My sister looks good, but I’m scared when she grows up.
I dirtyed her clothes, messed her hair, and slept with her hand.
Until the other night, I saw a man lying at my door, looking at it.
I strangled my own hand, dressed up calm, walking over there and stealing from my sister, saying, “Today, you must go. I’m sorry.
I was born in the mountains, and the world was only as big as a village in my knowledge.
The village’s families have a small black house, and women are locked in when they don’t listen, beaten, starved for days and released when they are honest.
Including my mother.
Grandma said she was crazy and she’d hurt me.
“That woman was so mean, she wanted to kill you when our baby was in her belly. I’m sorry.
“What can I do? Take a chain and tie her hands and feet! I’m sorry.
Grandma said to me day after day when I was a little girl, and I knew secretly that she didn’t like me.
I used to go to the black house to peek, the windows were sealed, I stood up and looked in the cracks.
Pretty, white skin. I looked down on my fingers, black, as black as the skin on my face.
Is she really my mother?
I’ve seen an egg-dog. She’s not white. She’s got a lot of scars.
She went down to work with him and was beaten in cold, but she didn’t react, didn’t run away and always leaned on her head.
Only when you see an egg, you look up and laugh at it.
It’s embarrassing for an egg to run like that.
My mother wouldn’t laugh at me. She was always staring at me, Dad, Grandma.
In New Year’s, Dad’s gonna let her out of the dark room and clean her up.
Last year, as usual, she stopped yelling and staring at me.
She smiled at me. She was so gentle. She was much better-looking than a dog.
She still hugged me, she smells so soft, I have to show my balls, I’m fucking hugging me!
That night Dad was so happy, he said she finally figured it out.
For more than a month, she was so gentle, she couldn’t go out and sat in the yard and told me stories.
“Why read?” I asked her.
Mother cut my nails. She said there’s bacteria in the mud in the nails. The bacteria are bad for the body.
Mother knows a lot. She must be a fairy in heaven!
“Read a million rolls of books to learn more and see a better world outside.” I’m sorry.
“What is the outside world? I’m sorry.
“It’s the world beyond the mountains. It’s just a small village, a much larger world outside the mountains, with lots of fresh things, playgrounds, libraries, airplanes, trains, people there are polite, they don’t move, they’re all dressed clean.
“You must read from now on, not be like the people here. I’m sorry.
“To read a book will be the power to change the world. I’m sorry.
“Remember, don’t be like them…”
That afternoon’s sunshine was so good that I slept in my mother’s arms and had a good dream, as if I had a dream of the outside world, like heaven.
Dream on, motherfucker.
Dad told a lot of people to go after him. That night, everything was a mess.
Grandma took me inside.
I saw Grandma’s fingernails and black mud.
I watched my mother cut my fingernails clean and neat, and then I threw Grandma’s hand and ran into the house.
Soon, Mom got caught back.
Dad beat Mom so hard, she screamed in the dark room.
I ran to the door and begged Dad to stop. Dad kicked me. My stomach hit the door frame.
“Get the fuck out of my way! And you’ll fight!
It’s a shock, Grandma pulled me, “How can I give you a new generation if it’s broken? I’m sorry.
That night, the cry of the dark house did not stop, and I buried my head in a blanket, or heard my mother crying.
After six months of drinking, Dad went to beat up his wife, and at night.
I begged Grandma to stop hitting my mom.
“That’s what she deserves! We bought her back for $5,000! Don’t run! You shouldn’t be too nice to her! I’m sorry.
“It’s good and good to serve her! What a heartless man! How dare she run! I’m sorry.
Half a month later, Dad stopped beating up and Grandma was happy to bring chicken soup to the dark room.
At the table, Dad was in a good mood, and I said a few words to him, and I looked at his face and answered carefully.
Dad’s temper is a bad answer.
Are you happy?
“Happy. I’m glad I didn’t get hit.
“Hey, you stupid boy, you know that. I’m sorry.
Then I knew that Mom was pregnant.
It’s almost New Year’s, Mom’s out.
Her belly was so big, her arms and legs so thin, her hair so messy, her face so dented, and her eyes soared.
Mother’s eyes are more scary, black and dark, like wells at the village entrance.
I wanted to pull her hand, but I didn’t dare.
Mom came out this time, didn’t cry and didn’t smile at me.
Last year, the bitch holding me in the sun seemed like a dream.
Now a bitch is like a ogre.
On the 29th of the month, she was born, a little sister.
I ran over to see it. It was beautiful, like a gentle mother.
Dad and Grandma aren’t happy, they say their sister’s a loser.
Dad’s going to throw away his sister’s money. I’m sorry.
Grandma stopped and said, “Leave, until the age of 89, you can sell to Ming’s wife. I’m sorry.
Dad smoked, looked at me, looked at my sister, agreed.
The mother on the side heard, stood up and strangled her sister.
Dad beat up Mom again and threw her into the dark room.
I like to hold my sister. She’s a little girl. She’s a soft one.
