Zhihu Salt Selection _ The Empress Dowager of Mo De’s Feelings

Today is my 64th birthday. The emperor held a seven-day banquet with thousands of people in the palace to celebrate the whole world and celebrate the longevity of the Empress Dowager.

For a time, I became the most noble woman in the mouth of the people, although I was.

In fact, I don’t like extravagant and wasteful occasions, but I am always the protagonist of this grand event. It is not appropriate for me not to show up, so I attended the scene where the emperor entertained the princes, nobles, civil and military officials in the Qing’an Palace. Since the

banquet is a grand banquet, you have to dress up to attend it. Early this morning, I looked in the mirror as if I were a vase and let Miaolan insert a set of nine gold silk pearl tassel phoenix hairpins into my head.

At the same time, through the bronze mirror, I saw six ladies of the court unfolding behind me a dress that was eight meters long and inlaid with countless jewels.

“Turn your head back, put it right, and don’t smile like an upstart silly woman.” Miaolan has been with me for decades, but no one knows what kind of virtue I am in private, and she never leaves any room for me.

With the sound of “Empress Dowager,” I took Miaolan’s hand and walked to the side of my Fengluan car. With a heavy and towering cloud bun on my head, I turned my head stiffly from side to side. I found that except for Miaolan, the rest of the people were afraid of stepping on my clothes. They were all eight meters away from me. I can’t help but worry. “Everyone is so far away from Ai’s house. If an assassin comes and tries to

kidnap Ai’s house, they won’t be able to save it.”

“Forget it, queen mother.” Miao-lan says, “Anyone who has nothing to do but eat too much will kidnap an

old lady.”

“That’s true, but the Ai family is not just any old lady.”

Miaolan, look at me.

“The Ai family is an old lady who is as rich as a country.” I said.

Miaolan threw me into the car. When the music of

Qing’an Hall reached its climax, I, the most noble woman of Daqi (respected in the second

place, expensive is really expensive), stepped on the stage slowly.

The main reason is that the outfit is too heavy to be fast.

The emperor under the Dan, take the lead in greeting Yi.

I called out, “Get up.” I glanced at the crowd and saw Wen Zhao, who was at

the head of the officials.

Of course he saw me. Through the air, through the heads of emperors, empresses, princes, princesses and several

concubines, he and I looked at each other. Dressed in a moonlight white official uniform, he was upright and sprightly, and his eyebrows and eyes vaguely had the handsome demeanor of his youth

.

It’s just that he, like me, inevitably has fine lines in the corners of his eyes, which are the silent grinding of the years for

him and me.

I was in a trance for a moment and suddenly realized that he was over fifty years old now.

It turns out that we have lived like this all our lives. I was sixteen when I

first met Wen Zhao. It was raining heavily that day

, and my mother was very ill. I begged all the servants at home to call a doctor for

me, but none of them would answer.

So I had no choice but to let go of my mother’s hand, the concierge did not even want to give

me an umbrella, saying that unfortunately, the princess wanted to eat the whole fish feast of Fanlou today, and went to buy it, but the umbrella

was used up by them.

I had to run out in the rain.

It was already the middle of winter, and I was still wearing thin autumn clothes, which were soon soaked by heavy rain

and cold all over my body.

The rain blinded my eyes.

By the time I heard the carriage approaching, it was too late, and at the critical moment, someone pulled me

out from under the wheel with great force, so that I was not run over and killed on the spot. It was a martial boy with a flying face and a loud voice. He carried me like

a chicken and shouted loudly into the carriage, “Master, I’m all right!”

I looked up and saw a sign with the name “Wen” hanging on the carriage. The

curtain of the car was lifted, revealing a face of gold and jade, with a high nose and thin lips, and starry eyes. Holding an umbrella himself,

he got out of the car and held it over my head. He opened his mouth and spoke in a gentle

voice like a human being. He said, “I’m sorry, girl. The servant didn’t have eyes and bumped into the girl. Are you all right

?”? Do you want me to take you to the doctor? “Something’s up,”

I said.

“But I don’t have to go to the doctor.” I was worried about not being able to raise money for my mother’s medical expenses, and I didn’t want the fat delivered

to my door for nothing. “Can you just pay me the money?”. When I

finished, I almost immediately heard “Xiao Zhang” snorting angrily.

The young man, however, still looked at me with a good temper and a gentle smile. “How

much silver do you want?” “One hundred taels, in cash,”

I said. When I

finished, I almost immediately heard the angry snorts of “Xiao Zhang.”.

“That’s all right,” said the young man. “It’s just that I went out in a hurry and didn’t bring so much cash.

You can take the thirty taels first. If the rest of the girls are free another day, they can come to

my house with this jade pendant. Is that all right?”

I took the money bag and the jade pendant from his hand. “I know, it’s the old home of the Grand Maester of Belvedere of Literary Profundity,” I interrupted anxiously, pointing to a sign on the corner. “Who in Kyoto doesn’t know about the Wen family?” I asked.

I paused and finally asked, “Is your name Wen Zhao?” When he heard this, he

smiled, and his long, thin eyes rose like the moon, and he looked very beautiful. “The girl actually knows me.” At the age of ten, the grandson of Master

Wen was known as a child prodigy in Beijing, and everyone knew about it.

The most important thing is that there is only one person of the same age in the younger generation of the Wen family, which is really easy to guess.

Wen Zhao was one step closer to me, so close that I could see my own embarrassment in his clear ink eyes. He said, “How dare you ask the girl..”

“Goodbye.” I grabbed his umbrella and ran away. When I led the doctor home in a hurry

that day, it was too late. The last words my mother left me before she died were that she had repented of teaching her husband to seek the title of Marquis. “Ah Rong,”

she said, “when you grow up, find an ordinary person. It doesn’t matter if you’re weak or poor. The important thing is that you love him wholeheartedly, and he loves you wholeheartedly. You two have enough food and clothing, and you can live a safe and secure life day and night.” “Don’t follow my old path. It’s so boring.”

But she seemed to have forgotten that when she knew my father, my father was also an unknown centurion

, a petty official who dared not take a bandit suppression job.

My mother is the bandit leader he wants to exterminate.

Because my mother was too tough, the twenty soldiers who followed my father were scared away and left

my father to fight to the end. When

my father was captured and went up the mountain, he cried in front of my mother, saying that he had lived for more than ten or twenty years, and

that he would be decapitated and buried at the hands of bandits without even marrying a daughter-in-law.

.

My mother held a bowl of braised pork in brown sauce in her left hand, and gently wiped my father’s tears with her right hand. “Why don’t I be your daughter-in-law?” She said

with a smile.

My mother was recruited by my father voluntarily. She had a hard time with my father after she

became a good man.

My father said that this was no good. A real man should point out the country and give his wife, children and family

a rich life. My mother said, “Then go and have a try, and I will accompany you.”

Just as the imperial court was recruiting soldiers, my father signed up. Old soldiers who have been

with my father for a long time all know that my father is always close to a

woman who likes to wear red, from the poisonous forest of the Central Plains to the desert frontier. From my father from an unknown beadle when the garrison, DuSi, general, ZongBing, to the general

, marshal.

That woman is bright, capable, courageous, even if the fierce horse, drink burning knife, she also loves to

laugh, love to laugh.

That’s what I heard from my father’s lieutenant later. In

my impression, my mother was always a quiet woman in the courtyard of the house. She dressed

simply, did not talk much, and seldom laughed. Instead, she liked to linger in the kitchen and personally cook a bowl of braised pork for my father on every day of his triumphant

return.

Only once, when I got up in the middle of the night to go to the toilet, I saw her drinking alone in the corridor, in a rough

ceramic jar, which smelled very strong.

She also drank from a small cup, and when she looked back at me, she put her finger between her lips

and said, “Don’t tell your father.”

I wanted to tell her that Dad hadn’t come to our yard for a long time.

But she said it with a smile, her eyes shining and her cheeks flushed.

I finally know that my mother can be so alive.

So I swallowed the words back.

But only once, when I got up the next day, my mother returned to the silent

woman of the past.

I even suspected that the mother who drank to the moon under the porch that night was just a dream I had. When

I was two years old, my father was given the title of Marquis of Yingwu. It was in that year that the Empress Dowager married Princess yuanning

and my father, knowing that my father already had a family.

It is said that Princess yuanning fell in love with my

father at first sight when she saw his heroic posture on the horse when he returned to court one day.

I hid in front of the door and listened to my mother and my father quarrel. I couldn’t understand most of what they quarreled about. I

only remember that my father whispered, “Hanying is pregnant,” and the voice

in the room suddenly stopped.

Hanying is the small print of Princess yuanning.

My mother never said a word to my father since then.

Because yuan Ning was the only daughter of the Empress Dowager, she could not condescend to be a

concubine for others, and she could not even accept being a flat wife.

So my mother became a concubine and moved from the main house to the other garden, and I became a concubine who could be bullied by everyone from the eldest lady of Hou

Fu.

The following year, my sister Su Zhiyun was born, and my father went to the battlefield again. I have been

away for three or five years. From then on, I left home frequently and seldom came back. When

he was at home, my mother and I had a better life. Once he was away, all the servants

in the house looked at the princess.

The princess originally wanted to force my father to divorce my mother, and my mother also wanted to divorce my father, but my father did not agree.

He did not know, his wishful thinking caused the tragedy of two women, no, three, I and Su Zhiyun each count half. My mother and

I often don’t have enough to eat, not to mention charcoal in winter and fans in summer.

My mother’s body is so worn down day by day, she gave me a little bit of food and the only thin quilt.

I know that with her temperament, she could have left Hou Fu regardless, and found another place to be free in heaven and earth, but she could not be happy again, and she did not have to be a man. It was for my sake that

she put up with her grievance and was confined to the inner house.

Until I consume myself to death.

I bought her a thin coffin with the money I got from Wen Zhao. On the morning of her burial, I packed up her belongings and found a carefully preserved red dress at the bottom of the coffin.

The princess forbade my mother’s memorial tablet to enter the ancestral temple of the Su family on the grounds that my concubine was not qualified to sit with my father after a hundred years.

I did not argue with her, because I had not intended to put my mother’s memorial tablet in the ancestral temple, not because my mother was not qualified, but because my father and the whole Su family were not worthy of her.

When my father was married, my mother didn’t agree. It was the so-called elders of the Su family who lined up every day to “reason with” my mother.

For fear that the princess and the queen mother would vent their anger on the Su family and not be able to keep their splendor and wealth. I remember

every face very clearly. On the afternoon of

my mother’s burial, I found an abandoned shrine in the mountain temple outside the city and wanted to put her memorial tablet in it. I

didn’t expect to meet Wen Zhao again at the foot of the mountain. After the

snow, everything was covered with snow. He walked slowly in a green cloak. He stopped in front of me and asked me where I was going. My

eyes touched the memorial tablet covered with white silk in my hand and I whispered “I’m sorry.”.

