When the flowers bloom
I think my boyfriend’s reborn.
He seems to find me a bad woman playing with his feelings.
And he’s starting to be really nice to my beautiful sister.
That day I saw him putting my sister in the corner.
And with red eyes, he began to push her hair and say:
“Really, I’m stupid. I’m sorry.
“You’re the one I’ve been looking for. I’m sorry.
“In my last life I missed you. I’m sorry.
“All my life, I’ll make it up to you, okay? I’m sorry.
One.
It’s the fifth time Chiang Suk-hye has left me.
It wouldn’t have happened before.
I sat by the window, staring at the rain outside.
It’s not like it’s so bad that it’s so bad to be wet.
And then it went into the rain.
Two.
Chiang Shuyee and Lynch are sitting at the coffee shop.
He raised his hand and touched her forehead softly, and she shrunk back shyly.
I pushed the door and broke into the store.
A bell swung across the quiet atmosphere.
My sister looked pale, and Chiang opened his hand and looked at me.
“What are you doing here? I’m sorry.
I smiled a little.
When I was in the store, I took a glass of myself.
It’s not too much. It’s enough to make up.
So when I sat next to Jiang Suk-hye, he didn’t push me away.
“You said you’d pick me up again? I’m sorry.
I got close to him. I’m about to hit his nose.
I have enough confidence in my own appearance, especially so that I look at him so patheticly.
So the man hesitated or looked away and apologized to me.
“Sorry. I’m sorry.
“Kiki won’t ask me about my homework, so I’m late…”
“I didn’t come to pick you up. I’m sorry.
“…”
I laughed and said it was okay.
A glimpse of my dear sister.
Her fists are under the table.
The sad look, it’s almost gone.
3
And I took an oath when they put their heads in the toilet in high school.
I’ll do whatever it takes to live the life I want.
Don’t ever let anyone see me look like I am.
So I’m not a good man. I’ve never been a good man.
I worked hard to learn, practice my form, think about how to show my best side to others and expand my circle.
I did everything in my power to make myself very good, very good, so good that I could talk about my name.
“How can there be such a good girl in the world? I’m sorry.
It was hard for me to get my funny father’s approval.
Teacher likes me, friend supports me.
I thought my life would keep such a delicate balance.
Until Lynch showed up.
4
He’s my dad’s bastard out there.
Lynch found it himself.
As soon as she appeared, the family balance was broken.
I cried and asked my dad why he had other women out there and Dad was silent.
And Lynch is in the corner of the house as if everything was her fault.
Besides, Lynch seems to have some kind of magic on her.
Her magic is a pitiful and pitiful one, unlike my own.
It seems that everyone around her will pity her.
Soon after, my dad started protecting her.
My friends told me to be nice to her, that it wasn’t my sister’s fault, that I should never be a vicious step sister like that in a TV show.
I feel crisis again.
Because I suddenly found that everyone around was being pulled away by her.
I need to maintain my territory.
5
So I took Jiang Shuyei.
But instead of robbing, Rinky gave it to me.
Lynch, a kind man, participated in an earthquake relief campaign.
She was there to rescue Master Chiang Shuye, who was travelling to the mountains.
Unfortunately, Chiang’s vision was damaged and his consciousness blurred.
Didn’t remember her very clearly.
So I took the nest.
Jiang has worked hard to find the man who saved him in the disaster area.
Lynch doesn’t want to recognize each other.
I say, sister, you really don’t want him to recognize you, so introduce him to me.
Lynch said yes on the lips.
But I want to.
She’s sorry now.
Six.
Chiang Shuyee.
Chiang Suk-hye is a gentle and just man.
He’s nice to me sometimes.
Three meals a day, and I remember clearly.
Give me green grapes. They’re all skinned.
Just him overnight.
For me, it seems different.
From the passions of the past to the resistance, my phone calls are beginning to get reluctant.
On Saturday morning, I went to Chiang Shuyee’s studio.
He’s an oil painter. He graduated from the top beauty complex abroad.
In addition to the smell of sunlight, there’s pine fragrance in the studio.
Stepping into a wide area, people were seen sleeping on the frame as far as possible.
Looks like he’s been up all night, man.
I came over to see his drawings.
The people up there looked like me and laughed at the painter, but they didn’t have the color on them.
That’s a good one. I didn’t react.
It wasn’t me.
It’s Lynch.
7
I don’t even know if the man behind me wakes up.
I was crouching, turning back, and I saw him looking at me silently.
“What’s wrong? Why are you drawing my sister? I’m sorry.
“Let’s draw me next time. I’m sorry.
I just sat in his arms and he was suffocating and hugging me.
“No time. I’m sorry.
It’s kind of gentle, it’s kind of sweet.
I think it would be more appropriate to use the word “ghosts” to describe the current mindset of both of us.
But I am a man of disguise.
I blinked and looked back at him.
“Shou-hye, I’ll tell you what you don’t like. I’m sorry.
“Don’t hold it, fool…”
I reached out and squeezed his nose.
It’s not just to show its soft side.
More so, to find a way to ease the relationship.
Sometimes it is the responsibility to leave each other alone to cause emotional cracks.
And now I need Chiang Shuyee.
He’s got brown eyes on me.
It gives me a feeling I’m digging for myself.
Soon I heard him ask me:
“Is it you who saved my life that day? I’m sorry.
8
“…”
I have difficulty answering that question.
The school graduate, and the family industry covers half the city.
I did run away to get married with Chiang Shuyee.
After I was together, I realized that I was a first-time kid in a relationship.
So briefly, I’m moved.
So you tricked him.
Just, he didn’t wait for my answer.
He pushed me out of his leg, and for the first time I saw in his eyes the color of disappointment.
“No answer. I’m sorry.
“…”
Yeah.
My silence seems to have answered everything.
It’s just, I feel a bit empty.
It’s like it’s hard to build a city camp.
And it was as if it had been stung in the air.
9
“So what? You broke up with Chiang Shuyee? I’m sorry.
On the roof of the school, I had coffee with another boy.
His name is Lu Zhao, my apprentice.
It’s one of the few friends I’ve had.
Because we’ve known each other since high school. He’s seen me once being bullied.
Helped me, too, to get back at those girls who were bullying me.
I bowed my head and pulled the jar.