There are not many girls in the village, and no girl has my sister as pretty as she looks, and I hold her in my little partner’s arms.
See? This is my sister! I’m sorry.
“A girl! There’s nothing to show off! I’m sorry.
I think they’re just jealous of my beautiful sister.
After she had her sister, she ran again, snowy, slippery, fell into a ditch; when she was pulled up, she was frozen.
Grandma’s got ginger soup. She’s alive.
Dad went to a doctor to see his mother, said he would never have any more children.
Dad was so angry, he was whipping his mother so hard, I threw it up and threw it away.
Grandma pulled me up and took my pants off to see if they were broken.
When she was sure, she took the ash and went to the kitchen as if she hadn’t seen his father beating his mother.
My two-year-old sister cried so badly that my father was bored.
As soon as I looked at my dad looking at my sister’s direction, I panicked, my legs were faster than my head.
It’s so cold out there, I spent half a night with my sister in the corner, listening to the noise and sneaking back.
Since then, a man has often come into and out of my house, and Grandma asked me to go out with my sister.
Life in the family has occasionally improved, sometimes with eggs and even a few pieces of meat.
Of course, it’s all about Dad.
Grandma once in a while gave me two pieces, and I looked at my sister, who was trying to swallow her mouth, and I gave her one of them, and she got her chopstick.
“What kind of meat is it? I’m sorry.
I don’t like it when they call their sister to lose money.
My sister was so pretty, she was like a mother, white skin, big eyes, like a princess.
I remember what Mom said about Snow White, and I thought if there was Snow White, she would look like her sister.
I secretly named my sister, Yuki.
My sister was so attached to me, I kept her around all the time and slept with her hand.
I’m afraid my sister will be gone as soon as I wake up.
The longer she grows, the better she looks, the less I dare show off with her partner.
I saw those people looking at their sisters, and I hated them.
Like those men in the village, I hate the way they look at their mothers.
I punched the dog in the balls, he was angry, “I treat you like a brother, you hit me! I’m sorry.
I’m even more angry, he touched my sister’s face.
Don’t touch my sister!
“Your grandma said she’d sell her to me as her daughter-in-law. I’m sorry.
I punched him again and pulled my sister away.
“Brother doesn’t hurt, I blow you. I’m sorry.
I looked at my sister’s innocent face and let it go.
I hate myself. I’m a useless brother.
I’m weak, I can’t beat my father, I can’t protect my sister, I can’t protect my mother.
I’m not a kid anymore. I know what happens in the dark room every night.
I know what my mother’s been through. I hate the men who break into the house, and I hate Dad who sits at the door and counts.
I don’t know how I fell asleep that day, every night.
The sound of the cotton is also pouring into my ears like the devil.
I decided not to tweak my sister’s hair and make her face black and dirty.
My sister always listens to me and smiles at me.
“Big brother, are we making a new game? I’m sorry.
“Yes, I can’t wash the ashes off Yuki’s face without saying stop. I’m sorry.
“The face itches a bit. “Snow doesn’t get used to dirty faces, and the subconscious wants to wipe.
“Don’t wipe it off! * I yelled at you *
Snow is freaking out, brother…
I’m snorting, I’m crouching. “Good boy, can I get you a big white rabbit? I’m sorry.
“Are we playing Cinderella? I’m sorry.
Cinderella, there are few stories from mother.
Good and beautiful Cinderella, with a bird and fairy godmother, took her to the prince; Snow White also had the help of a dwarf and had a happy life with the prince.
So, sister? Can we wait for her fairy godmother?
“Yeah, it’s Cinderella’s game. I’m sorry.
We are poor in our village and no girl is willing to marry in our village, and those who cannot marry their daughter-in-law are going to look for the “Moon-Bama”.
She’s got the Great One, and she can give you a beautiful girl as a daughter-in-law.
This is what I call a “mythical story” from my village wives.
When a group of children were asking the mother-in-law whether it was true, the grown-up men in the village laughed mysteriously, shuddered each other and exchanged some kind of information.
What a secret!
From that moment on, I started to hate myself.
I’m a child of a trafficker. I’m covered in blood.
Dad is dirty, Grandma is dirty, the whole village is dirty.
Why should I live? Why should I know this?
I’m starting to hate everything. Why would Mother give birth to me? Why didn’t she die herself?
Dad and Grandma deserve to die! It’s all them! Why do they have to buy my mother back? Why do they have me? Why did you raise me?
I’m sorry. She is the source of all evil!
It was my sister who brought back my senses when I was about to be driven mad by these thoughts.
I’m alive and useful. I have to protect my sister.
There is no school in the village and it is 20 miles to go to school.
I’m willing to go with my sister every day, and I’m tired and I’m carrying her behind my back.
I’ve always remembered. Mother said it’s useful to read.
I’m going to read it and take my sister to the outside world, which must be clean.
I didn’t know until I went to school that Mom couldn’t get out anyway.
Each village is surrounded by people, and the road out of the mountains is complicated, and there is no way out of the mountains for a month without anyone familiar.
