What moment did you find out you still couldn’t forget your ex? – What?
He went to the toilet with the inpatient and met his former boyfriend at the door for five years.
He had half a pregnant woman, little heads down, and he had a gesture.
I heard a pregnant woman shouting “husband.”
Five years apart, I’ve had so many fantasies about meeting again, but I never dared to think that he was married.
One.
My mother told me that Gu Chao had just finished surgery and that she needed a bed with her.
And that burden fell on me of course.
Before I left, my mother saw that I was reluctant to speak in a way that hated steel.
“Sam is a good child, and she’s grown up. He’s worse than the river. Why are you so dead?”
“Mom! I almost stopped her from talking.
It never occurred to me that even after five years of hearing that name alone, the nasal cavity would be sore that the heart still had a deep sting.
“Then set up blindly, and no one likes me.” I’m sorry.
I tried to keep my breath under control, and the hard guys left with a warm can.
He came to the ward, and Gu Chau was holding his cell phone, paying attention, and his long fingers were beating back on the screen.
The girl’s voice is heard through the microphone, and it’s the one she likes.
“Where do you look a little sick? I’m sorry.
He looked at me, and he smiled, “Are you jealous? I’m sorry.
I didn’t care about him. I picked up a book.
Half an hour later, Gutsang suddenly grabbed my arm.
Say it. I don’t lift my head.
He was silent for a while, almost biting his teeth and saying, “I have to go to the bathroom. I’m sorry.
I moved, I looked up, and I saw the side face and the red ear.
He’s holding a one-foot-nine adult, and he’s a little bit edgy.
He was weak, almost all the weight of his body was on me, and I almost passed out in the bathroom.
It’s hard to wait until he’s finished. This guy’s got a little conscience, leaning on the wall and giving me a break.
When he sweats his hands, and he cleans up his coyote, he sees his way down the river in white coats.
He seems to be waiting for someone.
In the dim light, the man is sharp, he has a thin nose, he has a cold eyebrow, and he is reconnecting with a clean, indifferent young man.
All reason and restraint have been broken and I will almost rush up.
If he doesn’t have a pregnant woman around.
He bowed his head, he held the pregnant woman, and he made a gesture.
And what cooled my heart was that I heard the pregnant woman shouting at him:
“Honey. I’m sorry.
Two.
“Ho, you lost your mind?”
I looked back, and I almost couldn’t hold it.
Gutsun’s eyes start to laugh, “Do I miss wild men? I’m sorry.
I wonder if this guy was deliberately saying this when the whole person put it up and said it.
The wet and hot air pounces in my ear, and it shrunk my neck.
I was trying to push him away, and suddenly I felt a sight coming through.
I’m almost unconsciously down to the river.
Four-eye relative.
Five years ago, when the river fell, it would have come in cold face, held my waist firmly and declared sovereignty with teeth.
At night, no matter how hard I do, he won’t hold back.
And he was even in the end, “You can’t fall for someone else. I’m sorry.
Such a small river, so that I love it…
But now I am looking at me calmly and without any further violence.
“Let’s go. I’m sorry.
Looking at the back of both of them, my heart seemed empty.
Five years apart, I’ve had so many fantasies about meeting again, but I never dared to think that he was married.
I bit my lips and tried to ease the sour emotions inside, but it continued to ferment and spread.
There was a moment when I tried to go over and question him, but I found myself unable to even question him.
After all, I mentioned breaking up first.
He was so proud of a man who had almost exhausted all his means and put down all his pride to keep me.
I couldn’t take the pressure and gave him up.
“I asked you. He’s still single. “I was able to take my tears back with one sentence.
“Aah?”
Look at me laughing. “He’s my doctor, right? I’m sorry.
I paused, and there was a little hope in my heart. I’m sorry.
“That’s not true. “I listened to the nurses. I’m sorry.
He learned from the nurses that the river had suddenly been transferred from Beijing a month earlier and that he had submitted information on his entry to the post and that he was unmarried.
I’m still bored with my chest, “But that pregnant woman just…”
I know the river, and he doesn’t want to lie, nor will he let himself down.
If not, he would have denied it when the pregnant woman called out for her husband.
But he didn’t.
Gutsun looked at me and said nothing.
He’s been thinking about it, and he’s raising the possibility, “What if it’s an unmarried pregnancy? I’m sorry.
At night, when the river came to check, my eyes cried out.
I don’t know if it’s my fault, but I feel like the river fell a little.
Soon, however, he withdrew his sight and walked to Gu’s side and began a routine inspection.
First, Gu Cham was asked about his injuries, and then some regular questions were asked, and the whole process did not look at me again.
And my hand in my pocket shrouded, and a heart was like sour water.
“What did you eat today? Has the frequency of headaches increased or decreased? I’m sorry.
Gu’s response is that
“Today she ate porridge with her own hands and heard her mom say she spent three hours at home and almost broke her finger when she dealt with crabs. I’m sorry.
“It’s strange, I don’t feel like my head hurts anymore after I’ve had my porridge. I’m sorry.
It’s just the way it’s done.
3
I didn’t do anything wrong, but I fell back unconsciously.
He used to cook me too much in the past, and I don’t have to worry about anything.
My body, my heart, my stomach, my stomach.
In recent years, I have learned to cook.
Thinking about it, it’s a little sour.
Then I heard that Gutsang’s evict order, “Well, since there’s nothing wrong, Dr. Jiang goes back to bed early. I’m sorry.
He stares at the river and says, “You can’t stay here any longer. I’m sorry.
I looked back and looked at him with a little warning, but I was ignored.
I was just about to say something, and my ears were like, “Oh? I’m sorry.
I’m holding on. My heart’s beating a little fast.
“It’s no big deal to look back on the river and look at me very quickly.” It’s just…
And he smiled, and it was so sarcastic and profound, and he said, “You haven’t showered for days, you know, you’re gonna wipe my body. I’m sorry.
When I heard that, it was obvious.
Just as I thought he was going to say something or even do something, he stood up and picked up his medical records, and walked in the wrong direction.
I stand still.
Not willing to admit it, but obliged to.
Jiang-seon seems to really care about me…
“Ho-ho”?
“I’m fine. * I’m staring at the floor with a little shaking. *
I don’t know how long it took to hand over a tissue.
It’s Gu Cham. I look up and I’m right in his eyes.
He looked at me for a while, and he asked me, “It’s almost five years, and it’s just too late? I’m sorry.
I suck my nose, I don’t hesitate, “I can’t let go. I’m sorry.
Gu was silent for a moment, or smiled and said, “Why did you drop the love letter so quickly? I’m sorry.
The shame was suddenly raised, and I made a small mistake.
It’s a little laughter.
“How long ago was that when you rejected me and said you only treated me like a sister? I’m sorry.
Gutsun looked at me and smiled and didn’t talk.
4
Maybe the mood got a little weird, and I left the room with a hot kettle.
Close the door and get my mom’s.
Outside, soft and soft.
It probably means taking care of him and taking advantage of the opportunity.
