My family has money, I don’t study, I use all my mind to dress up, chase stars and jump out.
I’ll never get into college and my parents will try to send me abroad.
So what about the good students? Maybe you’ll come and work for me!
These ideas were before, until I was humiliated by the schoolhouse…
01
My boyfriend and I were found in love.
The teacher invited his parents, and the boyfriend’s mother was an output to me.
This skinny middle-aged woman is standing right in front of me right now, with his mouth blown off:
“You’re not old enough to seduce a man!” We’re going to go to Qinghua!
“You’re nothing, you don’t pee and look at yourself, and you’re going to go to the factory again.”
“Can you afford to delay him? I’m sorry.
I rubbed her saliva on my face and turned my head to see my boyfriend Jiang Shuhua.
He bowed his head from my sight, and said nothing.
My mother was angry:
“What are you talking about? It’s amazing. Maybe he’s a nerd! I’m sorry.
Jiang Shuhua’s mother sounds even more exciting.
“It’s better than six of your girls add up to 100. I’ll take care of it! I’m sorry.
She said she was going to slap me in the face and my mom cut me off.
Two women swung together and the scene went into chaos.
At that moment, the door was suddenly pushed.
Quintin, a student, walked in with a roll and couldn’t seem to look this way.
She was shared at a parent’s meeting as the first grader and was recognized by Jiang Shuhua’s mother.
When she came in, she got more angry, biting her teeth and saying:
“My son is looking for you and he’s not looking for your family! My son’s looking for first grade! I’m sorry.
I saw Qiu-Ting with a slight red face and a peek at Jiang Shuhua.
Jiang Shuhua looked up and looked at her again quickly.
I don’t know.
The final farce was declared closed on 50 boards each by the headmaster.
Jiang Shuhua has done well, but I have money in my family, and I don’t give gifts to the class master.
I’m sorry to say that, but I just said:
“Students are still studying, Joe, and you’re going to learn. I’m sorry.
I can tell that the teacher is still looking for Jiang Shuhua.
After all, who would have thought it was me who dragged Jiang Shuhua to the end of the grade and to the second grade?
I snagged.
“know the teacher. I’m sorry.
The teacher gave us half a day off and said we should go back and calm down.
My mother led me out of the school. She didn’t accuse me anymore.
I looked at her face with blood scratched by her mother Jiang Shuhua and her heart was sore.
I humiliated her.
Because of my poor grades, she put me in the center of high school, giving gifts to teachers and inviting them to eat, asking them to look after me.
I was the tail of the crane, and she didn’t even have the guts to argue with anyone.
Because someone else’s son is second grade and I’m last grade.
Who else would think it was my fault.
Others say she can’t educate her children, but she can’t rebut a proud person.
“Mom…”
I walked up, opened my mouth and didn’t know what to say.
My mother looked back and looked at me, and she was a little tired.
After a half an hour, she had a red eye.
“Why don’t you just cheer Mom up? I’m sorry.
At this moment, I finally understand what heartache is.
How strong my mother is. I’ve lived for over a decade and I haven’t seen her cry.
However, she is now crying because of the abuse of her daughter, who has no reason to cry back.
I feel like I’ve been squeezed by a hand, and I’m in pain.
At this moment, I feel like I’m starting to know something.
I told myself I was gonna cheer my mom.
I’m going to fucking Qinghua!
02
That night, Jiang Shuhua broke up with me.
In his tweets, he said that he had been thinking these days that students should really focus on their studies, hoping that we could finish our exams and talk about something else.
I didn’t hate him.
After all, he’s done so well and has been aiming at Qinghua, and I understand that he does not want to delay his studies.
But I didn’t think it would be a few days before Jiang Shuhua announced it to him.
In the circle of friends, I saw him and Qiu Ting synchronized a photo of him holding hands in the library.
It says, “It’s better to be with the right people.” I’m sorry.
Here’s the blessing of the water.
“First and second grade, I admire! I’m sorry.
“How smart is the child born, IQ 180? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
That’s a very good picture, and the sun came out of the window and spilled it on a pair of fingers.
The girl’s hand is so white and elegant, like Jiang Shuhua’s.
He told me many times that my manicures were too luxurious to look good.
Yeah, he’s always liked people like Quintine.
Good-looking, straight-haired black hair, not to mention the cleanness, but always leading the way.
And I’m just the last thing I can do.
I held the handler’s hand shiver a little, and then I understood what Jiang Shuhua meant.
Focusing on learning is just an excuse to break up with me.
However, he was not even willing to let that excuse go, and could not wait a few days for such a circle of friends to break up without giving me any thought.
Yeah, well, what a wonderful love between schoolboys.
They’ll go to Qinghua and have a good future.
And I’m just a piece of crap that everyone thinks is out of line in this love!
I picked up my phone to call Jiang Shuhua.
It took him a long time to pick up the phone.
I tried to scold him for his bloody head, but one mouth and my voice started to tighten.
“Jang Shuhua, what do you mean? * I choked * I’m sorry.
Jiang Shuhua was silent for a while and then whispered:
“I’m sorry, Joe. I can’t help it.
“We’re not from the same side. She’s not like you. I’m sorry.
“What about me? * I’m tearing my heart apart * Am I not good enough for you?”
“I’m sorry, Jiang Shuhua’s voice is slow and determined, “You may be pathetic, but I can’t. I’m sorry.
There’s a blurry female voice in the microphone. It’s Quintine’s voice.
I found a book…
Jiang Shuhua’s voice is a bit confused: “Please don’t contact me anymore.” I’m sorry.
Said he hung up.
My eyes are gradually blurry, and the tears of sour eyes are flowing out of control.
At this moment, I feel I’m not just being trampled on by feelings.
And my dignity.
I was kicked by a loser for being worthless.
And that’s all because of my bad grades.
Being with me will affect learning, not with Quintine.
What am I? I’m a no-go asshole.
I cried all night, and the next morning I woke up and my eyes were almost swollen.
It’s not that hard in my life.
However, a piece of Mars fell into my heart and lit a fire.
I want to learn!
I’m gonna make those who despise me regret it, I’m gonna make myself feel better!
03
It’s easy to learn, but it’s too hard to do.
I’ve been a freshman for a year, and I haven’t studied since.
I used all my thoughts to dress up, chase the stars and jump out.
I really think it’s pointless to learn.
My family has money, and my parents will find a way to send me abroad.
Why do I have to study so hard?
One and a half years in high school, I haven’t done a single job, either to give a white paper or to pull a few of them, and to stay in the third last grade.
I’ve been thinking about it for half a day, and I’ve decided to start with the first one.
But as soon as I open the book, I know all the words and it’s like a book.
I forced myself to look at it for ten minutes and I couldn’t see it anymore. I couldn’t stop thinking about Venus.
It’s hard. It’s really hard.
You don’t have to think so much when you’re looking at Jiang Shuhua
I’m starting to get out of my mind.
Anyway, I have money, so what if they take Qinghua?
Just as I was about to drop my book, my mom knocked in.
She had a bowl of fruit in her hands and her face was full of confusion.
Like, you’re learning.
My mother’s face quickly got scared and she seemed to laugh and rubbed her hands with the fruit on my desk.
“Hey, is Mom bothering you? I’m sorry.
She went out in a hurry and gently took the door and made no sound.
I looked at the fruit on the table.
It’s grapes, cut off, washed with flour several times, clean and clean, none of them.
Every day before, my mom would do that.
She’s afraid the nanny doesn’t wash the fruit, I don’t like to cook, and she’s waiting for me.
My mother’s face keeps appearing in front of my eyes, and I’ll say in a moment, “Give my mother a breath.” I’m sorry.
In a moment I’m disturbed by the fear of learning.
I squeezed the pen in my hand and turned the book on it.
Shit, let’s see it for a while.
I don’t know.
Learning is really painful, but after that hard start, it seems that there is less graft in the back.
Even when I was reading history books, I saw a taste.
I went to see a soldier with my mother, but what did King Qin do after Xiaoqiao?
I didn’t think it was such a big deal.
I’ve never taken any notes before, and the book is full of drawings from people in classes.
I put two beards on Qin’s portrait and changed his hair.
It was to take time away, but it was somewhat uncomfortable to look at it carefully.
I’ve been looking over the history books, and I’ve forgotten when I fell asleep.
The next day when the alarm went off, I found myself sleeping on the table.
There’s still a page on his face.
I look at myself in the mirror and it’s kind of weird.
I can’t believe that one day I can read and fall asleep.
My mom treats me so well when she tells me to eat.
“Eat more and learn more! I’m sorry.
“My girl is smart enough to learn more than that little bastard! We’ll take Qinghua too! I’m sorry.
I look at the chicken legs in the bowl, and I’m in the middle of it.
My mom was always so confident in me.
Her daughter is a piece of shit and she thinks it’s the best shit in the world.
I learned a little and she was so happy.
That’s so satisfying.
I looked my mom in the eye.
Tonight I’ll learn a little more.
04
When I came to school in the morning, I ran into Quintine.
My little sisters come around and ask me where I’m going tonight.