More than anything else, the villagers are united in this kind of thing, and the loss of one will mobilize the efforts of several villages to find it.
Even if I ran away without a car, it would take days to get to town.
There are well-arranged eyes in the town, as well as well-known homes in bus stations and police stations, and it’s hard to get people back to the police.
No one has escaped for years, never.
There are not many people studying in the village. They are too far away to read.
“Ming, why are you studying? I don’t have much to do with it. I’m sorry.
The eggs started collecting food with his father and selling it outside, making a difference.
“What the hell?” I twisted my head, and he started smoking and it choked me.
“Ha ha ha! You didn’t smoke, did you? Let’s have a taste of the true Mount Red Tower! I’m sorry.
I’m anxious to get my sister out of here and study hard.
No way! Too slow! The sister grew too fast, and her body grew more and more, like a little yang.
I can blacken her face with ash, but I can’t hide her.
The eyes of those who look at their sister are getting hotter.
I can’t let her leave me for a moment, I’m too scared.
I studied like crazy, finally! I went to college!
The phoenix flew out of the mountain nest, although it was a very common university, many of which had not even heard of it, but it was rare in the village.
Everybody congratulates Dad and Grandma.
“It’s really a great place to smoke! I’m sorry.
“I told you he’s a good boy! I’m sorry.
“Fuck you, don’t you say that the son of a bitch is a dead-end idiot! I’m sorry.
“The son of Ming is a handsome man and has taken the university. I’m sorry.
Aunt Li, you’ll have plenty of luck later. I’m sorry.
“There’s a lot to look after in the village. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Grandma accepted the compliment and laughed like an old ass.
My father was drunk in a crowd.
I look in the direction of the black house and there’s no reaction.
These girls are like a flower that’s dying. It’s quiet.
Only occasional meals brought in and night whips proved that she was alive.
The village was full of people who asked their father to offer drinks, and the courtyard was full of people who were drunk and danced in a strange way.
Women surrounded the kitchen and waited to meet the needs of men.
I told my sister to hide inside. Don’t come out.
“Why didn’t you see your sister? “The dog’s balls are running around.
“I don’t have enough wine. I’ll let her get some more. I’m sorry.
“Oh, well, you’re going to college. Tell me if you need money. I’m sorry.
I frown, he’s always mean. How come he talks today?
If you don’t wait for me to ask, he slaps me on the shoulder and says, “We’re all family. Don’t be polite. I’m sorry.
I slap his hand, “Who’s family with you?” I’m sorry.
He came over and said, “I’m going to marry your sister. Isn’t that a family? Your father has taken me…”
I pushed him away.
“I won’t let my sister marry you and die with this heart, and my father will take whatever he wants from you, not in front of me, like a fly. I’m sorry.
He’s upset.
“I’m telling you, don’t think I’m giving you a little bit of face and you’re gonna have a nose! Your family is poor because your sister’s good-looking and I’m willing to give you money, or what do you think you’re taking to college? Don’t think you’ll look down on people after a few days! You can only read, you idiot X!”
I paused, and I thought I’d get out of here as soon as possible.
I told Dad this idea.
“We don’t have much money. I’m going to work in town. I’ll pay for school. I’m sorry.
Dad took a deep smoke and didn’t talk.
“You don’t have to make money. I’m sorry.
“How can that be?” I’m in a bit of a hurry, walking a few steps forward.
Dad looked at me and looked at my sister, “I can make money. I’m sorry.
My sister was too scared to move in his eyes to cry, “Big brother…”
I stood in front of my father, pulled my sister’s hand and tried to keep myself calm.
“Dad, there’s another way. I’m sorry.
The mountains block our contact with the outside world, but they also provide us with a wealth of sustenance.
There is a great deal of medicinal material on the mountain, and most of the villagers are unaware of it and treat it as weed and weed.
I told Dad I knew a lot of expensive medicine at the teacher’s house, a lot of it on our mountain.
“You son of a bitch, are you serious? I’m sorry.
“It must be true, as the teacher said, the mountains are full of babies. I’m sorry.
“Well…”
I saw him hesitated and moved forward, “It’s just…”
“What is it?” Say it!
“This can’t be told. There’s only a limited amount of medicine. If everyone knows, we’re going to get it. I’m sorry.
Dad, hey, smile, “Oh, yeah, don’t let anyone know. I’m sorry.
“My son is smart and capable!” You’re my son! I’m sorry.
It’s safe for now.
I took my sister up to the mountain to take her medicine.
Brother, do you really know the medicine? I’m sorry.
I’m sorry, but I don’t know what medicine I’m going to use, and I’m going to do it for a while.
I’ve seen a few of them in the book, and I remember the generals. I don’t know them either.
Brother, I know Dad’s gonna sell me to Brother Dog Egg. I saw him take money from Brother Dog Egg. I’m sorry.
Snow leaned on her head and whispered to me.
“Don’t worry, I’ll protect you. I’m taking you out to school. I’m sorry.