In this case, Chiang Suk-hye didn’t break up with me. It’s not far.
“Oh yes, your sister has come to me often these days. I’m sorry.
Lu Zhao stretched out and laughed at me.
I don’t know.
Now let me think back.
I’m sure I’ll be wary of what Lu Zhao said to me that day.
“Oh yes, your sister has come to me often these days. I’m sorry.
Because gradually.
As Lu Zhao spoke to me, there was a lot of Rinki.
Chiang didn’t contact me very much.
The one who used to talk to me was Lucho.
My days are still busy and I have a lot of competitions to attend.
Because it’s not just emotional. I need to be perfect everywhere to keep my own set.
I’ve been living like this all my life.
I never complained until that day I had a speech contest.
Something happened backstage that made me feel like my whole life.
Like a joke.
10
I’m the last speaker.
It’s kind of an axle.
So I was alone in the last dressing room.
When the door was pushed.
I’m not taking the last card for myself.
The man who came is my boyfriend, Chiang Shuyee.
Oh, he’s got another girl.
My sister, Lynch.
He was angry and Lynch cried with rain.
He brought the girl to me and showed me her sleeves.
“You did this, didn’t you? I’m sorry.
The girl was born with a red mark on her arm.
Looks like it’s a whip, and I got my eyebrow up.
This move seems to have made him more angry.
“What’s your face? I’m sorry.
“Oh, Lin, even your sister? I’m sorry.
My good sister is still crying on a swipe, dragging Chiang Shuye’s sleeve.
“Please, Shuyee, stop asking.” I’m sorry.
“It’s not about my sister…”
Shuyu.
How intimate it is.
I looked at the wounds on her hands and I didn’t know where they came from.
But Chiang seems to think I’m the one responsible for the scorpion.
I was just trying to explain.
There’s another one coming in by the door.
I was relieved to see him when he walked in his pocket.
If you want to smile, you have to smile.
“Why would I do this to my own sister? I’m sorry.
“You know, Lu Zhao, I’ve been bullied before, how could I…”
In the middle of it, I’m done.
Because I saw Lu’s face.
He never looked at me like he was at the moment.
In my mind, I remember it uncontrollably.
The last few days, Lu Zhao has been talking about Lynch in my ear.
“Why is your sister so shy? I’m sorry.
“Your sister is really bad at heights. I’m sorry.
“I met your sister in the cafeteria today. I’m sorry.
“Your sister…”
The silent dressing room ended up ringing his voice.
I heard him say one word.
“Lin, I was wrong about you. I’m sorry.
“If you’ve been bullied, do you want to be bullied? I’m sorry.
Eleven.
It’s a bit too familiar.
I watched Lynch hold her pathetic cuffs.
I saw the landing consciously in front of her.
I laughed at them, though my eyelashes were shaking.
“Really? If you think I’m a bully, call the police. I’m sorry.
“Let the police handle this, okay?”
I walked through them.
Jiang took my wrist softly.
I heard him say:
“Apologize to your sister. I’m sorry.
Lu Zhao stood in front of me, bowed his head and advised me:
“Lin, I don’t want you to be so mean. I’m sorry.
Why is everyone yelling at me?
I looked back, and Lynch was awake, and she knew it wasn’t me.
But she didn’t say anything.
I pulled my wrists and hit them both.
“Sorry, guys, I’m really busy. I’m sorry.
“I want to speak, I want to get first. I don’t have time for this. I’m sorry.
“You’re still in the mood for your speech? I’m sorry.
Lu Zhao said that behind me, but I don’t care.
I didn’t turn back and get on the podium.
I’m going to move forward even though there’s nothing behind me.
12
That speech, I ended well.
A round of applause in the curtain, and I smiled.
Thoughts are not there.
I’m watching, stage down.
Rinjie, in a white dress, was moved by Jiang Shuyeilah and Lu Zhao, behind her, fell in love with her ponytail.
But why, why the spotlight fell on me.
I’m not down, I’m not embarrassing myself.
My mood.
But it is still being swallowed up by the fall of the mountain.
I don’t know.
In a few days, Chiang Suk-hye came to me.
I don’t actually have much time for emotional matters.
There’s no other man to replace him without Chiang.
But staring at the text interface.
I suddenly found it hard to put him down.
Yeah, I just talked to him, and it was for my own good, and then I really liked him.
I’m looking forward to looking back.
Or find out I don’t have any chance of bullying my own sister.
He called him to a remote gym.
Then he grabbed my wrist and said:
“Lin Jun, will you spare your sister? I’m sorry.
“Why did you lie that your sister was the one who got into our relationship? I’m sorry.
“We broke up. Can you get some face, Lynch? I’m sorry.
I blinked, I was almost laughed.
A little bit of love for him is gone.
“No, Chiang Suk-hye, who did you hear me? I’m sorry.
He laughed, “Not you, but who else?” I’m sorry.
“Your sister is so kind, always complimenting me. I’m sorry.
“Will you please stop speculating about her with your little belly? I’m sorry.
“What? I’m sorry.
I’m getting mad.
“You two hang out every day. Who cares if they see you? Why do you blame me? I’m sorry.
He’s laughing at me.
“Doesn’t it show true? I’m telling you, your sister’s more kind than you are. I’m sorry.
“I won’t let you hurt her. I’m sorry.
“Never in my life, ever again. I’m sorry.
♪ ♪ I’ll tell you ♪
I want to be angry and respond to my loud silence.
When I pulled the door again, I suddenly found out I couldn’t open it.
♪ ♪ I’ll tell you ♪ He locked me in here?
This is the first time I’ve been on the move.
I pulled the door so hard, I made a noise.
“Hey! Chiang, come back here!
“Why do you say that to me? I’m sorry.
“Fuck you!”
“You’re a moron, aren’t you? I’m sorry.
No one’s here anyway. I yelled at you.
I kicked the door locked, this gym was particularly biased, the kind no one normally passes.
It’s perfect for me to vent.
When I’m exhausted and my nose is sore.
And suddenly there was a smile.
“Linquent”? I’m sorry.
“You’re such a woman. I’m sorry.
14
I turned my head slowly.
A strange boy I never knew was sitting on an abandoned mat in the gym.
Shake your legs and look at me.
He should’ve slept on it, so Chiang and I didn’t find anyone else here.
When I saw him, my first reaction was, how many holes were there?