“Hey, Joe, there’s a new bar on Nanking Road. I heard a lot of handsome guys walk at night? I’m sorry.
Quintine passed by, swiped our eyes.
She didn’t talk, she didn’t even change her face, and I saw in that look a lot.
It’s a kind of contempt, like seeing something dirty.
In her eyes, we seem to be a pile of junk, a piece of shit with her.
It actually seems to be.
Where she is, both her classmates and her teachers are acclaimed.
And people like me, they say:
“That bastard. I’m sorry.
“Joe, speak up. I’ll take you tonight. Why aren’t you wearing makeup today? I’m sorry.
I looked back and looked at my sisters in tight pants, and their faces were tanned.
That’s why I’m so surprised that I’ve forgotten my makeup this morning.
I don’t know why, but I suddenly feel a little uncomfortable looking at their beautiful faces.
“I’m not going. I’m having a night. I’m sorry.
I don’t mean to say I’m going back to school tonight. They’re gonna laugh at me.
“Che, what is it, boring. I’m sorry.
They couldn’t talk to me, and then they turned around.
I looked at the back of Quintine, and she was swinging around with Jiang Shuhua, who was not far away.
Jiang Shuhua touched her head with a smile across her face.
The two of them look like a couple.
I’m standing in the middle of nowhere.
They were in love, and the teacher never called his parents.
I’m told it’s Chou-Ting and the chief of the class who took the order.
So tomorrow morning’s love is not allowed, but they can be so reckless.
Yeah, well, how does it affect your studies when you’re in first and second grade?
They’re made for each other, and it seems that everyone agrees.
Not far away, she said something to Jiang Shuhua, who looked at me without a trace, and the smile disappeared.
In his eyes is the same contempt as Quintine.
I’d like to go up there and slap him, but I know the consequences.
I’m just staring at their backs until they’re gone.
05
The first lesson today is history.
I was just as bad in literature as I was when Jiang Shuhua chose history, politics and biology.
So we can all sit together when we’re in class.
Only now I know why Jiang Shuhua chose these three classes.
I looked at Quintine in the front, and the teacher was bending over and saying something to her.
He chose the same class because she chose them.
Maybe he already liked Quintine.
I didn’t say anything. I turned on the books I read yesterday.
It is also a coincidence that recently we are reviewing the history of the first year, and what we are talking about is the section I saw last night.
I didn’t listen at all in my class. I played on my phone, read novels, passed on notes, chatting.
I don’t think so.
Today, however, I look at Jiang Shuhua and Choo-Ting to learn, and I can’t even pull out my phone in my pocket.
I turned on my books and forced myself to sink.
Yesterday I looked myself up, but it was strangely different than before that I could hear it when I was teaching.
Before that, he spoke like a scripture, and I only went to my left ear and went to sleep.
Now I can understand what he’s saying, and my brain is running with the teacher’s lectures.
I was even surprised to find out that after he had said this little thing, I could carry them all down!
I was getting excited, staring closely at the page, and even left Jiang Shuhua and Quintin behind.
I’m not a genius!
“This is the line, which begins from the beginning, and reverses the steps taken by the Qin Emperor to consolidate unity. I’m sorry.
Just as I was lying, the history teacher suddenly ordered Quintin: “From you.” I’m sorry.
Quintine stood up so much that he was left behind.
“Politically, the Central Government has a three-centre system, a decentralized system of territorial seals, a county system, stronger local control and central authority.
“Economic … uniformity in measurement and harmonization of currencies…”
I don’t know.
Her voice was so clear, she didn’t crack at all and her back was so fluent.
The teacher pushed the glasses and laughed with satisfaction: “Fine, next.” I’m sorry.
Some of the students in the back didn’t go that far. They forgot two sentences.
“I don’t know how to back off! Go back 10 times, and you can’t remember tomorrow, so you can stand and teach tomorrow. I’m sorry.
Next!
I slowly stood up.
The whole class is quiet.
Jiang Shuhua turned his head at me, and he looked so pale.
Quintine also looked at me and saw a sarcasm.
I know why they all react that way.
As the most stable of my age, I’ve never learned anything.
I used to pretend I couldn’t hear you, and the teacher was used to it.
Joe, you…
I took a deep breath as if I had not seen those eyes around me or watched or wondered, and I carried them down.
It’s been a while, but it’s been smooth.
The history teacher was surprised, and the tight eyebrows gradually eased.
A moment later, he showed a smile.
“Fine, very good, it’s a serious back.
“I’ll do it again. Good. Sit down. I’m sorry.
The fellow students were whispering, and the laughs on Quintine’s face were stiff, and I turned my head.
I felt a little hot on my face and sat down in a panic.
I think my ears are all red.
But I have a strange pleasure in mind.
It’s the first time I’ve been complimented by a teacher.
It’s really amazing how it feels to go to the bar with a handsome guy, to spend a lot of money with my parents, to buy me an expensive bag.
It’s kind of fun from the heart.
It’s like a flower in my heart, and I’m even a little shy because of the teacher’s certainty.
Almost immediately, I liked history.
I don’t want to be the tail of a crane anymore. At least I want to score higher!
06
When the bell rings, I realize the lesson is over.
Forty-five minutes, usually it’s a hell of a lot to me.
I have to count the seconds.
But why did today just blink? I haven’t learned enough!
I took a look at the textbooks, and they were covered with notes.
It doesn’t look like the other books.
I have in my heart a sense of satisfaction that I cannot say, and I wish I could fill all my books.
Quintin and Jiang Shuhua walked by me, and I didn’t care about them, just thinking about the work of history tonight.
That night, I went into the house and started my homework.
My mom was so scared, she tried to talk to me, I heard her laughter outside the house.
“Joe, have you seen it like learning? * Her voice is full of incredible surprises *
My dad was happy to say, “The kids are grown up and they understand. I’m sorry.
I can’t stop talking and I’m still making rolls.
I don’t know.
Soon after, I learned better and better.
The history teacher is a bit like an old cadre, always face-to-face, a bit serious.
But he didn’t flatter me.
He’s good at back-and-back questions, he’s good at his homework, he’s serious at school, and he’s gonna give me credit.
The more he exaggerates me, the more I learn, and even in other classes I go back to history.
I’m going home at night, and I’m going to clean up all the history books that I’m learning.
I’ve only been studying for an hour, but it’s changed dramatically since before.
Soon, next semester’s first monthly exam.
When I got the history paper, I took a look at the subject with confidence.
Most of these topics I’ve been through these days.
It’s not really hard, it doesn’t need any basis.
If you have a good brain, you can have a back.
I’m going to write it all out.
I don’t know.
But other disciplines are not that easy.
I’ve been studying history all these days, and I haven’t seen much in any of the other subjects, that is, in class.
These are more familiar than before, but I’m still not sure what the answer is.
I had no choice but to bite my teeth.
After all the exams, I started to get nervous.
For the first time, I’m serious about the paper.
How am I going to make it? Will it improve or will it continue to count down?
Does the history teacher know I’m disappointed? You must be laughing at me again.
All these thoughts are stung in my head, and I can’t learn anything, just waiting for my grades to go to trial.
Soon, the monthly exam will come up.
I can’t help but look at Quintine, who’s making a roll.
When it came to me, Quintine looked at the rolls and his brows were so tight.
She looked up and down for a few seconds, and it seemed incredible.
After a while, she passed me and dumped a roll on my desk.
For the first time in my life, I felt a sense of tension, picked up a roll with my eyes closed and opened it half a day later.
A huge red number came into my eye.
History, 92.
I was so shocked that my hands were shaking uncontrollably.
It’s hard for people who haven’t been a slag to understand the mood, and I’ve always had single digits, and I’ve been lucky to have more than 10.
This time I did it. 92?
Nine?
Is that what I did for Joe?
I couldn’t help but laugh and turn the paper over and over again.
I’ve never seen it before, but I’ve had a really bad base, and I haven’t finished my work.
The history teacher came in just as I was so angry.
The whole of Benton was quiet, and he went to the podium and coughed, without crap, and he came out with a roll.
“This is a tough one, but our classmates did well, I didn’t think so. I’m sorry.
“This time…” he took a list that said, “over 90 students have three students, Quintine 99 and Jiang Shuhua 98. I’m sorry.
And then the history teacher laughed, “There’s Joe. I’m sorry.
My heart was pounding.
“Joe-Yo’s studies have been very good and very smart lately. I’m sorry.
“George, 92 points, can’t be proud. I’m sorry.
All of you!
All the classmates looked up to me, whispered.
I see Jiang Shuhua’s eyes are complicated, and Qiu Ting is tan.
And in that moment, my mouth was opened beyond my control.
It’s hard to describe joy, it’s a sense of accomplishment, and my life’s worth seems to have risen at this moment!
In a moment, I turned from a scoundrel in my class to a scoundrel!
There’s only one door, but at least my efforts are working!
That’s why we all have to learn. That’s how it feels! Proud, self-sufficient, contented, all mixed together.
I forgot how I finished this class, and after it, a few girls sat around and talked to Qiu Ting.
In general, he has a natural kind of authority, with several followers.