He was puzzled. “Since you’re seeing your relatives off, why are you wearing..” Dressed like this..

“Red, right?” I looked down at myself. “It was my mother who passed away. This was her favorite dress, but for some reason she didn’t have a chance to wear it again. I think she will like it if I wear it to see her off for the last time.”

He nodded, raised and lowered his hand, and finally handed me a dyed handkerchief and said, “I’m sorry.”.

I gave the old abbot of the temple some incense money and asked him to take care of my mother. I will come here from time to time.

Down the hill, Wen Zhao hasn’t left yet. With his back to me and his sleeves like an old man in the sun, he kept

stamping his feet in the snow.

I was a little touched. “Is Mr. Wen waiting for me?” Startled,

he turned around and nodded as he untied his cloak.

He put his cloak on me. “I think the girl walked here alone. It

gets dark early in winter. It’s not safe for the girl to go back by herself. My carriage is parked not far away and they

have gone to drive it. Would the girl like to wait with me and let me give you a ride?”

Meeting my eyes, he felt a little shy for some reason and explained hurriedly, “I, I

didn’t mean to offend the girl. I can sit on the car scale and not ride with the girl

.”

He is really a gentleman.

I felt his remaining body temperature on the cloak, and my body

, which had been sad and tired all day, regained its strength because of this warmth.

I held out my hand to him and said, “Su Chih-jung, call me Xiao Su, Chih-jung, or a fairy.”

Su is a rare surname in Kyoto. He said softly, “Ah!” With a look

of panic. “Miss is..”

“Yes, Su Menghan is my father.”

“But,” he said hesitantly, “the Marquis’s wife is not.. Not the public..

“My mother is my father’s concubine. She is the unfortunate bandit leader that the people in Kyoto are saying after dinner. Can you understand that?”

He didn’t expect me to say it so grandly and naturally. After being shocked, he looked at me apologetically and said, “I’m sorry, that..”

I couldn’t help scratching my lips. “I didn’t see you as an introvert before. Why are you so hesitant today? You don’t look like a talented young man.”

“I think you’ve heard of me. They all say my mother is a bandit and I’m just a little bandit. I don’t have the reserve and style of those high-class ladies at all. I’m not simple and pretentious. You can get along with me more comfortably.”

He laughed along with me, and finally regained some of the ease of a gentleman of an aristocratic family. “Yes, I’m surprised, too. Usually I laugh at others like this, but I didn’t expect to be laughed at by a girl today.” “Ah Rong,” he added, “that’s true. There’s no need to belittle yourself.”

He called me Ah Rong, and no one had ever called me like that except my mother.

I raised my hand, which was about to freeze, and shook his jade pendant. “So do you still want this or not?”

He looked down at the jade pendant and then at me. “If Ah Rong likes it, keep it as a gift. You don’t have to return it.”

“You mean you’re going to repudiate the seventy taels you owe me and not give it to me?” I said.

He was stunned.

I probably never saw a girl who was still concerned about debt collection on the day of her mother’s funeral.

But I have no way, I have to live, my mother left, my life in the Su family will only be more difficult.

Wen Zhao said helplessly, “Ah Rong, do you know that if you pawn this jade pendant, you can sell it for seven hundred taels.” He

is really innocent. He must have grown up drinking milk, right? “Which pawnshop owner in the city isn’t a sharp-eyed man?”

I asked? What’s more, this jade pendant has the emblem of your Wen family on it. If I, an orphan girl, pawned it and sold it, it would be strange if I didn’t get arrested.

“When the time comes, even if they recognize me as the daughter of the Marquis of Yingwu, they will have to ask about the origin of the jade pendant.”

No matter what I say, we may both be charged with a secret deal, and all the people in Kyoto will eat melons. It’s okay if I’m used to being thick-skinned, but it’s not okay if I get you into trouble with Master Wen. “Blame me for not thinking carefully,”

he thought. “But I really didn’t take any money with me when I went out today. Why don’t I owe it first?”

I nodded. “But I’ll add five points a day.” “All right,”

he said with a smile.

“But,” he said, “in the middle of winter, how can people of Kyoto eat melons? Not in season. I

I said, ” ‘Melon’ is the meaning of gossip and hearsay.”

He is very teachable.

Wen Fu’s carriage came as he spoke. He knew very well that he didn’t send me directly to the door

. He chose a corner not far from Hou Fu to put me down. I returned the cloak to him before I

got out of the car. After thinking about it, I decided to say what I thought

all the way. “Master Wen,”

I said, “you’re a fool with a lot of money and a good character. Can I worship

you in secret?”

He: “Huh?”

That look, as if I want to worship heaven and earth with him. I didn’t return

the jade pendant, nor did I pawn it, but I hid it properly,

together with my mother’s red dress.

I thought my life would be the same as before, every day under the power of Su Zhiyun’s mother and daughter

, until I was 18 years old, they would find a family to send me out. This is the end of most of the cannon fodder in the

house fight.

Unexpectedly, half a month after my mother’s death, the news of my father’s death came from the frontier. It is said that this battle is clearly my strong enemy weak, the naked eye can see the lying win, but my father did not know

why, like crazy to hit the enemy knife edge, can not stop, determined to die

. When the

man was dragged back to the camp, he was already dying.

It is said that he cried “red” all night and died at dawn.

My mother’s name is red. My impression of him is very weak

because he was missing badly when I was growing up.

I only remember that he looked good, and I had a high rate of turning heads when I walked on the street, thanks to his good inheritance

.

I remember that his beard was very prickly, and he especially liked to hold me in his arms and rub me against his face

when I was a child. He liked to hold me high and shout “Rongrong is flying”

and “Rongrong is flying”.

Or carry me on his shoulders and have fun all over the yard. When he is tired of running, he will go to the corner of the yard to count the grapes under the grape

trellis. When the

princess came, she thought the grapes were not beautiful, so she asked someone to pull them up and plant the red

plum she liked. Once when

my father finally came back, he came to Bie yuan mysteriously and gave me a necklace with a unique shape

, which was exactly the same as Su Zhiyun’s.

He stood in the doorway and put the necklace full of colorful stones around my neck.

“Like it?” He turned over one of the jade pendants and showed it to me. “It’s engraved with your name, Rongrong. Dad carved it with his own hands, but not my sister’s.”

I looked at him with my head tilted, not understanding what he was trying to say.

Does he think that I should be secretly pleased, and then be grateful to him, naive to ask his father than you can sing the little star? Seeing that I had no reaction,

he could not help feeling a little gloomy. He paused for a moment and asked me, “How is your mother recently?”

I took him by the arm. “Daddy, why don’t you come in and ask her yourself? Come in.”

A man, a general of a country, and a commander in chief of the armed forces who made the enemy afraid, he could not cross a shallow threshold. “No,” he said. “Daddy’s gone. Rongrong, you don’t understand. Daddy doesn’t dare to see your mother.”

So he was never a hero in my eyes. He was a coward.

He is just a hero in my mother’s eyes.

Later, Su Zhiyun’s necklace was lost by her. She found me here and saw my necklace. She insisted that I stole it from her.

She also said that I had carved my name on it on purpose to disgust her, and the princess used this as an excuse to “teach” me and my mother a lesson.

And my father was not at home at that time.

Look, what he thought was good to me and my mother turned out to be a disguised harm to us.

He never knew.

He only touched himself.

I should have hated him, but why, at the moment of learning of his death, was it more sad than happy. On the 23rd day of the 12th month of the 31st year

of Zhaowu, eleven days have passed since my seventeenth birthday, and there are still seven days to go before the year of family reunion. In this month, I lost my mother and father, and became an orphan completely.

6 Just after

the Lantern Festival, the queen mother did not want her daughter to bear hardships, and could not wait to call Princess yuanning and Su Zhiyun back to the palace.

This was the only good news I had heard since the beginning of the year, and I was so happy that I couldn’t sleep all night. I

thought about how to sell the inheritance left by Hou Fu and my father reasonably after these two left all night. It’s time to do business. It’s time to hide your name and go to a well-off society as soon as possible.

I want to see the mountains where my mother has stayed, the rivers where my mother has crossed, the sea is wide for me to leap, and the sky is high for me to fly. As never before,

I began to look forward to growing up.

If you have to bring an accomplice.. Companion, Wen Zhao is a good choice, but I don’t know if he would like to go.

I even want to give myself a book, the name I have thought of, it is called “Hou Men Concubine’s Counterattack Road”. I

never thought I would be happy early. In order to show her mother’s compassion,

Princess yuanning moved her image closer to “Wei Guangzheng” in front of outsiders. She asked me to go to the palace with her mother and daughter on the pretext of “leaving me an orphan girl in the house for fear that I would not be able to continue.”.

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So I was brought into the palace.

No one came to ask me if I wanted to. Like the princess,

the queen mother didn’t like me. She wanted to put me casually, give me a meal, and starve to death, but Su Zhiyun said that her sisters were bigger than sky, so she left me in her side hall.

She tugged at the Empress Dowager’s sleeve and said coquettishly, “Grandmother, my sister has been inseparable from me since I was a child, and she’s used to taking care of me. If she were separated from me, she would cry to death.”

She turned to look at me, smiling with her tender face. “Don’t you think so, sister?”

To serve is to serve, to beautify it into taking care of, and I don’t smile. “Yes, sister, I want to cry now.”

I am holding my small bag of luggage with Su Zhiyun they a large group of people to the Bower of Crimson Snow, the evening grooming, she sat on the bed off the shoes barefoot, looking at me askew. “Stop it,”

I said. “We all know.” He took the foot basin from the little maid of honor. As

I squatted at her feet, she said to me from a commanding position, “Su Chih-jung, you’d better figure out where you are. You’re only qualified to be the mud on the soles of my feet. Tomorrow you’ll go to the Academy. If you’re still as ostentatious as you are in the Hou Mansion, I’ll see how I can cure you.”

The queen mother specially told the emperor today, let Su Zhiyun go to the Academy founded by the emperor for the children of the nobles to listen to the lecture together, nothing more than to see Su Zhiyun is fifteen years old, in a few years to choose a son-in-law, want to get up in advance for her first, anyone with a discerning eye can see.

I belong to the light of “Wei Guangzheng.”.

Xuegong is located in Chengming Hall. The next day, I went to report with Su Zhiyun. Because Su Zhiyun felt that her makeup was inappropriate before she left, she had to repaint it. After painting, she had to choose clothes and jewelry again. We went late without accident.

By then, Mr. Xi had already started the class with the volume, and we were not surprised to attract the attention of the public. Perhaps this is the result that Su Zhiyun wants, we also do not know, anyway she is facing the gaze that brushes

together, coyly lowers her head and smiles, looking for an empty seat beside

the noble young lady who is usually close to her, hiring Ting to sit down.

