
He is hinting at me that Cenxi likes me.
Lin Man-man said to He Shen in a tongue-in-cheek tone, “Do you quite understand Tan Lu’s preferences?”?
He Shen hastened to explain, “No, there are a lot of things that I contacted my former classmates, who were also the best friends of Tan Lu’s high school.”. When I
heard these words, my face suddenly froze. Just a few days ago, my best friend Sisi, who played in high school, sent me a text message. She said, “Congratulations, after seven years of hard work, I finally got Ho Shen!” I asked her, and I said, “What are you talking about?”?
I haven’t written down the eight characters of He Shen yet.
“Sisi said,” How could it be possible! He Shen sent me a text message in the middle of the night last night, making a long list of things to ask about your preferences. He must like you! I was really overjoyed, I thought I was really going to wait for He Shen, but it turned out that it was just a ridiculous Oolong.
Cen Xi took a deep breath. Then he summoned up his courage and blushed. He looked at me and said, “Tan Lu, I’ve liked you for a long time. Can you be me?” Be my girlfriend?
As Cen Xi spoke, He Shen on the opposite side lowered his head. He picked up the coffee and took a sip. Then he turned to look at Lin Manman and smiled. His eyes were very gentle.
I looked at Cen Xi and saw that his face was red, his bright eyes were full of anticipation, his nervous hands were shaking, and he even stammered, but he was still waiting for my answer.
My tense heart suddenly relaxed at that moment. I looked at him and said, “Yes!” On the opposite side, the smile in his deep eyes was slightly stagnant, replaced by a touch of consternation, but for a moment, the smile in his eyes returned to normal.
Cen Xi stared at me in disbelief: “You..” You promised me?
I raised the corners of my lips slightly and said with a smile, “Well, yes.”.
Cen Xi’s face was filled with ecstasy. He quickly turned to look at He Shen and said, “He Shen, thank you. If you hadn’t encouraged me, I don’t know when I would have had the courage to express my love to Tan Lu!” I was surprised to look at He Shen, at that moment, I finally understand that He Shen’s heart really never liked me at all.
In order not to let Lin Manman misunderstand, he encouraged Cen Xi to chase me, and even he spared no effort to help Cen Xi to find silk to inquire about my preferences.
On the opposite side, Lin Man-man took Ho Shen’s arm. She said with a smile, “We agreed to go to the movies. The movie is about to start, and we should go, too.”.
He smiled and pursed his lips. Well, it’s time to go.
Then Lin Manman looked at Cen Xi and me again and said with a smile, “Congratulations, you two have a good chat. He Shen and I will go to the movies first.”.
They had already left, but before they had gone a few steps, Ho Shen suddenly turned around. With a faint smile on his
face, he looked at me in an ambiguous way, as if he had hidden some guilt for me, and as if he was blessing me.
He walked up to Cen Xi, then patted him on the shoulder and said, “You’re so lucky!”! Be good to her! “She’s my girlfriend now,” said Cen Xi with a smile. “I’m sure I’ll be nice to her.
I picked up the lemon tea on the table and took a sip. Today’s lemon tea may be bad. It should taste sour, but it’s a little bitter.
Soon after, Cen Xi said that he would like to thank He Shen for helping us pull strings, so he would invite He Shen to have dinner with his girlfriend.
Cen Xi found a Korean barbecue restaurant near the school and said he would take us to eat barbecue. At that time, I wanted to persuade him to change places, but in the end I didn’t say it.
He Shen and Lin Manman came to the barbecue shop hand in hand, talking and laughing. I took an unexpected look at He Shen. I remembered that I had asked him to eat barbecue together before, but he said to me: I hate to go to those places in the barbecue shop. Every time I finish eating, I smell of lampblack all over. As soon as
Lin Man-man came in, she was very happy and said to Cen Hsi, I like meat best, especially barbecue. I haven’t roasted it yet, and I can smell the fragrance.
He Shen stood beside her, his gentle eyes closely following her figure, overflowing with a spoiled smile.
I suddenly realized that he would come to the barbecue shop because of Lin Manman, and I almost realized that although He Shen hated the smell of cooking oil in the barbecue shop, he was totally willing to go with the person he liked.
My heart was stuffy, sour and astringent, and it was not until the meat in the roasting pan began to make a “sizzling” sound that I slowly came to my senses.
