My last one.
He’s my college teacher and I’ve been in love for years.
After years of graduation, I knew I wasn’t alone.
He frowned and asked me, “How did you get like this?” I’m sorry.
I can only be silent.
How do I tell him that my father became a murderer for two years?
And the man he killed and divided himself was my mother.
I closed my eyes before falling into the lake, thinking the last time we jumped here, I held him and said, “I like you.”
Seems like yesterday.
It’s like it’s been a lifetime.
One.
I was 24 years old and still had a baby solo.
The company’s seniors can’t watch. They want to introduce me.
I was going to say no, and she turned her back and gave me a good count of each other’s advantages: “In less than 30 years, there’s a car, a room, a job that is stable and a good income.” I’m sorry.
“Most of all, he’s handsome. I’m sorry.
I promised her I’d meet her at the cafe downstairs.
I don’t believe it at all.
After all, there’s no place for a young, rich, handsome man to fall into a relationship.
However, when the long, clean body pushed the glass door through the corridor and stood before me, I almost lost my hand over the lemonade in my hand.
Mr. Lu?
The pupils are black, their skin is white, their face is thin, and they seem to be indifferent, and they seem to have a physical appearance.
It was hot today, he was wearing a light white shirt, and the button was still being buttoned to the top.
Only the position of the cuffs showed a prominent wristbone, with a mole on it, which added a bit of ecstasy.
Objectively, it is.
But I held my glass in my hand, and I was like, “Oh, isn’t this Mr. Lu’s? You’re going to be 30 years old, why haven’t you met? I’m sorry.
The earth stood on the table, and looked at me for a moment, and then swung his lips: “Of course, I was waiting for you.” I’m sorry.
Two.
“…”
Of course not.
I’m just a little shocked, I didn’t think I’d come to see each other under the strictest conditions.
I was a college teacher.
In second grade, he taught us linear algebras, and he took revenge on me.
Because on my birthday, I was drinking all night with my roommate at KTV, and the next day I was drunk and went to class, and I said I was going to cut us off.
“We didn’t mean it. It was a school call. I’m sorry.
I stand before the podium, with my head on my back, and I stand in confrontation with the land.
At that time, I had just dyed my hair in red, wearing an exaggerating dress, with two big words on my body.
“I’m the one who organized the event, even if it’s a flat time, you’ll have to take me alone. I’m sorry.
And the earth looked at me, and I looked down, and suddenly I snuggled my lips. I’m sorry.
And then the final exam, he really gave me 59 points.
I couldn’t believe it. I went to the yard looking for Luk Yi, and he wasn’t there.
The teacher at the office kindly told me that it would take about two hours for Yujian to meet outside.
“You can sit here and wait for him. I’m sorry.
I didn’t think Ruijiang had come back too late. I was sitting in his seat and fell asleep on the table.
Half-dreaming, I was pushed by a soft force.
And when he looked up in his eyes, he saw the earth standing before me, and he was still cold, but his eyes were so repulsive.
Then he said, “Sip it away.” I’m sorry.
3
Looking back from my memory, I saw the land in front of me, and even a moment of disquiet.
It’s been four years since he taught me.
But time seems to be stagnating on him, and now it’s 30 years old, compared to the twenty-sixth four years ago.
He sat across from me and ordered a glass of ice.
He took a look at me for a moment and a little bit, and he said, “I’m a little bit more curious — Yujin-san, if I remember correctly, how come you’re 24 years old? I’m sorry.
I was silent for a moment: “Because I don’t want to work anymore. I’m sorry.
The shopkeeper brought up the coffee we ordered, and I took a big sip of ice latte, and then leaned back and showed up with a bunch of hooligans.
“I’m going to find a man to raise me, and then I’m going to resign, I’m going to stay in his house, I’m going to drive his car, he’s going to work to make money, I’m going to pay at home…”
I’ve said a lot of things, and there’s no fluctuations in the landscape across the street.
It’s just that when I said it, I gently lifted my eyelids and swiped my wrists under my sleeves.
“I have one last question. He said, “Why don’t you keep dyeing your red hair?” I’m sorry.
I laughed, “Sensei Lu, look at you — I’ve been graduating for two years. I’m sorry.
That’s what I’m talking about. It’s obviously impossible to keep talking.
I drank the last latte in the cup and asked the clerk to pay for it.
As a result, he reached out to me and stopped me: “I’ll be your teacher, or I’ll do it.” I’m sorry.
4
Come out of the café, Rudd offered to take me home.
And I laughed falsely: “No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Mr. Lu, take your time. I’m sorry.
I turned around the corner, and when the land fell into sight, I pulled my rusty little electric ass out of a bunch of crappy electric bottles.
I lied to Luk Yi.
I actually live far away.
I just knew I had a few pounds.
It’s impossible to say I didn’t like it.
Back in college, because of that amazing face, even his online substitute was harder than any other teacher.
On the eve of graduation, I heard there was a beautiful schoolgirl who had confessed to Yuji and then they were together.
And now that Yujian is out of a blind date… then they broke up?
I was riding an electric car, thinking about going home, and after half an hour I finally reached the crossroads near the neighborhood.
I was waiting for a green light on the street, and I saw myself behind, and the black car that accompanied me stopped.
Then the window of the car was slowly rolled down and the beautiful face of the land was revealed.
“…”
“I came here to find a friend. I’m sorry.
“Hmm. “I live there.” I’m sorry.
And when he spoke, he looked at me with his eyes full of love, and gave me some illusion and little hope.
I had to choke my hand to wake myself up.
The red and green light changed, and I went back on the bottle, and I went on to swing, and I said, “Well, the teacher came home early, I won’t delay you.” I’m sorry.
When the car took off, I turned to the other side of the road and bought half a pound of dead shrimp, a piece of winter melon and brought it home.
The neighborhood that Luk Yi just pointed out was the highest house in the three rings.
The security is tight, the greening is impressive and the house is excellent.
And I live in the back of the market, in an old, tumultuous neighborhood, and every day I have to walk through a water trail that smells like fish before I can get to the door of the unit building.
One road separates two very different worlds.
I went to the fifth floor with the food I bought, and I spun the door with the key and whispered to the dim-lighted living room: “Mom, I’m back. I’m sorry.
5
When I went to work on Monday, Zhou’s sister from next door came up and asked me how I felt about Lu Yi.
Zhou was so eager, she gave me a couple of dates.
I’ve been pushing off, only this once.
If you don’t want to, you’ll have to face the land.
I can’t take her, I can’t say it, but I can’t say it, “Well, it’s okay, it’s what the man thinks. I’m sorry.
This weekend at the café, I’m going to put it in that respect, the lazy, gold-skinned woman’s status is on paper.
It’s only when you’re out of your mind.