She sat behind her and smelled the light. When

Wen Zhao saw me come in, he nodded happily to me. The

seats in the room were one radish after another. I searched for a long time and finally saw an empty seat against the wall in the last

corner of the classroom. So I hurried over and said to the young

man who was blocking the empty seat, “Brother, please make way.” As soon as

this remark was made, most of the people present looked at me.

But I did not pay attention at that time, only trapped in the embarrassment of no seat, after all, my husband

was interrupted by me and Su Zhiyun, I do not sit down, he can not continue to lecture.

Teenager, my future deskmate, was dressed in a simple black silk dress without identity, but

with a thin shoulder and a long black hair. He turned his back to me as if he was looking

out of the window, distracted as a matter of course.

I called twice more, but he didn’t move.

I can’t help but feel sorry for him. No wonder everyone has a deskmate, but he doesn’t. Discrimination against the disabled is

really regardless of the times. “A good person is a deaf-mute.” When

I said this, the other half of the people in the room also looked at me.

The boy looked back at me coldly. “What did you say?” I saw his face and felt a shock in my heart.

He is really good-looking, but he has a pair of amber eyes, like a leopard, which makes people

afraid to look at him. “So you can hear me,”

I said. “Excuse me. I want to go in and sit down.”

The whole class waited to see how he would react.

He suddenly stood up, and when I stood up, I found that he was a head taller than me, and was close to me in the narrow

table and chair, which was particularly oppressive.

I’m afraid he will hit me. I

saw him move a step and get out of my way.

I heard a palpable sigh of relief from the distant gentleman.

Then came the boring lecture time. I was not

interested in “Zhi Hu Zhe Ye” at all, but I tried to listen. People, especially women, can’t

be without culture in this era.

The boy, my deskmate, was looking

out of the window in the direction of my seat before I came, and after I came, he occupied his view.

He obviously didn’t want to turn around and look at the other students next to him, but he couldn’t keep looking at me,

so he chose to lie down and sleep.

Even so, the gentleman did not come to take care of him. According to my experience, those who are so arrogant are either straight a students who can get the first place

in the exam without learning, or they are study slackers who are hopeless and are abandoned by their parents and masters at

the same time.

I guess he was the one in the back, because I accidentally glanced at his textbook, and

no straight a student scribbled like a ghost, and he drew a little

bastard on the textbook. Much

later I had to pat him unconscious, “Brother.”

He moved and turned to look at me with his arm on his head, bleary-eyed. “School is over,”

I said. “I’m going out.”

He looked around the classroom and found that no one had left. “Why didn’t you wake me up earlier?”

He asked.

I I called half an hour ago. You slept so soundly, who’s to blame?

Everyone else has a bookboy to pack up stationery and books, but he packs up by himself like me,

but I am humble, he may be diligent.

As he tidied up, he nodded. “Next time, remember to speak

louder,” he said with an expressionless face.

I “Are you still going to sleep?”

I asked.

My original intention is to ask him to learn a little bit. The children who can come here, except me, are either rich or noble. They all have family property or titles to inherit. A little culture is not a disadvantage.

But such a rebellious young man should not listen to persuasion and have to be coaxed to say, so I said, “I like your eyes. It’s a pity that you always keep them closed.” As soon as the

words came out of my mouth, I felt that this reason was nonsense. It was expected that the young man was fixed in general, and he was not cold. He looked at me in a daze.

After a while, he strode away with his bookcase.

I don’t know what he means.

Then a hand gently pressed on my shoulder and turned around to smell the light. I haven’t seen him

for many days, but he is still handsome and shining. My eyes lit up and I took out a small abacus from the bookcase.

“Don’t say anything. I’ll calculate how much interest you owe me.”

Wen Zhao staggered and sat in front of me, looking at me helplessly, “You..” With an abacus at hand?

I bowed my head and reckoned wildly. I had no time to pay any attention to him. I nodded, “Can’t I?”? 4936…

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“Ah Yung, how have you been?”? When I first came to this palace, did I get used to it? I said, “Seventeen gets seven..” Make do with it.

“Tomorrow I’ll talk to you, sir, and let you sit with me, not next to the nine princes

.”

I can do it, four, eight, thirty-two.. Eh? Why? I looked up at Wen Zhao.

At the same time, I thought that my deskmate was a prince.

Don’t you know the prince is rich? Are you interested in running for a well-off life? Would you like to invest

in a self-made concubine?

Yes, I haven’t given up my “counterattack” path yet.

Wen Zhao pauses, purses his lips and lowers his head, feeling embarrassed

for speaking ill of people behind their backs. “Don’t you notice that his eyes are a little different from those of ordinary people?”

From Wen Zhao’s gentle words, I learned that the nine princes were named Xiao Yi, who was the same age as me, and

took the script of the evil prince.

Xiao Yi’s birth mother was Yun Pin, who died of dystocia. The night he was born, there was a rare storm in the capital

of Qi. Someone predicted that the son was ominous. As a result, Xiao Yi was born

with a pair of different pupils. Of

course, he was regarded as a demon and was feared by everyone from an early age.

No wonder everyone was so surprised when I took the initiative to sit at the same table with him.

I asked Wen Zhao, “Is he grumpy and eccentric?” “Exactly,” said

Wen Zhao. “That’s why it’s more and more obvious that he’s a.. Evil spirits.

I said with a sneer, “If I have been looked down upon by people for a long time, if I have been treated coldly, if I have been excluded, if I have been belittled, if I have a grumpy disposition, if I have a strange temper, if I don’t fit in, I’m a good person. Maybe I like to kill people casually.”

He sighed and said nothing. “Everyone is like this. You and I can’t change it. I can’t control what others do. In short, you can’t be with him. I’m afraid you’ll be bullied.” What

he said was really heartless and moved me.

I looked at him and said, “Brother Wen, why don’t you care about other people? Why do you have to care about me? What kind of person am I?”

Wen Zhao walked with a red face.

I laughed behind him and forgot to ask for the money. It was fun to molest honest people.

It’s just that only I know how many heartbeats are hidden under the laughter.

Knowing Xiao Yi’s life experience, I have more sympathy for him when I see him again. It is everyone’s responsibility to pay attention to the mental health of adolescents.

One day, when my husband asked me to write a note, I took the initiative and said to Hsiao Yi, “Your Highness, can I borrow an ink stick?” He glanced at my hand and said, “Don’t you have it yourself?”

I calmly threw my ink stick out of the window. “I don’t have it now. Lend it to me.”

Xiao Yi: “… …” Without waiting for him to open his mouth,

I grabbed his inkstone. After a while, I pushed my own inkstone

between me and him. I said casually, “If you don’t mind grinding too much ink, it will be a waste.

If you don’t mind, you can share one with me.”

He did not speak or move for a long time, but kept his head down. “Take care of yourself,”

he said. “I don’t need charity.” Then

, in full view of the public, he went out in a big way and skipped class openly. With a sigh,

I looked down and saw the broken inkstone

he had hidden at the foot of his desk. I saw it as soon as he opened the bookcase in the

morning. I don’t know why his inkstone was broken.

From his surprise and habitual expression, I believe he didn’t do it himself.

I looked at his back and sighed with emotion that caring for the mental health of teenagers still needs to be further strengthened. For

several days in a row, Xiao Yi’s paper was dyed by unknown stains and could not be used, or his pen

was broken.

He endured it again and again and left in silence. But once or twice, you can’t always pretend to be blind, and class order still has to be maintained. The

teacher stops Xiao Yi, who is once again skipping class, and says, “Your Highness, go back and sit down.”

Hsiao Yi’s face was calm, and he could see that he was doing his best to be patient. “I don’t have a pen, so I can’t write.

It’s useless to look at it here.” As soon as

his voice fell, I heard the snickers of several classmates around me. At the end of my patience,

I stood up. I used the inkstone as a brick and slapped it on the table. The ink splashed everywhere

. I said angrily, “Is it over yet?”! The trick behind his back is not childish,

he has the guts to come out and fight alone!

I lifted my legs to the table and looked down at the crowd. The momentum swept through the ages

: “I, Su Chih-jung, go and find out who I am in Kyoto. Today I will put the words

here. In the future, if any of you dare to bully Hsiao Yi again, you will bully me.” I can fight

until your mother doesn’t know me, believe it or not, if you don’t believe me, just come and fight! When

I finished, the class was silent. The little fat man in front of

me, who had laughed the most at first and had been splashed with ink, was

about to cry with a bitter face.

Xiao Yi had already walked to the door in spite of his husband’s obstruction, but now he turned around and looked at me,

his eyes full of feelings that I could not understand.

I will always remember this moment, because it is a rare highlight in my life, and

I feel that I am standing there as a hero who has overcome difficulties and returned triumphantly.

I don’t think it’s wrong for me to stand up. I defended a teenager’s right to learn normally. This is what I

said when

my husband punished me to kneel in front of the statue of Confucius in the side hall to reflect and hit my hand. With a ruler in his

hand and a smiling face, he said, “All right, Miss Su’s courage is commendable.” “Hold out your hand,” said

the gentleman. After

my husband left, I covered my palm and knelt for a long time. Suddenly, a black

figure fell on my left.

Hsiao Yi looked straight ahead, but did not look at me. “This is because of me, and I am part of the punishment.”

「……」 “I dropped the inkstone, too,”

he said.

I was about to speak when another white figure fell on my right. Xiao Yi and

I, we both looked at Wen Zhao. “Don’t say anything,”

said Wen Zhao. “I’m a good boy. Come and kneel with them. They won’t be willing to

let us go. If you two are left alone, I’m afraid you’ll have to kneel here until

the end of time.”

I looked at him gratefully. “Did you drop the inkstone, too?”

Wen Zhao took a deep breath and said, “I dropped my husband’s inkstone.” I admire him from the bottom of my heart and decide to look at him with new eyes from today.

As we gazed at each other, the righteous look on Wen Zhao’s face turned to panic. Later, he asked us, “That..” Have I gone too far?

We both nodded.

Wen Zhao: “… …”

I thought I was going to stare at Confucius until I died, but I didn’t think I would be alone so soon.

With this in mind, I was filled with excitement. I took Xiao Yi and Wen Zhao’s hands separately and said cheerfully, “After this, the three of us have suffered together. I’m so happy. Shall we become sworn brothers?!”

They looked at me like two fools.

My husband did not know whether he had forgotten us or was determined to make an example of us in order to rectify the classroom order. Anyway, when I woke up from my sleep, I saw Xiao Yi and Wen Zhao still kneeling on both sides of me, and then I saw that it was already dark outside the door. Rubbing my knees,

I stood up and said, “Shit, don’t kneel anymore. There’s no one watching and no camera. Who are we kneeling for?”