I couldn’t afford to stand against the cold walls outside the room, and I was a little shaky.
My mom’s changed since she divorced my dad.
She rarely smiles, becomes strong, angry, has a strong sense of control over me and always fears that I will leave her like my father.
I haven’t even been out of school since I was a kid, except for college.
As for Gu Cha…
From kindergarten to high school, for more than a decade, a young boy has been running behind him since childhood.
But he doesn’t like me.
The year I graduated, I had the courage to hand over a love letter to Gudwin.
He read the letter in silence, took it very seriously, and told me frankly, “Ho, I only treat you like a sister. I’m sorry.
He had a face with peaches, and he was always light, lazy and casual.
Denying my confession is the most serious thing he’s ever done to me.
Subsequently, Gutsang told me that he had a very fond girl who met during the physics competition and that he intended to follow her to study abroad.
How did I feel?
I can’t remember.
I only remember sending a text before Gutsang left.
“I know you’re going to Beijing to go to medical college, Zen, and never fail your life. I’m sorry.
Then I changed my mom’s volition and went to Beijing.
This has led to the recognition of the river.
And when I’ve accidentally mentioned the name of the river not only to Gu Chau on the other side of the ocean, I’ve realized something.
It was a long time since he was in contact, and I’ve been with the Gang since I sent the message again.
5
It was the first night I lived with him.
And the river sat on my leg, with long, long fingers and a thin layer of clothing, gently and softly rubbing at my belly.
He brought a bowl of hot congee.
And I had a bad heart, and I hit him with my little thumb, “No reward for not eating.” I’m sorry.
I can’t stand my soft, hard bubbles, I can’t hold my palms in the back of my head, and I get a very strong, deadly kiss.
It’s over.
In the end, he took me in his arms, with his eyes and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, he, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, he, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his eyes, and his ears, and his ears, and his voice, and his voice,
“The porridge is getting cold. Drink up. I’m sorry.
It’s probably because I was the first to chase the river, and he was always cold to me, and I liked to tease him and push him.
The more indifferent he is, the more I like to see him out of control.
Then it really opened up, and the river began to taste meager, and he became the one who didn’t know how to control himself.
The message from Gu Cham was sent at that time.
He said, “I’m coming back. I’m sorry.
Faced with the eyes of the river, which was obscured and unobserved, I was unsure.
“He’s my neighbor and my brother. He’s known me for over 20 years. I’m sorry.
I’m not sure if he believes me, but every time he comes in, he acts like he’s an enemy, trying to act like he doesn’t care, but he’s cute.
A lot of things, and gradually, I don’t talk to Guttam anymore.
I promised him I’d graduate.
You know, after graduation, something happened to my house.
Relatives called me and told me that my mother was seriously ill, and it was only when I bought a plane ticket that I found out that they had joined up to cheat me.
My mother never forgave me to change the test. She hated me. She hated me.
She didn’t even accept the fall of the river.
“You want to study medicine, you can go to this university. You want to get married, the kid is fine. I’m sorry.
“Mom has arranged this for you. It’s the best for you. I’m sorry.
My mom locked me up at home, confiscated my phone, and I wasn’t allowed to communicate with Jiangji.
I even used my phone to put down some insults on him with my tongue:
“What makes you think I’m going to marry a family whose father’s gambling, whose mother is disabled? I’m sorry.
“You really think you’re just my brother? You’re just a diversion of my college life. I’m sorry.
When I found out about this, I had to go and explain it to him, and my mother had a complete explosion.
She stood on the balcony and held her hand on the railing because she was strong and had a curvature.
She was out of her mind, crying and threatening me. If she didn’t break up with him, she jumped off the 12th floor.
That moment, I retreated.
I can’t watch my mother die if I love him.
That night, the river fell under me and the whole man was pale and thin.
He seemed to be proud of what he wanted, and had received messages that hurt people and thought that I loved someone else, but had been careful to ask for a combination in a humble gesture.
I couldn’t even meet him downstairs in the face of my mother’s threats.
Six.
The walls outside the ward are too cold, they’ve been holding on long enough and their backs are getting colder.
My mom sent another one.
This time she sent a text: “You’ve met the river again?” I’m sorry.
No voice, enough to prove her anger.
Some of them turned off their screens and looked up and saw a clear-sighted fall of the river.
He did not know how long he had been standing there, had a case in his hand and his face was still clean.
I’m surprised I couldn’t say a word.
So he’s been waiting for me?
“Let’s get him hot water.” I’m sorry.
He turned and left before I could talk.
React, I’ve been in the elevator with him.
Faced with his cold eyes, We explained with calm.
“The nurse just told me that the watercrew on this floor is out of order until tomorrow, so I’m going to get water on the third floor. I’m sorry.
The nurse also said that Jiang-eun’s office was on the third floor.
Quiet as the night.
In the line of view, the river’s hands are plunging in, looking in peace, looking straight ahead, and immersing in the shadows.
I stood on a cold wall and looked at his side.
He’s more stable than he was five years ago.
Seeing my sight, the river lightens me.
And his lips were scorned with clear scorn, and his eyes were undisguised.
Whisper again or speak.
“I’m surprised to see you again, but I’m tall.”
“I don’t want to see you.” I’m sorry.
I’m a little stiff and my chest is sore.
The elevator door was opened and the river fell in love with it.
I bit my lips and got out of the elevator.
I can’t actually see what’s happening.
Because he said he didn’t want to see me, but he didn’t want to go fast, and he was waiting for me, even when he entered the office, and he didn’t close the door.
Just for a few seconds, I went in.
“Lock the door. I’m sorry.
And when I heard that, I dazzled and looked at him with hesitation.
It’s just a time to take off the white tatter and look at me.
I fell down my eyelids, locked the door, and my waist was tight, and my body was put on the wall.
It’s very heavy, it’s shaking my back, it’s frowning.
But before the sound was heard, my lips were clogged, and my familiar breath was sealed from the wind.
He kissed me so hard, he almost ate me.
I’ve never been treated so savagely before.
My tongue is so numb and sore.
I couldn’t help but struggled, but he squeezed him even harder on the wall.
And when the river was sent down from Our lips a little, its dark eyes were filled with lust, but it remained cold.
He stares at me for a while, hums, sarcasm, “Isn’t that what you want? I’m sorry.
I choked, but I gave someone a chance.
When he reached his hand at the zipper on my back, the phone rang.
I had a glimpse of my mind. The name on the phone was Chu Chu.
I missed a beat.
Chu Chu, is that the pregnant woman’s name?
The hand had been released from the river and he had taken a few steps forward and received the telephone soon.
It seems to be in a hurry.
I looked at the river and wrinkled, dressed and walking outside, and I said, “I’ll be right there. I’m sorry.
I walked out of my office, looking at the shadow of his departure, and I lost it.
Turning back, with crutches on, standing up and staring straight at me, with little eyes.
7
Go back to the ward with hot water, and I don’t talk, and I don’t talk to each other.