It seems they’re trying to disgust me on purpose, and the volume of their voices is magnified.
“Some people can’t learn or use their brains, they can’t cheat, they can’t do anything. I’m sorry.
“It’s no use, it’s just a lie.” I’m sorry.
“Chou-Ting, you’re still good, 99, you’re good! How?
Quintine’s face looks better, smiles:
’99, ’cause it’s really wrong to be careless. You know me. I never study at home. I’m sorry.
“Someone else’s business has nothing to do with us. A smart guy can’t play with his life for a while. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.
She smiled and everyone around her laughed.
I held on to the rolls in my hand, and I felt like I was in a good mood!
I feel like the string in my head is burned.
I stood up and walked in front of Quintin.
My face should look bad. I scared Chou-Ting, and then I wrangled.
“Joe, why are you hitting people? I’m sorry.
“You bastards don’t study well, you’re the top two. I’m sorry.
I suppressed my heart’s anger:
“Chou-Ting, what did you just say? Say it again! I’m sorry.
“Don’t say good things twice! She looked at me with contempt.
“Whoever’s wrong and who’s right, Joe, sometimes I feel sorry for you, and I can only think of such a way to get my attention.” I’m sorry.
Her words were like a steel knife in my heart, and I was so angry that I was about to speak and my shoulder was pushed.
I didn’t stand up to the corner of the table behind me, and there was an acute pain in my waist.
Look up, it’s Jiang Shuhua.
He’s hugging Quintine and looking at me with his disapproval.
“Joe, what are you doing? CHOI-Ting and you aren’t in the same business. Don’t mess with your shit! I’m sorry.
I was so mad, I cried out, “She lied to me about cheating. Did you not hear?” I’m sorry.
Jiang Shuhua is a bit complicated.
“Joe, being smart is useless, and everyone knows what’s going on. I’m sorry.
“I advise you to stay on your feet. Don’t be smart. I’m sorry.
In that moment, a fire almost burned the whole of me.
My brain is blank and I can’t take a knife to kill the dog and the dog.
If you learn well, you can look down on others and shit on people!
That phrase came out of my mouth before I could react.
“What are you doing?
“I’m sure I’m ahead of you at the end of this time! I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
The class was quiet for a moment and then they laughed.
In particular, several people around Qiu Ting are laughing at each other.
“Joe, why don’t you be realistic? CHOI Ting is first grade, you’re above her? I’m sorry.
“It’s not a tax. Say it in your dreams. Ha ha ha ha ha! I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Even Chou Ting is happy.
“All right, Joe, I’ll do whatever you want to do. I’m sorry.
“If you fail to do so, shout out three words at the door of the school: “I am Joe as shit!” I’m sorry.
I’m so excited by the confidence and impatience in her eyes.
“All right! If I exceed you, you’ll bow before the school and apologize. I’m sorry.
“Whatever!”
She squint at me and said, “It’s ridiculous to insult yourself! I’m sorry.
I said, “Don’t pretend to be a pussy, don’t regret it!” I’m sorry.
Said I walked out of the classroom with a bag.
07
I’m sorry I just left school.
I can’t hold my head back, I can’t stand it, I can’t afford to beat them!
Why did you have to do it?
Well, a few months before the end of the year, how could I have surpassed Chou-Ting?
Stupid, stupid, stupid! I scold myself.
When I got home, I was worried about what to do.
I’d rather die if I went to school and yelled at my shit.
When I was in pain, my mother came and knocked:
“Just like you, come out! Your brother Yin is here! I’m sorry.
I was impatient with the saying, “What is this?
“Yin Shuyin”? I’m sorry.
I just stood up and scared my mom.
Don’t be rude to your brother Yin! Get out and talk to him. I’m sorry.
Great!
It’s so sleepy.
I ran out and pushed the door:
Brother Yin! You’re here!
Yin Yu-hyun is sitting on my couch.
The evening sun shined through his window, all over his long position, with a blurry gold patch, which seemed somewhat unrealistic.
When he heard the sound, he came across his face, a pair of peaches with a little eye and a little fragrance:
“Why don’t you call me that nerd today? I’m sorry.
I’m blushing!
Yin Shuyuan is the son of my mother’s best friend, and we’re the legend.
He has gone from primary school to high school, where he is less than a few years older than me, and has now begun his studies in Qinghua.
He had promised to go to the high school and ended up in Qinghua as a terrorist.
Such a person is not a human being, and it’s not a head, it’s a computer, and it’s scary to hear it.
I hate him when I’m a punk. He’s a good-looking, good-performing, good family.
As the sun in the sky shines upon me, and it makes me more lined up in mud.
But it’s different now!
I need him. I need him. I need him.
“Your brother Yin has been home for a while, and you haven’t seen him for a long time. I’m sorry.
I squeezed out a nice smile:
Yin, you’re back?
As if Yin had seen something dirty, he looked back with vigilance.
“Joe, what’s wrong with you? I’m sorry.
I smiled, and I used to say:
“Brother Yin, I remember you passed the 740. I’m sorry.
“Accordingly, it’s 739. “I don’t care what you think, I’m telling you to stop.” I’m sorry.
Damn it, I can’t find my girlfriend right now.
I pressed on the fire, and I said, “Yin, we’re young, too. Can you bear to see me go to college?” I’m sorry.
“Hold on. I’m sorry.
I just pretended I didn’t hear it.
“Brother Yin, can you give me a lesson? I’m sorry.
“Cutting lessons? I’m sorry.
Yin Shuyung finally had a look on his face, and he looked at me and said:
“Joe, you’re not possessed by something dirty, are you? I’m sorry.
I couldn’t bear it. I finally pulled my face off:
“You can’t fix it. Can’t I change my mind? I’m sorry.
“If you don’t give me a lesson, I’ll tell your mother! I’m sorry.
Yin Yusheng’s mother didn’t have a daughter. He was particularly fond of young girls.
If his mother knew he wouldn’t take me to school, she’d kill him alive.
It’s true, he’s got a hard-on.
“Joe-Joe, what is this moth? I’m sorry.
I grabbed his arm and said:
Brother, I want to test Qinghua! Please help me test Qinghua!
“My boyfriend dumped me for a schoolboy, and I bet they’re gonna beat them at the end! I’m sorry.
I thought Yin Yu-hyun would laugh at me like everyone else, and who knows he’s just surprised and he’s too upset to scratch his hair.
“Joe, have you lost your mind in love?
“What’s in it for me? I’m sorry.
“You’re not starting a business! I said, “I’ll give you all my money!” I’m sorry.
“I don’t have to do this if I’m counting on you, you know?” I’m sorry.
He’s mean, “I’ll beat you up! I’m sorry.
I’ve been thinking a little, and I understand why I don’t think I’m fantastic.
For a man-made computer like him, I’m afraid Qinghua is not a difficult thing.
I found the treasure!
I looked at him with my eyes open, and I looked at him, and I looked at him, and I said, “Okay, you hit me! I’m sorry.
08
It’s very efficient, and I’m about to start my class.
I’m curious, “Do you have to study? I’m sorry.
He picks out a sarcasm rad.
“I’ve got to learn a little bit more than a little more than a little more than two. I’m not gonna live. I’m sorry.
I’ve been out of my mouth and I’ve been having a headache.
I have a good memory. History, politics and something that’s nothing but a back-to-back learning thing, but it’s got to go blind with logic.
Yin Yue-hyun did not hesitate to make it right from the top.
“This question, you show me first.
“I’ll see how you’re doing. I’m sorry.
I look at it, it’s geometry.
I can’t even read the subject.
What a, b, c, my brain hurts.
“I won’t, brother. I’m sorry.
“No?” He frowns, “Where isn’t?” I’m sorry.
I was careful to say, “No place, no subject.” I’m sorry.
His face gradually became more serious, and he touched my head and thought for a while.
A moment later, he said, “Maybe you’re retarded, Joe. I mean, maybe you’re born with a mental problem. Did you check it out? I’m sorry.
“I’m going to tell your mother.” I’m sorry.
“Come on, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on. I’m sorry.
“Look here, this is a dot, one line to c dot…”
He drew a line on the book with a pen.
“So, what does this become? I’m sorry.
I’m looking at it, and I’m not sure it’s “The Pocket Triangle.” I’m sorry.
“Yes! Looks like you’re not retarded. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
I thought it would be a big deal for a genius like this, because for them, it is something that can be answered at first sight, and not so bent.
But I didn’t think he was really nuanced.
I’m going down on his own, and I’m really getting a little bit, and I’m still not getting it, but I’m going to open it up a little bit.
“So, what’s the answer to this question? Half a day later, he put down his pen and held his leg against my chair.
And I said, “How much is the image twice the shadow area?” I’m sorry.
“Bingo! I’m sorry.
And he pointed, “You’re a good brain, but you’re a bad foundation. You write down all the formulas in this book tonight, and I’ll check them tomorrow.” I’m sorry.
He stood up close to me and threatened to beat you to death! I’m sorry.
When I looked closer, I found his eyelashes very long.
It’s like a butterfly with wings.
How can someone be so good-looking and learn so well?
Which door did God close him?