And I just thought, and Zhou smiled and said, “I know what the man thinks, and now it’s up to you. I’m sorry.
And I said, “That means…”
She stretched out her hand and slapped my back: “Imbecile boy, it means he’s happy with you.” I’m sorry.
At the same time that Zhou had said this, my phone screen was on.
It’s one.
“When do you get off work? I’ll pick you up. I’m sorry.
I pretended I didn’t see it. I went downstairs after work and pushed my electric donkey.
Just sat on it and suddenly there was a kind of familiar car.
“I’ll take you home.” I’m sorry.
I pretended, “You can’t leave my little bottle in your trunk without Mr. Lu.”
And the voice was not heard, and the window was thrown up, and then the door opened, and the land went straight to me, and the little electric donkey went up: “Take me, too.” I’m sorry.
“…”
I can’t fix it.
His body was constricted in the back of a little electric donkey, and his two long legs almost turned into springs, and his face was very, very flat, as it should be.
When I bite my teeth, I break a jar and I really ride a electric bottle to my home.
As a result, just across a street, the traffic police stopped at the intersection.
“The electric bottle car can’t be carried, can it? “What if I don’t wear a helmet or a little girl with a big man and make a movie?” I’m sorry.
I got out of the car with Lu Xian, paid a fine of $100, received half an hour of training, and left the car where it was.
Uncle Traffic Police asked me to come back tomorrow.
And I stood there, and the earth swung my eyes, and suddenly swung my lips, and smiled, and said, “No way, it seems I’m the only one who sent you.” I’m sorry.
Six.
There is a very good smell of mint in the car, and it’s so cold in the nose.
I put on my seatbelt and turned around and asked him, “So you did it on purpose? I’m sorry.
“Hmm? I’m sorry.
After a few days of pick-up of a car-mounted radio station, Yu Jing turned around and looked at me: “What are you talking about? I’m sorry.
A teacher named Lu, a fellow student named Yu Jing, was politely and politely called because of the most vulgar thing between men and women.
For a moment, I felt totally boring, so I shut up, “No, it’s nothing. I’m sorry.
He chose a music station, and I listened to the sound of a familiar drum in the speaker box, and suddenly I said, “Do you like Kudo?” I’m sorry.
“No, it’s the listener’s song.” I’m sorry.
I see.
I look down and I don’t speak, but I’ve always been the one who started the conversation: “I remember when I was in college, you said the most, from before to after class. I’m sorry.
I laughed, “No, that’s why you answer the question every day.” I’m sorry.
“So why don’t you talk now? I’m sorry.
The sunset sank and the stinging red came in from the glass in front of the car, stabbing me in front of my eyes.
And I closed my eyes and groaned softly: “Teacher Lu, look what you say. People change. I’m sorry.
I told him I wanted to say goodbye.
And he got out of the car, naturally, and came up with it: “Well, I’m going to buy some food, and we’ll go together.” I’m sorry.
There is a cold and dreary air on the surface, which clearly separates him from the crowding of the vegetable market.
And this is so great that from time to time the passers-by looks, and he does not care, but follows me in peace.
I picked a little green dish and then I stood in front of the shrimp stand.
After being patiently with me for a while, he finally asked me, “What are you doing?” I’m sorry.
“Wait. I said, “Wait till the shrimp dies. I’m sorry.
“…”
And I explained to him with great patience when I saw the harshness of the earth, and I explained: “As a rule, shrimp spends a day in this environment, that is all. The price of dead shrimp is only two thirds of the price of live shrimp, but it’s not bad for the taste of life if it’s bought back and cooked. I’m sorry.
In the end, Yujiang and I bought half a pound of prawns in the eyes of the boss.
The next few days, he started to drive to pick me up every day and then hang out with me at the market and split up.
If he tried to refuse, he was pushed back in the right place.
The company was set up on Friday afternoon to drink a round of wine, and it was too late.
I wasn’t really drunk, but I was dazed, and I sat on the stairs at the door, and a man came to me and cried, “Ju Jian.” I’m sorry.
“Ju Jian, I’ll take you home. I’m sorry.
It’s Lin Wuk from the department next door. I just got into my post, he came to confess to me, and when he was rejected, he met me, and she fell in love with him, and she didn’t like him.
“No need. I’m sorry.
It’s probably drinking and he’s got the guts to hear me say no, and he stretches out his hand and pulls out my sleeve, and his finger rubs on my wrist, and then he shrunk back for two seconds.
Next second, the cold sound of the land is on my head.
“What are you doing? I’m sorry.
7
Rin Wuk is busy pulling his hand back and smiling: “I’m a U-jin colleague, and she’s not feeling well because she’s drunk. I’m sorry.
He didn’t respond. He just came to pick me up and went to his parking place.
Lin Xu said in the back: “O Cadillac, indeed women like rich, poor. I’m sorry.
The land around them suddenly stops.
A moment later, he turned his head and looked at it with cold and sharp eyes: “What else?” You like it when you’re 30? Or do you like to go after them? I’m sorry.
When he was taller, he was colder and more violent, and twitched, and sipped on the floor and turned his head.
I was standing there, somehow, laughing.
I’m being held in a side drive and I’m wearing a seatbelt. The smell of cold mints went into my nose, and my drink woke up, and I turned to him and said, “Did Zhou call you?” I’m sorry.
“Hmm. He answered, he turned on the car’s sound, he started the car, and she said you drank, and I didn’t feel well. I’m sorry.
Looks like Lin Wuk told him about me.
I sat there with my chin in my hand, in silence, and there was a familiar sound of music on the sound of the car, The Brave Man. This time it’s not a radio station, and I asked Lu, “You’re listening to them too? I’m sorry.
“When you said it the other day, I went back and checked and found out it was a band…”
“Taiwan’s. I whispered.
“Yeah, but it doesn’t seem like there’s a lot of songs. I put them in the list. I’m sorry.
He said, “Well, I’d really like to know more about you.” I’m sorry.
He was so sincere in saying that he was gentle and careful with silk in his voice.
The intoxication of my mind was meant to run straight into my head, and for a moment I was like, “Are you serious? I’m sorry.
“Of course. “I’m not young either, Yu Jian, and everything I say to you is 100% true. I’m sorry.
At a time when the song is on the mountain and sea: “As long for a happy ending, we have not been ourselves.” I’m sorry.
I can’t talk. There’s only quiet music in the car.
The car was parked on the side of the road, and Lu Xian pulled the door for me, helped me get out of the car and stood steady, and took my hand and walked with me.
“It’s too late for me to trust you. I’m sorry.
He was too measured to take me to the gate of the unit building, and stopped and said to me: “Go upstairs, I will leave when I see the light on.” I’m sorry.