I’ve been thinking about that phone call, and I’ve been thinking about it.
Telling me I can’t go down there any more, I turned to the bathroom, wet the towels with hot water and handed them to Gutsiao.
“I thought it was uncomfortable. Wipe it. I’m sorry.
Gutsang didn’t pick up, took a little look at me, “Do you want me to wipe my own patient?” I’m sorry.
I stopped.
Of course I can hear his anger when he has known him for many years.
But why?
I just wanted to say something.
“I saw you so long ago, you didn’t bring your phone. I thought something had happened to you. I’m sorry.
He smiled at me, “I’m really tired, I’m really tired. I’m sorry.
There was a moment of silence and silence.
I looked at him with a slightly tired eye, but his heart was soft.
And when he came to the bed, Gutsham took off his blouse consciously, and showed a lined-up chest and a strong belly.
I kind of turned my face, took a deep breath and gently covered him with wet towels.
The hands were moved carefully and the back, arms and arms were carefully wiped with the heart.
His fingertips accidentally touched his skin and heard his breath sank.
I’m still a little hesitant when I rub my belly.
The hand holding the wet towel also stopped above.
“Wasty? “It seems that Gu has laughed.
“None. I’m quick to answer.
I had a smile and a smile.
“You’re responding now, which gives me reasonable suspicion that you didn’t go to one of your mom’s swimming lessons last time. I’m sorry.
I’m silent.
I was just forced to break up with Jiang Mae, and I didn’t go to swimming classes.
“You’re not seeing a man’s body for the first time? “It’s just a matter of time.”
I said, “No way! You know well that I was with the river,
Words are over.
Knowing what I said, my face is red and my ears are burning.
The silent man became Gu Cha.
A long time ago, he whispered, “Yeah. I’m sorry.
“I’ll do the rest myself. I’m sorry.
I relieved myself and gave him the towel.
I don’t know. It’s not my fault. Gutsang became extremely silent.
I’ll start packing.
Feels a little sweaty, so you take a band off your wrist and tie your hair.
“Is there a mosquito in the weather? I heard some distant voices.
And I said, “It’s been cooling these days. I don’t think so. I’m sorry.
When I saw him not talking, I looked up and I found him staring at my neck with complex eyes.
The subconscious reached out and touched it, as if there was a hidden soothing there.
I was just going to say something, and I’m back to my usual uninvolved look with a smile.
“You’re not the only one who can’t let go. I’m sorry.
He’s got his chin on his side, he’s got his eyes on his face, “It’s pretty intense. I’m sorry.
I was staring at his face, and it was weird.
Although he was laughing, he felt like he was biting his teeth.
I feel like I need to prove something.
Think, test and ask,
“You said the other day, “Is it true that your white moonlight wants to get back together with you?” I’m sorry.
Gutsun seems a little confused, “Ah?”
Look at his reaction. I don’t get it. His face sunk.
Since my mother committed suicide five years ago, I have taken her to a psychiatrist and have been taking medication for several years.
I haven’t been in love for the last five years, and I’ve been silently protesting my mom, and I’ve been doing her ideological work.
Now she hears the name of the river, and she’s not too excited except to be unhappy.
Even a few days ago, I quit the iron job that she had arranged for my ophthalmologist, and she did not react as strongly as ever.
But then he came to me and asked me if I quit because I wanted to go to Jiang Mae.
I didn’t deny it, and I do want to go to Beijing.
It took Gutsham a long time to silence and to laugh at the news that he was going abroad again to find the girl, that he would explain it to my mother and let me go.
Unexpectedly, he was hospitalized by accident.
Even more unexpectedly, his attending is the river.
I look at those dark, silent eyes and say,
“Do you like me? I’m sorry.
8
Before I ask that, I would like to take a look at the reactions.
To deny, disguise, evade or confess.
Only he didn’t think he’d laugh.
He was staring at me for a moment, and Zol was down and laughing.
Then he held his fist against his lower lip, but he couldn’t stand it, laughing more and more, and couldn’t stop.
Send me a clear signal, I’m making love to myself.
My face is a little hotter.
Yeah, well, I don’t think he’ll like me.
Over the years, he has said that he has been around a lot of flowers, but he has been really picky and passionate, and has identified one person and no one else in his eyes.
Last time he went to his house, he was staring at a picture, and I didn’t even see it behind him.
The girl in the picture smiled with a brown curly hair, and was his ex-girlfriend.
That’s when I realized that five years ago, just as I couldn’t let go of the river, I couldn’t let go of his ex-girlfriend.
When he smiled enough, I defended myself with my head, “It’s not my fault who made you act like that.”
“Oh, what happened to me? “It feels like he wants to laugh again.
“It’s–” I look down and my face is hot, I don’t know what to say.
Gu Cha called me out of the blue, and I just saw him come down.
The damp and hot breath was spilling over my face, and at the same time he was so close, he looked at me in a steady manner, and the emotions in his eyes were destroyed.
But when I didn’t react, in two seconds, he got up and walked away.
Looking at me, you can’t see whether you’re serious or joking. I’m sorry.
I’m a little confused, but I’m still being honest, “Of course not. I’m sorry.
He was silent for a long time, and he smiled, and he said, “Obviously, neither did I. I’m sorry.
Make sure I’m being tricked. I heard him whispering.
“Ah, like, it only makes sense to run in two directions, right? I’m sorry.
I looked at him like I understood or I didn’t.
Gutsang said he wanted to sleep, and I helped him pack everything, put out the lights and lay on the side of the bed.
Watch.
It’s true that Jiang Mae changed his cell number and…
All of a sudden, Gu Chai has one.
A man.
Intuition tells me it’s the river.
“With the nurses. In the dark, Gutsang’s voice is full of fatigue and sounds dumb.
I was a little hot when I woke up, “Kuda, I’ll repay you later. I’m sorry.
“Don’t paint me a pie. Let’s hear it. “He’s so sleepy and pathetic.
I looked at my back and I didn’t answer.
Gutsang didn’t talk anymore, breathed shallow and fell asleep.
Take back your eyes, click on your business card, write “it’s me” in your confirmation message, and send out a request from a friend in a tremor.
I thought it was time to go to sleep, and the result was passed quickly.
I asked him why he kissed me, and I asked him about the pregnant woman.
As a result, no word was sent.
I’m sorry about the office. I’m sorry.
I’m surprised he apologized to me and thought for a moment, “Did you never forget me? I’m sorry.
But I regret it when I’m done.
When he hesitated to withdraw, he said, “Ho, it’s impossible.” I’m sorry.
I was staring at the impossible for a minute, and I had to type, “Because of the pregnant woman? Is she your girlfriend?”
He seemed to have settled and returned two words: “No. I’m sorry.
I’ve been crying for a long breath and I feel like I’m reborn.
Then I thought, “Why did she call you husband?” and he changed the subject:
“How’s Guttung at night? I’m sorry.
I waited for a few seconds, and I didn’t really think he’d be able to talk to me about work or type a report.
“He’s not unusual. He hasn’t touched water while he’s being wiped. I’m sorry.