Eyebrow nails, lip nails, ear nails.
I hate all kids who break my tradition.
But he was handsome and wanton.
I’m stunned, and it’s a little slow to switch.
“Hmm? Do we know each other?”
He smiles. He smiles cleanly.
“Are you a face changer? A second without a door? I’m sorry.
“Why are you becoming a lady so soon? I’m sorry.
I ignored his play.
Ask him with a smile.
“Do you know there are other doors out of this gym? I’m sorry.
He shakes his head.
“Just that one, locked up by your good boyfriend. I’m sorry.
“…”
I nod my head and I called my friends.
He jumped off a cushion, put his hand in his pocket and walked around me.
Laugh in my ear.
“Lynn, don’t you know me?”
I turned around and saw him, um, he had a look like a lot of girlfriends.
I’m not looking for a guy like that because he doesn’t fit my standards for a future partner.
“I don’t know. I’m sorry.
He looked up.
“We made contact. I’m sorry.
“How is that possible?”
I don’t believe in evil. Take out his phone and let him lose.
He bowed and lost his cell phone number, and he did find it.
The notes are:
“188, rich, not me.”
“…”
He was silent for a while, and then he laughed in my ear.
It occurred to me that I had done some sort of… sorting of the boys in Riga’s address book to find the right boyfriend.
“How come you don’t remember your own fish? I’m sorry.
He doesn’t want to talk about it.
I don’t know.
I looked at him again, I remember him well, I didn’t forget him.
His name is Pei Sen.
But remembering him is far apart from what he is now.
I met him at a drinking party with my dad.
If Chiang Shuye’s estate covers half the city, then the Pei Sen family is the kind of big family that actually enters the city.
Even my dad had to stutter.
The reason I didn’t recognize him.
Because I remember very well.
He’s in a black suit at the bar and no one’s coming in like an iceberg.
He doesn’t give a shit about me.
Very cold.
I’ve dated him several times, the kind that was rejected.
15
Since that stadium met, Pei-Sin has been looking for me.
So I wrote to him by:
“188, rich, not me.”
It becomes:
“188, Rich, Psycho.”
I would never tell him that his family is rich, and to me it’s human, and he’s interested in me.
As for the relationship.
I understand one thing:
Men are nothing good.
I’m done with Chiang Shu Hui.
But he doesn’t seem to be with Lynch.
At school, I see him waiting outside the classroom for Lynch.
I don’t have time for this, and my dad started putting me in charge of the company, and I was even more busy.
Actually, I know he was going to teach Lynch, but she’s really not very smart.
I thought I finally compared Lynch.
I thought I proved myself in front of him that I could get my dad back.
And that afternoon, my dad sat in the main seat and poured me a cup of tea.
One word:
“Sweety. I’m sorry.
“You learn. I’m sorry.
“Afterward, you’ll support your sister. I’m sorry.
16
I tried so hard.
I got up early and learned in the dark, I didn’t have time for fun, and I tried so hard to get approval.
And?
My dad just told me to learn these.
Then you’re going to pave the way for my sister who talks about love?
That afternoon, I had a big fight with my dad.
He broke the counter, pointed at me, and couldn’t talk.
“Do you know that you actually…”
At that moment, I always felt like my dad was going to tell me something I’ve been hiding.
As a result, a white shadow broke in.
Enough! Dad, don’t say that again. I’m sorry.
Lynch stopped in front of my dad.
Her eyes were red and she bit her lips.
Sister, don’t blame Dad. I’m sorry.
“It’s all my fault.”
“It wouldn’t have happened to me. I’m sorry.
“I am a disaster…”
She started to cry. I didn’t know I was crying.
I smiled, I approached her, and I said:
“Yeah, you’re a disaster. I’m sorry.
And she shuddered like a scared rabbit.
My dad’s been throwing up a dictionary at me this time, and I couldn’t get away.
The pain on the forehead almost devoured me, and I could not bear the tears.
I wanted to laugh, but I couldn’t laugh.
I turned around and walked out the door behind my dad’s roar.
He told me to get the fuck out of this house.
17
Since when?
The people around me left me alone.
No matter how hard I try, it won’t work.
They were all standing behind another person by surprise.
That’s my sister, Lynch.
It’s weird. It’s like having an invisible hand running everything.
I can’t get first in the game, first is my sister’s.
Not because I’m not strong enough for her, but because my mentor saw my sister’s efforts and said she was touched.
My sister always takes the initiative of adding friends who have fun with me, who want to be close to her.
And then some time later, somehow, those friends would take the initiative to alienate me.
Recently, there have been rumours in schools.
Say I’m a school bully.
Say, I’m a vicious, hypocritical woman.
He said I had been bullied, and now I’m bullying my own sister.
Some of the pictures that I had when I was bullied out, they were like a knife, straight through my wound.
Those photos, they’re just Lu Zhao…
I asked him why he did it.
Even if you’re lying, why send pictures of me being hurt to school forums.
He said.
I deserve all this.
Who let me bully my sister.
18
“What’s the point of hanging yourself upside down like this? I’m sorry.
Pei-Shin turned his head and stood before me.
I did hang on the leverage of remote stadiums.
Of course, to keep yourself from crying.
It’s just, I forgot, Pei-Shin always comes to the abandoned gym to sleep.
After all these days, Pei-Shin and I became familiar.
I know he’s cold on the surface, actually.
I know he’s lonely too, so I’m always here.
No one’s playing with him because everyone says he’s Calamity.
“Pilson, I’ve recently read a novel. I’m sorry.
“It’s just that the fake girl was at home and then the real girl came back. I’m sorry.
“I feel like I’m the fake girl. I’m sorry.
“I am the bad man who has taken over the nest, a vicious ash of artillery, and the last rebel relative to leave the battered woman.” I’m sorry.
He looked at me and laughed.
“Oh yeah? There’s no such thing as a cute girl. I’m sorry.
He laughed and pulled me off the lever.
“Come down, you’re gonna bleed your head out again. Are you a bat? I’m sorry.
It’s still raining.
I suddenly asked him:
“You think I’m a bully, too? I’m sorry.
He blinked, bowed his head and pulled out his necklace around his neck.
It’s a copper-made, some old Six Man necklace.
It is logical that a man like him cannot wear such a necklace.