He still hasn’t been in love.
As soon as I was wondering, Yin Yu-hyun stood up.
“Set Aunt Chang off tomorrow. Don’t go to late school. I’ll make it up to you. I’m sorry.
Says he left his book.
My mom knew he’d give me an extra lesson and came by to wipe his hands.
“I’m so sorry, I’m leaving. I’m sorry.
Yin Yu-shu tweet: “Aunt, my mother’s done it at home. I’ll come back next time, don’t send it.
“I’ll come tomorrow. I’m sorry.
My mother looked at the shadow of his departure until he disappeared in the elevator and said:
“Your brother Yin has come to teach you a lesson. I’m sorry.
I nod my head and I’m going to read it for a while.
That was an interesting solution. I’d like to check it again.
I don’t know.
I came to school early the next day.
I don’t understand that one thing, but I’d like to ask Yin Yu-sung and I’m afraid he’s going to scold me.
But I’m a little confused, and students like me never go to the office except to be called parents.
Will the teacher think I’m messing with you?
I hesitated to step into the office and the math teacher was drinking tea.
Mathematics teacher is a middle-aged man who usually smokes and drinks tea as his favorite.
I’m sorry I just wanted to go out and he found out.
Who are you looking for?
I spat my lips and whispered, “Teacher, I want to ask a question. I’m sorry.
I stand somewhat in place and say in my heart that a place such as the Office has a natural sense of authority for people like us.
I stepped in and got scared.
The math teacher put down the cup and naturally reached out to me, “What’s the problem?” I’m sorry.
I put my hands and hands on the book, and I said, “Seventh question, I don’t know how to solve it, why connect b, e? I’m sorry.
The teacher took a closer look at it: “You see, this line parallels ac, and you can construct a contours triangle, geometry.
The math teacher showed me the ruler by showing me the line, saying, “You got it? I’m sorry.
I realized, “I see. I see. I’m sorry.
The teacher laughed: “I heard you’ve been getting excited lately. It seems that early love is not a bad thing. I’m sorry.
“You’re smart, you’re smart, you don’t learn, go ahead, ask me again. I’m sorry.
I’m a little ashamed to say thank you and run out.
It doesn’t seem as scary as I thought.
I thought, maybe I was too hard to think about.
In fact, as long as we are willing to work, it is not too difficult to overcome.
09
From this day on, I don’t study late.
Yin will give me a tutor at home.
He said I wasn’t playing around. I hit my head with a book.
I was sometimes struck with tears, holding my head against him: “I can’t hit my head, I’m stupid!” I’m sorry.
He leaned on my bed, lazily: “You have room to fall.” I’m sorry.
“Come on, don’t eat today. I’m sorry.
I look at the English words of the little bug, and I feel like my brain cells are dying.
“I can’t carry my back. It’s too hard!” I’m sorry.
And Yin was playing the game, and said: “Well, if you can write it without your back, write it.” I’m sorry.
I’m holding my breath. I can’t start with a hard back.
Yin Chu said I had a bad foundation, that I was given the word every day, and that he gave me a reading of the word.
Did I say I’d take a high test?
He groaned: “Why else would you want to go to Qinghua, or why would you go to Qinghua?” I’m sorry.
“It’s not worth it. I’d advise you to apologize to someone earlier and admit it. I’m sorry.
I was provoked by him, and the book began to carry words.
My house’s toilets, restaurants, my bedtops, small notes all over my back from the moment I opened my eyes to sleep behind my eyes.
And with this intense learning, I see that the English scroll, even though it is half-aware, is no longer like a book.
“You know, learning English is the most important thing about language, and so-called techniques are for ordinary people, and you have to make English your second language if you want to test Qinghua. I’m sorry.
Every day I am forced to write in English and English, and I look down on the complex writings in front of me, one word at a time.
After a while, I barely got back.
It’s been examined. It’s painful.
“No, it’s not. It’s too bad! But it’s better than before. You have three months to carry the book. I’m sorry.
I nod my head, and I sensed it coming out of my stomach.
I forgot. I haven’t eaten at night.
And Yin Ji-hyun heard my belly cry, and smiled.
“Come on, let’s eat. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
The mid-term examination is coming up very quickly in this day after day.
Sitting at the table, I wiped the sweat of my hand with a tissue.
It’s time to test my learning for so many days.
For two months, I studied day and night, almost a robot who only knew how to learn.
I’m almost done with the Red Treasure book, and I don’t know how much the English script is.
Mathematics practicebooks have a big hand, and two copies of the notes on political history.
What do I get?
Is there any way to get close to Chou-ting?
I’ll take a deep breath and start the question.
I’m familiar with these questions, I’m not familiar with them.
I don’t think I’m going to be able to deal with it. I’ve done something like this, and I’ve been a little confused.
And look at Quintine, who’s with me at the exam, she’s making sure she’s free to write and then she writes an answer on the paper.
I was a little anxious to force myself not to look at her again, and I began with the meeting.
I used to draw randomly in general exams, and then I had time to hand over a white paper.
It was a long time, but now it’s just not enough!
I couldn’t think hard enough about a lot of things.
Look at Quintine again, she’s done, she’s finished, she’s closed her eyes.
I bit my teeth, I told myself not to panic, and I’d take the next door!
After the exam, CHOI Ting came over.
She stood in front of me smiling and said with a voice that people could hear:
“Joe, you can’t cheat on this test, can you?
“I advise you to give up earlier, beg me, or I won’t have to go to school and shout.” I’m sorry.
I watched her in cold.
“I advise you not to be too early, but who will say it? And we have set the end of the term not to be mid-term, and you do not have to rush in such a hurry.” I’m sorry.
She looked a little ugly, and she threw away a sentence, “Give her face no, then leave it to you.” I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
The intermediate examination was based on a three-day examination model.
I have never been seriously involved in such an intense examination, and these three days are almost exhausted.
Then there was some long lead time.
When I had my grades, I realized I was so nervous that my hands were shaking.
But before I could react, all the rolls were sent to me.
All the students around me exchanged scores, there was a lot of noise in the classroom and people came to ask about my grades.
And I couldn’t hear anything, I felt my heart beating in a hurry, and I took out the calculator to add points.
Languages 98, mathematics 106, English 102, history 94, biology 76, politics 83…
559 minutes.
A little note came to my desk.
Class 27, Grade 236.
My heart sunk.
Our class is 56 people, 27 will be midstream.
The first one is the difference.
And then Quintin came forth, and she was in the front, and the stars stood there like moons.
A few people were talking all excited about her.
I’m dead and I’m dead. I’m stuck with my heart.
Don’t look. I knew Quinting must be number one.
A girl looked at her roll and cried, “683, Quintine, you’re too good!” I’m sorry.
“Yeah, it’s a god, math, 148 ah! I’m sorry.
“How’s the score? How much is Jiang Shuhua? I’m sorry.
“679, second. Jiang Suk-san smiled at Qiu, “This time I didn’t pass you, I did.” I’m sorry.
She didn’t talk. She just took a look back.
I know, she’s looking at me.
It is not until now that I know that the distance between us is as clear as the sky, and the aura before us is so ignorant and fearless.
Even if I learned in death, and in my dreams, there was still a gap of over a hundred points between me and her.
And I know that the remaining 100 points are the hardest.
I really don’t think I’ll be able to beat her.
I heard my heart breaking in a clear moment.
Maybe I just can’t. I just can’t match her. I was such a loser.
What I did before was nothing but self-movement.
Not far, Jiang Shuhua came towards me.
He stood before my table at the top, and his eyes were filled with evil and compassion.
“Joe, Ting Ting said that if you apologized to her, she wouldn’t take it.
“Ting Ting is kind, please don’t make trouble I’m sorry.
Qiu Ting also followed me, and the students around looked at it slowly and quietly.
“Congratulations, Joe. I hear you’ve come a long way.
“However, people have to admit that they’re ordinary. You see how hard you try, that’s the limit.
“I’m not asking for anything else. Tell me you’re sorry and I’ll forgive you. I’m sorry.
Her face was so tall, as to give a beggar.
My self-pity is so sudden and so angry!
I’m not afraid to be despised.
But if I’m soft, I can’t look down on myself!
I slowly stood up and looked her in the eye.
“You don’t have to be happy this early. I’m sorry.
She smiled, “I hope you’ll be so hard by then.” I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Although I myself was not satisfied with this achievement, both the headmaster and several teachers highlighted me.
They were happy with my roll and said, “Look at Joe’s classmates, it’s only been two months, from last to twenty-seven.” I’m sorry.
“What does that mean? That means the effort will succeed! I’m sorry.
“All students must learn from Joe and strive to advance…”
I’m down there, and I feel a little bit cut.
On the one hand, I am proud of what I have achieved in just two months.
On the other hand, I know how far I am from Quinting.
Three months, more than a hundred, more than 200.
Can I really?
10
My old sisters came to me after school.
“Joe,” a girl with Chanel’s bag around my shoulder:
“Why haven’t you come out lately?” I’m sorry.
“She’s a good student now, trying to learn! “How can you hang out with us? I’m sorry.