When the first dish of pork belly was ready, Cen Xi hurriedly picked up a few pieces of meat and put them on my plate. He smiled at me and said, “You eat first, and I’ll roast some more.”.
On the other side, Lin Man-man looked at me with envy on his face. He pouted and said, “Tan Lu, Cen Xi is really good to you!” However, beside her, He Shen gently raised his lips, his eyes swept over the meat on my plate, his eyes slightly indifferent, and the smile on his lips seemed to be mixed with a trace of sarcasm and disdain.
He reached out and picked up a clean and refreshing piece of lettuce and spread it on the plate. Then he picked up a piece of roasted pork belly and put it on the lettuce. Then he carefully brushed some sauce on the meat and wrapped the lettuce completely. Then he pushed the plate in front of Lin Manman.
His eyebrows curved, his eyes looked gently at Lin Manman, and his long knuckles retracted from the edge of the plate.
Lin Manman raised the corners of his mouth and his face was full of sweetness.
He Shen said with a smile, “I know you like to eat barbecue, so I made a strategy before you came.”.
Lin Man-man ate a few mouthfuls decisively, and his eyes lit up at once: “That’s the taste. It’s so delicious!” He Shen looked at her with spoiled eyes. He said with a faint smile, “I’ll pack a few more for you, and you can eat them first.”.
Lin Manman is really a barbecue lover. When she eats meat, her eyes shine, and after a while the tip of her nose sweats. She is already white and beautiful, but now there is a thin layer of sweat on the tip of her nose. Her small mouth is all shiny, but it doesn’t feel greasy and ugly at all. Instead, it has a lovely taste.
He Shen stood aside, his smile never fading. “You can’t eat slowly,” he said. “No one is fighting with you. Look at your virtue. You can eat a barbecue and make your face burn!”. After finishing speaking, he took a tissue, helped Lin Manman wipe the sweat on the tip of his nose, and helped her wipe the stains on the corners of her mouth. His expression seemed helpless, but his words were mixed with endless indulgence for her.
I’ve never seen He Shen be so considerate to any girl, and it’s obvious that he’s really different to Lin Manman.
Suddenly, there was also a piece of meat wrapped in lettuce on my plate. I turned to look blankly at Cen Xi, only to see him grinning with a simple and innocent smile. He said, “You can also taste it, and I’ll wrap a few more pieces for you.”.
I smiled, turned my head and caught a glimpse of He Shen brushing the sauce on the barbecue. Then he glanced at me with indifferent eyes, but quickly took it back. I was stunned for a moment, and soon felt that the look He Shen had just given me was just my illusion. After
we came out of the barbecue shop, it was already dark. On the way back, Cenxi said he was going to buy water for us. I immediately proposed to go with him.
When we went back to look for He Shen and Lin Manman after buying the water, we saw them standing under a sycamore tree in the distance. He Shen held Lin Manman’s waist and lowered his head. Lin Manman also stood on tiptoe slightly. They were kissing as if no one was there.
I looked at the scene in front of me foolishly, and I was caught off guard, so tears fell down uncontrollably.
My heart seemed to be gouged out again and again by a knife, and the pain made me shiver all over.
Cen Xi caught a glimpse of my expression, eyes flashed a touch of loss, but soon recovered as usual.
He stepped forward and used his tall body to help me block the scene not far away. Then he faced me with the most gentle and brilliant smile and said calmly and naturally, “The final exam is coming. Let’s go to the library to review tomorrow. I can go early to help you occupy a seat.”.
I looked at him in amazement and touched the expectant look in his eyes. I nodded gently. I said, Good.
He immediately opened his mouth, showing a row of big white teeth, and smiled so happily.
Sometimes people’s feelings are really mysterious. The night before, I saw He Shen and Lin Manman kissing romantically under the sycamore tree. I was heartbroken. But when I got through that sad night, my heart suddenly stopped hurting.
With Cenxi together, I found that Cenxi is not really easy to blush, he will only become cautious in front of me.
That weekend, we made an appointment to go to the library to review together, and he went to the library early in the morning to help me get a seat.
Our dormitory is close to the side door of the library. When I went to the library, I went straight to the side door of the library, but I saw Cen Xi and a girl standing at the side door talking. I don’t know
that girl, but at first glance, she looks very beautiful, but her mood is not very good.