It’s like there’s something in the throat that makes it hard to breathe. I’m holding on to the belt, I’m going up the stairs, I’m going to open the door, I’m going to press the switch.
The dark light came down, and I looked down from the window, leaned on my head, waved at me, and turned away.
8
That night, I dreamed about college again.
“Sip your mouth. I’m sorry.
Having said that, I was completely awake and jumped out of my chair: “Mr. Lu, how can you give me 59 cents?” I’m sorry.
“It took a minute. “You’re asking for it. I’m sorry.
This man, eat soft and not hard.
It took me a second to realize it, and then I changed my sad face: “Sir, I know I’m wrong, so can’t you just help me to add it back to every class I’ve given a happy share of my class?” I’m sorry.
Landlord didn’t speak, I pulled his sleeves and put my hands together to bow.
He finally spoke.
“Let’s start the exams, I’ll get the papers, and I can get you some focus. “Did you bring your textbooks?” I’m sorry.
The focus was very useful, and I spent the summer trying to figure it out, and I finally passed the pre-school quiz.
To thank you, I went to the office with a bunch of weird cookies I baked.
He’s writing a paper, and I’m taking a look on the screen, all in English, and I can’t read a word.
“Mr. Lu, thank you for your focus. I’ve done my exams. I looked at him with a smile, and I said, “This is my own baked cookie, not very good, but very good. I’m sorry.
“Why not red?” I’m sorry.
“Too bad hair can’t keep color, and then it’s over. I’m sorry.
And I drew my hair, and I laughed, and I said, “I’m going to change it tonight, and I’m going to dye it to the North Star. I’m sorry.
I thought he didn’t know what the North Star was about, and I turned his picture over with my phone, and I accidentally crossed it over to one of the ones I had taken in his class.
The air condensed for a second, and I embarrassedly took my phone back and pretended it was nothing: “Sir Lu, that’s nothing I left first. I’m sorry.
Mr. Lu?
It’s like it’s just come back to me and it’s like, “Well. I’m sorry.
I went downstairs and went to the school’s new building. The sun of the fall was still dry from summer, and I shook my head, somehow, and the ghost raised its head up and looked up.
The window on the second floor, where the land is standing, with a strange cookie in its hand, is staring at me.
9
I didn’t learn anything else later, the school was too big and I only met him occasionally.
One time, I wore a big dress to my ankles, a lolita dress, a gray blue long curly curly under my flat hat. In a hurry to take classes in another school building, he could only mention his skirt running on the road.
That night, the running video was mounted on a white wall.
The comment section is full of praises, praises and insults. The roommate sent the link, and I turned it off at a glance, and I kept hanging my headphone and jumped forward.
Then it hit the land.
A step back to stand still, and I lifted my eyes and fell into a vortex.
“Ju Jian. I’m sorry.
The next second I woke up from a dream.
The room was dark, and the white moonlight came in through the curtains. I touched a sticky, cold sweat behind my back, and I got out of bed and ran into the bathroom.
The light of the light bulbs is dazzling and dark, and the people in the mirror are thin as they exaggerate, and their soft hair is only of the length of their ears, and their faces are pale.
And most importantly, the eyes that used to be flying are now dead and dead.
I was silent in the mirror for a long time, and I held my lips very hard.
And then he went back to his bedroom and he hacked the land.
This sleep is so heavy, it’s like a thousand broken dreams and nothing.
When I open my eyes again, it’s dusk.
More than a dozen calls were made to the silent cell phone and a text message was sent three hours ago.
“Ju Jian, I’m downstairs. I’m sorry.
10
I was even wearing that sweaty nightgown when I came downstairs.
The land was standing by the street lights, with a cigarette in its fingertips, as if it were a silent but obscurant statue.
At 6 p.m., the sun will be dark and the sunset will paint a large area of red blood. This is the hottest day of the day in the old neighborhood, and every once in a while there are children chasing and running, and they look at him.
I stopped a few steps away, I watched the landing, I didn’t know how to say it.
The residual effects are still in my body, and my brain is a little slow, and I see the plume of smoke being thrown into the trash and coming towards me.
Every step, it’s like stepping on my heart.
He stopped before me and looked at me.
I thought he’d at least ask something, like what happened, like why I had to take him.
But he did not ask anything, but he touched my wet hair and held my hand: “Let’s go, I will take you to dinner.” I’m sorry.
And suddenly I thought of that long ago.
In primary school, I beat him hard on the ground because I was bullied by the same table and was taken to the office by the teacher. She asked me to write a check, and I tore the paper out of the office, ran all the way out of the school and stayed in front of the bookstore near the house.
At dusk, Mom found me.
She didn’t ask anything, she just said, “What do you want to eat? Mom bought you fried chicken. I’m sorry.
Can’t think anymore.
I smoked my nose, I didn’t throw it away, I followed him into a restaurant in silence.
I’ve picked out a white shrimp and a fried winter melon.
“You look like you only eat shrimp. I’m sorry.
I know what he wants to ask, but I’m not asking, “After all, add protein. I’m sorry.
In fact, in this inland city in the north, uncheap riverfruit is never the best option.
I think it is also clear to him that he did not ask again, but patiently helped me to peel shrimp after the dishes were brought to the table.
And the full-white shrimp meat was only in the bowl, and I lamented and asked him, “Do I have to be the one?” I’m sorry.
He said calmly, “Yes. I’m sorry.
So I stopped talking, and I finished everything in the bowl, and the landing went down to settle the bill.
When he came back, I pulled the rose petals out of the white vase, crushed them to the point, and looked at him, “You might have to pay for an extra rose.” I’m sorry.
And he put his hand in his pocket and smiled at me with his eyes: “They said the flowers were for the guests. I’m sorry.
I made a mistake, so I dropped the petals that were scattered over the table and went off with the landing. Instead of taking me home, he took me into the car parked by the road and handed me a paper bag.
“What? I didn’t answer, “Is there a gift? I’m sorry.
“I asked a teacher from the music department of the art school next door about a record store in the alley in the southern suburbs. He said, “This morning, I drove over and looked. I’m sorry.
I took out what was in the bag, and it was a album, the “Glub” in Kudo, even with a handwritten signature.
I’m squirming around the album’s husks, feeling a violent emotional rush and running out of control.
It took a lot of effort to crush the sourness of my eyes, and I bit the tip of my tongue and looked at him. I’m sorry.
Eleven.
He contacted me that night. He arranged the place to jump, but we were scheduled for the weekend half a month later because of the epidemic.
I said yes, and then for the next half month, he still came to pick me up every day from work and showed me some recent developments in the car with stitches.
“I’ve just been promoted to associate professor, and next semester I’m starting with a graduate student. I’m sorry.
“Tomorrow will be the last session of this semester, and soon the students will be on summer vacation. I’m sorry.
