Zhihu Salt Selection _ Ru Meng Ling

Since

the beginning of winter, my health is getting worse and worse.

I looked at the medicine from Nanzhi, frowned and drank it in one breath. “It’s a nice day today. Come out with me and get some air.”

Perhaps seeing that I was in good spirits, I was always not allowed to go out. Nanzhi, who was afraid that I would be affected by the wind, nodded his head. Then he took a thick cloak and put it on my shoulder. He also sent Nanyi to put a new hand warmer in my arms.

“I’m not so delicate. Why should I be so careful?” I smiled helplessly, Nanzhi did not speak, only stubbornly gathered the collar for me, and then looked, people have been red-eyed. I knew she was worried about me. Nanzhi was always like this. She had a stubborn temper and refused to say anything in her heart, just like when she was around her grandmother. The sunshine in

winter is so rare that people are so lazy that they don’t want to move.

“Sister Nanzhi, let’s go home and have a look. I miss my grandmother.” Nanzhi gently pushed the swing behind me. I couldn’t see her expression. I probably had already cried.

“All right, I’ll have Shen Wu prepare the carriage in a minute.”

I nodded, the sun was warm on my body, I stretched out my hands to meet the sun, my eyes were so bright, but my consciousness was more and more blurred. There were people kneeling on the ground in the courtyard, and some of them were saying something in a shrill voice, but I only heard the words “choose a good day to get married.”. The wind was so strong in winter that I drew my hand into my sleeve without any trace. On the

day of the Lantern Festival, the elder sister was married, and her husband’s family was the prominent Xie family in Beijing.

The elder sister received the order and smiled shyly, which reminded me that she always coaxed me to send something to her sister with delicious food, and asked me to tell him about her sister’s favorite brother-in-law, Xie Yaoan, the elder brother of the Xie family.

I was in a trance when my second sister knocked me on the forehead and said, “Get up quickly, don’t kneel down like a fool.” I quickly got up and bumped into my second sister’s arms. “Little Ning is frozen, and I want to hold her!” Second Sister smiled and wrapped me in her cloak, but she didn’t forget to scold me. “After the ninth day of the next month, little Ning’er will be fourteen years old, and she’s still so noisy. I’ll see which son dares to marry you in the future.” The wedding date of the elder

sister was set on the second day of February, which was said to be a good day for Qin Tianjian. I’m a little sad, and I don’t know if I can have a big sister to accompany me on my birthday.

Because of my elder sister’s marriage, my mother was always with her during the day, so I could only sneak into her room at night and whisper with her as usual. I

was curled up in my elder sister’s arms, and I was very wronged, because today I suddenly heard an old Mammy say, “If a young lady marries someone, she will be from another family, and if she comes back, she will be a guest.”.

“They’re talking nonsense. Big Sister will always be Little Ning’s big sister, and she’ll always be Miss Chang!”.

They don’t understand. It’s all nonsense.

The grandmother loved her granddaughter, and the parents loved their daughter, so they left the elder sister until she was seventeen years old, so they chose the grandmother’s family, the Hsieh family, and the eldest son of the Hsieh family, who was as gentle as jade.

The elder sister wiped my tears and coaxed me along with my words. When I woke up

again, I was already in my room. Thinking and forgetting to ask my elder sister if she would accompany me on my birthday, I sighed and saw Ahara lying on the side of my bed. Before

I could say anything, Ah yuan leaned forward and stared at my face for a long time. “Sister has eye droppings,” he said earnestly.

“Early in the morning, I really want to hit you.” I rolled my eyes and turned away from him. “Sister, don’t be angry. Ah yuan is wrong. Ah yuan is teasing your sister.” Seeing that I didn’t respond, he said, “Ah yuan told my sister a piece of good news.”

“What?”

yuan took off his shoes and walked around to me. “Grandmother wrote me a letter, saying that it was snowing outside the city, and that it was so beautiful that she asked my father to let my brother and sister go to play.”

“Really?” On the fifth day of the first lunar month, my grandmother was invited by the Empress Dowager to go to the Ten Thousand Buddhas Temple to worship Buddha. It had been quite a long time. I had never been away from my grandmother for such a long time. Naturally, I was very anxious.

Of course it’s true! Sister, hurry up and pack up. After breakfast, we’re going to set out.

Mother arranged everything early and released her elder sister together. In the past, the sisters were always together, but they never went out to play together.

The Ten Thousand Buddhas Temple is in the mountains, and now it is snowing, which has a mysterious artistic conception. When the

carriage stopped, Ahara could not wait to jump down. I hurriedly stuffed half of the remaining snacks into my mouth and was helped out of the carriage by my second sister.

Not far away stood a man, looking at the appearance of fifteen or sixteen years old, but gave a sense of stability, dressed in a green shirt but added a bit of cold temperament.

He watched us get out of the carriage and walk towards us slowly. The wind was strong in the

mountains and it snowed. I shivered with cold and quickly wrapped my cloak tightly. When the

elder sister and the man saw the ceremony, she turned around and called to us, “Yu-wan and Yu-ning, come and see the second son of Yan.” A yuan had already run away, and the elder sister did not care any more.

I saluted and looked at the second son of Yan secretly. I have long heard that the second son of Yan was raised by the queen mother and grew up with the princes. I thought it must be a delicate and weak person like the third prince.

“Why does Huei-fang keep staring at me?”

I immediately withdrew my gaze, blushing and arguing, “Who’s looking at you? Me? I’m not.” Said to run away, but unexpectedly the soles of his feet slipped and fell to the ground. I was ashamed and annoyed, and tears flowed out. “But it hurts?” I shook my head and was helped up by my second sister.

“If that’s the case, then I’ll have to carry Huan-fang on my back.” Yan Er’s son came over

and looked at me with a smile.

The elder sister glanced at me and, without waiting for me to speak, saluted him and said, “Then I’ll trouble

the second son of Yan.” The second son of

Yan walked fast, and in a short time he was more than ten paces away from his two sisters

.

“Why don’t you talk to me?”

“Not well.”

“If you have no conscience, come down and walk by yourself.”

“Don’t!” I clasped my hand around his neck for fear of being put down.

“Then who am I?”

“The second son of Yan.” As soon as the words fell out of his voice, I felt him release his hand and say, “Brother

, Brother Yan!”

“Hold me loose. You’re strangling my brother to death.” I couldn’t see his expression clearly, but I felt

that he seemed to smile. I let go of my hand resentfully. ‘Oh.. Why have you come here

? Surprised that

I would take the initiative to speak, Mr. Yan paused and then said, “Your grandmother promised you

to me. I came to see if your wife looks good.” “Of course it looks good. You don’t look good.” As soon as I said that, my face turned red.

“Grandma won’t promise me to you!”! You, you rascal..

“Then what should I do? My brother has turned his back on you. If you don’t get married, he won’t have a wife

.”

“I’m still young..”

“That brother is waiting for you to grow up.”

“You scoundrel..” Yan Er Childe just laughed and did not speak again.

The Ten Thousand Buddhas Temple is a royal temple, which is guarded by soldiers on weekdays, so there is no need to worry about safety

. As soon as

we entered the temple, Ahara was already beside his grandmother. I followed the two sisters

to salute the queen mother, and then threw myself into my grandmother’s arms.

“Why are your eyes red? Who bullied our little Ning?” My grandmother patted me on the back

and smiled kindly.

I curled my lips and did not speak. Big Sister laughed and said, “I fell down outside just now.”

Grandmother lovingly touched my head. “Grandmother rubbed it for little Ning, and the pain

went away.”

“Perhaps the Ai family hasn’t seen these children for a long time.” The Empress Dowager took the eldest sister and the second

sister by the hand and said, “Now Yurong is going to get married.”

I didn’t have much contact with the queen mother. I met her several times at a palace banquet when I was young, but I can’t remember it clearly. Even so, the queen mother and grandmother are like sisters, and they are also very good to us. If there are any good things on weekdays, they will ask the prince’s brother to send them over.

Speaking of these, I can not help but wonder, Yan Er Childe also grew up in the palace, how can he never see him in the palace?

“Qing Ci grew up around me, and he was too restrained. Now that all the princes have opened their houses one after another, I can’t keep him in the palace any more. I’ll have to ask you to take care of him in the future.”

“If you relax, I will naturally take care of everything outside the palace.”

Qing Ci, Qing Ci.. When I was

six years old, I was coaxed to get drunk by a man at a palace banquet. In a trance, I heard someone calling him Qing Ci. At that time, he also coaxed me to call him brother! Thinking of teasing me on the road just now, I began to get angry.

What Yan two childe, originally is a big liar! The

palace sent someone to send a reward, which was the dowry added by the queen mother and the emperor for the elder sister.

Splendid clothes, ten miles of red makeup. Beijing can have such a decent, in addition to the royal sons and daughters, big sister is the first one.

I looked at the big sister in front of the dressing table and always felt that something had changed, but there was no trace to be found. Holding a jade comb, the

mother combs the elder sister’s hair, muttering: “One comb to the end, two combs to the eyebrows..”

People always look forward to warmth, otherwise how to make up so many words to imply love for a long time? There was a message

outside the door: “Madam, the wedding party has arrived outside.”

“I see.” The mother collected her expression, showed some smiles, and covered her head for her elder sister. “Mother’s Yung’er has grown up..” He wanted to say something, but suddenly he choked and couldn’t say it. Mammy Sun, who was standing by

her mother’s side, hurriedly took over for her. “The eldest daughter is getting married today, but she should be happy. She will say goodbye to her parents later, and don’t lose her manners.” Then he helped his mother to the front hall.

Mother has always been the most loving elder sister, now watching her daughter grow up, is about to become a wife and daughter-in-law, naturally inevitably gaffe.

Even through the hijab, I knew that the elder sister had cried. Suffering from clumsiness and having nothing to say to comfort her, I could only come forward and embrace her, as usual.

Yes, big sister is still my big sister, but from today on, it’s not just my big sister.

The second sister shoved a veil into the eldest sister’s hand and then reached out to pull me away. “Little Ning had just eaten a snack and hadn’t wiped her mouth yet, so she was careful to rub against the eldest sister’s wedding dress.”

The elder sister laughed and hid the veil in her sleeve. “If it gets dirty, then big sister won’t give little Ning a gift on her birthday in a few days.”

It turned out that the elder sister had always remembered that I pulled the sleeve of the second sister and did not speak, but I was so happy that I couldn’t help myself.

Outside the door, the happy old woman shouted, “It’s an auspicious time for the bride to leave the cabinet!” Dongwu and Dongting helped the elder sister up, went out, and entrusted her to Xipo.

I was about to follow him, but my second sister stopped me. “Let’s take the side road.” With these words, he took my hand and went out through the side door.

Father and mother sat upright in the front hall, kneeling in front of the elder sister. Both father and mother had tears in their eyes, but they still pretended to be calm and told their daughter. Although

the grandmother did not appear, she silently watched the whole process in the side hall. Yes, how could my grandmother, who was so strong in the battlefield when she was young, easily shed tears in front of people. When I

watched my brother-in-law holding my elder sister’s hand and sending her into the bridal sedan chair, I began to worry.

I finally knew what had changed. I finally understood that Mammy was not talking nonsense that day, and I finally understood what the second sister said-everyone has his own way to go, and no one can always go together.

The front yard was full of guests and noisy.

The second sister was called by her mother to entertain the guests, and I pulled Ah yuan to sit in the corner, trying not to cause trouble. After

sitting for a while, a boy led a man with a strange face to us. Looking at his dress, he was probably the bodyguard of a childe. “I’ve seen Huan-fang.” The man saluted and handed over a bag of things. “This is

the honey fruit that my son bought specially for the third young lady.”. My son has said that if the eldest

daughter gets married today, the third daughter won’t be too sad or envious. In the future, when my son

marries the third daughter, he will give her the best. I didn’t know until I

heard that the childe in his mouth was Yan Qingci. I blushed and was about to

argue, but Ahara took the lead.

“Brother Shen Wu, just give me the candied fruit. My sister has a thin skin and won’t want

it.” yuan stepped forward and took the candied fruit. “You just go back and tell Ching-ci

that my sister is so envious..”

I put my hand over Ahara’s mouth. “Don’t talk nonsense, or I’ll beat you up!”

Hara struggled to run away. “I’m not talking nonsense.”

I looked at Shen Wan, who was holding back his laughter, and pretended to be calm and said, “If you dare to talk nonsense, I will beat

you!”