Hsiao Yi looked at me in amazement. Wen Zhao was already familiar with me. She said to Hsiao Yi with a smile, “From time to time, she spits out one or two words that make people confused. She doesn’t obey the rules. That’s her.” When Xiao Yi heard this, he responded with a smile.

Wen was startled. “So you can laugh, too.”

Hsiao Yi: “I’m a person, too, probably.”

Wen Zhao: “… …”

Wen Zhao blushed and said, “Actually, your Highness has been looking at these eyes for a long time. It’s really amazing

.” That’s nice. Although

they were attending classes in the same school, they were not familiar with each other, and from tonight on there was no estrangement between

them. They talked as if no one was watching, and the more they talked, the more congenial they became.

I became invisible on the side, watching them go back and forth, and my smile gradually became abnormal.

Gentle family childe to evil prince, I can, I can.

Finally, they noticed something strange and turned to look at me.

Wen Zhao said, “Ah Rong, why is your face so red?”

Me: “Leave me alone. Leave me alone. Go on. Pretend I don’t exist. Heh heh heh.”

Xiao Yi poked me down with a finger.

I said that a sworn brother needs wine. But there is obviously no wine in the side hall of Confucius. “That’s not good, is it?”

Wen asked.

Hsiao Yi silently raised his hand and said, “In the side hall of the Cold Palace, Your Majesty has a small private wine

cellar on his back. Few people know about it except me.”

I can see that Xiao Yi belongs to the surface of meekness, but in fact it is

also a big death in silence.

Of course, Wen Zhao and I coincidentally did not ask him why he knew so much about the cold palace, his

life experience, childhood growth environment can be imagined.

So with Xiao Yi leading the way, we succeeded in sneaking into the Shou

‘an Palace, that is, the Cold Palace, under the eyes of the night guards.

Sure enough, there was a wine cellar. The three of

us squatted in the rows of wine jars overflowing with the fragrance of wine and began to be nervous with each other.

Wen Zhao said, “Do you really want to drink?”? Stealing is out of the question, and my family doesn’t allow me to

drink, and I’m still a child.

Hsiao Yi can’t help but hesitate. “I haven’t had one either.”

I wasn’t nervous, but they made me nervous. Although I haven’t drunk in this era

, I think my drinking capacity should not be much worse.

In order to adjust the atmosphere, I opened a wine jar first, looked up and drank it boldly. Wow

, good wine. I forced the two of them a palm-sized jar and said, “If you’re a man, don’t dawdle.

You’ve all come. You can’t die if you drink.”

They looked at each other hesitantly and opened the wine jar.

Young people are like this, no matter things are good or bad, as long as someone takes the lead, even if there is

a pit ahead, they can jump down.

By the end, I couldn’t remember how much wine the three of us had drunk, and I even forgot to be sworn.

At first, it was just drinking and chatting, and somehow it began to be miserable.

First of all, Wen Zhao, he said that he was under too much pressure day by day. The identity

of his parents and eldest grandson was there, and he was a child prodigy since childhood. How many eyes were staring at him, and how many people were looking forward to it.

He could not regress at all. Without being told, he panicked first and felt ashamed of his parents

and grandfather, so he had to force himself to make progress all the time.

It’s really miserable, and it’s worth it. Wen Zhao and

I touched an altar and turned to Hsiao Yi. “It’s your turn.”

Hsiao Yi glanced at me gloomily. “Do you really need to tell me how miserable I am?”

「……」 It was so sad that I held up the wine jar to him.

Then it was my turn. Blame the

day’s wine staying power is too big, really on the top, let me say the secret that I have been holding

in my heart for more than ten years, I scolded my father, scolded the princess and Su Zhiyun, scolded me that TV series and novels are deceptive, others are crossing one after another, not to say that God opened Goldfinger. Some of them even went too far and became God themselves.

Zhai Dou governs the white lotus, and Gong Dou is the queen. She often fights with three hundred beautiful poems, and opens her voice to the level of the Voice of China. Dancing is a surprise. From then on, she won the favor of many big men, and watched a large group of beautiful men fight for her head broken and bleeding.

How come it’s my turn to give up all my martial arts and not know how to write poetry? What about the strongest brain? Did God forget to give it to me when he let me go through? Why do I only remember the “bright moonlight in front of the bed” and “goose goose goose”.

I am a trembling person who has experienced the devastation of the college entrance examination and barely got three books. I have to start reading again here. Otherwise, I am illiterate. I can’t even understand the little yellow books. What’s the meaning of life without understanding the little yellow books.

Then I don’t want to take the road of fighting. I want to do some business. I can’t be a rich woman. But I’m still ***ing dead. At first, I was no different from an ordinary baby. I didn’t remember my origin until I was four or five years old.

At that time, my father was still alive, and I quickly told him my plan to get rich. He looked at me, who was not as high as his knees, and let me wash and sleep. If

my father didn’t believe me, my mother had to believe me. My mother didn’t believe me either. My mother said, “Even if you don’t have a father’s love, you still have a mother. There’s no need to talk nonsense to attract the attention of adults to brush the sense of existence.” Due to the lack of start-up capital and the fact that I was still a child, no one dared to believe me. My plan to get rich has been shelved until now, and a generation of the richest woman in the country has been buried. The more

I spoke, the angrier I became. Pointing at Hsiao Yi-wen, I said, “Do you think I’m miserable?”

They looked at me in ignorance and nodded in agreement.

As soon as I was excited, I decided to tell them about my business ambition. What if they were interested in buying shares? Then don’t I have the start-up capital?

After spitting for a long time, their eyes became more and more confused, and suddenly they squeezed their eyes at me desperately.

I had a premonition that something was wrong, and when I looked back, I saw a thin middle-aged man standing against the light at the door of the wine cellar.

Who don’t you know that this is Your Majesty’s wine cellar and that you can’t sneak into it? Report you, Ang. As soon as I finished roaring, I heard Xiao Yi and Wen Zhao kneel down behind me. “Father,” said

one. “Your Majesty,” said

one.

I

When the man approached, I was able to see his face clearly. He was beautiful, his eyes were sharp, and he was not angry. As soon as my legs gave way, I fell to my knees and immediately raised my head at an angle of 45 degrees, trying to look

as simple and lovely as possible. “Your Majesty,” I said with an ingratiating smile, “may I recite a poem for you?”. The

atmosphere is dignified to the extreme. Inside the

wine cellar, there was a table and a chair. Emperor Wu was sitting, and the three of us were standing in a row with our heads hanging down,

not daring to breathe.

Emperor Wudi Longmu glanced at the wine jars above the table one by one and opened his mouth. “You can drink well. Who drank

the most?”

I raised my hand shyly.

He looked at me and smiled. “Su Chih-jung, I’ve heard of you.”

My heart wants to finish, the designation is heard from the queen mother there, that old woman can have any good

words, or is the long princess. Just as

I was about to continue to behave, Emperor Wu changed the subject and pointed to one of the empty wine jars. “Did you drink this

, too?”

I nodded with a bad feeling. “Forget about anything else,”

he said. “This jar is a tribute from a foreign country. There’s only one jar left

. I’ve been hiding it for three years and I’m not willing to drink it. I’ll let you finish it all at once.” “This wine is worth three hundred gold,”

he said. “You pay for it.” I

I

I

Me: “Just three hundred gold?” “How about four hundred gold?”

He asked.

“No, Your Majesty, shouldn’t you have had me dragged out and cut down?” As soon as

the words came out, the atmosphere began to be strange again, and Xiao Yiwen looked at me like a ghost. “You’re right,” said

Emperor Wu. “Why don’t we drag you out and chop you down?” When I

saw that his expression was cold and not like a joke, I immediately panicked. “No, Your Majesty, I’m

just playing a joke on you. I still want to lose money. Four hundred gold is four hundred gold,

but I have no money at the moment. Can I owe it first?”

Emperor Wu laughed and patted me on the head. “All right, take these two little

fools and get out of here. I haven’t seen you today. Do you understand?”

“I understand.” I pulled Xiao Yi Wen Zhao with pleasure. “We haven’t seen Your

Majesty today either.” When he

reached the door, Emperor Wu suddenly said, “Xiao Yi.” The three of

us couldn’t help but stop, and Hsiao Yi said, “Father.”

“No haste, be patient. If I hear you say one more bad word, I’ll punish this little girl.”

I immediately put my tail between my legs again. What the hell does this have to do with me? How can I even sit at the same table.

Hsiao Yi looked at me sideways and said heavily, “Yes, I’ve written it down.” The moment I

walked out of the door, I looked back at Emperor Wu and saw him sitting there alone, staring blankly at a jar of new wine, looking lonely.

I suddenly felt sorry for him.

I think of my mother, who also waited for everyone to fall asleep that night and went to the porch to drink secretly and be herself for a while.

The world’s supreme wealth of the four seas, the original also have that many involuntarily, and can not get rid of the sorrow? After I

came out, I said to Hsiao Yi, “Actually, your father is a very nice man. I didn’t expect him to be such an emperor.”

“I don’t know,” says Hsiao Yi. “I see him only four or five times a year. I’ve seen him at family banquets from a distance, and I can’t even say a few words.”

I sigh.

I’m an orphan, and Hsiao Yi doesn’t have a father. One of the three, Wen Zhao, is happier. I put my arm around him. “I’m counting on you in the future. You heard me in the wine cellar just now. I’ve been blackmailed by Your Majesty for four hundred gold. When will you pay me back first?” Wen Zhaodao said, “Why don’t I pay back Your Majesty’s money for you?”

I stayed away from him. “No, it’s a huge sum of money like four hundred gold. I can only make a promise to you

, or I’m sure I won’t be able to pay it back.”

Wen Zhao’s eyes were shining brightly in the light of the palace lanterns, and most of them were joking. “Why

don’t you make a promise?”.

I laughed too. “Okay, wait till I get back to calculate the bride price.”

Wen Zhao: “You are really a miser.”

The speaker had no intention of listening, and we both laughed and laughed. We didn’t notice when Hsiao Yi’s face turned cold

. “I’ll go back first,” he said.

Walk without looking back.

Wen was at a loss. “What’s wrong with him?”

I looked at Xiao Yi’s back and seemed to understand something, but not very clearly.

Because I was in the school palace during the day, my so-called princess mother ordered me not to go to

school the next day, and I was punished to kneel down in front of the palace to reflect for a day.

In the morning, Su Zhiyun walked up to me with the stars holding the moon. She gave me a proud look and said,

“That’s right.”

“Let your brother fool around with you, and you will be punished, won’t you?”? The elder sister is still dead. What is your elder brother’s status? What is your status? He is also worthy of your attachment. I don’t want to talk to her because

her level is too low.

She tacitly admitted that I didn’t speak because I was afraid of her. “Today is the Flower Festival, and I only have a half-day class. In the afternoon, I’m going to go for an outing with my brother Wen to enjoy the flowers. It’s a pity that my sister can’t go.”