The night before he was about to jump, he drove, and suddenly told me, “Today, before I left school, I ran into your college roommate, Lin Ling.” I’m sorry.
“She’s surprised to hear I’m here to pick you up, that you haven’t contacted them since graduation. I’m sorry.
He paused and said, “Did something happen to you? I’m sorry.
“What can I do? It’s just too busy to work. I’m sorry.
I wonder if Lu Xian believed it, but he did not ask again, except that, as usual, he sent me to the side of the road, bought food with me and said goodbye at the door.
“Get some rest early at night. I’m sorry.
His eyes fell on my face, with a gentle twilight, “Ju Jian, see you tomorrow.” I’m sorry.
“See you tomorrow. I’m sorry.
I am a little afraid of heights, but when I stand on the prowl side by side, I feel an extraordinary calm.
The height is 50 metres above the surface, and the bottom is a whole mirror of a lake, which can even feel a slight dizziness when the probe looks down.
“Be careful.” I’m sorry.
The staff came up, tied the rope between our waists, and I looked over my head and I hit my lips, and I said, “Son Lu, would we be martyred if the rope suddenly broke? I’m sorry.
I haven’t called his teacher in a long time.
The waves were moving in the eyes of the land and whispered, “Yes. I’m sorry.
But I didn’t know if it was the lake or his eyes.
The staff seriously clarified: “Ma’am, our ropes are strong and no such accident is possible. I’m sorry.
She’s really cute.
I was laughing a second before I jumped, but the feeling of weightlessness and dying came and even the screams that were about to exit were stuck to my throat.
In the sound of the wind, I heard the voices of the land that were vague but solemn.
“Ju Jian, I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I’m sorry.
I close my eyes and I close my eyes and I like you so much. I’m sorry.
And the mountains and the waters of the lakes are vast, and the sun in the heavens and the earth is not over, and of all things there is nothing but the earth and I, and the tears that are crucified in the wind, are small.
I was finally held by Yujio at the first moment of life and death.
I didn’t say anything after being pulled up, but it was as if he was in the clouds.
For a moment I couldn’t tell whether I was dreaming or living in a purgatory reality.
It was not until the first time that the land had taken my hand down the hill, but when I had gone around the back, I discovered that the broken wooden door by the side of the road was a covert, from where a little boy came in with a cat on his waist.
I even asked him a question: “I heard that there was a pretty girl who studied second degree who told you about it.” I’m sorry.
He said, “Yes, but I did not. I’m sorry.
I see.
When we got to the parking lot, there was a fight between men and women.
It’s like a young couple. A woman shakes her head and says she doesn’t want to go up there. She’s in her clothes and she’s cursing, “You’re here for a taxi and you’re not going?” I’m sorry.
“We broke up!” I’m sorry.
The men raised their hands in the face: “Break up!” I told you to break up! I’m sorry.
It’s like a sudden fall from a soft dream, and my hands and feet are cold and my brain is blank. By the time it came back, I’d run over and stand in front of that woman.
The man looked at me like a bitch, “Get the fuck out of my way! I’m sorry.
“Ju Jian! I’m sorry.
“What’s wrong with women?” Do it in front of the police! I’m sorry.
He was half taller than the man, and he was soft and scolded to leave.
I turned around and the woman cried and thanked me.
She was young and beautiful, but she had a completely strange face.
I woke up, let her go and shake my head: “It’s okay. I’m sorry.
On the way back, I was silent, and my pale face was reflected in the rear-view mirror, and the land looked at me from time to time in fear, as if I wanted to ask something, and I was afraid to speak.
The car stopped at the side of the road, and I unzipped the seatbelt, pushed the door, and suddenly turned around and looked at the land: “Would you like to come home with me? I’m sorry.
And the summer sun was bright, and We passed through the shade of the old land side by side with it, and the light was passed over it in secret, and then it cooled down.
The dark side of the building was blowing cold wind, and Ruiji followed me to the fifth floor.
We made him sit on the couch, and then took out a newspaper from the drawer of the old teacup and delivered it to him.
It was a newspaper two years ago, but the front page was still very clear: “The man, who had been killed by his wife in divorce, has been arrested by the police. I’m sorry.
He looked up to me a moment later.
I had a pale face, closed my eyes and let my tears flow.
“Le Rue, the man who was mutilated is my mother. I’m sorry.
12
I remember my dad from childhood, he was a quiet man.
He didn’t smoke, he didn’t drink, but he never made any money. After more than 20 years of violence, my mother ran away from her family’s work and was born on her own to take on the whole family’s burden.
She taught me so well, so I was close to her.
On the eve of graduation, I was…
And it was not until the evening that she answered me: “These days have been busy, unable to leave.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t notice anything at first, but I was going to come home after the graduation ceremony, even on high iron, and I figured out, and when I got back to work, I had to find a time to know if Luk Siu was single or not.
But there is no such opportunity.
When I went back, I found my mother was not home, only my father sat on the couch smoking, and he told me, “Your mother was away on a business trip, work was confidential, and she was not allowed to contact anyone.” I’m sorry.
Three days in a row, she’s not answering her phone, she’s not coming back.
The uncertainty and persistence caused by it ran over my head until that afternoon when I took a bath to clean up the bathroom and found a piece of meat in the lacquer.
It even had half a nail on it.
I opened the flowers and threw up on the toilet, and I called the police in fear of breaking the heart.
In the police station, the silent father pressed the table, so hard that he broke his forehead: “She wants to divorce me!” She’s meeting another man! I haven’t done anything wrong for her all these years because I don’t have the power to divorce her! I’m sorry.
He said, “Yes, I killed her with my own hand, and she will not leave me to find another man.” I’m sorry.
I stood outside the door and listened to his voice.
One word, like a big storm, turned over and destroyed my first 22 years of life.
Everything after that, like a picture in a black and white movie, was torn and reorganised in my heart.
The police found the body of her mother in four corners of the city and learned about it from her close colleagues.
A month before I graduated from college, she proposed a divorce: “Gym is about to enter society, an adult, and I don’t have to be patient for her anymore. I’m sorry.
Of course my dad didn’t agree, but my mom was determined to go to the sorority with her colleagues.
She danced until late in the night and told her colleague, “When Yu Jing comes home from school, I’ll tell her about it in person.” I’m sorry.
She said, “I hope she accepts it.” I’m sorry.
But she didn’t wait till I got home.
Because in the middle of the night, when she came home, she was cut off by my drunk dad with a knife.
For the rest of the year, I couldn’t eat anything, and I almost lost weight.
In my mind, the meaning of life has become extremely meaningless, the most serious of which is that the sword has been cut to half an inch.
My uncle asked me to borrow money and found me and sent me to the hospital.
After a series of tests, the doctor handed me a medical certificate, which says I’m very depressed.