Suddenly there was silence.
At last, when I realized it was wrong, the news could not be answered.
A few minutes later, I had a nice face bag.
A visible red exclamation mark.
I couldn’t sleep without looking at the starter screen.
The next morning, when Jiang Mae did not come to check the house, the nurse said that he was in trouble and took half a day off before coming to work in the afternoon.
It was hard to get through the afternoon, and I stripped the oranges and looked at the door from time to time, but that look never came out.
“What did you talk about last night? He didn’t even come to work. I’m sorry.
Gutsheng picked up half of my orange hand and asked slowly.
Remembering the stupid thing I did last night, I lost my face and fell down, “He seems to have misunderstood us again. I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong? “It’s not like I’m going to be able to hear it.”
And his peaches have a small turn in their eyes, and they smell of some deep love.
“I like you. I’m after you. It’s an objective fact. How can it be a misunderstanding? I’m sorry.
I looked at him in circles.
“On the face, I’m no worse than him. I’m sorry.
“Stands high, I’m a metre nine. I’m sorry.
“On physical strength…”
He smiled, “You saw it last night. I’m sorry.
While I’m at it, Gu Chai leans over, and says, “Hey, will you give me a chance?” I’m sorry.
He said it was light, low-handed and gentle.
“Dr. Jiang, how long have you been standing at the door? Why don’t you go inside? I’m sorry.
9
Subconsciously overlooking the past.
He stood at the door, staring at us faceless.
The back was flat and the scalp was numb.
The powerful desire for life has brought me to the door with the horror of oppression.
“The river is down…”
The river looked at me in cold and cold, and said nothing, and walked away, and even the pace penetrated the cold.
“Imbecile, go after him?”
Gu’s reminder pulled my mind back and pursued the past.
He was supposed to go to the office, but he went down to the parking lot on the negative floor and pulled the door into the car.
I tried to pull the rear door.
Open.
When I got down, I looked at the side of the river, and I said, “Where are we going?” I’m sorry.
“You want to be here?” I’m sorry.
“In this?”
It’s only me that’s looking at you, and I’m in the middle of it, and I’m like, “What else can I do with you?” I’m sorry.
The sound of the sound, the sound of the engine.
Jiang Mae pulls back his sights and concentrates on driving, leaving me with the wrong face.
He looked down on his cell phone to cover his heart and accidentally found himself on a blacklist.
There’s no traffic on the road.
I just closed the door, and I opened it, “I’m going downstairs to get something. I’m sorry.
I’m still in my head, looking at him, “What? I’m sorry.
Jiang Mae didn’t say anything, just staring at me.
I reacted, I had a very hot face.
As soon as we were talking, Jiang-seon closed the door.
I stood still and decided that when the river came back, everything would go away.
Waiting for a while, suddenly thirsty, went to the fridge and turned around, and no mineral water was found.
I just saw a bottle of wine on the table.
I just wanted a few drinks at first, but it’s amazing how it makes you forget everything, and it reminds you of a lot of things, and it only takes more to forget.
Five years ago, I went to the river.
He wasn’t at the hospital at the time. I asked other interns, they told me.
“Dr. Jiang has become colder since he broke up, depressed and depraved, and doesn’t even communicate. I’m sorry.
They then said that a beautiful schoolgirl was pursuing the river and trying to get him out of the haze of falling in love, and that they had a good look at her.
Half a bottle of wine fell under my head, and I almost had a headache, with my feet like cotton in the bedroom, and I went straight to the bed.
In the middle, it appeared that the door had been pushed and someone walked in.
There’s a cold touch on the forehead.
“Don’t drink too much. I’m sorry.
His voice is still faint, but he is a little gentle.
My heart shivered unsuspectingly, and it was sorely wrapped up.
I sucked my nose, opened my eyes a little, and fell into the familiar eyes, and I said, “I regret it, the river has fallen.” I’m sorry.
He looked at me, a little complicated with dark eyes.
“All these years, I really miss you. I’m sorry.
And We looked in silence at this handsome face near, and could not help but reach out and touch his shiver, his nostrils, and his warm, thin lips.
“Think about me. Why have you never come to see me? I heard him whisper.
“I did! I couldn’t help but say, “I went to see you five years ago, when they said a schoolgirl was chasing you, you didn’t reject her, and you promised to go to dinner with her! I’m sorry.
“It was just a dinner, and my brother was there. I’m sorry.
But at this point, I can’t hear it, I can’t hear it, I can’t hear it, I can’t hear it, I can’t hear it.
“I didn’t send any of those messages. It was my mom. She didn’t agree with us. She threatened me with a jump.
I held him gently, buried my head in his chest, nagging.
“I quit my job a few days ago and I wanted to see you in Beijing. I didn’t know you were here. I’m sorry.
“We almost missed it. I’m sorry.
I can clearly feel his body stiff.
“I haven’t been in love for five years to tell my mother that I don’t want anyone but you. I’m sorry.
“But I’m so scared, I’m afraid you’ve got someone else. But even if you had a girlfriend and even married, what would I do? I’m sorry.
“I give you up and I can’t let you go. I deserve it. You’ve never wronged me. Whatever you do, you’re free. I’m sorry.
“But when I think about you having a girlfriend, I feel sad, and even when I think about it, I cry. I’m sorry.
Untie your hands and rub your eyes, and then you fall out of bed without support.
And a large palm gripped my arm, and he put a belt around my body, and his lips touched something hot and wet.
I’m stunned, too.
He looked at me with his eyelids, and he saw an uncertain mood roll.
And let me step back a little, if the touch of my absence is to summon courage.
Pick it up and touch it with your tongue.
And the next second, his head was tied, and his lips were smashed.
Wake up, it’s already night.
Nobody around.
I held the temple and lay on my bed for a while to remember what had happened before.
Did Jiang come back to the hospital? He seems to have surgery at night.
Gutsun sent me one.
I reply: Indeed, I am happy in mind and mind.
It’s been a minute: good.
I went to the bathroom with my whole body sore, opened the flowers and showered.
After drying, the eyelids grazed through the shampoo and frozen.
There’s a lipstick in the corner.
I happen to know by chance that this is a natural carrot, fertilized skin, but it is.
For pregnant women…
Out of the bathroom, he told himself he couldn’t think about it, but he unwittingly touched his cell phone, and his hand moved quickly and the brain tried to make the first move and dialed the phone.
However, the telephone has been busy.
All of a sudden, there’s something going on in there. I look up.
“No, no, no. Don’t you have a surgery to do? I can do it alone. Um, hang up. I’m sorry.
A beautiful woman stood at the door, with one hand holding the tummy up, nuanced and very skilled in changing slippers.
My heart’s pounding.
She was the pregnant woman I saw that day…
Seeing the moment I was there, she fainted.
“Ho-ho”?
I didn’t know that day, she remembered me.
But why would she know my name?
She looked at me from top to bottom, and she looked at me a little bit. I’m sorry.