“Is it the outside world?” “Snow leans on his head and laughs.
Snow’s getting more and more like a mother, and I’m a little confused, and she tells me I’m going to the outside world…
I can’t believe the herbs I picked are really selling some money, but I can see that Dad’s excited. I’m sorry.
Snow is also pleased that we are starting to run up the mountain more often.
I realized it was wrong, one night.
That night, when I remembered there were suntan herbs in the yard, I went up to collect them, and I saw a man lying in front of the kitchen.
Take a closer look, a time of thunder!
Our father was watching Snow in the shower.
I’ll punch him if I want to! Shame on you!
“Dad, what are you doing?”
I strangled my hand, tried to tell myself, calm down! We’ll have enough money to get out of here.
He’s not comfortable, “Cough, nothing, see if there’s a rat. I’m sorry.
Damn it! I should have known! Dad hasn’t been to the dark house lately. I should’ve found out.
“Back up, we’re leaving today! “I keep my voice down.
“Going? I’m sorry.
“Yeah, don’t take too much, pick up the big ones, put them in the herbal basket. I’m sorry.
I used to go to the village with my sister to sell herbs, so there was no suspicion.
Out of the village, by the way, out of the county and into the city, everything went well.
I can’t believe we got out so easily, standing on the luxurious streets.
The sun in the streets was too warm, I cried and I held my sister, afraid it was a dream.
Looking for a job, renting a house, making better money out there than in the village, and starving.
I work at a small restaurant, and the boss is very nice, and I often ask me to bring back the rest of the food for my sister.
Men are equal to women, and people are polite and don’t swear.
“I’m sorry” “thank you” but these words, which were only read in the book, are used here to make people talk.
I saw what Mom said about the playground, and there were lots of kids playing in the park.
They laugh so much, they laugh at them, they laugh at them, they keep them safe.
I’m saving up. I want to take my sister in.
On the way back, I bought a chicken leg. Snow, this moo cat likes chicken leg.
There are 10 days to go to school, and I don’t know what it looks like in college, a little tension, a little expectation.
The rental door was open, I went in, Yuki wasn’t there anymore.
He ran out and asked a lot of people who said they didn’t know.
No one’s home.
I’ve just smelled a little sunshine.
I was sitting at the stairwell, empty head, hoping that Yuki would just go out and come back.
Wait, wait, wait, wait.
Don’t wait. Your father took her home. I’m sorry.
I looked at him, “How did he know I was here? I’m sorry.
The dog’s balls are a little bit too hard to shoot me.
“From your car to the county, someone told your father, or did you think you could bring your sister out? You don’t want to think, when did a woman come out of the mountain? I’m sorry.
When I didn’t say anything, he comforted me.
“Your dad must mean your sister selling money, who doesn’t sell it, and I can still be nice to her. I’m sorry.
“You’ll be a little more generous after you’ve taken the university. I’ll pay you to go to college. Give me your sister. I’m sorry.
“Think about it. I’m sorry.
“The mother-in-law is capable. Don’t think about it. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
I touch the chicken leg, it’s cold, I bite, I taste nothing.
I went back to the village, Dad didn’t hit me, and he looked at me laughing, laughing, laughing at me being so incompetent.
I asked his sister what happened? He pointed in the house.
Push the door in, and when it rings, I hear my sister sobbing.
“Where did he hit you? I’m sorry.
Brother… heard my voice, and Yuki came to hold me crying.
“I didn’t go anywhere, I sat in the house and I was playing, and somebody knocked, and I ran over and asked who, and nobody answered, and I pushed the door. Just opened the door, Dad slapped me, hit me on the head, brought a bunch of people and dragged me in. When I cried, they hit me, slapped me, kicked me in the stomach, pulled my hair and then came home. I’m sorry.
“Father said if I don’t do what I say, I’ll be thrown in the dark room. I’m sorry.
Brother, Brother Dog Eggs says I’m already his daughter-in-law. I’m sorry.
I stung her head.
“What are you thinking? How old are you? She’s a year older than you, and she’s still in school. I’m sorry.
“Is it Xiaohing? She said she was going to junior high, and she gave me a brush. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Calm Snow down, I’m coming out.
“I’m going to school with Yuki. I’m sorry.
“No, she has to wait for me at home. I’m sorry.
“I’ll take her out, work together, send you money every month. I’m sorry.
Dad laughed, his eyes looked at me.
“You go on your own. She’s gone out for a long time and she won’t come back. Besides, I’ve already taken the Zhang family’s money, and she’ll be one of the Zhang family’s. I’m sorry.
“She’s your daughter. You sold her? I’m sorry.
“Who lets her be a girl? I’ve raised her for years. I’m sorry.
I kneel down and beg him, “Wait two more years, no, just one more year, I promise you a lot of money.” I’m sorry.
Grandma’s gonna pull me up.
“What are you doing, Ming? Your father’s doing this for you. You can’t fool around with a girl. I’m sorry.
“What are you doing? Get up! I’m sorry.
He pulled me out and said he wanted to talk.