I sat on the hospital bed with a big bag of medicine, listening to my uncle talking about the hard parts of life, and finally he said, “Yu Jian, after your mother left, your uncle’s the closest person to you. I’m sorry.
And when the eyelashes trembled, I raised my head slowly, and passed over to him the wrists of the gauze, laughing, “Well, kill me, and I will leave you all my money.” I’m sorry.
He took a big step back and looked at me with fear and said, “Crazy!” Just like your father! I’m sorry.
And he fled, and his money was not borrowed.
When I got out of the hospital, I cut off all my long, yellow hair and left it just a little longer in my ear, and left my home with a suitcase and returned to the city where the university was.
I’ve got a job. I don’t get paid, but I can at least feed myself.
I’d even pretend that Mom’s alive and I’d say hi to her every day when I came home from work.
Looks like I’m trying to get back to normal life.
But I know very well that part of my body is dying at some point.
13
“That day you asked me why I only eat shrimp…”
And I cried, and I said, “Because any other meat would make me vomit immediately.” I’m sorry.
I’d even look down at the meat stalls of the market, and I wouldn’t look at the cut pieces of meat that were coded on the ice.
They always drag me into my memories at once, back to the afternoon when I kneeled in the bathroom to clean the ground.
The police then found the body, and when I went to claim it, I saw my mother’s face and even the remaining makeup.
She was so determined to move on to a new life that she stayed the night before dawn.
If it wasn’t for me.
Without me.
She left him 20 years ago.
He sits on the couch, as if he were a silent sculpture.
And We dried up our tears, and said, “Go away.” I’m sorry.
When the land was raised, I thought he was going to leave, and the light was coming along his contours, and I was wrapped in a moment with his warm embrace.
He didn’t leave, he came over and grabbed me.
This embrace does not feel the same as when the day is hanging in the air. There is no wind in the room, only a hot and swollen summer air, in a quiet space, where the sound of a harsh heart beating can be heard.
And he said, “Ju Jian, I do not know.” I’m sorry.
I closed my eyes and I couldn’t speak.
And the sound of his gentle spring, as clear as water, was ringing in our ears: “If I had known it, I would have found you and held you in your arms, and told you that it was not your fault.” I’m sorry.
Yojan, it’s not your fault.
And he repeats this word over and over and over and over again in my ear.
At last I can’t help but cry in the face of the earth and cry out loud and bitter.
I saw many images of the past in his eyes with a strong sense of peace.
For a moment, I thought about a lot of things.
One time in primary school, when I came home from school, I couldn’t find my mother, and the demons went up the stairs, to the roof on the seventh floor, and saw her standing by the roof, smoking while staring at the clouds.
I screamed, “Mommy,” and she looked back and looked at me like she was on my cheek again.
And she smiled and said to me, “Girl, your father won’t let me smoke, don’t tell him.” I’m sorry.
I said, “When I came downstairs, she held my hand and asked me, “Do you like Dad?” Want to live with him?”
Of course!
When I was nine years old, I nodded my head hard.
In the middle of the day, I felt the hands of the earth falling softly on my cheeks, and I shed tears.
The next second, a warm kiss fell there.
“Ju Jian. He said, “I’ve always liked you, too. Now you take my hand and I’ll take you to the future, okay? I’m sorry.
14
I left him at my house this night.
He’s 188, he’s tall, convulsed on a narrow sofa, and he looks pathetic.
I wanted to give up the bed in half, but it was rejected by the Lord of the Land: “Sleep, I am not sleepy.” I’m sorry.
I didn’t know what time he fell asleep, but the next day I woke up and he was up.
The curtains in the house were completely opened, the sun was shining, the floor and windows were wiped clean and the eggs and milk on the table were even hot.
And when he heard it, he turned his head, and looked at me, looking: “Ju Jian.” I’m sorry.
I was there and I didn’t know how to react.
In fact, it’s my impression that the man can be described as non-eating fireworks.
His body was always surrounded by an inexhaustible cold air, and he was not much of a talker with that beautiful face, but baking out a proper sense of alienation.
But at this moment he stood a few steps away with fresh breakfast, as if I had been dragged back into the midst of the fire.
I sat down and started having breakfast in silence.
He whispered, “Ju Jian, it’s okay not to be together, but I want to take care of you.” I’m sorry.
“But I don’t want to owe you, Mr. Lu. I’m sorry.
I ate my last fried egg, I pulled out a tissue and wiped my mouth, and I looked at him, and I pulled out my lips: “So let’s get in love. I’m sorry.
The darkest eyes of the earth light up like stars falling on earth.
But do I have stars in my life?
I don’t know.
The third month after we met, I finally fell in love with Luk Yu.
He started to pick me up more frequently and in the light of the day off. Every time she saw us laughing, Lin had a bad heart, spreading rumours in the company that I had a rich man with a Cadillac.
“I’ve never seen anything like it. Cadillacs have less than 300,000 cars. I’m sorry.
I’ll take this as a joke, and I’ll be quiet.
I smiled, and I swayed with my toes on my legs: “Land teacher, Versailles is forbidden. I’m sorry.
In fact, I did not care about any opinion of the outside world, and that morning, when he was with the land, he became the only floating tree in my life.
However, Rue was very concerned, and the next afternoon he was driving here, carrying two large milk teas, and giving everyone in the department a drink, thanks for their care.
Zhou took the opportunity to say to Kopp, “It’s nice to see young people who are sweet and sweet. I’m sorry.
The land is standing there in such great shape and in such good quality that, although there is some dilution in the eyelids, there is no cover.
Such people, of course, cannot simply be associated with “rich.”
So the rumours of Lin Wuk did not break themselves.
And I came home in a car after work, and told him, “There is no need to waste it, I don’t care what they say. I’m sorry.
“But I care. “The truth is I need you more than I need you. I’m sorry.
His love talk is so natural and so beautiful.
The song in the car is “Summer Stones” from the Orange Sea.
“I have come from afar into the city, to see the gods fall into the earth, and become a small dust. I’m sorry.
So I asked Rudd, “When did you fall in love with me?” I’m sorry.
“Perhaps it was the first time I saw you. I’m sorry.
And he drove the car, and he was silent, saying, “You were so overdressed, and you stood up at the podium and argued with me, saying that because the school had changed the course to the weekend, you were drunk and came to school.” I’m sorry.
He said, “That was my first lesson as a teacher, and I was impressed by the fact that I met such a mean little girl who couldn’t help you and ruined my career. I’m sorry.
He’s got a sense of love in his tone and dragged me into my memories.
Of course, I miss that nice, daring juvie.
But I can never be her again.
15
I started taking my medicine back on time.
More than a year ago, the doctors drove my boxes of fluctine, and I ate a little bit, so I still have half a box left.