In her heart, she’s peaceful, but I don’t feel comfortable, and I don’t answer the question. I’m sorry.
Friends? He told you that? “That’s a friend. I’m sorry.
I wrinkled and asked what else, and she waved and went straight to the bathroom.
When I came out, I had a lipstick in my hand.
“Oh, last time I accidentally left it. “I sensed my eyes, she explained.
I wanted to ask you something, and she said, “I actually knew you a long time ago. I’m sorry.
I looked at her.
“In these five years, every time he gets drunk, he calls out your name. I’m sorry.
And she looked down, and her fingertips up, and she said, “Even with me…”
10
I missed a beat.
With her what?
She didn’t say anything.
It’s hard not to get people to think about what’s really going on between her and Jiangdong.
“I’m really happy to see you two make up. Just pity…”
She’s been groining, laughter and touching her stomach, and she’s got a little bit of a palpable look on her face and a little bit of an undetectable sound.
I looked a little stale.
Not until she left.
A car was taken to the hospital and the road was blocked for more than an hour because of a traffic accident.
In the meantime, the river has sent me many.
He came to the hospital and ran into the river in the elevator.
He’s still the faceless faceless face, except that he’s just done with the surgery, his eyelids are thin and he looks tired.
There’s a lot of people, and he looks at his phone from time to time and doesn’t seem to find me.
I didn’t say anything.
It’s like it’s been stuffed with cotton.
I’ve always known that you’re cold and arrogant and you don’t look very close, but you’re a very principled man.
If that pregnant woman is really his…
He wouldn’t do that with me.
I didn’t think it was the pregnant woman who was lying and trying to get away.
But how do you explain that lipstick in the bathroom and the skilled change of slippers and the tacit “husband” that was brought down by the river?
If there were someone else next to him, what am I with him now?
The spirit came to the ward, and Zhao didn’t play games with his sister, but took the book I brought with him, with the cover on it, and seemed a little distracted.
I heard a noise, I looked up, and I saw a surprise.
“I thought you weren’t coming back tonight. I’m sorry.
Bright pupils, a little smiley lips, but happy instead of tuning.
I looked at him and didn’t know what to say.
Last night was a fight with Gutsang. I was very quiet tonight.
As you can see, the smiles have been silenced.
“Do you think taking care of me makes him uncomfortable? I’m sorry.
And I said, “No, he looked at me and said, “Don’t deny it to me. I don’t know you, little heartless.” I’m sorry.
“Who has no conscience? I’m sorry.
He laughed.
“When I went to college, I was out of touch with him. Who else can keep you in mind? I’m sorry.
I opened my mouth and found no way to rebut it.
He looked at my face, and he was silent for a moment, and he smiled.
“If I had the first idea, I’d have found the nurse this afternoon and she’d be here later. I’m sorry.
He paused a little bit, and he didn’t care.
“Your mother’s side, I told her I got back together with my ex, and she wouldn’t let you take care of me. I’m sorry.
“What do I do to you? I’m sorry.
It’s really good. But too good.
I looked at him for a while with complicated eyes.
Tell yourself it’s been a shame once, not to think.
Back to the rental house, my mom came and she was cooking for me in the kitchen.
It’s amazing, and I don’t know if it’s because I came back from the ward.
Having finished the meal in silence, he was on his way to pack a bowl of chopsticks, and the phone on the table suddenly rings.
Keep an eye on the screen for a long time.
“Isn’t it the river? Why didn’t you answer? I’m sorry.
My mom was humming, and she was whispering in an undisguised genre.
When the chest is flat, the deep sense of power is raging.
I restrained myself and took my cell phone face and turned to my bedroom.
But my mom doesn’t seem to let me go.
“Well, now I don’t even want to hear what I’m saying. He’s the only one in my heart. I’m sorry.
My feet were flat, my ears were ringing, and the pregnant woman’s words and my mother’s words were spinning, drifting, a little bit of agitation, and breathing was kind of hard.
Turning around with no face, one word, “What do you want to say, now you say, I listen. I’m sorry.
My mom was a little eccentric, and there was a little anger in her eyebrow.
“You don’t, I’ll speak for you. I looked at her and said, “I shouldn’t have come back from the ward, I shouldn’t have gone to Beijing to college, I shouldn’t have come down with Jiang, I shouldn’t have done anything you didn’t want me to do, right? I’m sorry.
I’m dying to hold my fingertips and think I can control my emotions, but at this moment, I’ve lost my temper.
“Is it my fault? Am I not for you? I’m sorry.
I smiled, and I just thought my brain would burst.
“Will you force me to choose a profession I don’t like?” Make me break up with someone I like. Call it for me, okay? I’m sorry.
My mom looked at me incredibly, shivering a little bit, holding the table with her bare hands.
“As soon as Dad divorced you, you took everything for my own good, including what I could have decided and arranged. And then you said you loved me.
I closed my eyes and made myself say,
“But I can’t feel your love, I’m suffocating in your so-called love. I’m sorry.
My mother was staring at me and she was breathing.
“So you’re already upset? But you never told me, did you? I’m sorry.
There was a moment when I felt funny and pathetic.
“I really didn’t say that. Mom, you probably forgot. I told you five years ago. What did you do? I’m sorry.
It’s like a nervous breakdown, and my eyes are red, and my voice is shaking, “You’re threatening me with a jump. I’m sorry.
My mom’s twitching, overheading, avoiding my eyes.
“As you wish, I broke up with Jiang Mae, and I stayed here to take care of your mental state and to heal you. I’m sorry.
I rubbed my hands with tears, but the more I rubbed them, “You certainly don’t know, I’ve been thinking about it for five years. I’m sorry.
My mom looked at me like shit.
“I didn’t do it. I wasn’t afraid of dying, but…”
I took a deep breath and looked at her, and I laughed so badly, “Mom, you’re alone with me. I’m sorry.
“Dad doesn’t want us anymore, but I’ll never leave you. I’m sorry.
My mom’s got a red eye, like a kid.
After that day, my mom didn’t come to my rental house for a long time, and I started looking for a new job.
A friend introduced me to the director of an ophthalmological hospital. I went to work in a few days.
As for the river…
I admit I’m avoiding him.
I suddenly realized I’d never changed.
Just like five years ago.
Five years ago, I was afraid to face the river and still did not have the courage to ask him clearly.
Even more ridiculously, I don’t even know what I’m afraid of.
The coup d’état took place on the day he was discharged.
This guy, who’s just as sick as he’s gonna be, called a bunch of friends in his apartment to party and say he’s celebrating his rebirth.
I didn’t want to go.
But Gu’s pathetic, “I’m leaving the country, okay? I’m sorry.
I can’t say anything when I say no.
I’ll be there by the day of the appointment.
As soon as I entered the door, I saw that Gudg was surrounded by a large crowd.
His cheeks were dazzling, and his eyes were dazzled, but he did not seem to care, and he was given a drink.
I wrinkled, and I’m going to take his glass.
There’s a cold, low sound coming from behind me. I’m sorry.
Eleven.