“If you don’t dare to be presumptuous, why doesn’t the third sister have anything to say?”

“Thank you, thank you for your son’s honey fruit.”

“Then the shameless man retired.”

I nodded, but my face was red beyond words.

Thinking of my grandmother’s sadness, I slept in her room at night. In the

dream, the elder sister in the courtyard pushed the swing for me and talked to me gently. Suddenly, the swing rope broke, I was thrown out, and my elder sister was smashed on her forehead.

Mother came quickly and saw my big sister who was still comforting me with her head broken and bleeding. My mother slapped me in the face, and my head seemed to explode with a “buzz.”. The elder sister exclaimed, “Mother!” Hold me in your arms.

“Tear down this harmful thing, and don’t build it again!” I didn’t dare to meet my mother’s eyes, but I also felt disgust.

I held back the pain and didn’t dare to cry out, but I couldn’t stop my tears.

As if aware of my nightmare, my grandmother gently woke me up, then sat up and held me in her arms, “Little Ning is not afraid, grandmother is here, not afraid..” Not afraid of.. When I was

seven years old, I broke my leg and lay in bed for a long time. At that time, I had nightmares almost every night. My grandmother stayed by my bed every night, holding me and comforting me.

Mother was never here.

In fact, I always knew that my mother didn’t like me. Mother never gave me a good look, never cared about me, even if I was born on the same day as Ahara, she would not give me a little love.

“Grandmother, why does mother hate me so much?”

“It’s not your fault..” The grandmother seemed to remember something. After a long pause, she said, “Little Ning is the tip of my grandmother’s heart. She is the best child in the world.”

The second sister said that it was good not to know the truth about painful things. I looked into my grandmother’s tearful eyes and asked no more.

“Little Ning also loves her grandmother the most.” On the birthday of Ah yuan

and I, my elder brother-in-law came back with his elder sister, accompanied by Yan Qingci. I have to admit that Yan Qingci is really good-looking. When she smiles, her eyes are curved, just like the moon.

“Do I look good?”

“Good looking..” Who’s looking at you? This man really needs to be beaten.

I turned away from talking to him again, but Yan Ching-ci conjured up a few paper packets and said, “Shen Wu said that yuan Heng ate the honey fruit last time, so this time I prepared a few more. This is yours. I’ve already asked Shen Wu to deliver yuan Heng’s.”

I took it over and thanked him. When I saw Yen Ch’ing-ch’ing step forward, I said, “Open it and taste it. Let’s see if you like it.”

“Oh,” I said. I opened a bag, took one and put it in my mouth. “It’s delicious.”

“Give it to my brother, too.” Yan Qingci took another step forward and bent down to stare at me.

“Buy it yourself. It’s mine.” I stepped back and gathered the candy in my arms. “All right, just one!” I handed out a bag and waited for him to pick it up.

“My brother’s hands are dirty, so Ah Ning feeds him.”

I sighed. “How lazy.” Then he carefully picked one and fed it to Yan Qingci’s mouth.

Yan Qingci smiled and opened his mouth to pick it up, then bit my hand. “Ah Ning’s hands are so sweet.”

Sweet ghost, you did it on purpose!

Yan Qing has been coming to my home every day since his birthday. It was only because Ah yuan mentioned to his father, “My brother Ching Ci is very good at martial arts, and Ah yuan wants to learn.”

What a traitor! Father is when Qiu, if you want to learn martial arts how not to find father!

What’s done is done, and I can only accept my fate. Pity me, who used to be able to sleep until the third day of the day, but now I have to be woken up by Ahara every day, and then dragged to the backyard, which is euphemistically called supervising him to practice. Someone supervised a yuan’s practice, and his father was naturally very gratified. The second sister was pressed by her mother to learn this and that every day, and she was too busy to take care of herself. So the job fell to me, and even my father thought it was perfect. In

the backyard, I was dozing on a stone table when I was suddenly shaken awake by Ah yuan. “Sister, sister, there is a bird that can talk in Ching-ci’s house. Sister must have never seen it, and neither has Ah yuan. Would sister like to go and have a look?”.

“No!”

“I knew my sister wanted to see it too, so let’s go!” Then he pulled me up and went out.

I glanced at Yan Qingci, who was laughing harmlessly, and resigned myself to follow Ahara out of the mansion. A few days

ago, the Empress Dowager gave Yan Qing a mansion across the street from Chang Fu. Yan Qingci liked it so much that he moved in as soon as he left the palace, so he did not live with his mother and brother in Yan Mansion.

I heard my grandmother say that in the 17th year of Heshun, Yan Pingzhi, the Duke of Zhenguo, and his only son Yan Zeng died in battle. At the age of ten, Yan Congyu, the eldest son of Yan Chang, inherited the title and supported the family business alone. When Yan Qingci was only four years old, she was brought up in the palace by the Empress Dowager.

I secretly glanced at Yan Qingci, wondering if it was because he was not liked by his mother that he came out to live alone, so I felt more sympathy for him.

When Ahara saw the talking bird, he was so happy that he chattered for a long time, which made the bird jump up and down, shaking its feathers and saying nothing to him. Seeing this,

Shen Wu picked up the bird’s cage and said to Ah yuan, “I don’t know. This bird doesn’t like crowds. Take Shen Wu to the backyard. Maybe you can slow it down.” When

Ah yuan heard this, he looked back at me. “Sister, brother Shen Wu said that this bird doesn’t like crowds, so you and brother Qing Ci don’t follow me.”. Otherwise, if I disturb his interest, he won’t speak to me.

“It was you who disturbed it.” Before I could finish, Ah yuan hurriedly said, “Sister, don’t follow me.” He followed him to the backyard.

So I and Yan Qingci were the only two people left in the courtyard. I hesitated to find a reason to go home first before I wanted to speak. As soon as I turned around, I bumped into Yan Qingci’s arms.

“Ah Ning took advantage of his brother.”

「…… Scoundrel! I was about to step back with a red face when I found myself struggling around him.

“If you take advantage and want to run away, isn’t Ah Ning responsible?” Yan Qingci looked at me innocently, but his hands hugged him more tightly.

“It’s clearly you..” It’s clear that you took advantage of me. How can you still make a counter-charge. I muttered a few words in a low voice, but I didn’t dare to say it. This man is used to being cheeky. He won’t admit it.

“Ah Ning bumped into my brother’s chest. Why don’t Ah Ning rub it for him?”

I didn’t hit it so hard! I didn’t even hurt my forehead, but you did. I breathed a sigh of relief. “My forehead hurts too. Let’s call it even.” As soon as

the voice fell, Yan Qingci’s warm lips were imprinted on my forehead, and after a moment, he left again. I froze and couldn’t move. “Does it still hurt?”

I didn’t dare to look him in the eye, and my heart was beating fast. My mind was full of the words he said that day, “Brother, wait for you to grow up.”.

I finally came to my senses, but I felt my ears were beginning to burn. “Grandmother is calling me. I’ll go back first.”

I struggled to leave, but Yen Ching-ci still refused to let go. “It’s so far away. How can I hear it?” “Well..” Yan Ching-ci looked at me with a smile and said, “My brother sent Ah Ning back.”

“No..” Before I could say the word “use,” I was picked up at the waist by Yan Ching-ci. “Ah Ning hurt his forehead, and naturally he couldn’t walk. So Ah Ning was carried home by his brother.”

I pressed my chest and my heart beat so fast that I was probably scared. “No one walks on his forehead.” I muttered, but I didn’t struggle any more.

Yan Qingci still came every day, always with all kinds of things, or snacks, or candy, sometimes with some fun, saying that I was afraid of eating too much sweets to eat bad teeth.

A yuan followed Yan Qingci to practice martial arts in the early morning, and the rest of the time was arranged by his father to go to the military camp to experience, along with Yan Qingci.

His father treated Yan Qingci very well, and sometimes he would stay at home for dinner. Yan Qingci did not refuse, but got along well with everyone. Even his mother would talk to him with a pleasant face.

Yes, my mother just hates me.

The second sister is still busy all day, no time to accompany me, I do not know why my mother is so persistent in making the second sister the best woman. Only occasionally, some rumors spread to my ears, saying that the second sister wanted to be the Crown Princess.

Sister Nanzhi was always angry when she heard this. She went out to scold the people outside and comforted me not to listen to these messy words. I smiled and said yes, but turned around and remembered the busy daily appearance of the palace people and the second sister who came and went in the house recently. How long hasn’t the second sister laughed happily?

I don’t know why, but my grandmother has been seeing fewer and fewer people recently. On weekdays, apart from Mammy Su waiting on her, even I can’t go to see her every day. Afraid of my loneliness, he sent Nan Zhi and Nan Yi over again.

Nan Zhi is about the same age as the second sister, and Nan Yi is younger. When there is no one, I also call them sister. Grandmother was kind, and even Mammy, the maid in her yard, was good-tempered.

Nanzhi has a stubborn temper, and once she has made up her mind about something, she can’t ask a word from her mouth. I went to ask Nan Yi, and after asking for a long time, I only asked that the palace was going to choose the Crown Princess.

I don’t care about this. I just want to know if what my second sister does every day is out of her heart. I just want to know if my second sister is happy or not. At that

time, the light in the second sister’s room was still on. I lay on the windowsill and saw that the second sister was still embroidering the veil. Xi Jin and Xi Cen had already rested, and the second sister was the only one in the room. I gently pushed the door in and sat next to my second sister.

“Why haven’t you slept so late?” Second Sister put down her needle and thread and held me in her arms. “It’s Second Sister’s fault. I haven’t been with Little Ning for a long time.”

“Little Ning’er is thinking about Second Sister. During the day, Second Sister doesn’t have time, so I choose to come at night.” The second sister gave a light hum and did not speak. “Do I have to learn these things?”

“Of course not.” The second sister pressed her chin against my forehead. “Little Ning just needs to grow up happily and do whatever she wants.”

“Isn’t Second Sister happy? If she doesn’t like it, why does she still want to do it?” All the things in

this world that get what they want have to lose something to balance.. Little Ning’er is still young and doesn’t understand this. I looked at the second sister gradually dim down the eyes, very distressed. In the eyes of my

second sister, I was always young, but I remember clearly that my second sister began to help my mother housekeeper when she was my age.

The elder sister has a gentle temper, and although her mother loves her, she is just an ordinary person, spoiling and loving her, hoping that she will marry a person who loves each other, and that her life will be safe and secure. But the second sister has been different since childhood, everything is perfect, even the father said, if the second sister is a man, it is a pity that he is a general!

It’s a pity that if the second sister were a man, she wouldn’t have to be trapped between the square inches surrounded by red walls and green tiles. During the

Dragon Boat Festival, a message came from the palace, saying that it was to invite the young ladies of various families to attend the palace banquet. In the

carriage, my second sister took my hand and laughed quietly.

Little Ning’er hasn’t seen her elder sister for a long time, and her second sister will also leave, right? Second Sister will live in a high enclosure, separated from Little Ning for a long time, right?

The second sister was stunned and suddenly broke down in tears. I have never seen the second sister cry, anxious at a loss, but do not know how to comfort.

About the time of a wick of incense, the second sister raised her head, wiped away her tears with a handkerchief, and told me not to fool around in the palace, but did not mention a word about what had just happened, as if nothing had happened. At the

palace banquet, the queen took her second sister’s hand and laughed happily. The queen’s maiden name is Xie Wanyi. She is the niece of her grandmother. When Ah yuan and I were born, we were given a pair of dragon and phoenix jade pendants.

The queen is a very beautiful person, gentle and virtuous, so look, the second sister temperament is particularly similar to her. I was so sad that I couldn’t eat anything. Seeing that no one was paying attention to me, I quietly retreated.

“Isn’t Ah Ning happy?” Yan Qingci crouched down in front of me and looked at my face. “I didn’t eat anything.”

“Will the second sister become the Crown Princess?” I lowered my head, and as soon as I opened my mouth, tears fell down.

“If a Ning has someone he wants to protect, will a Ning be willing to do anything for them?”

I nodded, choking up and unable to speak.

“Then I think Second Sister is willing, too.” Yan Qingci rubbed my hair and wiped away my tears. “Don’t cry anymore. My brother brought some delicious food for Ah Ning.” As he spoke, he took out a ball of cloth from his sleeve and said, “Taste the new sweet-scented osmanthus cake.” “Mmm.” I wiped my eyes and took a sweet osmanthus cake.