I grabbed a colored medical record, and it said that I had to go back to the hospital after I had taken the medicine.
So I went to the hospital under cover of my landing.
I was given a series of examinations by a strange doctor, who told me with the report, “You must continue to take your medication on time. I’m sorry.
And that moment, when it came to my mind,
The theory in the film that love cures all diseases is a lie.
I’m carrying a bag of new pills and I’m walking out the hallway of the hospital. This place has experienced too many new lifes and deaths and has a strange smell of decay and willows.
When I got to the hospital, I stopped.
The sound of the shrubbery went out for a while, and a little milky cat with hair and hair came out, with sticky slabs on it and squealing at me.
So I leaned on my head and looked at it for a moment, and I dialed the landline and told him I found a cat.
By the time I got there, I’d be pretty familiar with a ham intestine and a cat.
A familiar pair of shoes stopped in front of me, and I looked up, and I looked at the top of the land and I was afraid.
“Ju Jian…” he got down in front of me, “You come to the hospital, why didn’t you tell me? I’m sorry.
I don’t know how to answer that, but I think it’s good that the cat stretches out the messy head, rubbing it in my hand and defusing the tension.
I was shaking a bag of pills in my hand, and I whispered, “I’m just going to open some more after I’ve finished. I’m sorry.
He took a deep breath, looked like he was holding on to something, but he didn’t say anything. He just picked up the cat and put it in his hand.
Until he waited outside the clinic at the pet hospital for the cat’s examination, he finally held my hand softly: “I just thought that you could tell me something I don’t want to lose you.” I’m sorry.
His hands were warm, even slightly hot, and I was silent for a moment, whispering, “I just didn’t want to be a burden on you. I’m sorry.
I can’t help but think of it many times, if I had been a little more independent and sharper.
Just tell her to find your happiness. It doesn’t matter.
Isn’t that right, she wouldn’t have left in such a terrible way?
“How can you be my burden? And suddenly, I held my hand tight, and a moment later he took a deep breath, and he opened his mouth, and said, “Something I wanted to say is well, you found a cat today. I’m sorry.
He looked me in the eye: “Ju Jian, move in with me.” I’m sorry.
And I did not respond, and his eyes were filled with panic without end.
I caught it with sensitivity.
In that moment, I felt very guilty.
At the university, it was almost all the girls at our college who had never heard of it.
Why is he so humble, just because he’s in love with me?
“You don’t have to give me an answer. I can wait for your decision. I’m sorry.
At this point, the doctor came out with the cat who had completed the medical examination and followed him to talk.
I was staring at him, and I saw him leaning down, and his fingers were making fun of the cat lying on the window.
The sun passed through the window, calling from the other side and sculpting his clear outline.
It’s like he’s always standing in the light and never left.
16
I finally agreed to move in with him.
In fact, I’m on one side of the road, and I have very little, very easy to move, and my luggage isn’t even packed in the trunk of a car.
His house was on the 22nd floor, with an entire south-ward landing window, and the weather was bright enough to exaggerate.
It’s probably to take care of me and put two brand-new lazy couches by the window so I can hold the soup nest there.
Yeah, that cat. I named her Yuen.
The doctor had to shave all her hair because of the strong glue.
It’s good that the kittens are growing fast, working for six months, with a new velvet hair.
For the past six months, Lujiang has been watching me take my medications on time, even because I was afraid that I would fall asleep every night.
Just holding on to it and not doing anything else.
Long-term antidepressants make my brain slow, sometimes sweaty in the middle of the night, and when I look at the face of the shadow of the earth, I almost get a sense of dream butterflies.
Sometimes I feel like I’m still living in a carefree, bright university age.
Sometimes it seems that it is still in the dark moments of being alone before the land is so tight.
But anyway, I’m getting better.
In the fall, the twigs have re-emerged into a soft hair and become a live, sticky little cat.
That afternoon, when I was holding the tumbles and shampooing on the couch, he returned.
He shook the handler in front of me: “Ju Jing, I got my friends to get me tickets for the two festivals — would you like to go to the scene and watch the show?” I’m sorry.
The brain stopped thinking for two seconds, and when it came to me, I was screaming, “Yes! I’m sorry.
I don’t know where Lu Yi met a fairy friend and got a VIP ticket.
But for me, it’s like a gleaming of light in a dark life.
And suddenly, in my dying life, there was another thing to look forward to.
The festival did not begin until 3 p.m., and Grasstown did not appear until 7 p.m. And when it was too late, it was covered with a smouldering twilight, and the flames spread the whole sky.
I stood in the front row, behind me, and carefully surrounded me in my arms and kept me from being squeezed behind.
But when the first note sounded, I boiled.
The opening song is ” In.”
I sang loudly in the evening twilight with the drums of the sky: “Fuck you flowers!” I’m sorry.
And at that moment was My heart filled with pure joy, and it was so strong that it almost drew forth my tears.
At the height of the atmosphere, I turned my head and pulled a tight-landing dress, which was difficult, but also kissed seriously.
The sky is completely dark, the faint stars are in the nightlight, and I kiss the earth for a long time, and I laugh and cry and whisper in his lips.
I always liked you. I’m sorry.
There was much force between my waist, so much force, so that the sound of the earth went into my ears, even with a slight weakness and shaking: “Ju Jian, say again.” I’m sorry.
I closed my eyes and left his lips and said, “Low, I’ve always liked you!” I’m sorry.
How could I not like him.
I still choose to return to this city during the darkest days of my life, countless times I have thought of dying.
At that time, one of the things I kept secret was that I wanted to see him again.
I want to see him again, at least before he dies.
It’s better to meet each other.
Better he didn’t see me.
But that’s the magic of the big hand of destiny, which, two years after I graduated from school, twirled my life with those of the land.
At the scene of my favorite band, I kissed someone I liked.
I guess we can really finish this life together.
By the end of the festival, the last song they sang was “As usual.”
“Just one more look, just one more, so I can remember it. I’m sorry.
“One more night, one more night, tears are tired. I’m sorry.
I didn’t notice then.
The drums slipped and a meteor fell.
17
A month later, on the way from Lander to pick me up from work, a telephone call was received.
Because he was driving, and he pressed it on speakerphone.
There’s an elegant female voice on the phone: “Where are you now? I’m sorry.
Then I turned my head and looked, and the earth slit its lips, and suddenly the look became serious.
“On her way home from work to pick up Ju-jin. Finally, he said calmly, “I’m driving, I’ll die if nothing happens. I’m sorry.
When he reached out his hand, he pressed the phone, and the woman said, “Wait a minute, is Yu Jian around?” I’m sorry.
And I swung, and I said, “Yes. I’m sorry.