The sound of familiarity makes me move.
There was no turning back, the sight fell, the urge came from nowhere, and the wine was taken from him.
Alcohol is in my throat, it’s a little burning, but it makes me cough a few times.
A short boy who’s trying to get in there and he’s exaggerating, “Whoa, sister-in-law, that’s good! I’m sorry.
I clearly felt the “sister-in-law” coming out, and it was colder in the back, like millions of ice knives falling down on the back.
“What’s blind? I’m sorry.
I looked at him like he wasn’t smiling.
I don’t feel much.
He used to pay heed to his friends, no matter who the girl was around, to call her sister-in-law.
I took a look at the empty bottle on the table and I wrinkled.
“You’ve just got out of the hospital and you’re dead? I’m sorry.
Gutsang smiled, reaching out his hand seemed to be trying to rub my hair, but then he shrunk back in the middle of the sky and looked behind me for a long time.
“Don’t blame me if I don’t remind you that you’re doing this to me. I’m sorry.
I slit my lips. “Did you send him here? I’m sorry.
Gutsang smiled and admitted it was very generous. I’m sorry.
I don’t want to talk to him anymore. I just found a couch to sit down and play with my phone.
Suddenly a glass of milk appeared in front of you.
Look up with your long, long, cold eyes.
My heart is shaking.
“Wake up the wine. I’m sorry.
It’s probably the same place as it was five years ago.
It’s like he’s far away from you when he’s concerned. It’s like he’s in the clouds, he can’t figure it out.
“Thank you. * I’ve looked at it, but I haven’t drunk it, put it on the table next to it. *
I’ve never seen my coldness before.
He’s staring at me, looking like he’s looking deep inside me, “Why are you avoiding me? I’m sorry.
I got up and tried to leave, and my wrist was stuck.
And suddenly he made a laugh as though he had mocked himself and as if there was calm before the storm.
“Ho, you regret it again? I’m sorry.
After a moment of silence, I tightened my fingers and threw a word out. I’m sorry.
And when I looked at the pain in his eyes, my heart was so delicately sour.
Just last night, I got one.
Just opened her circle and saw a picture of her on top.
In the photograph, the river was strewn with a baby and the cold eyebrows were always covered with confusion.
And she said: Ha ha, for the first time, forgive you! I’m sorry.
My nose was sore, my heart was so sad, I threw his hand out of the bathroom.
I didn’t open the door and my hand was caught again.
“Leave me alone!” I’ve had a hard time, and it’s very cold.
The way the river looked at me was a little disappointed, “Ho, you’re still the same as five years ago. I’m sorry.
I struggled so hard to get out of his control, he strangled me.
“It was you who broke up, you who said you couldn’t let go, and now it’s you who regrets. I’m sorry.
The low-pressure voice in the ear sounds a little confused.
“Did you enjoy having fun with me? A lot of success?”
My eyes are redder.
“And you, didn’t you fool me too? Do you dare say that you are worthy of Chu and your children? I’m sorry.
He looked at me in the wrong eyes, and he said, “I’m interrupting.”
“That’s it. It’s me who wants to get back together with you without knowing the truth, and you stay with Chu Chu and I…”
“With Gu’s? “He went on in cold, and looked at my eyes and laughed.
The body is so tight, it’s shivering in a second, and it’s just talking.
“Yeah, you knew that. My first favorite was Gu Cham and his old relationship was not normal.”
The last word he swallowed into his belly.
He turned around my face, kissed my lips, and was confined.
It’s like trying to kill me.
I struggled harder, but he was not his opponent at all, and he knew my body too well.
I think he tasted my tears, and he was frozen.
And he groaned from my lips in the sight of his eyes, and his bellies softly rubbed down my eyes, and his words were tender and evil.
“Don’t cry. He’s out there. Do you want him to see you? I’m sorry.
I can’t talk, I want to kick him, and I hear a slightly awkward sound coming from a distance:
“We have seen…”
Turn around.
Those friends of Gutsang are staring at us, including standing in the middle, with their hands in their pockets, watching us in peace.
It’s the boy who just called me “sister-in-law.”
He scratched his head and bit his ear with the guy next to him. I’m sorry.
The guy next to me turned his eyes.
Zhang Chun, you’ve been kicked in your fucking head? It’s not obvious, it’s obvious that they’re in love with each other. I’m sorry.
Words down, Gutsang took a look at him.
He was only then able to see his head down.
Back in the hall, everyone sits on the sofa, nobody speaks and the atmosphere is strangely silent.
Zhang Zhang is a bit of a lively person.
“Let’s play the game. How about a real adventure? I’m sorry.
People turned their backs, saying, “This game is too old.”
“Okay. “Just be honest. I’m sorry.
He put an empty beer bottle on the table, and his voice was lazy and unquestioned.
“The two teams, five plates, to whom the bottle is directed, will answer one question. I’m sorry.
Seeing the faces of all the people who have taken up their cups and drank it without their heart, while staring at the river,
“Are you coming?”
12
I am surprised that Jiang-min did not reject it.
He never plays this game.
Quiet room, Sitting on the same side as Gu’s.
One faceless, the other lazy.
Zhang Zhang twirled the beer bottle, which swung at speeds and slowly slowed down.
They’re not moving in front of the river.
Gu Chai’s lips bend.
“Have you been in love with her for five years? I’m sorry.
“No.” I’m sorry.
Gutsun picked out the frown on me.
I don’t believe in it. If I’m not in love, what is it?
For the second time, the beer bottle was still in front of the river.
Gutsang laughed, thought for a moment, and looked at Jiang-min and said, “Did you move this time from Beijing? I’m sorry.
He and his eyes were calm, but there was a message of sovereignty: “Yes, I will not let her go.” I’m sorry.
My heart croaks, my eyes fall down, my heart laughs.
It was only a little bit of tenderness, but it was always him.
For the third time, the beer bottle was still in front of the river.
Gu’s not proud this time, but he’s more serious. What about your kids? I’m sorry.
I was breathing and I had a hot face.
Looks like they heard all about me and Jiang-min.
It has been said that the river is slightly overlooking me, looking straight at me, and that there is an illusion in explaining it to me.
“Tru was my school sister and became my sister-in-law. I’m sorry.
I can’t believe it.
He did.
“My brother drove to the airport six months ago to pick up my dad, and there was an accident, and she was excited and her memory was confused, and I was mistaken for my brother. I was afraid I’d get her to give birth, so I didn’t reveal it. I’m sorry.
And I looked at him, and my heart snapped, as if it would pop out in the next second.
In other words, Chu did call him “husband” and he didn’t deny it.
But if Chu’s memory is really confused and treats him like his brother, why do you know about me and him five years ago and tell me what’s wrong?
Unless…
It’s a fake.
She had always liked the river, so she deliberately approached him as if he was insane.
When she saw him coming here for me, she managed to leave lipstick in the bathroom, deliberately changed her slippers, and said to me, “I don’t know what to say,” to make me think I’m wrong about him.