“This is, when I was in the orphanage, a little girl gave it to me. I’m sorry.
The six-man necklace is shown in the evening sun, with dark light.
“That little girl is my hope for survival. I’m sorry.
“She told me that it was because of the cracks in life that light came in. I’m sorry.
“Linquent. I’m sorry.
“You can also be a gentle and kind man, a hero of self-empowerment, and a woman who will be the last of her life. I’m sorry.
“It’s up to you, isn’t it? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Yes.
So what if it’s caught by fate?
What if the world is not on my side?
Even if I die, I’ll die pretty.
18
That’s how I live.
I’ll stand up when my bones are broken, even if I don’t live happily, and I’ll live happily ever after.
I thought if I was stubborn enough to lose, fate would always be on my side once.
Unfortunately, I was wrong.
I don’t know.
We’ve been together for a long time.
He didn’t see Lynch, he didn’t know I knew him, so he didn’t.
“I’m a little curious about your little white Lotus sister. I’m sorry.
That day, he bit the straw and suddenly said,
Little White Lotus is my sister’s nickname.
I can hear it from him. He doesn’t like my sister.
But I frowned unconsciously.
“Don’t you go looking for her. I’m sorry.
“She’s very evil, very evil…”
I don’t know what’s wrong with me.
I don’t believe Pei-Shin would have been taken away by Lynch.
He’s not like everyone else, at least he’s a psycho, and his mind is hard to kick.
But I’m upset.
“What? You’re afraid she’ll take me, huh?”
Pei-Shin is trying to make fun of me.
…that’s true, afraid.
Parsons is the only one standing next to me now, though he’s sick.
“Really? How could I possibly leave you. I’m sorry.
Pei-Shin smiled so easily, while I was back with a weak line.
“Huh? Sister, what are you doing here?”
It’s late.
I saw the man who was sitting across from me and was laughing, and then, after seeing Lynch, he stood there.
It was the first time I felt that fate was holding on to me like a hand.
When Pei Sen was in the orphanage, a little girl gave him a necklace which he had worn until now.
Who’s that little girl?
My sister’s groaning, smiling at Pei-Shin.
What are you doing here?
Little Sun Welfare, do you remember me? I’m sorry.
…and not just remember.
He said.
She’s kind of his hope for survival.
19
What did I do that day?
I turned and left.
I can imagine the next scene.
The two of them recognized that the light of his life was exactly my sister.
And then stood by my sister’s side.
He’ll mock me. He’ll condemn me.
I’d say, Lin, you’re such a bad woman who only lies about your sister.
I’m too familiar with the bridge.
This time, I’ve got a vision. I’ve deleted all his contacts.
That way he’ll have to delete me and I’ll have the upper hand.
I don’t know.
But my footsteps can’t stop.
I said I’d live well, and I’d let everyone see me.
How can I just fall here?
My relationship with Dad was on my own.
Now I’m too weak to fight him.
So I made a bet with my dad, and Lynch and I were bidding for a company.
I win, he lets me lead the company’s decisions.
I lost, and he didn’t need me to support his sister, and he told me to get out.
He said he didn’t recognize my daughter.
Actually, I think I understand where my dad sees me.
And he kept it from me.
But I was only laughing, and I took the project.
I’m close to graduation, and I’m here. I need to think about the time.
It’s the first time I’ve taken over a project of this magnitude, and I’m doing it fast, thanks to the experience I’ve had in practice.
I spent the night at the company with the whole building lights out and I haven’t left.
And my sister?
She was still confused when she got this, saying, sister, I didn’t want to compete with you.
But I didn’t dare to let her down.
This tender is run by the Pei Yuan Group, with the name Pei, which is actually a subsidiary of the Pei Sen family.
In other words, the outcome of this tender may be of great value.
At this point, however, the man’s name was lying on my blacklist.
I don’t know.
The project was revised late in the night.
I rubbed my eyebrow, and from time to time, I’ve been told I’m a big lady in a big place.
So my subordinates didn’t really cooperate with me, but rather complained about how they weren’t assigned to Lynch.
I ordered some ink, so it was a quiet night.
But the wave of powerlessness and loss came to me.
Why, no matter how hard I try, there is always an unbreakable barrier.
Why am I the one who gives 10,000 cents and the one who bleeds?
Is there a destiny?
I turned off the computer and headed downstairs, and a black Fai-Teng stopped at the door of the company.
I looked at him, and he took off his ear nails, dressed in black, and looked at me quietly.
I don’t know.
I want to bypass him.
He went up and grabbed my wrist.
I laughed, and I looked at him.
“What are you trying to tell me? I’m sorry.
“Tell me not to hurt my sister again? I’m sorry.
“Get me out of this competition? I’m sorry.
“Or am I to apologize to my sweet, innocent, innocent sister? I’m sorry.
In the silent wind, I saw him sigh.
Handle my hair and smile.
“I told you not to stay up late. I’m sorry.
“…”
I’m standing there.
He’s a psycho.
Even my sister doesn’t want a psycho.
I leaned with him in the car, he looked down and played with the coffee cup.
“Lin, this bid was designed for your sister. I’m sorry.
“That project, though my house is bidding, the co-partner is Chiang and Luk. I’m sorry.
Chiang Shuyee and Lu Zhao.
“Your sister is perfectly able to qualify on those two men. I’m sorry.
“You were doomed to lose at the beginning of this game. I’m sorry.
“…”
No wonder my dad didn’t worry I’d take my sister’s place.
No wonder my sister is still busy with Jiang Siu Yu and Liu.
It’s like she’s got all my luck.
There’s no moon tonight. I heard Pei Lin whisper.
“I can help you. I’m sorry.
“I think there’s nothing wrong with it. The Rinche’s design has been handed over. I’m sorry.
“I can help you steal it out. I’m sorry.
The rest of his words speak for themselves.
If I steal that draft, I can show it first when I bid.
By then, Lynch will not be able to prove why her designs are the same as mine.
It seems the only way to win her.
I’m staring at the man around me.
“Why help me?”
“You’ve been wearing her necklace for so long. I’m sorry.
“…”
He swooped and laughed.
“Oh, that one.”
“It was a painful day in the orphanage. I’m sorry.
“I’ll think of it when I see her face, and I hate her even more. I’m sorry.
“…”
He’s sick.