“Why don’t you go with your brother to the Empress Dowager’s Palace and play for a while?” Yan Qingci turned his head sideways and spoke

with a serious face. The queen mother has a lot of fun there, well.. And a little princess,

your age..

“But my feet are numb..” I moved a little, only to feel that I had been touched by someone.

“The elder brother carried Ah Ning on his back.” Just as Yan Qingci was about to turn around and carry me on his back, he moved and

stopped. “I’d better wait for a while. My brother’s feet are numb..”

Hearing this, I smiled through tears, but Yan Qingci was not annoyed when he saw me laughing, and he wiped

the cake foam off my mouth.

Yan Qingci is really a good brother, I think, if I can have a brother, probably

the same.

“What are you thinking? Come on up.” I looked at Yan Qingci’s bent back and lay down

.

“Since the princess is the same age as me, do you treat her so well?” Thinking that

this preference may not be my only one, I felt a little sour in my heart.

But Yen Ching-ci laughed. “Ah Ning is jealous?”

“Not at all.”

“My brother only treats Ah Ning so well. He only likes Ah Ning.”

I was very happy to hear this, but I couldn’t help laughing. I took out a piece of osmanthus cake from my veil and held it to Yan Ching-ci’s mouth. “Here,” I said, “I can’t eat any more. I’ll give you a piece.”

The Empress Dowager’s Palace was very quiet, and the little princess Meng Jiaxu mentioned by Yan Qingci was not in the Empress Dowager’s Palace.

As soon as I entered the temple, a fragrance of flowers came to my nostrils, clear and sweet, which made people feel happy when they smelled it. As soon as the

queen mother saw me, she smiled and held me in her arms. “Little Ning’er is really a good child. Remember to come and see my great-aunt.”

「……」 Can I say that I was cheated by Yan Qingci. Moreover, the queen mother, you are Yan Qingci’s great-aunt.

The queen mother is very similar to her grandmother and always gives people a sense of reassurance.

The Empress Dowager hugged me happily for a while, but suddenly she felt sad again. “My great-aunt failed to protect your second sister. In a few days, your second sister will become the Crown Princess.”. Your grandmother was so angry that I broke my promise and refused to talk to me. But Seung-hee this child is also sincere to treat your second sister, with Qing to treat you.

“Grandaunt, Ah Ning is tired. I’ll take Ah Ning to the side hall to rest for a while.” Before the queen mother had finished speaking, she was cut off by Yan Qing. Before I could react, she was already in Yan Qing’s arms.

“I’m not tired..” I looked blankly at the man in front of me.

「…… Even if you are not tired, you should rest for a while. Then he carried me to the side hall and put me down. “I’m thirsty.” I found a soft couch and climbed up, staring pitifully at Yan Qingci

.

Yan Ching-ci shook his head and said with a helpless smile, “I really can’t do anything with you.” Then he went to the table and poured out

a glass of water. “Warm, sweet tea, drink it.”

I got up, took the cup and drank it down.

“Is it sweet to drink so fast?” Yan Qingci suddenly approached a little and trapped me on the couch

. My back was against the back of the soft couch and I couldn’t move.

“Sweet..” I turned my head sideways and dared not look into Yan Qingci’s eyes, not knowing what he was going to do.

“If the elder brother doesn’t believe it, the elder brother will taste it himself.” Without waiting for me to react, Yan Qingci’s warm

lips covered my lips. Shocked, he looked up at Yan Qingci’s

smiling eyes.

I held my breath, my heart beat faster and faster, and my face began to burn.

Yan Ching-ci raised the corners of his mouth, turned his head sideways, and whispered in my ear, “It’s really sweet.” The

warm breath made my ears itch, as if someone had scratched a feather.

Does Ah Ning like his brother?

As if stunned, I nodded my head and said, “I like it.”

“Then Ning can’t like other people any more, or..”

Otherwise what … Will you hit me?

Yen Ch’ing laughed and put his hand on the tip of my nose. “My brother is reluctant to part with me, but if Ah Ning falls in love with someone else, my brother will die of grief.”

I don’t want to break Yan Qingci’s heart, but I already like my grandmother, my elder sister, my second sister and Ah yuan very much.

“Can’t they like their grandmothers?” After struggling for a while, I still felt that I couldn’t hide it from him, so I tried to ask.

But Yan Qingci laughed out loud, got up and took the teacup from my hand and sat beside me.

“What the elder brother wants is different.” In the twenty-ninth year

of Heshun, on the ninth day of the seventh month, the second elder sister married the Crown Princess. On the day of

receiving the decree, there was no expression on the second sister’s face. I looked at my second sister from a distance and dared not ask a word.

The world envied the second sister for marrying into the palace and enjoying all the respect from then on. But no one knew that the second sister had burned the manuscript all night in the house by herself. I don’t know how long the second sister has been hiding her thoughts on the whole page of “Shen Li.”.

The elder sister finally failed to send the second sister out of the cabinet. Shortly after the

Dragon Boat Festival, the elder brother-in-law took the elder sister to serve as the chief of Su County. Su County is remote, but it is a leisurely place, and it is also a good place to go.

The nuns carefully dressed up the sitting second sister, and the hairstyle and makeup were different from those of the elder sister when she got married. I stood nearby, racking my brains, but I couldn’t think of a few words to say.

In the end, it was the second sister who opened her mouth first. “The second sister has a heavy head. Little Ning’er should be distracted when talking to the second sister.”

“Good.” I nodded and began to talk nonsense. “Second Sister, have you ever seen a talking bird? Yan Qingci has one. I went to see it with Ah yuan.”. The bird is very good-looking.

I suddenly couldn’t go on. The bird was very beautiful. Only to be trapped in a cage. Isn’t this my second sister, a beautiful bird about to be trapped in a cage.

I remembered the square veil that the second sister had stuffed in the elder sister’s hand, and the second sister had embroidered it for a long time. The four birds surrounded each other and were very intimate with each other. But now, my second sister is going to be put in a cage and separated from us.

Second Sister chuckled. “It’s good to keep this bird in a cage, but it’s just a matter of losing something that’s not important. As long as you can get something you want, what’s wrong with it?”

Just as Mammy had combed her hair, the second sister waved them down first. “Little Ning’er, don’t think about this all the time. Children should be happy.” “Second Sister will have a good time. Don’t worry, little Ning’er.”

“Does Second Sister like anyone?” I think of that person named Shen Li, can not help but feel sorry for the second sister. Hearing this, the second elder sister was stupefied and laughed again for a moment. “It’s not important, little Ning.

I couldn’t say something at that time, so I don’t have to say it anymore.” Everyone is

trapped in a different cage.

I snuggled in my second sister’s arms and couldn’t say a word.

A yuan clung to the second sister’s hand and sent the second sister to the prince. I do not know when, a

yuan has grown much taller than me, probably because he has been in the military camp, and even his temper

is much more stable.

Separated by many people, I saw Yan Qingci leaning against the door. I hadn’t

seen him for a few days. I heard Ah yuan say he was in the barracks.

Occasionally, his father would mention Yan Qingci, praising him for his style of Yan Huguogong and his

promising future.

I looked at Yan Qingci from a distance, thinking how this person is always smiling, really silly!

Grandmother probably made up with the queen mother. Yesterday, they made an appointment to go to the Ten Thousand Buddhas Temple again. I don’t know how long they will go this

time. Grandmother refused to take me with her. A yuan stayed with his father in the military camp

every day, and even Yan Qingci went with him.

I was very bored at home alone, but every few days I would send some

new things, and the talking bird was also sent.

Nanzhi was carefully fed every day, and he was much fatter than when he first came. Yen Ching-ci probably didn’t

teach it anything, so that every time I teased it, it just said “Ah Ning, Ah Ning,”

and said nothing else.

The elder brother-in-law wrote that the elder sister was pregnant, and it was almost two months when she knew it.

Mother was worried about her elder sister’s health, so she prepared a lot of things and sent them to her that day. It was estimated that the baby would be born around March next year, and Mammy Sun was asked to ask the midwife earlier to prepare it for the elder sister.

I was so bored that I saw Nan Yi embroidering a purse, so I asked her to teach me. Nan Yi was so entangled by me that he found Nan Zhi to persuade me. Nan Zhi laughed at me on the spur of the moment, but still coaxed Nan Yi to teach me.

Grandmother never forced me to do anything I didn’t like, and no one in the family really said anything. Come to think of it, the elder sister and the second sister are already good enough to protect me in everything, so that I can be at ease. Every day, I just need to read, sleep, and do whatever I want.

Nan Yi taught me for a while, but he couldn’t bear it. “Miss, this isn’t about learning needlework. It’s just too boring to entertain me!”

I carefully compared the two purses and felt that they were really ugly, so I coaxed Nan Yi to teach me more, so as not to be laughed at.

But when Nan Yi heard this, he laughed. “Young lady never learned these things, but now she’s afraid of being laughed at. This man must be her sweetheart, right?”

Nonsense! At least I’m a young lady, so naturally I have to learn something. I don

‘t know who is always saying that they don’t learn what these little girls learn. As a result, I didn’t learn any martial arts, and I couldn’t embroider a purse.. Nan Yi suppressed a smile and spoke with a serious face.

Although this has happened, there is no such joke as you. If you don’t teach me today, I’ll tell Sister Nanzhi and let her teach you a lesson! I crossed my waist and spoke with a righteous face.

Nan Yi was most afraid of Nan Zhi scolding her, so naturally he obediently taught me. It’s a pity that after learning for a long time, I still can’t embroider a sample. Probably, I can’t learn it.

As soon as autumn comes, the weather gets cooler day by day. After

several days of rain, there was a wet smell inside and outside the house.

I was worried about my grandmother’s health, and when it finally cleared up, Yang Nanzhi and I went to the Ten Thousand Buddhas Temple early to send some clothes to see my grandmother.

Perhaps because of the light diet in the temple, my grandmother looked much thinner and was always distracted when she hugged me and talked. The queen mother stared at me for a long time and pulled me from her grandmother’s arms.

“Why don’t you promise me the resignation of Little Ning?” The queen mother pinched my face and her eyes were full of joy. “Ching Ci has liked this girl since she was a child, and she’s sure to treat little Ning well.”

“Qing Ci is a good boy, but he is also liked by little Ning.” Grandmother looked at me and said, “Does little Ning like Yen’s brother?”

「……」 Grandmother is also true, how can you ask so openly.

The grandmother gave the Empress Dowager a white look. “Look, little Ning doesn’t like it!”

“If you ask like that, how can a child have the nerve to say anything?” The Empress Dowager was also worried and separated me from my grandmother. “Just tell my great-aunt,” said the Empress Dowager. “How would you like to be treated?”

“Good.” I nodded, and Yan Qingci treated me really well.

“Does little Ning’er like being with Ching-ci?” When I think about it

carefully, it was really fun to be with Yan Ching-ci. I really liked being with Yan Ching-ci. I nodded my head again and said, “Yes.” As soon as

the words fell, the queen mother turned to her grandmother. “You see, I said yesterday that this child also likes Qing Ci.”. Qing Ci has asked me many times, and I’m afraid that little Ning’er has been promised to someone else by your grandmother. That’s what

you’re asking.. Ask in vain! Grandmother pulled me back into her arms and never spoke to the queen mother again.

I thought about what the queen mother said, although I do not know whether it is true or false, but I feel a little happy in my heart. Think if Yan Qing resigned to marry another young lady, then I will certainly be very sad.

After lunch, Grandmother told Nanzhi a few words and urged us to go back quickly. I took Grandma by the hand and asked, “When will Grandma come home? Little Ning misses Grandma very much every day.”

“In a few days, in a few days, Grandma will be home.” Grandmother let out a long breath and touched my head.

Hearing that there was going to be another war in the North, my mother grimaced every day. I watched from a distance, but still dared not go up and say a word, for fear of making my mother angry for no reason.

But a few days later, I saw Yan Qingci. I knew he would come to me, because my father was going to the North to fight, and he would take Ahara and him with him. As soon

as Ahara entered the yard, he rushed at me. “Sister, Ahara is going to the battlefield. I may not see my sister for a long time.” Why does my sister have such an expression?

“You stepped on my foot..” I glanced at Yan Qingci, who was standing beside me, and stepped back without changing my face.

Hara scratched his head in embarrassment and changed the subject. “Sister, if Hara can make military achievements this time, he will be able to get an official position. Then if someone asks to marry his sister in the future, he must be better than Hara..”