“My son, I know you can’t look at me when you’re little, and I can’t look at you, acting like you’re owed to everyone.” I’m sorry.
I looked at him, he smiled and said,
“I also know that the village is not a good thing, but you can’t be ungrateful when you’re bleeding and you grow up eating them! I’m sorry.
“Your father is never going to let you take your sister out, nor will the villagers. I really like your sister. We grew up together and I’ll be nice to her. I’m sorry.
He said a lot. I don’t remember much.
He was standing on the hillside, and his foot slipped, and he fell, and I stretched out my hand.
At the moment I reached out, I thought, “If he was gone, wouldn’t my sister have to marry?”
I hesitated, and he fell down and his head fell on a rock.
I was in a coma.
The egg didn’t die, the concussion broke a leg.
The Zhang family asked my sister to take care of him on account of my father’s bride price.
Dad agreed. I disagree.
And my sister said to me, “Brother, I’m willing to take care of Brother Dog Egg. I’m sorry.
I frown, “You can’t go. I’m sorry.
“Boy, he’s really nice to me. He sneaked me up when my grandma didn’t give me food, and he protected me the last time my dad beat me. I’m sorry.
“You’re going to school, you’re too young now. I’m sorry.
Snow’s head down. “Look at the girl in the village. Who’s going to school? Dad won’t let me go. I’m sorry.
“Don’t worry about it, I’ll take care of it…”
Brother! Snow interrupted me by saying, “I think it’s clear to me that women are married to someone who is not. Brother Dog Egg is nice to me and I’m willing to marry him. I’m sorry.
I didn’t know how to react.
I don’t understand.
“Why? Will you stay here? You saw the outside world. How can you stand to stay here? You see how wonderful it is out there with chicken legs and playgrounds, and you go out like Xiaohing’s sister, you can read, get a good education and meet a better person.”
Snow, keep your head down and shut up.
I heard her.
“I’m sorry, I know you’ve always wanted life outside the mountain, and you want to take me out; but I’m not you, I’m a coward. I was really scared out there for a few days, the road was so long, the house was so big and there were so many people I didn’t know. I think home, I think it’s safe here. I know all the people in the village, and if someone bullys me, you and Brother Dog Egg will protect me. I love being here. I’m sorry.
Those words broke my faith like a bullet.
I’ve been insisting like a joke.
I’m taking her out of this filthy place, but she says she likes it here?
So, the problem is that I’ve always been alone?
I was born here, and I hate it, and I don’t want to run from it. Am I wrong?
I don’t know how I got out of my room. I was sitting in the dark room when I reacted.
The mother was lying on the ground without chains. She had no idea she was running away. She had gone crazy years ago.
It’s just that someone comes in, and they’re just gonna stick their heads together.
I filmed her, “Good boy, don’t worry. I’m sorry.
“Mom, do you miss home?”
No response.
“Do you want to go out? I’m sorry.
Still no response.
And I held her, “It’s okay. I’ll tell you a story. I saw the world you were talking about.”
I went to see the eggs, he was lying in bed, and Yuki was sitting next to him.
He’s got a plaster on his head and a smile on his leg.
My sister saw me, and she got up and stood up and looked away.
I was snorting at her head, like before, “No, you don’t like it outside, so go. I’m sorry.
“I warn you, take care of my sister.” Look at this kid’s face!
“That is for sure! Don’t worry!”
I went to college, I met a lot of people, I learned a lot, I tried to see what Mom told me.
Sitting on the hills of the landscape, looking down at the grass slopes, just like when I was a kid.
The mountains are not high, they are not high, they sit and watch, and suddenly there is an urge to jump.
Scrambling, the girl on the side, holding me, “Be safe! Are you okay?”
I come back, white skin, big eyes, like a sister.
“Thank you!”
The other side returned to me with a bright smile and turned around.
She travels with a group of good friends and laughs, is free and happy, and is alive and free.
Once upon a time, I also wanted my sister to live in this way, independent and free, without needing to be dependent on others and without being humbled.
I thought it was my hard-working goal, but it was only my will.
I’m the only one out of line.
Mother was born out there and couldn’t bear the dirt in the village, so she had to run away.
Dog eggs and sister were born in the village, used to everything there and even liked and depended on it.
It’s just me, born, and hate.
I thought we could get out of it if we were far away, but we walked on the edge of pain every day.
I knew there was trafficking in women every day, but there was nothing I could do.
The more I learn the law, the more I understand and the more I suffer, the less I can ignore these ugly acts and the less I can accept my existence as the product of these evils.
I shouldn’t be alive. My birth was a mistake.
I tried to do something.
Reports of human trafficking, numerous letters of reporting, have fallen to the sea.
Contacts with social forces were suppressed and red paint warning was thrown on the door.
I do not know the size of the chain of interest behind it, as if I had done everything I could to shake it.
Disappointment, despair, I’m losing it.
If it hadn’t been for that girl, I would have jumped.
All the restrictions in the village are for women, and I have no barriers to access by myself.