She asked Cen Xi, “Why did you refuse me?”?
Even if you don’t accept me, can’t you be a friend?
I was stunned for a moment. In fact, my heart was quite calm. Although I had been with Cen Xi for a period of time, I was still far from saying whether I liked him or not.
Although a girl expressed her love to him, Cen Xi’s eyes did not even blink, and the expression on his face was even more indifferent, a look of refusing people thousands of miles away.
He said to the girl very seriously and seriously, “I already have a girlfriend. If she knows that I am friends with a girl who has expressed his love to me, she will be unhappy, and I don’t want to make her unhappy.”.
I was standing not far away, and every word of what Cen Xi said clearly fell into my ears. My heart moved slightly, like a calm lake, being thrown a seemingly small but powerful stone, and then setting off waves that grew bigger and bigger.
The girl’s tears, like golden beans, fell down, but Cen Xi always kept a straight face and turned a blind eye to them.
Finally, the girl hid her face and ran away. The direction she ran away just met me. Cen Xi turned his head and saw me. Suddenly, his expression was stunned. Then his eyebrows and eyes were curved. There was a clear and bright light in his eyes. But after a moment, he seemed to be afraid that I would misunderstand something. He raised his hand and scratched his head. His expression was slightly short. The whole person looked embarrassed again.
I walked toward him with a smile, and then took the initiative to put my arm around his arm. It was the first time I took the initiative to put my arm around his arm. His expression was stagnant, his eyes were wide open, his cheeks were quickly stained with a touch of red, and he looked dull and silly.
I smiled and said to him, “Let’s go. The final exam is a week away. Hurry up and go in to review.”.
He was so stupefied that I dragged him into the library. When he reacted, the corners of his mouth could not stop rising. He wanted to laugh loudly, but because he was in the library, he held it back and did not dare to laugh out loud.
I don’t know what he said to He Shen after Cen Xi and I went back to the dormitory after reviewing in the library that day.
But that night, I was already asleep, but I was woken up by a text message from He Shen.
He said, “Cen Xi has had a crush on you for two years. You can have a try.”.
I looked sleepily at the text message he sent, and for a moment my head was still a little confused and I didn’t react.
Then he sent a second text message, saying, “I heard that you have made new progress with Cenxi. I hope you are really with him, not because of some other reasons, or because you accept him in a fit of pique.”.
After reading the second text message sent by He Shen, my head gradually woke up. What is the meaning of what
he Shen said, what are the other reasons, what pique?
I suddenly want to laugh, in fact, he has always known that I like him, so he thought I was angry with him, and Cen Xi together.
I returned a text message to him, editing the text, my mood is not calm, my mind from time to time flashed the appearance of Cen Xi, inexplicably feel hot in my heart.
I said to Ho Shen, You’ve misunderstood me. I just feel that I’m a sophomore, and I’ve never been in love before, and now I should be in love. The timing of Cen Xi’s appearance is just right. After the
text message was sent, I saw that He Shen’s status showed that he was typing, so I sent another text message: It’s getting late. Go to bed quickly. Don’t worry about me. I’m fine with Cen Xi. I’m going to sleep, too. Bye-bye.
After a while, He Shen texted me back: Well, good night. When I
suddenly saw the word “good night,” I was stunned. Some people say that when men and women send good night to each other, there is a trace of ambiguous relationship.
In the past, I took the initiative to send good night to him, but carefully hid my little caution to him, but every time, he replied to me with a hard “88” or no reply. Naturally,
I didn’t think that He Shen suddenly sent me “good night” for any other purpose. I had already turned the page on what had happened before. I threw my cell phone aside, closed my eyes, and had a good night’s sleep. Cen Xi and
I reviewed together in the library every day, and our relationship was advancing by leaps and bounds during that time. The night before the
exam, when we came out of the library, it was already nine o’clock.
Cen Xi took me by the hand, blushing, and said nervously, “There are still two hours before the dormitory closes. Let’s not go shopping for a while.”.
It was summer and the weather was quite hot. Even though there was a final exam the next day, I felt that I had reviewed well during that time and was confident about the exam, so I agreed to him casually.