I did not respond to his words, but the two moths were surrounded by the only street light, and they were flying their wings.
I heard him whisper.
“I was picked up from the orphanage by my dad. I’m sorry.
“When my mother gave birth to me, she left me in front of the institution. Then my dad found me and he confirmed we were related. I’m sorry.
“I’m the only child of his blood. I’m sorry.
“He always wanted me to take his place, but I didn’t want to be the top executive president. I’m sorry.
“What do you want to do? I’m sorry.
I looked up and asked him.
In the night, it was a flash of light in Pei’s eyes.
“I think…”
He stopped and laughed at me.
“Forget it, Lin.
“If one day I’ll tell you about my dream career, okay? I’m sorry.
“…”
20
Later, I didn’t ask Parsons to steal it for me.
I don’t mind using vicious tactics by any means.
I just can’t read Lynch’s design.
It’s an insult to me to describe her things as mine.
Soon it will be the day of the bidding.
I put on a fine makeup and passed over with Lynch.
She tried to pull my sleeve and scream at me.
Sister…
“Let’s not do this, Dad doesn’t want us to do this…”
I was the best girl in everyone’s mind.
Now, it’s a bad woman who can’t be avoided.
If it’s a novel, it’s coming to an end, right?
Good and pure business girls start their new lives.
And I’m going down the line.
But in this world, there are clear black and white, right and wrong?
I’m working on a plan.
And fate sent out the last back.
I don’t know.
As a result, it’s a loss.
This is really a bid for Lynch.
Several of the partners present were associated with Jiang Suk-hye.
Seeing this old boyfriend once again, I feel like I’m gone.
When the bidding was over, he was wearing his suit, and he stuck me in the corner of the stairs.
It’s all ironic.
I told you, I’ll make you regret it. I’m sorry.
“Look at you now, you’re lost. I’m sorry.
“That’s the price of bullying your sister. I’m sorry.
I keep my head down.
I feel like I’m out of my mind.
Yeah, now me, nothing.
We have defected and we have been trampled upon, and we are about to be driven out of this home, from which I gave birth.
But just as he was leaving.
And suddenly I said:
“I didn’t lose.”
“I won’t give up.” I’m sorry.
He shakes his head with a mockery, and ignores my stride.
Now I’m no longer a threat to his baby Lynch.
I held the wall and slowly raised my body.
But I’m just like that.
Even if I rise up in front of me, I will move forward.
Even though the curtains were killed.
I’d like to leave a big one in the audience’s head.
21
My dad told me I’m not his own daughter.
I actually figured it out.
Anyway, how does a life like this get blood?
Fate wants me to be no better than Lynch, but I don’t.
Then Pei Sen took me to the airport.
I can’t stay in the country anymore. I’ve got a couple of lines.
It had previously met a dress design sister at the school, and then went to the United Kingdom and opened a small design company.
It’s a good thing I saved a little bit of my life.
And I chose the clothing company because my dad was a salesman.
I won’t stay abroad forever like a dead dog.
I’ll be back.
and beat them all in the face with what they were proud of.
I don’t know.
The moment I boarded the plane, I saw the land.
It was only at that moment that it was so true that I was abandoned by the whole world.
If only life were a novel.
Just read out about 30 years east, 30 years west.
It’s just that I’m not going to be poor.
My first year in England wasn’t so good for me.
And most of all, it’s because others have higher prices.
On one occasion, I rented half of the house and was pushed out of the house overnight by the landlord with my bag.
This is Rudd’s pen from far across the country.
He called me and said, “I don’t know.”
My sister’s been unhappy for days, and I’m not gonna be happy.
London’s wet weather says it rains.
The dark clouds are as fragrance.
I’m holding my bag under the bridge.
There’s nothing to stop rain from pouring into the package.
It is as if it cannot stop itself from falling into darkness.
“You still don’t believe in fate? I’m sorry.
He said that to me when he sent me away.
You still don’t believe in fate?
What if you’re dead?
Maybe everything you do is in vain, and you’ll end up being thrown under the shadows.
Are you going to fight again?
Are you going to try harder, maybe it won’t work?
I don’t know.
I put rain on my cheeks.
Fingers shivering the number.
Until he hears the end of the phone, clear and clear.
Hello? I’m sorry.
“It’s time to call me. You’re so mean. I’m sorry.
It was as if he would never be seen, gone away, disoriented.
I squeezed the microphone and asked him gently.
“Pain, should we believe in life? I’m sorry.
The guy at the microphone was silent for a second, and then he answered me.
I’m also looking for answers to this question. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
Later I knew.
The night I called Perkins, he just broke up with his family.
Pei-Sheng, who graduated from the school, left his home.
He said he would not do it, said he didn’t want to inherit the family business, and put the bank card and all the savings on his father’s desk.
Then I knew what he wanted.
A year and a half later, he sent me a picture from the other side of the Earth.
22
Spring goes to autumn.
It’s as if all the bad thoughts in the world fell on me and on Peilin.
I was rejected by my eleventh partner on the streets of London.
He lost his most expensive shot in the Syrian war.
Yes.
He wanted to be a field photographer.
I only knew that he was in that home.
The largest number of adoptions were also orphans abandoned during the war in South-East Asia.
Maybe that little seed.
When he was very young, he was embedded in his heart.
So far, root sprouts and drive him forward.
He was on the last phone with me in the war zone in the alarm.
He said:
“Lynn, I see. I’m sorry.
“That’s what I do. I’m sorry.
“…”
Later, all communication with him was done by letter.
From his pen, I can imagine the fire.
The house was shattered by smoke.
But the most shocking.
It is the clear eyes of innocent children under the roof.
He said he couldn’t save the little girl.
The enemy aircraft bombed him and he was dragged by the officer in charge of protecting them, the journalists, under a bunker.
And the little girl.
He was then forced into the ruins.
But it’s only in the tattered, pink piece of fabric that you see.
Slow down.
Many times, I feel like fate is giving us a big joke.
My communication with his letter was as tragic as it was.
I was betrayed by my designer.
He almost got his leg blown off by a bomb falling from the plane.
Later.
Destiny seems to have eased our hands again.
My design company started to improve a little.
A photograph of Pei Sen was placed on the international film fair.
When he won the award, he said:
“If the shell drops, but it doesn’t hit the heart,
“What about the eyes of the child under the shell? I’m sorry.