The beer bottle turned for the fourth time and stopped in front of Gu.
I’m sorry.
All eyes fell on him.
Zhang’s eyes were full of excitement and whispered, “The sky is turning back and the sky forgives who.” I’m sorry.
The river is moving, and it doesn’t seem to be.
He took a look at Gu, and he asked, “Do you like Zoo too? I’m sorry.
Gutsang looked at him, and he had no emotions, no voice, “I drank. I’m sorry.
Then he picks up the glass and takes it with determination.
For the fifth and last time, the bottle also refers to Gu Chau.
Gu was smiling for two seconds, with the head leaning back and feeling a little outside.
It seems that he will not answer whatever he asks.
And the river looked at him, if thoughtful.
“It’s too much compared to him. Zhang Zhang held his fist and hated the iron and the steel, “No wonder he lost the game and lost the woman again. I’m sorry.
The man next to him disagreed, saying, “Isn’t it true that there is no one else but Zhu Chacheng, and no one else has anything to do with him?” I’m sorry.
Come out of Gu’s apartment, it rained, and Jiang brought me.
On the way, I told him about Chu.
He held his hand on the steering wheel and I saw his arms all blue.
Silenced for a while, he was cold, “I’ll send her back to my mother. I’m sorry.
I said, “Oh” softly.
I thought about it, and I explained what I was saying in the bathroom.
“It’s nothing between me and Gutsun. That’s what I said. I’m sorry.
“I know. “Now think, if you want to be together, you won’t have a chance in five years. I’m sorry.
The atmosphere has fallen into silence again.
And We set our fingertips unwittingly, and when We removed the misunderstanding, and when We had expressed our hearts to one another, there was nothing natural about it.
“Ooh. At this time, the red and green light suddenly calls out my name.
“Aah?”
The river turned its head over, looked at me for a long time, snuffed my lips, and said, “No more, just to call you.” I’m sorry.
“It’s been five years since I called you that. I’m sorry.
The light is a little dark, and the black eye adds a little tenderness to the night.
I didn’t even think, “You can scream anytime you want. I’m sorry.
He seemed to smile, and the cold voice became more magnetic and even sexy.
My face is slightly red.
The rain is asphalting, neon lights are drenched in the rain, and the light becomes somewhat ambiguous.
I didn’t bite my lips until the car was parked at my door.
“It’s raining a little. Would you like to come up? I’m sorry.
The river stunned for a few seconds and raised a smile, “Okay. I’m sorry.
End
I’ve had worse cooking ever since I moved to live with Jiang Mae.
This day, me and Jiang-tang took Gutsang to the plane.
I pulled Gu Chai aside and secretly followed him Versailles.
“It’s good that the river has taken care of me, and I don’t think I’ll ever cook again.” I’m sorry.
I can’t believe he’s not angry, but he’s smiling. I’m sorry.
“How is your mother with him now? “I am not sure what I am going to do.”
And I thought for a moment, to be honest, “Well, it’s a little weird, but it’s not bad on the whole. I’m sorry.
Gutsun smiles, “Good. I’m sorry.
And We took him up and down, and if I thought about it, “You seem to have a kind of mercy. I’m sorry.
“Fuck you.” I’m sorry.
The airport broadcast went off and Gu Chong raised his ticket, “I have to go. I’m sorry.
“Send me a message when you get there. * I’m not saying anything, I’m not saying anything. *
Gu’s eyes will be on me, and I’ll be gone. I’m sorry.
“Ah?” My tears are back.
He’s laughing, and suddenly he’s down, “I’ll tell you a secret. I’m sorry.
I took a few steps back, looked at the river and found nothing wrong on his face. I’m sorry.
Gu was staring at me for a while, and then he pulled out a wrinkled note from his pocket, saying,
“Don’t look now. Just wait for you to come home and not show him, okay? I’m sorry.
On the way back, he sat in the car with his seatbelt fastened, and the next second he reached out to my chin and covered his lips.
He held his hand on my side, with his finger on my neck for a while, and the light car fell on me.
“What did he give you? I’m sorry.
“A note, saying there’s a secret, let me go home and read it. My voice is a bit dumb.
“Oh? He’s quiet and can’t hear anything.
I looked at his face, and I couldn’t stop laughing, “But I decided not to look. I’m sorry.
He picked the bulges and had an accident.
I put my hand out of the window in peace, my hand was spread out and the note was blown to pieces.
“If it’s a secret, let it remain a secret. I’m sorry.
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Gu Cham: Secrets
One.
The other day in the ward, Ho was like, “Do you like me?” I’m sorry.
I noticed that her eyebrows were soft and her fingertips shrunk down.
The lights were bright, she was nervous, hesitating and glamorous.
There’s a little bit of fear that maybe she didn’t even notice.
The subtle moves and the eyes are amplified by silence and silence many times, which makes me a little gruesome.
She’s scared for what I might like.
Scared of what?
Probably afraid I’d admit it and cause trouble between her and him.
Somehow, she suddenly remembered the day she graduated with a love letter.
She was wearing a dark dress of goose and yellow, with her hair soared into ponytails, and two bright yellow hair belts soared in the wind, like a flower of spring that looked at me without looking at me and was nervous and shy.
It’s kind of like this, but it’s different.
I bowed my head and laughed softly.
Laughing and laughing, the pain of my heart spread.
I don’t want to lie to her anymore.
And laugh, you can answer a lot, you can hide a lot.
Pretending to be yourself, paralyzing others, laughing is the best mask of humanity.
You see, she finally got the answers she wanted, and she finally got it.
Isn’t that great?
After I got out of the hospital, in the name of rebirth, I opened a party in the apartment, and invited those two people who were still twitching each other.
I was asked the same thing in the game of truth.
“Do you like Zilong too? I’m sorry.
I’m not surprised.
I can’t see what I’m looking at.
And when the misunderstanding had been lifted, her eyes were all on that man, focused, gentle, warm.
There was no tension, no fear and no distress.
She doesn’t care about that anymore.
While relieved, it appeared that the heart was suddenly empty, cold and bitter.
“I drink. I heard my voice.
Zhang Zhang felt like I was stung, I didn’t deny it.
It’s, uh, it’s pretty lame.
When the game was over, I took the wine on the table, one after the other, and the alcohol broke into the bottom of the table, as if it would alleviate some indescribable pain.
Zhang Zhang can’t watch them anymore.
We looked at them with ten fingers in their arms, and we laughed and looked down.
In the middle, I seem to hear them talking.
“You didn’t have to ask him that question. He had a girlfriend. I’m sorry.
He obviously doesn’t believe it, and it’s not very clear. I’m sorry.
“She’s abroad, the girl I mentioned to you five years ago. I’m sorry.
The voice of the conversation had become lighter and more distant, and the two had come to the door and were leaving.
“What girlfriend?” What’s that?
“Sam, when have you been with us all these years? I didn’t even have a female fly next to me…”
“Just call your sister-in-law and Ho-ho…”
I stood up and looked at him with a terrible warning.