He held my hand all the time and chatted with me while walking. After we walked for a while, he saw a milk tea shop not far away. Then he was willing to let go of our hands, which were already soaked with sweat, and said, “Wait for me.”.
He ran quickly to the milk tea shop and bought me a cup of strawberry yogurt and himself a cup of peach and watermelon juice. When
he ran over and handed me the strawberry yogurt, he explained by the way, “Milk tea contains theophylline. It’s easy to lose sleep if you drink it at night. I remember you also like to drink this strawberry yogurt.”.
He just trotted a little way, and there was already a sweat on his forehead. Smiling, I took a wet towel from my bag, opened it, and handed it to him: Wipe the sweat.
He took the wet towel to wipe his sweat, and I lowered my head and drank a mouthful of cold strawberry yogurt. I always remember that the yogurt that night was very strange, with a strong smell of honey.
After a while, I caught a glimpse of sweat flowing down his neck, so I took another wet towel and wiped the sweat off his neck. He was stunned and looked at me in astonishment. His Adam’s apple rolled back and forth a few times, and his eyes became more and more eager.
I hastily withdrew my hand, but he suddenly took hold of my wrist, blushed and said, “Wipe me again.”.
I pursed my lips, feeling that something was fermenting, that my heart was beating faster and faster, and that the air I breathed had become sweet.
When I wiped the sweat off his neck, I withdrew my hand shyly. My cheeks were burning, and out of the corner of my eye, I caught a glimpse of the Adam’s apple rolling around his neck a few more times.
Cenxi is no better than me, his nervous hands are shaking, looking at my eyes, unusually hot.
His tongue seemed to be tied, a little incoherent, a little stammering, and he said, “That..” I You. Can you..? After talking for a long time, he was a little worried. “No, no, it’s me. Can I..” Can I give you a kiss?
I lowered my head and felt my heart was about to jump out. I bit my lip nervously. My cheeks were red and very hot.
Seeing that I did not open my mouth, he pursed his lips awkwardly, and then summoned up great courage and said, “If you do not speak, I will take it as your acquiescence.”. When he
finished, he reached out his trembling hand and took me into his arms. Then he lowered his head and kissed me very gently and quickly on my lips. Then he released me in a panic.
At that moment, I just felt like an electric shock on my lips, numbness, crisp and soft, especially wonderful.
Suddenly a figure jumped out, he pulled me away from Cenxi’s arms, and then hit Cenxi with a hard punch. Stunned,
I turned my head to look, only to see that He Shen’s face was dark and his eyes were full of shadows. He looked at Cen Xi with gloomy eyes and scolded him sullenly, “What are you doing?”?
After Cen Xi was punched by He Shen, he could not help but come forward and return He Shen’s punch.
When I reacted, I rushed over and separated them.
I looked at He Shen without knowing why and asked, “He Shen, you should ask yourself, what are you doing?”?
He looked at me with a particularly incomprehensible look in his eyes, as if I had done something particularly wrong to him.
I said to him, “Cen Xi is my boyfriend, and we just did something that couples do.”.
He Shen looked at me with sudden consternation and panic in his eyes. I frowned at him and felt very puzzled. What was wrong with him?
Cen Xi held my hand tightly on one side, his cold eyes swept over He Shen’s face, and a sarcastic smile passed over the corner of his lips. When
he turned to look at me, all the tenderness in his eyes came back. “It’s getting late, and I have an exam tomorrow. I’ll take you back to the dormitory.”. The
moment Cen Xi took my hand and brushed past He Shen, He Shen’s empty eyes suddenly lit up. He grabbed my wrist and said in a low voice, Tan Lu, I broke up with Lin Manman.
I looked at him in surprise with a slight look.
He raised his eyes to me, expectant and pleading, and said, “I regret pushing you to him.”.
Suddenly I heard him say something like that, and I was stunned.
He has never liked me, will he regret it?
But at that time, for the first time, I saw a reflection that only belonged to me from his deep eyes. His eyes were staring at me eagerly, and his eyes were full of strong and deep feelings. His deep affection for me was really beyond my expectation.
But at that time, facing him like that, there was no fluctuation in my heart.
Cen Xi jumped beside me. “He Shen, what do you mean?”?
In the face of Cen Xi’s questioning, He Shen was silent. His expression was decadent and his lips were tight, but he always held my wrist tightly and refused to let go.