“Ju Jian, hello, I’m Lu Yi’s mother. “You’ve been in love with Lu for months. I want to see you. I’m sorry.
I didn’t have time to answer the phone.
He pulls over, turns around, and looks, “Ju Jian, don’t want to see her.” I’m sorry.
“Do you and your mother have a bad relationship?” I’m sorry.
“None. After saying it, it’s like realizing that she’s tough and soft, “She’s not a good person, and if you don’t want to see her, she’s gone. I’m sorry.
Although he said so, before I went to bed at night, I told Lu-shik: “I want to see my aunt.” I’m sorry.
“Lu Yi, I don’t have a mother anymore. I suck my nose and try to make my voice sound calm, “Even if you and your mother had a bad relationship, I’d see her sooner or later.” I’m sorry.
“Just as you said that day when you jumped, I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you, something that I couldn’t avoid. I’m sorry.
In fact, I’m still afraid of touching strangers.
But if it’s the family.
It doesn’t matter to be patient.
“… well, I’ll arrange it. “But before that, we have to go to the hospital to review. I’m sorry.
I think he’s cute when he’s nervous and close to the enemy, but I followed him to the hospital.
“According to the results of the examination, the condition is indeed improving. The doctor said, “But during the rehabilitation period, special attention must be paid to the need to take the medication on time and not to be too emotional. I’m sorry.
I’m a little relieved to get that.
Immediately thereafter, he told me that the meeting with his mother was scheduled for next weekend.
“My parents divorced when I was in elementary school, and my mom always took me. He told me, “So when we meet, you just have to deal with her alone. I’m sorry.
I’ve prepared a few days’ gift to my mother, and I have prepared a bottle of perfume and a box of expensive swallows after having carefully asked him about her preferences.
And when she met, she picked up the gift and told me, politely and obstinately, “Thank you, but you young people don’t have to pay for it, you don’t have to buy it, you don’t have to pay for it, and I don’t need it. I’m sorry.
That’s what you’re talking about.
I was acutely aware that my mother didn’t like me.
Although she prepared a very rich lunch table and even a very expensive bottle of wine, she gave me a thick red bag, although she spoke to me with tenderness and kindness, although all manner of courtesy was considered.
But she should hate me very much.
He probably realized that too, and after eating, he stood up and said there was something at school and left his house with me.
And he took my hand as soon as he went out, and said, ‘Juqun, do not take a word of her.’ I’m sorry.
“I didn’t have any. I’m sorry.
“When I was seven years old, she gave up all her marital property because my dad smoked for a divorce while eating. I’m sorry.
And when he said this, he paused a little: “Of course, I said this, not to tell you how hard it was for her, but to leave her alone.” I just wanted to say, Yuzhen, I’m 30 years old and I’m going to spend my life with you, our lives, not her. I’m sorry.
“It’s up to you to decide when she asks you, when she gets married, when she wants kids, and I’ll listen to you, even if your answer is no — it’s nice to have a lifetime of love. I’m sorry.
In the words of the land, only a few words will chart for me a beautiful future like a dream.
But somehow, my heart is always empty, like a willow flying, and it is too late to find its place.
That night, I was swiping my cell phone in the sofa, and suddenly a story came out.
And I went into the place of my heart, and when I saw it clearly, the whole body stood still.
“There is no party in Kui-tung, who died in Taiwan’s vaccination hotel. I’m sorry.
At this point, the Bluetooth Soundbox was even playing “As usual”.
“Sip one more, just one more, and then fall asleep. I’m sorry.
I was dragged into a mess of memories and fell in pain, thinking of a lot of past.
Time is the limit, and I think of the many times I’ve heard in the car, “As usual,” and when I think of the day at the concert, she sits on the stage with drums, and the thin body explodes with huge energy.
It’s actually the last fire before the stars fall.
“Ju Jian. I’m sorry.
“Ju Jian, Jian Jian. I’m sorry.
When I came back, I found myself crying.
“What’s wrong?” I’m sorry.
I was unable to describe exactly that complex pain, even though I knew her well, but in the darkest days of my life, every drum she struck gave me strength and the courage to live.
But now she’s gone forever.
It was as if I had lost all my strength in a moment, and I couldn’t say anything, but I was lying in my arms, crying all night.
He didn’t ask me anything. He was just crying with me and reminding me of my medication.
I don’t know if it’s because it’s getting worse, but for the next few days, I’ve been depressed.
And my guilt is heightened by the fact that the land is accompanied by no complaints.
I can only force myself to get better, to pretend to be better, to see that the landing seems relieved, so that my guilt can be reduced.
It was late that day, and I fell asleep on the couch.
In the middle, it seemed like someone was touching my hand.
I opened my eyes and saw the ring that shined on my nameless finger.
“Ju Jian. He held me behind his back and put his lips in my ear, “There are plans for us to go to a meeting outside the school, about a week. I’m sorry.
“When?”
“Tomorrow we leave. I’m sorry.
I was staring at the diamond on the ring.
I know, because I’m being taken care of, Ruiji has lost a lot of important work.
And the earth touched my head: “This is not a wedding ring. You need not be stressed. I just want to reassure myself. Yu Jian, this week of my absence, you must take care of yourself.” I’m sorry.
I was silent and suddenly I asked him, “You and I are in love, are you tired?” I’m sorry.
Then he was nervous and he shook his head: “No, but do not think. I’m sorry.
Then he said something, and I can’t remember.
Only that moment of tension, like a sword piercing my chest.
I’ve been a burden to others all along.
It’s the same for Mom, and it’s the same for me.
And he said to me, “Ju Jian, do not think, and wait for me to come back – remember, we still have soup.” I’m sorry.
And We snuffed our lips: “Your voice is as if your husband and wife were afraid of divorce, and you should not forget that we have a child.” I’m sorry.
I’m just kidding. I’m so relieved that Ruiji left.
The day after he left, his mother came to the door.
18
“Ju Jian. I’m sorry.
And she sat on the couch opposite me, and lifted up her chin a little, and looked at me pouring down her water, and she laughed: “Don’t fall down.” I’m sorry.
“This is my son’s home. You’re the guest. I’m sorry.
She spoke very nicely, with an elegance: “I think you’re smart and you should understand my intentions today. I’m sorry.
“So you’re going to throw me a 5 million card and let me leave the land?” I’m sorry.
And she did not answer, but she put her fingers under her chin, and looked at me in full view: two years ago, on the eve of your graduation, your father himself killed and mutilated your mother and was sentenced to death. If I remember the wrong time, two years ago today was the day he was shot? I’m sorry.
I stood there staring at her dead.
“Don’t look at me like that. Don’t worry. It’s not what Luk told me. She said, “Yeah, you went to the hospital so many times to treat mental illness, right? I’m sorry.