“What and what? Nonsense!” As soon as I raised my hand to hit Ah yuan, I saw Ah yuan laughing and hiding behind Yan Ching-ci. “But Ah yuan thinks Ching-ci’s brother is very suitable. Why don’t you think about it?”.

I was about to say something, but Yan Ching-ci opened his mouth first. “yuan Heng, I just heard Mrs. Chang calling you.” A yuan hesitated for a moment. “It seems so. I’ll go and have a look.” Said and ran out. I

didn’t know why I was looking at Yan Ching-ci, but to my surprise, Yan Ching-ci said frankly, “My brother is a person who practices martial arts, and he has a good ear.”

Take the words I said to block me, you really have! I casually said “oh” and turned to amuse the birds under the eaves.

Yan Ching-ci followed closely behind me. “Is Ah Ning angry?”

“No.” I poked the bird in the cage that was looking at Yan Qingci with my finger and did not look back.

“Has Ah Ning ever thought about it?”

“Consider what?” The voice did not fall, suddenly felt a tight waist, Yan Qingci hands from behind holding me, leaning on my ear breathing, “I do not know if my brother can marry a Ning…”

“Ah, ah, he’s talking nonsense.” I turned my head sideways and blushed when I remembered what the queen mother had said. Holding my shoulder,

Yan Ching-ci turned me toward him and stared into my eyes for a long time before saying, “Brother, I just want to know if Ah Ning is willing.”

I.. Hum.. Before I could speak, Yan Qingci suddenly lowered his head and kissed me on the lips, blocking my words back. My eyes widened, but from Yan Qingci’s eyes I saw myself with a panicked face.

Then there was a pain in my lips and I frowned. “If you don’t want to, it’s no use. My brother made a mark on Ah Ning.”

As if I had been punctured, I stood there, my mind in a mess. I don’t know whether it was because of shyness or pain, but the tears could not stop falling down.

Seeing that I was crying, Yan Qingci also panicked. While wiping my tears, he said nervously, “Yes, I’m sorry. My brother hurt Ah Ning. My brother didn’t mean it. Ah Ning, don’t cry. My brother apologizes..” Brother is because he likes a Ning, not because he wants to hurt a Ning.

“Are you a dog? Do you bite people?” When I came to my senses, I was about to push Yan Ching-ci’s hand away, but he held me tightly in his arms. “My brother is a dog. My brother shouldn’t bite Ah Ning. As long as Ah Ning doesn’t get angry..” Hiss..

When I heard Yan Qingci cry out in pain, I opened my mouth and released his ears with satisfaction. “Now we’re even.” I wiped the tears from my face and looked at him with a proud face.

“It’s all dogs, it’s all dogs..” I followed the sound, and sure enough, it was the bird, which was now found shaking its feathers upside down and turning around.

Seeing that I had stopped crying, Yan Ching-ci touched his ear and laughed. “I didn’t expect Ah Ning to bite people so much, and my brother wanted Ah Ning to coax me..”

“Scoundrel, I won’t!”

“The elder brother coaxed Ah Ning..” With that, Yan Qingci reached out his hand and took me in his arms. Without waiting for me to react, he printed his lips on my lips again. “Ah Ning’s lips are sweet, too.”

You.. Um. Bully people.. As if my heart was about to jump out, I struggled a few times, but Yan Qingci hugged it more tightly. I put my hand on his chest, felt Yan Qingci’s heartbeat similar to mine and the temperature on his chest, and immediately even his ears burned up.

“When the elder brother comes back, I’ll go and ask my grandmother to promise Ah Ning to the elder brother. Ah Ning must wait for the elder brother to come back, okay?”

“Good.” I think I’m probably crazy, but somehow, whenever I’m with Yan Qingci, I always feel at ease. 6

On the day of his father’s departure, the whole family went out of the city to see him off. Grandmother also came from the Ten Thousand Buddhas Temple, holding Ayuan’s hand and talking for a long time, then called Yan Qing alone, I do not know what to say.

Grandmother finally came home with us. In the

carriage, I lay in my grandmother’s arms and listened to her tell stories about her and her grandfather. It had been a long time since my grandmother had told me this since I had moved out of her room. I was so relieved that I fell asleep unconsciously.

Yan Qingci wrote letters every few days, writing about things he had never seen in the capital, or about his father and Ah yuan. In the middle of

October, my father wrote to say that there had been a change in the war, and sent Yan Qingci to report to the emperor face to face. He arrived about four or five days later. I worry about my father and a yuan every day, thinking that Yan Qingci will come back this time. Although I can’t see my father and a yuan, I can also ask clearly.

“I don’t know if he’s hurt..”

“Ah Ning, come and have a look and you’ll find out.”

Yan Qingci? I turned to follow the sound and saw the man in my mind leaning against the door and smiling at me.

“Didn’t my father say it would be four or five days? Why did you come back in three days?”

“Ah Ning, who hasn’t seen me for years, wants to come back soon.” Yan Qingci walked towards me, his face full of fatigue but still smiling gently.

“What a long time! Have you become an immortal? The days have passed so quickly!”

Yen Ching-ci heaved a deep sigh, “Ah Ning must not have studied hard, otherwise how could he not know that one day without seeing each other is like three autumns apart?” Holding me in his arms, he said, “My brother really misses Ah Ning, and he doesn’t want to wait any longer.”

Yan Qingci said that the war in the north was deadlocked, and he was afraid that it would be difficult to solve the problem for a while. After going to the court, he saw me in a hurry and left again with the hay. Before he left, he specially left Shen Wu behind. After

my grandmother came back from the Ten Thousand Buddhas Temple, she began to shut herself up in the house again. I couldn’t see my grandmother for several days, and Mammy Su was always not in the house. I was worried, but to no avail. Grandmother had always been stubborn, and no one could easily change her decision.

The second elder sister found an excuse to invite the young ladies in Beijing to enjoy the flowers, so after a long time, I saw the second elder sister again. I sat in front of the table, watching the second sister sitting in the first place, every move reveals the posture of the Crown Princess. Halfway through the

banquet, Xi Cen came over and whispered in my ear, saying that the second sister asked me to go to her hall to talk. I nodded, quietly withdrew from the banquet, and followed Xi Cen to the second sister’s hall.

A moment later, when I entered the Yuyang Hall and looked at the layout of the hall, I couldn’t help being a little surprised.

“Don’t take it amiss, Third Mistress. This is because the prince was afraid that the young lady would not be used to living in the prince’s mansion, so he arranged the Yuyang Hall to look like the young lady’s room.” Xi Cen laughed. “You

don’t have to worry about our young ladies. The prince has always treated them very well.”

I smiled, did not speak, but secretly sighed, long heard that the prince treated the second sister well, but in the second sister’s heart, probably the better the prince treated her, the more she suffered.

“Little Ning, come quickly. Second Sister has left a lot of food for Little Ning. Try it quickly.” Hearing that I had entered the temple, the second sister immediately came forward, took my hand and went inside.

“In Second Sister’s mind, little Ning’er only knows how to eat.” I curled my lips and took a plate of preserves and put them in front of me.

The second sister smiled, “How can little Ning’er only eat? In the second sister’s heart, little Ning’er is the best woman.”

Second Sister will lie to me! I learn needlework from Nan Yi every day, but I can’t learn it, and I have to be laughed at by Nan Yi every day. Nanzhi doesn’t care, and let Nanyi bully me!

“Well, it’s very embarrassing.” The second sister looked at me with her chin propped up. “With little Ning’s needlework, it’s really hard for Nan Yi.”

Second Sister! Hum! Even you are bullying me!

In fact, I all know that Nanzhi sister let Nanyi tease me, but just want to distract me, not a person sad. But the second sister herself can’t be happy, but she’s still thinking about making me happy.

Until Lunar New Year’s Eve, his father and a yuan still did not come back.

In previous years, Lunar New Year’s Eve my grandmother would allow me to accompany, but I pestered Mammy Su for a long time, and my grandmother still did not let me in.

I haven’t been able to talk to my grandmother for a long time.

“Sister Nanzhi, does grandma hate me, too?” Lying on the bed, I was so sad that I thought that even if my eldest sister and second sister were married, I would still have my grandmother, but now, even my grandmother is no longer close to me.

Nanzhi sighed, “Miss, don’t worry, old lady..” The old lady loves the young lady most, how can she hate the young lady. It’s late at night. Go to sleep. Nanzhi is watching the young lady. Not long after the

Lunar New Year’s Eve, Grandma went to a village outside the capital, saying that she was too old to stand the noise in the capital, and that she could live outside for a while to calm down.

I begged for a long time, but my grandmother didn’t agree to take me. I don’t understand why my grandmother suddenly doesn’t want to be close to me, and I don’t know what I did to make my grandmother angry. When the

grandmother left, she only took Mammy Su with her. Nan Zhi refused to say anything, and Nan Yi didn’t know anything.

I was sad for a long time, and I don’t know why, and I caught some cold, and I got sick in a few days.

This year’s snowstorm is particularly heavy, I lie in bed all day burning in a daze, my ears are full of messy sounds, and I have one dream after another, good or bad, crying and laughing..

By the time I was conscious, my grandmother was at my bedside. When I saw my grandmother, I couldn’t stop my tears. I cried until I was out of breath. I sobbed and asked my grandmother, who was leaning against the head of the bed with me in her arms, “Grandmother didn’t want little Ning. How could she not want my little Ning?” As he spoke, he even began to cry, “Grandmother can’t even hurt little Ning enough.”

It seemed that I had passed my illness. Every night when I slept with my grandmother, I could hear her coughing. I was probably afraid of waking me up, but I didn’t dare to cough too loudly. I just coughed a few times, and then hurriedly took a few mouthfuls of the tea that Mammy Su had prepared for me in the morning on the table beside the bed. It has been more than two months since the

Lunar New Year’s Eve, but their father has not been able to come back. I always have some bad feelings

these days, and I feel very uneasy. It happened that the Imperial Physician said that my illness was urgent and I was afraid that I would recover slowly. He forbade me to go out and asked me to take care of myself and not to suffer from the wind any more.

At night, my grandmother said she couldn’t sleep and hugged me and talked to me for a long time. When I was a child, my grandmother coaxed me in the same way. At that time, I was frightened by the second prince, saying that if I slept too early, I would never wake up. So it was not until very late that my grandmother put me to sleep.

Grandmother hugged me very tightly until Chen Shi, when I was a little sleepy. In the chaos, I heard grandmother say, “Little Ning is the treasure that grandmother holds in the palm of her hand. Grandmother loves little Ning the most, but grandmother has to leave little Ning for a period of time..” Be good, don’t cry, don’t get sick, and take good care of yourself.

I put my arms around my grandmother’s neck, hum, and fall asleep. When my grandmother is around, I always sleep very comfortably.

I had a dream about my grandmother. In the dream, my grandmother touched my hair and cried to me, “Grandma can’t watch my little Ning get married. My little Ning is a good child.” Grandmother is really reluctant to.. I looked at my grandmother at a loss. Suddenly, my grandmother was getting farther and farther away from me. I shouted to catch up with her and woke up from my dream. When my grandmother

disappeared, I suddenly thought of something and ran barefoot to my grandmother’s room without putting on my shoes.

The wind is so strong that it makes me cry. On February 23, the first year

of Jianning, my grandmother left.

I watched my grandmother’s coffin sink into the loess, but I couldn’t cry a drop of tears. The grandmother who would hold me to sleep and watch me all night for fear that I would have nightmares would never come back. On the way

back to the mansion, I suddenly vomited blood. Before I fainted, I saw my mother in a trance.

The queen mother sent several doctors to come over again, and the empty courtyard was now full of medicine stoves. Half lying in bed, I suddenly missed Yan Qingci very much. I wanted him to hold me and say a word to me, even a word.

Just as I was thinking about it, a figure came in and hugged me. “Ah Ning is not afraid. When my brother comes, he stays with Ah Ning.”

I leaned in Yan Qingci’s arms and listened to his heartbeat, which was steady and powerful. “I miss you very much, Yan Qingci. Why did you come so late?”

Yan Ching-ci’s body stiffened. “My brother also misses Ah Ning,” he said. After my grandmother died, I couldn’t sleep all night. Only when Yan Qingci came to see me every day could I sleep for a few hours. Mam

my Su was worried that my body would not be able to endure, so she made a tranquilizing decoction for me to drink every day. Hearing Nanzhi say that my mother had come to see me twice, I hum, did not speak, but turned my back and shed tears.

Some things become less important when they come too late.