I looked at He Shen lightly and then pushed his hand away. Then I said to him calmly and seriously, “He Shen, I really thank you for letting me know Cen Xi. I’m fine with him now, and I hope I won’t be disturbed by you in the future.”. After the
final exam, the school will have a summer vacation.
I told my family that I would stay in the local summer job during the summer vacation, and then I applied to the counselor for accommodation during the summer vacation.
Cen Xi heard that I would not go back during the summer vacation and stayed with me at school.
I found a part-time job in a local dessert shop, while Cenxi went to a McDonald’s store not far from me as a cashier.
We both go to and from work at the same time, so almost every morning, he buys breakfast and comes downstairs to our girls’ dormitory to wait for me to go to work together, and then we go back to school together in the evening.
About a week later, I was fast asleep when my cell phone started ringing in the middle of the night.
I pulled my cell phone out from under my pillow in a daze. After a day’s work, I was really sleepy.
I connected the phone, and soon he Shen’s usual deep voice came from the phone.
He said, “Tan Lu, I am very sad that you forgot my birthday.”.
I froze for a moment, then glanced at the time. It was almost one o’clock in the morning. An hour had passed since He Shen’s birthday. For the first time in seven years, I had forgotten his birthday.
I remember that in the summer vacation when I graduated from senior three, he asked me out alone on his birthday.
He said that his parents divorced on his birthday, and they completely forgot that it was his birthday.
That night, I lied to my parents for the first time, saying that I spent the night at Sisi’s house, but in fact, that day, after I sent He Shen home, he said that his father had moved to live with a woman outside, and his mother had her own lover, who had not come back for a long time.
He held me in his arms and begged me to stay with him for one night. At that time, the big boy, who looked independent, sunny and handsome, showed his fragile side in front of me for the first time. Looking at him, I cried with him.
It was supposed to be a sad reminder of the past, but I yawned heavily. I opened my mouth to speak, and my voice was still mixed with a thick nasal sound that I didn’t wake up: Sorry, I’m really tired today. I have to go to work early tomorrow morning. If there is nothing else important, I’ll hang up first.
He Shen was silent. I heard that he didn’t speak any more, so I hung up the phone. Then I groped a few times and felt a huge chinchilla doll that Cen Xi had caught in the doll machine when he accompanied me to the mall not long ago. Then I held the chinchilla in my arms and soon fell asleep again.
This year’s Tanabata Valentine’s Day is just in the summer vacation, I think Valentine’s Day is coming, I should prepare a gift for Cenxi, but I haven’t thought of what to give him, he asked me in advance.
He said, “Will you make me a box of chocolates yourself?”?
I was stunned for a moment and looked at him in puzzlement. How did you know I could make chocolate?
He smiled shyly and didn’t hide it from me. He said to me, Last year, just after the beginning of freshman year, it was Valentine’s Day. At that time, you gave He Shen a box of chocolates made by yourself. He Shen didn’t eat them. When he brought them back to the dormitory, I ate them all.
In fact, before that, every year on Valentine’s Day, I would personally make a box of chocolates for He Shen. I knew how to make chocolates, and I learned it for He Shen at the beginning. He Shen didn’t have a girlfriend before, so we joked that he would celebrate Valentine’s Day and we would celebrate Friendship Day. So every time I gave him chocolates, he accepted them.
Cen Xi took me by the hand and pouted, “Just make me a box. I’ve been thinking about that taste for two years.”.
He is obviously so tall and handsome, but in front of me, he always acts like a child and acts like a spoiled child to me.
I nodded and promised him. He immediately hugged me and said with a smile, “Where can I find such a good girlfriend?”?
I am so happy! He Shen returned to school early two days before Valentine’s Day. When I came back from work with Cen Xi that day, he sent me to the door of the dormitory and we separated.
After a while, He Shen called me. He said, “Let’s meet. I’ll wait for you downstairs in your dormitory.”.
It was already 8:30 in the evening, and it was already dark. I had just opened the door of the dormitory, and I hadn’t even had time to turn on the lights.
I didn’t want to see him, so I found a reason and said, “Did you go back to school early?”?
But unfortunately, I’m not in the dorm! He Shen’s voice sank and he said, “Tan Lu, don’t lie to me. I just saw Cen Xi send you back.”.