It’s already spring before you know it. After

Su Zhiyun left, I was in a trance.

Not always willing to have, since I came here, I was blindly pushed by fate, I can not do half of the master, God gave me the opportunity to be a man again, and arranged for me to be a loser.

I despise heaven.

In this grief and indignation, I ushered in my eighteenth birthday, and in a twinkling of an eye, it was another spring.

This year, many young masters and ladies in the school graduated and left, welcoming a group of younger ones.

Ordinarily I also reached the age of graduation, but Su Zhiyun did not, according to her words, do not put me in the field of vision, I took away her brother Wen, so I am not allowed to graduate first.

I answered on the surface and laughed in my heart. Do you still need me to hook your brother? He can’t remember how many times he dragged me to drink.

Who would have thought that Wen Zhaowen, the man of the hour in Kyoto, was a drunkard who was addicted to alcohol behind his back, and he was more and more able to drink. Now Xiao Yi and I can’t beat him together. Xiao Yi and I were still deskmates after the

beginning of school. Since he was knocked by Emperor Wu last year, he was afraid to sleep, but it did not prevent him from being undisciplined. When he was in class, he leaned on me and used me as a pillow, which was very natural.

I was writing a word, but he hit me, and the tip of the pen dragged out a long ink mark on the paper, which was naturally unacceptable.

“Hsiao Yi,” I peeked at the gentleman pacing with his hands behind his back. I gritted my teeth and whispered, “Do you want to die?”

After more than a year of getting along with each other, we spoke more and more unscrupulously. When no one was around, we dared to say anything. Under the influence of Wen Zhao and me, he was much more cheerful. In addition, the previous group of people had been threatened by me, and no one dared to trouble him.

And the new boys all worshipped him, especially his eyes.

This is also because I took advantage of public opinion to write an anonymous novel overnight about “a certain God coming down to earth to give birth to a prince and save the common people.” Wen Zhao sneaked into busy places like Fanlou and bribed several storytellers to explain it again and again. Although there is no name in the

book, the God who turns all living beings upside down is born with a pair of amber pupils.

This book is widely spread among the people, Xiao Yi’s image in the people quickly reversed, this group of cubs also heard, and young people love fantasy, so see Xiao Yi, simply regard him as an idol.

Especially the day before yesterday, when I had just arrived at the school and sat down, I saw a little girl from the Ministry of Rites Minister’s house holding a delicate snack box and blushing in front of Xiao Yi. She saluted, “Your Highness, this is a snack I made myself. Please try it.” Without

waiting for Xiao Yi to refuse, she had already walked quickly with her skirt.

Xiao Yi: “… …” With a frown,

he picked up the snack box and was about to throw it out of the window, when I snatched it away. “At least it’s the girl’s heart. It’s a shame to waste it. If you don’t eat it, I’ll eat it.” “You don’t like sweets, do you?”

He asked.

“You can’t waste that. This snack is very expensive at first sight.”

「……」 Recalling the

past and talking about the problem of my copybook being soiled, “Hsiao Yi, do you want to die?” In the face of my threat,

he smiled like a scoundrel, and the sky shrouded a good face like a knife and axe, with white face, thin lips and red, amber eyes, as if melting into broken gold. Fascinated by beauty,

I turned my head to calm the deer’s heart and decided to forgive him by looking at his face. To cover up my shameful shyness, I opened the textbook that my husband had just handed out.

It is a collection of poems, which requires reading and reciting the whole text.

I opened a page casually and saw a poem “Ode to Plum Blossom”.

“The person who wrote the poem was also very careless. In the phrase’folding plum blossoms and sending them to the north of the Yangtze River, ‘there is a

mistake in the word’fold.’ There is a point missing.” I said to Xiao Yi, and then filled in a little on the top.

Originally, my voice was not loud, but as soon as I said this, the whole audience was silent, no, dead.

I looked around blankly? This word.. It’s just that it’s written wrong, ah, and it’s not allowed to

say if it’s written wrong?

Xiao Yi covered my mouth directly and glanced at the window. I followed his eyes

and was startled. I don’t know when

Emperor Wu stood outside the window.

I How can king of

a country do what the head teacher likes to do.

Emperor Wudi would occasionally come to the Academy to inspect the princes’ schoolwork, but I didn’t see everyone so frightened. I was

wondering when he had already come in.

Everyone immediately knelt on the ground.

He beckoned to me, “Come here, that little girl of the Su family.” I steeled myself to get up and walk forward. I passed by Wen Zhao and looked at him subconsciously.

He shook his head at me deeply, which made me very confused. Su Zhiyun in front of

him was a gloating description.

I went to Emperor Wu and knelt down.

I saw him holding that collection of poems, turning to the page of “Ode to Plum Blossoms,” and snarling in front of me. There was no sign of joy or anger on his face

. “Do you have a problem with this poem?”.

I said truthfully, “I don’t have any opinions about the poem, but the word’fold ‘is really wrong

.”

He snorted, “How come you’re so sharp-eyed that no one else can see it?”

“How do I know that?” My belly is full of tears. “Everyone else..” Wait

I turned the book back to its cover and pointed to the author. “Your Majesty,” I said, “is that you, Congshuang Jushi

?”

I was right!

Point back can not blame society, now I understand why no one dares to pick the wrong, uncle who

dares to pick the fault of the emperor, then do not wait to lose their heads?

But I never dreamed that Emperor Wu could be so narcissistic that he published a collection of poems for people to recite. “All the scholars in the world know my name,” said

Emperor Wu. “Don’t say you don’t know.” I really do not know ah, I never read the back of the article, the number

of this number is not cold, but if I say I do not know, is not equal to the emperor in

the eyes, the same is a dead? With a sad face,

I wanted to cry and argued strongly, “Your Majesty, although you are the emperor, who stipulates that

the emperor will not write wrong words?”? There are times when people write wrong words, and you must not feel

guilty.. There was a sound of breathing

behind him.

I seem to have explained myself to a dead end.

I shut up. I.

When he saw Emperor Wu throwing his hands at me, he said, “Come with me. I won’t beat you.”

「……」

I slipped into the Imperial Study by Emperor Wu.

I knelt down consciously and began to look for which pillar was far away, which would help me perform later.

Emperor Wudi sat down in the middle of the throne and looked at me with an expressionless face for a while. Suddenly he

smiled kindly at me and said, “Get up. I won’t punish you.” I only wanted to hear the truth when I

called you here. Everyone knows that the word is wrong

, and I know it myself, but no one dares to say it. They would rather change the word’fold ‘in

the dictionary into a wrong one than remind me at the risk of condemnation. How sad

you say.

Inexplicably, I think of the king in The King’s New Clothes. Did

he know he was running naked? “What does Your Majesty want to hear?”

I sighed? First of all, I’m a girl who doesn’t know anything.

Emperor Wu nodded. “I won’t embarrass you. First question, do you think I’m good-looking?”

I

Your Majesty, are you serious?

I said sincerely, “Your Majesty is good-looking. He is a handsome man of middle age. He has style and connotation. You must have charmed many girls in Kyoto when you were young, right?”

I don’t know if it was my words that brought back his memories, but he looked at the floating sky with longing, and with a light in his eyes, he said, “That’s true.” It

is also immodest.

“The second question,” he said, “I’m over fifty years old, and my health is getting worse and worse. The ministers are all urging me to make a crown prince as soon as possible. You’ve been with the princes in the Academy for more than a year. In your opinion, who should I make a crown prince?”

「……」 If the first question is a warm-up test, the second question is killing me.

I knelt down and kowtowed. “Your Majesty, this question is a Taoist proposition in any TV series or novel. If you are angry that I have humiliated you in public today, you’d better drag me out and chop me down.”

“I am asking you with all my heart.”

I am also sincere. “I am a little girl, how can I deal with national affairs?”

Little Rong’er is self-deprecating, isn’t she? I can control the nine princes and the sons of the Wen family round

and round, and manage the children of the princes of all nationalities obediently, but the little woman doesn’t have this ability

. In fact, I have heard your father speak of you before.

Eh? Is it my father? I thought it was the queen. “Your father says you are different from other children,” said

Emperor Wu. “If you were a boy

, he would take you to the battlefield and train you to be a great general.” “Well,”

I said disdainfully, “he’s discriminating against me. Did Mulan join the army for her father?”

“He’s not. It’s because your mother has been wallowing with him in swords for countless times, and she’s covered

in old wounds. He doesn’t want you to be like your mother. He says that girls are not like boys, and that girls

are for spoiling.”

“Every time he goes to war, your mother is on tenterhooks. When he first became a general, he drank

with me and said the same thing. At that time, there was no you.” He

said that he could finally give his wife an explanation. Isn’t it for

the sake of the stability of the world that men fight in all directions? Don’t thousands of women like your mother in the land have to be on tenterhooks any more

? He wants to go home, heat up the Kang with his wife and children, and spoil your mother to death. My

nose was sore and I managed not to cry. “But he married the eldest

princess later. I won’t forgive him. Your Majesty, you don’t have to whitewash him.”

The long princess.. Alas.. Emperor Wudi sighed, “She was used to reaching out to get what she liked, no matter how good or bad it was. She never knew what giving was.”

At this point he said, “Little Rong, I know all about your family. Do you want to avenge your mother?” “Yes,”

I said, “but I can’t repay it. Don’t say that strength doesn’t allow it. Even if strength allows it, how can I repay it?”? Did I also take away the love of the long princess? She loved my father, and my father is dead.

“Besides, my father never loved her before he died. When she entered the Hou Mansion, she was like a widow. This was already the best punishment for her.”

“Oh, how?”

“Just look at the number of times my father has gone to war. Your Majesty knows best. In fact, Qi doesn’t have so many battles to fight. My father often doesn’t go home because he wants to avoid her. Otherwise, whose loving couple is willing to separate again and again?” “Yes,” said

Emperor Wu with a smile, “your father has come to ask for a decree, and I am tired of it. Little Rong’er is a sensible person, but there are things you don’t understand. The reason why your father accepted the marriage with Princess Chang is that Princess Chang and the Empress Dowager used some tricks in it.”

“You’re still young, so you don’t need to know the details. You just need to know that your father couldn’t help himself.”

This I have a vague guess, but I still do not want to forgive my father, there is still a way, fight, the original can also fight to the end. He didn’t. He chose to submit.

So I don’t forgive him.

“What about Su Chih-yun?” “Don’t you hate her?” Asked Emperor Wu? She robbed you of something that belonged to

you. As far as I know, she likes Wen Zhao very much. In two years, the Empress Dowager will probably

let me marry her to Wen Zhao. “Will Your Majesty grant the marriage?”

I asked.

“Do you want me to marry you?”

I thought about it and didn’t know how to answer. “Don’t you also like to listen to the photos?” He

asked.