It’s like it’s been very slow here for years. It hasn’t changed a bit.
I walked into the house and ran into my dad. I’m sorry.
I don’t want to talk to him, “Come back and see. I’m sorry.
It was only then that I realized that I had been so much higher than him, that I was a bit faint, and I was afraid of him when I was little, and he was so tall, and he kicked me out of the way.
When did I stop being so afraid of him? When I was stronger than him? Or when he took the money from me? I can’t remember.
I looked inside and I didn’t see my sister.
“Uncle Zhang, where are the balls?” And Uncle Zhang stopped seeing me back.
“It’s Ming’s son who’s back. I’m sorry.
“It’s gone. When was it? Why didn’t anyone tell me? I’m sorry.
It’s too sudden. Dog balls are always strong and I’m a little relieved when he looks after my sister.
“Hey, it’s not very long since you’re not listening to me. You don’t have to pick up food at night. Too bad it’s been so long since Zhang’s family was born. I’m sorry.
Uncle Zhang is not sad, and he is busy watching if he can find another daughter-in-law to pass on the fire to their families.
“My son, it’s not easy to pay us back the money your father collected before your sister married us…”
I interrupted him. “Did you see my sister? I’m sorry.
Uncle Zhang whispered, “Isn’t he at your house?” I’m sorry.
I shook my head, “I don’t know where I went. I’m sorry.
Uncle Cheung hesitated, “Your mother didn’t last month either, you know? I’m sorry.
My mother’s gone? Impossible! I just saw her!
Looks like Uncle Zhang’s lying to me!
Mom’s gone, who’s that little black house who could it be?
I fell and ran back.
Ming, what’s the hurry? I’m sorry.
I pushed Grandma, “Where’s my mother?” I’m sorry.
Grandma threw up and threw up, “What do you care? I’m sorry.
I held her arm tight, “I ask you! Where’s my mother?” I’m sorry.
“Oh, I’m sorry about her. Your father was drunk that night. If she bites, your father will be killed.
So, Mom is really gone.
I moved step by step to the door, and some were afraid to push the door.
When the door rang, the people inside began to shrink, accompanied by a slight sobbing.
I shivered her hair, it was Snow’s face.
“Aah-aah.”
Blood pours into the throat.
I was staring at her.
I don’t want to believe that now I’m lying here, wearing a broken shirt, with bruises and a shivering “man” that I’ve been protecting since I was a kid.
I want to kill!
The knife was a bit blunt until when it pierced his stomach, and a slight twilight felt passed on to my hand.
I stabbed my father…
It’s chaos, Grandma’s roar, uncle’s tugging, all mixed up.
I’m locked in the black house, chained to my feet, like a mother and a sister.
It’s so dark in here, the windows are nailed to death, there’s no sunlight, even the air smells of decay.
I crawled over there, hugged with the snow, quenched gently, I held my mother that year.
“Sweet Snow, the bad guys are driven away. Don’t worry. I’m sorry.
Mom’s been in this place for years. How did she get through it?
After some time, Snow finally stopped shaking and cried.
“What took you so long?”
I held her in my arms, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m late, I’m sorry.”
Yuki said it wasn’t an accident.
Dad used to get in the way of me and the balls. He didn’t dare.
That day, he drank and touched her room in an attempt to misbehave.
The eggs came back to feed her, and they ran into her.
The two of them pushed the dog’s egg down, and his head fell on the corner and he bled.
She was crying and she was locked in a black house and her dog’s egg was thrown off the hill and she fell on her own as a roller.
And then she was locked up…
Brother, do you know how Mom died? “The snow’s murky saying.
“Mother never spoke to me. I’ve been like this since I remembered. She never seemed to have us. I’ve seen other abducted women, who change when they have children and stop trying to run, cook, wash and laugh at them. I’m sorry.
“Mother never smiled at me. I’m sorry.
I held her hand, Snow…
“Do you know how she died? And that night… that night, she fell on me like she was awake, and she was protecting me, and he couldn’t let go until he died. I’m sorry.
Snow touched my face, and I realized that I was already crying.
She whispered, “My mother was killed alive. I’m sorry.
A few days later, I was released.
The knife missed, didn’t stab the bastard.
Grandma says I’m the only man in the old Lee’s family who wants me to pass on the fire.
I heard a laugh. What kind of place is this? Ignoring the law, not in love, but in love? Is there a need to inherit such a dirty, shitty gene? How ridiculous.
The abduction of women from all parts of the country for men to give away their lives, as if they were raising livestock.
Even natural children are no exception.
Isn’t this really hell?
If God had eyes, why didn’t he ruin this place?
I was allowed to walk in the village and I was watched.
I hear people whispering to me about crazy people, yeah, I’m crazy. Every minute of life makes me suffer. My brain keeps telling me that my blood is dirty.
Dad was lying in bed and staring at me.
Grandma was there to try and calm the mood, “The son of Ming is wrong, he missed it, the young man is desperate, he must have regretted it. I’m sorry.