I leaned back on the bed and turned my head sideways to look out of the window at the swirling snow. “Why is it still snowing in March?” Mam

my Su took one look at me, closed the window, and covered the quilt for me. “It’s probably the last snow. Miss, sleep for a while. Don’t catch cold.”

I can’t sleep. Mammy Su, we.. Let’s go and live outside for a few days.

「…… All right, in a few days the young lady will be better.

“Tomorrow, let’s leave tomorrow, Mammy Su.” I grabbed Mammy Su by the cuff, but she had no choice but to nod. “Then I’ll go and pack up my things and tell my wife.”

“Good.”

The elder sister gave birth to a girl. It was ten days later when the news of the

grandmother’s death reached Su County, when the grandmother had already been buried. Everyone hid it from the elder sister, fearing that the elder sister would have an accident, until the elder sister gave birth to a child and noticed it.

A yuan took a letter from his elder sister and read it to me. The elder sister said that the child was named Hsieh Chang-si, and that he looked very much like his elder sister when she was a child. Sister, you.. Why don’t you speak..

I looked at a yuan squatting on the edge of the bed carefully, I do not know when, a yuan has grown so big. Not as young as before, no longer will only follow behind me will only call sister, will only make trouble that child.

“That’s great. Ah yuan is now an uncle.” I pulled the corners of my mouth, but I still couldn’t laugh.

Sister.. Sister and Ahara, Ahara will always protect her sister.

“Well, my sister knows that Ahara is old enough to protect her.” I took Ah yuan’s hands in my hand. These hands, which used to be delicate, had already worn out their cocoons. “Sister, Ah yuan has grown up.”

Nanzhi was afraid that I would be disturbed, so he told the people in the yard to speak and do things in a lower voice, and even Nanyi, who had always been noisy, did not move. There was a courtyard in the west of

the city. Mammy Su said that it was originally left to me by my grandmother as a dowry, and no one had ever lived in it. In the

carriage, I closed my eyes and leaned against Yan Ching-ci’s arms. Suddenly I felt sad. “What should I do, Yan Ching-ci? I don’t have a grandmother anymore.” The words were not finished, but the tears were already out of control. “I, I didn’t, I didn’t say goodbye to my grandmother.”

I couldn’t help crying, and I choked up and couldn’t speak. Yan Qingci, as he breathed for me, murmured, “Just cry it out..” Ning and his brother. My brother is with Ah Ning.

After a long time, when my mood had stabilized a little, Yan Qingci said again, “My brother couldn’t walk the way Ah Ning walked, but when Ah Ning frowned, my brother felt very sad..” The elder brother doesn’t want to leave Ah Ning alone to feel sad. Why don’t you go home with the elder brother, be the elder brother’s wife, and let the elder brother protect Ah Ning for the rest of his life.

Yan Qingci reached out his hand to wipe away my tears, then lowered his head and kissed my eyes. “When Ah Ning cries, my brother’s heart will be broken.”

Eyes came crisp itching feeling, as if snow fell in the palm of the general, I hit a shiver, did not hold back to retreat. Then he reached out and hugged Yan Ching-ci. “I’m sorry, I didn’t..” I like you too, but, but I can’t, I can’t marry you.. I pressed my face against Yan’s chest and said, “I’m sorry.”

“Don’t worry, we don’t worry..” Yan Ching-ci hugged me and coaxed me in a soft voice. “My brother knows that Ah Ning feels sad..” Let’s take our time. The

carriage walked very slowly and steadily, and I snuggled in Yan Qingci’s arms and spoke in a low voice.

「…… My grandmother had several cats. I was only four years old at that time. One day, I was sitting at the door eating snacks. One of the cats came to me. I thought he was hungry, so I gave him a piece. He jumped into my arms and licked my face. I was so scared that I cried, and my grandmother hugged me for a long time. Grandmother loves to hold me. I didn’t mean to fall asleep that night, I didn’t mean to ignore my grandmother. Little Ning misses her grandmother, and she misses her very much.

“My brother knows.” Yan Qingci rubbed my hair and hugged me more tightly.

…… Mam

my Su would stare at me every day to drink the medicine. She was afraid that I would be exposed to the wind and forbade me to go out. I read books and embroidered flowers in the room every day, and I really embroidered a decent purse.

Heard that the North sent an emissary to ask for peace. As I

looked at Yan’s exhausted expression, I couldn’t help feeling a little distressed. “I’ve been feeling much better these days. You don’t have to come to see me every day.”

“Ning kicked me out?” Yan Qingci put his chin on my shoulder and said that he was wronged.

“No, I think you’re too tired..” Before

I had finished speaking, Yen Ching cut me off. “No, my brother just wants to be with Ah Ning.”

“Why are you still learning from Ahara?” I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. It’s so good that I even act like a spoiled child.

“Because yesterday yuan Heng said that you couldn’t stand him acting like a spoiled child, and you couldn’t stand it. My brother also wanted to try it.” Then he rubbed his forehead against my face. The effect is very good.

“Knock it off, it tickles.” Smiling, I moved away a little, and Yan Qingci took me back into his arms.

「…… In a few days, I will go to the north again. This time, it is to escort Princess Funing to the north to make peace.

Although I had expected such a result, I still felt a little uncomfortable when I really heard it.

Princess Funing is Meng Jiaxu, the little princess mentioned by Yan Qingci before.

Later, I saw her several times, and she looked cold and cheerless, and there was no emotion on her face, as if everything in the world had nothing to do with her.

The last time my second sister asked the girls of each family to enjoy the flowers, I talked to her. Although she looked cold, she was just a little girl with a slightly mature mind than her peers.

I looked at Yan Qingci with a face of self-reproach and did not know how to comfort him. A long time of war is a waste of money and manpower, if not at his wits’ end, the emperor would certainly not be willing to send his only princess out.

“It’s not your fault..”

Ning has never been to the north. In the north, there is a lot of snow and wind in winter. Sometimes it doesn’t stop for three or four days. After sweeping the snow at night, when she wakes up early the next day, there is a thick layer outside the camp. There are also times when it doesn’t snow, when it doesn’t snow, it’s even colder, and the wind makes my face hurt. I do hope that there will be no war, but not in exchange for this. Yan Qingci spoke indifferently, as if there were no joys and sorrows. It’s bitter and cold in

the north, and I don’t know if it can grow out of the flowers in the capital. Last time the princess said she liked the flowers of the second sister, and I don’t know if she asked the second sister for flower seeds. Since Qing Ci’s brother is going to see the princess off, he might as well take her with him, so that he can relieve the princess of her lovesickness.

I got up and took the flower seeds from the drawer and handed them to Yan Qingci. While thinking about what Yan Qingci had just said, I suddenly remembered the wound I had seen

a few days ago when Ah yuan had made a bet with Shen Wan. Even if there is a father and Yan Qingci to protect, have become like this, I do not know how Yan Qingci hurt.

Just as he was thinking about it, Yan Ching-ci suddenly got up and took me into his arms. “Ah Ning hugs my brother..”

I was stupefied for a moment, knowing that Yan Ching-ci must be filled with sadness. I put my hand around Yan Ching-ci’s waist and whispered, “I’m here, I’ve always been here.” Before leaving,

Yan Qingci set up a swing in the yard and told him to check the rope every few days.

I looked at the swing outside and felt itchy, and it was a rare good weather, so I asked Mammy Su to let me go out to play for a while. Mammy Su couldn’t resist me, so she had to promise. As soon as

I sat on the swing, I saw Nan Yi hurrying in. He looked at me with a guilty conscience and said, “Miss, here we are!”

“It’s just someone. What are you panicking about? Please come in.” Mammy Su concentrated on decocting the medicine without looking at Nan Yi.

“But it was Yen’s mother who came!” Nan Yi was so anxious that he jumped to his feet, and I was stunned. Remembering that Yan Qingci seemed to have a bad relationship with Mrs. Yan, I couldn’t help being more nervous.

I clenched the rope and looked at Mammy Su. “Mammy, what should I do?”

“Don’t be nervous, Miss. I’ll see you sooner or later.” Mammy Su was still concentrating on decocting the medicine. “Nan Yi went to invite Mrs. Yan in to see the tea, and said that the young lady would come over as soon as she changed her clothes.” Nanzhi, go and change the young lady into a decent dress. I was

so scared that my palms sweated a lot, so when I arrived at the door of the front hall, I still dragged Nanzhi’s sleeve and refused to let go. Nanzhi shook his head helplessly and pulled out his sleeve in the dark.

I took a deep breath and stepped into the front hall with a stiff smile.

As soon as I looked up, I saw a woman sitting on the side with a smile on her eyebrows and eyes, holding a teacup in her hand, gentle and dignified. He seemed to be a little younger than his mother by a year or two, with a gentle look, and did not seem to be a person who was not easy to get along with.

I couldn’t help doubting my previous guess. I steadied myself and said, “Yu Ning has seen Yan..”

Before she had finished speaking, Mrs. Yan came up to me and took my hand and looked at me. “I’ve heard Qing Ci say that Miss Chang San is a lovely person, but today I can see it clearly. It’s really a painful thing..”

I turned my head sideways to look at Nanzhi, but Mrs. Yan pulled me to the table and sat down. “I don’t know, madam..”

“How nice it would be for Ah Ning to call me Auntie, or for you to call me Mother, but sooner or later you’ll have to change your tune..”

I breathed a sigh of relief, but after hearing this, I blushed again. “Mother..” No, no, uncle, aunt.. As soon as I opened my mouth, my heart was lifted again. Chang Yuning, you really have a good mouth! “Why did Auntie suddenly come over?” Mrs.

Yan looked at me with an apologetic look on her face. “Ah Ning, don’t blame Auntie for being so abrupt. Auntie heard you were sick a long time ago. She was going to give your mother a letter of worship.”. Blame Qing Ci, has been blocking “… …” Never.. As soon as I looked up, I saw Nan Yi holding back his laughter.

“Good boy, Auntie is happy to see..” When you’re in better health, you won’t have to hide from me when I see you again. Mrs. Yan said seriously, let me can not help laughing, Mrs. Yan is so lovely is really unexpected.

After staying for a while, Mrs. Yan went back for fear of disturbing my rest. I looked at the things piled up on the table, but my heart was suddenly in a mess, even if I wanted to straighten it out, I couldn’t do it.

After seeing Mrs. Yan off, Nanzhi urged me to go back to my room. Thinking that Mammy Su must be waiting for me to drink the medicine, my mouth began to be bitter. After

drinking the medicine, Mammy Su forbade me to go out again. “I’ve been lying in bed and I’ve melted, Mammy.” I held Mammy Su’s arm and refused to let go, so Mammy Su had to sit down on the edge of the bed.

「…… Has the young lady considered..?

“Mammy Su, I don’t want to..” I know what Mammy Su is going to say, but I don’t want to think about it at all now. I turned my back to Mammy Su and pretended to sleep. Mam

my Su put her hand on my shoulder. “I know the young lady is thinking of the old lady and doesn’t want to get married for the time being.” What the old lady feared most was delaying the young lady, so early in the morning she and the Empress Dowager set a wedding date for the young lady and the second son of Yan.

I reached out and pulled up the quilt to cover my head, trying not to cry out. Mam

my Su sighed, “Mrs. Yan is a Frank person. The old lady has already met her, and the wife of Yan Chang’s son is also a very good match.” The second son of Yan was probably afraid that the young lady would not be willing to say, and the last time the old lady outside the city entrusted the young lady to the second son of Yan. The old lady was afraid that the young lady would have a hard time alone in the house, so she thought of many ways, but after thinking about it, she could only find a good husband for the young lady. What the old lady wants most is for the young lady to live well.

After a while, seeing that I didn’t move, Mammy Su sighed again. “If you feel bad, you can cry..” When he had finished, he heard a rustling sound. “The old lady left a letter and told me to give it to the young lady later. I put it on the bed.”

Hearing Mammy Su close the door, I lifted the quilt and cried to pick up the letter on the bed.

“I don’t know if my little Ning is getting better. Grandmother likes little Ning to be alive and kicking. It’s good that the little girl is safe and happy. She shouldn’t have too much on her mind.” Grandmother can not protect little Ning son, Qing Ci is a good child, grandmother believes that he will take good care of my little Ning son. Grandmother has asked the queen mother for a decree, and when my little Ning is sixteen years old, she will be able to marry. Little Ning also wants to take good care of herself for her grandmother.

Little Ning wants her grandmother.. Little Ning only wants his grandmother. I huddled against the bed with the letter in my arms and cried uncontrollably.