I thought about it, also do not know how to answer, this time, the eyes suddenly emerged

the shadow of Xiao Yi, he smiled at me in the spring.

“Or do you like Xiao Jiu?” Wu Di Dao.

I

“Can’t you see that Xiao Jiu is interested in you?” Only then did

I realize that the emperor was the emperor, and I was afraid that our little minions could not

escape his sharp eyes. Instead of struggling,

I said bluntly, “I..” I haven’t thought about it.

I know Wen Zhao’s feelings for me, and of course I know Xiao Yi’s, but no matter which one of them I follow, I will be locked in a deep house or a deep palace.

Then I met a lot of “long princesses” and “Su Zhiyun,” and I struggled all my life, which was not what I wanted.

I am a selfish person, and I love freedom more than they two.

“But, Your Majesty, you’d better give some of your father’s love to Your Highness. Don’t let him be like me. Now I don’t know who to ask for some affection.”

After all.. Family love is very important to the healthy mental development of young people. When

Emperor Wu heard this, he patted the armrest of the throne and said, “You are young after all. You should know that being born in the royal family is not easy to speak of. Little Rong, you must learn to look at things and not just at the surface. Sometimes superficial alienation is just protection. Do you understand?”

I seem to understand.

He took a deep breath. “To tell you the truth, Xiao Jiu was not born with those eyes. They were poisoned in the womb.”

「……」

“I’ve had enough of this in my life, and I’m tired of seeing it. The water in the palace is deeper than you think.”

“You should know that the Empress Dowager is not my birth mother. My birth mother was like a cloud concubine. Later, the Empress Dowager had no children, so she took me into her own lap to raise me. Otherwise, I wouldn’t be sitting on the throne today.”

“Most members of the Empress Dowager’s family held high and important positions in the court, and the family’s power was deeply entrenched and could not be easily shaken.”

“When I first ascended the throne, I was no different from a puppet in their hands. Even though they have not been completely eliminated to this day, I have to be subject to them everywhere, even..” After a pause,

he lowered his eyes to hide his emotion, but his hand on the armrest of the Dragon Chair suddenly clenched, and his veins burst. “I can’t even protect my own beloved,” he said.

“From then on, I understood that everyone in the world had the freedom to stay with his sweetheart for life, but the emperor did not, because once the emperor sat on the throne, he was not himself.”

“He is the God of all people. He has to bury his true heart deep in his body. He can’t let others know his preferences. Preferences mean handles, weaknesses, opportunities, and will be watched by everyone.”

“When you play with a toy, you are afraid that you will lose your ambition, and if you put it on me, it will be magnified infinitely.”

“Once I show the slightest interest in a thing or person, he will immediately become the target of public criticism, and will be scrutinized and criticized by everyone. If I make a slight mistake, it will be beyond redemption.”

The emperor has the greatest power in the world, but it is used to protect the people of the world, but can not protect himself and the people around him. No

wonder he has a wine cellar hidden in a cold palace. Take off the dragon robe, he is also a person first. If

he didn’t really have no one to talk to, why would he talk to me, a little girl.

“From then on, I made up my mind that I would never let my descendants

repeat my mistakes. Xiao Jiu is really too much like me, so I can only snub

him on the surface.”

I nodded and understood.

Emperor Wudi leaned over and asked me, “I’ve confided in you to this extent, but can’t

I get a sincere word from you?”? Of all the princes, who do you think I should make crown prince?

I looked up at him. “I don’t know.”

But when I’m in a dilemma, I like to throw a ladle.. Throw a copper coin, look at the front and back, and give it to the will of heaven

.

Emperor Wu nodded his head thoughtfully. “Speaking of copper coins,” he said, “you still owe me four hundred gold coins.

When are you going to pay them back?”

I want to slap myself with a big mouth and ask for money. “It’s all right if you don’t return it,” said

Emperor Wu. “Tell me more about your ambitious plan. I

didn’t hear it all at the door of the wine cellar last year. If it’s feasible, I can give you another four hundred gold

as your..” The start-up capital.

Heaven and earth, have you finally opened your eyes?

My eyes filled with tears. “Are you short of money, Your Majesty?” Your Majesty was firm. “Who has a grudge against money?”

Then I spent an hour telling him about my plan to get rich. “Your Majesty

, do you know hot pot?”

Finally, I reached a consensus with Emperor Wu that he would be the shareholder behind me to provide me with financial and network

support, let me do it freely, and pay dividends at the end of the year.

But be sure to keep it a secret. He knows and I know. When

I look at him again, he is completely different. He is not your majesty. He is simply the savior,

the God of wealth.

I wish him good fortune and a long life.

I have another condition, “Your Majesty, if the eldest princess wants to marry me, I hope

you can help me stop it. I want to control my own happiness.”

“Don’t worry,” says the emperor, who has a high ability to learn. He

can use modern vocabulary after I say it once. “I don’t want to let a treasure girl like you go out. From tomorrow

on, I’ll come to accompany you after school, so that your sister won’t have to bother you every day.”

That didn’t sound right to me. I stepped back and looked at him cautiously.

No way. It

‘s not that bloody, is it? “Your Majesty,”

I said cautiously, “I know I’m beautiful and intelligent, but

at your age, you’re two years older than my father..” Emperor Wudi: “What are you thinking about day by day? You are so greedy for my body that I don’t want to do it. I want you to accompany me because I want you to serve the ink. You have to recite my poems more and read less.”

This time, I was willing to bow down and say, “Little Rong’er thanks Lord Long for his kindness.”

It was the happiest day of my life. I jumped out of the Imperial Study. At the corner

, Hsiao Yi-wen was waiting for me. When he saw me coming anxiously forward, he asked in unison, “Your Majesty didn’t embarrass you, did he?”

“No, no,” I announced, taking both of their arms, one on each side, “Your Majesty, he is the best, the best, Your Majesty in the world!”

The next day after school, I came to the Imperial Study with the planning book in my hand, to fulfill the duty of grinding ink to accompany the memorial to the throne, and by the way, to ask for money secretly. I don’t know how difficult it is to be an emperor

without accompanying you. I have a headache just looking at the folds piled up like hills, but Your Majesty has been doing this every day for half a lifetime.

I grinded the ink and stepped aside to do my homework. He said a few words to me from time to time, and occasionally asked me a few words about the unimportant things in the book to listen to my sincere words.

I couldn’t help thinking that if my father was still alive. This time passed very quickly, and when I came to my senses, the moon was already in the middle of the sky, and it was almost

time for me to retire.

Just as he was about to get up, a man came into the door.

“Hsiao Yi?”

Xiao Yi was surprised to see me, too. I hadn’t told him I was coming to Imperial Study. Of the three of

us, Emperor Wu was the calmest. After Xiao Yi had paid his respects, he pointed to a

table next to me and said to Xiao Yi, “Sit down. Where did I say the other day in the Imperial Policy?”

Then it was time for his father and son to answer each other fluently, and I was stunned.

So when Emperor Wudi asked me yesterday about the choice of the crown prince, was he testing me? He has already decided on Xiao

Yi?

Sure enough, you can’t look at the surface of the problem.

Later, when it was too late, Emperor Wu asked Hsiao Yi to take me back. “Little Rong, are you scared to death

?”

“Yeah, yeah, I’m scared to death.” I said. There was no one

around. Xiao Yi and I walked side by side on the moon. I said, “Well, you’ve cheated me

and Wen Zhao so much. Your Majesty has opened a small kitchen for you alone for many years, but you’ve kept it watertight.

We’re worried about you.” No wonder you’re so indifferent to being bullied. “That’s the same thing,” he said. “You really have the guts

to do business on the emperor’s head.” “It’s my father who won’t let me say,”

he said.

I said, “Your Majesty won’t let me.”

We were silent for a moment and smiled at each other.

Then I thought, “So now the only one who is kept in the dark is Wen Zhao. Shall

we find an opportunity to tell him?” “I’d rather not,”

said Hsiao Yi.

“It’s not that I’m afraid he’ll tell,” I said. “The main thing is that Wen Zhao is too decent

. You know, we’re doing so much work, and he’s not afraid of us

every day.”

“No,” Hsiao Yi stopped and looked at me. “Ah Rong, I want to have a secret with you that only

the two of us know.”

「……」 I looked at him. “Xiao Yi,”

I said, “it’s only a matter of time before Your Majesty makes you a reserve.” “Yes,”

he replied.

Without waiting for me to open my mouth, he added, “Even if I sit in that position, I can still not accept a concubine

or a talent show, and I will be a pair of people all my life.” “That’s what I’m afraid of. Hsiao Yi, do you know that when I do business, I want to be rich, but

I don’t want to be trapped. But if..”

“Stop it,” he interrupted, turning his back. “I know what you’re looking for, and

I don’t want to push you. You didn’t hear me.”

「…… Thank you, Hsiao Yi. Thank you

so much.

He took a deep breath, turned around and looked at me again with a smile in his eyes. “Come on,” he said as

usual. “I’ll take you back.”

“All right.”

“Hsiao Yi, do you think I’m selfish?”

No, everyone has the right to pursue the life they want. When I become emperor

, I’ll protect you. It’s up to you to go wherever you want in the world, and no one can stop you, okay

?

I nodded heavily. “Good!” For more than two years

in a row, I opened hotpot restaurants all over Kyoto, and by the way, I also engaged in some other

industries. Anyway, I had the backing of the emperor. I did everything smoothly and accumulated a lot of wealth

.

If we want to continue, we can only go out of Kyoto. I knew it was time.

On this day, I took advantage of Xiao Yi’s absence to bid farewell to Emperor Wu.

“I thought it was a good idea to keep you with me,” Emperor Wu sighed. “I wanted to train you as

a future empress.”

“I know.” How could

I not know that for two years I had accompanied him to see the ministers and listened to them talk about the government and the public, and

even the memorial to the throne had to be handled by me before he approved it.

My knowledge is growing, open-minded, vision is also more long-term, is no longer confined

to the long princess and Su Zhiyun in the dilemma of self-suffering, they can not embarrass me, even the

queen mother is often angry with me half to death but can not get my fault.

In the words of Emperor Wu, Xiao Rong’er is becoming more and more crafty.

Over the past two years, he has grown old fast, and his temples have gained a lot of white hair. “That’s all right,” he said. “I don’t

want to insist. It’s all right to go out and see for me what your father has laid down, and continue to fill my

small private treasury.”

I snorted, “Your Majesty, your private treasury is not small at all.”

He laughed. “I knew you thought I was exploiting you too much. All right, all right. The bonus will be fifty-fifty

from now on.”

“Your Majesty is happy! Your Majesty is bright! Long live Your Majesty!” As he was leaving Imperial Study, the emperor said, “go and see Wen Zhao before you leave. The Grand Maester has

come to complain to the emperor that he really can’t control his grandson. He has asked all the family laws to come out and

beaten him, but he won’t follow them.”