I laughed and said, “Of course I regret, I regret not having stabbed you to death. I’m sorry.
“Ahem. He’s got a red face. How do I raise such a thing?
“Put Snow out. I’m sorry.
“Huh! I’m sorry.
So I came over and said in his ear: “If Uncle Cheung knew how he died, would he fight you?” I’m sorry.
“I’m your father! I’m sorry.
I looked at his wound and didn’t talk.
Snow lays in the house all day and doesn’t go out.
I was with her.
“Brother, tell me more about the school. I’m sorry.
She finally smiled and said more.
Brother, Brother Dog Egg is really nice to me. I told him that the girl in town wasn’t getting married that early, and he waited for me to marry me when I wanted to; I liked to eat chicken legs, and he brought me one every time he came back to collect food; and when someone in the village made a joke, he yelled back at me.”
“I’ve actually had a good time these years. I’m sorry.
“Of course I miss you. You must be a great man and find me a good sister-in-law. I’m sorry.
“I know, I’m the best man in the world. I’m sorry.
Snow jumped into the river right where the dog’s eggs were thrown.
It’s full of blood, like it’s going to bleed out.
His head was crushed and his mouth was smiling.
Villagers look afraid, they all go far away.
And I laughed, and I took her home, and I said, “Why are you so naughty? I’m sorry.
Clean it up, dry it, disinfect it, take it easy, Snow is afraid of pain.
Grandma looked at me at the door and looked scared and treated Yuki.
I looked at her and said, “Grandma, Yuki’s hungry. You’ll cook her some congee. I’m sorry.
Grandma’s running out of town.
“Crazy…crazy…”
I found a letter that Yuki left for me and put it under my pillow with a photo.
In the picture, a young man with a lively and lovely girl smiled.
It’s the first time we’ve ever been out of the house.
“Do not feel sorry for me, brother, for me it is a relief. I’m sorry I’m still so scared. I’m too hard to live. I don’t have the courage. I miss Brother Pooch. I’m going to find him and tell him I’m ready to be his bride. I’m sorry.
“Big brother, you have to live your life. Get out of here. In 80 years, I’ll pick you up with my mother. Until then, you can’t come to us before you get lost. I’m sorry.
After Yuki was buried, I locked myself in the dark room.
Lie in the place where my mother and sister slept as if they were still with me.
There’s a finger mark on the board, deep in the mother, shallow in the sister.
I’m a useless person, growing up to the point where I can’t protect anyone.
I can’t even protect myself anymore.
But there is no need.
The door was suddenly opened and the light was so strong that I couldn’t open my eyes.
Dad dragged me out.
“I’ll find you a daughter-in-law, and you’ll give us the family of Lee. I don’t care what you want. I’m sorry.
And I covered my eyes with my hand, and I stayed in the dark too long, and some of them didn’t fit in the light.
I didn’t respond. He kicked me. “What a loser! I’m sorry.
A few days later, I opened the door myself.
“I agree. I’m sorry.
Dad and Grandma are happy to welcome them.
“I’ll pick it myself. I’m sorry.
Dad paused and Grandma pushed him, “You’ll do what you want.” I’m sorry.
For the first time, I came to this place, and I saw the “Bitch of the Mountain”.
It’s like coming to the slaughterhouse, a lot of cages, with “goods” waiting to be picked.
It’s quiet, there’s no cry, like an animal already tamed.
Far away, Dad’s negotiating.
I want to kill them.
I keep my head down, count the numbers, figure it out.
Suddenly, a girl grabbed my pants and feet, whispering, “Help me, please! I’m sorry.
I looked at her and found out she was looking at me.
“I’ve chosen, that’s it. I pointed to her.
Dad’s gonna lock her up in the dark room. I didn’t let her.
He’s afraid to hit me now, he just spits at me.
“Better give her a son sooner, or else…”
I looked at him and didn’t dare say it. It seemed that the knife scared his guts.
He and Grandma are away from me.
If I’d known that, I should’ve stabbed earlier.
I pushed the door open, walked in, the girl shrunk in the corner.
“Don’t be afraid, I won’t hurt you. I’m sorry.
After a while, she saw that I had no other move to relax.
“What are you doing?” She asked.
I looked at her, “You’ll be home soon. I’m sorry.
She was a little surprised. “You’re gonna let me go? I’m sorry.
And I stopped, and I thought about it, and I said to her, “I will set everyone free.” I’m sorry.
Good time.
She said, “You are not like those who are here. I’m sorry.
Is that a compliment? Mother said not to be like them.
I thought about what I’d do next. No, the blood I’d never get cleaned up. I’m sorry.
For days, I stayed in the house and she sat quietly.
“Who is this?” She asked me with a photo.
“…my sister. I’m sorry.
“Why haven’t you seen her? I’m sorry.
I didn’t respond. She’s not asking anymore.
“Did you read? I’m sorry.
“Hmm. I’m sorry.
“I also feel like you should be educated, unlike those people. I’m sorry.
“Don’t you wonder how I was sold? I’m sorry.