Let’s go! There’s an event tonight, please, the band, your favorite! Relax and have a drink? I’m sorry.
I watched them hesitate.
I’m really moved.
It’s been so hard and tired these days to wake up before a dog.
Sometimes I get sleepy eating.
It’s been a while since I’ve been drinking.
I’ve come so far. Can you relax?
Just for a second.
“Okay, let’s go see. I’m sorry.
I followed them to the cab.
“Yeah,” the little sister laughs, “What’s with all the money we’ve had to read that dead book?” I’m sorry.
“They’re not going to work for us! I’m sorry.
I didn’t talk, followed into the bar.
This point has not always been too many, but today there are many.
The door was filled with beautiful men and women, and the bright lights were shining on the ground.
“A 3888 package first,” the little sister sat in the booth and handed me the pad. I’m sorry.
I ordered some wine and sat on my seat.
On the one hand, a few men came over and asked if we wanted a drink.
I feel the deafening music, the loud voices, and suddenly I feel something out of place here.
This was almost my second home, and now I feel very uncomfortable.
A sense of incomprehensible guilt has suddenly appeared.
I shouldn’t have stayed here.
How many words can I carry in the meantime?
What about my words today?
“Joe, what’s going on? Drink! I’m sorry.
The girl on the side pushed me and poured me a beer.
One of the boys just came up with his cell phone and asked me, “Do you have a message?” I’m sorry.
I look at all this, and I just feel so empty.
I told myself I had to get out of here!
When I said I was leaving, I stood up and threw a “I’m a little bit busy” and ran out.
“Where are you going? After you drink!”
“You’re not tired. Take a rest.”
The sound of the devil’s whisper made me fall again, and I ran out of the bar and just hit a car and stuffed myself in.
I didn’t say that until I got in the car.
I can’t say anything about it.
But I’m too late to go back today, and I don’t know what I’m gonna say.
You might hit me.
However, the depression seems to be getting easier.
That sense of guilt also disappeared.
I don’t know.
Come home, Yin Yusheng is waiting for me in the room.
I’m a little confused, pretending nothing happened and walked in.
“Where?” He was standing by the window, and the black fragrance was naturally scattered, showing a few golden edges.
I licked my lips, and I said, “Not anywhere, something’s happening today…”
Yin Yu-chung turned his head and looked at me with certainty.
“Did you drink?”
The nose is better than the dog, and he smelled me in a sip.
I was a little upset when the lie was pierced and threw my bag on the table.
“Yeah, I’ve been drinking. What’s wrong with all these days? I’m sorry.
My eyes are cold.
“How much did you score? I went to ask, right, 27, one impossible, up to two. I’m sorry.
“George. * He looked up and down on me, and he didn’t hide himself naked. *
“You think you’re good, don’t you? I’m sorry.
My self-esteem is deeply stinged by his words.
“I’ve only been learning for over two months, and you’re just gonna say I’m stupid and I can’t. I’m sorry.
“Shall I say you’re good?” I’m sorry.
“Joe, what’s your entitlement to go out for a drink? What’s the difference between you and number one? I’m sorry.
“You want to go to Qinghua? Qinghua doesn’t want you! I’m sorry.
“It’s none of your business!” My mind broke the string.
But I regret it when I say it.
I’ve come a long way.
He taught me here every day, never complained, and his mother wanted to give him money and he didn’t take it.
I can’t thank you for reading it to help a high school student!
But I didn’t have time to talk, and Yin Yue-hyun turned.
His black eyebrows were splattered and his face flashed with anger.
“Okay, that’s what you said. It’s really none of my business.
“I’m a dog with rats and nosy. I’m sorry.
He walked out the door and fell on it.
I can’t stand to see any self-esteem anymore.
Watch the elevator door close. I’ll put my hand in there!
The elevator caught my hand and opened, and I cried.
“You’re sick, Joe! I’m sorry.
“What do you want to do?” I’m sorry.
Tears fell uncontrollably towards my face, and I choked, “I was wrong!” I’m sorry.
“I’m sorry. Forgive me. I’m sorry.
He seemed to be scolding me, but his words were soft.
“…and I’ll give you my word, crying.”
I don’t know.
Sitting at the table, I choked out a roll.
“Stop crying! “I’ve got some rough towels to wipe my face.” I’m sorry.
“Why did you get that? Did you learn all about dogs? I’m sorry.
I opened my mouth and he grabbed my mouth.
“Come on, you’ve come a long way.
“How could you be wrong if you’ve done something like this before? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
“Well, I didn’t say that. What did you hear? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
“And this is the third time I’ve been wrong about something like this. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
This evening was quickly and very slowly spent in Yin’s speech.
At almost 10:00, Yin Yu-sung dropped his pen and looked at me and said:
“Joe, what do you think you’re studying for? I’m sorry.
I did not hesitate to say, “To overwhelm Quentin and Jiang Shuhua!” I’m sorry.
Yin Shuyung didn’t speak and stood up to the bedside.
He’s tall, and Yomo has a 188, and he’s in a good shape.
The night covered him, and his side was covered in shadows.
“Joe, we’re learning for ourselves. I’m sorry.
The voice of Yin Jing was light and fell in the middle of the night.
“I hope you understand that learning is not everything, but learning offers you a choice.
“We don’t want to be chosen for the rest of our lives to take the only path we can take, and learning will turn you on a higher threshold. I’m sorry.
Only then, he looked at me, and he looked at me, and he said, “You have the right to choose your own life. I’m sorry.
I looked at him and opened my mouth and couldn’t speak.
I didn’t seem to expect a response from Yin. I came to touch my head and took my bag out.
Before he left, he left a message:
“It’s a good show. It’s a great improvement. Keep going. I’m sorry.
I looked at his back and I couldn’t stand a silly smile.
Eleven.
And in the days that followed, I didn’t go out to play anymore, and I’m stuck in school.
I suddenly understood Yin’s words.
Learning is our own right to choose life.
I started getting up earlier and sleeping late.
I get up at 5:00 a.m. every morning, and I’ll carry 100 words before I go to early self-study.
Take notes during classes and review them during classes.
I’m not taking any more breaks, and I’m going to keep my eyes closed to what I’ve learned recently and relax my eyes.
I’ll walk home after school at night, listen to English in my headphones, I’ll fix it for two to three hours, I’ll study for one hour after he leaves.
When I go to bed, I’ll go back to what I learned today, and I’ll look at it as soon as I can’t remember until it’s all right.
I studied in my dreams and even woke up in the middle of the night to see a point of knowledge.
At first, my mom was so happy to see me progress, and she was showing off every day, giving me flowers for food.
And now she’s scared and worried about me every day:
“Just like, take a break. What if you’re exhausted? I’m sorry.
But I can’t rest. I have a deep feeling of guilt.
I even think about it when I go to the bathroom.
Are you studying?
In that case, didn’t I just drop her again?
I don’t know.
Days pass day by day, sometimes I forget time.
I can only see my own performance rising at a frightening rate.
Third month exam, 16.
Fourth month exam, eight.
By the fifth month of the exam, I even overcame Jiang Shuhua and lost to Quinteng by three points.
After the results, Jiang Shuhua was shocked.
He looked at his paper almost irreconcilably over and over and over again until he saw all the points in the chair.
I saw him looking back at me with incredible and shocking eyes.
I avoided his eyes and focused on the wrong questions.
So far, no one has said I cheated.
All my classmates are used to my progress because they can see my efforts.
However, they will be surprised again and again after their grades, and no one will look down on me, and now everyone will ask me questions, copying my answers and the papers.
I became a god in their mouths.
The teachers saw me as a treasure, and I was promoted as a classic case, with my full book and scroll in the hallway.
I’m getting used to it, and I’m not proud anymore.
There is only one faith in me now that sustains my near-crazy efforts.
More than Qinghua.
I don’t know.
Jiang Shuhua stopped me when I left the school.
“Joro!”
He stood in front of me without the look of his eyes as usual.
The rule in nature is for the weak to eat, and so does man.
The strong are etched in human dna.
Jiang Shuhua has no right to look down on me, nor to look down on me.
But I don’t want to talk to him anymore.
He’s already lost.
“Joe, you… you’re good. * He’s so complicated, he doesn’t seem to know me *
“You look different. I’m sorry.
I don’t have time to listen to him.
“You have to be straight. I’m sorry.
Jiang Shuhua looked at me, bowed his head:
“I hope your bets with Qiu Ting will be broken, we’re all classmates, and we don’t have to be so ugly, you won’t look good when it’s too late. Will you tell her that? I’m sorry.
I’ve been so much laughing at him.
“I’m going. Why? Why didn’t you let her come to me? I’m sorry.
“Ting Ting is more proud than she is… and she won’t give up.
“And besides, you’re making so much progress because we inspired you, so why don’t you go soft on her? I’m sorry.
He frowns at me and seems to take his words for granted.
I look at this face of Jiang Shuhua and I’m sick of it.
Why would he ask me so bluntly?
How could he say that?
I was blind when I liked him!
Thank you. I appreciate the bullshit!
If I want to thank you, I just have to thank myself for all I’ve done!