I hung up the phone helplessly and walked out of the dormitory again. I haven’t seen him for more than
a month. He Shen looks as handsome as usual, but his eyes seem to be a little more haggard. When
he saw me coming out, his lips were raised, his eyebrows and eyes were curved, and there was a faint smile on his face. Then he walked toward me and handed me two tickets: There will be an Optics Valley Music Festival in Wuhan in a few days. I have missed you once before, and this time I will accompany you.
I looked at the two music festival tickets he handed me, and my eyes trembled slightly.
Moments later, I looked up with a smile on my lips and said, “No, during the May Day holiday, Sisi had already accompanied me to the Strawberry Music Festival in Shanghai, and I saw my favorite band perform.”.
I remember that before May Day, I made an appointment with He Shen to visit the Strawberry Music Festival in Shanghai during the holidays. He Shen also promised me, so I mobilized all my friends who could help me grab tickets online. Fortunately, I really got two tickets. When I got the
ticket, it was in the middle of the night. I was so excited that I didn’t sleep all night. Early the next morning, I went downstairs to the boys’ dormitory and wanted to tell He Shen the good news in person. When He Shen came out and heard about it, he calmly said to me, “You can ask someone else to see the music festival. I have other plans for May Day.”.
Later, when I came back from Shanghai during the May Day holiday, I learned from my roommate that during the May Day holiday, He Shen accompanied Lin Manman to do a part-time job and handed out leaflets for five days.
At that time, He Shen had not yet confessed to Lin Manman, but the two of them had entered an ambiguous period. At that time,
I really didn’t think how important it was for He Shen to have other arrangements, but the result was that he just stayed at school with Lin Manman to do part-time jobs and hand out leaflets. How ridiculous! He Shen’s eyes darkened slightly, and he frowned slightly. After a moment of silence, he said, “I’ve checked the guest list for this music festival, and there’s a band you like, and it’s only a few days away. Anyway, the summer vacation isn’t over yet..” I immediately interrupted him and looked at him lightly and said, “He Shen, I have a boyfriend. Is it appropriate for me to go to the music festival with you?”?
He Shen clenched his palms tightly into fists. He stared at me and asked, Are you really going to be serious with Cen Xi?
Tan Lu, you like me for so many years, this feeling, you really so easily put down?
I raised my eyes, and there was a sneer in my eyes. Look, he knew all along that I had liked him for many years, but he clearly knew that he had asked me out at the beginning. In front of Lin Manman, he admitted that he and I were just friends and buddies. It was ridiculous?
Seeing that I was smiling, his eyes flashed slightly. Suddenly he reached out and grabbed my wrist. His deep eyes looked at me earnestly and said, “Tan Lu, the person I like is you. Will you come back to me?”?
I turned my eyes away from his affectionate eyes, and then reached out and pushed his hand away.
I stepped back a few steps and said to him, “He Shen, I put it down. In fact, I haven’t liked you so much for a long time. It’s just that I chased you for seven years and regarded liking you as my obsession. But that day I saw with my own eyes that you and Lin Manman stood under the sycamore tree and kissed so affectionately. I was sad all night, but I found out.” My sad point is not that you are with Lin Manman, but that I find my obsession has disappeared. He Shen shook his head in a panic and stared at me. His eyes were red and he said, “No, you won’t dislike me.”.
“I looked at him indifferently and said,” It’s true. I don’t have to lie to you, but the previous obsession is not important to me, because I have Cen Xi.
He Shen put his arms around me, and his eyes flashed with a crazy look. He kept denying it. He said to me, You’ve liked me for seven years. How long have you been dating Cen Xi? How could you like him?
He held me hard in his arms, afraid that I would leave him, but I used the greatest strength of my life to break free from his arms.
I said to him seriously, “He Shen, don’t come here again. If I don’t like you, I don’t like you anymore. It’s the same answer even if I say it again and again!” He stared at me and staggered back a few steps, looking discomfited and pitiful.
I said, “It’s getting late. I’m going back to the dormitory to have a rest. You can go!” When I finished, I turned around and walked to the dormitory. As for He Shen, my feelings for him had already gone with the wind. On
Valentine’s Day, Cenxi asked me to meet him at the water bar where he had promised to associate with him.