There are millions of such children in war.
A lot of the pictures Parsons took were sent directly to me.
Sometimes I’ll help him pick out some photos and write them in journals and websites.
One day, I saw him say that at the lower right corner of the back of a picture:
The writings are stylish and the pen is firm.
If you pictures aren’t good enough,
You aren’t close enough.
“If you don’t take a good picture, it means you’re not close enough. I’m sorry.
That’s probably what people like Pei Sen do when they burn their lives.
23
In the fifth year away from home.
Our design company is finally on track.
My design received a very gold prize abroad.
Fate is finally on my side.
I met the dawn in the sound of waves on the coast.
I can’t find him anymore.
I haven’t heard from him for a whole year.
That’s what field reporters do.
Even when exposed to the camera, it was possible that the previous day had been funny and that the following day had remained on the battlefield forever.
I can’t get a hold of him. I’ve been feeling anxious for a long time.
Since when do I care so much about Pei-Shin?
He kept sending me letters.
He occasionally borrowed military telephones from the theatre of fire to talk to me.
That’s the picture he took. Send me the whole brain.
He said:
“Lynn, if one day I’m gone. I’m sorry.
“You’ll help me clean up and publish. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
When I came back, I used all the relationships.
Over and over his letters to me.
But it’s been too long since Pei Sen disappeared.
Isn’t it because you’re with Pei-Shin?
Pei-Shin’s gone, but my luck has changed.
The bigger the company, the higher my position in fashion.
Looks like an invisible hand dragged me.
The joy that rises is what I expect.
But I am surrounded by a loss that no one can share.
On New Year’s Eve, I walk alone on the streets of London.
In fact, the British have been very interested in the Chinese new year.
There are even red lanterns on the streets.
But it doesn’t mean anything to me about a festival of solidarity.
I was walking with my head down until I saw a pair of boots.
For some reason, when my anger was filled with anger, and all the sufferings of other nations broke out.
I’m staring at the man in front.
Push him.
Question him:
“Where have you been?”
“Ah! Where have you been? I’m sorry.
“Will you tell me? I’m sorry.
“How hard is it to send a letter, some piece of paper? I’m sorry.
“You know, I thought you, I thought you’d been…”
I didn’t say the rest.
Because I was in his arms.
How long has it been since I hugged?
So I raised my hand that his body temperature was so false.
“Sorry. I’m sorry.
He sounds dumb.
“When reported in the Syrian war zone, they were abducted by local armed forces. I’m sorry.
He put his chin on my shoulder, rubbing his finger over my head.
“We were held in the hands of local warlords for nine months,
“I’m still scared, Lin. I’m sorry.
“The officers killed in front of us. I’m not afraid to die, I’m just afraid…”
“I’m afraid I’ll never see you again. I’m sorry.
“…”
Fireworks rise in the air.
All my grueling words went back in mysterious ways.
I just grabbed his coat.
I just don’t know.
I got something left.
24
Time may really change a lot.
I hated it when I was sent abroad.
It is the determination to fight back with the need to kill again.
Back home at this point, I just feel like I’m not here.
Everyone’s changed.
It was a student and a childish child.
Hate and love are clear.
And the world of adults does not show trueness and is full of vanity and snakes.
I saw Chiang Shuyee at the local estate store.
Now that I’m equal to him, no, he’s even begging me.
I watched the man laugh at me.
As if he had not dragged me into the abyss, nor abandoned me.
Yeah, the adult world has nothing but snakes.
I bumped into him and had a few words, as if we had no grudges.
Turn around and let the assistant take care of Chiang Shuye’s company.
Since he’s been acting like a demon for years, Chiang’s financial chain has been broken.
He thought it would be easy to ask me to sponsor him, taking into account our past.
I went up and kicked him.
I’m not sure I’m going to be able to do that.
I don’t know.
And Lucho.
This man has been after Lynch for years.
Instead, he turned his back on himself.
I met him drunk behind the bar.
He was depraved and I didn’t want to beat him.
I kicked him to get knocked out by alcohol.
Tell the assistant to drop those wild dogs in the car.
Between hours.
In the deep alley, the sound of the man’s cry and the bark of the beast.
25
Well, that’s all the blame.
Where is my good sister, Lynch?
Destiny has once again led us to the opposite.
Another tender.
It’s just this tender that determines whether my company will succeed in entering the domestic market.
I’ve seen my sister before several cooperative talks.
She still likes white dress.
As I expected, I stepped on my father’s feet, and I was in the middle of the day.
She threw a big eye and shook my hand.
Say in my ear:
Sister, why are you coming back? I’m sorry.
“Do you want me to take everything away again? I’m sorry.
It’s the bunny.
The first time I shined on her teeth.
26
I guess I really threatened her.
She smiled and smiled at me.
In fact, I’ve known for a long time that she had a plan.
But she hides too well, and those around her fall in love with her like a demon.
I don’t know.
He returned two weeks before the tender.
I was so busy at the time, I had to be well prepared to go to the Nanomy microscope for this bidding, and to win over Lynch.
After pouring the third cup of coffee, he was forced to say on the phone:
“Get down here and don’t look at your paperwork. I’m sorry.
“…”
I sat in Parsons’ car and I fell asleep.
Caffeine can’t help it.
He was suffocating, and he made me a blanket.
I woke up at nightfall.
The short light outside the window flows in a tilted line.
He’s holding the camera, he doesn’t know what he’s shooting.
“Stop filming. I’m sorry.
I rubbed my hair and told him I wasn’t even wearing makeup.
He put a lid on the camera.
Then hand me a folder and laugh.
“Lynn, do you remember when you asked me to trust us? I’m sorry.
“Now I don’t know. I’m sorry.
I opened the file bag, and there were several pictures.
Lynch took a man’s hand and entered several hotels.
Pei-Shin rubbed his eyelids and said:
“Cool, you know?”
“That’s the boss of the company you’re targeting for this bidding. I’m sorry.
“The Lord, I don’t know how to be so cool, but the industry is all over the country and there’s a background. I’m sorry.
Yeah. I’m sorry.
He ordered pictures.
“How many times did he leave the hotel with Lynch? I’m sorry.
“Do you have any questions as to who won this bidding? I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
It’s just a gift Pao used to make his little lover happy.