I grunted, and he said:
“You guys are chicken hairs?”
“And thanks? If you’re too busy, go to work at a factory. Don’t be crazy! I’m sorry.
I was just leaving.
It’s not even Jiang Shuhua’s idea, or she’s afraid of him.
I have a bad smile in my mouth.
“Are you afraid of CHOI? I’m sorry.
“Tell her if she’s willing to bow to me and apologize, I’ll give her a big break.”
Jiang Shuhua’s eyes were filled with anger.
“You’ve gone too far, Joe. I’ll tell you your face. Don’t blame me for losing. I’m sorry.
I laughed and looked up at Jiang Shuhua.
I despised:
“Do you deserve to lose?”
“Speak to me when you’re ahead of me. I’m sorry.
“You! I’m sorry.
Jiang Shuhua was completely angry, and he left in a cold and incomprehensible state.
I looked at his back and felt the breath of my chest.
Shit!
That’s great!
12
In the last month of the end, me and Chou Ting started to study.
Now we all know that only the two of us are rivals.
And this battle was fought only by winners and losers, and there was no tie.
Winners are all over the world.
The losers are notorious and disgraceful.
Quintine has always been called a genius.
She keeps saying that she never learns when she comes home, all on her head.
Now she doesn’t say that anymore. She doesn’t even go to the toilet after school.
I watched her come to school with a big black eye in the morning on several occasions, and looked at her for a night.
Unlike the light wind at first, she really felt my threat.
I’m proud of myself, and I’m more crisis-prone, and I can’t wait 25 hours a day to learn.
At the beginning, when I said that I was going to challenge Quintine, everyone laughed at me.
But no one ever said I was crazy about the fifth month.
Power will shut everyone up.
No one looks down on the strong.
There’s even a lot of people speculating that I could really be more than Quintine.
On one occasion I even saw Chou-Ting and her companion arguing over this because one of her followers advised her not to be too anxious.
“What am I worried about? Does Joro deserve my anxiety?
Shut your mouth if you can’t talk! I’m sorry.
I didn’t talk to Ben. I wasn’t happy to go away.
I heard it on one side but wasn’t angry.
She’s scared.
She knew I could really crush her.
I don’t know.
Finally, the day of the final exam.
On the day before the exam, Yin Yin was not giving me any more lessons.
He brought me some fresh milk: “Drink it while it’s hot. I’m sorry.
“Today’s early rest, tomorrow’s the day of the battle. I’m sorry.
I’m already nervous about my heart beating, I’m about to take the test, and I’m suddenly freaking out.
My forehead and my hands are sweating.
I’m afraid what if I can’t pass CHOI-Ting?
What if I’m not as good as her, after all this time she’s working hard.
She’s good at her basics.
Do I really have to go to school and call me shit?
Then I can’t live!
I’ll turn into a joke, a joke for the myth of Quintine!
I looked at him with fear, and I said, “What if I failed her?” I’m sorry.
I thought he’d be as mean as he’d ever be.
But I didn’t expect Yin to reach out and touch my head.
His hands were a bit rough and dry and warm, as if they were magic.
“Hey, Joe, you’re questioning me.
“Does I teach students worse than others?” You’ve grown up to kill yourself! I’m sorry.
Says he’s down on the bed looking at me.
And he whose eyes are black and deep, and whose eyes look directly at him, it seems that he can draw in his soul.
I suddenly felt a little hot on my face.
He laughed after half an hour.
“You can.
“You’re actually smart. You’re better than anyone.
“I say you can win, and you can win. I’m sorry.
It’s the first time I’ve ever said anything.
I feel my eyes sore, my tears start turning.
But my heart really calmed down.
I think, even if I don’t believe in myself, I should believe in Yin.
I sure can.
13
The next morning I arrived at school.
It’s strange that I didn’t have the kind of tension last night, but instead I was extremely calm.
Quintine came too early, and we both looked at each other for a second, and we both saw the war in our eyes.
She sat in her seat and she said to me:
“You have no chance to regret it, Joe. My grades are not based on speculation.
“You’ll soon know, garbage, always garbage. I’m sorry.
I’m not refuting it. I’m just smiling.
“Are you afraid of talking so much? I’m sorry.
Quintine’s eyes are filled with hate, and I heard her teeth squeak.
For a moment, she turned around.
I don’t know.
The examination bell will ring soon.
The roll came to my desk.
I look at the roll, breathe slowly, start talking.
First question, yes.
Second question, done.
Question number three, simple.
I didn’t even notice the passage of time. When I did all the things, the watch on the wall was less than 60 minutes past.
I didn’t mean it, but I went over it again and again.
Indeed, at the second time, I discovered a careless error in reading the wrong subject.
I’m sweating. I’m changing it.
The bell rings.
Get the papers.
I don’t know.
The next two and the third went well.
I didn’t study at night. I fell asleep.
It doesn’t make any sense to learn at this point. I’d better get some sleep.
When I get up, I just feel so relieved.
I only sleep five hours or so a day.
It’s been eight hours and it feels like everyone’s alive!
But CHOI Ting is different.
I looked at her, and her black eyes were worse than before.
And now it’s deep, and the huge eyebags are underneath, and they’re staring at what’s on their backs.
She looks like she’s been sucked by a monster.
This looks like I didn’t sleep last night.
I think it was last night.
What’s the point of this?
When I saw her like that, I calmed down, and I sat down.
Everything seems to be going well.
But just when I thought the exam would end like this, the accident came.
When I did the last question, I looked at the rolls, and the pupils shrunk.
The last big question is a geometry… how to draw this line, I’m not sure!
Because of the timing, it was supposed to be the last of the second session.
Math has always been my weakness, and my logic is not good.
But these days I’ve done almost everything I could find, and I’m sure I can make up for it!
It’s true that the previous title was working well, but it didn’t happen.
But it’s a tough one, and it’s a simple, normal set of things that you don’t know about.
But it’s not until we’ve seen it.
My forehead is getting cold and my hands are starting to tremble.
The score on this question is 15, say high or low.
But when it’s a victory for me and CHOI-Ting, it’s a mistake to get into the abyss!
I couldn’t help but look up and look at Quentin.
Her face was relaxed, she wrote a number on the paper and then dropped her pen and then moved her arms to the table and started resting.
Even her mouth has been ticked.
I’m so excited.
It’s a question that Quintine might not have looked at, and she could have done it.
I was so upset that the summer of July was so hot, and the voices that were heard outside the window were so annoying.
A drop of sweat dripped down my chin on the table.
For a moment, my brain was blank.
I’m finished, I thought.
I lost.
And yet, when I was about to collapse, I suddenly flashed a face in my head.
The white face is shadowed by the sunset.
Yin Yu Ying was standing in front of the window and looking at me calmly.
He said: Why did you learn? I’m sorry.
What did I say?
I said I’m going over Qinghua!
“No,” he looked out the window, and the sound was full of night and wind.
“You learn for yourself, to be able to choose your life.
“Joe, you learn for yourself.
“Only you, yourself. I’m sorry.
Yeah, right to choose life.
I feel like I’ve been thrown in a bowl of cold water.
Learn now that I’m possessed.
I’ve focused all my attention on Quintine, and I’ve forgotten what I’m learning about.
Learning is about not just being selected.
To give me the right to choose.
Quintine, it’s just a little episode of my life.
If I keep looking at her, I’ll never get out of here.
I breathed, I sank my heart, and I stopped looking at Quintine, who put his pen down.
Everything in the ear is gone.
I put all my spirit into this.
The clock’s pointing at me, and I don’t know how long it’s been.
The words of the math teacher were ringing in my ear.
Geometry, you’ve got to think about special guides!
I see what this guide should do!
I dare not delay in drawing the lines quickly, and in the middle of the day, I put the detachment on the flashcard.
Just as I wrote the last word on my pen, the bell rings!
Time’s up!
I pushed the flashcard and almost fell on the back of the chair.
There was a wind blowing in the window and my back was wet.
The clothes behind me are soaking in cold sweat.
After a long time, I finally brought up a little strength to look forward.
Quintine is looking at me, looking at each other, spilling a little bit of Mars in the air, and we’re not talking.
By that time, the meaningless language had become meaningless.
Three days later, it’s God or ghost.
14
The time to wait for results is long.
But it seemed like it was just a moment.
I’ve forgotten what I’ve been doing for the last three days, and I can’t even learn to open my book every day and flash the finals.
Every night I dream.
Sometimes I dreamt I’d win, I got 700 points, went far beyond Chou-Ting and laughed in my dreams.
Sometimes I dreamt that I had lost, and I failed by a single cent, standing at the entrance of the school, bowing down to Quita’s mocking face.
I woke up in a cold, sweaty nightmare when the people around me booed.
I’ve been transmitting all kinds of good luck maps on Twitter, and thanks to the dog who’s blocking bad luck, I’m trying to stop the bitch.
I feel like I’m going straight to magic.
But when I haven’t noticed, the next grade is up.
Sitting at the table, my mood is changing between tension and calm.
On the one hand, I feel that the results are no longer relevant, and the results I have achieved today have proved everything.