I don’t know when I fell asleep. When I woke up, it was the second day. The letter had been folded up and put on the edge of the pillow. The traces of dry tears on it were clear. I reached out and pulled the pillow over to cover it.

Nanzhi came over with a basin in his hand. “It’s rare for a young lady to have a good sleep. I didn’t wake her up because I thought I had nothing to do.”. I came here yesterday afternoon and brought quite a few things.

“Shen Wu is just short of moving the whole street market here.” I dawdled out of bed.

“Miss, wash your face first. I’ll go and see if the porridge is ready.”

“Isn’t Mammy Su here?”

“In the morning the Empress Dowager sent word for Mammy to go into the palace, but she hasn’t been there for a while.” With a cry,

I pressed my hand in the basin and did not speak again. It had been more than ten days since

Yan Qing left for the north, and counting the time, he would soon be back. I wonder if Princess Funing got the flower seeds I sent her. The Chinese flowering crabapple is easy to grow, perhaps can give birth to some colors for the princess in the lonely and cold north.

Into the spring, the weather is getting warmer, drink this medicine for a long time, the body is still not good, simply stopped, for this matter Su Mammy also nagged me for many days. A few days

ago, Shang Shu, the wife of Yan Chang’s son, came with her four-year-old son. The young man was so lively and lovely that all the people in the yard could not help laughing.

I met the young lady once, but I was too young to remember. Although the young lady was a woman, she was an unrestrained person, and as her grandmother said, she was very good with her.

Thinking that the young lady thought I was alone and easy to be cranky, she often brought the little childe over. Children are always attractive, and I can’t help but be happy when I look at Yan Shangjin jumping all over the yard. The young lady forbade me to call her young lady, saying that she was too unfamiliar. I smiled and changed my name to “Sister

Shu.” Only then did she answer happily. Occasionally chat for a long time, can also see a special trip to

pick up his wife home Yan long childe, full of affection, as if afraid of a little careless lady will

be abducted by me in general. Smiling,

I told Yan Ching that I didn’t want to be trapped in his arms. “Don’t say that Big Brother is afraid that Big

Sister-in-law will be abducted, and Big Brother is also afraid that Ah Ning will be abducted.” I really want to marry Ah Ning and hide

him at home.

I gave him a push, but I couldn’t push him away. Instead, I was hugged even tighter. “No, no

shape.”

Yan Ching-ci smiles softly, as if his eyes were filled with stars. “My brother really wants to be Ah Ning

‘s husband, and he really wants to protect Ah Ning for the rest of his life.” Then he

kissed me lightly on my forehead.

I leaned on Yan Ching-ci’s chest for a while before saying, “Good.”

As if by accident, I would answer. Yan Qingci’s breath stagnated, and then his heart beat faster and faster.

“I promised, when you come back from the North..”

“My brother remembers. My brother always remembers.” Yan Ching-ci laughed and suddenly picked me up around

the waist. “Grandmother said that as long as Ah Ning agreed, when Ah Ning was 16 years old, his brother could marry

Ah Ning and go home..”

“You put me down first.” I held Yan Qingci’s neck for fear of falling down carelessly.

Yan Ching-ci put me down carefully. “My brother was excited for a moment. Did he hurt Ah

Ning?”.

I shook my head, stepped back, and was about to speak when I saw Nanzhi coming with Shang Jin. When

Shang Jin saw me, he wanted to rush over, but was stopped halfway by Yan Qingci. “Auntie is not in good health, so come and hug me.” Shang Jin obediently threw himself into Yan Qingci’s arms.

“Does my uncle want to marry Aunt Ning?” Shang Jin lay in Yan Qingci’s ear and asked with a serious face.

“Shang Chin is really awesome. You know all about it.” Yan Qingci answered Shang Jin’s words, but his eyes were always looking at me.

“But my mother said that she would always support Aunt Ning, so my uncle had to work hard on his own.”

Upon hearing this, Nanzhi burst out laughing. “The young lady asked the young lady to look after the young man for a while. Nanzhi went down first.” Then he left in a hurry without waiting for my response.

I looked at Yan Qingci, who was whispering with Shang Jin, and suddenly envied Big Sister and Sister Shang Shu. The years are quiet, and that’s probably what it looks like.

Yan Qingci bent down and laid Shang Jin on the ground. “Shang Jin will play for a while and let his uncle find a way to marry Aunt Ning.”

“Good!” Shang Jin nodded his head and went elsewhere.

Yan Qingci sat on the stone bench and looked at me with a smile. I was a little uncomfortable, so I poured a glass of water. Just as he was about to pick up the cup, Yan Qingci took his belt and sat down on his lap.

“My brother is thirsty, too.” “Then you can drink it.” I took the cup and handed it to Yan Ching-chi. “I’ll just pour another cup

.”

“No..” Yen Ching-ci took a sip from the cup and suddenly kissed me on the lips. “The water is cold

. My brother will help Ah Ning moisten his lips.”

「……」 It’s getting more and more rogue!

“Surely Ah Ning prefers boys?” Yan Qingci put down the cup and raised his hand to touch

my earlobe. I don’t deny that I really like both Chang Si and Shang Jin.

“My brother also likes boys, so we call him Yan Huaining, and then we’ll take him to

show off to his eldest brother and sister-in-law every day.” Only then did

I understand what Yan Qingci meant. Suddenly my ears turned red, and I quickly reached out to cover his

mouth. “What are you talking about?”

Yan Ching-ci smiled and held my hand in his palm. “Ah Ning is shy. If my brother doesn’t say it, it

‘s just..” Mammy Su finally had a smile on her face

these days. Although she was still nagging

me every day that I didn’t have a good rest, every time Sister Shu came with Shang Jin, Mammy Su always

thought of ways to keep them a little longer. At the end of

April, the second sister was pregnant. Soon Zhu’s daughter entered the prince’s mansion.

I have seen that girl, who is one year younger than me. She is always timid

when she sees people. She lowers her head and dare not even speak.

The second sister still smiled gently. “After all, it’s just a poor person who has been ruined in this palace wall.” I looked at my second sister’s eyes for a long time, but I couldn’t find the light of my childhood.

I felt the second sister’s slightly bulging abdomen and changed the subject. “Does the second sister like boys or girls?”

The second sister stared blankly out of the window and thought for a long time, “a girl, grow up carefree, marry a man who loves each other, and love each other.” “Well, good girl,”

I said in a daze. The second sister is not stupid, how can she not know the helplessness of the royal children. The second sister, who was most eager to love each other and loved Bai Shou, only protected her little Ning’er.

The border is stable, Yan Qingci and a yuan are also leisurely, so in addition to the barracks, my small courtyard is almost broken by these two people.

Yan Qingci did not know where to get three kittens, and their voices were soft and lovely. After a yuan knew it, he pestered Yan Qing for a long time, but Yan Qing refused to give it to him. Later, he pestered me again, hugged my neck and acted like a spoiled child several times. Seeing that I was determined not to give it to him, he gave up.

After a few days, he came to me with two rabbits in his arms to exchange cats with me, and finally, naturally, the two rabbits became mine.

Earlier, Mammy Su ordered people to open up a piece of land in front of my house and plant a lot of flowers. Today, the warm flowers are blooming, smelling the fragrance of flowers in the courtyard, and the troubles have been reduced a lot.

I just don’t know if Princess Funing’s flowers are blooming. When

Yan Qingci came again, he brought a letter written by Princess Funing. The letter said that the flowers were blooming very well and she liked them very much. Thank you for my flower seeds. I held the letter in my hand with mixed feelings.

About people are always greedy for beauty. On the one hand, I felt sorry for Princess Funing who left her family for the country, but I also enjoyed the short-term comfort and happiness of sacrificing a woman every day. At the family dinner

Lunar New Year’s Eve, my mother spoke to me and asked me how I was. I bowed my head and answered, “It’s much better.” After that, he stopped talking.

yuan kept putting food in my bowl. “My sister is not in good health, so eat more.” Said looked up coldly at the mother, I do not know what happened, secretly pulled the corner of the original clothes. A yuan just shook my hand, but did not explain. Seeing that it was already dark,

I thought I might as well stay in the house today. I was about to ask my father, but Ah yuan got up and pulled me over. “It’s getting late, and it’s not safe for my sister to go home alone. My father and mother will sit down for a while, and I’ll take my sister home.”

“The road is slippery at night, so Yu Ning should stay at home.” When my father opened his mouth, I was about to say yes, but Ah yuan was standing behind me. “Father, the carriage is ready, and the boy will go first.” Then he looked at his mother again.

I quickly saluted my father and mother and was pulled out by Ahara.

“Did Ahara quarrel with his mother?” I looked at Ahara’s livid face and clenched his hand as he held me.

“Ahara said he would protect his sister, but Ahara didn’t forget.”

“My sister knows.” I smiled, and sure enough, it was still childish. “Ah yuan has always been protecting his sister.” Out of the mansion, I saw Yan Qingci standing beside the carriage, covered with snow, and must have waited for a

long time.

“It’s so cold. Why are you here?” I stretched out my hand to brush the snow off Yan Ching-ci’s body,

but Yan Ching-ci held his hand and said, “Come and take Ah Ning back.”

I laughed and looked at Ahara. Fortunately, I didn’t stay here today. Otherwise, I don’t know how long this man would have to wait

.

Ahara let go of my hand and said, “Now that my brother has come to pick up my sister, Ahara will go back

.”

“Don’t be angry with your mother when you go back.”

“I see. Sister, be careful on the way.” When we

got into the carriage, Yan Qingci held my hand in his to keep it warm. “On such a cold

day, I thought Ah Ning would stay in the mansion.”

“Why do you come here when you think so?”

Yan Ching-chi laughed and avoided answering. “Sleep for a while. It’ll be a while before we get there

.”

I nodded, closed my eyes and rested on Yan Qingci’s shoulder. On the day of the

Flower Festival, the second sister gave birth to a girl.

Prince early in the morning for the child to think of a good name, is a boy called Meng Jin, if a girl called Meng Yu. Holding Jin Huaiyu, we can see the love of the prince. Sister

Shu was so happy to know that her second sister had given birth to a girl that she pulled me to find a reason to go to the Prince’s Mansion. The second sister’s body did not recover well, but the smile on her face was much more than before. I knew that my mouth was clumsy, so I simply did not interrupt, while listening to the two of them chatting, while teasing little Ayu.

Before Ayu was born, the second sister made a lot of clothes, as if she knew she would give birth to a girl. I have never seen such a small child, thinking of Ah Yu growing up year after year, I can not help but give birth to a lot of expectations. There are many rules in the

palace, and it is not convenient for us to visit the second sister from time to time. So after seeing Ah Yu, Sister Shu talked to me every day about how to persuade the second sister to betroth Ah Yu to Shang Jin.

I held Shang Chin in my arms and said helplessly, “Sister Shu, Shang Chin is only four years old.”

Shu sister disapprovingly, holding her chin began to tell me about her difficult way to raise a child, Shang Jin shook his head and sighed, not forgetting to peel the melon seeds for Shu sister. When sister

Shu was talking vigorously, the supervisor came in with people. I have seen this supervisor before. It was he who announced the decree when my elder sister was married. Although I had guessed a general idea, I was still confused when I heard the decree.

I’m going to marry Yan Qing.

I looked at the imperial edict on the table with mixed feelings. The last refuge my grandmother left me was probably this decree.

Shang Chin looked up and asked me, “Is Aunt Ning really going to be Shang Chin’s little aunt?”

I nodded, and before I could speak, I heard Shang Chin shouting, “Father!”! Uncle!

As soon as I looked back, I saw Yan Congyu and Yan Qingci who had just come in. I got up and saw the ceremony. I thought Yan Chang’s son had come to pick up Sister Shu and the child.

“Younger brothers and sisters don’t have to be too polite. They’re all family members.” “Madam, hurry up and come back with me. It’s getting late.”

I glanced at Sister Shu and said to myself, “It’s not the right time. Where is it getting late?”? With an expression on her face that said, “I understand everything,” Sister Shu hurriedly dragged Shang Chin to Yan’s side. “It’s really getting late, so we’ll go back first and talk about it another day.” Then he went out.

I don’t know whether to laugh or cry, but I’m used to it. Sister Shu always doesn’t follow common sense.

Yan Qingci took the imperial edict in his hand and looked at it carefully. When he got closer, he saw a smile on his lips. I poured a cup of tea and took a sip when I caught a glimpse of Yan Qingci coming over.