“What happened to him?”

“He refuses to become an official. He says he wants to leave home and be a carefree person. You can persuade him.”

「……」

Two years ago, Wen Zhao graduated and returned to Wen’s home, concentrating on preparing for the imperial examination. More than a month ago, there was no doubt that he had won

the first prize. When Xiao Yi and

I went to his house to congratulate him, he talked and laughed as usual without any difference.

Why do you take things so hard.

I went to the scholar’s house.

The servant said that the young master was reading the wind pavilion in the garden. I haven’t seen him for a

short month, but he has been greatly reduced. Sitting in the pavilion, his snowsuit is empty

in the wind, which makes me feel worried.

“Ah Yung, you’re here.” He looked calm and gave me a gentle smile.

I came straight to the point. “Are you doing this for me?”

“Yes and no,” he said. “Do you know that Your Majesty intends to marry the eldest daughter of the minister of the Ministry of Civil Affairs

?”

I nodded, Miss Zhang I also know, the future will be Xiao Yi’s right-hand man, will also be a good queen.

“Hsiao Yi told me that he had made it clear to you, and that you had rejected him two years ago. You want to be free, and I want you, so I am willing to give you freedom and accompany you wherever you want to go.” Holding my hand,

he said, “There are many ways to aspire to the country. You don’t have to be an official, but there’s only one Ah Rong in the world. If I miss her, I won’t be able to catch up in my life.”

“Ah Rong, I’m not saying this to force you. You can still be yourself. So if you don’t want to, don’t compromise. I’ll do whatever I want.”

“I do.” I took his hand. “Believe it or not, I have a thousand ideas about the rest of my life, and every one of them includes you.”

“I’m afraid I’m not as good as you. Will you marry me?”

His eyes turned red, and he looked at me with a tearful smile. He stood up and gently hugged me. “Ah Rong, I’ve been waiting five years for you to say that.”

Your Majesty married Wen Zhao and me. The two of

us stuck together every day, talking about the details of the wedding and discussing which beautiful place to wander after marriage. In the end,

I could not avoid vulgarity. Like all the women in the world, I began to look forward to a good home for myself. Wen Zhao is a good home for me.

One day, I talked to Wen Zhao imperceptibly late, and when I returned to the palace to Bower of Crimson Snow, it

was already dark, and suddenly a man bumped into me.

Su Zhiyun saw clearly that it was me, gave me a hard look, and continued to run away crying.

The long princess followed her out and stopped at my side, looking at me with cold eyes, as

if she was going to eat me alive.

“This is retribution,” I said before her. “You took my father’s retribution from my mother

eighteen years ago.”

“So you snatched Wenzhao from Yuner?”

“Is it that in your eyes there is only robbery and no robbery, and there has never been such a

thing as exchanging sincerity for sincerity?” I smiled coldly. “I don’t need to grab the photo. He doesn’t like Su Chih-yun

at all.”

“It’s dark and the road is slippery. Mother walks slowly, and I’m still busy trying on my wedding dress, so I won’t accompany

her.”

“Su Zhirong, don’t be complacent too early,” she snapped behind me. “You haven’t

entered Wen’s house yet, have you?!”

I don’t want to have the same experience as her.

But after all, I overestimated their mother and daughter, and I thought they should not be so shameless. That day I went to pay the bill to Your Majesty and came back. Before I entered the Bower of Crimson Snow, I heard a

lot of noise inside. In

my bedroom, the queen mother and princess gathered together, the bedding on the bed was messy, Su Zhiyun sat there crying around the quilt

, you can see that she was wearing nothing.

Wen Zhao stood beside him, his eyes sobbing with blood, and his body still showing signs of what had happened.

He just looked at me and said, “Ah Rong, I’m here to see you today.”

I chuckled.

“Is that what you used to do to my father?” “I admire you, I admire you,” I said

to the queen mother and the eldest princess.

“Su Zhiyun, you win, I quit.”

“You are so stupid that I want to laugh.” I said. It was three days later that

Xiao Yi knew about this. He was very

busy preparing for the canonization recently.

“Ah Yung, do you need..”

“No need.”

He looked at me in disbelief. “Can you swallow that?” “Or what?” I looked up at him from between my knees. “What if you want to smell it

?”

“You and I both know what kind of temper he has. For the sake of me, he can put

down the position of the gentry’s children, and he can say no to a good future. If I insist on asking for an explanation,

do you think he won’t give it to me?”

“But Hsiao Yi, I can’t. I’ll drive him to death.”

“I will drive him to death.”

Xiao Yi’s eyes quivered and he looked at me for a long time. He held out his hand to me and hugged me

at a distance. He stroked my head and said, “Cry, Ah Rong, have a good cry. I’ll always

stand behind you.” When it rained in the

evening, I packed myself up and went out to see Wen Zhao, who had been waiting for a long time.

Five years ago, when I first met him, it also rained. Probably God could not see that he and I were

well. At the beginning and at the end, one of us was always in a mess and had nowhere to hide.

It’s either me or him.

I held the umbrella over his head, just as he had held it over mine five years ago. There is no color on

his face.

“Go!” He grabbed my hand with his withered claws and used all his strength. “Ah

Rong, I’ll take you away.”

“You marry Su Chih-yun, Wen Zhao.” I said. He stopped short.

“She can’t marry anyone but you.” People in this day and age put a woman’s innocence

before her life. “Besides, if you don’t marry her, the Empress Dowager definitely won’t allow it.”

“If we leave like this, what will happen to your grandfather, your parents, your family, and your future

?” “You don’t have to worry about any of this,”

he said in a dumb voice. “Just say if you want to come with me.”

“The wedding is ready-made. According to the photos, you look good in that wedding dress. It suits you very well. Just

don’t lose any more weight.”

“Ah Yung..” Let it be

, shall we? Your marriage to Su Chi-yun is the last thing I ask you to do

for me. With

that, I turned around.

I lost my umbrella and let the rain drench me so that he wouldn’t find me crying.

Wen Zhao called me again and again behind me, “Su Zhirong, I hate you, do you have to live

so sober?”? I hate you..

I just thought I didn’t hear it.

Once upon a time, someone held my hand. She said, Ah Rong, when you grow up, you can find an ordinary person. It doesn’t matter if you are weak or poor

. The important thing is that you love him wholeheartedly, and he loves you wholeheartedly. You two have enough

food and clothing, and you can live a safe and secure life day and night.

If you can, who wouldn’t want to live a safe life day and night. On May 11, the thirty-fourth year

of Zhaowu, I was twenty years old, rich and alone.

Three months later, Wen Zhao and Su Zhiyun held a grand wedding ceremony. From then on, I intentionally

or unintentionally avoided Wen Zhao.

I stayed in Kyoto, collecting money crazily, and became a money-making machine without feelings.

The next year, on the eve of Xiao Yi’s canonization and wedding, a plague broke everyone’s peaceful life

.

For a time, people were in a panic and everyone felt insecure. There are also a lot of people in the

palace were infected, in addition to those maid Chamberlain, there is also a long princess

.

And Xiao Yi. The gate of

the Weiyang Palace was closed, and they did not allow me to enter, saying that I was only allowed to visit at the gate of the palace by the order

of the prince.

I climbed the window of Xiao Yi’s bedroom late at night. Xiao Yi on the

hospital bed, the whole body festers to do not have a good skin, they have not given him a mirror for a long time. As soon as

he saw me, he was furious, but he didn’t even have the strength to get up and pat me on the head.

“Su Chih-jung, are you tired of living? Don’t you know this disease is contagious? Get out!”

I held him tightly in my arms. “Xiao Yi, you bastard,”

I said. “Hurry up and get better. I’m still waiting for you to be the emperor. You promised me that you could bully me.”

“I’m not leaving. I’m not going anywhere. I’ll stay with you until you get better. I’ll be your queen, and I’ll let Wen Zhao be your prime minister. The three of us are still the same as before. We’re the three swordsmen of Kyoto. We’re still secretly climbing to the roof to drink, okay?”

“As long as you get better, as long as you get better.”

“What a stupid name! Actually, you don’t know. Wen Zhao and I have secretly disliked this name many times.” He’s weak.

I smiled through tears.

Ah Yung, can you.. Say you like me. “I’ve been in love with you for so long,” he said. “I’ve been saying I like you. Can you say it to me once? Just once. As long as you say it, I’ll get better.”

“I like you, I like you,” I immediately said, “Xiao Yi, I like you, I love you..” He smiled happily, looked at me reluctantly, and whispered, “Ah Rong, if there is..” If

there is an afterlife..

He died in my arms.

Those beautiful amber eyes will never open again. It was Emperor Wu who suffered the most from

Xiao Yi’s death.

He had been sick on and off after the New Year, lingering on his bed for many days. At first, he could barely

support himself. As soon as Xiao Yi died, he fell down completely.

I’m so afraid of life and death.

They said that when Your Majesty summoned me, I dared not go.

He was lying there with his bones broken and his face withered, and he looked like something I didn’t know.

Only his eyes were as bright as yesterday. “Little Rong, you’ve finally come to see me.”

He sat up and pointed to a low stool beside the bed for me to sit on. Then he pushed everyone

out. “I haven’t talked to Little Rong alone for a long time.”

I held his withered hand and forced a smile. “What does Your Majesty want to say to Little Rong?”

“I want to ask you the same question I asked you before.” He looked me in the eye. “You

have to answer it seriously this time.” “In your opinion, after Xiao Jiu, who am I to make crown prince?”

“Your Majesty..”

He held my hand and wouldn’t let me kneel. “Don’t worry, take your time.” With a sly smile and a childish expression between his eyebrows,

he said, “Those ministers have been fighting for

the crown prince every day. If they knew that the crown prince was

chosen casually by a little girl, they would have a crooked nose. It’s time to blame me for being capricious.”

“I don’t care about them, but I just want to be self-willed. Little Rong’er, have you thought about

it?”

“When you’re ready, take out the imperial edict from under my pillow.”

I took out the imperial edict, spread it out in front of him, dipped it in pen and ink, and handed it to him. “Your

Majesty, I have decided. I will choose the seventh prince, Xiao Heng.”

“Let me hear the reason.”

“Although the seven princes didn’t have the power to command a lofty position, they were honest, honest, and pure in nature. They couldn’t be emperors who could open up

territory. It was enough for them to be emperors who could guard the country and keep the country stable.”

“Very good.” He put pen to paper on the imperial edict and clenched my hand a little tighter. “Little Rong

, do you know what I mean by asking you this question?”

“I know.”

I took another blank imperial edict and knelt down in front of him. Holding the imperial edict above my head, I said in a deep voice

, “I dare to ask Your Majesty to marry my daughter and the seven princes, Xiao Heng. My daughter will surely assist the seven princes to protect the hundred-year inheritance of Qi. If one is prosperous, all will be prosperous, and if one is damaged, all will be damaged.”