For my part, I have succeeded.
But on the other hand, I’m so angry and so desperate to think that Qiu Ting will fall on me again!
I can see that Quintine is nervous, and she’s breathing.
Jiang Shuhua is sitting next to her comforting her.
“It’s all right, Ting Ting, Joe’s no good at all. I’m sorry.
He said, “Yes, Quixin, Joe’s lucky he’ll never catch you in her life!” I’m sorry.
I didn’t notice them at all, just the teacher who walked into the classroom.
The headmaster smiled in the face and took to the podium.
Quiet, class. The finals! Quiet!
All the students in the class returned to their seats and stopped talking and over 50 eyes were on him.
“This is a good class. Not only is the first grade average, but the first two are in our class! I’m sorry.
The schoolmaster’s eyes were swept from me and Quintine, and he picked up the list.
I’m holding my breath. It’s a good shot in the classroom!
We both know that these two must be us.
But one or two is different. The second is meaningless. Only the first is the real winner!
“The second one…” The teacher took the tone.
My heart beats uncontrollably, and every one of them is about to burst out of the chest.
“Supreme number two, CHOI Ting, 697. I’m sorry.
A thunderbolt fell, and Quintine shook her body and fell on Jiang Shuhua.
Jiang Shuhua didn’t reach out to help her, he just opened his mouth and looked back at me as if he was a ghost!
The teacher continues.
At this moment, my heart is calm.
I have enough confidence in myself, which comes from absolute strength.
“The first one, Joe, is amazing. I don’t know what to say!
“Joe, 701! It’s no problem to keep this achievement going into Qinghua. Joe, you have to stick to your studies, not be proud of yourself! I’m sorry.
CHOI TURNED AROUND AND TURNED THE POSITION AROUND.
Her face is pale and her eyes are indescribable, as if she were to give birth to my flesh and blood.
I feel like she’s gonna come and bite me.
I did a little nod at her head, and I made a mouth:
“Don’t forget your promise. I’m sorry.
The classroom was quiet for a moment, and then it exploded.
All the people looked at me with their necks twisted, and they didn’t even exaggerate, just staring in shock.
After half an hour, everyone turned a blind eye to the teacher and started to shout!
“Fuck, Joe’s too good, really first! I’m sorry.
“God, it’s only a semester. Maybe she’s a genius. I’m sorry.
“I’m done. I’m done. I’m done. I’m sorry.
Their faces are full of surprises and visions, and their eyes are implausible and sighs.
I look around, and there’s an incomprehensible feeling.
Remember before, these people were completely different.
They all laughed at me.
I’m thinking about it, it’s not.
That’s what they say.
But five months later, I hit each of them in the face with my strength.
Now they know I’m not bragging.
I have absolute strength to support my goal!
I can fucking do what I say!
I am enjoying these praises and praises, and suddenly I have a smile on my head.
Quite a face.
I want to tell him the good news!
15
I can feel everyone looking at me when I leave the school at night.
They point me to whispering.
“That’s Joe! I’m sorry.
A lot of people did it before, but at that time they said, “This is the bastard, Joe.”
I’m in the middle of something. I’m moving forward, and my arms are being pulled.
I’m in a lot of pain, and I’m looking back and I see it’s Quintine.
By the way, she’s still got a bet to keep. I forgot.
Quintine at this moment has gone crazy, long nights have left her dented in her cheeks and now black as a ghost.
Her face is twisted at the moment, her eyes are all red blood, and she has a roll in her hand, screaming:
“Joro! I’ve been wrong about this, I’ve just gone to the teacher to get my share back, I’m 701.5 now, I’m number one, I’m not over you, I’m number one! I’m sorry.
The students around the school blew up the pot, and almost everyone in the school knew about the famous bet.
At this point, people were busy watching the door, and the water was running out at the school entrance.
“What?” She looked at me mean, and her nails were almost in my flesh.
“The garbage will always be garbage! “You’ll never beat me!” I’m sorry.
The people next to me didn’t realize there was a turn around us:
“Hey, after all, it’s Chou-Ting. He’s always first. He’s strong. I’m sorry.
“Alas, it’s not even 0.5. Joe’s good, but it’s too short.”
There’s a lot of noise around, some Quintin, some pity for me.
I threw my hand away. I dumped CHOI Ting.
Say it! Say it now! I’ll lose the bet! I’m sorry.
CHOI Ting is coming up again to catch me, and I’m going away from her and I’m going to take the bag off my shoulder.
She still thinks I’m going to bet on it, and she’s so excited to have her eyes shined, and she takes her phone and she shoots it at me.
This man is so vicious that he wants to record it.
I guess I don’t have to feel sorry for her.
I slowly pulled the zipper, pulled a roll out of the bag and spread it against the crowd.
The original 95 has been cut and replaced by 100.
I smiled and looked in the eye and said, “I’m sorry, I’ve got five points, and my grades are 706.”
“Come on, admit you’re worse than me and apologize to me. I’m sorry.
I returned her words to her as they were.
“Chou-Ting, bet on it, don’t make me look down on you. I’m sorry.
CHOI-Ting’s face is all red from the face!
She’s so pale.
“No way that’s impossible I’m first I’m first I’m sorry.
It’s full!
In this case, almost everyone takes a breath of air.
The scene just blew up and said everything. Most of it mocked Quintine.
I looked at them accusing Quintine, and suddenly I felt confused.
When I challenged her, everyone said I was bullshit.
Everything seems to be upside down.
Quintine stood in a state of disillusionment, and her legs were soft and she was paralyzed by her classmates.
The little follower who’s been following her may have felt a little embarrassed and pushed her into the crowd.
It’s just Quintine sitting on the floor with her eyes shut and murmuring, “No, no, no, no.”
I looked at her like she was almost delirious.
CHOI Ting is used to sitting on the throne.
Once pulled down, she collapsed.
A man like that doesn’t deserve to be my opponent anymore.
And I looked down at Quentin and whispered, “You will not fulfil your promise, but I despise you.” I’m sorry.
Says I’m turning around.
Everyone’s moving me out of the way.
A few steps out of the way, just as I was about to get in the car, the screams of Qiu Ting came out behind me:
“OJ, I’m sorry, I admit I’m worse than you!
“But I don’t like it. Next time I’ll get first! I’m sorry.
I didn’t look back. I got in the car and went home.
16
I’m famous!
My parents laugh at home every day.
A few times, my mother was so stupid, she looked at me, and she was so pale.
I’m not dreaming!
“I can still have such a smart girl, and it seems I should have gone to college and probably went to the North China.
“Hey, are you my daughter? You’ve been transferred?
“I am so beautiful, so happy! I’m sorry.
And my dad’s lying:
“That’s not for you, that’s for me.”
“Do you think our daughter could be a genius, an IQ 180 kind of thing? Let’s take a test. I’m sorry.
My mom banged a chopstick.
“I’m sure it’s up to you to buy a dish at the supermarket! I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
I was laughing at you and me.
My family wasn’t so good back then, my parents used to be so fond of me, but I didn’t learn to go out every day and come home late at night.
The only thing they’re going to school is to go there.
The parents would be ashamed to sit at the end.
My parents are often at home because I’m not angry.
But from the moment I learned, it seemed like everything had changed, and I really worked for my mom.
I don’t know.
At dinner I was lying in bed wondering when to tell Yin the good news.
I can get it, but I have to thank Yin for my efforts.
I know I wouldn’t have made so much progress without him.
As a true genius, he taught me not only knowledge but also ways to learn.
There’s no money for that.
I close my eyes and put my arm on my face.
I’ve seen a lot of things before me.
It’s too hard, really hard.
Seriously, I don’t even know how this is going to happen.
Once again, I can’t guarantee that I have the courage to do this.
Others only saw my light and got first at incredible speed.
But those insomnias, those days, those waking nightmares…
I haven’t slept any more than five hours a day, and it’s raining in the clear.
It was really hard at first, and I felt like the whole thing was empty.
I’ve been thinking about giving up and taking a break.
But it all came back.
Behind the miracle is the tears and sweat of my night and day.
There’s sour heart in it, only one can feel it.
I don’t know.
And just as my eyes were sore, the door was knocked.
I sat up, and I looked up.
He was dressed in black with his hands on the door frame, and his face was full of no smirk and no scoffing, and he was a true smile.
“Hello. His eyes were full of smiles, and his cherry-coloured thin lips were slightly picked.
“I heard you took the first test. Congratulations. I’m sorry.
I feel like my heart’s beating fast, and a carp’s beating up from the bed and he’s excited:
“I did it, 706! I did it first! Am I good? I’m sorry.
I’ve never shared joy before, but it was only then that I realized that he was the only one who wanted to share pleasure.
“Yes, yes! “I’m so happy that I’m laughing at my face.
“It doesn’t look like he’s retarded. I’m sorry.
I was pulled out of my mouth by him and dragged him to the desk with a roll for him.
I told him how hard it was for me to do the last question and how it was done.
I told him that’s what she did wrong to lose to me.
I told him I’d figure it out. I’ll learn for myself.