It’s almost done. I stood up and looked at her, “No wonder. I’m sorry.
“Wait a minute. “I have something to tell you. I’m sorry.
“We’ll talk when I get back. I’m sorry.
“No!” She pulled me in the eye, “You’ve read, you know how to fix it, you can’t rush!” I’m sorry.
“Some things can’t be solved. I’m sorry.
She suffocated, looked around, pulled me to the corner, whispered:
“Don’t be impulsive. I’m actually an undercover agent sent by the police. We’ve been watching this place for a long time, and we’ll figure it out. I’m sorry.
She’s not surprised to see me, she’s not looking at me. Do you know? I’m sorry.
After that, look around with vigilance.
“Don’t worry, no one knows who you are. I don’t know, I just feel different. You’re not as scared as everybody else, um, though it seems. I’m sorry.
She’s a little relieved, “You’ve never asked me if I’d stop you from poisoning? I’m sorry.
I said, “Will you stop me?” I’m sorry.
“I am…”
“My mother was also abducted. It’s hard for you to be in a cage, but it’s less than a thousand of her. Do you know how women live here? A dark, dark, dark house, possibly a pig’s ring, a livestock shed, chained to the feet, where people can abuse and scold night and day, without any dignity, no dignity, too luxurious to survive. I’m sorry.
“They will not spare even their own children, their daughters, who will be born to be thrown away, fortunately grown up or sold, or to repeat their mother’s path; sons, if they do not listen, can be locked up and given medicine to force them to grow like cats and dogs. I’m sorry.
“Do you think a place like this should not be destroyed? I’m sorry.
She’s silent.
“You shouldn’t have paid for them. There will be a law against them. I’m sorry.
I laughed, “The law? Does it work? I haven’t tried it! Where were you? Why didn’t you save them? I’m sorry.
“…the power behind this case is too complex, we can’t panic. Now, there’s already a task force on it. We’ve got a lot of information. You believe me, it’ll be over soon.”
“I can’t wait, I can’t believe you guys. I’ll do it my way. I’m sorry.
I feel like I’m on the verge of collapse. Destroy it all!
I threw her away and went out.
All of a sudden it’s black.
Before I fainted, I heard her say, “Sorry, I can’t let you sabotage the plan…”
Wake up and find your hands and feet tied.
“Does the police kidnap people? I laughed at her and said:
She smiled with regret: “I’m sorry, it’s urgent, people are dying, I can’t watch you kill.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t answer, she added.
“You’re too impulsive. We’ve been staring at that spot for a long time, and we haven’t been able to figure out their route. They’ll be in trouble if they get hurt. I’m sorry.
We asked her, “Will you take care of them? I’m sorry.
“Of course! The order for death was issued and the determination to combat trafficking was great. I’m sorry.
I looked at Snow’s picture and whispered, “I can help you.” I’m sorry.
She swooped, “What?”
I turned my head and looked at her, “I know the terrain in the mountains, I can help you. I’m sorry.
I took her around the hill.
“Can they find it?”
“Don’t worry, I have a locator on me. I’m sorry.
I was surprised to see her and I didn’t find her.
She laughed, “I’m implanted, they can’t find it. I’m sorry.
We were down behind the rocks waiting for reinforcements.
“What happens when they get caught? I’m sorry.
“Punishment by law. I’m sorry.
“Where are their children? I’m sorry.
“The child is innocent. I’m sorry.
“But they are the children of traffickers, their blood is dirty…”
She looked at me and she said to me:
“No one can choose their birth, but they can choose who they are. It’s not their fault they were born in such a family. I’m sorry.
It’s not my fault.
“What we need to do is to be educated and guided so that the next generation gets better. I’m sorry.
They’re well-informed. They’ve come to report without waiting.
Get ready to move.
We’ll be right behind you.
“Who is there! Come out!”
Found out.
“Come on out, or I’ll shoot! I’m sorry.
They actually have guns.
I stuck her in the bush and walked out on my own.
“It’s me.”
I explained that I came out and walked away by accident.
They apparently did not believe it, tied my hand and put it with the women who had been abducted.
I looked back with concern, hoping she wouldn’t be caught.
Cops come faster than they thought.
For the first time, I knew that if they wanted to, they could be solved, even if they were armed.
The “Mountas” were finally caught.
Someone wants to break the net and shoots people with a rifle.
I jumped in front of them.
It didn’t hurt. I watched the blood flow, and I remembered what my sister said was a relief.
Out of this filthy blood, I can finally escape the shackles of fate.
I’m not dead. They took me to the hospital in time to save me.
The mountain, which has been covered by darkness for many years, has finally opened a light.
I had a long rest.
Then I chose to go back to the mountains and become a teacher.
The police can root out evil men, but they can’t get rid of ignorance.
We can save a life.
The policewoman was right. Only education could change everything.
It is even harder for those who have seen the light to endure it; it is only when the light is greater that it will be over.
I am ready to be a paving stone for them to go to light.
Document number: YX11MrJQMol
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