“Good boy!” Emperor Wu was stunned and burst into tears. “Little Rong’er, you are really a good boy. You have suffered

a lot.”

I shook my head and said, “It’s not bitter. In fact, I have no place to go. Your Majesty, I have nothing

. I am so poor now that I have only money left.”

“You, you, my wine cellar, I’ll give it to you.”

“Thank the Lord for his kindness.”

He waved to me as if he were relieved. “All right, go ahead. Let me have a good rest

.”

“I’m going to see Cong Shuang, Xiao Rong’er. Do you think I’m still handsome?”

I wiped away the tears on my face and said with a smile, “Your Majesty, you are so handsome. I must have

been dazzled by your beautiful face when I saw you from the frost. I thought to myself, whose little brother is this? I won’t

marry him.”

“That’s good, that’s good,” he said with a happy smile. “I’m still afraid that if I’m old, she

‘ll dislike me and abandon me. Do you know, that year..”

I tucked him in, turned and walked out.

That year, the forest was full of flowers, and all the people who went out were looking at the flowers. I don’t know how he could see the right eye

with her. A

young prince, a simple girl. Her name was Cong Shuang, and his name was Cong Shuang Jushi. He wrote a lot of sour poems to her every day until she

couldn’t stand it and promised to marry him and teach him to write poems.

Long lovesickness, long lovesickness, if you ask how long lovesickness, unless you meet.

Long lovesickness, long lovesickness, want to say lovesickness like who, shallow lover do not know. The mistake

is that you shouldn’t be born in this cage, which traps everyone’s life.

Emperor Wudi died, and the seventh prince, Xiao Heng, succeeded to the throne with the name of Wen. He talked to me all night before

he ascended the throne. Among

us was the decree of Emperor Wu to grant marriage. “I may never like you for the rest of my life,”

he said.

I said, “It doesn’t matter. I just want to be the queen.” “I may never touch you,”

he said.

I said, “It doesn’t matter. I just want to be the queen.”

“I may have a lot of concubines in the future.”

“It doesn’t matter. I just want to be queen.”

“Then why did you..” “I’ve earned enough money,” I said. “I’m in a hurry.”

He got up and left. Before he

left, he turned his back to me and said, “Well, as long as I live, I guarantee that the throne will be

yours. I will give you the right to rule the six palaces, grant you the right to rule the world, let you participate in politics, or

whatever else you want.”

“Miss Su, I know you like Jiu Di, and I know how

I got this throne. You’re a poor man. I won’t be harsh

on you except that I can’t give you like.” “Thank you, Your Majesty,”

I said. On the second day of the fourth month of the first year of Emperor

Wen, when I was twenty-two years old, I ascended the throne, holding the phoenix seal and owning half

of the country.

In the middle of the night, I often see many people. In the second year of the reign of Emperor

Wen, I personally came to Wen Mansion with an imperial edict to seal the prime minister. I gave Wen Zhao a big gift and

asked him to come out of the mountains to assist the government. I haven’t seen you for

two or three years. I look at you, as if I have a lot to say, and as if I don’t have to say anything

.

He solemnly took the imperial edict from my hand and kowtowed, saying, “I accept the edict and thank you.” He stopped me as

I turned to leave.

Or the old name, he called a Rong. “How are you these days?” I

turned around and laughed. “Pretty good,” I said.

“I’m not getting any thinner.”

“I can see that.” I said. What happened after

I left was that Miaolan helped me to inquire about it later. I heard that Wen Zhao

broke down in tears after I left. When his

family asked him what was wrong, he said he remembered that he still owed me a lot of money. In the winter of the fifth year of Emperor

Wen, I went out to paint my mother’s memorial tablet in the suburbs of Beijing and met a little girl crying helplessly on the roadside with the ashes of her relatives

.

He looks like a teenager. It’s

like me in those days.

But at that time I was helped by a young man who gave me a handkerchief and

took off his clothes in the cold.

I took in the little girl, named her Miaolan, and asked her if she was interested

in sudden wealth. In the sixth year of Emperor

Wen, Xiao Heng’s eldest son was born and named Xiao Yi. Of course, I didn’t give birth to it, but one of his concubines gave birth to it. He probably went to the palace to accept the concubines one after another in order not to make me lonely

.

I don’t usually get involved.

Xiao Yi’s mother and concubine are not in good health. Xiao Heng asked me if I would like to take care of her. In the

winter of the following year, Su Zhiyun was seriously ill and wanted to see me before she died.

When I went in to see her, the first thing she said was, “Su Chih-jung, I hate

you.”

“But I envy you, too,” she continued. “I envy you for being able to laugh and eat without restraint

, and if I show a few more teeth, my mother will smack me on the palm of my hand and say that I don

‘t look like a lady.”

“I envy you that you can run into Daddy’s arms and put your arms around his neck for him to hold.”

“He never hugged me.”

I envy that you can be like those servants, holding arms and showing legs,

fishing for lotus pods and picking lotus leaves in the summer. Not like me, who can only watch from a distance no matter how greedy his eyes are.

“Why can you be so happy?”

“When I was peeking at you from a distance, I wanted you to call me, even just once

, and ask me to come down and play with me. I could call you sister with all my heart, and

I wouldn’t bully you anymore.”

For a moment, there was only her low sobs in the room. I had nothing to say. The tragedy was caused by herself, and I could do nothing about it. There was only one thing

I didn’t understand. I asked, “The grudges between adults belong to adults. By rights, you shouldn’t hate me so much. Why do you hate me so much?”

“I don’t know. I’ve been under the influence of my mother since I was a child, and I thought my father never came back because your mother and daughter were in the house, which made him hate the family, so I hated you even more.”

“I don’t know how to get it or how to express my love except by means. I like it so much. I like it so much.”

She looked at me deeply. “Sister, I know I’m wrong. Wen Zhao has never slept with me since he married me. Can you feel happier after hearing this? You can..” Forgive me?

I stood up and said, “No.” “My dear sister,”

I said, “I will never see you again.” I walked out the door

to meet her crying. The wind is very strong

outside, and the cold is biting.

I laughed and cried. When I

first came here, I thought I was invincible in the world. I wanted to turn my hands into clouds and turn my hands into rain. I wished I could shout trembling in the street. The ancients, your big lady is coming! When I

was a teenager, I lived under the hands of Su Zhiyun’s mother and daughter, thinking that it was the most difficult day in my life, but it was not.

I do not know that longer suffering is still waiting for me, after all, like the people here, I return to the ordinary, submerged in the ordinary, passively accept the gifts and ravages of fate, in the face of disease, natural disasters, people’s calculation, I am powerless.

My only advantage is that my life is longer than theirs. People who hate me, people I hate, people who love me, people I love, I sent them away one by one.

Those happy, painful memories of the past, leaving me alone.

And then a lifetime goes by.

I don’t know if the men of the Xiao family had a short life. Xiao Heng died in the prime of life. Xiao Yi succeeded to the throne, and I became the queen mother.

Hsiao Heng and I have been married all our lives. Before we died, we took Hsiao Yi by the hand and told him, “Your mother has lived too hard. You must be filial to her.”

The younger generation do not understand, I am a rich old lady who wants wind and rain, happy all day, where is bitter, only when Xiao Heng is ill and confused.

Xiao Yi, the mother of this child, died early. She was raised by me when I was young. She was filial to me. Every day, she came to my palace to accompany me to play mahjong and fight landlords. She went out and worked hard as his emperor. He held a lavish birthday party for me

on every birthday until I was sixty-four years old. 19

Qing’an Hall. Wen Zhao and

I looked at each other from a distance and then sat down.

After a while, I saw him leave the table quietly, so I quickly made an excuse to leave. He winked at me

just now, and I felt that the little brother wanted to do something.

I left everyone and went to the side hall of the cold palace alone.

He was waiting for me in the wine cellar.

“Quick, quick, quick, help me.” I came all the way to unwrap my hair and finally managed to wrap it

into a bird’s nest. With a smile,

Wen Chao came up to help. “You’ve been like this for years. There’s really nothing

I can do about it.”

I laughed, too. “It’s a good thing it’s here. If they had seen it outside, it would have been a great thing

. When the queen mother had a tryst, when the prime minister had his hair removed, tut!”

As he spoke, he remembered that I was now a grandmother in her sixties, and I was afraid that people would say

nothing. We were both out of breath after

a lot of tossing and turning, and this old bone really couldn’t get high.

I asked Wen Zhao, “Why did you call me here?” He nodded. “Ah Rong, I’m going to retire.”

“Oh.” It’s really time to retire when you are old.

Since Su Zhiyun left, Wen Zhao never married, and now his house is full of followers and orphans he adopted

.

I couldn’t help saying, “Then what? Where will you go after you retire?”

He smiled and said, “Go home and grow flowers and grass and walk the birds. Aren’t all the

old men in Kyoto who have nothing to do like this?”

I nodded. “It suits you.”

Then we had nothing to say for a long time, and even Wen Zhao wanted to say goodbye to me, I thought softly.

To cover up my disappointment, I had nothing to say. “I didn’t expect that at the end of my life there would be only the two of us

. It seems like it was only yesterday that we and Hsiao Yi were stealing wine here, and so was Your

Majesty.”

He knew which Majesty I was talking about, nodded, and

leaned lazily on the wine jar like me, squinting his eyes and not knowing what he was thinking. “Ah Rong,”

he said, “there are some things I’ve been hiding all my life. If I don’t say anything, I’m afraid

I’ll never have a chance to say them again.”

Do you remember the second time we met when we were young? After the snow, everything was white, and you were the only one dressed in

red, dazzling and eye-catching, but your expression was so sad that people wanted to give you all the best things in the world

to make you laugh. “You asked me for the remaining seventy taels of silver. In fact, I had enough money that day. I don

‘t know why I didn’t want to pay it back. I wish you would ask me for a lifetime of debt, so that

I could pay you for the rest of my life.”

At this point, he didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. Who would have thought that when you were leaving that day, you would offer to worship me

and say that I was stupid and had a lot of money. I’ve never seen you tell the truth so much.

I didn’t know he had such an idea at that time. It seems that I am the one who is stupid.

I remembered the jade pendant and the red coat that I had pressed at the bottom of the box, and it was time to return them.

I blushed and said, “Oh, it’s all over. Why are you talking about this?”

“Yes, it’s over.”

“Ah Rong, I will never regret meeting you in my life.”

“Me too, and Hsiao Yi.” I said.

Tired guest is now old, the old days are not spring, how many times did not pass by the lake. Look at the drunken flowers in the south

road, and sing in Ma Cuilou.

I thought life was short, but in fact it was very long.

(Author: Capricorn Fish)