Whispering, looking away at the door.
I’m not sure she heard it.
But I feel like her footsteps are fine.
The next second, she naturally and firmly reached out to hold his arm and left together.
And suddenly the sky rained, and I stood at the door, and saw the backs of the two moving away.
“Sam, are you crying? Zhang’s voice is slightly shaky and implausible.
I looked at him for nothing.
“Go away, don’t you see it’s raining? I’m sorry.
Zhang’s got no interest in it.
The music is soft inside.
Love’s getting cold
My heart is cold
Time’s getting slow
We gotta go…”
I touched a cigarette and it didn’t light for half a day.
Boom.
It’s probably because it’s too rain and it’s too blurry.
Forget it, no more.
I looked at her again.
I don’t know.
Well, I think I’m really crying.
How can you not like it?
From kindergarten to high school, she ran behind me for over a decade.
Two.
When I first moved in when I was six years old, our family came to visit Ho’s house with fruit.
The grown-ups are talking outside. Her mother asked me to go to the bedroom and play with her.
The door opened and saw a girl crawling through the window, half of her body running over it and leaning forward.
That was our first meeting.
I got scared and opened my mouth.
And when He found me, he put his finger on his lips, and made it clear that I should not speak.
She held her down safely and carefully closed the door so she told me that her mother was very strict and never allowed her to go out to play, so she ran through the window every time.
“This is a secret between us, Brother Gu Chai. I’m sorry.
At one point, she turned her eyelids and looked up at me, and the light and the beauty of her eyes caused me to overstep my head.
And then her mother was just a little strong.
Until then, when we went to high school, her parents started fighting a lot, and I could hear glass breaking at home.
I was a little restless. I bought a strawberry cake to find her.
It was only at her house that the window was placed on the rail.
Her parents were still out arguing, and she was eating cake, and there was a clear slap on her face, and it was almost deaf:
“Chu Chau, you don’t have to help me keep a secret anymore. My mother found out. I’m sorry.
“She said they would influence my studies and force me to cut them off. I don’t have any friends anymore. I’m sorry.
I looked at her.
I suddenly found out there was light in that eye, and there was nothing left.
All she can see now is a good one. A bad one.
There was an inexplicable pain in my heart, and I came to her and coughed.
“Who said you had no friends? I’m sorry.
She looked at me.
I leaned down and looked her in the eye, and I said, “You and me.” I’m sorry.
She looked at me, and the mood in her eyes seemed to be changing, and then she opened her face.
After that, I feel like my relationship with her has changed slightly.
Sometimes she sneaks at me, looks at me, looks down, her ears are red.
When I play basketball, she never likes to watch basketball and sits still, rubs my sweat and sends water.
She’s still empty and good, but she’s got another one.
And suddenly in my heart, there was a strange and strange sense of satisfaction.
Because this is for me.
Of course I know what she’s thinking, because so am I.
In this way, I’ll tell her when I graduate, we’ll go to Beijing to college, we’ll get married after graduation, we’ll travel around the world on our honeymoon, and I’ll even think about the names of our future kids.
If I don’t see it.
My dad was on business the other day, and I just came home to get my stuff.
There was a heavy rain, cold and wet, but the house was filled with hot, tumultuous clothes.
The voice of the two men was hidden in the Lord’s bedroom, but they blew up in my ears.
The confusion and the lack of faith are interwoven into a sense of implausibility, and I only feel that my head is lumbering, drowsy and difficult to breathe.
There’s something in my heart that’s falling down a little bit. It’s all gray.
Those two are my mom and her dad.
How is that possible?
When we finished the exam, her father and her mother filed for divorce on the grounds that her mother was too strong.
Soon after, my parents got divorced without warning, and my mother explained that my dad was too busy.
Nobody knows the real reason.
Just me.
Just me.
Only I know.
But why, why only I know.
The day my mom moved out, I played a basketball all night, and I sat down on the floor and had a big breath, and the confusion and the exhausting physical energy that made my mind faint.
And suddenly the feeling of coolness came upon the forehead, as if it were magic that made my heart secure.
I know it’s her.
Only she can find me.
She put my head in her arms and she whispered, “You have me. I’m sorry.
For a moment, I tried so badly to tell her that she was in the same darkness and mud that I did, so that I would not be alone in suffering.
But I can’t.
I couldn’t bear to upset her.
And then I realized how much I liked her.
Not long ago, she confessed to me.
The first reaction is that I should do this.
And then suddenly realized I couldn’t promise her.
How can I face me and the relationship between the two of us if I don’t care what happens to her and if she finds out about it?
What would her mother do when she knew the truth?
After all, her mother likes me so much that she’s satisfied that I’m obvious.
Most importantly, I’m afraid she’ll hate me after all this.
Hated me to hide her from the drums and brought her into this disgusting relationship like her father abandoned her mother.
How I wanted to promise her.
So I was silent, and I read the letter, and I endured the pain of my heart, and I said to her, “Oh, I only consider you my sister.” I’m sorry.
She doesn’t believe me.
I invented a girl who didn’t exist and said I liked her and wanted to follow her to study abroad.
He asked Zhang Chien to apply.
Her mother said that she had locked herself in her room, without eating or drinking, and then fainted in her room, woke up and was sick and sick and had to rely on an infusion.
I went to her house and she didn’t want to see me.
Later, I went abroad, and she followed my advice and went to Beijing for college.
And then she met him.
When she accidentally told me her name on countless occasions, she repeated what happened with him.
I finally realized something.
She doesn’t like me anymore.
3
She came to the airport with Jiang Mae.
I put a note in her.
Said to tell her a secret.
Speaking of which, I haven’t told her a lot of secrets.
For example, I don’t have an ex-girlfriend. She’s the only one I’ve ever liked.
For example, I pretended not to see her in the back so she wouldn’t worry about her.
Like my mom and her dad are married and have a boy.
The eyes are kind of like her, nose and lips like me.
And while it’s disgusting, I wonder, if we were married and had kids, would that be the case?
I think it’s a lot of secrets, a piece of paper and nothing.
That paper is blank.
The next day, when I got there, I called her and told her I was safe.
Before she got angry, I forced myself to defend myself.
“I’m not messing with you. Look at that paper. It’s blank. I’m sorry.
The phone was silent for a moment, and suddenly she smiled down, and then she calmed down, and she told me that she knew I was going to do it, so she didn’t look at the note.
I stopped for a while and laughed.
One day, I got drunk and accidentally told Zhang.
He asked me, “Why did you give her that note if you’re not going to say it? I’m sorry.
I didn’t say anything.
What can I say?
Because I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.
I’m sorry we liked each other. Why did my mom and her dad do that? Why did I find out?
I’m sorry to think about it, but if we don’t, never, we might be happy, too, right?
I regret not being able to go to Beijing with her, to marry her after graduation, to travel around the world with her, to have two children with her … I regret that all these things I want to do with her will be done with another person.
That blank piece of paper, it’s not written, it’s a pity.
But for her now,
It’s just a piece of paper.
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