“My brother has long declared his ambition for Ah Ning, but Ah Ning is the only one who doesn’t know.”

“Talk nonsense again!” I held out my hand to ward off Yan Ching-ci’s leaning face. “Mammy Su said you can’t look at the bride before you lift the veil. After today you’re not allowed to come over again.”

Yan Ching-ci took my hand and said, “Ah Ning won’t see his brother for a month.”

“Sister Shu and Shang Chin will come, and Ah yuan..” I suppressed my laughter and pretended to be serious.

Yan Qingci opened his mouth and bit me on my hand. “Ah Ning can tease his brother now..” I shrank my hand, but he held me even tighter. “Doesn’t Ah Ning miss his brother?”

“Occasionally..” As soon as the words were spoken, Yan Qingci was wronged. I wanted to tease him, but I didn’t want him to take it seriously. Embarrassed, I leaned in front of him. “Are you angry?”

Yan Qingci did not speak, let go of my hand and turned his head sideways to ignore me. I explained a few words and felt that it seemed useless. After thinking about it, I simply reached out and climbed on Yan Qingci’s arm. “Ah Ning is joking. Brother Ching-ci, don’t be angry, okay?” Then, imitating Yan Qingci’s usual appearance, he kissed him at the corners of his mouth. When

I got close, I clearly heard the rapid heartbeat of Yan Qingci. I looked up, but I didn’t see anything strange on his face. Only then did I realize that he was deliberately deceiving me.

“Since Qing Ci’s brother refuses to forgive Ah Ning, then Ah Ning won’t be around to make Qing Ci’s brother unhappy..” Just as he was about to let go of his hand, he was taken into his arms by Yan Ching-chi. “It’s too late..” Yan Ching-ci hugged me tightly and pressed close to my face with a bad smile on her face. “Ah Ning is not sincere.” Said and kissed over, with some of the breath of aggression, I was afraid, so I closed my eyes. But Yan Qingci said vaguely, “My brother thinks about Ah Ning every day. Ah Ning is not fair..”

I felt a little guilty, but after all, it was I who made him sad, so I put my hand around Yan Ching-ci and said, “I’m thinking..”

Yan Ching-ci rubbed my waist. Then you have to think about it all your life, and don’t think about other people. The wedding date was set for April 15, and early in the morning, Yan Qingci sent Shen Wu to Su County to pick up his elder sister and Chang Si. After

my grandmother passed away, I moved out of the house because I was afraid of seeing things and missing people. Now that I’m about to get married, I have a reason to go back. Thinking that my mother would not comb my hair for me, I felt that it didn’t matter again. With a wry smile, I followed Mammy Su into the house.

Chang Si is already more than one year old, and he babbles out “Ah Niang, Ah Niang.” He is at a clingy age, but he won’t let anyone hold him. He has to stagger behind people. My elder sister and I were lying in bed

at night when we suddenly heard the door open with a squeak. I turned over and saw my second sister standing at the door. It was the prince who secretly sent the second sister out to catch up with us, thinking that the second sister missed her sister. We haven’t been so intimate for a long time. I took the hands of my elder sister and my second sister and lay on the bed as if I were a child.

My mother really didn’t come to comb my hair. I looked at Mammy Su’s gentle expression in the mirror, and in a trance I seemed to see my grandmother. “One comb to the end, two combs of white hair to the eyebrows, three combs of descendants all over the floor..” Grandmother’s little Ning is really beautiful.

I laughed. “Grandmother..”

“What did the lady say?” As soon as I looked up, I saw Mammy Su looking at me with concern. It turned out that I was in a trance.

I raised my hand and stroked Mammy Su’s wrinkled hand. “Mammy, hold Little Ning. Little Ning hasn’t dreamed of Grandma for a long time. I’m afraid Grandma will forget Little Ning..”

“No, how can old lady forget a young lady?” Mammy Su held me in her arms and gently stroked my back like a grandmother. When

my father finally finished, I knelt in front of him for a long time before I got up. When I turned around, I couldn’t help smiling bitterly. Yes, what was I expecting? The only time my mother cared for me in the past sixteen years was only once or twice when I was in a coma. Holding my hand,

Ah yuan walked carefully. “Don’t be afraid, Sister. Ah yuan has always been behind Sister!”.

I took a deep breath and tried to let it go. “I know. I’m not afraid.”

“Sister..”

“Hmm?”

“My sister has always been very important to Ah yuan.”

I silently clenched a yuan’s hand, although I know I am not a smart person, but now I can see some clues.

A yuan has always been close to his mother, but suddenly changed his attitude, thought it was an ordinary quarrel, this has been several months, still cold and light. It must have something to do with me. Maybe Ahara knew the reason why my mother hated me.

“Ah yuan is also very important to her sister.”

A yuan stopped in front of the sedan chair. I couldn’t see their faces clearly. I only vaguely saw someone coming. It was Yan Qingci. yuan put my hand in Yen’s. “My brother-in-law must take good care of my sister.”

Yan Ching-chi answered and led me into the sedan chair, saying in a low voice, “My brother has finally married Ah Ning.”

……

Sitting in the wedding room, I was very hungry, but thinking that Mammy Su had told me that she could not lift the veil herself, she gave me a cake with Nanzhi. The whole day’s wedding ceremony had made me dizzy, and there was a lot of noise outside. I closed my eyes and just wanted to sleep for a while, the door was pushed open. There was a hazy red in

front of her eyes. There were many people in the room. Yan Qingci stood beside Xi Po. I was a little nervous, and there was a lot of sweat in my hands.

I could not hear what Xi Po was saying, but Yan Qingci came over, getting closer and closer, and then lifted the corner of the veil.

I quietly hooked the corner of Yan Qing’s clothes and was too nervous to breathe.

“Don’t be afraid, Ning..” Said gently lifted my veil. The people in the room were making a lot of noise, and I blushed with shame. Yan Qingci turned around and blocked me behind him. “Madam, you are thin-skinned. Now that you have seen each other, you are all going to eat and drink. Forgive Yan for not being able to accompany me.”

Everyone laughed and teased for a while and then went out, leaving only the two of us in the room. I blushed at a loss, but Yan Qingci smiled gently. Only then did I notice the blush on Yan Qingci’s face, perhaps because he had drunk some wine.

Yan Qingci led me to the table, drank the wine, and tied my hair. I sat at my desk, not knowing what to say. Yan Ching-ci picked me up and walked to the bedside. “As husband and wife, we love each other without any doubt.”. Does Ah Ning know what the next sentence is? Yan Qingci put me on the bed and leaned over to my ear, “Happy in this evening, graceful and good..” Breathing in my ears, I was itching to laugh, and suddenly Yan Qingci kissed the corners of his mouth, “Madam, the spring night is too short..” Do not waste..

I had no time to react and was wrapped in Yan Qingci’s arms. During the

Double Ninth Festival banquet, the second elder sister took Ah Yu there, and the Empress Dowager was very happy to see her great-granddaughter.

All the people were talking and laughing around me. Yan Ching-ci held my hand and said earnestly, “Ah Ning, don’t be too envious. Our Huai Ning must be even more painful.” I looked at his eyes glancing at Ah Yu from time to time and couldn’t help laughing. I’m afraid you’re more envious than I am.

The Empress Dowager suddenly took my hand and whispered in my ear, “My great-aunt is looking forward to the children of Xiao Ning’er and Qing Ci!” I blushed and did not know what to do, so I secretly looked at Yan Qingci. As if she knew,

Yan Qingci went to the Empress Dowager’s side and whispered, “Soon, great-aunt.” I was too ashamed to speak, and secretly pinched Yan Qingci on the arm. After the

Double Ninth Festival, it rained a few times, and the weather became cool. Yan Qingci put a brazier in the room early in the morning for fear that I would catch cold. After autumn, I always get tired easily, and I can’t cheer up. I think it’s an old disease that is hard to heal. So although I laugh at him for being too careful, I have to be cautious myself.

Yan Qingci went to the army early in the morning to deal with military affairs. After lunch, I was bored and wanted to sleep for a while. Not long

after I lay down, there was a sudden pain in my lower abdomen. I couldn’t move because of the pain, so I had to call Nanzhi. On one side of my head, I saw the blood under my body. There was a buzz in

my brain, and Yuexin was really late for a long time. Suddenly I couldn’t stop my tears. I don’t know if it was because of the pain or something else. Nanzhi. Nanzhi.. The pain in

my lower abdomen was so severe that I opened my eyes and faintly heard someone talking.

Madam had not recovered from the cold that had entered her body earlier, and because of the matter with Old Lady Chang, she was already weak because of qi stagnation and depression. Now miscarriage, afraid to hurt the root, after. Alas, it’s hard..

「…… I had to bother the Imperial Physician to hide the fact that it would be difficult for my wife to conceive again. It’s

hard to get pregnant again. Yan Qingci has been looking forward to Huaining for so long, after all. I broke down in tears and huddled up in the quilt.

“Ah Ning is not afraid. My brother is here.” Yan Qingci stroked me on the back through the quilt. I don’t know when he came in. I

cried so much that I couldn’t speak, and I didn’t know how to face Yan Qingci, so I just curled up. Children.. There will always be. The most important thing is that Ning is all right. With that, I tightened my back and was hugged by Yan Qingci.

I couldn’t help crying out, how sad he should be, but he still tried to comfort me. I turned around and hugged Yan Ching-ci. After a long pause, I whispered, “I’m sorry..” Yan Qingci’s breath was very light, and after a while he said, “It was my brother who failed to protect

Ah Ning.” He choked before he had finished speaking.

It was not until the end of the year that I got better. Just always dream of our Huaining, I do

not know whether it is a boy or a girl. When I woke up, I always cried. Yan Qingci hugged

me tightly and kissed the tears from my eyes carefully. Everyone

carefully avoided this matter, and even Shang Jin seldom came to

me, thinking that Sister Shu was afraid that I would be sad to see Shang Jin.

Yan Qingci wished he could stay by my side all the time. Even if I said more, it was still the same. There was nothing to do in the

army, so he let him go.

During the Lantern Festival, Yan Qingci took me to see the lanterns. I couldn’t

open my eyes because of the colors everywhere. Yan Qingci suddenly took out a hairpin and put it on my bun carefully.

“It’s my brother’s wish to be able to grow old with Ah Ning.” I

stood on tiptoe and kissed the corners of Yan’s mouth. “Ah Ning, too,” I whispered. Early

the next morning, bad news came from the prince’s mansion-Ah Yu was gone.

Suddenly my legs went limp and I fell to the ground. I held Ah Yu in my arms at noon yesterday, and the little girl

called out vaguely, “Ah Liang, Ah Liang.” It was so cute.

The wet nurse said that when she found it, it was Zhu’s side concubine who was on the side, pinching Ayu

‘s neck with one hand. Yu’s little face was purple, and he was holding the longevity

lock on his neck in his hand.

The second elder sister sat by the rocking bed without saying a word, and was indifferent to anyone’s advice. At the time of

discovery, Concubine Zhu had already died. I don’t understand why the killer would be the submissive girl, and I don’t understand why someone would kill a child less than one year old.

Soon, the prince mansion and into the new side of the imperial concubine. The second sister looked at the door for a long time, and then smiled pale. Side imperial concubine Gu Shi, mother’s family is Yongzhou nine county officials, that Zhu Shi is just a small role in the scenery for a while, hurriedly ended. The light in the

second sister’s eyes was not retained after all. I should have thought that under the operation of the various forces fighting openly and secretly in the court, where can there be warmth? In July of the third year

of Jianning, the northern border broke the contract and formally rebelled, and Princess Funing died for her country. Eight hundred miles from the front sent the news urgently, the emperor was furious, sealed Qing Ci and a yuan for the general, overnight integration of military forces rushed to the north.

Yan Qingci held me for a long time and did not let go. The armor hurt me. I encircled Yan Qingci’s waist, and my eyes were full of reluctance.

“Brother Ching-ci must take good care of himself and not get hurt.”

Yan Ching-ci kissed me on the forehead. “Ah Ning should be obedient, too, and wait for my brother to come back.” With a hum, I took out the amulet my grandmother gave me when I was a child from my sleeve and hung it on Yan Qingci’s waist.

A yuan was much taller, perhaps because of his armor, and he really looked like a young general. When he saw me looking at him, he immediately ran over and hugged me. “Sister, don’t worry about us. Nothing will happen with my brother-in-law!”