The water bar has been playing all kinds of sweet songs in a loop that day, surrounded by pink balloons, the atmosphere is romantic and warm.
Cen Xi’s bright eyes stared at the gift in my hand. I handed him the chocolate I made with my own hands. When he received the chocolate, he couldn’t wait to open it.
I made three colors of chocolate, white, black and pink. A circle of pink chocolate in the middle was placed in the shape of a heart, and the names of Cenxi and me were engraved on both sides.
Cen Xi immediately two eyes shine, ecstatic, he immediately took out a mobile phone to take a picture and then sent in the circle of friends.
He said, “This is the chocolate my girlfriend made for me. I really love her.”.
I couldn’t help laughing and scolding him: “You are too disgusting!” He raised his eyebrows at me and said with a smile, “What’s so disgusting? I wish the whole world knew that I, Cen Xi, like to talk about dew. I love to talk about dew.”. When
my relationship with Cen Xi was getting sweeter and sweeter, I found that his mouth was getting poorer and poorer.
But the feeling of being with him is the love I want. I sent him a box of chocolates
that day, but he sent me a scarf. Looking at the scarf, I was stunned.
Do you know what season it is? Did you send me a scarf in
summer?
Cen Xi shrank his head and shriveled his mouth. Then he said to me in an aggrieved voice, Didn’t you give a scarf to He Shen last winter? He knew I had a crush on you for a long time, so he gave it to me. I saw at a glance that it was knitted by yourself, and I thought, I’ll knit a scarf for you myself.. The scarf won’t break anyway, and when it gets cold, it will come in handy. After
hearing his explanation, I looked at the red scarf and was suddenly moved.
Last winter, I did knit a scarf and gave it to He Shen. It was the first time I learned to knit a scarf. I often made mistakes and then took it apart again and again. It took
me about half a month to knit a scarf that I was satisfied with. At that time, my fingers were really red and swollen, and I had cocoons. I felt painful when I touched them.
I gave the scarf to He Shen with joy. He Shen looked light at that time and did not show any special expression, but he accepted it, and I was satisfied.
I just didn’t expect that the original scarf would be given to Cenxi after he went back.
I reached out and pulled Cen Xi’s hand over, and at a glance I saw his fingers, which were red and swollen, and even had cocoons. My
eyes were sore and I asked him with a smile, “Do my fingers still hurt?”?
“He suddenly started acting like a spoiled child at me:” It hurts! Knitting a scarf is too difficult to learn. Every time I knit a stitch, my fingers will be poked by the steel needle, and they will swell when they are poked. I couldn’t help laughing and scolding at Cen Xi: “Cen Xi, I suspect you are driving.”.
Cen Xi: “… …” When I returned to the dormitory that night, I put the scarf Cen Xi gave me around my neck and looked in the mirror for a long time.
It was summer, but I didn’t feel hot wearing a scarf at all. Instead, I felt cool, beautiful and comfortable.
However, at that time, he Shen suddenly called me. When he
spoke, he was crying, and his words were somewhat incoherent, which should be due to drunkenness.
He cried and accused me, “You said …” You said it! Tan Lu, why did you send him the chocolate you made?
You told me, you said the chocolate you made would only be given to me. I still remember the last time I gave him a chocolate. It was the Valentine’s Day when I was a freshman. He accepted it and said to me, “I’m almost tired of eating chocolate. Don’t give it to me anymore. It’s good to give it to someone else.”. Without saying a word,
I hung up on He Shen, and then I blacklisted all his contact information.
I looked at the time, in fact, it was still early, so I called Cenxi again.
Just separated, I miss you again. On the other end of the phone,
he was overjoyed and said, “Then go to the window and look down.”.
I froze for a moment and went to the window, only to see a circle of heart-shaped candles behind him, holding a bunch of bright red roses in his hand, shouting at me, “Tan Lu, I love you!” I ran out of the dormitory in a hurry. When he saw me coming out, he put down the rose and greeted me with both hands. I rushed into his arms and he picked me up.
I asked him, “What are you doing? You have given gifts.”.
“But he smiled and said,” I suddenly wanted to give you a surprise. Holding his face in my hands,
I took the initiative to lower my head and gave him a hard kiss on his poor mouth. Then I leaned against his ear and told him softly, I said, I love you too.
“. Focus on not getting lost ~”