But my concern is not here.
I looked over and over.
Ask him:
“Pezen, you war journalist. I’m sorry.
“How come you still know Hanabi?” That’s the angle, right? Pure dog? I’m sorry.
He had his fist on his lips and coughed.
“Well, I shot it myself. I’m sorry.
“The average journalist is not as good as me. I’m sorry.
“…”
I’ll put the pictures away.
Give it back to him.
Smile to him.
“I know. I’m sorry.
“In fact, I have a friend who’s been working in artificial intelligence. I’m sorry.
“He asked ai to help me figure out my chances of winning this time. I’m sorry.
“0.37%.”
“But I still think I can win. I’m sorry.
And he stood there, then he laughed.
Raise the camera, point it at me, ask me:
“Why?”
“I used to think that I was a woman, and I was a man’s mate, and I was an ash that would be sacrificed.” I’m sorry.
“But what if I’m actually the hero of another novel? I’m sorry.
“What if someone looks at me, wants me to fight back, wants me to win, wants me to defeat my intended opponent? I’m sorry.
I went to the camera, I took the corner of the lips, and I said it gently.
“I won’t lose. I’m sorry.
“Is the probability 0.37? I’m sorry.
“0.37 at one point, it’ll be 100 percent. I’m sorry.
“You have to look at me. I’m sorry.
27
This tender was organized by the president of the dragon, Zhu Qi.
I’ve dated him a few times and he didn’t say yes.
Until I mentioned my sister Lynch’s name and said I had a grudge against my sister.
Finally got a 20 minute interview.
He is a man of the legend, “the air field is so strong that there’s an elite in the hands and feet” and “the power of power is so great that one can crush a man’s wrist.”
He looked at me with his chin up.
“Mrs. Lin, I don’t think we have anything to talk about, even if you buy your sister for a few minutes. I’m sorry.
I laughed and said to him.
“Mr. Gu, they all said that I had bullied my sister. I’m sorry.
He’s nuanced, staring at me.
“But I didn’t do anything, and all the men stood by her like a demon and trusted her with all their heart. I’m sorry.
“I’m worried, Mr. Gu, you’re in such a state. I’m sorry.
He was obviously a little angry and staring at me.
“You dare to speculate about me?”
“…”
I shook my head.
“I’m just trying to persuade you to choose a career. I’m sorry.
I thought about what happened to Chiang and Lu Zhao.
“I’m afraid I’ll suffer and regret it. I’m sorry.
He laughed.
“What makes you choose to be a career? I’m sorry.
I’m done. That’s where we’re going.
‘Cause you know what my sister is. I’m sorry.
“Is it better than my sister I sent you these days? I’m sorry.
“This bid may be just a little toy you gave her. I’m sorry.
“But have you ever thought of choosing me to do more for your group? I’m sorry.
“This benefit may not be so much for you, but what if it triggers a larger chain reaction? I’m sorry.
“It’s only been four years since my brand was created. I’m sorry.
“You’re a rational businessman, not a romantic, right? I’m sorry.
“I just hope that you will be fair to this tender when you’re in the middle of it. I’m sorry.
Men stare closely at me not talking.
I owe him my debt. I left him politely.
I don’t want his answer. I just want this seed planted on his heart.
I don’t know.
Then I went on and on and on and on and on and on.
His 20-minute interview wasn’t bullshitting him.
In order to communicate with clients at work, I learned my own psychology.
He’s got an image in his head, and he’s guessing what he likes.
The tone of each word must be changed from the moment of reporting to the day of the day.
Been busy for five or six days.
The day before the bidding, Pei Sen asked me to climb the mountain.
Actually, I’m a little rusty. He told me to take me to bed when I was done.
And that’s why it has to climb.
It’s because the temple at the top of the mountain is very spiritual.
I’m all laughing.
“Pain, are you superstitious?”
He put his hand in his pocket and stood under the temple.
“That day, when I found out that Lynch was the little girl I missed when I was a kid. I’m sorry.
“I’m actually impressed. I’m sorry.
I looked at him, and asked him unconsciously.
“Then why aren’t you with her? I’m sorry.
‘Cause I don’t believe in fate. I’m sorry.
“…”
The wind through the temple brings red silk.
He came to me step by step.
Put that red amulet on my neck.
“But now I can’t help but complain to the gods in the temple. I’m sorry.
“And pray to them that they may spare thee and that they may stand with thee once.” I’m sorry.
I’m being held by him like this.
Ten-fingered, penetrating.
“I don’t want you to be sad. I’m sorry.
“I don’t want you to give up. I’m sorry.
“I don’t want you to work so hard and lose so much. I’m sorry.
“You know what?”
“When you called me the other day, should we believe?”
“I’m dying. I’m sorry.
“…”
I’m staring at the tree in the yard.
Heads up, rubs his soft black hair.
“I won’t lose. I’m sorry.
“Pilson, I told you. I’m sorry.
“I won’t lose. I’m sorry.
28
The day of the bidding meeting.
Lynch seems to like wearing a white dress, and it does fit her.
She smiled softly at me.
As if I were not her competitor, as if I were her own sister who had been missing for days.
The number of companies participating in the bidding process is not small.
But most of them know that the final winner will be born between me and Lynch.
We’re a strong, new brand company.
The other is the CEO’s little lover.
Lynch said it first.
She’s really trying.
But nothing but hard work, even some second-rate companies.
However, she was a strange person who, while not perfect, could only draw attention to her merits.
After she’s finished, it’s my turn.
I’m a little confused as I stand at the podium.
Words to say have already been written thousands of times.
I looked out the window and fell off the tree.
The French sway with the wind.
I thought a lot, a lot.
When I was a kid, I worked hard to get my dad’s approval.
They say I’m fat, and I’m dieting, and I end up in the hospital, and no one comes to see me.
There’s no time for entertainment. Four o’clock in the morning, you’re in the mirror.
It’s the most beautiful thing to learn how to laugh, to put on a face and deal with a personal relationship.
Learn violin, calligraphy, dance.
I’m gonna be great. I’m gonna be great.
As long as it’s good enough, I won’t lose it.
But in the end, I was empty.
Bones are broken.
I’m standing up again.
When will such a day be a head?
Can’t you keep me going?
My speech is over.
I won the full house.