I nodded and hurried a few words. Someone led the horse to come over, Yan Qingci and a yuan turned over and mounted the horse, and went away.

Only poor Princess Funing finally failed to return to her native land. There is very little snow in Beijing

this year, and it has been the Winter Solstice, but there has not been one. Nevertheless, the weather seemed to be much colder than usual, and I lay on the bed wrapped in the quilt. The winter was dry, and I coughed more and more. After

winter, Nanzhi forbade me to go out. I either slept or drank medicine every day. Occasionally, I would bring a letter from Yan Qing. I had a reason to move more, but I couldn’t hold out for long.

Shen Wu was changing the rope for the swing again. I felt very sad. I began to hope that the weather would be better one day so that I could pester Nanzhi to go out for a walk. On the

fourth day, the weather was particularly good, and Nanzhi finally agreed to let me go out. The sunshine in winter is so rare that people are so lazy that they don’t want to move.

“Sister Nanzhi, let’s go home and have a look. I miss my grandmother.” Nanzhi pushed the swing gently behind me.

“All right, I’ll have Shen Wu prepare the carriage in a minute.”

I nodded, the sun was warm on my body, I stretched out my hands to meet the sun, my eyes were so bright, but my consciousness was more and more blurred. When I woke up

again, it was the second day. Shen Wu had already prepared the carriage. I drank the medicine and was wrapped up by Nanzhi before I went out.

The mansion was still the same, but it was more than half empty. The courtyard where our sisters used to live was still decorated in the same way as before. Even the dust had not fallen. It must have been cleaned from time to time.

Grandmother’s yard is the most monotonous, but I can feel her breath when I walk through every brick and stone. Nanzhi was afraid that I was tired of walking, so he forced me to rest for a while from time to time.

Thinking that my mother was lonely at home, I came to my mother’s room again. I seldom come to my mother. In fact, I don’t know what to say to my mother. Mam

my Sun didn’t expect me to come over. She was stunned for a moment, then quickly lifted the curtain and invited me in. I smiled and stood in the doorway. “Don’t mention it, Mammy. I’m not going in now because I’m sick. I just asked my mother about it here.”

For a long time, my mother did not answer, and I could not support myself. I stood for a while and said goodbye to Mammy Sun. Nanzhi came over to hold me steady and walked out of the house step by step. It’s been almost five months since

Yan Qingci left. I’ve been looking through the letters sent from the north again and again. The latest one was ten days ago. Yan Qingci hasn’t written for ten days.

“Before I said I would be able to come back and be with me Lunar New Year’s Eve, but now I’ve slipped up.” I folded the letter neatly and was about to get up to put it down when I suddenly coughed.

“Miss, why are you up again? It’s so cold. Go to bed quickly.” Nanzhi heard the sound and came in. Seeing me on the ground, he quickly took the letter in my hand and helped me walk to the bed.

“Sister Nan Chih is more and more like Mammy Su now, nagging.” I breathed a sigh of relief and laughed.

Nanzhi ignored me, covered the quilt for me, poured a glass of water into my hand, and then put the letter into the drawer beside the dressing table.

Sister Nanzhi, don’t be angry. I’m obedient. It’s not good to be angry Lunar New Year’s Eve today. I looked at Nanzhi, who was busy in the room, and finally I was soft.

“It’s windy today. It looks like it’s going to snow. Miss, drink the medicine and go to bed early.” Nanzhi brought the warmed medicine over and said, “I’ll stay here and watch over the young lady..”

I took the medicine and drank it in one breath. “No, every time I drink the medicine, I sleep until the next day. Sister Nanzhi, go back to her room and sleep. It’s cold, but you can’t catch cold.” Although Nanzhi did not comply, he finally could not resist me and went out.

I looked out of the window, wondering if it would really snow, and I don’t know if the snowstorm in the north is big today. It

‘s snowing, Ning. Come out and watch the snow with your brother. If we can get wet in the snow together, we will grow old together. “Ah Ning, next time, we must meet early. We are childhood sweethearts. We have no guesses. We love each other. We have children around our knees. We love each other and grow old.”

I looked at Yan Qingci’s eyes as if they were filled with stars in my dream, nodded and smiled and said yes.

When I opened my eyes and looked out of the window, the yard was already white. It finally snowed in

Beijing.

I got up and put on my cloak and went out quietly. The yard was so quiet that I could almost hear the snow falling. The swing was already covered with snow, and the rope was changed yesterday. I reached out to brush the snow off the swing and sat on it slowly.

The swing gently swung a few times, swaying leisurely, as if I saw Yan Qingci coming towards me. I laughed softly, but my eyelids grew heavier and heavier.

I don’t like snowy days, but I think I can only grow old with you in this life. Even the snow has become so pleasant. If you can get drenched in the snow together, you will have a white head together. Qing Ci elder brother, next time, a Ning will promise you a white head..

Shen Qingdai:

I’m going to get married. My husband’s family is the family of the illustrious Taiwei Chang in Beijing. On the way

to Beijing, my brother told me again and again to obey the rules, to be polite, to be obedient to different Qi counties in Beijing. I listened with impatience and put my hands over my ears and shouted at him, “Brother yuan Heng said that he liked me to be so free and unrestrained. You don’t understand!”

My brother always said that women should be gentle and dignified. I think this is the way my brother likes women. No wonder my brother has not been able to marry a sister-in-law for me so far.

On the second day in the capital, the queen summoned me. Kneeling in the hall,

I peeked at the queen sitting in a high position and thought, “She is really a gentle and virtuous woman as my brother said.”. After kneeling for a long time, I still didn’t hear the queen tell me to get up. My knees were a little sore, and I was about to look up when the waitress next to me coughed, “Jun!”

Hmm? Oh Get up quickly and don’t stand on ceremony.

I stood up and rubbed my knees quietly. Then I heard the queen say, “Qingdai, isn’t it? Come forward quickly.”. It’s like being a family, and when Ah yuan calls me, it’s all right.

I went up to the queen and sat down. Remembering my brother’s nagging, I couldn’t help feeling, “When I came here, my brother told me to be careful what I said and did. It was only when I saw my second sister that I realized that my brother was really nagging.”

“Your brother..”

The second sister should have seen it, and the elder brother talked about it. Second Sister doesn’t know. My brother hasn’t even got married yet. My brother likes gentle and dignified women. If Second Sister hasn’t married yet, my brother must be eager to marry..

Before he had finished speaking, the waitress next to him suddenly said, “Miss Shen, be careful!”

I was stunned and realized that I had made a slip of the tongue. I quickly got up to kneel, but was stopped by the queen. “It’s just a child. There’s no need to reprimand Xi Jin.” Then he turned to comfort me. I looked at the queen, can not help but feel sorry for her, such a gentle person, how can be trapped here.

As soon as I left the palace, I saw my brother waiting at the gate. I ran over and threw myself on his back. “My brother is carrying me, and I can’t walk any more!”.

My brother laughed. He carried me on his back and walked to the carriage. “Didn’t you look rude to the queen?”

“How come the queen says I’m as lively and lovely as her sister!” I smirked. “The empress also said that my brother should marry a sister-in-law for me to go home. My brother is such an adult, and the empress has to worry about it..”

“Did she really say that?” The elder brother stopped his steps, and his voice was inexplicably hoarse.

“I can’t lie to you!” Really inexplicable, in the past, when my mother said, I did not see my brother react like this. Only

a moment later did the elder brother say, “Shen Li knows.” After that, no matter what I said, I was ignored. My brother did not nag me, and I was happy to be free, so I ignored it.

I sat in front of the mirror and watched Mammy put up her hair in a bun for me, with a faint expectation in my heart. After waiting for a long time, I’m finally going to marry yuan Heng’s brother. Long after the end of the

worship, still did not see yuan Heng brother back, I waited almost sleepy, suddenly heard a noise. Curious and unceremonious, I went to the door.

「…… What else does the mother want?

“This thing is over, Ahara, listen to your mother..”

Mother’s heart is over, but I can’t get over it! Why didn’t the mother think about being more open-minded when she couldn’t let go of her resentment and imposed it on her sister? My sister has been hated by my mother for eighteen years for no reason. Has my mother ever thought about my sister? Because the elder sister gave birth to a pair of eyes that were somewhat similar to those of the outer room that killed her grandmother, and because the mother failed to avenge her grandmother, the mother put the debt on her sister! I really hate that those eyes are not on my face, and I really hate that the person my mother hates is not me.

I’m confused, sister? Which sister? What eyes? Just as I was wondering, there was a sound of footsteps outside the door. Before I could walk away, the door opened.

Embarrassed, yuan Heng’s brother said, “It’s my fault for disturbing your mood.”

“No.” I’ve never seen yuan Heng’s brother so angry. “Brother yuan Heng is not happy today, so..”

“Don’t be afraid. If I marry you, I will treat you well.” “We’ll finish the ceremony we haven’t finished yet,” he said, putting my veil back on.

Mother-in-law has been sick since that day, and went to Yu County in a few days. I didn’t know what had happened, and I couldn’t ask much, so I simply ignored it.

The queen would often call me to accompany her in the palace, presumably because of the long days and months in the palace, the queen did not have a child around, even if the emperor spoiled and loved, it was hard to avoid loneliness.

Perhaps my name is not easy to remember, the queen will always call me as a small Ning son, at first I will be very serious to correct, then more mistakes do not matter. I don’t know if it’s my illusion, but the queen is so gentle, but I’ve never seen a smile in her eyes.

yuan Heng’s brother treats me very well, but I always feel that he has a big stone in his heart.

I can often hear yuan Heng’s brother talking in his sleep, saying, “Ah yuan is sorry for his sister.” A yuan even got rid of Qing’s brother and couldn’t go home.. I didn’t know what was going on, but I sighed and wiped away his tears.

On the Lantern Festival, the empress summoned yuan Heng’s brother to the palace. When he came back, it was very late and he was drunk. I helped him to sit down and ordered someone to bring the sobering soup.

「…… Qing Ci brother is to save me, if not me, if not I underestimate the enemy, will not be ambushed, Qing Ci brother will not, will not. I miss my sister so much. Qingdai

, it’s all my fault. I couldn’t get my brother to go home, and I couldn’t see my sister for the last time.

I didn’t know how to comfort him, but I heard yuan Heng say to himself, “I haven’t dreamed of my sister for five years, and she certainly doesn’t want to see me anymore.”

“My sister loves brother yuan Heng very much, but she must be afraid that his dreams will make him feel bad.” Only then did

I know who the elder sister that yuan Heng’s brother said was.

Jianning three years Lunar New Year’s Eve, general Yan Qingci died in the north, on the same day, his wife Chang Yuning died in the snow.

At that time, I was only thirteen years old, and although I felt sorry, I was more impressed by the fact that two people were so kind that they could live and die together. Little did they know that this was the nightmare of yuan Heng’s brother for so many years.

I only know that yuan Heng’s brother has a twin sister, and he has a very good relationship with yuan Heng’s brother. It’s a pity that if she were still here, probably the queen wouldn’t always stare at me in a trance and call me “Little Ning’er” by mistake, and probably yuan Heng’s brother wouldn’t always have nightmares and cry for his sister. In the second year of

marrying yuan Heng’s brother, we had a child.

Maybe there is a destiny in the dark. I gave birth to a pair of twins, and my brother and sister look very much alike. Brother yuan Heng liked it so much that he thought about the name for a long time, and finally decided on the two words “memory” and “read.”. At the end of the year,

my brother married a wife, not a gentle and dignified woman. Sister-in-law valiant and heroic, and brother through life and death, fighting side by side for several years, and now finally Xiu Cheng Zhengguo.

Come to think of it, the queen will no longer worry about her brother’s life, worry less, probably can also live more easily. In the second year of

Jing’an, the elder sister and her brother-in-law came back from Sujun. The elder brother-in-law resigned from his official position and lived a normal life with his elder sister. The

three children are clever and very attractive. We often get together, watching the children play, the elder sister is very partial to Chang Nian, always holding hands, provoking her little daughter crying into my arms. During the first snow of

this winter, the children were so happy that they clamored to play in the snow.

The first snow is always lovely. I took yuan Heng’s brother’s hand and stood under the eaves watching the children playing happily in the snow. yuan Heng’s brother held my hand back, and the warmth came from the palm of his hand. Suddenly, I felt as if I had spent my whole life. Smiling,

I leaned on brother yuan Heng’s shoulder and murmured in a low voice, “How lucky I am to meet a good man!”

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