And she stood on the table, leaning forward, and looked down at me in an arrogant manner: “I raised the earth, with great blood. He was my son and, as I wished, was a good man.” Let me put it this way. I have a clear plan for his future, his wife and his marriage — but obviously none of you has met my standards. I’m sorry.
And for a moment, I suddenly understood the seriousness and indifference of the land.
I made a difficult sound: “But it was me he liked. I’m sorry.
“Good, like. “Well, you’re also interested in the land, right? If you like him, can you watch him delay his career and his life over and over again because of you? I’m sorry.
“You’re a patient and your father’s a murderer, and this criminal record will affect Luk Yi’s career, and even if you have children, his life will be greatly affected. Have you considered these? I’m sorry.
She had little to say, she had my heart torn to blood, and I could not rebut it and had to remain silent.
Then she stood up and said, “I respect your love, but consider for the sake of the land.” Your life is a mess. You can’t bring him in any longer. I’m sorry.
After that, she left.
I sat there for as long as I could, as if I had lost five feelings.
The day was a beautiful day, when the sun was so bright that the whole city was so bright that there was never a shadow in the world.
And I thought that my life would be like this, always in the light and bright until the day of my death.
The great absurdity of unforeseeable fate, where the sun has not been seen, the moss and thorns have sprung, the concrete of steel has been emptied into bubbles and, at one moment, has collapsed into ruins.
I sat in the living room long after my mother left.
The clock on the wall is ticking and ticking, and I’m thinking about it.
When I first met him in college, he was in an online algebra class.
It was a rainy spring, when the land was brought into the classroom with a gray striped shirt, and I suddenly had the first color in my boring afternoon.
I’m happy with him these days.
In addition to the once-unacknowledged vibrating and re-emergence of one another, there is my final passion for life.
But his mother’s right, my life is dark enough to drag me in.
We can’t tie him and the fate of his future children to me.
Figure it out, and I stand up and start packing.
Put your clothes on the balcony and fold them, pack the twigs, get new cat food and water, clean the floor, and then… remove the ring from the fingerless finger and put it in the drawer of the nightstand.
Finally, I left the house empty-handed.
Nothing but my phone.
I was riding an electric car to the suburbs, and last time I had a trip to the mountain tower with Yuji, it was closed because of the outbreak.
I went in through the hidden back door, and I went up the hill, and I stood at the top and looked down.
The lake is quiet and the lake is full of light.
I looked out of my eyes for a long time as if I had seen the first half of my life in a remote reflection of the lake.
Before we jump, I think we should say goodbye to Luk.
So I took out my cell phone and I sent him a message, “I’m going to hear Van Gogh.”
Almost immediately, he returned: “Okay. I’m sorry.
I laughed, threw the phone off my hands and crashed with it.
(concluded)
At the time of receipt of the last message from Yu Jian, Yu Jian was present at the meeting.
He had also responded patiently to questions raised about his new project.
The break, the cell phone on the desktop.
He drank water, picked up his cell phone, and he saw it coming from Yu.
It was as if he had a soft tongue, and he had intended to repeat it, but at that point someone came and asked questions.
He didn’t even have time to think about it. He came back with a “good” word and then dropped his phone.
The man was a major shareholder in a technology company, who was interested in talking to him about patent concessions.
“Well, Professor Lu, next time we’ll see each other alone. I’m sorry.
And the earth smiled and said, “In an environment that was slowly calming down, suddenly there was a clear thought that came out of the head.”
Who’s Van Van?
He stood up and stunned the glass with alarm.
“What’s wrong? I’m sorry.
He didn’t have time to answer. He just walked out the door.
But it’s still late.
The house was empty, clean, and the soup was standing there, panicking and screaming at him.
He realized that it was bad. He looked around and found the ring in her hand in the nightstand.
The police recovered her body three days later, when he was aware of what her mother had said to Yuzhen.
He stood before her with sharp and desperate eyes, even with the bitterness of heart.
“What was wrong with me?” Her father is a murderer and she’s sick. I’m sorry.
That’s when the police call.
“We found the body of Ms. Yuzhen. I’m sorry.
At that moment, all the scenery was pale in his eyes, the sound was covered with sharp ears, and the whole person seemed to be sunk in the bubbles of the deep sea.
He went out of the door and drove to the suburbs, where her body was wet and lying on the edge of the lake where he and Yujan had jumped.
Once a thin body, it’s been bloated and white.
But he did not feel fear, except that there was no limit to the pain that would almost kill him.
He went over and fell on his knees next to her body, rubbing her cheek with his finger.
“There were no other traces at the scene, and the preliminary judgment was that it was suicide. I’m sorry.
All the commotion around him became extremely remote, with heavy fog pouring down on him and surrounding him.
No further visits have taken place for decades.
He and Yu Jian went to the festival two months ago, and she was very happy to see the scene, where she waved and sang.
Although he had only begun to listen to their songs, he had also been infected by her excitement, to the extent that the news of the twilight of Zai Yu Jian had arrived, and he had been depressed for days with Yu Jing.
He also came to think of something much longer, when he had been a teacher in his first year, and had come across a flaunting of her.
With her red hair, she was wearing an exaggerated princess dress, and came in in such a reckless and irrational way that she was stationed in his boring life.
He never wanted to get married, not even in love.
But when the man said, “Ju Jian” was introduced to him, he suddenly felt,
If it’s her, it’s okay to get married.
It’s okay if she’s not married.
He wanted to keep her well in his own life, and he wanted her to live well, and everything else could be slow.
In the two years since Yu Jian left school, he tried to trace her, but ended up losing touch with her heart.
It’s probably because he’s growing up, and he’s always been a little agitated.
But since he met again, he wasn’t going to let go.
He could have pulled her out of the abyss just one step away.
But there is no such opportunity.
Landlord moved everything out of the house despite her mother ‘ s hysteria.
For many years since then, Lujiang has not been married and has been living in the house with Yuzhen, raising the old soup.
He also wore that ring on his finger.
Lu Xian is also a teacher at his former school and he is already a full-time professor with more lessons than linear algebra.
Because of their remarkable appearance, sometimes bold students come and ask, “Do you have a girlfriend, Mr. Lu?” I’m sorry.
“I’m married.” I’m sorry.
“Ah–” The schoolgirls were a little surprised and disappointed. I’m sorry.
There was a moment of confusion at the edge of the land.
At this moment, countless fragments of memory pass through time and break the wind.
“Oh, she…” And the smile on his lips got softer, and she said, “Uzha, she’s a very lively little girl, she likes her songs, she likes cats and dogs, she keeps a long, red hair. I’m sorry.
She’s been in my class too. I’m sorry.
(concluded)
(Story creation, do not be true, life is precious, and wish each and every one a healthy and safe life. I’m not sure.
I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