Everyone’s down. That’s the best I can do. I’ve practiced the mirror a million times.
Only one person remained indifferent.
Yeah.
Sitting on the main seat of Queen’s death.
He began to summarize the tender.
The only programme mentioned was that of Lynch.
Listen, I’m starting to feel like I’m crashing.
It failed again.
Why do I always have to lose?
How can this 0.37 probability be on my side?
I look up and look at my sister’s eyes.
She doesn’t even have to be sarcastic. Just look at me so gently.
It’s like:
Sister, did I push you to hell again? I’m sorry.
I sat on the chair.
The stomach’s a little cramped, and the spirit is restless.
I can’t hear you.
I heard him exaggerate about Lynch, saying that he could see the heart of the naked son of the man who was preparing the programme, but the best work he had ever seen.
Speaking of which, the man in the main seat took the ring in his hand.
Then his sight fell on me.
“But, I think, the project’s final commissioning company. I’m sorry.
“I’ll give it to Miss Lin. I’m sorry.
I’m up.
The images were slow in front of my eyes, and the room was blown away by what I said.
Lynch stood up.
I heard Gu’s chill saying:
“Mrs. Lin, I can’t refuse the perfect extent of your program. I’m sorry.
“I am a businessman. I appreciate it. You did what you said. I’m sorry.
He came over and shook my hand.
I keep a decent smile right now.
There is no time for applause in this room.
The sight of such admiration has fallen upon me for a long time.
Only Lynch stood up, and she looked red, and watched the cold.
And then the negative ran out.
I don’t know.
I’m blind.
I think I saw myself years ago.
The little girl in the toilet.
The little girl who strangled herself.
She asked me.
Lin, did you win?
I guess I won.
I didn’t win over Lynch.
I won my destiny.
29
Out of the company, I grabbed my phone and called someone.
He’ll pick up soon.
He’s got a smile in the microphone.
“Well, how’s it going?”
“You guess?”
I blinked and made him laugh.
“I guess you won. I’m sorry.
“Ah, great photographer, you’re right. I’m sorry.
He smiled, and I couldn’t stop laughing.
He asked me:
“Where are you?”
I sat by a newspaper stand at the door of the company, eager to share the news with him.
I gave him the location, he said.
“Lin, you won’t forget it’s your birthday. I’m sorry.
I’m used to it on my birthday, but his words make me want to follow him.
“So what? What do you have for me, Parsons? I’m sorry.
“You go to the newspaper next to you and buy a magazine called The Lead.” I’m sorry.
“…”
That day, the sun was perfect.
There are pigeons to play next to the fountain, and the wind’s leaves are hidden in the ripples of joy.
I saw the cover of a magazine called The Mainist, showing my face.
I’m not surprised he’s good at taking pictures of people.
I’m surprised that my face was on such a big cover.
Yeah, he shot it in the car the other day.
And half of my face falls into the shadow, and my eyes are bright, and I look at the lens.
When he pulled down the gate, I said to him:
“You have to look at me. I’m sorry.
I don’t know.
I laughed.
Wind up my hair.
Parsons is standing across from me with the camera.
His voice line came through the phone.
“If the road goes on, it will go on.” I’m sorry.
“Linquent. I’m sorry.
“You’re the hero of your story. I’m sorry.
“Always. I’m sorry.
Quantified
How many years has it been since that bid?
I’m not old either, but my sister is in the ground.
I looked at the photographs on the tombstone.
Just this time.
Reach out and bring out a hand of grace.
He’s slowly movin’ around, groping’ pictures of my sister on the tombstone.
“…”
Even with his sunglasses, I know that he is blind.
Not yet an ordinary blind person.
He’s cold.
Ugh.
It’s already lost millions of household property. It’s a normal person.
“Hey, Kiki, Kiki…”
He murmured and cried first.
“Will you forgive me? I’m sorry.
“You forgive me…”
“I shouldn’t have cut you a kidney, I shouldn’t have given blood to other women when you were pregnant, I shouldn’t have forced you to donate the cornea.
“I shouldn’t have broken your leg in order to imprison you…”
“Kiki, I don’t want to push you. I love you. I love you.”
“I’m sorry…”
The man was in pain, and I looked to the side, and I was afraid he would spill tears on my pants.
On the other hand, there are “The Cemetery of Jiang Shuyee” and “The Cemetery of Lu Zhao”.
Looks like they were jealous of Lynch.
Double-drive into a cliff.
“…”
I really don’t want to be flattered.
I put white flowers next to my sister’s gravestone, and I left.
Around the cemetery there was a white car waiting for me.
Parsons on the wheel, looking at me.
“You’re kind enough to sweep your sister’s grave. I’m sorry.
I shrugged my shoulders.
“Just trying to kill her.” I’m sorry.
He laughed and started the car.
And then I said, without notice:
“Lin, I’m going to Libya next month. I’m sorry.
“Well, it’s always like this. It’s a short time to return. I’m sorry.
“Lin, you’re a big man, you’re looking for company, get married. I’m sorry.
“I don’t know if I can make it to your wedding, I…”
I interrupted him.
I’ll go with you next month. I’m sorry.
He stomped on the brakes and stood still.
shiver and ask me.
“What did you say?”
“I said, I’ll go with you. I’m sorry.
“I thought the reporter who was with you left, I’ll be your new partner. I’m sorry.
“In any case, Lynch’s dead. I don’t have the power to roll anymore. I’m sorry.
“You’ve sent me pictures from the battlefield. I’m sorry.
“I want to do my best. I’m sorry.
I’m a little out of touch.
He was crushed in the window.
“What are you doing?”
I shot his back.
There was light in his eyes, and he looked at me.
“Will you really come with me? I’m sorry.
I actually know this kid.
Like me, trying to take me away, but the nature of his job, it’s impossible.
I raised my hand and rubbed his black hair.
“Alas, it’s not just for you, Parsons. I’m sorry.
“A man can’t be indifferent to the tragedy of that war. I’m sorry.
“Now, you’re the only one who calls for peace and turns the eyes of the public to the harm of war. I’m sorry.
“Will you laugh at me? I want world peace. I’m sorry.
“…”
His nostrils were on my neck, softly saying.
“Not arrogant. I’m sorry.
“This is what people like us do, isn’t it? I’m sorry.
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I don’t know.
Keep your eyes on the road.