Yin Shuyung didn’t interrupt me, he just smiled at me with his head and he didn’t live here.
At the end of my speech, I was dry, and I looked at him with my eyes open: “Mr. Yin, what are we going to learn next semester? I’m sorry.
It’s just that I’m silent.
After half a mile, he reached out and rubbed my hair.
“You’re out of school, Master will be relieved.
“Are you really going to make me a governess for your whole life? I have to go back to class. I’m sorry.
I just choked, and everything I said was stuck in my throat.
I looked at him, and I was wondering if you could stay.
But I can’t say it.
Yeah, well, I forgot, Yin Yusheng wasn’t my tutor.
He’s Qinghua’s reading.
His future is much brighter than mine.
It was an accident to teach me to study, and now he’s going back to where he’s glowing.
I can’t hold him off.
“Oh, it’s so sudden. I’m sorry.
I smiled, “Time goes too fast.” I’m sorry.
Yin Yu-suk didn’t speak, but looked at me with certainty.
His eyes are like black stones, and they are dark and shining.
I feel that the temperature on my face is getting warmer with the air in the house and the atmosphere is getting awkward.
And when I couldn’t help but speak, Yin Yum Yue-yung suddenly stood up.
The car outside the window was full of water and the light broke.
The night was filled with strange neon shadows.
And he laughed at me with his back on the night.
“Joe, I’ll wait for you in Qinghua. I’m sorry.
My eyes are sour, my tears fall.
“Okay,” I took a tear, “I’ll come to you a year later!” I’m sorry.
17
By the time we get back to school, everything is settled.
I replaced Quintine and became a new god of science.
Jiang Shuhua stopped me on the first day of school.
He hesitated and whispered, “I broke up with Quintine. I’m sorry.
“What are you trying to say?” I’m sorry.
He bites his teeth, and he squeezes it out for half a day: “I’m sorry I was bad before.”
Like, see if we can still…
“Do you think you deserve me? I’m sorry.
He said I turned around and stood there and saw him standing there when I left the school.
I don’t know.
Quintine’s learning is getting stronger.
Now she’s just like me, learning every day and eating and sleeping.
But I was relaxed.
I think the body is first, and when I get back to school and listen carefully, I’ll go to bed at 11:00.
To ensure adequate sleep to have a healthy body.
I’m the one who wanted to be more than me.
She looked at me more and more, and I felt like I was her obsession, or maybe I was in her nightmare.
But it didn’t work. All the exams, I was the first one to be steady.
She never had a chance to turn over again.
I don’t know.
Time passed so slowly, just as I was used to these days, Koko came.
As in the summer of June at the end of last year, the sky is clear blue, tall and far.
The campus is full of hot winds and sharp vibes.
I don’t know what it is. I got another test with Chou Ting.
It’s just this time I was in front and she was behind.
I can feel the look behind me burning a hole in my back, but I don’t care, but I’m putting all my energy on the right one.
I’m used to the day of my exams, and this time I’ve had a feeling of tension.
One minute and a second, five minutes later, the bell rings.
The world is in a state of silence, with only sand falling.
It’s on.
And then I thought about it when I went to college, and I just felt a little blurry.
These three days are as long as three years, and it seems only for a moment.
When I dropped the pen in the last section, I just felt it was incomprehensible.
Three years in high school, my youth finally came to a close.
But I changed myself and turned my life around.
Now I really have the right to choose my life.
I don’t know.
I finally let go after this exam.
I don’t even know what I’m talking about.
I haven’t had a day and a half to learn, and the whole people are in a state of tension.
Now there’s no need to study again, and it feels a bit empty when I wake up in the morning.
But soon I got used to it.
I slept till 11:00 in the morning and stayed up at night playing games.
My parents didn’t say anything about me this time, and I didn’t feel guilty when I played.
My mom bought me thousands of skin awards and took me out of the country for a spin.
I’m like a wild dog who’s gone crazy and almost forgot what he did.
I didn’t even have time to check my grades.
My grades were told by the class director.
He broke his voice on the phone, and he told me, “Joe, you took the provincial test, 729 points!” I’m sorry.
My head is stuck.
Province 729 minutes.
I didn’t get happy at once, but I thought I’d still have 10 points less than Yin.
What kind of brain does this guy have?
Shit, aliens?
The headmaster told me how I felt.
“Joe, you have to make a choice when you get back to school. I’m sorry.
“I’ll call you all the time.
I laughed, softly:
“Sir, I’m going to Qinghua. I’m sorry.
18
By the time we got back to the school, the banner had been drawn.
It says, “Congratulations on our senior class of Joe Ju, who is a senior student, became a high-level student.” I’m sorry.
The following group of parents and students pointed their heads over the banner and lamented:
“What kind of child is that? I’m sorry.
“Joe, how does this name become so familiar?
I squeezed in with my hat and tried to show the teachers my entry papers.
When I got to the office, all the teachers were there, everybody was smiling and I looked like a big panda.
Mathematics teacher poured me a cup of tea and love. I’m sorry.
I sent the letter of admission, and they were admiring it.
The history teacher took his glasses off his face and looked at them word by word, word by word: “This Qinghua letter is different!” I’m sorry.
And the teacher next to him said, “O Li, I have never seen the message of Qinghua. I’m sorry.
The history teacher laughed, “Damn, I’ve never seen the Qinghua letter on the back of the crane. You’re a god. I’ll bring the next batch next year.” I’m sorry.
I smiled and asked, “Where are the teachers, Qiu Ting and Jiang Shuhua Cai?” I’m sorry.
I didn’t expect to hear that.
A moment later, the math teacher sighs:
“Chou-Ting is too winning to go to Qinghua, and she’s just filling out this offer. We can’t stop it!
“Hey, the parents don’t know how to talk about it. The kid’s got good grades, but this time it’s really hard.
“She didn’t record it, she didn’t want to read it again, she wouldn’t listen to it, it’s hard to read it again.
“Jang Shuhua. Jiang Shuhua forgets that it’s a 985 anyway. I’m sorry.
They’re going to put the subject behind them.
“Hey, Joe, we’re having a swearing-in conference at school in a few days. You’re going to have to talk to your classmates. I’m sorry.
I gave it a smile and said yes.
I don’t know.
Two days later, the playground was crowded.
Maybe I’m too famous, with a lot of freshman students and parents, and most of the graduates coming to see me for themselves.
The crowd was squeezed and squeezed, and not at the Games.
I stood on the stage, and the headmaster introduced my résumé from the beginning to the end, and even read out every achievement I had from the bottom.
2nd, 236th, 118th, 34th, 2nd…
The rest is all number one.
This intuitive backlash infected everyone here!
Everybody cheer up!
I’m on top. I’m feeling a lot.
I almost forgot my countdown days.
And when I was a negative example, when everyone hated me and hated me.
I’m just an ordinary man.
I’ll be afraid, I’ll retreat, I’ll be afraid, I’ll regret.
I’ll cry and I won’t sleep in my nightmares.
But in the end, I just bit my teeth.
Looking back, it was all like a dream.
In less than two years, my life has changed dramatically.
I want to thank too many people. I want to thank my parents.
But I should be most grateful for the fact that I was alone in the dark.
After that night of despair, I came to the dawn of victory.
I picked up a piece to sweep the playground, and I saw Chou-Ting and Jiang Shuhua standing below.
They don’t know why they’re here. They probably don’t like it.
And across the world, we looked at each other for a moment, and my sight was moved.
Quintine is just a little episode in my life.
Perhaps I should also be grateful for this episode, without the humiliation of the suffering and the anger that followed.
But I don’t see them anymore.
I’ve already left them behind.
The summer sun was too bright, but nobody left the playground.
I’ve started my work, and I’m going to give you a brief account of my psychological experience and learning methods.
In the end, I looked at the crowd under pressure, and said:
“Students, I want you to understand that learning is not everything, but learning gives us a choice.
“We don’t want to be chosen for the rest of our lives to take a path on which we have no choice, and learning will let us open a higher threshold. I’m sorry.
“Only then,” I hold the microphone, “We have the right to choose our own lives. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
After a moment of silence, there was a big round of applause, and I looked at the far sky, and I showed a relief smile.
18
By the time we hear from Quintine, it’s the first summer.
Qinghuai is a country of high-profile students, and the learning atmosphere is different.
I’m busy and full every day.
The chance of high school students talking about Quintine in a group.
They say that Qing Ting has been in a worse state of mind for a year or has failed to get Qinghua.
However, Qinghua had become her obsession, and she wanted to read it again, but her parents ordered her to volunteer.
It’s a good school, but her dream will never come true.
They’re booing in the crowd, and some of them remember our dispute, and they’re paying special attention to Ett and asking me what I think.
I didn’t come back. I just feel like I’m in the mood.
While I was thinking, I suddenly ran into a man.
I rubbed my head and raised my head to speak, so I put a cup of milk in my hand.
“What’s wrong with you? I’m sorry.
Says he pulls my hand up and walks by the sidewalk: “I have a meeting this afternoon, I’ll go eat a cow frog, your favorite house…”
The summer of August, the sun is perfect. Record number: YX11Q2G1R30
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
